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redamancyys · 1 year

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Three Moments - Kaz Brekker

SUMMARY ◆ Three moments in which Kaz shows his love for you.

WARNING(S) ◆ fluff, implied smut, unedited, me word vomiting.

WORDS ◆ 2k

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You were certain that you were always meant to burn together. To love him was to love the hot embers of a forest fire, pressing your hands farther and farther into the flames no matter how much your body screamed to let go. It was all consuming, a love that suffocated you like smoke and left you burning for days. He was always burning, and sometimes you wondered if you just got caught up in the flames. Heartstrings woven together, not sure if you were the anchor or he was . . . Saints, who were you kidding? He definitely was not the anchor.

It took him a long time to understand that he needed you.

He was the bastard of the Barrel, unafraid of getting his hands dirty because he hid under a pair of gloves. On his worst days when he came home, they were caked with dirt, dust, and blood. It wasn’t his blood, he rarely had a cut on him. Most of the times when you stayed up until he returned, he would glance in your direction, give you a small nod, and make his way up to his room at the tallest point in the Slat. The next morning he never acknowledged it. His hair was slicked back, porcelain skin perfectly clean on his face and his gloves were as well. Fine, black leather worn down on the fingertips in the same places he gripped his cane. You wondered why he never let even those closest to him see him in any way disheveled. You didn’t understand the danger of looking weak the way he did. It wasn’t your fault, no one had ever understood what he had been through. Not that they ever could know anyway.

One night you were awake once again, making an excuse that you couldn’t sleep and had to make tea, though many knew that you stayed up until all members of the Crows were back home. You sat in the corner, a favorite book in hand and sipping on some mix of tea when you heard the door open and you thought for a moment your eyes were playing tricks on you. Because there he stood, cuts on his face and parts of his shirt ripped off at the arms. He was beaten, bloody, unlike anything you had ever seen before. He stood there, looking at you, watching as you took another sip and waited for him to go up the stairs like he always did. But this time he kept standing there, watching, as if he was waiting for your attention. He glanced over at the box on the table where you all kept bandages, and then back at you.

Soon enough you were both sitting at the table, you were reaching for the tiny bottle of alcohol and white wrap up bandages.

“Who was it this time?” You asked, dumping a cloth in a water bowl to clean his wounds. He looked at you, as if to say, it doesn’t matter. Though you kept pressing on, your eyes peered into his coffee brown ones, eyebrow popping up in question. “I waited up for you, which means you can’t keep any secrets from me, Kaz Brekker.”

His name seemed to pop him out of his thoughts, pushing him back to reality in which he was there, sitting with you, rather than in the future thinking about plans or in the past pondering about the people he’s lost. Kaz glanced down at his gloved hands and then turned his attention back to you, watching your face carefully.

“Someone didn’t pay me back for a favor,” He said. “It wasn’t an easy confrontation but it’s over now.”

That was all you needed. You knew it was all you would get right now. Empty words were his forte that no matter how long you spent trying to read in between the lines of his metaphors and hyperboles, you were left feeling more confused than how you began. It took you so long to understand that it wasn’t about what he said, it was what he did. He never told any of the members of his crew how much they mattered to him, how important it was that they stuck around. In fact, sometimes you wondered if anyone mattered to Kaz Brekker, or if he was destined to keep himself alone, closed off, coldhearted.

Your hand with the towel came up to his face and he flinched, making you falter for a single second. You waited for him to say something, but it never did, and you finished your motion by slowly wiping away the dried blood from the cut on his face. It wasn’t deep, it wouldn’t scar, and for some reason that made you glad. He would still look pristine in the morning, with a little help from you. You wondered if this is what he did alone in his room when he came back, healed wounds that never saw the light of day. Some part of you wished that he would show this side of him more often, the one that was vulnerable. Both of you stayed silent while you wiped the blood away and bandaged up your arm, though soon enough he was on his way back to his room, leaving you downstairs.

