#had to get stuff off my chest

[destinyc1020]

i honestly don't think it was that shady that he cropped out vanessa? i know you really liked them together (austin and vanessa) but if we're going off there old mutual friends (who are still friends with austin and not vanessa). maybe she wasn't that all too good of a person, like random people, like wait staff, like their neighbors claimed. there have been many instances where she's proven not only to be awful to austin but she's just a plain ignorant person who openly is a zionist, was extremely disrespectful not only during covid but during blm, openly defends pedophiles, has cultural appropriated black, desi, and native american culture for the sake of her music videos, photoshoots and going to coachella. she's the global tourism ambassador of a country run by someone who should be in prison more or less for all the crimes he's committed. she's not a good person, she does not care, she thrives off playing the victim. i know you say, if she treated him so bad why did there relationship last so long? she's simply a narcissist.

after all she's put austin through, liking posts mocking him, commenting under posts mocking him, commenting on all his ex's posts only for her comments to get deleted by them, posting shady instagram stories about him day in and day out while she's married. i think the last thing that should be considered shady is an old friend of his respecting his privacy by not including vanessa in the photo. they were the ones who defended him in the comments when he was bullied and harassed off social media, a harassment campaign mind you that she started.

(i hope this doesn't come off rude, it's certainly not my intention, i just get irritated seeing vanessa be given the benefit of the doubt time and time again).

Hey Anon...

WOW.... 👀

Thank you for your input. First off, I'll just say that I usually don't ever take sides when it comes to relationship breakups. Mainly because I was NOT in the relationship, and I only know a fraction of what that relationship was like, and the issues surrounding the breakup. With celebrity couples, there's the extra added reality that Idk these people closely and personally irl. 🤷🏾‍♀️ So, unless there's some actual evidence of wrongdoing during a relationship, I usually just stay neutral lol.

I embellish more below if you're interested in reading....👇(Pull up a Chair)

Plus, I've seen a LOT of these couples (not just celebrity couples, but also irl) break up, and then later on down the line get back together again lol. And then, what do I look like if I've been villainizing one half of the couple, and then they get back together again?? 😅

LISTENNNN lol.... I have seen this happen so many times (even irl) that now days I just nod, look solemn, and offer tissues to my girl friends if they go through a breakup, but I don't say anything too damaging about their ex boyfriend or whatever lol. Cuz one minute you'll be cursing them out to your friend, and then the next thing you know, months later, they get back together and then she's mad at YOU for the things you said about her "Man".... 😒

I'm not saying Austin and Vanessa would ever get back together (I kinda feel like they're two totally different people now?), I'm just saying that after what I personally saw with Ben and JLo? I don't EVER put ANYTHING past exes anymore...especially exes who dated each other for a long number of years, or were engaged, or were close to engagement, etc. 😅

With that said, while I did like Austin and Vanessa when they were dating (I thought they were cute together and seemed really into each other), I have heard and seen some of the shady stuff Vanessa has done over the years...especially after their breakup.

Idk about her "Zionism" (I don't follow her all that closely tbh), but I def didn't appreciate her comments about covid....I felt they were VERY insensitive during the pandemic, and I've seen the receipts on her insensitive and totally out-of-place comments during the world's BLM rally in 2020. 😤 This is the one that really boggles my mind, cuz while Vanessa in 2020 was out there spouting "ALL Lives Matter" during BLM, Austin was publicly posting on his IG about the abomination of what happened to George Floyd and called his White brothers and sisters out on their white privilege, and told them to not just sit there blindly and quietly, but to do something in helping out in the cause. How two people who dated each other could be so totally wildly different in values just blows my mind.... 🥴

I don't HATE Vanessa, but yes, I agree with you, she can be petty, and some of the things she's done in the past have been BEYOND shady. Not to mention, how she behaved after their breakup when Austin was getting shine for "Elvis". Look, I understand being hurt after a breakup (that's understandable), but I've always been one of those "keep it classy" in public, and vent to your girlfriends in PRIVATE type of people.

