#and if it doesnt i accept defeat and seeming stupid

[nova-they-exist-yup]

me when my cccc hyperfixation is waning: :(

me when i remember vol 2 is yet to come out and i grew up on game theory: :)

#cccc #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #i know for a fact im going to go insane when the vol 2 songs start coming out #its going to be insanely obvious i grew up on game theory trust me #i go insane when i start theorizing just wait #watch me make full essays here just because of a singular line from a song #the hyperfixation will come back full force when that happens trust me #and if it doesnt i accept defeat and seeming stupid

[ganondoodle]

as i was awake in the middle of the night for like 2 hours bc i felt sick i had more somewhat random totk thoughts

one being that i really hate how raurus response to concerned zelda is, after sonia died in that almost funny how little impactful it was way, "im sure you are here for a reason" (actually, i hate how often this sentence is used in general to .. idk i guess its supposed to be inspiritational???)

bc what does that mean actually? him saying that to someone who got there absolutely by accident really just sounds like "i dont care go figure it out yourself bc i dont want to think about anything concerning you or your troubles lol" i guess its meant to sound like OOOOH fate has BROUGHT you here bc you have to furfill a role you dont know yet (spoiler its being a sacrifice girl with no personality) and besides me hating the 'inescapable fate' trope in general (at least the way its usually done in these games, which is not to struggle against it but willingly accept whatever you are told and pretend thats good) its really jsut goddamn boring and is really only an excuse to well .. ignore her and her trouble; shouldnt you, if you were actually such a cool guy like the game wants me to believe so bad, do everything in your power to get zelda back to her own world before shes pulled even further into the war you caused now that her only ""mentor"" that could help her get more use of her pretty much useless sudden powers is gone too?? i know shes basically dead wife sonia replacement (can of worms ugh) but it still grinds my gears whenever i think of that cutscene, bc i cant help but hear it as the lamest excuse in existence to not care about her and just kinda .. see what happens which in this case means leave zelda completely on her her own since both rauru and mineru die as well (honestly shouldnt rauru have thought about like .. any plan to defeat gan besides dying himself, given hes the oh so cool and goodest guy king whos only mistake was not stabbing gan the second he stepped into their kathedral castle thing, like even if you had a plan it can still fail but it seemed like he just kinda went in with a handful of people that didnt seem to know each other at all, never got names or faces -or unique voices for that matter- to fight gan face to face inlcuding the girl that came from a different time and had nothing to do with any of this conflict and couldnt even really control her sudden new powers just seems pretty stupid)

thought 2

how totk really feels like botw but for the people who didnt like shiekah tech, its not a sequel, its botw again, but version of only sonau, its like a pokemon game that had two versions but one has weirdly incoherent story and acts like the other never existed jsut as a whole its like retreading the same points but worse, all shiekah tech that was so integral to the world and had such a long history just vanishing and no one caring about any of it like it never happened, HELL the titans were called divine beasts in english but i guess they werent divine or important enough to keep around LOL champions WHO and isntead a never before seen or even heard of race for that matter showing up and planting their ass in every place the shiekah were before, dare i say it feels weirdly manipulative, like either them or some outside force erasing every fact about the ancient shiekah and replace them with sonau stuff bc they are the hot new shit now

this is a point that just doesnt stop bothering me, how the shiekah tech seemed so carefully designed and integrated into botws world and story, its a difficult to keep balance after all, integrating high tech stuff into a medieval setting, but they made it work! and then totk comes around and throws a bunch modern day tech into it puts some vague greenish stone filter on its exterior and call that even better more ancient tech; why did they even bother to make pottery inspired laser shooting spider legged robots so well integrated when they throw a car and rockets into the next game without a thought and call it a day, what was the fucking point

it feels like someone was dead set on having a set of legos thrown into the game it had no place in, if you want players to build whatever they want make a building game instead!! especially if you are just gonna throw it in with seemingly no consideration how out of place it feels togehter with the fACT THAT YOU ALREADY HAD AND ANCIENT HIGH TECH CIVILIZATION WITH A VERY DISTINCT AESTHETIC THAT WAS ALREADY WELL INTEGRATED INTO THE WORLD YOU ARE PLANNING TO REUSE WITH ALOT OF MYSTERY AND UNKOWN STUFF ABOUT THEM TO EXPLORE FURTHER YOU COULD HAVE USED!! but i guess they just "didnt want to play with you anymore" and that so much so that they went out of their way to erase every trace of it, i dont think the words shiekah tech are ever used in the game, and the purah pad and her towers just drive me more isnane bc they are the same shit but called different and also much worse, liek the purah pad isnt some more developed shiekah stone, no its a glorified camera with a teleport function and thats it

(i know i said this before but i really cant stand how obsessed every single NPC is with sonau shit, you get told to your face every second line of dialog that they are so cool and are so mysterious that it just makes me annoyed of them even more, the game is obsessed with shoving them everywhere and telling you over and over you too should obsess over them, they werent weird like that about the shiekah stuff in botw?? the biggesst talking point in botw was calamity ganon ..... which makes sense and in totk its like ... gan is mentioned what, in a newspaper article??? once???and then not even by name i think???)

aside from that big point which will never let me go, its also just .. its not moving forward anything, it actively walks BACK the progress that was made in botw, call me dumb but i dont really count moving one step up in the social roles of each race as a character development (for the side characters like the champions desc- ahem SAGES) but mainly zelda ... god how dirty she was done, totk pretty explicitely makes her regress any development she made in botw aside from she likes link uwu and some people like her too, but also not enough to notice that that weird zelda being all evil and weird isnt her (INLCUDING THE CHAMP- SAGES WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSEDLY FRIENDS WITH??? you dont have to be a genius to pick up on that my god, were you all given the mc dumbo potion or what)

she gets put back to square one, back into the little itty bitty princessy maiden role forced upon her by her royal parentage, this time rauru edition, back into a white little dress, back into the scared puppy eyed teenager, back into a situation she cant handle, back into losing everyone around her (tho honestly botw made me care more about rhoam than totk did about rauru), back into being forced to do a big sacrifice- but worse actually

in botw she went to FIGHT AND HOLD GANON IN THE CASTLE SO LINK HAD TIME TO RECOVER AND IT WOULDNT DESTROY THE LAND!! and you are telling me in totk rauru takes up her botw role and she bascially killed herself to ... restore the mastersword.

......... she ... she did that only to be a glorified version of the stone pedestal in the forest. and then she gets returned to normal itty bitty girly no problem via magic sparkle beam at the end and

DOESNT

EVEN

REMEMBER.

it really is just botw but worse, you even get yet another ghost king of hyrule to guide you around (rhoam did it better fight me ... we dont talk about the questionable choice to make himself darker skinned when posing as just some guy)

i honestly dont think i was ever truly taken aback by anythign that happened in botw, while in totk, the further i played, the more i had to fight with myself to keep the feeling of unease, disappointment and betrayal down

its such a god damn shame, totk should have stayed a DLC, i will forever mournfully dream of a game that explores more of the ancient shiekah, doesnt erase integral parts of the world, developes characters more instead of making them regress back and make them end up even less developed than at the start of the game, dives into buried secrets and mistakes of dark pages of history without giving into a weirldy nationalist(imperalisitc?) narrative and lets characters have some agency for once

if it werent for the yiga i might have actually considered refunding the game, just to be at peace with myself

anyway, aboslutely incoherent word vomit.

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #old man yells at cloud #i know im repeating myself in alot of points #but some things just wont stop rotating in my head #ngl i felt like nintendy was trying to gaslight me in totk #what noooo the shrine of life was ALWAYS just a barren cave with a puddle of water in it #noooo dumsda (hundson) NEVER had a funny quirk of how he talks #nooooo purah NEVER cared about shiekah tech or that stone she used to have in her lab in hateno #noooooo robelo NEVER cared about the shiekah oven he named cherry #nooooo yuno was never not dumb like a rock and ridiculed by the narrative worse than koga #noooo yuno never had inheretited an ability unique to daruk #nooooooo zelda never had any character besides like white dress waifu #nooooooo the dekutree never actually played a central role #nooooo there never was any shikeah tech #noooooo there never were any champions we were actualyl friends with #why is this series so damn allergic to moving the world or characters forward #you literalyl showed us that zelda companion is doable #you made 5 fram rate killing ghosts that are more useless than useful in any fight but noooo cant do zelda #she gotta be the little maiden uwu #you could have shown us the past without sendign zelda back #you could have revealed the sonau without erasing the shiekah #you had such a good setup from botw #and isntead chose to focus 3 years on being able to glue a stick to a stick in a game that isnt about glue or building

[kichikichiko]

"Lonely"

Self indulgent post. Its kinda based off of how I grew up

Wanderer x fem!reader, comfort, fluff, can be read as platonic or romantic, not proofread

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"Lonely"

If you were to describe your life from the day you could walk and talk to now, the one word would be "lonely"

Dont get me wrong, you had friends growing up. Maybe a lot, maybe only a few, and even then, it still feels like you againts the world.

No matter who you hang out with, the connection between you and your friend was never strong.

You knew, but brushed it off. Because at least having someone to talk to about something, anything is better than being alone.

But you were still "lonely", no matter how many people you surround yourself with.

You get attached easily, to anyone no matter who.

Toxic, boring, stupid, it doesnt matter

As long as they give you just a bit of attention, you'll suddenly cling onto them like theyre youre everything.

And yet

You were still "lonely"

Its frustrating. Why does the world want you to be lonely? Why should you feel this way in the first place? What could you have possibly done to anger the gods? Or was this their way of entertainment?

You'd blame all the hurt you've been through to anyone who isnt you. Especially celestia itself. Because if you blamed it on yourself, the more you'd feel worse.

"Lonely" was once your enemy, your foe. But the more you grew older, the more you've become tired with trying to get rid of it whether it be through masking yourself with different made up personalities for every single person you talk to, trying to talk to different people to find the one who matchrs your energy, or blaming the gods of teyvat and all its mortals for making you feel the way you feel, the more you've surrendered and accepted the "lonely" into your life.

Youve given up.

Because what was the point of trying at this point?

You can no longer blame people for your misery and woes.

At the end of the day, you are the problem.

Detaching yourself from the world, half of your life became a blur. You didnt remember if you still took up on the act of imitating everyone elses personalites, or if you completely stopped talking to people in general.

You didnt remember,

But what you did remember was meeting him.

Buying fruits from the bustling stalls of Sumeru, you finally met him.

From the corner of your eye, you saw an interesting figure.

Turning your head to get a better look you studied thr man from afar.

He seemed to be from inazuma judging by his attire. His whole outfit was coloured blue and white, his huge hat sitting on his head in a way which made him look intimidating and mysterious rather than silly, his eyes uninterested and annoyed, as his chesr glowed because of his anemo vision.

You stared at him for a while longer before he dissappeared in a blink of an eye.

You didnt know what you felt. But it was something weird, in a good way of course.

"I wanna see him again" you mumbled.

Months have passed, and from time to time, the strange man from inazuma would pop into your head as you daydream in silence when you were goung out with your friends.

Sometimes you think youre creepy, stupid and yhat you were "doing it again". Mainly insinuating that you'd get attached to someone you barely know and make scenarios of you both being together as a coping mechanism.

One day your friend has decided to invite you to try a cooking class with her. You dont really get invited out that much, so you werent about to pass up on this opportunity.

Both you and your friend arrived and was lead to your perspective stations. The instructor wanted everyone to find someone random around the room to be partners, so everyone can get to know each other and make the place more lively.

Going out of your comfort zone was hard, but thinking youre being a nuisance was harder. So you sighed in defeat.

Everyone finally got a partner but you,

You were standing there awkwardly, getting ready to tell the instructor that you're perfectly fine with being alone. Youve been alone for half of your life, being alone as you were in cooking class with no different.

Before you got the chance to talk, someone barged through the door, making everyone shift their focus on the door.

Your eyes widen when you saw who it was. It was the mysterious Inazuma guy. You were shocked, stunned and frozen in place.

