#if you don’t face it all this time

[vizthedatum]

So I uh was gonna do work and then found out I’m divorced and have been chatting with friend, brother, misc messages from friends, and now crying while thanking my one friend who housed me and dragged me to the courthouse to file for divorce. She knew it was DV before I even told her all the things that happened. So many people carried me here.

The important thing is:

I did this.

If I can do this, I can conquer my fear of heights and the dark… and then *this is a threat and promise* I can do anything.

#crying #divorce #divorced #google photos should develop breakup AI #BUT YEAH Google photos showed me pics and video from the time my flight got delayed in 2018 to go to Nashville #we were so happy then #I felt relieved looking at those memories #I wasn’t angry and it was weird #I don’t love you anymore #if I can protect my energy I can protect my love #I wish you actually gave yourself a chance #if you don’t face it all this time #you will have to face it again #no matter what you do including that #it’s not my fault if you do it #but don’t do it

[shepscapades]

WELL THAT WAS AN UNEXPECTED RESPONSE :( /pos

#good to know I could make people insane about them #I’m trying so so so so hard to be normal about them and I do a bad job of hiding it #but at least I don’t have to feel bad about it too much if y’all are enjoying it hehehe #<3 #ty for your support as always (makes the most pathetic face ever of all time) #art escapades #docsuma #dbhc doc #dbhc xisuma #the shepherd #my sona #ask #dbhc ask #ALSO #DANCINGLIFEBOAT I SEE YOU AND IM LOOKING AND NODDING

[puppyeared]

personal character design headcanons + brainrot

Note: the re-bound!au does NOT belong to me, it belongs to @chipper-smol I’m just not normal about it lol

#I SAY PERSONAL BC ITS MY OWN SPIN ON IT. NOT CHIPPERS CANON UNLESS THEY DECIDE TO OR NOT YOU HEAR ME /LH #I made a banner and everything this time. PLWEASE send them your questions not me JAJFHDSF #I thought it would be cool if macaque has two separate forms as a shadow and inside a mindscape. like I wanted his shadow form to reflect #him in his prime and then the mindscape form as what he looked like when he died. or a more vulnerable state at least #based on LBD appearing to MK as the ivory lady when she died in the S3 special. I don’t know exactly what it was but my first thought seein #the white void was she was appearing to MK in his mindscape to talk to him. so I built on that #I wanted to give him a more ‘Smokey’ look as a shadow just based on how he manipulates them in the show like in shadow play. I hope this #makes it look cool and immaterial. and then his mindscape form would be more battered up and tangible #the last couple images are chippers ideas though since they said the monkeys are drawn to MK when macaque is possessing him lol #and the fact that macaque doesn’t have any senses unless he’s possessing someone + literally sniffing out wukong in the scroll 🤨📸 #I also have a vivid image of macaque moving from the mindscape to physical form like umm. kind of like when he passes the boundary between #physical and spirit/mind(?) it’s like the shadow covers him like ink. or pulling Saran Wrap over your face and it clings to your skin #so it kind of makes the shadow seem like a sort of shell or covering.. and I love the idea of MK meeting macaque in the mindscape for the #first time too. like the moment mac rescues him from LBD and MK sees him all battered and tired looking brooooooo #I’m not even sure if that would count as a mindscape but it rattles around in my brain like loose marbles #god I fucking love this au. gives me imagination fuel swear to god #my art #doodles #lmk #Lego Monkie kid #Monkie kid #lmk au #re-bound!au #rebound au #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk mk #lmk xiaotian

[indelicateink]

as an american, sam reid’s total inability to hide his contempt for overly fake-chipper american journalists, especially ones who Have Not Done The Assigned Reading know and care about the show, will never not be hilarious and iconic to me