So yea I totally get it why some Austin fans don't particularly care for V like that. I think that's valid. I've heard the rumors also about how she supposedly treated Austin during their relationship. Part of me feels like a lot of this is just hearsay. First of all, I don't think EITHER of them would have been together for as long as they were together (9 years) if things were THAT crappy in their relationship. I'm sorry, but especially if you're a celebrity with OPTIONS, you're not staying in a relationship that you're unhappy in. They are both two attractive people. They could have had just about ANYBODY in that span of time that they were together. So, the fact that they were together for so long, I assume that they were happy for the most part! As much as some fans of Austin (especially Kaustin Shippers) hate to admit it, Austin was with Vanessa for almost a decade. That's a LONG time. You can't just erase that part of his history. If things were that bad, I doubt he would have been with her that long. Every couple has their issues, and maybe some fans just overheard her saying certain mean things to him when they were having an argument?? 🤷🏾‍♀️ I don't think people are all saints or all devils. I think MOST people are a combo of BOTH? We all make mistakes and have our not-so-great moments from time to time. While I don't love Vanessa, at the same time, those Austin fans who HATE V beyond reason are really kind of sus to me. Just like, the V stans who hate Austin for just existing are also seriously sus to me..... especially when V was ALWAYS gushing about that man every chance she got when they were together. Like, something ain't adding up...I'm sorry. 🤔 The math ain't mathing. He too has always spoken nothing but GOOD things about Vanessa? Now, maybe he's just being a classy guy and keeping his real thoughts to himself lol, but either way, he personally hasn't spoken or even hinted at anything negative w/her. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I DO think V (and her stans) had something to do with a lot of the hate and bullying that Austin received during the "Elvis" press tour, and I think he handled it very well, considering everything that he went through.

With Eric, I kind of feel like he DIDN'T really need to add that last photo on there? He already had a ton of photos with Austin that he was using. He could have kept that last one out imo. And his caption seemed to be a bit shady towards V, but maybe he didn't intend it that way? Perhaps he was ONLY just talking about all of the hate Austin got online regarding the "Elvis Voice" thing.

But anyway, thanks for your input Anon... I didn't take offense to it at all... I hope you don't take what I've said the wrong way. 😊

#sorry for the long dissertation #had to get stuff off my chest

[itistimetodisappear]

Yes we've all heard aroace people complain about the 'you haven't met the right person' line. But to the idiots citing this as the reason aroace people 'aren't oppressed’: No, micro aggressions aren't what's oppressing us.

I could talk about corrective rape, but I'm not going to because that's not what scares me the most. The worst thing about being aroace (aromantic, and asexual to a certain extent) is that society is set up for couples.

Being aromantic is a crushing economic disadvantage. As a couple, you can save more. As a legal couple, you can borrow more. This puts Mortgages out of reach for a lot of aromantics. Adopting too. Although aro people can adopt, you must have a similar income to a couple, which again, rules out a lot of aros. Don't forget Immigration, spousal visas will never be an option for us.

Being poor and aro means you're denied housing, family, international movement, basically anything that allos of a similar income would get. And anything you can get, you'll have to jump through many more hoops for. But we can't fix this by legalising aro marriage, like we did for the gays. Until our society's economic system is completely revolutionised, we'll be waiting.

It's impossible to compare oppression. You can't objectively say which minority group has it worse and I really mean that. But also I'd rather be called slurs and hated by Christians all fucking day.

#sorry about all the aroace stuff recently its just theres been dicourse in my notes and i want to get stuff off of my chest #aroace #asexual #aromantic #i had to work my ass off all my life #to get a job that pays two peoples income #becuase theres literally no other option for me

[spainy-spoon]

This whole submarine situation is a grim reminder that safety features are there for SAFETY rather than inconvenience, and that regulations are often written in blood.

The juxtaposition of the company going from "isn't it great that we built such a cost effective submersible without having to deal with clunky equipment or pesky regulations" to "we regret to inform you that 5 passengers including our CEO are sealed inside a death pod with very little chance of rescue" is absolutely haunting but is an outcome that you could have seen coming from miles away unlike the submersible due to a lack of safety features

#sorry i had to get this off my chest #i'm such a stickler for rules regarding safety and it makes me so mad how COMPLETELY AVOIDABLE this situation was #titanic #missing submersible #oceangate #spainy says stuff

[the-bad-batch-baroness]

Crying, screaming, and throwing up over baby clones that got abandoned by their brothers 😭

#IT MAKES ME SO SAD #all of those cadets killed... and for what??? #there was a lot of sad stuff to unpack but THAT was the breaking point for me #they may be clones but they’re still CHILDREN #will the cruelty ever end? #*sigh* #😮‍💨 #i just had to get that off my chest #tbbb speaks #tbbb rants #the bad batch #bad batch #tbb #tbb season 3 #tbb spoilers #tbb stak #tbb deke #tbb mox #clone cadets

