#i just get excited about things and ramble about them whether it's vocally or in word form

[forallthepjostuff]

I need to know the pjo/marvel fic rn. Name and website.

Ok, I really wanted to answer this and go 'here it is!'....but to be honest, I don't remember the name, and I've been looking for it since I saw this and still haven't found it.

I'm assuming you're talking about the fic I mentioned where Thor's heard of Percy, and everyone's just confused as to how. Because, I'm not sure where it was, but I also remember mentioning a fic where Percy and Peter had already known each other and hadn't seen each other for a while.

So I don't remember that one but here's another one that has the whole 'Thor recognizes Percy' thing, Percy Jackson: The New Avenger by Firestar1218 on FanFiction.net. It's about Percy becoming a SHEILD agent after Annabeth and the others die, and joining the Avengers right before Loki escapes Asgard. Fair warning, it's incomplete, only 7 chapters, 11k words, some grammar mistakes and the last time it was updated was 2014. But it had a scene where Thor recognized Percy, which--because I was on a kick for that trope at the time--was all I wanted out of it, to be honest.

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10583829/1/Percy-Jackson-The-New-Avenger

There's also the one I'm reading right now (that I found while I was looking for the original one I read) called A Hero's Fate: A Percy Jackson and Avengers FanFiction by bookaholic4ever on FanFiction.net that had a scene in the first chapter where Fury tells the Avengers to capture Percy because of him being suspected of terrorism, and Thor fanboys over Percy and then refuses to fight Percy and warns the Avengers against it because Thor's heard of what he's done. The summary also mentions another prophecy, but I'm only on chapter 4 out of 39. It's complete, and 74k words, but it also has a few grammar mistakes and the rest of the seven are all dead in this one, too.

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13738012/1/A-Hero-s-Fate-A-Percy-Jackson-and-Avengers-Fanfiction

This is also the one I mentioned where Percy and Peter knew each other from before Percy found out he was a demigod. I forgot they become a couple in the end and that it's a series of a few one shots.

Then, of course there's my favorite PJO/Marvel fanfiction of all time, The File series by denimbeans on Archive Of Our Own, which is currently 237k words. The first two stories are complete, and the third story and the text fic in the series are, no joke, the only stories where I actively check for updates and read updates as soon as possible.

The first story is an AU of Blood Of Olympus, with one of the big things changed being that while Percy and Annabeth are in Tartarus, Annabeth dies and Percy goes blind, and Percy gets brought to Atlantis to heal and mourn. Also this one does have descriptions that could possibly make someone slightly squeamish. The second revolves around Percy, who used to be a SHIELD agent (and used to be on a search and rescue team, and used to be a mercenary...basically this whole series is very much deserving of the Badass Percy Jackson tag), being Tony Stark's bodyguard, and then starting his own replacement for SHIELD, because this takes place after Civil War and after SHIELD'S file dump. The third one goes more in depth about the organization Percy starts, and is about the aftermath of Civil War, with Barnes standing trial and the Rogue Avengers in hiding. The forth is a text fic that follows along with the stories, includes Peter more, and is funnier than the others (also has Percy being slightly ominous and cryptic, which is always fun to read.)

I know they're probably not exactly what you want, but I hope they're close enough? Or the first two are, at least?

#the third is because I'd feel weird mentioning it without saying anything else about it #& the forth is because it's an amazing crossover of the two and needs to be recommended to everyone and anyone who wants a pjo/marvel fic #i have some more too if you'd like #and some more that i'm currently reading but haven't added to my bookmarks yet (i mostly read on ao3) #but seriously i looked and can't find it. which is so weird #in my ao3 bookmarks & my fanfiction.net favorites & then just...typing what i remember into google to see if any results sound familiar #nothing did #it's so weird. i remember reading it but i just...can't find it #i'm probably gonna keep looking and tell you if i do find it. but now it's irritating me that i can't find it so i'm determined to #hope you like the ones i did recommend though. and if you'd like more or something feel free to ask #....you probably weren't expecting a fucking block of text when you sent the ask huh? sorry #i just get excited about things and ramble about them whether it's vocally or in word form

[morhido]

I've been lost in the owl house sauce for about three years and as a result i've mentally compiled a list of the characters' speech patterns and body language. Then i realised i should probably do something with that information and decided to jot it all down :>>

This is just gonna be the hexsquad for now since my lists for other characters are fairly sparse but additions/requests are welcome! Mayhaps i'll add to it in the future sjdkshskj

(The 'other' category is for general quirks, or things that just didn't fit the other categories)

LUZ:

• Happy/excited: stamps feet with high knees, squeaks/makes high pitched sounds, makes fists and brings them to her chest/face

• Sad: will initially deny if she's upset, whether she fesses up is up to circumstance. Lowers her head, can become unresponsive, becomes tired, voice will generally remain quiet and flat even if something cheers her up, empathetic crier

• Stressed/overwhelmed: repeats phrases over ("no no no, you're belos, you're just belos!"), falls to her knees or puts on hood when overwhelmed, acts overly casual to compensate for her panicking ("yikes, my dude"), protective of others when in physical danger (usually holds amity's head). More comedically, can often make unnecessary/dramatic gestures (e.g. spinning, cartwheeling, flopping to the floor) when stressed

• Angry: gets louder, sometimes unwilling to hear the other person out, becomes very physical, loses volume control (often to her own detriment), sticks her elbows out to look more intimidating. More comedically, will sometimes make animal noises/gestures (e.g. hissing and clawing)

• Other: often prematurely assumes that people will react poorly to her ("she's gonna embarrass herself, i can't watch!" / "if amity sees this, she'll think i'm such a loser!" / "what if the palisman doesn't like me?"), can accidentally be inconsiderate of other people in favour of her impulse, resorts to violence quickly and generally doesn't try to make peace with adults, very easily becomes rambly with strong emotion and can repeat words and phrases, can become loud and panicky during combat if her goal is self-preservation but becomes much more focused if fighting with/protecting other people

WILLOW:

• Happy/excited: becomes very active and touchy, very straightforward, taps toes, will be oblivious if others are intimidated by her, voice pitches up when excited

• Sad: draws herself in, becomes quiet, looks down/closes her eyes, isolates herself, can become less responsive, talks to herself

• Stressed/overwhelmed: loses control of magic, covers hair, voice pitches up when extremely nervous, very rarely acts on impulse even when scared, high-pitched squeaks/screams when startled

• Angry: vines grow from the ground beneath her, shows vocal disdain for whatever is upsetting her, can become very sardonic ("you want me to give up? You want me to admit how stressed i am?"), can go from high and stern when upset ("you just met them, give them a chance!") to low and loud when fully angry ("what advice could you POSSIBLY give me??")

• Other: denial is default coping mechanism, very often does the gag of pretending to be intimidating and then doing something sweet/cute, will be oblivious to the other person's fear when this happens, love language is physical touch, makes her feelings known unless she's specifically not trying to upset people, can speak pretty formally ("enchanting!", "how dare you?"), talks to herself in second person when hyping herself up, takes offensive role in combat

AMITY:

• Happy/excited: voice can get louder, smiles with teeth when extremely excited, becomes more impulsive with what she says and does

• Sad: raises voice when trying to make a point, voice cracks, becomes quieter with remorse, remains very quiet and calm when comforting/confiding in someone else

• Stressed/overwhelmed: s1 amity would get extremely defensive if any vulnerability was exposed ("help? All you're doing is prying into your friends' lives!"), rambles when flustered, holds hem of skirt when she's nervous/doesn't know what to do, also generally moves hands a lot when nervous, attempts to leave situations that are upsetting her, high-pitched screams when startled (does this less throughout the series as she becomes more on-guard and impulsive)

• Angry: often gets louder and more animated (e.g. her trying to break out of the dome in clouds on the horizon), face turns red, pushes away the source of her anger, doesn't usually stay angry for long, moves her body forward (e.g. pointing, gesturing, or actually stepping forwards), will often stick her arms straight at her sides

• Other: generally uncomfortable leaving her comfort zone but extremely confident in fields that she already excels in, extremely accepting of change in other people, arguably the second most impulsive of the hexsquad (especially regarding luz's safety) and uses fire to solve a lot of her problems, will take control of a situation when she knows she's in the right ("you're gonna listen to me for once"), usually very perceptive to others' emotions

GUS:

• Happy/excited: draws fists up to face, big gestures (especially with hands/arms)

• Sad: self-blames/depricates ("yeah. It's all my fault"), curls up with his arms and head on his knees, usually very vocal about being upset with something, "you've done it again, augustus" (in the context of being tricked by someone), can remain in this state for a long time, draws in on himself but doesn't push other people away

• Stressed/overwhelmed: loses control of magic (finds it difficult to discern reality from illusions), often hides behind willow when scared, laughs/smiles nervously when anxious or flustered, can get tunnel vision on the thing that's upsetting him

• Angry: stays level-headed and doesn't often raise his voice, speech becomes more emphatic, can become snarkier ("hey belos, remember me?"), remains distant from the subject of his anger, usually stays in a stance

• Other: very eager to prove himself whenever he has the opportunity (love language is acts of service), most willing to resort to violence ("nobody's dying" "not with that attitude", usually in a joking manner), most annoyed by his friends' shenanigans but always willing to tag along, makes big gestures (especially when emphasising something), sometimes repeats phrases when feeling strong emotions ("gus? Nickname? HUMAN nickname?? GUS???" / "wait × 6, is this really what you wanna be doing with your life?")

HUNTER:

• Happy/excited: extremely animated with his hands, voice gets louder, becomes very confident. Is very playful and arrogant when in golden guard mode and will usually try to show off or start relying on empty threats

• Sad: voice goes quiet and airy, voice cracks, can become raspier

• Stressed/overwhelmed: doesn't like to be touched when upset, is overwhelmed by affection and will often start crying, goes silent and dissociates when processing upsetting information, voice cracks, becomes extremely snappy and irritable from long-term stress, freezes under pressure, draws in on himself when panicking, goes silent when flustered

• Angry: becomes grumpy when things don't go his way, is extremely animated and expressive when actually angry, can become sardonic, raises voice, makes small movements (e.g. shaking leg or pacing small area). As golden guard, would try to physically intimidate the other person (e.g. looming over or walking towards them)

• Other: doesn't tend to self-blame and will either pass the fault onto someone else ("you got us trapped in the emperor's mind!"), or acknowledge when someone else was in the wrong ("you were tricked. That's what belos does, he tricks people"). Almost never initiates combat and plays a more defensive role, extremely theatrical/expressive and talkative (will have to actively restrain himself to not talk about something), squeaks a lot

#i had one of these posts for an old fandom i was in and it was uber helpful for writing their dialogue #so hopefully this can help someone else :>> #toh #the owl house #toh luz #luz noceda #toh willow #willow park #toh amity #amity blight #toh gus #gus porter #toh hunter #hunter noceda #hunter deamonne #gekkering

[allaboardthevespa]

Senses-Focused Ellabby HCs!

Your ambassador of Ellabby has returned. Headcanons of the gals based on the five senses! Three for each sense

💖Sight💗

Whenever the girls are cuddling, they sometimes start complmenting every little thing about their partners, from their face to their earlobes to their fingers. So on and so forth. “All of me loves all of you!”

Ellie is a total sucker for bunnies. Even seeing a picture of a cartoonish bunny rabbit is liable to send her into a gushing frenzy. Gabby is well aware of this and regularly gives her bunny-themed gifts.

Being a skilled artist with an excellent eye for fashion, Ellie often finds herself drawing pictures of her girlfriend wearing her fashion designs.

🎵Hearing🔊

Ellie loves when Gabby goes into one of her silly rambles about what she loves, finding it adorable how excited she gets over everything, and loving the sound of her voice.

Gabby is a little self-conscious about her singing voice, but Ellie loves hearing her sing, no matter how loud she gets.

The girls have gotten into each other’s favorite music genres a lot, with Gabby generally liking more low-key and emotional female vocal music like your Billie Eilish and your Girl in Red (as well as Enej, which Word of God has confirmed her to love), while Ellie is very into pop punk. They’ve sung one another’s favorite songs together a lot. (Ellie’s favorite song is Only One by Yellowcard while Gabby’s favorite song is Everything I Wanted by Billie Eilish.)

💐Smell🌹

Ellie’s pretty vulnerable to smells in general. Having worked at an awful bartending job, she can’t handle the smell of alcoholic beverages without feeling sick due to the painful memories. Nonetheless, this makes Ellie love the scent of flowers even more. Flowers make her feel safe. Meanwhile, Gabby just loves flowers because she’s a nature-loving sweetheart and admires all its charms, smell very much included.

Gabby is something of a rose enthusiast. She knows which ones are the easiest or hardest to grow, and which ones have the smells she and Ellie like best. She can sometimes be seen online talking with fellow rose enthusiasts. She’s also surprised Ellie with many bouquets of her favorite roses!

The girls like stopping at perfume stores and sampling the perfumes they have on offer, and buying their favorites.

🍧Taste🧁

I’ve probably mentioned this before (apologies if I haven’t) but the girls dislike fast food outlets (especially given Gabby’s veganism and dislike of big fat corporations) and much prefer smaller businesses. Most of their dates are at tiny vegan cafes in towns and parks.

Gabby absolutely adores dark chocolate (girl same). The girls often grab any dark chocolate they find in corner stores!

The girls also love fruit sorbet, and regularly have dates in cozy ice cream and sorbet shops and sharing them.

🤝Touch👏

Ellie understands how touch-starved Gabby is and thus won’t hesitate to give her cuddles and kisses when she needs them. Regardless of whether they’re in public or in private, they cuddle and kiss a lot, and they feel safe in each other’s arms.

The girls adore warm fuzzy blankets. (you could’ve guessed by yesterday’s fic lol) They love cuddling beneath them, and whenever one of them is sick (usually Gabby because Ellie has a strong immune system), the other one will wrap them up in a freshly-washed fuzzy blanket to warm them up.

