#i think it might be a neurodivergent thing idk

[gay-for-zoya]

This might just be where I live but I really don't understand why neurodivergence isn't taught in primary (elementary) school. I see so many people who don't understand it and are therefore ableist towards it (some intentionally, some not) and it really would be such an easy thing to fix. Teach and show kids it's a thing. Explain how it might affect a person and why they may need different accommodations. Normalise it. Show them that it's not "weird". I'm going to use autism as an example because it's what I've seen most recently. I saw a tiktok of a non-verbal autistic child using a communication app to talk to his dad. Some of the comments where disgusting. People calling him an iPad kid, asking why he can't just talk, saying if he misbehaves the dad should take it off him. Generally just being really rude. I'm not saying this would fix ableism but I feel like teaching kids about why some people need devices like this or smaller things like sensory toys or headphones would massively reduce a lot of the bullying neurodivergent people face at school and online. Plus I imagine it would make a lot of people feel more comfortable using them. If it gets taught kids would probably be more accepting of these things. If they don't know much about it and are only fed negative stereotypes of course it's going to change the way they view us. But accepting children hopefully turn into accepting adults. I feel like it would help with how dehumanising it feels to be neurodivergent but that's a whole other topic. Idk if this makes sense, I'm tired but it's something I've been thinking about for a while now.

#im sorry if this doesn't make sense #or if im wrong about anything #tw ableism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #actually autistic #autism #school #ableism

[just-editor]

I feel like a sim who's low on one of their needs except the interface froze and won't let me see the bars so I can know which one it is

like I NEED something, my body NEEDS IT BUT IT WON'T TELL ME WHAT IT WANTS PLEASE we're both suffering because of you

#i think it might be a neurodivergent thing idk #but like please #just tell me what to do #what do i need to give you so the annoying lights on the dashboard stop flickering #please

[babyboybuckley]

Gonna do a painting a day until they tell us the truth

#smosh #smosh fanart #shayne topp #courtney miller #smosh wedding #shourtney #shourtney wedding #fanart #watercolour #i am SCREAMING over here #like fr im too neurodivergent for this #give me answers #the fact that its in santa barbara tho... makes me think maybe it might be real #but idk!!! could be a really funny fucking prank #either way i am not digging into it im just enjoying the pictures #if true? so happy for them fr #if prank? funniest thing theyve ever done and im not mad

[kasumingo]

So tired of mfs going "everyone wants to be lgbt/neurodivergent now!! stop using our language!!"

it's as if the internet gave people ability to explore themselves and realize there is something going on, especially when they congregate together in groups that share those traits

It’s as if these words describe their experience and helps them in one way or another

#txt #worst thing is that on twitter dot com posts like above get thousands of likes #also idk about you but normalizing terms and symptoms made me safer in public/group settings #because i rarely get asked why i act like i do #or why do i do things i do #because it has been #wait for #normalized! #idgaf if a 'neurotypical' uses a term like 'going nonverbal' #i don't know everything about their lives #they might be undiagnosed neurodivergent themselves #it's a spectrum #but even if they were neurotypical that helps ME #as a neurodivergent #to be more relatable and understood among people #i no longer have to use NT language to make excuses for myself #if they understand what those symptoms are #and that people go through these things #also i strongly believe there are more neurodivergents in this world than people think #because ND is not just disorders #it's anything that alters your brain #it's mentall ilnesses #it's trauma #so people you'd consider NT DO go through symptoms that people born with disorders do #but sometimes it's temporary or not as intense #so shut your hell up about others maybe

[ipusingularitae]

my dad: *telling me i do have socialization deficits, that i need to step out more and interact with people and look like i am part of the environment and that i am "there" and present*

me, knowing damn well i have socialization deficits and feeling overwhelmed in social situations, especially when I don't feel like i fit and when I don't know the other people: ... okay

my dad: did you get upset with me telling you this?

me, dissociating so I don't start crying in front of him: ... no

#like it's not that I think he shouldn't have told me that #because unless he tells me i have no idea what he's thinking and I'll just go about doing my stuff #but it's kinda upsetting to know that on those situations that I'm feeling like shit and wanting to cry #and that i just start using reading as a way to feel better on the situation #I'm actually looking like j don't wanna be there at all and that I'm in a bad mood #like- i am not. I'm just so overwhelmed that I can't think straight so i need to use this to regulate #maybe if i start using a sign saying “I'm not upset if you wanna talk just start the conversation” things might work #idk it's frustrating bc it's not that I don't wanna interact at all it's just so fucking hard #and i feel like ppl knowing that you're neurodivergent means that they can isolate you instead of just looking for better ways to interact #this is so fucked up #like yeah i can make an effort and mask as i do all the fucking time #but at the same time i know that the main reason i do this is bc ppl also don't wanna look for other interaction options #anyway that was a big rant #autism #actually autistic #autistic #neurodivergent #personal #life stuff

