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kithtaehyung · 2 years

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RYEN u really wanted to break my heart huh,, u wanted me to feel soul crushing sadness from this interlude didn't u. it's a double edged sword getting into yoongi's head bc i know i def wanted to see what he was thinking and how he feels about/around reader and what went down at basketball but poor baby :(

it's so upsetting that he thinks so poorly of himself and that he feels like he isn't enough ,, he puts so much thought into how reader must have been treated badly in the past and recognizes when she starts feeling off because of it but then turns it on himself saying he should do better :( like BABE ?? who hurt him in the past i'm so ready to fight for him he's doing his absolute best like GOD when he's thinking about his GUITAR. no. i'm stopping that right here. it doesn't exist in my brain i just erased it i can't take it. someone give him head scratches rn lay him down and treat him gently for a minute he's so. GOD RYEN i'm actually going to cry thinking about it i'm moving on LMAO

i'm really excited to go back and reread this side by side with all the other pars because getting to see both perspectives and compare how reader and yoongi were feeling/thinkng,,, they're so similar fr. i wish they could see that they're both MORE than good enough for each other and that they're both feeling the same way </3 me telepathically communicating that to them rn it'll get through eventually don't worry i got this !!

but seriously, from what i can remember from my (v recent hehe) reread,, everything ties in so well and adding that extra Flavor and Depth to the scenes UGH i love it here, seriously. i don't think i've ever felt such a strong emotional connection to a published book, let alone a fanfic?? and i'm a bitch who ANNOTATES books, ryen. highlighters, sticky tabs, notes in margins. there's just something about your writing and the way you weave everything together and build on top of the past things you've written that hits just right. it all feels so relatable and real it's DELICIOUS.

i loved seeing the friendship between jimin and yoongi !! i wish yoongi would LISTEN TO HIM tho fr,, reader is so into you AND YOU'RE SO HAPPY WITH HER LIKE ?? i get that bro (did i officially announce myself as team namjoon is bro bc yes) finding out is something that he's worried about, and i get that fr. bro has been there to watch all of yoongi's mistakes, it makes sense that bro would be concerned and maybe even upset, especially about them keeping it a secret for so long but like,, bro even dom admitted that yoongi was different with her. i rlly think he would come around after he saw them together bc god they just,, they both are just so good to each other and they care so much for each other </3 heart hurty

anyways here take the lines that i would highlight tf out of if this was anywhere that i could do that lol

"Just this once. Let him be the only one that worries." OUCHIES

“I did what I thought you would do.” yes yoongi would in fact go to the ends of the earth to make sure she was safe thank you for pointing that out and hurting me jimin .

“What are you gonna do once you stop?” um hahaha who said there had to be an end ahahahahahaha nooooo ahaha stop jimin ahaha dw i'll distract bro for the rest of forever he will simply not find out !!!

"What the fuck are you doing to him? If you came up to him right now? He’d give you anything you wanted. All you’d have to do is say it." i am punching a wall right now btw :-) "Once a space that saw many destructive arguments and silent, unfinished meals, your appearance started giving it new life. New energy. Energy that he can physically feel as he passes it on the way to his room." i can't take this one actually "Lips at your temple, he vows, “That won’t happen again, love.” okay so this was a personal attack and i can't accept this i want to get you back for this so bad i am crying i can't take this this is kind of like embarrassingly long and if i tell u i've reread this 2.5 times already you WILL pretend it's been longer than a day. ig i could copy paste this into the feedback form but <3 it's already here so i will apologize for the wall of text . i did indeed get carried away but such is life -loona anon (should have a character limit fr)

LOONA ISTG THIS REVIEW IS DAMN DELICIOUS. apologies for not getting to it sooner! i needed the right amount of energy to respond bc holy hell you typed so much and i appreciate it sm :')) did i wanna break hearts? yes and no. i didn't wanna write yoongi's inner thoughts like that, but that's what they were. so i didn't wanna disrespect his character by writing it lightly. rest under the cut bc i have an essay lol

you're right. it's completely upsetting to know this is how he thinks of himself. whatever happened before seemed to really stick with him, to the point where he doesn't even give himself credit for anything good - only the bad (like being the reason the threat was made, etc.) when he's thinking about the guitar? i wanted to cry and i did tear up a lot. so. yeah. i understand if you cry while thinking about that bc i know i did. especially considering the song he played for reader in dalo.

OOOH yes!! they were actually meant to be read side by side if you have the time/resources to try it. i had to make sure they lined up well, despite their thought flows being different. i hope your telepathy works! the flavor worked? i'm glad.

oh my gosh.. a strong emotional connection to something i've created? that is one of the highest compliments i could ever receive, truly. maybe it can be printed someday so you can annotate it and keep it forever! i would love to hear commentary like that. i'm glad it's all woven together in a coherent way. i'm having so much fun and i hope you continue to enjoy the rest!

JIMIN AND YOONGI MY BOYSSSSSS UGH. i love them so fcking much it is absurd. (putting you on team joonie!) i know we all see that reader and yoongi have huge chemistry and care between each other, and the people that are around them enough can see it. but the thing with bro is that he's not actively looking for that. all he sees is his best friend and his sister, and they've had banter between each other ever since the old days. coupled with the fact that he's been gone and is thinking about so many other things. i just think it would be one of the last things on his mind, whereas people like dom and jimin can see the slipping bc yoongi and reader act different without bro around.

now for your annotation worthy lines:

"Just this once. Let him be the only one that worries." YEAH THIS ONE BROKE ME.

“I did what I thought you would do.” oh god... yeah. you picked the hard hitters, didn't you.

“What are you gonna do once you stop?” REALITY IS A BIIIIICH

"What the fuck are you doing to him? If you came up to him right now? He’d give you anything you wanted. All you’d have to do is say it." i am punching a wall right now btw :-)

"Once a space that saw many destructive arguments and silent, unfinished meals, your appearance started giving it new life. New energy. Energy that he can physically feel as he passes it on the way to his room." you know what they say about unfinished meals in literature...

"Lips at your temple, he vows, “That won’t happen again, love.” HE SAID IT AGAIN. HE DID. THE SECOND TIME AND ITS WHEN READER IS ASLEEP dklfjdkvj

thank you so much for all of this, love. i thoroughly enjoyed it all and read it a shameful amount of times before finally putting this hopefully coherent response together. seriously, thank you!

#an essay AGAINNN #wow #loona anon #aka hyunjin's gf<33 #lovely people #3tanDS #asks:3tan #*ryenfictalk #mailbox💌#long post

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shozaii · 4 years

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can u pls gib me kunikida and dazai fluff hcs? i love them sm

(a/n):hello anon! why, of course hehe🥰thank you so much for the request!

@amourzai my cielo helped me with this fic ilysm☁🌹

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fluffy hc’s

pairings: dazai x reader, kunikida x reader

warnings: none!

dazai osamu

despite being the chaotic person that he is, dazai tends to turn into the mushy soft puddle when he’s with you. swoons around you, always shows you his best side, brags about him being better than chuuya, basically what you see him do to atsushi, but it’s ten times more emphasized and complex.😌

when he wants to confess his feelings, he does it in a quiet, peaceful place. namely, while watching the yokohama sunset. may or may not have found time to walk back home alone with you, held your hand and locked his arm around yours. “i need to show you something special, love~.”

feelings to him is something so cherished, so sophisticated and important. as a person who has gone through a series of emotions; he prefers to let them out in private.

even kneels down and asks, “would you be mine, mon cheri?” while rubbing little circles on the back of your hand.

when dazai confesses, his eyes would look directly into yours. if anything were to bother him; consider his other side to be seen. and we all know we don’t want that to happen.

i don’t know why but i always imagine dazai’s hands to be soft and delicate, and lovely to hold. (yes, i have seen too many gifs of them and i am in love) anything he does with his hands are just so attractive.

blows kisses when he’s like across you. so it becomes a series of sending each other kisses when you’re like one metre apart....and when he really does miss it, he gets up from his seat, leans over and pecks your lips real quick.

height difference is pretty obvious between him and his s/o(unless you’re super tall :0). if you were shorter, consider the t e a s i n g 24/7. if you were nearly as tall/taller than him, the floor is all yours🥴

lowkey wish i was taller rn

okay but real talk - he loves carrying you bridal style. a lot. and here’s the thing, it happens at random timing. for instance, when you’re working on your latest paperwork. during a mission (just to boast how strong he is). very unpredictable but so adorable, you can’t help but blush harder.

“osamu! put me down or else....!”

“or else what, my honey bunch?”

“you’re not getting kisses for a week.”

mans sets you down with raptor speed. unless if he’s in a flirty mood, you would see yourself winning.

yes, he loves seeing you flustered. i feel like you can do so as well - but i headcanon him winning everytime. how do you win this...? maybe kiss him when he least expects it. do it.

cute pet names like belladonna, my love, mon cheri, any new language he learns, he uses them. and if he almost forgets them(because he collects so much), he writes them down on a sticky note, and sticks it on his desk. when he goes back to the dorms, he sticks it on the wall or some place he could remember.

dates with dazai are either during work hours, or the after hours of yokohama. and he makes sure you’re going to have the time of your life on every single date; so he plans a new activity on every one of them.

when he doesn’t have the chance to do so, he pouts. but when it has been replaced with a job given by the president/kunikida, there you go. a date and mission in your hands.

he gets this rush of energy when he realizes that what was supposed to be a relaxing date out just got a whole lot better with the mission.

dazai gives kisses anywhere he likes. nose, lips, cheeks, jawline, the list goes on. he even knows where you prefer him to do so. i’m surprised that he still isn’t a psychic.

double suicide? he would never think of it. all his life, he wants to find a reason to live. he does get his reasons - one of them is you. your tears to him are anguish and heartbreak at its worst. cue you crying while telling him to stay by your side.

“please...never leave my side,” you sobbed as you buried your face in his chest. “if i can stay alive in this place we call earth for as long as possible, then so can you.”

that moved him so much. a whole lot. “oh, belladonna. don’t you ever think i’m going away.”

silence.

“not without you.”

you punched him, and he couldn’t stop laughing. but he’d stop, giving you an unlimited amount of kisses.

b a b y. dazai is babie.

kunikida doppo

oh my god we have baby number 2.

in his eyes, you were the definition of perfection. he even tries to remember exactly when did he catch feelings for you. it was totally unexpected, according to him.

cue almost all of the members of ada teasing him all the time about him finally finding his ‘ideal’ partner.

but to him, it wasn’t the ideal that mattered anymore. you outmatched almost everything he wrote down. and man, was he the happiest person alive.

how does he confess...? well wonderful question. he didn’t plan it. the members did.

maybe yosano-san called you and told you about another ‘crucial case’ a few blocks away from your completed one and ‘since you were out there, you were perfect for it.’ you agreed because why not?

meanwhile, dazai probably said, ‘this case involves yet another series of men wearing glasses - you and me must go out to end this person.’

of course kunikida goes ??? ‘where are the evidences/pictures???” but dazai brushes it off saying ‘ah~ i left them somewhere.’ to which,,,well you already know. they went out and not even a minute after, the bandaged man goes missing. with the intercom, he leads him to - you guessed it - the exact same place you were in.

‘kunikida! you’re here for the non-existent case too...?”

‘non-existent? OHMYGODDAZAI-’

the line was cut off, and he goes on and on about him, until;

‘i can never be the same when i’m with someone i obliviously like-,’

he’s a huge mess when he’s around you, trust me. so him blabbering that out loud is completely normal.

butterflies in your stomach because you’re so in love with him.

‘i don’t know if this is the right time, but our friends probably did this for us. so i hope you’d be okay if i said my feelings are mutual?”

kunikida is alright with just a little pda, maybe some hand-holding and little ruffles on your hair because he secretly loves how floofy it is🥺when it comes to kissing, the furthest he would go is on your head. nothing more, nothing less.

he needs to maintain his composure *cough* but my mans right here couldn’t, you’re just too perfect.

so when you’re two alone, expect lots and lots of wholesome kisses around your face; and also loads of cuddles. this side of kunikida is what i headcanon today, folks. the ‘soft for you’ side. he lovesss it when he kisses your forehead, he finds it so cute.

p l e a s e kiss him on the cheek, kunikida would be all over the place.

if you go somewhere on a mission with someone else, he would be on his feet. he gets so worried, thinking of what might happen. don’t get me wrong, he trusts you in your job so much; he just doesn’t want you to get hurt.

so when you do return, he’s the first one at the door.

checks if you’ve eaten, if you’ve drank enough water, if you’ve gotten enough sleep. if you’ve not he’s just going to pull you to bed, holding you tight and lulling you to sleep.

during work hours, you walk over to him, wrapping your arms.

‘y/n....we only do this after work.’

‘so you don’t want my hugs then?’

stays silent and just lets you stay there for as long as you want. he will tolerate you and you only.

kunikida loves you a lot. sometimes he might not show it, but just know that the love he has for you is drastic it tears you up.

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(a/n): i am s o r r y this took so long! ahh i’ve had so much to do and i really do hope this was worth it!

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syubub · 3 years

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2021 Reading for BTS and the collective!!

Wow wow wow! I didn't disappear or get dragged away by a demon. No no, I just got thrust into unexpected shadow work and I now have an unhealthy obsession with sea shanties and a love of pasta.

I had this idea planned to be early in January but that didn't pan out so I'm doing it now. I have another yoongi reading in the works and another fun thing coming soon as well!!

I promise I won't bore you to death any longer but I hope you've all been doing well!!

Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes only and not to be taken as fact.

If this message doesn't apply, let it fly!

Cool cool cool.

Let's get it.

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Oki. I first want to say that this I gonna be long lol. I did a meditation and gathered some little pieces of things y'all might need to hear and then I pulled cards for every month. The fountain tarot deck is the cards for us, the collective, and the rider-waite cards are for bts. It'll make more sense when I add picks and stuff. I did a little extra card pull for yoongi for the month of May too :) I'll make sure to type out all the cards in text so you know what they are (the pics are kinda wack.) I also used my pendulum to ask if there was a bts related event for every month and that's at the bottom. It's just to take in the possible energy for the month and something that could result from that energy!

LETTUCE BEGIN (hehe)

Starting with the section for the channeled messages. I want to reiterate that this was collective so if it doesn't resonate with you, the message might not be for you! Use your intuition.

(Enough talking. Damn)

So. As I said this was through meditation and connecting to the big column tree thing (I told my cousin about the tree/pillar and they were like,, "so basically a big energy dildo in the æther?" .... I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. h e l p m e) and asking if there was any messages or advice that needed to be delivered and it was... intresting?

Things came fragmented. So there was little messages like, "Its gonna be okay" and "things are changing for everyone" and "open your eyes if you want to see" (that's sassy.) There was one particular thing that was confusing me though. Straight up it was just "flower" on repeat and like a really bad picture of a flower? Like you could tell what it was but it was bad quality. Anyway, I was like "okay. Kindly shut the fuck up. Pls." And I wrote down flower, pink flower and rose. Sooo.... idk but there you go.

More messages were things like, "the block isn't in your head", "try calling forth that which you seek" and... February. Possibly there is specific (very very very loose) connection to the 10th-19th? I'm not to sure what or why but I'd say maybe look out for opportunities on these days and also maybe external events.

