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literary-motif · 23 hours

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Hi... :( The weather here has been gloomy and it's been raining heavily lately. I get really sad in this kind of weather; I need my sunlight. :( Could you please write a comfort fic with any of the characters for me Please?🥺👉👈

Sending you my sun, Isla. I much prefer the rain.

Starry Night

Isaac Rhoades x Reader

You looked out of the window, gazing dreamily up at the moon. The night sky was crystal clear. You could almost feel the warm midnight breeze of summer on your skin from just looking outside.

That was all you could do, however. Look.

At first, being stuck in the enormous house Isaac called his home had sounded like an excellent offer.

You kept busy. You had a job to do, and although it was not particularly mentally challenging, it still filled you with a sense of purpose. The library had quickly become your favorite place, and you had read more books in the last two months than you had ever held in your hands up until that point in your life.

Isaac was a blessing in himself. He was kind and attentive, if cold most of the time. It made life a bit lonely, considering he was the only human connection you had now.

Because he said you were not allowed to leave the house.

“Never?” you had asked in the first week, wanting to know the details of your employment.

“Never,” he had answered. “There is no need to.”

“What about—”

“Never.”

You had accepted it without complaint.

As you looked at the starry sky through the glass, you could not help but regret it now. Above all, you missed looking up at the sky and you longed to simply lay down in the beautiful stretch of grass you were doomed only to look at to be enticed by the marvels above your head.

“What are you thinking about?” Isaac asked from his place on the sofa, a glass of whiskey in his hand as he skimmed through a folder tiredly. It had not become a rare occurrence for you to share your evenings with him ever since the kiss.

You sighed, leaning your head against the window. “The stars,” you muttered sadly.

“I can get you astronomy books if you’d like,” he offered. “I am sure we have plenty of documentaries—”

“I only want to look at them,” you said, turning to face him. “I don’t care about the science behind it. I just— they’ve always been there, you know? When I thought I couldn’t possibly go on, sometimes I just looked up and saw how insignificant all this truly is. It’s comforting, in a way. The briefness of life, I mean.”

Isaac was silent for a moment. “I can’t let you go out,” he said finally.

“I know, but I miss the sky.”

“Wait,” he added, putting his folder aside and downing the rest of his drink, “I have other ways. Come on, I think you’ll like it.”

You were standing in front of the indoor swimming pool, eyeing the inflatable mattress wearily. You had not had the time to learn how to swim and despite the apparent stability of the thing, you did not trust it. “I don’t think—” you began.

“Relax,” Isaac said with a chuckle, pressing a few buttons on the control panel near the door. “I’m with you, and I’ll be right by your side if something happens.”

There was a loud creak as the roof of the swimming pool slowly moved, revealing a delicate glass so spotless that you wondered how it was kept in such excellent condition. Your jaw dropped, the vastness of the roof allowing you to stare at a large portion of the night sky.

“Impressive, yes?” he asked, taking off his tie and socks. “I had it installed not long ago. There is something magical about looking into infinity while floating on the water. One day I’ll teach you to swim if you’d like, and you can experience it for yourself. For now, though” — he pulled the mattress towards the edge of the swimming pool, offering you a hand to get on — “after you, Pickle. You’re safe with me, don’t worry.”

Any hesitation you had about it vanished as you relaxed into the plastic, Isaac’s arm securely wrapped around your waist as you both floated over the water. He had turned off all the lights, leaving only the low blue illuminating the edges of the swimming pool. You could see the sky perfectly.

“If you teach me how to swim,” you said, earning a low hum from Isaac, “I’ll teach you how to stargaze properly. On a hill and all. One day.”

You could not see his faint smile but felt his arm tighten around you. “Thank you.” he said, missing the shooting star as he looked down at you.

It did not matter. He would not have known what else to wish for anyway.

