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vixensmart · 11 months

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Bucci Gang Goes to Halloween Horror Nights

A/N: A sort of sequel to my La Squadra scenario. This one is for the Bucci Gang hoes...

Warnings: Language

Bruno Bucciarati

Bruno doesn't seem like one to go to theme parks or events such as Halloween Horror Nights. In any case, he offered to go with you because he loves you so goddamn much, he just wanted to spend time with you.

Bruno isn't too startled by the scare actors jumping out at him. If anything, he'll jump slightly, but he's not too bothered. He does find it amusing when you get scared, and grab onto him for protection. He'll wrap an arm around you and try to guide you away from whatever jumps at you.

You both alternate who goes first into the houses. Bruno will go first into one, and you'll go first into the other. Truthfully, Bruno likes it when you go first, because he thinks it's funny when you get scared and bump into him. If you go first, Bruno will hold onto your hand or place a hand to your shoulder. If Bruno goes first, he has you hold onto his waist, or his hand. He's not worried he might lose you, he just likes the physical contact.

Everybody thinks Bruno is the mom of the group, and I believe Bruno would mother hen the shit out of you during the event. "Have you eaten anything?" "Are you hungry?" "Drink some more water." He'll be ensuring you don't neglect yourself during the night. He'll eat the food, or have a drink with you, but he'll be worrying over you for most of the night. He will definitely make sure you drink plenty of water and eat a bit between houses to keep your energy up and make sure you're not dehydrated.

Bruno appreciates the shows, as they give him a second to chill out. He thinks they're very well put together, but they're a little loud for him, so he prefers to sit further from the stage to enjoy them.

When you reach home and collapse into bed, Bruno is exhausted, but satisfied. Though walking through horror movies wasn't exactly his idea of fun, he's glad to have spend the night with you.

Leone Abbachio

Leone isn't going to bring up the event to you, but he did want to go. Badly. He waited for you to express interest in going to the event, which he agreed to with his usual grumpy demeanor. He's totally not excited, totally.

Leone has learned a little trick to not being targeted by scare actors, and you pick it up shortly after entering the park. Leone will make direct eye contact with the actors around him, which makes the actors lose the element of surprise. Thus, they're less likely to scare him. Though a few do sneak up on him and catch him by surprise, he doesn't get jumped at much. Whenever he is startled, he'll simply lean away from whatever is in his space. If you're next to him, he'll pull you in and walk away. Congratulations, you have scary dog privileges for the night. Enjoy it while you can.

He'll be all about sampling the drinks they have for sale in the park, especially if they're selling a wine he hasn't tasted before. He won't get drunk, but he might get a little tipsy. He's not too interested in the food, but he does find some of the items they sell amusing (i.e. that fucking "maggot"-covered corn dog). Leone will most certainly buy something that has the year of the event on it, like a wine glass. He won't be using that glass, though.

In the houses, Leone will always go first. He won't let you in front. He says it's because he knows you'll freeze and hold up the line, but he really wants to go first because he wants to take his sweet time looking at everything. And I mean everything. He'll slowly make his way through the house and check out all the scenery and decorations. He's fascinated. He loves how real all the props look, and if it's based on a movie, he's comparing the scenery to the movie's set and how accurate the recreation is. So, he'll be much to preoccupied to "protect" you from the Michael Myers behind the bush while he's trying to decipher if the mask's wear and tear matches that of the film's.

Leone is a big fan of the shows. He enjoys the elaborate choreography and the special effects they use in the more gruesome ones. The shows provide him with a moment to rest his legs while enjoying some fine entertainment.

Leone won't admit that he had as much fun as he did. He'll simply tell you he had a good night, and you'll both go to bed. While you're fast asleep, though, Leone is planning next year's trip.

Pannacotta Fugo

Fugo wasn't super interested in going. How you managed to get him into the event is a miracle even to you. Nonetheless, there he is, mumbling as the attendants scan his ticket to the event and he walks through the gate with you.

Fugo gets aggressive when he gets scared. Fight or flight? He picks fight. You have to remind him not to punch the scare actors if they come at him. He doesn't exactly want to ruin your night, but he did seriously debate decking that zombie. Fugo stands his ground when he's jumped at, and kind of shields you from whatever did the jumping. He resists the urge to fight, but just for tonight. Just because you're apparently having the time of your life.

In the houses, Fugo takes on the role of going first into the chaos. If you offer, he'll let you go first, but he'll still be trying to protect you from behind. He has his hands on your shoulders if he's behind you, taking on the signature Horror Nights Conga Line approach. If he goes first, he wants your hands on his arms. He thinks it will stop him from swinging at the actors. To substitute for his fists, Fugo hurls curses at everything that jumps at him. You learn a few new words to add to your vocabulary that night.

Fugo prefers watching the shows over being in the houses. Though there's a lot of people watching them, it's better than being stuck in a tight maze that you can barely see through. Though he's not too interested in the subject matter, he likes to watch them with you.

He's up for trying the food, but he's not too interested in eating much. He doesn't want to get sick while he's walking around and getting scared.

At the end of the night, Fugo is just happy that you had a good time. He'll be grumpy about it for a bit, but he did have a little fun "protecting" you from all the zombies and monsters you encountered. At least you know that if a slasher ever broke into your house, Fugo will be there to throw the first punch.

Narancia Ghirga

Narancia was the one who expressed the desire to attend the event. He practically begged you to go with him, saying that it would be fun. He didn't have to beg you to go, because you were already wanting to go, but, it was still cute to see.

When something jumps at you, Narancia screams, but then he laughs. He also laughs at you when you get chased by a chainsaw-wielding actor, and then nearly pisses himself when the same happens to him. You find out that Narancia laughs when he gets scared or is nervous, which is a riot in the houses. He also has the habit of telling those ghouls and monsters jumping out at him to "Stop it".

Narancia isn't interested in sitting down and watching a show, so you head straight for the houses. In the first house you go into, Narancia goes in front. He's pretending that he'll protect you from whatever comes at you guys. Keyword: pretending. The first thing that jumps out at him makes him retreat behind you. He will use you as a human shield from everything that comes at you in that house. He's grabbing you by waist and peeping over your shoulder at every corner, not sure whether to cry or shout. He may be scared, but he assures you after the houses that he's fine and he was just coughing or stepped on something. He totally wasn't screaming back there. You didn't hear a scream. That was the audio.

Narancia is all about trying the food at the event! He enjoys sitting down with you and enjoying the strange but tasty snacks you find in the stalls and in the stores. The both of you will have a seat in one of the areas where you won't be jumped at, and enjoy whatever you picked out. He'd like to share something with you if you'll indulge him.

You both have had plenty of fun when you head home for the night. As you pull on your pajamas and climb into bed, Narancia reflects on the night as he falls asleep. Even though he was thoroughly terrified, maybe it wasn't such a steep price to pay to have so much fun.

Guido Mista

This motherfucker was so down to go with you to Halloween Horror Nights. He thought it would be the perfect thing for you to do together. You'd get scared, and he'd get to be the big macho man and protect you.

Then that demon lunged at him and he about pissed his pants. He grabbed you like a lifeline, looking like he really thought it was about to end right there. After taking a second to compose himself, he laughed about it. Then something jumped at you, and he laughed harder.

You both spend the entire night laughing at the other getting scared. Mista gets chased with a chainsaw? There are tears in your eyes. You freeze up and scream at a zombie? Mista is losing it behind you. Both of you alternate between who goes first into the houses because neither of you really care who goes first - you're both getting the shit scared out of you at some point in there. The both of you are holding hands through the whole house, making sure you don't lose each other in your amusement. If Mista goes first, he's liable to try and drag you in front of him for his own amusement. Be prepared, he does it in the dark when you can't see what's going on.

Like Narancia, Mista is all for trying the food and the drinks. He likes to sit down with the food and watch the other people walking by get scared. It's amusing to him. Talk about dinner and entertainment. Of course, he's interested in all the wacky snacks and treats, and wants to try all of them. He definitely gets one of the blinky-glasses to remember the night by and to totally brag that he went to HHN and wasn't scared at all.

Mista isn't too into the shows. He'd rather be in the mazes with you, getting lost in all the action. But if you want to watch one, he'll sit through it with you. He comes to enjoy the music and the dancing, but it's nothing compared to the thrill of the houses.

The both of you end up collapsing into bed, with barely enough energy to pull off your clothes. Though you're both tired and your voices hoarse, you've had plenty of fun that night, and Mista would really like to go again next year, if you'd like.

Giorno Giovanna

Giorno wasn't exactly sold on going with you to Halloween Horror Nights. He didn't exactly think getting jumped at and harassed sounded like a great date night idea. Of course, it took some convincing on your part. But, Giorno finally agreed to go with you to the event.

When something jumps at you, Giorno moves in front of you. He acts as your shield. Giorno appears to be able to tell when a scare actor is about to strike, even if he can't see them coming. And when something does come at you, there's Giorno, taking the scare for you. But, Giorno's not really scared. These kinds of things don't really bother him. If anything, Giorno is a bit annoyed at all the jumping and shouting. He is pretty interested in the costumes though, especially the ones that involve stilts.

If you express that you want to go first into the houses, Giorno will be a bit surprised. Why would you want him behind you? How is he supposed to protect you from there? But he realizes soon enough that you enjoy being scared, and he'll let you go first into a couple houses. If you're going first, he'll have a hand on your waist or your arm to keep track of you. If Giorno goes first, he makes sure you're grabbing his shoulders or his arm. Giorno, like in the scare zones, will protect you from whatever jumps out at you, even if you're in front of him taking most of the scare.

Sitting down with food and drinks is a nice change after getting frightened. He prefers to go someplace relatively quiet to eat, or he'll eat while watching a show with you. He's curious about the shows and all the crazy things they do, like the dancers hanging from the top of the stage, or the way the actors "die" on stage.

Giorno is tired, but he's glad he spent the night with you. You may fall asleep as he's brushing your hair and making sure you're comfortable. Though he is tired, it takes him a bit before he does fall asleep. He'd consider doing it again, but he's not incredibly into the idea.

