#but also... sometimes people want to be pregnant
Green Mangoes
Summary: When Chan catches you eating green mangoes, he can't help but spiral.
Word Count: ~ 2.3k
Pairing: Lee Chan x fem reader
Warnings: mentions of pregnancy
an: This was something that I mainly wrote for myself because I found it funny in my head so if it's not funny or entertaining, that's why. As always, if you liked reading this, please reblog or leave a comment. If you have any suggestions or you just want to talk, send me an ask and we can be friends ๐
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You had been up for a few hours enjoying the little alone time you get since you moved in with your boyfriend. You and Chan recently moved in together and while you love spending time with him, sometimes you miss living on your own which is why you find comfort in the silent mornings.
Chan got home pretty late last night from practice which is why he was in bed at 10:30 in the morning. It was a win-win situation, you got your morning alone and Chan got to make up for the sleep he missed out on.
You had spent your morning making breakfast and reading once you finished eating, and now you were sitting on your couch nursing a cup of tea and watching an Indian comedy show. Normally when you and Chan watch TV together, you steer clear of those types of shows since Chan wonโt be able to understand them.ย
But now with Chan sound asleep in your bedroom, youโre giggling quietly to yourself as you watch the different skits unfold on screen. To your surprise, less than five minutes later, you hear the door of your shared bedroom open and out walks your sleepy boyfriend, hair adorably messy.
โGood morning, babe.โ you say from your seat on the couch.
โMorning.โ he says tiredly as he makes his way to the couch to join you.
โI didnโt wake you, right?โ you ask, concern lacing your voice as you card your fingers through his disheveled hair.ย
Chan melts into your touch and responds, โNo, I didnโt feel like staying in bed any longer. I also wanted to cuddle with you but you werenโt there any more.โ he whines.
โAww, well Iโm here now so we can cuddle. Let me just get situatedโ you say.
You put your empty tea mug on the coffee table in front of you and lift the blanket on your lap gesturing for him to join you. Chan wastes no time getting comfy under the blanket and wrapping his arms around your waist.
โDo you want me to change the channel?โ you ask, drawing attention to the comedy show playing on the TV.
โNo, itโs fine. Iโm not really paying attention to it anyways.โ he says and you feel him drawing small shapes on your body.
โSuit yourself.โ you say as you bring your attention back to the show.
A few minutes later, youโre still snuggled into Chanโs arms and you find yourself letting out a soft scandalized gasp at the conversation unfolding on screen.
โWhat happened?โ Chan asks, instantly curious as he peers up at your face through his lashes.
โBasically, those two people on stage are husband and wife and theyโre talking about an argument they had. See that guy standing to the side?โ you ask, pointing to the screen.
โYeah, what about him?โ
โHe said something along the lines of โstop giving her reasons to argue with you and instead give her a reason to eat green mangoesโ to the husband.โ
โWhat does that mean?โ Chan asks, enjoying listening to you explain things to him.
โApparently women crave sour foods when theyโre pregnant so the other guy is basically telling the husband to get his wife pregnant.โ
Your boyfriend chuckles slightly and he doesnโt think much of the conversation as he continues snuggling into your side. But a few days later, heโs instantly reminded of that moment as he stands in the entryway of your shared living room.
Chan had spent the entire day in the studio working with Sonnyoung and the other Performance Team members to think of choreography for their upcoming comeback, but they had hit a wall. Soonyoung decided to let the guys go sooner than expected because everyone was getting frustrated.
Chan was excited that heโs able to leave earlier so he can spend more time with you. He didnโt tell you he was coming home sooner so he could surprise you but when he comes in, he sees you scrolling on your phone, mid snack.
Normally he would be happy that you were remembering to take breaks to rest and eat, but standing there in the door frame of your living room, he feels like he canโt breathe. There you are sitting peacefully on the couch with a small glass bowl next to you, phone in one hand, fork in the other. Skewered on the fork is none other than a piece of green mango.
As you bring the fork to your mouth, you realize that your boyfriend is silently standing a few feet away from you.
โOh my god, babe! Why are you just standing there? You scared me!โ you complain.
Shocked by your sudden outburst, Chanโs broken out of his spiraling thoughts and brought back to the present moment.
โSorry, I was zoning out.โ Chan feebly explains as he makes his way to the couch.
โWhyโre you home so early? I thought practice wasnโt supposed to end until later?โ
โIt was supposed to end later, but we hit a wall and nothing was getting done so Hoshi hyung let us leave early.โย
โAhh, I see. I still have a little work left to do, so Iโm gonna go finish that. I should be done soon and we can spend time together after.โ
โOkay, Iโll be here. Donโt overwork yourself, itโs not good for you.โ Chan says with a small smile on his face as you get up and make your way to your desk.
Once you leave, Chan canโt help but wonder why you didnโt say anything about being pregnant. Were you not planning on telling him yet? He did come home earlier than anticipated today. Maybe you were eating the mango because you thought he wouldnโt be here to see you.
Chan spends the next two hours obsessively googling about how to support your partner through pregnancy. After reading a bunch of different articles, Chan decides that he wonโt bring up the pregnancy unless you do. You have the right to tell him whenever you feel comfortable, and he figures that maybe youโre still trying to come to terms with it yourself and he doesnโt want to add more pressure to that.ย
A few minutes later, you return to the living room ready to spend time with your boyfriend after a long day.
โHey babe.โ Chan says when he sees you. โDo you need anything?โ
โNo, Iโm fine. I just finished work so now we can make dinner together.โ
โYou want to make dinner? Are you sure thatโs a good idea?โ Chan asks, immediately worried that you could be overworking yourself.
โOkay I know Iโm not as good at cooking as Mingyu, but my food isnโt that bad!โ you whine, softly hitting Chanโs shoulder.
โBabe, thatโs not what I meant.โ Chan whines. โI just thought youโve been working a lot lately and you should take a break. Iโll make dinner for us tonight, you should rest.โ
โOoookay.โ you say, feeling suspicious as to what Chanโs doing.
โWhat do you want for dinner? Are you craving anything?โ Chan asks.
โHmm, not really. Why donโt you surprise me?โ
โOkay, one surprise coming right up!โ Chan exclaims dramatically as he saunters off into the kitchen, enticing a few giggles from you.
You couldnโt help but feel a little weird that Chan was being a bit too nice, but you decide to overlook it and enjoy your time alone on the couch. A little less than an hour later, your boyfriend returns to the living room announcing that dinner is ready.
Before you can get up to go to the kitchen to grab your plate, Chan places a plate of hot food in front of you.
โYou made my favorite!โ you exclaim as you toss your phone to the side to take the plate from Chanโs hands.
โI tried my best, but I donโt know if it tastes as good as when you make it.โ he says sheepishly as he rubs the back of his neck.
โWell, it smells great and even if it does taste bad โ which I doubt it does โ Iโll still eat it since you made it for me.โ you say with a reassuring smile on your face.
Taking a bite of the food in front of you, you canโt help it when your eyes widen at the taste.
โWhat? Does it not taste good?โ Chan asks.
โBabe, it tastes really good. I love it.โ you say with a bright smile as you continue eating.
โIโm glad.โ Chan says softly. He couldnโt help but feel proud of himself.
The rest of the meal is filled with the two of you laughing at each otherโs jokes and talking about your respective days. Before you know it, the plates in front of you are empty.
When youโre about to get up to do the dishes and clean the kitchen, Chan stops you.
โWhatโre you doing?โ Chan asks you.
โIโm going to wash the dishes and clean the kitchen?โ you say, confused as to why he finds this strange.
Normally when one of you cooks, the other person cleans. Since Chan cooked for the both of you today, it seemed obvious to you that you would be on clean up duty today.
โLet me clean, you sit and rest.โ Chan says as he tries to take the plate from your hand.
โRest from what, Chan? Iโve been sitting on this couch for the past 2 hours doing nothing but resting. Whatโs gotten into you today?โ you ask as you firmly hold the plate in your hand, refusing to let him take it from you.
โI just thought you could use the extra rest, given your condition and all.โ Chan says.
โโGiven my conditionโ? Whatโs that supposed to mean? Iโm totally fine.โ you say, slightly agitated.
Chan mentally facepalms himself. He told himself that he wouldnโt bring up the pregnancy unless you did and now here he was, bringing up the pregnancy.
โYou know what, never mind.โ Chan says, trying to brush it off.
You werenโt gonna let him off that easily.
โWhat do you mean never mind? You just insinuated that thereโs something wrong with me and I need to rest, but now when I ask you about it you wonโt say anything? Whatโs up with that?โ you ask him.
โWell, I just didnโt want to pressure you into talking about it if you werenโt ready. I didnโt know if you wanted to share it with me or not.โ Chan says.
โPressure me into talking about what? Chan, youโre going to have to explain yourself a little more clearly because Iโm completely lost.โ you say, becoming less angry and more confused.
โThe pregnancy!โ Chan exclaims. โI know that youโre pregnant but I didnโt want to bring it up in case you didnโt want to talk about it yet. A bunch of articles online said not to bring it up unless you brought up the topic yourself and I didnโt want to pressure you into telling me youโre pregnant.โ
Thereโs a few beats of silence as you try to process the words that just came out of your boyfriendโs mouth.
โPregnant? Babe, Iโm not pregnant. Who told you Iโm pregnant?โ
โWait, youโre not pregnant?โ Chan asks. Now it was his turn to be confused.
โNo, and if I was pregnant, you would be the first person I would tell. I wouldnโt keep that from you. But whyโd you think Iโm pregnant?โ
โI donโt wanna tell you, youโre gonna laugh at me.โ Chan whines, hiding his face in his hands.
โBabe, I promise I wonโt laugh at you. Can you please, please, please tell me why you thought I was pregnant? If you don't, I'm just gonna assume that you think Iโve gained weight.โ
โNo, itโs not that. Itโs just,โ Chan pauses and takes a deep breath, โyou were eating a green mango when I got home earlier and I remember you telling me a few days ago that women crave sour foods when theyโre pregnant so I just kinda assumed. Ugh, it sounds so stupid when I say it out loud.โ
You canโt help the laugh that bubbles out of your chest. You were trying so hard not to laugh at your boyfriend, but you couldnโt help it. You just found it so funny that he would jump to conclusions like that.
โHey, you said you wouldnโt laugh at me.โ Chan whines as he lifts his face from his hands.
โIโm sorry, I just canโt help it. Itโs a little funny, you have to admit.โ you say as you lean closer to give him a comforting hug.
โOkay, maybe it is a little funny.โ Chan says as he lets out a small giggle.
โSee! You canโt blame me!โ you say as you burst into another fit of giggles.
Once the two of you have finally calmed down, youโre both reminded of the small mess in front of you and the bigger mess in the kitchen.
โSo, since I know youโre not pregnant, do you wanna clean the kitchen for me?โ Chan asks.
โWhat happened to โIโll clean, you should rest on the couchโ?โ you ask, teasing him.
โFine, I guess since I offered, Iโll follow through. I am a man of my word.โ Chan says, determination heavy in his voice.
โIโm just kidding, of course Iโll clean up.โ you say.
โFine, but at least let me help.โ Chan says.
โIf you want to help, Iโm not gonna stop you.โ you say as the two of you make your way into the kitchen.
When you get to the entryway of the kitchen, you canโt help but just stand there with your eyes wide.
โLee Jung Chan! Look at the mess you made! I canโt believe you! You dirtied every dish in this house!โ you exclaim as you scold him.
Chan silently wishes that he didnโt take up the offer to help you clean. The entire time the two of you spent cleaning the kitchen was filled with you nagging him about the mess he made. But he knows he wouldnโt have it any other way.
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๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐ญ๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐
(๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐)
๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐๐ซ๐ฒ: paige and the team taking care of you/showering you with love through your pregnancy.๏ฟผ๏ฟผ
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They didnโt know you two were trying at first but when you told them all you were pregnant they were so happy for you two. Kk claiming she was gonna be the favorite auntie.
Not letting you pick up a thingg. They would take it away for them to do it themselves
โ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ โ ๐ค๐ค ๐๐ฌ๐ค๐๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ค ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐๐๐ซ๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฌ.โ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐โ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ ๐ฌ โ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐๐ซ๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ง'๐ญ,๐ข๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐.โ๐ฒ๐๐ฌ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ข ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ-โ โ๐ง๐จ๐ฉ๐โ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฌ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฌ.
Some times making fun of you when you canโt bend over to get something
Them saying it canโt be that hard making you glare at them and give them a challenge.
๐๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ฌ ๐ญ๐๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐๐ก๐ฌ โ๐จ๐ค ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐ซโ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ซ๐ฆ๐ฌ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐๐. ๐๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ๐ฅ๐ โ๐ข ๐๐๐ง๐ญ๐ญ๐ญโ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐ โ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐กโ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐ฅ๐.
Kk being the auntie to take the baby with out any one knowing and coming back with mad baby clothes for them.
Geno also happy for you two. Him buying the baby a little basketball
At any game the๐ฆ making sure good
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It was her idea for you two to start trying. Her telling you that she always wanted to be a mom and that something she wanted with you.
When she found out you were pregnant she couldnโt be more happy and called everyone she could think of
Her being your little servant
โ๐ข ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐โ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง ๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฉ๐ก๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ข๐ค๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ค๐๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ข๐๐ค ๐ค๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฌ๐๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐.
Laughs at how easy you cry now.
Foot massages 24/7
Shows all love and affection in public not caring who sees.
She dose get nervous sometimes when you two are he knowing how some people are.
Conversations between her and your stomach every night before bed
Her ready to teach them how to play basketball and come to all her games with you
You waking her up in the middle of the night for food 24/7
๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฉ ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฅ๐๐ฉ๐ญ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฅ๐๐ฉ ๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ญ๐จ๐ค ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐๐จ๐จ๐. ๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ข๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ก๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ง ๐๐ญ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฐ๐๐ค๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ.โ ๐๐๐โ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ,๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐๐ฒ๐๐ฌ โ๐ฆ๐ก๐ฆโ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ก๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฉ. โ ๐๐๐ง ๐ฐ๐ ๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ค๐๐โ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ฉ ๐๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ โ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฅ๐ฒโ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐๐. ๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐ง๐จ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ค๐๐ฒ๐ฌ.
Not being able to say no to you
Her mom always on your side when it comes to being tired all the time.
It amazes her much love and support you two were getting.
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Not letting your baby girl out of her sight
Always looking for you two in the crowd
First time getting your babyโs ears pierced was hell for her
๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ก๐๐ข๐ซ ๐๐๐๐ฒ ๐ข๐ง ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐๐ซ๐ฆ๐ฌ ๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ญ โ๐๐จ๐ฌ๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ญโ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ค๐๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ข๐๐ โ๐ฒ๐๐ฌโ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐๐ โ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ฒโ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฌ๐ค๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง โ๐ฒ๐๐ฌ,๐ง๐จโ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐ง๐ฌ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐ โ๐ฒ๐๐ฌโ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ง๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐๐ฒ๐๐ฌ ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฒ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐๐ซ ๐ฆ๐๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐๐๐ฒ ๐ ๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ ๐๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ญ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฒ. ๐๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐๐ ๐๐ฐ๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ โ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐จ๐ง๐โ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ ๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐.
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Honestly getting a little fed up with people universally panning every single pregnancy plotline as "pro-life propaganda"
Fandom start being normal about people wanting to be pregnant sometimes challenge.
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i really hate how the fandomโs excuse for jayfeatherโs shitty behavior (and outright medical malpractice in certain cases. looking at the time he refused to help squilf in labour bc he couldnt be bothered and later blamed her for how bad it was) is โwell the clan was ableist to him growing up, so fuck them!โ ok how does that excuse him screaming at and berating the cats that didnt do any of that. or the babies.
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For some reason I've had A Thought about the vampire AU
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CRAZY ABOUT YOU โ gojo satoru
tw: MDNI, f! reader, she/her pronouns used, pregnancy (reader is expecting), established relationship (youโre married), pregnancy freak!satoru, semi-public sex, p in v, unprotected sex, creampie, pet names (baby, love, sweetheart), very very brief mention of somno & oral f receiving, reader wears a dress, heโs a freak, not proofread, wc: 2.4k
synopsis: your husband fucks you during one of your prenatal visits
your husband is a freak, you know that. but what you didnโt know was how big of a one he could be, for you. you found out โ when you became pregnant with his child.
when satoru found out that youโre carrying his child โ because he did before you, saw it with his six eyes โ he fucked you differently. with a primal urge unheard of, like a man thatโs impregnated his wife and is now claiming her again, confirming the fact that you belong to him by slamming it deep inside you. after the fifth (?) orgasm he dragged out of you that night, you asked him through a weary chuckle โ โhuh, where did this come from?โ โ and his answer began with a motion of his fingers hugging his balls โ โit came from hereโฆโ, followed by his other hand caressing your belly โโฆand went thereโ, while slowly leaning in to meet your lips, โand i might just lose my mind because, baby โ youโre pregnantโ
a rather unconventional way to find out youโre pregnant.
if he had any semblance of decency in him before (which is rather questionable) and could keep his hands to himself (to some extent) during certain times and in certain places, it is completely off the table now.
when he wants you, you will know; others around will know it, too. he doesnโt shy away from making it obvious, or more so he doesnโt care if other people notice. whatโs there to be embarrassed about? after all, youโre a couple, you do things. itโs only natural. and that pretty baby bump is the perfect proof of it. in all honesty, it gets him off when others know that heโs about to fuck his beautiful pregnant wife once he takes her home.
he's a freak like that, it canโt be helped. even more so now with the way your skin glows differently, with the way you smell, the way you carry yourself and the way your body is undergoing the natural changes as the pregnancy progresses that he finds so beautiful. it all messes with his head. brings out the real freak in him that can no longer keep his urges at bay, not when knowing that he himself brought this upon you. it makes you so undeniably his, for everyone to see and acknowledge. his chest swells with prideโฆ
โฆbut sometimes pride also gives way to greed, to a freakish desire for more of you.
during the rare times you go about to shower without him, he slips into the bathroom. sits on the toilet seat and starts jerking off to you, watching your swollen belly and breasts, moaning loud and clear for you to come to his aid. sometimes you wake up to him holding your hand wrapped around his cock, rubbing himself into your palm, audible pants seeping from his lips as he slowly lifts the hem of your shirt (his shirt that you wear to sleep) โ preparing to splatter his load on your pregnant belly; or alternatively, you open your eyes to his face buried between your legs, devouring you like a starved animalโฆ other times, as you make dinner in the kitchen, tenderizing the meat with the mallet on the counter, he comes from behind and presses his hard-on against your ass, shamelessly asking โwould you mind beating my meat, too, baby?โ
and when you go about to scold him, call him a jerk, a perv, a freak, insufferable while hitting his chest โ playfully, because you secretly like it when he canโt contain himself around you โ he blames you for it. tells you that youโve severed him so abysmally that heโs having a hard time now keeping it soft around you (heโs not lying). that you broke him and should take responsibility for it. chuckles fill the room and mix in between your kisses that later turn into breathy moans and pants mixed in between countless of i love youโs and youโre mine and mine onlyโs.
but sometimes, such as today, he takes things a bit too farโฆ
like,
โyou canโt simply fuck your wife during one of the prenatal visits just because the doctor left the examination room for a bit and your dick is rock-hard from seeing your wifeโs belly out in the open.
โyou have to be kidding meโ, you raise your brows in absolute surprise as you watch your husband unbuckle his pants, โnow? HERE?โ
โplease?โ, he looks at you, cheeks flushed and eyes of a pleading puppy.
you knew he was up to something from the glint in his eyes as he kept staring at your exposed belly earlier, completely transfixed, only his eyes following the ultrasound probe as the doctor pressed it over your tummy.
โthe doctorโs going to come any moment, you know right?โ, you try to confirm he is aware that this can go very wrong.
โyes, but so am i โ you donโt want me walking around in cum drenched pants, right?โ, he purses his lips into a pout, one thatโs obviously fake (but it works on you, even if you refuse to admit it).
โitโs not like youโve never done it beforeโ, you mock.
โthat was only one timeโ, he pouts (this oneโs not a fake), โokay, maybe two or three times, but it happens even to the bestโ (it was more than two or three times)
โahaโ
โoi. whose fault do you think it was? you make a man go crazy. i mean, look at me right now, just look โ i am standing here with my dick almost out for you, in the doctorโs officeโ
โso you realize this is absolutely crazy but still you wonโt pack your dick away?โ
โno, i will not. iโll die if i donโt get to fuck you this instant. and i mean it, it hurts so much. and the authorities will suspect you did it, you know. because itโs always the wives anywayโฆ..and they wonโt be wrong about itโ
โyouโre hopeless, satoruโ, you sigh, giving him a roll of your eyes.
but still, leaning on your elbows you slowly rise yourself from the examination table and sit at the edge of it, removing the towel covering your thighs. spreading your legs for him, you think that you really made the right choice to wear a dress today โ less in the way for your husband and another one of his โif i donโt get to fuck my wife, iโll dieโ episodes.
โi amโ, he saunters over to you, biting his lower hip at the sight of your thighs and the beautiful belly hanging in between, โbut i canโt help it when youโre so pretty for me like this, i go crazyโ
and fuck, if it doesnโt make you wet the way he looks at you right now as he stops to stand between your open thighs, invading your space with such ease because thatโs where he belongs to be. all the signs hint at that, too โ the ring on your finger, the baby in your belly and the wetness dripping from your cunt, ready to welcome him in.
โyea, you really doโ, you pull the front of his boxers down, just enough to free his cock, earning a low hiss from him upon your hand making contact with it.
โall because of youโ, he places his hands under your ass and slightly pulls you to himself. youโre immediately met with where heโs hard, itโs poking and rubbing against your belly.
a moan crawls up his throat and breaks out into a satisfied groan. part of him wants to cum just like this โ by rubbing himself against your belly. but god, you smell so good down there that it shifts his desire. now that heโs so close to you โ standing right in front of your doors โ he can smell it so much better. your scent wafts up from your heat and goes straight to his nostrils, letting his brain register in the most primal of ways that your body is ready for him.
you know heโs noticed the dampness of your panties by the way his smileโs faded into a grin, you can smell yourself in the air around you, too.
โfuck, babyโฆcan cum from this alone, you know? rubbing myself on that pretty belly that i made on youโ, satoru whispers as he leans forward to take your mouth into his. his lips are loaded with such intensity that they suck the air from your lungs, leave you moaning into his mouth. the grip heโs got on your ass tightening, his fingers digging into your flesh. โbut that wonโt do now, so hold on tightโ
you comply in silence, wrapping your hands around his neck as he lifts you up just enough to peel your panties down to your thighs, then sits you up again and drags them down your legs and onto the floor.
โjust so you knowโif someone comes before i do, iโll just keep fucking youโ, he grins at you as he positions himself back between your legs. his words might sound like a joke, an exaggeration of some sort to make it clear how much he wants you right now, but you know better than anyone that heโs pretty serious about it.
โthen hurry up, you freakโ
his fingers swipe over your cunt โ to confirm that you are indeed as ready as your scent gives away โ and collect your arousal before rubbing it all over the length of his throbbing cock, mixing your wetness with his vigorously leaking pre.
โopen them a little bit more for me, babyโ, he coaxes, hands back on your thighs, tapping softly on your skin as a signal to spread them just a little bit more and give him way. you lean back on your hands and push your legs open as much as you can. the motion causing your belly to bump against his cock, squishing it between the two of you, pressing it against his stomach.
โs-shit, babyโ, he hisses at the sensation, his body jerks a little and his hips buck forward, against your belly, to deepen the friction, โi can really cum from just rubbing it on youโฆ.fuck, thatโs crazyโ, he laughs.
but satoru stops himself.
his hand moves away from you to get a hold of his cock and help it against your entrance, pushing the head towards your folds before slowly sinking in the entirety of it, bottoming out in you from the very start. thereโs no time to waste and heโs got no patience left in him, once heโs in โ heโs going all the way.
โnghh, s-satoruโ, you whimper at his needy intrusion, but swallow him so easily that your wetness starts to spurt out as heโs starting to dart in and out, trickling down the crack of your ass and dripping onto the examination table.
โfuck, loveโฆlook at the way you take meโ, he breathily chuckles, head thrown back as he picks up the rhythm of his thrusts, โand you call me crazy, huhโฆhaha, fuck, f-fuc-kโ โ if his voice was a tad bit louder just now and could keep a steady note, he wouldโve sounded maniacal.
โs-shut upโฆ.donโt compare me to yourselfโ, you protest, trying to deny the fact you want him just as bad but the way your walls clench around him proves the other way around. you become who you surround yourself with. heโs crazy to do this to you here of all places. and youโre just as much crazy to let him have his way with you.
you suck him in so deep that his body, caught off guard, jerks and bucks forward. it makes him forget where he starts and where he ends. he wants to let go but also to never stop, heโs fighting so hard but itโs a battle heโs slowly losing. as his pace is growing faster his thrusts are getting sloppier. โshitโ, he curses under his breath. his balls are sizzling and he wants to bust so bad but not before he makes you cum.
the tension, the pulsing of his cock and the ridges of his throbbing veins โ you can feel them like a heartbeat inside of you, and each time he slams against that sweet spot your clit responds with a beat of its own.
you try to hold your voice back but pants leave through your parted lips as you gasp for air.
โnghh, โtoruโฆโm gonna cumโ, you whimper incoherently as you throw your head back, eyes shut close.
โyea? go on, babyโcum for me. come on, sweetheartโiโll help you outโ, he breathes.
his hands grabbing onto the plush of your thighs with a deadly grip, pulling you closer to help fuck himself into you better. the bottom of your belly is flat against his rock-hard abdomen now and he keeps it that way while ramming himself inside you, rubbing his cock around your sensitive walls, without pulling out. over and over until you squirm and come undone. face grimacing in pleasure and hips jerking from the electrifying sensation as you keep chanting โfuck, fuck, fuckโ under your breath as quietly as possible so your voice doesnโt make it past the walls of the examination room for others โ doctors, nurses and patients โ to hear.
you glance your eyes to him, all disheveled and sweaty as his hips live through the last few thrusts left in them before he implodes inside of you. you hear him grumble how heโs about to fill you up while peering at you with a desperate face.
โf-fuckโ, he growls throatily, charging one last time into you before spurting his load inside you. his body shudders from the release heโs been holding back. and heโs pouring too much, his heat spilling and filling your insides. you can feel it all โ heโs making a frothy mess of your cunt.
it takes a few seconds after heโs done pouring his seed that his body reigns back control and he stops shuddering. he then looks at you.
โif i pull out now itโll all spill out, you know? so maybe we should stayโ?โ
โno.โ, you dryly interrupt. โdonโt force our luck. put that thing away before someone comes and help me put my panties onโ
โbut itโll spill outโ, he insists.
โiโll hold it in, donโt worryโ
โoh? you know just the thought alone is doing inhumane things to me all over again, right?โ
โsatoru. donโt you dare.โ
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note: thank you @.princessbrunette for creating boxer!rafe !!
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you clutched the pregnancy test, clammy hands shaking as you felt more scared than ever. rafe was still in his match, and you- you were forbidden from coming to his matches. the last time you came his opponent had made a pass at you afterย rafeย brutally beat him.ย
the guy plummeted to the ground before he could utter another word, andย rafeย decided that enough was enough. so he sat you down, in your little cameo shorts and baby white tee. your thick lashes battered as he tried to come out the truth. the two of you were in the completely vacant locker room.ย
"listen, kid,ย iย don't think you should come to my matches anymore," he said gently, as you gripped his arm. you had a sweet expression on your face before you heard what he had said - quickly wilting as you frowned at him. before you could open your mouth he had already cupped your face as softly as he could.
his hands were rough and warm on your face, you could smell the brutality on them, yet you felt yourself at ease in his embrace. you could never admit it - butย rafeย had some control over you that you could never explain.ย
"iย know you're going to say it's your calling," he quipped, leaning in closer. his hot breath fanned your neck, as his mouth nipped at your cheek, "butย babyย iย don't think this place is good for you." you felt yourself unwind and opened your mouth to blubber something.ย
you finally gasped out, "butย iย wanna see you!"ย
he groaned, steady hand moving down to your waist. there was an amused expression on his face, but he stayed firm.ย
"rafe? please."ย
"no."
that was it. so you got another job, and later on,ย rafeย told you to stay at tanyhill with him. you were overjoyed that you would get to see him more and that he was being so gracious.ย allย the girls in the ring had told you he was a playboy and nothing more than that. and you would never tellย rafeย but it was nice not being a ring girl. sure it was a way to get money fast, but your thighs ached from the amount of times you shined and plucked them.
but it wasn't just that. it was also the dark humid lights that dawned upon you, and trotting while people eyed you like a piece of meat. and now, you felt free, and whileย rafeย would never understand why you chose it - you were a waitress.ย
the owner,ย delanyย liked you, so she didn't give you a hard time about anything. it was a cafe where time seemed to slow and it was as if nothing could go wrong. you got up early in the morning, givingย rafeย a goodbye kiss while he was in bed as he groaned about you leaving so early. you took life at strides. things were great.ย
but here it was. a sign that maybe everything was going to go to shit. be fine. your heartbeat quickened and you could barelyย breathย - that was when you knew it was going to be bad. you could barely imagine yourself pregnant.ย
how old were you? 25? yeah, that was too young and quite frankly didย rafeย even want a baby? sure he mentioned it sometimes, when you went to baby showers and cooed a baby clothes.ย but would he-? it was another mouth to feed and god you didn't know if you could support that. rafe, sure, but if he left you? and it was an actual human being to love.
finally, you found yourself rushing out of the bathroom. you had to tell him now, as your heart was on fire, and your hands were stinging. quickly you gathered your stuff and headed over toย delany.ย
"iย have to go."ย
หโเผโงโห.
the ring was the same as usual. the same musty smell, and that feeling of everything being possible. you weren't recognised - though you did see a couple of familiar faces in the crowd. but you weren't here to chit-chat.ย
urgency drummed through your veins as you foundย rafe. 12:35.ย it was almost time for his first match, and you couldn't dump on him like that. no, you really could there was this feeling. this feeling that ran through you like wildfire as you stumbled to him.ย
he looked good, better than good, but he looked alarmed as you twisted yourself around his body.ย
"hey, hey kid," he laughed at you furiously hugging his middle, "iย love that you're here butย iย told you about visiting me, didn'tย i? we had this conversation-" he was stopped right there as you kissed him, cupping his face. he was out of breath, pupils dilated when it finally set in.ย
maybe he saw the wayย youย sweet doe eyes were welling up with tears, or the way you swayed in his arms as if he let you go you could crumble, or the way you were trying to mouth words, but nothing was coming out of your mouth. he furiously swore under his breath, and pulled you along with him - you followed like a puppy.ย
the dim lights of the corner he had pulled you in soothed your state. no longer did your skin ich, but your head still pounded. rafe looked down at you with a worried expression, as he rubbed your back. you were still holding on to him, wide-eyed.ย
"hey?" he snapped his fingers, "can't be doing that here. not right now.ย what'sย wrong?" he asked harshly, and you shook your head, completely nonverbal. he raised a hand through his buzzed hair, concern evident in his eyes. whenever you got like this- which was never he had to remind himself to be gentle.ย
finally, he dropped himself, voice quiet. he didn't care if people saw him like this- all vulnerable. "sweets are you okay?" he probed again.ย finallyย with trembling hands, you reached out into your bag to get the pregnancy test- and broke into tears. the two double lines spread fear throughout his heart.ย
rafe had changed. that was a fact, he no longer was plagued by hisย fathersย words as much as before. but could he be a father? suddenly he looked down at you, wispy lashes wet, and doe eyes pleading. suddenly, he felt something blossom in his heart. he imagined you running around inย tannyhil, round with his kid. you would be wearing a pretty sun dress, as laughter rang through you.ย
finally, he closed his eyes, "it'sย gonna be okay."ย
you seemed to take that as a bad sign, gasping out muffled words, "no,ย rafe,ย iย didn't know what was going to happen, please-"ย yourย hand reached out for his, hoping that things were going to be okay.ย
rafe was still looking at the test, as he closed and opened his mouth before shaking his hand, "we're gonna get married, all right?ย yeah, andย iย want you to stay here with me. 'causeย iย need you here." he said tapping your head. there was a watery smile on your face, as you jumped into his arms.ย
he held you tightly, and you sniffed. before letting go of him to look into his eyes. it was at that moment that you realised how much he loved you. when he's staring at you like you are his world, and his steel eyes are soft. when his eyes are welling up with tears.ย
"just really happy and shit," he chuckled, "i can't believe this," he murmured out before pressing his lips on yours. finally, he pulled apart from you, still gazing into your eyes.ย
ย "you should go," you found yourself whispering out "it'sย time for your match." yet your hand found a deathly hold on him.
you saw him smile, and give you a peck on the lips, "wantย you to watch,ย 'kay?ย i'mย fighting this match for you," and then his hands travelled down to your stomach,ย "youย and baby."ย
dazed you watched him step up into the ring and sighed. if this was love, you'd fight for it any day.ย
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๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ โ ๏ธ
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๐ญ๐๐ฏ๐ฑ ๐ฌ๐ซ๐ข ๐ญ๐๐ฏ๐ฑ ๐ฑ๐ด๐ฌ ๐ญ๐๐ฏ๐ฑ ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ฏ๐ข๐ข
Blac Chyna got a Scorpio MC and Sun 8th house in her Fama(408) Persona Chart which makes sense since she is the highest paid non musician Only Fans creator. In October 2023 she was the top earning creator of all on Only Fans.