[calamitys-child]

Thank u all for being so niceys abt my little activities cs not to sound lit a whiny bairn but every time I tell my dad anything I've been up to he just immediately tells me the negatives of it and I may be an adult but it still sucks ass every time

#'i went to try some sports!' eugh i dont get that sport its dangerous and its not a real sport anyway #'i made some jewellery' thats ugly and i think you shouldnt wear chains itll catch on something #like idk maybe hes trying to be protective but could he at least say SOMETHING nice #like #'did you have fun? thats an interesting activity! make sure and wear your safety gear it sounds scary to me' #'you made that? nice! it might be worth adding a safety breaker link just in case it gets snagged but the wristband is really cool' #like the way i was always taught in school to give feedback was to put nice things at the outside and misgivings in the middle #honestly i think the core of the problem is that my dad and i are just fundamentally incompatible flavours of neurodivergent tbh

[crowfromfoggyforest]

I don't want "life" and "person"

I want "story" and "character"

#does anyone get this #does anyone understand #probably not - i'm probably crazy #no one will see this #idc i just needed to put this out there #one day i might post the thing i wrote once about how real life doesn't care about you but stories do #depersonalisation and derealisation #derealization #idk what to tag this as #neurodivergent #thoughts #escapism #hyperfixation #fantasy #(because if anyone gets this i think it will be the fantasy girlies)

[the-acid-pear]

It's not easy to be a guy with a weird gender and complicated relationships with its sexuality and romantic attraction and fat and autistic and traumatized to the bone but someone has to do it

#luly talks #i tried to rb a post but i hit post limit and i lost it LMAO but i find it interesting how my things overlap #bc as some of you might know i grew up as a fat little girl and you know the world fucking hates us #and on top of that autistic although i had the most neurodivergent ppl along w me #i still wasn't like my other friends tho i always was slightly more lonely slightly more disconnected #they were in on things i didn't seem to be in the social spectrum and i never understood that #and one of those things was indeed romance and dating and in my teen years sex too #like by default i was seen as undesirable. just by virtue of being fat and also kinda androgynous #and the autism just. kept me far away from any social circle or interaction that'd bring me closer to an encounter of any kind #and i always yearned lord knows i still dream of Ana but the thing is i... #i just. love romance in paper #i love the idea of romance. i love the yearning i love the feeling #i know the feeling bc i know euphoria! i know the euphoria that comes from love. #but to me that's a very short lived feeling specially when engaging directly with it #i think its part of a matter of being taught what romantic attraction is and how they paint it #it's similar to how you are taught X and Y is hot even before you understand why #like i remember my mother always joking w me about male mannequins' cocks and like sure i played along #bc i thought it was funny and if the adult i seeked approval from did it then i absolutely should too #but she also scolded me once (and btw i was like 15) bc idk i was acting. like a perv? #and it's so bizarre in retrospective bc it might have been before the age of 15 bc i really didn't care about such matters then #I've always been amaizing at masking i love understanding people and why they do what they do and replicating them #so me being positive to sex and romance is to be expected #but at the same time its weird bc i cannot bring myself to hating it but i also just. dont fucking feel it #but at least w sex comes the horror of having a body too like there's a lot man #but my point is that its funny how despite being seen as undesirable for society i was unaffected bc i was oblivious to it

[lynxalon]

Love; Disconnection and Connection

I am a matryoshka doll

Inverse

Within me I hold

My mother

My grandmother

My great grandmother

And her mother

And her grandmother

But I am not my mother's

Daughter

Does that line end with me

I remember

Going to my grandparents house

And taking those matryoshka dolls

Apart

It felt like love

To take someone apart

Want to see all of them

It's all the matryoshka doll knows

What comes before them and

What comes after

Do I hope for that kind of love

Or do I hope

To be held so tightly

Crushed and put together over

And over

Again

What love do I want

Need

Deserve?

What love will finally (finally!) fill me

I know love because

I hold it within me

So why

Why am I still

...

#lynx speaks #quiet poems #daughterhood #i'm not sure what else i can say for this one #i feel connected to my mother in the way i cook my food and how i dry my hair and how i laugh #but i feel disconnected from any love she might hold for me #i think it's there; she says it is but. why don't i feel it? #my last name ends with me #i've been told this since i was a child #my nana's sister and her side of the family don't have it since she was married #my brother has my stepdad's; his dad's #and there was the assumption that i was straight. i'd marry a man and take his last name. the line would end with me #i've been protective over it ever since #if i ever get married i will keep my last name #i think. it's the only thing that made me feel loved and connected to my family #i wasn't like them. i was a young neurodivergent queer child. and now that i'm an adult #i don't know how to shed that disconnected feeling #because it only seems to be me feeling it but. i wonder if that's not true. if they feel it too because i've always been isolated #because of them or myself. idk. i just don't know #it's too fucken early in the day to be thinkin of all of this lol