You two took care of each other. It took until a heist went wrong that you saw that for sure. Too many things were against the group that day. Jesper’s guns stopped working when he had to take a critical shot, Nina was almost taken hostage . . . You yourself had suffered a striking blow to the stomach, becoming winded and almost passing out from lack of oxygen. Everyone ran away, knowing to meet up later at the Crow Club when they got the opportunity. You ran into an alley, head spinning, gasping for air as you leaned against a wall. Men ran past, most likely looking for you and your partners, though were not smart enough to look down the dark alley to their right. You could barely walk, knowing that several of your ribs had to be broken.

“You need to keep moving,” A voice spoke from behind, startling you enough to grab the gun from your belt and aim it in the direction of the voice. Your eyes caught up with your target and realized it was Kaz, able to sneak up on you because he was without his cane for the blown heist. “Guards are looking all over for us.”

You huffed, shaking your head. You couldn’t do it. All you wanted to do was lay there until you got better, not caring about the dirt and grime on the ground. When you tried to walk it felt like someone was stabbing you in the lungs, you stumbled a little and would’ve fallen if Kaz’s hands hadn’t grabbed you and kept you upright.

Your vision was spotty as you both stumbled out of the alley, slowly making your way back. “I can’t do this,” You said, tears welling up in your eyes. “It hurts so much, Kaz, it hurts.” You were rarely this emotive, you were the glue of the group, keeping everyone together even through the toughest of times. Everyone always came to you, you’re the strongest one of them all. Every single second you wondered if your caved in ribs would puncture one of your organs and this would be your last day. Your last time with the people you cared so much about. The world was spinning, but Kaz’s arms and touch brought you back to reality, and soon enough you were within feet of the Crow Club and you collapsed, letting the darkness consume your mind.

It was a few hours before you woke up in your room, opening your eyes to the soft glow of a candle near your bed. The softness of your blanket gave comfort, though the moment of relief that you were alive seemed to wash away as the pain came back to reality, a bandage wrapped around your torso that impeded your motion.

For the next couple of days you were in and out of consciousness, Inej came to visit you a lot in order to give you food and some company, sometimes Jesper would tell you about his day and about Wylan. But still no sign of Kaz. You hadn’t seen him since he had brought you back to safety. At first you thought nothing of it, though the idea that he was avoiding you began to boil and fester, leading you to question Jesper the next time he arrived in your room with tea in hand.

“I understand that comfort isn’t his thing, but I thought that Kaz would at least come and visit once,” You stated to Jesper, sucking in your bottom lip whilst moving to sit up, minding the tiny pain in your chest.

Jesper’s eyes widened, shaking his head a tiny bit in a way that made you think he was hiding something from you. You gave him a puzzled look, urging him to speak his thoughts to you.

“He’s been sitting outside of your door every chance he gets. I thought you knew.”

His kisses were soft despite his tough exterior, but they were not without intention. Every time his lips made contact with a piece of your skin you could feel his want, his desire, like he couldn’t get enough of you no matter how hard he tried. It was like you were his church and he was on his knees, praying for forgiveness for his sins, praying to your body that he worshipped unlike all the faceless saints in the world. Your hands collided with his hair, intertwining the soft locks of dark brown and pulling on it, pulling him closer.

He would only kiss you in the confines of the Crow Club, where others couldn’t see. It bothered you at first, wondering if he didn’t want others to see that underneath all the cold and hard exterior he put towards the world: Dirtyhands could love. But that was just the thing, he didn’t want any of his enemies to come for you like he knew that they would. He didn’t want to put you in the face of danger anymore than you already did for him on a daily basis. To love him was to have a target on your back.

At this point you knew of his aversion to touch, how his brother died, how it pained him to feel the skin of another upon his own. Instead of pulling away from his scars like he thought you would, you brought him closer, vowing that you understood, that you were sorry, that you would do whatever you could to make him feel better. Kaz thought for so long that he was a monster, and that may be true, but you weren’t a child, you weren’t afraid of the darkness that he had enveloped himself in for so long. You were willing to love him for who he was, no matter how much he tried to hide you from his truths.