[stuckinapril]

me stoically navigating my way through drama bc bigger things are ahead and it’s not my fault people are dumb

#kissed a guy at a kickback and thought we caught a vibe only to find out he just wants to fuck me. next #friend’s bf of 7 years drunkenly hit on me at the same kickback (I was not ok w this). they ended up beefing over me. he denied everything. #do I want to be involved in this? no. and so I simply ignore it and keep it pushing #and the guy I kissed is cancelled. like he is dead to me. so that’s also taken care of #it’s back to studying full-time for the mcat #going to the gym/taking walks daily #volunteering at the refugee center + clinic #getting published in orgo research papers #and trying to snag the opportunity to shadow doctors at a massive cancer research center. like I’d kill for it #december was such a mess but I’ve finally made peace w the fact that most of the stuff that happened I couldn’t prevent #but I’ve mourned it enough !! whatever drama comes out of it I’ll handle just fine #i literally want to be a multitasking academic weapon everyone is intimidated of this year #i am not letting something as puny as a dumb man (both of them btw) stop me. goodbye #also everyone involved is older than me (they’re both 23) but it all just feels like such high school behavior #this is not a euphoria episode like I’m literally just not entertaining any of this #had to get this off my chest. i feel better #p

[neverevan]

I've seen so many people say "Tim should just come out and tell us if we're getting buddie endgame or not" and I'm so incredibly baffled... like, first of all.

what if the show goes on for 5, 10, 15 more seasons? do you think he already knows what's gonna happen? he has to plan for the long run regardless of where we are now, so he might have ideas, but he wouldn't know what he can actually go through with.

second of all. do you guys understand that the point of a TV show is to... well, watch it? cuz why on earth would he spoil one of The Most Debated storylines, especially this early into the show? (early, as in we literally just got confirmed bi Buck two episodes ago and we haven't even touched on the possibility of Eddie's identity being anything other than cishet, up until this point it was truly nothing more than speculation, now canon has turned into a direction where it seems more legit to wonder, but that's all.)

I just don't get it. if Tim tells us that we're not getting buddie endgame, some people will stop watching, if he tells us that we are in fact getting buddie endgame, some people will stop watching and will only join back in when that actually happens.

the anticipation and the speculation is what keeps people around, the fact that we wanna see what happens next on the show — in regards to buddie or otherwise.

even if he knew where he wants to take the story with these two, there's literally no reason for him to tell us in advance and ruin the ratings and spoil something this big for all the people who maybe didn't want it spoiled.

you guys never cease to amaze me, every time I think I saw it all, you come up with something like this. wow.

#honestly i just had to get this off my chest cuz i've seen this take over and over since tommy has been introduced as a LI #and could we just 1) let buck breathe 2) let tim do his job and be thankful we got something this special to begin with #buddie #tim minear #911 #911 abc #ramblings #my stuff

[sploogeduck]

i wish you would hate me, because then i wouldn’t feel so guilty about killing myself

#vent #tw depressing stuff #had to get this off my chest #depressing shit #tw self destructive behavior #i don't know what to do #tw sui ideation #tw depressing thoughts #mental illness #cw sui mention

[guckies]

I feel like I get more and more pissed off anytime I watch q!Bad make a move. So here’s the rant after seeing the clip and following with what @/daisyychainssj said about Leo’s Ninho room:

Why on god’s green earth would he allow Bagi into Leo’s room and allow her to grab the warp into the room.

Yeah maybe it was to do with the size of the room but maybe they could have you know waited and asked to check Richas’ room or waited until her parent or Leo was online.

He also knows full well that there is hollow walls inside the Ninho that could be turned into unofficial/temporary rooms for those eggs and that Leo’s room doesn’t have to be touched at all.

But also since he remembers enough about the Ninho and how it works with his memory loss then he goddamn knows the significance of those rooms and he just broke the main fucking rule.

Which is that the ninho rooms are SAFE SPACES FOR THE EGG THAT OWNS THE ROOM, that ONLY the egg, their parents and TRUSTED individuals can reach.