Never once believe that you'd see him again

"Ah youre just in time! This young lady here doesnt have a partner for todays class so you can go right ahead and stand next to her station"

The mysterious men scoffed and walk towards your station standing right beside you without a word.

You were starting to feel nervous as there was no conversation coming up between the both of you. You thought that maybe you were the only one overthinking this because anytime you glance at him he would look unbothered and uninterested just like he did when you first saw him in that market few months back

"You can stop looking at me miss" crossing his arms and looking at you with one eyebrow up.

God he was intimidating and handsome

No no. Just intimidating you correxted yourself

Flinching you quickly apologised and whipped your head back and looked down at the table.

Wanderer knew you saw him on that day in the market, he's very observant what can he say?

"Call me wanderer" he broke the silence, looking down at the ingredients on the table, not listening to the instructor

You looked at him again, blinking

You wanted to question why on earth his name is "wanderer" but got a hunch that he'll be offended and stop talking.

"Nice to meet you wanderer, Im (name)" you responded

"Well (name) let's show everyone here who's the boss at cooking" he smirked a bit, determined to win

You were stunned. This wasnt even a cooking competition you wanted to tell him, but that might ruin the fun

So you smiled a little and nodded. "Right on it!"

Days after days passed, and if youre lucky enough you'd see him on the bustling streets of Sumeru, if you both make eye contact, you'd smile and wave as he nodded then go about your day

Soon that change, from simple hand waves, to small talks, to full blow on conversations to hanging out outside of sumeru city.

His company was nice, it felt warm and comfortable. You didnt have to imitate his energy, and you never tried to. Something about copying his personality just to talk to him felt off.

As much as he didnt wanna admit it, he also felt comfortable with you, not 100% no but if he were to be able to choose to go on walks alone or be with you he wouldnt hesitate to pick one with you.

You finally felt comfortable in your own skin

And suddenly, you didnt feel so "lonely" anymore.

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#genshin fanfic #fanfic #genshin fluff #genshin impact #x reader #genshin x reader #kunikuzushi x reader #wanderer x y/n #wanderer x reader #scaramouche x you #wanderer x you #scaramouche x y/n

[blessedshortcake]

SPOILERS FOR MEGAMIND AND MEGAMIND "2" youve been warned

Hi chat im here to bitch and whine give my 2 cents on the new movie even tho im like. A little late. Obligatory read more

I havent seen anyone talk about this yet so im starting with it but... why did they rename Minion? I am not Too bothered by it, i mean a little but thats probably just me im just mostly confused? Is it because of the Minions stuff? So hes more uniqe? Augh my poor boy they did him so dirty

Point 2. Roxanne. What. Just what. Why did they make her like that? I loved how she had different clothes for (probably) every scene, that she wasnt just a generic cartoon character wearing the same outfit for the whole 90 something minutes and yet they just... put her in an (in my opinion) ugly dress and made her hate her job?

She seemed happy in the first movie for the most part. She wrote her own speech in the first scene of it!! I get that things are different now that Megamind is a hero but ITS BEEN 2 DAYS!! Unless her aspirations changed in the first movie and im just too tired to remember then its a huge change. Besides that she was.... okay i guess? Shrug i liked the original more

Oh right! Their relationship or lack there of with Megamind! I was never a huge shipper of them but i didnt mind. I find it sweet at most since they can be silly together but only if given more time and fleshed out more. Im more interested in seeing their progression, learning about each other, adressing past stuff (like how Megamind was hiding as Bernard for god knows how long i am so tired i cant remember this move killed my brain) and i dont care if theyre a couple or just friends or something in between for all of that

But...... seeing as (and i can only assume) the first movies last scene of him accepting the new museum that was rebuilt for his image happened months after the Titan thing and they literally Kissed and whatever id ASSUME there is something between them to kiss like that IN A PUBLIC EVENT IN FRONT OF THE CITY?

And yes i love my platonic kisses but lets be real. This was made by a Company and this is a het couple theres no way they would let them kiss as just friends. Like id be the happiest mf on earth if they did but from previous movie track records i dont think thats the case

If the movie was like set between the Titan thing and the reopen of the museum id understand. Then yeah, things are complicated between them. But we SEE the museum like at least once so??? Ugh i dont know why im so caught up on everything this movie was full of contradictions

Before i go to the main issue (the whole movie is the issue but i digress) i wanna talk about the world itself.

Where did the smart phone come from?????? Hello??? Movie 1 had flip phones at best + whatever Megamind made but hes like a genius so like that doesnt quite fall into public tech stuff. Why did they nerf the dehydration gun? That was instant or near instant before why did it take seconds now?? Megamind has a whole new lair AFTER 2 DAYS-

Why is everyone so stupid and disrespectful? The whole key ceremony was 100% unneeded if hes already an esteemed hero? Whatever.

Now the main bone i have to pick. MEGAMIND.

He could not be more OOC. I cant belive this was an actual movie not like some fan project. God

They already had a whole thing in the first movie how he needs Minion more and he needs to listen to him and how he appreciates him. Why did we go back to ground 0?

If they REALLY needed a conflict where Minion wanted to be a sidekick and Megamind didnt want that to happen (which... i dont even know why they needed that? Perhaps with Minion away from the lair when the DS showed up the issue dragged on much longer? Shrug) THEN THEY COULD HAVE DONE AAAANYTHING ELSE!!!

Might i remind the creators that in the highpoint of the first movie, when Minion used the disguise watch and helped Roxanne escape so Megamind can defeat Titan as a fake Metro Man he got (kinda) hurt? Like his tank shattered and he was drying out. Sure he was fine but THAT already couldve been a better motivator!!

Megamind being scared to let Minion be his sidekick because he has been with him for all of his life, his first and best friend in the whole galaxy, his caretaker since he was a baby, his last connection to his home planet even, got hurt and could have easily died. I mean they pretty much killed like 3 people if not more in this movie so its not far fetched but like-

The conflict being Megamind grapping with his concience (spelling??) of wanting to make Minion happy and letting him express himself more, and his terror of the possibility of losing him. Like if thats too heavy they can make it more lighthearted and jokey there are Definitely ways to do that but that already is a better conflict oh my GOD.

Also DS couldve been soloed with the dehydratuion gun if it wasnt nerfed. He just walks behind them and bam. Problem solved. What the hell

point 3? I lost count. WHY DID THEY DUMB HIM DOWNNNNNNN OMG

HES SUPPOSED TO BE A GENIUS!! Sure Minion takes care of him since he can get too in his head with his ideas as we see. Multiple times. But hes not an idiot. He would know how a toaster WORKS HES NOT XBDNSN MAIMS!!

Anyway

I finished the movie like an hour ago but i already forgot that little girls name oops. She was... weird. I wasnt too annoyed about her more so confused? Since shes the only person with a smart phone? And she had half a million followers for her Megamind blog? IN 2 DAYS? Right. Felt very forced to put her into any and all of the scenes

Back to our massacared blue hero. He would NEVER be like that. More specifically with the DS. One of the main parts of him is that he was lonely!! He never had friends!! He is sooo socially stunted he doesnt know many many basic concepts as an adult!! Like how phones work or views or i cant remember anything else what a disgrace but like!!

He would never go to evil school. Why would there be an evil school also?? But he never had anyone but Minion!! He was sooo lonely without Metroman he had to DIY a new dude!! He became a villian because people kept bullying him for being different and weird and so he decided to become what they make him out to be! If he had friends like how the DS makes it out to be, hell, like how the movie makes it out to be then he would never abandon them like that. He would NEVER

Also him the leader?? Are you kidding me?? Where was Minion during all that? And even then why didnt they just use the original DS material? I was hoping to see the fire lady where did she go :( (i cant remember any names tonight huh)

Everyone is so dumb in this movie it hurts. 0 spacial awareness, the conversations dont feel like they fit together, some scenes they literally repeat stuff that was either said already or just dont relate at all. I dont know why that is but it bothered me a lot

The DS looked and acted dumb, they were the most generic ass villains like... WHY DIDNT YOU USE THE ORIGINAL- whatever im. Sigh. But really it was so weird???? If Megamind was supposed to be their LEADER why were they so disrespectful to him? He feared them plenty and yeah sure its because he lied to them but leaders usually are respected. They treated him like shit and didnt listen to him once. Rushed him the whole time and kept making him do things like....... girl... thats your LEADER. Ex leader at worst. Maybe dont throw a party in his HOUSE without even asking or warning him and tell him to not be a party pooper when he demands you to stop it. I have a headache now

The ending was....... interesting. Roxanne becoming mayor feels unrealistic and rushed but alas it fits to the theme of the movie because of that (aka being rushed and unrealistic). The M signal is. Laughable. Silly at the very best. It got a laugh out of me but its just.... unneeded. I dont know i dont get why they had to add it you know. Also obligatory Minion out of the tank moment oh wow woo yippe Why

Overall? There were like 3 jokes at best that i liked + the dance off scene was nice. Funny and kinda in character even. The rest? I will be mad about it forever. 1.5/10

#this took 30 mins to type #im not reading back to edit it #idc #this is my midnight rambles #🧶 #im gonna eat some cheese and rewatch the original movie to rid my thoughts of this evil #megamind #megamind 2 #megamind vs the doom syndicate #this is probably not all thats in my head about it but again #it is midnight and i have a headache so #this is mostly incoherent #long post #cake rambles #cake rants

[sirwolficus]

I had to quit miraculous awhile ago but at one point I was interested. Pray tell, has there been an identity reveal that didn’t get undone by amnesia/time travel/weird plot contrivance, yet?

listen, i wish i had that self control. i dont like miraculous. though i do appreciate some of the pros of the show (the diversity, for instance, is something i respect, especially being produced in france which [from what ive heard from a good friend from france i went to college with] isnt as progressive with lgbt+ as canada or parts of the USA), the main thing i have always, and will always have issue with, is the writing.

so, putting this under read more in case people dont want spoilers

so, to condense my internal rants -- no, theres no identity reveal. i thought i heard something or other about that, but no, theres no chat noir/ladybug identity reveal. there IS, however, a ladybug/HAWKMOTH identity reveal. without chat noir present.

chat noir is written out of most of the finale.

oh! also, hawkmoth won. he just straight up won. he got what he wanted.

in the episode preceding the two parter, there is a large build up between adrien and his dad, who self akumatizes again (wowzers!), and as they fight they argue about parenting. adrien knows he's yelling at his dad, but gabriel doesnt -- something i assumed was a build up to a final hawkmoth/chat noir showdown, something of that nature. but nope! it seems like that episode was the product of the shows worth of adrien vs gabriel tension. and its severely disappointing.

also, they confirm that felix is a sentimonster-- cool. they imply adrien is also one, which is less cool. just say it. its season 5.

this entire season has been, and continues to be, build up-build up-build up, which coalesces into a two parter that cuts one of the main characters, brings in characters from the movies (which i didnt even see, so i had no idea who the hell these people were, randomly showing up and fighting the villains), and an even more batshit insane scheme that usual. chloe becomes temporary mayor (???? shes like 14? or 15? however old theyre supposed to be anyway) in one episode, then the alliance rings are used to like, hypnotize everyone? its so fucking confusing. kagami and adrien are quite sincerely, by definition kidnapped by their parents too. but their parents did it to keep them safe!! (and then kagami and adrien were still affected by the akuma attacks/hypnotism/etc, so....)

i think the worst part is that hawkmoth actually won. he summoned god (NO EXAGGERATION.) and sacrificed himself to bring emilie back.... which brings up a ton of questions. my main ones being; what the fuck? did he rewrite time? did she just wake up from the coma? what happened to gabriel? did everyone just accept that adriens mom is back? did no one question this sudden switch?

obviously, in this little end-montage, they explain that gabriel 'helped defeat hawkmoth with ladybug', and he gets a statue in his honour, and adrien, quite literally says, i dont think i can ever be like him (or a line to that effect, if my memory's correct). and thats such a slap in the face.