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crp-low-quality-content · 9 months

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My experiences from shifting to a realistic creepypasta reality.

i'm gonna tell you guys about my shifting experience to a REALISTIC creepypasta reality. Remember that you have to at least be 14 or 16 to read this because there are very messed up and disgusting stuff in this post, and most things look like it came from a the boys episode so DON'T READ IT if you're too sensitive to this stuff.

And a reminder that english is not my first language

One day me and smile dog made a bet about something i don't remember much, but he lost and i made him dress like paw patrol for a week.

once I had a mission in an abandoned factory and I hadn't to kill anyone just rob an item there, but there was criminals in there and an innocent man, so I decided to save him, which was extremely hard for me but he ended running from me frightened because of me... and he ran to a avenue where a truck ran over him.

one day masky made me mad, so I sneaked into Toby's room and extracted his cum on the floor and put it in masky's coffee.

I had a crush on Dr smiley once so I decided to write him a letter confessing to him. but the letter ended up in Slenderman's hands and later he told me he felt the same.

During a phase of my childhood when I was 7 years old, I had a kitten, and one day my cat had disappeared and I had been very sad, so my mother had prepared a meat soup to cheer me up, and when I had finished eating she showed me a piece of my cat's head and said: "was it good?". And then she laughed.

When i was a normal human in my 14s i had an encounter with a zalgo's prophet on Omegle's and they said that they were coming to me, so i thought that if i acted weird in my webcam they wouldn't come. So i started to do wild animal noises and pissed myself.

The prophet or zalgo's proxy, didn't came to get me so it worked.

one day I was in my real form, when I saw a girl with black hair wearing a white sweatshirt that I thought was Jeff, so I started following her, until she turned to me and screamed: "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?" and threw pepper spray on my face.

I've already eaten a piece of Jack when he had an accident and was on the operating table, so they removed a piece of meat from his ribs that was very damaged and hanging and left it on a tray next to him. I was passing in the corridor and when I looked inside the operating room I saw the piece of meat on the tray and that Dr. smiley had gone out to get something, I sneaked in, took the piece and ate it and left the room.

I don't know what came over me, but at least it was good.

I found out that he regenerates, so this accident was no big deal.

One day I'd been bullied by everyone in the mansion, so i "accidentally" dropped some drug in the soup i was making and the people there ended up eating it, and everyone, except the ghosts, went high. And i got punished for it.

One day I made pasta (not a Creepypasta) as dinner and everyone who ate got sick and almost shit themselves. And again I've got punished and gone to the mansion's dungeon.

One day the proxy trio humiliated me in front of everyone, and i wanted revenge so i posted anonymously a hentai of them three in the mansion's web, and everyone who had phones saw it.

I dated Jack for a while there, and he started to like me to the point where he revealed his face to me. When he did that I realized he was so ugly that I almost cried when I kissed him. After about two weeks I broke up with him.

during my first Christmas in the mansion I saw offenderman using the Christmas turkey to do things u know what... but I was too shy to tell anyone, so during the dinner everyone ate the turkey, except me.

During a mission me and some proxies were discussing a plan and soon we got to a part that involved opening degrees, so I made a joke telling masky to open my legs 180 degrees and I got punished for it.

Note: proxies have a higher ranking than other creepys or lone rangers as they're called there, so you can't disrespect them at all

I already made at least 3 people go to a mental institution.

One day i got to knew about Jeff's and Liu's parents, so while Liu was very drunk i called him on a caller ID and i did my best mom impression voice to say: "it's me Liu, your mother, and I'm coming back for you." While playing hell background noises.

when i was 8 i hated clowns with all my forces but one day i had the bad luck to laughing jack find me. i hated him too much but i was good in not showing it, so one day I've set fire on him and Lucky that my mother found out about my "friend" and got rid of him.

my mother was a witch in that reality.

One say i fell out of my bedroom's window and broke a few bones, and i was brought to the medical office of the mansion and explained what happened to me to nurse and and she just said: "skill issue".

Of course, these are the funniest and light stuff that happened to me. Going to this reality just messed with me, and I'm still scared of some things, but my mental state is fine there's nothing to worry about me.

#creepypasta #shifting #reality shifting #dr smiley #eyeless jack #jeff the killer #masky #ticci toby #slenderman #zalgo #nurse ann #smile dog #homicidal liu #weird

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illarian-rambling · 3 months

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Thanks for the tag @mysticstarlightduck!

Oc in 15

Well, I'm still on my Honor's Outcasts kick, so let's get in protag number 3, Izjik (Ižik) Meautammera! For most of this book, she's the backseat driver to a godeater who's taken over her body, so a lot of this dialog is her talking to it. Telepathy is indicated with <>

<They’re Skysheerians, like that hot doctor chick back on Fabeail. Huh, I wonder how she's doing? Spirits, I faked at least five migraines back there just to see her. I reckon she thought i was a medical mystery. >

"Don't shit your britches, let me get some recon in first. ...Alright, I am done, but not because you told me or anything."

"My name is Izjik Meautammara and I'm not at all wanted by the wealthy Devaris family of Unity. They won't give you money for my safe and unconscious return."

"What I am is End's avatar. It speaks to me, it controls my actions when it wishes. I have killed spirits and Chosen under its command. Immortality shatters beneath my washava. I've come here to ask for your help in our ultimate endeavor; destroying the gods and all life on this planet. You, your kid, your dog---it'll all be dead and gone. So, uh, who's with me?"

"Silly stories are my favorite."

<Farewell, Chosen of the Nabafyrian ancestors. Kavity ek biryo torip. Atak viyu. I... I'll remember those words. A man deserves to have his last words remembered. A man deserves to not have his temple desecrated either. A man killed in cold blood deserves vengeance on his behalf.>

<Don't you fucking dare! Unless you want to be on bed rest for the rest of the year because you shattered my damn legs, you're going to climb your happy ass down that ladder like a normal person.>

"That's fine. All I need is a dagger. I don't care if that fucker's unkillable---I'll find a way."

"And stay out! Out of my head! Off this fucking planet! Come back and I'll kill the rest of you! I'll rip a bloody hole in the sky!"

"I razed her temple, killed her friends. Fucking hell, the least we can do is give her a ride."

"I, uh, don't know much about god-stuff. Maybe that makes me a shitty vessel of primordial evil, but that's ok."

I'll tag @haunted-orange @the-octic-scribe @hallowedfury and @autism-purgatory!

Have a bitchin day <3

#for full effect read these in a southern drawl #writing #writerscommunity #writblr #my ocs

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vengeancect · 6 months

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i don't really have thoughts anymore. just endless degraded feedback, like scrolling through a timeline forever. there's like a 1% of barely functional half-awake suicidal ideation buried under 99% corrupted unconscious junk data. i spend every day twitching and mumbling like a coma patient while replaying memories of watching videos or streams, little soundbites from movies or games, recycling them in my brain and pretending they're mine and i made them. it's always too loud, sleeping is hard. i try very hard to come up with any original thought or concept and even if i do it's impossible to do anything, gets eaten by the noise. my brain just ping-pongs between "i really wish sex weren't real" and "i wanna blow my brains out" as i drool all over myself and think about playing a video game (not actually doing it of course). there's only so many adjustments and corrections i can make to the same old stupid fantasies. i've eaten myself to the bone. i think about killing my parents a lot, especially my dad. i'm paranoid and jumpy all the time, my heart rate is way too fast, i hate the sound of thunder and rain hitting our roof and our dog barking and my parents old people yelling at each other. i don't have a job or education (though i did try to get them a few times over the last 2 years thank you very much!) and probably won't have one for the rest of my life. i won't be able to take care of my parents when they get old, i might even die before them due to my awful lifestyle

now that i think of it that period in 2019 where i went around actually making an effort to learn suicide methods was probably the most autonomy i've exercised in my entire life. i went outside a lot, learned how to buy things online, how to tie knots, put a lot of "effort" in, but pussied out when the time came to make a plan. oh no i have to fast for a while? but then i'll have to talk to my mom about it, and maybe reject a meal! and now, somehow, over 4 years have gone by. i don't know what to do about that. when i kept shopping for the stuff to kill myself with i was so unfamiliar with everything in the world that i had to keep googling to find out what a hardware store is. i had to check around everywhere i could for rope to buy, what kind of rope fits best. i would walk for miles into another city and then spend the entire time inside the store developing an alternate reality in my mind where i created an obscure japanese horror game from 1998. ordering shit online was mortifying and required weeks of planning just to hide it from my mom. a thing that everyone does every day was like a big autistic quest i had to bravely overcome. a year later i would learn how to turn a stove on and make grilled cheeses and it was like a revelation from god to the point where i'm legitimately nostalgic about it. (MAJOR UPDATE: just like last night i learned how to properly tie my shoes for the first time at age 24)

i had to write myself several unhinged reminders and memos like an amnesiac to remember how to tie a noose and do this or that. i shambled around two shopping malls like a tortured ape trying to find anywhere that sold kitchen scales, asking for the price and then leaving. i gave all these stores like 2 or 3 visits at least because i couldn't handle being unprepared for them. i had to talk to staff so many times, staff that were clearly my age, what an uncomfortable realization that was. i saw some disabled guy sitting at a mall cafeteria getting fed by his mom or aunt or whatever and thought "wow he's literally me…". i had to buy deadly chemicals from the internet and find a box to keep them stored in, then i had to get a padlock and key for it somewhere. then i'd walk to a random fuckin chemical storage facility because surely they'd sell me something right? then i would realize i've had my shirt on backwards for the past 2 hours. that Death Box is still there although very moldy. i want to use it but i know i won't, because i guess i don't have the mental fortitude necessary to commit suicide, and maybe never head 2019 was my 10th year being isolated. my most common thought back then was futility. that's all i could think about every time i walked back home. i am so far behind everything and everyone that even if i started "fixing myself" right now and giving it 100% it would still take another 10 years just to build a hollow resemblance of a normal life. i would "succeed" the same way that disabled guy at the mall succeeds at not choking to death on his food. the ever-present spectre of ngmi was now stronger and clearer than ever. nothing will change because nothing can. i was so desperate to die that i walked around a bunch of grassy fields trying to find a good angle and spot to do it where no one would find me. surrounded by bugs and wild horses. it didn't work. that was 4 years ago now. i can barely remember anything before that year (just to hammer the brainrot home even harder, this post was written over like two weeks while also copying another draft i'd written 4 months ago, then left to rot in my drafts for another month or two)

