#for your mental health

[ivyithink]

where’s that “oh, he’s a little fucked up, actually” meme?

#my art #my doodles #what an angel what a darling #he’s so messed up i love him #also me jumping from the absolute wholesomeness of the previous fanart straight to this: parkour #listen i enjoy drawing sweet hugs as much as anyone else #indeed i do it quite a lot #but sometimes you just have to draw some bloody guts and handsome men in great suits splattered with blood #for your mental health #louis de pointe du lac #iwtv fanart #interview with the vampire #iwtv #interview with the vampire amc #iwtv amc #interview with the vampire 2022 #iwtv 2022 #tw: blood #tw: gore #cw: blood #cw: gore

[waferbiscuits]

I’ll also say it here because it’s a day that makes me more pleased as punch than my birthday but it’s my ✨2 year✨ HRT-versary today :>

#look at this later jack #for your mental health #because you look fantastic for just two years and you deserve to be proud of yourself

[myhusbandsasemni]

Writing snippets

I'm gonna try and put a snip of my writing each day.

3/13/2023 - The Day it Fell Apart

Andre stopped paying attention to the game of stones after a round or two. There seemed to be some sort of point counting system that he couldn’t wrap his head around properly, and he was starting to run out of smooth stones anyways. 

Jay seemed to be having fun, though, tying up his long silver hair, ears perked, and sleeves rolled up as he cradled flat stones in the end of his robe. 

Andre grinned, noticing how close to the water the Wyril was standing. He surreptitiously picked up a large rock as Jay was consumed by counting out his skips and calculating the score in whatever cursed scoring system he had in his head and, with a stifled laugh, Andre heaved the stone forward. 

Jay yelped, leaping back as the water droplets showered onto him, the stones falling and rattling to the ground around him. 

3/14/2023 - Crypts of the Decayed

The student didn’t even look down, and, in an effort to not bump into Lord Belliaro, he checked Kaden’s shoulder, throwing the smaller mage through an open doorway, stumbling. 

Kaden whirled his arms, trying to regain his balance, but full back, crashing into something he knew was a spell of some kind. It felt like he had crashed straight through a semi solid pillar and he yelped, a bruise already forming on his upper back. 

There was a moment of silence before a magical alarm started wailing and Kaden felt the magic in the room begin to unravel. Horrified, he leapt to his feet, hearing his father calling out his name. 

Kaden dashed out of the room against the mages pushing to get in and reinstate the pillars. He nearly fell, almost trampled by the mages rushing here and there when his father came from out of nowhere, scooping him up and dashing through the hall, shouldering people out of the way. The two pretty much flew down the steps into the ballroom, dashing to get to the other side, as something huge groaned above them. 

“I didn’t mean to break it!” Kaden shouted over the noise of people screaming and yelling and the creaking overhead. 

“I know!” his father gasped. “We need to get out of her-” 

Josh slipped on the well polished floor, Kaden falling from his arms as he tried to slow his momentum and go back for him. 

“DAD!”

“KADEN!”

Above there was a shrill shriek from the building itself, then silence before the ceiling collapsed and the world disappeared under shrapnel and bits of building. 

(Comments are fully welcomed if you have a moment and let me know if you want to be on any tag lists)

Crypts of the Decayed tag list: @writingonesdreams @stupid-elf @ameliedebruyne @my-cursed-prince

#writing #wip crypts of the decayed #wip tdfa #andre #kaden #Jay #I created the most handsome elven man #and I ain't even mad #sometimes you just need to #for your mental health

[fella-lovin-fella]

hey a reminder this horror movie season to get an ad blocker

#for your mental health #ily keep yourselves safe #not mlm #dantes talking again

[ghostdrinkssoup]

I own this big book on the history of gothic literature and I swear to god it’s my favourite thing ever like it has glossy pages and PICTURES and it’s written in a fancy font and it’s a hard-cover TOME guys like it has brought out my inner child I feel like reading it under the covers with a torch and kicking my little feet