its... stupid. it really is. i feel unsatisfied, and frankly, duped. i had always thought that it would be a final showdown between ladybug, chat noir and hawkmoth. where we could see the parallels between gabriel/emelie and adrien/marinette -- this is stuff i was expecting as soon as it was revealed that gabriel had emelie creepily in his basement. i was expecting a happy ending, obviously (its a kids show), but one that was hard earned. no one got that. no arcs were completed, or at the very least, completed well.

felix and kagami get together. ??? why? felix is also an ally now. why? chloe seems to be out of the picture, and lila now holds the butterfly miraculous.

like, i cant even lie. i made superhero ocs based off of how angry i am at this show. because i genuinely feel i can do better. i think most people could do better, because theyve ignored integral parts of the hero's journey. hell, it's barely a journey to begin with.

i think i mostly watch it now still, because i hopped on the train back when season 2 first aired, when i was in elementary school. im a god damn college drop out now! if this doesnt prove the time invested = loyalty theory, then i dont know what does

#ask #miraculous ladybug leaks #mlb leaks #mlb s5 leaks #mlb season 5 leaks #miraculous ladybug season 5 leaks #mlb spoilers #miraculous leaks #miraculous season 5 leaks #miraculous spoilers #miraculous ladybug spoilers

[everyman0]

touching base

here i am...standing in front of the house again.

i havent been here in months. i didnt exactly intend on coming back but it turns out theres some things i may have missed. information i didnt know i needed until very recently.

however, im not ready to go back in there just yet.

first id like to back track a little to what happened after i got that safe open, and how this has led me to returning to the house. ive summarized my conclusions in the previous entry...this is the full scoop. buckle in.

so, i went dark for a while after finding the safe. i wandered from abandoned house to abandoned house, mulling over my situation all the while. i kept an eye out for anything suspicious or interesting, but there was nothing. no ghost jeff, no cat, even the empty apparitions populating the stores in town seemed to be getting bored somehow. and neither evan nor habit showed up, of course.

i didnt stop posting because i was sad and giving up; instead, more so than anything else...i was becoming very, very angry.

at first i didnt fully understand why i was so mad, just that i no longer felt like crying over everything i'd already cried about. that well was drying up fast. i knew i had plenty of reasons to be angry, but each of them on their own couldnt truly encapsulate the raging flame of fury that was growing within me.

the thing is, i decided to leave the house to be better than the vinny i saw in the mirror, to find the answers for myself instead of waiting around for habit to finalize my fate for me. i wanted to take my control back because another version of me never did.

instead, i spent so long just...staring at that gun. i wondered what it could be used for, besides killing myself anyways. i read the papers about the house about a hundred times over and still, none of it was particularly relevant to me. it wouldnt have been relevant to anyone else either, which is why i decided not to share it - riveting, right? and the fireworks? i simply left them with the safe. what else was i supposed to do with those?

all of that was pretty useless shit on its own, shit a more depressed and inattentive me from a few months ago simply accepted. the real spit in the face came from the symbol on the bullets.

habit wanted me to see it, but why? it doesnt mean anything to me, to my knowledge. it probably should though, and theres some reason why i cant pick up on its power. its just another cruel reminder of how little i actually know about anything, despite this "true sight" i have.

why was no progress being made? because these tid-bits of information habit left behind arent puzzles, they are just crumbs to keep me distracted while hes perfecting his own plans. and all this time ive been thinking i was the one who was going to get ahead in the game.

i am furious, because i let him distract me again.

i let him waste my time, again.

i let him have months and months to plan my demise while ive been stuck on one stupid clue, again.

i let him scare me.

hurt me.

kill me.

even lose to me in another life. and in his own defeat, habit still won in a way. he gave up and i let him off scot free, just like that. im humiliated by it.

...

my plan begins at the house. habit's shit is probably still inside - i mean his actual belongings, not whatever he's been feeding me. im going to go through his stuff as well as check out the library. theres gotta be something more to find there.

i am ending this the way i want to.

>>

#evrymn0 #phase4

[forever-rogue]

hi! if you’re accepting requests from prompt list #2, does angst to fluff count lol. 5 from angst, 49 from fluff lists! with reader thinking din loves someone else 🥺 i like mando x omera but.. reader who perhaps doesnt have the skills omera has and sees how din looks at her… THE ANGST 😌🤌

AN | Me, writing some Din? It’s been a hot minute, but here we are. I miss him 🥺

Warnings | None

Pairing | Din x Fem!Reader

Masterlist | Din, Main

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A small sigh, a wistful little thing, escaped your lips as you studied the gently lapping water of the lake. It was calm here, a peaceful, tranquil place that served as a welcome refuge after all that you'd been through in the last few years. Sometimes it seemed almost too good to be true. The distant sounds of laughter met your ears as children ran around and played, carefree as could be. Sometimes you wished you were that young again; innocent to life’s darker sides. Unfortunately that wasn’t a possibility, but for now you’d take the peace and stillness you could get.

Pulling off your boots and socks, you quickly tossed them to the side. The water was warm as you relaxed and leaned back, closing your eyes and soaking up the warmth of the summer sun. It wasn’t until you heard the familiar voice that your eyes slowly snapped back opened. Your heart constricted slightly as you spotted Din nearby speaking to Omera. He seemed so happy, in a much better mood than you’d seen in a long time. It was all her, and you remained invisible. Which, when it came to most things wasn’t too bad, but sometimes you wished he would see you.

“Is somebody jealous?” you hadn’t even heard the bounty hunter walk over; you supposed that’s one of the many reasons he was the best in the galaxy. Boba offered a small grimace before sitting down next to you. You shrugged him off staring back into the water. You were not about to get into anything with Boba; that man was insufferable and usually right.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you brushed him off, trying desperately not to look back at Din. Instead, you focused on the water and watched the tiny fish whiz through the water; a few of them brushed by your feet, sending a ticklish shiver up your spine, “I’m just...enjoying the calm afternoon sun and soaking up as much peace before we inevitably leave again.”

“That’s how this all works,” Boba sighed as you nodded in agreement, “you knew that from the day you became my apprentice.”

“I know,” you whispered, “but I hoped at one point I could...walk away and have a normal life. Like this.”

“Normal is all relative,” he had a point as you huffed lightly and stood up, brushing off your pants and reaching for your boots, “but if this is what you want, what you truly want, you know you’re welcome to leave whenever. I would not hold you back from the life you wanted.”

“I know, Boba,” you put your hand on his shoulder and gave it a light squeeze, “the problem is that I don’t really know what I want...I think I know but...it’s more than that.”

“Of course,” he agreed, casting a quick glance at the object of your affections before turning back to you, “I’m sure you’ll figure it out.”

“Either way, it will work out, just as it always does,” you swallowed the lump that had welled up in your throat, “Boba, why are you doing this?”

“I just want to make sure you’re happy - that you know that you have choices in what you’re doing,” he said like it was no big deal, but to you it meant so much. This hardened, sometimes gruff man really did have a heart of gold underneath it all, “should you want to part ways, I would understand. Should you want to stay, I’d be more than happy to have you with me. I don’t know what the future holds for myself, Fennec, or Djarin, but you know it will not always be easy. But sometimes you have to decide what’s most important.”

“Yes,” you answered softly, “thank you, Boba.”

He remained silent as you laced up your boots before padding away, back towards the village. You knew you had a lot to think about and if you wanted things to change at all, you’d have to figure out something. You cast a glance over your shoulder and you were almost positive that you’d spotted Din looking in your direction. But it was all a trick of the mind; it had to be. Why would he spare you more than a passing thought anyways?

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It was late by the time he found you; much later than any reasonable person should have been outside, but you couldn’t sleep. There was too much on your mind to silence, and if you managed to, it was short-lived and another thought came to replace the previous one. Eventually you’d given up and wandered out of the small hut home that had been acting as your own home for the last couple of months. You knew the area was safe and wanted to enjoy the temperate night air before it turned to a crisp fall breeze, or worse - you’d be gone.

Small bugs chirped happily along with the soft songs of nightbirds as you walked around the sleeping village; you weren’t scared here, you felt safe and at home. But as you rounded a corner, a gloved hand reached out and grabbed your wrist. A small yelp of surprise left your lips as you pulled into a wall of cool metal - beskar.

“Shhh,” Din placed a finger to his lips as you relaxed when you realized it was him, “you’ll wake everyone up. It’s just me.”

“Dank Farrik!” you hissed at him, “how was I supposed to know that? You could have been a murderer!”

“Well….you should be in bed sleeping.”

“So should you!” your arms crossed over your chest as you stared him down, and eventually he huffed in defeat, realizing you were right. He couldn’t sleep either, plagued by the choices he knew that he had to make sooner rather than later. He hadn’t expected you to be out as well, “what are you doing anyway?”

“Couldn’t sleep,” he admitted, scratching the back of his neck nervously, a flash of...something in his dark eyes, “I thought that some fresh air would clear my head.”

“Same here,” you admitted reluctantly, leaving the two of you in an awkward silence. You wished you had enough bravery (or perhaps even stupidity) in your body to just say something to him then and there. At least it would be out of the way; but you weren’t feeling anything but nervous butterflies fluttering in your tummy, “I...umm...I guess I’ll get back. Try and sleep.”

“Hey-” he reached for your arm gently before you could get too far away. You turned around and raised an eyebrow as he opened and closed his mouth a few times, “d-did I do something wrong?”

“What? What are you talking about?” the question caught you off guard, but judging by the look on his face, you could sense that this was something he had been thinking for some time.

“You’ve been different lately...it almost feels like you’re avoiding me.”

“Oh DIn, you’re being ridiculous,” and yet the accusation was very true.

“You’re fine around Boba, Fennec...everyone else. But every time I’m around it feels like you can’t wait to get away,” you should have known that he would have noticed sooner or later. The man was more observant than you’d cared to admit, “if I did something, please tell me.”

“You can’t be serious, Djarin. There’s nothing wrong…”

“Then why have you been avoiding me?”

“I haven’t been doing anything. You’ve got too much free time and your mind is running wild.”

“Tell me it’s not true then.”

“Din-”

“Tell me.”

“The problem is that you’re in love with someone else,” the words were out of your mouth before you even contemplated them. You were mortified and in some ways you were relieved. At least it was all out in the open now and you were able to let the chips land where they may.

“Oh,” was his only response as his head tilted to the side and he looked at you in confusion, “what?”

“I...kriff,” you sighed, “I shouldn’t have said that. Sorry - forget I said anything.”

“Who am I in love with?”

“What do you mean?” tears welled up in your eyes at his response; almost like a cruel joke, “you know, everyone knows! Omera; and why wouldn’t you be? She’s wonderful - kind, smart, beautiful … everything. Part of me wants to dislike her, but I can’t because she’s such a good person but it kills me a little bit to know that you love her and you’ll never even think twice about me. I know that’s super selfish but it’s the way I feel; and judging from how this is going I think I’m making the right decision by leaving. By myself.”

Din said nothing as a few tears rolled down your cheeks. You laughed bitterly at yourself before realizing that this might have been the best decision after all. You couldn’t stay after this.

It wasn’t long before Din came to his senses and ran after you, calling your name and catching up with a few easy strides. You came to a reluctant stop as you sniffled and waited for him to say something, despite the fact that you weren’t sure you wanted to hear whatever he had to say.

“I-I-I’m not in love with Omera,” he insisted as it became your turn to look at him in bewilderment, “I’m in love with you.”

“What?”

“I’ve been talking to her about you,” he confessed, “about how to do...this sort of thing. But then you started avoiding me and I wondered if maybe I’d read the signs wrong and you didn’t like me at all. At least not in that way.”

“I don’t….what?” you heard his words but weren’t able to fully comprehend them. This had to be some sort of weird fever dream. Din sighed - his trademark sigh - before ripping off his gloves and gently putting his hands on the sides of your face. He was hesitant at first, to see if you would stop him. But you didn’t...instead you relished in his touch, the feel of his bare skin on yours sending electric shivers throughout your whole body.

After a few moments of quietly studying your features, he leaned in and slowly pressed his lips against yours. It wasn’t a proper kiss by any means, hardly more than a ghost of one, but it felt...strangely wonderful. You looked at him in disbelief as he pulled back; was this really the same man that you’d met all that time ago that wouldn’t even tell anyone his name or let them see his face?