#sometimes he can dial it back to civil blank apathy #but i have never laughed and cringed like that at the same time #sorry we’re so fake bro we’re just Like That #his frank tiredness with unoriginal or dumb questions is kinda refreshing #i think we first got it full-blast with It’s What’s Written In The Books last season #after 5K ‘why is it gay’ questions #but that latest Dish tv interview where the journo joked they thought he was dead holy fuck #defcon 1 levels of Done #it’s sort of fascinating since generally all celebrities play along with any interviewing atrocities they suffer though #american fakeism is the lowest bar to endure but the man is just a wall #lol don’t lose that sir #iwtv #interview with the vampire #okay no sorry this is my ted talk— #i mean he’s not alone frex some european actors in particular seem to pull out their best acting chops when #faced with shrilly chipper american interviewers #though sometimes you can catch the horror in their eyes #and hugh grant epically blanked that one effusive interviewer on the red carpet at the oscars the yr before last #and was almost assigned 40 lashes in the court of public opinion #(​until will smith sucked all the oxygen out of the room) #but sam reid is just full stop not going to reflect back. it’s…kind of awesome and not a little brave in this biz #anyway this has been my ted talk #saluting an icon 🫡

[bbreaddog]

Practising Goncharov Theme by @caramiaaddio on violin bc I thought it would add an extra layer of haunting…ness (is that a word?)

Here’s the excerpt I’m playing in the video:

Despite it being in a fuck off key for violin it is a really beautiful piece and it’s absolutely worth the trouble of practising in second position (world’s most hated position) and I’m HOPING 🤞 I can record and (maybe) post a full cover of it someday

#goncharov #music #violin #goncharov theme #oh man i have not posted my face in a very very very long time #possibly years #am i freaking out about it? a little #could i have converted this to audio instead? #well. yes but. it’s not exactly awesome quality in this practise room lmao #i so so badly wanna write out all the technical things I’m doing/focusing on here bc GRRR TECHNICAL WORK IS SO INTERESTING TO ME #but i would be typing out a whole essay probably and i don’t think my followers really. care that much about violin tech #lest they also play violin #i have one (1) known mutual who plays violin and that’s IT #apologies for the metronome ticking in the video #it can be very irritating to listen to #alas… it is also important for not speeding up when playing #anyways #hi caramiaaddio you don’t know me but big fan of what you’ve written here #ESPECIALLY THE CHROMATIC BITS OUGHHHH #the little semiquavers that poke their heads through like TWICE are surprisingly hard #but also they sound extra creepy in a good way #BIG fan #wait wait WAIT WAIT #i think this is my first time posting any of my violin playing here like. EVER. #I’ve been here for OVER A DECADE #AND I’M POSTING MY VIOLIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. FOR FUCKING. GONCHAROV. #i don’t have the right emoji for how I’m feeling rn #personal #mine #my face

[codename-adler]

i’m afraid of diving into good omens tumblr discourse but i just–i have to say

Aziraphale’s face. it’s. that is the expression of someone who does not want to be kissed, but knows it’s inevitable. though even more subtle than that, it’s the face of someone who does not want the thing to happen not because they don’t want it, but because they do, they really do, and yet it is not the way they wish it would be. Aziraphale knows something here. and he isn’t telling Crowley, nor us. he’s got some kind of higher pressure weighing down on him, forcing him to act against his nature and heart, forcing him to act against Crowley. he backs Crowley into a corner with his talk of joining Metatron in Heaven, and knows it. and that is what he wants, because that’s where he needs Crowley to be–away from him; but he pushes too strong, pushes Crowley to risk it all and end up cornering Aziraphale right back. all Aziraphale wanted, all he needed to do, was protect Crowley by breaking his heart and abandoning him, but you can’t undo 6,000 years of companionship without a miracle. it’s a failure.

whatever the Metatron told or did to Aziraphale that was hidden from us, it terrified him enough to make up a wobbly plan that could keep Crowley safe, if he would just go along with it. Aziraphale may have been strong enough, may have loved Crowley that much, to put his heart on the line and sacrifice himself if it meant Crowley could live on, but he underestimated Crowley’s love for him. underestimated Crowley’s courage and capacity for honesty.

the angel lied and the demon spoke his truth and everything crashed and failed.

and it is painful failure and remorse that i see on Aziraphale’s face.

it’s Please don’t ruin my attempt at saving you and Can’t you see what I’m trying to do and I’m sorry I’m breaking your heart but I have to if I want to keep you and To choose you I have to choose Heaven but I know you’re not seeing it that way and Crowley look at me I’m lying just go along and

Oh no, you believed me entirely too much, what have I done?

with the kiss, Crowley seals his fate as undeniably tied to Aziraphale’s. and Metatron will know.