Gabby’s most tickle-sensitive spots are her tummy and neck while Ellie’s most tickle-sensitive spots are her sides and underarms. Both girls get jumpy if you even poke them there, but they’re always willing to let each other go crazy on those spots. Getting tickled by their lover brings them a lot of serotonin.

#disventure camp #disventure camp gabby #disventure camp ellie #ellabby #gabellie #headcanons #senses #AGAIN I DEPICT ELLIE AS SUCH A SOFT GIRL LMAO #in this house we love and appreciate pop-punk stan ellie

[egg-emperor]

Thoughts on Eggman getting super drunk on eggnog? What kind of drunk do you think he'd be like?

Because he's a really big guy, very uniquely so, and I headcanon he has larger than average organs too, it takes quite a lot to even feel a bit drunk. But he can still easily get there if he wants to or gets carried away because he can really go for it when he gulps it down. It's easy for it to be a case of getting carried away when it comes to eggnog, sometimes he wants to see how fast he can drink it, not thinking about how it'll end up affecting him, then it suddenly hits him hard and that's how he can end up super drunk.

As long as nobody bothers him as his temper is still just as quick when he's sober, he can feel relaxed one minute and excited the next, actually very happy and positive most of the time. He sighs in delight and says he feels better and needed that if it gets him into a rare calmer relaxed mood that's surprising for people to see and he giggles at how the sudden floaty feeling makes him feel dizzy and silly. As much as he loves being a super genius that's always thinking deeply, it's nice to switch off for a little while and feel warm and jolly.

His robots really wish he'd stay that way and remain seated the whole time but after a small struggle he soon manages to pull himself up and when he realizes how jolly and wobbly and silly he feels, he suddenly wants to get playful and for some fun and amusement. He's silly all the time but if his robots weren't aware that he'd been drinking at first, they'll soon realize what's up as he's stumbling and slurring and not making complete sense and they're like here we go again because they know he won't behave lol

He gets rowdy and boisterous and when he's not entirely aware or in control then it's even more wild than usual. He'll do everything as loudly as possible, whether he's singing out of tune, rambling about his plans and how great he is with much less sense than usual, swooning over himself and talking about how he's so handsome in intimate detail and admiring and feeling himself up in the mirror and his robots find it awkward how it's especially obvious how into himself he is as they don't like to be reminded too much. XD

He'll feel very cheeky and have the desire to cause all kinds of mischief that makes him giggle and gets him the attention he wants and he'll only get worse if people give him a reaction that he finds funny and entertaining. He likes to do all the most embarrassing and shocking things he can and try to bother and people. It's not easy holding him back from getting himself into trouble, especially if he manages to get outside, so his robots try their best to keep him indoors because it's enough chasing him around in there!

He gets big cravings for snacks or chocolate or candy to keep the good mood going with treating himself. He'll raid the pantry or fridge even if he's not long since eaten a meal and will eat his favorite food to his heart's content, despite his robots' disapproval of how excessive it is. But he uses the excuse of sobering up, though it never really helps much when he's super drunk, instead it's easier for him to get carried away and blissfully indulge without a care in the world. He's always very pleased after lots of booze and food.

He can start feeling especially affectionate if he's been drinking with someone he's attracted to and expresses it through both actions and words in different ways than usual. He gets eager for some fun and gets bold and vocal with his desires, like if he suddenly wants to be held and receive belly rubs, cuddles, and kisses and praise. He'll get needy and whine if he doesn't get what he wants and reaches his arms out to demand them to come over and give it to him and it's so cute, how could one refuse hehe

He can get naughty and in the mood when he's jolly and playful. He gets cheeky and handsy and says dirty things to them without any filter, even if others are around that really don't want to know. He gradually starts losing his clothes with the excuse that it feels hot but he's obviously showing off. They can end up drunkenly making out and more if they've drank as much and both want it too. And if he's alone he can still end up getting dirty and intimate, just with his reflection in the mirror and own body instead lol

When his robots or anyone else isn't happy with his behavior or shenanigans and try to tell him what to do, instead of being angry he can just find it amusing and start feeling devious as he keeps doing it just to get them worked up. There are times he can get grumpy but he starts acting like a stubborn bratty kid more than the big loud angry man he usually is while sober. It's still possible to bring out the latter in the worst cases but everyone usually knows not to push him as they especially don't want to get on his bad side then.

He finds it extremely hard to balance and walk the dizzier he feels as it's already a miracle how he isn't clumsier while sober with the way he's built with his heavy body, lanky legs, and big feet. He'll wobble and stumble a lot even while just a bit tipsy the moment he loses the slightest bit of control and focus on his movement and it gets worse the drunker he gets and he's a mess. He'll insist he's got it but struggles just to stand and grips onto things for balance and just laughs about how everything is spinning.

He'll wobble and fall easily so everyone better not stand too close if they don't want him to potentially fall on top and crush them! And once he's on the floor, he won't be able to get up on his own and will be passed out in the deepest sleep but his robots know he'll be mad if they don't move him somewhere more comfortable, so they have to drag and lift his heavy body and it requires bigger more powerful robots. Reason 23475 why he needs a big strong muscular man like the ones he's into, they could handle him fhsjgnsksjgk

So yeah I imagine it's usually pleasant for him and bad for those around him, aside from when he has to deal with the harsh consequences the next day from going overboard of course. He can get really angry or down and start ranting and moping about his frustrations while drunk if he's in an especially bad mood before he starts drinking and it brings it out more, or he's only just put into one after by someone and kills it for him, but most of the time it's a way to stop feeling all those negative things and just feel good for a while.

He always likes to celebrate every event and reward himself with booze and will also use it to deal with defeats because unless something sets off his usual temper, he more often gets lucky enough for it to put him in a good mood and it makes him want to keep drinking more, and if it's one of his favorites like eggnog, champagne, or rice wine. He'll be happy and carefree, sometimes in a more relaxed and dazed way, excited and energetic way where he'll get cheeky and cause trouble, or both and he has a good time either way!

#dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #dr. eggman #asks #headcanons #alcohol mention #suggestive #food #my post

[agustdakasuga]

omg!! no i‘m pretty sure that we all LOVE TWOAC "so far" if i can even say it like that bc i‘m also sure that we will love it till the end </33 i‘ve been following you for some time now and with your other series i can confidently say that your writing, plots, characters and just all of it, among a few other writers on here, is the best!! you were also one of the first bangtan writers that i stumbled upon so i‘m also kind of attached to everything you ever said or wrote :DD that’s why i‘m also glad that you came back again, i think that sometimes reader forget how much time and just blood sweat & tears LOL writers put in their fics..you’re basically gifting us your masterpieces and i hope that you know that we’re forever grateful for that, even if it sometimes maybe doesn’t seem like that

i also hope that we can be more vocal about it in the future, i myself have to work on it esp being an anon idk just sometimes doesn’t feel too personal i think but just know that you always got your little supporters on here whether you’re writing or not💕

it’s also more than okay not having time to write i mean we all got our personal life’s let’s be real life sometimes just gets too busy so don’t worry about that at all!!

as for TWOAC, i‘m glad that you picked it up again i think i remember you not being too satisfied with it when you first started long time ago so i hope that writing it is fun for you, i liked it back then and i like it even more now, i think you’re doing a really good job on building up the storyline with oc’s parents her father and the boys being kind of mysterious, oc having a mini character development understanding the boys more being open with them, the boys being so patient with her and so on, i like how you also thought about the boys individually spending some 1:1 time with her so they also can grow their relationship beyond their group :) i‘m very very excited to see where this story goes

wow anon, i don't really know what to say. this being the first thing i read when i wake up and get ready for work, it really really made my day. thank you for sending this in.

(a little ramble-y below so i put a cut)

i'm so happy to hear that you've been a follower for a while and know my older series, as well as the time i took away from tumblr (still can't believe it was 6 months)

i really enjoy writing, it is a way i de-stress but recently, with work piling up and other stuff happening in my private life, the thought of having to write and post chapters consistently for my readers has been a bit more pressuring than expected.

don't worry though! i'm okay, i just have to organise my priorities, which means drafts can't be done in a few days. i do try to write over the weekends so i can at least still post something. tumblr has been very quiet too so i guess that adds to the lack of motivation. i miss interacting and speaking with all of you. but i understand that not everyone likes to "verbally" express their thoughts and would rather silently appreciate something.

please don't feel that anon is not personal at all. i cherish and treasure every message that comes my way. you can even pick an emoji and become _ anon if you'd like.

And lastly, thank you for your feedback on WOAC. i'm glad you can see the difference between this revisited version and the old version. i didn't want to rush this plot and storyline, i wanted to build up to it to have some form of 'realism' to it. this OC is definitely different from the others, i think i subconsciously added a lot of myself into her. and im just trying out this new way of the boys approaching her, more 1-on-1 rather than all 7 strangers coming.

i hope you have a great day!

#inbox #replies #anon #wow #this was strangely emotional #its been a while #thank you so much #this made my day #i love this #and appreciate it

[tm-trx]

currents.25/2023

selections from my week in media [18-24 june 2023]

Click through for kpop ramblings, underwhelming dramas, entertaining dramas, and way too many parenthetical thoughts.

[anticipating]

SHINee - It’s finally comeback week! Maybe we’ll get a performance in the suits? And I’m excited that Minho & Taemin will be on Amazing Saturday.

[listening]

Bouncy / ATEEZ - It’s an earworm at this point, but I’m not mad about it.

Pentagon - Based on this post, I made up a bunch of playlists and have been working my way through them [standouts so far: Like This, Daisy, Shine, Do or Not, and Critical Beauty]. I like them, although I will say they sound “stereotypically kpop” to my ears right now. I don’t consider this to be a bad thing, it’s just that it’s what I would have expected kpop to sound like before I actually started listening to it. For reference: the first kpop I heard was SHINee thanks to Boys Over Flowers, but BTS is who got me started listening to it. Then I figured out who SHINee were and have mostly stayed there. I tend to like groups with clear-cut ‘leader’ voices* so SHINee is exactly what I love.

But it is still early days, and I have not watched any of Pentagon’s promo content so I have very little idea who the members are or what their voices sound like (that said, there is one guy that is starting to stand out - Kino I think?). In that vein, if you are their fan please feel free to send me links (or tag me). I’ll be looking for guides to watch too, but I’m sure some are better than others.

*What I’m calling groups with one or two people whose voices are distinct enough to stand out without knowing the members (whether that person is the official ‘leader’ or not). SHINee is of course my prime example, with both Jonghyun’s and Onew’s voices clearly standing out. This isn’t a quality or value judgement, my ears are just very good at voice recognition so that’s the thing I focus in on most of the time.

TL;DR: Pentagon is great and I want to keep listening/learning until I know them better. (I wasn’t kidding about the playlists. I think I’m up to six. LOL)

[reading]

An Elegant Solution by giraffeter - MDZS fix-it - reread

[watching]

The First Responders - If I had known it ended on a cliffhanger I would have waited until season two was out (MDL says it’s coming August 2023). It was mostly okay. There was a corruption subplot that wasn’t integrated well at all and felt shoe-horned in. On the flip side, I really liked Dojin, the firefighter of the lead triad. Said triad is a great candidate for ot3-ness (which I loved), even though the show went with the tired old love triangle trope. The cases of the week were all interesting and heart-breaking by turns.

King the Land - This show is still firmly in romcom territory and honestly I’m loving it. I haven’t watched a chaebol kdrama in awhile, so the tropes aren’t old or annoying, but instead cheesy and funny.

Love Tractor - It’s still just okay. It’s a critique cliche, but the two leads feel like they are in different dramas. One is in a light and cute country mouse/city mouse romcom, the other is in a moody finding yourself YA romance. (It will surprise no one who has read anything in my #tmtrx watches drama tag which one I prefer.) The appearance of the boyfriend this week was the highlight of the episode. That final conversation was so so good. I hurt for both of them. It’s a painful truth that high school-to-college relationships rarely work out.

Shigatsu no Tokyo wa (Tokyo in April is) - I think I should have waited on this one. We’re two episodes into an eight episode show of 30-minute episodes and I’m getting the slow drip feeling. The problem is that I love it so I’ll probably keep torturing myself by watching week to week.

SHINee World IV concert - Wow. SHINee is back! It was an incredible concert. They really are live vocal kings.

Step By Step - Fits neatly into my ‘delicious angst’ file. What a great episode.

W Two Worlds - Rewatched the whole series this week. I love it so much. I wish they’d made a tie-in manhwa (or at least printed a collection of the manhwa art), because I love the art style they used for it in the show. I also wish the boxed set wasn’t so ding-dang expensive because apparently it includes a director’s cut?!

previous Currents posts

#pentagon #king the land #step by step #love tractor #shigatsu no tokyo wa #w two worlds #kdrama #thai drama #jdrama #tmtrx currents #tmtrx watches dramas #fic rec

[wolfcamellias]

Okay as the person who accidentally brought abt teacher wukong through a string of events, have some food.

Wukong having to deal with Karen’s when the parents visit, to which the student who’s parent it is apologizes in advance.

I wonder if Bai He is in there. I want to see Mac unapologetically having a favorite student.

On a tired day, Wukong just puts on a nature documentary, unbeknownst to him, it had a sections about monkeys. And wouldn’t you know it? ADHD MK imitated the chirps that were heard on screen. Wukong almost chirps back but turns it into cough and sipped his drink, panicking.

But guess what? it becomes a new vocal stim for MK. And every time the urge to chirp back gets stronger.

He immediately warms up to Mei after she called a misogynist the most well put together string of insult that he had ever heard.

Nezha came by once, and Mei began talking to him about bikes. She was one of the first mortals that they had a good conversation with mortal that they genuinely seemed interested in the topic/person.