#sakuverse #zsakuva #isaac rhoades x reader #isaac rhoades

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mcpuliotjr · 1 year

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i feel soulless

#is it the weather. is it the mental illness.#is it whatever the fuck is wrong with my uterus. is it something else.#is it the trauma. is it the abuse. am i just fucking cursed.#whos to say!!!#txt

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mysticcomfort · 8 months

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Day 13

I’ve been waiting for this one all month

#I…might have gotten a wee bit carried away #werewolf Griffy make brain go bark bark awooga #me self-indulgent?#nah #run forest run #safe vore #soft vore #safe v/ore #soft v/ore #vore art #sfw vore #extreme cuddling #voretober #voreville voretober #nonsexual vore #was that a reference and a double pun?#wouldn’t you like to know weather boy #Myst isn’t scared they’re just oogeling don’t mind them #they’re mentally ill and a simp they’re fine

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chroniclesofchronicillness · 7 months

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Storms are the worst

#chronic illness #chronically ill #chroniclesofchronicillness #chronic pain #invisible illness #invisible disability #spoonie #mental health #pots #svt #storms #weather

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randomreasonstolive · 1 year

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Reason to Live #8714

Hearing/smelling/seeing the rain again after it not raining for a long time.– Guest Submission

(Please don't add negative comments to these posts.)

#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #hearing #smelling #seeing #rain #nature #weather

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 1 year

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If you think the world was made for us, you don't know a whole lot about the world.

We evolved to adapt to it.

#creationism #religion #intelligent design #natural disasters #extreme weather #religion is a mental illness

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rusquared · 4 months

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give us your home screen tumblr demands it

tumblr is awfully needy today

i couldn't just show the home screen by itself, so here u go. my lockscreen-homescreen combo went from being hsy looking at od to the much more painful dkos looking at od. but he is obscured by all the widgets i refuse to get rid of.

#orv spoilers #cant believe everything in my life needs that tag #asks #the widgets with their reasons:#clock is obv #new york and dublin clocks because some of my important people live in those timezones #the blacked out one is for religious stuff #weather cause. historic lows this winter i think ill die #steps cause i havent been leaving my bed much and i desperately need a mental health walk #research link so i remember to open it (i forgot until writing this tag)

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girlwiththegreenhat · 1 year

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nobody talk to me i've been emotional all week over king's dad having kept an eye on him his whole life from The In-Between. much like spinel, i will never be able to watch the series the same way again

#liz blogs #toh #the owl house #king clawthorne #i dont know what to tag his dad as. uh #the titan #papa titan #yeah thats what came up and i'll use it #this trope comes for Me specifically every time. i will never not weep my eyes out over it.#and with the suggestion that the titans can control the weather and shit #i am remembering when the titan trappers sent that letter and hooty ate it because there was a bug on it #yeah that was god vibe checking ur stupid letter and sending the bug to destroy it #mental illness please go AWAY i WANT TO DRAW TOH !!!!! I HAVE IMAGES IN MY BRAIn #i am cursed with Visions #you literally just have to show me a silly and or down to earth dad character and oops they're one of my favorites now #do not read me #i loaf you... shut the fuck u p...... weeps #yeah i just watched the episode for a third time with my brother and its just digging the brainrot in deeper #god. god. toh was such a good show. im so tired of every show i love getting cancelled.

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julyafternoonthoughts · 4 months

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coffee

i pour my coffee. i add sugar and milk. I stir it and watch it go from a deep black to a warm soft brown. and I wonder where you are. what you’re doing. i hope you’re well. and me? i’m trying to be well enough so that I can still be here when it’s time to meet you.

February 10, 2024

3:43am

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bl33ditout · 7 days

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i think it is that time of the year for me (reverse seasonal depression)

#summer makes me extra depressed and angry #i know it's not yet but it's basically the weather for it here #anyways i'm just frustrated at myself and fucking hate everything and i want to die :)#i'm such a pussy #tw vent #tw mental illness #personal

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galaxywhump · 6 months

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going through it, venting in the tags