“Oh.”

“Can we go inside?” he whispered softly, “can we talk?”

“Yeah,” you agreed gently. He reached for your hand but before he could take it in his, you stopped him and pressed another sweet, barely there kiss to his lips. A tinge of pink colored his cheeks as you beamed at him, “now we can go.”

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[words-for-holland]

Always Yours

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Sometimes dating a celebrity is hard...but Tom & Y/N have always said no matter what happens they could get through anything. Some angst but a lot of fluff.

A/N: So sorry for leaving yall hanging! Life is just crazy right now and this blog needs a lot of TLC tbh!! Also ehh I def dont think this was my best work but enjoy?

“Oof” Y/N lets out as she plops on to her boyfriend who was lying comfortable on the couch. Tom groaned at the impact with a cheeky smile on his face, his arms instantly wrapping around Y/N’s frame.

“Y’know..there are empty seats right there.” The soft brown-eyed boy gestured with the flick of his thick head as Y/N raises her eyes looking down at him, pretending to be slightly offended.

“Oh I see how it is then. It’s cool...Ill just cuddle with Tessa instead. I know she would welcome me with open arms instead of—” As she slowly starts getting off his chest, Tom is quick to pull her back in, securing her with his strong arms. “No baby, I was just kidding. I want you right here, and Im never letting you go.” he pleas.

The only thing Y/N could manage was letting out a fit of giggles into his chest, a sound that Tom adored and would do absolutely anything to hear every minute of every day. They stay like this for a while enjoying the feeling of each other as they both run their hands into each others hair, the feeling of their chests moving up and down, the subtle thumps of their heartbeats, and the little slips of adoration that came out of their mouths. It was peaceful. A moment that nobody could really take a way because it was theirs.

Y/N casually pulls up her phone, and scrolls through Twitter when she noticed a particular tweet on her timeline. Her eyebrows furrow, as she read the 160 character message.

Why Tom Holland Should Be With Aaliyah Cole and Dump Y/N: A Thread.

She knew it wasnt a good idea to open up the thread. She knew very well that everything within the shallow string of tweets would be a complete waste of her time because it was made up by fans who just wanted to satisfy their fantasy of shipping Tom with his co-star. Who can blame them? They always had great chemistry, but it was part of the job and thats all it would ever be.

“You’re awfully quiet.” Tom murmurs, as he places soft kisses at the crown of her head. “Whats going on?” She was lucky her phone was facing away from Tom, quickly closing the app and pretending to be on one of her many tabs in Safari.

“Mmm..nothing.” Y/N lies softly, a tight-lipped smiled plastered on her face.

“Absolute bullocks. Youre not a very good liar.” He chuckles. “Tell me darling. Whats on your mind?”

Y/N rolls her eyes in response. She’s heard that comment one too many times in her life from everyone shes known. After not giving it much thought, she gives in, sighing heavily. “Dont judge me for what Im about to say.”

“Mmm...I think it might depend on wha— Ow” Tom reacts as he playfully rubs the side of his chest that Y/N hit. “Okay too soon for jokes. Go on.”

Again, Y/N sighs as she props herself up. “Its just ... well a lot of your fans keeps talking about wanting you to get with Aaliyah.” She looks down trying not to make eye contact with Tom, who she’d imagine was looking at her with annoyance.

Tom rolls his eyes at the ridiculousness. Not so much at Y/N but the fact that some of his fans just didnt want to accept the fact that he was happy with Y/N. If it had to come from his mouth to stop the stupid rumors and give his girlfriend peace, then hed gladly yell it from the rooftops for everyone to hear. “Thats it Im making a statement about it.”

Y/N’s eyes widen in fear, scrambling to prevent him from grabbing his phone on the table next him. “No no no no.” She repeatedly declines. “You’ll only make it worse.”

“Darling, Im not going to stand here and watch you get all insecure because of their delusional ship.”

“Yeah well Im not gonna be the reason your fans hate me because Im getting in the way of your friendship with Aaliyah Cole.” She fires back.

Tom was ready to open his mouth only to be cut off once again. “And you know better. That is how your fans will always see it.”

“Okay, are you done?” He calmly asked, cautiously observing her. Rarely did Y/N ever get worked up about anything, but when she had her tangents, Tom always made sure she got off everything she needed to say before he becomes her voice of reason.

“Yeah, I guess.” she says feeling defeated. “Look its whatever and Im tired, can we just let this go and forget this whole conversation even happened?”

Tom was unconvinced, but didnt want to push her further. So reluctantly, he gave in and wrapped his arms around Y/N as they both tried to lull themselves to sleep.

***

Y/N wasnt sure how she ended up in the Tube. It was strange how the lights flickered off the rusted tile floor. The train was no where to be seen, but off to the side of the railroads was pitch black, she could hardly see beyond. To her right she noticed herself standing in the corner of the room, and to her surprise Aaliyah was there. Her milk chocolate kissed skin, and fashionably long frizzy hair dropped down past her shoulders. Her figure long and poised, as she wore a rain jacket and sweats. An outfit only she could pull off and make it look like she was a model for Vogue. Aasliyah smiles brightly at Y/N.

“Hey Y/N.” She says cheerfully as a genuine friend would.

To Y/N’s surprise she greeted her back in the same tone. “Hey Aaliyah...uhh whats going on?” Y/N wasnt sure if she wanted the answer of how they both ended up in the Tube or if she truly wanted to know how her day went.

“Well Im getting ready to present at the Oscars.” She replies, a smile plastered as if she was so excited about it, almost too excited like she was keeping a secret.

“Really? Oh my god, that’s amazing! Im so proud of you Aaliyah! Who are you taking?”

Aaliyah pauses for a few moment looking back and forth, making sure no one else was around. “Okay can you keep a secret?” She whispered.

Y/N nods her head slowly, not having the slightest clue of what was going on. “Im taking Tom. I think he really likes me, and well...I like him too! Do you think maybe I should ask him when we go?” Aaliyah asked genuinely. It was almost like she had no recollection of Y/N and Tom being a couple. “I think we would look good together. Everyone is already making rumors and ships about us.”

Y/N backs aways lowly only to bump into a broad figure. As she turns around she sees Tom, emotionless and almost sad. “Y/N.” He speaks out. “I dont think this is going to work out. Im leaving you.”

Y/N’s heart quickens, and her breaths become shorter as she tries to find a way to run. Running and running into the darkness, until all she could hear was Tom’s faint voice calling out her name.

***

“Y/N! Y/N! Baby wake up please.” Tom cries as he gently shakes his girlfriend from her disturbed sleep.

Quickly Y/N opens her eyes and clutches on to Toms hoodie firmly. Back home, and in Toms arms. It was a dream was all she thought. A sigh of relief escaping from her mouth.

“Darling...” he speaks softly, worried about his girlfriend. “Are you okay?”

Y/N looks up at him and nods frantically. “Mmm..bad dream.”

“Yeah it seemed like it. You were so frightened...I was scared. What happened?” He’s looking at her, trying to read her saddened eyes, wanting to desperately understand what scared her so he could make it all go away for her.

Y/N looks down at her fiddling hands, as she sits on the couch. “I uhh...” she lets out a chuckle, thinking of the ridiculousness of it all. “I uhh...dreamed about Aaliyah going to the oscars and saying how she loved you and how you two are perfect for each other. When I turned around I saw you but you werent happy and said you were leaving me.”

Tom doesnt say a word, all he could think about was how sorry he felt to put Y/N in this position. Though both of them knew, It wasnt Toms fault, or anyone’s for that matter. Feelings are feelings and that was okay. No human being was ever born perfect and without insecurities.

Y/N always tried to be a good sport with situations like this knowing every shippers theory and evidence were hardly ever true, but at some point there was only so much she could take before it all came out like an oil spill. Maybe it was a sign that she wasnt good enough to be with Tom if half of his fanbase thought this way as well.

Tom cradled her into his arms again, holding her tightly and kissing the top of her head. “Darling, I know youre still doubting yourself about all of this, but please believe me when I tell you that I love you so so much and no matter what happens...Im always yours.” He whispers gently in her ear. “It was only a dream and these ridiculous rumors and theories are just that. No one woman in the world could ever make me feel the way I feel for you.”

Y/N blinks softly, as she stares into space. Afraid and in a weird way ashamed, its funny how something so small and so minimal could affect her self-esteem so greatly. Tom gently brings her head up, so her eyes can meet his. He rolls his thumb on the bottom of her soft lips. “Hey, I love you.” Tom smiles.

Time stopped for the both of them the moment Y/N looked into his eyes, she felt safe. All the bad words and thoughts slowly disappear. Tom was right, none of the things that anyone said about their relationship mattered. She knew Tom loved her, and how much she truly loved him. Isnt that enough? Of course not. It was more than enough. A smile slowly forming on Y/N’s face. “Theres that smile I love so much.” He comments.

“Im sorry, for being such a —”

“No. Its okay. You have a right to feel the way you did.” He picks up her hand and leaves a gentle kiss.

“I love you so much Tom.” She says pressing her lips to his. “I dont deserve you.”

“Darling, its me that doesnt deserve you. Im always yours.” Tom proclaims as he kisses her back.

#tom holland #tom holland imagine #tom holland x reader #peter parker #peter parker imagine #peter parker x reader

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approval | s.b

sirius x reader

Request? Yes ~ Heyy could you please write a sirius x reader where Sirius lashes out and calls the reader unimportant and then the reader doesnt talk to him for a few weeks and sirius realises what he said and regrets it. Im sorry if this is too specific. I love your your work btw❤

word count: 2100+

warnings: angst, mentions of alcohol consumption

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Sirius had been avoiding you for days now. It was completely obvious. You weren’t great friends or anything, but you at least thought you were in the works for becoming that. It had been a few months of you talking and joking around with each other (quite a hefty bit of flirting). You were astounded the first time Sirius came up to you to talk. Sirius Black, talking to you of all people.

But it was one of the best days of your life. Not only had your secret crush actually spoken to you, but he continued to do so, and quite often. He was a lot like what you had expected - cheeky, a good sense of humour and very flirtatious - but there were some things you hadn’t expected. He was very protective, even in your short months of friendship, he’d proven himself to be that. He was sensitive too, but it wasn’t a side often seen and you’d only seen it once. It was by accident, but he didn’t push you away which isn’t what you expected either. It seemed as if he wasn’t really how he put himself out to be, and maybe that was to protect himself. There was someone hurting behind that mask of his. Something told you that he didn’t know that it was okay to hurt, that it was okay to let people see the vulnerable side of himself. If there’s no side that feels pain, how is there a side that can feel love and happiness? As much as it hurts people to acknowledge, there is no love or happiness without pain. In a way, that scared you about him, if he can’t accept pain, then how can he accept love?

But, with all that in mind it was hard to be angry at Sirius because it seemed as if he was doing that enough for the both of you. You head up to the common room in search of him, not entirely sure what you were planning on doing. But plans usually get scrapped when you’re in the moment anyway. You can’t plan something if you don’t even know what you’re planning. When the common room enters your line of sight, you see Sirius sitting in front of the fire. He’s hunched over, as if he was picking something up from the floor, but instead, he’s staring directly into the orange flames.

“Sirius?” You ask gently. He looks over to you, expression unwavering and then back to the fire.

“What?” He asks bitterly.

“Are you alright?”

“Fine, why do you ask?”

It’s hard not to make some snarky comment, but you manage it.

“You don’t seem fine,” you say, walking closer.

“Right, because you would know the difference,” he spits.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“That you don’t know me,”

“I know you better than you think I do,” But did you?

“No, you don’t. And you shouldn’t anyway, you’re just another girl. Both you and I will get bored and move on, so why don’t we do it sooner rather than later?”

“How could you even say that? Is your view of the world really so tinted?” You ask, breathless.