MK one time is talking excitably with his teacher before he trails off an apologizes for rambling. Wukong is having none of that.

A therapy dog comes in one day and class is put on hold as every student is adoring over a golden retriever.

And the jttw debate club isn’t always debating serious things. One time they debated on whether or not zhu bajie stood up to wipe or sat down, much to Wukong’s amusement.

Whichever team gets MK on their side automatically wins, except when Mei is on the opposite team because she will pull all the stops to be competitive towards her best friend.

And last thing, Mei starts leaving origami flowers on Wukongs desk after he’s nice to her. I have a hc Mei leaves origami for people she likes to find, and Wukong had many a time seen them at MK’s desk for him to find, and even Red Son and Nezha started finding them at one point.

PPL COME GET YOUR TEACHER MONKEY CONTENT

I love that I was in the midst of writing something for Teacher!SWK right now as the next big fic of Valleys so this couldn't have been sent at a better time; I'm staring intently at the Mei ones because 👀👀 that's very interesting (snickers in author knowledge)

SWK dealing with parents who are Less Than Patient is handled through a series of smart-mouthing and "so you agree; you agree that you can't force a kid into being a perfect model A student if he does not want to be one and you cannot have higher expectations of them because it puts too much stress on them physically and mentally?" to the point where he's had several parents yell at him before leaving with the glamoured immortal throwing a sympathetic look at the student

And Bai He's a little young to be in the same classes that Macaque will, eventually, teach. However, since she is homeschooled, sometimes Macaque will take her to school since he doesn't want to leave her alone (or gods forbid a babysitter) so she hangs in the classroom, spinning in his chair and, sometimes, just to startle the students, sitting where the students sit and playing along with her baba that she's just a "super advanced student". The other classmates assume it's a prank and then Bai He correctly answers most, if not all, of the problems on the board because she and Macaque go over these lectures at home.

The Nezha and Mei moment made me smile sm they're the best of content ngl;;;

For the therapy dog, I'm going to put my card down and say it's the one (1) dog Wukong doesn't flinch away from or leave the room for since his cynophobia is big (stares directly at the battle against Erlang Shen)

Glad to see more JTTW Debate Club content.. those guys will be missed dearly for the day Sun Wukong decides they're taking it a little too far in trying to analyze the River That Shall Not Be Named (also Remix Medley battling it out on opposite teams is my favorite thing to imagine NGL)

The origami flowers Mei leaves Wukong,,, they're balcamines 😭😭

scrumptious, than kyou for the food ella im FEASTING

#ask #jttw: dc #valleys au #🌿 #sun wukong #I COULD TAG THE OTHER CHARAS... #but they'd all get lost in the sauce that is my blog #man #NCDJSKNCKDS #THANK U THO ELLA THIS WAS SO NICE TO READ

[gh0st-patr0l]

ADHD in DSMP

So about a week back, I made a post about Karl Jacobs (a bit of a passive aggressive one, I’ll admit, but I think it was justified), complaining that a lot of the ‘criticism’ I see about Karl is actually rather insensitive towards his ADHD. I got a lot of responses to that post, and the most common sources of confusion I saw were:

People not understanding what I was saying they should avoid being judgmental of, or-

People who didn’t know that Karl had ADHD or didn’t understand which behaviors were caused by it.

First of all, Karl has confirmed that he has ADHD.

(NOTE: Yes, I know he said ADD. ADD and ADHD used to be categorized as separate disorders, but in the most recent edition of the DSM, it was decided that they are both simply subtypes of the same disorder- ADHD is the correct technical term. ADD is still sometimes used as shorthand by some practitioners to diagnose primarily-inattentive ADHD, but it's a bit outdated.)

Secondly, that original post made me realize that a lot of people who may be well-meaning may genuinely not fully understand ADHD and its symptoms as well as they want to or think they might. If you aren’t aware, Karl isn’t the only one in the DSMP with ADHD- to my understanding, both Technoblade and Dream have confirmed that they have it as well. So, I thought it would be helpful to put together a comprehensive crash-course on ADHD symptoms and how they effect people’s behavior!

Now, before we go further, I want to address something- as I said earlier, I saw some people unsure of whether certain behaviors are ADHD or “just his personality”. I feel the need to point this out above the read more so people will see it. To answer this question, as someone with ADHD;

A lot of times, it’s both. ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder, meaning that it’s caused by the way your brain developed from birth. A lot of the symptoms and effects of ADHD are extremely influential towards the way we think, act, and behave, to the point where “symptoms” and “normal behavior” really don’t have a clean differentiation. This is why it’s technically classified as a ‘disorder’, instead of an illness. While certain aspects of it can require treatment, the condition itself as a whole is not something to be mitigated or eliminated- it’s a part of who we are as a person. This is also why sometimes, even if you don’t have ADHD, you’ll look at certain specific behaviors or experiences and go “Oh, but I do that too!”. A lot of ADHD ‘symptoms’ are just a bunch of normal traits or behaviors, but in combination with each other and some actually problematic aspects, form the appearance of the disorder.

So, what are you allowed to nitpick about it? Well, there’s no real ‘authority’ on this, and even if there was it certainly wouldn’t be me. But if you want my opinion? Nothing.

See, here’s the thing- what I was trying to say when I made that post was not that you can’t be critical of Karl. If you want to say something about his Actions, his Ideals, or the content he creates- sure, go for it, that’s fair. I will agree that there are some very valid and constructive points to be made. But when you post ‘criticism’ about the way he speaks, his interests or preoccupations, his personal behaviors? That’s not criticism. That’s just judging someone.

And you’re allowed to think that stuff! Nobody can control what annoys or bothers them. It doesn’t necessarily make you a bad person. But you don’t need to be vocal about it. You can keep your mean thoughts to yourself. And if you do make posts or communities or whatever about judging someone for things they can’t change about themselves, don’t call it “criticism” or try to morally justify it. It’s not productive or righteous, it’s just rude. Nothing else.

Anyway. Back to Education!

The following will be a descriptive list of visible ADHD behaviors, using Karl’s behavior as examples.

I feel the need to add a disclaimer here- I am not a mental health professional. However! I have ADHD myself, I have taken some psychology courses and done a Lot of research into this stuff, and I’m the daughter of a therapist with access to a DSM. While I’m not an expert, I’d like to think I’m fairly well versed and knowledgeable on at least ADHD. (That being said, if by chance anyone who Is a professional sees this post and notices mistakes, by all means let me know and I’ll fix it!!)

WHAT IS ADHD?

You’re here for the behaviors more than the science, so I’ll keep this short and sweet. ADHD is Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (Known in the past as Attention Deficit Disorder). Despite its name, the root problem of ADHD is not in the person’s ability to pay attention, but their brain’s capability to manage itself. In simple terms, people with ADHD have a lot less control over what their brain does and wants. This results in some behavioral differences along with some personal challenges, namely a difficulty with attentiveness and self-discipline.

Now, onto the symptoms!

ATTENTION

This is perhaps the most visible and pervasive of the ADHD symptoms, hence why it’s the namesake. Inattention is a lack of focus and an inability to stay present and occupied with certain tasks or thoughts.

Because ADHD impairs self-management of the brain, people with it have an extremely hard time directing themselves anywhere but where their brain instinctively wants to go. This results in inattentiveness and the easiness of distraction that is often mocked or stereotyped for people with ADHD.

Here are some examples of how Karl can sometimes display his inattentiveness;

When he has an idea that he seems passionate about, only to drop it or switch to something totally different without warning soon after (either forgetting or getting bored of his original idea).

When he sets out to do something like a build, works on it for a short amount of time, and then immediately gives up or gets someone else to do it.

When someone else is talking and he totally zones out. (NOTE: While I wont make a whole section for it because it’s not easily observable, maladaptive (constant and intrusive) daydreaming is a common ADHD symptom as well!)

It’s important to remember that the whole problem with ADHD is that we can’t control when or what we focus on. When someone with ADHD zones out during a conversation or activity, it doesn’t mean they’re doing it on purpose, and they likely don’t mean any offense! We often are trying our best to listen or participate, but our brain just wont cooperate.

However, inattention is not the only way ADHD effects our focus. There’s also what’s called hyperfocus or hyperfixation, which is when we are so absorbed into a single subject, task, or idea that it is extremely difficult to get us to think about or do anything else. This is usually because our brains have found something that is getting those satisfaction chemicals flowing, and it’s clinging to that with everything it’s got.

People with ADHD will often experience brief periods of hyperfocus. Think of how Karl talks about spending hours straight working on a build or project without eating or drinking, or how he’ll sit down to play a game with someone and end up going six hours without even noticing.

There are also hyperfixations, where someone with ADHD becomes extremely preoccupied with a certain subject, topic, etc. for a period of time. These can be short term- personally, my hyperfixation can sometimes change as quickly as a couple weeks at a time. However, it can also be long term. Karl has been obsessed with Survivor since the second grade- not to mention his memorabilia, rambling, and constant references to Kingdom Hearts.

HYPERACTIVITY/STIMMING

This is a BIG one for Karl. I should clarify; ‘stimming’ is not a technical term, and in professional situations these behaviors are just referred to as Hyperactivity. However, I personally like the term stimming much more and find it far more accurate to what the behaviors actually are, so I’ll be using that instead for this post.

If you’re not already familiar, ‘stimming’ (derived from ‘stimulation’) is an unofficial term used to describe consistent and abnormal patterns of physical and vocal behavior typically expressed by people with ADHD and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). This includes things that people usually call fidgets or tics.

(NOTE: There are differences in how people with those two disorders stim. This post will explain stimming specifically from an ADHD perspective! ASD stimming is caused by very different factors and presents itself in much different ways. Do your own research if you’re curious!) 

There are two major observable forms of stimming- physical and vocal. Karl expresses both VERY often! I’ll use examples for each type;

Physical Stims: Flapping his hands/arms, jumping up and down when he’s excited, twisting around into odd positions in his chair, throwing, hitting, or tapping things, standing up and pacing around when he’s hyped up or laughing, twisting his rings, etc.

Vocal Stims: When he gets excited and repeats a certain phrase incessantly (Think any variation of “I’m popping off”), making certain repetitive noises while he’s focused on something or bored (”la la la”, the meow-noises, the weird heart-beat noise, etc.), singing or humming, tongue clicking.

It should be noted here that it’s pretty common for people with ADHD to get “stuck” on certain phrases or noises, and be unable to stop repeating them (reminiscent of echolalia, a symptom of ASD, but not the same thing). Think of how Karl might sometimes keep making a weird noise for an extended period of time even though it’s not that funny, or that one time he was physically struggling to keep himself from singing the Bakugan theme. These repetitions are completely impulsive and trust me, we usually know how annoying it is while we’re doing it, but we physically cannot stop.

ADHD stims are caused by the fact that the barrier between our brain and body is much weaker than a normal person’s. Because of this, most ADHD stims are actually very positive expressions of joy, excitement, or enthusiasm! Y’know how when you get excited, you feel like you wanna jump or dance? The ‘hyperactivity’ of ADHD is basically just that, but we don’t have the self-control to Not do it.

Stims can be caused by negative feelings like overstimulation, but in ADHD this is not nearly as common. Usually, the most negative reason we’ll stim is when we’re bored- in that case, our brain isn’t getting the Constant Stimulation that it naturally wants, so stimming is a way to make our own.

Whatever the cause, stimming is natural and impulsive. While different people experience it to varying degrees, those who regularly stim typically have little to no control over it. Suppressing stims is very hard and very frustrating to do.

Besides that, like I said- ADHD stims are often an expression of joy, excitement, or enthusiasm. They’re a beautiful thing that shouldn’t be seen as shameful or annoying!

BEHAVIORAL DIFFICULTIES

ADHD is a disorder which causes a lack of self-control. Naturally, this means that people with ADHD are inherently reckless, impulsive, and struggle with a lack of self-discipline that they cannot fix.

Of course, people with ADHD do still have some level of self-control, and they are still responsible for conscious, long-term behavioral patterns and decisions. However, in regards to most things, they are much, much less capable of controlling themselves than an average neurotypical person is.

These are some examples of how this will often present itself in Karl;

Excessive rambling, dragging on a joke or conversation when it could and should probably have been dropped, etc.

Speaking over or interrupting other people (NOTE: As someone with ADHD- THIS IS ALMOST ALWAYS UNINTENTIONAL. I know it can seem rude or annoying but I promise, 90% of the time if someone with ADHD talks over you, they either didn’t realize or physically couldn’t help it. Please try to be patient!)

Lack of awareness towards social cues (NOTE: Unlike ASD, in which the person is incapable of/has problems fully understanding social cues, ADHD results in a lack of awareness. For whatever reason, we’re often just not paying close enough attention to pick up on things like body language, tone of speech, and facial expression as well as we would normally.)

Indecisiveness and overthinking

Bluntness, lack of subtlety

Unintentional dismissiveness, accidentally ignoring things/people (NOTE: Again, this behavior is purely accidental. In this case, it’s usually just the person genuinely not hearing or processing things.)

Making noises, speaking, joking, etc. at inappropriate times

There’s probably more, but I think you get the idea by now. A lot of the time, behavior which results from ADHD can be seen as rude, lazy, dismissive, or otherwise intentionally harmful. In reality, we just aren’t wired to navigate common social interaction with grace.

In Karl’s case, he’s clearly an incredibly sweet, empathetic, and kind-hearted person, if the various close friends who have talked about him are to be believed. Just because he talks over people or makes a poorly timed joke, that doesn’t mean he meant any harm. 

I think that’s about it for how much I wanted to point out! You can do more research if you’re curious, but I feel like this post should be enough to tell you what to keep in mind and be understanding about when talking about/making judgements on Karl, and other people with ADHD.