Earth placements๐ฑ tend to like the touching/sensing/moaning part during sex while Air placements๐ฌ๏ธ tend to be very visual & communicative. Fire placements๐ฅtend to value the pace and feeling. Water placements๐ง value the emotional undercurrents. So air placements might care more about how the partner looks and be turn on by the appearance while Taurus gets turned on by how you feel & sound. Water placements get turned on based on the emotional undercurrents like for example scorpio placements can get extra turned on if its forbidden.
Venus 2nd house synastry seem to make yall want to kiss & do oral sex a lot more than you usually would with someone else. (Please confirm this if you had this in synastry w someone)
Mars conjunct Chiron in both synastry and composite makes the sex amazing. That soulmerging healing kind of sex.
Mars conjunct Reiki(5239) in the natal chart might make people feel changed/healed after they slept with you.
Eros(433) conjunct Neptune might mean a lot of people fantasize about you, Ive seen it in a lot of the charts when i did my xxx stars post.
Libra Moon and Mars tend to care a lot about how their partner looks. Disharmony can really affect them and therefore make them very easily turned off. Not always ofc, other placements play a huge role too.
Lust(4386) or Eros(433) conjunct Moon seem to make someone constantly in the mood for some โfunny stuffโ. It also tends to create the same effect in synastry.
If you watch โadult moviesโ you will enjoy performers you have 8th house synastry with or the same Eros or Mars sign. They will most likely โdo itโ in a way you like. There is usually a conjuntion from one of their personal planets to your Venus or Mars involved when it comes to your โfavorite starโ.
I remember a famous youtuber answering which celebrity he would choose if he could only sleep with ONE celebrity. Ofc I checked his synastry with the celebrity he chose and he had a stellium in her 8th house.
Check the degree of your asteroid Eros. Eros at 2ยฐ can mean a sexy voice, good at oral, liking it slow and sensual, might even get paid for it.
Sorry I know Ive said it before but so many Sag Risings with Pluto in the 1st house look like the stereotypical โsexy teacherโ look.
Mars degree says more about what you enjoy in the bedroom. Mars in a Cancer degree might find pregnant people hot or enjoy sucking someones titties or having theirs sucked. ๐ผ
Mars 9th house might like to do it in risky places. 9th house and Sagittarius energy can make someone kinda reckless.
Fama(408) the goddess of rumor conjunct Eros(433) can indicate people will spread rumours about your sex life. Known for being sexy. People can be very curious about your sex life if you have this placement.
People with Saturn 8th house might like a more โcoldโ kind of sex with less cuddling and kissing etc just straight forward penetration sex.
Bacchus(2063) conjunct Mars in the natal chart seem to give the person an insatiable sexual appetite.
Moon & Mars in the 8th house in synastry seem to be the hardest to resist. Especially speciellt since they often come with some kind of forbidden situation going on. There seem to always be a reason why yall are not allowed to do it.
Lilith aspecting personal planets or inte the 1st, 8th, 11th or 10th house sometimes have the most innappropriate people vieweing them in a sexual way. Like the person they least expected. Which can be very hurtful for them.
People with Jupiter aspecting Mars tend to be seen as being good in bed no matter if they are or not. Its just the energy they exude.
Someones Lilith aspecting your personal planets can make them see you as wayyy sexier than you actually are. Same with 8th house/Pluto synastry.
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โWhore.โ
You couldโve sworn the teacup in your hands cracked a little from how hard youโre gripping it. If you were Illumi, it wouldโve shattered into a fine powder by now. But youโre not, which makes you susceptible to being called such things.
Theyโre at it again. Youโre unsure as to what youโve done to upset some of the butlers and maids, but god do they not like you. No matter. You hate everyone in this stupid boring ugly manor anyway. Huh. Maybe thatโs why they hate you, too.
It mustโve been a shock to see Illumi of all people one day bring home his future wife. One he never cared to mention to anyone else beforehand, and one that was still kicking and screaming over his shoulder.
Youโre not really sure how long youโve been here. Months? A year now? However long itโs been, it didnโt take anytime at all to realise that maybe youโre not as safe here as Illumi swears you to be. His mother most definitely hates you, but, oh well, sheโs never really tried anything, as far as you know.
The help started muttering things when Illumi wasnโt around, things that hurt more than you wanted to admit. When you didnโt go running off to Illumi at the first few instances of it, it got worse, as though they knew you would never tell him about it.
First off, you donโt want to give him the satisfaction of being your saviour when someone says mean things to you. Secondly, you may hate these assholes, but you have a conscience.
Only last week Illumi came into your shared bedroom, absolutely drenched in blood, asking if you could shower together. You quickly found out that whoever he had been torturing wasnโt dead yet, and he still had more to do.
Thinking about what Illumi does to people he doesnโt care about, those heโs only hurting for a job, makes you shiver at the thought of him actually harming someone who did him, or you, wrong. But, despite your mercy on them, this time youโre considering just telling him. Only a little.
Youโve had a notably stressful day, being pranced around by his mother whoโs insistent on โtrainingโ you to be the perfect wife for her son. Her explaining to you that the family expects at least six children from you both had you rushing to the bathroom to vomit.
Then you ran into his father, on your way back to your room. He doesnโt seem to actively dislike you, but he scares the absolute shit out of you. The man seems to think youโre some house pet rather than an actual person with thoughts and feelings, but you suppose thatโs only a modicum better than wanting you dead.
You also bumped into Illumiโs grandfather. Youโre not sure if you can bring yourself to hate him, but you do hate the look of pity in his eyes whenever he sees you. Sometimes heโll save you from a lecture Illumiโs mother is giving you, so heโs nice in that regard. Heโd never free you, though, so heโs just another kidnapper you canโt become friendly with.
You eventually got back to your room, expecting a nice nap before being forced to attend family dinner, only to find Illumi had gotten back earlier than expected. You cringed at how hungry he was, and not for food, but just allowed him to do as he wished. You were too tired to argue. After he was done, he seemed to take note of how quiet and exhausted you were. Too bad, dinner time. You hated dinner times more than anything else.
You ate the admittedly lovely food in pure silence, but quickly became sick to your stomach at hearing Illumi and his mother discuss the prospects of you becoming pregnant. You didnโt eat anymore after that. Youโre pretty sure his brother, Milluki, made some comment about you that Illumi didnโt like, which explains why his wrist got snapped in half a few seconds later.
Illumi tried spoon feeding you when noticing how full your plate was, but you managed to convince him that you werenโt hungry. That got you another lecture from his mother about how youโll soon be eating for two. You were tempted to tell her that if you ever got pregnant youโd throw yourself into Mikeโs jaws, but managed to refrain.
After that, you finally got to go to bed. It wasnโt something you were looking forward to anymore; you struggled to sleep when Illumi was home because heโd spend the majority of the night just staring at you.
โCan I go outside?โ
You donโt remember why you blurted it or where the thought came from, but you remember the confused blink Illumi gave in response.
โUm.. just for.. ten minutes? O-Or five..? I just want to sit in the garden by myself for a bitโฆ If not, itโs alright..โ
You hated how pathetic you sounded, unsure as to what Illumi was thinking when he stared at you with that expressionless face.
โAlright.โ
โWhat?โ
โWould you like me to ask a maid to bring you out a cup of tea?โ
You didnโt really think about his words too much, just happy you got something your way for once, and nodded rather enthusiastically. You shouldโve said no.
The first few minutes of being in the garden, sat on the bench and allowing the cool nights breeze to settle on your skin had you relaxing for the first time in a while.
โYour tea, mistress.โ
Oh. It was one of the ones you were sure hated you, and behind him was another. Oh, well. You took the tea from his hands, thanking them nonetheless.
It was much more bitter than you liked it, but you didnโt complain. You didnโt really want tea in the first place. They didnโt leave, but you didnโt complain. Illumi probably asked them to watch over you, maybe to make sure you didnโt try to run. Itโs alright, you still have a nice view to relax with.
โWhore.โ
Your eyes widen a little, and your grip on the cup increases. They continue muttering amongst themselves, but you catch small, demeaning phrases that youโre certain are aimed at you.
Why are you a whore? Youโd never even had sex before you met Illumi, and if you had, it wouldnโt be their business. Youโre hardly allowed to interact with anyone other than who Illumi allows you to. Where would you have the chance to sleep around? The insult doesnโt make much sense.
Thatโs what you tell yourself, despite the fact that your shoulders and hands are shaking and you feel something cold and wet running down your cheeks.
Shit.
You put the cup on the floor, hands moving to cover your face and wipe away any evidence of tears. Illumi hated when you cried.
Why are you still crying? What they said doesnโt make any sense. Stop crying, enjoy the view. You donโt have long left before you have to go back inside.
Youโre still crying. You donโt notice that itโs gone eerily silent aside from your own muffled sobs, too busy working on shutting yourself up.
โ[Name].โ
Shit. Shit!
Heโs been sat next to you for god knows how long now, and you didnโt even realise. God, this sucks.
โWhy are you crying?โ Illumi asks, and you can feel him move closer to you on the bench.
โI-Iโm not,โ you say, a hand still covering your eyes. What excuse do you give? If you say hay fever will he never let you out in the garden again? If you say you have a cold, will he keep you inside your bedroom for a few weeks? Months?
He doesnโt say anything, but you can feel him staring at you.
โWould you like to stay outside for a bit longer?โ
Oh.
โYe-Yeah. Y-Yes please,โ you eventually reply, gulping down another sob.
He doesnโt leave, but youโre less bothered by his presence than usual. Despite it beingโฆ him, itโs not horrible to have some company, even though youโd never admit it out loud.
Youโre not sure how long you sit outside before he stands, prompting you to do the same. Neither of you say anything, not until you reach your bedroom and Illumi tells you in a tone softer than youโd usually hear from him that he has something he must do, so youโll be sleeping alone tonight.
You turn to go to bed, but he grabs your wrist. He doesnโt look at you for a moment, seemingly considering something. Then, he stiffly leans forward, pressing his lips to your forehead rather robotically. Sometimes you wonder if he is a robot, it really would explain a lot.
The kiss ends soon after it begins.
โGet some rest. You look bad.โ
You huff a little, but canโt bring yourself to actually be offended due to the thinly veiled concern in his tone.
The sleep you get is better than you expected. Maybe not having a mass murderer eyeing you up while you try and rest is a reason for that.
Illumi doesnโt show up for the entirety of the next day, which is a little strange. He likes seeing you off in the morning, giving you a kiss before he departs - youโre certain he copied it from a romance movie you used to enjoy watching from time to time. You donโt question his absence too much, you donโt exactly enjoy his company, after all.
The day you have is better than the last. Illumiโs mother seems to be a bit less of a bitch than usual. Thatโs a win in your book.
It doesnโt take long for you to be back in your warm bed, wrapped up in covers and drifting off to sleep.
You wake up to the feeling of something wet hitting the tip of your nose, and quiet breathing above you.
โAre you awake?โ
You are now. Itโs pitch black in the room, but you can make out Illumi looming over, his hair framing around you like some makeshift cage.
Still sleepy, you groan a little, โIllumi? Whatโฆ time is it?โ
Something wet hits the bed.
โ2:57 AM.โ
Huh. You breathe in through your nose. Illumi absolutely reeks. Metallic, is it? Youโre not sure itโs the best idea to comment on it.
โOh. Okay.โ
Another drip of something onto the blanket. He doesnโt seem to be in the talking mood.
โHave I done something wrong?โ
โโฆ Yes.โ
Another.
You gulp. โAre you mad at me?โ
โI donโt think so.โ
Another drip, this time it hits your arm.
โAre you going to hurt me?โ
You couldโve sworn you saw his eyes narrow in the darkness.
โNo.โ
The silence is deafening. Your hands clutch onto the end of the blanket. He leans impossibly closer, and the stench of whatever is on him becomes all to familiar. Heโs smelt like it before, but never this strong.
โHow long were the help bothering you?โ
โSince I got here.โ Thereโs little point in trying to lie about it now.
โIf you hide something from me again Iโll break three of your fingers.โ
A little specific, but the threat certainly does the job.
โOkay. Iโmโฆ sorry.โ Youโre not.
Finally, he pulls away, eyes still trained on your face.
โGo to sleep.โ
You donโt. Youโre certain that you canโt, at least not for tonight. Especially not after hearing him turn the shower on, and after heโs done leave the room once more.
Instead, you sit and stare at the ceiling, and wonder if any of those in the basement will even have three fingers left of them, by the time heโs done.
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Can we have a part two of baby fever?
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๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: pregnant with charles' baby, in a surprise turn of events, he's been able to keep his hands off of you. but just how long does that restraint last when he's faced with a problem: the tenderness of pregnancy? or in which, charles is struck yet again with the case of baby fever. ๐๐. ๐ ๐๐๐๐!
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: established relationship, 18+ (minors DNI), unprotected sex (wrap it if u don't want dem babies), breeding kink (although atp idk), lactation kink, mutual orgasms, pussy eating, again pussy rubbing(?), cumming inside, reader is sensitive as shit again, poor interpretation of pregnancy terminology, fluff at the start and towards the end, minimal use of french endearments, a criminal minds reference from yours truly <3
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: charles leclerc x fem!reader
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๐/๐: everyone wanted another one! sooooo here it is! i wasn't sure whether to do this during or after pregnancy but i ended up choosing the former. hope you like it โก๏ธ see you lot next year :)
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โย โขยฐ.ย ใย .ยฐโขย โ
You knew the exact day, hour, minute, and second the two lines on that test appeared and confirmed the wish you and Charles had been waiting for. But what got you there... now that was a mystery. It was like finding that one specific good needle in a stack of needles.
Ever since your boyfriend had mentioned children to you, you and Charles have spent more time acting like animals in heat. It was lewd, obscene, sometimes immoral given the places it happened, but God was it hot.
You were currently coming towards the end of your second trimester. Your baby bump wasn't visible to the naked eye when you wore clothes but no one would also deny that you were pregnant. Apparently, your baby girl (yes a girl, the already doting Charles couldn't be more thrilled) was the size of a banana.
Besides feeling sick, having odd cravings, and being unusually hormonal, you were heavily preparing for your due date. Honestly, you didn't need to prepare that much. Charles had been working on it himself with both of your families so you didn't feel stress. And as sweet as it was, you couldn't help it. You were having a baby for Christ's sake. This wasn't a paper you thought you could wing the night before.
Your eyes strained at the pile of pregnancy books Mama Leclerc had brought you, all new and updated with the times... her words not yours.
You liked to read. It was your favourite pastime. But this... this wasn't particularly enjoyable. Scary, if anything. How on earth did people get anything done with this much information? You have to have enough iron to prevent defects to the baby but not too much otherwise you could still harm the baby?
Huh?
You blinked and shook your head. Your eyes reverted to the also busy (reading) bee sat on the couch. You smiled softly at the sight of Charles. It was winter. The sun was still making it's visits but it was cold enough to put on the heater in the early evening. Charles wrapped up in that one cream knit sweater you brought him with his glasses and book five on parenting tips made you all warm on the inside.
You quietly walked over to him, pulling the book gently from his hands. "What are you thinking of, amour?" You queried, slowly removing his glasses from his face and resting them with the book on the coffee table.
Charles smiled at your presence, opening his arms so you could sit on his lap. His one hand automatically came to your stomach, rubbing your bump like he had been ever since he saw those two lines. The other held your waist, knowing very well your back had been getting sore without doing anything but walking.
He hummed in thought. "I was thinking about when exactly I got you pregnant. Was it the morning in the hotel room in the end of year party in Abu Dhabi? Or in the bathroom on the ride from Qatar to Texas? Italy, maybe? The wine was really good that night."
You gasped at his words, smacking him lightly on his arm. "You animal... and here I was thinking you were being all sweet, reading about parenting."
Charles grinned, blues eyes twinkling at you. "Hey, I have to tell our princess one day where she came from. And it won't be a stork. Maybe I'll say in my driving room in Japan."
Your mouth dropped in shock at the nonchalant shrug you received from Charles. You pushed yourself out of his arms. "Charles!" You practically screeched in horror, making a wave of laughter fall from his lips.
His arms quickly reached towards you, pulling you closer as your warmth was just beginning to disappear. "I'm kidding... mostly," Charles mumbled, smiling at your small glare.
You rolled your eyes, looking at Charles with sarcastic gaze before you narrowed it. "Also 'princess?' What about me?" You pouted.
Charles chuckled softly, holding you tighter. "You're still my princess, amour. But when our little girl comes, you'll be my queen."
You blinked, trying to suppress the cringe and embarrassment. "I'm going to go pretend to throw up because I'm pregnant and not because of you. But I'll find it endearing some other day... in the far, far future.
Charles sighed, shaking his head. "You're a menace."
You gaped at him. "I'm a menace. That's rich coming from you. Weren't you the one who was just thinking about which place we screwed each other to have this child?"
Charles winced, putting his forehead on your shoulder. "Well, when you say it like that..." He grimaced. Sucking in a sharp breath, he decided to change subjects. "How does brunch sound?"
Your ears perked up and your eyes squinted with a sudden happiness. "I'm cooking," Charles told you. You dropped your smile. "It sounds awful..."
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After teasing Charles for his cooking, you did end up having lunch. Charles, who was initially terrible at making any morsel of food, had found his talent in making pregnancy food.
Even though Charles lacked knowledge about food, ever since you found out you were pregnant, he had made sure every single thing you ate was edible for you and your little girl.
It was amusing to be honest.
You had joined Lorenzo and the others for dinner at a restaurant and the moment a wine bottle landed on the table, Charles pushed the bottle away from you as far as he could, fearing even the mere particles of wine you could breathe in would affect you.
As entertaining as it was, it was sweet. You knew that Charles naturally had a fear of being a bad father. His own father was the kindest soul he had ever met, his role model. Living up to that was going to be difficult. Furthermore, he still wanted to maintain a high standard while racing. Similar to that of Sebastian. But even Seb had ended up taking some time off to spend with his kids.
"What's with the face?" Charles queried, eyeing from the kitchen as he finished drying the last plate.
You blinked out of your trance. A tired sigh fell from your lips. "My boobs."
The plate in Charles' hands almost fell. Charles' head snapped towards you. "I... your... what?" He spluttered, putting down the plate gently before walking over to you.
You smiled softly at his confusion. You were about to speak up but Charles suddenly jutted out his hands. "No, wait! Don't tell me. I've got this. I read now."
The comment elicited a small laugh from your chest. Nodding, you waited patiently as he pondered around you.
"Okay... boobs... uh, this is great. I actually can't stop picturing your boobs now." Charles gave you a pointed look. You raised your hands in your defence, signalling him that this wasn't your problem. Your boyfriend fell into thought again, trying to think back to all the books he had been reading. Was it chapter three or six? It wasn't exactly breastfeeding...
"Ah!" Charles clapped his hand, dragging a seat from the table to sit in front of you. "Lactation! Tender breasts. While the tenderness tends to be less during the second trimester... uh, what was it? The... the lactation, yes, the lactation may cause more discomfort instead."
You watched Charles delve into an explanation about the biology behind it as if he was Spencer Reid from Criminal Minds. Another side of him you were discovering through this pregnancy. Charles didn't retain much information unless it was about you or racing, but if it was related to pregnancy, little did you know, he would eventually become a wikipedia.
You blinked slowly. "So are you going to help?" You asked, cutting him off abruptly.
Charles paused at your words. He raised his brows. "Help you?" He enunciated each word clearly.
You nodded, leaning back into your chair. "I thought you were going clean me up," You whispered in a way that had Charles' cock jumping again. "Something about massaging my breasts."
Charles' mouth felt dry. "I did say that..." He trailed off before letting out a groan. "Ah, ma chรฉrie, why would you say that? Iโfuck. You know how I feel about this."
You leaned over, putting a hand over his knee. "Charles, the doctor said it's fine."
Charles felt strongly about your breasts during your pregnancy. They were bigger, heavier and fuller. It turned him on more than he imagined it to. But as much as he was waiting for you to lactate, Charles also felt strongly about not hurting you. 'Cleaning' you up would only make him want to have sex and he was terrified about hurting you or the baby.
"I know..." Charles murmured, sucking in a sharp breath. Your doctor who remained professional to the end when you asked whether you could have sex (much to Charles' embarrassment and joy) cleared you for it. Actually, they encouraged it, saying it was good and healthy for the both of you.
Yet, Charles couldn't help be worried. So much to the point where you hadn't had sex for well over fifteen weeks.
"I mean if you seriously don't want to," You told him, retracting your hand. "It's okay."
Charles quickly took your hand back with his own. "No, I want to. Seriously, you have no idea how much I want to," He said with his voice thick, sending a familiar tingle between your thighs. "I just..." He sighed, "You'd tell me if I hurt you, right?"
Your eyes softened. Squeezing his hand gently, you used the other to caress his face. You gave a firm nod. "In a heartbeat," You promised.
Charles smiled lightly. With your hand in his, he stood up. "Let's go to the bedroom, hmm?"
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After taking off your underwear, Charles let out a low breath as he peeled off your shirt to see your bare breasts in front of him. He'd seen them when you got ready in the morning, it drove him crazy, but his fear always got to him first.
Looking at them like this, so close to him, it reminded him of the first time you had sex. Except, your breasts weren't showing such obvious signs of pregnancy: so full, almost two cup sizes bigger.
Charles pressed his lips together tightly, eyes glued to your breasts before flickering down to your stomach. He could see the bump a lot more clearly now that it was bare. The sight of it made him happy in far too many ways. It was like he was a teenager all over again. He wasn't sure what to do first.
Slowly, you encouraged him, silently bringing his hand over to your breasts.
A shaky breath fell from his mouth as a sudden surge of warmth came in contact with his hand. He moved his eyes to you, testing the waters by moving his thumb over your nipple. By your hitched breath and your suddenly dazed eyes, Charles could tell you were sensitive and completely fine. But he needed your words.
Bringing his other hand to your face, his thumb trailed of your lips. "Are you okay?" He softly asked, still grazing over your nipple.
"Charles," You let out a strained sigh, "If you don't move your fucking hand or do something, I will move it for you."
Yup, you were okay.
Charles chuckled quietly. His teeth sunk into his lips upon feeling a slight wetness at the pad of his thumb. He gulped at the white milk falling out of your nipple.
You eagerly watched Charles' head duck closer towards your breasts, mouth opening to wrap his lips around your milk covered nipple. A long whine fell from your mouth, head digging into your mattress. Your hand travelled up his neck and into his hair, eliciting a grunt from Charles as you pushed yourself further into his touch.
The taste on Charles' tongue was unlike anything he had ever tasted (well that he remembered of). It was sweet and creamy, coating his mouth ever so smoothly. It was a strange yet satisfying thought to think that while your body had made the milk, a part of him had participated in it. Technically, he had also made it. "Fuck," He hissed against your breast, realising your milk was far too addictive.
You let out another moan, tightening your grip on Charles' hair, feeling the grasp of his other hand on your other breast, twisting your pebbled nipple as he sucked on the other.
Your pussy was fully drenched, sensitive to any touch you received from Charles. You squeezed your thighs together, trying to relieve the creeping arousal that was intoxicating you.
Charles grunted, short breaths falling from his lips as he parted from your nipples. You whimpered at the sight of him licking the white liquid from his lips. The look in his blue eyes was surreal; crazed like a monster that wouldn't be satiated until he had entirely devoured you.
He brought his lips to yours, bringing you into a heated sloppy kiss. Your mouth moved against his, the taste of your own milk entering your tastebuds while your skin burned at his touch. Charles' breaths were heavy, chest rising up and down rapidly. "You taste that, princess?" He queried, lips lazily falling down your jaw. "You taste so fucking good," He rasped.
"Charles," You moaned out, hips jerking up at every tug on your nipple against a race of desperation.
"I know, baby, I know," Charles murmured with slight disbelief. He couldn't wrap his head around how sensitive you were. You were squirming and aching for his touch just by the touch of your nipples. His cock throbbed as his mind wandered just how you'd react to his cock or his tongue against your drenched folds.
Reluctantly, Charles moved his mouth away from your breasts, still keeping his hands on them, groping and teasing you with no mercy. Arriving to your pussy, he bit down on his swollen lips, uttering out a string of curses under his breath. He knew you were wet but not this wet. You had made a mess... the bed sheets were sported damp spots while your inner thighs were glazed with your arousal, ready to be eaten.
An apology quickly flew from his lips, making you furrow your brows. "For leaving you untouched," He murmured, hot breath dancing across your thighs yet cool to your burning folds. "Amour, I'm going to make up for it. Every fucking day," He promised.
Your stomach churned at his words while you drew in a deep breath. Christ. "I'm holding you to that promise, Cha," You whispered lightly, growing antsy with every passing second.
Charles grinned shamelessly against your thigh. "I should start now then, hmm?" He baited you by leaving soft kisses against your ample flesh, nose just skimming your pussy. He couldn't help but smile at the sudden gasp fallen from your reddened lips and jerk of your hips. You were clenching around nothing.
Your head dug into the mattress of your bed as Charles placed his mouth against your pussy, flattening his tongue and taking a long stripe of your warm folds. He sucked on every part of your pussy, darting his tongue on every crevice so naturally as if he had committed it to memory.
Your mewls that had turned into pure blubbers. You were sure you weren't making any sense. All that you knew was that Charles was eating you like he was tasting you for the first time, barely coming out for a breath while his nose rubbed against your clit, lapping at you like some sort of animal and it felt fucking phenomenal.
Charles' cock was uncomfortably and impossibly tight against his pants. He was struggling between continuing to eat you out because you tasted so good and prepping you for his cock. He was desperate to feel your walls again.
Your blubbers were now high pitched gasps upon feeling Charles' tongue drag to your clit, nibbling and sucking the sensitive bundle of nerves as he propped one finger into your walls. You could feel the coil in your stomach tighten. "Fuck, Charles," You moaned, hips jerking up to get even more stimulation while your eyes were clamped shut.
Charles grunted against your pussy, feeling your toes curl while he thrusted his finger out of you. God, you were even tight around his single finger. He couldn't help but wonder how you were going to give birth. His eyes darted up to your face, watching your back arch, exposing your leaking breasts to more air while your breath quivered. He could tell you were close.
Charles promised he'd be gentle. But he never promised he'd be kind.
Your eyes snapped open at the sudden loss of Charles' touch and the quickly distancing euphoria. You whined in annoyance. Even now, Charles was a menace.
"I know, princess. I'm sorry. Fuck, I just need to be in you, hmm?" Charles mumbled in a hurry, moving his body up and scrambling to remove his boxers. If he kept lapping at you like the animal he was, he was sure he was going to cum just like that.
If this was any other circumstance, you were sure you would be cursing at Charles in French. But taking a look at his throbbing cock, standing strong and hard in all it's glory... it took the words right of your mouth and had sent all the feelings straight to your pussy. In fact, you were even patient in the mere seconds it took Charles to adjust himself over you, revelling in his dazed hooded eyes, the blown pupils and his sweat-glittered skin.
Charles place the finger he had put inside you on your lips, gesturing for you to suck your arousal off. Without any objection, you parted your swollen lips and took a slow and long stripe of his finger, tasting yourself on your tongue. A guttural groan came from his mouth. Any second longer...
You sucked in a sharp breath when Charles let his bubbling saliva slowly fall from his mouth and onto the aching tip of his cock, rubbing the natural lube up and down his shaft. Shifting his hips a bit, the both of you let out a low blow upon the feeling of his flushed cock on your puffy folds.
Charles hovered over your body, placing his swollen lips on your leaking breast, savouring the sweet taste of your milk while letting his cock rub against your engorged pussy. He could hear your soft whimpers, loud enough for the entire room to reverberate off its walls. A rippling tremble surged through his body as he rocked his cock against your folds, feeling your wetness soak mix with his saliva and coat him entirely.
"Charles," You mewled, "Keep teasing and you won't feel this pussy again I promise."
The threat you made was empty and weak. The both of you knew it. Yet, the mere possibility or even the thought made Charles quickly but carefully push his cock into your pussy. He grunted at the feeling of your walls around his cock slowly welcoming you. Shit... You were tighter around his cock than his finger, already clenching around him.
"Merde," Charles swore. "You feel so good, princess."
Your hands fell around his neck, loosely holding him to you as his cock stretch you out. You could tell he wasn't as deep as he usually was with the baby taking up more space but when combined with your pregnant sensitivity, it left you more flustered and blazing than ever.
"Are you okay?" Charles managed to grit out.
You gave him a rushed nod. "Move... please," You begged, struggling to keep your eyes open.
Charles' hips began to move faster at your command, rutting at such as speed that pushed his aching cock against your walls, lost in the pleasure your brought by gripping him like a vice. His eyes fell to your mouth. Your moans and whines looked as though they were going to burst out of you. Bringing his puffy lips to yours, he swallowed all your angelic and sinful sounds into his body like he was consuming your very essence.
His hand travelled to your hips before trailing to your bump. The things this baby had done to him before even confirming those two lines was beyond Charles. Pulling away from your lips, he almost faltered when he saw your face.
God, you were just so... beautiful. Your flushed face, lust-ridden eyes, sweat-ridden hair moving in all sorts of directions, skin even stained with his marks of love he had made unknowingly... all with that pregnancy glow... beautiful.
"I love you, ma chรฉrie," He whispered out. "You're going to be the most wonderful and gorgeous mother in the entire universe. Our baby is going to be the luckiest child."
Tears pricked at your eyes as the pleasure still coursed through you. The coil in your stomach was coming to a breaking point while broken sobs came out of your mouth. Fuck, you couldn't even tell what you wanted anymore. Your hand reached out to Charles' face, feeling the small hairs on his face as you caressed him. "And you're the only person I would ever want with me... the only person who could be the father of my... our children."
