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victorie552 · 5 months

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I headcannon that after 3rd Kinslaying, and especially after Elrond and Elros left them in whatever fashion, Maedhros was a total dick to Maglor.

You know how sometimes old or sick people are nice to neighbours/nurses/strangers, but are horrible to their primal caretakers? That's them.

People aren't dicks to their caretakers just to be dicks - it's because they are often frustrated with themselves or their situation and don't know how else to deal with it or they can't deal with it the usual way. It also happens because, paradoxally, they feel safe around their caretakers - you can be a dick because you know they won't leave just because of that.

And boy, did Maglor cast himself in a role of caretaker (let's not kid ourselves, he wasn't qualified, and with his own problems to boot), and BOY, did Maedhros resent him for it. He did not NEED help, he did not DESERVE help, he's not another kidnapped child MAGLOR, I'M the older brother, I should take care of YOU YOU WRECK, WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BABYSIT YOU GROW UP ALREADY and leave me Nothing is EVER your fault, even when you left me to Angband as you should Why would you care now, it amounted to NOTHING before, it's WORTHLESS

And about half the time Maglor just takes it, actually likes it even. Mostly because of his guilt complex about how he deserves it, but also because Maedhros is only like this with him - he's trying his best to pretend to be fine and be a leader to few followers they have left, because they deserve better and that's the only thing he can give them now, and their brothers are all dead and would always be Too Little to act like that around them anyway. Maedhros would behave himself even around Fingon, to make him think rescuing him was worth something. So by being a dick to Maglor, Meadhros sees him as an equal, a safe haven. Maglor basks in that.

But obviously no one could just take such abuse like it's nothing, and Maglor is a Feanorian too, is prideful and stubborn, with his own laundry list of complains about Maedhros, and also unwell, and also thought of a new insult while lying awake at night and just wants to yell too. So half the time Maglor yells back and their yelling matches would bring orcs to tears, with hate and blame dripping from every word. I don't have enough imagination to picture it realistically, and actually I don't want to, it's too heartbreaking.

And sometimes, one or the other just starts crying. They don't talk about these times.

After some time, their arguments and insults are just a noise, something to repeat endlessly to the point of boredom.

By then, what actually hurts are the words that were not meant to harm.

Example 1:

Maedhros: 'did an all-night inspection of their stores cause he couldn't sleep' I found a herb you always liked to wash your hair with.

Maglor: 'doesn't remember last time he washed his hair, no less scented them'

Maglor: 'choked up' Appreciated.

Example 2:

Maedhros: 'feels like he's dragging Maglor to damnation with him' You could go with the twins, you know.

Maglor: 'doesn't want to upset Maedhros today so decides to pretend as if that was actually an option' Vanyar would probably like my singing but you know they would get mad at you for having better battle plans than them.

Maedhros: 'now KNOWS he's dragging Maglor to damnation with him'

Maedhros: 'dying inside' Of course they would.

When love hurts, it's easier to be a dick.

#maedhros #maglor #silmarillion #silm #barely related but it plays into my headcannon that when nerdanel didn't went with them and feanor died #maglor and maedhros became New Mom and Dad for the rest of Feanorians #not even with any creepy context from them it was an automatic process #oh Mom left Dad Maglor is similiar to her guess Maglor is New Mom #oh Dad's dead? Maedhros is New Dad #boom problem solved #when Maedhros was unwell after Tears Celegorm got to be Dad for some time #it's so unhealthy when you look from the outside #it's unrelated to anything except Maglor as New Mom resents any mentions of abandoning the others #Maglor is NOTHING like Nerdanel #THIS mom won't leave anyone thank you very much #and then Maedhros stays in Angband for 30 years lmao #so unhealthy #angst I guess #I feel it went in different direction than it started but eh

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justjams7787 · 5 months

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the amount of angst I see of these two

#jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #gojo satoru #gojo x geto #geto x gojo #satosugu #geto fanart #gojo fanart #angst i guess #gay #i think #maybe

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dcmainlybillythoughts · 1 year

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You ever go through an experience and decide that your favorite character must also go through it and feel the same gut wrenching emotions you did?