#sorry if this is longwinded but I had a lot to say so [shrug] #karl jacobs #dsmp #dream smp #dreamwastaken #ghost.txt

[granolabird]

Hope for Better Days

Post 2x09. I figured we didn’t get much Hournite content this EP so I made my own :) This follows Beth going to visit Rick at the jail just before the storm starts after she gets off the phone with Courtney. Just some good ol Angst/Fluff content. Sure Rick is in jail but I can still make him kinda-sorta happy. Ish.

Warnings: N/A

Taglist: @hournites @bethchapelsbonnet 

If you’d like to be added to my weekly Hournite fic tag list feel free to ask :) .

“Has Rick called?” Beth finds herself asking as soon as she gets the chance.

Courtney called her to help devise a plan on what to do about Eclipso. It’s a valid mindset, one that Beth is trying very hard to reciprocate but she just can’t. She can’t stop thinking about Rick, alone and cold in his jail cell. The storm that’s hitting today is supposed to be really bad, there might even be a tornado. And sure Beth’s safe at home. So is Courtney, and Yolanda too, but Rick? He’s in a jail cell, which is probably one of the least safe places he could be. 

“No, he hasn’t called. Yolanda still hasn’t answered my calls either.” Courtney snaps Beth from her train of thought.

“Oh. Okay.”

Beth isn’t sure what else to say. Courtney seems to ignore her disappointment and continues to prattle on about how to use the staff and the goggles together to beat Eclipso. Beth tries to listen, she really does. What Courtney is saying is important, but Rick keeps flitting across her mind. She can’t help but worry about him. She looks out her window at the storm, wondering how long until it unleashed itself. Would there be enough time to go visit Rick? The police station wasn’t that far, and he should still have his twenty minutes of visitation time, nobody had gone to see him today. Beth could go see him.

“Beth?” Courtney seems to have asked a question that Beth has absolutely not heard.

“Sorry, can you say that again?”

Courtney sighs, but repeats her question; “You said Eclipso presented himself as a child?” “A child version of Bruce Gordon, yeah.” 

“Well then it’ll be…”

Courtney’s voice fades into obscurity as Beth spots her Dad’s car pulling into the driveway. He’s home early, this is too perfect. If she can convince him to drive her to go see Rick, then she’ll be good to go. It’s a foolproof plan, probably.

“Sorry Courtney, my dad just got home. I have to go.” Beth manages to get her words in between Courtney’s seemingly endless rambling.

“Oh, yeah of course. I’ll call you later, okay?” There’s a hint of disappointment to Courtney’s voice that makes Beth feel a little bad about the whole situation, but she really has to go see Rick.

“Yeah! For sure!” And with that she hangs up, sliding her phone into her bag. 

She’s still wearing her goggles, and spends a moment debating whether it’s safe to take them off or not. She resolves to put them in her bag just in case, not wanting to endure another questioning from her father regarding her wearing her ‘swimming goggles’ everywhere. Then she grabs her bag, pulls on a sweater and races down the stairs to see her Father.

“Dad! You’re home early!” Beth tries to put as much enthusiasm into her voice as possible, and judging on the smile her dad flashes her way her tactics are working.

“Yeah, work was worried about the weather so they sent everyone home early.” He’s already taking off his jacket and hanging it up. 

Once he gets his shoes off and sits down on the couch Beth knows he won't be moving. She has to act quickly. She steadies herself, shaking off any worries before she asks to go visit Rick. The worst he can say is no is all she keeps telling herself in a (failing) attempt to keep herself calm.

“So, dad.”

“What is it sweetie?” He’s halfway through unlacing one of his dress shoes.

“I was wondering if we could go visit Rick? You know, before the storm starts. I just want to make sure he’s okay.” She’s rushing her words, but her Dad seems to understand what she says perfectly well as he gets up and looks at her with some concern.

“Beth, it’s about to start raining any minute now. Don’t you think he can wait?”

“His hearing got cancelled today. I just think he could use someone to talk to, you know? The station isn’t that far away, I could walk there if you don’t feel like driving me-”

“Absolutely not. You’ll get soaked. I’ll drive you, but we have to be quick.”

Beth mentally jumps for joy, but she doesn’t vocalize her excitement, just offers her Father a smile.

“Thanks Dad!” 

Beth leans against the window as the car rolls down the street, her eyes scanning the dark clouds in the sky as they go. The drive to the police station seems to stretch on forever, especially with her Dad asking questions near-constantly. They’re just around the corner when her Dad asks,

“What is it with you and Rick anyway?”

“What?”

“Sorry, I mean, you two just seem close… You’d tell me if you had a boyfriend right? Your Mother and I would be so happy to hear that you-”

“Dad! No, it’s not like that! We… We're best friends, that’s it. He doesn’t really have anyone else, so I have to be there for him.”

“Oh, yeah. That makes sense.”

The rest of the ride is silent.

Beth doesn’t tell her dad that she wishes her and Rick were more than best friends. It doesn’t feel like the right time to admit it. She doubts there ever will be a right time to admit it, but this would definitely be one of the absolute worst times. Her dad would never shut up about it. Not that that was a bad thing, Beth could talk about Rick and how much she cared about him for hours. But with her Dad? It doesn’t feel right. She continues scanning the clouds and fiddling with one of the straps on her bag while dwelling on thoughts of her relationship to Rick all the way to the police station parking lot.

Rick is slumped in his cell, leaning against the wall as he sits on his cot. This place is hell, but at least he doesn’t have to deal with Matt. That’s an upside. The downside is the fact that he rarely gets to see his friends, especially Beth. Beth. His mind lingers on her name a moment too long, and he has to shake his head in an attempt to dispel any thoughts of her. He’s found it best not to think about her unless she’s visiting him. Every time he does it feels like his soul is ripping in two, a deep ache in his chest that he can’t dispel, so he finds it better to not think about her altogether. As he sits now, staring at the blank ceiling of his cell, Rick hears footsteps approaching down the hall. Probably just a guard going for an hourly checkup. The steps however, stop in front of his cell, and Rick turns his head to see an Officer waiting at the door.

“There’s a visitor here for you Mr. Harris”

Rick cringes at the name, but forces himself not to say anything about it. He’d rather not start any kerfuffle. 

“Isn’t there supposed to be a bad storm out there? Why the hell is someone visiting me?” Rick wonders aloud and the Officer shrugs.

“Not my business. I just gotta get you to the phones, the faster the better. I have a break in ten.” The Officer sounds exhausted, and Rick can’t help but feel himself sympathizing.

He really just wishes he could fall asleep, and wake up to find all of this was a dream. It won’t happen of course, but that doesn’t stop him from thinking about it. Sometimes he wonders if all this is one giant illusion done by Eclipso, if he’s still stuck in that hellish landscape. But nobody would visit him if he were still in Eclipso’s hellscape. He’s not sure if it’s reassuring to know he’s not still there, or awful to know he’s actually trapped in jail. It’s a lose-lose situation, really.

When Rick sees Beth waiting on the other side of the glass to see him, his heart does a flip. He spots her Dad standing awkwardly in the corner, and makes a mental note not to say anything too personal, and not to mention the JSA. All inhibitions leave his mind as soon as he sits across from Beth and picks up the phone, however. 

“Beth, what are you doing here?” He tries to keep his voice steady but he can't help the relief that he feels encompassing his entire body.

“Visiting you, obviously!” Beth smiles, and Rick swears he’s going to melt on the spot. Nothing but a puddle of love-struck Rick Tyler left on the chair. The Officer would have to mop him up to get him back to his cell. 

“I thought there was a storm out there? Shouldn’t you be at home preparing?”

Beth shrugs as if that’s the least of her worries, which it really shouldn’t be, but she doesn’t seem to share that sentiment.

“It hasn’t started yet. I figured I’d come check on you before it got too bad.” As if on cue the police station is shaken by a peel of thunder that makes Rick wince and the lights flicker. 

“You don’t need to check on me Beth, I’m doing fine.”

“I don’t care if I don’t need to check on you Rick. I want to. I want to make sure you’re okay, and not freezing, and well fed, and as happy as you can be given the conditions. I just… I just want you to be okay.”

Rick can’t help but smile at this, wishing more than anything to reach through the barrier separating him and Beth so that he could hug her. She’s too kind. Too good for Rick. He doesn’t know what he’s done to deserve her. Frankly, he probably doesn’t deserve her. And yet here she is. Making sure he’s okay. 

“Thanks, Beth. I’m doing okay. I’ll be okay. You don’t need to worry about me, I’ll be alright.” This doesn’t seem to reassure Beth at all, but it’s all he can offer.

“You’re in jail, Rick. Of course I’m going to worry about you. There’s not really much else I can do.” Beth looks so serious, so distraught, and Rick hates himself for causing her so much stress. 

“I guess you’re right. But try not to worry too much, okay? I don’t want to stress you out. The thought of me stressing you out stresses me out.” He half-laughs, and butterflies fill his stomach as he sees Beth laugh with him. 

It’s a small laugh but it’s enough.

“Alright, I’ll try, I promise.” Beth agrees.

The conversation lulls into small talk about Courtney and how she’s doing, and how Yolanda still hasn’t called back. Nothing too consequential, but Rick likes it that way. Makes his life seem more normal if only for a moment. It reminds him of all the days spent with Beth in her living room or in the Pit Stop just rambling about nothing and everything. Enjoying each other’s company, because they had nobody else to talk to. Because they were made to talk to one another. Those are the days Rick misses the most. He just wants to go back in time to tell himself to enjoy those moments more, to take in everything Beth is saying, to tell Beth everything he’s feeling. Because right now it’s looking like he may never get the chance again. He wants more than anything to have that chance again.

The lights flicker once more, and that seems to spook the Officer enough that he puts a hand on Rick’s shoulder, gesturing for him to get up.

“It’s only been ten minutes.” Rick growls, and the Officer taps his watch idly in response.

“Twelve minutes actually. I’m sorry, really, I just want to get you back to your cell before things get worse. It’d be best your friend here goes home too, I don’t think anyone should be driving in this weather. Car accidents kill so many people every year, you wouldn’t believe it!”

Both Rick and Beth wince at that statement, and Beth shoots him a sympathetic look. Rick swallows down any malicious retort, knowing the Officer only has good intentions, deciding to respond with a nod. 

“I’ll talk to you as soon as I can.” Beth reassures him as Rick starts preparing to leave, and he smiles at her softly. “Yeah, of course. Get home safely, okay?” “Of course I will. Sit in your cell safely, okay?”

Rick can’t help but laugh at that as he nods, blinking tears from his eyes.

“I always do.”

And then he’s hanging up the phone and being escorted down the hallway. He throws one last glance back at Beth as he goes, but she’s already talking to her Dad, so she doesn’t notice his longing stare as he’s carted away.

The walk back to Rick’s cell is relatively silent. Most of the other cells are empty, save for a few sleeping drunks in some of the holding cells. Blue Valley isn’t particularly known for it’s non-supervillain related crime. It is a small town after all, so Rick’s incident was quite the exception. As they reach his cell, and Rick steps inside, the Officer finally speaks up.

“You know, that girl really must care a lot about you to come all the way out here to see you in this weather. You’ve caught yourself a good one there Mr. Harris.” 

Rick gives a breathy laugh as he walks into the cell, sitting down on his cot. “Yeah. Yeah, I know.” And he does. Beth is like no other girl he’s ever met, and for that he will forever be grateful. She’ll always be there for him, and he knows that as long as he’s alive he will always be there for her. 

He hopes it will stay that way forever. 

And a few blocks away, driving home in the pouring rain, she hopes for the same thing.

#I'm pretty happy with this one #Cute with just a dash of angst #Hournite #Stargirl #cw stargirl #stargirl spoilers #beth chapel #Rick tyler #beth x rick #Hourman #dr. mid nite

[tempestsreach-blog]

Fuck Diet Culture

This is going to be long.  It’s going to be rambly.  It’s going to be sad.  It’s going to be angry.  There’s going to be language some people don’t like. I can’t NOT talk about it though. 

Fuck diet culture.  Let me say that again.  Fuck. Diet. Culture. It has taken such a huge chunk out of my life.  I have lost pieces of myself I’m not sure I’ll ever get back.  The only way to heal is to go through.  I can’t go back.  I have to move forward.  But I can’t do it quietly.  I can’t hide.  I can’t live in the same shame I’ve spent the last 40 years in.  Literally.  40 years of my life wasted to this.  I can’t bear to live the back half of my life in the same way.  What the hell is the point? I’m not going to write this in any particular order because all of the thoughts and feelings swimming around are snapshots of things in my life that diet culture has broken in me or stolen from me. A lot of you aren’t going to agree with me.  That’s okay.  Truly.  This is about ME.  This is to help ME heal.  You can talk to me about your struggles, your diets, your ups and downs, your successes and whatnot.  I am here for you in all of it. But I won’t diet with you anymore.  Never again.

Currently I am having severe knee pain.  One knee is worse than the other, but both are bad.  I should go to the doctor.  I should have gone to the doctor years ago for it.  Want to know why I didn’t?  My weight.  I have injuries from overuse and over exercise and I am terrified that I am going to go to the doctor and the first words they’re going to say are “Well, if you lost 20, 30, 40, 50 pounds, it probably wouldn’t hurt so much.” instead of listening to me, examining me, scanning my knees and HELPING me.  I don’t feel this way irrationally.  This shit happens.  I am in pain.  I don’t know how to get help without being told to go on another diet that will not work.

Because diets don’t work.  Not long term.  I am excellent at losing weight!  I’ve done it over and over and over.  Then I stop restricting, counting, starving, and pushing myself.  Then my body says “What the fuck were you doing?” and puts it back. I lost the ability years ago to know whether I’m actually hungry or not.  I eat too fast when I do eat because if I snarf it down super fast I can get it in before my brain says “You’ve had too much.  Did you count those calories?  How many miles on a treadmill will you do to make up for that?  Did you actually earn this meal?”