it's been 15 years since 2009. i guess that's when all of this "started" but it would be wrong to claim my isolation made me like this. this is just what i've always been. i am not a victim of neglect so much as a willing accomplice to it. i remember being 11 and browsing my grandpa's PC, looking up cheat codes or chemtrail videos or ytp's in his dark house and hearing the kids outside, seeing them to go school or back home, talking with their parents, and i'd think "hoo boy i hope this doesn't affect my life too hard!" i remember starting this blog july 2012, 11 years ago. i think i did it to follow some skype acquaintances and post "weird" stuff, trying to cobble a personality out of liking this or that insignificant media thing. everything i've ever done has always been a performance because i'm not capable of being real. trying to align this blog with my real thoughts only made it feel more forced and exponentially more painful because now various random people had access to my fragmented thoughts and could poke me with a stick whenever they wanted to skinner box my shit up. i awkwardly exposed myself to all manner of maladjusted weebs and soylennial irony nerds and blessedly ignorant normies and American art school gays, all of which i'm sure have now been subsumed into the workforce and developed conveniently docile, castrated lifestyles and philosophies as a way of preparing their brain for the horribly-but-sometimes-comfortably mundane rest of their lives. they'll get fat and lame but still act like they're 19, they'll try and fail to not become their parents. they'll breed and raise children and work as their brain is slowly dissolved in the murky primordial soup. they'll do all of that, and i'll still be here somehow. i'm just glad they're not pretending we're the same anymore. guess i should press post on this now

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memestockpile · 1 year

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dog day afternoon (1975) feel free to change as needed.

just go on talking, like nothing was happening, okay?

i’m getting real bad vibes.

just get away from me.

this is a fucking stickup!

if he moves, blow his guts out.

do what the gentleman says.

take the subway.

what the fuck you trying to do?

i must of been outta my mind.

i don’t wanna hurt nobody, but goddamn it, don’t you play no games with me.

okay, let’s get you on your way.

he’s going to kill us!

what are you crying for?

boy, i can’t trust a one of you.

look at this chickenshit!

don’t get any ideas, fucker.

see that man there? i bark and he bites!

you could watch your language.

i speak what i feel.

listen, calm down, huh? you’re gonna have a heart attack.

nobody move! freeze!

yeah, just a cigarette got in a wastebasket.

thanks for keeping an eye out.

we gave you every nickel we got.

if there’s no cops around, we just split.

it’s not a joke. i got this terrible fear of being locked in.

we got you completely by the balls.

it’s the cops. shit!

what? oh, girlie, please.

what a fucking comedy!

i’ll kiss the baby for you.

you got kids?

i got connections.

the fucking cops’ll shoot you, they don’t give a damn.

forty-two people they killed, the innocent with the guilty.

the cops don’t like it in the papers when they kill a mother, especially if she’s got young kids.

i made an error in judgment.

give me a name, any name, just so i got something to call you.

you think you’re dealing with an idiot?

when i’m being fucked, i like to be kissed a lot.

they wanna kill me so bad they can taste it!

i’m never going back to prison.

if we gotta be outside the country, where do you wanna go?

jesus christ is coming back and he’s really pissed.

i used to dope a lot.

i never been up in a plane before.

fuck you, sir.

somebody give me a cigarette.

you oughta take care of your body.

you know, you remind me of my brother.

you’re in it up to your ass.

i don’t know what to say to him.

you got guts.

don’t even talk about death to me.

i have no friends elft. no job. i can’t live.

maybe i’ll just close my eyes and this whole fucking thing will be over.

you’re warped, you know that? you’re really warped!

they’re a bunch of crazy people there.

don’t listen to that shit!

you said a mouthful, sweetheart.

i notice you been tense, like something is happening.

will you shut your fucking mouth and listen?

i couldn’t get a babysitter.

don’t try to act like you’re some angel of human kindness!

i like you people. i really do.

i want to apologize for my language back there.

he said the f-word.

my ears are not garbage cans.

god forbid i should say anything against that cunt.

i’m a fuckup and an outcast.

so long, copper.

don’t be scared.

i ain’t eaten all day. i just realized that.

i been dying to do this for years!

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sally-mun · 2 years

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Okay guys I came on here to answer a few pieces of mail BUT FIRST I want to vent about a couple movies I watched today.

For SOME reason (read: the state of the world today) I’ve been thinking a lot about Animal Farm, and thinking that I’d like to read it again. I read it in high school, but not as assigned reading; I just checked it out of the library because my brother had read it and talked about it a few times. It’s one of the few classics I don’t own a copy of myself, and maybe that should change because I do really want to give it another read now that I have an incredibly depressing real-world lens to view it through. (And if any of you out there haven’t read it, please do so, it’s not a long book and it’s very poignant.)

Anyway, all this thinking back about it reminded me that shortly after I graduated high school, I happened to see on the TV guide one day that a movie of it was just going off. I checked it out anyway just to see what it looked like, and it was surprisingly well-done in terms of visuals; for the most part it’s a pretty seamless mix of real animals, animatronics, puppets, and (sparingly used) CG. The one scene I got to watch looked pretty accurate to what I knew of the same scene in the book, and I had always intended to find the movie and watch the whole thing. It’s been years, but I still wanted to see it, so I did a search and found it, along with an animated version from the 50′s.

I watched them both today, and first and foremost I’ll say they both have a lot of good merits. The live action one is much more accurate to the book, but the animated one still hits the major important bullet points, and has a very different storytelling style. I think both of them do the job they set out to do, but the live action one pulls it off better (hard to imagine in the age of Disney live action remakes, right?).

HOWEVER... both movies shared a detail that I find to be a huge disservice to the story. They each ended with an extra scene that’s supposed to at least imply a happy ending of sorts. I understand that there’s an expectation in most filmmaking that stories like this end with some degree of victory/comeuppance/resolution, but even so I want to grab the filmmakers and SHAKE THE SHIT OUT OF THEM while yelling “Did you even READ the book??” The lack of a happy ending is a big part of the point the story is making. The moral of the book is effectively, “Be on the lookout for the rise of despots and fascism, because a lot of people not only won’t see it but will be convinced to support it, and at that point you’re pretty much stuck with it.” (Which, WHADDAYAKNOW, that’s basically what’s been happening in our country over the last several years!)

But yeah, in the live action version, they do a time jump and note that Napoleon’s regime pretty much collapses on its own while the animals that escaped just kinda watch from the sidelines, and then a new family comes in to take over the farm (and they’re all white and blonde so I guess that means they’re very very nice) and hope is restored. I hate this because when you pair it with the story’s message, it more or less suggests that fascism will go away if you just wait it out long enough, and then the NEXT person to swoop in to seize control will surely be better.

The animated one, meanwhile, ends with the farm’s animals (along with a bunch of farm animals from neighboring farms, who got word and joined in) leading a second rebellion and fighting back against the pigs to retake the farm. I suppose this one’s at least better than the live action one, but it also misses something really important: That there are going to be folks in the population that have completely eaten up the propaganda and not only WON’T fight back against their oppressors, but may even fight to defend them (or at the very least, sabotage the efforts of the resistance). And no, the dogs don’t count. Napoleon raised the dogs from puppies to be his personal attack squad, with no outside influence from the rest of the farm. They’re not even close to counting in terms of just regular, uninvolved citizens siding with their oppressors.

I gueeeessss the animated movie gets a little more of a pass on changing the ending because I have no doubt it’s meant to be a kid’s movie; its animation and narrative style is very reminiscent of older Disney movies, and it glosses over a lot of the violence to keep things appropriate. That said, tho, being animated is not an excuse to pull punches in and of itself (I’m looking at you, Watership Down), but it was made in the 50′s so it could’ve just been film standards that they had to meet at the time, who knows.

The live action one, on the other hand, came out in the late 90′s/early 2000′s (I forget when exactly) and doesn’t seem at all to be a kid’s movie. Yes, it’s a movie about talking animals, but the storytelling isn’t watered down for the consumption of a younger audience; I daresay that kids would find it boring, honestly, because it’s SO focused on its politics and lines up so closely with the book. If kids end up watching it, I think it’d be in that way where they’re just in it for the animals and don’t really get what they’re looking at. The movie is clearly aimed at adults (teens at the youngest) who can comprehend what the story is actually about. There’s really NO reason for the extra scene at the end to soften the blow. I honestly would’ve called the movie as good of a representation of the book as we’re going to get, if it just didn’t have that ONE EXTRA SCENE. If they’d just ended things on the culmination of Napoleon’s scheme for power, I would’ve been completely content and given it an A++. But THAT ONE, FFFFFFFUCKING SCENE!! It was so close!!

Anyway, that’s on my mind today. Like I said in the beginning, if you haven’t read Animal Farm before, PLEASE do so. And if books aren’t your cup of tea, the live action movie IS a very good adaptation! Just please ignore the epilogue that’s tacked on at the end for no reason.

#Animal Farm #not that I think anyone on Tumblr's really searching for hot new Animal Farm content but whatever I'm tagging it

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cas0214 · 1 year

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The Strongest

Chapter 9

A yuji itadori x reader fic

manga spoilers

Mother always said that showing people your feelings was a waste of time. That you should only show people what they want. Happiness. Nothing else.

You showed your dad the happiness he needed when he hit mother.

You showed your mother happiness when she cried in bed.

You showed Megumi happiness when he lost one of his dogs.

You showed Nobara happiness when she spilled something on her dress.

You showed Yuji happiness when he lost a fight.

You showed Sukuna that same happiness when he said some dumb shit.

You showed Satoru that same happiness when he cried about Suguru.

You showed Satoru happiness when he hit you.

You showed yourfather that happiness when he hit you.

Maybe if you didn't think that Satoru was your father maybe you would've been happy for real. Maybe you could've shown all of those feelings you have. Shown the sadness you have all bottled up. Shown that anger you had never shown people before. Maybe you could've had a different view on the mission you had.