[weirdlizard26]

grbrggbfrgbbffbrg

#wl26 #hrng #feeling cute might never talk to anyone ever again #why do i alllllways say the wrong thing #or idk #one moment i have this one image of the world #and i think doing things in a certain way is correct #then i learn that apparently its wrong and you should communicate if youre unhappy about something #ans so i apply that to my life onward #and then like im sorry this happened but maybe next time tell me youre not ok with this #only to then be told that i shouldve known #and i guess i should have #but i didnt #because assuming is also wrong #because not everything is about me #so is there no way of doing anything right or am i just an asshole and a loser with memory so bad i cant recall what happened last week #did happen? did i just think about doing or saying it so hard that my brain registered it as a real action? #who fucking knows man #im so tired #i dont know #is there something wrong with me or am i jusy a jerk #am i just faking the whole neurodivergent shit so that i can make excuses for myself when someone gets hurt #is that all it is

[pantestudines]

having a "former gifted kid" type mental spiral

#i say this because the spiral is actually about how much i hate the word and the general culture around giftedness #mostly because its incredibly inconsistent between schools so people often mean different things when they say it #but also because in my specific case its certainly not a gift but like. what am i supposed to call it. #its literally a neurodivergence in my case that has had many effect postive and negative on my life. but its also a school club. #and its also nothing! before the advent of like modern standardized public education i wouldve just been a curious kid #Without modern public education im not sure i wouldve even been different from other kids. maybe a little socially awkward still but idk #and like. Am i really different from other kids? am I now as an adult different from my peers? Occasionally i will get told as such #how the fuck am i suppose to talk about how much being seperated from my peers and held to higher standards sucked #when the name of the reason why this happened might as well be 'gods specialist little boy' #none of the things that make people think im smarter are really all that useful day to day. and most non-gifted people are like. still smar #i happen to be good at memorizing the kind of facts schools test you on as children #but is that just because i was told as a kid to be good at school and so i tried hard to do that? #even if I am uniquely good at that #does that really make me more intelligent than the high school dropouts who can fix cars like its nothing? #in fact i would say they are at least wiser than me for picking something practical to be smart at #at my school being gifted usually implied you were a little neurodivergent and bad at socializing #often our gifted kids were actually failing classes because they were smart enough to realize they didnt matter #(not me but still) #but at some schools being gifted just means you were an avid reader or were pressured by your parents to maintain perfect As at all times #so if i say. wanted to talk about how being 'gifted' has often made some aspects of academia like hating emails and having time blindness #and not having a good friend network and having many unadressed issues around not really knowing how to make friends #if i wanted to talk about that. and i say 'I was gifted growing up and this sucked' #the person on the other end might hear 'oh woe is me im so smart and this makes my life so hard' #AND FURTHER STILL #on tumblr especially 'former gifted kid' has kindve become parlance for 'guy whining about nothing' #or even 'person who they were told was smart but is actually kinda dumb' #which... yeah! theres a reason many former gifted kids are like that! thats kindve my issue with the program in the first place! #it takes otherwise relatively normal if well achieving kids and tells them they are gods specialist little children. #THIS CANNOT BE HELPFUL TO ANYONE? like whatever chance the kids had at seeming normal has been stripped away #and they now also think they are the smartest person in the room in every situation

[scarlet-bee]

I was thinking about my OC Molly, but I accidentally thought the name Wally instead, so my thought ended up being "Thinking about making ADHD Wally canon," as if I have that power.

#he's definitely autistic though. i think it's canon? kinda? or at least heavily implied. idk i'm new here #i also think frank is autistic and julie has adhd. but let's be honest none of these neighbors are neurotypical #welcome home (handshake) phineas and ferb (handshake) my ocs: everyone is neurodivergent #(another thing they have in common is that i love them and they're comforting to me) #'this bitch just called psychological horror comforting' yeah so? #anyway yeah i keep accidentally making my ocs neurodivergent #jenny being autistic was on purpose but i think i accidentally gave molly adhd and cj might be autistic too? #where do you take ocs to get them diagnosed?? #btw i know that autism and adhd aren't the only ways to be neurodivergent; they're just the only ones that happened to come up in this post #my ocs #untitled project #oc: molly #welcome home #wally darling #m #m: welcome home #m: wally darling

[legendoftherisingtide]

my friend just showed me a tiktok about someone doing something weird and labeling it something autistic people do and then looking at me and being like who knows maybe im autistic

like girl i love you but that’s not how it works oh my god

i hope she wasn’t being fr because it was about someone sleeping with their chin in their hand like oh my god that’s not THE SIGN.

