#cursed to use music to stim and so some of it is not even good just satisfying to my brain

[t4tnalu]

It's a good thing that music post was the 6th song I have on repeat because some of these are kind of cringe tbh

#cursed to use music to stim and so some of it is not even good just satisfying to my brain #💋

[yae-energy]

╰┈─✩ ˚ ‧ random thoughts : 2 ‧ ˚

✧˖° synopsis : more random hc’s cause why not (the manga is crushing my soul)

✧˖° cast and crew : yuta okkotsu, maki zenin

.ᐟ content warnings : cursing (cause when am i not)

⤑ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ authors note : idk yall i just wanted to post 😭 i got at least 3 more ideas i wanna do.

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yuta <3

- really good at math for absolutely no reason at all, mental math specifically cause istg this man is like a fucking calculator

- was a nightcore kid (BADDDDDDDLYYY)

- used to be a really big harry potter fan for a while

- loves musicals. like, LOVES musicals

- will say a lot of stuff ironically to the point where it actually becomes unironic and it annoys everybody to hell and back. but he genuinely cannot stop 😭

- vocal stims with the most annoying tiktok audios

- loves carrots and hummus and doesn’t like celery

- he love’s halloween and always matches costumes with inumaki

- his biggest pet peeves are gum popping and squeaky noises. like he will genuinely get so pissed off if he hears either of those things

- is really good at board games & card games, like he’ll really whoop your ass in some uno tbh (which is why no one plays with him) and pls don’t let him get his hands on them draw 4’s or it’s absolutely over for everybody. (and it’s even worse if they’re playing train. like he loses friends afterwards)

*before each turn he’s like “😬 sorry guyssss” (he’s in fact, not sorry)

*also is unnecessarily good at monopoly, like he racks up all the properties so quickly and everyone always thinks he’s cheating

- has really bad eczema (mainly gets it on his neck and it’s reallyyyyyy bad in the winter)

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maki <3

- lactose (and still consumes dairy but like…at what cost girlie ☹️)

*also has horrible indigestion

- likes strawberries but hates strawberry flavored things. do NOT give her no strawberry flavored NOTHING or she will fight you

- is a sparkling water enjoyer (inumaki and panda clown her for this everyday and have been since they met her)

- doesn’t like bananas, she has a visceral HATRED for them i tell you. nobody knows why either but that’s just the way it is.

- COFFEE LOVERRRR (loads that shit up with creamer and sugar)

- loves doing crossword puzzles (and puzzles in general)

- really good at chess and ESPECIALLY checkers (she’s just really good at most games tbh, she doesn’t know how either)

- her glasses are always dirty LMAO (same girlie, same)

- really likes baseball, like really really likes it 😭

- adding onto the coffee one: she is an ice coffee FANN. everytime she’s mad one of the second years brings her an iced coffee and she’s completely ok again.

- she’s a dnd girlieeee !!! and she plays with yuta and inumaki when they all have time

- hates reading anything because she just doesn’t feel like it (and she’s impatient) so she gets yuta to read it for her 😭

- is one of those people where if you ask her to do something she’ll instantly say no but do it anyways 💀

- really good at mimicking people’s voices and copying signatures (like it’s actually terrifying)

⤑ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ tags : @morosis-haze @jogeto @mypimpademia @zairene @planetlunaa @cosmiles @milesmolasses @chinieh @romiantic @stqrriichiigo

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⤑ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ closing notes : took wayyyyy longer than i needed to finish this ! (just the life of being an adhd girlie 😋‼️) but pt.2 to this will come out shortly

also notice how i cannot SHUT THE FUCKKK up about these two like they did NOT need to be this long, do i care though? not really !!

now i’m onto these fuck ass tags 🙄

anyhow, love y’all 🫶🏽

update as of posting : it did take me over a month to post this i won’t lie…mb 😭

- xoxo, yves <3

#saint laurent productions #posting this just to get it out my sight atp 😭 #jjk headcanons #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen headcanons #yuta okkotsu headcanons #maki zenin headcanons #jujutsu kaisen season 2

[goofygooberblog]

Mouthpiece TTCC Headcannons‼️‼️‼️

Staring off strong I think she can fight, if someone were to start a genuine fight with one of her grandkids (or even her coworkers she sees as her grandkids) she would be fighting in second. She can pack a punch and she’s not afraid to put some force behind it either. (She’s been written up because of this). [more under cut]

Belle, her house is full of trinkets, stuff she’s knitted, things her kids/grandkids have got her, her house also always smells like cookies. Even if there are no cookies in sight her house is warm and smells delightful.(This causes like an army of bugs because it’s warm and smells nice.) However if you were to spend the night you couldn’t work the shower because it’s too confusing and has a 50 step tutorial to get it working.

She indulges in sweets sometimes (a lot) so she is constantly giving them away so she doesn’t eat them all. (She has a really big sweet tooth.) Belle even makes toon friendly sweets because arguably toons have such sweet food and candy she loves it. Give her jellybeans and she’s celebrating.

Breaks things so often, like I’m talking about if she holds it, it’s broken. She refuses to hold things for anyone because of this.

Wins at every board game possible, if she plays you’ve already lost because of this she’s banned from company board game night after she beat the Chairman over a game of monopoly.

Belle loooves hallmark movies, if there’s one she’s seen it. She knows the name of everything, character, town, even the names of the rich ceo. She can recite the movies word for word, she can even make the same expressions and she can sound exactly like the actors to the point it’s crazy. People have asked her if she had ADHD but Belle gets confused and just says she really likes the movies. She’s met each actor, writer,crew person,director, and even the animals they use during the movie. She runs the fandom wiki and it’s so detailed and only she runs it. People have been doxed if they try and mess it up.

Because Belle is old people have just assumed she didn’t know what the LGBT community was [Skull emoji] and so she wasn’t invited to pride, so when she showed up Misty wanted to know if she supported. Let’s just say that people know she’s a Bi icon and trans fem.

Following up on that everyone in her family is trans, when Belle was little she got a spell cursed that every family member after her would have the same issue as her (The issue was being assigned a different gender at birth.) and now everyone is trans. (The the wizard who cursed her was Witch Hunter. Suits also have only two things change with sex, your Build how feminine it Masculine it is, and your voice but you can always mix it up so gender and sex are very loose words to suits.

She is afraid of dying, okay real depressing right? So the reason she flies away after you beat her is because Belle is terrified, She has this idea that if she were to explode they couldn’t fix her because her parts are so old. (This fear is totally irrational and she goes to therapy for it.)

I think Belle is a professional yapper. If you put her Benjamin and Flint in a room together they could probably talk for 3 weeks straight. I also think she’s sassy, everything she says does have a purpose and she’s constantly thinking on the correct things to say. One time she ended up reciting an entire Hallmark movie because Benjamin and Flint let her.

She vocal stims, if a phone can make that noise so can she. She’s actually the reason phones ring because she just kept saying “ring ring ring.” When she called people.

Belle loves sappy music if it’s romantic she knows it, she knows the dance to it. Also she’s definitely the queen of telling you she’s met your favorite band in their prime.

She kills it on piano, she can play Rush E at the highest possible tempo ever and she knows every single song without using sheet music, when Belle was younger she always won piano competitions because she was just that good. So when you use a piano drop on her she will target you for trying to break her with her favorite instrument.

Everyone knows Cassie is Belles favorite grandchild and nobody can disagree because Cassie is an angel.

Belle a lady of color, she’s mixed Egyptian and Italian and she loves her cultural foods and she loves her food spicy and flavorful.

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Belle actually got Flint and Graham together after hinting it. She’s actually the reason most workplace relationships work out, she plays Cupid and valentoons day is her favorite holiday because of this.

I think Misty is still growing, (Despite her being in her early twenties.) but Belle will squeeze her cheeks and tell Misty how how big they’re growing and definitely give her twenty cog bucks as a gift.

She has an advanced vocabulary and she taught Brian words he knows. He often challenges Belle to puzzles and sudoku to better learn words.

Belle and Cosmo are both Italian just Belle is an third generation from an immigrant family and Cosmo is the First generation. Cosmo teaches Belle Italian and they can communicate in it, Cosmo has only come out to the satellite investors and Belle about how he’s Trans masc. Also Belle now tells Cosmo the Hallmark movie scrips in Italian.

Belle was worried about Cathal and Tawney because no suit should be sleeping that much so she genuinely asked if they were depressed, turns out they take their shifts during the night so it appears they are always sleeping. She felt really embarrassed so Belle baked them apology cookies and Tawney and Cathal stick to her like glue. Belle often gives them both super soft blankets she knitted herself so they can sleep comfortably and she is the one who packs Cathal his sandwiches (She has no idea why me needs so many.)

Belle loves giving Buck duck trinkets from the flea market, and Buck reminds her of her grandson with ADHD and so she often is able to keep Buck from overstimulating everyone around him. (Cosmo greatly thanks her for this.)

Belle is a mother figure to Spruce and Chip, she genuinely thinks they are blood related brothers and often treats them like such. They don’t have the heart to say they are just close friends since childhood so they play along. Belle was the first person Chip told about the override and she sticks by his side hugging him and keeping him grounded. (The override never activates when he’s around her because of this.) Belle is very concerned for Spruces help because she only sees him eating trees. She made tree shaped cookies so he would eat them and makes special accommodations to his food so they are all trees.