#sorry aftg fam for this special good omens broadcast #anywhoo #i’m trying so hard to articulate what i see in every line of aziraphales face in this shot #he’s so afraid #not of crowley but FOR crowley #like he’s watching Crowley doom himself all over again but this time it’s for him because of him #and he wasn’t good enough to protect his demon #´No Crowley no no no no don’t do this please don’t do this he will know Metatron will know you mustn’t please!’ #nothing can stop Crowley’s love for Aziraphale and angel wants to cry for the unfairness of it all #where does this face fit in the grand scheme of s3 i don’t know #good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #ineffable fandom #neil gaiman #david tennant and michael sheen #david tennant #michael sheen #anthony j crowley #aziracrow #good god good omens #terry pratchett

[jojo-schmo]

I wish I could tell the original artist that this drawing permanently changed the entire direction of my life in 2009. I want to shake their hand, look them in the eye, and admit I would not be who I am today if this drawing didn’t exist.

EDIT: Original artist is @ivynajspyder !!!!

#‘but jojo’ you ask. ‘that seems a little ridiculous’ #‘don’t you think that’s a little much?’ #no. NO. IT IS THE TRUTH. #little baby middle schooler jojo had just gotten squeak squad. the first kirby game she ever owned. #and she loved it even tho there’s a lot she didn’t understand #like who dedede was supposed to be or why copy abilities existed #I asked for the game because my roommate at swim camp had it and she told me the plot of the game when I looked over her shoulder to watch #(the plot she told me was completely made up btw she said kirby had to save the dimension from dark overlord and did not mention the squeak #and said stuff about meta knight being a bad guy idk I realize now she was just weaving a tale of her own haha) #SO I WAS NOT AWARE OF THE LORE. I had only played the one game and it’s the one people don’t like the plot of #but meta knight completely intrigued me #what was this blue sword wielding little kirby dude doing here?? #so I’d replay his boss fight over and over again just to get that glimpse at his face #and I’d sit and wonder what it all meant. who was this mysterious swordsman?? #and the boss fight was hard!!! it cost me to beat it at the time but I’d still do it to see his face #AND THEN AFTER LIKE A YEAR OF THIS it occurred to me that there was a kirby wiki online #so I found all the pictures of his face and my little fangirl-raised-by-deviantart mind ATE THIS UP. #and then I look up that one fateful google search……… the one that changed me #meta. #knight. #maskless. #and this drawing was towards the top of the results #I went feral about a fandom related topic for the very very first time #I lost my MIND. HOW can a character be so cute AND COOL??! I was a changed child. #I consumed the hoshi no kaabii anime like it was the only piece of media on earth #I drew comics about him. I made my first kirby oc ever to go on a grand adventure on him. #I filled my notebooks with kirby art to the point my mom was like ‘jossie. you REALLY need to branch out. these are just orbs.’ #and now I am the kirby artist I am today. so yes. YES. this drawing did change my life. #thanks for reading. and thanks to the original artist. I tried to find them to link but nothing. so if you know pls tell me #THE END!!! and remember! your art makes a difference in people’s lives even if they don’t say it to your face!!!!

[methoughtsphantom]

Does this count as kidnapping???

A clockwork apprentice Danny that has to fake Jason’s death because he accidentally meddled in the event leading up to it and now he has to act fast because he literally can hear Batman’s running steps catching up to him so in spectacular fashion Danny panics, goes “shit shit shit” and puts Jason in the ghost version of a coma but like expert level pumps him up with so much ectoplasm the kid legit dies for a hot minute there.