that tiktok wasn’t saying “ALL AUTISTIC PEOPLE DO THIS AND THIS IS THE BE ALL END ALL OF NEURODIVERGECY” that is just,,, something someone with autism could do bc they were autistic.

this is one of the things i have a problem about with mental disorders on social media,, disorders are boiled down into symptoms and sometimes even misinformation and then instead of it being a joke that can be shared with people who are neurodivergent, it is taken as a definite diagnosis.

like she fr saw two tiktoks about someone’s sleeping position and thought she has autism now. i can’t—

#idk im just rambling #ive seen this one too many times #like i completely understand diagnosis is hard to get #but basing your self diagnosis on tiktoks and misinformation and oversimplification is kinda…. idk it kinda makes me feel weird #like no one is taking it seriously #like they dont take me seriously #autism #autistic #neurodivergent #neurological disorder #also this might be missing a joke— im realizing that now #I realize that sometimes jokes do go over my head #so if I’m making a big deal out of something that was a joke I’m sorry #but this kinda made me upset #idk I kinda wanna know what others think #and please no hate to people who fall into this trapping of self diagnosing without properly researching #it’s usually a thing kids do because they want to feel like they belong somewhere #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosers

[seawitchkaraoke]

Everyone rec me your organisational apps pls?

Specifically things that will send me push notifications are good bc I tend to get an app and then just never open it... Even better if those notifications are really customisable, have a snooze option etc.

#adhd #actually adhd #organisation #chores #apps #idk what to tag this uhhh #neurodivergent #like i like habitica but it simply does not bother me enough i think #my brother swears by alarmy to get out of bed and I've been thinking of trying that to also set alarms for chores #but thats not really what it's made for #so any recs at all are welcome! #even if you think it might not quite fit perfectly still tell me #i can't check things out if idk what they're called #i should also reactivate my bullet journal probably

[seimsisk]

did I tell you guys I apparently accidentally overdosed on a brownie? yeah I didn't nearly die because you can't really die from THC poisoning but I definitely THOUGHT I had died (or at least become detached from the physical existence as whole) and that was the #1 scariest experience of my life (*) and I kinda wished someone had warned me that was a possibility

I think my mistake was eating it with an empty stomach. Plz don't repeat my mistake y'all.

#* i didn't wanna add this in the body of the post but I have had some close brushes with death and they didn't scare me like this #also dealing with other people's unexpected death which was scarier than my own death anyway #thc #tw drugs #tw unreality #i had some weird unreality experiences before but they were mostly ok #this one felt like I would never come out of it #it was probably the memory thing that triggered it #also I think I might not have dealt with some of my trauma this year #i'm not sure how to deal with any of this #just #I really don't want to be trapped in a state where reality literally can't exist ever again #on an unrelated note #I think being neurodivergent makes me connect easier to ppl who use acid? idk #I'm kinda scared to use drugs in general and I think I'll be extra careful from now on

[realboutfatalfury]

it might just be bc it's late and i get sad sometimes when it's late but i'm sad i like feeel soooo bad about several things and i feel like i want to cry but i can't ughh idk...

#just gonna like write out my problems in the tags bc that like helps me process them 👍 #first of i feel like i can't connect well with people at all #especially with people in school.. there are some people i am fine with i can like talk with them fine and feel a connection #but then like with others i just feel..so out of touch with them idk #i just feel like they don't want to be around me anymore and i'm just some annoying guy that is there #but like i know that isn't true (hopefully) #ugggh and then like i go back to thinking they do actually not like me and yeah just a whole loop going on #after i get tired of thinking about that i think about school in general and start getting stressed about it #even though i am doing alright it's idk.. #it;s just i'm like thinking of stuff that happens later through the school year and thinking i want things to get finished quickly #i like want to get my paintings and projects done already but i gotta think and take my time and shit! #i want it done now so i won't have to do it anymore even though i do like working on them #when i work on something i want to like sit down and work on it till it's done #which is kind of a not good habit to have i know i've been trying to like try to get rid of it #or like minimize it #ok i'm like reading over these and like. i think it's bc i might be neurodivergent. #i keep forgetting i got a high score in that autism test...hmmm #anyway also stressed about this camping trip for school that happens next week #1) my mom keeps nagging me about how i am physically weak to like go camping but still wants me to go to it #2) we have to be in groups and you don't like get assigned one you have to like just form it... which like #if you've read above i am having trouble with people and connecting hence i haven't found a group yet orz... #and that's like it for that. #school is just stressing a bit and i don't want that.... #last problem is like kind of dumb but like my youtube feed has sucky videos i don't want to watch and i haaaaate it. #it's like it doesn't get me at all.....whatever... #ok i think that's like enough...feel a bit better laying it all out #still feel those things but like doing this made me feel better feeling this way and understand them #feeling things is good and alright 👍