#but i'd rather make a new ally i can trust

[knowlesian]

my last post and the shameless mountain goats reference i threw in there got me thinking about one of my favorite story beats, because it combines a lot of character work and thematic oomph in one: ed being a victim of his own legend and ability to protect himself by hiding in plain sight + codeswitch into the version of himself that best suits the company/situation he’s in, in many ways but often most visibly through his interactions with izzy.

my take on “is blackbeard real or fake” has always been “yes”; blackbeard is pieces of ed filtered and strained and assembled and pruned down in ways that scarred him even as they kept him safe, in ways that are very sad and often stretching the definition of safe as far as ed’s personal definition of murder. nonetheless: it got him to the place he's at, still alive. could he have done it another way? who knows! that was the way he did it, it's the way he knows will work because it did work.

or: he thinks he knows that. but the legend was never all of ed and in fact demanded he spotlight pieces of himself he doesn't like so much a lot and repress a lot of the things that make him feel good, it’s not helping/hurting anymore. it’s just dragging him down.

so ed is sick of the blackbeard schtick; and here’s the rub. if he’d been worse at the art of personal fuckery alongside the pirate type, maybe none of this is happening. the world never knows his name; or worse, once he gets spotted as a man who won't kill they mock it. 

that version of ed does not attract izzy ‘ask me about my boner for the sunk cost fallacy’ hands, or does not keep him. because izzy has built his identity around ed’s legend; who is blackbeard’s first mate, if there is no blackbeard? who the fuck even is izzy hands, if he’s not seated at the right hand of edward teach?

now. you would hope, in a better world, that izzy would be like you know, edward, the thing here is: you wanting something different involves emotional consequences for me. i would have to figure out my whole life over again and i am simultaneously con o’neill’s age and emotionally sixteen like the real world me was, so you can see that would be super complicated. i have so fucking much baggage and you are just adding to it, and i do not like that. also: this fucks up my work situation and my home life at once, it makes me feel sad and abandoned and itchy in ways i do not wish to label with words because they would be gay ones like ‘please don’t leave me, i love you and i thought it was mutual’ so like... world rocked, thoroughly and in ways that make me want to rant until past last call, in conclusion this sucks and i think it's twenty mistakes in a trenchcoat, some of them maybe life threatening! i wish you would not.

and then he would step back and let ed make his own fucking choices anyway and either do the work to figure himself out in the same space or finally grab those cds from the car and find his own place to do the same, because a shitty fact of adult life is sometimes people cannot be what we want or need. sometimes that is because they suck: sometimes, it’s just because they can’t or don't want to, and that isn't them being mean or withholding. they don't owe us more than the basic kindness and dignity we all owe to each other just because we put in our hours longing for them to do so. that’s some toxic, entitled shit. understandable! an impulse i share at times! but we should never be That Guy (gender neutral) because the friendzone doesn’t actually exist and nobody deserves to win someone else as a prize for hanging around long enough and driving them to the airport. that’s just called being friends, etc.

izzy is sadly currently stuck on being That Guy. so instead of realizing ed is an adult man and can make his own choices, even if izzy thinks they're bad ones, he fucking panics and starts swinging around and finally runs to big daddy england to make stede bonnet stooooooooop (messing with ed’s brain).

and of course he does something like that! he thinks a relationship is when you metaphorically own each other and when you can only be tender after putting your right foot in and then putting it out before once again putting it in and then proceeding to shake it all about, violent rituals unlock love style. he’s a desperate man in a hell entirely of his own making.

and so is ed, in this entirely different way but stuck in his own fucking orbit as firmly as izzy, only ed is trying to claw his way up and out to see what else he can be, while izzy would do juuuust about anything (including lick the king’s boots) to stay the same forever.

that’s some tragic shit. i love this writing team, the end.

#what if i staple no children to their heads when they're together what then #truly this is some good writing #like: i find izzy fascinating because he was written by the same team who wrote everybody else #he sucks in ways that i want to think about because they sometimes allow me to examine myself #and then sometimes let me laugh at his dumb ass or talk about serious thematic shit #he bears a lot of weight in the narrative because that's in part what a good antagonist should do #anyway yeah the sort of classic tragedy of these two is super interesting since like...clearly the show knows what's up #i maintain izzy is gonna figure his shit out and become a productive member of this pirate society tho #because okay like: in real life i know the best i can often hope for is somebody knocking a specific behavior off #and often they won't ever do that #but if they did the world would be better and they would be better and i would have another comrade #i will always settle for one less enemy if that is my only choice #but i'd rather make a new ally i can trust #and my fantasy is often that the izzys of the world in all their forms don't just knock it off #it's that they start fighting alongside me or become someone i don't mind being around because i CAN trust them now #(hey: i did say it was a fantasy) #so i kind of ask myself: what makes life better in this fictional world #an izzy who can't hurt people because he is no longer around or an izzy who has started to figure his shit out #anyway yes: this shit is sad and well-crafted

[thekoopalingsandstuffs]

Part 2/3

Topper: "Wait—What?"

Plessie: "This is why I didn't want you staying for long!! They're not very... Nice... You don't need to deal with them."

Topper: "Hey, they didn't seem THAT bad...!! Just, first impressions were a bit off... But I can put up with 'em! I've seen worse!! No need to apologize!!"

Plessie: :( "... I think you should go... Trust me, the longer you stay, the harder it is to put up with... I can hardly stand them myself..."

Topper: "Well... It's your house, so if you don't want me here, I'll happily go!!"

Plessie: "... No offense taken?"

Topper: "None at all!!!"

Rex: "So... How'd you meet your boyfriend, sweetie?"

Plessie: "In choir..."

Hooktail: "... Of course. OF COURSE she got one of those gay ass choir boys..."

Topper: ! "Did you say something...?"

Hooktail: "No?? Eat your food."

Plessie: "He's our new pianist..."

Rex: "How lovely!!"

Hooktail: "... Y'know... Plessie... I think it'd be real great if you were to change your electives... To life skills. Y'know? Wood-working class. Cooking class. Automotive repair class. Something USEFUL."

Plessie: "... I understand that, but I'd rather not. An elective, by the school's standards, doesn't have to be a "life skill class." I can graduate just fine taking choir all four years! And that's what I want to do! It's my passion and it's fun."

Hooktail: "Well, by MY standards, I want you to go out and do something USEFUL with your life. I don't care if it's your passion or fun!! If you live under my roof, you're gonna do what I say!!"

Plessie: "I WILL do something useful with my life!! I don't want to be a singer as my career—I just want to have fun while I'm still young and it's free!! We've had this discussion several times!!! Plus, that's only one of my electives! I can take plenty of "useful" electives, too! But in the end, it's my choice."

Rex: "Sweetie, your mother and I just think that you're... Wasting your time, ya know?"

Rex: "That's different—She's in middle school."

Plessie: "You both were still telling me to make "better choices" when I was in middle school!!!"

Rex: "That's still different."

Plessie: "How???"

Rex: "It just is."

Plessie: "HOW-"

Dorrie: "... Maybe we should be asking Topper questions about his life! He is the guest, after all!!"

Rex: "Good point, princess!!" :3

Plessie: !! "Topper, don't-"

Topper: "Oh, well, I consider myself to be an ally. My older brother is gay. And my other brother is trans. So... I mean. And I also have a lot of LGBT friends! I don't think I, myself, am part of the community, but. I support it 100%!"

Plessie: "Oh no-"

Rex: "Really?? Oh, interesting!! Good for them!"

Hooktail: "... Really. You have two gay siblings? That's a lot."

Topper: "Um. No, I said one is trans and the other is gay."

Hooktail: "...... Well, at least your family has one normal person in it..."

Topper: !!! "E-Excuse me??"

Rex: "What does trans mean? That's where somebody thinks they are genderless, but... They like to kiss women, right? And have pronouns?"

Topper: "Uhhhhhh......"

Topper: "Who is Tio?"

Plessie: "Dorrie's boyfriend..."

Dorrie: "Topper, I think you'd like him. You two could hang out and play videogames or something together while Plessie and I watch and cheer you on!!"

Topper: "Aw, that sounds nice. Well... Um... Maybe next time!" :3 "And perhaps then, we could go to his house."

Hooktail: "Isn't it impressive that Dorrie managed to get a partner way before you did, Plessie? Such a shame it must be."

Plessie: :|

Dorrie: "Mom, why did you have to say that...?"

Hooktail: "I just thought it was funny."

Hooktail: "... WHAT???"

Plessie: "...... Topper, didn't you say you have a doctor's appointment to go to right about now??"

Topper: "Um... Yeah, actually—I should probably get going—Thanks for all your hospitality—Plessie's gonna take me home now—BYE!!!"

[resuslurker]

I figured since I've just gotten a big push of new follows (thank you everyone) I'd reintroduce myself!

Hi! I'm a 30 year old male, bi sexual, in a polymerous relationship. I have been a resus fan since before I can remember and used to poke around this community a lot back in the old RH days, left after a mental health issue and needed some time to find myself away from the community, 7 years later I'm happy to be back.

