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angellurgy · 11 days

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i would love to just go on a spiteful rant posting all of your urls who i know willfully avoided everything. but itd be too many to name anyway, and despite it all i still just want connection. posting funny shit jokes and having a clean mentally well dashboard is so much more important to most of you than "sisterhood" or "love" or "community". i just wanted love and connections, i hope youll all be happy when im gone, i guess. theres nothing else we can do that'd satisfy you, you wont be happy until you don't have to deal with girls like me. you like to care about us until we're more than just an idea in your heads, then we challenge your idea of being able to care for "all your sisters", then we have to be driven out. its so easy too, you can just call us insane for noticing your purposeful and willful exclusion.

put on your perfect facade because being amazing and fully likeable is more important than loving the nuances of yourself and others' lives.

hide away the girls who die so none know your faults, pretend it is everyone except you if any come to pass your view, its not like anyone will call your group out (except the girl herself if she lives, but then you can just call it a breakdown, lie to her face until she questions herself and deny all wrongdoing)

(hell, you don't even need to even interact with her scared posts with notes, you can just scroll past and maybe she'll forget your name with the slews of others!)

the community you're in has failed so many girls and you do nothing but continue its immorality by drowning out their cries in sex and shit.

youre filth, and i still love you. because *some* of us actually took the "love all your sisters" to heart. i will always love and desire connection and community with my sisters, my friends, my mutuals. even if they continue these slights, even if i am brought lower than i thought possible, even if my cries are stomped on until i die, and then the remnants if i survive crumble under all of it too. I'll still be sorry, for what, i dont really know but i know im sorry, since girls like us clearly failed you.

#idk what to do anymore #i want to be angry but im so dead

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glaznoodlez · 24 days

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Should we just called Jay x Nya ship "AmnesiacShipping" because y'know. They're both lost their memories n shi...

#ninjago #art #ninjago fanart #ninjago fandom #amnesiac #amnesiacshipping #idk what to do anymore #i made this at school help #their so silly!!!

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screaming--agony · 1 month

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Dear Diary,

My head hurts from so many inconsistencies. So many questions. My mind can’t wrap around any of it. It doesn’t make sense.

#dear diary #heart vs mind #weight of the world #sick of being sick #overwhelmed #can’t keep your story straight #i can’t keep up #i can’t keep doing this #idk what to do anymore #it doesn't make sense #the truth shouldn’t be so hard #struggling #confused #out of sorts

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lovebeing-a-girl · 1 month

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There's something hollow inside of me. I can't change that. I've tried I really really have but it doesn't fix anything. It's like someone pushed their hands down my throat and I begged and cried for them to stop but they didn't and now that's what it's like, something hollow inside of me and I can't seem to fill it up no matter how much I try.

It's empty. Something inside me is horribly empty.

#girlblogger #shit post #shit self #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw selfhate #girlblogging #this is what makes us girls #just girly things #girlhood #love being a girl #hell is a teenage girl #aesthetic #soft girl #this is a girlblog #idk what to do anymore #i am just trying #i am sorry

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beautyandraage · 19 days

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i literally am thinking of kms

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cloudster-clown · 5 months

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OH BOY

I sure am glad that I am *DEFINITELY* able to draw using my *PERFECTLY FUNCTIONAL* laptop that is *DEFINITELY NOT* in a boot loop rn :))) /sarcasm

#i have been trying to fix it for DAYS now #i have tried everything #idk what to do anymore #im on the verge of giving up

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abirdonathrone · 6 months

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i don’t know how to convey serious emotions in any way but comedy so here is a meme

i don’t ever want to talk about my personal life again but i felt this needed to be said just if anyone else can relate to my situation :)

#byler #stranger things #idk what to do anymore #meme #i use humour as a coping mechanism if you couldn’t tell lol

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jacksonthereaper · 4 months

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TW// Suicidal thoughts, mental exhaustion, lack of self worth

Doubt anyone's gonna see this but fuck it i might as well drop this in here

I'm so tired

I'm 15 years old male in 10th grade and i'm just so tired of everything. Tired of doing so much and putting in all the effort i can only to be criticized at the slightest mistake, tired of always trying so hard to be nice to others yet only being noticed when i'm rude or doing something bad or embarrassing, tired of this garbage world filled with wars, pollution, genocide, hunger, poverty, discrimination, disease, etc.

I feel like i'm losing more and more motivation with each and every single day that passes, beit for doing things i like, things i don't like, things i have to do, etc. I'm not particularly angry or sad or scared or frustrated, i guess i'm a little melancholic but overall i'm just exhausted, numb, and, most of all, bitter.

I still feel some amount of joy, but it feels so vain and empty. I eat something delicious, i listen to some music, i watch something funny on YouTube, on TV, etc., then i go right back to my misery. I just want someone to hear me calling for help. I just want to feel like someone actually gives a flying fuck about what i have to say, or wants me to feel better, or even just cares about my existence at all.

I don't even know anymore man. I'm just running out of options. I'm probably just experiencing burnout, which coupled with the fact i live in what is essentially a small village in the middle of nowhere, really just makes me feel hopeless.

Fuck this shit, man.

#tw sui ideation #vent post #tw vent #tw mental health #mental exhaustion #i'm so tired #i'm so done #sad post #idk what to do anymore #mental health #lack of motivation #self worth #or lack thereof #i feel alone #i just wanna die #nothing makes sense #fml #ugh

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supersources · 1 year

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#049: BACK IN THE CAGE. an original and free psd coloring. credit not necessary but appreciated. if you’d like to support me, you can donate through payhip or buy the premium version on deviantart, or you can buy me a coffee. : 𝙳𝙰 / 𝙿𝙷 / 𝙰𝙻𝚃.

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paul-ster · 1 month

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Ao3 Curse Got to Me

There’s nothing else I can say. Ao3 author curse has found me. 😢

Actually it got to me last week but that’s another thing.

#I got disowned :(#they probably found my ao3 account 😓#parentless now ☹️#ao3 writer #the outsiders #fanfic #idk what to do anymore #sad?#(I’m not that sad abt it)#do I go on hiatus now?#what if I just take a break?#(I don’t take breaks actually)#writing in hashtags are fun YALL #i hate autocorrect #I guess I’ll post next year #bye 😓💔#jk :3 #<3

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dead-core · 4 months

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in my lost cause era

#lost cause #mental health #mental illness #actually cptsd #actually ana #actualy autistic #actually traumatized #actually borderline #actually bpd #actually ptsd #actually mentally ill #idk what to do anymore

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3v3ry0n3z-fav3-al13n-x3 · 4 months

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My friend @cosmicwhisper sent me this:

( I'm the one being referred to as an "idiot queefteen" btw. )

My friend has mentioned that they're a 21 year old adult and insulting me while I'm a teen and haven't even done anything fucking wrong. They're most likely insulting me for using a typing quirk since my friend has mentioned they've reblogged a handful of posts dunking on typing quirks

I'm sorry but what the actual fuck

I've been getting more and more hate recently, I've been slandered on sum random discord server for "being radqueer" WHEN THAT'S NOT EVEN FUCKING TRUE

I'm slowly considering leaving Tumblr and social media as a whole, it's starting to feel like I'm on TikTok again.

#kinda vent #idk what to do anymore

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wiseoldtree · 2 months

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I have adhd. It's fucking w me because I just cannot work around it.

#adhd #idk what to do anymore #neurodivergent #adhd brain

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lastoneout · 9 months

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I think I need to hang out with a bunch of butch women. I think that would fix me.

#I'm having an actual gender crisis #complicated gender feelings #idk what to do anymore #I can't figure them out