Continuing with dates. In the last this 21 and January 21 came up. It came up again but with 2 messages. So first, either 21st is a day where something is put into motion (possibly private or public) or announced and the second was "add them together dumbass" that's not very kind but 3. Again this has been discussed too but but but... maybe a signal of a third mixtape 👀 (not necessarily on the 21st per say but possibly in March? I'm really not sure).

Oki. I got side tracked like I always do and started thinking about tattoos and stuff and I really want koo to have a peony tattoo. I feel it in my BONES. It would suit him so well. and as I was thinking about tattoos I heard, "don't be surprised if yoongi gets/shows a tattoo this year" ??? What the fuck? I think maybe they messing with me but now I have hopes and I don't want them to be crushed and thrown to the wind :(

Back to normal stuff, "the theme is growth" I think that fits very well with the reading. "Blue might be a lucky color" self explanatory. It might be lucky. "Start practicing grounding and centering" this was LOUD. This will help you in how you react to events in the future. Really do practice this if you haven't.

This is where it gets a little weird. So, I got a message that said "start living as if you never existed." I am not a 100% sure what this means but I think I have a pretty good guess. I hate to make it sound weird like this but by sort of focusing on something that is so hard to comprehend (because our brains can't comprehend not existing very well) you kinda break the 4th wall? Like in Deadpool when he addresses the audience and is aware that he is a character played by Ryan Reynolds? anyway, focusing on something that seemingly impossible you kind of accidentally open up the floodgates for a lot of other things. I would say if you are not in the right headspace to do this don't do it but it can be a powerful way to break up the monotony of reality. The theory that everything happens simultaneously bc time isn't a linear progression events blah blah we are energy blah blah the multiverse blah blah.. Theres so so so so so so so so so much about this and how it applies to things that I could probably write you 10+ dictionaries worth of material but for the sake of simplicity and not wanting to write a novel right now, I will continue. The main lesson is to start challenging your perception of the world around you. Ask why and why and why and why. Essentially seeing cracks in the matrix. Pulling your head out of your cosmic ass, realizing that rose you're smelling is actually daffodil ect. It's not supposed to bring you fear but just kinda encouraging you to question all the things that you perceive as given truths.

I tried to make that sound cohesive but really it's such a big concept that I can't really wrap it up all nice and neat.

Oki. May and March are also important times.

Listen to your intuition and try not to take everything so seriously. I'm not saying to check out and go squat in the Himalayas but it's important to find joy in the now. Life is already tough enough so don't forget to watch a silly show that you like or change your hair to a style you've never tried, wear makeup in a very loud way. Just have fun and don't worry so much about things that you can't control. Listen to yourself and your intuition.

Well that was all over the place. Let's get on to the actual tarot part now.

For the record, the pictures are right to left.

January for the collective

We have the empress, the sun, 7 of swords and a fortune that says "act well your part; there the honor lies"

Hmm. Ngl I was a little confused to see the empress and the sun for January... I mean it hasn't been great. So I pulled clarity card 7 of swords. The 7 of swords is all about betrayal. It's about the deception and and actively getting away with things. This is people lying, cheating, sneaking and the works.

This makes much more sense!! The Sun card is usually about joy and success and happiness but in this case I see it as illuminating the betrayal. It's shining light on the deception and keeps the spotlight there. Its also an energetic card so I think that shows passion for uncovering the truth.

With the empress card too I think January is all about getting creative in all forms. Creative ways to protest, to mourn, to celebrate, to connect. Also taking in the abundance that we DO have. The beauty that surrounds us. I like to think of aphrodite energy for this. Its not just love and passion and creativity but is also asserting yourself and having strong passion for what you love and fighting for it. Did you know aphrodite was also called upon in ancient Greece in times of war? She was honored as a goddess of war but still a goddess of love, the sea, fertility ect. What I'm trying to say is that being a creative and "feminine" energy is in no way weak. Sometimes the most powerful things come from this energy. Love aggressively with good intentions. The point is that you should take whatever you're feeling and translate it into something creative or something you care about. The fact that covid is still a thing really sucks but take any rage, hurt, sadness, joy, love whatever and use that shit to make something amazing. Bake bread and punch the fuck out of it, paint your frustration, play hopscotch in higheels while you listen to heavy metal. You get the point.

Now January for BTS!!

We have the death card. (I only pulled one card bc I have things planned from this)

January has been... strange? To say the least.

This card can be a lot of things for them. I think this points to more maturity in their music? Like they've finally ditched the "shiny kpop boy band" label and are being taken seriously in the west. I also think that they're going through a musical/concept transformation~ I think it also signified the change in plans bc of the Grammys perhaps they had things planned an that fell through so they were forced to rapidly change plan/course.

For January: possible mixtape or announcement.

February for the collective

We have 8 of coins reverse and hanged man reverse.

The 8 of pentacles reverse talks a lot about self improvement. Doing that good good inner work and self care. Working on developing parts of you that you've maybe neglected. It's also learning how to work with how you are instead of wishing you weren't the way you are. If you have a therapist its a great time to maybe ask for any extra tips that you can practice daily to help you even more. Maybe exploring more into insecurities relating to finance or jobs or your passions. If you don't have a therapist but you have the means to get one I always highly recommend. You don't have to have "problems" to see a therapist. Everyone could use a non biased point of view that is literally trained to help you be you best self. If you can't get therapy, I get it. Shits tough rn but there's still things we can do to better ourselves like Journaling and reading therapy blogs or self help books (not the taky shit) or trying a hobby you fell out of touch with. There's also a lot of places where you can get therapy promise on the internet. Most importantly, better yourself in the way that you need. Take time in February to take notice of what you want to improve upon. The 8 of coins reversed does come with the warning not to get stuck in perfectionism. Go easy on yourself and if you find yourself getting frustrated when working on projects, try to take a step back and practice whatever it is in a fun way and then come back to it later

Hanged man reverse talks about knowing that you need to chill but you don't. You'll need too. Maybe you'll find yourself swept up in work and tasks and you're over whelmed and know you need to stop and catch your breath but you resist. Why? Well, perhaps you're trying to ignore reality by filling the empty spaces with things and stuff so you don't have to face what's bothering you. Not wise. Take time for yourself. There's also the flips side where people are just kinda stuck.. creative block. Maybe you want something to turn out one way and it just isn't, so your stuck and frustrated and can't move past it. Let go of your expectation of how it should be and let it be what it is. Go with the flow and maybe you'll see a new way to overcome your problem. You'll eventually get that break through that you need! The theme of February is about self improvement. Listen to yourself.

February for BTS

We have judgment.

Hehe yeah. This card is about rebirth and the inner calling. Letting go of the old to step into the new version of you. This is also a very spiritual card lol. This can talk about a new decision that you have to trust your gut on. This is a very significant card that screams comeback to me. It also can talk about sharing your struggles with a group of people and that to me sounds comeback ish. Maybe this will be an announcement in February, maybe they'll be working on it idk but this is ultimate comeback energy so I hope they utilize this for a big group project!!

February: possible BTS comeback (even my pendulum knows)

March for the collective

The chariot and justice

This plays directly off of February! With the chariot you're taking the self improvement that you've done and putting it to action! Now is the time to act on the dreams and passions that you have don't wait and hope for the best. March is about action and standing in your power.

Justice card is cause and effect and truth. What you do will have consequences good or bad. Not doing anything also has consequences. Cease the moment and make the best of it. You'll be taking responsibility for what you do. You start a business? Now you have the responsibility of running it and you get the credit. Stuff like that. Stand by your decisions with conviction and trust yourself.

There's also the side of justice that talks about bringing justice. If you've been wronged, you'll be brought justice if you stand up for yourself.

We also carry the continuous lesson of learning what we truly believe and challenge those beliefs!

March for BTS

Oki we have the hermit and the 6 of pentacles reverse.

Well... let's start with the 6 of pentacles reverse. This can really talk about being so generous and giving to everyone else that you forget about yourself. I think that maybe they might be over exerting themselves and giving so much that they're exhausted physically and emotionally as well. I think too, they take on so much of our pain like its their own? Idk but this would be a good time to do a large scale fan project to show them a little extra love!

With the hermit card it talks about a self introspection so they could be looking inward as a team and kinda evaluating their bond.

I also see this as maybe being alone as in they maybe can't physically go to the grammys? Or maybe they had been planning the rescheduled concerts and they had to be pushed back even further? Things like that. Regardless this signals re thinking/reevaluating the goals that they have and considering what direction to go in!

March: possible mixtape or solo project?

April for the collective

We have 6 of coins and 3 of cups reverse.

Let's start with the 6 of coins. It's about sharing. It can be about charity so sharing money via donation but also giving time, effort, energy to people as well. Giving knowledge is good too! It's an all round exchange. Maybe someone lends you money or you lend money to someone. It's give and take. It's a two way street. It's also a card of balanced finance. So money stuff should be looking promising around this time (for you U.S people this could point to more stimulus help as well)

And for the 3 of cups reversed... I see this as reopening of places and people struggling to find the balance. So think people who've been in lockdown celebrating by throwing a big party... yikes. This card reminds that we should be mindful of the long-term consequences that come with our actions.. maybe also people that are experiencing fear of being in public places now. This is only one facet though. Bc I think this also means in general, missing being with friends and having a renewed relationship because you've really realized how important it is to have these people that mean so much to you in your life. Don't forget that you have people that love you and want the best for you. Call them when you feel alone.

April for BTS

The heirophant

Mhmm. This one kinda gives me vibes that they'll be mentoring people? Idk but I see them more as the heirophant teaching what they've learned/ know to help guide others. HOWEVER this could also be them taking a new task under their belt. Learning something new. Since this is as a group reading I assume that this talks about the group as a whole. This card is also very tradition oriented so maybe they are taking lessons that are connected to traditional Korean culture? Maybe its for RUN or maybe its to incorporate into music and preformance. Think bts mma preformance but all of them learning together? Idk, it's just a thought (maybe wishful thinking). It also talks about seeking counseling so maybe they'll do yoongis idea from the most recent RUN.

This can also be them embracing this kind of leadership/ status.

April: I got nothing. It does feel like something though

May for the collective

Five of cups and queen of cups reversed

Five of cups is disappointment, regret and self pity. Now honestly this to me looks like possibly a tightening of restrictions yet again. Regardless of the situation that this is talking about, the best thing you can do is not wallow in the bullshit. You scrape yourself off the pavement and move foward. You'll need forgiveness of yourself and others and that if shit isn't going your way, you need to pull your head out of your ass and look around bc there's options out there. It's like drowning in a kiddie pool. Just stand up, dude. The water is like 5 inches.

Queen of cups reversed talks about self love and self care. It's more of that look inwards energy. Think about really taking care of yourself. May might be emotionally draining so you need to be ready to take care of you! Part of self care is making sure that your boundaries are well enforced.

Be on the look out for codependent behaviors. Check in with yourself.

The queen of cups is very intuitive and having it in reverse can talk about you not taking enough time to listen to it. Make an effort to meditate for like 5 minutes a day at least. Do something to let yourself connect to your intuition and higher self.

May for BTS

9 of pentacles

This about enjoying the fruits of your labor and absolute abundance and luxury. This could talk about them rolling in the dough after signing a new partnership or having a concert or something if the sort. This could also be a time where we see them buying new things like houses, cars and rings (lol) but also this could be them doing a very high production value project! Also namjoon and his bonsai army are thriving in this time!

May: possible concert or scheduled concert event. Activity of some kind.

Yoongi interlude

I asked for one card to give me an idea of what the mystical May 13th really is. I got: the star, 2 of cups, 4 of wands, the world and the sun.

Guys. I can't with this. 2 of cups is a card of union, romance, soulmate. 4 of wands is celebration, joy, homecoming, bliss. The world is completion and the sun is happiness, joy, marriage, enlightenment.

I've said it a billion times but that's some soulmate shit. So soft so cute and May will be eventful for his personal life.

June for the collective

Death and the heirophant reversed.

Wow wow wow death is transformation and a new chapter so a new way of life and something new/ different that changes how we see things. Again this could be relating to new covid things and new policies and stuff like that but also new as in new to all of us. Groundbreaking perhaps?

The heirophant reversed talks about teaching yourself. Being your own teacher and making your own path. This might be spiritual or otherwise. Challange what the world wants from you and instead listen to what you truly want bc you don't need anyone's approval. Continue to ask questions about why things are the way that they are.

June for BTS

Page of pentacles

Oki oki page of pentacles means a new creative venture and manifestation. Maybe something that they've been wanting for a while finally comes to fruition. This might be the start of a new project that they haven't done before or something cross genre? Idk but its a really good sign of being motivated for a new endeavor and manifesting any projects that they've ever wanted to do. Love this promising energy!!

June: idk

July for the collective

10 of swords and 9 of cups reversed.

10 of swords signals a painful ending. Also deceit. Its a necessary end to a long battle. The only thing you can do is control how you react in these situations. You just kinda gotta surrender into the pain and know that it's temporary. Take time to reflect on what happened and why and how it will help you grow.

The 9 of cups reversed talks about valuing stuff and material things over emotions and spiritual things. This can be talking about society in general, that we are becoming more aware to the fact that there is often more value placed on ephemeral items rather than humanity as a whole. This also can be talking about coming to the realization that we've been working so hard towards... something we don't really care about simply because we were told that it's what you do.

If you want something different to happen you have to put in effort. You can't be sitting in front of a water fountain being like, "damn. I'm thirsty. I really really want water so why isn't it in my mouth yet?" Like?? Hello? You have to take the first step, my dude.

Certainly don't try to do anything that would cost you finatial security or health.

You have the potential to find happiness within yourself. So try looking inside instead of looking outward.

July for BTS

4 of swords.

This is about rest and relaxation!

Taking time to meditate and take some time to look at what you've done objectively. Ots like the hermit in a way but much more focused on resting and relaxing so you can come back stronger and with better direction. Maybe they'll take a break for a couple days but I really see it as them reassessing options. Especially if July goes how I think it will. Maybe they'll film something like In The Soop again? Maybe we'll see bon voyage type thing? Idk. But it could be something kinda out of the spotlight? Maybe something more healing?

July: maybe something?? I'm not sure but it seems like something might be in store.

August for the collective

5 of coins and the wheel of fortune

Well let's see. 5 of pentacles talks about isolation and a negative mindset. This talks about falling on hard times but its a temporary set back. This energy can be talking about falling on hard times emotionally as well. In the card it shows a woman outside of a church shivering and cold but she's too busy thinking about all that she's lost that she doesn't notice the warm church that she could step into for shelter.

But then with he wheel of fortune that talks about fate/destiny, opportunity and luck so maybe this is a necessary loss so that a new door can open. This does kinda tie in with July as well. The end of something is painful but it's often a necessary thing. Might be a bit uncomfy but that's how things change. Again I see this maybe hinting more towards society but none the less it's definitely a theme for August to have doors closing and new ones opening so be on the lookout for that.

August for BTS

The devil.