The mission your father assigned to you.

To kill Satoru Gojo.

As he had failed to.

Forgot about it for a while. The thing is that you don't want to kill Satoru. You want to live with him again, have all those cheerful moments with him again. Where we forgot about the dark and dreadful world that we live in.

The laughs we shared throughout the years he's raised me. The way his arms wrapped around me when you cried. The way my arms wrapped around him when he cried. The giant smile he would wear when you got himKikufuku. The smiles we would wear when we dunked Nanami in red paint. The way he used his cursed technique to save me from the curse.

The way he sobbed when you wouldn't get up. With your blood all over his hands. The shock on Shoko's face when she saw you limp in Satoru's arms. She never wanted to say it, but she could feel the remnants of Satoru's Hollow Purple technique still there. Lingering inside your body. She needed him to understand that you can't handle all the training he's put you through.

Maybe that's why you forgot.

You could never kill your father.

But you could trap him.

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Why did I have to eat a finger that tasted like burnt cardboard. I guess if I didn't Megumi would be dead. He'd be a corpse on a cart, going into a grave just for him. The bright side of eating the finger was that I got the family I've always wanted.

Weird family but family none the less.

Gojo being my uncle. Nanami being my father. Megumi, Nobara and Maki being my siblings. Toge, Yuta being the cousins. Panda, well he's a panda.

All these people mean so much to me that I would hate for them to ever leave my side. Just how I don't wantthem to leave. The one that ran away.

I never remembered my father or mother. Always remembering the little things. Short black hair with what might have been stich-

"Hey, dumbass stay focused."

Right. I have a job to do.

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You knock on the door that you never had to knock on. That's why Grell is shocked to see you. You've always just barged in; like he does, without a care in the world.

He looks at you with a sad smile, a smile with pity laced between it. He opens the door wider, stepping aside so I can walk through it. You do, making a dash for his bedroom. You start by taking off your shirt and pants while you there, going to his closet to steel his shit.

He waits outside the door, knowing that you're getting changed and waits for you to finish. When you open the door, you're not looking him in the eyes, and he knows that tonight is a night where we don't talk.

He gently grabs you by the hand and slowly drags you to the living room, flopping you on it and throwing a blanket over you. While you're getting settled with the blanket and turning on the tv, Grell is in the kitchen making something.

He must know that you haven't eaten for what feels like a week but has only been a couple hours. He walks back in with food and drinks for the both of us. He sets the plate to be sitting on the coffee table and goes to move to lay behind you, spooning you, moving the blanket to cover us both.

His stupidly long arms move across you to grab the plate of food and balances it on our sides. As the movie plays, he keeps handing me bits and pieces of it and you slowly devourer the plate of food. His left arm is underneath your head with his right arm across your middle, drawing imaginary lines on 'your clothes'.

No words were said, none needed to be said. All the emotions we had for each other were displayed right here, on the expensive couch watching "The Princess and the Frog". All the pain we've had to endure went away, only for the day. Not even that, only for a couple of hours we had left.

The prison realm sitting only a couple feet away.

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The next couple of days have just been of you trying to avoid Yuji. After that little scene near the lake we haven't talked, not once. You can see the light in his eyes get brighter when he sees you, breaking your heart when you turn around and go the other way. You never see the way his arm is always out, trying to reach you, to touch you. But never being able to. The way he slowly puts it down and dragging himself to go with Nobara.

"You know it's kinda sad." Why is she always saying that to me.

"What is?"

"How much you like them, but they don't like you that much. It's just embarrassing seeing you pin after someone that barley acknowledges you."

"What's that supposed to mean?" I stopped in the middle of the empty street staring at her. Maybe it was embarrassing that I like them. Every time they see me, they run away.Again. Maybe they were right, I am nothing without Sukuna. I really am nothi-

"I mean that they don't care about you like that Itadori. They probably don't even like you as a friend. Only see you as a stranger." She stopped to look back at me with a calm look on her face. I take a step back.

"N-Np they like me. They do, I know they do." I can't tell if I'm trying to convince myself or her. I can see that sad look on her face again. She walks towards me and puts her hands on my shoulders.

"Look, I know it's hard to understand but look at the facts Itadori. They don't like you." She tells me without breaking eye contact.

"Why are you acting like you know what's going on in their mind!!" I exclaim while slapping her hands off me. "You don't know anythi-

"Can we just focus on the mission. We can talk about this later." She says while she starts to walk away.

"Fine"

O_O

You and Megumi are in his room studying for the 'test' that Grell is giving us. You never believed him but he's the teacher, surprisingly. You don't mind working with him but there's only one problem.........he won't stop staring at you.

"What?"

"Huh?"

"Why are you staring at me like that."

"I'm not."

"Yeah, you are. Stop it."

"I just don't get it." There it is. "Why you always leave when you see Itadori."

"I don't know what your talking about." You respond to him, not taking your gaze off your textbooks. You don't want to be having this talk to Megumi, to anyone really.

"Don't lie to me. We both know."

"Megumi please, I don't want to talk about this." I move my fingers to massage my temple, you could already feel the headache starting to form.

"Yuji is my friend, and I don't like him being upset."

"Oh, would you look at that. Megumi fucking Fushigiro having feelings. I didn't know you had those."

"Look I didn'y mean fo-"

"Then what do you want from me, huh. To say that I like him. No-No-No you want me to say that I love him, that I want him too always be around me. That I want him to hold me like someone never has before. Well, I don't want that. Never have. Never will." You turn to glare at him trying to see his reaction, but as always, his expression is unreadable.

"You do love him. We can all see it."

You turn away, you don't want to admit it. You pack up all your stuff, blocking out his voice of protests. When you walk away, he doesn't chase after you, you don't want him to. You do see his black demon dog following me though. Once it sees that you've noticed it, it stops hiding ang runs up to walk next to you. You knew he wouldn't just let you escape like that, but that little conversation still feels like a little itch in the back of your throat.

What does he mean by'we all know'?

Who's we?

Is 'we' Grell? Nobara? Maki? Toge?Him?

You don't think you could live with yourself if he knew.

#yuji itadori #yuji itadori x reader #gojo satoru #megumi fushiguro #maki zenin #toge inumaki #x reader #reader insert

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blueeyes-crystalskies · 3 months

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‪12/2/19, 7:20 PM ‬

(Five years ago now)

‪I guess this whole time it’s just kind of felt like, “what the fuck is point?” because I had a good life. I had a good support system. I had my mom, and my dad, and my sister, and my dog and I didn’t really care about anybody else. I used to feel like I had a best friend who understood me, but then she grew up and became a different person and stopped trying to understand me so she could start to understand herself. Which is fair, I guess. Except she stopped even asking me about me and started talking over me. It’s okay to dive deeper into yourself, as long as you don’t reflect that on the outside, too. As long as you share some air with people around you. ‬

‪Anyways. When it’s the holidays and everybody is home, I feel so full. Like I have everything I need. My mom takes care of us because she’s an angel and I really don’t have to do anything for myself besides basic grooming. She plans out our days. She feeds us. I tag along with whatever somebody else is doing. I don’t even have to fucking think for myself. ‬

‪And I know that’s wrong and I know I shouldn’t let her take care of me like that, but holy shit it feels so fucking good to be taken care of. I cannot stress enough how hard it is to even feed myself. I don’t know how everybody does it. I don’t know where they get the energy. ‬

‪And then I go back to my apartment and the ripped siding by my window scratches against my wall and keeps me up all night. There’s no coffee in the cupboard. There’s some food, but nothing good. Nothing I haven’t already made for myself a hundred times. When you’ve eaten the same thing a hundred times in a row, what’s even the point? I’d rather not even eat. Which I don’t. ‬

‪And then you also realize there’s no one around you to fill the silence. No one in the morning. No one to share the bathroom with. No one to accompany you on the ride to school. There’s people in your classes, but you feel alone anyways. ‬

‪I don’t like my friends. I don’t talk to my friends. And when I do, I feel deeply ashamed. When I do it’s just complaints and I hate myself more for complaining. ‬

‪I don’t see them outside of school because I want to push them away. My roommate is never home. We haven’t really spoken in three months and I’ve known her my entire life. We were so close last year. Now it’s just really quiet. Everything is so, so quiet. ‬

‪I feel like I’ve already lived a full life. The life I wanted. I don’t want to go off on my own anymore. I don’t want to fall in love because at this point I don’t think that exists for me. I can’t even keep a single friend that I like. ‬

‪I feel whole and real when I’m home with my family. Maybe not all the way full, but more than when I’m alone. I feel like I belong to something. And now we’re all getting old and my sister is in another state with her boyfriend and my dog will probably die soon. I haven’t known a father figure in my family that’s lived past sixty years old. Our house won’t always be there. ‬

‪What I’m afraid of most is the one person I really love leaving this earth. The one person who helped me through the hardest times in my life, who takes care of me without giving me reason to feel remorse. Who loves me unconditionally and will always love me unconditionally. My best friend in the entire world. I know she won’t be around forever. Being with her feels like being next to a ticking time bomb. That’s not fair to her. Though none of this is. ‬

‪I can pretend these wounds are healing with time and I can write about them a million more times but I don’t think this will ever change. Maybe in four days I’ll feel better for a little while again but what about after Christmas? What about next semester? What about after graduation? What about the rest of my life? ‬

‪Where does this leave me? When all of this is actually gone for good, what does that make me? Everything I love the most is so impermanent. And that’s so unfair. ‬

‪Each day takes me further and further away from the person I was. I know I wasn’t happy then either, but at least I was safe. At least I knew what was coming the next day and the next and I knew I’d never have to go through it alone. ‬

‪I just don’t know anymore. I just don’t know…

#from my notes #words #five years later #this one really hurt to reread #for so many reasons #poem #poetry

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neverluckygoldfish · 8 months

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*trigger warning - suicide, depression, substance abuse*

Today, I got discharged from a psychiatric hold & I feel weird. I wasn’t in there long enough to make me forget about my “normal life”, but it was enough to make me feel different. Maybe it’s just the leftover Seroquel or the fact that I’ve barely been able to eat - have barely eaten in a week. Or maybe it’s the fact that I saw some real shit and I am not sure what to make of it all.