Do Leo and Bagi know each other?? Hmm that’s looking like a solid no. How well does Leo know the new eggs? Wait they don’t know and neither does Leo because they just recently met. Do they forget Leo is shy and not always social? yes she trust the eggs she knows but how often does she get online for anyone but her family?? Looking like about 5% which is usually because Foolish or Roier have outside factors stopping them from taking care of her.

Also he’s not her parent, he doesn’t get to make decisions for Leo just because he took care of her like 2 or 3 times and he knows her parent. That’s stupid and demeans Foolish’s parenting.

In conclusion, Bad should have never stepped foot in Leo’s room with Bagi today. It makes no sense lore wise or even just him showing her. Despite his “respect” for all the eggs, he really needs to check himself first before he does anything. Because any time he’s messed with an eggs stuff it’s always been Leo and sorry but Leo isn’t Foolish. That dynamic should be keep completely separate and to say this isn’t disrespect is a lie because it is.

This isn’t even like bad roleplay anymore it’s just disrespect because how in lore will any of them know about it unless bagi uses it in front of them.

#rereading this and sorry if it was a little passive aggressive stuff like this just irks me so much #qsmp neg #qsmp discourse #bbh neg #qsmp #qsmp discussion #idk if it could be considered discussion but ill tag anyway #again this is in rp and it is my own opinion agreed or disagree just be prepared to give your reasoning bc disagreeing for no reason is dum #i had to get this off my chest because every move he makes recently has just been plain disappointing #like honestly didn’t put this in the post but do you think bad would have the same chilled reaction as foolish would if foosh let ElQ- #into dappers ninho room or even his house because he wouldn’t #he would flip if foolish did that but because he did that with faulty memories and just because its foolish hell get away with it #and sorry to the bbh defenders but frankly that’s disrespectful to leo cause it directly minimises her feelings about ti #just because he trusts someone doesnt mesn everyone else does and that doesnt give him the right to give them access to their private space

[nelly289]

close friend of mine is trying to tell me that helldivers isn't a political game. Same breath he's insisting that adding a trans pride cape would be political. he agrees that the game is satire, but when I push him to explain what it is satirizing, he says it's just a game about shooting bugs and bots. bugs who are made of oil, and bots who are socialists.

#this man also wasnt able to finish watching starship troopers #also all the stuff im hearing aboit the helldivers discord is wack #i want screencaps and shit dammnit #anyway rant over i just had to get that off my chest #thank you for reading :3 <3

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “What was it like when we were partners?”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He looks at you, taking a long drag from his cigarette. His eyes are hard. “You don’t remember at all?”

CONCEPTUALIZATION [Impossible: Failure] — You try to search through the mire of your mind, but come up with only the ghosts of vague and conflicting feelings— comfort and pain, gratitude and resentment, and above all, fear.

YOU — Fear of what?

CONCEPTUALIZATION — Of being seen. Seen and despised.

EMPATHY — He fears that, too. That one day, he’ll look at you and realize that it was all for nothing.

-1 MORALE

PRECINCT 41 — The night air is pleasantly cool, and even this late, you can hear plenty of signs of life in Jamrock. Dogs barking, laughter in the distance. It only makes your own silence more pronounced.

“I remember we were friends.”

“I remember we hated each other.”

“I remember you cramping my style.”

“I remember being a burden.”

“I don’t. I’m sorry.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He sighs. Smoke trails as he shakes his head. “It’s fine.”

DRAMA — It is decidedly *not* fine, sire.

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “You know what? It’s probably better that way. Don’t worry about the past. Your great big life is finally starting.” Every word drips with irony. He takes another puff of the cigarette. “Good for you.”

“You’re right. I won’t worry about it.”

“I swear I’m going to make the most of it. It’ll be different this time. I swear, Jean.”

“You’re such an asshole.”

“You sound sarcastic.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “Oh, do I? Sorry, let me try again.” He claps with mock politeness. “Congratulations on the amnesia. You must be thrilled.”

“Ha ha. Real funny.”

“Maybe I am. Fuck off.”

“No. I’m scared. It’s been really hard.”

“I’m sorry, okay? It’s not like I can undo it. I don’t know what you want from me.”

“I’m sorry…”

(Say nothing)

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He lets out another breath, closing his eyes. “…Sorry. Look, just forget it, okay, Harry?” He tosses the butt of his cigarette dispassionately into the bushes and lights another. “Believe me, it’s not worth dredging up.”