Belle refuses to leave Flint alone after he somehow exploded her oven and burnt the charcoal-chunk cookies. She watches them like a hawk and is genuinely considering giving Flint a wellness check to see if he has Pyromania. (They do.) She also makes special burnt cookies just for him so They can enjoy.

Belle makes time to see each and every one of Dave’s concerts, (she even convinced him to make a Hallmark play and everyone loved it.) She is his (second) biggest fan right next to Buck. And she always buys Dave flowers and he keeps them in a little vase in his dress room.

Belle and Graham have very different ideas of music but they do have an entire album together of a wonderful blend of Rock and Old-Times music and they even won 6 Grammy awards for the album and they won best songwriters of the year. (Flint is also on the album because them and Graham are inseparable.)

Her head can call people like a telephone so she uses it when she needs to call. And only call she can’t text because it hurts her head (It also burns into her brain.) Unfortunately she can’t whisper so she only has the most important calls in her home. Buck often spam calls her because he’s already told Brian something twenty times. (Belle is very close to blocking him)

If all the managers where put in a room Belle would be able to get everyone working together and having a fun time, she’d make everyone comfortable and that’s why parties at her house during the holidays for this group of managers (And the Satellite Investors.) is exciting and wonderful and everyone often looks forward to the holidays because of this. (Expect when it’s Hallmark movie time and Belle gets to exited over these movies and keeps quoting the most outlandish things ever.) Belle would take the managers on vacations too and separate them into groups to make sure everyone can handle eachother and no fights break out. She also makes sure she only picks trips everyone can enjoy and so far she hasn’t had any complaints (yet.)

I don’t think she swears a lot but when she does. The first time she genuinely got mad was when someone had broke something her deceased mother made her. Let’s just say everyone was shocked but realized it’s better she doesn’t keep her emotions inside all the time. Belle will cuss when she’s singing or just when she’s in extreme shock or anger. She however won’t curse in-front of a kid because she’s a parental figure.(she will freak out if she slips up and the kid won’t stop repeating the word.)

#silly little guy #belle dama #mouthpiece toontown #toontown #headcanon #headcanons #erm what the flip #ermmm what the scallop #ttcc

[clownzilla31]

I find it funny how my friend convinced me to watch Rise because they kept going on about how much Donnie reminded them of me. So now I’m obligated to write some (possibly self projecting) headcanons for him.

-despite what most people believe Donnie is dyslexic and didn’t actually start reading on his own till well into elementary age

-ever since he’s been hooked on books

-loves vocaloid and nightcore

-if he’s burnt out or overstimulated he’ll want nothing to do with physical contact- unless it’s Mikey and he initiates the contact

-is convinced he grew out of his dyslexia but still misreads things and gets left and right mixed up

-0 sense of smell unless it’s something very sweet or on fire

-violently happy stims when excited. I mean stuff like hitting things or himself, shaking violently, or mimicking something he’s seen on tv or in a comic

-gets overstimulated in big crowds and cannot handle flashing lights a lot

-uses made up curse words from books even tho let’s face it, splinter doesn’t care if they say “fuck”

-walks on his toes

-contamination and rumination OCD 100%

-listens to loud music before bed

-owns a hatsune miku cosplay

-will just hang around the house in said cosplay because it makes him feel good

-loves giving gifts to his brothers and April

-Mikey is the biggest victim of this, Donnie can’t resist giving him gifts randomly

-doesn’t wash his hoodie unless it’s absolutely necessary

-doesn’t have insomnia, but instead is terrible at sleeping because of his OCD

#rottmnt donnie #autistic donnie #headcanons #idk how to tag this #self projecting onto the purple one am I? #he’s also aroace #but that’s because I’m autistic and aroace

[goat-guy-tm]

I have more Dylan autism head canons for you Tumblr. And this one is a long one, come get your head canons!! Pspspspspspsps!!

Dylan absolutely HATES the texture of potato skin. Like, once Nick asked him to help with dinner for the campers and without knowing he handed Dylan a potato to peel, and Dylan wasn’t looking at what Nick handed him but the second he felt the potato skin he threw it and flapped his hand around while breathing heavily and trying to calm himself down.

He wears headphones all the time when not at camp. And always is playing music because life is noisy and it hurts his head but he can control how loud his music is and that makes his life feel a little nicer.

I also hc he’s the only child of a single mother, and his mom is also very ND since ya know that stuff is genetic, but this means their house is already very ND friendly so their house is quiet most the time, a lot of good textures they both enjoy.

Dylan’s cat that he mentioned during the game is secretly his some what “trained” emotional comfort animal. He takes care of the cat the most, that’s why he mentions giving them a bath.

He masks even his music taste, cause this man 100% has 90% of his likes songs as fan songs from his special interests and some of the most ND brain scratching thins you’ve heard. (I am just projected here-)

One of his stims is just screaming? Like, it’s not a common one but sometimes he jus does. Like straight face, quick shout that has scared the shit out of some people, but he always apologizes after wards.

He loves holding hands with people. It makes his brain very happy. Kaitlyn and Jacob were cursed with having to deal with that all summer, and he always played it off to the campers as the buddy system.

Even though he loves holding people’s hands, if it’s not someone he knows very well or trusts, he despises being touched. A camper can randomly grab his leg and he will feel the need to scratch his skin raw cause it feels bad his skin feels gross he got touched ick.

The second he’s in the car with his mom when they get dropped off from camp he will instantly start drumming because he’s suppressed all that shit all summer and needs a good moment of just fucking MOVIN!

Dylan has a sunflower lanyard but he doesn’t bring it with him to camp cause he’s too embarrassed but usually during the colder seasons he wears it with him out under a hoodie or shirt.

Dylan knows sing language because he sometimes has long non verbal episodes and also one of his mom’s friends is deaf and has a deaf kid that he’s friends with.

He’s got a lot of physical stims. He also bruises easily so he almost always looks like he got into a fight with a rock

He actually secretly has his own podcast. What does he talk about on it? Idk, but he’s putting his obsession and special interest in broadcasting to use in some way.

When his hand gets cut off he spent a while just waving his stump in the air cause this is stressful as fuck and he just needs to move it.

He needed a service animal after the events of the game cause his new found ptsd and autism really clashed and made it hard for him to go outside for a good while, but it was equally awkward cause werewolves...you get it. (His service dog is named Pickle.)

Hey, join my Quarry discord server /threat (/j)

#the quarry #quarry game #dylan the quarry #the quarry dylan #hacketts quarry #the quarry headcanons #quarry headcanon #dylan lenivy

[senadimell]

5 Movies, 4 Songs, 3 Essentials, 2 Books, 1 Quote

Thanks @i-will-steal-your-intestines​!! This was really fun!

5 MOVIES

This is gonna be the hardest section, isn’t it?

1. Princess Mononoke. Ahhhh all of this movie. Hisaishi’s score. The characterization. The art. The relationships. Even the English dub! (I’m fascinated by the choice of accents between Lady Eboshi and the women of the forge because it was a clear case of “rural, southern, working-class accents” vs “posh, upper-class” accents even if we don’t have an in-universe reason for RP vs US south)

2. Song of the Sea. I have only seen this once and it wrecked me. I’m still in awe. Such a work of art! The storytelling! The symbolic overlaying reality! Grief! And actually likable characters working through things!

3. The eminently quotable The Princess Bride (with a special honorable mention to Quibi’s The Princess Bride Home Movie because that was just so utterly amazing)

4. Little Women (2019) Look, this movie got me through a very rough time. Related hardcore to the “loneliness” speech and really latched on to the non-linear style of storytelling.

5. West Side Story (2021) because I liked that movie enough that I inflicted my ramblings on my irl family and friends instead of containing it to tumblr. it is SUCH A GOOD ADAPTION. so much going on. So much analysis jangling around my skull.

Honorable mention to The Tale of Princess Kaguya, Mulan,

4 SONGS

1. Susan Boyle’s cover of Proud (link here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpkrVuYxA0c)

2. Lindsay Mendez’ cast recording of Pretty Funny ties with Before It’s Over (actually, Pretty Funny wins because I can be exceedingly angsty and it knocked the wind out of me and changed everything when I heard it first, but I listen to Before It’s Over more often these days to inspire myself)

3. No Good Deed (pretty much any person, but here’s the Idina Menzel version and I’m partial to Willemijn Verkaik). I love the entire musical of Wicked but have made extensive of this song. Let’s just say I was under a lot of strain in high school and didn’t have the words to even know what was wrong, and leaned reeeeal heavy into songs like this.

4. Tie between Emily Portman’s Tongue Tied, Open the Door for Three’s Beeswing, Le bal des chats, Horses (with my daughter Maral), Now and For Always and Star of Earendil from the LotR musical, The Longest John’s Downed and Drowned, and the entirety of Imogen Heap’s The Cursed Child score

Turns out I listen to music as a tool these days, so most of point 4 are songs I can listen to while doing other work, while the musical theatre songs of my pre-COVID years require my full mental attention, so I can only listen to them while doing things like driving or cleaning, not while reading.

3 ESSENTIALS

3.  Peppermint essential oil. Great placebo &/or distraction &/or treatment for headaches, stomache discomfort, and more

2. Socks, a robe that ties around the waist, nail clippers, headphones, chew stim, and hairstick, for the Self-Regulation

1. Food and medication! Love love love medication that reduces pain and helps me to function!

2 BOOKS

I only get two of these? I’m changing it to series. Then it’ll have to be the old favorites, the Time Quartet and the Tapestry series.