Charles let out a faint high pitched moan. His hand moved to your abandoned clit, starting his abuse on the sensitive bundle of nerves. You let out a silent gasp while he chased both of your climaxes, his twitching cock snapping into you. Everything around you began to blur while your orgasm hit you in big waves as his hips stuttered against you, spilling ropes and ropes of his warm, white cum into your walls.
Your body convulsed as Charles continued to rub your clit, taking advantage of your sensitive state almost selfishly just so he could see you completely space it out in the ecstasy of it all. You let out a soft cry, pussy clenching around him to take every last drop of his cum you could get as the last few waves of his orgasm shot through him.
Charles sighed, wincing softly while taking his cock out of you, making sure to fall down next to you instead of over you like he usually did. His sweaty arm brought you in closer to him, baby bump grazing his cock. Pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead he smiled down at your tired state. "I should clean you up more often, hmm, princess?"
You managed to roll your eyes, hitting him weakly in his arm. "You are awful."
Charles grinned, popping his dimples out at you. He nodded casually. "Yeah... but you love me," He teased.
You suppressed another eye roll and simply smiled, slowly succumbing to the heavy weight on your eyes. A yawn fell from your lips. "I do. I love you... a lot."
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Pregnancy Headcanons
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summary | How the House of the Dragon characters would react before, during and after your pregnancy
warnings | Mentions of pregnancy and childbirth
this is a work of fiction. i do not own these characters
divider by @princessbellecerise
Jacaerys Velaryon
Finding Out
Jacaerys has the audacity to look shocked when the Maester tells him that youโre pregnant, like the two of you havenโt been fucking like rabbits ever since you got married
No seriouslyโhe literally freezes and just kind ofโฆstares with an unreadable expression on his face
Just sort of wide-eyed, in shock before he finally snaps out of it and briskly walks away without another word
Heโs not really sure what to do, or how to react to be honest. And it might take a few days for him to come around, but he will eventually
Bonus: Rhaenyra sees his reaction and sheโs like Jacaerys, what did you expect?
And heโs like: Not this
And then sheโs like: Well did you pull out? Ask for moon tea? Something??
And Jace is just like staring at her like: No? Why would I do that?
Like boy what did you expect when you literally nut inside your wife every single time
During Pregnancy
Once he does come around though, Jacaerys will be so protective. Iโm talking like he barely let you out of his sight, and makes sure that everyone knows youโre pregnant
Like they canโt already tell, heโll constantly tell people that youโre carrying his heir and that they need to be careful with you
Even the Maesters who literally know what theyโre doing get a scolding by the future king if he thinks theyโre being too rough
No one is allowed to get too close to you and if they do, Jace will always have one hand on his sword just in case he needs to defend you
He will even better himself at sword fighting, pushing himself to the limits during the hours that heโs not with you so that he can always be prepared
For Jacaerys, you being pregnant is sort of like a wake-up call for him, a chance for him to finally rise to his responsibilities and become a bit more serious
He understands the weight of being king now and for Jace, heโll want to put away all childish things so that he could become the man you and your child need
Giving Birth
Oh my god heโs so supportive
Iโm talking like this is a man that will get behind you and physically hold you while you push
Despite what anyone says, he will be there for the birth of his child and he will be so soothing
Holding you, kissing you, kissing your neck to calm you down, taking the cloth from the Maester and wiping the sweat off of your forehead
Jacaerysโ support of you never ends and heโs constantly telling you how proud of you he is even while youโre screaming your lungs out
Heโll help you breathe and let you squeeze his hand till you break it if thatโs what you so desire
Calling you his brave girl and letting out teary laughter when your baby is finally delivered
After Birth
When your child is born, itโs like fatherhood is something Jacaerys is born for
Heโs a natural; knowing exactly what to say and how to raise your children even if you are still figuring it out
Seriously, itโs like he has a cheat code or something
If the two of you have a boy, then Jace wonโt hesitate to start grooming him to be king and unlike most fatherโs, he is very involved in his sonโs upbringing
Jacaerys will be the one to teach him how to hold a sword, how to ride a horse and a dragon. Jace will be there for his son every step of the way no matter how improper it may seem
Likewise, if he has a daughter, he will be entirely overprotective
If you thought it was bad when she was in the womb, just wait until Jace takes one look at his baby girl
Suddenly, heโs terrified to let her out of his sight; sometimes even holding her on his knee during council meetings. She likes to play with the marble and Jace tries so hard to keep a straight face while also wrestling it out of her hands
Everyone at the meeting will try and pretend like they donโt hear her babbling and like itโs not the cutest thing ever while theyโre talking about literal war
Overall, Jace would be prepared to defend you and your children to the death if need be, and he would be such a stern but loving dad
Lucerys Velaryon
Finding Out
Luke doesnโt even notice that you havenโt gotten your moon blood for several months and neither do you, until one day a servant happens to say something and youโre both like: oh shit
Since you both are still quite young youโre not really supposed to be having heirs at the moment. Like Rhaenyra specifically told this boy to not get you pregnant just yet and now heโs terrified of telling her
So yeah, it was an accident and Luke is so nervous heโs literally shaking when the Maester confirms it
But sweet boy, he will do his very best to remain calm and will put on a brave face for you
Heโll act like heโs not scared as well at the prospect of having children so young but on the inside heโs freaking out. Heโll hold your hand tightly and give you kisses to calm you down, keeping his voice from shaking to seem brave
During Pregnancy
Even though itโs a little too soon for the both of you to become parents, Luke will slowly become excited at the prospect of becoming a father
Like heโs so proud, growing to love his child before youโre even four months along
He decides right then and there that heโll do anything to protect you and his child and swears that no harm will ever come to either of you
While youโre pregnant, Luke will take on every single responsibility so that you wonโt be stressed out. He always has you relaxing and content while he deals with all of the hard stuff
And yeah, over the course of the months he will find himself growing up a little
Maybe a little bit too fast, much his motherโs sadness, but Rhaenyra canโt help but love the look of pride of Lukeโs face every time he touches your belly. And neither can you
You love when Luke rubs your son or daughter and you especially love when he blows raspberries on your stomach, giggling every time while he coos to the baby or talks to them in High Valerian
Itโs a such a sweet moment to witness and many people, sometimes even Daemon, catch themselves smiling or smirking at you and the young prince
Giving Birth
Okay, so Lucerys is now back to being scared shitless
It all started on the day you delivered your child, with Luke sweating and pacing outside of your room while the Maesters attended to you
Your screams severely upset him and he kept pacing back and forth in the hallway, peeking in the room and desperately trying to get a glimpse of you before the Maesters pushed him out
He wants to be there for you so bad, especially since itโs your first pregnancy and youโre crying your eyes out for him
Eventually, heโll just have to say damn it and force his way in, gathering his courage for his wife. And even though the Maesters tell him that itโs highly improper, heโll ignore them and will hold your hand the entire way
Whispering sweet praises in your ear and stroking your back while Rhaenyra or your own mother loudly encourages you
Heโll be so worried up until the moment he hears that first cry, and thatโs when everything just melts away for Luke and all he can feel is happiness when the Maester hands you your child
After Birth
After your child is born, you and Luke are the absolute best parents
Youโre both soft and gentle with your baby, and youโre glowing in a way that Luke just absolutely loves
Both of you have immense pride for your son or daughter and you fall in love immediately despite not even knowing if you were ready yet
You justโฆjump in and honestly itโs not so bad for you and Luke once your bundle of joy finally gets there
Lucerys especially is thrilled, winning the best dad award for always playing with your child or making up silly games to make them laugh
You love watching him interact with your baby because heโs just so good at it and he doesnโt even realize it
Sometimes, heโll confess his insecurities that he might not do a good job at raising your kid and you literally have to be like: hold up. Luke youโre doing amazing already
Heโd be scared and terrified on where this new adventure would lead but honestly, Lucerys has never been happier and in the end it would all work out
Also, he totally gets so excited when you let him pick out an egg for the baby, just like he did for his brothers
Itโs almost like itโs tradition, and every single time Luke knows exactly the right one to choose
Aemond Targaryen
Finding Out
If youโre nervous to tell Aemond, then donโt be
Nine times out of ten heโs so perceptive that heโll put it together himself and Aemond will be over the moon
He will not stop smiling the entire time the Maesters confirm it, pressing a hand to your stomach and kissing your belly
His reaction kind of throws you off a little bit because youโve never seen him so excited in his life, but he reassures you that heโs been waiting so long for this moment and now heโs just ecstatic that itโs finally here
During Pregnancy
While youโre pregnant, Aemond hardly ever lets you leave your bed chambers. Nor does he let anyone other than your family or Maesters near you
Heโs just so protective and heโs paranoid that somethingโs going to happen so he wants you to be safe at all costs
He definitely does his own research because itโs not like he distrusts the Maesterโs, he just wants to be sure that he knows what they know and more about childbirth in case he has to step in
God forbid your baby wonโt come or is stuck upside downโtwo common themes for Targaryen children. Aemond reads all about it so that he knows different ways of getting the baby out or repositioning it without hurting you
Heโll also read about different birth techniques and decides to teach you to make your labor easier
Making you drink raspberry tea, take walks or stretch to lesson your pain when the time comes
You have to admit, youโre a bit shocked when your husband comes to you and makes you start doing breathing exercises with him
After all, who would have thought Aemond of all people would be so involved and so devoted?
It definitely warms your heart to see thoughโand no matter how much you want to wave him, you always end up letting him help you because you trust your husband you know more than anything he has yours and your childโs best interests at heart
Giving Birth
Aemond will respect your privacy and will wait outside during your labors, but you better believe heโll be right there
Listening to every scream and every detail just in case he feels the need to step in
If you really want him to be there, he absolutely will be in a heartbeat. And if anybody tries to stop him heโll venomously tell them to get out of his way before pushing them aside
As much as he loves his incoming child, majority of Aemondโs focus will be on you and your safety
Heโll make sure everything is going smoothly before he even thinks about celebrating and only then will he finally start to smile, a grin like no other taking over his face when your baby is finally placed in his arms
After Birth
Aemond is a caring yet trusting father
He knows that if his child came from you, theyโll already grow up to be exceptional so he allows them to grow into their own person
He doesnโt hover, but he does care. A lot
He may not show it in every way but if your child wants his attention, theyโve got it. If they want to play with him, he absolutely will. If they want to be comforted? Heโs there. They tell him they want some space? Then Aemond is in the next room over, ready to talk when they are
In a way, your children are way for Aemond to heal his own self. To be there as a parent like his never were
Early on, Aemond already swore to you and your babe that he would never abandon you or ignore you when you needed him most
He swore to break the curse his parents placed on him so he is very involved with his kids
Heโs also very protective, especially considering what he went through in his childhood. He never wants his child to feel left out so Aemond will go searching for a dragon egg pretty early on
You better believe that thing is burning HOT until the moment itโs ready to be placed in your childโs cradle
And Aemond swears
He swears by the old gods and the new that if they allow his child to have their own dragon he would never commit another sin again, if thatโs what it took
And sure enough, Aemond is beyond relieved when your babies egg hatchesโthe widest grin ever overtaking his face as the baby dragon prances about
You swearโyou sometimes joke that it was Aemondโs fiery gaze on the egg that hatched it and not nature
And while that very well may be true, Aemond is just grateful nevertheless that even if he wasnโt delt the best cards, he sure would find a way to rig the game for his children
Anything just to make them happy
Daemon Targaryen
Finding Out
You wish you could say that after having two children of his own, your husband would recognize the signs of pregnancy
But unfortunately Daemon is not a man that concerns himself with that kind of stuff so itโs the Maester that points it out to him
And at first, Daemon is stunned
Like okayโhe knows that he never pulls out and that the two of you go multiple rounds a day but pregnant?
He thought that your tits getting bigger was just, well, a huge blessing for him
He can hardly believe his ears or that heโs going to have more children
Briefly, he jokes that he may as well start breeding his own army which causes you to punch his arm
Joke aside though, Daemon is really happy and he will shower you with kisses, laughing slightly at how his seed must be extra strong to stick so fast
During Pregnancy
Daemon is not really much help himself, expect for when it comes to massages or warm baths
Almost every night, to ease your discomfort, your Lord husband will bathe you which is oddly intimate for him, or he will massage your feet and shoulders to soothe some of the pain
Of course, your other activities will remain as well which helps a little the closer you get to birth
Mostly, Daemon will be ordering Maesters around or just simply asking you of your progress from time to time
He really hopes for a boy secretly, and sometimes while youโre sleeping or just barely awake, he will rub your stomach and whisper sweet phrases in High Valerian
Expect Daemon to also already have the names of his children picked out, boy or girl
He might even ask Baela or Rhaena their opinion and let them choose an egg from Caraxes
If he has to be somewhere else where he cannot physically look after you, heโll also entrust his daughters to keep them informed and up to date on your condition
Giving Birth
Daemon is outside, on the balcony while your screams reach his ears
Truth be told, itโs too much. He canโt be there as much he wants to beโas much as you surely need him to be
After witnessing Laenaโs death, childbirth has become quite traumatizing for Daemon so he prefers to remain outside, waiting until a Maester or one of his daughters come to fetch him
Of course, Baelaโever her fatherโs daughterโscolds Daemon a bit and reminds him that every lady wife needs her husband during such times
But Daemon will not budge, not until Rhaena comes to the balcony with an unreadable expression on her face
At first, Daemon is terrified. He stands, the breath freezing in his lungs as he tries to decipher what that might mean. Your screams had died downโฆperhapsโฆ
Daemon stands, his heart clenching in chest as he begins to possibly grapple with another untimely death of the one he loved. He prepares himself, but then a wide smile grows on Rhaenaโs face and Daemon knows all is well
โMy sibling is here. It is healthy, father.โ
Thatโs all Daemon needs. And suddenly, heโs tearing himself away and down the halls, straight to your room where he walks in on the sight of your smiling face and the glowing cheeks of his newborn child
After Birth
You like to give Daemon the benefit of the doubt and say that he spends an equal amount of time with his children
Of course, maybe a little bit more attention towards the baby since he or she does need Daemon more than his adolescent children, but as your child grows up pretty much everything is the same
Baela and Rhaena absolutely adore their new sibling and vice versa. They may be a bit older but youโll always find the three of them playing together or one of the girls reading them a bed time story
It always warms your heart to see them bond, and Daemonโs too
Though heโll never admit it, his favorite thing to do is spy on his children and eavesdrop as the girls help the youngest with their Valerian
Or when the three of them are together, somehow still fitting on his lap and Daemon teaches them the history of their house while you sit in the background, smiling
Itโs special moments like those that remind you that while you may have married a morally grey man, his number one priority would always be his family
And you know more than anyone that with Daemon around, the five of you would never have anything to fear
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MINE AND MINE ONLY.
Modern!Aemond Targaryen x wife!Reader
Aemond has gotten you pregnant six months ago, and seeing him with his infant niece during dinner with his family sparks something inside of you only he can satisfy.
WARNINGS: SEXUAL CONTENTโMINORS DNI; p in v, face sitting, slight anal play, slight breeding kink, pregnant sex, slight lactation kink
WORDS: 4.9 K
NOTES: Sorry, Iโm kinda in baby fever right now donโt ask me why. ๐ญ This also is my gift for hitting 1850 followers a few days ago, which means Iโm finally where Iโve been before deleting my old blog. Thanks for everyone following me on this journey. ๐ซถ๐ป
The days between Christmas and New Years usually are meant for people to take some much-needed downtime from the stress of the past days or weeks โ unless you are a Targaryen or married to one.ย
Itโs the fourth year in a row youโre spending one, sometimes even two, days at the large Targaryen mansion with every member of their family present.ย
What started as an opportunity to celebrate the New Year early with her family four years ago, since Viserys and Alicent wanted to celebrate New Yearโs Eve on a yacht somewhere in the Sea of Dorne back then, has quickly turned into a tradition that no one could escape.ย
Not even the six-month pregnant you.ย
As an excuse to not travel to the familyโs vacation home on Dragonstone, Aemond has begged for you to allow him to tell his mother that your back pain has gotten so bad you couldnโt sit in the car for four hours.ย
The fact that he didnโt fall to his knees while doing it was everything.ย
But you have told him no, seeing that your back pains have eased two weeks ago, and it is one of the rare occasions he gets to spend with his whole family, not just his motherโs side.ย
If he wants to or not.ย
โAnd how are you spending New Yearโs?โ you ask, lounging in the burgundy Lawson chair.ย
Helaena sits in the chair next to yours, fidgeting with the stem of her wine glass. Every now and then you spot her lilac eyes flickering to your protruding bump, accentuated by the tight slip dress you wear.ย
โThis year weโre embracing a night in,โ she answers, nursing her alcohol-free wine. โCregan doesnโt want to leave the children with his parents, since Lyanna is still breastfeeding, and Edrick doesnโt want to go without his little sister.โ
You nod along to her words, smiling softly at the mention of her sonsโ protectiveness, and glance past her to Aemond, Aegon and Cregan. The men are standing close to the fireplace, glasses of whiskey between their fingers. Normally, they would be tipsy by now โ some more than others โ if it wasnโt for the infant cradled in Creganโs strong arms.ย
Helaena follows your line of sight, the turning of her head prompting you to look at her again.ย
โWhat are your plans?โ she asks.ย
You pucker your lips slightly, looking down at the glass of water youโve rested on your belly before meeting her eyes.ย
โAegon has invited us to a party in White Harbor, a formal dinner with some of his friends. We wanted to go, because the place is stunning and itโs overlooking the iconic harbor fireworks, but itโs such a long drive, and Aemond doesnโt want to risk anything by us taking the plane,โ you sigh, โso, weโll probably stay at home or just go out for dinner.โ
Ever since youโve handed him the gift box containing four identical, positive pregnancy tests, Aemond has taken over a protective aura and has found it incredibly difficult to keep his hands off of you.ย
Itโs a miracle he was able to talk to his brother and brother-in-law for so long without checking in on you once.ย
But speak of the devil.ย
What you arenโt expecting when Aemond makes his way over to where youโre conversing with his sister, is the little infant in his arms. Her head rests against his shoulder, while one of his large hands supports it and neck, and the other supports her bottom.ย
Heโs swaying her gently as he walks over, a proud smile on his lips as he canโt tear his eyes off of his niece, coming to stand next to Helaenaโs chair. The sight makes your heart swell with love.ย
Cregan trails behind him, and your eyes briefly fall to the abandoned Aegon still standing at the fireplace and balancing their three glasses in his hands.ย
โHoney,โ the Northenerโs gruff voice rings out, โyour mother said that Edrickโs made a mess. Could you change him while I clean up?โ Still standing offset behind your husband, Cregan pats Aemond on the shoulder once. โOur girlโs in good hands, and Aemy here can already practice for what awaits him soon.โ
Helaena raises her eyebrows, before snickering at her husbandโs remark. She bows her head once, smiling at you, โexcuse me, Y/N.โ
โWeโll talk later,โ you assure her.ย
She brushes her hand over your swollen belly once as she rises, Creganโs hand on the small of her back urging her out of the living space.ย
Aemond carefully sinks into the chair, and changes the position of the sleeping infant so sheโs cradled in his arms.ย
โWhat have you been up to?โ he asks, finally moving his head to look at you.ย
You were wearing a knitted sweater over your dress when you two arrived a few hours earlier, but with hot flashes attacking you every now and then, you have long opted to slip out of it and hang the sweater over a chair.ย
And the outfit change clearly is only now noticed by him.
His lilac eyes flickered between yours and your full breasts, and you can literally see the gears turning in his head.ย
โYouโre not wearing a bra,โ he states, full on staring at your breasts.ย
Fine, maybe you have also done it to tease him a bit.ย
A blush creeps onto his cheeks, running down his neck, and he slightly shifts in his seat, turning his gaze away as he clears his throat.ย
Pressing your lips into a thin line to stop them from curling into a smile, you quickly shush the urge by taking a swig of your water. โWasnโt keen on spending the evening unable to think of anything else than how sore and uncomfortable I feel,โ you tease. โAre you complaining?โ
Aemond raises one hand in defeat, โcertainly not, just pointing it out.โ
You teasingly reach and bring your index finger to his chin, tilting it up for his eyes to meet yours again. โThen you better stop staring, we're not the only ones here.โย
You glance briefly at the gathered party around you, watching Alicent chat with Rhaenyra and her husband, while Aegon seems to be deep in a conversation with Daemon, no doubt talking about the latest match between the Casterly Rock Lions and the Oldtown Saints.
โFair enough,โ he answered with a low chuckle.ย
The soft coos of his niece catch your attention, and you lean forwards to gauge at the little bundle. Sheโs stirring lightly in her sleep, grimaces and smiles alike gracing her scrunched features. Aemond brushes her cheek with his knuckles in feather light touches, until her coos are interrupted, and wide, blue eyes stare up at him.ย
Lyanna smacks her lips slowly, bringing her small hand up to her mouth. โWhat is she doing?โ Aemond whispers, not daring to pull his eyes away from her in case she starts to cry.ย
โSheโs hungry,โ you answer with a chuckle, grinning as you notice his helplessness.ย
Itโs so brief, but you spot his eyes flickering towards your full breasts, and you have to stop yourself from hitting his shoulder. One wrong word.ย
โYou know there are barely four months left until your life looks like this, too, right?โ you ask, cocking an eyebrow at him.ย
โI do, but they have not yet told us about this at the prenatal class.โ
โOh, come on, sheโs not your first niece, and sheโs not even crying.โ
The sigh of relief Aemond releases as he spots Helaenaโs silver hair in the far distance has you shaking your head, bringing your index finger up to your smiling lips.ย
โHow did you three get on?โ Helaena asks, noticing that her daughter is awake.ย
Your husband rises to his feet, and hands his niece over to her. โEasy, sheโs just woken up and seems really hungry,โ he notes, as if he has figured it out all by himself. โAnd how did you fare?โ
Helaena releases a dry chuckle, brushing her free hand up and down Aemondโs biceps. โIโll tell you another time, donโt want to scare you.โ She briefly glances over at you. โJust know that Creg has to bathe him right now, because the wet wipes were useless.โ
The grimace on Aemondโs face at his sisterโs words has you choking on a laugh.ย
Lyanna starts to whine and wiggle in her motherโs grasp, getting her attention. โSorry again, itโs feeding time, obviously,โ she states, muttering the last word under her breath, and shoots you an apologetic gaze before scurrying off.ย
You hold out a hand, and knowing what it means, Aemond takes it to help you up from the chair.ย
His heart melts at the sight of you before him, and he wraps an arm around you to pull you against his side as he brushes his hand over the gentle swell of your belly in tender affection. There were shy kicks meeting his hand, making him grin.
You return the embrace, and lean yourself against his frame, your head resting on his chest. โItโs different when itโs your own child, you know,โ you say, the small glimmer of a smile blessing your features.ย
His head dips forwards, and he presses his lips to your temple, mumbling the words against your skin, โI canโt wait to meet him.โ
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Aemond has his arm slung around your waist as everyone has gathered in the vast living space to watch the children perform a play they have practiced.ย
Alicent, ever the proud grandmother, clings to Viserys as they watch in awe what the children of Rhaenyra have been up to. An oblivious Edrick appears in the middle of it all, but before Cregan can scoop him up, the little Viserys has taken his hands to include him in their mischief.ย
โHave I already told you how good you look today?โ Aemond whispers, his head dipping forwards so his lips are level with your ear. He rubs your bump gently, gazing at you with half-lidded eyes.ย
You shiver from his touch, your body tingling from the attention your husband gives you. โYouโre not paying attention,โ you scold softly, nodding towards the children in the middle. A teenage Jacaerys, as well as Daemonโs daughters from his first marriage, stand before you, your view of the play slightly concealed.ย
โI canโt help myself,โ he whispers huskily, โyouโre just too distracting, Mommy.โ A smirk tugs on his lips as the name leaves them, and the sight is only topped by him leaning in to brush his lips over your ear, before they press to the sensitive skin behind it. The very spot that always makes you putty in his hands, and with your hormones in full swing, it does a little more than just melt you.ย
โAemond,โ you whisper, though he can also hear the trace of a moan in it, โeasy.โ
His teeth graze your earlobe, and the ring of his baritone voice sends a shiver down your spine, โwe should go to bed early tonight.โ
You canโt help but to chuckle at his words. Itโs his subtle way to ask for something without directly asking, though you know exactly what he means. You lean into him, pressing yourself against his side.ย
Biting the tip of your tongue, it was impossible for you to stop your lips from pulling into a mischievous smirk.ย
โDo you think your mother will notice if we leave now?โ you ask, innocently.ย
Youโre greeted with a wide grin when your eyes meet Aemondโs, and the arm he has wrapped around you tightens just more, keeping you against his frame.ย
His lips brush your ear again, trailing down to press a kiss to the side of your neck. โIf she does, she can tell me later,โ he raps into your ear, โbesides, we wouldnโt be gone for too long, sweetheart. Just long enough for a littleโฆ alone time. Who could blame us for wanting to savor the last weeks where itโs only the two of us, mh?โ
Aemond looks around one last time, noticing how everyone around you is mostly focused on the childrenโs show.ย
Bringing his hand to the small of your back, he gently guides you through the crowd of his relatives, before youโre on the way to his childhood bedroom.ย
Itโs furnished in a minimalistic style, making it obvious that Alicent has spent some time decluttering her childrenโs rooms to make them more presentable for whenever guests stay over. The room basically is Aemondโs, and the rest belongs to Alicent.ย
Walking in behind you, he locks the door. You look around briefly before his firm chest is flush against your back with his arms around your waist, resting on your bump. He presses his lips to the curve of your neck, prompting you to tilt your head to the side, and a shuddered breath to escape your throat.ย
The feeling of his hard, clothed cock against the curve of your ass drives you to insanity, making you eager for more. He grinds against you as his fingers travel over your curves, and greedily fist the fabric of your dress.ย
โLet me help you undress, Mama,โ he rasps against your skin, goosebumps prickling in its wake.
When he sinks to his knees behind you, you whimper quietly, immediately missing the heat of his breath and lips on your body.ย
โAemond,โ you breathe, looking down at him as he pushes your dress up.ย
The dumbfounded look that crosses his features with the skirt of your dress rucked up just shy beneath your bump has you chuckling, realization settling in.ย
โYou went commando?โย
Biting your bottom lip, you can basically see his excitement building, the bulge in the front of his slacks quite obvious despite him kneeling. โI was feelingโฆ adventurous today,โ you hum, a glint of mischief in your eyes.ย
He canโt help but to grin at your comment, and, on his way up, Aemond starts to press several kisses to the outside of your thigh, his fingers following in their trail.ย
Standing to full height again, looming over you, he keeps his hand beneath your bump, his fingers caressing your pubic mound.ย
You squeeze your thighs together in a desperate attempt to soothe the aching at the apex of them, since his fingers arenโt touching you where you need them most. An anticipating moan slips past your lips, a shiver shaking your core.ย
โI hope youโre prepared for me to be just as adventurous,โ he hums, โ... and thorough.โ
His fingers hook under the thin straps of your dress, tugging them off your shoulders to push the elastic fabric down your curves and onto the ground. Itโs pooling around your ankles in a white puddle, leaving you completely bare to him with just a few touches.ย
You shudder under his intense gaze, practically devouring you with just his lilac eyes, and try to break the tension by pulling him in for a kiss.ย
You turn around mid-kiss, your protruding belly a barrier between your bodies. Before your hands can entangle into his strands, Aemond catches them and intertwines your fingers. He creates a small distance between your bodies, taking a few steps back and pulling you with him.ย
His steps are deliberately slow, careful, and youโre encouraged to climb his lap as he sits down at the edge of the bed. Both his feet are firmly planted on the ground, supporting your swollen body.ย
He groans as you trap him between your legs, his hands roaming your curves almost immediately. The knowledge that he was the one responsible for the changes of your body, and that everybody else knew that as well, does something to him, making him all the more hungry for you.ย
It was even more addicting to see you sit astride him like a goddess, ready to claim what was yours already anyways. Him.
Feeling his clothed member throb beneath you, the urge to grind above him is as inviting as never, and youโre more than ready to give into the urge. Your wetness soaks his slacks, and the groan Aemond releases at the friction has you whimpering with him.ย
Your lips meet for a fervent kiss, and while your hands rest on his shoulders, his are eager to explore the swell of your belly. His tongue finds its way past your lips, swirling around yours in a way that turns the kiss into all teeth and tongue.ย
Dragging your teeth over his kiss swollen bottom lip, he tilts his head upwards and nudges the tip of his nose against yours. You lick over his lips once, but when you lean in to connect your lips again, Aemond stops you with his hand around your throat.ย
โI want you to sit on my face,โ he rasps, his voice husky.ย
You havenโt sat on his face in weeks, or rather ever since the round ligament pain kicked in and made even the simplest daily tasks difficult for you.ย
Your eyes widen. โButโ Iโโ
โNo, youโre not too heavy,โ he interrupts, cocking one eyebrow at you.ย
Thereโs not even a chance for you to reject before he lies down and hooks his hands beneath your thighs, hoisting you up and pulling you towards his face. You sit on his chest, barely seeing his chiseled features from under your bump.ย
As the position you are in truly settles in your mind, a bright blush starts to cover the apples of your cheeks. His angelic looks don't help either, strands of silver hair splayed out around his head like a halo, and his piercing lilac eyes fixed on you and you only. โBut you tell me when it gets too much, no?โ you ask, coyly.ย
Aemond rubs his hands over your bare thighs in comfort, nodding. โAlways.โ Deep down you know itโs a lie, because he has told you on more than one occasion that heโd gladly leave the world suffocated by your delicious pussy, but you trust the feigned security he offers.ย
โNo promises about how long Iโll last, though,โ you tell him.ย
A gentle pat to your thigh is what has you eventually inching forwards until your knees are on either side of his head.ย
With your bump being quite protruding, you canโt even see him anymore, you only hear his groans and growls when you cautiously settle in the new position.
The attempt to slightly hover your pussy over his face is fruitless the moment your husbandโs hands fly to your hips, grabbing you and pulling you down onto his face. Just his nose perfectly teasing your clit has you moaning out loudly already, even though he hasnโt even used his tongue yet.ย
And then it follows.ย
Aemond greedily laps at your entrance as his hands grip your hips tightly, holding you in place and playing you like a fiddle. It circles around your clenching hole, teasing it but never one dipping it inside.ย
You clench around nothing, and bring one hand to your bump while the other just rests above his hand on your hip, squeezing it. Chasing the friction and warmth of his tongue, you rock your hips back and forth as much as his grip allows, coaxing whimpers and mewls to leave your lips.