Now don't fret. The devil talks a lot about choice. Most notably the choice between instant gratification and and something more substantial and the devil leans towards indulgence. It also has a lot to do with the shadow side. This could talk about ~scandal~ sure, but I think its more of a time where you become aware of negative patterns and you shine a light on that part you've ignored. On a much lighter note this card talks also about an incredible bond between people. It can be unhealthy if not given space or boundaries. Listen to pied piper and come back to me.

I also REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that this card points to this: sexuality. The boys have always been pretty pg when it comes to the topic of sex and embracing sexuality so I really do hope to see something more daring and grown up and exploring a tastefully sexy concept. On the same vain as sexuality this card also talks about kinks and stuff like that so don't be surprised if we get more outfits like fake love Era bondage harnesses.

August: ???

September for the collective

We have the world and 10 of wands reversed.

The 10 of wands reversed talks about carrying burden. Doing extra work and taking on more responsibility. Doing everything by yourself and carrying this heavy load alone will get you burnt out quicker than anything. You might be taking on too much and you'll need to prioritize what you really need to focus on. I also think there will just be a lot happening in September for a lot of people. It's a lot of working hard because you know it's good work or because it's what's right. This could be social responsibility that's placed on you or work responsibility. For whatever reason this burden isn't something you want to share with others because you think its yours alone to deal with. It's not though bc you'll figure out eventually that if it hurts so much you'll find a way to lessen the burden. 10 in tarot is all about the completion of a cycle and going through the wands cycle is hard work because for anything to be made of passion, you need to put the work behind it. The burden isn't forever, the heavy work load will lighten but this is you seeing things out. It's a good thing!

Especially considering this is paired with with world. The world is all about completion and that's what you're doing here is finding completion. You are seeing things out until the end but you just need to learn to give up some responsibility, lessen your burden.

This also talks about hard work being put into wider social spheres as well. Things like the vaccines becoming more widespread through the whole globe or at least better planing and infrastructures not related to covid. Things are looking up!

September for BTS

Knight of swords reverse

This bad boi is restless energy. It's being so pent up that you're ready to burst and you really want to take action but you can't because something is keeping you from taking that action. Again I do think this is kinda covid related in regards to touring bc if they do tour in 2021 its gonna look a lot different. This energy can be a bit impulsive and directionless so I think maybe they'll channel this into album material something? I'm not really sure tbh. I'm suprised this energy didn't show up earlier because it almost seems inevitable.

September: no clue

October for the collective

Ten of coins and the star reverse.

Welp let's start with the 10 of coins. Its about wealth, financial security, and long term success so this is a pretty prosperous time. This talks about the obvious monetary wealth and material wealth but also an abundance of opportunities. So this is definitely a good time to enjoy whatever consistency you have. This energy is really really abundant in the career space as well. So October could be very prosperous in the job field and you'll have likely found what it is you really want and could be successful at. This could be the actual act or just the idea. This is could also talk about investing in something for your future, this could be time or money.

With the star reversed it can talk about a loss of faith and a disconnection. This often points to feeling like you've just been forgotten or left out. Like the universe doesn't give a shit about you and left you out to die. Things might seem unfair but always try to look for the lesson that you can take from the experience. Seeing the 10 of coins and the star makes me think that a lot of people have kinda lost faith in their manifestations and also just in the concept of not living in a state of need. Especially if you see other people doing well and you've been trying so fucking hard but you haven't gotten a break. I know we hate to hear it but this can serve as a test of faith. Or rather an opportunity to get your shit in line and take a second to breath. Do something good for yourself and then continue on. This star in reverse serves to show you what no longer sparks joy and helps you find what does and what that initial spark was in the first place. Helps you get back to the original vision/ spark.

October for BTS

5 of pentacles reverse.

This signals the end of difficult times and getting that groove back. The last month was restless energy with no where to go but this month that energy is certainly put to good use. They might be figuring out what has been missing In their lives and starting to rectify that. They are definitely reminded that material wealth doesn't bring spiritual or emotional wealth. Might be also feeling a bit alienated too.

October: something is likely but idk

November for collective

Six of swords reversed and the moon.

Transition and change is prevalent. The 6 of swords is about leaving behind the familiar. Maune this is leaving a job, a new change in the status quo, leaving a relationship ect. The thing you have to keep in mind is just how amazing this is in terms of what it will do. It will alow growth!! And bring clarity!! Thos can also be societal as well, something being left behind in favor of something new. It's letting go and reflecting so that you can move foward.

This is strengthened by the moon card. The moon card is the subconscious and all the things that come with it. The anxiety, the illusion, the uncertainty. You'll want to deal with whatever emotions come up. The moon can signify a confusing time where things aren't what they seem to be. That's the illusions so you'll have rely more on intuition at a time like this. Your dreams might hold significance in this time as well. Listen to your guides and your own guidance because it will help you understand more than you did before this journey began. Using moon cycles to your advantage in November might really help you!!

November for BTS

7 of wands

Challenge and competition. People are envious of bts. We know this. But people will be challenging them for what they've gained: music industry domination. This might co.e in the way that people will spread vicious rumors in attempt to disenfanchise or possibly it will be a fair fight. It could also be a challenge/ battle for some other aspect that involves legal matters.

My best guess though is good old competition. Bts has proven again and again that they will continue to do what they do how they do but they will not be trampled over. In the best way this could renew some of that spirit in friendly competition. They will tear eachothers throats out for a pack of ramen so maybe a bit of competition will be good for them. It keeps life intresting.

November: nothin

December for the collective

Two of cups and the emperor!

Let's start off with the emperor card talks about stability and order. It can also signify being the "breadwinner" so its a good sign that you'll kinda be on top of your shit. The emperor is also an amazing leader so you might find yourself taking on a leadership role too! This is very organized energy that works very smoothly!

two of cups is such a lovely way to end out the year! It's love and partnership and attraction so if you aren't in a relationship by this time you might meet someone who strikes your fancy!! On a none romantic relationship note though, this card is also great for business partnership bc it signifies that you're on the same page and have the same goals in mind!

It's harmonious relationships and trust between them!! Love love love this energy so much! Cups are the suit of emotions and this card is so promising.

If you are in a relationship, this can talk about "falling in love all over again" like you're just reminded of how good they are.

December for BTS

Queen of cups

Intuition, creativity and emotional stability. They're using intuition to guide their moves foward with emotional maturity. They are in a place of knowing what they want and why. This would be a good time to work on an album or a book or to release them. The queen of cups is like the friend that you can tell absolutely anything and somehow they have a helpful answer. This card is really calm and it can also talk about subconscious thoughts.

I think that bts is maybe making more of a conscious effort to make sure that what they do is just as emotionally fulfilling for them as it is for us! They might be kinda pondering the future at this time and considering if this is what fills their emotional cup!

December: possibly a thing?

Now these cards are the vibe of the year and some advice.

For the collective (on the left)

Three of swords and judgment reverse.

The fortune says "accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory"

The 3 of swords is about disappointment and hurt and heartbreak. It's about the emotional release that we all need when shit gets tough. Don't pretend to be strong. If you need to cry, fucking cry. This year is about letting go of expectations and do what you have to do to release so you can move foward and not have these things pile up.

You have to make an effort to not let yourself take on what other people think of you. You aren't defined by what some asshole says. You define yourself.

Judgment reverse is about self doubt and ignoring your path. It's being stagnant and being harsh on yourself. This year has a focus on building yourself up and noticing when you are not. Bring light to the things that are holding you back without harsh judgment for yourself. You can't beat yourself up. If you make a bad decision you know not to make it again. Take accountability and move on.

The oracle card is inner temple.

Seriously all the focus of this year is in self improvement and dear god, please take time to work on yourself spiritually!!! Everything you want to know is there if you take the time to listen. This should be a place where you feel safe and welcome. It definitely should not feel like something you HAVE to do.

For BTS

10 of swords and page of swords

The fortune says "you create your own stage. The audience is waiting" (how tje fuck?? This is the perfect fortune)

The 10 of swords is a painful but necessary end. This is accepting the current situation. They maintain focus for 2021 for them is adapting and keeping their spirits up.

With the page of swords it talks about new ideas and that kind of creativity. It's also a lot about communication so I really think that they'll be figuring out new ways to connect and new projects that will be prosperous.

The oracle card is Pleiades

This is what we talk about all the time. Bts has helped so many people want to be better and do better. They are uplifting humanity and giving people a sense if belonging. Bts finds you when you need them most 💜💜💜

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Wow I had to write this up over 2 days bc this was so fucking long. I need a nap. Idk if I'll proof read this before I post it so don't hate me for the mistakes (honestly, there's like 10,000 spelling and grammar mistakes in my other posts too 🙃)

I hope you guys enjoyed it and maybe this will be helpful to to have a forecast of some possible energy for you to look out for!!

Also bts bc I love them. I have another bts 2021 reading I'll do soon too!

Hope you guys are happy and well 💜

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Idk if there are any creepypasta fans are here on tumblr but if there are any let me know you still exist bc why not

Anyways a story here

Warnings : blood , murder , death , swearing , mental illness , angst?

Jeff the killer x reader

Meeting an childhood friend

" 5 new victims with a smile carved in their face , police officer humbelbee ( i just needed a name) thinks it was the Jeff the killers work here " the woman in the tv said before the tv switched to a reporters camera who showed and officer and another interviewer " hello I'm live here we're the victims were killed with officer humbelbee who got a message for everyone living in y/t/n (your town name) " she said handing the microphone to the officer " hello and i need everyone to listen to me , this is the 3 time this week that Jeff the killer murdered people and we need to be extra careful because It doesn't seem like he's done . That's why I want everyone living in y/t/n and the towns near it to close all doors lock it as good as you can and block all the windows and stay inside , if you need to get food don't go out early in the morning or at night and never go alone , if you encounter Jeff the killer don't try to fight him and try to run to the next police station . He is too danger- " the black that now colored the tv interrupted him . You got enough you couldn't stand it anymore . Your old childhood friend jeffrey turned into a killing machine , killing all those innocent people . It was to much , it hurted but you tried to ignore it and looked at the clock at the wall showing 16:26 ' shit i wanted to get some food but now it's too late' you cursed yourself for not going earlier and walked into the kitchen checking your fridge but to your bad luck it was empty . ' do i really need to go now ?' you asked yourself feeling fear coming up in you 'what if he attacks me?' then a bit of hope ' what if he still knows who I am ?' but the hope was crushed when you came to the answer that he won't ' he ain't the same , he is crazy , a monster but not jeffrey' you thought a frown forming on your lips as the thought of jeffrey back then

"Hey y/n wanna meet after school ? " A male voice spoke behind you and you turned around to see Jeff standing there "sure jepp when are you free? "( Let's use jepp as the nickname you called him) you asked looking up at him 'how can he be so tall we are only 13?' you thought asking yourself if you were short or he was tall but we're in tripped by him punching you into the shoulder " hey I said I'm free at 1 pm " he laughed " you look like an idiot rn " and now he held his stomach bc of laughing " oh ok 1 pm then " you said , you didn't get what was going on but then you noticed liu coming up behind Jeff " oh I see the 2 love birds have fun " he joked earning a "no stop it" from both of you , you noticed your face heating up . Yep you had a crush on Jeff , a huge one but you didn't want to break your friendship so you keept quiet and brushed it off like it was nothing " hahaha okay well we need to go or we won't get our bus " you said trying to sound normal but liu noticed it and gave you his 'i see a bird in love ' glance but stopped when Jeff yelled a " what the fuck are you waiting for idiots?" And as response he got a " Jeff language you know mother will kill us if we swear " from liu " yeah whatever" Jeff yelled And ran towards you grabbed your wrist and pulled you to the bus station " com'on y/n we need to be faster than him " he yelled and liu and you laughed

(quick scenario from back then bc i wanna try to change my writing style to something good )

(end of scenario )

Years have passed since then , and you do still have a crush on him but not Jeff the killer , that monster . No you love the old Jeff . You shook your head trying to get that thought out of your head and looked at the clock 18: 19 ' i shouldnt spend that much time thinking and better get groceries ' you thought and wanted to slap yourself for wasting that much time but you figured out going now wouldn't waste more time and a self-slap would . You looked out of the window 'its 6pm and it's turning dark? Oh yeah it's winter' you thought as you walked quickly through your house grabbing the keys and some money . When you grabbed everything You looked at the clock again seeing only few minutes passed and you grabbed your selfprotection-knive 'bc i don't want to die ' you thought while stuffing it into your jacket . You made your way outside walking along the street only a few people were outside but the were walking quickly. Noone wanted to be caught by Jeff and get killed . After some minutes off walking to arrived at the shop and quickly got in and grabbed the food you wanted Payed and left the shop . When you left you got the feeling of someone watching you but you ignored it and just walked faster . When you walked pass a abandoned building someone aggressively trapped your arm and pulled you into it . The figure pressed you against a wall you wanted to move but stopped when you felt something cold and sharp at your throat and the figure started laughing in a deep and crazy voice . When you got a closer look you recognized the person , it was Jeff . But you got no time for that because he pressed the blade a bit stronger at your throat "jepp stop please" you begged and the figure immediately let you go . When he stuffed his knife away he asked "y/n!?" "Wait you still know who I am?" You asked surprised 'he remembers me does that mean he's still the old Jeff?' you thought happyness filling you "ofc how should I forget you ? Y/n i am so sorry for what happened but will you still be my friend?" He asked you hardly saw it but did he cry? But you tried to ignore everything that happened , all the people he killed . You loved him , you wanted to be by his side . You wanted to say yes but the sound of police sirens interrupted you . Jeff quickly picked you up and ran outside to the nearest forest ' since when did he become so strong?' you asked yourself while clinging at him and praying that he won't drop you . Jeff stopped when you both were far enough and set you down . "Are you ok?" He asked his voice filled with worry he was still the old Jeff for you , and you accepted him even if he was a murder . " Yeah and we are still friends jeff i don't care if you are a murderer i still love yo-" you stopped when you realized what you said and blushed , Jeff didn't say anything for a while " I'm okay if you don't love me just don- " your apologizing was interrupted by Jeff lips crashing into yours for a short time " i love you too y/n" he said and you guys kissed again

I'm not such a big fan of kissing but wanted to make a good and happy ending

Tell me if you liked it or not , the next few days (and if this story get some likes ._.) I'm going to try to be active and make more story's

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rae-is-typing · 4 years

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Sick Day

Notes: This was requested by a lovely anon, and it was inspired by my past few days. Enjoy :)

Original request from anon: Can you write an Avenger imagine, where the reader is the youngest of the cast and gets sick/has an accident on set?

Description: You get sick. That’s it. That’s the fic.

Characters: reader, original female and male characters (manager named Masha, assistant named Alis, an EMT named Esme, trainer named Nick), RDJ, Chris Evans, Anthony Mackie, Sebastian Stan, Scarlett Johanson, Elizabeth Olson, the Russos

Warnings: Swearing sickness, vomiting, mention of pepto bismol (that shit’s NASTY), swearing, homework

Word count: 2.9k

You don’t get sick.

You don’t have time to get sick, so you don’t. Between filming, training, and school, sickness is absolutely not an option Simple as that, right?

Well, your body didn’t get the memo.

Your body is racked with chills, but you’re sweating profusely. You chalk it up yo the intense scene you’re filming; your character and Robert’s character just got into a massive screaming match over your character’s secret identity being revealed. But in the middle of the second take, your words dissolve into coughs.