DRAMA — What he means to say, sire, is that you don’t want to know how bad things got.

EMPATHY — Even he doesn’t like to reminisce. Not on the bad *or* the good. It would all swallow him up if he wasn’t careful. But he can’t forget, either, so he just carries it. And now he carries it alone.

INLAND EMPIRE — He was fooling himself if he ever thought that to live was to be anything but alone. We are all either leavers or those left behind.

HALF LIGHT — It’s not your fault that he started to look like a leaver. You had to be faster than him. You couldn’t let it happen again. Never again.

VOLITION — Derail this train of thought before it builds momentum. It won’t lead you anywhere helpful.

None of this is helpful. Fuck this. [Leave]

[Espirit de Corps — Formidable 13] Just how bad did things get?

CHECK SUCCESS

ESPIRIT DE CORPS — Apocalyptic. Screaming matches that devolved into agonized wails. Words that neither of you can ever take back. Nights spent talking you off of ledges only for you to turn and shove him toward the edge. Times he told you to go ahead and jump, only to then turn and cling to you in terror of a lifelong haunting. Pitiful attempts to revive the corpse of your friendship. Empty ideals of brotherhood clutched tightly to your chests. His orbit around you, both a curse and a reassurance.

SAVOIR FAIRE — You needed him to think you were cool again.

EMPATHY — He needed you to think he was worth trying for.

INLAND EMPIRE — You both discovered that you were sad, cruel animals, incapable of anything but lashing out at each other and licking your own self-inflicted wounds.

VOLITION — And so you changed, somewhat. You did what you had to do to survive and evolve. There is no use or sense in regretting it.

EMPATHY — But *he* refuses to change. He cannot bring himself to dig his heels back out of the dirt. This precinct will be his coffin. He has already decided.

RHETORIC — A memory stirs. A letter, written to you, but never meant for your eyes. You read it, anyway. He never forgave you. You never forgave him, either.

“Kid,

“I bet you think someday your life will begin. That it’s still out there somehow, a great big life just waiting to start. Well, it isn’t. This is all there is. This job is the only fight we are given. After this, we will be its veterans.

“There is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. We are all done there. Done and gone.”

VOLITION — But there is a future beyond ourselves. There is all of the rest of human history-to-be, and they are at our mercy. Find some mercy in yourself, Harry. You know there’s something beyond this job, this precinct.

No. Jean is right. This is my home, these people my half-brothers. I would be nothing without them. I don’t want to die alone.

No. He’s right. There is no future for me. I’m a dead man walking, and soon I’ll be gone. It doesn’t matter.

No. There is no mercy in me. I’m tired. I hope the world ends. I hope we can all be done.

You’re right. I changed a little. That means that I can keep changing. I can be a kinder animal.

You’re right, but I’m afraid. I don’t remember my life before the RCM. I don’t know what I would be if I left.

Isn’t there any way to change Jean, too? Is there a great big life waiting for him?

VOLITION — I… I don’t know. I’m sorry, Harry. I cannot answer for other people. His future is in his own hands.

PRECINCT 41 — Dogs howl in the distance. What a lonely sound.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #jean vicquemare #suicide tw #ok sorry this is not the one that i said was gonna be different it’s gonna be the NEXT next one #i had to get this one off my chest while i was still thinking abt jean #but um. yeah. lots of complicated feelings abt this guy #can’t say i Like him. since he’s a cop and all. and also just generally #i think he’s very interesting and funny and there’s a lot of poignant stuff to unpack w him and harry #but i dunno i just???? how do you even articulate this #the damage to their relationship is never gonna be undone no matter what #but especially not if harry stays a cop forever #and i think jean is never gonna quit even if harry goes #hell i think even kim is more likely to be convinced to leave and i’m not even optimistic abt HIM #‘’there is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. we are all done there. done and gone.’’ #that does not sound like a man who has any interest in changing… man i dunno. #acab and all that.

[myhomethesea]

i usually don't post stuff like this here but i am so damn tired of ts fans holy moly. like, i genuinely do not listen to her music at all, if anything i only know like antihero due to it being constantly played on radios or band practice. but i cannot for the life of me understand how even the ts fans defend the new album and those horrendous, nonsensical lyrics. don't come at me with the "you wouldn't understand, it's all biographical"-shit of an excuse. lyrics can be biographical and MAKE SENSE and above all BE GOOD. to me it's so damn hilarious how every ts "stan" is unable to criticise anything she ever produces - be it music or her huge ass carbon footprint. in the end they always end up liking it for the dumbest of reasons as long as they do not have to utter a bad word against ts. is it the parasocial relationship? fear of other stans? i don't understand.