Anyways in this I will now explain why Billy Batson is freaked out by the fact that people look up to him and feels imposter syndrome about it but now instead of doing anything he bottles it up and then when he sees somebody else have the same problem he talks them through it and gives them comfort and guidance without doing anything to better himself-

#that's it that's the post #billy batson #shazam #captain marvel #dc #dc captain marvel #headcanon #angst i guess

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nightqueen1221 · 1 year

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Hello!!☺️ I have a request! Can you do Kurapika finding out there's another Kurta alive and the reader is a F!Y/n

If you decide to do it, I'll be looking forward to reading it!🤗💗

It had been years. You thought you were the only one left. For years you kept the fact you were Kurta away from people. You just happened to not have been found when your clan was attacked. Even with Kurapika not even being in the province, you had assumed that if they found your clan they easily could have tracked one person down.

This was your only thought so long before till you saw him. You were walking around when you glanced over to see him talking with a person with a small but round physic. Their were a few other people in the area with a girl in the center with light blue hair and intriguing clothes. You took a second glace, trying to see if it wasn't a dream. He really hadn't changed in the past few years. He still had the same beautiful face, the same golden hair, and enchanting eyes.

You had a crush on him since childhood, thinking he was dead made you feel worthless, like you didn't even try and stop it. Then suddenly he just appears in front of you alive and well. It made your heart skip a beat. You wanted to just run up to him and hug him, tell him everything that happened. Yet, it made you think why he never went back the province. Did he not care? Did he not want to see you? You started to realize you were over thinking things and lost focus on the main thing. He was walking away.

In the split second of your thoughts, you pulled a hold up over your head and started following from behind. The people around the girl, including Kurapika, you assumed to be guards or servants of some sort. You didn't want them to notice you as a threat or a creep, but it was kinda hard to. You were following them for a specific person, not the girl they were surrounding. You finally got at least a closer look at the man you wished to see again. He looked, sad? Mad? You couldn't put your finger on it. However, you could just tell he wasn't the same.

"Hey! What do you think your doing?" A tall man with short black hair and tattoos under his eyes shouts at you demanding an explanation.

"I-I umm, I can't really explain why I'm following you. I promise I'm not dangero-"

"Than why were you following us?" His tone getting more a aggressive. You could feel your heartbeat getting faster, all you could think was, 'this is it, I'm dead.'

"Dalzollene, your scaring her." A soft voice speaks up. It was the girl Kurapika was talking to. "It's a bit hard to tell, but it doesn't seem like she has bad intents."

"We can't make such clear bets as of now when, we have yet to learn who she is over what she's doing." Kurapika had talked in a way that made you feel like he could take control over any situation.

"Could you tell us your name?" He asked, it was calming hearing him speak. Dispite the fact you were getting interrogated. You didn't really know how to respond, you had so much to tell him yet, the words never came out.

"Maybe she's a customer?" The girl in the center said. "Neon, who would follow you around to get their fortune read while your bodyguards are around?" The man from before replied.

"But it's light out. If she really wanted to do something, wouldn't she wait till nighttime?"

"She could have just happened to spot us while it's light out, and it doesn't really matter time it is."

"Yes it does!" She yelled, he was getting on her temper. She definitely had a bratty attitude. "People are around during the day and can clearly see us. If it was night than she would have less to worry about. That's why I get more deals that are to be kept secret during the dark!"

The man, clearly annoyed, turned to you and asked, "Are you a customer?"

"Uh, um, n-no, I'm not a customer for whatever you guys are doing." You really didn't want to keep talking about this and wanted to just run away.

"She was probably just walking the same way as us. I'm sorry for the inconvenience miss." The soft voice apologized.

"N-no, I'll just take a different way, I'm sorry." You quickly said and walked across the street. You mental cursed at yourself for getting caught. They turned the corner, most likely to forget the incident by tommorow. It was one of your only chances to talk to him. Yet you screwed it up. History does repeat itself. There was something inside of you, it made you want to follow then again, telling you, "it's not over yet."

It felt like an instinct, a command you couldn't deny. Your mind fought, but your body moved. You blended in with the crowd, hoping for wherever they were going wasn't too far. It couldn't have been, if she had a business and was walking the streets rather than driving... She had to be going somewhere close by. The group entered what seemed to be an open spaced area. Maybe if you were lucky, you could get close enough to talk to him!

There were a lot less people here than before. Taking caution was an understatement. They could most definitely sense you if you got to close or suspicious. You almost didn't care about getting caught, the boy of your past, standing in the distance. Yet the voice shouted in your mind, "be patient." Resisting the urge to shout back at it, you waited. Waited and waited. It felt pointless, standing here doing nothing.

Without warning, he walked away from his group. It was a juvenating feeling that settled within. You walked, more like rushed, over to his side. The fear of him not caring appeared once more and made your pace much slower. Does he really want to see you? Would he tell you to leave? Could he even remember who you are?