…It makes Batman think his kid really is dead like he is supposed to so not all is bad, the timeline is back on track.

It’s just that now Danny can’t leave Jason to be be buried in the ground like he was meant to be originally, instead he waits until no one is looking to snatch the kid up and take him with him to the infinite realms.

Jason is legit convinced he was kidnapped.

Jason: who are you and why did you kidnap me???

Danny: what— kid I didn’t kidnapped you, I saved you

Jason: likely story

Danny: really kid I’m not kidding this is not a kidnapping

Jason: well then can I go home

Danny:

Danny: no

Jason: fucking figures

…

Danny: in my defense when I found you you were already kidnapped

Jason: so? kidnapping me from my kidnappers doesn’t make u better

Danny:

Danny: well it makes me the better kidnapper

#danny fenton #danny phantom #dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #jason todd #robin jason todd #batman #a death in the family #kidnapping is only good when the the person you are kidnapping someone from is the Joker #and i stand by it #but in this maybe jason has a bit of amnesia and doesn’t remember he was with the joker #just that he feels like a giant bruise and now he is in an a sorta alternate dimension #which he doesn’t know how to escape yet but god he will keep trying #his dad must be worried sick #!! #anyways not like they’re treating him bad here #no #no bad Jason don’t let yourself get Stockholm syndrome-d #meanwhile danny: trying to figure out how is he suppose to keep the timeline going like it’s suppose to #Jason is suppose to be brought from the dead in six months!! #this is really just long thought of shit shit shit from Danny #he really dropped the ball here #anyways that he doesn’t regret sucker punching that clown in the face #but all is good #all is perfect #my boy’s got time to figure out what to do with the timeline #in the mean time this boys in my head will be bonding #JSJ poor b though #he’s not having a good time

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 306

Danny is having such a good time right about now actually. Is he being carried like a football? Yeah. But pretty much every other ghost is avoiding him, and he got to see Vlad get his ass kicked. Sort of. He got to see him get scruffed like a misbehaving cat and then tossed to a ghost that apparently has some sort of mental-health obsession thing. 

But! Unimportant! Big halloween ghost knight? Yeah, apparently they’re also a halfa- which he guesses sort of makes sense? There had to have been some at some point before him and Vlad for that to be like, a proper term or whatever. But still! That is far more important than the fruitloop in his opinion! Learning how to wield swords! More important than any of that, thank you! 

Also dimension travel, sweet, cool, whatever, he technically does that all the time via going to the Zone. Magic. Swords. And an older halfa that doesn’t want to marry his mom! This is great! Best weekend ever! He’s going to get Sam and Tucker so many souvenirs while he’s there too, but magic swords!!

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Fright Knight: Well Fuck this kid has not a single clue about shit time for a crash course #Halfa Fright Knight #He might be battle-brothers with Pariah as well #Also he has glowy tattoos across his body #Did he train with the all caste at some point? Who knows #Fright Kerian Knight: We’re going to another timeline for training so we don’t accidentally destroy ours #Danny: He seems like he knows what he’s doing :) #FK inwardly: I have no clue what I’m doing how do you teach small ghostlings #Also I need you to know he has braids framing his face- one for his own teacher and one for his brother #Danny is not immune to the thought of magic space swords #shadow core fright knight #space core danny

[lazycranberrydoodles]

i've been wanting to show off my crown prince design since november of last year lmao / follow for more xianle epic fail compilations

#i started drawing taizi dianxia and this meme popped into my head #the second panel is based off of the time the trio spent in the quarantine zone before xianle fell #when xl was trying to figure out the cure for the human face disease and bringing rain to yong’an #lemme find my favorite quotes from this book #its either #Your Highness #why do you think you can achieve anything you want to do? Rather than putting my fate in your hands #I choose to put it in my own. #… Throughout all their past meetings #this was the very first time Xie Lian had steeled his heart to kill Lang Ying. #orrrr #You don’t have a third path amd there is no second cup of water. Wake up #Your Highness! You’re running out of time. #tgcf #heaven official’s blessing #tian guan ci fu #tgcf meme #xie lian #hob #lmao #art #digital art #my art #doodle #tgcf spoilers #blood

[httpiastri]

them!!!!!