1 QUOTE

Currently this is rattling around my head:

“Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them?”

this is from Fellowship of the Ring, I think? Frodo and Gandalf are talking about Gollum and Bilbo.

Whoops forgot to tag people. @butwhybother @hobbitsetal @kiralamouse @brightbeautifulthings

#asks #asks and answers

[giuliamarcovaldo]

You’re Okay, Luca

i wanted to read autistic!luca fics but i couldn’t find any. so what did i do? i wrote my own. this is my first time posting fanfic here! so enjoy this little autistic!luca story (with some luberto fluff and angst)

TW: mentions of violent stimming + meltdown

“I was about to have a meltdown and there was nothing I could do to stop it.”

Summary: Luca gets over stimulated at a fancy dinner party, and Alberto witnesses Luca having a meltdown for the first time.

I want to say they’re 16-17 in this??

100% sfw because they are children

word count: 1580

also please don’t kill me if the Italian words are wrong i used google translate sksjsjaksk

(also note: i am autistic)

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Alberto knew I was autistic. I told him about a year ago, when we first became a thing.

“This doesn’t change anything, Luca. There’s nothing in this world that could make me stop loving you.” His words rang through my head as I felt the onset of a meltdown.

Giulia had invited Alberto and me to a gathering with some of her extended family in Genoa. They were all very nice, and Alberto even made friends with some of them (which was no surprise). That wasn’t the cause of my meltdown. It was the atmosphere. It was a bright, loud fancy dining hall, nearly at full capacity. I was wearing a suit and tie that Giulia’s cousin had let me borrow. The collar was scratching my skin in the worst possible way but I didn’t want to be rude so I sucked it up. That was my first mistake. Between the bright lights, loud conversations and music, jam-packed room, a plethora of smells from foods that I had never heard of, and the suit collar, I could feel it coming.

It was sensory overload at first. I tried stimming subtly. I wasn’t out as autistic to everyone yet and the thought of them judging me for stimming made my anxiety worse. But I had to do something. Squeezing my hands into fists under the table. Chewing the inside of my cheek. Running my fingers through my hair repeatedly. It wasn’t enough, but somehow too much at the same time.

I was getting more and more fidgety. It was becoming harder to mask. Would it be rude to just get up and leave without saying anything? Probably. I couldn’t move anyway. I was frozen in my seat. My facial expressions were almost completely gone at this point, along with my ability to speak. Alberto noticed that something was wrong.

“Luca, hey, are you alright?” I couldn’t get the words “no, I feel like I’m about to explode into a violently stimming disaster if I don’t get out of here right now but I can’t move and I feel helpless” out of my mouth so I just nodded and gave him a small, unconvincing smile. I didn’t want to burden Alberto while he was having such a good time. I knew it was ridiculous to think that Alberto would mind helping me calm down, but my brain wouldn’t quit telling me otherwise.

Silenzio, Bruno. Silenzio, Bruno. Silenzio, Bruno. It wasn’t working.

Alberto didn’t look convinced. He knew me too well. Ever since I told him I was autistic he tried his best to make sure I was as comfortable as possible in every situation. I loved him for that but I hated myself for it. It’s like I always need to be babysat and I hate it. I know that he loves me so why do I feel so guilty?

My intrusive thoughts running through my mind was the final straw. It was all too much. Alberto’s face looked more concerned as each moment passed. He was about to witness me having a meltdown for the first time since we met. I didn’t know if I was ready for that type of vulnerability but I didn’t really have a choice. I was about to have a meltdown and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

“Luca, we’re going to go some place quiet, okay?”

I shook my head no. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t speak. It had gone from sensory overload, to shutdown, to a full-blown meltdown. I couldn’t hold back my stims anymore. I started hitting my head with my fists and pulling at my hair. Tears rolled down my face uncontrollably, exposing my green-blue scales.

Perfecto.

I didn’t know which was worse: violently and uncontrollably stimming in front of everyone, or unintentionally outing myself as a sea monster. They might have been tied. Most of the guests were too into their conversations to notice the autistic sea monster having a meltdown next to them but the few who did notice started to pass glances and whisper amongst themselves.

“Luca, Luca, you’re okay. I know you don’t like anyone touching you when you’re in sensory overload but I’m going to help you get out of here, okay?”

Alberto helped me get up from the table and escorted me out of the dining room, using his suit jacket to cover my face so no one would see my scales, but being careful to not let it touch my face. We made our way to a long hallway off of the lobby. Alberto sat me down on the ground and flipped the hallway light switch off. Light from the lobby trailed into the hallway but didn’t reach us at the end.

I was out of the environment but still at the height of my meltdown. Tears were still coming from my eyes. I continued to tug at my hair while I rocked back and forth. I couldn’t vocalize anything except for non verbal sounds. I felt so helpless, so defeated, so ashamed.

Alberto tried to redirect my violent stims, to no avail. I’m sure he felt helpless too. I wanted to stop but I couldn’t. And I felt bad that Alberto couldn’t help that.

Alberto sat a few feet away from me, probably resisting the urge to pull me into a hug.

“I’ll just sit with you, okay? You’re okay. You’re okay. You’re okay.” Alberto reassured me that he wasn’t leaving. My perception of time isn’t that great but it felt like at least 45 minutes before I started to come down. Still there, like he said he would be, Alberto let out a deep shaky breath. I hadn’t looked at him the entire time because I was too embarrassed that he had to see all of that. When I finally did glance up at him, I notice two trails of purple scales down his cheeks. Knowing he had cried hurt me even more.

“Are you feeling better?” I was still nonverbal and rocking back and forth but my violent stims had passed. I opened my left hand flat and tapped it with my right index finger.

“Oh! Right,” Alberto pulled a pen and pad from my jacket, which he had helped me remove from my body earlier in my meltdown. He slid them across the floor and anxiously waited for me to write my response.

“I’m sorry you had to see me like that.”

Alberto’s face changed as he read what I had written. His green eyes looked sadder when they met my gaze. I could feel my tears starting to well up again.

“No, no, Luca, mio amore, please don’t feel bad. I should have checked on you earlier than I did. I got a little lost with everything going on in there. I’m sorry that I didn’t check up on you sooner...” Alberto was very protective of me. I know that the thought of me suffering while he didn’t know was absolutely crushing him. But it wasn’t his fault. It wasn’t mine. It wasn’t anybody’s. I was starting to think rationally again. I shouldn’t feel sorry for having meltdowns, for being autistic, for being myself. But I should have spoken up when I started to feel uncomfortable. That’s something I need to work on, and I know I can do it as long as Alberto is with me. And he always will be.

“Is it alright if I touch you?” I know Alberto was dying to physically comfort me. It was his love language. I nodded my head yes and gave him a warm smile. He crawled over to me and I opened my arms to embrace him. I listened to his steadying heartbeat while he whispered affirmations to me and gently rubbed my back. Warm tears started to fall down my face.

God, I love this boy so much.

“Bontà, there you two are! I’ve been looking everywhere! What happ-“ Giulia’s voice got closer as she made her way down the hallway.

“Oh no, Luca... mi dispiace... I didn’t know you were- when did- where-“ She crouches down next to the two of us. Giulia, also being autistic, could tell I was in post-meltdown. She slaps her palm to her forehead and curses herself.

“Of course! I should have been more aware about- why didn’t I- are you okay?”

“Giulia,” Alberto places his hand on her shoulder. “he’s alright. Nothing that happened is your fault. Or... mine for that matter. We’re alright.”

“Can I get you guys something? A glass of water?”

I nod my head yes.

“Water sounds good, grazie, little sis.” Alberto and Giulia exchange smiles, then she leaves down the hallway, her red curls bouncing behind her.

“Luca,” Alberto cups my cheek in his hand, wiping away my tears with his thumb.

“I love you, okay? I love you so, so much. Nothing is going to change that. Please, don’t ever feel like an inconvenience. It hurts to see you like that, and I know it hurts to experience it. Please, tell me next time, Okay?”

I didn’t even need to tell him that I felt like an inconvenience. He just knew. Like I said, he knows me too well. I nod my head, and pull him back into an embrace. Alberto combs his fingers through my hair, getting rid of the tangles that I made in it earlier.

I feel lighter. I feel safe to be myself. I feel more loved than ever.

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that’s it! my first fic! a lot of this is me projecting onto luca (sksakdjsjjsk) but i had a lot of fun writing it! feel free to leave comments and/or constructive criticism. likes and reblogs appreciated!! :)

#luca #pixar luca #luca paguro #alberto scorfano #giulia marcovaldo #autistic!luca #luberto #mine #my writing

[asexual-abomination]

Hi 🥺 I saw requests were open? Could you maybe do platonic Phantom Troupe with the reader having echolalia? If the troupe is too much, maybe just Chrollo and Feitan? Thank you in advance 🥺

Thank you so much for this request! I had a lot of fun writing it!

I know that echolalia and a lot of other symptoms show up differently in different people, so I had to base this on my own experience, and I have a tendency to echo literally anything, words, sounds, rhythms, anything.

I decided to have this take place in a scenario where reader copies each member individually!