"No, Tony! It's not okay!" You shout, whipping around to face a very pissed looking RDJ. "I-" A cough disrupts your words. "I don't-" This time you break down into a fit of uncontrollable coughing, even going as far as doubling over.

"Cut!" Robert rushes over to you, placing a hand on your back. He makes you stand up fully. He speaks up when you finally stop coughing. “You alright, kid?" You nod your head, rubbing at your throat.

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm sorry, I have no idea where that came from." A smile tugs at his lips. "Don't apologize, Y/N. It happens."

Alis, an assistant, comes over with a bottle of cold water, placing it on your hands with a curt not. You thank her and open the water, taking a few slow sips as the Russos offer feedback on what you managed to get through.

"That was are best take until the coughing. Whatever you did before, do that again." You try not to beat yourself up over the coughing; it's show business, it happens.

Getting back into position, you two manage to finish the scene with minimal interruptions. During your yelling match, your head begins to pound. It's not the light pounding you get when you didn't get enough sleep or you're dehydrated, it's the kind where you're sure that your old band director is leading the entire drum line on your brain tissue, or something is punching your skull with little pistons.

The second "Cut!" rings out through the set. You deflate, rolling your shoulders and rubbing your head. You trudge over to a small bench near the set and plop down, stretching your now aching limbs in the process.

Being the (mother hen) good mentor and costar he is, Robert realizes something is wrong very quickly. You're usually very bubbly after scenes end, the adrenaline still coursing through you. He can only think of one time he saw you like this, and that was right after you took the SATs. He calls over Alis again, asking her to get some green hibiscus tea with honey and acetaminophen. Alis is back within five minutes. He walks over to you and sits by you.

"Here, take these." You frown at the to-go cup and the small container in his hands, but ]take them anyways.

"What is it?"

"Tea, and tylenol. They'll help with your headache and cough." He says, matter-of-factly.

"Oh, thanks, Robert."

"Course, gotta help my favorite kid." He says, pushing himself off of the bench. "Now, I don't know about you, but I am starving. What do you say we get a bite with the others?" He extends a hand for you to take

"Sure," You say without thinking. Any time with the cast is great, even if you're extra tired and achy. You let him pull you up. The cast orders sandwiches from a little shop in downtown Atlanta, very close to the set.

You're gathered in a larger, mostly empty save for a few couches and chairs part of the set where you often meet. Everyone is talking. They're either going over that days work and characterization, recent events in the news, and their weekend plans. Your sandwich is a little off. It smells fine, it's exactly what you ordered, but it tastes... off. Something in it is making your stomach churn and grumble. You place the sandwich back in the wrapping it came in, fold it up, and throw it away.

That's enough for tonight, You decide. "I have school stuff that I need to get done." You say.

"Aw, okay. See you tomorrow!"

"Fuck school,"

"Language!"

"Shut the hell up, man."

You smile as you walk to your trailer. You do have school, you always have school, and it sucks major ass. The suckiest thing you have to complete is a seven page, MLA format, argumentative research paper about birth control in the developing world. And, oh my god, you would rather be hung upside down by your toe hair than write that fucking paper.

But you write it anyway.

Why? Because it's due in two days and you haven't started it yet. So you buckle down, ignoring the headache you have and your churning stomach, and do the damn thing.

You get three pages in before you decide that being tired isn't worth this paper. Getting up at 5:30 in the morning each day to train for two hours is definitely not your favorite part of your job, but it is some of the only alone time you’re able to get, so you'll take it. You stand up from your desk and immediately regret moving. Dizziness overcomes you. You flop back onto your office chair and press a hand to your forehead.

Taking a few deep breaths, you get back under control and stand up much slower. This time, you're able to walk to your small bedroom area with an attached bathroom. You wash your face, being extra careful as to not make yourself pass out from dizziness. You do the same when brushing your teeth.

During the night, you get all of two and a half hours of sleep. You toss and turn all night, unable to ignore the churning in your stomach for long enough. And the fact that you're hot one second and then freezing the next. it is impossible for you to sleep for more than a half hour at a time. But you eventually do.

Assuming that's the end of it, you sleep deeply until cramping in your stomach forces you out of bed. you make yourself sit up. A wave a nausea comes over you like a tidal wave. You hobble to the bathroom and lean over the toilet just in time.

Bile and your half-eaten sandwich forces its way from your stomach, up your throat, and into the toilet. It's gross. It smells vile, its chunky and the strain makes tears come to your eyes. You dry heave and cough until you're sure everything is out. Feebly, you flush the toilet and leaned back against the wall across from it, deep breathing until you stop crying.

Unaware of the time, you stay there until you feel strong enough to get up and brush your teeth. You hobble back to your bed, and lay back down. This time, falling asleep again.

A knocking on your door pulls you out of your slumber.

"Y/N? You need to get up." The smooth voice of your manager, Masha, floats through your door.

You jolt awake, now remembering that you have to train. "Shit, what time is it?"

"Six AM. I'm opening the door," Masha says, while opening the door. You wince as the light seeps in, covering your eyes.

"Whoa, what happened to you?" She asks. "Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, yeah yeah yeah, I'm good. Shit Nick is waiting. I'll get ready, gimme like two seconds," You ramble, stumbling out of bed.

"Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, hold on." Masha says, putting both hands on your shoulders, steadying you. Huh, you didn't realize you were wavering.

"You're burning up, Y/N." She observes, pressing the back of her hand on your forehead. "I think you're sick. Tell me what's going on."

"Nothing."

"Have you thrown up or anything? Headaches? Lie to me, and it won’t be pretty."

“I threw up,” You croak, flopping back on the bed.

"Alright, I'm going to get Esme, stay here, lay down." Masha speaks quickly, pulling out her phone.

Esme is the lead EMT on set. She was an RN for years before transferring to emergency medical services. The stunt doubles and the actors take major precautions before stunting. However, some things can't be avoided, hence the EMTs.

Esme comes into your room in no time, followed closely by a worried Masha.

"Alright, Y/N. What's wrong?"

"I'm a little sick right now."

"Alright. Symptoms?"

"Chills, headaches, I uh threw up a few hours ago..." You hate admitting it. That means you won't be able to do much today. It's apart of your contract. If you get sick, you have to take at least two days off because you're a huge liability for Marvel. Being a minor kinda sucks.

She nods. "Alright hon, follow my directions." Esme checks you out thoroughly. After telling her about your weird sandwich, she nods knowingly.

"It looks like a fever, and that sandwich made you throw up. Get some pepto bismol and tylenol. Make sure to drink a lot of water and other clear liquids. Eat the BRAT diet, and you'll be good to go in a few days. I suggest making a doctor's appointment today, though. I can’t diagnose you."

"Alright, thanks Esme." Masha says as Esme leaves. She turns to you, sighing. "I'm sorry, N/N. I'll get what you need from a store, let the Russos know, and make the appointment. I think you should go back to sleep if you can."

"Thanks, Mash. You're the best."

She smiles gently before leaving. You turn on your side and pull the blanket over your head, eventually dozing off.

The veil of sleep is slowly lifted as you blink your eyes open. Thanks to some great blackout curtains you have, no light seeps into the trailer. This time, you don't feel nauseous. However, an inkling of dizziness is still there. You stay in your position for a few minutes until you reach for your phone. A ton of notifications appear on your lockscreen.

3 missed calls from Masha the Manager

Messages from Masha the Manager

Y/N, Nick is waiting. Where are you? Sent: 5:30

Get up now, Y/N. Sent: 5:30

Y/N. You're scaring me. You're never late. Sent: 5:43

Everything you need is on the counter. Read the note first though. Sent: 7:00

Message from evans

Hey Y/N. Heard you weren't feeling well. Lemme know if I can help, okay? Sent: 7:15 AM

Message from Romanian Bitch™

Masha told us you're sick. Feel better we need you! Sent: 7:19 AM

Message from Stanky Stark

Get better soon okay? Sent 7:19

Messages to No Boys Allowed!!!

ScarJo: get well soon babe. let us know if you need anything 7:20

Scarlet Bitch: aw, feel better N/N Sent: 7:21

It warms your heart knowing that they care so much about you. You send a simple thank you to each one of them and close your eyes again.It only takes a few seconds for you to remember all the homework you have to do. Your eyes snap open and you groan.

You do not want to do homework. But you have two whole days with no training and no work, so why wouldn't you? That thought is all you need to get out of bed. You don't bother changing. You migrate to the small living area, and go to the counter where Masha had set all the stuff. You found the note quickly, and read Masha's half print, half cursive writing.

Y/N,

Take two doses of pepto and two things of tylenol, but read the instructions!!! Eat some applesauce or toast, and call me if you get any worse.

-Masha

You unpack the canvas bag and quickly take your medicine. After that, you take all the food with you to the couch. You plant yourself on the soft sofa and dive into your work.

Being interrupted every few minutes with coughing is not the ideal space for productivity, especially because your throat is becoming increasingly raw. You put your phone in a drawer in your desk so you aren't distracted. Like most teens, you have a bad habit of prioritizing your phone.

A knock on the trailer door pulls you out of your focus. "Y/N, it's us!"

"Come in!" You say, still typing. You cringe at how sore you sound. Scarlett and Lizzie come in, still in costume.

"We can't stay for long," Scarlett starts, looking very apologetic. "We have a five minute break and we wanted to check on you."

You smile, setting your computer to the side. "Thanks guys. I appreciate it."

"How are you feeling?" Lizzie asks.

You shrug. "I'm okay, I guess."

"What were you doing?" Scarlett asks, spotting the half finished essay on your laptop. "You're supposed to be resting."

You sigh. "Yeah, but I should just get it done..."

The three of you talk about how shooting is going, and the production of the film in general. It's going smoothly. Nothing is going wrong. Soon, though, they have to leave. You're left to your own devices for another few hours.

Now that you’re revising the paper, your eyes ache, your left hand is cramping up, and you're positive you gave yourself carpal tunnel.

Another knock on the door reverberates through the trailer.

"Open up, kiddo!"

"It's unlocked." You snap back, not unkindly. Anthony and Sebastian walk in. You stop typing for a second to smile at them. "Hey,"

"Hey, N/N." Sebastian smiles back. "We brought you soup."

Your face twists up. "Is it from the sandwich shop?"

"Nah, Masha told us that made you sick. This is from the high-end shop across the street," Anthony says, handing you a warm styrofoam bowl and a spoon. he also takes your laptop. "What are you writing an essay for? You’re sick! And a kid! Kids don’t do school when they’re sick.”

“What do you know about kids?” You smile, leaning forward to reach for your laptop.

"Nuh uh, no no no. You're going to relax while we're here, okay? And for your information, I have three children."

You cock an eyebrow. "Uh huuuuhhhh," you draw out.

He rolls his eyes, saves your essay, and turns on the television that you rarely use. "Alright, N/N. Netflix or Hulu?"

"My essay."

"Hey siri, does netflix or hulu have a show called 'My essay'?" You shove his shoulder lightly with a scowl. Sebastian is having a grand time laughing at you while eating his own soup.

"Alright, alright. We'll watch The Office, it's one of your favorites." Anthony chuckles.

You huff, leaning back on the couch and pulling off the cover to your soup. "Fine."

"Michael Scott is such a bad boss." Sebastian remarks.

"How dare you!" You gasp, your voice cracking severely.

"I can't take you seriously when you sound like a twelve year old boy." He retorts.

"You're being mean,"

"Mmm sorry sweetheart," He chuckles.

The three of you watch a couple episodes before they have to leave. You thank them for their time and the soup profusely. They wave you off, saying something along the lines of 'No problem, kiddo'.

After they leave, you snatch up your laptop and make the final revisions on your essay. There, finished in two days, and all it took was eating a bad sandwich. You should totally do that more often. (No you shouldn't. Never doing that again.)

You opt for more Michael Scott and some ginger ale mixed with Gatorade. You fall asleep on the couch huddled under a fleece blanket you retrieved from your room area two more episodes in, and wake up to gentle knocking and someone calling your name.

"Y/N? You there?"

"Yeah." You call, voice thick with sleep.

"Can we come in?"

"Sure?" You say, burrowing under the blanket. The door opens revealing Chris Evans and Robert, both looking tired after a long day of filming.

"Did we wake you up?" Chris asks.

"Yeah, it's fine though," You yawn, sitting up slowly.

"Oh, sorry 'bout that kiddo,"

You shrug. "What's up?"

Robert gives you a dad smile. "We just wanted to come see how you're doing. Feeling any better?"

"Yeah, I guess. Don't feel pukey anymore."

"That's good. Anthony said you were doing homework all day?" Chris asks, tone not too far from accusatory.

"I had an essay to do." You defend.

Robert clicks his tongue. "You're supposed to be resting, Y/N, not doing homework."

You pout. "I still had to get it done..."

"Alright, no school stuff tomorrow, okay?" Robert orders. "Rest only."

"Rest only." You repeat.

"Alright, now go to bed. You look exhausted."

"Okay. Thanks for checking on me," You stand up slowly, paying close attention to how you feel. You give each of them a hug before going to your room.

You check your phone, again giving in to those bad habits.

Message from Masha the Manager

Doc appointment at 1 pm tomorrow. He's gonna make a house call.

Sent 7:28 PM

You shoot back a quick 'K' before turning it off and laying down for the night.

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liljungie · 4 years

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Young Blood | Mafia AU

▸Pairing : Jimin ↮ Reader ↮ Taehyung.

▸ ！warnings！= !mentions of domestic violence!

▸Word count: 3k

▸ Part three : ❝ Ties that bind ❞

▸Masterlist

A/N: can you Please leave me kind messages? I really need it rn...LITERALLY anything.

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You step aside after opening the door for jimin who carefully places your daughter in her carseat."You know where to find me if you change your mind" jimin tells you walking back to the apartment complex leaving you alone with your racing mind without sparing you a glance. You refused his offer. The risk is high and you didn't want to put your daughter's life on the line so you turned jimin down.

You shut the door a bit louder than you intended out of frustration and made your way to the other side of the car to start driving home.

Your phone battery died a long time ago and you started to prepare yourself mentally for taehyung's fight match. But it was only 1 am you doubt that he'll be home this early. Regardless you knew an argument is going to happen because you didn't pick up any of his calls. Although it made you wonder why his guards didn't bust thorough jimin's apartment you had Luna's tracking device on her so surely it altered taehyung on her whereabouts...but maybe that's why he didn't came in like a hurricane.

You reached for the tracking device in the back carefully taking it out of Luna's front pocket to your sheer horror the device battery was dead. You curse under your breath tossing it at the backseat out of anger. Nothing seems to go how you want it to and it was so frustrating. Your driving pace picked up and you were out of the crowded city in a blink of an eye.

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Carrying Luna in one hand and opening the door with the other was a task you couldn't master. Eventually the door opened you didn't know if it was for how you cursed at it or because you kept jamming in the key hoping it works. but it was finally open.

You gently lay her down on her little bed, you take off her shoes and pull the covers tucking her in. You shut her bedroom door and sigh of relief that she didn't wake up at all.