#they have my heart #they’re all smiles all the time huh #they didn’t get the ‘you don’t need to be in love with your teammate’ memo #pretty pretty besties #the way that they can’t even look at each other without giggling >>> #glad to see a smile on osc’s face <3 #now cmere so i can give you a big hug you little thing #😚😚😚 my boys #so proud of lando for yet another podium #already cant wait to see them again soon #very bad gifs and the ig handle is still there lol but i wanted to post something more before bed #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #lando norris #mclaren racing #oscar piastri

[void-and-virtue]

Neil as a team captain is positively delightful, because making him captain is both absolutely insane and absolutely brilliant. It capitalizes on the passive effect of having one (1) Neil Josten (god knows the world couldn’t handle if there were more of him) on the team in the most efficient way. Like. I’m 90% sure that after spending some time around him on the same team, most people will look up to him completely awestruck for how much he has impacted their lives, but that’s just not what is actually happening here. I feel like what’s going on is this:

Neil is a terribly amazing choice for team captain entirely because Neil is a meddlesome little asshole who will forcibly fix all of his teammates’ personal problems and improve their entire lives for literally no other reason than that he needs them to be able to focus on fucking ball so he can win at sports. It’s not even that he genuinely cares about people and their well-being (apart from his original foxes). He just gets pissed when things aren’t working properly because it makes Exy annoying when the lineup can’t communicate. Exy isn’t supposed to be annoying. Exy is life. He’d meddle whether he is captain or not, but by making him captain, he has so much more official executive power at his hands. It’s like people are explicitly asking for him to do his worst. So, fueled by his own competitiveness and love for the sport, off he goes.

Neil is just as bad as Kevin when it comes to his Exy obsession. The major difference between them is that Kevin is endlessly tactical and he runs Exy with a focus on a technical and physical level entirely, whereas Neil’s approach is to look beyond a lack of practice and basically psychoanalyzing people on why they are not doing 110% for Exy. Kevin says “let’s run this drill 500 times, then we will inevitably be better”. Meanwhile Neil is scheming how to coerce and bribe people into life-changing decisions and long-needed healing, entirely because he wants to optimize playing a sport. Exy is a team sport, which is why this is the most logical approach his little Exy brain comes up with rather than minding his own fucking business. He looks at the team and is like “is anyone gonna whip this into shape? No?? I’ll fucking do it then cowards” and goes and does exactly that. It’s like he’s fixing the equipment so he can play.

I don’t think anyone except for Andrew is really aware that Neil really isn’t doing this out of the innate goodness of his heart, but because his personal brand of practicality involves the most convoluted and creative kind of scheming. I feel like Neil is a lot more selfish than people give him credit for. Sure, there’s people he cares deeply and unconditionally for, but that’s really not everyone. It’s fascinating to watch, especially because it’s not like he ever hides that he doesn’t particularly care, but people kinda assume he does, because why else would he put in this much effort?

Exy. The answer is Exy.

#Andrew hates him for this #but I also feel like it’s Andrew’s favorite pass time to just watch Neil do as Neil does #you can’t take the meddling out of Neil #first year was Neil meddling on steroids basically bc he thought he was gonna die so he had to optimize Exy to play and had no choice #that’s how he fixed the foxes the first time #but even so #even if he doesn’t care about most of the new foxes or his eventual pro teams as much #I don’t think he will ever stop with this kind of stuff because I’m dead certain he gets so annoyed when exy isn’t exy-ing #that he ends up fixing problems the majority of people would not be able to eben pick up on just by association #Neil ‘he found their humanity interesting’ Josten #he doesn’t need the death threats to motivate him #somewhere in the background Andrew is watching his every move and realizing time and time again how terrifyingly smart Neil is #and how well he can put his observations to use in really ruthless unapologetic ways #and then Andrew is faced with the reality that all of that brainpower is being used for exy and exy alone #thinking about Neil will kill that man one day I stg #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #kevin day #andrew minyard #andreil #aftg headcanon #aftg meta #character analysis #post canon #the foxhole court #tfc

[deeplyridiculouslyinlove]

Things Rand learns about Moiraine in the course of five minutes in 02 x 05:

She is from Cairhien.