I’m sitting in my bed & my husband/dog are in the other room. This is my safe place, right? I should be happy. I thought that if I didn’t get out of the hospital today, THEN I’d ACTUALLY lose my mind lol. I even started feeling slightly paranoid this morning - that the doctors and nurses all had these secret “tests” they are running and I wasn’t going to pass them….so I wasn’t going to get out.

And yet, I almost want to be back there because the anxiety is sitting on the edge of my periphery, waiting for a moment to creep back in. The shame, the guilt, the depression, the anger, the fear, the doubt, the hopelessness - magic ingredients for my homemade recipe of suicidal ideation and paranoid delusional thoughts. ;) Oh and can’t forget substance abuse to cope. Years of it!

Also, the psychiatrist threw in a little offhand “Have you ever heard of borderline personality disorder?”. Gosh, I sure can’t WAIT to unpack that!!!!!!

Anyway, that’s a little taste of how I got to this point. In the hospital it seemed so easy, the plan that my psychiatrist and I came up with to deal with all of the issues I’ve been ignoring for years. Now back home, I’m not so sure. Now back home, I just want to keep feeling numb.

I feel really antsy and uncomfortable. But also I’m happy I’m here today…

HAHA ok nah fuck that, I just said that because it is “what I’m supposed to feel”.

But, honestly? I feel terrified of my life looming in front of me. I see the person I want to be, the person I could be….vs the person I am right now. I just want to see the steps of how I get from point A to point Z so I can…..believe that I can get there? So I can see the proof that I will. So I stop feeling like I missed out on the secret sauce that everyone else seems have been given. The one where they can live a fulfilled life. The one where they believe in their purpose. The one where they HAVE a purpose. The one where they aren’t living a seesaw life of extremes.

I’ll make it a point to end these with one thing I am grateful for/one thing that brings me a glimpse of happiness:

This whole mess forced me to tell/show my mom the truth. And she wasn’t disappointed in me or disgusted by me nor did she think “oh great, here’s my narcissistic & traumatic ex-husband all over again”. She didn’t run. She told me she loved me and that she will be there for me for whatever I need. So did my husband. I’ll take it.

Sincerely, I.

#depressing shit #mental health #mentally exhausted #mental illness #Depression #depression recovery #depression and anxiety #depression treatment

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servin-up-surveys · 1 year

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survey #145

New tats in your near future? I'm getting my coverup finished the 26th of this month. After that, I'm sure it'll be awhile.

How about piercings or re-piercings? Probably not, but I'd really like to.

Are there any rooms in your house that you don’t go into every day? Yeah, I don't always go into Mom's room and bathroom. I basically never go in the dining room, but it's not really a unique "room."

Who else do you know who has the same favorite color as you do? Idk off the top of my head, but pink is definitely a popular favorite color.

Have you ever had a tattoo covered up or added to? That's what's going on with the one I mentioned in the first question. I want two more coverups, though. One is just in a bad spot and I want to redesign it and put it elsewhere, but the other is another attached to a person I can't stand anymore.

Have you ever kissed someone who has previously kissed someone you hated? Once upon a time, yes; Jason's first real gf was Rachel, who I had a very hard time with in high school because she got extremely jealous of Juan pursuing me over her (she literally threatened me), and then she had stuff to say about me having a thing for her "leftovers" when Jason and I got together. I have no problem with her now, we're actually friends on Facebook that have talked and interact, she's great; people grow and I'm not going to keep her leashed to shit she did in high school.

Do you have any relatives with red hair? No, not that I know of. My maternal grandmother dyed her hair a mild red for as long as I can remember, but it wasn't naturally that color.

What is tomorrow’s weather forecasted to be like? Weather app is saying between 63-80*F with an 80% chance of thunderstorms.

[TW: SUICIDE] Have you ever known anyone who committed suicide? She was an online friend so could never verify, but I pretty fucking confidently believe she did. I know of other people.

What’s some of the worst pain you’ve ever felt? Having a very infected cyst drained, a hemorrhoid, breaking my wrist, healing from a concussion...

What’s your favorite kind of pasta? Normal spaghetti with marinara sauce, and meatballs are a good addition.

Would you rather a friend come over to your house or you go over there? Go there.

Have you ever had rabies? No. I remember doing an essay on it in high school though, so I learned a lot about it... not that I remember almost any of it, lol.

Do you know anyone who ever had to get a rabies shot? Realistically I probably do. My sister Nicole was bitten badly by a dog once, but because he was a domestic pet with vet records I don't remember if she needed one, I don't know the protocol on that.

Ever eaten deer? Duck? Squirrel? How about lamb? I feel like while in Ohio I took the teeniest bite of deer jerky, but I don't totally recall, I know I was extremely reluctant. I'm quite interested in trying lamb though, just with its reputation of being delicious.

What is your favorite parody movie? I don't really have one, I think.

What is your least favorite ice cream flavor? I hate strawberry.

Does your car have heated seats? No.

Have you ever been tempted to steal? I think there was one occasion as a kid, but I didn't do it.

Would you rather travel to Ireland or Japan? Ireland.

Does tickling turn you on? NO

If you could go over to someone’s house right now, whose and why? Girt's, just because I wanna see him and hang out, but we will tomorrow.

What is the age gap between you and your parents? My mom is older by one or two years, I forget which.

How many bathrooms does your house have? Is this enough? Two, and yes.

Have you ever video-chatted with someone you met online? No, I've always hated video chatting with people I do know.

Do you collect anything, or have you ever? I've been collecting meerkat stuff since I was young, and I also have a decent chunk of Silent Hill stuff. I'd love to collect Rammstein stuff too, but that's definitely a pricier sort of collection.

When was the last time you used Facebook? Not long ago, I tend to check it a few times a day.

How many siblings does your best friend have? He has one older sister, also named Ashley like mine.

Have you ever dated someone who was emotionally or mentally unstable? Yes.

Be honest: are you clingy? I know I am, at least to a degree. Girt has told me though that he doesn't feel so, instead appreciating that I give him "him" time whenever he wants it (we're the kind of couple that can just straight-up tell each other no to hanging out that day just because we need private time and no one's offended at all), but I still know in my core that I'm a clingy person.

Have you ever had bronchitis? No, but I watched Jason suffer with it and I have NEVER heard coughs like those ever before or since, it was awful.

Have you ever had a reptile for a pet? I've had two lizards and three snakes.

Are you afraid of the dentist? VERY FUCKING MUCH, something that only became a thing in recent times because of neglecting my teeth for so long and now I'm paying for it. Now that PT is over, I want to get my wisdom teeth extraction scheduled (the one on my right has a cavity close to the nerve, so it needs out ASAP), but I am so, so scared, because we can't afford the cost to put me under anesthesia. I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna do it.

Did you attend Sunday School as a child? Only because I was forced to.

Who was the last person you cuddled with? Girt.

How would you feel if your significant other (or possible partner) told you they dislike having sex, but do so with you to make you happy, even though they personally think it’s a chore? I have no idea how I would react to this, honestly.

Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn’t around but their phone is. Do you look through it? No, that would indicate some core problems in our relationship. I trust him.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I'm pretty confident I will be, Girt and I are doing great.

Have you ever liked anyone that was in a relationship with someone else? Yeah. That was the case with my first real crush, and then with Jason after we split and he started dating someone else.

Do people ever compliment your eyes? Sometimes, mostly on pictures.

Have any of your exes ever given you roses? Jason and Tyler.

Do you think your last ex ever thinks about you? Not in a positive way.

Would you rather have salad or french fries for a side dish? Fries.

Which one of your relationships was the shortest? Juan, we dated for less than 24 hours lol, so he barely even counts.

Which was the longest? Jason, three and a half years.

Have any of your exes told you they regret breaking up with you? No.

Would you feel hurt if your last ex is in a relationship? Not at all.

Are you going to be getting any new pets soon? Very unlikely.

Do you like BBQ sauce? No, I actually hate it a lot.

What do you like to do when you’re home alone? I don't do much differently, honestly. I'll sometimes unplug my earplugs and listen to whatever without them, but that's it.

Should the guy always pay for the date? Absolutely not, I'm personally in favor of whoever planned it paying, but I also think taking turns is fair.

What kind of music calms you down? Generally my favorite songs, because they have fuller attention from me so I'm better distracted, and I also often resort to the Shadow of the Colossus or Silent Hill games soundtracks for this.

Do you know anyone who has autism? My niece does, a friend's daughter does, I'm sure a couple more, and I'm fucking FINALLY being evaluated for it myself soon.

What is your favorite way to eat eggs? I'll only eat them scrambled and very preferably with cheese, or as lil bits in fried rice.

Do you like Frozen? I've genuinely never gotten the appeal of it. The icy scenery and magic effects are cool, but that's the end of it for me.

Who is one of your heroes? My mom.

Do you enjoy hot chocolate? I do, but not when it's made with water, it's gotta be milk.

Do you use Instagram often? I browse it daily, but I don't post a lot.

If you got a kitten, what would you name it? It would depend on their gender and appearance.

Do you have a Pinterest account? Yes, it's full of photography inspo, hairdos and colors, tattoo inspo, and primarily Rammstein pictures now, lol.

Do you prefer a quiet or noisy environment? Quiet, excessive noise really stresses me out.

What is one question you don’t like being asked? What my job situation is.

Who is someone you know who is talkative? My nephew, haha. He goes a thousand miles an hour from the moment he wakes up to the moment he goes to sleep.

When was the last time you saw one of your uncles? When my grandma was on her very last leg and my Uncle Rob was driving her from Florida to New York; they stopped at a hotel for us to meet up. Now this uncle is the scum of the fucking earth that my family - even his own siblings - don't associate with anymore. His ass is going to end up in jail.

Do you know anyone who plays the violin? No, but that'd be dope.

Do your parents enjoy any of the things that you enjoy? Do you bond over these things? Both my parents (especially my mom) love metal and rock music, and my mother also enjoys writing, even though she doesn't do it a lot, though I wish she would! She wrote a poem semi-recently that she got me to look at and critique and it made me SO happy to see her creating, because she really does enjoy that, especially as crafts and crocheting. My dad likes video games, as do I.