#I get fixated on topics okay #but #for your mental health #I would recommend having a big ‘ol book on something you enjoy #that sparks so much joy #with pictures (the pictures are actually so essential) #it’ll make u so happy ur inner 8 year old needs it #txt #ghost speaks

[mossy-covered-bones]

Subtlely hinting that random background character #23 is nonbinary is something that can be SO important to me actually

#sometimes youve just gotta they/them an unnamed throwaway yknow? #for your mental health #sev rambles

[schizopositivity]

Things I'd love for the Internet to leave in 2023:

• misusing the word "delusional" or saying "delulu"

• public freakout videos that are just someone displaying psychotic symptoms

• "I'm in your walls" and other paranoia triggering "jokes"

• schizoposting

• misusing the word "psychotic"

• baiting and triggering people online who are openly psychotic or displaying psychotic symptoms

• excluding schizo-spec and psychotic people from any neurodiversity/mental illness awareness

Let's just all try to be better to schizo-spec and psychotic people. And hold others accountable as well.

#2024 #new years eve #tw im in your walls #tw paranoia #mental illness #nd #schizophrenia #neurodivergent #schizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic #schizo-spec

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[dragoonwys]

Many times I feel like the sad fish you 'buy for a child because its low maintenance', stop doing that

#fish are not low maintenance and deserve to be treated like other more easily expressive pets #do your research on the fish species and what they need damn it #same goes for humans #Its a I have a mouth and I cant scream thing #meme #digital art #doodles #mental health #pets #fish #my art

[mochimoonrabbit]

#for your mental health #cat toast #cat #art #ai art

[selfhealingmoments]

#one day at a time #take your time #keep moving forward #keep going #mental health #self reflection #be yourself #self improvement #new life #self help #letting go #inspirational quotes #new beginnings #positivity

[chittychittyyangyang]

Listen, you should never film strangers in public without their consent, but I swear there need to be fines or something for people who do that shit in some spaces. For example: I had to go to the ER last night, and some jerk filmed a woman who just came in and was clearly having an asthma attack. She immediately got to go back, and he was unhappy about that. Believe me, I get that it sucks having to wait when you're in pain, but you don't get to pick who deserves care when. The medical system in the US is a nightmare, and the ER could be the worst moment of someone's life. No one deserves to be recorded because some jack ass believes someone doesn't look like they need care.

This is fine to reblog. People who film strangers should be shamed if nothing else.

#ccyy talks #sorry for posting this here but I'm pissed and this shit really needs to stop #For all I know he recorded me too cause I'm young and look healthy but got to go back next #Sorry about your cough buddy but the way things work I was a more immediate emergency #1k #5k #10k #30k #this post clearly has a life of its own now #and in case someone wants to know some clarifications for common points #people in a position of authority/actively hurting someone with the intent to protect/help the person is fine #so cops doctors nurses mental health workers and educators (to name a few) who actively are abusing their power and authority? free game #this post was filming random ass people for Content(tm) #random ass people more so those in distress aren't your content and you do not know the harm you can do to someone by posting that shit #50k

[free-my-mindd]

#protect your mental health #mindsetmatters #choose peace #twitterpost

[soyochii]

Quick doodles before I evaporate.

#jjk #geto suguru #satosugu #gojo satoru #Don't look to close these are so rough #“Girl dinner” I say to myself looking at the 500th tiktok edit of sato/sugu actually dry heaving wanting to crumble into dust #jjk is the worst thing ive done for my mental health in a while #anyway I still love them and wish they could have been happy together for a little longer #Didn't get a chance to hug your best friend and tell him how much he means to you in highschool #no biggie just do it in the afterlife #Jkjkjkjjkjkjk Everything is fine #my art #jujutsu kaisen

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

#tw sucidal ideation #tw selfhate #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #anxitey #i hate me so much #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #mental health #tw depressing stuff #please let me die #please let me kms #let me go #you’re losing me #you’re on your own kid #mental problems #i wanna die #i want to disappear #i wish i was dead #i’ll never recover #what is wrong with my brain #tw sui vent #tw self h4rm #mentally fucked #so fucking exhausted #tw sui talk #very unstable #im going to kms #what is wrong with me