Like I said, I am in a committed bi poly relationship and have a wonderful bf and gf for just under a year now so I am definitely not looking for any romantic connection here. We have great communication and trust though so my bf and gf know about my resus interests but we've agreed to set boundaries and keep our sex lives more in the vanilla realm so we can accommodate everyone's sexual needs and we each have a hall pass for kinky things as needed (there is little to no overlap in our kinks)

My interests- Defibs are certainly my primary focus when it comes to resus but I'm open to other aspects as well. Not a fan of blood, gore, or pregnancy I know some of those can be big hits here but they turn me off pretty hard. I'd say I'm about 50-50 maybe 60-40 in favor of Time Called conclusions, I like a little variety and I don't like fully knowing if the patient is going to make it or not, that's part of the drama and allure for me. I usually like a respectful amount of equipment, paddles, maybe a BvM, EKG, BP cuff all should be on hand I am a huge fan of m2m in person rps I am a fan of that middle ground between realistic and Hollywood. Give me normal looking shocks, but unnecessarily nude patients, dramatized language and doctors begging the patient to breathe. I have to know its fake but don't go so cartoony that I lose all the drama.

Will always be down for female patients Will usually be down to be the patient- especially for a female and male resus team Will inconsistently be down for male patients- most of the time I am but my comfort within my own bisexuality is still pretty new and it comes and goes

Aspects in women I like (quoting my gf here) Red Heads (not that I dislike any other hair color I just have a soft spot) Mediterranean women (Iberian, Italian, Greek, Jewish, North African, etc) Asian women Athletic women (not a certain type of athlete but athletic)

Aspects in men I like (again, quoting the gf) Blondes (more a specific turn on than with women) Athletic again Asian Men Nordic Men

General turn offs (this isn't to say I have any moral dislike of any of these people at the end of the day you do you, they just don't get my motor running in a sexual sense) Members of the trans community (I will fight for your rights as an ally any day of the week and love all of you, you will see no disrespect or hatred from me I have several close friends in the community- I simply do not find myself aroused) Severely overweight individuals (same deal, what you do with your body is up to you, no judgement just doesn't arouse me in any way) Smoking/Vaping (This one I might pass a little judgement on)

I also don't kink shame except for what I deem the unholy 3 -Scat -Piss - Furrys

If you're a fun of the above 3 DNI also Pedo's, underage, you know who you are DNI

I live in the Eastern Time Zone for the US (just for posting/rp line up reasons) I do work a 9-5 so I'm usually not available during the day though you may see me post there from time to time if I start scrolling during a quiet time at work.

Other quick things to know- I have RPed IRL with significant others very much enjoy it as a form of foreplay, I've found the stand alone RP to rather awkward I do not condone the trading of professional videos I also generally am not a fan of sexualizing non resus fetish media so I will not be posting any reblogs of pics or videos from OPandER, BioMed, RCD, RMP, or TV or movies and will only reblog amateur content or links to purchase professional videos.

#resus #resus community #resus writing #cpr #cpr resus #girl cpr #male defib #self defib #defib #defibrillator #defibrillation #male cpr #resuscitation

[blood-and-pizza]

For Fazbear Estate, I was just thinking about what would happen when Springtrap finally gets Charlotte to talk to him. Like, he finally manages to stop her before she can roll away in her gift box and he finally asks her, "Why are you always watching me?"

And she's like, "... It's a bit silly... but... I'm trying to make sure you're behaving yourself."

"Behaving myself?" Springtrap chuckles in amusement. "Do you really think I'd actually commit murder, Charlotte?"

"Well, no... but... in the games, my job is to try and stop you from doing bad things. So even if you're not really a killer, I feel like... like I HAVE to watch you. Just in case."

Springtrap processes this for a moment. "... So, keeping an eye on me gives you a purpose to fulfill."

Charlotte nods. "Yes."

Springtrap hums thoughtfully. "Robotic creatures like us thrive on fulfilling the purpose for which we are built for. Take away our initial purpose... such as entertaining humans... and we will do anything to find a new purpose. No matter how small."

Charlotte tilts her head to one side. "Not to be rude, but do you have a point?"

Springtraps chuckles. "You're retired from performing, which is what you are built for. Based on your in-game counterpart's backstory, you decided that watching me and making sure I behave is your new purpose. I find that... endearing."

If Charlotte had eyebrows, hers would have raised. "You... don't mind?"

"Of course not. However... if I may make a suggestion. Since I am not actually a villain who'd intentionally harm anyone... perhaps instead of simply lurking in my shadow, you might find greater fulfillment by befriending me instead?"

"You... want to be friends?"

"If you are going to make sure I behave, wouldn't the best way to do that involve earning my trust as a friend and ally? Of course, since this is a two-way street, I'm obviously going to make sure YOU behave as well, my dear. Friends look out for each other, after all."

"I behave! I always behave!"

"You consider your high impulsivity and its consequences 'good behavior', Charlotte?"

"... No. I guess not..."

"Friends help each other make better decisions. I can help you."

"... I don't need your help. Or your friendship."

"Aw, you wound me, dear. You can't possibly be fully content with the way things are now! What sort of crime do you hope to catch me committing? Jaywalking? Overdue library book? Really, when was the last time I've actually done something wrong?"

Charlotte thinks to herself... she can't think of a single thing. "... You haven't."

"Exactly. Don't you think life would be far more interesting for you if you tried to get to know me, rather than simply watching me from afar?"

"... Fine. I'll... I'll think about it."

Charlotte withdraws into her giftbox and rolls away.

#fnaf #fazbear estate au #fnaf au #springtrap #fnaf marionette #fnaf puppet #sorry for the fanfiction #fanfiction

[ask-the-praetors]

In two letters, one to each of them:

To Urabrask,

While I am willing to receive the gifts of Phyrexia, I wouldn't trust my mind to the touch of Jin-Gitaxias, as brilliant as he seems. Do you or any among those who ally themselves with you possess the skills to properly compleat a planeswalker, specifically one who desires compatibility with multiple colors of mana? I have some rather strong ideas about how I'd want my compleated form, and while I could improve it after the initial process, the problem involving the spark and soul remains.

To that end, what are your opinions on Tamiyo? She seems to be nearing the level of being taught the compleation process, and of all of the others mentioned through this communication, she seems the most willing to at the very least hear out your side. If possible, she might make for a wonderful ally, especially for requests like this one.

Signed,

Nova

---

To Tamiyo,

From one planeswalker to another, how are things in New Phyrexia? I am highly intrigued by Phyrexian technology, and augmentations, biological or mechanical, have fascinated me for a long time. As someone interested in possible compleation, has anything significant changed since your own transformation that you would be interested in mentioning? Have you made any modifications to yourself since the initial compleation process?

In addition, what do you think of Urabrask? I channel red mana myself, among other colors, and am curious as to possibly having him involved in my own compleation, despite how the other praetors may have disdain for him.

Signed,

Nova

You are wise to desire reforging and wiser still to avoid it by Jin's hands. The problem is that planeswalker compleation involves specialized components in Jin's possession, which my rebels do not yet have. I do hope to replicate or steal one soon, at which time you are welcome if you pledge yourself to freedom.

Tamiyo, and Jin's access to the technology that created her, is cause for concern. If she can be made to see reason, it must be while separated from her captor--which Jin knows, so he keeps her under close watch.

-U

Ah, another explorer! Well met, Nova. I am, of course, grateful for how my new family has reshaped me. My favorite, which could be of interest to you, is my vastly expanded information storage capacity--I carry story-scrolls still, of course, but I also contain vast libraries of history within my oil. No new modifications yet. I am not sufficiently trained for that, and I trust Jin-Gitaxias's judgement.

Urabrask worries me. He is tearing our family apart with his defiance. Please, do not let him lead you astray. I promise that you can have both your mana affinity and our love. We have a place for you, always; just come to us.

-T

#urabrask #tamiyo #mtg #magic the gathering #new capenna #kamigawa #new phyrexia #anon

[a-pale-azure-moon]

Midnight Plays Azure Gleam: Chapter 11

Betcha thought I'd forgotten about this, huh? Just more of real life getting in the way, and me spending most of my gaming time with Dragalia Lost in its waning days of existence (sob). I forgot to mention previously that I am chronically slow with playing through games in general.

This was a very long chapter, so there's a long post under the cut.

The narration says that after dealing with the Western Church, the Kingdom has now set up base in Gerth territory.

Rodrigue's back! He thinks things are finally settled in the western territories, and that the new heads of Houses Gideon, Elidure and Mateus should ensure there's no more internal rebellion.

Ashe is surprised that the rebel houses got to keep their territory. Dedue implies it may be temporary? (His line feels a bit out of place.) Rodrigue says dissenters always arise when the head of a territory is replaced, both among nobles and commoners. Felix is surprised things have gone relatively smoothly, to which Rodrigue reminds him that he has lots of experience with kingdom politics.

(Rodrigue's dad energy is so good. Not just towards Felix and Dimitri but to the Lions as a whole.)

Turning to the war, Dimitri recaps a report from Gustave that Claude is waiting for the ideal time to advance in the east, since Claude doesn't want to face Count Bergliez head on. So the Alliance is going to feign a deadlock and whittle away at the Imperial forces. Which is basically what was shown at the end of the last chapter.

Shez asks if they should wait to advance on Hevring territory until the Alliance can come help. Dimitri says no, since if the Kingdom proves a great enough threat, it will draw more of the Imperial army westward, which will give Claude an opportunity.

Felix wonders if Claude can be trusted. Annette speculates he might be trying to wear the Kingdom down so the Alliance can attack it later. (Again with this stuff. I know Claude's the "schemer" by reputation, but what exactly has he done in this story that makes him so untrustworthy?)

Ingrid at least thinks Claude is on the level, as long as they have the same enemy. ....And then in the next breath says that he's "tricky to pin down." [Sigh] Mercedes doesn't think it hurts to be too cautious. That's not a bad mindset, but this is still coming across as contrived, IMO.