Your little one was getting so big that you were craving a glass of water after carrying her. So you made your way to the kitchen but your walking came to a halt when you saw your husband casually sitting on the couch that faced the staircase. "Welcome home...took you long enough" taehyung remarks you sigh walking down the last few steps that were left. "Taehyung please luna is sleeping let's not do this" you tell him begging him with your eyes that he doesn't start a riot at this hour of the night.

"Where were you and why the fuck is your tracking device still here when you're out God knows where!" He yelled taking you by surprise as he stood up from the seat towering over you with a death stare.

"Relax...we came back in one piece there's no need for any of this" you say walking past him to the kitchen to have that glass of water however he yanks you so you're facing him again "weren't you the one who was afraid of something bad happening and what do you do? You go without the one thing that could bring you back!" He shouts "tell me how the hell am I supposed to know where you or my baby are if something were to happen!" You pull your arm away from his grip "nothing happened so chill out!" You roll your eyes trying to walk away from him "for the record I took Luna's tracking device" you reassure as you fill up the glass with water. You could see steam coming out of his ears. Taehyung was livid "then why the fuck don't I see it on here huh?" He points to his smart watch that he tracks the devices from.

Crap it completely slipped from your mind you swallow the lump in your throat "the battery died" you bite your lip. If taehyung was mad a minute ago now he'll skin you alive. He takes the glass from your hand slamming it in the sink "are you out of your damn mind!" He walks forward and you walk backwards afraid of colliding with him. "What if you or our fucking girl gets kidnapped huh?!...what the fuck will I do then? You'll blame me for it you'll say that I didn't protect her you'll hate me for not being a good fucking father you'll curse me for losing our child you'll blame me for everything! When it's your fucking fault" he snaps you avoid looking in his eyes "I won't blame you for anything! we were just in the city...it's not far away I'm just as careful as you are over her..trust me" you tell him softly.

"What were you doing in the city? for fuck's sake that's where all the other gangs hideouts are" he groans walking away from you while rubbing his temples, you were giving him all different types of headaches...new ones that got on every nerve of his. Deep down you'll admit you were so dumb for not charging Luna's tracking device you didn't know what you'll do with yourself if something happened to her because of your mind slipping.

"Would you Please stop...I went to visit a friend-" you hesitate to speak but you knew taehyung won't get off your back until he's satisfied with an answer "a friend?" He raises his eyebrow tapping his bottom lip with his pointer finger, he sighs while brushing his hair back "a friend?!" He laughs "you're supposed to be dead to them! What fucking friend!" He yells not believing how naively you were acting. Risking your and your daughter's life for seeing 'a friend'.

"It's jimin" you say his eyes snap back up when he hears jimin's name roll out of your mouth "Luna wanted to see jimin so I took her to h-" he cuts you off "bullshit!" He graps you by your throat slamming you against the wall. You shudder at the suddenness as you choke on your breath. "Tell me what's going on between you and Jimin and this is the last time I ask nicely!" He shouts you squirm in your spot "n-nothing!" He pulls you forward only to slam you against the wall again and you let out a cry "I said tell me!" His voice booms through the mansion making the hair on your body stand.

His grip on your neck was suffocating that your eyes started to roll to the back of your head, you could see death standing behind taehyung's back, lurking.

You found little strength left in you and started to hit taehyung's hand hoping that your punches were strong enough to knock his arm off of you. Tears roll down your cheeks you eyes were going to pop out of their sockets every little vain in them was burning red that taehyung himself saw how your eyes was gonna lose their light if he held you the way he's holding you a minute longer. For a brief second he didn't want to let go "Daddy you're killing her!" A little voice shouted.

Both of your heads turned towards a sobbing Luna standing on the staircase holding out her little arms. Something in taehyung snaps and he pulls away from you too quick that you fall to the floor dying to breathe Luna runs to you crying and whimpering. She calls out your name softly while holding your head in her lap as she wipes away your tears. "Mommy don't leave me please mommy wake up please-" she cries louder when you don't reply to her.

the wind returns to your lungs and you hug your daughter as you cry in her lap and she cradles you in her arms crying with you but of relief.

On the other hand Taehyung never hated himself as much as he do now, seeing his daughter and you in that state, the guilt was eating him up so painfully that he couldn't stay here to hear your sobs or how Luna as little as she is tell you that it'll be okay. She's too young to witness all of this. The last thing taehyung wanted is for his children to live how he lived. In an environment like this. Watching his parents fight and hurt each other and hurting others not to mention running a mafia gang to top it all off. It's all apart of taehyung now it's his roots and it's who he is Although he doesn't want Luna to grow up and be exactly like...him.

After taehyung was out of sight you sat up cradling your daughter in your arms as you wipe away your tears and trying to calm Luna down her sniffles were tugging on your heart strings and it just hurt you a lot you kissed the top of her head while getting up and started walking towards her room you made sure to lock the door then you got in and cuddled with Luna in her tiny bed drifting off to sleep. Hoping to God that you don't relive what you just went through in your dreams.

When your eyes flutter open again the sun was shining through the big window, it was quite and peaceful Luna's short breaths were the only sound you heard along with the chirping birds outside...you wished it was always this peaceful. Just you and your babygirl. No taehyung no mafia no father in law trying to kidnap your baby and no long lost love that was still hanging in the air not knowing if you should follow it or let go. Seems like you were chasing the clouds.

You got up and walked to the little dresser, taehyung's grip colored your skin with deep purple and blue marks you winced when you traced them gently you sigh as you look away from your reflection. Too ashamed to look at who you've become.

Weak. Miserable. You became your worst nightmare and that's when you started crying again. You place your hands on your mouth to muffle the sound of your cries. This is not how you imagined your life would be. This is not the life you worked so hard for. This is not the life you deserved. But then again...you killed. You tortured people you hunted down groups and ambushed places and spilled blood like it was water... like the people you killed didn't have a family waiting for them to come back home,maybe this was your karma. For all your wrong doings.

But no human could ever bare such burdens. You knew that if you kept suppressing all that hurt all that anger all that sadness all that pain you'd never survive long enough to see Luna's prom dress...hell you weren't sure if you'll be there for when she starts going to school with taehyung's behavior and your relationship with him ripping in sherds and taehyung is catching up with you and jimin...everything is starting to crumble beneath your feet and all you're able to do is sit back and watch.

You couldn't fight back, there's nothing left for you...you care about and love Luna but you're not being a good mother to her or so that's what you're starting to think. You deserved what taehyung did to you last night. how could you forget to charge her tracking device! Why were you that reckless in the first place? is getting to jimin was all that was on your mind? That everything else didn't matter... what would you do if you returned and she wasn't with jimin?

You shake your head when you hear Luna walking around in the room. You need to be strong...just a little longer until you find a way out...an escape...a golden ticket to freedom. For you and your daughter and if you couldn't escape you wanted to save her. You want her to live a peaceful life you want her to marry a man or a woman she's in love with. you want a normal job for her a job that doesn't involve killing and stealing and being the dirts of the earth.

The one thing that you did right was having her. And you're not planning on ruining it.

You splash your face with cold water and head towards your sleepy baby you pick her up and place her in your lap. Brushing her hair behind her ears "good morning princess" you tell her softly kissing her chubby cheeks "mornin mommy" she says in pout making you hold her tighter in your arms. "My cutie...how did I get so lucky!" You kiss her cheeks and forehead and anywhere you can as she giggles in your arms and squirms..her laughter was music to your ears. You felt much better after hearing her laugh and seeing her smile. After last night...the way she was crying made your heart bend and break.

"Don't you want breakfast?" You ask her. She nods furiously "please...I want froothoops" she tells you "frootloops?" You ask giggling "yea that!" She smiles you laugh "let's go prepare it then yeah?" You place her on the ground and she runs to the door waiting for you to unlock it you smile and do so and watch her run infront of you. Too excited to have breakfast. Oh how you miss the day where your biggest problem was what to eat for breakfast...

You pour the milk in and Luna insists that she's a big girl now and can pour the cereal without spilling it all over the kitchen island and you agree after a lot of begging of course. She actually pours it in the plate and not twenty feet away from it. You smile proudly at her and praise her then you place her in her baby chair and go over to start the coffee machine.

While the coffee is brewing and Luna is too busy on her learning apps you hit the call button pressing the phone to your ear.

"Hello?"

"...is the offer still available?"

"What offer?..."

"Jimin...let's runway...you , me and Luna"

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taetaesbaebaepsae · 5 years

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BTS When Another Idol Flirts With You Backstage (Hyung Line)

Summary: Hope you like things salty, also probably some feelings because they s o f t b o i s

Warnings: mild angst, smutty situations but I’m too thirsty over all my smut requests to do full on smut rn

A/N: Maknae Line coming up after Hickey Request Part Tres is completed

Word Count: 2750

Seokjin

Kim Seokjin was not jealous. No way.

Mr. Worldwide Handsome had no reason to be jealous as no one was better than him.

His heart is racing for some unrelated reason. It has absolutely nothing to do with how you're swooning over the maknae of EXO.

Why did he invite you backstage, anyway? He'd much rather you be out front and cheering for him, but you said you were curious, especially for what goes on backstage at award shows like this one.

He had teased you on the drive here about how your favorite band EXO would be there and you just waved him off, saying that wasn't what this was about.

But you'd practically made a beeline to your bias from the other group when you saw him standing at the catering table.

The normally serious man was suddenly all smiles, now, and Jin kept remembering you screaming over a dance performance in which he'd ripped off his shirt

You'd never screamed that loud for him. Not in public, anyway.

He had about team minutes before they went onstage and the makeup artist was begging him to look upward so she could apply his makeup evenly. He wasn't having it, didn't want to take his eyes off you with Oh Sehun.

When he saw you laugh and place a hand on his chest, he snapped.

He waved off the exasperated makeup artist with a short "you can't mess with perfection, doll" and stalked over to the catering table, tapping you on the shoulder impatiently.

You turn to him and say "Hey, Jin," and just turn back to Sehun as if he weren't towering over you, seething.

You know he's jealous but you're meeting your ultimate bias and you aren't about to miss out because of your hotheaded boyfriend.

"We're about to go on, Y/n..." He whined, and eventually he had to tug on your hand and drag you away.

He sits you down in a chair and points toward the stage.

"Here. This is the best view of your boyfriend. Stay put."

You look up at him with a knowing grin. "You jealous, Jinnie?"

He made an annoyed sound in the back of his throat.

"Why would I be jealous? I just hope he isn't too disappointing in person."

"Oh, not at all. He's very handsome, don't you think?" You tease noting that his face was turning red.

"Sure," he said through gritted teeth, and then it was time for BTS to perform.

Jin felt like he made a million mistakes because he kept wanting to look back and see if you were watching.

When they were done, before he could even catch his breath, he saw you still sitting there.

You congratulated on the and subsequent award, but as you were following him back to the dressing room you kept gushing about meeting Oh Sehun and how great and humble and handsome he was in person.

Jin didn't say a word, just gently pulling you along behind him.

When the door of his dressing room shut, you were still talking excitedly, and he grabbed your face in his hands and pushed you up against the wall with his body.

You let out a small moan and you could feel him smile at your mouth before he kissed you again, forcing his thigh between your legs.

When he pulled away you were gasping.

"So can Oh Sehun do that?"

"Who?" You said breathlessly.

He smirked. "That's more like it."

(He still grumbled all the way home, talking about how Sehun wasn't even on the vocal line. You explained to him that all your biases were on the rapline and this led to a conversation about your BTS bias which led to a whole other argument that culminated in Seokjin giving Yoongi the evil eye the rest of the week)

Namjoon (RM)

Kim Namjoon liked to think of himself as a mature and evolved individual.

He liked to think that he could use reason and logic to solve most problems, and usually he was right.

However, at the present, watching you talking with your Monsta X bias at the catering table, he felt rather less than evolved.

You were looking up at the tall, bronze skinned leader as if he were the sun and Namjoon felt downright primal when you took his hands in yours, turning them over to read his palms (which coincidentally had been how you first met Namjoon, half drunk and doing palm readings at a party).

A large part of him wanted to stalk over and throw you over his shoulder like a goddamn caveman, and he hated it. Jealousy was admittedly one of his weaknesses, but he trusted you. He really did.

There was just something that played on his deepest insecurities in the way you were looking at Son Hyunwoo with almost hero worship.

Namjoon had met him a few times and he was always polite but rather quiet, maybe shy. He seemed awful outgoing with you, though, asking questions about your palm reading and looking down at you intently.

Maybe Namjoon felt insecure that he was also a leader, or maybe it was just how fucking big he was, taller and broader in the shoulders than Namjoon.

Bigger caveman take cave girl away, the most primal part of his brain was yelling.

He was hoping that he didn't look the way he felt until Hobi clapped him on the shoulder. "Joon, don't throw a punch, ok? I don't think you and I together could take him down."

Hobi nodded. "I can tell. Five minutes, fearless leader."

Namjoon could barely translate during the interview after the awards show because he couldn’t stop thinking about your bright smile, looking up at someone else.

When he was finished, instead of looking for you, he headed back to his dressing room.

He was surprised to see you already sitting there and waiting for him on the couch and he plopped down next to you, giving you a dimpled smile.

“You mad at me, baby?” You ask, pouting out your bottom lip.

He shakes his head. “Never. Did you have a good time tonight?”

You give him a bright smile. “Definitely. It was good to meet another leader who’s as kind as you are.”

Namjoon frowned a little at that, and you cocked your head at him.

He sighed and rubbed a hand over his face.

“He’s not that great,” he mumbled.

You smiled at him again and suddenly straddled his hips, wrapping your arms tight around his neck and leaning down to kiss him, hard.

“You’ve got no reason to be jealous, baby,” you tell him, and he loves how bright your smile is for him, how your eyes light up.

“I wasn’t jealous!” He insists and he nuzzles your throat, making you giggle. “Just...territorial.”

He pulls away but you keep your head arched back. “Wanna mark up your territory, then?”

He groans low in his throat. “Don’t tease me.”

“Who’s teasing?”

(The next morning you go to work in a turtleneck and a dazzling smile)

Hoseok (J-Hope)

Jung Hoseok has often been good at disguising strong emotions and putting on a positive front.

The one area he’s not so great at that? Professional and personal jealousy, both of which he’s feeling in spades as he sees you watching EXO’s dance line warm up and practice before an award show performance.

He’s watching, too, of course, but the way your eyes are following Kim Jongin’s every move and how your mouth is open makes him want to cover your eyes with his hand.

If, and that’s a big if, anyone in the kpop game is a better dancer than Hoseok, it’s probably Kim Jongin and Hoseok isn’t naive enough to imagine it’s just professional curiosity, with you. The dancer with the stage name Kai is your bias in the group and you’d been quite vocal about it while watching the Love Shot comeback stage.

When Hoseok has to leave you sitting alone so he can get makeup done for the upcoming BTS performance, he comes back to see you talking and laughing with the member and instead of annoyance, he's boiling.

He walks over and throws his arm around your shoulders.

You look up at him, surprised, and smile. "Hey, babe, this is-"

"I know who he is." Hoseok's voice is really serious, but then he breaks out in a smile and offers his hand.

Jongin shakes it, returning the smile. "I didn't know you were dating the famous J-Hope, Y/n!"