โGods be good,โ you whimper, the grip of your thighs around his face tightening. โIโI forgot how good you are at this.โ
Seemingly keening at your praise, youโre almost disappointed when he pulls his hand off of yours to cup your ass cheeks, yanking you impossibly closer. The groans that vibrate against your pussy send shivers up your spine that make you lose yourself in the pleasure, not focusing on where his hands are.ย
At this point, Aemond was feasting at you like a man starved, all but devouring you with newfound vigor. His nose flicks against your clit with expert precision every time he tilts his head or you move your hips, drawing you closer to your orgasm.ย
His index finger comes into play, teasing your throbbing folds for a split second. His true intentions, however, only show the moment it starts to circle around your other hole.ย
โFuck, Aemond, I-โ you manage as he carefully dips his finger into your hole, the added stimulation almost immediately tightening the coil in your belly. A muffled groan of appreciation shakes your core as he feels your unused hole tighten around his finger.ย
You roll your hips against Aemondโs mouth on the race to completion, any thoughts of being too heavy for him long gone, and replaced by nothing else than raw need and desire.ย
Itโs almost too much. Straddling the fine line between overwhelming and just the right amount. His nose rubs your clit, his lips lap hungrily at your swollen folds, and his index finger fills you pleasantly โ he is redoubling his efforts.ย
You keep dragging your hips back and forth in rhythm with his movements, fucking his face on the brink of your release.ย
โOh God, you-youโre so goodโ Aemond, IโmโIโmโโ you ramble, breathy whimpers filling in between the words.ย
Hearing him slurp and groan beneath your trembling frame brings a blush to your face and stokes the fire in your belly, the sounds fanning through the room like your moans and whimpers.ย
When the coil finally snaps, you throw your head back in ecstasy and clamp your thighs around his head, hot, white pleasure licking its way up your spine. His name topples off your lips more than once, accompanied by desperate mewls and whines. He is relentless, licking you through your orgasm.ย
You donโt wait long enough for the aftershocks to fully subside, the overstimulation of his tongue dragging through your folds becoming too much, and cup your pregnant belly as you heave your frame off of his face, shifting backwards down his body.ย
โFuck, IโI need you,โ you all but beg, eagerly tugging on the collar of his black shirt.ย
Aemond seems to share your enthusiasm, and is quick to sit up again, meeting your lips for a deep kiss. Only when you cup his cheeks do you feel that theyโre covered in your arousal, the taste of you on his tongue clouding your mind.ย
Your belly is between you again, but Aemond manages to swiftly undo the zipper in the front of his slacks nevertheless, and shoves them down just enough to free his aching cock.ย
โSo desperate for my cock now, mh?โ Aemond pants against your lips, a smug smirk tugging on the corners.ย
His hand wraps around his stiff member, fisting himself raw twice, thrice, before another pat served to your thigh encourages you to raise your hips. He aligns himself with your soaked entrance, and you feel his tip prodding gingerly at it.ย
As you sink down on him, your hands tightly gripping the collar of his shirt, you release a shuddered breath. Your husband, on the other hand, escapes a relieved groan, his head tipping back for a moment.ย
With your limbs still tingling from your previous orgasm, you bow your head forwards, lowering yourself on him until he is balls deep inside of you. โMh, fuck, you didnโt even bother to take off your pants,โ you taunt, โso desperate to be inside me.โ
Aemondโs words die on his tongue as you start to sensually roll your hips over his, the added weight of the bump not allowing you to bounce up and down on him with the vigor you had used before your pregnancy.ย
But your husband doesnโt seem to mind, his eyes journeying into the back of his head at the sensation.ย
Moving his hands to grope and grasp at every inch of your body, they eventually settle on your full breasts, tweaking and pinching your nipples between his nimble fingers while you unravel astride him. It prompts you to arch your back, all but shoving your breasts into his face.ย
โSo fucking good,โ he grunts, embracing it and wrapping his lips around your pert nipple while his arms snake around your body.ย
He licks and sucks at your little bud like he has done with your pussy before, and, just judging by the smacking and humming sounds he makes, itโs possible there ooze a few droplets of milk out of it.ย
Aemond places his feet firmly on the ground, and starts to buck his hips up into yours, seemingly impatient for his own release as he meets the sensual rolls of your hips and bullies the spongy spot inside of you with more determination.ย
Loud, wet sounds from where your bodies meet echo off the walls, indistinct to you with all you can focus on being his lips at your heavy breasts, and his cock deep inside of you.ย
You bite your bottom lip and stop the rolling of your hips, making it evident that you were close to your orgasm. The tingling at the base of your spine makes it impossible to move any further and you rely on him to take over.ย
Aemond pulls back and watches you gleefully as the force of his thrusts makes your body squirm and jerk, eagerly anticipating you to topple over the edge for the second time.ย
โYouโre gonna cum on my cock already?โ he asks, almost mockingly.ย
You frantically nod, breathing a yes.
His hands come to your hips, and with his fingers digging into your flesh, he drags your hips back and forth, your clit rubbing against the hem of his shirt with each movement. Youโre not able to gasp more than yeses and pleases, clenching tightly around him.ย
The intensity of his thrusts increases while you have stopped moving, toes curling as the taut string inside of you snaps without a warning and white stars cloud your vision.ย
โMh, fuck, fuck, fuck,โ you whine, clawing at his shoulders as you ride out your high, grinding and rolling your hips against his. Your walls clamp around him like a vice, and he chokes on a husky groan. โOh God, I love you.โ
And even though your orgasm subsides slowly, Aemond refuses to slow down, keeping his heedless pace and pursuing his own completion.ย
He has his lips around your other nipple by now, sucking and nibbling on it, the vibrations of his groans coursing through your veins. โDaddy, mh, cum for me, please,โ you whine, desperate for his cum.ย
Your body, however, contradicts your words and moans, your thighs squeezing his in a desperate attempt to stop him from pounding into your overstimulated pussy โ but to no avail.ย
โGod, please.โ
His pace is as reckless and merciless as before, his cock all but forcing its way in and out of your quivering walls as he doesnโt listen to your desperate pleas.
Pulling back from your nipple with a lewd pop, a string of saliva connects the dark areola and his swollen lips as he gazes up at you with half-lidded eyes. โHush now, Mommy,โ he murmurs, tilting his head up to kiss you. The nickname coaxes a smug smirk on his lips. โTaking me so well, such a good girl for Daddy.โ With just his praise, a warmth overtakes your body that drowns out the burning, your chest swelling.ย
You sling your arms around his neck, burying your fingers in the silver strands of his hair in a way that is destined to ruin the little updo he had put it in this morning.ย
โMh, fuck, Iโm gonnaโโ his words are cut off with a stutter of his hips, and he feels his throbbing cock spill deep inside of you.ย
You ride him through his high with lazy rolls of your hips, biting through the overstimulation, and clench and unclench around him as you milk him for every drop of his seed.ย
If he hadnโt gotten you pregnant already, he surely would have knocked you up after this.ย
Aemond languidly fucks up into you now as the last spurts of his warm release fill you to the brim, grunting and groaning until the euphoria fades.ย
He collapses on the bed, a blissed out expression on his face, and reaches to trace his fingers over the swell of your bump up to the curve of your breasts. Rolling the darkened buds between them, he smirks as he watches you squirm, his softening cock still buried inside of you.ย
โYou know,โ he starts, folding one arm behind his head. His voice is softer than before, but has a teasing edge to it. โI wouldnโt be surprised if everyone knew by now what weโve been up to.โ
You laugh breathlessly and plant your hands on his chest, rubbing your thumbs over it. โBut at least they donโt have to worry about you getting me pregnant by accident,โ you tease.ย
โTrue enough,โ he chuckles softly, โFuck, IโmโI just canโt help myself. Seeing your body swell just because of my seed fucking does something to me.โ
His words make you blush, and you appreciatively run your hands over your bump.ย
You lean forwards and cup his face, capturing his lips in a passionate kiss. He smirks against your mouth, and subconsciously bucks his hips into yours as he feels you clench around him.ย
With a groan rumbling in his chest, he pulls back. Something dark flickers in his eyes, his intentions evident when he speaks again.ย
โOnce our boyโs born, Iโll make quick work of making you a mother of two.โ
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a hybridโs instincts
โ characters โ zhongli, gorou, tighnari, (bonus) platonic!diona
โ tags โ pregnancy, afab!reader, dragon!zhongli
โ a/n โ what's that? will i ever stop pushing the dragon!zhongli agenda? hahahahahahahhahahhaha hhahaha ha ha- no.
๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ ๐กย โฌ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก
oh? what's this? it seems like your pregnancy triggered something in these men. their moreโฆ "animal side", perhaps?
ever since baizhuโs confirmation - actually, even weeks before that - zhongli has been very reluctant to let you wander out of the house. or even out of his sight, in general (which is quite strange since with his enhanced dragon senses you know heโs able to locate you within the house with no problems at all).
at night, you sometimes wake up to him in his dragon form. sometimes itโs his compact form nuzzling and he's purring near your stomach, sometimes itโs his half-dragon form where heโll place his head beside your stomach with his tail curling around you protectively. it doesnโt matter whether youโre already showing or not; your heartbeat and the little hatchlingโs brings him a sense of comfort that he needs, lest he becomes restless.
his nesting behavior is out of control. heโll bring you all the pillows and blankets, surround you with the nicest smelling flowers, make you always wear his shirt, and heโll bring anything you want to the bed so you donโt have to leave the nest. the further you are into your pregnancy, the more reluctant he is to leave you alone. he ends up taking that paternal leave hu tao has been telling him to get. bless her.
gorou is just as excited as heโs alerted. kokomi will have to force her best general to take a temporary leave from the army throughout your pregnancy because heโs so jumpy and sensitive to literally everything and his behavior is making all of the soldiers anxious.
gorou insists that you take a walk with him every day; just something light around the block to keep you from feeling lethargic. heโs also developed a habit to sniff everything that will touch your hand. yes, that includes your supposedly harmless change of clothes. itโs not ridiculous in his opinion! itโs a necessary precaution!!
will snarl when a stranger approaches you and tries to touch you in any way, even if itโs just a friendly gesture. he would be so embarrassed and apologetic about it afterward, but only once youโre at the safe haven of your house.
are you a forest ranger? an adventurer? does your profession require you to venture into the wilderness? welp, say goodbye to your job for the time being, because there is no way in any cycles of samsara tighnari would let you go into the dangers outside while youโre carrying his pups.
walking arm-in-arm whenever you're out and about is a must these days. whenever a villager congratulates you, you can sense his hold tightening despite the polite smile on his lips. if it was up to his instinct, he wouldnโt have let you get out of the house, but rationally he knows you need to move around and breathe in the fresh air.
though you still wonโt be exempt from your belovedโs sassiness (โyou want me to get you coffeeโฆ? do you think iโm an idiot?โ) as long as what you ask for doesnโt harm you, heโs at your every beck and calls now, no question asked. youโre craving for colleiโs specialized pita pockets? heโll learn the damn recipe from collei herself and serve it on your favorite plate the next day. you want to be carried everywhere? good thing heโs got the physique fitting for the head of the forest rangers. you want ten kisses a day? say no more; heโll give you thirty.
[bonus - platonic]
at first, diona seems super indifferent about it, only reacting with a โhmphโฆ congrats, i guessโ, but her actions speak louder than words. you know how cats tend to hover around pregnant women and even lay themselves near their bulging bellies? that's right.
no, you will not be having alcohol. no, your spouse will not be having alcohol. no, all the people within five hundred meters radius from you will not be having any single drop of alcohol. she won't allow those boozehounds to get close to you.
sheโs so amazed at how your stomach keeps growing bigger every time you visit her. when you give her your permission, sheโll curiously poke and stare at your bump. her hand will gently pat your tummy as she unconsciously smiles. she starts to seek you out more often after that, telling you that sheโs just there in case you need help, but you know sheโs just worried about you. she would be such a good big sister to your baby!
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facing it together | CL16
charles leclerc x female!reader
warnings: emotional angst, pregnancy, accident, mention of loss, blood, hospitals, mention of loosing a baby
note: i took some inspiration for this from an episode of one tree hill (my favourite show) when haley gets into the accident while pregnant in season four / also i don't know much about medical procedures so im sorry for any inaccuracy and/or sounding unrealistic
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You and Charles hadnโt been dating long but you were already head over heels for each other, knowing you wanted to spend the rest of your lives with each other.
Your relationship however had recently been thrown a curve ball in the shape of a positive pregnancy test. At first you were both stunned and at a loss of words but once the shock wore off, you were able to have a proper conversation on what you wanted to do and you both agreed you wanted this.ย
There were some obstacles as Charles lived in Monaco when he wasnโt going across the world with his career and you lived in London where you had your job and your friends.
That was the first obstacle which didnโt take long to resolve, you wanted to be with Charles and if that meant moving to Monaco you were all in.ย
The next obstacle was moving. Moving was a difficult task for anyone let alone a pregnant woman whose boyfriend could only be of help during small breaks at a time.ย
Which was why you both had decided to hold off on the moving process until it was the summer break for Charles and he could fly to London to help you fully and so until then you decided to stay in London.
You wouldโve loved to been able to go and see Charles during some of the races but your first trimester was nothing but a nightmare.ย
Your morning sickness was basically all day, your body ached and most of the time all you wanted to do was sleep. Charles understood completely and would reassure you that you were housing your unborn child, he prioritized that above everything else. ย
Another obstacle was the media. You and Charles hadnโt been dating long, less than a year and now you were having a baby. You were afraid of what people would say which was why you held off telling anyone especially the fans at least until you were situated in Monaco with Charles and then you could figure it out from there.ย
Once you hit your second trimester, you started feeling better which brought both you and Charles relief. You had also been able to join him at Silverstone seeing as it was where you lived. You thanked London for being rainy because it allowed you to wear a hoodie to cover the bump you had started developing.ย
It had been a decent race given the weather. Charles managed to get P4, he wouldโve loved to have been on the podium for you but you reassured him you were proud of him regardless of where he placed, plus you reminded him with no podium celebrations gave them more time together which uplifted his mood.ย
Luckily there was a bit of a break between Silverstone and the Hungary Grand Prix which meant Charles could not only spend time with you but could also help you start to pack up your apartment.
He had stayed as long as he could in between the races but unfortunately the time came when he had to go. You sadly smiled at him as you stood by your doorย
โItโs only a few weeks baby and then weโll be able to start being a familyโ you reminded him as he put his hand on your small but noticeable bump.
It was still a little early for Charles to feel your baby but you could sometimes feel little flutters, regardless he still enjoyed having his hands on your bump.ย
He nodded at your words โI know I knowโ he said as he closed his eyes temporarily before opening them again and leaning down to give you a kiss before going on his knees to talk to your bump
โHi baby of mine, its your Daddyโ he started as you smiled looking down at him โI have to leave you and mommy again but I promise you soon weโll all be together and then before we know it youโll be with us in our armsโ he said โI cant wait to meet you, I love youโ he said giving your bump a small kiss before getting up.ย
You shared another kiss and then he grabbed his bag, leaving. You sighed, you couldnโt wait till you were back in his arms and could officially start this chapter of your life together.ย
The events that followed however was by far the biggest obstacle you, Charles and your unborn baby would have to face.ย
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You had been packing in between watching your boyfriendโs qualifying on Saturday and then ready to watch the race on Sunday especially given there was only an hour time difference.
Sunday rolled around and you realized you didnโt have anymore packing foam. You groaned of course right as the race was about to start so you quickly shot Charles a text, knowing he wouldnโt see it until after.ย
'Y/N: Good luck baby! Me and Baby are rooting for you! โค๏ธย '
You sent it and then got up, putting your coat on, slipping your boots on and being sure to grab your purse that had your wallet in it. You left your apartment, locking up and started your way to the hardware store.ย
You were a careful person when you crossed streets and always made sure to double check for any cars coming especially since the pregnancy, you couldnโt risk anything. If only today had been like others.ย
It all happened so fast, you started stepping on the road to cross to the other side when a car came zooming and before you or the driver could react, the car had hit you pretty badly, knocking you out almost immediately.
The driver instantly pulled his phone out calling 911 before checking on you. You were bleeding from your head and your white coat had blood stains mixed with road dirt.ย
The paramedics arrived as fast as they could and took care of you. The police had also arrived and had escorted the driver away to deal with him once he was all cleared.
You however were in pretty rough shape and once the paramedics realized you were pregnant too, they knew they had to move faster to hopefully be able to save you and your baby.ย
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Charlesโ POV
That race had been so exhilarating. I had managed to get P2. Immediately I jumped into the teams arms once the car was parked and I was out of it.
As I got congratulated from everyone I smiled, thanking them and then made my way to the cooldown room. I spoke casually with Max and Fernando who were the other drivers on the podium.ย
Eventually came time for the podium ceremony. I smiled at everyone down below and after the national anthem came time for the champagne showers. Once that was all done, I had some time to go back to my drivers room to freshen up a bit before some media interviews.ย
I reached for my phone once I entered the room and a frown appeared on my face. There was only one text from you and it had been from before the race.
That was unusual seeing as you would usually spam text Charles and after his P2, you wouldโve already sent congratulations with an excessive amount of emojis.ย
Suddenly I felt uneasy, not sure if I should give you a call to check in. Before I could pull up your contact to give you a quick call an unknown number was calling me. The area code was from the UK, the only person I knew from there who wouldโve been calling was you.ย
I answered immediately โHelloโ I said waiting for a response but instead was met with something that sounded alot like sniffles from crying โHelloโ I said again a bit louderย
โOh sorry, is this Charles? Y/Nโs boyfriendโ an unknown voice askedย
โYes. Who is this? Is she okay?โ I asked, the uneasy feeling never leaving meย
โThis is Janice Im a friend and a co worker of hers, she gave me your number after she found out about the baby incase anything happenedโ she started saying
โI donโt know how to tell you this but she was in a pretty bad accident, sheโs in surgery right nowโ she finished telling me.
Suddenly I felt dizzy and off balance. I sat on the couch in my drivers room and took in her words โaccidentโ and โsurgeryโ.ย
โCharles, are you still there?โ I heard Janice ask even though I was struggling to find my words. Then suddenly it hit me and I realized what was happening.ย
โYes Iโm here. Iโm getting on a flight as soon as I can. Please text me the detailsโ I told her before hanging up.ย
The next few moments passed as a blur as I quickly dressed into proper clothes, not even caring where I through my race suit, someone could come in here after and tidy up. I grabbed my backpack and flew out the door. I needed to find Fred and then leave.ย
I saw Fred luckily right when I rushed down the steps standing with Carlosย
โOoi mate where are you going in such a rushโ Carlos asked seeing how frazzled I mustโve looked
โMy girlfriend she was in a bad accident, I need to get to the UKโ I rushed outย
โWait what happened to Y/Nโ he asked
โIm not sure I just know sheโs in surgery and I need to be there for them when she wakes upโ I explained then remembered no one knew about the pregnancy
โWhat do you mean them?โ Fred askedย
I sighed, the longer I stayed here the more stressed I became โSheโs pregnant. We were keeping it a secret until we were ready to tell people other than familyโ I said as Carlos and Fred both shared the same expression of shock and happiness but then remembered what had happened to Y/N.ย
โGo, itโs fine, weโll come up with a reason why you had to leaveโ Fred said matter a factly โGo to the airstrip. Iโm gonna call ahead for a private jet, youโll get there quickerโ he said before stepping away, pulling his phone out to make the arrangements.ย
I shared a look with Carlos before he nodded at me and I was out the doors. The lives of the two most important people in my life hung in the balance and I couldnโt get to them any quicker if I tried.ย
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After a flight that I swore took a lifetime, I finally arrived at the hospital Janice had texted me the address of. I rushed in to the front deskย
โHi my girlfriend Y/N Y/L/N was brought in, she was in an accidentโ I told the nurse slightly out of breathย
โHold on let me checkโ she said typing away in her computer before bringing your file up โIt looks like sheโs in recovery. Youโll have to wait in the waiting room and the doctor will be with you in a moment to fill you inโ she explainedย
โSheโs pregnant, is there anything on the baby?โ I asked my heart aching at the thought of possibly losing the baby. โIm sorry sir, thereโs nothingย on the baby yetโ she said sympathetically. I nodded and went to sit down.ย
I hated hospitals. After loosing my father and Jules, they just made me feel very uneasy. I found it hard to sit still, every time I sat down my leg bounced to the point I had to get up and pace instead.
I just needed them both to be okay. I didnโt want to imagine what life would be like without either of them.ย
โFamily for Y/N Y/L/Nโ I head a doctor ask, I quickly walked over โThats me, Iโm her boyfriend and the father of her babyโ I told him. I tried to gage the look in his eyes but he was hard to read which didnโt help my uneasiness.ย
โYour girlfriend was hit pretty hard, she has a couple broken ribsโ he started explaining โShe also hit her head which caused some bleeding in the brain but luckily we were able to stop the bleeding, unfortunately because of that though sheโs currently in a coma. We have hope sheโll wake up, itโs just hard to tell when thatโll beโ he finished as I took in all of his words.ย
โAnd the baby?โ I asked hearing my voice crackย
โAt this point itโs hard to tell, Im sorryโ the surgeon said โI can give you her room number though and you can go sit by her bed. Hopefully sheโll be awake soon and we can get an ultrasound done for the babyโ he told me as I nodded afraid to speak.ย
Once I had her room number I took the elevator up and walked in when I reached the door. She was laying so peacefully, it almost looked like she was sleeping minus the monitors around her and the bandage wrapped around her head. I wanted to break down but I knew I needed to be strong for her and our child.ย
I carefully sat down in the chair next to her bed, reaching for her hand, holding it gently and placing a delicate kiss on her bruised knuckles.ย
โOh mon amourโ I whispered โI need you to wake up, not just for me but for our childโ I said still whispering slightly even if no one was around โYouโre my whole world, I cant lose you, either of youโ I said placing a hand on her bump.
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There was no movement or any change for the first few hours, I was starting to lose hope so I went to the one place I thought might be able to help.
I quietly walked into the prayer room, taking a seat in one of the back isles. I wasnโt an overly religious person which was why I wasnโt here for God but rather someone else.ย
โJules, if you can hear me I need you to do me a favourโ I started closing my eyes โPlease please pull some strings and do what you can up there to help her and our baby, I cant lose them tooโ I said as I felt a tear fall from my eye
โAs much as I know youโd take care of them up there, I donโt want thatโ I continued opening my eyes and wiping the tears that started to fall โJust please, you and Papa, I need you two to help us out down hereโ I finished before getting up and walking back to her hospital room.ย
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Y/Nโs POVย
Everything hurt. I felt this weight on me but I couldnโt figure out if it was really there or if my body just felt heavy. I used every bit of strength I had to try and open my eyes which wasnโt easy, especially with this weight on me.
Eventually the light started to shine through and after a couple blinks my eyes focused on a white ceiling.ย I couldnโt move my head too much but I was able to take a glance around me, I was in a hospital.
I thought back to the last thing I remembered and suddenly it all came rushing back, where I was going, starting to cross the street, the impact of the car, then after that it goes dark.ย
I noticed a head on my lap, confused at first but then soon realized it belonged to my boyfriend. He mustโve been sleeping. More of the day came back to me; texting him before the race, not being able to watch it.
My throat was extremely raw but between my slight movement and struggling to take a few breaths I was able to muster out his name which got his attention immediately.ย
โOh my love youre awakeโ he said, I saw tears forming in his eyes โWait here drink some water, the doctor said it might hurt to talk at firstโ he said as he leaned over grabbing a cup from the bedside table, helping me drink the water. It helped with the raw feeling.ย
โThank youโ I said softly โWhat happened?โ I asked even though I remembered some of what had actually happened.
โYou were in an accident. Someone hit you with their car, the paramedics said your head was bleeding when they arrived on scene and it caused a bleed in your brain but the surgeons were able to stop itโ he started explaining what happened after it went dark.
โYou also have a couple broken ribs but theyโll heal with timeโ he finished stroking my face
โI was so scared when I got the call. I donโt think Iโve ever moved so fast to get out of the paddock beforeโ he told me softly. I could tell he was barely holding it together.ย
โIm okay. Im hereโ I reassured him taking his hand squeezing it so he knew this was real, he nodded.ย
โWhat about the baby? Is the baby okay?โ I asked suddenly as I glanced at my bumpย
โThey havenโt been able to do an ultrasound without you awake but they arenโt sure, they said we should be prepared for the worstโ he told me sadly. I sighed, there was no way this could be happening. Before we could say anything more to each other, my surgeon came inย
โOh Miss Y/L/N, itโs lovely to see you awakeโ he smiled at me, I did my best to smile back, he had saved my life after all.
โIm assuming your boyfriend told you everything I passed along to him so I wont bore you with the details againโ he continued โI will say your broken ribs should take about 6 weeks to heal and youโll have to come back for weekly checkups for your head until we can be sure it hasnโt started bleeding againโ he went through his doctor notes.ย
I nodded along with him โAnd one last thing, Iโve called the on call obstetrcian to come and do an ultrasound to see the status of your baby. She should be here any minute and once sheโs done, depending on what she finds we may have to take follow up steps but we wont go down that road now. Iโll send a nurse in after the ultrasounds done to check on your vitals and then we can talk about dischargeโ he finished. I thanked him before he left.ย
โMon amour are you okay? Thats a lot to take inโ Charles asked gently holding my hand
โYeah yeah Iโm okay, I just donโt know what weโll do if we lost the babyโ I shared with him using my other hand to rest on my bumpย
โWeโll figure it out togetherโ he told me leaning over and leaving a kiss on my forehead.ย
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After a few minutes passed, another doctor came in
โHi Iโm Doctor Smithโ she introduced herself as she wheeled in an ultrasound machine with her โLets see whatโs going on with your little oneโ she said trying to be optimistic although everyone knew the results may not be good.ย
I carefully lifted my gown up to reveal my stomach where she squeezed the ultrasound gel on then used the wand to move it around, turning the machine on.
Charles held my hand, not sure if he realized how tightly he was holding it but it didnโt matter I was squeezing his hand just as tightly.ย
The room was silent while Dr. Smith continued to move the wand around starting to get a bit nervous until suddenly the silence was filled with a heartbeat.
At first we didnโt know if we had heard it correctly but then she moved the wand slightly over and the heartbeat became louder and clearer. I let out a breath I didn't even realize I was holding in and felt the tears falling.ย
When I turned to Charles he was also crying. I did my best to pull him closely to hug him, he wrapped his arm around me kissing my head. โTheyโre okay. Theyโre okayโ he said as I nodded against him.ย
โYou have a very strong and healthy little boy here, I donโt see anything to be concerned aboutโ Dr. Smith told usย
We pulled away from each other and looked at her โDid you say boy?โ I asked. She suddenly became aware of what she had said
โOh im sorry did you not want to know?โ she asked, I shook my head,
โNo no itโs okay, we just hadnโt gotten around to finding out yetโ I explained as happy tears continued to fall.
She smiled at me โIโll give you a moment and then Iโll be back with your surgeonโ she told us as she used a cloth to wipe the gel off my stomach and then left the room, leaving the ultrasound machine in the corner.ย
โCharles weโre having a boyโ I said to him seeing he was in shock โAre you okay?โ I asked worried since he hadnt said anythingย
โOh yeah iโm okay mon amour, Iโm just taking everything in, I was so worried we had lost himโ he told meย
โCome hereโ I said carefully moving over remembering about the broken ribs โNo mon amour you shouldnโt moveโ he quickly saidย
โCharles please come sit with meโ I asked him, he saw the look in my eyes and knew there was no point in arguing so he carefully got up and sat next to me on the bed, being mindful of my broken ribs and the wires.ย
I looked at him โWeโre all okay, me you and our little boyโ I reassured him placing his hand on my bump, he nodded.ย
โI love you so muchโ he told me kissing my head again
โWe love you just as muchโ I said back to him closing my eyes and enjoying being in his arms, knowing our baby was okay and eventually Iโd be okay too.ย
"Oh wait how did the race go?" I asked suddenly remembering, opening my eyes and looking at him
He chuckled slightly "I got P2" he told me a small smile appearing on his face. I gave him a similar smile back and kissed his cheek carefully
"Another thing to be happy about, congrats baby" I told him putting my head back on his shoulder as he entertained our hands together and kissed the top of my head.
There may have been some obstacles thrown our way and more to come but together we could face anything.
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Pairing : dad!Charles Leclerc x mom!reader
Theme : Angst, fluff
Still felt like somethingโs missing with this one ๐ฉ
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โY/N, listenโโ
โNo, Charles, Iโm done.โ You brushed past him with your duffel bag that you had prepared days before because you knew he would still keep on denying everything.
โWhat do you mean youโre done? Y/N, please listen to me.โ
โLetโs go, baby.โ Taking your baby girlโs hand, you pulled her up to her feet as she threw her toys on the floor.
โWhere are you going? Y/N, you canโt do this to me.
โIโm going home. Iโm not coming back until you set your priority straight.โ You took little steps while your daughter trailed after you, constantly checking back, wondering why her daddy is not coming along.
โI told you sheโs a new physiotherapist ! Please, donโt do this.โ
โPhysiotherapist wonโt be in your room all cuddled up like that! You think Iโm a fool?โ You wiped your tears with the back of your hand, eyes still looking at your husband in disbelief as you felt every trust you had for him far gone.
โI donโt know what the news said but those didnโt happen, babyโโ
โDonโt call me that.โ
He breathed in, hand on his forehead as he squeezed his eyes shut and took a step back. โY/N, none of the things happened. Yes, she was in my room but nothing happened. You need to trust me!โ
โDada not come?โ Your daughter asked as she stood up after you put on her shoes. Her little hand goes back into yours.
โDadaโs not coming, sweetheart. Dada has work.โ You tugged on her little hands and turned around to leave but she refused to follow, pulling you back the the little force she had.
โBut I want dada.โ She yanked her hand from your grip and ran back to hug Charlesโs legs. โDada follow?โ
Charles then crouched down and gave his little girl a kiss on her forehead. โDada canโt come, princess. Take care of mommy for dada, alright?โ His arm went around her little frame when the circled her arms around his neck, hugging him.
โSee you later, dada!โ
โY/N.โ The soft tone of his voice nearly knocked down the wall that you were trying to build in your heart. When you turned around, you saw he took few steps closer to plant a kiss on your forehead, mumbling the words โI love youโ as he pulled away. Both you and Charles had made a promise on the early stage of your dating life that both of you would never go a day without an I love you because tomorrow wasnโt confirmed, regardless of how bad the arguments would be. โAnd Iโm sorryโฆโ
You didnโt look at him when you pulled away to make your way to your car. You didnโt want to ignore the words, but you also didnโt want to say it back so you just mumbled the words back under your breath. Your little girl had her half body turned sideways jusy so she could kept on waving to her dad, unconcerned with the problems going on.
If it wasnโt for the constant tagging, you would have been left in the dark. Checking your social media had always been apart of your wind down activity but you werenโt expecting to have over 100+ notifications one night, people tagging you on a screenshot of news article about your husband exposed to be having a short โintimate breakโ with a new woman. The articles were supported heavily with a blurry picture of your husband and the woman walking out of the driverโs room after which was what they assumed as a quickie before the race in Hungary. People started making fun of your marriage, saying that you tricked Charles into one by getting pregnant on purpose or you got pregnant as soon after the wedding because you wanted to secure the bag and some of them even assume Charles was forced to stay in the marriage not because of love but because of the child and his image.
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Though you had been living separately for nearly a month, Charles would always came by. Sometimes it would a short 5 minutes where he just dropped by to give his little daughter a new toy or just a short cuddling session. You felt guilty of course, because your daughter had always been daddyโs girl but you couldnโt be in the same house with him without thinking about the pictures so you had to continuously tell her that Charles was busy with his fast car.
โDonโt go!โ Your daughter cried out and tugged on her dadโs hand, dragging him back into the living room. โDada canโt go!โ
โI need to go, princess.โ He drew his lips back, squatting down to level his face with hers. โWe spent half a day together, didnโt we?โ His arm was stretched out again as she kept on trying to pull him back.
โCan dada stay?โ
He looked up and caught your eyes on him with your arms folded. โIโm not sure mommy wants that. Why donโt you go and ask mommy?โ
โCan dada stay tonight, mommy? Please please!โ She ran to hug your legs and pulled on your shirt to get your attention.
โSleep on the couch. Iโll get a blanket for you.โ You left those two together shrieking with laughters and came back with blanket to find both of them cuddling on the couch. โAre you gonna sleep with dada on the couch tonight?โ
โYes! Mommy too?โ She scooted aside and pat on the empty space. โMommy too!โ
โMommy will sleep in the room, okay?โ You bended down to peck on her forehead and looked at Charles who has been staring at you. โMake sure she sleeps by 9.โ
โThank you.โ He took your hand and you snatched it back before matching to your room.