Dimitri offers reassurance, saying that if the Alliance did try anything, Gustave and the Knights of Seiros should be enough to stop it. So we're to proceed with Claude's plan. Dimitri wants to end the war as soon as possible, for the sake of everyone caught in the middle.

Rodrigue asks if Dimitri can "topple" Edelgard. (I'm assuming this is a euphemism for kill.) And he means this from an emotional standpoint, rather than a strategic one. Shez says anyone would hesitate to cut down their own family.

Dimitri asks Rodrigue if he really thinks he's incapable, considering he executed Rufus. He still has questions for Edelgard about Duscur, and then says he's not so different from her in starting wars of their own volition.

(I'm sorry, what? HOW are their actions the same? Dimitri is trying to end the chaos that Edelgard created when she declared war on the Church of Seiros. THIS IS NOT THE SAME THING!)

(I am so effing done with this "both sides" bullcrap. Over and over again the writers keep trying to force this false equivalency between the Empire's actions and the Kingdom's reactions, and it's wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. There is a HUGE difference between starting a war of aggression and defending your sovereign nation and your allies from that aggressor. IT. IS. NOT. THE. SAME.)

Dimitri says that if Edelgard refuses to yield, then he will take her life. (Shades of Azure Moon. Will we get another parlay between Dimitri and Edelgard in this timeline?) Rodrigue is pleased to hear it, and then hands over a letter he found during his inquiry with Viscount Elidure.

...The letter is from Patricia. Oh no.

Rodrigue has already read the letter, and says it has no new information, but he thinks Dimitri will probably find it disturbing. Dimitri says he'll read it later.

...Which is apparently right now for us, because the scene immediately changes to Shez and Dimitri discussing the letter. It was a missive to Viscount Elidure requesting cooperation in the conspiracy. Patricia/Anselma expressed sympathy for the Viscount's objections to Lambert's reforms, and said the Viscount would have a lot to gain from Lambert's death. Dimitri had the letter checked for any signs of forgery, but it's apparently authentic.

So yeah, Patricia did indeed participate in the Tragedy of Duscur. Ouch.

Dimitri says that every memory he has of his stepmother, she was "looking past" him, like the person she really cared for was somewhere else. But he still finds it hard to come to terms with her crimes, even in the face of solid evidence. He says he counted Patricia among the people he wished to avenge, but now she lies "squarely in the path of his fury."

(Note that Dimitri is sad/regretful as he's talking about all this, not angry. What a raw deal he got; the only mother he ever knew, whom he loved as a mother, cared so little for him that she was willing to sacrifice him in a regicide plot so she could go back to the Empire.)

(Press X to hug!)

Shez unhelpfully calls the whole thing "heavy stuff" and then Dimitri notes that something seems to be bothering Shez and asks what it is. (How typical of Dimitri to be worried about his friend while he's grappling with this awful bombshell. Some things never change!)

Shez brings up Myson and how he was familiar with Shez's powers. Shez isn't sure they trust themselves anymore, and wants to know the truth of who they are.

Dimitri says he trusts Shez. Shez asks what would happen if they suddenly transformed and attacked him (foreshadowing?), and Dimitri says he would stop them, and trails off before actually saying he'd kill Shez if he had to.

Shez says death is a good motivator to get their powers under control. Arval is upset that Shez sounds like they're OK with Dimitri killing them if the need arose. Hm....

Camp (Mideastern Gerth Territory)

Dorothea is worried about "Edie" and outright wonders if she's dead.

An NPC mercenary says a bunch of people have been defecting from the Empire lately. Said mercenary is actually one of those defectors; she chose to fight for the Empire at the start of the war because they seemed stronger, but now her money's on the Kingdom.

Now Marianne is worried about Edelgard. What earthly reason does Marianne have to be worried about Edelgard? They weren't even classmates during the whole month the Officer's Academy was open. What the hell?

Annette feels guilty that we're the ones "invading" now. Yes, that's true from a technical standpoint, but.... (That sound you hear in the background is my teeth grinding together.)

An NPC merchant talks about being rescued by the Knights of Seiros. He says he used to think the Central Church was "garbage" but now thinks he was mistaken.

Balthus and Yuri are bickering like a married couple, lol.

An NPC Kingdom Soldier says Jeralt's group works for Randolph. That guy again, huh?

Petra doesn't think Brigid will be having any relations with the Empire after the war. (Good for her.)

Flayn wants to save the people, even if it means fighting to do so.

An NPC Empire soldier expresses concern for Randolph. It's kind of insulting that this game's insisting Randolph's a good guy I should care about when his most memorable appearance in 3H was when Dimitri directly challenged his hypocrisy. Randolph has never been anything more than a Red Shirt.

Rodrigue wonders if he should've given Patricia's letter to Dimitri. (I think he did the right thing for the record, painful as it is.)

Paralogue: Raiders From the North

Woo! A paralogue featuring Dimitri, Sylvain and Rodrigue!

Shez complains about the cold, and says there's no snow (again). Sylvain says it's often coldest where there isn't snow. (Right, I'm sure the beaches of Hawaii are much colder than the top of Mt. Everest. /s)

(For the record, I live in a place that has long, cold winters and I have no idea what Sylvain's line is supposed to mean. It's true that if the air gets cold enough, snow cannot fall, but the coldest section of my state is the one that typically gets the most snow every winter overall, not the least.)

(In other words, give me my goddamn snow map. Or at least stop treating me like an idiot incapable of seeing through your contrived excuses for the lack of one.)

So this is all about invaders from Sreng, as the title implies. Shez asks if Faerghus and Sreng are mortal enemies, and Sylvain says it's not quite that but that there's always been fighting between the two. When Faerghus won the northern campaign years ago, the Sreng leader offered his youngest son as a POW, and that same son is now leading the current raid.

Rodrigue explains that Margrave Gautier's first wife was lost during the Sreng offensive (this is Miklan's mother), but in an effort to foster better relations, Matthias taught the POW the Faerghus language and customs and treated him well. But the prisoner escaped at the first opportunity.

Dimitri notes that our opponent would know more about Faerghus strategies than a typical Sreng commander would.

Matthias enters, and explains that we're heading for a place called the Ruska Mountains. Rodrigue knows the stronghold and notes that it's like their re-enacting the northern campaign. Matthias apologies for dragging Dimitri into this matter, but Dimitri naturally doesn't mind.

Sylvain cracks a joke about slacking off and gets an (implied) death glare from his dad and immediately walks it back, lol.

Rodrigue self-deprecates that he's just a common military man now, and Matthias calls him out on his false modesty. (These two are great together. You can see where Sylvain and Felix get it from.)

Matthias exhorts everyone to make "our king" proud. But I get the impression he's referring to Lambert, not Dimitri.

Pretty big map, but it doesn't look too complicated. The goal is simply to drive back the Sreng army. Matthias joins us as a green unit, and naturally we have to keep him alive.

Dimitri remarks that his father once stood on this battlefield. Sylvain isn't sure how he feels about repeating the same fight.

Rodrigue says he feels like he's fighting beside Matthias and Lambert again. Sylvain is flattered, but doesn't think he can compared to his dad. Dimitri says he's more than worthy of the comparison.

After defeating the Sreng generals, reinforcements come in, and we're given three strongholds to seize in a limited time.

Sylvain says that the enemy's tactics remind him of his father's chess strategies.

At Sylvain's prompt, Rodrigue talks a bit about Matthias' first wife. She was a classmate of theirs at the Officer's Academy, the star pupil of the Black Eagles. Dimitri says Matthias got his "Wall of Ice" title after her death. Rodrigue affirms this, and says that Matthias was lively and cheerful before that. (So he was more like Sylvain, I guess.)

There, seized the strongholds in time....and a buttload of reinforcements come out. The boss music kicks in as the Sreng leader taunts us. Defeating this round of reinforcements lures him out to play. He makes a beeline for Matthias, but since he hangs out at the center of the map, that's not a problem.

The commander has a little friendly-ish banter with Sylvain after he's defeated. Interesting.

A Rank, once again because of a too-low killcount (1356/1600). Paralogue battles in particular seem to have excessively demanding kill requirements. Dimitri won the MVP, naturally.

After the battle, Matthias says he's never seen this kind of ferocity from Sreng forces before, but says he's still surprised the commander tried to "batter" his way into Faerghus like that.

Shez thinks maybe Sreng saw the war as an opportunity for them. Dimitri wonders if someone from Adrestia incited them to attack, and Rodrigue mentions it could've been Cornelia's allies. (He likens them to a "bad rash," lol)

Matthias says the fault is still his for educating the Sreng commander in the first place. Sylvain says he shouldn't blame himself, and Dimitri points out that because the commander spoke their language, Sylvain was able to speak with him briefly.

Dimitri says he was raised to think of the Sreng people as demons, so even exchanging a few sentences with them feels like a "miracle." Sylvain agrees, as they can't achieve peace without understanding each other.

Matthias gets angry, since he can't see a way to peace with Sreng. Sylvain tells him he'll find a way, even if it takes his whole life. Matthias calls him naive and storms off. Rodrigue runs after him.

Dimitri compliments the earnestness of Sylvain's words. Sylvain reiterates that he's determined to make peace between Faerghus and Sreng somehow. Dimitri agrees that there's no need to use military might if another way is possible, and say he appreciates the way Sylvain thinks. Sylvain says he's impressed with how much Dimitri hates warfare considering he's good at it. (This whole exchange between them is great stuff; it's like the A support they never got in 3H. <3)

Shez asks if the Margrave will be OK. Sylvain says if Matthias really thought he was a naive idiot, he wouldn't have said anything at all.