Out of all your usernames for websites, which one is your favorite? Do you use it for more than one site? Ozzkat, which I use for a lot of places.

Have you ever spent the whole day (or multiple days) just looking up one thing on the internet (e.g., videos of your favorite band, how-to videos, quizzes, etc.)? OH, FOR SURE. This is NOT a rare occurrence.

If someone told you that we live in a society that hates women, how would you respond? I would wholeheartedly agree with you. I know a lot of it is done while completely unaware, like plenty don't think they hate women, but their actions speak otherwise, and I'm trusting actions as the true show of morals and values.

Can you remember the last thing you thought and subsequently thought, “wow, I really shouldn’t be thinking that”? I can't remember the last, but it absolutely happens seeing as I often have intrusive thoughts.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions

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stayathomesurveys · 2 years

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029.

1. have you ever been scared of your own backyard at night time?: Yes.

2. what is the image on your mouse pad?: I don’t have a mouse pad.

3. have you ever gotten a real or fake (airbrush, stick-on, etc.) tattoo?: Yeah, I have real ones and as a kid we always played w/ fake tattoos.

4. do you put vinegar on your french fries?: Nope.

5. have you ever eaten a burger made from bison/buffalo?: I think.

6. do you know anyone who owns dog kennels?: No.

7. name something that is the same color as your favorite color: The sky.

8. is there any damage currently on your house?: Yeah, my cats have done a ton of scratching at posts in my apartment. They also pulled my bulletin board off of the wall and took some of the paint with it.

9. is there something that bothers you, that normally doesn’t bother people?: Probably.

10. have you ever taken instrument lessons?: No.

11. what kind of lights do you have in your living room?: Overhead lights and a lamp.

12. do you think pomeranians are cute or ugly?: Cute.

13. do you make sure to dust the tops of high furniture (entertainment centers, cabinets, etc.) when you’re cleaning?: Sometimes.

14. if you’re going away for 2 days, do you pack a suitcase worth or a small bag worth of stuff to bring with you?: I pack a duffle bag.

15. i am sick of hearing about twilight, michael jackson’s death, and reality shows. what are you sick of hearing about?: I don’t know.

16. have you graduated from high school?: Yes, in 2013.

17. is there a specific college that you want to go to? what do you plan on studying?: Yeah, I want to go back to Coastal and finish my degree. I was readmitted as a biology major but I’m thinking about changing my major to something business related. I’d also like to major in something that I am purely interested in as well, lol... so I might double major in something for funsies. We’ll see what I can swing financially.

18. what’s worse: hitting a skunk with your car or having a dog shit in your favorite pair of shoes?: I don’t know. Having a dog poop in your favorite shoes?

19. if you were attending prom, would you prefer a big cinderella-ish dress or a skin showing mini dress? I don’t know.

20. is there a video game that you really like the music from? if so, which?: No.

21. do you prefer crowds of people or being alone?: Being alone.

22. do you agree that smoking, doing drugs, and/or drinking makes you “cool”?: No.

23. what is the most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of a significant other?: Not sure.

24. which word do you consistently type incorrectly, even though you know the proper spelling?: I have a hard time typing “remember” on my phone. I’m not sure why, lol.

25. do you find that your friends are typically older or younger than you are?: Younger.

26. how long was the longest time you’ve been single, not including before you began dating?: Uhhh, over a year.

27. what is the oldest piece of furniture you have in your bedroom?: My boyfriend’s dresser. He’s had it since he was a child and it desperately needs to be replaced.

28. do you know anyone with a mental disability?: Yeah.

29. does your family have dishes that they only use for special occasions?: No.

30. do you have any long distance phone numbers memorized?: No.

#survey

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scott-mccall-the-hot-girl · 3 years

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my ultimate guide to thiam fic !!

( as a new teen wolf stan )

the classic post war, long ass (multi chapter) fic !!with great development that genuinely made me laugh out loud, they have the best friendship in this & i love it very much. ( like theo teaches liam to drive and i just *happy sobs* ) a fundamental in thiam fanfiction !! all stans have probably already read it but if you haven’t this is in fact a threat ,, go show this vv iconic story some love !!

Airplanes - Captainmintyfresh

Summary: After the Anuk-ite and the hunters are dealt with Liam needs a break. Cue Theo and a road trip that Liam should know better than to think will be peaceful.

Not Rated, No Archive Warnings Apply, Completed, 43/43 Chapters, Words: 236,875 (236k)

okay okay so this one is also post 6B !! but ,, now we introduce fighting monroe & the hunters again ,, so we get the boys & a new mission !! so if you like an intresting plot 11/10 would recommend !! just to be clear this ISN’T complete ,, if that turns you off i understand but definitely give this one a read !! it litterally have theo doing crossword puzzles & fighting zombies

Vacancy Signs - LovelyLittleGrim

Summary: Theo and Liam are in Manhattan negotiating a pack allyship when the zombie apocalypse breaks out. Now, the two of them have to find their way back to Beacon Hills without getting eaten by zombies or killing one another.

Rated: Explicit, Graphic Description of Violence, Not Completed, 15/17 Chapters, Words: 89,605 (89k)

Royalty AU !! I REPEAT ROYALTY AU !! a fantastic au where i stan their moms more than i stan them !! genuinely so good at the childhood rivals to lovers trope !! i’m genuinely obsessed with this one. has made me cry more than once ,, hurts in a good way <3 the ending is just *chefs kiss* also one of the tags is genuinely: # theo and liam make bad choices for over 130k straight !! if that doesn’t sound appealing i don’t know what does !!

Artificial Love - songbvrd

Summary: Prince Theo and Prince Liam are forced to spend every Summer together from age five onwards. They hate each other, and usually find ways to make each other miserable as much as possible in their six weeks together. But when they're reunited because of intended unions as adults, things change. They're both supposed to be married to noble women, but neither of them is as interested in anyone else as they are with their childhood rival.

Rated: Mature, No Archive Warnings Apply, Completed, Chapters: 32/32, Words: 172,935 (172k)

so if you are in the mood for a crack fic that’s not explicitally a crack fic this is for you !! okay so i’m really hit or miss with AU’s ,, sometimes i feel like they don’t quite capture the characters right but this story have the BEST dramatic liam i have ever seen in my life !! basically they all live in the same apartment building & it’s fantastic !! i saw this one floating around a lot but the summary didn’t really unrest me until i have it a shot !! so go read it rn !! also nolan & brett are genuinely fantastic and make me wheeze ,, LIKE ACTUALLY VERBALLY LAUGHING !! all i’m gonna say is that my fav characters are scott & the beetles but that won’t make actual sense until you read it !!

The Neighbors Song - TheodoreR

Summary: “I always hear you singing on your balcony every morning, but suddenly you’ve stopped?”

Or the one where Theo annoys Liam every morning with his awful singing until he doesn’t anymore and Liam is even more annoyed. Liam hates every single thing about his mornings -the fact that they happen in the morning alone is enough. The thing Liam hates the most about his mornings though is the terrible voice of the guy who lives below him. He can’t sing for shit and Liam tried to politely let him understand that by throwing flour and water on his balcony, and also by shouting it to him, you can’t sing for shit!, and then by writing it into a note he proceeded to attach to his door, but this Raeken guy just keeps doing it, every single morning, like a fucking rooster. Liam did nothing to deserve this. He probably didn’t do anything to deserve better either to be fair, he doesn’t expect to open his window and be welcomed by some angelic voice singing him good morning, he’d just be happy with nothing. Silence. That’s something Liam can appreciate in mornings. Just some bark from his dog and the sound of his misery and that’s it. But no, god forbid the new guy lets him have that.

Rated: Explicit, Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Wanrings, Completed, 8/8 Chapters, Words: 42,814 (42k)

me: i’m not a big fan of AU’s ,, proceeds to talk about ANOTHER au… OKAY BUT THIS ONE !! it’s not complete but the author has been updating regularly ,, vv slow burn !! but in a REALLY intresting way !! i lOVE LIAM IN THIS SO MUCH ,, he is such a diaster of a person and it’s wonderful !! they have a great dynamic & i’m sucker for general puppy pack content ( and erica reyes being a badass ) !! also theo plays lacrosse in this & i really like it ahhhhh ,, also liam is just being an artic monkeys stan the whole time & theo is like *que confused repressed gay noises*

Inglorious Roommates - honeyscape

Summary: A roommate is defined as “a person with whom one shares a room.”

Theo would say a roommate was more along the lines of, “The person who's the bane of his existence. The weirdo that sleeps for days. The spaz that exercises at 3am. The guy with a revolving door of annoying friends. An insufferable human being that Theo has no control over living in his room.”

Example: Theo hates his roommate Liam.

okay okay i hate myself but i have another WIP for y’all !! this one is jUST FANTASTIC. i’m genuinely so upset it’s most likely not going to updated again *incoherent screaming ensues*. for this story ,, it’s very theo-centric bUT thats bc it ends right before liam becomes a concrete member of the story !! ANYWAY: basic plot = theo & acquiring not one but two children ,, so #dad theo but he is still crusty & homeless and i love him very much. it’s just so GOOD !! just read if you want to experience my fav theo coming out story & him etching high school musical

Look who's talking - Captainmintyfresh

Summary: Theo had been labeled many things in his life. Evil, failure, monster. He'd never thought Father would be one of those things but as he looked across the table to a six year old with blue smears of bubble gum icecream across her face trying to coax the first words out of her sister. Finger jabbing towards Theo's face as she repeated 'Daddy' again and again he couldn't bring himself to dispute the label.

(Theo accidentally adopts two young werewolves)

Not Rated, Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings, Not Completed, Chapters: 16/?, Words: 48740 ( 48k )

so here me out: post-canon ( poetry like angst ) summer get away !! just the boys doing cute little domestic things together whilst pining !! theo’s guilt in this is just so powerful & aGjffkgkkfkvkdlv !! i think it’s so interesting to see how they interact in this one, it’s just very heart warming !! and it features one of my favorite niche teen wolf tropes of theo being great with like seven year old girls- it’s just so good ,, very much a wonderful little one shot that just makes your heart happy.