“Oh fuck off y/n, you know I’m right. We’re nothing to each other, you’re nothing to me,”

You stare at him, this man in front of you. His perfect hair and flawless features. You think about him as you stare, his laugh, his friends, his reputation. How stupid you’d been. This kind of pain you were feeling wasn’t quite like any pain you’d ever felt. Your heart felt heavy and your knees weak, unable to carry the pressure. He opens his mouth to speak again, but you can’t take any more venom from him. He’d already killed you, any more and it was for satisfaction, not purpose.

“No, I’ve heard enough,” you say defeated, “I think you’ve dumbed it down for me enough, thank you,” you choke it out, refusing to let the tears fall in front of him. Before you turn, you notice an empty bottle of fire whisky tipped over on the floor. That’s no excuse, and something tells you that it was liquid courage to do what he had just done. So he’d done it, he’d done it perfectly. You look over your shoulder when you reach the portrait but he’s not there anymore, he didn’t even wait for you to leave. Each step down you take it feels as if you won’t land on solid ground. It feels as if you’ll just keep falling and falling with nowhere to go. At the end of the first two staircases, you sink. Sitting in the corner of the small piece of stone, you finally let the tears fall. His words shouldn’t sting so much, crushes' words don’t sting this much. But who were you kidding? This wasn’t a crush. If falling in love was a choice, how much easier life would be, but how much more dull. What’s life without a little adventure? But suddenly now, happiness doesn’t seem worth the pain that comes before, because you’d have to be unbelievably happy to remedy this. And what was most disappointing is that you wished more than ever that it was Sirius you’d fallen in love with. But it wasn’t love. The tears were falling Sirius, sure. You’d lost a friend. But they were falling for your loss of innocence. You’d wished desperately that he could love you because if Sirius Black could love you, then anyone could. It was infatuation, obsession. It was the seek of approval, of worthiness. If you were good enough for Sirius then you were good enough. Was it a point you were trying to prove to yourself or someone else? You’d didn’t know, but it didn’t matter. You’d gotten what you’d deserved. You’d convinced yourself you loved him, and what was worse was that you’d convinced him. That was why he was pushing you away. But if he hadn’t done so, maybe you never would have realised that it wasn’t love, or maybe would have realised too late.

“Y/n?” Someone asks. You look up through the blur of tears.

“Rem? I thought you were studying,” you say, trying to steady your voice.

“Y/n, it’s curfew, I finished nearly an hour ago,” he says, crouching down to your level, “How long have you been here?” He asks.

“I- I don’t know, I went to see Sirius after dinner and then I left the common room about fifteen minutes after that,” you say, trying not to think about the events in between.

“Merlin, you’ve been here hours. Come on,” he says, holding his hand out and rising back up. You take his hand and he supports most of your weight. Your body felt numb from sitting for so long. The time must have slipped by without you noticing, and that scared you. You couldn’t continue like this, your life would walk away from you. You did have more to live for than this. You had to have more. Sure, Sirius was the cause of most of your smiles and laughs and blushes but not all. Thank Merlin, not all.

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A few weeks had passed without speaking to Sirius. Strangely, he looked as broken as you felt during the first few days. You wouldn’t let him see that though, he wasn’t worth that. How were you going to move on if you couldn’t convince anyone that you had? That was a big part of moving on, if people don’t think you have, they continue to act as if you’re a porcelain doll, as if you’re damaged and it makes you feel as if you are. So whether you had or hadn’t, if people thought you had, that was a big and needed step. You’re not damaged, that implies some sort of permanency. You were more...currently under construction. You were waiting for the big unveiling just as everyone else was. But it was coming, you could feel yourself becoming lighter. But Sirius was becoming heavier. Over the weeks, you’d realised that you weren’t the only one in the wrong. Sirius was pushing you away because he was afraid of the feelings he thought you had, not his. He was using you too. You were staying because you wanted him to love you and you wanted to love him, but you couldn’t. And if Sirius was smart, he’d know that he didn’t love you either. He didn’t, you knew what love looked like. Sirius was clinging to someone that made him feel more secure of himself. It wasn’t love, it was approval.

You pack your books away and clean your desk before heading out of the classroom. You had a free period but nothing much to do. You were ahead with everything since you’d had so much time lately. It had been a while since you had gone to the lake and sat beneath a tree to read. It used to be your favourite thing to do, you’d missed it. But before you have the chance to get going, you feel a hand on your shoulder.

“Y/n,” you turn around, “Can we talk?” Sirius asks, barely making eye contact.

“Sure,” you say, flashing a smile. There was no use in making him feel guilty, because you didn’t want him to try to fix it. He takes your hand and pulls you into an empty classroom. He shuts the door behind you, and walks further in, biting his nails. When he finally turns around, he looks you in the eyes.

“Merlin, I’m so sorry y/n. I never should have said those things, I was being stupid and arrogant. You’re not just another girl to me and-“

“Sirius, please, don’t,” you cut him off, unwilling to hear the rest. For the first time in months, you felt free. And as much as it seemed strange to say, it was without Sirius that you’d felt the most free. You weren’t worrying if you looked perfect, you weren’t worrying about how your laugh sounded or the way your hair looked. You’d come to a realisation. You weren’t in love, it had hurt more because you had this idea in your head that he was something different and that you were something different to him. You’d convinced yourself that your smile meant more to him than anyone else’s. It was a sort of obsession. Falling in love shouldn’t be filled with so much anxiety. When you fall in love, you want it to be effortless. You don’t want to worry about the way you look or sound because that’s not love. Love is knowing that you could have your hair in a mess and snort when you laugh and still know that they love you for it just the same. It didn’t feel like that with Sirius. It felt like you had to be perfect because you’d made him perfect in your head. It almost felt like a competition, and that type of love is superficial and brief. If you could he as perfect as him, then he could love you, and you thought that it was what you needed. But it wasn’t. And though you knew he wasn’t perfect, you couldn’t help but always see him that way. It’s admiration, not love. When you admire someone, don’t you want them to admire you too?

“Why?” He asks, taking a step back.

“Because Sirius, I can't. To me, you’ll always be this picture perfect guy, and I can’t compete with that. I’ll always feel as if I’m in your shadow, I won’t be happy,”

“Compete? I’m not perfect, there’s nothing to compete with!” He says, exasperated.

“I never said you were, but you hold yourself out to have no faults, as if you’ve never cried or hurt before. I know you have, but I can’t change the way I see you, the way I know I always will. The way you helped me to see you,”

“So this is my fault?!” He barks.

“No, of course not. It’s no one’s fault. We don’t love each other Sirius, Believe me, we don’t. What we miss is the validation. When we found it, we called it something else, something false. And the heart is fickle, but the mind is even more so. Unfortunately for you, my mind is overruling the heart on this one, Sirius,” you say, kissing him on the cheek and turning around to leave. And this time, he had the decency to wait, because you were the one leaving. It was a bittersweet moment to let go of something you’d held onto for so long, but now you had time to mend the cuts and burns you had from holding on too tight. To what you didn’t need.

#sirius black #remus lupin #hp marauders #marauders era #sirius black x reader #harry potter fanfiction #marauders #young remus lupin #sirius x reader #sirius black x y/n #sirius black x you #sirius x y/n #sirius x you #marauders x reader #marauders era x reader #marauders fanfiction #marauders fic #sirius fanfic #sirius black fic #sirius black fanfiction #sirius black angst #harry potter fic #harry potter requests

[fauxridium]

talk about octavo :)

Oh yes ofc

So, i see octavo's mom as like. A maid to Zelda's mother, then zelda herself, so I think octavo grew up like, moderately close to the royal family, i dont think he would know anyone personally until later in his life but he would have probably been around them a handfull of times, which i think is where his Noble Attitude stems from, not royalty himself but around royalty often, so obviously he would have to be presentable and on his best behaviour all the times. Following that, i think that would help give him an "in" of sorts when it comes to him becoming the court musician.

He would have started studying and learning music pretty much as soon as he could read, to him, music is just as important as any other fundamental like reading and writing, and he would be skilled in practically all forms of music, piano, violin, the lute, fucking saxophone, you name it, chances are he can play it and play it well, something that he takes great pride in. So obviously when octavo came to the castle looking to take a seat in the court i dont think they would have to think very long before accepting him, given his conncetion to them already and his musical skillset.

Through becoming the court musician he would end up becoming more accuqanted with zelda i think, not friends, but friendly enough to have idle chit chat in passing, i think he would also have met/seen link around this time as well, i dont think they would directly talk to each other, not yet, but they would see each other in the halls, most often link would be standing by zelda's side, but, link being link, stoic and silent as he is, he wouldn't attempt to speak with octavo, and, as he seemed uninterested in conversation, octavo wouldn't try to start any, they'd simply.. Admire from afar, if you will

Overall, i think things would go well for octavo a majority of the time, he's smart, skilled in both music and magic, and, hes self confident, which untimately i think is his downfall. He's had a good life, he doesnt want the good things he has to pass him by, and, on a whim, sees a fortune teller, however her fortune is not what he wanted to hear. Her visions of ganon coming to power to destroy hyrule and everything octavo had and holds dear i think would scare him more than anything, he couldn't just sit by and let that all happen, oh no, in his words, someone must rise to the occasion to do what must be done, and in his self confidence, who else to do that but himself.

Hes smart, but his self confidence gets in the way of that sometimes, this is one of those times. From there obviously he takes the fortune teller's thread and makes the golden lute, his intentions to stop this evil before it can cause any damage, he alone would save hyrule, and in his eyes, he does. He puts those who could stop him to sleep, and takes over the castle.

Now heres the best part, while octavo is incredibly smart, hes also incredibly stupid, as evident by the fact that he locks himself out of the castle.

So for octavo's ode to be like, a thing that can happen, there has to be a split in the timeline from the main story, and i believe that split is when octavo locks himself out of the castle, in the main story, octavo never leaves the castle, he locks himself in, because of that, link can go around hyrule collecting the instruments he needs to unlock the barrier and untimately put a stop to octavo, in octavo's ode however, its octavo that goes around collecting the instruments, which means link doesn't have anything he can collect to get inside the caslte, which means octavo is left unopposed, letting him fester in his now power hungry state, leading him to lose his grip on his sanity and reality, turning him into the necrodancer, which, eventually octavo himself would travel into the future to correct, even though he went into it expecting to face ganon, not himself turned into a monster, the very thing he was trying to prevent.

After defeating himself and going back to the past (present?), i think having to face himself would cause a huge shift in him, coming to realize that its not his destiny to save hyrule, and he shouldn't intervene with the things he cant control, no matter how much he thinks he can and no matter how much power he can gain, power will only end up corrupting those who seek it, even those with good intentions.

For his crimes against hyrule, octavo would be put on trail, though, due to him untimately doing what he did in an attempt to save hyrule, and his obvious remorse, his sentence would end up being light, with link and zelda advocating for him, able to see that he is a good person, just misguided, so he'd end up on parol basically, link being the one to watch him as hes the only one that could really take octavo on in a battle and win if he stepped out of line. Through that link and octavo would end up spending a lot of time together, getting to know each other and eventually becoming rather close, and, i think you can put two and two together from there.

I like to hc octavo as a trans man, tho hes very comfortable with himself and his identity and really doesn't care about gender norms at all, hes also a Raging homosexual, like. So so incredibly gay, the gayest man in all of hyrule

#the legend of zelda #cadence of hyrule #coh #octavo #octavo coh #this is the longest one of these so far #i just really love octavo okay #ALSO THE WHOLE SPLIT WITH HIM LOCKING HIMSELF OUT OF THE CASTLE IS SO SO FUNNY #HES SO STUPID BUT SO SMART #also yes i did have to sprinkle some linktavo in there it wouldnt feel right if i didnt

[teamjacobthot]

twilight saga character tag!

thank you sm @softtwihoe for tagging me <3 i feel like im still new to the renaissance fandom on tumblr even tho i never stopped being a twihard so shit like this warms my heart <3

now my spicy twilight takes………………...