Cut to Rodrigue and Matthias. They reminisce a bit about their time as students, and Matthias says Lambert wanted to forge peace between Faerghus, Duscur and Sreng. (Knowing that makes what happened to him even more tragic. Ouch.) Matthias remembers calling Lambert naive back then, but now wonders if he's actually the naive one, because he can't see things now as Lambert once did. He wonders if maybe peace with Sreng is possible after all.

Rodrigue says he hasn't changed at all, and tells him that if he regrets what he said to Sylvain, he should apologize. Matthias agrees.

...But we don't get to see that scene, though we get the Lance of Ruin (woo!) which strikes me as a very "Faerghus Dad" way of apologizing.

Really liked this paralogue. The battle was fun, there's some interesting worldbuilding bits and some great character interactions. Good stuff all around!

Battle

So we're taking on the forces of four Imperial houses at once, including Essar and Ochs, who should sound familiar. Dimitri reminds the group that we're the invaders this time. This particular short speech is fine on its own, but since it sits on top of the steaming pile of both-siderisms the game keeps throwing out, I can't help but be a little annoyed by it. Again.

Annette says this battle is the key to stopping the war. Ashe says he believes in this path, and Felix, Dedue and Sylvain chime in with similar sentiments, along with their support for Dimitri. Rodrigue says it's time to show the Empire what happens when they cross the people of Faerghus.

Another very big map, with an intimidating kill count of 2000. (Ugh). Our final Wolf, Constance, is here to recruit, and so is everyone's favorite sleepyhead, Linhardt. Opting to recruit them both requires nearly all of the Strategy Points!

Starting off, it's the usual "defeat the vanguard and seize a few marked strongholds" thing. Mercedes thinks it seems too easy, which is probably a hint that there will be something different on this map soon enough.

Seizing the next designated area now makes Rodrigue think things are going too smoothly.

Ah, now we get to pursue Monica. We also have to seize many more strongholds, some of which are annoyingly behind locked gates. There's a Gatekeeper we have to take out first.

....And of course, it's some kind of trap. Defeating the Gatekeeper spawns Hanneman, who proceeds to start dropping Bolting spells. Linhardt also appears (as a Holy Knight!) with a bunch of reinforcements.

Oh and there's Constance too, jeez. As well as some of the faceless Imperial nobles who sound very eager to bury the Faerghus army.

There, recruited Constance and Linhardt. Linhardt sounds super whiny after being defeated, lol.

The faceless nobles just retreat after being defeated. I'm a little disappointed. If the game wants me to feel bad for invading, it's gotta let me draw some blood, you know?

Oh, we get to actually kill Baron Ochs. Not that it matters since he's not really a character. Monica's reaction to his death is pretty underwhelming too, but she does finally come out to fight.

And Manuela's here now too. Haven't seen her yet at all, I don't think.

Oh come on! Even Monica just retreats. I wonder if she'll be like Ferdinand and Hubert and conveniently die/disappear offscreen. Does this game want me to feel bad about fighting the Empire or not?

So there's a gimmick with Manuela and Hanneman, in that she'll keep healing him when you bring his HP close to zero. There's probably a limit to how many times she does this? I don't know, but Rodrigue points you to defeat her first, so that's what I did. And yup, they both just retreat upon defeat. [Eyeroll] Dimitri speculates we might see them again though, so...maybe that's foreshadowing.

The final boss is Duke Gerth. Why this guy and not one of the characters we actually know? For a "climatic" clash, this is seriously underwhelming in terms of drama.

...Holy crap even Duke Gerth retreats. [Facepalm]

I got the S Rank! I just barely eked out enough kills, 2060. Dimitri won the MVP, yet again.

Post Battle

Rodrigue says the Imperial nobles will battle to the end to fight for their homes (which is why they run away after being defeated, apparently /s), just as the Kingdom would. This is true, and exactly what I would expect. Sylvain says it's exhausting just thinking about it, and Ingrid reminds him that they're doing this to bring peace to Fodlan.

Dimitri says that if the Empire and Kingdom can't coexist, then there's no choice but to fight. Sylvain agrees, since it's obvious what'll happen to Faerghus if Adrestia is left to do what it wants.

Rodrigue is impressed with everyone's resolve, and says the future of Faerghus is bright. (That great dad energy again!) He says that when the war's over, the king's the one who will get labeled as the invader. (That is usually how things work in history.) Felix gets mad and tells him not to put everything on Dimitri. Rodrigue tells him that his duty as the Shield is to support the king. Felix scoffs and says that's obvious.

Cut to Shez and Rodrigue alone. He's up late doing strategy work, so as to make things easier for Dimitri. They both comment on Dimitri's workaholic tendencies, and Rodrigue says Lambert was like that too.

Interesting: Lambert also became king at a young age. Shez asks if Dimitri is that much like his father, and Rodrigue says they'd be hard to tell apart if they were in the same room together now. (D'awww) He does add that Lambert apparently had a shorter temper, but that they're overall birds of a feather, unlike himself and Felix.

Shez says that Rodrigue and Felix actually are pretty similar (they actually are, once you get past Felix's tsundere-ness), with how they both take initiative on important matters. Rodrigue is flattered, and tells Shez to say that to Felix as well, lol.

He says Felix is a lot like him, but in ways he'd hoped they wouldn't be. Shez asks what he means, and Rodrigue says both he and Felix need some greater purpose in life. Rodrigue devoted himself fully to supporting and serving Lambert, and when he died, he lost his reason for living, and had to search for a new one. In the end, he renewed his devotion to Lambert by seeing through a promise he made. Shez asks what that promise was, and Rodrigue says that he was to set Dimitri back on the proper course if he ever strayed from it.

(The feels! If you've forgotten, this is a direct callback to Azure Moon. Rodrigue's promise was expressed/recalled when he died protecting Dimitri after Gronder.)

(...Wait a minute...)

Rodrigue says he won't be here forever, and he's glad Dimitri has friends like Shez. Shez says they feels like Dimitri's the one helping them, not the other way around.

Oh man. Rodrigue says it's not enough to simply stand by Dimitri's side and support him; he "needs someone to grab his hand and pull him in the right direction."

In other words....

[Squeeing noises]

Shez asks if Rodrigue doesn't think he can do that, even with Gustave's help. Rodrigue says he and Gustave are just Dimitri's retainers, and so can't see Fodlan through his eyes. But Shez stands on equal footing with him as his friend.

(Ugh, that line immediately jerked me out of my happy zone. I'm outright starving for any kind of Dimileth crumbs at this point.)

They talk a bit about Shez's background, and then Arval comments that Rodrigue is a true man of character and a wonderful person. (Agreed!!) Then Rodrigue asks for Shez's thoughts on how to stage an ambush, and we fade to black.

I enjoyed this scene with Rodrigue immensely, but it's giving off the same vibe as his late-night conversation with Byleth before Gronder, and we all know what happened there. Should I be worried?

This chapter was very much a mixed bag. The paralogue was great, there were some good side battles, and there's the emotional moment with Dimitri about his stepmother and this moving conversation with Rodrigue. The main battle was fun to play but abysmal in terms of executing the drama the narrative was trying to build, and the attempts to "both sides" this conflict continue to be infuriating, if not outright insulting to my intelligence. [Shrug]

#fe3hopes #few3h #azure gleam #blue lions #midnight plays azure gleam

[iridescentblood]

Breathless

Here I am again sad blog. Wow oh fucking wow it's truly been a minute now. Would you believe we made it to 2024? You couldn't convince me at 16 I'd live to be 26. I was damn sure I'd be dead by now, and if I'm being honest with myself I think I am. I didn't even read my last post before starting this because I think the pain of the title might sting just a little too much, it's probably exactly why I'm here tonight typing on this stupid box. Wide awake, breaking into smaller pieces, with a pain that feels deeper then any cut I've ever managed to slice into my own skin..but no this time the cut came from a person I actually loved- that I do love still, right now. After everything. After I really fucking thought this time I had the real thing. The kind of love some people dont even get lucky enough to feel in their lifetime. I thought I was safe, that for once in my stupid existence there was going to be another person by my side through this shithole life to the end. I guess I had some false sense of security, like I was just one of the lucky ones. I trusted this man could fix his mistakes, rise above our hardships, the things that life threw at us, because I thought that as long as we were together, nothing was unachievable. But the hard truth is that once something is broken, it can't ever quite be the same as it was before. Maybe the love was real, but I've grown enough now to realize there's so much more to a successful partnership than that alone. The love of my life simply can't be the man I need him to be to live this life with me. I should be sleeping because tomorrow I'll find out if I'm pregnant or not. Il have to make a decision about having an abortion or keeping a baby with a man I'm no longer with. I'm supposed to be ok with all this somehow, not break down because I'm starting a new job that requires me to be at my best- the top dispensary in Thousand Oaks, more money, more opportunities await me. Why is it so badly then that at the end of each night when I drive home I'm fighting every second to not drive off a bridge? I guess I'm not strong enough. I'm going to make all new friends they say, I can work on myself and do me, explore my passions again, find out who Ally really is all on her own. But you know what? I'm pretty sure I know who Ally is when she's all alone and I'm fucking terrified. I spent more time sitting completely by myself as a child than anyone I've ever known, and I remember her well. Is there something wrong with me? That I'd rather be with a man that has broke me more then a I've ever fucking thought imaginable then be all alone? I want to believe that I can stay strong and move forward with my own life, but I can't erase the pictures I already had in my head with him in them. I wish I could burn them, stop feeling, burn my whole fucking body so there's not an ounce left that Nick touched. Then maybe, just maybe I could breathe again. Right now I'm slowly dying every night and I'm not sure how many breaths I have left.