He could handle your kisses, finding solace in your mouth, the way it tasted like warm tea and the softness of your lips. And he accepted your small touches, starting slowly with tracing your fingers across his skin. You felt along his veins, taking extra care with his scars, pressing a kiss on the ones that looked particularly new. His gloves would come off and he would do the same to you. Eventually more clothes came off, more skin against skin. He found solace again in your tiny sighs and moans that left your lips when he kissed there and there . . . and especially there. Neither of you had ever surrendered yourself to another person in this way, it was intimate and sent you both over the moon. It was just you both, alone in either of your rooms, loving each other no matter what.

After both of you would lay in one another's arms, the glow of the candlelight enveloping both of your bodies. There wasn’t much talking, maybe some if there was something particularly on either of your minds. You idly traced patterns on his skin, comforting him when he flinched, reminding him that you were there. He would be okay.

#kaz brekker #kaz brekker x reader #kaz brekker fanfiction #kaz brekker smut #kaz brekker angst #kaz brekker fic #six of crows #the crows #shadow and bone #shadow and bone fanfiction #six of crows fanfic #six of crows fanfiction #netflix shadow and bone #grishaverse #grishaverse fanfiction #kaz fanfiction #jesper fahley #soc inej

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anulithots · 2 months

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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

I haven't been asked this question before, so thank you for asking!

I'm not sure if I'm going to run over ten, so I'll include duos/dynamics as well. (That was a mistake.. this is soo longggg. Thank you so much for asking but I don't think you knew what you were getting into. /pos.)

(In no particular order.... and I've written a lot about most of these characters, sorry if it's a bit long <3 )

Just a note that my JJK analysis's are up to the Hidden Inventory arc. I keep rereading that one to avoid the pain of the Shibuya arc... but I should be on my last reread for now!

Character quick list:

Donnie and Mikey from Rise,

Teacher and Shiva from The Girl from the Other SIde,

Itadori yuji, Megumi Fushiguro, and Nobara Kugisaki from Jujutsu Kaisen,

Satoru Gojo and Suguru Geto from Jujutsu Kaisen

Inej Ghafa and Jesper Fahley (sorry if I spelled thier names wrong!) from Six of Crows

Emma, Norman and Ray from The Promised Neverland

And I really liked Roz from the Wild Robot, and The Magnus Chase series, but It's been a while since I've read them. Currently reading 'A tale for the Time Being' and I like Nao's deep thoughts and unabashed honesty. She's also quite dark and casual about dark themes, and it does feel like how my brain used to be... dark stuff is casual there.

I do like Katniss Everdeen from the Hunger Games. I watched the movies but have not read the books yet, and I want to before I start analyzing. I also want to read Sherlock Holmes so... yea.

#1: Donnie and Mikey from Rise of the Teenage mutant ninja turtles

Donnie is literally me. From the way he pronounces random words from his theater kid energy to his obsession with science. (I don't like physics but I'm writing a fanfiction on biology soooo....) I have a need to be useful otherwise I'm wasted space (because the information is more useful and important than the individual), go on infodumps for hours, get irritated and defensive easily and overall, I've never related to a character more. I just don't have the same empathy levels. For that I share traits with Mikey. I like being overly nice and trying to listen and make everyone feel heard. I also get very emotional very fast and constantly need hugs.

Also his relationship with Mikey reminds me of two of my siblings.

Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles took me out of a depressive period with the most intense hyperfixation I've ever had, and it's the first time I've read fanfiction (Like father like son..... sobs)

#2: Teacher and Shiva from the Girl from the Other Side.

They have the most wholesome found family relationship ever. The pain they give me is insurmountable. Every time I reread the manga I have the widest, dopiest smile because the wholesome scenes are so so so pure. I don't see a lot of stories that let the mundane be that special.