1. Character you find most relatable to you as a person?

the love of my life, without a doubt, 100% leah clearwater. mfs tried to make her feel bad for feeling her feelings but she was valid in all of them. also its canon that shes a scorpio but yall aint hear it from me

rosalie bc we have similar trauma (lmao :/) and like to disagree with people. i also love big dumb men

edward. as a fellow whiny musical pissbaby who cant let shit go, i get it

2. Character that didn’t have a POV in the books or certain unfinished manuscripts, but you wish did?

ok maybe this is super underground but sue!!! mf!!! clearwater!!! she had allllllll the tea on the pack and tbh i really wanted to see how she and her family were before and after harry’s death. that event was a really big deal (outside of just bella and edward) and set shit OFF in new moon

billy bc he also had hella tea and i bet he was super fucking conflicted during the ENTIRE saga bc he couldnt say shit to charlie!!! that shit sounds rough!!!!!

quil bc he was the last to phase and i just wanna know what he was going thru. he would’ve had hellaaaaa jokes too but smeyer doesnt care abt nonwhite characters so :/

charlie, assuming he supports the black lives matter movement

i guess overall i just wanna know how EVERYONE was doing in new moon bc that story ran DEEP. i want a midnight sun for new moon but for every character

nobody asked but new moon is the best in the saga and new moon stans have the best pussy

3. Character that’s underrated and deserves more recognition?

the entire wolf pack but wbk

riley but tbh i think its bc i just loved xavier samuel in the eclipse movie

the denali coven!!!! their story was incredible imo and while irina was a snitch, i understand why she snitched. she didnt deserve to die. the denalis deserve so much better and while garrett is cool to have around, that doesnt fill the void that irina left bc the volturi decided to be a bunch of haters. i want them to heal so bad. 

tanya gets a bad rep for having a crush on edward but she deserves better too

i’d like to read abt the vacations that the denalis with the cullens too

oh and all thats just BESIDES the succubus legend that tanya and kate and irina started in canon!!!!!!!! like??????????????????? they fucked and killed human men??????????? thats the story i wanna READ bitch!!!! thats my jennifer’s body (2009) fantasy!!!!! smeyer is a coward tho

btw carmen and esme are girlfriends :)

4. Character you thought was unnecessary for the story?

ok besides the obvious, and nobody drag me for it, but bree tanner. I get she was there to show us how fucked up the volturi are and to sorta predict bella as a newborn but……...we already knew the volturi kill mfs just for fun. if the cullens werent gonna adopt her we really didnt need many details on her. and regarding the newborn thing, bree’s role as a newborn didnt really mean shit bc bella ended up being ~the perfect newborn~ anyway!!!! smeyer tried to sell us the short second life of bree tanner as if there arent other worthy characters of having a spinoff novella about like leah or seth or rosalie or emmett or charlie or resume from bella’s ovary. that being said………..

resume, for multiple reasons including:

resume literally shouldnt exist. vampires shouldnt be able to have working sperm and even then, edward shouldve pulled out. he could barely even tongue kiss bella so wtf made him think he could cum in her????? whyyy didnt he use his big vampire brain to consider that????? 

resume seemed totally unwanted and unthought of??? bella and edward were so mf absorbed in each other like regular teen couples (with 1000x the intensity but still) that it didnt seem likely that theyd want a baby after fucking like three times anyway. miss bella “fuck them kids” swan also gave no indication of wanting children. ever. EYE would have simply aborted and went on to live my best vampire life :)

resumes existence defeats the purpose of imprinting bc theres no way she’d be able to conceive with jacob. at all. but we know smeyer doesnt think shit through

smeyer writing in resume ruined jacobs character even more esp coming off the shitshow that was eclipse. periodt

5. Top 5 female characters?

leah <3

rosalie

bella

sue

angela

6. Top 5 male characters?

jacob (pre-eclipse but that’s implied)

emmett

seth

quil/paul (i love them equally)

edward’s dumb ass <3 sometimes

7. Character interaction that didn’t happen but you wish it did?

rosalie and edward but only under the condition that he finally stops being a misogynistic pissbaby towards her and accepts her for the sexy legend that she is. i feel like they’d get along well but smeyer is anti-hottie and anti-talent so i guess we’ll never know :/

leah and someone who loves her and respects her and validates her feelings :)

JACOB AND HIS SISTERS. OR EVEN JUST RACHEL. she literallyyyyyyyyyy came home after YEARS in breaking dawn but he was too busy simping over bella to acknowledge her??? huh???

bella and a licensed therapist

edward and a licensed therapist

8. Character that deserves more development?

the whole entire wolf pack but wbk

more specifically, embry. whooooom is his father???

emmett. like we get it hes funny and hot but like……….spare depth maam? any spare depth????

9. Character who is your total opposite?

jasper bc he fought for people who look like me to be ENSLAVED and the fandom lets it slide for whatever reason :|

10. Character you warmed up to after experiencing the Renaissance?

edward, in some ways. i relate to him when im feeling extra self-loathing but then i get over it lmao. he’s still stupid tho

i used to think alice was annoying af (and i still kinda do tbh) but as a fashion hoe, i get it

charlie, sorta, even tho he’s a cop. i wasnt there for the original conversation on here but do yall think he supports black lives matter? idk tbh but we’ll never know bc smeyer probably doesnt know what police brutality is. anyways ive really enjoyed the discourse on his relationship with bella and how he doesnt trust edward

jacob <3 he’s always been my heart, my soul, my baby, my fuckin cinnamon apple, etc. but i love the posts that other fans/nonhaters have been making abt how warm and kind he was before smeyer fucked him over and how he deserves so much better. its like yes im glad youre seeing all the things that make me a team jacob thot :)

idk if yall have already been tagged but im tagging @howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen @leahclearwaterdefensesquad @leahclearvvater and @bellas-dumptruck-ass! also anyone can fill this out and say i tagged them <3

#this took 3 times to post bc tumblr stays on my neck but #ask things #twilight saga #twilight renaissance #hot takes

[your-lips-your-lies-your-lust]

I am not gum on the bottom of you're shoes.

I am not academic and i feel out of place at uni. Trying to understand things and learn things takes me twice as long as it does everyone else and that has never been more proven more to me than with this brief. I think it's unfair and increasable to have an academically worded brief. I think it pushes people away, discourages people from wanting better for themselves, from wanting people to achieve goals and dreams. I think its a joke that we accept that university education has to be this inaccessible, upper class, "only for the educated" thing. I refuse to be made a fool and laugh and idiot just because i cant understand something. i try, i read the books on the reading list, which is more than i can say for the others, i try to understand and each and every time, the education of universities (not just this one) aims to put down and belittle those of us who are a bit more common and working class than the rest. I'm sick of feeling like i'm a peice of gum on the bottom of your shoe. i WILL NOT BE DEFEATED BY A DAMN BRIEF! I WILL NOT BE RUINED AND JUDGED BY SOME UPPER CLASS SNOB WHO DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS TO ENCOMPASS ALL. Education is not only for the upper classes and it shouldn't exist to exclude, it shouldn't exist to keep the thick, stupid and the make the smart smarter but that is all the education system is this country seems to do! i feel extremely let down and forgotten by this country and the way it treats the not so academic people in the education system. Rather than help them out and lift them up to make them grow and including everyone. You push away anyone who is unable to attain your standards. and i hate you. Education has failed to help and support me my entire life, i don't know why i would have thought university would be any different. Not a single person has helped or been willing to help me when i have asked for it. So once again, i left stranded and deserted by the education system and i once again i will rise up, take charge and figure this fucking thing out on my own, no thanks to you snobby axademic swine who have looked down upon me and my family and my ancestors our whole damn lives. 

P.s. I'm angry, its an angry sort of day. This is just how I am feeling about university and uni life right now. I was doing a write up for my research journal and I ended angrily going off on one, needing to vent. And seeing as I can't say that in my research journal, my Tumblr diary is always the safest space to put anything. 

#Tumblr diary #Tumblr journal #my Tumblr diary #academic #not academic #university #education #education system #uk education

[thoughtfuldreamercreatorduck]

Underapreciated Yang Fact

Yang is by far my favorite character in RWBY (Yang stan till the day i die) but something i really Love about her is something i dont think anyone has ever Really discussed so far. So i am going to Talk about it.

The fact that Yang is Not a villain.

Okay i can understand why that may doesnt seem all that great to you or just confuses you maybe so Let me explain. And I ask of you to Take a Moment of your Time and Read the Post completely so you understand my opinion and dont Make any forgone conclusions.

It is painfully obvious that Yang has been through quite a Lot over the course of the series. Abandonment, mutiliation, PTSD and the list goes on.

In fact it is easy to View the series and EXPECT her to turn evil.

In fact it would fit the trope of the older sibling going evil and the younger sibling who is the "protagonist" Holding on to Hope and having to Stop them.

From the very Moment we found out that Yang is Rubys sister some could have ended up Thinking Yang will be her sisters final boss.

Going along with that something that we often get confronted with in Media is the idea that evil is Made. That the Most horrible People have Been put through the Most horrible acts. And the character of the "tortured badass" is so common at this point it is sort of what de have grown to expect when a character, especially One who started out Kind and loving, is put through suffering. How many times have there Been examples in fiction where a character has suffered and uses this suffering as an excuse for their own evil?

Something that goes Hand in Hand with that is the character being dissapointed or betrayed in a way by people they love.

It is very easy to view RWBY and come to the conclusion that Yang has Been failed by everyone and Everything she ever counted on and cared about.

Her birthmother Raven abandoned her at birth.

Qrow is a drunk shell of a huntsman who likely has rarely Been there for her.

Summer the only real mother figure in her life died and left her, not volunteraily but it still happened.

Taiyang became secluded and in his depression Left Yang to become a mother figure while still being a Child herself.

Ruby her sister who she raised abandoned her in Patch while going out and chasing some villain.

Weiss A treasured friend was just taken away.

Blake her Love interest (Deal with it haters) pretty much abandoned her After she received the biggest defeat of her life.

The law and state itself failed her through Ironwood and believing her to be guilty of attacking an Innocent boy.

Ozpins war affected Yang the Most out of all of Team RWBY and she Made it clear that she has no Trust left for her headmaster.

This is in some cases heavily oversimplified, for example that the reason Blake left we're more complicated, but at its core...

Every Authority figure failed Yang.

Everyone she loved failed Yang.

The World failed Yang.

With this Setup it would have Been very easy to turn Yang into a villain.

All that was needed was One last Step to have her get a Start of darkness. It would have perfectly fit with the cliche of every Bad person being Hurt and Been even somewhat believable with the requirements.

But IT DOESNT HAPPEN.

Yangs entire existence completely defies the trope that suffering makes a person evil.

Look at all the villains who Take something that happened to them as a excuse to Make others suffer.

One of the biggest examples would be The Joker from DC whos Core philosophy in 'the killing joke' is all it takes is One Bad day to turn any man and woman into monsters. He tries to prove it in said story with gordon and the series Injustice is all but build on proving the Joker right with the seemingly incoruptable SUPERMAN turning into a tyrannical dictator and using what the Joker did to him as an excuse for all the suffering he causes.

Yang basically looks ALL of them in the eye and tells them: "Youre full of shit!"

Yang proves that People like Joker are WRONG.

In the end being evil is a Choice!

No One forced Superman to kill an entire Planet.

People using their suffering as an excuse to harm others are just Bad people. Thats it! No tearful backstory justifies that kid you bullied til he cried, the Innocent cop you gunned down or that civilization you massacred!

Being Evil is a Choice weakwilled People Make because they cant Deal with shit happening to them.

But Not Yang.

Yang is the example of a character starring into the abyss and forcing the abyss to run back where it came from. She choses to Not Let what happened to her define her. She makes the Choice to Not become a Monster and to Not Let her pain out on others.

She immediatly hugs Ruby and tells her she loves her as Ruby stutters out panicked excuses.

She never blames Blake for losing her arm and has the heart to accept her back in her life.

None of these things would have Been done by weakerminded characters like injustice!superman.

Because the idea of evil makes you evil is an pathetic excuse People Make to Not feel like they are doing anything wrong.