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โBaby, what are you doing with my phone?โ
You had just done putting on your skincare and walked out of the bathroom to see your little girl looking sullen as she was holding your phone. โNo answer?โ She raised the phone up as it shook a little from the unbalanced weight between the phone and her little grip.
โAnswer? Who are you calling?โ
โY/N, is thereโโ
โHi dada!โ
โoh, hi, princess!โ
You froze when you heard Charlesโs voice. When did she even learn how to call someone or more specifically, her own dad.
โDada! Hello!โ
โHi, I miss you so much.โ
Your daughter squealed and clapped her hands, bringing the phone that was larger than her hand closer to her mouth. โMiss you too!โ
โWhereโs mommy? Is mommy okay?โ
Your lips were pressed into a thin line. Sure, you can still acted all fine in front of your daughter but that doesnโt mean you could play pretend with your feelings. I miss you, Charles.
โMommy is okay. Mommy was putting cream on face.โ
โOh, yeah? Mommy always takes a long time in front of the mirror, right princess?โ
โYeah, very long time! Mommy always goes dab dab.โ
You heard him chuckle and continued the conversations until he had to end the call. โPrincess, dada has to go. Listen to mommy and be a good girl. Iโll see you soon, okay?โ
โBye, dada! I love you.โ
โBye, princess. Tell mommy I said I love you.โ
She stood up and ran to you, handing you back the phone with the brightest smile, which had everything to do with the little time with her dad.
โDada said I love you mommy!โ
โI love you too.โ She giggled in your arms as you poked on her waist. โWho taught you how to call dada, hm?โ
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You were sitting at the living room, leaving Charles and your daughter having their own time. Faint giggles and maffles could be heard filling the silence.
โGirl secured the bag but still got cheated on.โ
โProof that a child is not enough to make a man loyal. Good try, girl.โ
Though it had been more than a month since what happened, your social media was still full of unpleasant comments. Your life had been in a downward spiral, even more when Ferrariโs official account had posted a few photos from the weekend and you saw the woman who was in the picture with Charles months ago in the background of the photos. The comments were quick to jump into their own assumptions and speculations, making you felt more oppressed within every minute you spent on your phone.
โWhereโs she?โ You asked when you saw Charles in the living room, no longer hearing her squeals and laughters. Your phone was no longer in your hand as you turned it off. Charles had took a seat on the couch, afar from you since you kept on shutting him out so he just knew you wouldnโt want him close to you this time as well.
โSheโs asleep.โ He grabbed your hand as you were walking trying to walk pass him to get yourself a drink. โBabโ Y/N, can we talk?โ
โThereโs nothing to talk about, Charles.โ
โYou canโt keep on doing this.โ He was now standing only a step away. โI miss you. I donโt want to come home to an empty house. Please, tell me what you want me to do.โ His fingers softly traced your cheek, making your heart beat faster, yearning for more of his touch. โIโll fix the mess. Iโll speak up about this, let the news clear out my name, your name. I need you, Y/N, please.โ
You wanted to give in. You were so close to give into his wishes, his plead but you couldnโt. Never once in your life would you imagine yourself to be in a situation where your husband got tangled up with another woman that people started making fun of your innocent child.
โYou need to leave.โ You paced back, feeling his touch leaving an imprint on your skin.
โY/N,โ
โLeave, please. Iโm not doing this tonight.โ
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The scream of your daughter took up the house as she saw Charles walked through the door. You had told Charles you wanted to do a small birthday for her and he had set everything up that you didnโt have to lift a finger. A day before a group of people came by to start putting on balloons and ribbons in your house. The food and drinks started ti arrive a few hours ago so you were only left with a few task when you had to dress her up and prepare a few starter and dessert. The guests were not a lot. You had invited your friends, their kids, family members and of course, Charles.
โHey, princess! Happy birthday!โ
Charles immediately picked her up and attacked her chubby cheeks with kisses, causing her to squirm while giggling. โYou are so pretty, princess. Did you wear mommyโs lipstick?โ He laughed and wiped the smudge at the ends of her lips.
โI stole mommyโs lipstick!โ
โKnew it! You should have asked mommy to help put it on you. Whereโs mommy?โ She had ran to join her friends back to the small backyard garden, leaving Charlesโs question left unanswered as he ambled to the kitchen to see you were preparing a cheese board for the guests.
โDo you need help?
โOh, yeah. Can you help me open the pack of crackers and just plate it nicely on this serving board? You handed him the board to which he took it and started opening crackers that you had placed on the kitchen counter while you went back to cutting the cheese.
Both of you were doing things in silence so you didnโt bother to check up on him as you only asked his help for the simplest task ever. One that even your daughter could do.
You had realised it wasnโt as simple as you thought it was when you looked at the board which was supposed to be filled with crackers, were only filled with a few ones while the rest went into his mouth.
โCharles!โ Charlesโs hand stop moving as he looked at you. โI asked you to put them on the board, not eat them!โ
โItโs addictive. Give it a try.โ He offered you one and you took it, chuckling as you chew. โRight? I told you! Itโs tasteless but itโs good. Do you want more?โ
He moved closer to put the cracker to your mouth when you declined, making you laugh as you tried to move your face away. โItโs not that good. I donโt want it!โ
He cackled along, arm finding its way on your waist as he pulled you close. โGod, I missed you so much.โ
โHello?โ
โYeahโโ The smile on your face ceased as your eyes landed on the owner of the voice, the same woman who was caught in a gossip with the guy standing in front of you. โOh, hi.โ
โY/N, this is Leah. Sheโsโโ Charles tried to grab your arm as you tried to walk out of the kitchen. โBaby, waitโโ
โI need to check on my daughter.โ
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โIsnโt that the girl that was in the picture? Did you invite her?โ
The drink in your hand tasted somewhat bitter. โNo, she came with Charles.โ You replied, eyes locked on your daughter as she played with her dad and Leah in the backyard.
โIs he trying to introduce you to his new girlfriend?โ
โI donโt know.โ You stretched out your arms as your little girl came running to you. โDid you have fun with dada?โ
โYes! Can mommy play too?โ She jumped and tugged on your finger to get you off the couch. โPlease please!โ
โAlright, alright. Iโm coming.โ You patted her head, giving your friends a glance as you trailed after her to the backyard where Charles was on the grass, joining by your daughter after.
โDada, let mommy be the tagged!โ
โYou asked me to join you only for you to gang up with dada? Come here!โ You gasped dramatically and chased after her while she waddled to the end of the backyard. โOh, tag.โ Charles had just stood on his feet and stopped by your side as he saw you focusing on the little girl when you tapped on his arm.
โOh, come on! Really? I thought you were chasing after her.โ Charles groaned. He barely had a 5 minutes break and thought you were chasing after the little one instead of him, which was why he wasnโt running away.
โI canโt catch her!โ
โOkay, then Iโll just tag you back.โ He poked on your cheek, laughing when you clicked on your tongue, thing that you always do when you get annoyed.
โCharles, can I borrow you for a second?โ
โYeah, Iโll be right back.โ He left your side when Leah called out for him, both of them seemed to be engrossed in a discussion. Leaving you alone while your daughter had found her way back into her group of friends. You saw your friendsโ sympathetic eyes on you as they called you out to join them back.
You felt pathetic.
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For the rest of the birthday party, you tried to ignore Charles and his partner though you could feel his eyes on you the whole time. Every time you caught a glance of both of them, exchanging conversations and smiles while she kept on showing something on her phone, tears would welled up in your eyes and you couldnโt cry, not today. Today isnโt about you.
โBaby, can you please stop ignoring me?โ
You bumped into Charles as you tried to head to to kitchen and he had gripped on your arm, forcing you to stay as you were trying to get away from Charles again when the front door opened as you saw a man with 2 kids around your daughterโs age walked in with a birthday present nicely wrapped in his hand.
โHappy birthday!โ The kids shrieked and handed the birthday present to your daughter as they ran to join the kids outside.
โThere you are! What took you so long?โ Leah exclaimed as she pulled the man into a hug. โY/N, this is my husband and my kids. I hope you donโt mind three extra guests?โ
โNo, not at all.โ A soft smiled creeped in as a mask to hide your true feelings before you made your way into your room with Charles chasing after you.
You felt so dumb. First you had to see your husbandโs new โgirlfriendโ then having to constantly see your husband played with your kid while his new girl a step away as she laughed and smiled along, one when your husband left your side in a blink the second Leah called out for him, only to find out that all of that was just an act and that she actually had a husband and kids. You felt your throat tighten up as you breathed in a short intake. โDid you try to make me look like a fool because you aced it.โ
โNo, thatโsโ no, not at all. Y/Nโโ
โI feel so woeful and pathetic. If thisโ if this is your payback because I took your daughter away, Iโm sorry.โ You sobbed into the palm of your hands.
โBaby, no. No, thatโ thatโs not it. You got the wrong idea. I brought her along because I had a scheduled medical checkup and she had to tag along. I thought she could be the one to explain to you what actually happened since you refused to listen to my explanation.โ Your trembling hand in now in his while he cupped his free hand on your left cheek, thumb wiped off the fresh tears that rolled down you cheeks. It had been a week since the last time he touched you, month since he hugged you and there was a hole in his heart from your absence. You didnโt reject him, not this time so he continued. โYes, she was in the room with me but I was asleep and she was looking for my stuff. Something that she wanted to borrow. We didnโt cuddle or do anything at all. Not like how the news portrayed. She came in with Joris because he had the access to my room but they didnโt catch that moment so it just seemed like there was only both of us.โ
Your tongue was tied, your head was in a shamble. You didnโt know know what to do, what to react, what to respond. If what he was saying was true, then why did he seemed so close with her. Why would he go to his daughterโs birthday party with her. Why would he left you just because she called out for him.
โYou know how much I love you, Y/N. I would never do anything that would break your trust on me. I was asleep. I would have asked Joris to not allow her inside my room if I was awake. I didnโt know there were pictures taken.โ
โI donโt know, Charles. Iโm justโ โ You tilted you head away as you felt your throat closing up. โEverything I saw earlier didnโt make it seemed as if nothing happened between you guys.โ
โWhat did you see?โ He leaned in, tugging on your hand in his just so you would look back at him. โTell me, baby, what did you see?โ
โYou came to the birthday party with her looking like a happy couple as if you tried to shove that in my face.โ
โWe didnโt. We didnโt come together, Y/N. She drove her own car but we came from the same place, remember? Her husband wanted to buy a last minute birthday gift, just before they came here so she had to ask for my opinion since they didnโt know what they should give.โ You felt his thumb kept on stroking the back of your hand, he wanted to pull you in his embrace but he couldnโt afford getting rejected again. He didnโt know if you wanted him to touch you but grateful enough that you didnโt retract your hand away so he wouldnโt ask for more if your werenโt comfortable just yet.
โI am such a foolโฆโ Your voice trailed off with tears streaming down your face.
โNo, you are not a fool. You needed reassurance which I failed to give.โ Charles then surrendered to his own wish and eventually engulfed you in his arms. โIs this okay? Can I hug you?โ He didnโt get your response but he felt your arms on his back, returning the hug.
โIโm sorryโฆโ You tilted your head to look at him with swollen eyes.
โWe are both at fault here.โ He drew in his arms tighter around your frame. โWill you come back to me? Come back home?โ
โDo you still want me back?โ
โI will always want you back, baby. Always.โ He pulled away and pecked on your cheek, chuckling when you started having hiccups from crying too much.
โDada?โ
He pulled away and turned to look at his little girl walked in with a lollipop in her hand. You stayed behind Charles so you could pat your eyes dry before she noticed.
โIs mommy okay?โ She slanted her body to peek on you as Charles continued to cover you with his back.
โMommyโs fine, princess. Mommyโs eyes just hurt a little.โ
โGive mommy this!โ She offered Charles her lollipop, making both of you laughed.
โCharles took the lollipop and extended it to you. โWould you like a lollipop, baby?โ
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pairing: photographer!haechan x (f) model!reader
genre/warnings: smut, angst, hollywood!au, photographer!haechan, model!reader, descriptions of vomiting, fluff, unsolicited comments, mentions of alcohol use (not while expectant)
summary: Five years ago, you left your hometown and ex to recreate your identity in California. Now, you're a staple of the fashion industry and on the front cover of magazines everywhere. Your hard work has paid off, but when you realize that you might be pregnant, you have to decide whether you want to be a full-time model or a full-time mother.
word count: 23k
a/n: at last, here she is! thank you for your patience, i know it was a long wait. this is a sequel to love jones. as always, feedback is appreciated!
Smiling from ear to ear, the giddy butterflies in the pit of your stomach just wouldnโt leave. Given that theyโd been there for five years, it was safe to assume they never would.ย
Five years of romance. To celebrate, you and your boyfriend decided on cooking your own dinner at home. Your boyfriend was not a qualified cook (a couple of incidents and he was strictly prohibited and sidelined from food preparation duties) which made the night both fun and a nightmare.ย
When Haechan asked you for dinner suggestions, you were very adamant that you wanted lobster. Which surprised him, given that youโd been to a handful of seafood restaurants and you never expressed a taste for lobster, though he reckoned you wanted to be fancy for your five-year anniversary.ย
โBaby,โ you whined. โIs it just me, or is it really hot in here?โ
โItโs hot because youโre here,โ Haechan flirted in a heartbeat. Some things never changed.ย
You rolled your eyes, whining, โSeriously. Arenโt you about to burn up? I feel like Iโm going to die.โ
โOnly thing I feel like I might die of is hypothermia. If anything, itโs kinda cold to me, baby.โ
You frowned, finding that questionably odd. You had already taken off his insulating leather jacket, left in nothing but a tank top, and you didnโt want to remove any other layers in fear of getting lobster juice all over yourself. Maybe it was a metabolism thing.ย
Haechan pointed to your wine glass with his own. โArenโt you going to drink that? You always want wine.โ
Glancing down, you noticed your filled wine glass that you had hardly touched. Even when you were out celebrating with your agent and a couple of other staff, you declined the offer for wine. Your agent was shocked. She knew you loved to get wine drunk. โNot really in the mood.โ
If your boyfriend thought that something was out of the ordinary, he didnโt say anything.ย
After a while, you started to forget about your suspicious behavior. Time quickly lost its meaning as you chatted with Haechan, running your mouths like the two people who never shut up that you were. To this day you still perfectly matched each otherโs energy. Five years down, a lifetime left to go.ย
You were twenty-six now, Haechan twenty-eight. Though your grandmother liked to joke that you were catching up to her, sometimes you didnโt feel like you were pushing thirty. Notably when you were with Haechan. His ability to make you feel like a teenager in love needed to be studied.ย ย
In those five years, not only had you developed your relationship with the love of your life, but you also made your name known within the industry. Of course, your success wasnโt without a couple of setbacks and near career-ending allegations, but you somehow came out on top in the end.ย
Haechan also had a lucrative career. From being hired to take pictures of lowkey performers on tour to becoming a chief photographer with his own studio that worked with wealthy media moguls, he had obviously come extremely far. And he was only getting more popular amongst affluent patrons.ย
All in the span of five years. You never would have guessed. Five years ago, you lived in a condo downtown. Now, you lived in a comfortable house with Haechan and you couldnโt be happier.ย
Out of nowhere, you started to feel as if you were going to be sick. You stood from the table, muttering โbathroomโ when your boyfriend tossed you a baffled look.ย
Haechan let you be. He figured you just had to pee. You were doing that more often for whatever reason.ย
Though you tried to be indifferent about the sudden involuntary motions in your stomach, you were quick to make a beeline for the bathroom in fear of vomiting all over the floor.ย
You headed straight for the toilet and kneeled on the floor, bracing your hands on the seat while you retched and dry-heaved into the bowl. Your mouth felt almost painfully dry afterwards and all you could taste was the scorching feeling of bile.ย
This was absolutely ridiculous and you didnโt understand what was happening to you. Though you werenโt particularly a fan of lobster, you could usually handle seafood. Maybe having Haechan help you cook wasnโt the smartest idea.ย
Speak of the devil, he called from the other side of the door, โBaby, you good in there?โ
โUh, no,โ you muttered just loud enough for his ears.ย
Haechanโs voice sounded alarmed. โWhatโs wrong?โ
Wincing at the sight of greenish-yellow vomit, you flushed the toilet and stood to vigorously wash your hands. โI kinda threw up.โ
โWhat? Was it something you ate? Baby, I love your cooking, but Iโve been trying to tell you that all that butter is not good for your stomach.โ
โI really donโt think thatโs the problem,โ you droned irritably.ย
Haechan joked, โWhat - are you pregnant or something?โ
Something about those words made you freeze right in the middle of drying your hands with paper towels. Pregnant, you realized. It was all coming back to you. Haechan fucked you raw not too long ago. And you couldnโt remember the last time you had a period.ย
Silence was never a good thing for either of you and the worry was evident in Haechanโs voice. โBaby, youโre not actually pregnant. Right?โ
Your eyes were wide as you exclaimed, โI donโt know!โ
โCan I come in?โ
โYeah,โ you said shakily.ย
The door opened, Haechan revealing himself. He was quick to notice the panic on your face and grabbed your hand in his, crooning, โBaby, talk to me. Whatโs going on?โ
You inhaled a deep breath through your nose, exhaling one large puff of air. โOkay, remember I had my IUD removed?โ
Haechanโs brows furrowed. โUh huh.โ
โAnd then I went off the pill because they were giving me migraines,โ you added frantically.ย
โYeah, so we started using condoms.โ
โRight,โ you said, nodding your head. โBut that one time we ran outโฆโ
Haechan continued, โAnd you begged me to fuck you anyway?โ
โThatโs not the point,โ you hissed. โThe point is we had sex without a condom, I donโt remember having a period, and now Iโm puking everywhere.โ
โWell, if two plus two equals fourโฆ,โ Haechan trailed.ย
You snapped, โCan you be serious for once?โ
Haechan grabbed your wrist, kissing the back of your hand tenderly to console you. โI am being serious. I think we should buy a pregnancy test or ten. Just to be certain.โ
You reminded, โItโs late. All the pharmacies are closed.โ
โThen, we go first thing tomorrow,โ was Haechanโs solution.ย
His touches were enough to ease your mind for a little. You nodded in acceptance, taking a deep breath and closing your eyes. This was a frightening moment and you were glad that you werenโt alone.ย
As soon as the following day, you and Haechan were on your way to a local pharmacy on his motorbike. His red motorbike, might you add. Though the sleek black one was directly involved in a number of good memories, one too many stunts had maimed her. You surprised him with another one for his birthday last year and he fell in love without a second thought.ย
The pharmacy was busy at this hour. Though Haechanโs suggestion of getting ten pregnancy tests was somewhat dramatic, you did make sure to grab a couple packs of two. It was better to be safe than sorry, after all.ย
You rushed to the bathroom the second you were back home, telling Haechan you would be back after a moment to tell him the results. You were clear that he waited outside the door. Your brain amassed hectic thought after hectic thought and it was driving you crazy.ย
Over the next couple of minutes, you sat antsily on the toilet lid and waited. According to the instructions on the box, your fate would be decided in as little as a few minutes. If you waited too long, your results could display inaccuracies.ย
You were just so scared. If you were pregnant, that could change everything. Your nerves were worked and you could feel the stress in your shoulders as much as you tried to feign a semblance of order.ย
When the three minutes were up, you braced yourself with one big breath and found the courage to check the lines.ย
You sucked in a breath. Not a single one was negative.ย
โOh my god,โ you gasped.ย
โWhatโs wrong?โ Haechan asked frantically, leaning against the door. This was just as nerve-racking for him as it was for you.ย
โTheyโre positive,โ you exclaimed. โAll four of them!โ
That was Haechanโs cue to open the door, immediately grabbing a hold of you. You looked like your weight would drop to the floor any second now. โOkay, babe. Breathe,โ he whispered.ย
You braced your hands on the counter. โI canโt. This is too much.โ
โSit,โ Haechan said, holding you steadily in his arms. Like hell he would let you go in a time like this.ย
You sat on the fluffy toilet lid again, your head spinning. Nothing could describe how light your limbs felt in that moment. Or your head.ย
โThereโs a one percent chance theyโre wrong,โ Haechan told you in reminder.ย
You shook your head. โReally? You think all four of them are wrong?โ
Haechan took your tone in stride. โThatโs not what I said. What I meant is I think you should contact your doctor. We canโt be too sure.โ
Well, you couldnโt argue with that logic. It was the obvious thing to do. The second you calmed down enough to speak without shaky breath you called your health care provider and scheduled an appointment with your physician.ย
In a couple of days, you met with your primary physician, Haechan insisting that he wanted to be there. You made no argument. This baby was his just as much as it was yours and he made it a point to remind you that he wanted to be a part of every second.ย
For half an hour, the nurse's kind words in between constant beeps as she asked you for medical information was all you heard while your thoughts waged war. Even the faint chatter from the small TV mounted in the corner of the room didnโt register.ย
Footsteps jolted you out of your thoughts for a moment and you were a little more at ease when your doctor finally entered the patient room. There was a fleeting, kind greeting and she recounted your concerns as youโd briefed them over the phone just to be sure she was correct.ย
It was the most tense moment of your life. Had you not been holding Haechanโs fingers with one hand and bracing the chair with the other, you would have been chewing your nails.ย
After a couple of non-invasive tests, a suspenseful few minutes, and a transvaginal prenatal ultrasound, it was concluded that you were seven weeks pregnant. The whole room was reeling. Your doctor told you that she would have to run a few scans to ensure that you werenโt exposed to a high-risk pregnancy, but you could decide within two weeks if you wanted to terminate through medication.ย
Not only were you seven weeks pregnant, but seven weeks pregnant with dizygotic twins. Non-identical, your doctor explained. If you preferred, you could come back in three weeks to determine the sex.ย
โTwins,โ you rasped. โTwo babies. Wow.โ
Sitting in your car, you gripped the seatbelt with your life. Haechan insisted that you take your car instead of his bike considering that you were more than likely pregnant, and since he didnโt know the risks associated with pregnant mothers on a motorbike, he decided it was better to play it safe.ย
Though your doctor revealed that minimum travel within the first few months of your pregnancy was generally not a threat unless you were going a lengthy distance. Much to your boyfriendโs happiness.ย ย
It was quiet while you two sat in the parking lot, save for the Mark Lee song playing faintly on the radio. He was grammy-nominated now.ย
There was a long pause before you could speak. Haechan was the same, looking paler than usual. You almost couldnโt breathe. Your head was still stuck in that neutral-toned hospital room and the scent of antiseptics still wafted through your nostrils.ย
The whole parking lot was upside down as you fretted, โIโm pregnant. Oh my god. Wow. Iโm pregnant!โ
โHey,โ Haechan started, reaching over the center console and grabbing your hands in his. There was another pause before he continued speaking. โWeโre pregnant.โ
Your eyes flickered. Then, you burst into laughter. That was the last thing you expected him to say.ย
Haechan was grinning, glad that he could make you laugh even if it was just for a moment. Your doctor was clear that stress was very harmful for the kids. โIโm serious!โ
โOkay,โ you replied. Though you were still giggling. โWeโre pregnant.โ
โYou better know.โ
You sighed, leaning against the door window. The ultrasound displayed not one, but two tiny embryos currently sharing your uterus. And they were only growing.ย
Handing the ultrasound to Haechan, you let it all sink in, starting, โWhen I was twenty-one, pregnancy was the last thing on my agenda. Jae wanted to slow down, but I didnโt want to stop. I was just getting started. I mean, I still am, itโs only been five years.โ
Haechan flinched at the mention of your ex. It was rare that you brought him up in conversation. For good reason. โAnd youโve still accomplished so much.โ
โYeah, but I wanna accomplish more. If I have a baby, I have to take a break from the grind to be a mother. And god forbid I let somebody else raise my kids,โ you grumbled.ย
Haechan quickly saw what the problem was. โOkay, baby, stop. This isnโt the end. Youโre pregnant, but that doesnโt mean you become my housewife and die. I wouldnโt ever try to put the brakes on you.โ
โI know, butโฆโ
โListen,โ he said. โWe can always make more babies another time. Your life isnโt over.โ
You huffed, โI have, like, four years before that ship sails and itโs in godโs hands.โ
โAnything could happen in four years.โ
You heaved another breath. โTrue,โ you replied. Even two years from now you could decide that you wanted to settle down.ย
It just felt like there was so much at stake. You were a model, for fuckโs sake. Very much a celebrity. Not only did you love your job and having two babies mean you would have less time to devote to yourself, but everyone would be watching them the same way they watched you.ย
When you went out, there was guaranteed to be a camera not far behind. You couldnโt even get lunch with a friend without being borderline stalked wherever you went. Masks and disguises barely helped.
Anybody that was a friend of yours was a friend of the media. Your whole life was on the internet and there was always a magnifying glass being held close to your face. Every second of your life you were being examined and judged by people who didnโt even know you. Expectations were a constant weight on your shoulders.ย
โIf I have these kids, I donโt want them to grow up in the eyes of the media,โ you started sternly. โI subject myself to judgment and scrutiny every day I step out of my house. Babies donโt deserve that.โ
Haechan bobbed his head in agreement. โThen, I watch them. And if Iโm busy, then we get a babysitter.โ
You huffed, โAnd trust a stranger with our child?โ
The look of horror on Haechanโs face immediately declined that offer. โIโve got family here. We can pay my cousin or something. Look, baby, weโll figure this out. Together.โ
You squeezed his hand, stifling tears. There was so much weight on your heart. It was almost suffocating until you remembered that you werenโt alone.
For the next couple of weeks, you mulled the decision over. You didnโt tell anyone that you were pregnant - not even your grandmother or Haechanโs parents, who referred to themselves as your in-laws, even though you and Haechan werenโt married.ย
That thought tickled something in your brain. Marriage, you hypothesized. And a family. Deep down inside, it was something you always wanted, but you never knew when. You always figured the day would come where you would just know.ย
That day had come.ย
It isnโt the end of the world, you consoled, having had time to be reasonable with yourself. You were far enough in your career where it wouldnโt weaken your income if you took some time to be lowkey. Haechan, the brainiac that he was, even suggested you endorse baby products.ย
Everything felt so earth-shattering to you that youโd been confused into thinking weighing your options meant you only had one choice. Your mind was quick to wander, wondering if that was a symptom of carrying a developing baby.ย
You breathed easier when it finally hit you that you didnโt have to choose between the career you loved and starting a family with the man you loved. Because you wanted both and you would have both. Even if it was in moderate amounts.ย
At ten weeks, you were back in the doctorโs office to determine the sex of your babies. Haechan was hoping for boys while you were hoping for girls. Imagine your shock when Doctor Stakes congratulated you on carrying a boy and girl.ย
By the end of the first trimester, you decided that you would be keeping the babies and your career. Haechan was both over the moon and a little anxious knowing that he would be a first-time father. Neither of you knew what you were doing and that made it as scary as it was exciting.ย
Still, nobody knew. Outside of your symptoms, it wasnโt too obvious. Your baby bump wasnโt very big yet.ย
โNo smoking, no drinking, no hot tubs or saunas, moderate caffeine intake, no raw seafood,โ you grumbled, recalling Doctor Stakesโ very detailed explanations of what was and was not healthy during your pregnancy.ย
โWell,โ Haechan started, plopping down on your shared mattress. โShe did say we could still have lots of sex.โ
You immediately rolled your eyes. โI believe her exact words were sex will not hurt our babies as long as my pregnancy is without health complications and I donโt start to experience bleeding, high blood pressure, and premature contractions.โ
Haechan gently grabbed your waist and pulled you onto his lap, retorting, โYou look fine to me. How do you feel?โ
โGood,โ you sighed, getting comfortable on his thighs. โDifferent, but not bad different. Good.โ
Haechan leaned into your ear and purred, โWhich translates into good for lots of sex.โ
You playfully hit him, pretending to be irritated. You knew he was only kidding. Kind of.ย
Doctor Stakes was straightforward but thorough in her explanations, walking you through the route of pregnancy with more than a couple of recommendations prioritizing the best potential health of you and your unborn babies. She said that sex was perfectly fine during the first five through six months. Something about your babies being cushioned by your abdomen and amniotic sac fluid.
Whatever the hell that is, you remembered thinking. She also suggested you enroll in a parenting class just so that you knew what to expect. It was not rare for first-time parents to take them and they were apparently super helpful.ย
It seemed strict, but you knew it was best for your childrenโs development, especially in the early stages. Though you would miss the freedom of your old life. โI kind of miss alcohol just because I canโt have it.โ
โIโm not giving you any,โ Haechan said, voice stern.ย
You snorted. โI wasnโt asking. Iโm not an idiot. Itโs justโฆ this is my life now. Itโs gonna be hard.โ
Kissing your cheek tenderly, Haechan replied, โWell, if you canโt drink, I wonโt drink either.โ
That surprised you and you wanted to know if he was joking or not. โSeriously?โ
โDuh,โ Haechan said. โLike I said, weโre pregnant. Anything you canโt have, shit, I canโt have it either. I guess weโre both abstaining.โ
โYou donโt have to,โ you whispered, though you liked the idea of him doing it anyway. It made your heart flutter.ย
Haechan shrugged. โYeah, but I would feel like a dickhead for enjoying things that I know you canโt have right in your face. Besides, my liver is probably screaming โthank god.โโ
You snickered, bringing your lips to his. That turned you on. You couldnโt even explain it. There was just something so hot and attractive about the words leaving his mouth and you decided you wanted him.ย
Letting your eyes flutter closed, you quickly tangled yourself in thoughts of him and him only; like a stimulant that only got more lethal with every hit. Sometimes it did feel that way. Like pleasure of this magnitude was too mind-numbing to be free.ย
Innocent touches became gestures of desperation. Haechan kissed you like he couldnโt get enough, hands zipping to your tender breasts while you looped your arms around his neck. He somehow only got better at kissing. You didnโt even know how that could happen.ย
Almost like you brought out the best in each other.ย
โFuck,โ you groaned, eyes snapping open.ย
Haechan instantly noticed and was quick to halt his actions in case he was causing you discomfort. โWhatโs wrong? Did I hurt you?โ
You shook your head. โNo, itโs just my boobsโฆ Theyโre a little sore.โ
Haechan chirped, โNothing I canโt take care of.โ
You giggled when he carefully lowered your weight onto the bed, lifting your shirt above your head and quickly getting rid of your bra. A moan left you when he caught a nipple in his mouth, gently kneading the other one in his hand.ย
There was something so addictive about the feeling of your boyfriendโs warm mouth on your body. You couldnโt help but exhale and moan, just comforted by the fact that he was supplying you warmth. His hands wandered, too, always soft and tender. Whatever moisturizer he was using was doing godโs work.ย
โBabe,โ you sighed out. Both your mind and body were relaxed and that was exactly what you needed, all things considered.ย
His tongue passed over your erect nipples, feeling them harden at his touch. Your boyfriendโs goal was to make you feel completely worshiped and he was doing a great job, for lack of a better word. Given that you were the one responsible for carrying and birthing two babies, he concluded that god could only be a woman.ย
But you were getting way too worked up and it was driving you to the edge. โBaby,โ you called. โI want more.โ
There was an erotic wet sound when Haechan pulled away from your boobs. โAre you sure? I was just kidding about the whole sex thing earlier.โ
โNo you werenโt.โ
โNo I wasnโt.โ
You snorted. Classic Haechan.ย
Haechan quickly sobered again, whispering, โBut I still wanna make sure this is what you want.โ
You appreciated his concern, but the longer you waited, the quicker the heat pulsed between your legs and you couldnโt shake it anymore. โHaechan, I literally could not be more sure when I say I need your cock inside me.โ
King of playing it cool that he was, Haechan pretended that those words werenโt like throwing gasoline on a field of already blazing thoughts. At least until he got inside you. Then, he had no thoughts. Brain empty. And he couldnโt help but bare his soul to you.ย
Pussy made him talk. There was absolutely nothing that he could hide when he was balls deep inside you.ย
Haechan shifted between your thighs, thanking god that you decided to wear a skirt today. His patience was wearing thin by the second and knowing how much you wanted him only strengthened his need.ย
You could only feel your heart thumping and his body heat wafting over you. Other things seemed so much smaller and irrelevant than they were.ย
Your panties came off with a yank and your glistening folds had Haechanโs undivided attention. โShit, youโre so wet. I didnโt even do anything,โ he said marvelously.ย
โShut up,โ you huffed, though it wasnโt sincere. Little things about him being committed to being a father turned you on. He didnโt understand how scary it was to be alone.ย
Haechan chuckled. โAs you wish.โ
You knew it wouldnโt be too long before he opened his mouth again and you werenโt complaining.ย
Overcome with want and the need to do something, you lifted yourself up and crawled towards Haechan to help him undress his pants down his legs. Haechan let you do as much, but the second his bare cock was out, he was gently pushing you back down.