[dani-sdiary]

My 3 Requirements (Ranked in Order of Importance, from Most to Least)

Okay, so, he has to hold the same values and beliefs. I know a lot of couples have different backgrounds or religions, but I personally would want us to feel the same way and have similar lifestyles, especially since I would like to raise my children in a particular way.

a. I am agnostic, a Democrat, a feminist, an ally, pro-choice, etc., and I would need him to be as well. I'm not super-super involved with politics or attending every single march, but I know how I feel, I feel very strongly, and I am firm in my beliefs. It would be perfectly fine with me if he was more or less active in politics than I am and if that changed over the years, and he would have to be okay with my level of activity. I'm not a walking dictionary of every single new term and I make mistakes, but I respect everyone and everyone's identity and I would need him to as well. We can disagree on the minutia of some issues as long as we agree overall. For example, I think abortion should be available until the age of viability, around 6 months, but if he thinks it should be 5, that's not a dealbreaker for me. If he was raised in a different way but became agnostic and liberal later in life, that's fine, too.

2. We have to want the same type of relationship and the same things out of life. I have nothing against it, but casual dating just isn't for me. I am looking only for a serious, long-term, exclusive relationship, and it's okay with me if I only ever have one relationship or sleep with one person in my life. I also want to wait a long time, I don't want to say until marriage, necessarily, because I can't know how I'll feel in the moment, but I want to wait until I love and trust someone completely. That might be until marriage, it might be until engagement, it might be 1 year, or six months. It would also depend on how long we knew each other before we started dating. If we met on an app, it would be much longer than if we were set up on a blind date by a trusted friend, and that would be much longer than if we knew each other or were friends beforehand. I am looking for a life partner that I marry after maximum 2 years of dating and 6 months of engagement and have children with.

a. I would love to adopt someday. I've always wanted to be an older parent, maybe even having more of a grandmother-type relationship with the kids. The adoption process itself takes several years, and I want to be in a place where I can take a few years of maternity leave. And I should probably learn how to take care of myself before I become a parent. I would need him to feel the same way. b. I want 2 and I want them to be spaced out from each other, at least 12 years. That's the way it was with my brother and me- we're 14 years apart. We never fought, we never had to share anything, our parents didn't have to worry about buying two of everything and always making sure everything is perfectly equal. When my brother was a moody teenager and wanted to be left alone, my parents had an infant that needed more attention. My brother had space and could help more with the new baby. I got my own room when he got his own apartment. I love him so much; he gives the best advice. We're very close even though I essentially grew up as an only child. I got the best of both worlds. The absolute oldest I'd want to be when I adopt would be 78 for my second kid. I'm Latina, but they could be any race and any gender, though I do want them to be older than newborns, but younger than preschoolers. I would much rather raise these children with a partner, but one of my dreams in life is to be a mother, and being a single mother isn't the determining factor for me in whether I adopt or not. c. I want to raise them in blue-state New York, for the schools, and the culture, and to encourage independence, but I want us to travel often. I want to teach them Spanish, my first language, and enroll them in a bilingual school. I want them to play at Central Park and see musicals and feel that they can be anything they want when they grow up. d. I know this is a tall order (you think?), but it's my dream. What can I say? I'm a planner, I'm a worrier. This is exactly how I want to do it, and if I can't afford it, then, honestly, I would rather not have children. Of course there will be plenty I can't anticipate, but I want to be as prepared and sure as I can be, and that's in New York. Maybe my life is going to look completely different, and that's okay, I've made my decision for now.

3. The last thing, less strict than my other requirements, is he would have to be reasonably close to my age. "Reasonable" will expand as I get older, but for now, when I'm 18, reasonable definitely starts at 17 and maxes out at around 23. Later on, I would feel much more comfortable dating someone even significantly older than a few years younger, but if the love of my life happens to be outside of my normal dating pool, that's okay. I wouldn't break up with someone solely because of our age difference, unless it caused significant conflict in our relationship. I just think that if it weren't age, it would be something else, like distance or work-life balance.

I'm usually very shy, except from when I'm spilling my guts about my sex life on the internet, of course. I'm a homebody and an introvert, and while I wouldn't want to limit myself to only one "type," I do often go for someone more extroverted and vivacious, someone who balances me out. I heard you know your standards are too high if you don't meet them yourself. The most important thing to me is compatibility, and I meet all of those standards because they all relate back to me, to having things in common. I know I'm very specific, but it's what I want, and I don't want to lead anyone on or force anyone to be in a relationship with me when we want different things. I know there's a strong possibility I'll stay single forever because what I'm searching for just doesn't exist, and that's okay with me. I still want to hold out hope and keep looking.

#dating #love #lovers #relationship #relationships #couple #couples #romance #romantic #dating apps #marriage #honesty

[allylikethecat]

1, 6, and 12 please & ty <3

AH thank you very much for sending this in! I am assuming it's for the Fanfic asks for the new year situation! (If anyone else wants to send any, that would be super fun and also make me very happy just saying 👀)

1. Do you have a word-count goal for the upcoming year?

I don't have a formal word count goal (I apparently posted 321,004 words on AO3 last year though which just feels absolutely insane) - I know I typically try to write 500 words a day as a personal goal, whether that's for original fiction, part of a fic, or just something random that might slot into something else later on. I AM doing a personal challenge for January though where I have taken a list of 31 January OTP prompts and my goal is to fill a prompt with 500 words each day. We'll see if that actually happens. I guess rather than a "word count" goal, my goal is to finish all of my current 1975 wips.

6. Which yet-to-be-started fic is first on your list?

In terms of "I've started writing it but haven't started posting it" I have my Equestrian AU fic that I am so ridiculously excited about oh my gosh. I want to finish my Christmas fic first but once I do get excited because this Equestrian AU might just be my new favorite child. In terms of "haven't started writing but have started outline", next up will most likely be The Nashville Fic™️

12. Will you change anything about the way you edit or rewrite this year?

I'm going to try and stick more closely to my outlines so I don't have to make as many plot based edits or do as many rewrites. Hopefully if I can stick to the outline I'll get the plot stuff right the first time. I'd also love to have a beta reader again. My former IRL bestie got a boyfriend and doesn't have the time or desire to do fic things anymore. Which, totally get and respect, but I really miss having such a trusted sounding board.

Thank you so much for sending these in!! I hope you are having a great week and a very Happy New Year! Thank you for reading and for your continued support!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #fanfiction #keep it kind #matty fic #gatty #questions #answers #fanfic asks for the new year #these are so fun #thank you for sending them in! #All The King's Horses #The Nashville Fic

[maceingeweihter]

i can tell that i won't be making it out to Idaho. My plan was to ask the "church" people yesterday, but i burned the bridge. Tbh though, I'd rather have nothing to do with them. It was repulsive really and I'm glad i didn't take anything from them. I also waited all day to ask some Baptists, but i felt it was grimmy asking people i haven't even met. I showed up but left right away.

So now the story changes. Perhaps i mistimed the dream and pulled the cover on my closet Masonic dad early? After all, they were already in a new city but...the dream splintered. It was a separate dream which completed. A tornado swirling down to FFaribault...except there is nothing there. No house. No family. They won't be moving there.

So Idaho is off the table. Maybe until next summer? And by then, i hope to have found someone to partner with. In the meantime, the grass will have to fade to yellow and the snow will come here. I don't anticipate being able to earn enough money to leave. Of course all of this happens when i have no vehicle, no licence, and parents embezlled money onto to steal it from me. I have to do small claims or larger. It's $42000 and i owe several creditors soon. To bankrupt or not to bankrupt? It's around $20000 in debt.

I know that they are both "afraid" of the girl in Idaho. Especially my birth dad. He advised me over and over that he hated Idaho. And when I showed him the lady he was like, "no." As a business trip they shouldn't have been a problem. No romance planned.. The more they kick against it the more i realize that something is there for me. But...now i have to trust that my idea for mining hasn't already been passed up in chain of command of the Masons. After all, my dad broke into my room and read all my journals password ect...i try not to worry but hopefully it's not the biggest financila mistake of my life leaving idea journals around with "supposed" allies. I also left my shit with a 2nd closet Mason (Baptist) and i can imagine they read through everything. His dad must also be a closet prostitute in Masons.

Just looking now for woman after woman who will give me a chance to business. To gamble. None of them biting. So, i think i will start asking the men if they are interested. But ughhhh men...so not pretty like women. It's irrelevant now. Just need to get one person to believe in the skill God (through Christ) has blessed me with.

[papofglencoe]

Bahahaha what do you think of the fact that Peeta never had this like ~moment~ where he got his full memory back and understood the truth all at once? I think 99.99 percent of readers loved the symbolism and tragic realism that he never did and had to piece by piece slowly recover himself but I’m like that .01 percent that is like … I love cliches, give me that like tragic fall to your knees moment where he sees the truth and lies so clearly.

Maybe it was Suzanne’s intent though that I would want that and it would never come. Like you kind of gotta keep people wanting 😭😭😭😭😭

I saw this late last night and couldn't sleep because I was so excited to write back (at a human hour lol). SO. So. Sososooooo...

Here's a novel! And screw hiding it under a cut.

SC gives you the cliche you're looking for, my friend. She really does. The trope is True Love's Kiss. She writes it as the suicide kiss.