You flush and Hoseok isn't looking at you. "Doesn't talk about me much, huh? Funny that. Anyway I'm sorry we are bugging you, I'm sure you need to warm up."

"No, no bother at all. It was very nice to meet you, Y/n," he says, looking at you pointedly, and then with a smile, almost like an afterthought, he said, "Good to see you too, Hope."

Hoseok nodded tersely and all but manhandled you toward his dressing room.

When you're looking up at him, annoyed, he finally blows up.

"So did I interrupt you making a date with him or something?"

You open your mouth in shock. "You cannot be serious."

"I dunno, looked pretty serious to me. 'Nice to meet you, Y/n.....oh and good to see you, too, I guess,"" He mocked. "If I hadn't come over there he would've had your number saved in his phone in two minutes. He didn't even know I was your boyfriend!"

You set your jaw. "You're being ridiculous."

"Am I? Well maybe I wouldn't be so ridiculous if I hadn't seen your eyes glued to his hips while he was practicing, Y/n!"

You flush. "He's just talented, that's all! You were watching, too!"

"Not like that I wasn't." He takes a step forward and you take a step back and when you do, he sighs and rubs the back of his neck.

You're looking up at him with tears welling in your eyes and now he feels like the asshole.

"I wasn't doing anything wrong," you say, voice shaking a little. "I'm just a fan, Hobi. I love you. You know that."

Hoseok sighs again. "I know. I know, baby. I'm sorry, he was just obviously flirting with you and I mean you obviously think he's handsome...and talented..." His voice lowers into a mumble.

"He is handsome and talented. And so are you. The difference is that I'm in love with you, Jung Hoseok. That trumps everything."

He holds open his arms, looking miserable and sheepish, and you walk into them and press your face into his chest.

He hugs you tight. "I am sorry. I was being an idiot."

You can't help the tears coming now that the crisis is over. You nodded against his chest. "You were," you hiccup.

Hoseok chuckles at you. "Aw, baby. Forgive me, yeah? I love you so much."

You cry for a few minutes and he strokes your hair. When you pull away, he's looking at you with love in eyes.

You crack a mischievous smile. "You really think he was flirting with me?"

He growls and bites down on your shoulder hard enough for you to squeal but you're laughing and soon he is too and everything seems brighter.

(He does get huffy the next time you watch The Eve dance practice for the 100th time, innocently proclaiming it was professional curiosity and nothing more)

Yoongi (Suga)

Min Yoongi has never been good at sharing, not even as a small child.

So when a member of the rapline of Monsta X pulled you aside to chat backstage at an awards show, he was seething.

He felt angry not only because you were clearly flirting with the dimpled rapper, or because you had barely spoken to Yoongi, but because he had no right to be jealous: you weren't his, anyway. At least not yet.

He'd met you a few months ago on the set filming his last MV, and he fell for you as soon as you got irritated with him between takes.

"Fuck off and lift your chin," you said simply, dabbing on makeup, and he'd been floored by your sharp tongue and the fire in your eyes.

After that, he requested you on every shoot, to the point that you raised an eyebrow at him on the last set and asked, point blank, "What do you think I'm pretty or something?"

"Maybe," he'd said with a smirk, and from then on you were seeing each other, or at least what passed for seeing in his and your busy schedules.

Which included quickies in his dressing room and booty calls at 4am after flights and the occasional coffee date, but it wasn't as if he had any kind of claim on you.

So when Jooheon laughed at something you said and put a hand on your thigh, Yoongi could do nothing but look away and clench his fists tight, closing and opening them.

When it was his turn for you to do his makeup, he lifted his chin without protest, prompting you to lift an eyebrow.

"Obedient today, huh?" You murmur, and he can't help the way his lips quirk up at one corner at your teasing tone.

He doesn't speak, though, and you cock your head at him but shrug it off.

Yoongi doesn't try to speak to you but he watches you like a hawk. You can feel his gaze burning into your back almost everywhere you go.

You're applying makeup to the Monsta X members in the hallway near the dressing rooms when you finish up Jooheon and show him the mirror.

"You made me look so handsome!" He exclaims with mock surprise, and you can't help but smile back at those dimples.

"I didn't have to do much," you said wryly and he gives you a sly grin and kisses the corner of your mouth.

Working with kpop idols, it's one of the more innocent experiences you've had, but you hear a dressing room door slam shut so hard it nearly vibrates the wall and when you jump and look around, the door is labelled Min Yoongi.

After you've finished, you knock softly on the door. When you hear him grunt for you to come in, you just peep your head in.

When he sees your face peering in at , he sets his jaw, clicking his tongue against his teeth. "I thought I specified no groupies."

You felt your face heat with anger and you went inside, slamming the door behind you.

"What the fuck did you just say to me, Min Yoongi?"

He shrugs, looking up at you defiantly. "If the shoe fits," he snaps.

You nod slowly. "Oh, ok, this is what we're doing, huh? I'm a fucking employee here, Yoongi."

"Employees supposed to be kissing the idols? I didn't read that in the handbook."

He's not backing down, his words harsh and low but he's sitting with his shoulders slumped, almost defeated looking.

"You're being a dumbass. I didn't kiss anyone but even if I did I'm a single woman. Unless you want to cuff me-"

He cuts you off, straightening his shoulders. "What if I do?"

You stop in your tracks, shocked. "Are you being territorial right now or are you being serious?"

He stood, putting his hands in his pockets and looking into your eyes.

"Both," he admits.

"What the fuck, Yoongi?"

He shrugs again, but that's not good enough. You cross your arms.

"So you call me a whore and then tell me you like me?"

"I didn't mean it," he says softly, stepping toward you.

You don't back away. "Which part? That I'm a whore or that you like me?"

He shakes his head in irritation. "Don't play dumb, Y/n. It doesn't suit you."

"I'm not the one playing, Yoongi. Either tell me what is going on or I'm out."

Yoongi sighs, taking another step toward you, until he was crowding you.

"I. Like. You," he said, punctuating each word with a kiss, first on the tip of your nose, then your cheekbone, and then finally, your lips, sweet and soft, none of the hard crushing passion of the kisses you'd shared before.

"I like you too, you jealous idiot."

Yoongi smirked at you, shrugging again. "I don't like to share."

(You're wrapped in Yoongi's arms in the makeup room the next time you encounter Lee Jooheon, and this time, he and Yoongi get along swimmingly.)

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morphogenetic · 5 years

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Is ao no flag worth reading? I went through the tag and why is everyone who's reading suffering?? Damn... :/ are the gays treated badly or what?

ack sorry i didn’t see this earlier anon but excuse me yelling about this a lot because ive been reading this manga since ch 5 and have some STRONG feelings (in a positive way) about it sdlgkhsdkf. sorry for upcoming text wall i can try and space shit out if it’s hard to readokay so: it is absolutely worth reading yes. regardless of anything else that happens, the paneling/composition is fucking worth it alone tbh. it’s gorgeous as fuck, i’ve set specific panels and some of the cover art to be my phone background at certain points its just. oof. man. it’s so fucking good.

like. goddamn. this page in particular is SO fucking good and there’s more shit like this everywhere. i’m honestly in fucking love w the art and panel work it’s so good at show-don’t-tell and it’s just. so well done to boot.putting the really good art aside though: the overall discussions between characters that happen in this manga are fucking incredible. like. even going on beyond just treating gay characters with a level of respect that i wasn’t expecting in a shonen jump property (not the main mag but definitely still really widely read), there’s a really deep discussion of gender roles and the struggles that girls/women have to deal with in japanese society that i wasn’t expecting to see at all but that i deeply, deeply appreciate. also it goes a lot into the struggle of the high school to college transition and just the general idea of not knowing what the hell you want to do with your life and i just. really appreciate those things existing

while the gay characters experience pain, i would not say they are treated badly. i will probably fail at explaining this well while also trying to avoid spoilers lol, but while they are definitely going through some rough shit, it’s not rough shit for the sake of being cruel to them, and as characters they are honestly some of the most well-developed characters gay characters i’ve seen in any media at all, because nothing about them is treated as a joke. they’re both treated with as much respect by the narrative as the (seemingly, i personally doubt the lead is actually straight and there’s some hints as to another main being trans but neither of those are canon so let’s call them straight for now lol) straight charastheir pain isn’t like….punching down, if that makes sense? like yeah they’re going through some shit, but it’s for the sake of the narrative getting a message across,and their circumstances are actively decried by the narrative as Being Shitty. it’s really not pain for the sake of just being cruel to fictional gay characters Because The Author Can Be Cruel If They Want To. im trying to think of a good comparison point to this but it’s a struggle, the best comparison i can think of in manga rn that you MIGHT have a point of reference on is how magne is being treated in b/nha right now. (I AM NOT READING BN//HA im not even caught up on the anime slkghsdf but based on what i know of her treatment she seems to be having a rough time of actually being treated like a person.) anyway i have no idea if i’m explaining this point well at all but hopefully followers of mine reading anf already get what i mean by this, it’s not cruelty for the sake of being cruelthat and like. everyone in this gd manga has some degree of pain, both the ‘straight’ characters are EXTREMELY anxious/depressed and one of the non-leads honestly has one of the most developed internal struggles, to the point where the entire gd fandom collectively had a moment of apology to her because we fucked up THAT bad in reading her personality lmao. this is technically a drama manga, after all, everyone’s dealing with some level of (realistic-to-real-life) internal struggle rn, but there’s no internal-narrative mocking of it. everyone’s issues are treated with respect

there are some things lately (and by ‘lately’ i mean within the last chapter or two) that many people, including myself, have reacted to with some amount of hesitation. anf has a habit of showing one thing and then completely changing your mind about said thing (see: aforementioned non-lead thing). i am not personally happy about it, but this is a monthly manga, so i’m willing to let it play its course for now. totally get the fandom dissatisfaction about it though but i think the good points of the manga up to this point still definitely outweigh itSORRY ANON THIS IS PROBABLY LONGER THAN YOU WERE EXPECTING LOL but yes. anf very good. painful but like. realistic pain and not Just For The Sake of Being Painful

RETROACTIVE EDIT BC IM A DUMBASS: if you’re seeing this and going ‘huh, cool, where can i read this?’ the answer is on the website/app mangaplus, which is a LEGAL, OFFICIAL, AND YET SOMEHOW ALSO FREE way to read a ton of shonen-jump-associated manga, including anf (under the title blue flag). the little volume extras aren’t there but they’re easy enough to find on mangadex and places like that lol

#junpei.txt #asks #anonymous #long post #/#//#///#ao no flag #(IM SPECIFICALLY TRYING TO GET THIS TO NOT SHOW UP IN THE TAG SORRY IF IT DOES ANYWAY)

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roggling · 5 years

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I would've wanted to seen this in season 8 but can you do allura and Keith team up to fight against hagger?

Wow…Um…WOW. This got WAY longer than I thought it would be. Like…5000 words?? Ummmmmmmmm. Sorry? Okay, so there isn’t any confusion, the Allurance date never happened andthere may be some conflicting romantic feelings in Team Voltron rn. (But theyall still trust each other with their lives so Voltron isn’t affected, buty’all know what I meant.) Also, don’t ask me about timeline, I don’t know wherethis will fit in Season 8 either, just please roll with it :))

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Arrivingon Oriande was faster than they initially thought, but they were up foranything. Thanks to the joint effort of the Holt family, Voltron’s quintessencesignature is masked and, using Pidge’s invisible shield, the Lions are hiddenand perched beside the massive building Honerva erected.

PerAllura’s suggestion, both she and Keith left their lions to investigate as thetwo members with the strongest connection to quintessence. The rest of thePaladins stayed in their lions and kept a close watch on their vitals duringthe reconnaissance mission. Keith, Allura, and Kosmo perched themselves behinda pillar to hide from the Altean guards and they crouched down low. Keithpeeked through the side of the pillar and counted a dozen or so Alteans.

Heturned around and placed a hand on Kosmo’s back, looking at Allura andprompting her to do the same. Once she placed her hand beside his on Kosmo, thecosmic wolf flashed in blue and they were suddenly inside of the Oriandepalace. Allura gasped at the great change the last time she visited thebeautiful palace.

Thestatues were no longer standing tall at the great hall. Instead they werereplaced by dozens of robeasts and all the Alteans of the colonies were buzzingaround working for preparations. Behind some open doors, Allura could see abright glow coming from a pool of glowing liquid and the head of one of the statueswas sinking into the intense concoction.

“No!”Allura tried to scream, but before she could break for the doors to stop them,Keith grabbed her wrist and pulled her into his arms to hide again andwhispered a panicked, “Shh,” into her ear.

Her stomach dropped in embarrassmentwhen she saw Keith’s panicked face and felt his muscles tense from behind her.Footsteps were approaching their hiding place and Allura wanted to kick herselffor her sudden outburst and revealing their hiding spot.

“Merla!Can you come check this out? The kromar is malfunctioning. Can you show us theblueprint?”

Merla,the guard who heard her Allura assumed, turned around and started explainingaway what they did wrong. Once Merla was out of earshot, the two removedthemselves from their embrace and Allura tried to avoid his gaze, “I’m sorry,Keith.”

“Iunderstand. But this is a stealth mission. We have to be quick and silent,”Keith assured, calling forth his Bayard’s sword and peering over the side ofthe pillar. Once the room was clear, Keith motioned for Allura to follow himand they crossed the hall to hide behind another pillar. Then the next, andthen the next. Once they made it in the room, Allura pressed her hand on asecurity pad and the doors slid closed.

“Isee you have found our base,” a chilly, emotionless, and almost monotonousvoice rang through the room. It chilled them to their bones and simultaneouslylit a fire in them.

Keithand Allura both turned around, battle-ready, and glared at the new AlteanEmpress standing above them on a catwalk. Behind her, an ominous lookingrobeast stood tall and glared down at them. Honerva’s golden eyes were piercinginto them and almost made them shiver under their intense gaze. Almost.

“Youhave come home my child,” Honerva addressed Allura.

Allura,however, did not take any of Honerva’s fake warmth in the statement and yelled,“I am, most definitely, not your child.”

Honervasighed in frustration and extended her arms, “You have come to the home of ourancestors. You have learned their secrets. And from what I can see, you alsohave access to the celestial entity.”

“Thereis nothing celestial about it,” Keith growled, “It’s intoxicating. We’re justlucky Allura’s will is strong enough to fight it off.”

“Awill is easily broken. It’s nothing but a mere idea in the mind. It can bebroken down through trauma and tragedy. I know. I’ve lived through that,”Honerva spoke softly.

“Seeingthe destruction of your planet isn’t traumatic enough? A will is strong enoughif you have the support of people you love!”

“Ilost the people I love!” Honerva screamed, “And you will too if you don’t helpme bring me my son back.”

“Lotor’stime has passed!” Allura yelled back, tears welling in her eyes, “As much as Iwould’ve liked to still have him around so I could help him become the man hecould’ve been…he’s gone. Life needs to take its course, Honerva.”

Honerva’slips stretched upwards, “And yet you had no trouble reviving the Red Paladinafter he died from electrocution.”

Keithblinked and looked at Allura. Whispering a broken, “Lance?”