You pouted, lips tucking out. โI wanna do something.โ
When you were comfortably on your back, Haechan started to rub his cock. โNo,โ he said, borderline teasing. โYou can lay here and let me take care of you.โ
His cock had your attention, your eyes fixed to how hard he was. โOkay.โ
Haechan parted your legs again, gentler than typical. โOn the plus side,โ he started, holding his dick between your thighs. โI canโt get you pregnant if youโre already pregnant.โ
You quipped, โThatโs actually not impossible. Something called superfetation. I heard about it a couple of months ago after searching on Google for too long. Itโs super rare, though. Donโt worry.โ
โI am about to superfetate this pussy,โ Haechan groaned, obnoxious.
โYouโre turning me off.โ
Haechan laughed.ย
After a moment of coating himself in your wetness and hearing your soft moans, Haechan decided he couldnโt take it anymore and slowly penetrated you. His jaw unhitched, more than a couple of sounds escaping him.ย
You werenโt any better. He just made you feel so full. You liked when he made it seem like it was only the two of you and you existed for each other.ย
Haechan was painfully hard inside you and desperate to move, though not before he said without room for argument, โTell me if you want me to stop or if it hurts.โ
You simply just nodded. There was nothing you wouldnโt do if it got him to fuck your brains out.ย
Then, Haechan started to move. His hands were on your hips, serving as an anchor so that he wouldnโt lose himself completely as he drowned in your wet pussy. In a similar manner, you braced your hands on his shoulders, holding onto him for dear life.ย
You were gazing at Haechan with one fatal combination of love and lust. They couldnโt be separated. Not after all the things that had been done and all the words that had been said. All you knew was that you had bared your body to him in the same way youโd bared your heart.ย
โBaby, donโt stop,โ you sighed, eyes fluttering shut. โDonโt stop.โ There was a pressure building inside the walls wedged between your legs and it only came out when he was steadily rocking his hips into you.ย
The whole room suddenly seemed a thousand degrees hotter and Haechan couldnโt breathe, exhaling loudly with labored breath. He couldnโt take that your pussy was so warm and tight, grumbling, โFuck,โ in between moans, smacking his hips into yours uncontrollably.ย
For a half second, you made eye contact with Haechan, just before he was sucking at the pulse on your collarbone and you couldnโt help but cry out his name, his chest creating friction against yours just enough to not be uncomfortable.ย
Haechan willed himself not to tighten his grip at the arc of your hips for the sheer reason that he didnโt want to hurt you. Not only did he not want to hurt you any more than you asked for, but the reminder that his children were growing inside your belly made him treat you like you were fragile.ย
He wanted to ask you to marry him, but he was terrified that it was way too soon. This pregnancy wasnโt even planned. You would probably have a heart attack if he asked for your hand in marriage. He was no stranger to being chided for moving too quickly, though it was just his nature.ย
Little did he know, you loved that about him. He could come off too strong sometimes, but beneath his fast jumps to get started was a zealous boy with big hopes for the future.ย
โI love you,โ Haechan whispered, lips brushing against your skin.ย
Your eyes fluttered open, meeting his again. โI love you. Youโre my everything.โ
โYouโre my everything and then some,โ Haechan flirted.ย
โYouโre my everything and everything in between.โ
Haechan started, โYouโre my everything andโฆโ
All it took was a kiss to the lips to effectively shut him up, grabbing his head and steering him closer to you. Like you werenโt already skin to skin. You sucked his tongue in your mouth, moaning at how his cock hit your sweet spot.ย
You were just so consumed by him - entirely. Though you knew that there was no closer the two of you could be, youโd be damned if you didnโt try.ย
Haechanโs hands wandered up to grab a handful of your breasts, gently squeezing the soft skin in his palms. He couldnโt get enough of the way you panted and sighed at his touch. There was no need for oxygen when he had you and he kissed you breathlessly until he thought he was going to die.ย
Haechan exhaled with his mouth hanging open, โYou cheated.โ His lips were perfectly swollen, the sight winning a smile out of you.ย
You giggled.ย
With how your walls were kneading and gushing around his cock, Haechan knew that he wouldnโt last. His mouth watered at the thought of coming inside you since it had been so long ago. That one time just short of two months ago excluded, obviously. Though he hadnโt meant for it to happen.ย
But first and foremost Haechan wanted to get you off and he steered a hand between your legs, thumbing your clit. You squirmed instantly, sensitive.ย
Little moans of his name kept escaping from your lips. โHaechan, Iโm going to come if you keep doing that,โ you warned, though rocked your hips into his to match his pace. The pleasure was different from before and the intimacy was even more intense.ย
Haechan chuckled breathlessly, staving off his orgasm for as long as he could. โThatโs the point, baby.โย
There was a resoundingly wet squelch as Haechan continued to bulldoze his cock into your cunt, breezing through the air. Your hands flew to your face as you covered yourself, embarrassed, but he pulled them away just as quick. โDonโt hide.โ
โDonโt you hear that? Iโm embarrassed,โ you blurted.ย
Haechan shook his head, peering down at you with misty eyes, and growled, โSexiest thing Iโve ever heard.โ
You were breathless. Haechan silenced you by capturing your lips in one incapacitating kiss and you swore your heart stopped beating for a second.
He made it too easy to forget. Forget the all-consuming worries of eventual childbirth. The threat of kissing everything youโd ever known and wanted goodbye. And the fear of raising a child that might end up making the same mistakes as you.ย
No words left your mouth as you parted your lips in a silent scream, trembling with the pressure of orgasm. You were a total disaster - you couldnโt stop moving, shaking and grinding yourself onto him even as your orgasm aggressively passed.ย
Your orgasm ripped the soul out of you without leaving anything behind in a merciless act of overkill and you only slacked onto the mattress when it felt completely over. You heaved for breath, almost like you would never breathe again. You had never felt anything so vigorously. Every thought vacated your brain.ย
Haechan was obviously not far behind - if the frequent pitched moans you were milking out of him were any indication - and you were borderline begging him to fill you again. This was a different strain of desperation than the kind that got you pregnant. This was more lethal.ย
Your walls were pulsing around him and Haechan couldnโt take it, hissing your name when he came with a sharp cry. His hips didnโt still until he rode out his high, both of you moaning in a delighted sync when his cum dripped.ย
โFuck,โ Haechan sighed, finally noticing how fast his heart was pounding against his chest.ย
You started, โThat wasโฆโ
โIntense,โ Haechan finished.ย
You nodded in agreement. Though it was enjoyable nonetheless.ย
The two of you just sat there and wallowed in the afterhighs of sex for a bit. You were too exhausted to move and Haechan didnโt want to leave you alone. He spooned you in his arms for a total of fifteen minutes while the two of you chatted incessantly until you decided you finally had mustered enough strength.ย
Time was a blur when Haechan helped you to your feet - not that you needed it yet - and led you to the bathroom where he proceeded to run the shower for both of you. After playfully washing each otherโs backs, you went back to the bedroom clad in nothing but towels.ย
For once, it was comfortably silent when you slipped back into bed. Then, to your surprise, Haechan started to cry. You gasped, โYouโre crying!โ
Hot tears stung Haechanโs eyes. Few things brought him to literal tears. He was just so over-thrilled to be the father of your babies. โYeah.โ
You cradled his face in your hands, kissing his lips. โWeโre making two babies. Weโre going to be parents. For the next eighteen years, theyโre going to be our most paramount priority.โ
Haechan knew that. You werenโt the only one that was going to be taking a step back from the grind, at least until you both grew a little more familiar with the parenting life. His decreased hours were non-negotiable and it helped that he was one of the co-owners.ย
Not only was he going to be a father, but he needed to take time to be an even more devoted partner to you. Both of you were responsible for these children and the very last thing he wanted was for you to feel like you were carrying the weight by yourself.
Wiping the tears out of his blurry eyes, Haechan said, โI canโt believe you let a guy like me get you pregnant.โ
You furrowed your brows. โWhatโs that supposed to mean?โ
โThat Iโm not exactly the type of dude people look at and go โheโs going to make an incredible father.โโ
You liked that Haechan was being vulnerable with you. He started doing it more often ever since he realized that his indifference could drive you away. His feelings were deeper than he tended to lead on. When it came to you, he was an open book.ย
โYouโre going to make an incredible father. There. I said it,โ you whispered.ย
Haechan smiled, hiding his face in the crook of your neck. That was all he needed to hear.ย
At sixteen weeks, your baby bump still wasnโt protruding even though you were definitely carrying twins. Doctor Stakes reassured you that everybodyโs journey was different and your pregnant belly very well might not pop up until the end of the second trimester.ย
And since you hadnโt announced that you were pregnant (you were conflicted), you working was still fully expected. Nobody asked questions. You considered yourself pretty damn slick.ย
That was, until your agent knocked on your trailer while the crew were breaking. She was a down-to-earth, middle-aged woman named Patricia.ย
โHey,โ you greeted, letting her inside. โSomething wrong?โ
Shutting the trailer door with a thud (this particular company tended to have faulty trailer doors), Mrs. Patricia shook her head gently. โNot particularly. I was curious about something and I wanted to speak with you woman to woman.โ
That had your undivided attention. You set down the water bottle youโd been gulping back and prompted, โYes?โ
Mrs. Patricia started, โExcuse me if Iโm overstepping, butโฆ are you expecting?โ
You blinked. โIs it obvious?โ
โItโs in your nose.โ
Your hand went up to your nose and you exclaimed, โWhatโs wrong with my nose?โ
She gave you a look that sternly told you to lower your voice and replied levelly, โThere is nothing wrong with your nose, but it is swollen.โ
You had no idea what she was talking about and it was evident on your face.ย
Mrs. Patricia explained, โFluid retention. I had a swollen nose and hands during my pregnancy with my twenty-year-old, but it went away after my postpartum period.โ
โOh,โ you replied quietly.ย
โCongratulations, by the way. I think you would benefit from following up on the symptoms of pregnancy, just so that you know what to expect,โ she suggested. โAgain, I donโt mean to overstep.โ
Though your mind was at a billion different places, you forced a smile and said, โNo, itโs okay - thank you!โ
But the second you came home, you were a different person.ย
โBabe,โ you called out, setting your keys in the tray near the door. Haechan told you that he would be home by now and you saw his motorbike parked in the garage. โBabe!โ
Given the distance, his voice was faint, but you heard a faraway, โIโm coming!โ
You stood there and patiently removed your shoes while you waited. There were now a handful of other things weighing on your mind and you didnโt know how to handle it by yourself.ย
Haechan zipped downstairs, pleased to see you at the end of a long day. His hair was a beautiful mess at the top of his head and you could only guess he had been playing video games with Jaemin and Mark.ย
Not that you were concerned about any of that right now.ย
โHey, baby. How was your day?โ Haechan asked, coming up to you to trap you in a bear hug. Like he did everyday.ย
But you werenโt at all in the mood for any of it, ignoring his question completely. โIs my nose swollen?โ
That obviously wasnโt what Haechan thought you were going to say. โHuh?โ
โYou heard me.โ
Haechan drew back, realizing you were in one of your moods again. Doctor Stakes mentioned that you were prone to mood swings and he would just have to deal with it in the gentlest way he could. โI mean, I didnโt wanna say anything, but itโs a little...โ
โOh my fucking god,โ you exclaimed, stepping around him and bolting for the kitchen.ย
Haechan was hot on your heels. โBabe, wait up!โ
You threw open the snack pantry door, scanning them for your favorite chips, before remembering that you finished the bag last night. โFuck, I forgot to order from the store!โ
The words were right on his tongue, though Haechan knew better than to tell you to calm down. He was no stranger to your temper. His voice was level, calm. โWe can always order more.โ
Fresh tears dampened your face, burning while they blurred your vision. Reality was a mean little bitch with a hard punch. โDamn the chips! I canโt believe this.โ
Haechan assumed it was a model thing. They were strict about your appearance and you always had to look a certain way. It was part of the reason why he never saw your career as an option for himself, though he wasnโt going to snitch about your junk food indulgence.ย
Tentatively reaching out for you, Haechan kissed your face and cooed, โHey, baby, listen to my voice. Your body is going to change. The doc said thatโs completely normal. Itโs nothing to lose your shit over.โ
โItโs everything to lose my shit over!โ you wailed. โIโm not mad about my fucking nose - Iโm mad because I know nothing about bringing a baby into this world and Iโm going to be a shit mother!โ
โDonโt you dare say that,โ Haechan told you, stern but still tranquil. You wholeheartedly envied it.ย
โItโs true,โ you huffed, sinking against the refrigerator. โMy nose is swollen. I literally didnโt even know that was a thing! If I donโt know minor fucking details, how am I going to know how to parent?โ
While you knew your agent had no foul intentions by commenting about your nose and there wasnโt a single mean bone in her body, you wished she would have kept it to herself. You couldnโt stop thinking about how you didnโt have this under control. This baby-making shit was not your strong suit.ย
Other than the sex itself, although that was the last thing on your mind right now.ย
It was completely unexpected for Haechanโs voice to drop the way it did. You had never seen him so serious. โWe can take classes. Doctor Stakes recommended them, you know.โ
You grumbled, โWhy didnโt Doctor Stakes tell me that I was going to get a new nose?โ
โShe did, actually. Something aboutโฆโ
โFluid retention, I know. My agent told me,โ you replied snappily. You were finally calming down, though hardly. Pregnancy came with its fair share of frustrations. Though it was also accompanied by the lack of energy to express them all.ย
Haechan helped you off the ground, clearing your face of any tears with his thumb. โIs she the one that commented on your nose?โ
You shrugged your shoulders but answered, โYeah.โ
โI think your agent should mind her bitter, decrepit business,โ Haechan spat, though his tone was completely noncommittal.ย
You snorted. โSheโs not bad, Haechan.โ
โI donโt care. Itโs bad manners.โ
You couldnโt argue with that. But it was nothing worth getting a new manager over and if anything you would just talk to her about boundaries. The only reason she was even on set was because you wanted her there.ย
โThe point is,โ Haechan started, grabbing your hands and locking your fingers in his. โEvery problem has a fix. I donโt know shit about this, either. You think Iโve been a father before? Must I remind you that youโre the only girl Iโve ever came inside of?โ
You folded your arms. โAnd the only one you ever will.โ
Haechan snickered, bobbing his head. You were lightening up and he could breathe a little easier. โYes. And the only one I ever will.โ
You let out a shaky breath. Though you still felt like ripping your hair out, you no longer felt the need to scream. Your lungs had had enough for one night. โFine.โ
โWeโll take classes together. I already managed my hours, so Iโve got time. You should tell the people you work for that youโre pregnant,โ Haechan suggested.
You nodded. His constant touches killed your doubts again. Ultimately, they were no match against the love of your life. โHow are you so nonchalant about this?โ
Haechan shrugged like he had absolutely zero clue. โOld habits die hard, I guess?โ He was internally panicking, but excellent at hiding it. Always had been.ย
You hummed. Maybe it wasnโt the worst thing ever.ย
โAnd by the way, youโre beautiful. Swollen nose or not,โ Haechan said. โI think itโs cute.โ
You narrowed your eyes at him. โCute?โ
โYeah. Fits your face.โย
โYouโre just saying that because you donโt want to put up with a hysterical pregnant lady,โ you droned.ย
Haechan didnโt try to deny it. Instead, he decided to lighten the mood, chirping, โWell, thatโs what I get for being silly and not wrapping my willy.โ
You forced your lips into a line, fighting a laugh. โThatโs so stupid.โ
โNo glove, no love,โ Haechan persisted, eager to get a laugh out of you. He wanted to see your shoulders shake and your nose do that cute thing it always did when you laughed at his jokes.
You playfully exclaimed, โQuit it!โ
โYou canโt go wrong if you shield your dong.โ
That was the last blow your self-restraint could take and you finally burst out laughing like he wanted you to.ย
Haechan was sporting a triumphant smile. He was always glad to put a smile on your face. Even (especially) for the most idioticly absurd of reasons.ย
Your outburst eventually fizzled out and you thought back on something he said a couple of minutes ago, musing aloud, โSpeaking of telling people that Iโm pregnant, we havenโt told the clique.โ
Haechan nodded. โI havenโt even told my parents. Theyโre gonna be so mad we waited almost twenty weeks. My momโs been nagging me about when she can expect grandkids.โ
โWe should have a party. Get the gang in town and host a gathering at your parentsโ house or something,โ you proposed.ย
Haechanโs brows furrowed. โLike a gender reveal party?โ
You winced. โGoodness, no. Just, like, I donโt know. A pregnancy reveal party. But they can guess if they want.โ
That wasnโt the best idea. Mark and Ryujin would probably have opposite guesses and flip the table over. Grabbing your wrist to press a kiss to the back of your hand, Haechan said, โWell, you know Markโs been in Canada for the past two months and Winter is everywhere, but Iโll see what we can do.โ
You didnโt want to get your hopes up - nowadays it was rare for all of you to be in town at the same time - but that had you excited. You couldnโt wait to share the good news. โI had another idea, too,โ you whispered softly.ย
Haechan led you to the living room so that you could sit down and asked, โWhatโs that?โย
Once you were off your feet, you played coy and confessed, โWe should have a photoshoot at your studio when my bump gets big. Just me, you, and the two babies in my belly. A grand reveal to the entire world that Iโm officially a mother.โ
โSold,โ Haechan hummed in approval.
You couldnโt stop smiling. A part of you couldnโt wait for it to happen. Doctor Stakes mentioned that it could feel like your stomach grew out of nowhere.ย
Within the next couple of days, you communicated with your consultants and the management at your agency and notified them of your pregnancy. You divulged that you were sixteen weeks along and fully intended to be a mother to your children.ย
And in no uncertain terms. Given the flexibility of your schedules and hectic hours, they agreed that it was only fair you took off as much as you took on. You were offered six months, which you accepted thankfully, and were told to inform them when you would be starting two weeks in advance.ย
When you delivered the news to Haechan, he couldnโt contain his excitement. Everyday the ongoing reminder of your looming childbirth settled in. His kids were developing inside your womb. He was going to be a father. You were going to raise two kids together in your shared home and every time he realized, he fell more and more in love with the thought.ย
Only a few weeks later you were at his parentsโ house watching Haechan and his father set up from the kitchen. Though you wanted to at least help with the baking, his mother was unshakeable in her ways and rigidly told you to sit and not move.ย
She wanted her grandkids delivered in the best possible health. His parents were enthusiastic to discover that you were pregnant, though not without slight scolding. But they werenโt against a celebration.ย
โI knew it. You know, a mother always knows,โ his mother had told you while her son and his father were in the living room.ย
You heard a knock at the front door a couple of hours later and separated from Haechan who was making out with you while his parents werenโt looking to greet your friends. The first person you heard was Mark.ย
โWhat up,โ Mark exclaimed when he strolled inside like he owned the place.ย
Ryujin wasnโt far behind, obviously, but behind her was her boyfriend, Sunwoo. Every now and then, you were reminded that the guy actually existed, although he had come home from Chicago years ago.ย
You gave them each kind hugs. โHi, guys. Long time, no see.โ
Ryujin spat, โMark gets a Grammy nom that he didnโt even win and acts like heโs too cool for us now.โ
โGod forbid a man gets busy and goes to his home country,โ Mark droned in stride. โBesides, Iโll get it next year.โ
You nodded in approval. That was the spirit.ย
โItโs good to see you, man,โ Haechan said, pulling Mark in for a brief hug after doing the same with Sunwoo and Ryujin.ย
Mark patted him on the back. โSame, dude. Itโs good to have all of us together again.โ
Sunwoo picked up some candies that were collecting dust in a bowl on the coffee table. โAre these peanut butter?โ
โYup,โ you retorted.ย
He quickly sat it back down.
Ryujin explained dryly, โHeโs allergic.โ
Pinching Haechanโs arm, you gave him a stern look, knowing he was on the verge of a snicker.ย
You remembered something and mentioned to Mark, โOh, by the way, Iโve been hearing your new single on the radio. Itโs really good.โ
There was a faint blush across Markโs cheeks. โThanks,โ he chirped.ย
โI did the cover art,โ Ryujin added.ย
Mark whined, โWhy canโt you ever let me have my moment?โ
You chuckled. It was good to have them all back. Other than Sunwoo, you were pretty updated on what they all had going on and though it drove them out of the city sometimes, you were endlessly happy for them. Mark was obviously the next big thing and was busy making global hits, touring the seven seas.ย
On the other hand, Ryujin worked from home more often than not, typically only leaving California to go on vacation. She did art commissions notably for wealthy patrons and pitched in with Markโs creative team whenever needed.ย
Chaewon was also frequently home, owning a hair and nail salon here and all. You and Winter definitely took pictures and credited her in your Instagrams stories. Speaking of Winter, she was everywhere, much like you. More than once, you collaborated in a photoshoot or went to Paris Fashion Week together.ย
Which left Jaemin. He was much more lowkey. After giving his master's degree last year, he finally started to work as a mechanical engineer. You couldnโt believe how smart he was, having skipped a grade and all.ย
The others showed up a little later. Your stomach was turning with a mixture of nerves and excitement. You couldnโt wait to get the news off of your chest. You smiled when Haechan looped an arm around your waist, almost like he could sense your whirlwind of feelings.ย
Some dancing and singing at the top of your lungs later and your worries were promptly forgotten. Chaewon, Winter, and Ryujin danced with you while the boys were laughing in their own circle. The whole room was entirely too chaotic and Haechanโs parents escorted themselves out minutes ago.ย
Now it was time for the kids to really party.ย
Mark, under the impression that this party was just a small get-together for friends who didnโt get to see each other often, glanced at you and asked, โOkay, rum, tequila, or vodka?โ
You winced. โOh, no. I canโt.โ
Mark gaped. โWhat? Iโm on tour for a few months and now you donโt drink?โ
โYeah, um, about that,โ you said, gesturing for Haechan to cut down the music. โI have something to tell you guys.โ
โYouโre taking care of your acne? Youโre breaking out more than usual,โ Mark blurted without malice.ย
Haechan cocked him a glare, deadpanning, โYou know, Mark, it amazes me how you can always be so close yet so far away.โ
Everyone was gazing at you with baffled looks. Then, you set your hand on your stomach, and it clicked. Mark gasped, โDonโt tell meโฆโ
โIโm pregnant,โ you announced, giggling when Haechan curled his arms around your waist as he hugged you from behind.ย
He was quick to correct, โWeโre pregnant.โ
โYes,โ you said with a chuckle. โWeโre pregnant.โ
The nerves were back with a vengeance. You knew they were all going to have distinct reactions and the anticipation was killing you. You thought they might have chided you for being stupid.ย
As it turned out, there was a chorus of excited noises and โcongratulationsโ that you could hardly make out. Everybody was trying to speak over each other and you had to add, โOkay, one at a time. Please.โ
Chaewon wasnโt shocked, almost like she expected it to happen, but had her hands on her hips in her typical fashion. โIโm your best friend and you didnโt tell me you were pregnant?โ
You winced. โSorry.โ Expected backlash, you thought.ย
โItโs okay,โ she said, shoving Haechan out of the way to pull you in for a hug. Much to his annoyance. โIโm so happy for you.โ
You chuckled at the sound of Haechan huffing from beside you. โThanks.โ
Mark was next. There were literal twinkles in his eyes. โIโm going to be an uncle?โ
โAbsolutely. Your niece and nephew are going to love you,โ you retorted happily.ย
Winter gasped, โYouโre having twins?โ
You bobbed your head. โYes. One girl, one boy. We both wanted different things so I guess that was the universeโs way of being a diplomat.โ
Winter snorted in amusement. She could already guess what your preferences were. โOh, wow. Congratulations. Jaemin and I definitely arenโt having kids, so Iโm cool with being the rich auntie.โ
โMm, three rich aunties. Theyโre going to be so lucky,โ you dragged.ย
Haechan droned, โAnd extremely spoiled.โ
You giggled.
Sunwoo and Ryujin walked up to you. Ryujin was staring at you in adoration. โHave you painted the nursery? If not, can I please help?โ
That was an absolute no-brainer. โWe havenโt done a lot of things. We need as much help as we can get.โ
Sunwoo glanced between you and Haechan and said, โCongratulations.โ
โThanks, man,โ Haechan said, holding out his hand.ย
Sunwoo firmly shook your boyfriendโs hand. Then, he looked to Ryujin, parting his lips to speak, and she snapped with a shake of her head, โNope. Never.โ
Sunwoo frowned.ย
You giggled. It didnโt take a genius to understand he was about to ask her about having kids someday.ย
Jaemin looked like he couldnโt believe his ears. Though, he had to admit it made sense. You and Haechan just couldnโt keep your hands off of each other. โYouโre pregnant?โ
โVery.โย
โWow,โ he replied, shaking his head in disbelief. โAnd I thought we had enough Haechan walking around.โ
โDude, Iโll kick your ass,โ Haechan hissed.ย
Jaemin threw up his hands in a gesture of innocence. โKick my ass after the partyโs over.โ
Winter wandered over again, a drink in her hand, and quipped, โYou know, this whole time I thought you were going to get Haechan pregnant.โ
That got a giggle out of you. โNo worries. Iโm gonna peg him tonight.โ
Haechan was smiling so hard his cheeks hurt.ย
While you went to go find Chaewon and whisper something in her that made a smile crawl its way onto her lips, Haechan and Jaemin excused themselves from the room for a minute.ย
The garage was hot and stuffy, a stark contrast from the ventilated and free energy of the party, but it was the perfect place to have a private conversation ideally without any unwanted listeners.ย
Haechan mounted one of his dadโs old bikes (his father was still an avid bike fan no matter how long it had been since he rode one). He wasnโt going anywhere, but he needed a distraction.ย
Holding a beer, Jaemin nudged his best friend and asked, โYou donโt want a drink?โ
โNo, I canโt,โ Haechan replied, voice distant.
Suit yourself, Jaemin thought. Then, thinking back to something you said, he teased, โGuess she was serious about that pegging shit, huh?โ
Haechan snapped, โDo I ask you how youโre fucking Winter?โ
Jaemin made a face before downing what was left of his beer. โGood point, my friend.โ
Haechan was obviously in his head, which meant nothing good. As always. He wasnโt unhappy - the opposite, rather - but this was one of those days where everything felt unreal.ย
If there was anything he knew, it was that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you. His little voice in his head snapped, Damn eighteen fucking years. You were his until he died.ย
The silence was getting off-putting, thus Jaemin started, โSo, a baby.โ
โYeah,โ Haechan answered blankly. It was almost like he wasnโt ever there. His surroundings be damned.ย
Jaemin was officially miffed. โYou wanted to come out here to talk to me about something, man. Open up, brother. Whatโs on your mind?โ
Haechan shook his head. He was in desperate need of direction. He huffed, โI donโt know, bro. Iโve never felt shit like this before.โ
That piqued Jaeminโs attention. All he could think of was how badly his brother in everything but blood needed a drink or a cigarette, though he correctly assumed he was abstaining for your sake. โLike what?โ
โThatโs the thing. I canโt explain it. I mean, I put a baby in her,โ Haechan started, conflicted. โTwo babies. You know that we wavered a long time before she decided that she wanted to keep them?โ
โWell, I do now.โ
Haechanโs features were tensed in his typical pensive gaze. โI support her regardless of what her decision would have been, and I made sure she knew that, but I was secretly hoping that she wanted to keep it. Because I realized what I wanted.โ
Jaemin prompted, โWhat do you want?โ
โEverything. I wanna do the whole nine. I wanna start a family with her. I wanna pick up the kids after school. Make the three of them breakfast in the morning. I wanna spend every second of my life next to her. When I die, I want to be buried next to her grave.โ
Jaemin tilted his head with suspicion. โHaechan, do you wanna marry her?โ
โYeah. I wanna marry her,โ Haechan answered. He was finally confirming it - aloud. โIs it too soon?โ
โThatโs not for me to decide,โ Jaemin said kindly.ย
Haechan sighed.ย
Jaemin gave him a pat to the shoulder and added, โHey, bro. The worst she can say is โno.โโ
There was a war-waging storm inside of Haechan. He was prepared to kiss the ground that you walked on. โSheโs the mother of my babiesโฆ,โ he trailed.ย
Though Haechan tried to blink his tears away, his emotions and love for his family was too goddamn strong. His heart beated for the three of you. This paternal responsibility added a brand new meaning to his life. A different purpose.ย
Jaemin noticed his best friendโs tears and immediately opened his arms. โDude, come here.โ
Haechan marched over and let Jaemin sweep him into a borderline aggressive hug. There was thunder in his heart and he could feel it shaking everything heโd ever known. This kind of euphoria was foreign to him, but he never wanted it to stop.ย
When he pulled back, Haechan wiped his face and muttered, โDonโt tell them I cried.โ
Jaemin snickered, patting his friend on the back. โDonโt worry, man. I got you for life. Your secretโs safe with me.โ
Haechan blew out a shaky breath. โBy the way, my girlfriend and I talked, and we decided that we want you to be the godfather.โ
Jaemin pointed to himself with his finger. โMe? Why not Mark? What do I know about god?โ
Haechan snickered. โThink of it as being the highest ranking uncle.โ
โI like that. Uncle Jaemin. Itโs got a nice ring to it,โ Jaemin replied, nodding with approval.ย
โWhat about Dad?โ
Jaemin grimaced. โThatโs not funny. I have nightmares about that.โ
Haechan laughed.ย
As soon as that was over, Haechan and Jaemin slipped back into the party so naturally it was almost as if nothing ever happened. He found you sipping on an iced tea in an attempt to quench your thirst.ย
You cocked a brow at him. โEverything okay?โ
Haechan bobbed his head. Then, he stole your glass out of your hands and took a sip, much to your annoyance. โYeah. Why?โ
โJust asking,โ you replied, snatching your drink back.ย
Tempted to giggle, Haechan held it back when a thought crossed his mind. โIโm not having second thoughts.โ
โI know.โ You also knew his secret, familiarized with the little gleam in his stare, though you decided against mentioning it.ย
Haechan grinned, taking your available hand in his, and asked, โWanna dance?โ
โI was wondering when you would ask,โ you retorted, setting down your glass and leading him to the center of the floor.ย
Heat fluttered in your chest when you felt Haechan get closer to you. With his hands at your hips and yours at his shoulders the two of you started to sway around the floor, earning a number of exhilarated noises from your friends in the room.ย
But it still felt like it was just you two, like it did all those years ago when you realized for the first time that there was something so different about him. For lack of a better word, he was just so mesmerizing. You remembered wanting to know everything there was about him.ย
Bliss made you close your eyes and make a wish to the stars, hoping for an eternity with the man you loved and the life you made together as partners.ย
From the corner of your eye, you noticed Sunwoo excuse himself from this fascinatingly beautiful moment to accept a phone call. Not that you minded. You were entranced in that moment and everything else had little consequence. Your heart was dancing inside your chest and on the floor.ย
Haechan pressed a kiss to your brow, looking at you with total undeniable affection. His eyes were sparkling again though not with tears - with adoration. This man would steal the moon for you and then proceed to wish on every star for a thousand more moons to gift you.ย
Only if he knew that there was an impending danger he shouldโve wished away.ย
Sunwoo entered the room again and walked towards the two of you, which made you both stop and curiously gaze at him before he said, โItโs for you.โ
You were baffled. โWho is it?โ
โJeno.โ
Haechanโs face paled.ย
Without thinking, you took the phone and pressed it to your ear, then said less than amicably, โHello?โ
Jenoโs voice was quick to fill your ears, an air of surprise to his tone when he spoke your name. โHey. Donโt hang up, please.โ
โGive me one good reason why I shouldnโt,โ you hissed.ย
The room was silent while you talked. The music was cut again and everybodyโs eyes were fixed to you, watching this phone call unfold with interest. Nobody dared to say a word, but the disdainful feelings were pretty much obvious. The anger in Haechanโs eyes almost matched the ire in yours.ย
โBecause Iโm sorry.โ
โYouโre sorry?โ you repeated. โThatโs all you have to say?โ
Jeno sighed from wherever the hell he was. โListen, I want to talk, but I donโt want to have this conversation over the phone. I was thinking maybe we could meet up somewhere.โ
โJust a second,โ you replied, handing Sunwoo back his phone while you dragged Haechan over to a corner.ย
Judging from the mere force of your actions, you were clearly upset and it didnโt take a genius to point that out. Haechan was ready to pummel this guy to the ground for your sake. โWhat happened? What did he say?โ
โHe wants to meet up. I guess he wants to apologize,โ you whispered.