Now, SC uses THG to convey a serious, and for her very personal, reality about PTSD: it makes you a different person. Frustratingly, maddeningly, horrifically, it alters you and the way you look at and experience the world in some irrevocable, fundamental ways. Some people will talk about curing it, but in my experience with it, there is no cure. There's just living with it, working around the beast of it, and that's the daily grind. I think SC saw that in her father too and clearly writes that being the case for Katniss and Peeta. They are never the same people they were in the beginning of the story (even though I'd say both start the story with trauma and perhaps PTSD from that). They never fully recover from their experiences in the Games and the revolution, and they always to have employ the therapeutic strategies they've discovered that work for each of them to power through their episodes, nightmares, and depression. So there's no panacea for the PTSD, and I just wanted to be clear about that so that no one misconstrues this true love's kiss cliche as frivolously claiming to cure something real for which there isn't a cure. That's the bittersweet part of Everlark's journey: they come together at the end as glued-together, reconstituted, patchwork people. Perfect in their imperfections, tbh.

But as far as Peeta understanding the truth goes... the suicide kiss is that cliched moment (he has even fallen to his knees for it). Ofc we don't get the narrative from Peeta's POV, just Katniss', but this is what she says about it:

"It's a long shot, it's suicide maybe, but I do the only thing I can think of. I lean in and kiss Peeta full on the mouth. His whole body starts shuddering, but I keep my lips pressed to his until I have to come up for air. My hands slide up his wrists to clasp his. 'Don't let him take you from me.'

Peeta's panting hard as he fights the nightmares raging in his head. 'No. I don't want to...'

I clench his hands to the point of pain. 'Stay with me.'

His pupils contract to pinpoints, dilate again rapidly, and then return to something resembling normalcy. 'Always,' he murmurs."

(MJ, 314, emphasis mine)

Suzanne Collins is a Catholic, and so I am (or at least I was until adulthood). And what she wrote here is, in essence, an exorcism. Katniss is the Christ-Savior character of the story, Peeta her rock/Peter, and Katniss' kiss (and the truth behind its message/her love) is the power that compels the devil out of him. At the end of this moment, his vision has returned to normalcy (his new normal), and he swears to never forsake her. I'm secular af now, but this holds up even as True Love's Kiss, where the kiss from the true love cures the beloved of their curse.

If we had this scene from Peeta's POV, I think this would be the fulcrum, the pivot point where he realizes fully, not in bits and pieces, but fully, that not only is Katniss not his enemy, she's not just his teammate or ally or friend either. He realizes that she would rather die than go on without him- she puts her life in his hands, trusting him, begging him to stay with her, and she does it with a kiss. He could have killed her in this moment. He had tried before. She knows that, and she chooses to kiss him. Not for any cameras, not for anyone's benefit but his, and in front of the eyes of his alleged rival too. I think this is the moment he realizes she has real feelings for him, and that he does too.

They're in the middle of running a gauntlet, and he doesn't have time to reflect on the moment or let any realization sink in beyond muscle memory. But there is a reason he follows her to the City Circle, and there's a reason his eyes flit away like they always used to when she is escorted into the meeting of the surviving Victors. There's a reason he tells her he can't let go of her after she assassinates Coin, and there's a reason the first thing he does as soon as he is able to is return to her in D12. Imo there's no piecing together required of the truth that they love each other after the suicide kiss- there's no risk of him returning to believing she's a monster/mutt/bitch or anything remotely like that. They just need time to heal and recover and find some new sense of self before either of them acts on those feelings (which is in line with the whole celibate period any person in recovery is encouraged to go through so that their own mental/physical/spiritual house is in order).

I dunno. That's just what I think. And with this meta, my copy of MJ officially fell apart. lol

#meta #long post #thg #everlark #suicide kiss

[polyam-tf2]

How would they react to a tenth member of the team who happens to be a female around Scout’s age? Would they let her join the polycule or would they just be her gay best friends? If they let her join, how would they do it? Would they just ask her or would one or more of them do the dirty with her first?

(I personally ship myself with a few of the mercs lol)

General Hc's + Scout! (the rest under the cut)

-They'd be Really Confused abt a New Person joining them in Tuefort -They'd let you join the Polycule but it would Take a hot Second -You'd probably have to Ask them first rather than Them inviting you

Scout: -The first thing he does after seeing you is Flirt with you -Please don't Flirt back. For everyone's Sanity -If you happen to Fancy him He'll be Very Proud and Very Happy and More than A Little Surprised -If you start Dating him you Will Not be Able to date Spy -The idea of Dating you when you Like his Son makes his Stomach Churn

Pyro: -New Friend! -They think you're neat :) -Unless you're Skilled in Making Things go Boom they Probably won't Find you that Interesting -You became a Merc Somehow Though So you Probably have a Trick or Two up Your sleeves That might Draw their Romantic Intrest

Heavy: -This man Gay. -He doesn't have Any romantic Intrest in Woman -Honestly he'll be Very,,, Looming. At First -He can be Scary just by his Size and Silence. -Eventually when You Earn his Trust He'll become The Very Large, Very Friendly, Russian Bear That we All Know and Love

Medic: -Creepy Smilling -SO MUCH creepy smiling -If this man likes you You will see him silently smiling at you. -Either he Wants to Experiment on Your Body or He Wants to Work With You -"Weißt du, deine Brüste würden dein kostbares Herz besser schützen, wenn sie Kuhbrüste wären."

Google Translate That at Your Own Risk

Soldier: -If you make Romantic Advances I Fear for You -Not bc of Anything Solly Would Do -It's his Wife I'd Worry About -The Only reason He's in the Polycule is Because Zhanna KNOWS Everyone there -Where Spy and Scot's Mom are Extremely Open Relationship, Soldier and Zhanna NEED to know everyone in the Polycule for Trust to Happen -Necksnap Somebody for this Man and You Will Have his Heart -Do it In Front of Medic and That Could be Literal

Spy: -The only One out of Who has No Qualms with Fucking You before Talking you Out on a Date -This is actually a Part of a Larger Agreement in the Polycule that as Long as He doesn't Contract an STD they Don't care who he Does the Do with -This is different than his Romantic Endeavors However -Once you enter the Polycule he will Slowly try to Romance You -This Fails So Hard Unless You Love Cheesy Stuff

Demo: -Similar to Pyro and Soldier he's a lot more Attracted to skill rather than Anything Specific -If there's nothing Romantic going on between the two of you He'll assume a kind of older brother Role

Sniper: -It's going to take Awhile for him to Start talking to you Outside of Any Profesional Setting -The first time You show trust in him (telling him a secret, falling asleep next to him, etc) His heart melts -Just hugging this man is Enough to get him to Cuddle up to you

Engie: -He probably feels Really awkward for a long time around you -This is Post-WW2 so Gay People weren't Exactly out -When you discover that He's in a Gay Polycule he Probably was thinking about Solving him Potentially being Outed with More Gun -When you Clarify that you're an Ally he relaxes A Lot -Eventually he Warms up to You and Romance Follows

#tf2 x reader #self insert #tf2 #polyam tf2

[cosmicjoke]

Hello! Thank you for sharing many great analysis posts. I'm rather new to this fandom and I only read some of your posts so I'm sorry if my ask is repetitive. So I came across this weird take on Levi today and I was surprised how some people degrade him in this way. The person said "Had Erwin supported the rumbling, Levi would've done it as well considering Levi as a character who has no backbone or foresight himself, and this is proven by the fact that killing Zeke by feeding him to a Jaegerist would leave Paradis unable to defend themselves with the founder" I can't disagree more with this interpretation because it's wrong in many ways, although I got curious about 2 things:

1) What do you think would've Levi done had Erwin really supported the rumbling (I know even that's impossible since Erwin would never do that but just in case :) )?

2) What do you think of the proof this person brought up? We all know Levi didn't kill Zeke in many occasions as he was prioritizing humanity predominantly; however, do you think since he suggested they could feed Zeke to a Jaegerist it confirms he was ok to doom humanity in the end? I mean perhaps he would've killed Zeke had he not been engaged in the explosion.

Sorry for the weird question. I absolutely disagree with the OP's viewpoint; but it made me intrigued at some point. I'd be happy to read your thoughts. Thank you :)

Hi there, and again thank you for the ask!

To answer the first question, in the highly unlikely scenario that Erwin would have supported the Rumbling, there's no way in hell Levi would have agreed with or supported it in turn. The only reason Levi chose to follow Erwin in the first place was because he believed wholeheartedly in Erwin's altruistic vision of freedom for humanity. It was Erwin's speech to Levi about fighting FOR humanity that drove Levi to join the SC, because he believed fully then in Erwin's ability to lead humanity to salvation. At the same time, there are multiple instances throughout the manga and anime of Levi showing blatant frustration and even anger at Erwin for some of the choices he makes, showing clear disagreement, and discomfort with some of Erwin's plans, so this notion that Levi can't think for himself and can't make his own choices is absurd. He chooses to follow Erwin because he believes in Erwin's good intentions and ability to lead. Levi's entire motivation is to save people. That's who he is. He follows Erwin because he believes doing so will help to save the greatest number of people. He wants, in every battle situation, to protect and keep alive as many of his fellow soldiers as he can. He's the most humanistic character in the entire series, showing a greater appreciation for the value of human life than any other. To not see this about his character is to show a gross misunderstanding of who he is as a character.