Chrollo

Probably the one who has read up on any and all of your symptoms, since he considers it his responsibility to be educated on your needs

When, after you happened to be sat in a meeting with the Troupe, you began muttering to yourself, he wanted to see if you were alright

As he walked up to after, hoping to speak with you, he was surprised to see you repeating a seemingly innocuous phrase from somewhere in the middle of the meeting

Chrollo would recognize this as a stim, but he wouldn’t understand immediately why you would be stimming something he randomly said

He would be a bit thrown off when your explanation is very simple, telling him that it just sounded right, felt right in your brain

He wouldn’t tell a soul, but a little part of him was proud that you found his voice that nice to listen to that you’d imitate it for fun

He definitely doesn’t mind, and even encourages any stimming in general, since he can see that it makes you happy

Machi

While most of her medical training is in more physical things, after it was mentioned that you were autistic, she decided to go and top up her knowledge of neurodivergency.

At one point during a mission, she murmured to herself to remember a safe’s code, not realizing that she was within earshot of you

Several hours after the mission was over and everyone was celebrating the spoils of victory, she overheard you repeating the code to yourself over and over again

She expressed her confusion to you, reminding you that the mission was over and there was no need for the code anymore

When your response was to tell her that the code simply sounded nice, she would probably get confused for a moment

Machi doesn’t quite understand how some random string of numbers can ‘sound nice’ but she also knows that your brain functions differently from hers

I don’t see her making too big a deal out of it, but she’d actually make a sly comment about how much you listen to her

Other than that, she happy to let you stim as you please!

Phinks

Probably not educated at all about the intricacies of your stimming or any symptoms in general, but he'll never get upset with you, since he understands on some level that it's just how you are

I'd imagine that the way you'd echo from him miiight come from overhearing him death threatening a scared hostage

Definitely spooks him when he hears you mumbling the harshest and longest string of curses he's ever heard

Mostly because you're spitting the words with the exact same tone as he did, and he thinks that you're trying to threaten him

(He doesn't wanna mess with you 😆)

When he finally figures out that you're copying him, he jumps to the next conclusion that you're mocking him

"What? Am I not intimidating to you? I sure scared that scum back there!"

"What are you talking about?"

His face when you explain yourself to him is nothing short of flustered, and he begins profusely apologizing

He gets super caught up whenever he's accidentally ableist, since he wants you to feel safe around him

Once you've cleared up the situation, he actually takes joy in seeing you copy him, and if he gets the chance he'll want to teach you how to be more intimidating

Uvogin

Another case of not really knowing what stims are, but being respectful of them anyway

I mean, man is literally eight feet tall, he doesn't care about whatever weird things anyone else might do

He roars at the back of his throat once, and that's it

When he's walking past you after a mission, Uvo's almost shocked to hear you making a vague growling noise constantly

Since he likes to lean into his animal side a bit more than others, he'll jokingly ask if you're trying to intimidate him, much like Phinks

When you explain to him to you thought that his roar was fun enough to copy, he also takes an odd sense of pride in it

He's not normally a man for any kind of subtlety, but if you actually found his roars pleasing to listen to, he'll see if he can roar at a volume that won't immediately burst your eardrums without protection or distance

If you do a lot of vocal stimming in general, especially imitation of his roars, I can see him taking you out to some mountain or cave or whatever to practice your roar for some fun bonding

Nobunaga

Okay so we know that he spends plenty of time around Machi, so she's probably explained some of the main symptoms of your autism at some point when he asked

But when he sits next to you and hears you trying to imitate the sounds that his sword makes when he charges it with his Nen, he looks at you incredulously for a moment

You may not have even noticed that you were echoing at first, so you'll probably be confused when you see him looking at you

"Oh, sorry, your sword just sounds nice!"

*Cue even further confusion from him*

Completely doesn't get how a sword sounds nice, but kind of has this "You do you, kid" attitude about it

May or may not invite you to listen to his practice and then wait until afterwards to listen for your echoes because he finds it cute

Shizuku

Okay I'm gonna be honest, when Blinky first appeared in show and made that noise, I was taken and kept trying to make the same noise for hours whenever it appeared

"Shizuku, why did you summon Blinky? Is something wrong?"

"What are you talking about? I didn't summon them?"

"Oh that was me, sorry."

Definitely has a giggle about it when she finds that you enjoy echoing her Nen ability

Will summon Blinky whenever you want to 'have a chat' with them

Very openly thinks you're absolutely adorable with it, and it's one of the first things she'll do every time she gets to see you

Shalnark

Honestly, he says everything with such a happy, upbeat tone, anything he says can be copied for fun

His laugh is the best, so you're probably echoing that

He's probably not too shocked when he hears an attempt his own laugh coming from down the hallway, thinking someone's trying to play a prank on him

But he'll be a little confused when he finds you

When you reveal the truth of what you were doing, oh god, be prepared

"Aww, you like my voice that much??"

"You do a pretty good impression of me, must spend a lot of time listening, huh?"

He WILL NOT stop until he gets to see you blush, though if he does overstep and upset you, he'll tone it back down immediately

Might not change anything especially big with his usual way of talking, but will take a moment to appreciate his own voice whenever he catches you imitating him

Bonolenov

THE MUSIC!!

Okay I know that they're mainly used for battle and injuring people's ears, but he definitely has more calm songs that he plays for his friends

When you first hear it, the tunes are so enchanting that you will be humming or whistling it for weeks afterwards

He's sitting and relaxing when he hears you attempting to hum the tune of a sweet lullaby he had once played for the Troupe

It's probably not a perfect replication, since it takes a while to learn the songs he makes, but it makes his heart melt to think that you want to try your hand at his beloved music

When he overhears you, he jumps in to begin gushing about the song you found so lovely

Asking if you'd like to hear it again -  he'd certainly love to play it for you again!

He might seem really overexcited, but he's genuinely happy that he can bring you joy with his ability

Franklin

Took me a moment to think of something for him, but after a while of thinking:

He speaks slowly and calmly quite often, so I can imagine that he can sometimes say things in very rhythmic fashion, which will catch on very quick

You're walking away from a quick chat with him, when he hears you whispering under your breath

Normally wouldn't even make a note of it, but he wants to make sure you're okay

(Definitely isn't worried about you and wanting to keep you safe)

His reaction when you tell him that you liked the way that he said something is a mix between "Oh, that's nice" and "What are you on about"

Has probably the least amount of education on stimming, but also one of the most open to learning, since he wants to do what he can to keep those he cares about safe and happy

Will be a bit put off by the way you seem to copy him at first, but definitely doesn't mind after a while

Silently thanks you for making him take a moment to appreciate his own voice

Pakunoda

Sweetheart hums a meteor city anthem one day, and isn't really shocked when she comes upon you humming it yourself

Since she's looked into your mind with her ability, she knows the way that you like to echo certain sounds, and doesn't mind at all

If she's listening from around a corner or such, she will smile joyfully and quietly wait out of your sight

Unless you catch her in the act, she's actually quite happy to not let you know of presence while she enjoys the thought of you enjoying her culture

But, if you do catch her, she'll probably start gushing to you about the origin of whichever song you wanted to imitate

She wants you to feel happy, however you wish to pursue that, and will absolutely hype you up in any sort of stimming you need to do

Whether you want her to ignore your echoing, or to join in whenever she hears, she's happy to do whatever you ask to keep you happy

Feitan

If he catches you copying something he said in broken language, at first he will assume that you were making fun of him

Not because he thinks that you're mean spirited, just because he's used to people mocking

With most members of the Troupe, he would show no mercy at this point, but since he actually likes you, you get one chance to explain yourself

Once you tell him about why you're copying him, he'll be seriously confused for a moment

Yeah he's never heard the word echolalia before

So you'll have to explain it to him

Probably doesn't immediately get it, but he lets you off the hook for it, since he does understand that you're very different from him and the others

Doesn't really think too much of it once you've cleared up that you aren't mocking him, although he finds it interesting to listen to you talking about how stimming works, even when he doesn't understand half of it

Kortopi

Actually another case that assumes that you're mocking him

He's used to being acknowledged as a weak link in the Troupe, and would get quite internally upset if he thought you were also in on the joke

I can't explain why I think this, but I actually see him as one of the most educated members of the group when it comes to any sort of neurodiversity, since I think he's neurodivergent himself, but he probably doesn't catch on immediately that this stems from your own autism

Wouldn't confront you straight away, but when he does, he tries to be as professional as possible about it

Cue a string of quiet apologies when you explain yourself

Quickly tries to explain himself to you, and you probably bond over how annoying it can be to have stimming misunderstood

Tries his best to let you know from then on that any symptoms you need to express are accepted around him, since he knows that you accept him as well

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Thanks for reading!