Every time.  Every meal.  Every morsel.

I have never been officially diagnosed with an eating disorder.  Only been told by therapists and psychiatrists that I definitely engage in disordered eating.

No shit.

Every diet under the sun.  Cabbage soup.  Phen Fen.  Weight watchers (MULTIPLE TIMES), TOPS, Noom, My Fitness Pal calorie counting, intermittent fasting,  and every whacky bullshit thing in between promising results.  I’ve purchased fancy scales.  I’ve even tried one that wouldn’t show you your weight, but the color of your progress in the app.  Here’s a hint… if you gain, your color is black like death.  I’ve failed a million times and I’ve blamed myself.  I am the failure.  So I hate my body a little more every day and I stress about how I’m going to NOT pass my disordered eating and my food issues onto my kids.  My stress levels are through the roof and 98% of it is diet culture related. What the fuck is that about? Every time I start a program I hit it hard.  Last time I tried anything involving tracking or counting I was so starving by the time I got home from work that I almost ripped a child’s head off (not literally OBVIOUSLY) but I screamed at her at the top of my lungs because she hurt my feelings.  It wasn’t until after finally allowing myself to eat another morsel of food that I realized I was hangry.

Why is living in a larger body not acceptable?  We all talk about diversity and equality as though we believe it with our whole hearts, but that doesn’t cross over to fat.  Or skinny if we’re really being honest.  How many times have you heard or seen online “Oh my god, she’s so skinny.  Feed her a damn cheeseburger!  She looks anorexic.”  I know I have.  I know I’ve said those words.  I will punch myself in the gut if I ever say them again.  

Every body is different.  We are supposed to be.  Let’s not BLAME genetics like it’s a bad thing.  Let’s realize that it’s what nature has intended.  My father is over 6 feet tall and a large man.  He’s just a big man.  He went on Nutri System when I was young, lost a ton of weight, and put a bunch back on over the years because he is a big man.  My mother was not tall, but was always large.  I hated her body because HER PARENTS told her all the time she was fat and unworthy and cautioned me not to grow up to be like her in any way.  Even when she was poor and homeless she was still large.  That was the way her body was.  I wonder how different her life might have been if the size of her body hadn’t been a factor in the way she was raised or treated.  How might that have made my life different?

I know a lot of you are probably rolling your eyes at me right now about being vocal about another health plan or saying to yourself “just because you have trouble with diets doesn’t mean they don’t work”  I know there are people close to me thinking “She just always gets excited when she discovers a new diet, that’s probably what this is.”  NO.  

This is me finally realizing that I can heal and healing doesn’t mean I need to weigh 157 pounds. (That’s the weight limit for women my height to enter the air force when I did in 1992) This is me finally realizing that I’ve been lying about the weight on my drivers license for 30 years because gods forbid anyone saw my real weight on that document. This is me realizing that I’ve spent my life trying to live up to other people’s ideals of what I should look like because I assumed they wouldn’t like me otherwise. This is me realizing how much unintentional harm I could have been doing when sharing another diet, another idea, another bout of “well this is working really well for me!” with people I care about. This is me realizing how much damage I’ve been doing to myself living with this level of shame for 40 years. Hiding what I’m doing.  Suffering in silence.  Hiding food. Restricting.  Binging.  Over exercising to compensate.  Spending money on one last diet.  Spending emotional energy on one last hope. We were in Las Vegas for what was supposed to be a fun vacation last week and I was so hot and miserable and so steeped in hating my body because my painful knees were betraying me that my internal monologue was a never ending loop of “I’ll hit weight watchers REALLY HARD when we get home and get rid of this weight, then I’ll figure out my knees and work on maintenance” Let me say that again, clearly.  I struggled to enjoy my vacation because I was obsessing about restricting food AFTER my vacation. One last time.  One last meal.

BULLSHIT.

We walked by shops with weird and pretty fashion dresses. (I freely admit I don’t understand fashion) the husband and I would both point out ones we thought were pretty.  My brain would get stuck on “Yeah, but they don’t make them in my size” or “Yeah, that would NOT look good on me.  It looks fine on that size 0 mannequin”  Pretty on other people.  Other people are pretty.  Not me. Diet culture is pervasive and all consuming.  In big ways and little ways.  I’m 5 ft 9.  I’m not a tiny person at any weight.  I’ve always been told I’m too big.  Even when I sit, I slouch a little and/or tuck my legs and feet up under me to try to make myself appear smaller and less invasive.  This is subconscious.  I don’t always realize I’m doing it until my knees remind me. Most of my life has been things that get in the way of my diets.  “I should start the diet today, but it’ll have to wait until next week because so and so’s birthday is this week and I want to be able to enjoy that.”  or “It’s late fall, I should just start now but first there’s my birthday, and then Thanksgiving, and December happens and there’s all kinds of treats then.  Better wait until January, but not the first because that’s new year’s...maybe the following Monday.” or the ever popular “I already had a bad eating day today, I’m a failure.  Why bother?  Fuck it.  I’ll try again tomorrow.”  That one was always followed by binging because of the last supper mentality.  If I’m starting a diet tomorrow I better eat EVERYTHING NOW. This is how I’ve lived my whole life.  The time not spent dieting was just the time in between diets where I was planning my next diet.  So much life wasted.  The only time I was not actively dieting or planning the next diet or suffering from “I’m just too exhausting to put effort into food right now” was during my 4 pregnancies.  I let myself eat whatever and whenever because I was nauseous all the time anyway and something in my brain made me fuel my body for the babies. When the youngest was born and the on call doctor who delivered her told me I was too fat to have my tubes tied I definitely started planning diets again in that moment.  I believe now, years later, that my diet and diet culture ruined mind and body is part of what kept me from being as successful at nursing the kids as I wished I had been.  I assumed my body was broken and not good enough for my babies.  The last time I lost a LOT of weight it was because I didn’t want to ruin someone’s wedding pictures.  True story.  This was nothing that person felt or anything they told me.  IT’s what my brain said to me.  It’s how I de-valued myself.  There are very few current pictures of me now because I’ve been stuck in a place where I feel shame when I see them. When I’m dead, memories and pictures are all my kids and grandkids will have, and I hate myself too much to let anyone take them. That’s not okay.

I dream about food.  I daydream about food.  Food I “shouldn’t” eat.  Food I “should” eat.  When to eat.  When not to eat.  Every spare ounce of energy is spent thinking about food or hating myself which leads to more thinking about food. I am not in a place where I can prepare dinner for my family right now because it’s too hard to put that much energy into food.  I force myself to pick the recipes from the app and get the shopping done via instacart so all anyone else has to do is pull up the recipe and make the food.  If I’m looking at the ingredients or trying to prep anything I stare at every individual thing debating whether or not I “should” eat it.  This is going to take me a long time to break free from.  Today I finally feel like I CAN break free. There is nothing wrong with being in a large body or a small body.  Food is not good or bad.  Food is food.  I have to say these things.  I have to repeat them to myself or I fall down the rabbit hole again.  None of this is work anyone can do for me.  I have to live it.  I have to work through it.  I have to figure it out. If you read this far, my statement stands.  If you’re on a diet, I will listen to your woes and hold your hand and I will not judge you for it.  This was very hard to write because I am certain some of you who believe in diets, ways of life, and wellness eating may block me now because I spoke my mind.  I’ve clung so tight to the people I love and refrained from being honest and speaking my mind for fear of abandonment.  I’ll have to live with it if that’s the case here, because people sometimes need to do what’s best for them.  Airing this out is one of those things for me.  It’s a scary thing for sure. I also want to say that I’m happy for this to lead to discussion.  I’m not going to shut anyone down for wanting to talk to me about this.  I am always open to learn new information and see different perspectives.  Just know that if I’m emotional and feeling a lot of strong things about how my life has been up to this point, and I am entitled to believe what I believe just as you all are.  I’m happy to share sources and books I’ve been reading on the subject.  They are not diet books.

Here’s to doing better from here on out.

Here’s to finally being free.

#intuitive eating #anti diet #mental health #fuck diet culture

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Life Is Strange | Overhearing Their S.O Sing

Characters Included: Max Caulfield, Chloe Price, Rachel Amber, Warren Graham, Victoria Chase, Nathan Prescott

(A/N: The request did hold some other characteristics from the reader but such as fem and POC but honestly, I didn’t see that affecting their reactions at all so I decided to not include them :)  

Max Caulfield

 Max lingered and sort of hid. She loved the tune of your voice, especially in the melody you’d set it to. When she showed herself and you stopped, the girl would be slightly disappointed. Despite trying her best to get you back to singing, it usually didn’t work. But when it did, she would hum along and move herself in sync with your words. Of course, it would just be small movements, nothing too dramatic. Hearing your voice though, was her favourite thing in the world. At times, Max would try to sneak into the room, just in case you were doing your little vocal session, just so she can hear you again.  

Chloe Price

 She absolutely admires the song that is currently being played. Chloe would be listening in from the other side of the door, barging in while enjoying the tune. As usual, she isn’t shy to give compliments. So she drowns you in them, loving the way you blushed when she asked you to sing more songs to her. Eventually, you would have to give in as she practically begs you to. Chloe would bust out her phone and record the scene. Sometimes, she played the video when she felt either down, alone, or both. Hearing your voice play such a melody would bring such a serene calmness to her energy. 

Rachel Amber

 Rachel would wait a small bit, the tune tranquilizing her every move. She would fall in tune as she sang along to the beat and even try to take your hand. You two would end up moving each other around the room, smiling while trying to not let the laughs get in the way of your pitches. Once the song ends, Rachel would be absolutely amazed by your voice, impressed even. After that, she’d try to get you to join her on the stage and perform in front of the school. Whether you agreed to or not, she would usually ramble on about setting up a whole event just so you can act as the star, even if it was for one night. 

Warren Graham 

  At first, Warren would be really curious as to where the noise came from. Was it your phone, his speaker, or perhaps the neighbours? At least until he got closer, and realized just what the source was. Warren would then get so excited that his giddiness would take over and make him walk into the room. Obviously, the intrusion startles you, leaving you embarrassed and too shy to continue. He’d get a little bummed out and try to give you the puppy dog eyes just so you would do it again. And since it was Warren, you’d give in. He would listen and watch so dreamily. Your voice easily turns into one of his favourite sounds to hear. 

Victoria Chase 

 Victoria wasn’t exactly surprised when she found it was you. She always knew you had a knack for musicality. She fell in love with your sound the second she heard it, falling for little gestures/facial expressions you made as you kept going. Sneakily, the girl would take pictures. At least until her flash went off and you realized she was there. Vic would give you a little compliment, filled with flirtatious remarks, leaving you to look like a red tomato. After that, she would try to figure out a way to get you to duet with her for Karaoke Night with the Vortex Club. If you refuse, she’d try to beg. It wasn’t a lie when she said she’d do anything for it. Eventually, you give in and she uses the opportunity as a way to show you off to her friend, which she loved doing since she always had you on her story when it came to social media. 

Nathan Prescott

 He was also a bit confused at first. It would take a small moment for him to process where the noise was coming from, at least until he understood that it was you. Nathan didn’t really go into the room or anything, he continued with what he did as your voice played in the background. He honestly found it quite soothing and calming, especially when he was so stressed out with everything going on his life. Afterwards, he would slyly compliment you while showering you in complete affection. If you let him, he would hold you and try to even sing whatever song you had before. It’d be off-key but still fun to listen to. However, when Nathan got overwhelmed, you would willingly sing to him to put his anxious thoughts at ease. 

Tagging: @sacredwarrior88​

#life is strange #lis #max caulfield #chloe price #rachel amber #warren graham #victoria chase #nathan prescott #x reader #life is strange preference #preference

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eight months in somebody actually asked me abt visualive instead of me immediately annoying ppl about it without former notice. I might actually write properly for once 😳😳😳

OK OK!!!!! In this essay I will.... I will.... Visualive Adachi.... Visu/BURSTS INTO TEARS/

OKAY OKAY for real I just care Visualive so much (as someone who can’t fully understand Japanese AHAHA)

First I’ll add some foundation about what Visualive really is, then I talk abt Adachi in the latter parts of it because this is technically the first time I’m properly talking about this hehe 🐿

T....table of contents???

Visualive

Visualive the Evolution

Masami Itou

Visualive Adachi

Visualive the Evolution Adachi

Terms and Legend

VL - Visualive

VLE - Visualive the Evolution

stage - shortened for “stageplay”

面白い - omoshiroi (it’s just that specific)

Yuuya - VL Hero name

Hayato - VLE Hero name

Baba - Hero

Masami - Adachi

Taniguchi - Dojima

Saotome - Daisuke

Mamiya - Izanami

I add honorifics but sometimes I forget the hyphen intentionally or unintentionally I’m sorry if it makes it hard to read lol

all links have automatic timestamps for easy viewing. i mean. i hope the timestamps work

VISUALIVE “Persona 4.” A stage adaptation of SMT: Persona 4 by Atlus. It adapts the first part of the story, from the hero’s arrival to after recovering Mitsuo Kubo from the TV world. It also ends on a cliff hanger, showing a teaser of Shadow Naoto being projected on the screen.

It takes up a speedy recapitulation of the hero’s spring life, before slowing down and showing in depth his school life in summer. A day before Morooka-sensei’s death, there is a little skit with Kou, Daisuke and Adachi. The hero walks into the conversation before the two other boys leaving, and Morooka-sensei walking in on the student and detective. The next day follow’s the teacher’s death and the Investigation Team (IT) begin investigating their new lead.

From the words “visual” and “alive,” the niche of this stage was meant to be the fusion of live acting and visual digital projections. All seen from the stageplay with the colorful cast of actors and CG animations being projected on the screen. This offers an opportunity for characters to summon their personas, perform cool visual effects, change the backdrop, or even confront their own Shadows.