As to your second question, whoever this person is that made this "point" about Levi killing Zeke and feeding him to a Jeagerist being tantamount to dooming humanity, they left out the most important part of that plan, which is that he thought, once Historia had given birth, she could then herself eat the Yeagerist, and thus create the same situation between Zeke and Eren of being able to join together, only obviously, Historia would have been infinitely more reliable and trustworthy an ally than Zeke. Levi wanted to feed Zeke to a Yeagerist only temporarily, because he wasn't go to force a pregnant woman to turn into a Titan and eat Zeke. Levi wasn't willing or trying to doom humanity, he was working with what he had in a desperate situation. He knew he couldn't trust Zeke, and he wasn't sure as to Eren's true intentions, so he chose, wisely I think, to put more faith in Eren, someone who had been a trusted ally and fellow soldier for five years, over Zeke, someone who had done nothing but lie up to that point, and killed countless numbers of his comrades, including one of his best friends in Erwin. Levi had zero reason to trust Zeke, and he was right not to, because Zeke was planning his own form of genocide, the same as Eren.

Anyway, hope that answers your questions and thanks again for asking!

#shingeki no kyojin #attack on tian #Levi Ackerman #asks

[dfcfanfics]

Good god, I'm still writing this stuff.

So... what the heck did I actually manage to write this year?

All links go to AO3. Sorry, FFN people, but if you know me you know where my profile is there and you can look these up yourself...

If you like 'em, great! Kudos and comments are always welcome.

LONGFICS:

Delicate (NSFW, 33 chapters, 193k words, complete)

An unusual night leads to an even more unusual rescue, with a university-aged Ladybug finding her former crush in a compromising and unenviable position. It works out better than either expected... but once Adrien's realizations about that night open his eyes, the two enter into a far grander partnership than either had anticipated, and many mysteries of their past are finally solved.

Most of this one was written in 2020, but the last few chapters and epilogues were in 2021. This was my first experiment in NSFW MLB storywriting (so look for it under my "dfc_afterdark" pseud), but make no mistake -- while there are steamy scenes, there's plenty of plot to go around. What did happen in the years in which Adrien was absent from Paris... and how will many, many wounds finally be healed?

Throw Me Around Like One of Your French Girls (78k words, 14/16 chapters, Adrienette, STILL not complete)

Reflecting upon an unpleasant encounter, Marinette makes a small realization... as Ladybug, she can defend herself with ease, but what happens if she's facing down unwanted physicality as Marinette? It's a good thing that she happens to know a classmate who's studying the martial arts, if he'd be willing to teach her some things? Fluff, fashion choices, twisted arms, friendship, tension and tap-outs.

I am... in an apologetic mood regarding this one. I have the last two chapters nestled deep within my brain, the ending that I'd planned since before the midway point, and the words are just NOT COMING OUT the way that I want them to be. It's coming. I promise. The reaction to this one has been far too positive for me to even consider letting it go unfinished.

Multi-Chapter Stories:

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part (13k words, 4 chapters, complete)

A rooftop confrontation between Hawkmoth, Ladybug and Chat Noir ends with a dramatic miscalculation; Chat's magical energy is drained, Adrien Agreste goes flying over the roof's edge instead, and only major heroics from Ladybug save him.

The hospital remains his destination, though... where Marinette and Gabriel exchange knowing looks in the waiting room. There's no making excuses or feigning ignorance this time. Inside, in private, they will have so many things to talk about while they wait for news... won't they?

A fun thought experiment that I think turned out rather well. ABSOLUTELY NOT TORTURE PORN; no MCD, no permanent injuries, more focus on emotional trauma than physical trauma.

SEASON FOUR ONE-SHOTS:

Under New Management: Can Ladybug thread the needle and be both Ladybug and the Guardian of the Miraculous at the same time? The more that she thinks about it, the surer she is that she cannot. But that means handing off one role or the other. Whom could she trust? Who has Master Fu's knack for reading people, but isn't in her immediate social circle? Hmmm...

One Little Favor: Being Ladybug and the Guardian at the same time is a dangerous thing, Marinette has come to realize... but she can't give up either role. It might be a good idea for her to set up a safeguard, a trusted ally who could help protect the Miracle Box and the Miraculous. And, so, on a stormy night... someone's bedroom window that's always left open draws a visitor.

When No Words Can Suffice: Adrien's romance with Kagami has reached at least the opening stages of physical affection... and it has not gone unnoticed. So, Adrien is startled one afternoon when his father arrives to talk with him about certain things... specifically, THE Talk. It may or may not be fortunate, however, that the main part of the discussion is left to someone else to deliver.

There's Something You Should Know...: Ladybug tells Chat Noir about a certain confession she's made, doing her best to make sure that his feelings aren't hurt... and while he's reeling, he's coping fairly well. Well enough that he's ready to take her suggestion and make his OWN little admission to someone he can trust. ...But who could that be? (Marichat.)

The Silent Treatment: Adrien's got something that he needs to tell SOMEBODY... a secret that no one else knows. This is not a minor thing; this is something that he can only share with someone he trusts, someone who will allow themselves to be sworn to secrecy and never tell anyone else.

The Truth Shall Set You Free: When Ladybug and Chat Noir confronted Luka's Akumatized self, they managed to narrowly avoid speaking out each other's deepest secrets. But what if Truth had been just a little bit quicker on the draw... and had stunned Chat Noir with his response? (Marichat.)

Choose Your Words Carefully: In the heat of battle, sometimes little things can make a huge difference. One shift of momentum can swing a fight, one moment of weakness can cost one dearly, one misstep can change lives forever. Chat Noir's penchant for one-liners is no exception to that... and he's about to find out how potent they can be.

Truth, Lies, and Everything In-Between: After Kagami broke up with him, Adrien feels like he needs to do something to clear his head... so he puts his ears on and runs, wherever his feet lead him.

After Luka broke up with her, Marinette feels the weight of the world on her shoulders... so she goes up to her balcony to think.

As usual, they meet up and get to talking... but not much else on this night seems usual. (Marichat.)

What Happens On A Rooftop... Stays On A Rooftop (NSFW!): In the not-THAT-distant future, a long and boring patrol leads Chat Noir to offer Ladybug a refreshing break - a rooftop, two bottles of wine and a soft blanket. The conversation leads them to interesting places... and an even more interesting wager. (LadyNoir.)

Picture Perfect: With Luka and Kagami each out of Our Heroes' romantic picture for now... at least Marinette's found it easier to just be Adrien's friend for now. A "come over and hang out?" invitation from Adrien promises to at least be a fun Saturday afternoon.

But Adrien forgot one little detail in his room that will shake things up... (Adrienette.)

(My favorite of my one-shots this year.)

That's ONE Way To Break The Ice (mildly NSFW!): On a dark and stormy night, a sinister figure stands in Marinette Dupain-Cheng's apartment bedroom... cape fluttering behind him, mask covering familiar-looking green eyes, a smirk on his lips. He announces his intentions to use her as bait to lure Ladybug out of hiding, and to use his powers and his natural... talents to convert her from his enemy to his willing ally. Her reaction may or may not be what he'd expected. (Adrienette.)

The Direct Approach: Alya is pretty sure that she has the cure for the funk that Marinette's in -- kisses from Adrien.

"Yeah, sure," Marinette grumps. "Like I've never tried for those before."

But Alya's got a plan this time. A change of wardrobe, a full makeover, a beautiful and glamorous look designed to blow Adrien's mind and shock him out of his preconceived mental image of Marinette... and a confession, an approach and a first kiss before either Marinette or Adrien can overthink it.

"Ladybug's courage can do anything," Alya reminds her. "Ladybug can do ANYTHING she wants badly enough."

Anything?

Well, maybe... (Adrienette.)

Friendship Comes With Benefits - And Options: Two young friends sit on one's couch, watching a movie... all alone for the next few hours.

Neither one of them is in a relationship. They care very much for each other. What might they get up to?

Marinette... has some ideas. She just needs to explain to Adrien how there are different levels of friendship, and to get him to consider the major benefits that might come from a minor upgrade to their status.

And to keep him from asking one little question. (Adrienette.)

Down to the Last Detail: A young woman's imagination can be a very complicated and dangerous thing. For Marinette, that lends itself to her sketchbook full of her innermost fantasies and flights of fancy -- her pink-cloud world in pencil-sketch form, essentially. Daydreams of things she and Adrien have shared together, interpretations of how they might have gone, fantasies about their future together with a house with a white picket fence and three adorable children and the cutest hamster ever...

There's nothing wrong with any of that, of course. Lots of young people fantasize and daydream, and Marinette understands the difference between fantasy and reality.

She should hope that Adrien knows that she does, however... because while her mother called her away to help with a small emergency, Adrien _found_ a certain notebook that she'd somehow forgotten to hide. (Adrienette.)

It's All In The Phrasing: It's a quiet summer afternoon at the Agrestes', and Adrien couldn't be happier. Marinette is visiting, the weather is perfect, and even the nearby Gorilla is smiling and content.

Marinette does have one question for the bodyguard, however... one which she soon wishes to retract having asked. CRAAAAACK.

When You Know What You Want: Adrien Agreste's far bedroom window is always open just a crack, at least... for a very important reason. Late at night, one night, that reason comes true.

Ladybug is standing before him, filled with emotion... and the conversation that follows goes where he'd always dreamed it would.

But when has anything ever been simple in anyone's life when Kwamis are around? (Adrienette.)

Waking Up Is Hard To Do: It's Marinette's sixteenth birthday... and her favorite black-clad superhero drops by with his well-wishes and a small handful of gifts. As it happens, she's already wearing a different new gift... a necklace, given to her by the Kwamis, with _sixteen_ Kwagatamas on it. Unbeknownst to her _or_ Tikki, though, this batch of Kwagatamas has a little extra, shall we say, magical "juice" embedded in them, designed to give Marinette the confidence boost and peace of mind that the Zodiacs are sure she needs.