"U-um, hi, I'm the girl from earlier, that was following you guys. I wasn't following for any other reasons, than... ummm..." It felt like your mind went blank. " I was following you, b-because I wanted to see you...again."

"I'm sorry, but I'm not the person you're looking for."

"No! No, you are! I would recognize you from anywhere. I don't know if you would remember me though." You removed you hood revealing your face. " We've already met before, but I'm Y/N" You looked at the ground before staring up at him. His face previously had shown little to no emotion. Now? It wasn't something you could quite read, he looked, joyous? Sad? Maybe even nostalgia, but it was so much that you couldn't have expected to see.

"Y-Y/N!? I-I thought you had died! I mean, I couldn't find your body when I went back the province. I had just assumed the troupe took your corpse!" He was on the verge of tears it looked. He wrapped his arms around you in the tightest, yet most caring embrace you've felt in quite sometime. He backed away for a moment, "Wait, how can you prove you're who I think you are?"

You knew the answer to that, The Scarlet Eyes. Which were activated wether you wanted it or not. You were to full of satisfaction in the moment causing this. He hugged you again, feeling his heartbeat against you. You could swear his heart skipped a beat, or perhaps yours? It didn't matter, nothing mattered here. You could feel him begin to cry. The feeling was unknown, a mutual and shared, but unknown, feeling.

"Please, please stay by my side." His words were strained, yet powerful enough to make you do as they command.

#Hxh #HXH x reader #angst i guess #Kurapika #Kurapika x reader #Kurapika kurta x reader #Hunter x Hunter #HXH kurapika #Hunter x hunter kurapika #X reader

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zionworkzs · 7 months

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Imagine being a 6000 year old occult being. You've seen hundreds of thousands of lives start and end around you. The fall of kings, of empires, and governments. You've witnessed it all. You hold all those memories, all those lives in you. You have unimaginable power. You can shape the world to your liking (within reason).

And you can't save everyone. You can't. It doesn't work like that.

So, you live. And you let live. And you let die. And you love hundreds and lose them all the same.

And no one else in the whole wide existence can understand the lives you've lived. Except for one (1). And so of course, you love them. Of course.

It was never a question of 'if.'

It just IS.

It is love.

The kind of love that nothing, no other being in all of creation can relate to or understand.

And you can't save them. You can't save that one.

You can't.

It doesn't work like that.

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #what is wrong w me today #lmao #angst i guess

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genshin-obsessed · 3 months

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Doing the breakup prank on him but he ends up agreeing

You’re just completely shocked but he thinks the relationship just isn’t working out and didn’t know how to bring it up and is almost thankful you did first since you clearly agree.

#🌸─ pocket tries #just a thought #lol #angst I guess

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venusflytrpp · 1 year

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The way you felt - Lucrecia

There you sat on the same sofa that you found yourself on time and time again. The same looks of pity across the nightclub coming in from every direction. Every time you wonder how you got into this same position every Wednesday. Helplessly pining after a girl who barely gave you the time of day in favour of her ex who wanted nothing to with her romantically.

“Y/N!!” Hearing your name being repeatedly called from the entrance of the club you get up making your way through sweaty bodies, shoes slightly sticking to the floor due to spilled drinks by the wasted entitled students of las encinas. “Y/N” You increase your pace getting closer to the entrance locating the source of the voice to be Rebeka, Samuel and Nadia clearly blocked for entrance by a rather burly guard.

“Right, there she is finally, y/n we were just telling this guy that we are meant to be on the list, but your little Mexican barbie must have forgotten” Rebeka enunciates nodding her head within the club. A blank expression takes homage on your face until you look across all three of them eyes pleading at you to go along with it.

Rolling your eyes, you look at the bouncer “Let them in. Lucrecia forgot to get their names on the list. I texted her to remind her, but it seems she forgot again” As you see the acknowledgement cross his face you start moving back to where you were previously seated.

They pass the bouncer as he lets them in with Rebeka patting him on the cheek in a teasing manner. Moving to catch up to you she moves her arm to rest on your shoulder redirecting you to the bar. You look at her, eyebrows raising in question only to find a knowing smile on her face. As you arrive at the bar Rebeka calls out to the bartender.

“6 shots please my good man, I’m tryna get this one tanked” She exclaims patting your back enthusiastically. Your eyes widen in a panic. She sees this laughing at you saying “no there not all for you babes, we get three each.”