#idk the last few weeks have been so rough #i recognize it's mostly the shitty weather and general gloom making my depression worse #but that doesn't make it suck any less #it's been this constant onslaught of negative emotions #and even more negative thoughts #including very drastic ones #i'm behind on a lot of things but i can barely motivate myself to do anything at all #and i'm yelling here cause i don't have irl support and bottling all that up is horrible #so i don't know. if anyone has any advice or something that would be wonderful #but i'm not really expecting or demanding that #just needed to get it out #so thanks for sticking around #today's been a day filled with full-on sobbing and randomly tearing up #i'm gonna have one hell of a headache tomorrow #anyway #marti vents #venting #suicidal thoughts tw #just to be safe #mental illness tag

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stergeon · 2 months

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for the writer ask

💭🚦💛 💌

💭 What inspires you and your writing?

this is a real marketing major-ass answer (from your local marketing major), but i love sharing knowledge and telling stories. writing’s one of those things that’s a bit of a compulsion for me—i’m always writing something. i took a five-year break from fiction writing before i stumbled ass-first into fanfic last year, but even in those years when i was focusing on my career, i was writing guides and trainings and a ton of other stuff—just not anything fun, lol.

writing is also so cathartic. sometimes i set out to tell a specific story, but at other times, a particular emotion gets me in a vice grip and i have to put it to words before it’ll go away. my stories tend to wind up as emotional dumping grounds as a result.

i don’t write things pulled directly from my own life, but there are bits and pieces of myself and things that have happened to me scattered throughout stuff i’ve written, and usually when i’m about 75% of the way through a piece, i’ll realize it’s absolutely related to something i’m currently going through. funny how art works that way, even when you don’t intend for it to.

and occasionally i just have a fire lit under my ass about an issue and i get so hot about it that i gotta compile my thoughts. looking at you, silver snow

🚦 What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?

look, i would love nothing more for them girls (pick whichever girls you please) to have a happy ending where they kiss and are stupid in love for the rest of forever. i love reading those kinds of stories. but in my heart of hearts, i love an ambiguous ending. i like when there are still questions after the story ends. i like thinking about where things could go or how the characters will go on after the events of the story. like, shared space could be read as having a happy ending, but i don’t really think it is. and with the victors; the vestiges, well. you’ll see :0)

come to think of it, i’m not sure i’ve ever written a happily-ever-after, but i don’t think i’ve ever written a 100% bad ending, either. i read too many bury-your-gays stories and watched too many sad european queer coming-of-age films in my youth to ever be happy putting that kinda thing out into the world. i want to write about love with all its ugliness, but not despair or hopelessness. i think what most appeals to me about an ambiguous ending is that lingering feeling of hope. it’s not the same as the kind you get from a happily-ever-after, and something about it speaks to me.

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

honestly? how to take criticism. i took a creative writing class in high school where we had to read our work out loud and then receive feedback on it from the other writers in the class, and that did a lot for me. going into that class, i’d already been writing for forever and had won some little local writing contests and such, so i was a wee bit of a pretentious douche. but i’d never gotten real critique before beyond, essentially, spelling and grammar checks. it humbled me lol. it made me grow so much as a writer, and i could see where i needed to improve or where my head was wedged way too far up my own ass for others to follow. it also helped me recognize strengths i didn’t know i had, and that was huge. it’s easy to get into a self-doubt spiral when making creative work, and good, constructive criticism can do so much to help avoid that.

to this day i love critique. i like knowing what worked or didn’t work so that i can continue to improve as a writer and do better next time. did my themes land? did something really work, but another part fall flat? i’d love to know!! i try to treat everything i write as practice for the next thing, and frankly that’s helped take some of the pressure off so i don’t go into total Perfectionist Mode.

i know critique is kind of a sensitive topic in fan spaces, but i think that’s because a lot of people have gotten unsolicited criticism that is purely critical and isn’t constructive. but getting good, constructive criticism will do so much to help a person grow as a writer. it’s scary, and sometimes it hurts! writing is very personal for most people, and it stings when things aren’t received the way you think they will be. but i know i’ve grown more from having my failures pointed out (and, very importantly, having the good things about those efforts acknowledged) than anything else.

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

actually Just answered this in another ask!