Will Marinette and Chat ever be the same... particularly when morning comes? (Marichat/Adrienette.)

It Seemed Like A Simple Question: On a quiet summer evening, a young woman and her cat-eared companion study the stars together and talk about whatever comes to mind. Chat notes how Marinette and her parents trust him with her implicitly, and takes mock offense to that. The conversation that follows goes somewhere that neither of them expected, with one little question hitting with some impact. (Marichat.)

Two Kits That Pass In The Night: At a Halloween costume party for her father's merchant's association, Marinette is the very model of adorable femininity in a handmade kitten costume. But she is without company her own age, and bored... until a mysterious blond pirate appears, catching her attention and keeping her guessing.

Is this Chat Noir's normal self... or is it Adrien? It certainly couldn't be... both... (Marichat/Adrienette.)

Definitely Maybe Absolutely Sort-Of Ready... I Think (mildly NSFW!): In the not-too-distant future, Adrienette's a thing, and on their four-month anniversary, they're thinking about escalating... but they're both hesitating. So Chat Noir asks his best female friend about what's on his mind... and it turns out that Ladybug's in a remarkably similar situation. What a coincidence, huh?

And when the time comes and our young lovebirds get some privacy, each took good advice to heart... and they talk things out once more.

(No sexual acts, explicit or otherwise... but lots of discussion of sex and its implications. Adrienette.)

No Gift Receipt Required: Christmastime has returned once again... and brought with it a new set of heartaches for one Adrien Agreste, still dearly missing his departed mother. He puts up a good show, keeping a smile on his face and cheer in his voice... but Marinette can tell that he's anything but himself these days. And since she noticed the same thing last Christmas...

A few bits of detective work (and suffering through some muddy jeans) provide the answers that she needs... and deeper insight than ever before into what Adrien might truly need. And though its consequences might dismay her, if this turns out how she suspects it might... there's one certain gift that she can give him that requires no wrapping or boxes, but just might help ease his pain. What follows is unexpected for both of them. (Adrienette.)

And Knowing Is Half The Battle: 'Twas the night before Christmas... and a strange visitor drops by Marinette's bedroom, bearing an unexpected gift. Normally, future Bunnyx appearing is a sign that something's gone very, very wrong, but this time, it's something a bit different. A bit more... useful and inspirational? (Adrienette.)

#miraculous #miraculous ladybug #fanfic #adrienette #marichat #ladynoir #self-indulgent wankery

[dmsden]

Campaign Building 1 - Starting at Square One

Hullo, Gentle Readers, and welcome to our new series of articles - Campaign Building. For the last two years, I shared my tips about world building, and we built up the Beyond the Borderlands setting. But a world is really only the backdrop against which stories are told. Now we're going to dig in and put together some of the basics for purposes of running an actual campaign.

Before we can start making decisions about our campaign, I thought I'd begin by outlining some of the elements that will come together to make a good campaign. And just like when you create a world, you can tackle a campaign from a macro perspective or a micro perspective.

For first time DMs, the micro perspective might be preferable. With this approach, you're putting together the elements you need right away, so that you can start playing. All you might need is a small village to act as the PCs' home base, a map of the surrounding wilderness, a few plot hooks, and maybe a small, nearby dungeon. If your campaign is going to be more of a dungeon exploration campaign, rather than having some kind of overarching plot, you might never need more than this.

I personally prefer a macro approach. In this case, while you'll need all of the things in the micro approach before you start playing, you also have a larger idea of what the campaign is going to be about. For example, my current campaign started with the concept of a fractured alliance that was suddenly confronted with a world shaking danger - the Tarrasque. How would they react? Could they get over earlier distrust in order to reunite? How would the PCs have affected the world over 16-17 levels of gameplay? From there, ideas around Tharizdun, an apocalyptic cult, and a PC's family member being part of said cult all began to develop.

I think that, just like we did with our setting, coming up with a Title and a Theme is a good way of getting the overall feel of a campaign. Obviously, a title like The Freebooters of Greyhawk City is going to suggest a different kind of story than The Angel of Chaos. One sounds like a Conan inspired tale of adventure and plunder, and the other sounds like a more central-villain driven story of danger and horror.

The theme of my current campaign might be best summed up as "Home town heroes made good", "Rebuilding from the ruins", and "What do you do when faced with doomsday?" They definitely set some of the feel of the story. Even though the Second Witching War was three-hundred years ago, the Seven Kingdoms still feels the effects of it, with distrust and intense nationalism now ruling after a long period of alliance. The players started as the local heroes of a small village, and they still very much have ties to that place. Because their adventures have called them to at first national and than trans-national attention, they have essentially set themselves up as a group that members of the various kingdoms trust. This has allowed them to begin to mend some of the alliances that were shatter at the end of the war. Which is a good thing, because with the Tarrasque now rampaging across the countryside, they're able to get those kingdoms to work together to try and stop it.

For the campaign I'm going to develop in these articles, I'm kind of liking the title Angel of Chaos. I plan to develop it for my Beyond the Borderlands setting, so that title makes me think of some powerful Chaos entity that might be about to be unleashed on the Realm. For themes, I'm thinking I might work with "Small town heroes" again, as well as "A light in the darkness", "the Enemy among us", and "Into the unknown". The players will be from a very small town indeed, located close to the fabled Keep on the Borderlands. In the initial adventure, they will realize that there is a plot to remove the Castellan of the Keep, and they will move to prevent the light of the Keep from being snuffed out by the agents of this Angel of Chaos. They will have to be careful, as agents of Chaos will be among those that should be their allies, and, ultimately, they'll be heading deeper into the Borderlands to confront these agents more directly.

Alright, well there's a start. Next time, we'll look at the home-base we want for our PCs at the beginning, as well as the first adventures.

#dd worldbuilding #dnd 5e campaign #dungeon master #dampd #dnd shenanigans #dnd homebrew #dnd 5 #dnd campaign #d&d 5 #d&d campaign #dungeons and dragons campaign #dungeon master advice #dm advice #gm advice

[stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland]

Stuck, Have you read Ally's new book. Well I didn't, but I was able to get a lot of reviews from just book readers and some OT5s and some CS. I have a feeling that the book is genuine when it talks about Ally and what she's gone through, but when it comes to other 4 girls, I think maybe the management had a hand in it so make it kinda shady subtly ( again I didn't read it myself but I did get some honest reviews) When ally talked about resorting to drinks when supposedly a bandmate made fun of her being virgin (I feel it's like a mild bullying from whoever did that) but I don't exactly trust the bandmate part. The girls have been together for 6 yrs and if it really the way it's said in the book ally couldn't have told them to stop (ik Ally's nice but I do believe she'll stand up to her bandmates if they wronged her like that) the reason why I'm thinking this because ally specifically said bandmate ( D,L,C,N are in questioning) but never said a name for C's replacement (who can be literally anyone) Do you get where I'm going stuck ? I have seen a few well known CS n Ot5 fall into believing that the girls never truly had any sisterhood/Friendship ( even tho the girls where not mentioned at large) Also I kind feel like everyone onto Ally's book to get some kinda intel on the fued , rather than feel empathic to the struggles an ambitious young singer had/is going thru. I'm a true OT5 and I don't want/like to shit on my girls (all 5) but now people are being toxic in sm to take things out of the book to make them look bad. Some saying Ally's a clout chaser 🤦🏻‍♀️ and D,L bullied her🙃 (in general), N made fun of her dancing (😑), C never respected Allycat 🙄😞.

I'm sorry for ranting stuck, I just need to get this out. I'd love to hear what you have to say,once you read the book or what you think of my pov)

Hope everything is well with you. Stay safe 💝

Hey anon! Thanks for sharing your thoughts on Ally's book on my blog. The truth is that I would love to read it but I don't have the means to buy it :( so I could not comment on what Ally says in the book, but, (and I think I already mentioned this in another post). Although Ally tries To be as honest with her book as possible, we all know that Ally's management (Bastards from Maverick) was going to have something to say about it. Ally cannot speak out against them freely because she is under a nondisclosure contract and we all know that The biggest seller in the industry is drama, the fucking drama that these bastards of the supposed feud of the girls against Camila have sold and vice versa. That shit sells, anon. And it was what those idiots wanted, for ot5 and ot4 fans to face off like they always have. I do believe that they bonded and then gave that typical image that they hate being together (In fact Lauren mentioned in her last live about hating her time in the band because of the lack of creativity she had there). And I'm not saying that everything was rosy because we know it was not, it cannot be all happiness and tenderness when you had five teenagers in full development living together, each with their different personalities and differences. That's impossible. Of course they must have had conflicts between them, of course they must have had fights and Camren must have also been a critical point in the girls' relationship. Of course yes. That must have happened. But I don't think they hated each other to death, that they didn't support each other when they needed it. And I know, because as I have said in other posts about Ally, the girls had in common that they seemed to come from the same world. No one taller or shorter than the other. The only difference in that coexistence was Ally and her age compared to the other girls. Ally was already of legal age when she signed her contract with Fifth Harmony and she had to deal with four teenagers with typical teenage problems and where she usually had to chaperone Camren. It is understandable that Ally felt "separate" from the rest because she was practically surrounded by girls. Girls who liked to play, fight, joke and everything you can think of. Besides being like a mother to them because she was the oldest and that responsibility fell to her. Her experience in the band was different from the beginning and I know that even without having read that book I am sure that she has reflected it there. The management achieved its objective. Sell ​​Ally's book through dramas like you always do. It's really not something new, not for me, not for anyone. But thank you anon. Thanks once again for sharing this story on my blog.

Stay safe you too, dear anon.