“How do you know I'm not already drunk?” A look from her is all it takes to get you to shut up and down all three of your shots as soon as they are given to you.

“So where is Latino Barbie? “She asks already assuming you'd know where she is due to your endless pining. You nod your head towards Lucrecia who's got herself all over Guzman as he’s looking in the direction of the bar to the girl who appeared next to you after taking off her hijab in the bathroom.

“You know I'll never understand how you managed to find yourself at the beck and call of a girl like that. Any of the girls in this school would drop their pants for you with just a look yet you chose her.” Rebeka releases her arm from round your shoulder turning you in your seat to look away from Lu. “And before you go off with your pitiful speech on how you didn't choose to fall in love with her, I don't wanna hear it. The girl doesn't give you the time of day and when she does, she somehow manages to convince you that she's yours.”

Your head drops down to your hands taking Rebe’s words to heart, knowing that everything she's saying is true. “I love her Rebe and every time that I do have her in my arms, I never want to let go because it seems like she finally feels the same way. I thought I was fine with having her once in a while but now it just really fucking hurts.” Tears escape the corner of your eyes rolling down your cheeks into your closed hands.

Rebe takes your shoulders into her hands pulling you forward into her embrace. Whispering comforting words into your ears, kissing your forehead as she goes to look you in the eyes. “Look y/n you can either confront her today and try and get out of this or we can get absolutely fucked and deal with it tomorrow”

A smile makes its way on your lips as you reply “the second option please” A nod from her confirms it as she turns back towards the bartender ordering more shots.

About 6 more shots and a few drinks later you found yourself on the dancefloor with Rebe grinding her back against you and some girl that you forgot the name of behind you. Your phone buzzes in your back pocket causing the unnamed girl to lean forward and shout over the music “Your phones going off!” Nodding your head in acknowledgement you take your phone out unlocking it only getting a glimpse of Lucrecia’s name across the screen before Rebeka leans backwards grabbing the phone and dropping it into her bra.

“Hey-” before you could even begin to protest, she shouts “No y/n, we’re getting fucked and dealing with this tomorrow remember?” This is all it takes to shut you up before you grab her hips and pull her further into you in agreement.

—

Waking up to a pounding in your head wasn't the morning that you'd expect when you got ready to leave for the club last night. But alas here you were laying upside down in Rebeka’s bed the other side vacant.

Slowly rising, taking caution to moving too fast you get off the bed and make your way downstairs after checking you were decent in the mirror. Getting to the bottom of the stairs, making your way into the kitchen you see Rebeka and her mum sitting at the kitchen counter with a jug of orange juice on the table as well as a big plate of toast and fruits.

“Buenos días hermosa! “Rebeka’s mum calls out to you causing you to flinch as her voice seemed to make your hangover worse. “Oh, right sorry, it must have been a long night” She revaluates her words and volume, taking note of your flinch.

(Good morning beautiful)

Raising an eyebrow towards Rebeka you ask the silent question getting the reply “no, no we didn't do anything last night” With your shoulders falling down in relief she retaliates “Hey! Don't look so relieved you’d be lucky to have me” Chuckling to yourself you reply.

“Of course, I would.” Looking down, patting down your pockets you ask “hey, have you seen my phone anywhere?” Extending her pointer finger to the corner of the table furthest from you, you see your phone.

“I don't know if you even want to open it, Latino barbie went a bit mad spamming your phone last night, it might have been after she saw us leave together but otherwise, I’m unsure”

Eyes widening you unlock your phone finding about 20 messages from Lucrecia all asking about your whereabouts and why you left with Rebe.

“Joder” you say locking your phone placing it face down on the table.

(Fuck)

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Sunlight had vowed to be your sworn enemy this morning as you got out of the car, Rebeka getting out behind you and handing you a pair of sunglasses which you were grateful for.

“I told you you'd need that spare uniform you left at my place sometime” She straightens out her skirt looking you up and down in your maroon pants and matching school blazer, shirt and tie.

Rolling your eyes, you move ahead of her making your way across the bridge into the school deeply dreading running into Lucrecia, as you knew if you did you probably wouldn't have the energy for your daily facade.

Walking into the classroom you immediately wanted to walk out but whilst turning to do so you bump into Samuel causing you to turn back into the classroom and sit next to Rebe rather than your normal seat behind Carla y Lucrecia.