It is also why i believe Yang in particular has so many haters. Those haters are likely people who have Been through MUCH less than PTSD and loss of limb. Yet whatever happened to them they use as an excuse to be assholes in real Life. Thats why they hate Yang. They can Not Deal with the fact that there is someone SO MUCH BETTER THAN THEM. They want her to be as pathetic as they are because than they dont have to feel like what they do is wrong. Yangs very existence violates that idea and they cant stand it!

If you hate Yang (in which Case why are you Reading this i publish this in the Yang tag) youre Most likely an asshole who cant accept that Yang is capable of being a good person.

Yang is just so much better than Most of us are in real Life. I am completely okay with admitting that she is a better person than me. I dont Think i would be capable of even half of the Things she did.

Yang is the Kind of character i Aspire to be. And if everyone would feel the same than Maybe this World wouldnt be this fucked up.

Yang is One gigantic example of just why that entire trope is bullshit. Another reason as to why I believe it is so meaningful she is the One to bring Adam down with Blake.

Adam is this trope to an Extreme. He makes the World suffer for what it did to him. And his Fans obviously latch on to that. They use the Brand as an excuse as to why he can be allowed to do all the Bad things. That is also why so many Adam stans hate Yang (One of many stupid reasons). They See Yang and See that she is better than Adam in any possible way and LOATHE that.

Yang DESTROYS this overrated trope.

And its One of the many reasons why i stan this woman till the day i die.

#rwby #yang xiao long #bumbleby #yang x blake #adam taurus #rwby6 #yang #ruby rose

[sablesides-ask-blog]

Mulan and Loceit!

Sorry if it's not what you expected, havent seen any Mulan movie since I was little so I dont remember much about it ;-;

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Logan was quite content with his life, and he was rather smart for someone of his social status. But of course there was only one thing anyone ever seemed to want from him, a husband. He'd just never seen the point in love, or feelings in general for that matter, it all seemed pointless. Yet there he was, getting ready to see if he could ever land the husband his family so desperately wished he would. Make-up itched, and clothing to, everything itched and he hated it. He hated these pointless rituals and matchmaking, hated love, hated feelings. But he sat and smiled, because that's what a good son does, sits and smiles and gets a spouse to carry on his family's legacy. His grandmother had given him a cricket, he never understood how that was going to help him, it was highly unlikely that such superstitions were actually true.

But Logan found himself hoping his grandmother was correct in her assumptions as he walked to the matchmakers house. He hoped he wasnt sweating, makeup ran when in contact with liquids, he thought about how stupid makeup was again.

He wasnt sure when he'd been called, he barely remembered it, but next thing he knew he was sitting on the floor, pouring tea for matchmaker and pretending to have a genuine smile. He didnt have to pretend for much longer, the tea stains on the matchmakers face made her look almost as if she had a beard. She reached for the teacup, and Logan noticed the cricket his grandmother had given him poking its head out from the cup.

"Let me refill that for you-" he said, taking the cup quickly and trying to stall for time. The matchmaker eyed him suspiciously. Logan felt beads of sweat on his forehead and began to panic. This was a bad course of action.

Next thing he knew, or at least wish he knew, the matchmaker was on fire and screaming at him to get out.

"YOU WILL NEVER FIND A HUSBAND, YOU WILL BRING ONLY DISHONOR TO YOUR FAMILY!" the words cut through Logan like a knife. He didnt care about finding a husband, or feelings, or love. But he did care about family, and the disappointed looks from his own haunted him.

It seemed like the day couldnt get worse. Yet somehow, it did. Logan's mother was told she would be sent off to war, and there was nothing Logan could do to stop it. He'd stayed up for hours thinking and devising plans, watching his reflection in the pond, wondering what he'd done to become such a terrible son, when he came to a realization. He walked to the wardrobe his parents had always told him to stay away from, that it was for his mother only, he shouldnt touch it. But when he opened the wardrobe and took out the armor inside, he couldnt see why. Perhaps they thought him to fragile for war, but he disagreed. As he put on the armor and took the sword his mother used to show him when he was little, he felt stronger, smarter, even. He hadnt thought it possible for him to get any smarter than he already was, he suprised himself every day now it seemed. He raced to the stables and found his personal favorite horse, a tan palomino.

"You think you can handle a journey like this? It'll be a while before we can get back," Logan didnt know why he talked to the horse, it was such a stupid thing to do, but it seemed to understand him, he could have sworn he saw it nod. No matter the reaction, he climbed onto the horse's back and set off for the army, completely uncertain of whether or not he would return.

About half way through his journey, as Logan slept one night, he heard something moving in the field. He blinked his eyes open and looked up to see the shadow of a dragon on some stone. "What the-"

"GREETINGS MORTAL- IT IS I- REMUS!" said the dragon. Logan looked around, and noticed a small green dragon with brown lines on its nose nearby, the cricket was holding a torch toward it. "IM HERE TO TELL YOU TO-" the dragon seemed to notice Logan staring at him, "Oh-"

"You're here to help me." said Logan, who quite frankly was not expecting much from the dragon.

"I know more about this than you do, violence is my thing," said Remus the dragon, who was small and nonthreatening.

"I'm sure you do," said Logan sarcastically, but he decided to e

accept the dragon's help anyways, he supposed a talking dragon for company was better than no company at all.

He hadn't expected this to be an easy feat, not remotely, but the addition of General Deceit was something he absolutely couldnt wrap his head around. The general had scars all along one side of his face, he almost looked like he had scales. The rest of the army found him intimidating, Logan found his pushing frankly annoying.

Logan would make one mistake and hear "I've seen better from a servant," behind him. It was, to be frank, a drag. Remus tried to help him several times, but that only seemed to get him into more trouble.

"Alright, I think I've seen enough from you," Deceit's eyes were cold and unforgiving as they bore into Logan's own, he'd never been scared of the general, but this particular instance was an outlier. "Your time in this army is done, I expect your things and you to be gone by morning, Logic," the name had been used on a whim, Logan frankly didnt understand how anyone bought it, but that wasnt his place to say. He watched as Deceit stormed off to watch the other recruits, and he made a decision. He was going to practice until Deceit had no choice but to let him stay.

It worked like a charm, Logan would never forget the look on Deceit's face as he gaped at Logan, sitting atop the log that so many others had desperately tried to scale the previous day. He took great pleasure in Deceit's revocation of his previous command. But this was a war, he had to remember that.

It hadnt really felt like a war, hed been having so much fun talking with the other recruits, and been so caught up in hiding his identity that he had almost forgotten. Which was why when they came upon the decimated remains of another village, Logan didnt know how to cope. They were overtaken soon after, and amid the confusion Logan had managed to screw something up that he couldnt repair.

"What, exactly, is this?" Deceit had his hand wrapped around Logan's arm, despite the opposing armies supposed defeat, Logan had made a grave mistake. He had forgotten all about the markings he'd left on his arm the day of his matchmaking, he'd hoped they would have come off by now, he wished they had. "So you're not even a soldier, then?" said Deceit, the hiss in his voice clearly audible. Logan tried to sputter out a response, but to no avail. He was left there, in the cold, as the rest of the army fled back home. Remus tried to console him, but it was no use. He'd failed to gain honor in any situation, he wasnt a good husband, he wasnt a good soldier, and he wasnt a good scholar. He wasnt good enough at anything.

Logan's horse whinnied, he turned around to see his enemies rising out from where he'd thought they'd disappeared. Frantically, he got back on his horse, Remus latched onto his shoulder, and fled back home, hoping to warn Deceit before it was to late.

The journey seemed endless, but finally, Logan made it. He searched the crowds and streets for Deceit, catching a glimpse of his yellow eyes withing a parade.

"Deceit!" he rode up beside him, the man ignored him. "Deceit, the armies didnt die back at the mountains, we're all in danger! You have to listen to me!"

Deceit turned to face him "I dont take orders from a low-class man who couldnt even land a husband, you are not a leader, and you are not a soldier, stay in your own line." he growled. Logan glared and lead his horse away.

"How dare he! Well if he doesnt want to listen then we can just watch everyone die from out here!" said Remus angrily. Logan ignored him, he was to busy trying to formulate a plan so his idea wouldnt come to fruition. He finally landed on something, but it still required Deceit's help.

By the time he'd returned to the palace however, enemy forces had already arrived. He enlisted the help of some of his army friends as a distraction and ran off to find Deceit.

"Do you believe me now!" he said, halfway sarcastically. Deceit through him a sword and rolled his eyes. Together they fought through the army. Logan had never really noticed it before, but Deceit's intimidating demeanor was actually very pleasing to him, and he fought quite well for someone with so many injuries so close to his eye.

Logan hadnt expected any rewards, he'd expected a reprimand, punishment, maybe even death for what he'd done. Yet as he faced the crowds of people cheering for him, he felt happier than he ever had in his life, he watched Remus giving him a thumbs up, watched his parents beaming up at him from the audience, and then he felt a hand on his shoulder.

He turned to face Deceit once again. The man rubbed the back of his neck with his hand. "You uh, fight, well, for someone-"

"So nerdy?" Logan finished his sentence for him. Deceit flushed and Logan laughed. He said his goodbyes and headed back home.

He'd fully expected there to be no more suprises in his life, fore everything to go back to normal as soon as he put everything back in place. He should've known better, his life had been nothing but surprises recently, but at least this surprise was a pleasant one. Deceit's smiling face was a sight Logan had only ever dreamed of seeing again, and his words were something that caused even more joy.

"I'm in love with you, Logan, I dont know how or why, but its true," Deceit had told him. And Logan had smiled, hed felt it to, he'd never known what the word meant before, hed always thought of himself as a glitch in that particular system, yet here he was. Young, clever, and in love,and what a set of things to be indeed, he wouldnt change any of it for the world.

[renwritesrandomthings]

Mitsuhide’s Route and MC summary and commentary

Basically, the route flow. Spoilers. HAHAHA!  My tsundere self hates MC here. Just a personal preference. I wanted an MC who can outwit Mitsuhide and surprise him. But, on the other, as enlightened to me by @devilkingskonpeito, Hideyoshi’s MC is quite strong. And, it reminded me how she blackmailed Mitsuhide in the dungeon. And, by the end, Mitsuhide just attempts to tease her, and MC replied “You’re teasing me again!” And, it’s like a Brecht-like situation of stoping any emotional reactions. It doesn’t fulfill Mitsuhide’s purpose of teasing. This made me realize when Mitsuhide did not pursue his feelins. He is probably scared she could read her.  This is the reason why I like Hideyoshi’s route. MC is pretty strong and grounded. MCs affect how I enjoy a route. 

I am on chapter 8 already. I really am hoping she changes a bit and be stronger in her own way. This is also the route where in MC doesn’t have her own sewing and designing thing, which is sad for me. I always admired her for being passionate on something. And, for her to not be able to do it  is sad. 

So, yeah, 5 more chapters. Let’s see. I am still hoping for some change. 

Again~  play the route. It’s a reader-response text. I respond this way as a player. LOL. 

Mitsuhide is assigned to ‘take care’ of MC

Knowing in all routes that he is a sado-masochist. He forces to teach her many things: war history, horseback riding, shooting, and even basic fighting.  She whines each time or crying. (This is very interesting because one would assume that Mitsuhide is teaching her how to survive in war and what is the reality of it. Like, Masamune, Nobunaga, and Ieyasu.) 

She’s brought in the war by Mitsuhide and saves her eventually. 

She thanks him, and somehow she gets this glimpse that Mitsuhide hates violence. 

MC becomes curious about Mitsuhide. Basically, she learned  that he’s quite a flirt. known as “Horereba Jigoku” or “A Hell to Fall in Love with.” The Samurai in the town has a negative opinion on him, questioning his loyalty to Nobunaga. Masamune even mentions to MC that Mitsuhide has a possibility to betray any of them. But, Masamune respects his wit and intellect. And, calling out MC’s excessive innocence. 

MC accidentally sees Mitsuhide, one night, speaking to someone in the shadows. OF course, he chases MC who was going to report to Hideyoshi about her concerns. 