Haechan exclaimed, โWhat?โ
You put your finger to his lip. โHe said that he was sorry.โ
Frustration made Haechan cross his arms with a mean-looking scowl on his lips as he huffed, โAnd you want to entertain this fool?โ
You shrugged. You were obviously angry and feigning indifference, covered head to toe in unadulterated rage, but there was something in you that wanted to give Jeno the benefit of the doubt. โCall it curiosity. But Iโm not going out pregnant. Iโm not ready for the world to know yet.โ
โOkay, so I go.โ
You had already thought of that, pondering all your options in a five-minute time span, but quickly responded, โYeah, but I kind of wanna be there when shit goes down. How about we invite him over?โ
Haechan was seething. โYou want to invite him over to the house where weโre going to raise our son and daughter?โ
โWe need a bigger house anyways,โ you answered flatly, exhaling a breath.ย
โBigger than ours?โ
โBigger than ours.โ
Haechan frowned for a moment, though after a moment or two of contemplation, he relented. โFine. But I want to do all the negotiating.โ
You bobbed your head. โFair.โ
Haechan politely asked Sunwoo for his phone again, then switched on a dime when he spoke sharply, โHello?โ
Neither of you could see the way Jenoโs eyes flickered with shock. โHaechan.โ
Haechan snapped, โDonโt give me that shit, man. Did you change your number?โ
Jeno faltered with confusion. โNo?โ
โGood. Iโm going to text you our address. Youโre going to be at our front door step tomorrow afternoon at two oโclock sharp or else youโll be turned away at the door. And you better tell me something I want to hear or Iโm kicking your ass.โ
There was a lull of silence as Jeno processed those words.ย
Haechan immediately added, โGot it?โ
โGot it.โ
โGoodbye,โ Haechan said, promptly hanging up the phone and returning it to its owner.ย
Mark was not shockingly the first to speak. โThat wasโฆ intense.โ
You shrugged. โI thought it was hot.โ
โOf course, you did,โ Mark teased.ย
Haechan shook his head. It felt like the more the days passed, the more there was on his mind.ย
Regardless of unfortunate events, you refused to allow them to ruin the celebration. Assertively, you demanded that somebody put the music back on and encouraged your boyfriend to bust a move. Socializing and having fun was the quickest way to make him forget the unforgettable.ย
Even though you were less expressive in your contempt, it obviously put you at unease as well and you were also in fine need of an effective distraction. A drink would have been nice for knocking back inhibition, but youโd resigned yourself to the fact that you had months before that was a viable solution.ย
Plus something that you learned as you bordered closer onto your thirties was the significance of letting loose without the need for recreational use. There was something more special about bonding sober.ย
Priorities shifted. Like how you were steadily beginning to value your personal life over your career and image. When you were in your early twenties, everything felt more life-and-death than it was. Now, the most pivotal moment of your life would be successfully giving birth.ย
Later that night, those were the thoughts battling in your mind until noon that day. It seemed like every day you were making changes in your day-to-day routines to accommodate your new life. Changes that you were so certain at one point would feel like the end.ย
You knew now it wasnโt anywhere close to the end. If anything, it was a new beginning and a transition to a new stage of your life. You were standing at the threshold of parenthood.ย
That wasnโt to say you were going to remain indoors for the rest of your life until you wilted and succumbed to eventual fate. Or become a housewife and die, as Haechan had humorously put it. Granted, you realized how vital it was to be a little more laid-back and would undoubtedly shelter your children, but you were already fantasizing about sending the kids to the grandparents for a fun night out.ย
You wondered if Jeno had changed. All things considered. He was older, too, and closer to Haechanโs age than he was yours. Though five years didnโt seem like too long ago, you had seen a quantity of things occur in that time.ย
And you werenโt just talking career-wise, though that technically helped your case. You were in no way a stranger to the upward spiral of Jenoโs career. Like you, he had a successful career in the fashion industry, walking down runways and posing for big shot photographers.ย
On more than one occasion, youโd been invited to events at the same time, though you had considered yourself lucky to not have any face-to-face encounters with him and simultaneously practiced your professional skills if it inevitably were to happen.ย
Maybe it was for the better. A way to prepare you for the hell that was today. Still, you couldnโt deny being anxious as you lounged on your couch.ย
Checking your watch and noting that it was a minute before two, you exhaled, โWhat if he just doesnโt show up?โ
Not a moment later, the doorbell rang. Oh, you thought to yourself. Heโs always been punctual.ย
โYou have your answer,โ Haechan droned.ย
You took three stabilizing breaths when you watched Haechan leave the room to answer the front door. Maybe you should have let him take care of this. No, chided the voice in your head. This is both of your history. He shouldnโt go through this alone.ย
Especially not when he was evidently opposed to it and only agreed because it was what you wanted.ย
There was a disturbance in your brain when you saw Haechan round the corner and return with Jeno. This guy had essentially been off of your radar for so long that it was jarring to be confronted with the fact that he wasnโt a figment of your imagination.ย
Jeno spoke your name. โHi.โ
You waved. As of this second, you didnโt have anything to say to him.ย
โYou can sit,โ Haechan said when he sat next to you on the loveseat. He sounded bored.ย
Jeno perched on the chair across from you, fumbling with his hands. You didnโt know Jeno for as long as Haechan had, but you still had never seen him anxious.ย
You scanned your memory for any recollection of him being anything other than cocky and confident and ultimately turned up empty. His raging ego and dilated pride was his vice and had cost him more than youโd ever known.
Impatiently, Haechan prompted, โWell, are you here to twiddle your thumbs orโฆโ
Normally, you would pinch his thigh for rude comments, but today he had a free pass.ย
Jeno lifted his head to meet both of your eyes when he finally started, โIโve spent six months trying to practice what I would say if I ever got the chance to apologize.โ
Both you and Haechan had your arms folded, stubborn. Save for the unignorable vexation, your faces were borderline inscrutable. He picked the wrong duo to fuck over. The two of you were unrelenting.ย
Jeno let out a little sigh and promptly continued, โI say six months, because it took me four years and a half to understand just how badly I fucked up. At first, it didnโt bother me that I lost seven friends on the same day. I was arrogant. I thought I didnโt need friends.โ
You almost laughed. Almost. That much was obvious.ย
โAnd I had that mindset for a long, long time. Thereโs just something about when youโre super young and you feel like you have the whole world at your feet. Obviously, the popularity didnโt help. When I started to become famous, people wanted to hang out with me.โ
โYeah, that tends to happen,โ you quipped smartly. โThey see youโre the next big thing and they hold onto you because thatโs what youโre there for. To be their one-way ticket to stardom. Then, when they get what they wanted, youโve exhausted your purpose.โ
โYeah.โ Jeno bobbed his head in agreement.ย
Haechan was not here to have a conversation about the brutal reality of being a superstar in the industry and his jaw clenched. โWhat made you realize that you fucked up?โ
โWhat she said,โ Jeno replied, rubbing the back of his neck. โThis is a shallow job. Nobody was really my friend. I was either just their ride to fame or an accessory to make them look good. I realized how much I missed not only you two, but the whole gang, because you were the only people who cared about me beyond the surface.โ
Haechan sighed.ย
Jenoโs voice got quieter. Not emotional, but dangerously close. โIn our clique, it didnโt matter if you were on track to being a celebrity or just some guy. You know?โ
โYeah. I know.โ
You frowned.ย
Haechan added, โSo, you get lonely and decide you need us?โ
โI know how that sounds, butโฆ,โ Jeno trailed. โBut Iโm sorry. Iโm sorry for taking you for granted. Iโm sorry for competing with you instead of being your friend.โ
Haechanโs lips were in a hard line.ย
Jeno flitted his gaze towards you. โIโm sorry for using you. It was beyond fucked up.โ
โTo be fair, I was using you, too.โ
Jeno bounced his leg against the ground, attempting to thwart his nerves. At the back of his mind, there were many unspoken thoughts. โYeah, but you didnโt leave a woman in the street by herself. I still havenโt forgiven myself for that. If something happened to you, it would have been all my fault.โ
Just the thought triggered something spiteful inside you. โIโm glad you realize that.โ
Knowing you better than anybody, Haechan could sense the fire smoldering inside of you, slipping his fingers through yours and squeezing. โThis has beenโฆ whatever, but Iโm going to have to ask you to leave. Youโre stressing my baby mother out.โ
Jeno spluttered, โBaby?โ
โYeah. A baby.โ
Jenoโs eyes flickered in shock. โWow, um. Thatโs amazing. Congratulations.โ
โThank you,โ you replied, tone completely noncommittal. โWeโll think about it.โ
You watched Jeno bob his head and reply with a quiet โthank youโ as your boyfriend stood to see him out. With how your brain was practically like a wildfire, it felt like the epitome of madness.ย
Haechan came back only a couple of moments later sporting a sour glower.ย
You relaxed when he sat next to you. You didnโt realize that youโd been so stiff. โWell, what do you think?โ
โI donโt know,โ Haechan lied without realizing, because his skepticism wouldnโt allow him to admit his true feelings.ย
Well, you knew exactly what you were thinking. โHe seems genuine. I donโt think he has an ulterior motive. I mean, heโs doing great, he doesnโt need us.โ
Haechan prompted, โBut?โ
You heaved a breath. Sometimes you hated that Haechan knew you so well. Better yet, he understood you perfectly.ย
โBut I donโt forget as easily as I forgive,โ you said quietly, drifting endlessly in your thoughts like spacetime.ย
Haechan huffed, โMe, neither.โ
Without many uncomfortable amounts of stressful thoughts, your life went on. The world kept spinning no matter what you were going through and it did you no good to subject yourself to strain while you were carrying twins. Your doctor was clear that the risks associated with pregnancy grew with more than one child.ย
Your body was undergoing so much change that you didnโt even step outside because you didnโt want the world to know that you were pregnant until you announced it yourself. Given that it was your first pregnancy, you wanted it to be unforgettable.ย
The baby bump felt like it happened overnight. You couldnโt stop gawking at yourself in the mirror, in disbelief that there was something coming to life inside of you. They were starting to move around, too. You cried when you noticed the fluttering in your belly, almost like butterflies.ย
Every day you were counting down the seconds until the photoshoot until in a blink, the day had finally come. Haechan, the gentleman that you had fallen in love with, had everything set up at his studio and was rigid with the staff, though nonetheless polite. You were beaming. Not many opportunities arose for you to see him work behind the scenes and it was heartwarming to see him be so attuned to your needs.ย
It was one of the most fun and rewarding shoots youโd ever done in your life. And it would be the most noteworthy. The vibe was nothing less than ethereal and it was full of kisses and laughter. Haechanโs hands and lips on your belly. Holding your hand while you looked into each otherโs eyes with the utmost adoration.ย
Holding the physical pictures between your own fingers, you sobbed. You were very emotional these days and half expected Haechan to poke fun at you, but he never did. He was the same way, passionate about the undying love he had for you and your unborn children.ย
There were a couple of pictures that you didnโt release to the public. Those were just for you and your loved ones. They were more vulnerable, sentimental pictures where you and Haechan couldnโt but stare at each other with a tearful gaze.ย
The moment of truth, came the little voice in the back of your head while your finger wavered over the share button. Half of you wanted to hand your phone over to your PR team, but it was important to you that you were the one to disclose.ย
You took a shaky breath just before pressing the button and tossed your phone to the side. What was said online wasnโt any of your concern. You didnโt want to know.ย
Outlets rushed to cough up the news. Your social media accounts were bursting with likes from people all over the globe. People you were friends with in the industry didnโt hesitate to call and congratulate you on the pleasant surprise. This wasnโt a secret anymore. Now that it was out there, it was everybodyโs business.ย
When the deed was done, you chose to focus on yourself and the life surrounding you in every capacity rather than what was out of your hands, and made peace with the fact that public opinion was inevitable. What you could control, on the other hand, was how exposed you were to strangerโs thoughts.ย
The next few weeks were filled with yoga and child development textbooks. Haechan was taking pictures weekly to document your belly growth. He had already decided that he was going to start a photo album specifically for your children while they grew older.ย
You told him that you couldnโt think of a more beautiful idea.ย
One Friday came and brought a handful of errands along with itself. You were undoubtedly pregnant now, but not so much that you couldnโt complete tasks by yourself, though Haechan thought that that was debatable. He thought it was ridiculous that anyone expected you to do anything and upheld that you deserved princess treatment.ย
But you had a medical opinion that said staying active during pregnancy was beneficial for you and the babies, and Haechan resigned himself to defeat.ย
Apparently, the universe wasnโt in your favor, because your car started to have complications. First, the sunroof vehemently refused to open. Then, like a total drama queen, your car decided that she didnโt want to start.ย
The most exasperated breath escaped your mouth. You didnโt know the first thing about getting a stubborn vehicle to start and you knew Haechan didnโt either. Besides, not only did you not want to disturb him while he was working, but you were equally stubborn and wanted to prove that you were capable of handling yourself.ย
Out of options, you had a really, really bad idea.ย
Something unfamiliar stirred in your gut when you pressed your phone to ear, hearing it ring. Anxiety. Or maybe it was something else. Something unidentifiable.ย
Jeno sounded a little startled when he spoke, as if he thought you called him by accident. โHello?โ
โHi, Jeno,โ you said less than enthusiastically, rubbing your forearm. โIโve got a serious favor to ask.โ
Though you couldnโt see, Jeno perked up at those words. He was completely desperate. โYeah, sure. Anything. Whatโs up?โ
Providing a little humor, you replied, โAssuming that you actually know how to work on cars and that wasnโt a lie to impress me, my car kind of wonโt start and trying to guilt trip her into functioning doesnโt seem to be effective.โ
Jeno snorted. โDid you check the battery?โ
You almost started to panic. โNo. Was I supposed to?โ
โUh, how about this. If you want, I can come check it out,โ Jeno suggested, then immediately regretted the decision. He didnโt want to try and insert himself into your lives too quickly. โBut only if you want me to.โ
That wasnโt the best idea, considering your boyfriend was intent to hate Jenoโs guts and would not approve of him standing in his garage alone with his baby mother, but your options were already few, so you replied, โThatโs fine. You know where I am.โ
โIโm on the way,โ Jeno said. You could hear him shuffling around in the background.ย
โOkay. See you soon.โ
You hung up without giving him a chance to respond and released an uncertain breath. Donโt make me regret this.ย
Waiting with bated breath and folded arms, your gaze upturned some thirty minutes later when you heard a blue Mercedes Benz turning into your driveway.ย
And then Jeno started to walk over to you.ย
โHey, sorry I couldnโt make it sooner. Traffic is crazy today,โ Jeno said when he stopped just shy of your toes.
You waved him off. โYouโre good. Thirty minutes isnโt bad for California traffic. Thanks for coming over.โ
โNo problem,โ Jeno replied. He didnโt waste much time on small talk, getting straight to what you called him over for. โLetโs see whatโs wrong with this bad boy.โ
โHer name is Mariposa,โ you corrected, but your tone wasnโt malicious.ย
Jeno threw his hands up. โWhereโs my manners? I shouldโve asked. Sorry if I offended you, Mariposa.โ
You snickered. โDonโt apologize to her. Sheโs caused enough trouble today.โ
Jeno chuckled.ย
While you kept yourself occupied in the corner, not wanting to disturb Jeno as he tried to figure out why your car was acting like a bitch, his brain was totally divided. Half was focused on thoroughly examining your car, while the other was hooked on the fact you remembered something he told you five years ago at dinner.ย
Jeno was pondering, hoping. Maybe you just had a good memory, especially when it was convenient, but he hoped that someday, there would be room for him again in your lives.ย
Even if he had to spend years proving that he was worthy.ย
Jeno separated himself from the lifted hood of your car, dusting his hands off. Your eyes were stuck on him with gut-eating anticipation. โLooks like your alternator is weakening. Smells like burned wires and the serpentine belt smells like smoke. Your engineโs probably leaking.โ
โEnglish, please.โ
โYour alternatorโs not alternating and your shitโs fucked,โ Jeno replied, blunt.ย
โOh.โ That certainly wasnโt what you wanted to hear.
โDonโt worry. The good news is that itโs nothing that canโt be fixed,โ Jeno reassured, pushing the lid back down. โThe bad news is that I donโt have the tools to work on it for you.โ
You ran a hand through your hair. โGuess I should call a mechanic.โ
Jeno bobbed his head. โThat would be a good start.โ
You were anxious to ask, but did it anyway, โIf itโs not too much trouble, would you mind hanging around? One look at my neighborhood and the obvious fact that I donโt know a damn thing about cars, and anyone would try to scam me out of more money than I need to spend.โ
โYeah, of course,โ Jeno replied, dipping his hands in his pockets. โBut, uhโฆ wonโt Haechan mind?โ
You snorted. That was an understatement. โOh, definitely, but his vehicle knowledge starts with one wheel and rides with two. I donโt think he has a say in this.โ
Jeno snickered.ย
The mechanic came half an hour later and you let Jeno handle the bulk of the talking, only chiming in when the guy asked specific questions like how long youโd been experiencing complications with your car.ย ย
Between the mechanic peeking under the hood and Jeno pointing out to him your carโs tenaciousness, you understood enough of their exchange to know that fixing her would take a solid two hours. Unfortunately, this guy was stretched thin, meaning he would have to tow it back to his shop and have you pick it up tomorrow.ย
โThis day cannot get any worse,โ you grumbled underneath your breath.ย
Jeno was frustrated for you and it wasnโt even his car acting a damn fool. After he seemed to hesitate a little, he asked, โWill Haechan be back soon?โ
โNope. He had most of his hours cut, but apparently there was a really huge crisis at his job. Itโs going to be another hour or two.โ
โDammit,โ Jeno groaned. โWell, if you want me to, I wouldnโt mind driving. You seem really stressed and thatโs not healthy for the babies. I mean, obviously you know that, but...โ
His nervousness was not lost on you and you resisted a chuckle, interjecting, โJeno, I would really appreciate the help.โ
โOkay, cool,โ Jeno said, whipping his keys out of his pockets and tossing them in the air. โWhere to?โ
Gently helping you get into his car, Jeno made sure that you were safe and comfortable before he took the driverโs seat and braced his hands on the wheel. He was certain that your lover would have his head on a stick for driving you around without his knowledge, but he had a moral obligation not to leave pregnant ladies under tension.ย
Besides, he had to prove his loyalty somehow. It didnโt matter how much Jeno insisted that heโd changed. Neither you or Haechan would be convinced until there were no doubts.
Your head was against the door, temporarily appreciating the air conditioning until you just couldnโt take the silence, asking, โSo, howโs life? Last time we spoke, you were talking about people being shallow.โ
Jeno nodded his head quietly. โIโve been scared of meeting new people. I have a few friends. Other than that, I have my family and girlfriend.โ
Your brows furrowed. That was new. โGirlfriend? Congratulations. I didnโt know.โ
โThank you,โ Jeno replied, heat rapidly flushing his cheeks. โSheโs the one that encouraged me to apologize. Even if you guys still hated me in the end, she said it would be good to get it off my chest.โ
That was interesting. Nobody saw the day coming where Jeno of all people would choose commitment. โIs she in the industry?โ
โNo, sheโs actually a banker,โ Jeno replied, chuckling.ย
โReally? How did your paths cross?โย
โItโs a long story,โ Jeno said, but you could see his eyes sparkling with happiness. He mustโve really liked her.ย
Pointing to the road in front of you, staring at the red light glaring back at you both, you shrugged your shoulders. โWeโve got a long day.โย
For the duration of the total ride, in between stops, you chatted with Jeno to pass the time. It wasnโt the easiest thing to relax around each other, each for your own reasons, but you managed. And truth be told, it wasnโt all too bad.ย
Your chronic cynicism was the only thing standing in the way of your forgiveness. But Jeno had no apparent reason to drive you around and assist you with errands if it wasnโt simply out of the kindness of his heart. There was nothing that you could give him that he didnโt already have. Except maybe loyal companionship, but heโd already made it clear that he wasnโt lonely.ย
Only hours later did Jeno finally pull back into your driveway. Most of your errands just required having to speak with people, but noting that you were probably out of your favorite snacks again, you opted to head to a couple of stores. You also figured you would need some chocolate when it was time to placate Haechan after he realized youโd been with his worst enemy all day.ย
When you were home, Jeno refused to let you carry a single item. With your bags in his hand, he opened your front door and dropped your bags off in the kitchen.ย
The sound of his front door opening was all too familiar and it was no surprise that Haechan rushed downstairs, having returned only maybe half an hour before you, and chirped, โBaby, youโre home!โ
You wrapped your arms around him. Haechan gently hugged you back, careful not to harm you. His warmth was appreciated, but remembering you had a little surprise, you pulled back. โDonโt get mad.โ
Haechan gave you a look. โWhy would I get mad?โ
Surprisingly on cue, Jeno returned from the kitchen, trailing, โI put the food in the...โย
Jeno and Haechan locked glances as it was like a deer crossing paths with a mountain lion. Though you could feel Haechan tense, rather than his hold slackening, it tightened. You could see the anger flickering onto his face within a blink. โWhat is he doing in our house?โ
โI just said donโt get mad,โ you groaned, winding a hand through your hair. You cocked your head towards Jeno and said to him, โJeno, thank you for helping me out today. I owe you one.โ
โNo, you donโt. Iโm endlessly indebted to you,โ Jeno quipped, sticking his hands in his pockets.ย
โDamn right,โ Haechan murmured under his breath.ย
Nudging him in the side, you ignored Haechanโs whine of pain. โWell, get home safe. Thank you again.โ
โNo problem. Have a good night,โ Jeno said, seeing himself out.ย
โGet home safe?โ Haechan repeated when Jeno disappeared.ย
You heaved a little breath and asked, โDo you want him to die or something?โ
โWellโฆโ
โStop,โ you hissed, breaking out of his arms and moving to a chair. โHe really helped me out today. My car broke down and he came to check it out. Then, when the mechanic took my car, he volunteered to help me with my errands.โ
Haechan followed behind you, confused. โWhat? Why is this my first time hearing about this?โ
โBecause you had a work emergency and it wasnโt worth interrupting you over. I can handle stuff by myself, you know.โ
โI know you can, butโฆ,โ
โBut youโd rather me call you than the guy that fucked you over, yeah, I know,โ you huffed.ย
โYou just finished my sentence.โ
Your brows furrowed, wondering how that was in any way significant. โSo?โ
โSo, this is going in the completely wrong direction,โ Haechan said, cooling off for your sake. The last thing you needed was stress or a petulant baby daddy. โLetโs calm down and go upstairs.โ
You opened your mouth to say something, anything to oppose him, but closed them when you realized youโd fallen short of things to say. โFine.โ
Haechan helped you to the bedroom. The stairs were definitely a problem lately, courtesy of the additional pressure on your uterus. You had to be extra careful coming up them now.ย
When you were sitting on your bed, Haechan quietly came beside you. You released a tiny breath, not pleased or disgruntled, but of the will to leave whatever just happened downstairs. It was to be expected.ย
After a minute of silence, Haechan finally said, โIโm sorry.โ
You shook your head. โDonโt be.โ
โNo, I should be. You know I never want to make you feel like I think that you canโt do anything yourself. But I need you to know that Iโm still there for you to lean on when you need me.โ
Thankful that he was lying down, you lowered yourself to rest your head on his chest. Your lips were tugged into a faint smile. โDo you remember our first date?โ
Haechan cocked brow. โThe real one, or the unofficial first date?โ
I still think the unofficial date was the real one, but whatever. Obviously, you would never say that aloud, because then it would spark the debate over what your actual first date was. You ignored his question and continued, โYou said that you would never try to control me, because youโre a grown man and Iโm a grown woman.โ
โHave I?โ
You answered bluntly, โNo, you havenโt. That was five years ago, you know. Iโm pregnant with our baby and even if I hate this next part, I have to depend on you a little more now.โ
โYeah, but that doesnโt mean I should make a sign-in sheet for everybody that enters your life,โ Haechan said.
โTwo things can be true at once.โย
Haechan said nothing, because there was nothing that needed to be said. You were so similar. That was why your relationship worked. Both of you needed time to yourselves, but the fact you were having a baby together forced you to readjust.ย
It wasnโt just about what you or Haechan needed anymore. Your two babies would be entering the world any day now and they took precedence in your lives now. There would be difficult choices and there would be compromises. For both of you.ย
You found his fingers, blindly lacing your fingers through them. โI donโt forgive him, if thatโs what youโre thinking.โ
โOh.โ
You continued, โI think I probably will, eventually, but not yet. Not right now.โ
โYou said that I would rather you call me than the guy that fucked me over,โ Haechan rewinded, squeezing your hand.ย
You made a face. โYeah, I did, but I was irritated and I cut you off. Itโs a bad habit that I still havenโt let go of. And it will probably happen again.โ
Haechan snorted. โYou werenโt wrong, but at the same time, I think I might forgive him too. Not right now, obviously, but eventually. Like you said.โ
โWhy?โ You were confused. You saw how Haechanโs demeanor switched on a dime when he noticed Jeno was in his house.ย
โBecause he helped you. And anyone that treats you respectfully without an ulterior motive is alright in my book.โ
There was movement in your belly and it wasnโt the babies for once. It was the butterflies.ย
Haechan draped his other arm over you, smiling gently as his hand touched your belly. โBy the way, is this a good time to mention that I have something to tell you?โ
Your face tensed with curiosity. โYouโve already put it out there. Might as well cough it up.โ
โOkay, wellโฆ,โ Haechan started. His confidence seemed to be dissipating. โI was thinking that we should go on a babymoon before the kids get here.โ
A single brow lifted from your face. โWhat?โ
โLike a honeymoon, but itโs not a honeymoon. Itโs a babymoon,โ Haechan explained vaguely, sitting up in a way that meant he was serious.ย
โOkay, but wouldnโt we go on a babymoon after we had the baby?โ
Haechan gave you a look. โBaby, do you really think that we're going to have that kind of time after the babies are born?โ
When he put it like that, the concept made a little more sense. โFair point. Where would we go though?โ
Haechan shrugged. โI was thinking Florida, but of course Iโm open to suggestions. This is an us thing.โ
โFloridaโs good with me,โ you said without complaint.ย
โThen, Florida it is.โ
Only two days later, you were on a plane to Florida with ample snacks and water. Haechan didnโt like to waste any time and you didnโt understand the point in waiting either. The clock was ticking and you were already in the third trimester.ย
Sure, it was a last-minute vacation, but you checked in with your doctors and after a few evaluations, they had little problem with you traveling through air for a couple of weeks.ย
Florida, specifically Miami, was ripe with obnoxiously hot weather in spite of the faded summer. December was similar in California, cheerful and sunny with occasional rain showers. Given that you were raised in the north, it was an exciting change of pace.ย
Which was why you were glaring at Haechan in disappointment when you watched him pull three sets of familiar black leather from his suitcase. Your arms were crossed. โDid you really need to pack three different leather jackets?โ
โYes, absolutely,โ he said without hesitating. โCome on, babe, you love seeing me in black leather. Itโs what made you fall for me.โ
You mercilessly quipped, โActually, Iโm pretty sure thatโs what made me turn you away.โ
โWhatever,โ Haechan retorted, pulling another leather jacket from his suitcase.ย
All you could do was shake your head. โYou know, I donโt think Iโve ever seen you wear the same leather jacket twice.โ
Haechan chuckled. โNow thatโs an exaggeration. Besides, I need to have plenty to pass down to our kids. Theyโre gonna have to look extra cool when we go biking together. I canโt be seen with anything less.โ
Your heart draped over your racing heart. โHaechan, you cannot take our kids on a motorcycle.โ
โOf course not. Not with you knowing about it.โ
Your heart was skipping. You were absolutely going to need to have a conversation with his mother. Heโs definitely his fatherโs son.ย
โI was kidding. It was a joke,โ Haechan said playfully, but the mischievousness in his countenance was obvious.ย
You rolled your eyes. โSure it was.โ
Whether it was or wasnโt, Haechan would never tell you. You would just have to cling to hope that he wouldnโt do something like that without your knowledge. Though you trusted him endlessly, the little snicker coming from his parted lips made you a little unsure.ย
Then, the vacation started, and you tried to keep your mind from drifting towards the aftermath of pregnancy. Well, as much as you could with the added pressure weighing down your every footstep. Haechan didnโt want to leave you out of his sight for the next two weeks lest something happened to you.
Though you werenโt due for another five weeks, he wasnโt taking any chances. He waited close by when he surprised you with a prenatal massage and always kept your phones charged in case of emergencies.ย
Heโs going to be a wonderful father, spoke the smitten voice in your head in rhythm with your soaring heartbeat. He was vigilant, careful. You knew with total confidence that your children would be in the greatest of hands.ย
Still, in spite of your mutual worries, neither of you would allow them to stand in the way of your fun. He wandered around the beach with you, sticking your toes in hot sand and taking a dip in the water.