Also the way Shiva's written is just.. chefs kiss. Because she isn't written as an annoying child. She thinks she's being helpful, and she is helpful. All she wants is to keep everyone together, and for everyone to be happy, and the thing she hates the most is people hating her/being scared of her.... and the guilt. The most depth-filled child character in existence here.

And teacher... Just... *screams*. His overthinking and endlessly caring demeanor. The way he second guesses everything he does and worries so much that he gets worried about worrying. He's also quite hard on himself.

And I think they are supposed to represent the two sides of loving others. Shiva is the 'they make me happy and I can help them' part. The wholesome, childlike side.

Teacher is the worrying side. The side that tries so hard to protect the others that their anxiety drives them crazy.

(I got up to the second delux edition.)

#3 The Tokyo Trio (Itadori, Fushiguro, and Nobara) from Jujutsu Kaisen. (my most recent hyperfixation.)

Itadori: His fear of regretting his life, using a role to avoid that, making sure not to think about his execution or his death too much. Him trying so hard to help others in a way only he can do. Using 'dying a natural death' to justify to himself that he's okay with this (he isn't). Fearing death that he doesn't have control over. Structuring his life around caring for others. The sweetest bean here.

Fushiguro: HIs morrallittyyyyy. The way he needs to be the one to deliver fairness because the world isn't fair to him. The way he thinks bad people shouldn't be saved, that they deserve retribution, and that good people will let themselves suffer because they are good. So Fushiguro is going to protect good people as much as he can (see Itadori.) Itadori and Fushiguro's morality struggle is sooo interestingggggg aaaa-

Nobara: She's the strategist of the group, the one who'll keep emotions out of the missions so she can enjoy herself later. Kill people? Well, it's part of the job, she's not going to let that effect her. She tries not to get attached to people, and values enjoying herself in Tokyo. ITADORI AND NOBARA'S DYNAMIC IS SO FUNNY (and she would've gotten along with Gojo... I just want an episode with them accidently meeting each other on a shopping trip and getting into trouble.)

And I'm sorry in advance for all the writing I'm about to include:

Fushiguro:

Nobara:

#4 Suguru Geto and Satoru Gojo from Jujutsu Kaisen

(Also I love Shoko despite how little screen time she gets. )

I've analyzed them here and I'll include my notes and written analysis... but overall...

They encapsulate a comfort and trust and love for each other that I rarely see. It's something indescribable and special. They truly transcend labels for each tother and just.... yeah the relationships and dynamics in JJK are on another level. I've ranted about them before <3

AND I'LL RANT ABOUT THEM MORE:

#5? Inej Ghafa and Jesper Fahley.

(I read this before I started writing my analysis's down. Everything from here on out has less writing. Thanks for being patient with me <3)

(I prefer book them to Show them tbh... although I haven't watched all of the show and I prefer books/manga to shows sometimes because it's easier for me to analyze as I'm reading and reread)

Also it's been a while and I'm doing some analysis from memory so I apologize for any inaccuracies!

Why I like Inej: Her making herself a tool for others so that she could survive. She put her own wants and past to the side so she could become dangerous, so no one could take advantage of her again. Her growth to chasing her dreams, living for herself, saying that her heart aims true for making the world better. She has such a good arc.

Why I like Jesper: He's impulsive and silly and him not being able to get rid of his addiction to gambling even though he's aware of how it's making his father more in debt. Him using a skill he has (sharpshooting) to express his Grisha powers and not wanting to acknowledge that he's a Grisha. ALso him and Wylan. Adorable.

#6 Emma, Norman and Ray from the Promised Neverland.

(last one for now!)

Emma's caring nature and will not hesitate to beat you up if you're being self-sacrificial. (I wish they went more in depth with Emma's disregarding other's emotions to do what is best for them. Could've been cool conflict). Her wanting to save everyone no matter how hard it will be, loving her little siblings so much. The betrayal of Isabella towards her. ('She didn't like the tests, but she liked her mother's praise'). How scared and conflicted she became. How much she mourned her old life.