#hunter x hunter #hxh #platonic #x reader #platonic x reader #autistic reader #echolalia #phantom troupe #chrollo #machi #phinks #uvogin #nobunaga #shizuku #shalnark #bonolenov #franklin #pakunoda #feitan #kortopi

[eeriefeelingsat3amuwu]

My lovelies, this is probs the best thing that we (me and my sister) ever came up with when sleep-deprived and creative. Me and my sis were watching Blood of Zeus on Netflix and síce we’re really into the Greek Mythology, we started thinking of random headcanons on the gods. And this is what we came up with:

Zeus:

the oldest sibling, the younger ones call him Big Z

actually very loyal to Hera, would never cheat on her and all of his ‘maidens’ were actually chosen by disaster bisexual Hera

loves cleaning, is very pedantic

is the only one who knows about the real images of all the gods

a great husband, but a terrible father, seriously, don’t leave your child with him

loves his little brothers to death, even if they fight a lot

Hades:

the middle sibling, nickname is ‘Hadie’, Poseidon loves him, Zeus cares for him very much

is a very loving husband, he gives Persephone everything she could desire

since he rarely chooses sides, whenever the other gods are fighting, he and Persephone have date nights, play with Cerberos (he’s seriously a big puppy) or talk to the dead heroes in Elysium

Charon is his best brooo, parties in Tartaros, he even gives Hades and Persephone romantic boat rides along the river for date nights

Poseidon:

the youngest, must be protected even if he doesn’t need protection, has two nicknames: Pony (for joking around and picking at him) and Donie (loving nickname used when talking normaly)

May be the god of the seas, but he can’t swim at all, his older brothers tried to teach him one day and it ended with him almost drowning in a meter deep pool

is really adventurous and traves a lot, if you’re not sure where he is, try either a few California beaches or some historical cities in Europe

is the good dad™️, he takes care of the Zeus children comming in every once in a while and they absolutely LOVE him

both him and Hades are great with kids, but Hades has a wife, so he’s more of a cool uncle then a dad

DAD JOKES

Aphrodite:

you’d be surprised, but she does not spend her free time practising makeup and doing yoga; most of the time, while not in public she downs some oversized hoodie and sweatpants and either sleeps, lifts weights or bingewatches Netflix shows and eats chips

except for Zeus, only Appolo and Ares know this, not even her son is aware of it

Appolo found out when he went to borrow her curling iron and she opened the door without thinking (she was just eating a corndog and when she saw the look Appolo gave her, she slammed the door in his face while screaming ‘if you tell anyone you’re dead’)

Ares is a different story, she actually showed him and they accidentaly became best friends

she can’t sleep at her house since they could find out and so she sleeps over at houses of other gods when she knows they’re not there

Ares:

is actually very peaceful, hates fighting and it’s kinda killing him that it’s his job to be a bloodthirsty warmonger

whenever he can, he drops the act and is just a sweetheart

loves bunnies and has quite a few of them

Aphrodite was sleeping in his house one time because he was supposed to be fighting a war somewhere, but what she didn’t know was that he returns to feed and play with his bunnies every two days (no it’s not animal abuse, he leaves them both food and water whenever he’s supposed to go away and he returns only to calm himself down and make sure that everything’s working as it should) and he returned the day she was sleeping there; she went downstairs as to leave and found out about the bunnies

that’s how they became best friends

his house, to the other gods, looks like some sort of an arena with weapons and spikes all around, but as soon as they leave, he re-decorates and after that it looks like Demeter’s garden

Demeter:

she has alergies

like, a lot

she hates flowers and grass and just every single damn plant because it makes her eyes water and itch, it makes her nose runny and it just puts her in a shitty mood

but because of her profession, she has to decorate her home with them whenever someone is comming over

then she holes up in her house for two weeks until her alergies pass and starts again

Hephaistos:

he hates warmth

yes, he lives in a volcano, but he’s not fireproof, thank you very much

he’d rather do anything else OTHER then what he does because it’s so hot, but he loves his job and so he continues on with it

every once in a while he disguises himself as a human and goes to the show Forged in Fire (he always wins)

Eros:

he loves his job and everything that comes with it

the only little bit weird thing is how invested he gets into the love stories he creates with his arrows

he cries whenever the story has a happy ending and is just all in all a very senstive soul with an undying love for romance

he is so devoted to Psyche that had she asked him to, he would rip off his wings and give them to her

Now, we have the gay friend group:

Athena:

tired™️, always on coffee 24/7, if not, you don’t want to talk to her

curses, is angry and totaly not calm and colected, just chaotic neutral energy

a prankster, along with Hermes

the mom friend, makes sure the rest of the group doesn’t die or kill each other

smart and witty, but doesn’t give two fucks about anything, burned out gifted kid

eyerolls, glares and ‘tsk’s are a must

she WILL make you feel pathetic if she wants to

likes baking

Hermes:

without his shoes, he can’t run to save his life

you’d think ‘Oh, a Greek god, he must be ripped under that Toga!’ but no, he’s a fucking stick; no abs, no biceps, no nothing, just a STICK

can’t exercise, can’t lift anything heavier then a teapot, just...weak baby

living and breathing ADHD

stimming, never paying attention, figet things, hyperfixations, just...

a trickster along with Athena, they are sneaky and they always know what to do to get the best reaction out of every single god

Appolo:

loves to create songs, both lyrics and music, but...a bit different genre

just...heavy metal, rock, rap, he’s just going WITH it dude

also loves the goth aesthetic

plays the guitar, electric one tho

he diguises it as his lyre

Artemis is his eyes in ears for when he needs to change the tone (when the other gods are comming)

he does actually like poetry and loves to read classics and he thinks Shakespear is THE SHIT™️

the theatre kid

loud

Artemis:

the godess of the hunt, huh?

yeah, she’s a vegan

like, a hardcore vegan

goes to PETA protests every once in a while

fights for animal rights with every ounce of her being

but she’s still the godess of the hunt, so sometimes she needs to kill animals

sooooo, she has anger issues.

deals with them by making Hermes exercise

keeps tabs on every animal she has ever killed and cries over the papers where she’s written it down every once in a while

Okay, this would be it for our headcanons, I may or may not be planning to write a fanfic about them in a modern setting and I’m excited af.

Tagging you guys in belief that you’ll enjoy this:

@definietlynotsatan @a-fandom-trashdump @bla-rese

#greek gods #headcanon #gay friend groups #bffs #wip #aphrodite #athena #appolo #artemis #hephaistos #Zeus #Hades #Poseidon #brothers #Hera #Ares #Persephone #I rly love my sis #we think of the weirdest shit together

[struckbyelectriclove]

ooooOOHHH okay okay ⭐🔥for kat? (this is lottelight btw)

((hey thanks!!))

under the cut bc it’s long again ;-;

⭐ What is your OC afraid of? Any crippling phobias or some such? How do they act when scared and what helps them calm down? Does anyone ever find your OC scary? Why?

- ooh that’s a good one!! there’s really two big main fears that kat has, herself and dogs, and really the dog one stems from what she could potentially do to a dog. she’s scared of herself because she’s terrified of what she could do to other people if she loses her human form and becomes her horrible, monstrous cursed form. this one is really like,,, and underlying fear? it’s always at the back of her mind, and is especially brought to the forefront when she gets her claws in fifth year after transforming. she accidentally scratched rowan and nearly went into a panic attack because of it. the dog one is a little harder to explain, only because it’s like. super super trigger warning stuff involving animal death and general mangle-ment, but suffice to say that one time she stopped taking her suppressants when she was nine and she woke up in an alleyway covered in blood with bits of fur in her mouth and nails. she couldn’t even look at fang without wanting to or actually throwing up. she gets better about it through the years with exposure to fang and the crup puppies that hagrid has, but she still won’t approach a dog without it approaching her first.

other than that, she’s got arachnophobia and a mild fear of creepy stuff in general. i joke that she’s a scaredy-kat, because she is lol. she will cling to the nearest person whenever something creepy is going on, and generally can’t watch horror movies alone or play horror games alone. she will set aside her terrified-ness to save her friends if they need it, though! she’s just got to muster up the courage first lmao

🔥 Give us a list of general likes and dislikes, such as colours, textures, music, weather and other stuff!

- to start off the likes caragory kat really likes fruit! she thinks it’s nice and sweet and just a really good snack when she’s feeling hungry. she’d live off oranges if she could, they’re her favorite! though, strangely she doesn’t much like orange juice, weird. she also really likes to just,,, bite things? it’s one of the ways that she stims, even if her teeth don’t allow her to chew on normally-chewy things, since they’re so strong and sharp. she really likes like,,,, new carpet texture? the thick carpet that people have in their living room kinda texture, she just likes to wiggle her feet around in it and maybe shock a few people if she’s feeling particularly “>:3″ that day. her favorite genre of books is nonfiction, and specifically math theorems because she’s a massive math nerd and absorbs it all like a sponge. her favorite weather is sunny, but not too warm, probably around 60 degrees fahrenheit, with a slight breeze. (i was going to put her favorite color also but... i suppose every color is her favorite color since she can’t see em often....)

for dislikes,,, she hates velcro. absolutely cannot stand it, especially the sound. it makes her tongue itch. she’s also not a very big fan of the dark. sure she can sleep in it, but she doesn’t really like to be awake in it, it just makes her really anxious. weirdly, she doesn’t like cake all that much, she’s kinda just content with ice cream. it probably stems mainly from her dislike of icing, but she just can’t really get behind that much sweetness sometimes. a funny one is that she doesn’t like any other monster birds, like griffins, since her instincts are telling her that it’s stepping on her turf and it should back off. rowan thinks that this is absolutely hilarious. she also doesn’t like cold weather all that much, but she does like snow! it’s just when she doesn’t have snow to kick around that she doesn’t like it, since it’s distracting her from the fact that she gets cold really easily. if the temperatures are in the thirties and there’s no snow, then she’s usually found inside.

#thanks for asking!! #lottelight #ekaterina solokov #rowan khanna #my ocs #headcanons #writing

[thebirdohermes]

dude....❣️ + dennis with all of them or i riot

HRTGGHLGMGNF THANK U FRIENDO.

Who is the little spoon?

I like to be the little spoon because I love being squished!! It's a really comforting stim for me!! BUT! That doesn't mean Dennis doesn't like being the little spoon, though! He might not always admit it, but I know he likes being held, being the little spoon.

Who sings in the shower?

I sing in the shower! I play music and sing along to it. Sometimes I get LOUD, hehe.