Performed in Sunshine Theater from the 15th to the 20th of March 2012. The screenplay was written and directed by Shintaro Asanuma from the theatrical group “bpm.” The video production produced by Shutaro Oku, a film director and visual planner. He later takes over as director for VISUALIVE THE EVOLUTION, the sequel stage. The stage music was produced by Shunsuke Wada, with a special show exclusive vocal track sung by Shihoko Hirata.

On this note, I haven’t seen any sort of original soundtrack released for any of the stages and I’m SO SAD. The last song in Mitsuo’s boss fight was such a BANGER and literally EVERYTHING ELSE Marvelous, Wadasan please take my MONEY

Regarding the cast, there were some special accommodations for Teddie, Rise, and Nanako, all of which did not have live actors at the time. During the casting, actors for the three characters could not be found or simply left the directors unsatisfied they couldn’t cast anybody. An exception for Rise, who was able to have a live actor in the sequel stage. It has been stated that there weren’t any “pretty boy” actors that fit the “Teddie Criteria.” While there weren’t any child actors that were believed to portray Nanako well.

Teddie was only ever seen in his bear costume while Rise was busy talking through a call, all voiced by their video game cast. Nanako has never appeared on stage, only being scarcely mentioned in the script. Again, this is different in the sequel stage where her role was extremely important and was shown as a screen projection.

VISUALIVE “Persona 4” THE EVOLUTION. A sequel stage. Beginning abruptly in the middle of Shadow Naoto’s boss fight, the story continues from there until the “true end” of the game’s original story. *Certain characters are introduced while others have been reintroduced. And on a personal note, when it’s all comedic in the beginning, it’s all for what’s coming right after.

I don’t know if I’m salty or just find it really funny AHAHA I might go talk abt it some other day with more context ehehe

Performed in The Galaxy Theater from the 3rd to the 9th of October 2012, only a few months after the PSVITA Persona 4 Golden release, which is July 2012. The screenplay was now written by Jun Kumagi while directed by Shutaro Oku. And music production finally taken over by Shoji Meguro himself.

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HAHAHA this is starting to look like a wiki page. moving on. I might start rambling rn

(warning LONG !!!! aaa,,)

My thoughts on the stage adaptations. For the first Visualive (VL) I believe it’s pretty close to canon! I enjoy the characterization and how much love and care was present when handling the entire production.

Actors were busy playing the game itself, wherein a PS2 was present in the practice room. Along with magazines and game guides explaining the game’s story and the characters itself. Actors performing together and even improv acting together to get a grasp of their characters. All of them knowing well of Persona 4 as a well loved game, delicately handling their characters and hopefully performing them right while making the audience happy.

The staff taking care of each other while the director and video producer, Asanuma-san and Oku-san, working together well to make their vision into a reality.

The same thing happened with VL the Evolution (VLE) and literally every other good stage. Except... I feel the script kinda got out of hand with too much liberty where it feels a bit more disconnected from canon. But! It makes up for it in its content, whether comedic or (INCREDIBLY) dramatic! It’s great as its own story at that point. So in this case, I like to take the first VL and get to connect it canon, while I don’t know what the hell happened in VLE to the point I’ll just enjoy it as its own content.

These opinions deserve its own essay, post whatever bc I have SO much to say abt this. ANYWAY. VL ADACHI

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Tohru Adachi is portrayed by Masami Itou (伊藤マサミ), a screenplay writer, director and an stage actor himself. He does have a single character voice role along with a fellow troupe member in the same franchise, but mostly works as the former three. He is part of Asanuma-san’s entertainment group “bpm.” On a similar note, Masashi Taniguchi, Dojima’s actor, was also part of their group from 2011 to 2016, which may explain their good synergy as the boss and the bumbling fool dynamic. I mean, somebody’s gotta get hit in the head every few skits.

With Masami-san being an important part of the cast, he doesn’t appear as often as Taniguchi-san in backstage content like the VL bonus disk or the official blog. Mentioned in his own personal blog, he had been busy with his roles as assistant director (I am assuming also for VL).

Also fun to note, because his role is mainly comic relief, he has been using his liberty to change up the material almost everyday making each performance exciting. This also leaves some other actors jealous of his freedom in his role, such as Saotome-san, Daisuke’s actor.

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VL Adachi really has a... how do I say this? an adorable speech pattern (THE SAME SPEECH PATTERN THAT DROVE ME MAD TRYING TO DECIPHER I THOUGHT YOU WERE A CITY BOY OSSU OSSU MY ASS /shakes you violently/). Overall, he really fits the loose lipped bumbling fool, and his accent really makes him seem more casual and invested. What I’m saying is... VL Adachi either actually has genuine empathy or he actually has more energy to fake it (compared to some other edgelord. i mean you saw my p4ga analysis. I’m sick of him lol ahaha).

One of my favorite ways to explain this (OTHER THAN CHAIR CAR ADVENTURE MY BELOVED WE’LL GET TO THAT LATER) is the rice field scene with him and Dojima. It’s overanalyzation time 🎉

(43:04)

While investigating, Adachi whines about being tired while Dojima smacks him in the head. In this case, it’s established that Adachi doesn’t want to be there, yes? It’s the country, it’s hot and it smells like green.

"Ah... Dojima-san..! Why don't we take a break? (...) There really is nothing out here... Is the criminal still even here at all? (...) I wonder if I've passed being a rookie yet. Haha, but this city doesn't even have convenient transportation. I can't go to leisure lands (recreation, amusement parks, arcades, ect.) and head home at all."

Adachi then tries to tell Dojima a story. “when I got to this city after being newly assigned, I met an interesting guy (...) Yeah, I remember that the cherry blossoms haven't bloomed yet. So, I was driving my car and got near the station and--” Dojima gets a phone call.

Adachi politely puts his hands down waiting for his boss to finish so he can finish the story. Again and again, Adachi attempts to talk to Dojima about a story he’s so persistent trying to tell someone about. It was so 面白い that he would find someone to talk to about it. Even being polite and patient enough to wait for a chance to speak. He even gets fed up with it and blows up in front of his boss, clearly irritated he’s not given a chance to talk.

Sure, it could be Adachi feeling fed up like a normal person where someone agreed he to listen to him, before being constantly ignored. Or Adachi trying to be a more annoying whiny brat, depending on where you look at it.

If the story wasn’t too “interesting” to Adachi, he would’ve just brushed it off and stopped talking to Dojima entirely, or start up new small talk, or even complain some more. But no, he had a story he wanted to voice out so bad that he got irritated that the one person in the vicinity couldn’t listen to him.

Only after Dojima told him to continue their investigation elsewhere did Adachi finally stop and focus on something else. Maybe that story was for another day, or maybe it was never meant to be told.

What if it was just original (game) Adachi? He’d find a way to squirrel out of the investigation as usual, or push Dojima to “investigate” elsewhere. “Hey boss, don’t you think it’s hot? Why don’t we go elsewhere? We’ve seen this place too many times to count and I doubt anything new’ll turn up. How about we take a break at Junes, y’know? Where it’s cool? C’mon boss,” something like that.

og Adachi is just really annoying and silly to me. Some grown man thinking he can freeload because he never gets anything out of putting in more energy and effort? I don’t care how tall he is, I will smack him in the head.

Yeah VL Adachi whines, too, but at least it doesn’t look like he’s going to escape and waste his time somewhere else. He just sucks it up stops trying to leave the situation.

Or maybe I’m getting this all wrong and VL is exactly the same and my rage just gets dampened because of Masamisan’s execution of character hmm...

SO. What was his story about anyway? The one he really wanted to share to Dojima?

I mean... it’s obvious enough

First day in town? Spring? Actually mentioned driving a car when literally out of every single persona 4 media at the time was there not a SINGLE mention of Adachi having a car OTHER THAN the same stageplay it’s being mentioned in?

A story, from somewhere around uhh four? five months ago? was something that he remembered so dearly and was willing to share despite it obviously embarrassing him even if he puts the blame on a certain somebody in the same story?

Or maybe it’s because he really had nothing to talk about ever since he realized all his stories from the city weren’t actually that funny or interesting in the first place.

BUT then that would mean out of all the things he could talk about—more whining, complaining, complimenting, small talk—he insisted about talking about this story in particular.

Okay, look. I’m just. Just. As someone who talks too much, of course I have things I actually want people to hear out of all the bullshit that comes out of my mouth. And if the thing I actually want people to listen to doesn’t even get heard, I’d go mad.

Sure, Adachi’d be fine when his complaints or intentionally unfunny jokes get brushed off. But a story of a guy that he thought was so funny, interesting, 面白い gets ignored, he really blew up, even just for a split second, maybe.

And ALL the things that happened in that story—on his first day in Inaba! His car got dented, he had to deal with a weirdo dumbass employee that knew zero personal space, yelled in his ear, who didn’t know how to do their job, got his station reputation messed up on the first day, got his ass grabbed, got (unintentionally?) mocked for his lame stories, and got his car dented for the SECOND time. Probably MORE

And he STILL wanted to talk about it /punches through concrete wall/

yes I’m overthinking about this of course i am

This little tidbit of VL Adachi kinda makes me go insane sometimes—his entire characterization in VL in particular. It was really refreshing to see and how they included both of his characters in it, his facade and how irritated he is of a lot of things underneath. And how flexible his character is immediately working with other characters when there’s sudden improv to balance the situation. Like him and Dojima, Morooka, the attendant, or even Yuuya (hero) himself.

I’ll take Taniguchi-san’s messing around in the VL bonus backstage disc in place of Masami-san being so busy he couldn’t appear in it as often as other characters.

For stagetime that lasted for fifteen minutes or less, my appreciation for VL Adachi, even if he was just comic relief, really rocketed. I say VL, bc Adachi the edgelord he’s supposed to be in literally every other media is something I analyze separately.

I haven’t even gotten to VLE oh my GODDDDD

Like I said, I don’t really regard VLE close to canon but as something to be appreciated for what it is by itself. But the way Adachi was characterized there, in or out of character, still struck me.

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Yes, there was his strange fan-agreed-canon which is,,, now canon obsession with cabbages (not that that’s a bad thing lmao). There was also him being a lot more jumpy and intimate in a clowny way, patting people on the shoulder or even downright hugging them just to mess around. Even FORGETTING who the same goddam loser who grabbed his ass almost a year ago is. But like, can’t blame him they literally changed their actor (and screenplay writer) AHAHAHA

ha... no more comedy, only dorky sword fights now

(speaking of sword fights I think it’s a fun thought how Mamiya-san [Izanami, also one of the youngest in the cast] admitted it was his first time doing sword fight choreography and even thanked Masami-san and other staff members for guiding him)

One thing unintentionally in character was Adachi accidentally nabbing the sushi overdosed in wasabi. Masami-san didn’t actually account for a joke sushi and didn’t immediately eat it—until Taniguchi-san (who also made Dojima go off his shits compared to VL) jokingly yelled at him and even riled up the audience for him to eat it. He even went off stage to get water just for him to eat the goddam sushi.

And Masami-san did! (kinda choked, but he’s fine).

Continuing from the same scene, while being overly giddy about sushi dinner (and I mean overly--he was singing about it while hopping to the Dojima residence), he tried to remind the two, Dojima and Hayato (hero), that Nanako was sleeping. Probably where she was sick if the scene was translated from the game.

(30:07)

And... the dramatic parts of VLE

Adachi was the one who reported to the IT that Dojima was chasing Namatame in the rain. While Naoto was discussing Namatame’s journal entries, Adachi, as giddy as he is, took it from Naoto’s hands and reveled in the discovery of evidence so childishly(?). He even ran to Dojima when he began regaining consciousness and immediately called the nurses to help him wheel Dojima to the ER.

Then, The Hospital Scene™️, right after Nanako flatlines.

(1:02:02)

Adachi, who recently walked into the scene, immediately worries about Dojima and IT who were ALL crying. He looks down, devastated—before yelling how Dojima’s heading to Namatame’s room.

He yells in terror and the same grief at his injured boss, all while running past and even jumping over children, who fell to the ground sobbing, to get to him. He continues yelling in a pained fashion while immediately reprimanding Dojima to stop. He gets carried by the collar before being tossed to the ground at Hayato’s feet, all while being pat by the same boy.

Dojima makes his speech about how unfair it is for the ‘killer’ to be alive when his daughter isn’t. When he finally falls to his knees, Adachi rises from the ground, humbly saying he’ll do his best to take care of Dojima (or something like that I’m in tears I literally can’t do VLE’s hospital scene i h8 this). He finally starts crying along with everyone else, being pushed away again but still tries again, trying to usher his boss away from the door.

With the help of the guard in front of the door, they all disappear off stage

please... I know this scene doesn’t need that much translation because of how important this scene is in the entire story. and I know my narratives aren’t enough so just,,,, just watch it please it’s so much more than this. everyone’s acting was just spectacular

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So, after the IT (YOSUKE. JUST YOSUKE. good job Mae-chan) stop themselves from k wording Namatame, it was ADACHI who reported Nanako’s miracle recovery. He ran to the same corridor where they all cried in, even panting and falling to the ground in relief trying to report the good news. Then he pats Hayato on the shoulder and says he’s going to Dojima.

With this... /slaps roof of half of VLE/ ALL of this....adachi.... adachisan.... he Cares™️..... holy shit.....

now. comparing to the game. do you even remember what og Adachi did? did he.. even do anything?????