Ray's cold cut nature, practical, resourceful. His backstory in which he had to live with the death of his siblings for years, to the point where he resolved himself to save only Norman and Emma. His preparation for years and years to make sure they were safe. Not wanting to save all of the Grace field children because it would doom them all.

Norman knowing that they might not be able to save them all, but wanting to try for Emma. How much he strategized, how hard he tried. How he's in between. How scared he was for himself, how much he admired Emma's care for others, how he tried to strategize for all of them. How he hid his pain and fear.

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ThANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK!

and to all my mutuals/followers, @mylee-sketches, and anyone else who stumbles across this post...

yes I hyperfixate.

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etherealacoustic · 2 years

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Ps- Requests are open but will sometimes take time!

Masterlist

Started - 21/5/22

Works - 27

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Harry Potter

Wolfstar

Remus Lupin

Sirius Black

George Weasley

Fred Weasley

James Potter

Harry Potter

Draco Malfoy

Regulus Black

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Poetry

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Song Based Fics

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BTS

Kim Namjoon

Kim Seokjin

Jeon Jungkook

Min Yoongi

Jung Hoseok

Park Jimin

Kim Taehyung

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Celebs

Tom Hiddleston

Ben Barnes

Andrew Garfield

Sebastian Stan

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One Direction

Harry Styles

Louis Tomlinson

Zayn Malik

Niall Horan

Liam Payne

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Marvel

Tony Stark

Steve Rogers

Bucky Barnes

Loki Laufeyson

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Grishaverse

General Kirigan

Kaz Brekker

Nikolai Lantsov

Mal Oretsev

Jesper Fahley

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Enhypen

Yang Jungwon

Lee Heeseung

Park Jongseong

Sim Jaeyoon

Park Sunghoon

Kim Sunoo

Nishimura Riki

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Stray Kids

Bang Chan

Lee Minho

Seo Changbin

Han Jisung

Lee Felix

Kim Seungmin

Hwang Hyunjin

Yang Jeongjin

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GOT7

Lim Jaebeom

Mark Tuan

Jackson Wang

Park Jinyoung

Choi Youngjae

BamBam

Kim Yugyeom

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Percy Jackson

Nico Di Angelo

Luke Castellan

Perseus Jackson

Grover Underwood

Poseidon

Charles Beckendorf

Hades

Will Solace

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best-character-named-x-poll · 3 months

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Propositions for your polls :

Jesper Fahley (Six of Crows)

Jasper (Steven Universe)

Jasper (Twilight)

Rem (Re:Zero)

Remi (Nobody's Boy Remi)

Agnes Montague (The Magnus Archives)

Jules Caine (Jules and Monty)

Monty Montgomery (Jules and Monty)

Thank you for the suggestions!

#suggestions #not a poll

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theincorrectbookquotes · 3 years

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Our little goat, Sankt Milo

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angels-force · 3 years

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we all know that milo is the main character here

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corpsebasil · 3 years

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God I love wattpad

#look at this #Jesper Fahley #six of crows #kaz brekker imagines #kaz brekker x reader #jesper fahey #wattpad

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milo-for-the-king · 3 years

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Mildest of mild spoilers for shadow and bone, like it absolutely will not spoil anything about the story, so do what you want. Wouldn’t it be hilarious if Milo the goat just... was there in the crow club at the start of season 2? Like no explanation given, no one is surprised Milo is there, he just is. Maybe I’ll finally get Milo bleating over Kaz’s shoulder as he explains his new elaborate plan (that 100% will work of course) while Milo’s periodically munches on our emo boy’s hair.