Her family is RICH. Like marry the Queen rich.

She has a sister and a nephew.

That weird lady who told him the Hunt for the Horn isn’t real and how the rich people in Cairhien disdain the people in the Foregate is her sister.

(Maybe that she’s a Damodred, but I don’t think of Rand as a real history buff so idk if that will mean anything to him.)

She hasn’t seen her family in 20 years.

They don’t know Lan.

Things Rand knew about Moiraine before 02 x 05:

She once had trouble channeling when she was learning to be an Aes Sedai.

(Maybe that she is a lady from a fallen house - depends if he believed/remembered that comment she made to the whitecloaks.)

#I love josha’s face in this scene #the bewilderment and confusion is great #rosamund hitting it out of the park as usual with the comedic timing #this is…rand #is ​one of my favorite moments of the whole show #tbh this is how I felt when moiraine pulls [redacted] out of her channeling pocket in the dragon reborn to fight dark hounds #like omg we don’t know you at all do we queen #wheel of time #moiraine damodred #rand al'thor

[kinokoshoujoart]

oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

#my art #sos awl #debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff #or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs #i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know #and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love #rock tumbling (sos) #story of seasons a wonderful life #bokumono #story of seasons #harvest moon #hm awl #harvest moon a wonderful life #bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too #there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them #but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK…… #idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!! #fanart #awl rock #bokujou monogatari #hm anwl #unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry…….. #also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool… #ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted #mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters #OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING #i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version #and also fun secret things related to DS #this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu…. #i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)

[your-littlesecret]

i am so glad this cursed website tumblr dot com exists so i can not see people saying ferrari should keep sainz and fire charles instead bc i only follow beautiful intelligent and correct people who do not lick the balls of a man who cannot obey team orders, don’t own up to his own mistakes and thinks he should always be the center of attention

#bubbles posts #anti carlos sainz #the amount of hatred i have for this man i SWEAR TO GOD #you wont see me hating on ANYONE more than him #i REALLY need him to leave ferrari RIGHT NOW so i don’t have to see his ugly face all the time #like literally. once he goes to another team chances are i won’t even SPEAK about him bc out of sight out of mind #didn’t even see this race but i went into instagram and then i came here and i was ‘one of those things is not right’ #‘smooth operator’ such my dick

[mattodore]

yeah my best ocs of all time ever

#they’re SOOOOOOO 🧟🧟🧟🧟 COME HERE ALL OF YOU RNNNN #river dipping #ts4 #theodore doe #imani haut #echthroi #dionte duval #delphi sol #lykos #dovy legacy #attilio dovy #matthias evanoff #threw a pic of matthias in here too even tho i realized while going thru his tag that like. i have NO good edits of his face #attilio is a gameplay sim so i wasn’t surprised that i didn’t really have anything good for him #but matthias is literally in my username????? and i don’t have a SINGLE cas edit like i do for the other three mains???? #i had to use a random screenshot i posted recently for matthias like HUH???? WHAT???????? #clearly i need to make one of my usual little cas edits for him this is crazy #maybe i’ll do that later today if i end up needing a distraction #also my gameplay preset for attilio is SO sexy every time i see it #i use two different ones that i made—one that’s red vs. one that’s blue #i posted his legacy months back like early on in my little simblr career but even tho it’s been agessss i haven’t edited #his gameplay preset at all!! like it’s just that good i love staring at it #tho i did switch over to sunblind for my lighting mod and i need to remember to switch back whenever i get around to his legacy again