(56:39)

NO!!! he just stood there!!!! being a bumbling fool but.... inappropriately!!! man. he didn’t act concerned enough.

adachi: /walks into a bunch of kids crying outside a hospital room/ “lmao why tf are y’all crying? did uhhh what’s her face uhhh nanako. did she d word or something? rip, I guess lol” LIKE????? CAN YOU IMPLY FASTER

and then he’s like “wgat hmm Where’s Dojima-san Heading Because That’s Not The Way To His Room 🤔” and only when he’s asked he actually mentions he’s heading to Namatame’s room and still needs to get choked by a first year for the room number like..... zero consideration

and his boss??? where his daughter he loves so much just??? di*s???? and he’s so devastated he’s doing what he can that very moment while he’s so numbed of thinking of the consequences???? And adachi goes “uhh boss that’s illegal” LIKE. BITCH. /punches through a concrete wall but harder/

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And??? His confrontation scene??? Like, I know they mashed it up w his tv confession scene to save stagetime for other scenes BUT IT WAS SO MMBMBMBMMGN /gestures in a good way/

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UM?? guy behind everything??? in a vulnerable area where he could easily get physically assaulted bc hes not in the tv world w his persona?? Trash talks women like he absolute misogynist he is??? getting yelled at by a bunch of kids and YELLING BACK IN THE SAME AGITATED MANNER even TAUNTING THEM then and there to GET HIS ASS?????

og Adachi was such a pussy he got caught and just scurried off into the TV world where he ended up having powers like...ok....scared of getting beat down by a bunch of highschoolers unless you have powers...ok....

he only taunted them to get him when he was in the tv world too.....he rlly couldn’t say shit in the real world huh... lol

(yeah yeah this shows how VLE Adachi knew abt his TV world powers which would make you think if he ever went into the tv world and came back out alive. Or he’s really just a badass who doesnt give a shit abt anyone’s opinions and CAN beat anyone’s ass. i have a separate thing abt this but bc i like to laught at vle rather than overthink its own lore i might. not. idk lol)

and ??? VLE Adachi can??? He can swordfight??? he doesn’t even NEED a gun—he even reflects bullets w his blade (but apparently he can still get slapped by a flying fan more often than any other attack). His fight choreo was just...so poggers. He’s like short villains done good—like??? he’s short compared to everyone else!!! but he makes up for it for stuffing all the energy inside him while is bursts out making him him the over energetic gremlin he is!!! go VL adachi!!!!

(am I low key making fun of Madono-san in the TUUSH stageplay I’ve seen four minutes of? maybe)

OK!!! Yes I was gushing abt Masami-san again back to Adachi.

It’s portrayed that while not being afraid to admit his crimes, he also goes out of his way to be a bastard and have the gall to get a bunch of kids to fight him, one on eight. He can use a katana, probably a narrative dark reflection of the hero, Hayato which I thought was nice—and he can fight!!! It also shows his persona, yes, but...it doesn’t make it clear if he’s overwhelmed by his Shadow like in the game, where his eyes were yellow and he was emitting a dark aura.

But it gets interesting how he sees he’s getting overwhelmed and starting to lose his edge towards a bunch of kids. He falls to the ground even banging the floor like a whiny brat while literally the IT tries to tell him to turn himself in. Again, like a brat he tells everyone to shut up—before getting incapacitated. While some of the IT rejoice, he bolts up unaccepting of his defeat—before getting hit in the stomach.

(1:23:54)

And his words from when he drops his katana, “Why..?” He grabs the foldable chair against his stomach, and with a remorseful look in his eyes, he says “I’m sorry..!”

THEN HE BACKFLIPS—then Hayato slashes him.

In a tone of disbelief, he goes “no way...” and collapses to the ground, being possessed by Ame-no-Sagiri.

Blah blah blah then Teddie rockets himself into the eyeball spy cam and then they both explode aaaaa

Teddie survives but I really don’t know where Adachi went. Not even a mention by Dojima if he turned himself in or was ever found—or I need to review VLE for the 48274827482nd time hehe

WHOO then the whole cast appears for the dance number at the end of show YAHOO

#long post #persona 4 #persona 4 visualive #persona 4 visualive the evolution #tohru adachi #sulululat #pagsususuri #p4 #p4v #p4ve #//HAPPY 4K WORDS VL ANON #// if theres anything u want to ask... im right here /collapses/ #// i almost went ham over actor relationships like. talking abt bpm was ENOUGHHH we're talking about the character not the assistant direct #// aaa this took so long... i literally mashed up so many other idea documents into one.. man.

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Winning The Game Called Love (Hector Bellerin) PART II

This is part II of my mini Héctor Bellerín story. I hope you like it, and I am thankful for all of the five or six people who read and liked the first part. You are the best… If you like this one, don’t be shy to write what you think about it.

Part I

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“You look like someone has killed your unicorn.”

Aida looked up from where she had been sitting - a single chair in the corner of the room, as an urge to take a ridiculous and cartoon-inspired double-take at the handsome footballer in front of her overwhelmed her. 

Héctor stood mere feet away from her, hands in his pockets, looking devilishly handsome in his official suit. Despite not being the tallest or the most muscular man on the squad, to Aida, he did have something that she was attracted to - character and the confidence that he toyed with tactfully. Even now, as he was staring down at her, with his eyebrows raised ever so slightly, it made Aida’s stomach do an one-eighty. 

Realisation dawned on her - he was obviously waiting for an answer, but Aida wasn’t sure what he asked her in the first place. Her brain was folding in itself from being struck by his presence to the point that she was unable to form any kind of vocal response. Like a fish, she stared back at him, trying to buy some more time. 

Why did he have to look so good in that suit?

Héctor lightly cleared his throat and Aida blinked, feeling her brain unfold before she remembered that he actually said something and that she was supposed to reply, but the “unicorn” bit had her confused. 

Was that supposed to be a joke? Should I laugh? 

Do something because he is about to leave.

“Pardon?” she asked quickly - voice slightly squeaky. “Unicorn? I didn’t get it…” she trailed off, her voice reaching her usual melody.

Héctor didn’t smile, but rather tilted his head in curiosity for what seemed an eternity, and Aida let out a breath that was a mix of defeat and disappointment. Yes, there was a huge amount of excitement bubbling up inside of her, but she was also aware that this wouldn’t be the first time that he was ignoring her. He always did, so why did she, deep down, expect some kind of conversation. 

Maybe because he spoke to you first, you idiot?

To her surprise, Héctor turned around for a second, grabbing the nearest empty chair before putting it in front of her and sitting down, gently pulling at his trousers as he did so. 

“What’s up?” he asked her nonchalantly and with a small smile, making Aida’s brain fold itself once again - her thoughts running wild like gazelles in a savanna.

Can you find gazelles in savanna in the first place?

Shit, there is no time for this right now, Aida!

If it was any other situation, Aida would be more than glad to jump on a train of bad and self-deprecating jokes, elaborate something funny, but with Héctor sitting in front of her it felt as if her tongue was completely cut off. She wanted so badly to slap herself and come to her senses because this was, to her sudden realisation, probably the first and last time she would get to speak to him properly and in person.

Finally, she gave him a shrug, deciding in panic to stick with the lamest thing her brain could come up with as she looked down at her lap. “Just enjoying the party. It’s lovely, innit?”

Oh, well done, Aida. Well done.

She was aware that anyone with the normal or even a prescription-enhanced sight and a common knowledge of body language would know that she was not telling the truth or at least that she was trying to cover her real feelings. 

Héctor wasn’t a stupid lad - Aida knew that much.

His eyebrow shot up again, this time higher before he leaned back in the chair, watching her amusedly. “I have a hard time believing that you are having fun, but yeah, let’s put it your way - the party is lit. A bit boring at the moment, with all these investors and rich men talking shit about things they don’t know anything about. The music is a downer too.”

Aida looked away, feeling like squirming under his gaze and the weight of the words he spoke, crossing her legs as ladylike as possible. 

Her throat felt like she swallowed a handful of dust - itchy and dry. It wasn’t as if she was stupid or socially awkward; she just wasn’t sure what else she could ask him. 

Deciding that she should say something before he just gets up and leaves her, she tucked a strand of her hair. “So…” she stopped for a second, mulling over her words, figuring how to formulate her thoughts “Are you happy with the season so far?” 

Héctor nodded, looking at the other side of the lobby where his teammates were standing, but Aida, instead of doing the same, focused on his tied hair, the curve of his neck, and his choice of jewelry - an hoop earring with a small cross hanging— 

“Hmmm,” he hummed looking back at her and Aida quickly dropped the staring game. “Considering the previous one, I shouldn’t be complaining.” He shrugged once again, and Aida smiled a little while crying on the inside on how pathetic she was. “Look Aida—” Héctor suddenly spoke again, a bit quieter this time as he leaned closer to her. For a split of a second his scent tickled her nose, “—that’s your name, right?” When Aida nodded in agreement, he continued, “if you want me to, I can go back to my mates, if y’know what I mean? I am not being rude here. In fact, I am trying to be friendly, but you are clearly…”

He was already getting up as he spoke, and Aida’s panic alarm kicked in - she didn’t want to remember this party like this. She didn’t want to have the memory of Héctor walking out on her because she couldn’t form cohesive sentences or be her chatty self as usual. 

“Please, sit down…” she half-asked, half-pleaded, last words coming out as a whisper. “Pardon me,” she added, “I just have a lot on my plate at the moment.”

Héctor nodded, sitting back in the chair. “No need to apologise for not feeling well,” he answered politely, “and a blind man could figure out you were not yourself tonight.” He stopped for a moment, a cheeky glint surfacing in his eyes, as he continued, “but if you were able to smile your arse off this entire time at work, you can do it tonight as well, no?”

This time it didn’t take her that long to catch up on his words, and it finally caught her what he meant with the whole “unicorn” thing. Reflexively, she straightened in her chair and folded her arms in defense. Aida was never the one to pick a fight or start a confrontation, but she was a fighter when it came to defending herself.

“I beg your pardon? Care to elaborate what you mean by that?” she asked, moving her head to one side, refusing to look at him. “You say you are not being rude, yet you seem to be mocking me even though you don’t know what’s going on in my life.”

Aida looked back at Héctor who was grinning at her, but she only knitted her eyebrows in annoyance, lifting her folded arms ever so slightly on her chest. He kept smiling, and if she had been able to, she would have raised an eyebrow at him.

“If someone should be playing defensive here, it should be me, no?” he asked, leaning closer again, smirking at her. “See what I did there? Defense, defender…” he trailed off, pointing at his chest with his thumb as he wiggled his eyebrows. 

Aida wanted to stay annoyed; wanted to make it clear that he couldn’t mock her, but as soon as the joke left his mouth, she couldn’t help herself - a burst of laughter left her throat. 

Héctor was both infuriating and cute at the same time. 

“Okay, okay,” she shook her head lightly, her hands falling back to her lap while her stomach burst into thousands of butterflies doing backflips and whatnot. “That was a good one, I admit. Still, I want an explanation.”

Héctor shifted in his seat, suddenly looking slightly uncomfortable. “It was a joke, Aida.” Aida nodded, waiting for him to elaborate but he didn’t. Instead, they settled into a silence - both of them watching people around them, until Héctor decided to cross his legs, lacing his hands around his knee. Suddenly, he spoke again. “Seriously, what’s up?” he asked as Aida felt her heart wanting to burst out of her ribcage. 

Once again, he had that playful smile painted on his face, so to avoid staring at him like a lovestruck teenager, she looked at his tattooed fingers, allowing herself time to think about her answer.

She contemplated whether she should tell him the truth or not. Was he genuinely interested in knowing what was up in her life? Or was he just being polite? Just for a second, Aida considered lying, but if she was bad at hiding her real feelings, she was even worse when it came to telling lies. Every time she tried to do so, it ended up in a disaster, no matter what was the reason or desired outcome.

Aida gazed down at her shoes and the very same speck of rain residue on her shoe before sucking in a quick breath, releasing it with a small shudder.

“I got laid off from work last month? This coming Wednesday I will no longer be working at the training centre,” she responded - the words leaving a sour and disappointed taste in her month - despite it being almost a month since she found out about it.

Aida looked up, watching Héctor’s face change from that of a silly boy to a serious one before he sat up properly, changing his posture - his elbows resting on his thighs as he leaned closer to her. Aida surprised with his sudden movement, blushed. The same scent she felt before, reached her nose again, and this time, she wanted so badly to inhale it properly. 

“Oi, that’s bad!” he replied and Aida, not knowing what to say, shrugged - there was nothing else she could do about it. “Want me to speak to someone? Maybe I can talk to the manager?” Héctor urged. 

All the fluttering from her stomach went straight to her heart.

“Thank you, but I don’t think you or anyone else can help it. The decision had been made and I already tried to talk to the department. I will be fine, I mean,” she rambled, looking up at him as she tried to give him her best fake optimistic smile. “I will find another job eventually, and anyway, there are worse things than being laid off. Imagine if I ended up on the streets or in a car accident—” Aida was fully aware that she was talking too much and too fast, but she couldn’t hold it back. The feelings she had been harbouring inside needed only one push to be released and Héctor happened to be the one to do so. “I apologise once again if I came across as asocial or something, but I.. you know.” She took a deep breath before giving him a dorky smile. “I should have stayed at home because I don’t know why I am at this party in the first place, and they don’t serve hot cocoa here, and that is exactly what I need now.”

Héctor was looking at her for what seemed an eternity when in reality it was only a few seconds, and Aida wondered if she said too much. Did she cross the border? Is he going to walk out on her thinking that she has some serious issues? 

Suddenly, he got up, straightening his trousers and then his tie before doing a wave with his hand, motioning to Aida to do the same. She kept sitting for a second, but when Héctor smiled, repeating the wave, she slowly got up. 

Is he going to ask me for a dance?

No one else is dancing? 

“Come on, let’s go.” Héctor spoke casually. 

“Pardon?”

“You should really stop saying pardon. You sound like my literature teacher and I have no fond memories of her.” 

Aida tucked her hair behind her ears bashfully. “You are giving me no choice, Héctor,” she muttered, the sound of his name coming out of her mouth feeling different than any previous time she did so. “What do you  mean by let’s go. Where?”