#shadow and bone #grishaverse #six of crows #milo the goat #kaz brekker #jesper fahley #inej ghafe #shadow and bone spoilers #sab spoilers #but like really mild ones #idk if some would even consider it spoilers

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the-crowclub · 3 years

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"I'm going to pay some one to burn my kruge for me."

Kaz fell into step beside him. "Why don't you pay someone else to pay someone to burn your kruge for you? That's what the big players do."

"You know what the really big bosses do? They pay someone to pay someone to..

Two dangerous criminals of Ketterdam y'all

#kaz brekker #six of crows #jesper x wylan #kaz x jesper #jesper fahley #soc inej

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shaula-art · 3 years

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Nina Zenik from Six of Crows!! You can find my original post in my Instagram page @shaula.art

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miladymcnugget · 5 years

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I can’t believe Wylan is canonically Jesper’s sugar daddy after Crooked Kingdom

#wesper #wylan van eck #jesper fahley #crooked kingdom #six of crows #soc

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einnas-art · 6 years

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More quick wesper while I try and remember how to draw

#wesper #jesper fahley #wylan van eck #jesper x wylan #six of crows #soc #crooked kingdom

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15kpaperdragons · 7 years

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soc college AU

I’ve been thinking about this for the past several hours and I haven’t really worked out a potential plot for this universe or anything practical at all but

Kaz- is a business major but hates people (but does, however, love money), is the leader of the biggest and most exclusive frat on campus but hates parties, is a 4.0 student but hates doing schoolwork. he listens to mcr all the time and lives off dry cereal and spite, but that’s probably just college

Inej- pre-law. wants to become a prosecutor and put people who deserve it in prison. befriends(?) kaz despite this. she and nina are roommates, because they DEFINITELY are, and the two of them go on adventures and pull pranks on their floor all the time. she’s very kind but everyone on campus knows she always has the Latest Scoop

Nina- pre-med student who eats to make up for her complete lack of sleep, and then sleeps in until 4 pm on weekends. also a linguistics minor who’s in every theater production the college puts on and generally a secret overachiever. often ends up recruited to do first aid at/after kaz’s frat parties

Matthias- i just have the overwhelming feeling that he’d study history; some really specific thing like pre-500s anglo-Saxon classic literature. idk. he transferred to the university in the middle of junior year. He’s actually a responsible student (unlike most everyone else), but he’s down with the occasional party, so long as there’s alcohol. on the hockey team, because Ice and Fighting

Jesper- undeclared. he kind of just takes whichever classes he wants to and has no idea how he’s going to graduate at this point. member of kaz’s frat, which obviously doesn’t help anything. technically he’s kaz’s roommate but kaz does not want any other people in his room when he is working (which is always) so Jesper mostly bunks with Wylan and Kuwei.

Wylan- his father wants him to be a business/econ major, but his father doesn’t need to know that he’s studying music and chem. makes some money giving inexpensive music lessons to younger kids that live in the area. wasn’t planning on joining a frat bc does he seem like a frat boy but he had his Motivations (his father hates it. and Jesper was Very Convincing during rush week)

Kuwei- exchange student; everyone thinks he’s mysterious and brooding for some reason. Majoring in chem. rooms with Wylan as a result. nobody’s totally sure what administrative failure led to the exchange student ending up living in the most notorious frat house on campus but he’s totally down with it. pretty much a member of the frat within about a week and everyone forgets he doesn’t even go to this school

the frat in question is kappa omicron rho, or kappa ohm to the lazy sorts on campus (and it’s those letters because κοράκια). it has the best, wildest, most potentially dangerous parties and rumor has it nobody in the frat’s ever failed a class. faked grades are suspect. also kaz. Kaz is highly suspect.

#six of crows #cooked kingdom #soc #soc/ck #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #nina zenik #matthias helvar #jesper fahley #wylan van eck #kuwei yul bo #college au #mine #i love college aus so much guys ive written like five #i actually put aome thought into this #if you have some additions or changes to reommend please add then #my version of the app is old as hell so i cant message but i can reblog

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