(next time i see you you'll show me) a hundred different ways to say the same things - cherrysprite

Summary: “...You deserve good things,” Liam says eventually. He makes sure not to look at Theo even though he can feel his eyes turn on him. Somehow he can already tell that Theo doesn’t believe him.

Liam instantly makes that the goal of this summer - making Theo believe him.

Rating: Teen and Up, No Archive Warnings Apply, Chapters: 1/1, Words: 28875 ( 28k )

okay so this next section of fic recs is a bit different !!

two of my favorite authors !! and a compilation of fics i’ve read by them both !!

for context: these two have written some genuinely gorgeous fics, like pure poetry, they explore the real gritty & scary side of our boys relationship in such a wonderful way. they’ve both used some of my favorite tropes & i love them very much !!

whenever i need something soothing but so genuinely intresting & enticing these are my go to !! ( also they both write a lot of good nolan angst & some vv good fics with hayden )

go check out:

eneiryu

as well as fallingforboys

here are some of my favorite fics by them ~

darling i want you here in my arms (kiss the pain away, i know you can) - fallingforboys

even before you touched me, i belonged to you (all you had to do was look at me) - fallingforboys

memories linger like tattoo scars (but your touch on my skin is just as permanent) - fallingforboys

skin, bones, a stolen heart, and an ugly creature lurking underneath -fallingforboys

i don't know how to breathe in the place i called home - fallingforboys

whisper your gossamer truths into the shadow, maybe you'll find the answers you're searching for - fallingforboys

between the mountains and the valley we built a monument to our regret - eneiryu

cracked the hinges of the cage and waited for you - eneiryu

okay and finally: since i am a self centered whore

my own fic: an rendition of the # elevator scene

it’s basically my version of post canon if we did get the kiss in the elevator. we got a classic liam pov in which he is has 12/10 for extreme bi diaster energy even whilst being shot at !! so go him ig…

Fuck Off, Fuck This & Fuck It! - nefelibata_peach

Summary: Liam thought to himself heart rate climbing, they were bound to be dead by morning. So he thought with everything but his brain and he kissed him.

Where Liam Dunbar is very confused, slightly traumatized, and just a bit scared but hey, aren't they all! Bad decisions ensue as two boys fight in a war they never did sign up for.

Rating: Teen and Up, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Chapters: 1/1, Words: 3558 ( 3k )

#this took me so long #please go read these or i’ll cry #fan fiction #fan fic recs #teen wolf fic recs #thiam fanfiction #thiam fic recs #thiam #theo raeken #liam dunbar #theo x liam #teen wolf fandom #teen wolf gay #teen wolf #ao3 #fuck you fuck this & fuck it #thiam fanfic rec #thiam fanfic #thiam is endgame

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somecunttookmyurl · 3 years

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"i don't have anxiety" "i once had a stalker in real life and just punched them and told them to get a life" wow you really truly do NOT have anxiety huh

no the last therapist i had (NHS psychotherapy I waited literal years for and then only got one year of it once a week and was COMPLETELY USELESS BUT I DIGRESS) just said my fear response is broken in the other direction

anxiety is having an over-active fear response. your flight/fight/freeze instinct kicks in more often than it should for things more mild than it should be present for. like a phone call. or taking a new bus. or counting your change in a shop.

having some degree of a fear response is healthy. it's what kept us alive. you are supposed to be afraid of tigers, and falling off of cliffs, and somebody threatening you with a weapon.

but mine is broken the other way which means it just basically never kicks in ever. which has its advantages, like not being scared to just Get Shit Done and LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE SHIT people or travel by myself. however, the degree to which mine is MIA also means i'm likely to die in some very hilarious and extremely preventable manner.

genuinely if i was born in america somebody would for sure have shot me for being a smart alec by now. i would have died in a bar fight in the age of swords. absolutely would have eaten a poison mushroom in the time before we figured out which ones those were

so like yeah it's still a problem just as much as anxiety is really because it turns you into a gigantic dumbass with no presevation instincts, it's just that psychology doesn't recognise it as such and you can't take pills to make your More Scared of Things

not to make this any longer that it is bc i recognise it is Not That Deep Bro, but i have a lot of friends with anxiety and i apparently project an anti-anxiety aura. this isn't because i am a calm zen buddhist monk person, but apparently me just Aggressively Doing Things Without Giving A Shit yeets the anxiety out of other people. like that one comic about having an immune system so strong it has an area of effect. if i stand near my girlfriend she gains the ability to make phone calls. i am the emotional support dog they give nervous cheetahs

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sunaswife · 3 years

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Summary: It’s been five years since you’ve seen your ex, Rin. He’s still not over you and you’re not over him. When he finds out you have children he thought he didn’t have a chance. Then he finds out they’re his? All of a sudden you’re teaching Suna how to be a single dad.

🔪: Y’all my heart 🥺 ngl I kinda cried as I wrote this

Warnings: Fluff, angst I guess, drama, and cuteness twin overload

Previously Up Next Masterlist

Chapter Twelve

“Hi hi are you our grandma?” Rini said with wide eyes, you, Rin and Kauru were outside grabbing the last of the groceries and talking. It was like his mother was frozen in time, they looked exactly like her son when he was a kid, when she was still learning how to raise a tiny human.

She finally realized she was a grandmother because the looks were uncanny. “Yes I’m your grandma.” She replied and she kids ran and hugged her legs. “It’s nice to meet you, we’ve never had a grandma before but we promise to be good grandkids for you.” Rini said and Akira nodded. “What do you mean you never had a grandma before?” She asked the twins, they didn’t see the glint in her eyes. She needs all the information she can get to show her son that she’s not a good mother and he can fight for custody.

“Momma doesn’t talk to her parents. They’re mean and think she’s a dispointment.” Akira chimed in. Obviously the kid met disappointment which made sense. If Rin was a girl she’d probably do the same thing.

“Hey guys guess what grandma got!” Rin walked in, his hands full of groceries. He placed them down and pulled out the pack of the frozen Chuupets. The kids eyes widened and they ran to their dad to hand them a chuupet. “You are only getting one because you haven’t eaten dinner yet.” He said and the kids nodded. After he handed them the chuupet, they ran off. “How’s everything mom.” He looks down to see the shorter woman. “Could be better without your dog and your ex.” She answered and Suna frowned.

“At least try to get along with her? Please. She’s the mother of your grandkids and hopefully we can be together again.” He said hopefully and her eyes widened. “You wanna get back together with her.” She said almost disgusted and Rin sighed. “Yeah mom.” He replied. “You’re gonna regret it.” She hummed and Rin rolled his eyes.

“Excuse me..um...Mrs.Suna..?” You peered from behind the wall you somewhat heard their conversation but that’s a talk for another time, “What.” She raised a brow and Rin facepalmed. “When was the last time you checked the oil of your car? And your brakes?” You asked. “I don’t know. Usually we take it to a mechanic, but we’ve been busy raising someone else’s dog.” She said and eyed her son. “Mechanic? Rin nor Kauru don’t know how to do that?” You asked. “I have a sports car, no way in hell I’m fucking it up.” Rin replied.

“Is it okay for me to change the oil and the brakes? I would hate for you to get into an accident.” You asked. “Accident? You’d probably tinker with my car so I’d crash the next time I use it.” She crossed her arms over her chest. You were beyond confused, “Mom, stop.” Rin scolded and she rolled her eyes.

You left the car as is but made a mental note to ask Kauru for permission to add more oil and fix her brakes.

Other than that conversation you haven’t spoken to her the rest of the day. What bothered you was that she didn’t try to get close to the kids. You sat on the small picnic table in the backyard while Rin was throwing a chew toy across the backyard while his dog, Chewy chased it eagarly. When Rin came to the back yard he whistled causing the dog to turn its head, it stayed frozen as if not believing his owner was truly there. But eventually Rin called him and his ears perked up and he began running and whining at the same time. He tackled Rin and he fell back. Chewy licked his face and Rin was giggling with a big stupid smile on his face, you smiled lightly at the scene and Akira tugged onto your leggings to tell you that Rin was crying.

Your eyebrows scrunched in confusion and turned again to see Rin and then you saw it. The way he held on to his dog and a small tear streamed down. “Who’s a good boy? Are you a good boy?” He talked and Chewy’s tail wagged. “Alright bud, sit.” He commanded and he sat obediently. You could hear a tapping noise but it was because Chewy was so excited to see his owner. “Chewy meet your brother and sister.” Rin introduced and you started laughing. “What do you mean he’s our brother? He’s a dog.” Rini pointed out, “Same difference.” Rin shrugged and you covered your mouth to stop yourself from snorting.

“Okay get close and tell him to shake. Then shake his hand.” He instructed, Rini was first and gasped when Chewy obeyed. Earlier they got around to playing but they didn’t know their dads dog—I mean brother was trained. Akira did the same thing and she giggled. “Alrighty, Chewy. Meet your new mom.” He introduced you and you stepped back. “Nope, not my son.” You waved off, “Are you really gonna leave him motherless.” Rin pressed, “Yeah mama, he’s our brother you can’t be like that.” Akira whined.

“I just never really liked dogs.” You admitted, “Me neither but he’s my best friend.” Rin said softly. You looked down at the brown dog with curly hair. His tail wagged as his tongue sticker out so adorably. Now you understood why Rin named him Chewy, he looks like Chewbacca. “Nice to meet you, Chewy.” You reached your hand out to pet his head but he jump and rested his paws on your stomach, causing you to lose you balance and fall back. Before you could fall and die from embarrassment, No one other than Rin was there to catch you. “I’m sorry he doesn’t really do that. He’s just too excited.” He said from behind and helped you up. “No it’s fine.” You said and you both stayed quiet.

“So are you gonna continue holding on to my waist or..?”

“Fuck..sorry.” He apologized with flushed cheeks and let go. The kids began scolding their dad’s potty mouth and you hated that feeling in your stomach from when he pulled away.

Rin’s mom looked from the kitchen window and gritted her teeth while scrubbing the pan a little too hard. “Good job, Chewy.” Rini and Akira quietly praised and continued to play with their new brother.