Alluratook a deep breath and muttered, “I understand where you’re coming from butthese are different circumstances.”

Honervagrinned, “I don’t see how…”

“Ididn’t have to ruin innocent lives to bring him back to life! You havedestroyed Olkarion! You attacked Earth. You have sucked the Quintessence of somany planets. I understand you miss your son, but innocent lives don’t deserveto die for him! Especially not when he killed his own people through harvestingtheir Quintessence!” Allura yelled.

Alluratook a step closer, her adrenaline running wild and her chin raised up in a challengeto the older woman looking down on them, “Let’s settle this now! You eithercome with us or we fight.”

Keithcalled for both his swords and held them at his sides, looking up at Honervawith the same look in his eyes. Honerva glared and, with a wave of her hand,started the fight.

Awave of quintessence spun around them like a typhoon and Allura glowed bright,opening up her arms and absorbing the quintessence only to release it like apulse wave, knocking down the robeasts lining the walls and tipping Honerva’smecha a bit.

Behindthe duo, the Alteans were banging on the doors, evidently trying to enter andto capture them. Keith looked at the door and then at Honerva and he rantowards the door, Kosmo on his tail, “I’ve got you covered, you deal withHonerva!”

Alluralifted her hand to block another wave of Quintessence aimed at her. She turnedaround quickly to watch her leader run away towards the door and yelled back,“Don’t hurt them!”

Thedoor was burst open and a group of a dozen Alteans tumbled into the rooms, eacharmed with a Bo staff and roaring to start a fight. Leading them was Merla.Keith slid on his knees and dodged an attack aimed at his face, quicklysweeping the feet of the first two Alteans using the blunt side of his sword,knocking them down on their feet.

“I’lltry!” He yelled over his shoulder, catching the Bo staff of another Altean,swiftly kicking him and his buddy in the back of their knees and he placed hishands over their heads, flipping over them and throwing their heads on thefloor, immediately knocking them out. He twirled his blades, swiping left andright to cut clean through their Bo staffs and hitting the Alteans’ heads withthe sword handles to knock them out. Kosmo, on his side, teleported on top ofthe Alteans to knock them down, biting their arms, and swiping their feet withhis tail.

Alluraput her attention on Honerva right on time to block another attack. Honerva wasstill on the catwalk and she wouldn’t make any efforts to go down to meet hereye to eye. That would be up to her. Allura saw a gun on one of the lab tablesand picked it up. Instead of using it like a normal person would have, shethrew it over her head and aimed it at Honerva’s head. The older woman missedit by a hair and winced when she heard the explosion of when the gun hit themecha behind her.

Shedecided she would move away from the fire of the explosion to avoid any moredamage being inflicted on her mecha and Allura followed her lead, jumping onthe shoulders of shut down Altean sentries and latching onto one of the columnsof the catwalk. She started climbing up, never once tearing her eyes offHonerva and she punched a hole through the floor of the catwalk.

Sheimmediately moved on to a sprint to catch up to Honerva. She aimed a powerfulpunch aimed at the witch but it just fizzed through like it did during theirfirst battle. Honerva materialised meters away and Allura growled infrustration speeding up faster and faster and aimed another punch, this onelaced with Quintessence.

Ithit.

Honervareeled to the right and stature bent over the railing of the catwalk. Allurasprinted, grabbing onto Honerva’s royal clothes to attempt to catch her beforeshe fell over the railing. Allura caught her collar and threw Honerva back ontothe catwalk, throwing Honerva at the wall. The older woman fell into a heap onthe floor and her crown fell off her head, sending her silver hair fallingacross her shoulders.

Alluraapproached the older woman and her body glowed as she accumulated morequintessence. Honerva looked up at Alfor’s daughter and raised her arm,striking Allura once more with a powerful hit. Allura was pushed backwards and,with a scream, flipped over the railing of the catwalk, falling to the groundhead first.

Backon their side of the fight, Keith and Kosmo managed to knock out about half ofthe Alteans’ that were sent after him. Keith’s Bayard sword is currentlyholding one of the Alteans above the ground since it sliced through theirclothes and into the metal of one of the columns holding the catwalk up. Sonow, with his Marmora sword, he’s making quick work of the rest of the Alteans.

Afterhe punched another unconscious, he heard the huge doors to the room startopening slowly. He growled and ran towards the controls, sliding under the feetof one of the Alteans and slicing through the control box with a swift swipe.The doors stopped when just a sliver was open and no more reinforcements wereable to enter.

Keithsmiled, but it was quickly swept off his face when he was struck on the cheekwith one of the Alteans’ Bo staffs and he bounced on the floor, his rollaccentuated with grunts. He groaned once he stopped and tried to get up fromhis spot, but he was almost immediately lifted off the ground and forced thekneel with his head tilted downwards.

Hefelt the nape of his neck being poked with a Bo staff and he assumed they wereall aiming their staffs at him. Keith was about to twirl and start anotherfight before he heard a shrill scream coming from above the catwalk. He snappedhis neck in that direction and his eyes widened in panic once he saw Alluraflip over the railing of the catwalk and he whispered a scared, “No.”

Hegrowled and got to his feet, sprinting in Allura’s direction. He felt theAlteans close behind him and he yelled, “Kosmo!” His loyal wolf came to hisrescue and tackled the pursuing Alteans to the ground, teleporting them on theother side of the door.

Keithslid on the ground and opened his arms and grunted when Allura fell in themperfectly. He was smacked by a few unconscious limbs, but that was fine if shewas okay. Other than the fact that she was knocked unconscious, she seemedperfectly fine, but Keith knew that Quintessence can do much worse on theinside than in the outside.

“Allura?!”Keith asked, moving away some stray hairs from Allura’s updo off her face so hecould get a better look, “Come on, Allura. Answer me!” Allura’s face was sweatyand she was shivering in his arms. She was hyperventilating and her breathingwas not evenly paced. Keith felt her temperature and his eyes widened even morewhen he realized she was burning up.

“Nowyou understand the feeling of losing someone you love.”

Thatcreepy, monotonous voice was back and Keith had to fight everything in him torefrain from throwing his sword at Honerva. Instead, he rose his head andhugged Allura close to him and growled, “You don’t know anything about me.” Hegrowled it so low, Keith was sure that his Galra traits emerged.

Hecould see Honerva pause when she saw his face and her face suddenly took on afaux softness that made him sick to his stomach. She took a step closer and hecould see her studying him, “You’re half-galra. Just like my son.”

“Iam nothing like your son,” Keith snapped. Kosmo materialized beside the two andstarted growling at Honerva.

“Ofcourse you are,” Honerva reasoned, “You’re a natural born leader. You wereunderestimated and your fate was decided by others. You’re destined for greatthings, Keith.”

“Iam,” Keith agreed and stood up on his feet, laying Allura to lean on Kosmo’sback as the wolf sat down, and stood his ground in front of Allura’s body, “Butnot what you’re thinking. My great starts with defeating you and bringing backpeace to the Galra and the universe.”

Honerva’ssoftness melted away, truly bringing a chill to Keith’s bones when he sees howeasily and convincing she could act. Her hand began glowing and she lifted herhand to aim at him, “If you think you can take me on without Altean alchemy,you are sorely mistaken.”

Beforehe could retort, Honerva fired on Keith and he leaped away from the Princess inhopes that she would be safe from the crossfire. In his leap, he tucked androlled and grabbed a Bo staff one of the Alteans he was fighting earlierdropped. In the next blast, he was able to hit it away with the staff, wincingwhen it struck the walls and shook the building.

Allurashifted in her spot and Keith immediately looked in her direction, breathingout in relief when he sees her get up again. But his relief was short livedwhen he was suddenly struck by one of Honerva’s quintessence blasts. Allura sawthis and she screamed out, “Keith!”

Shestarted getting up but almost immediately fell on to her side. She winced andlooked down at her leg, realizing that she must have hurt it somehow when Keithcaught her.

Shegot up again and tried to get back to Keith to make sure he was alright andmaybe heal him somehow if he suffered too much. She saw him get up and shecould hear him yell into his comms, “Guys!”

Suddenly,in her own helmet, she could hear Lance, “We’re already inside. The Alteanshave been evacuated into the ATLAS. The doors won’t budge Keith!”

“Blowit up! I’ll make sure we’re clear from the impact!” Keith ordered and she sawhim pick up the Bo staff.

Alluralifted herself off the floor in another attempt to get up. It worked for themost part, but she was struggling to keep herself balanced, “Keith, let mehelp!”

Keithglanced at her and dodged another hit, “No! You’re injured!”

“Don’tbe ridiculous! You need help!”

Onceshe said those words, Honerva fizzed invisible and Allura yelled, “No!”

Keithclosed his eyes and stood still, ignoring Allura’s yells and he honed in hissenses to his surroundings. A flash of light and he saw Honerva’s form growcloser and closer, her hand splayed out and ready to attack him once shematerialized. Keith prepped the Bo staff in his hand and timed the attack.

Oneflash.

Hethrust the Bo staff forward.

Honervamaterialized.

Hisattack hit.

Honervawas knocked far away and bumped into the feet of her mecha. Allura watched thewitch fall to the ground for the second time during their battle and she wasfrozen in shock. Keith soon joined her side and lifted her up to her feet. Shestumbled a bit and had to lean against him for a moment before gaining herfooting again. Keith placed a hand to her waist and watched her fondly, “Areyou okay?”

Allurasmiled and nodded, “I am. Thank you.”

“Youscared me back there,” Keith chastised.

“Well,”Allura squeezed his hand, “You scared me right now, so I supposed we’re evennow.”

“Wouldyou two quit flirting and open the door! It won’t budge!”

Thetwo hastily let go of the other at the sound of Lance’s shrill scream and movedto open the door for their team on the other side. Allura grabbed one side andKeith grabbed the other, both pulling the doors together to make way for themto enter. Once the doors were open wide enough for one person to walk in, theteam squeezed through in a single file line to get inside.

Shiroplaced a hand on both Allura’s and Keith’s shoulders and squeezed, “I’m gladyou two are alright. You had us worried.”

“Well,it seems like it’s over now,” Pidge added, stepping closer to Honerva. Shepeered at the unconscious woman through her visor.

Suddenly,Honerva’s hand wrapped itself around Pidge’s neck and the older woman got toher feet, gripping her neck tighter with the movement. The team immediately gotinto their battle stance and Lance aimed his gun at Honerva’s face, “Let hergo!”

Honervaignored all this and stood up on her feet. She tore Pidge helmet off her faceto get a better grip and she held the girl away from her body to avoid gettinghit by Pidge’s flailing legs. Once she saw Pidge’s face turning blue, she threwher at the team and Lance caught her. Unfortunately, Pidge’s body just took hisbody along and they both crashed against the wall of the room.

Theteam turned around to watch Pidge gasp for air and coughing up a storm. Lancewas immediately by her side, his hand nursing his fractured rib cage, and wasdesperately trying to help her.

However,the team didn’t have time to react. Honerva quickly moved on to her nextvictim: Hunk. Before any of them noticed, Hunk yelled in agony. Shiro, Allura,and Keith turned around and saw Hunk fall to the floor holding his head in hishands and screaming incoherences. Shiro stood up proud in front of his fallencomrades, seemingly ready for anything Haggar could throw at them.

Sadly,that wasn’t the case. Haggar disappeared into thin air and zigzagged her way toher former experiment. Shiro looked around frantically, hearing her laugh echothrough his mind, but he couldn’t tell where it was coming from. Suddenly, bothAllura and Keith kicked the space in front of him, kicking Haggar into the legsof her robeast.

“Takethem out of here!” Keith ordered Shiro.

Shirofrowned, “I won’t leave you two to fight her alone!”

Suddenly,Allura was behind him and she grabbed thin air, forcing Honerva intomaterializing before her, and threw Honerva into a robeast. Shiro stood withhis jaw dropped, surprise having not seen an imminent attack for a second timethat fight.

“Shiro,”Allura pleaded, standing attentive at his side, “You can’t sense her presence.Keith and I can, please get the team to safety. You’re helping us by keepingyourself and the team safe.”

Keithkicked the air again, but Honerva grabbed onto his foot and threw him onto thecatwalk above. He got up quickly and saw Honerva heading for Lance and Pidge,who were still trying to recover from the blow they received seconds before.Keith started sprinting down the catwalk and yelled, “Allura!”

Immediately,Allura turned her head to where Keith pointed at and she aimed a punch at thewitch. Honerva caught her blow as well and she caught the second punch Alluratried to land. The two women were in a standstill and they pushed against the otherto try and gain the upper hand.

Alluragrit her teeth and looked at Shiro and hissed, “Get them out of here!”

Suddenly,Keith materialized in a spark of teal embers and kicked Honerva out of the way.Shiro quickly sprinted by Hunk’s side and hoisted the unconscious man onto hisshoulders. He turned to pick up Pidge but Lance lifted a hand and assured, “Ican carry her.” Once the two injured were in their arms, the two ran out of theroom and in a safe zone.

Alluraand Keith were lucky that one time, but Honerva quickly gained the upper handagain. The both of them attacked on different sides, but she always found someway to evade their attacks. She would throw them onto difficult positions, whizout of the way of their attacks, or try to throw them into the boiling metalpool in the middle of the room.

Kosmosaved Keith from that fate and teleported the both of them far from Honerva sohe could catch his breath again. Keith panted and lifted himself up to watchAllura fight Honerva, his anger piling up more and more as he saw her beingthrown around like a ragdoll. So far, he couldn’t even catch her if he tried.

“It’slike she doesn’t want us together,” Keith thought, frowning at the prospect,but then paused and thought again, “She doesn’t want us to fight together.”

Heturned to Kosmo, who was growling at the witch, and he nodded. Kosmoimmediately teleported him to Allura and he rolled her out of the way of one ofHonerva’s blasts. Allura blinked to get her bearings together and smiled ingratitude.

“Doyou think there’s someway for you to use my quintessence to attack Honerva?”Allura blinked and rose a brow, so Keith elaborated, “The reason we can’t get astrong enough hit is that we keep hitting her individually…”

Keithwas briefly interrupted when Allura tackled him to the floor when another blasthit their hiding place.

“…Whatif we attack her using both our quintessence?”

Allura’seyes sparkled and her eyes opened in awe, “That’s perfect!” She extended herhand and ordered happily, “Hold my hand.”

Keithlooked down at her hand and slowly put his on top of hers, letting her slimfingers wrap around his bigger hand. She stood up and he followed after her,both of them hiding behind rows and rows of boxes, narrowly avoiding Honerva’sblasts and getting closer and closer.

“Wait!”Keith tried to stop her, but it was no use as she kept leading them and showedno sign of stopping. “How are we going to do this?”

“Justshut up and trust me!” Allura replied, smirking at properly using sassy humanvernacular.

Keithdid as she commanded and followed her as she ran up the stairs to the catwalk.He had to dodge a few blasts from Honerva and pulling her out of the way a few times,but other than that, they were clear. She was following close and was making itincreasingly hard to dodge the blasts and the two found themselves running intothe railings and almost missing steps on the stairs.