Who plays pranks on the other?

Dennis likes scheming and planning hehehehe. So he's definitely a fan of doing pranks, but he's also. An asshole. This is the guy who t-bags Cricket all the time. My pranks are more cursed and funny than his.

Who is the one who listens to pop music?

MEEE I listen to pop music!! While I do have a super eclectic taste (tho who doesn't??), I'm definitely the one to annoy him with playing contemporary radio pop music.

Who brings the other a random cup of joe?

MEEE ME ME ME. I am. Such a service top. And I ADORE gift giving, especially if the gift I'm giving is a food item! I enjoy making food for Dennis! He doesn't always have good days with his ed, but when he's having a better day I make sure he eats some really good food.

Who picks the cheesy movies for date night?

This bitch loves Thundergun Express; Dennis is pretty cheesy when it comes to movies. He goes for the cheesy action movies a lot.

Who is more likely to feed the other in public?

I'm more likely to feed him. Mostly through asking if he wants some of what I'm eating. When he says he does I feed it to him.

Who gives the other random little compliments?

Surprisingly, Dennis! They're on the rarer side (and nonexistent if we are around any of the gang), but when he does it! AHHH!!!! They're things like, "you smell good" or "you're cute today," too AHHH BBBBFFGGHH!!!

Who is always stealing food from the other’s plate?

Dennis will steal food from my plate if it's delicious food I've cooked for us. We will be eating and he will want more because he takes smaller plate portions, but that would require going and getting more. Instead, he just steals from my plate. Which I love because it's such a compliment to my cooking skills!

Who is more likely to let the other borrow their car? 

WELL, I don't have a car (even for sunny, my s/i doesn't have a car)! I would be more likely, though. Because Dennis's Range Rover is his everything. He LOVES that car!!

Who makes the list before they go grocery shopping?

Dennis is the list maker for grocery shopping. I still grab extra stuff when we get there, hehe! Sometimes I add things to the list when he's not paying attention, and of course he notices immediately! He feigns annoyance, but I see that little smirk mister!

Who makes sure the other takes their meds when sick?

I'm super independent when it comes to others trying to care for me. I don't want to have to rely on my loved ones. It causes me trouble when it comes to communicating and stuff like that. Dennis makes sure I take my meds. He's kind of mean about it, but I know he does it to show its okay for me to depend on him.

Who watches sports and has to teach the other the rules?

Dennis watches sports. Anytime we watch The Eagles games I am always confused. While I grew up playing sports, I didn't play football! Plus, I only really like the Super bowl for the good food and quality time with friends. I ask him about what's happening and what each thing means whenever the team "gets a play" or something!

Who pulls the other to their feet for a dance in the living room?

MEEE I do!! I'll play a song on my phone and tug him from the couch to dance around his apartment living room. Sometimes Mac is there, and he'll boogie down with us if I'm playing more House music or something!

Who has to keep reminding the other to hurry or they’ll be late?

Dennis has to tell me to hurry A LOT. While his getting ready for the day routine is long and has a million steps, he has the timing all figured out. I like to do things super last minute and then rush around like a dumb dumb.

Who is the one most likely to get a tattoo with the other’s name?

Oh my god, I am so corny and cheesy I would definitely do this. BUT it would be either a super drunken or extremely high endeavor. later on I would be REALLY embarrassed about it. Dennis would definitely tease me to no end about it, too!

#self shipping #my golden god #self ship asks #THANK U ELLIOTTTT AHHH #i have another in my ask box to do next!! #probably in the next fEW DAYS #this took me a bit oopsie poopsie #oh i forgot a tag: #ed ment #bc of dennis ed u_u poor boy

[nicostolemybones]

Please share some of your favorite head canons

This is a question I have been dying to be asked for so so long now! I don't always use every one of these headcanons in my fics, bc I like to explore different possibilities and ideas, but these are headcanons that I have anyways! Imma categorise them, this might get long:

Lgbtq+

Trans Will Clarisse and Annabeth

Bi Percy Annabeth Jason Clarisse and Will

Pansexual, genderqueer Piper

Oriented aroace lesbian Reyna

Lesbian Thalia

Oriented aroace gay Leo Valdez

Gay asexual Nico

Angst

Nico being triggered by pink triangles (like imagine him at some party and there's pink bunting and he just starts panicking and having flashbacks, or seeing them on a notebook pattern, and most people don't understand why he has such an 'obscure' trigger

Will who suffers from compassion fatigue and existential meltdowns and who believes he has blood on his hands

Leo with a lung disease from all the smoke and chemicals and dust he works with (I know a fair bit about lung issues due to family having them)

Nico's trauma actually having an impact on him in general (I refuse to believe his trauma stopped manifesting when he got a boyfriend), like the insomnia and flashbacks and fading and the whispering shadows and phobia of the dark

Will being an all year round camper because either his mom is homophobic or neglectful, or he doesn't feel safe in the area he grew up in

Jason who is constantly afraid of his own strength and of becoming a weapon, or worse, being just like his father

Reyna who worries that she's unapproachable and unloveable because she has so many barriers up

Percy who slowly becomes so scared of water and of drowning that he's afraid to use his powers in case he hurts someone, and who struggles to shower sometimes because some days he's too scared he'll drown

Piper who is so scared of losing who she is that she has to ask her friends to tell her things about herself sometimes. She writes it all down on post it notes so she doesn't forget who she is

Piper who, after her claiming, constantly feels like she's too curvy, too pretty, looks to grown up, who doesn't feel comfortable to wear certain clothes she likes in case their too tight, because she's absolutely terrified of being sexualised she's just a teen

Hazel who develops the Midas touch, perhaps a curse, who can't even hug her own brother lest he turn to gold. She's terrified that she'll wake up one day and she'll truly have a heart of gold

Frank who struggles with body dysmorphia. Frank who used to be perfectly okay with his chubbiness until his transformation, Frank who doesn't understand what was wrong with his body, Frank who sees himself as a muscled freak, Frank who, when he starts to gain weight again, is terrified that he won't be good enough for anyone else. Frank who shapeshifts because it's harder to feel bad about a body that isn't even human.

Annabeth who is so scared of losing her intelligence that she revises way past her limitations. Annabeth who gets addicted to energy drinks and studying because not only does sleep give her nightmares, but she's terrified of not waking up, or waking up and forgetting. Annabeth with superstitious rituals to stave off dementia. Annabeth who can recite the periodic table backwards and can multiply triple digit numbers in her head because she's overworking herself because she's scared that if she stops she will forget

Thaila who gets such bad nightmares she sleep floats and wakes up terrified because she's so high up so she bolts down all her windows out of the fear she'll fly away and fall to her death

Fluff and miscellany

Nico and Hazel swing dancing to records played on a gramophone

Will teaching Nico to read and sharing music with him

Nico playing clarinet or violin and drawing

Will cannot sing but he tries dammit

Percy who rescues baby seals and turtles and volunteers at the local conservation centre and adopts a tiny baby shark that turns out to be not so tiny that he puts in the lake

Annabeth who loves kids and becomes a teacher and a writer, writing dyslexia-friendly books

Will who teaches at camp but the learning style is completely individualised

There's a big box of stim toys in the infirmary

Jason who rediscovers how to have fun, who picks up so many hobbies and interests he can't count and damn it's fun to not be a soldier and just be a kid

Knitting club

Autistic Solangelo

Multilingual campers teaching each other their native languages

Workshops at camp to help campers reconnect with their culture (Piper's idea)

Reyna and Thalia being the lesbian aunts of camp, who everybody thinks are cool af. Thalia being an edgy butch punk and Reyna being a badass femme with a sword

Clarisse who goes to bars just to spot creeps and keep people safe (nobody argues with her)

Hazel and Nico playing mythomagic and being close siblings

Nico who slips into Italian when excited, who forgets words in English and just uses the Italian word, who sometimes gets the grammar wrong, and nobody makes him feel bad about it

Nico who can cook because his mama taught him, and Will who once managed to melt a plastic plate on the hob, tried to make toast and caused a fire, and once ate a tub of slime because he was hungry

Nico sewing

Will knitting

Piper running body confidence and fashion workshops, but rather than just instagram make up and branded clothes, she also encourages campers to wear whatever the hell they want. Jumper with 100 patches on it? Valid. Boys in skirts? Valid. Girls in suits? Valid. Enbies experimenting with gender presentation? Valid. Wanna look like a feral forest dwelling cryptid? Valid. Want to look like a princess at a ball? Valid.

Will and Piper and Clarisse as friends who run an adventurecore blog and go hiking and cause general chaos together

Nico and Leo being close friends who make edgy jokes and talk about their moms and talk to each other in a weird mix of Spanish and Italian from what they've taught each other.

Frank who runs self defence classes and offers to pretend to be people's boyfriend to help them escape creeps. He doesn't care if he has to pretend to be gay, or if he has to pretend to be a girl, he'll do anything to protect people from creeps.