Her sudden visit surprises Hideyoshi. On the verge of her confession, Mitsuhide appears in Hideyoshi’s manor. The two already begin to argue, Hideyoshi asking MC what really happened. 

But, of course, MC digresses. And, she follows Mitsuhide to his manor. 

In his manor, Mitsuhide shows MC her bag and begins to interrogate her. 

She had no choice but to explain her situation. Mitsuhide says, that he will help her go back to her time and understands that each person does keeo a secret. 

MC, who’s all tired, asks Mitsuhide if she can sleep and rest. He offers his lap. 

The next day, a rumor spreads that Mitsuhide and MC slept together. MC is asking and whining to Mitsuhide to tell people off. 

Mitsuhide tells Nobunaga and Hideyoshi he plans to make her his fiancee.

Nobunaga talks to MC alone and tells her to take care of Mitsuhide.

MC stares blankly. LOL 

Mitsuhide drags her to a mission and they pretended to be husband and wife travelling entertainers.

She whines again about the situation of room sharing, but still doing it. Even doesn’t really protesting on Mitsuhide’s stolen kisses. 

MC pushes Mitsuhide to be honest.

Mitsuhide tells MC that she is like Hideyoshi.  LOL

Eventually, MC was taken forcely one night by some samurai and brought to Yoshiaki Ashikaga as an offering. 

MC protests and Ashikaga insults her, saying he doesnt want any random woman who doesnt have any social status. MC fights back on his cruel words, attempting to fight but knocked out.

Mitsuhide finds her on the same spot she was taken and asks her to tell her everything. 

She cries (OKAY THIS IS LIKE A TRAUMATIZING EVENT, SO CRYING IS OKAY). And, she asks Mitsuhide to hug her in her sleep. 

TBH, Mitsuhide is really a nice guy deep inside. 

Next day, he teases her again and she whines out of annoyance. But eventually gives in to his instructions. 

MC goes to the market and coicindentally meets Sasuke and Yukimura ---who were just travelling. 

She tells them about Ashikaga and even about Yoshimoto.

The two left worried about the Yoshimoto and Ashikaga being in the same space. 

Upon leaving, a hand pulls MC. UGH. 

It was Yoshimoto. He said he was worried about her, upon seeing her in Ashikaga’s mansion.

Apparently, Yoshimoto was there. 

During the festival, Mitsuhide told MC to perform alone while he does his thing as revenge to those who kidnap MC.

Comment: This is what Masamune said. Mitsuhide deliberately creates enemies for himself versus Hideyoshi’s negotiation approach. 

Then, when they escaped to travel back to Azuchi. They rested in the field, flirting. UGH. Like, Mitsuhide was saying after tonight our husband-wife play is over. So, they were like flirting and kissing on the cheek. He teases her and she whines yet accepting that these are his teases. 

Upon reaching Azuchi, the guards arrests Mitsuhide for the Honno-ji Incident. Mitsuhide, like in any other route, says nothing and relies on Kyubei. 

Back in the hall, the rest of the warlords discuss about things. Nobunaga orders a death sentence to Mitsuhide, to which Hideyoshi begs back to reconsider. He is angry and does not believe the accusations. Masamune and Ieyasu calms Hideyoshi .

MC sneaks to the dungeon.. She saw Mitsuide all wounded since he was beaten up by guards. YES SHE CAN CRY HERE. IT’S A VALID REASON. 

But, I did wish it made her a little mad or more strong willed to pull the truth from Mitsuhide.

Similar to Hideyohi’s route, he follows MC in the dungeon. 

Hideyoshi, angry and frustrated on Mitsuhide, tells him off that he can’t even spare trust to him. He would like to believe that he is innocent. He punches him and says, he’ll pull out the truth from him. And, tells MC to leave with him. 

This is the frustrating part in Mitsuhide he just asks MC to trust him, but he cannot trust her back.

That night Ieyasu told MC that Mitsuhide escaped. She was all agitated and wanted to go to him. Ieyasu calls her stupid and to just stay in his room, since the whole Azuchi is in chaos. 

She cries in her room.

Then, Mitsuhide  appears from her window.

It’s such a mystical scene. The writers is selling Mitsuhide the ‘mystical creature”.

Basically, he’s there to say his goodbye and give her a hair accessory with the Akechi flower crest.

She cries again and Mitsuhide gives her a deep kiss. 

The scene is really poignantm though. 

But  how I wish she tried to keep herself a little stronger for Mitsuhide then shed tears as he kissed her. Because the hair accessory itself seals the romance that he loves her. 

Mitsuhide bids goodbye and she asks, “ When is next time?” 

She reminds of the ladies in Tale of Genji. 

Mitsuhide is confronted by Masamune. This is an amazing scene. Mitsuhide is secretive and Masamune is always upfront and instinctive. Fox versus Tiger. Of course, Mitsuhide pulls a last trick  and leaves Masamune defeated. 

Few days after, Ieyasu and Mitsunari reports to MC that Mitsuhide was able to escape. 

Ieyasu commented if other lords hear you, you’re dead. Tbh, I really need Ieyasu’s bluntness in this route. 

MC here lives in her Mitsuhide fantasy and idealism despite being shown the realities of war. She seems require protection like all the time.

Days passed and MC decides to visit Mitsuhide’s manor to check his things for clue. Seriously, MC was giddy here. Too giddy. Ranmaru joins her, mentioning he is curious as well But, of course, he’s doing this to report to Kennyo. 

When they arrived, Kyuubei welcomed them and guided them to his room. There was nothing.

Ranmaru mentioned, it was as if he wanted to be accused by Oda Forces.

With nothing found, Ranmaru offers to buy sweet dango for the three of them. 

Kyuubei asks MC to join him at the garden. Chimaki, the fox, arrives and MC pets her. 

Kyuubei explains that Mitsuhide requested  to bring that hair accessory to the prison. And, wanted her to have it. He continues that it’s a special flower crest for the Akechi clan. (Haven’t checked the hanakotoba)

SHE CRIES AGAIN. 

Upon her return to Azuchi Castle, Nobunaga calls her at the tenshuu. Hideyoshi and Masamune are there, too. Nobunaga says they will go to Kyoto to hunt the fox and MC needs to join. 

#ikesen #ikesen Mitsuhide #ikesen Hideyoshi #ikesen Masamune #ikesen Ieyasu #ikesen Mitsunari #ikesen Nobunaga #ikemen sengoku

[raveneira]

Things I’ll never understand about this fandom

Sakura hitting Naruto is abusive and bitchy and makes her a terrible person for hitting nice guy Naruto who doesnt deserve it

But Karin hitting Suigetsu just for making her mad is completely fine and nobody bats an eye

Sakura only liking Sasuke because he was cool and handsome makes her love for him shallow

But Karin liking Sasuke for the EXACT SAME REASON is completely overlooked simply because he saved her and she has a tragic backstory

Karin only ever mentions Sasuke’s smile which is a part of his appearance, when she layed dying she thought of wanting to see that face once more, in the databook it said Karin stayed loyal to Sasuke in hopes of seeing his radiant smile again, this fandom loves to claim that she fell inlove with him because he saved her but Karin herself contradicts that very argument with her own words, even in that god awful filler her final request to Sasuke was to smile for her, not be happy like some people claim is what she wanted, just smile for her like that one time referring back to the chunin exams, but nobody cares about that and instead try to twist it into something more than it actually was, a shallow crush

Sakura not knowing or understanding Sasuke is such a big deal and why they shouldnt be together

But Karin knew nothing about Sasuke either as their encounter didnt even last a minute yet we’re supposed to believe she fell inlove with him and stayed inlove with him for 3 years just from that ONE encounter? he didnt even acknowledge her, just what scroll she had and then left when he saw it wasnt the one he needed, he made no attempt to check on her or ask if she was ok, yet we’re supposed to believe that this was enough for Karin to fall inlove with him and stay inlove with him for as long as she did, according to this fandom that makes perfect sense, but Sakura who actually was on a team with him and spent several months with him? totally shallow and no legitimate reason to have stayed inlove with him as long as she did

Everyone loves to ask WHY does Sakura love Sasuke

But nobody asks WHY Karin loves Sasuke, WHY Lee loves Sakura, the only one who needs a reason for their feelings to be legitimate is Sakura

Sakura lying to Naruto about being inlove with him is bad and makes her a total bitch for toying with his emotions like that

But Naruto transforming into Sasuke to trick Sakura into kissing him and also manipulate her into hating Sasuke by making him seem like a bad person so that he can have a shot at her is totally fine

Sakura ‘making fun’ of Naruto being an orphan is horrible and a bitch thing for her to do

But Ino mocking Sakura’s forehead, her biggest insecurity which Ino is more than aware of is totally fine

Sakura breaking off her friendship with Ino over a guy is terrible and shes a bad friend for that

But Ino allowing their friendship to fall apart over a guy is fine, Ino not fighting for her friendship with Sakura instead of letting a guy come between them is fine, Ino being a bitch to Sakura now is fine, Ino making no attempt to salvage their relationship at all and just going along with the whole thing is fine, Naruto fought tooth and nail for his and Sasukes friendship regardless of his feelings for Sakura he continued to pursue Sasuke for his own reasons, Ino didnt fight for their friendship in the slightest and let it fall apart but thats just fine, the responsibility is all Sakuras

Sakura covering up the Taka photo was horrible and a bitchy thing to do after all Karin did for them

But Sasuke not mentioning Karin or Taka to Sarada at all is completely overlooked, its Sakuras responsibility to tell Sarada about Sasukes former criminal teammates that she barely knows anything about to begin with, its not Sasukes place to explain this part of his past to Sarada its Sakuras, everything is Sakuras responsibility

Sakura not telling Sarada anything about Karin or Taka is bad

But Hinata not telling Boruto and Himawari about Jiraiya, Kiba, Shino, Sasuke is completely fine

Sakura is bad for being a housewife

But Hinata is literally the only one of her generation who is still a chunin and the only thing we see Hinata doing throughout Boruto is cooking and cleaning the house, and no Himawari is not an excuse because Boruto was literally her age running around the village with his friends just fine, and the old gen running around even younger, Himawari is well old enough to not need 24/7 Hinata supervision so that is no excuse, but its fine for Hinata to be a housewife and just cook and clean house but Sakura? how dare she do the dishes and clean the house

Sakura falling to her knees yelling for Naruto in the Pain arc was weak and pathetic

But Hinata tripping and asking Neji, her now-dead cousin to watch over Naruto, who she failed to get to by tripping on a rock

Sakura going up against Madara alone and getting stabbed was stupid and foolish and ha what a weak bitch

But Hinata going up against Pain alone and getting one-shotted was heroic and atleast she tried

Sakura going up against Gaara and being defeated easily is being stupid and useless

But Hinata going up against Momoshiki and being defeated easily is seen as brave and heroic wanting to save her husband

Sakura being flat-chested is a running joke within the fandom and anime as Sakura being less attractive than the other females with bigger breasts

But for some odd reason, Karin doesnt get this same mockery even though she is much flatter than Sakura is, yet no one says a thing, not to mention a flat ass too, but again crickets

Sakura was a bitch to Naruto for no reason even though he was nothing but nice to her and supported her

But Karin was a bitch to Suigetsu even though all he did was poke fun at her and never laid a hand on her Karin was a bitch to him just for speaking the truth, but thats completely fine

Finally, Sakura is stupid and shouldnt have been with Sasuke after he treated her like shit and tried to kill her and rejected her, shes a bad character for being obsessed with Sasuke after all he did to her

But Naruto can chase Sasuke tirelessly despite being told to leave him alone, Sasuke attempts to kill him multiple times, Sasuke rejects his friendship and calls them his ex-team, calls Naruto an outsider, outright asks Naruto why hes so obsessed with him, rejects Narutos friendship again and still threatens to destroy the entire village and kill him, completely fine and true friendship and true love, all of that is completely acceptable and forgivable, but Sakura? downright blasphemy

I could go on but I think I made my point, this fandoms hypocrisy never cease to amaze me

#rant #naruto fandom #Anti-karin #anti-sasukarin #anti-hinata #just in case