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“Finally we can talk.” Rin’s mom said and sat at the head of the table, you and Rin both gulped and Kauru sighed. He just wanted to nap. “Okay I can tell without a doubt that those children are Rintarou’s. And it’s nice that they don’t look like you.” Rin’s mom spoke up and you gasped. “If you’re here just to fight then don’t even open your mouth.” Kauru told his wife and she gave a glare. “Okay first of all. Why didn’t you tell my son you were pregnant.” She crossed her arms over your chest and you cuddled with your fingers. “Well Mrs.Suna...like I said over the phone. We had just broken up and I was hurt and afraid. I wasn’t sure if he would support me in keeping them—“ “Well how could you know if you didn’t speak up?” She interrupted but you ignored the jabs she threw. “I also wanted him to continue on with his career, stress free. I guess at the time I still loved him a lot that I didn’t want him to suffer with me. Or else I could have easily filed for child support.” You said and Rin frowned slightly.

“That’s not a good excuse. Rintarou has missed out on so much because you were selfish. You just wanted Rin to go pro for the money.” She accused with a pointed finger. “Mom—stop!” Rin immediately said and Kauru raised his finger to stop his son. “Karin do you know that for sure?” He asked his wife. “Yeah. All she does is party and drink. I think the kids are unsafe under her care. All of her money is wasted on her fake breasts.”

“Ma’am I can assure you that these are real. Ask your son.” You waved off and she gasped before she could open her mouth to utter more stupid shit you said. “With all due respect Mrs. Suna, you don’t know me. You don’t know how I raise my children, you don’t know what I do for a living and you don’t know what I’ve been through. Please before judging me, see how I treat my kids and how I treat your son. I have been nothing but respectful and the least you could do is treat me like a proper guest.” You argued back but she just ignored you and went through her iPad.

Why does she have an iPad? She flips the device over so you and the two Suna men could see and Rin almost spit out his drink. Karin told Kauru to look away and your mouth hung open as she swiped photo after photo of you in revealing lingerie. In some photos you’re wearing a gag and in others you’re chained up but it’s all modeling for Jamie and her line. You looked at your stomach and thighs and you could see those stretch marks.

Even though the world has seen these pictures, you can’t help but feel nervous when Rintarou is looking at them. You weren’t the same athletic girl from highschool, you gained weight, developed stretch marks, and you hate working out. You know you’re beautiful, that’s why you asked Jamie to not edit the photos of you she posted on the web. Your stretch marks and tummy were there for the world to see. But their comments or praise didn’t matter. The only person’s opinion that matters is Rintarou’s. Which is ridiculous to say but, some part of you still wants his approval and to be with him.

“Is this a good example to show your daughter? You want her modeling and showing off her body like a filthy wh—“ “Enough!” Rin smacked the table and stood up. You flinched as well as she did and you began to cry. “You make it seem like I should be ashamed of myself...”

“You should be.”

“Have you told them why we broke up?” You turned to Rin and he saw the tears streaming down. He wanted nothing more than to hold you in his arms and say that it’s okay. “No..” he shook his head and you sighed. “You won’t understand unless your son tells you what he did. Everything I did for myself and my children was for a reason. Now if you’d excuse me, I need to go, it’s time for their history lesson.” You wiped your eyes and left the table. Quickly you grabbed your bag with all their supplies and you met them outside. “Come on, time for school!” You called with a fake smile and red eyes. The kids understood to not argue and to just obey.

You sat on the picnic table with your two kids across from you and Chewy was laying on the bench right next to you, with his head on your thighs. “Mama...” Rini interrupted your thoughts, “Yes baby?” You asked and looked up from their lesson plan, “I love you, and you’re the best mom in the world.” He said with a small smile. “I love you more than Rini and you’re the bestest momma in the universe!” Akira chimes in and you chuckled. “I love you guys to infinity and beyond, forever and ever! It’s called unconditional love.” You said and their eyes widened. “Unconditional love...” akira hummed and you nodded.

“Hi Kuroo-san is everything okay?” You asked as you made your way to the patio outside. It was already time for the kids bedtime. “Y/N I’m sorry for informing you last minute but one of the commentators for tomorrow’s game is in the hospital so we were wondering if you could fill in.” He spoke calmly. “I—oh gosh I’m all the way in Hyogo..when does the game start?” You asked.

After going back in forth for tomorrow’s game you hung up after respectfully telling him you weren’t interested in going out on a date. You rubbed your face and looked at the time. The trains have already closed for the day, so you’d have to take your car.

“You good?” Rin asked as soon as you walked back inside. “I need to go in to work tomorrow. Another commentator is in the hospital. Nobody else can fill in.” You said and his eyes widened since it’s a very long drive. “Oh how fantastic, leaving your young children overnight to go work—“

“I’m taking them.” You interrupted the witch and her eyes widened. “What do you mean you’re taking them.” She asked. “They’re my children and I don’t want to leave them with you. I’d rather take them and ask Jamie to watch over them and I’ll come back the day after tomorrow.”

“Y/N...” Suna snapped you out of your rambling and you turned your head to see him. “I’m here now, remember? You don’t have to do this alone anymore. I can take care of them and watch them. I’ve done it before.” He assured. “I’m sorry but I really don’t want them near your mom.” You explained your reasoning. “Tomorrow we’ll be at Kita’s farm all day. They’ll be fine.” He said and patted your head. Without even realizing, you leaned forward and wrapped your arms around Suna’s torso, his face flushed and he wrapped his arms around your shoulders. “Thank you. It means a lot.” You mumbled in his chest.

“It’s my job, partner.” He chuckled and you pulled away. “Fist bump?” He asked and presented his closer fist, you giggled and nodded. “Fist bump.” You did the same and your knuckles met. Rin’s mother scoffed and rolled her eyes, walking away to her room.

You took a deep breath as you crossed lanes on the freeway going back home. You wanted nothing more than to stay with your kids or take them with you, but you can’t control everything yourself anymore. You gonna trust Rin.

You made it home by five am since the drive was eight hours but you made it in seven by speeding and automatically fell asleep in Rin’s bed. You decided to take the pull out bed in your office when Rin moved in and he slept in your old master bedroom. But you were too tired to pull it out so you slept in your old bed. You couldn’t help but notice how the pillows smelled like Rin.

His scent definitely changed, he doesn’t use the old spice fragrance from highschool. He now uses something more expensive and more subtle yet manly at the same time. You definitely needed to know what the scent was so you could buy more for him on a birthday or something.

You woke up at around 13:30 to get ready and leave by 15:00. You showered, did your hair and wore the white button up with the green dress pants and a green blazer on top. You slipped on some hot pink heels and some subtle jewelry and made your way. You called your kids and they said they were having a blast, they really missed you and wished you and their grandma were there and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes.

While Rin’s mom stayed home, her husband worked and Rin took the kids out, she began thinking about the day before.

“You won’t understand unless your son tells you what he did. Everything I did for myself and my children was for a reason.”

Rin’s mom was obviously confused and still annoyed at you. But then Rin sat her down after breakfast, the kids were outside and Kauru was already gone. He explained what he did with his friends and Karin couldn’t help but feel disgusted. If she would have been more involved in his teenage life then she could have prevented this. Prevented minors drinking, prevented her son getting sexually involved with you, and preventing an innocent girl getting hurt.

In reality you should have thrown a full can of coffee at Rin instead of an empty one. You should have cursed him and made him pay child support. That’s what she would do straight up. But you’re not her, and you explained why you did what you did. And she began to understand. “You have a lot of work to do in order to get back in her good grace.” She told her son. “I know I know..” he said softly. “That’s why we’re starting as friends. And eventually I wanna be with her romanticly and marry her. I want to be the man she can rely on and trust again.” He said and her mom smiled.

“I understand, I’ll make sure to apologize when she returns. And I’m rooting for you.” She said and Rin smiled. “Thanks mom.” She stood up and grabbed her bag, “I’m not in the mood to cook. How do burgers sound?” She asked Rin and he nodded. “There’s a place down the street that’s pretty good. I’ll be back in a few.”

Rin’s mother wanted to repent for her actions and she tried thinking of a proper way to apologize. She went into the restaurant to order and everywhere she saw, it explained that the food was made with peanut oil. But that’s what gave it the flavor. That’s why it’s so delicious. She happily payed for the food completely oblivious that her grandson was severely allergic to peanuts.

She arrived home and rounded up the kids. She gave them a kiss on the head and smiled as they showed her their drawings that she could keep. Rin’s mom passed around the burgers so Rin couldn’t see the bag that promoted the peanut oil being a main ingredient and the kids munched.

When Rini took the bite his eyes widened at the deliciousness. Bite after bite and his throat began to feel weird, as well as his stomach. He took a sip of the lemonade and he couldn’t swallow it properly. He began to cough and Rin patted his back confused and he face turned red.

“Rini are you choking?!” Akira asked scared and Rini shook her head. “My stomach hurts—“ he coughed and Rin’s eyes widened. “Oh shit.” He quickly ran upstairs to his old bedroom and looked through the bag with Rini’s inhaler and other vitamins. He saw the epipen and ran back out quickly unscrewing it. Rini’s face was turning purple and he continued to cough. Akira was crying and Karin didn’t know what to do. Rin fell to his knees and slammed the pen on his sons thigh. “Are you okay bud. Stay with me please.” Tears prickled his eyes. He seriously fucked up.

Rini’s chest heaved up in down as he tried to catch his breath. Rintarou instructed his mom to call 119 and an ambulance soon came and took Rini away with Rin in the ambulance. Akira was stuck with her grandma driving to the hospital.

Karin was so confused at the situation. And she was worried for her grandson. She tried her best calming the little girl who held the green pig plush and the fox plush in her arms. “Is Rini gonna die?” Akira pouted with watery eyes. “Of course not. Everything is gonna be alright.” She assured.

While all this was going down, you were talking and laughing as you talked about Sendai frogs and their intimating demeanor. You felt a weird feeling in your chest and felt like something was wrong. Your purse and phone was stuck in the lounge locker so you didn’t see the 20+ phone calls and messages you received from Rin.

He was afraid and didn’t know what to do. He really wished you were here by his side. He couldn’t do this alone and realized this is what it’s like being a single parent.

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