Will has a pet chicken

Nico hisses at people

Everybody respects that Nico is touch averse

Clarisse and Drew, who used to be bullies, who have genuinely changed and genuinely do good. They help people to recognise patterns of bullying in both themselves and others, they talk to the bullies and help them to reform, they help people to realise that bullying can be traumatic and you don't have to forgive a bully. Clarisse and Drew who open a Safe Space corner

#nicohasahappymeal #percy jackson #will solace #jason grace #piper mclean #headcanons #pjo headcanons #clarisse la rue #drew tanaka #frank zhang #hazel levesque #annabeth chase #reyna ramirez arellano #thalia grace #leo valdez #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #percy jackson headcanon #nico di angelo

[koiryuu]

Jitterbug (Hashiya Nanashi, feat. Hatsune Miku & MEIKO) analysis, from an autistic point of view

Disclaimer: This is based on my personal experience growing up with autism, and the experiences of the people around me. This song is also really gay by nature, so if MikuMei isn't your thing, this is your warning. Obviously this is in no way any sort of official analysis, and actually, ironically due to my autism, I may misinterpret some things or have a hard time not taking lines literally, so don't get mad at me if I get something clearly wrong. I'm just very passionate about this interpretation, and this song comes very close to representing a real (canon) autistic experience. No one else seems to comment on it from that point of view though, so naturally I had to write this up! This is also my first full analysis, and I'm not good at being concise, so please bear with me!

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Overview: The video, for me, is a major factor in how Jitterbug comes across as an autistic narrative. The name itself, while it is still a reference to a 1920s dance (befitting of the electroswing style of the song), doubles as a meaning for someone who can't sit still, and actually on a personal note was an affectionate nickname my family called me as a kid, so that tipped me off right away. All throughout the video, I noticed most of all, the way Meiko moves her hands while she dances is very close to stimmy behavior, not really like how a neurotypical would normally dance (nor is it a part of the jitterbug itself). While Meiko is moving her hands like that, Miku very often has something in her mouth, either a kind of stick, or the laser pointer, definitely suggesting an oral fixation. Of course, both girls obscure their eyes with sunglasses (I think Meiko's aviators look so cool), and while that definitely has some metaphorical meaning as others have pointed out in their analyses of the song, it's really not uncommon for autistic people to wear shaders and/or noise dampeners to combat overstimulation and sensory issues. None of these things on their own prove anything, of course, as the video is often a small part of a song's meaning, so let's dive into the main course!

Lyric analysis:

I can't talk about any wishes, nor my ideals

Giving out the same, invariant answer all the time

For being the first line in this song, this really already punches home the idea that Miku is dissatisfied with herself, and, as is often the case with autistic people, doesn't even know how she's supposed to navigate the world. She either doesn't know her aspirations in life, or doesn't know how to talk about them without being judged.

You don't need a rotten yesterday

Dump it before you get betrayed

Meiko, being the free spirit in contrast to the masking, frustrated Miku, assures her that she can't just hold onto bad things that happened, being judged or not knowing herself, she needs to dump her perfectionist tendencies and learn to live as herself a little before her own precariously-built persona comes crashing down on her.

Just fully utilize it, tame it

Can't give it away nor dye it tomorrow

I'm fully ready

Meiko tells Miku that she has to learn to work with herself the way she is, find her talents and use them fully, rather than constantly trying to change or push her feelings deep down. She can't give away her personality, and she can't truly make herself different inside, no matter how hard she masks on the outside.

Hungry critics that can't even move

are just glancing at you sideways

The people who would judge Miku for who she is are just hungry for something to laugh at, someone to other or exclude, but when it comes down to it, they're no real threat. If she can just get over that initial hurdle, she'll realize her haters are just pathetically lapping at any entertainment they can get, and they're really not that scary at the end of the day.

Who cares! Ignore those idiots

Given this is the first line they sing together, it almost feels like an admission on Miku's part, she wants to believe Meiko and stand up for herself for once, even if it is just among them for now.

Come at nights, grab my hand and dance

The girls are obviously fond of each other (just gals being pals), and in a way, understand one another on a deeper level than other people understand them, having similar neurotypes. Dancing itself is sort of a wild, energetic activity, that can help express a wide variety of pent-up emotions, and the jitterbug itself is a pretty manic dance that fits the image rather well.

Use your eyes only for me and let's light it up,

Your one and only, scorching laser light

This line is honestly just gay. I don't think there's any deeper meaning to the laser light specifically, but it is a cute thing to call your funky spunky girlfriend, isn't it? It actually may be a reference to how Miku really is on the inside, bright and strange, and often blinding and scorching to others. She hides that side of her pretty well normally, but with Meiko it's not only fine to be bright and weird and full of personality, but actually encouraged.

Fitfully ranking things and aligning them vertically

Abandoning my heart, I convert them to numbers out of impulse

Honestly, upon my first translated listen of this song, I didn't think absolutely anything autistic was happening until this line hit me. This is so autistic in nature, I'm surprised that a lot of analyses leave it out. Miku not only sees the world in sets and orders and numbers like many autistics do, but actually feels (most likely from outside influence) that by her brain being wired to see the world like that, she's abandoned her humanity and become a robot.

The magic gradually faded out

Instead, pessimism flowed in and was entrenched

I'm taking a little liberty here, but many autistics with savant syndrome (and/or gifted kid syndrome) are praised in their youth for the amazing things they can do, such as doing complex math quickly or reading at a faster speed than their peers, but later in life, when those skills are either no longer relevant or have averaged out, the things they used to be praised for become seen as annoying, not something to brag about, or a burden. Miku no longer sees the way her brain works as magical and special anymore, it's a curse and proof to her that she's not like the people around her.

Struck speechless by the awful scenery,

Very clearly overstimulation.

I linger in the raining streets, soaked from head to toe

Some wait for the sun, some grumble about the rain

All pointing at me inside their umbrellas

This line could very well be taken literally, but it's most clearly just a way of describing how different Miku is truly. She doesn't see the same things as bad as other people, she doesn't see the same things as good either. She could be the type that embraces darkness in life, both literally and figuratively. People may not actually point, but she can feel eyes on her, and it makes her feel even more alienated. Even when she tries so hard to fit in, there are some parts of her that are too obvious to change, and she knows she draws attention anyway.

Who cares! Ignore them right now

Let's smile, choose my hand and sing

Feel the rhythm with your heart and dance

I'm not sure exactly why, but the line about feeling the rhythm with your heart made me feel really connected to the song. It might just be because of my own personal music stim habits, but either way it's another line about leaving behind your facade, being as true to your nature as possible, and just dancing out your worries to the beat of the song.

On this rainy stage, as bright as the scorching light

This line embraces the idea of Miku preferring the rain. No one else has to like the stage they set for themselves, because when they're together, it's just about them and what they want to do. Miku can soak herself in rain and bright, scorching light, and just exist with no one around to point and stare.

Eyes go dim and words are lost

While this can just be a reference to depression in general, it's worth noting that many autistics have trouble showing expressions, and/or go nonverbal, often in response to stress or unusually upsetting circumstances.

The colors of today have faded out

Still, it couldn't end because of someone

This can be a way of insinuating that Miku is actually suicidal due to how she's seen by others, and Meiko is the one thing keeping her here, or it could just mean that Meiko stopped her days from getting too bad in a moderate sense. Either way, pretty gay, and shows more how much the girls depend on each other in mutual understanding.

Who cares! Ignore those idiots!

Come at nights, dance and grasp your aspirations

Referring back to the first line, Meiko does assure Miku that not everything needs to be worked out for others' sake, but by spending time with your true self and unpacking your feelings, the future you're supposed to have and the things that truly make you happy will become clear.

I shall dedicate my entire life to you

Let's shine on, like the scorching light

Reach your hands out, until the very end

Miku is in lesbians with her. Ending the song on such a gay note is never a bad thing of course, but it is a little anticlimactic for this analysis. Though, the line of reaching your hands out might actually refer to their hand movements in the video, symbolizing to keep being weird and authentic as long as you can, but that may be a bit of a stretch (or a reach, if you will)

Final thoughts: I have seen other analyses (though not as in-depth) about the meaning of the song, and while they definitely do have some meaning and I can see it from that point of view, there are just some obviously autistic cues that I couldn't ignore that just swayed my perception of the song entirely that direction. I'm not sure if I only picked up that meaning because of my own experiences biasing my view, or if I actually am onto something with the original intention of the song. If you guys have any insight to offer on any of the lyrics, or if I missed or misinterpreted something, feel free to let me know! Thanks for reading this far, honestly! 🌸

#vocaloid #vocaloid meta #meta #jitterbug vocaloid #vocaloid analysis #jitterbug analysis #actuallyautistic #hopefully the readmore works #suicide ment #mikumei #edit: the readmore does not indeed fucking work and i cant edit it on desktop so im sorry #long post

[candraz]

Okay so I'm feeling tired and kinda low today so here is some random personal headcanon about Pitch that no one asked for but I'll post them anyway 🙃 (there is some book spoiler) :

- he doesn't really need to eat and he doesn't like to (a bit like Pearl from SU), he find the whole process kinda gross even if he likes the taste of some food.

- the only exception would be almond pastries, it's one of his weaknesses, he literally can't resist them (for the French one who might read this : yes this is a ref from Kaamelott lol)

- he loves reading and have a personal library in his lair with an impressive collection. He has of course a preference for horror stories but he also likes encyclopedia, magic ones and human ones. (I think if he befriend Jack at some point he would definitely introduce Pitch to comic books and he would find some of them quite entertaining)

- he plays piano and violin and has an old vinyl player. Music calm his nerves and can help him cope when he's in a bad mood. (he's a fan of depeche mode and Abba but won't admit the second one)

- he hate sleeping. He won't sleep often and only if he really must rest because almost every time he try to he's plagued with horrible nightmares (some of them are memories of his past but deformed and tainted by screams or cursed image which also bring him a strong feeling of culpability and sadness when he wakes up). He also have sleep paralysis sometimes with pretty bad hallucinations. So he avoid it at all cost until he just kinda collapse of exhaustion.