(y-and)

“Aye, hermosa you're in my seat!” Valerio’s voice booms out from the front of the class and immediately you want to be swallowed by the ground beneath you. Lucrecia turning round in her seat, starts beckoning out for you but the headache that’s enslaved you causes you to ground yourself further into your arms. Rebeka’s hand moves upwards and downwards rubbing circles on your back.

(Hermosa – beautiful)

“Right, Ms Lucrecia I’m going to need you to stop calling for y/n like she’s a dog and leave her alone, at least until break, Por favor. And Valerio you can just take y/n’s seat” Rebe calls forward addressing the stepsiblings

“Narco since when did you speak for y/n, I’m sure her mouth works” Lu retaliates ignoring the glare Rebe gives her focusing on you as your head peaks out and all you say is

“Not today, Lu, Por favor” The positioning of your head causes the words to come out muffled, but she must’ve gotten the message as she turns around, scowl on her face. A small tap on your back from Rebeka clearly commends you for the decision.

(Por favor – please)

—-

Class finishes and your first instinct is to grab your things and leave before Lu catches up, but it seems she had the same idea, as she’s up before you standing in the doorway, blocking you from leaving.

“And where do you think you’re going? “She questions looking you up and down, choosing to ignore the clear distasteful look you were sporting.

“I have another class soon- “

“It’s in an hour, we both have the same class next.” She interrupts, as you hear Valerio chuckle from behind you. Informing you that everyone can hear the conversation.

“Look, to be honest I’m tired, hungover and I really don’t want to deal with your shit right now. Can I just get past?” Clearly obnoxious to the current situation you hear Valerio laugh even louder making a few comments to Rebe which you're sure you’ll find out about later.

Lu takes a step back sending a dirty look to Valerio then grabbing at your wrist pulling you towards the girls bathrooms clearly uncaring if you run into people behind her. Due to this your left sprouting apologies left and right in response to the looks you get. Some even give you sympathy looks once they see who's pulling you.

Making her way into the bathroom with you in tow she kicks out anyone that was in there and locks the door behind you.

“What the fuck was that about Y/n?” She turns around giving you a look that makes you pray for the ground to open up and swallow you whole.

“I could be asking you the exact same question Lucrecia, you don't seem to have any consideration for other people. Though that wasn't really a surprise to me” you say the last part under your breath, though by the look on her face you can tell she heard.

“What’s gotten into you- “

“What’s gotten into me is that I’m finally done with your bullshit, you can’t use me as a failsafe every time that your advances on Guzman go wrong” Your head starts pounding a reminder of the hangover you were still nursing but regardless you keep going, “ The guy doesn’t want you and I did, I wanted you, I gave you everything you deserved Love, Comfort and more. Yet every time you were done with me you went right back to him. I knew this yet it took someone else saying it for me to finally get it in my head.”

Her face drops at your use of the past tense

“Did…” she asks “Did?” she asks again anger rising in her voice as she get louder “Is this about Narco… did you fuck her!”

“Wait, what… did you listen to a word I just said, it’s you, you’re the issue-”

“You still haven’t denied it” Your head tilts in question “After the party last night, did you fuck Rebeka?”

Your brows raise in disbelief at the accusation, but you decide to keep her guessing, avoiding the question again “Can you hear me, Lucrecia? The issue isn’t with who I’m fucking or who I’m not fucking it’s about how you’re messing with me, you know how I feel and yet you can’t give me a straight answer.”

“Feelings were never involved in this, I thought you knew that?”

You feel your heart break at this, looking her in the eyes trying to find the lie in her words but all you see is her looking back at you with a sure look on her face. You take a step back approaching the door, unlocking it.

“Ok, cool… Don’t contact me please, I hope you're happy, But I guess you won't be until you realise that it's never gonna be with Guzman.”

Getting out of the bathroom, tears gathering in the corners of your eyes, you make your way to your previous classroom. Entering the room, you see everyone conversing and get quieter seeing you, clearly indicating they were talking about what was going on between you and Lucrecia. Despite this you walk up to Rebe mid conversation with Samuel and tap her on the shoulder.

As if recognising the tears threatening to fall, she goes to ask you how it went but you interrupt

“Can we go back to yours?” you ask quietly “She’ll probably turn up at my house later because I asked her not to call.”

“Anything to blow off school… and also to help you out clearly something happened with her” She initially grins before realising and replacing it with a soft smile.

Rolling your eyes, you grab her hand and her bag leading her out of the classroom not before Valerio calls after you

“Can I join?”