#ttpd #the tortured poets department #anti-ts #taylor swift #music #sorry but i had to get this off my chest after being harassed by her fans #my opinion #my stuff #post malone

[rabble-dabble]

A Karkat who isn't out to his friends about his blood color yet has to go to John to get patched up because all humans bleed red and thus John wouldn't think it's weird that he does too.

question but is it homoerotic to patch up your fellow friendleader so tenderly when he trusts no one else to and also linger your touch but only slightly subtly so as not to alert him to your pining gaze?

#homestuck #hs #john egbert #karkat vantas #johnkat #answered #anon #evil john anon #doodleart #'rabble the bandages are around his chest does that mean he's trans-' YES. YES IT DOES. ALWAYS #i have never binded my chest this way so sorry if it looks off!! #BUT I SPENT LIKE 2 HOURS ON THIS AYOOOOOOOOOO #this is so tender to me btw. john gently wrapping him up. touching his shoulder while karkat looks away. karkat being comfortable (kinda) #to have his back turned. GAH #also sorry for not answering for so long!!! i think im in an art block. that or im depressed. #(the answer is both LMAO) #ive been trying to get healthcare for a while so i can set up stuff like therapy and getting diagnosis. and work has been on my ass #truth be told tho i just didnt have the energy for anything...creative lately? #i havent really had a bad dip in my mental health like this for a couple of years now so this is kinda hard to cope with #but just know im not forgetting this blog i promise!! art may just come out way less now #but im still trying so dont think im gonna drop and disappear lmao

[shitpostingsystem]

tbh apathetic people are better allies than people who pretend to care. my born and raised redneck dad said this to me when i came out as ace: “dye your hair, use pronouns, i don’t give a damn. i love you no matter what”

compare that to a self-proclaimed ally who says that queer history and identities shouldn’t be taught in schools. i know who i trust.

#shitpost #trans stuff #sorry i had to get this off my chest

[delightful-69]

i just fucking hate this neighborhood

#sorry to vent #but not really #just want to get st off my chest #my best friend is already like a stranger so really #no one here is like...decent #bunch of fake ass bitches #a fucking camera and they decided to steal it #''how do you know'' #oh idk. the alarm went off around fucking 8 in the evening #it's not even midnight #fucking eight pm #when there was literally bunch of people around sitting there #people just want to screw each other for a piece of land #''you can't prove it's me. the camera didn't even caught the thief' #listen. #listen. you were literally selling stuffs right fucking under the camera. and STILL active at fucking 9 and a half pm #the event happened at fucking 8 #so the asshole who stole it. HAD to walk up to you. HAD to stand right next to you. STOOD nearby other assholes. #HAD to stand on st AND HAD to manually unscrew the camera and removed bunch of wires #before getting away #so if it wasn't you #then you purposely just...fucking ignored a thief #the houses next to us has fucking camera too. and it has been there for decades! #and yet the moment. we installed it. suddenly it just vanished the day after. #''it's new so the thief like it more'' #then explained why this ''genius'' stole this at fucking 8pm when there were people around. #like. the camera was right under them #there is no fucking way #this shitlord wouldn't get their attention #sure. fucking fine. it's just an object

[bionicle-ramblings]

I forgot that Takua has crippling loneliness...

Now I'm realizing why I latch onto him, Vakama, and Jaller so much, aside from familiarity

Takua because I can relate to being introverted but still having SO MUCH to say to people and, again, feeling lonely even with people who care about me

Vakama because I can relate to having anxiety and putting so much pressure on myself that it can honestly make me run into a wall

Jaller I think it's because of the "particular" way he is, being the type that is very "by the book" and also because I can understand wanting to be cautious, though that tends to become irrational worry

Idk, it's that realization that just somewhat made me skid to a halt, like have an, "Oh, shit, hold on," moment

Idk, not much of a rambly post, but it's something I had to get off my chest really quick because I hope getting it out helps me more than anything, so I'm not thinking about it more than I should

#bionicle #ramblings #possible vent #vakama #takua #jaller #why is these three? #just had to get that off my chest #I'll be back to regularly programmed stuff I promise