- when he's happy he'll randomly dance, jump or stim for a bit. He's really expressive in general when he's feeling a strong emotion such as happiness or excitement. He also have some anger issues and can broke stuff out of frustration. (I once draw how his bedroom would look like in his lair and I imagine a big broken mirror on a wall and some part of his bed slightly broken or fissured)

- he likes to dance and is pretty good at it!

- he love stargazing, the only thing he hate about it is the sight of the moon but beside that he can spend hours just staring at the night sky. Some parts of him miss space and the idea of a home and family he once had far away among the stars...

- I picture him touchstarve. He use to love contact, hugs and kisses, he just have nobody around to have those anymore and would be too scared to share such intimacy with someone again anyway. But just petting his hair can put him to sleep fairly easy, a brush on his cheek or a little hug and he just melt. He crave for some skin contact. (and yes I'm still drawing a little comics about it, I'm just really slow x3)

- it's ironic but when he was still Kozmotis I like to imagine him like a really anxious person. He's constantly scared but hide it from everyone except his close friend and wife. He already had sleep paralysis back in the day and his wife helped him with them every time (kinda like nell craine and her husband in the haunting of hill house). But when he have to protect the person he loves and do his duty he always overcome his fears. I like that the master of fear is the most scared of all. (and if he ever become a guardian he would be guardian of bravery)

- he writes a journal to keep track of time and cope with loneliness and everything.

#Rotg #Pitch #Pitch black #Kozmotis Pitchiner #headcanon #It's all I can think off for now 👀 #But I might had some in the futur eheh #If you have some personal headcanon about him please share! #I'll love to read them ^w^ #And I would love to hear your thoughts on mine #I also didn't read all the books yet so I might add some related to them in the futur >:3

[ratboyfriendmoved-blog]

kazuichi souda headcanons

has adhd. stims with his hands a lot and also has lots of verbal tics. can't study or read for the life of him.

knows all minecraft crafting recipes and can do some wacky shit with redstone. has beat minecraft seven times.

loves physical contact. he will hug you, hold your hand, cling to you and never let go, ect

likes his hair long because he can run his fingers through it n braid it n other stimmy stuff but also cus he just thinks it looks neat! he also likes when people play with it..

has a very low self esteem and needs constant reassurance that he's a good friend and that he's not a bad person

easily excitable!!! you can tell him that you had waffles for breakfast and he'll be happy flapping all day cus he's just so happy for you!!!

makes his own fidget toys out of anything he can find. if he doesn't have something in his hands he will die.

hates silence, there's gotta be noise. he usually breaks silence by humming or making random noises (like imitating an engine hehe)

paints his nails!!! but it chips off really easily cus of his work which makes him sad

his teeth aren't filed or anything, they're just like that. he used to get made fun of for it until he just started biting people

loves music! whenever he's working he's usually wearing his headphones or blaring the radio. he likes lemon demon

his laugh.. he fucking snorts. and it's adorable. then he ends up wheezing which is just pathetically hilarious

he really enjoys playing video games, especially side-scrolling platformers like mario and sonic. his favorite video game character is knuckles

fortnite dances in public. im not even fucking kidding. this boy cannot stay still to save his life so sometimes he has to bust out a little orange justice to maintain his sanity

he sticks his tongue out a lot. when he's concentrating, posing for a pic, anytime babey! he can touch his nose with his tongue too

when he's not wearing jumpsuits he likes baggy hoodies, jeans, overalls, and cursed t-shirts he picks up from thrift shops

his favorite foods are tater tots, pasta of any kind, and chicken nuggets. he only drinks apple juice and any caffeinated soda he can get his grubby liddol paws on

he has.. trust issues.. and sometimes he's afraid that his loved ones are going to change their minds about him and leave him, which would never happen but he doesn't know that

likes comics and mangas. he really likes the transformers comic books

doodles everywhere, usually blueprints of a machine he wants to build or stick people. he's not very good but at least you can tell what he drew

loves animals. he never had pets growing up so whenever he sees a dog or cat or gundham's hamsters he has to pet it!!! they don't really like him back though cus he's just too excited for them, poor baby

he will prolly end up taking over his dad's workshop, but his real dream is to become an astronaut and go to space

#me #epic kinnie moment #danganronpa #kazuichi souda #long post

[the-heroic-changeling]

Civil Feedback

Wrote a seventh practice story, this is the first one to be a sequel to a prior practice story. Once again this stars Feedback, an autistic Muslim superhero of my creation. This story was written in one session, with minimum editing or polish, it was written just as practice. Still tagging @filipfatalattractionrblog @jogress @muceybbds @akirakan @majingojira @neshtasplace and anyone else interested in this little “sketch” of a story. And for reference, here is part one. 

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Feedback adjusted her new costume, a red veil that completely covered her mouth, nose, and forehead, leaving only her eyes. She wore a rainbow-colored belt with her icon on it, a neurodiversity symbol with radio waves coming off of it. The Muslim superhero sat in the back of an old car, listening to a receiver she had built while her friend Zimal drove through the streets of Ashwater.

“Thank you it … it just was so sudden.”

“It’s fine,” Zimal said as she wiped her sweat brow underneath her hijab, “be careful, alright?”

“I know. You can stop here, I can hear the sirens. Wait for me?”

“Of course. And be careful with that costume I made for you, it’s not bulletproof, it’s meant for a quick disguise nothing more.”

“I know, thank you again.” The car came to a stop and Feedback climbed out and began to move as fast as she could walk towards the sirens. She rubbed her fingers against some fringe on her veil, stimming to stay calm. Feedback appreciated Zimal’s modification, it let herself calm down.

Feedback was autistic, her civilian name was Nawal. Inspired by a therapy she underwent as a child, she used her electrician skills to build a headband that could project her brainwaves over a short range, allowing her to affect electronics. She had also implanted a transmitter in the police’s radios, letting her listen and find out what they might be planning. While the population of Ashwater were largely Pakistani, the police were mostly white, and did not secretly find the dark skinned Muslims beneath them.

The superhero briskly walked through the streets until her eyes were hit by flashes of red and blue. She strained to see up ahead, the police were shouting, pointing their guns at a black young man.

She had overheard the message, some white woman complaining about the neighbor being too loud. A simple annoyance. But Feedback could see the police screeching, shoving the man to his knees, gun pointed at his head. This was excessive force, needless to say. It made her ill, the kind of people who became police only wanted to lord their power over others, not protect order. 

Feedback rubbed her temples, focusing on the police’s belt. Then with a pop his taser overloaded, electrocuting the cop with a surge of electricity. He crumbled to his knees while Feedback targeted his partner, overloading her taser too. 

As the cops fell in pain Feedback shouted, “run,” and the young man staggered up and sprinted off, scrambling as frantically as he could. It looked like he was headed towards the local library, Good, a public place with people to help him. 

The autistic wiggled and pulled her fingers through her fringe, trying not to listen to the groans of pain. She … she was not eager to hurt anyone. But this was saving a life. And she was only using the weapons of the police against them.

One of them started to rise and she focused again, overloading his walky-talky. A sharp shriek erupted from the machine, sending him off balance. By now the young man had gotten some distance, he should be safe in a moment.

The superhero turned to their police car, trying to remember the electrical wiring. She had helped fix Zimal’s car, but mechanics was not her field. Still her memory was roughly right, and her brainwaves plowed straight into the battery of the car. 

The battery overloaded and fried, sending up a thick cloud of gray smoke from the car. The police were staggering upright by now, and the man had fled.

Feedback turned around and power-walked away, ducking into an alleyway. As she submerged into the shadows she unbuttoned her dress and pulled off her belt, revealing that much of her costume was a flap of cloth secured by the belt. She slid the flap behind her and then re-buttoned it, so that the brown inside of the flap covered her costume. She crabbed her veil and inverted it, turning it into a brown hijab. 

Nawal hooked her belt into her dress’s inside, finishing her transformation into her civilian clothes. The autistic flapped her wrists frantically, before descending further into the shadows.

She kept her headband on under her hijab, just in case. Behind her she could hear curses of confusion, the police were still disoriented, and with their car disabled they could not be able to pursue him. By then he might have some people to help protect him. 

He might be blamed for the overloads, the police might try to blame their injuries on him, along with the damage to her car. She had been a superhero for three months now, and she still had a lot to learn. She still made mistakes. But she knew if she had done nothing, then the man would have died. 

Feedback of course wouldn’t have interfered if the police had just responded appropriately, if they had just told him to turn the music down, she would not have escalated things. But she couldn’t trust them to do that. Too many people were gunned down by police every year, namely the disabled and people of color. Too many people in police custody died mysteriously, and the police just closed ranks, refused to even condemn their fellows. And the ones that did speak out, they did not stay on the force for long. 

Nawal was terrified living in America as an autistic Muslim with dark skin. And that fear turned to compassion, to try to offer others the safety and relief she lacked. 

She soon enough returned to Zimal and climbed back inside, and her friend drove away. “I could see the smoke from here. Did he … did the boy survive?”

“Yes,” Nawal answered as she threaded her fingers in her hijab, “at least for now.”

“That’s all we can ask for.” They drove off through the small city, while Nawal bent her head to pray in thanks.

#my art #superheroes #actuallyautistic #short stories #nawal feedback