Disgust takes up your face sending him a look that shuts him down then continuing your way out of the class and down the halls. Just as you reach the main entrance you bump into Lu falling back into Rebe, her hand holding your waist steady. She goes to insult you for colliding with her before she realises it’s you.

Looking you up and down for any discrepancies she may have caused she goes to apologise before she sees Rebeka’s hands still on your waist. This stops her as her look hardens and she stalks past not before barging Rebe’s shoulder.

You shake your head taking her hand back into yours leading her out of the school towards the car.

“What was that about? I mean aside from the obvious hate she has for me, it seems it’s gotten worse” She questions.

Begrudgingly, you answer

“She thinks we fucked”

AN- started off inspired by this song but it kinda goes off it i left the song there if you still wanna listen.

#elite #elite x fem!reader #elite netflix #elite x reader #elite fanfic #lucrecia montesinos #lucrecia x reader #alec benjamin #the way you felt #angst i guess #Venusflytrpp #Spotify

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muffledexplosion162 · 5 days

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YES FINALLY I HAD ENOUGH MOTIVATION TO MAKE A SLIGHTLY ANGSTY ANIMATION

Augh FlipaClip watermark

#fan character #ava oc #fan oc #ava ocs #2d animation #animation #angst i guess #ava agent smith #ava striker #ava pivot #oc art #digital art

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effervescentdragon · 1 year

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lefrères (or charles ship of your choice) + "where we're from, there's no sun"

The world ends on a Thursday. It isn't even a special Thursday, it's just a random Thursday like any other, nothing special about it, and somehow that makes it even worse.

They are together, all three of them, out and enjoying the first rays of spring sun. Lorenzo holds Arthur's hand in his left, and Charles' in his right, and the two of them are both eating ice-cream. Lorenzo sees that they both have more ice-cream on their faces than they should, but he isn't annoyed. They look ridiculous, his brothers, and he's laughing along with them as they walk to the edge of the pier in the Monaco marina. Lorenzo is laughing as he sits down and pulls the tissues from his pocket to start wiping his brothers' faces, but he also feels restless. The water underneath them isn't moving, and the sky is clear, but there is a feeling of anticipation in the air. Or maybe that's just Lorenzo overthinking, as he is prone to do. The sea is calm, the waves barely there, and that makes him uneasy for some reason.

"I can wipe my own face," Charles says to him when he's done with Arthur. "I'm a big boy now, Lolo."

Arthur is throwing pieces of his cone into the sea, hoping to see some fish, and Lorenzo nods at Charles and gives him the tissue. Charles manages to make even a bigger mess of himself, but before Lorenzo can intervene, Arthur is suddenly moving closer to him and clutching his hand.

"Lolo, why is the sun going away?" he asks, and Lorenzo snaps his head up. The waves below them start rising, and a disquiet fills the air. The seagulls are screaming somewhere, and they sound too close to the way humans scream. Lorenzo feels Charles' hand clutch his forearm.

"Lolo," Charles whispers, half-scared but still half-curious, pointing towards something in the distance, something that looks big, too big, and unnatural. "What is that?"

Later, Lorenzo will find out just what kind of destruction the thing in the water is capable of. (Total.) Later, Lorenzo will know the full scope of what they are about to lose. (Everything.) Later, Lorenzo will find out the thing's name. (Kaiju.)

But that will all come later. Now, as the world ends on a random Thursday in March, Lorenzo takes his brother's hands, pulls them up from the pier, where the water levels are rising too rapidly for it not to be a sign that something very bad is about to happen, and calmly, deapite his pounding heart, says, "Run."

(Years later, when Charles is on the way to piloting a Jaeger of his own and Arthur is following in his footsteps, as he always did, Lorenzo will come an visit them during training. He will wait for his brothers against a wall, and he will see them exiting the training grounds. He will see a young, gangly man walking with them, and will see him ask something, too far away to be heard. He will observe the way his brothers look at each other and recognize the look from the day when the world ended on a pier in Monaco, and he will see the way Charles nods with a smile that doesn't ever reach his eyes anymore, and he will hear Arthur say matter-of-factly "Where we are from, there is no sun," and he will dig his nails into his palms and close his eyes, because if Charles and Arthur were too young to remember the times when Monaco was the brightest jewel in the light of the sun, Lorenzo wasn't. He won't say anything, though. It will not be his place to remind them of something that will never be, again.)

#im sorry katie im in a mood xD #another pacific rim au #lefrères #f1 rpf #effervescentdragonwrites #my writing #angst i guess

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