Sporting a two piece swimsuit, you felt somewhat self-conscious meandering just shy of the shore in front of so many people. Though youโd convinced yourself that you were doing a good job at hiding the truth, Haechan grabbed your hand and asked, โWhatโs wrong?โ
โNothing.โ It was an obvious lie, because you replied way too quickly.ย
Haechanโs steps slowed, cocking his head to look at you. โThatโs a lie. You answered too fast. And you didnโt ask me why I asked.โ
Your shoulders slumped in defeat. โItโs justโฆ that I feel a little exposed.โ
Even though that was vague as hell, Haechan knew exactly what you meant and he wouldnโt stand for it for even just a second. โBabe, youโre beautiful. Thatโll never change, even if your body wil,โ he said, stopping dead in his tracks.ย
Your eyes stung with tears. Youโd been outside lately, but never this exposed. Never this far into your pregnancy. โIโm sorry. I know I shouldnโt feel like this.โ
Haechan shook his head. โDonโt you dare apologize to me. You can feel however the fuck you want. Just remember that I love you regardless of what you look like. And your bodyโs only changing to cater to the life weโre about to bring into the world.โ
That reminder was all you needed. As long as you had Haechanโs love and enough of your own to supply your children, everything else ceased to matter.ย
For half a second, you thought about how tired he mustโve been of having to provide you reassurance, but you shooed the thought away. Everything Haechan did for you was because he cared. There were more than a handful of times where Haechan would randomly confess how gorgeous he thought you were and how much he loved you.ย
โThank you,โ you whispered.ย
Haechan set his arm at your backside. โYou have nothing to thank me for. Itโs the truth.โ
โI know, but I donโt know how I would do any of this without you. You make everything easier. I feel like I can breathe as long as youโre with me.โ
Haechanโs heart was unstill. He couldnโt imagine his life any other way. โThereโs nowhere else Iโd rather be,โ he confessed, the sound of his voice featherlight.ย
You wanted to test that theory. Mischievous, you squeezed his hand and leaned onto his shoulder, asking, โWould you rather go back to the room?โ
What that meant was obvious to Haechan, but it still surprised him. Your sex drive wasnโt as active lately. And not only that, but he was too busy becoming a father to focus on his libido. โWould you be there?โ
โI would do a lot more than that,โ you retorted.ย
Haechan pressed, โBut would you want to?โ
โBabe, if I didnโt want to, I wouldnโt have asked.โ
Haechan nodded. Itโs not like you were ever afraid to tell him what you wanted. Or what you didnโt want, for that matter. Plus it had been a lifetime since the two of you had sex, and he couldnโt blame you for wanting to get it in before exhaustion became the only thing that drew you to bed. โSay less.โ
The walk back to those canopy chairs was eager. Haechan wanted to return to the room as quickly as he could, but patiently remained at your side.ย
After collecting your beach towels and rinsing off loose sand (as much as you could in public), you and Haechan walked side-to-side back to the hotel. The sight of your suite coming into view five minutes later made you release a shaky breath of relief.
You and Haechan locked lips almost the second you stood behind the door. Haechan couldnโt wait any longer; he was bursting. Ever since you introduced the idea some twenty minutes ago, all he could think about was putting his hands on you.ย
His hands were quick, loosening the string behind your back. Some weeks had passed since he touched you like this. Maybe a month. Now he was remembering what it was like to be caught in your path.ย
You separated yourself from him, exhaling, โBed.โ
Haechan grabbed you by the waist and guided you to the bed. When you were there, you climbed your own way up the mattress, with him following closely after. A hand crept into your bare chest and the other behind you, gently craning you onto your back.
Your lips connected again. Fire ascended over you, starting in your heart and stretching elsewhere. His lips were so pretty and kissable. Throwing your mouth against his and sucking on his tongue was something you simply never got bored of. You just couldnโt explain it.ย
Haechan pulled back again a couple of moments later, staring at you as if you were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. โBetter?โ he asked, eyes sparkling with wonder.ย ย
โMm-hm,โ you sighed contentedly, lacing your fingers through his beautiful head of hair.ย ย
Haechan extended an arm down your calf, teasing the skin before cycling your legs into the air and ripping your panties almost right from underneath you. He so badly wanted to touch you everywhere, gnawing at his lip with an insatiable hunger. โIโll never get tired of this,โ Haechan said wantonly. โTired of you.โ
That was without question. You could feel his half-hard cock growing at the edge of your swollen thigh. Arousal shot through him like a firework and it would take little to nothing to get him excited.
Your heart throbbed in sync with your pussy and your leg, still in Haechanโs itching palms, tensed insatiably. There was nothing that turned you on like being wanted.ย
Wishing he would take off those stupid swim trunks, a dangerous thought wrecked through your brain and you asked, โCan I do something this time?โ
โNot a chance.โ
You snapped, โAnd why not?โ
โBecause itโs my responsibility to take care of you. And right now, I just wanna make sure you get wet enough to take my dick,โ Haechan replied.ย
Your next best option was begging. โPlease? Iโll get wet just from seeing your pretty face scrunch. Killing two birds with one stone.โ
Haechanโs lips parted to turn you down, but he started to mull over your suggestion. Hope nipped at your heart, twinkling in your eyes. Blowjobs shouldn't've hurt the babies. And he knew you wouldnโt be able to lie on your back for very long anyway. โFine. How do you wanna do this?โ
You were beaming. With Haechanโs help, you kneeled on the mattress before crawling over to the edge of the bed. โI read something online. Letโs try you standing here while I lay on my side.โ
Per your request, Haechan shifted to the edge of the bed, stepping out of his swim trunks where his dick was desperately poking around for attention.ย
You leaned onto your left side, excitement making your heart beat quicker. And your pussy throb, but you were happily focused on someone else right now. โFeel free to use my mouth.โ
โIโll keep that in mind,โ Haechan said, though he would try not to.ย
Pressing your lips against his inner thighs, you brushed them over his skin, feeling his legs tense at your touch. So, so sensitive. You could only imagine what would happen when you sucked his cock into your mouth.ย
You reached out to grab a fistful of his cock, just after spitting into the palm of your hand, and started to pump him slowly. More often than not, you started off tentatively; you liked to tease him. There was no point in getting him off if you couldnโt see the irritability and desperation on his handsome face.ย
Haechanโs breath hitched. His cock was twitching. You seemed to always know what to do with your hands, in spite of the fact that you never let his cum too quickly. But you knew exactly how to wreck him.ย
โYou donโt have to tease, you know,โ he said, voice a little distant like he wasnโt even there.
โI know,โ you replied offhandedly. โBut I want to.โ And I know you pretend not to like it.ย
Haechan huffed, but he was only half upset. Part of him liked when you had total, unmitigated control of his pleasure.ย
You didnโt release your grip on his stiffened cock when youโd had your fill of teasing him until you sucked the tip into your warm mouth. There was a breath on Haechanโs end, light and shaky, and you couldnโt wait to replicate it.ย
Your cheeks were hollowed. You were eager to take most of him down your throat, but were cautious about your pacing, given that it had been a minute since you sucked the soul out of Haechan. Even you were reluctant to give him head during the first trimester because of the morning sickness.ย
โFuck,โ Haechan whined shakily. He was remembering what you said about using your mouth even though he hated that the idea appealed to him.
Haechanโs fingers gripped the sheets, opting not to touch you in case he went too far. His face was tense with pleasure and those featherlight moans were like music to your ears. You took more of him, hopeful to throat every inch, and looked into his hazy eyes to watch as it broke him just the way you knew it would.ย
The heat was getting to be too much. His thoughts were racing by quicker than he could articulate them, all coming from his mouth being gentle sounds. But his head was saying, Sheโs going to be the death of me. And Iโm okay with that.ย
Then, he couldnโt hold back any longer, and started to thrust into your mouth. Though there wasnโt any warning and you only half expected it, you somehow willed yourself to relax. It was so goddamn hot. Pretending that it was your cunt his stiff cock was fucking got you even wetter.ย
Even you were moaning and the vibrations shooting through his cock made the room whirl a little. And as if it couldnโt get any better, you pinched the skin of his thigh between your nails, plucking a lethal whine out of him. โThatโs making me crazy, baby,โ he exhaled, another groan escaping him when he met your stare.
You pressed your tongue flat against his shaft and Haechan swore he saw Michael Jackson looking down at him for a second. Please, was at the back of his throat, but he didnโt want to cum. Not right now. He wanted to cum when he was deep inside of you.ย
โFuck. Fuck. Fuck. Stop,โ he panted, blinking as if to clear the haze from his eyes.ย
You grinded to a halt when you heard those words and noticed him no longer fucking your mouth, wiping saliva from your lips with the back of your hand. Your cheeks hurt, but it was worth it. โWhatโs wrong?โ
โI donโt wanna cum,โ Haechan said, gravel. โNot unless Iโm inside you. And even then, I might nut too quick.โ
You waved off his concern and replied, โItโs okay if you do. I might tap out soon.โ
โDuly noted. Whatโs the plan?โ
You beckoned Haechan forward with your hand, watching him creep closer. When he bent down to your level, you whispered something in his ear.ย
A few moments later, Haechan was behind you in the bed, your naked back flush against his bare chest. Your breaths were thick and rough while you became entrapped in his bodyโs warmth. Bending your knees, you counted down the seconds until he would be inside, holding your breath when he entered from behind you.ย
And you released it when Haechan grunted at the squeeze of your vice-like cunt upon the first couple of thrusts. You were soaked, just like you said. Getting him off mustโve really done a number.ย ย
His voice was so close to your ear, closer than you thought. โYou know the drill, baby. Tell me if you canโt take it.โ
You nodded. It was all you could do not to splinter then and there.ย
Haechan was tentatively prodding, slow. He was careful not to do you any harm, because if he did, heโd never forgive himself. Luckily enough, what you were feeling was far from painful. With every inch he reluctantly pushed into you, your head was deeper into the clouds.ย
There was nothing like being skin to skin with your lover, heart to heart. That was the better half of the appeal when it came to sex nowadays. Pleasure was seeked by the togetherness of intimacy, less than the emphasis of orgasm.ย
But he certainly still knew how to get you there.ย
โYou always feel so good,โ you moaned, stretching your hand to reach his forearm. This whole trip had been nothing short of romantic thus far.ย
Something about your praise made all of the blood flow to Haechanโs dick, heavy and quick. โYou ready for me?โ
โMm-hm. Move, baby,โ you whispered, knowing he was testing the waters. โJust relax. Youโre not going to break me, I promise.โ
Haechan acknowledged your consent with the quietest of sounds, starting to pace himself in and out. His rhythm was steady, but none too rough. It was loving.ย
It tickled when his lips grazed the back of your throat in a litter of kisses, breathless giggles escaping you. Wheeling your head, you turned to give him a peck on the mouth, watching the smile coax its way onto Haechanโs face. He has the prettiest smile ever. And Iโll do anything to protect it.ย
Anything and everything. It was no secret that Haechan doubted himself sometimes. He rarely spoke to you about it, not wanting to lump his feelings on top of yours because he thought yours were more significant, given that you were the one bringing these children to life. But you wish he knew how incredible he was to you.ย
Though you never failed to remind him. Even now, just looking into his eyes with total adoration, Haechan couldnโt understand. He wanted to see himself the way that you saw him. Thanks to your relentlessness, he was getting a little closer.ย
Reaching out to touch his cheek, you whispered, โI donโt think Iโve ever wanted anyone as much as I want you.โ
โFuck,โ Haechan groaned, like those words alone would be the death of him. Which wasnโt too far from the truth.ย
You playfully teased, โYou always say the most romantic things.โ
Haechanโs face flushed, but those explicatives were at the tip of his tongue. When he was deep inside you like this, his hands cupping your hips, it couldnโt be helped. โThatโs funny. I was about to say the same thing,โ he lied, losing himself with every sweet thrust.
Your lips parted in a laugh, but it was cut off by a moan. Between the sight and sound, Haechan couldnโt tell which was better. Watching you burst with rapture turned him on. Listening to you burst with rapture turned him on. You turned him on.
All you could feel was ecstasy. It had been said, but the whole world stopped when you were alone with Haechan and it didnโt affect you. When he was fucking all the stress out of your body, in spite of the heat scorching down your skin, you could somehow breathe.ย
You faced away from him again, eyes fluttered closed. You were imagining him, even though he was right behind you. There was no space between your bodies and sometimes it was as if you were one person. Like you couldnโt tell where you ended and he began.ย
Which was ironic. Your first encounter wasnโt so long ago, even if it felt like a lifetime had passed since then. You still vividly recalled wanting nothing to do with him.ย
Yet here you were. Carrying his baby, his offspring. And you wouldnโt have it any other way.ย
Haechan extended his hand over your lower stomach, reaching out to touch your clit. Your reaction was instant. You gasped, elevating to highs you never knew were in reach. Sex hit different knowing the extremes you were capable of when Haechan was giving himself to you completely.ย
โIโm so close, baby,โ Haechan warned. He could feel it approaching, but it didnโt matter to him if he didnโt cum either.ย
That excited you. Your core throbbed and you purred, โGive it to me, baby boy. Cum inside of me.โ
โDonโt say it like that,โ Haechan told you, coming up on the edge. He rocked into you harder, wincing his eyes closed.ย
You didnโt skip a beat. โWhy? Too afraid youโre gonna bust a nut?โ
When Haechan said nothing, you grinned to yourself. Then, his other hand came to your boobs, gently touching your nipples. You sighed out, breathless.
Now it was you unraveling. Like clockwork, your back started to arch away from him, your body too stimulated from his hands on your nipple and clit. It just felt so good - the whole room started to spin.ย
Moving your hair out of the way, Haechan leaned even closer to you. If possible. You were obsessed with his mouth nipping at the shell of your ear. Voice at the back of your neck. โYouโre gonna be a great mother. I can feel that you are,โ he said, breath tickling your neck.ย
You whimpered, listening to his gentle tone factored with the hot sound of sex thumping throughout the room.ย
โOur kids are going to love you from the moment that they lie on your chest and get to see you. Theyโll grow up lucky that they get to call you their mother, because even before they were born, youโve done nothing but your best to care for and nurture them.โ
โHaechanโฆ,โ you trailed. Your eyes watered.ย
Haechan added, โAnd Iโll be there, proud as ever. Because if thereโs any woman thatโs fit to raise a baby, itโs you.โ
Only seconds ago you didnโt think you would be able to go any longer, sensing yourself on the brink of tapping out, but that spiral ripped it out of you. You shuddered with climax, shifting away from his touch. The sweetest cry escaped you and you found his hand to anchor yourself through your orgasm.
That did it for Haechan in the end. He came just at a glimpse of you finishing on his cock, moaning your name darkly. Stifling his sounds into your shoulder. You milked his load out of him and Haechan swore it was mind-numbing to its core.
A moment passed before you each stilled. Sticky sweat connected your gleaming skin as you released open-mouthed exhales in an attempt to stabilize your breath. For a second, eyes fluttering, your brain was peacefully empty.ย
Minutes later, you cocked your head and squeaked, โIโm going to the bathroom. Just rest. You donโt need to follow me.โ
Haechan nodded, finally pulling out of you. Something about times like this made his heart swell and his skin swelter. Those moments of silence after.ย
Wobbling inside the bathroom attached to your suite, you shut the door behind yourself, in spite of knowing Haechan would probably come in a minute or two. There was a gigantic smile on your face. Finding somebody that cared about you so much was a blessing.ย
You meandered over to the toilet so that you could pee. Then, when you finished, you came to the sink to wash your hands of germs. The mirror in front of you was wide and tall. You stared at your reflection, letting out a contented little breath, and set your palms on your tummy.ย
As to be expected, Haechanโs voice sounded from behind the door when you didnโt return a couple of moments after he heard you flush. โBaby, are you good? Can I come in?โ
You quipped, โHavenโt you come inside of enough things?โ
Haechan snickered, twisting the knob. Very funny. He was pleasantly surprised to see you slowly rubbing a hand over your pregnant belly, softly smiling even if you didnโt realize that you were.
Haechan came up to you. Your heart quickened when you sensed his warmth behind you, kissing your shoulder. โWas I too much?โ
You shook your head. โIt was amazing. I didnโt think I would make it that far.โ
โWhat can I say? Iโve never not blown a womanโs mind,โ Haechan joked, lips brushing the back of your neck. A litter of love bruises were there.ย
You rolled your eyes. Then, you giggled.ย
It was silent for a little while. Both of you were too in awe to speak. With your focus drawn entirely to your children, it was all too easy to become paralyzed with adoration. And they werenโt even born yet.
Haechanโs hand came around your hip, dropping below your ribs. You could feel him hesitating - his body tensed against your skin - but he ultimately said, โNot to be that guy, but Iโm kind of glad youโre taking a step back.โ
โReally?โ You knew that. His happiness was never not clear to you.ย
โYeah, baby, I meanโฆ,โ he trailed, thinking. Longing. โSpending more time with you, bonding as a family has really changed me for the better, I think.โ
I know what you mean, came your thoughts, but you just hummed. Haechan knew that you were listening. And you knew that he wanted to talk. Your fingers crept up his arm, reassuring.ย
Haechanโs mind was racing. Blaring. โBecoming a father hasnโt just changed my life. Itโs changed the way I look at life. Life is short, baby. The most beautiful moments of life are short, but theyโre meaningful, because I have you. And Iโve got to make that count.โ
You shook your head. โWeโve got to make that count.โ
Haechan nodded, chuckling. โYes, youโre exactly right. This is a group effort.โ
Your eyes lifted to look at him in the mirror, and you finally realized your lips were curled. โYouโre gonna be a good father, you know,โ you said levelly.ย
Haechan let his hands wander over your belly, running them gently over the flesh. There was a twinkle in his gaze and a beaming smile at his lips. โI can believe that now. And I owe all of the credit to you. I know what I want and who I am. Youโve made me see things from a different point of view.โ
โIronically, I feel the same way,โ you said, finding some amusement in this moment of clarity. โIt seems like only yesterday I was terrified of having a baby. I didnโt want things to change. The future was so scary.โ
โAnd itโs not anymore?โ Haechan asked.
โA little,โ you confessed. โBut knowing that I have you makes it easier. And knowing that our kids have someone like you, I can relax.โ
โYou know what they say. The best matches are people who bring out the best in each other.โ
You bobbed your head. โSometimes, I canโt tell if I grew because of you, or if I grew with you. But I think itโs both now. And now we get to do that for a lifetime.โ
Yeah, I get that, Haechan thought. You donโt have a single clue, do you? Just how badly I wanna seal the deal, tie the knot. But Iโll take it one step at a time, because I know how you are. Youโre slow and steady, baby. And Iโm reckless and quick, but we make it work, because you know what you want. And so do I.ย
โYes,โ Haechan sighed happily. โYes, we do.โ
A quick tear escaped your eye, but you wiped it away. You were overwhelmed in the best way.ย
Haechan kissed your cheek, knowing all of your pleasures and your pains. And he kept them inside his heart in a vault. โI hope they have your eyes.โ
Your brows furrowed in wonder. โI think our genes might be evenly distributed.โ
โThat is not how it works, baby.โ
I know, but I want to have hope. Itโs wishful thinking,โ you replied, sighing.ย
Haechan chuckled. โEither way, theyโll be beautiful. And they have a handsome father and breathtaking mother to thank.โ
โThatโs so vain,โ you retorted. But you didnโt disagree.ย
Haechan kneeled to the floor, sitting just shy of your stomach. His hands were still lovingly touching you. โHi, son and daughter. Itโs Daddy. Iโm sure youโre sick of my voice by now, but thatโs too bad. You have to deal with it for eighteen years.โ
You shook your head, a stupid smile on your face. Your cheeks hurt. Somehow, you just couldnโt get enough of this boy.ย
โMommy says that Daddy is vain. Can you believe that? Me, of all people, vain. I mean, if you look as good as me one day, you will be, too,โ Haechan said exaggeratedly.
โBabe, be careful what you tell our kids,โ you chastised.ย
โSheโs scolding me now. Mommy can get scary when sheโs angry, you know. You better not wind up on the receiving end of her wrath.โ
You snorted.ย
โAnyways, all I really wanted to say is that Mommy and Daddy love you very much. We canโt wait to see you,โ Haechan whispered. Your heart burst when he pressed his lips to your belly.
You just knew that he was the one for you.ย
The rest of the vacation - or babymoon as your babiesโ daddy enthusiastically dubbed it - was a breeze. Before you knew it, you were on a flight back home. Beach air and rushing water was over. And California had never been more foreign.ย
Back in your own home, you spent your hours reminiscing in between yoga sessions. You were grateful that Jaehyun suggested the babymoon. It was a much needed period of relaxation to distract you from the looming disaster of childbirth.ย
And you were sitting just at its door. Because your pregnancy was considered high-risk and you were not inclined to have a c-section delivery, your doctor recommended labor induction. When you didnโt go into labor after twenty four hours, you started to feel unnerved.ย
You had nightmares about what would happen if things went wrong sometimes. Your doctor and childbirth educator made sure that the risks were outlined and clear. One wrong move and you could lose your kids, not to mention that anything could happen to you.ย
That was why Doctor Stakes wasnโt willing to risk natural birth. Having twins alone constituted a high-risk pregnancy and they were actively monitoring your babies positions to make sure they werenโt breech.
Haechan was restless, but he tried to keep it together for your sake. He called your name, hand in yours. โBaby, I can feel you tensing. Breathe,โ he told you calmly.ย
Your voice trembled, โIโm scared.โ
โI know. I am, too, but Iโm right here with you. We can overcome anything as long as weโre together.โ
You bobbed your head and sucked in a breath. Had he not been there with you, it wouldโve been a hell of a lot scarier.ย
An eternity and a half seemed to pass before you finally went into labor. The contractions started at a distance and you likened them to the preparation trials you endured during the second trimester. Then, they were shorter apart, and the pain intensified so much it felt as if there was no air.ย
At the first nick of pain, you immediately pressed for an epidural. Your childbirth already wasnโt natural. And if they thought you would be able to do this without medication, they completely overestimated you.
It took fifteen minutes for a nurse to administer the epidural and another fifteen for the effects to settle in. Haechan never let go of your hand unless he absolutely needed to and he was staring at you with a newfound respect. And his respect for you was already in the heavens.ย
โThis is crazy,โ you wheezed, pulse quickened.ย
โIt is,โ Haechan agreed. โBut you can do this. Youโre stronger than I ever have been.โ
You tugged your lips into a smile. โIโve been thinking about us. Instead of the risks and stuff.โ
That was a pretty good idea. Haechan said, โTalk to me. Tell me about it.โ
โWe got a new house, like I said. The kids are roughly five years old. Theyโre helping you make omelets because you know that I like them. Thereโs a cat. We let them name it. And Iโm completely oblivious to whatโs going on.โ
Haechan snickered. That sounded like his offspring and he hadnโt even met them yet.ย
You added, โI thought about something else. Thereโs a private photoshoot. Youโre the photographer, of course. The kids are in your leather jackets, but theyโre oversized on them. The whole thing is so cute.โ
Haechan kissed your cheek. His heart was thumping in his chest like a hammer and there was a sudden gush of warmth shooting through him. โI bet it is. I can see it playing out in my head right now. We should have a shoot like that one day. With all of us in black leather.โ
You chuckled. It was tempting.ย
There was so much action in the room. People were moving from place to place to ensure that your babies were delivered safely. Your midwife assured you that the process was moving smoothly.ย
With that out in the open, you could breathe a little easier. Though you and Haechan still had no intention of separating from each other. The nurses would have to forcibly pry him away from you.
โItโs time to push,โ came your midwifeโs level voice.ย
The nurses were helping you realize when you needed to push. The movements felt like a distant pressure in your lower back, courtesy of the epidural. None of what was happening to you seemed real and all left to ground you in reality was the knowledge that it was really happening.ย
โThis is happening,โ you said shakily. โOh my god. This is actually happening.โ
Haechan uttered the dreaded words, โBabe, relax.โ
โNo! Iโm never doing this again!โ you snapped dramatically, overwhelmed with all the motion. โYou need to get a vasectomy!โ
Haechan took your outburst in stride. โIโll do anything you want.โ
โFuck,โ you exhaled, an invisible cool shiver running down your spine.ย
The first push alone was exhausting. You started to feel lightheaded and as if you would faint from the pressure. There was a lull of relief when the nurse permitted you to take a break to regain strength.ย
Tears stung your eyes. โI canโt do this.โ
โYes, you can,โ Haechan told you in a heartbeat.ย
Your confidence in yourself started to dissipate, but with your faithful partner and a dedicated team of medical staff reassuring you through the process, you forced the negativity out of your head and focused on your children.ย
โAnother push,โ your midwife urged.ย
You took one big, stabilizing breath before it was ripped out of your lungs again. Your legs had gone completely numb. There was still a slight degree of discomfort in your back that heightened a little with every push, but you winced your eyes closed and rid the thoughts.ย
โBreathe with me, baby,โ Haechan said during the next break.ย
With what little strength you had, you nodded your head and followed his breathing patterns. Your heart seemed more tired than the rest of you as you physically shook. The blood was rushing through you to a painful degree.ย ย
You squeezed Haechanโs hand, which was what you had already been doing. His metacarpals were brave soldiers. โTell me something.โ
In typical Haechan fashion, he was cool as a cucumber. You would never guess that he was terrified for your life, but he pulled himself together. โAnything?โ
โYes. Anything.โ
โWhen I was eleven, I wanted a leather jacket exactly like the black and red one Michael Jackson wore in Thriller,โ he confessed. โThen, my mom got me one. And I hated it.โ
Your brows furrowed. โWhy?โย
โIt was black and orange.โ
You snickered. Now you were thinking about an angry little Haechan being a sulky and petulant mess.ย
When it was time for the final shoves, you had just enough energy to will yourself to keep pushing. Your body was being put through the most gruesome test ever. But you kept the negativity to a minimum and thought only of your family for your own sanity.ย
And then it was done. There were loud whimpers. Your baby girl was given to you first, followed by your son. You couldnโt remember a time when you were more occupied with emotion.ย
Haechan gawked in awe. For a moment he couldnโt even believe that this wasnโt just a dream and fought off tears the best he could. You, on the other hand, couldnโt stop the tears blurring your vision. Your kids were here at last and they were the light of your life.ย
The first hour was spent making plenty of skin-to-skin contact and bonding with your babies. Haechan was smiling so hard that his cheeks hurt. He was already obsessed with the tiny little humans heโd helped make and all of your mutual sacrifice seemed so worth it.ย
There were many things that had to happen before you could leave the hospital, but two days later, you were at home resting. Sleep was all you wanted (even though your vocal children had other plans). Which, after the exhausting process you endured only days before, was well-deserved.ย
One week passed since you were discarded from the hospital. After a period spent catching up on rest to the best of your ability, you started to accept visitors. Chaewon and Jaemin, the wonderful godparents that they were, assisted with fielding phone calls and text messages from curious loved ones.ย
The mood in your home was different the day you and Haechan allowed visitors. Your bedroom was like a club and Haechan was serving as a bouncer, letting them in one-by-one in case you got overwhelmed.ย
Chaewon had seen the babies a little earlier than the others. She was your best friend, after all. โTheyโre so cute,โ sheโd gushed.ย
The babies in question were nested comfortably on your chest. They were also resting. There was a smile tugging at your lips, irresistible. Your heart was at peace.ย
Ironically, Mark was the first to show up. Again. โYo, yo, yo. Whereโs my niece and nephew?โ
โShh. Theyโre sleeping,โ Haechan scolded from the door.ย
Markโs eyes were wide, lips parted. โThey must be sleepy, huh?โ
You quipped, โYeah. Apparently, wailing all night long is exhausting.โ
โI was thinking theyโd be tired of Haechanโs shit, but yeah, that checks out too,โ Mark retorted.ย
Haechan cursed under his breath. Then, he said aloud, โIf I wasnโt a better man, I would pummel you to the ground.โ
โA better man, my ass,โ Mark taunted. His words were promptly followed by a gasp and he put his hands over his mouth. โI meantโฆ my butt.โ
You giggled.ย
Mark switched on a dime. Concern washed over his face, tenderness in his eyes. โDude, are you okay, though? Like, pregnancy is huge. It had to be eventful.โ
โIt was a lot of things,โ you murmured, briefly bringing yourself back to that moment. You werenโt going to miss it too much, but it was beautiful. โI went through so many emotions. But Iโm happy weโre all here.โ
Mark bobbed his head. โYeah, I am, too.โ
When he exited the room, Winter promptly entered. And she gasped at the first sight of your babies, eyes dampening. โOh my god!โ
Her reaction made you snicker. โYes, I know. Theyโre adorable.โ
โUnderstatement of the year,โ she drawled. โThese are by far the cutest kids Iโve ever seen in my life.โ
You grinned. โThanks.โ
Jaemin poked around the corner. Much like Chaewon, he had already seen your babies and spoken to them, cooing and babbling. โSomebodyโs sleepy,โ he retorted.ย
You bobbed your head. โThey should be.โ
Jaemin didnโt miss a beat, โGuess they got sick of putting up with this guy.โ
Haechanโs eyes narrowed and he hissed, โYouโre late. Mark already made that joke.โ
Winter giggled. You stifled one on your boyfriendโs behalf.ย
There was a gap in between the next visits large enough for you to take a nap and you didnโt rouse until shortly before your fifth visitor.ย
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As if it wasnโt obvious, you ignored Jenoโs nervousness. He looked a little surprised, lips parted when he caught a glimpse of your kids from the door. After he made small talk with Haechan, he entered and said, โWow.โ
Your babies were awake now. And surprisingly calm. For now. โI know.โ
Jeno cleared his throat. โTheyโre beautiful. Congratulations, both of you.โ
โThank you,โ you whispered, staring adoringly at your kids.ย
Jeno searched tirelessly for things to say. He didnโt want the wrong words to come out of his mouth, but you personally inviting him over shocked him. He asked, โHow was labor?โ
โLaborious,โ you replied dryly.ย
Jeno snorted.ย
Haechan wasnโt shy to brag, โShe was a champ. Iโve never been more proud.โ
Your face was warm. And so was your heart.ย
โIโm sure she was,โ Jeno said, gleaming.ย
You tilted your head. โWould you like to hold one of them?โ
Jeno gawked. โCan I?โ
You nodded.ย
โOkay. Yeah, sure,โ Jeno stammered out.ย
Glancing down at your son, you cooed, โYou wanna go to Uncle Jeno? Yeah?โ
Shock flickered over Jenoโs face, as if he couldnโt believe the words leaving your mouth. With maternal cautiousness, you handed him your closest child, which happened to be your son. Jeno watched for his head without having to be instructed, holding your baby as if he would shatter.ย
These babies were a part of you and Haechan, and Jeno swore that if there was anything you ever needed him to do for them, he wouldnโt hesitate to come running.ย
โHi,โ Jeno greeted, smiling at your son. โYouโre really lucky, you know. You have the best mom and dad on the whole planet.โ
You smiled softly.
โAm Iโฆ,โ Ryujin trailed, strolling down the hallway. Imagine her shock when she noticed Jeno standing there. โLate?โ
Jeno cleared his throat. โRyujin.โ
Ryujinโs arms folded. โJeno.โ
โYou look good,โ Jeno said, mouth suddenly dry.ย
Ryujin was eyeing him, skeptical, as if she still didnโt trust him. But you could see the sadness in her stare. โYou, too,โ she replied quietly.ย
Jeno gently placed your son back in your arms, making sure he was secure before he released his grip.ย
โWe forgive him, Ryujin,โ Haechan said, even if it took months.ย
Ryujinโs eyes flickered. Jeno stepped in front of her and glanced at the floor. If there was something he wanted to tell her, he lacked the courage.ย
โLook me in the eyes.โ
Jeno did it. He would do anything to make his mistakes up to the people he owed to.ย
Ryujin wrapped her arms around him. Jeno stiffened for a second, not expecting that of all reactions, but gently hugged her back. While they were reconciling, you and Haechan glanced at each other. There was a telepathic exchange of thought between the two of you.ย
Then, Ryujin pulled back, and whined, โUgh, I just realized something. Weโre uneven again.โ
Haechan snorted in disbelief. Of course that was what she was worried about.ย
โNot if you include the kids plus Haechan and Iโs future cat,โ you quipped smartly.ย
Ryujin beamed in amusement. โI think I can work with that.โ
Glancing down at your two lovely kids, the cutest of hats on their tiny little heads, you grinned and said, โYeah, so do I.โ
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