Héctor looked around, tucking his both hands into his trousers pockets before looking back at her with a boyish smile. “To find hot cocoa,” he finally answered, matter-of-factly.

Maybe it was her emotions or rather whirlwind of it?

Maybe it was his charming smile?

Or maybe it was a promise of hot cocoa?

Aida couldn’t help herself.

She smiled.

Part III

#hector bellerin fan fiction #hector bellerin imagine #hector bellerin fic #footballer fanfiction #football imagine #football one shot #Football Fanfiction #hector bellerin oneshot #arsenal fc fan fiction #arsenal fanfiction

[bbugyu]

HI can u maybe talk abt seungkwan the way u answered previous member asks? 🥺 i love reading ur little analysis and i'm deep into my sk feels atm

AAAAA URI BOOOOO YES OGMNGGNV i ult boo seungkwan FUN FACT even tho i never write for him because he’s like. he’s my best friend. i love him. lets get it

so seungkwan is an enfp, which is the campaigner! this is another personality type that makes a really good leader (there’s so many in svt omg) and if i remember right, cheol has said if it wasn’t him, he would want boo to be leader! despite being one of the youngest members in seventeen, he is incredibly skilled and a really good teacher, and he is REALLY strong in communication. there’s that video of him leading a vocal team practice, and you can really tell he knows how to bring out the best in people. jeonghan hits a note and seungkwan’s like “see! i told you you could do it! why did you hesitate??” and jeonghan like shy giggles and it just shows that he knows exactly how to encourage and praise people in the way that they will be receptive to. this comes from his extroverted intuition, which means that he is good at like. abstract thinking. he sees things for what they can be, not for what they are. this links to being super creative! seungkwan is one of the members with several writing credits on the svt discography, and you can tell by the way he just randomly belts out runs (seokmin does this also lol) that he’s always thinking about new melodies.

enfps focus on relationships a lot, whether its between people, situations, or ideas. he makes connections that other people wouldn’t, thanks to his abstract thinking! but he’s also kinda stubborn - he’s someone who thinks that his values and morals are correct and is unwilling to budge. i think the reason he really stands by his values tho is because enfps tend to overthink everything, so he truly TRULY believes that he’s in the right!! because he spends SO MUCH TIME thinking about EVERYTHING that he’s like... there’s no way i’m wrong (meEEE)

he follows his heart! his decision making has less to do with logic and more to do with how he feels about the situation. enfps also work through stuff out loud, which is why seungkwan seems rambly sometimes - he needs to hear his own logic out loud in order to fully process it and then comes to a decision by the time he’s done explaining! but his gut feeling is REALLY GOOD like he has a strong feeling so it’s smart tht he uses it! his ability to see things as what they might be make him really good at problem solving. ex. mafia games! the mafia always tries to kill seungkwan first, and it’s because he always observes what everyone is doing and says stuff that worries the mafia - he makes himself a target by being too smart, and he knows it (which is why he begged shua to save him in the first round during don’t lie 1). i think he’s better at interpersonal problem solving vs. logic puzzles - he’s not bad at them, but he’s better at reading behavior and noticing changes in patterns.

enfps can seem really serious or like. “high stakes” a lot of the time (it’s because they care so much haha), but they know when to let loose. seungkwan always encourages everyone to have the most fun during breaks, or during ttt!! when they were scream singing psy and twice DHSKSD he’s also EXTREMELY enthusiastic - he literally puts his everything into anything he tries. he does everything like rent’s due KEFJFHSKD i think it’s so admirable!!! but the reason he’s able to do that even in front of people he doesnt know is because he’s so extroverted. he’s super personable and friendly, and people seem to get along with him really easily. every time he’s on a show as a guest, the hosts LOVE him. him and jaejae are literally iconic together like I LOVE THEMMMM i think we can all relate to him because of how excited he gets about things. like he’s such a fanboy. wonderful king! as a fellow wonderful, we stan. that’s why he gets good recognition as professor boo!!! even fans of other groups go and watch his vlives because he has such genuine fan knowledge of kpop through the ages. hes enthusiasm is UNMATCHED!

svt is so full of empathetic people like. damn. seungkwan is really good about giving advice (thanks to his problem solving skills and the fact that he thinks about how things can be instead of how they are), but he’s an extremely attentive listener. like dino said in the kelly clarkson video, seungkwan is really good about checking up on people when they’re going through a hard time.

ok thi sis getting long so speedround: he’s kinda disorganized. he really cares about health and tries to keep up but i think he loses shit like constantly because there’s just too much JFSDKF. his emotions overwhelm him really quickly (usually anger FDHSKH). he seeks approval a lot, which means he gets really nervous when he’s around people he really idolizes (ex. when him and mingyu were on omniscient manager and he looked constipated).

I LOVE BOO SEUNGKWAN SO MUCHHHFJKHJSHD

#I LOVE HEEEE #anon #ask #booff #svt hc

[raggedydocs]

Why is everybody suddenly turning on the Thirteenth Doctor Era? During this season's broadcast there was nothing but good reviews and now all of a sudden every other blog is like "I personally love Jodie but the writing is terrible" and I'm like what the bloomin' heck -- this season was awesome!

To be honest, your experience of the reception to Thirteen’s era so far is clearly more positive than mine because from the start it has always appeared as if people’s attitudes towards it have been largely divisive – at least from what I’ve seen. I’ve been trying to articulate my opinion surrounding the fandom’s reactions to this era of the show ever since 2017, but seeing as it looks like this era could last for another few years, and with this ask popping up, I feel like now is a good time to talk about it. Excuse my rambling (although I feel like that’s pretty standard with my blog now 😂).

The fandom has always been pretty opinionated when it comes to new Doctors  being announced. I mean, for a show whose very existence is down to its ability to change and quite literally regenerate itself every few years, its die-hard audience really seems to struggle with this every time it comes around. At least for a little while. Every Doctor gets the typical “they’re too young!” or “they’re too old” or “the show is dead to me now” or “bring back [insert previous actor]” and then after a while most people grow to love them just as they loved the previous incarnations. It’s a cycle that most fans are self-aware of and often joke about. With Jodie though, this response was different. Heightened. And the anger and uncertainty wasn’t simply because of age, appearance, qualification or whatever superficial concerns that people tend to have. It started to be centred around gender, and I think that’s where the toxicity started. Jodie being the first female Doctor was HUGE, at least it definitely was over here in the UK, because it reached pretty much every news and media outlet that we have. There’s a whole argument I could have about whether a woman leading such a monumental television show like Doctor Who should be such a big deal, but I think either way, when a show with over half a century of history changes the gender of its main character for the first time, the buzz it generates is kind of inevitable. But it’s an unavoidable fact that ever since Jodie’s announcement there has been a group of people who from the very beginning, before they had seen anything of what Jodie has to offer, decided that the show was dead to them. Why? Because she’s a woman. And even to this day they remain very vocal of the fact, which does beg the question of why they are so bothered when they apparently don’t watch the show anymore. But what do I know?

Of course, there are also a lot of people who dislike this era for reasons that don’t necessarily concern Jodie’s gender. As you mentioned, this tends to be because of the writing or Chibnall’s general methods of showrunning, but if anything I would say that this was much more prevalent in Series 11 than Series 12. Series 11 was a hugely divisive series. It stripped back a lot of what made Doctor Who what it had become since the reboot; there were no story arcs, no familiar monsters or lore, very little to tie the show back to what had come before it. Apart from some beautiful visuals and stand out episodes (as well as some fab performances from Jodie), Series 11 felt to some like it was just sort of...there. No fanfare, very little threat, and nothing particularly memorable other than (in my opinion) the historical episodes. And even though I think Series 11 is hugely underrated, I definitely agree that in certain aspects the series just felt like it was lacking. It was great for new viewers, but isolated the old ones.

Series 12 generally seemed to have a much more positive response and the fandom really felt like it was alive again when it was airing. I think a lot of this was down to Dhawan’s Master being introduced in the first episode, as well as the Timeless Child arc. It was a brilliant twist and brought about excitement for what the rest of the series had in store, something that Series 11 simply didn’t do. And apart from a couple of flatter episodes, most of the episodes were genuinely really enjoyable to watch and very well received. In fact, I would argue that the sentiment towards Series 12 and this era overall would be much more positive if it wasn’t for the Timeless Child revelation. Although I personally quite like the way it expands the lore of the show and don’t particularly see it as ruining anything, it was a demonstration of Chibnall’s divisive showrunning. From the very beginning he has always been about bold moves and earth-shattering changes and this is something that I actually quite like about this era; I think it keeps things interesting and fresh. But it isn’t very palatable and that’s where it upsets a lot of fans. As I’ve said before, even the changes in Doctor Who can be too much for some people, and I can respect that, even if I don’t necessarily agree.

That being said, obviously this era has its supporters, and a lot of people like me can still enjoy what is being put out there whilst having our own criticisms. I think Jodie is an incredible Doctor who deserves so much more credit for what she does and I’m so glad that she seems to be sticking around. And I’m also always going to be intrigued by what Chibnall has up his sleeve for the next few years.

#sorry that this is so long #I HAVE THOUGHTS OKAY? #as usual #literally been thinking about this since 2017 #doctor who #dw #fandom #thirteenth doctor #13th doctor #jodie whittaker #chris chibnall #doctor who series 11 #doctor who series 12 #asks #ask me anything #send me asks #randomnessoffiction #raggedywhittaker #rambles #wafflefest

[solitaryhowl]

So you want to buy Wolvden?

I can already tell I’m going to ramble (I absolutely did oops) but bare with me, and I’ll try to make this as useful as possible. I’ve only recently rejoined the Wolvden hype and had a browse at social medias, tumblr posts, etc and thought I’d make my coming back from the dead post at least kind of helpful or just chip in a bit.

For context I was an alpha tester a few months back (account was reasonably removed because my part time job kicked into gear a bit and I simply didn’t have the time for it among other aspects of my life at the time) I won’t be disclosing any specific information about the game, or any ‘spoilers’ or reveal anything at all because that’s not my business for a game not out yet, and a lot has probably  changed since I last played it but here’s my 2 cents given what I experienced, in vague terms - as well as a cheeky little ‘worth a buy?’ from me at the bottom.

So something I’ve seen said a few times; Wolvden is hard /  to the point where it’s not fun. Wolvden is definitely harder than Lioden but I wouldn’t say the difficulty is at a ‘this isn’t enjoyable anymore’ level entirely, not to at all say those opinions aren’t valid because they absolutely are, and it was a pain in the neck sometimes with how the RNG processed certain things and how exploring was and pricing of different things, so my take is that Wolvden is probably not going to be a win for everyone who loved Lioden or all browser game players. It is more difficult and there are more factors to take into account, and it does take longer to make progress, but honestly that’s why I loved it and why I’m still excited. It really hones in on the complexities of living in the wild and all the things that could go wrong with a wolf pack, and it just has more depth and flavor.

It’s definitely a lot more specific in several regards and requires more attention to keep your pack fit, healthy and fed than Lioden so it will very likely require more maintenance than a casual Lioden pride, so if you like the idea of a game that’s more challenging, unpredictable at times, and encourages you to be more vigilant with your pack to get it going pretty well then Wolvden is the bees knees. Lioden is definitely more lax in most ways compared to this game, so know what you’re getting into beforehand whether you give money into it for EA.

The Developers were extremely understanding and helpful when it was brought to their attention if something was in fact too difficult, or unfair, and did make adjustments accordingly so the game was less punishing, but keeping it to a degree of difficulty that makes it interesting so I trust them to listen to the players and make a game that we love, but just know that yes Wolvden will 100% be ‘harder’ and sometimes more frustrating than Lioden or similar sims.

Not as much have I seen this, but some have stated that it’s simply not worth buying a game that’s broken or just isn’t functioning to a level where they should pay. I cant speak on this because I have no idea what the state of the game is now, but honestly I expect imperfection completely. We’re paying for Early Access, even standard opening for the very first time without EA for any game is going to yield bugs and kinks, and the Developers from what I experienced were amazingly attentive towards any bug reports that we sent in and listened to feedback on things that were going wrong, so if you’re not comfortable purchasing something that isn’t in mint-condition most likely then Moon Moon or official release is probably more suitable for you. Everyone deserves to have the experience they want, so if you’re unsure about buying a game that won’t be absolutely perfect then official release is only a few short weeks away so that might be a good path for you to take!

This is getting long so I’ll try to put a bow on it - Is it worth a buy? My personal answer is yes, but it will heavily depend on the experience YOU want as a player and what you want to get from a game. The difficulty is higher, it’s challenging, progress can be slow sometimes or require more work, and RNG will be more against you than ever and force you to work more to problem-solve for your pack mates. I personally love it that way, but you might not and that’s totally cool! I’m not sure how friendly this will be for progress for ‘casual’ players who only have an hour or so to give in, but that’s the same with any sim game from what I’ve experienced; they all require some dedication to a degree.

There’s more detail to the care and live of your wolves so it does make you sink a bit more time and consideration into it, and I expect the community to be quite vocal and hopefully nicer than Lioden’s and involved, and can only hope for the best outcome for this game and the players. My advice right now would be to not stress too much about getting a Full or Half Moon package if you can’t get one with the knowledge that Golden Cones will be discounted throughout EA, so even a Moon Moon or Crescent Moon package is great and then just additionally buying any extra cones you want for the price difference of the packages will work out too if you’re worried about not getting as good of a game experience. Most of the ‘decent’ ID’s will have been taken so if you’re fine settling with a random one then Crescent might be a good way to go!

If you actually read this random post then congratulations, we’ve probably crossed the 2 hours gap until the second wave of EA sales because I can’t say anything in less that 2,000 words ;) I hope this was at least a tiny bit constructive to someone and if for any reason someone wants to ask my empty brain a question feel free to send an ask through, have a great afternoon folks~

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