Eventually,the two made it up and ran to the opposite side of the catwalk, making it justin time to see Honerva reach the top of the stairs. Allura tightened her holdon his hand and lifted it up to aim at Honerva. The witch began sprintingtowards them and Keith was about to start running again to put more distancebetween them, but Allura didn’t budge. Instead, she closed her eyes. Before hecould say something, Allura squeezed his hand and pleaded, “Trust me.”

Hewill. He always will.

Heclosed his eyes and concentrated, feeling a foreign warmth envelope him. He thenopened his eyes and gasped when he sees himself in another plane. Almost likewhen he met Shiro in the Black Lion’s conscience, but this time it was bright,almost blinding.

Hemarveled at the change of scenery and awed at the specks of white in the soft red-pinksky. He turned around when he heard a giggle and his jaw went slack at seeing Allurastanding behind him. She was dressed in her Paladin armor, but she was clear ofthe scratches her earned during the past battle.

“You-Whereare we?”

“I’mguessing we’re in our shared conscience.”

“Ourshared conscience?” Keith questioned, “What does that mean?”

Alluralooked up into the sky, “When we both concentrated on our hands and sharing ourquintessence, the interaction happens here. The sky is our flow of quintessencemixing together.”

“Cananyone do that?”

“Noteveryone,” Allura admitted, “Only people who are adept at working with theirquintessence. Your training with Krolia to develop your battle senses developedyour ability to sense quintessence, that’s why you can see Honerva when she disappears.”

“Andyou’re an Altean so you’re naturally good at working with your quintessence,”Keith assumed.

“Exactly.”

Therewas a slight paused before Keith asked, “But how come we haven’t done this as ateam, yet?”

“It’sdifficult. We typically do things like this in the Lions. They sort offacilitate the mixing of our quintessence. Since the Lions also have their ownquintessence, it helps us be able to work together in harmony. But it’ll bealmost impossible for us to join our quintessence together like this. Our bondhas to run much deeper. With Voltron, our bond has to be stronger with our Lionthan with the rest of us in order to make it work.”

“Then,”Keith was almost scared to finish his thought. He had an inkling he knew theanswer already. But he needed to know. “Then,” he continued, “Why can we do it?”

Alluragrabbed his hand and squeezed warmly, “Because our bond is deeper than Ioriginally thought.”

Keithsmiled sheepishly, “Even after I acted like a complete jerk?”

“I’llblame that on you going insane,” Allura teased, “I’ve forgiven you a long timeago, Keith. I know you only truly want the best for the team.”

Alluragrabbed his other hand, “And if I can remember correctly, you defended me fromHonerva attempting to kill me to make you feel the loss of someone you love.”Keith looked at the side and refused to look her in the eye to avoid losing hiscool, “If Honerva’s words rang some sort of truth, then I know for sure that youreturn my feelings.”

Keith’shead shot up to look at her and, if it was possible, Allura beamed brighter. Hefound a smile creeping on his face and he chuckled, “You do?”

Allurastepped closer and looked up at him with her sparkling blue eyes and whispered,“I do.”

Keithlooked down to her lips and back up to her eyes and began to lean in. Before hecould lean in too much, Allura placed a finger on his lips and stopped him. Shegiggled at his look once he opened his eyes and explained, “We finish thisfight first.”

Keithnodded and squeezed her hands in his, “Together. We finish this fight together.”

Allurasmiled, “Of course.”

Keithopened his eyes again and, with a newfound determination, he sprinted towardsHonerva with Allura. Before him, Honerva already had two blasts aimed for themand ready to fire, but they didn’t stop.

Ina flash, two lasers hit Honerva’s shoulders, stopping her from being able toshoot her attacks, and a green grappling hook wrapped itself around her hands,stopping her from trying to aim another attack at them again. Keith should haveknown his team wouldn’t leave them completely on their own. He was sure that ifhe turned his head, he would see them heroically holding their Bayards with purefury written across their faces.

Asa boost, Allura and Keith both roared their battle cries and they thrust theirhands forward. Keith felt an intense wave overwhelm him and, suddenly, a lightblue beam of concentrated quintessence shot from his hand intertwined withAllura’s and towards Honerva. He can feel Allura’s doing the same and theirbeams mixed together as they shot towards Honerva as one powerful hit.

Onceit made impact, Honerva let out a horrible scream, one that he didn’t want toremember, but one that will forever be engrained in his mind. A small blackmass came out of her, but it immediately disintegrated once it was hit with thepure quintessence and, suddenly, the screaming stopped, and she laid limp onthe floor.

Andsomething told Keith she wouldn’t get back up.

Suddenly,exhaustion took over and Keith and Allura both fell over after losing so muchquintessence and they fell in a heap, Allura falling right on top of his chest.

Fromdown below, he could hear Lance, Pidge, Hunk, and Shiro all call out to them ina panic and Keith thought it was endearing how much they cared. “We’re fine,”he assured, “Just tired.”

“I’llbe surprised if you weren’t!” Lance quipped, approaching the two of them as hewalked up the stairs, “That was an insane quintessence laser! And it didn’teven come out of the Lions!”

Keithrolled his eyes as Lance began rambling about their laser and Pidge and Hunktrying to figure out how they did it. Keith felt Allura wrap her arms aroundhis abdomen and he lifted his hand to join hers and intertwined their fingers. Hecould feel her smile against his collar bone, so he turned his head and placeda soft kiss on her forehead.

Hebreathed in the scent of her hair and he felt himself relax at the familiarsmell of Mrs. Holt’s juniberries. He felt the weight of the universe finally liftoff his shoulders.

Itwas over and they survived.

#kallura #forever rosegold #kalluracanonsince1984 #rosegold #allura #keith #voltron

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09/16/19 crisis pt. 3

omg i’m so sorry

so i’m just really really tired and dead inside. i genuinely do not enjoy anything besides eating food. it’s so sad. life is empty. i hate dance. i loathe going because i wish i was eating instead. dance occurs within the time i’m “supposed” to be eating.

it’s strange i don’t mind school, though. why don’t i eat all day?? how can i go all day without food?? how does my body cram all my daily calories in one meal at the end of the day?? i fucked myself up so much idk if i’ll ever know how to eat like a normal person ever again. idk if i’ll ever know how to be normal again.

i want to be able to love life and love myself and love others again. i treat people with respect and i radiate positivity, but it’s a facade. i put up the front and distance myself from people. they try to get to know me, but as soon as i feel then breaking through my exterior and attempting to know who i really am, i distance myself. i push them away. i hurt them. i don’t want to hurt people. why am i so scared of people knowing me?? omg idk what’s happening i’m on the brink. i’m on the edge. i’m gonna collapse. this is going to result in a transformation. for the better. it has to get better. it’s all or nothing. out of this i either die or am rebirthed. i don’t think i’m going to die yet. i don’t feel ready for that. i haven’t lived enough. i hope i transform. but i also don’t. i romanticize my illness. no feeling compares to the satisfaction of tracing my collarbones with my bony fingers. i don’t know. it’s tragic. i want to be curvy and strong and be able to lift heavy things and punch through walls and be badass but i also want to be delicate, fragile like the wing of a butterfly, and elegant, and pretty, and weak. i get a certain rush from being on the brink of death. every time i stand up i nearly black out, but i love it. the hunger gnaws away at my stomach, and i am left so desperate for energy that i can barely breathe. my body is shutting down, but i love it. i look emaciated and sick and incredibly unhealthy and not at all attractive, but i love it. this started in pursuit of the perfect body. it was innocent. a mere deficit. i should’ve known it would grow into a monster. im aware that my body is not lookin great rn and i have the power to change that, so why am i not??

i need to find another source of adrenaline. it is not normal to find a rush in my own slow demise. i should not be fascinated by this. i should not push myself to the limits of life like this. i guess it’s kind of like cliff jumping and extreme sports. they get their rush from putting themselves in near-death situations, and so do i. i need to find something that breaks up the utter monotony of my life so that i stop seeking this kind of rush. my life seems so boring. my eating disorder provides me a distraction from my boredom. hm. that’s fucked.

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And the newest prompt fill is here!

Well, guys, I’ll be honest -- this story actually ended up going on for longer than what I’m posting today, and isn’t completely done yet. But it’s getting really long, so I’m going to post the rest as this month’s Free Space Fill. So keep an eye out for that, and I’ll tag both this fill and that one for easy reading. For now, though, enjoy the fill and I will see you all next week.

Cloudfall strode up to the counter, confused. Honestly, he wasn't quite sure why he was here. He'd gotten a call, there had been some sort of emergency, but the woman he had talked to had said frightfully little. Not to mention that the nearest person he knew of that listed him as next of kin was his sister, three states over. And that was his alter-ego. No, it was Cloudfall who had been summoned, and Cloudfall, as far as he knew, wasn't next of kin for anyone.

"Excuse me," he asked the two woman behind the counter, a doctor and an RN.

The doctor nodded to her coworker and offered him a hand. "Mister Cloudfall, I am Doctor Theriot. We spoke on the phone." She motioned him to a door leading out of the waiting room and down a hallway.

Cloudfall had always hated hospitals. They smelled too much of antiseptic and illness to him, and brought up painful memories. He shook his head. "Forgive me, Doctor, but I'm not sure who would have me listed as next of kin, or why."

"You'll have to ask him why," the doctor told him. "As for who, it's The Arsonist."

Fire licking up buildings, crawling across rooftops. Even heavy rain wasn't enough to completely douse the flames, just slow them for people to get out. Above it all, The Arsonist, arms outstretched, cackling as he was wreathed in dancing tongues of fire –

"What did he do this time?" Cloudfall glanced around the hall they were walking down, trying to get a sense of which unit they were in, in the hopes that it would tell him something. No such luck – this was the ICU. All he could glean from that was that was bad.

It wouldn't have been a burn – his abilities made it harder for him to catch fire against his own will, and he had to be burning for much longer than a normal human in order for any harm to be done.

A car accident of some sort? Maybe. Cloudfall doubted getting run over would leave The Arsonist unharmed. Or if his vehicle (did The Arsonist have a vehicle?) was rammed by a semi, there was a pretty good chance The Arsonist wouldn't be able to just walk away.

There could have been a fight with another hero, or one of the antiheroes that passed through every so often. The Arsonist, for all the terror he caused, did seem to have some force driving him – a belief, a goal, an ideal. Whatever it was – he hadn't yet revealed – he fought with the strength of his conviction, was one of the villains in the area who wouldn't turn tail and run. Cloudfall remembered their first fight – actual, physical blows traded back and forth, The Arsonist clawing and kicking and biting, like a cornered animal. Cloudfall it accidentally broke the villain's nose, and the villain just threw harder punches, fire mixed in when he could get enough of a spark going. Cloudfall had wound up in the hospital with a broken jaw, and The Arsonist had gotten away. There were other heroes who could trade stronger hits than Cloudfall. Had one of them caught up to The Arsonist?

Doctor Theriot stopped at the door to a dark room. "We have him on some pretty strong sedatives. They aren't working particularly well, but at least he's staying pliant. We suspect he may slip in and out of a coma before he gets better."

"Doctor Theriot, please, what's happened?"

The woman sighed and pulled a bag out of her frock with an empty bottle of sleep medication in it. "The police didn't really need a genius to tell them everything, so we were allowed to keep this for testing and so we can better monitor his symptoms. Mister Cloudfall, he's attempted suicide."

Suicide? That didn't seem at all like the villain.

"He'd ingested to whole bottles. A homeless man found him curled up in an alley and called 911. He hasn't spoken to anyone since he was admitted – not a surprise, this type of medication can do serious damage to the esophagus when taken in large doses."

"You're sure he wasn't force-fed them," Cloudfall asks. "He's never seemed at risk before. Fights like a man with a lot to lose."

The doctor shrugged and sighed. "I tried to explain that he likely would've lost consciousness after half of a bottle, that he wouldn't have been feasibly able to open the second, but Mister Arsonist is a villain. The police would rather wipe their hands of him."

Cloudfall nodded. "I'll look into it, then."

She nodded and smiled. "You're a good man, Mister Cloudfall. We could use more folk like you." Then she turned and headed back toward the waiting area.

Cloudfall spent another minute outside the door, puzzling over the info from the doctor and wondering – worrying – what he would find inside the room. He screwed up his courage, took a deep breath, and went in.

There was a soft corus of beeping coming from the various machines lined up on the wall. A hospital orderly nodded to him from the other side of the bed.

The Arsonist looked so much smaller in a hospital bed, eyes closed, breathing labored but steady.

"I'll take over for a while," Cloudfall told the orderly. "Would you mind running and getting me a Gatorade from the canteen?"

"Any color you prefer?"

"I'm not picky."

The orderly slipped out of the room, and Cloudfall took his seat. When he turned to look at the prone man, he nearly leapt out of his skin.

The Arsonist was looking right back.

"Can you move your fingers," Cloudfall asked, regaining his composure quickly. He kept his voice low, only loud enough for the two of them. When The Arsonist slowly nodded in answer, Cloudfall composed his thoughts to ask some questions.

"Wiggle your fingers for yes. You didn't really attempt suicide."

The Arsonist looked him dead in the eye and wiggled his pinky finger.

"I thought not," Cloudfall told him. "But I don't know your life. Did you get a good look at your attacker?"

Wiggle.

"Would you be able to identify them?"

Wiggle.

And finally, a question he didn't really want to ask – "It was a hero, wasn't it?"

The Arsonist wiggled his middle finger this time, and the implication made Cloudfall chuckle, despite his stomach sinking.

"One of the ones on my team," Cloudfall asks, and he sighs in relief when The Arsonist stays still.

There were two heroes it may have been – Cloudfall, among others, had protested their joining of the league when they showed violent tendencies in their training, but they were the league master's kids, and he gives them whatever they want. They had wanted to join the league, so they were let into the league.

"Was it the Telekinetic Twins?"

The Arsonist twitched his pinky. There was pain in his eyes, and fear. Given the circumstances, Cloudfall didn't fault him for either.

"I believe you," he told The Arsonist, "but they're spoiled little brats. We will need undeniable proof if anything's going to be done."

The Arsonist lifted his arm and pointed; Cloudfall followed the motion to a video camera pointed at the bed.

"Security cameras? Did you see one from the alley?"

The Arsonist wiggled all his fingers. Many, Cloudfall guessed.

"Were any pointed down the alley?"

Emphatic wiggle.

"I can work with that. I'll ask Doctor Theriot where they found you."

The Arsonist reached out while Cloudfall was momentarily distracted and grabbed the hero's arm. It was a surprisingly strong grip, for a man in a hospital bed, and Cloudfall was guiltily surprised that the touch did not burn. A squeeze; a conveyance of gratitude.

Cloudfall nodded once, and then the orderly came back in; The Arsonist's hand had retreated to the bed.

It was light blue Gatorade, and Cloudfall debated starting to tell people he didn't really like the blue ones; everyone assumed he did, because they were water colors – rain colors – but he actually preferred red.

A tap on his arm as the orderly handed it to him prompted his gaze back to the villain, who was holding out an unopened bottle of red Gatorade. "You want to trade?" Cloudfall clarified, and The Arsonist pulled a face.

When Cloudfall asked Doctor Theriot where The Arsonist had been found, it was with a bottle of red Gatorade in hand.

To be continued…

#cloudfall and the arsonist

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