#You did ask for a rant

[storyweaverofgondor]

I can't pay you, but I would listen very intently if you wanted to rant about the MCU!

Well, since you asked! TBH I actually have several main issues.

First, do you know the queen song Another one bite the dust? That is basically the theme for these movie now. They have gotten downright murder happy because (Second issue) the plots of every movie after endgame are exactly the same. They can’t elicit an emotional reaction from the story anymore so they murder a beloved character for emotion points. The plots of recent marvel movies is nothing more than a cinematic hallucination. Once you realize there isn’t anything of substance there you can’t unsee it. I mean, half the characters and all the sets are CGI, so even they aren’t real! If the characters didn’t work themselves to the bone to look ‘hot’ (Which i personally consider debatable. But this isn’t a rant about societal bs beauty standards) then wore tight clothes with an occasional teasing bit of nudity no one would be interested. i suspect you’d get better plots from a bad prono. (and i say that as a sex-replused aroace. So you know how little the recent films have been impressing me if I’m going “I bet a porno would be better.”)

Third, character development. There isn’t any. They have an interesting character? they either reduce them to a flat one note painfully obvious ‘archetype’ or repeat the original character arc or take the easy route of making them evil. Look at the himbo-fication of Thor. If that character had been handled well he’d have realized that he’d been borderline abusive/extremely emotionally neglectful of Loki for years, realized his mistakes, learned to value people different from him and have grown into a character that taught people how to move on from their mistakes. Instead he’s been turned into a blameless human shaped golden retriever who has everyone he cares about graphically murdered in front of him and gets mocked for having a full on mental breakdown.  Look at Loki and Scarlet Witch. Instead of addressing their trauma (Loki found out he was the thing his entire race was violently racist towards and had a mental breakdown, attempted suicide and was tortured by Thanos before being made to lead an invasion. Wanda lost everyone she knew and loved in violently devastating ways) Do they get a natural progression to their characters? NO! Their original arc is in increasingly obvious disguises and they are reduced to one note cartoonish villains.

Four, the interconnectiveness of everything. Like . . . look this thing has been going on for so long some of the people watching it now weren’t even born when the first movies came out! and if you haven’t watched every single movie, show and one off toon ever made since Disney bought Marvel you have no idea what’s going on. You can’t just skip the movies you know you won’t like and just watch the ones you are actually interested in. YOU WON’T UNDERSTAND A SINGLE BLOODY THING IF YOU DON’T WATCH OVER A DECADE OF CONTENT! Now, this has been a raising theme when it comes to tv shows recently, where you have to start at the beginning otherwise you don’t understand it. It annoys me there too. But even Supernatural eventually had an end after fifteen years. The ‘Marval Cinematic Universe’ is going to keep going until doomsday and beyond without stopping. At this point i want someone to pay Disney to just let it stop. Like let it end. Have people talk about and make videos on youtube about ‘the Marvel Generation’ and how insane it was, spoken in past tense. I am a huge fan of the Neverending Story but this story needs to end. It is like a faniction that should have ended on chapter three but is on chapter 178 with no end in sight. The author doesn’t even know what’s going on anymore. Please just let it die while i still care about it enough to say “Aww, man! That’s a bummer.” Please god just make it stop already.

#marvel cinematic universe #rant post #ask #personal opinion #is-it-mungojerry-or-rumpelteazer #marvel #I personally love Loki. he's one of my favorite characters in general #and the original avengers movie is loads of fun #but it has gone so far past 'Look at how they butchered my boy' it's not even really memeible #also there's the whole force you to get disney+ in order to watch the shows that are only available through that one streaming survice #which is just a whole blatant manipulation #which i can't abide #I don't respond favorably to peer pressure #i will sooner cut off contact than play into any sort of guilt tripping #if i can't get it on DVD I'm not watching marvel tv shows #sorry not sorry #You did ask for a rant #I could go on #but then i'd get as repetitive as a marvel movie #and i at least know when to stop

[blazersparker]

yo blaze !!!! u should draw beatrix ninjago

I support women's wrongs <3 lucky 4 you I already had a sketch of her to color in even tho I did not know her name

#fun fact i got this ask when i was barely awake nd i spent 5 minutes with 100% certainty that you misspelled beetroot #girl of all time #MY TAGS DIDNT FUCKING SAVE HELLO????????? #blazedoesart #ninjago #ninjago fanart #beatrix #beatrix ninjago #dragons rising #wtf did i rant about before #i dont remembe r. i think her armor #and also wyldfire #shrug

[aecholapis]

#bang brave bang bravern #suggestive #??? #the tags. not the drawing #cunus in a cocktail #waiting for someone to make a “pussy in a cocktail” joke #rant ahead #they did her dirty and i wish they hadn't. why can't they be normal about women. once. is that too much to ask for #i'm sorry queen you didn't deserve such a treatment #in my heart you're the girl brave we needed. first anryuu and kouryuu. then getsuryuu and nichiryuu. and now cunus 😔 #ice cubes are really hard to draw what the heck #my art

[greensupremetangerine]

PSA that harassing, bullying, and kicking a person out of a fandom is toxic behavior. A difference in opinions does not warrant anonymous hate, and claiming it wasnt that bad and there's no proof because they didn't post the hate doesn't retract the fact that something happened to make them deactivate their account.

Fandoms are supposed to be places of community, enjoyment, and celebration of a mutually liked piece of media. There isn't room for hate, because the concept of a fandom does not naturally account for it.

If someone says something you dont like, it does not give you the right or responsibility to "put them in their place" or "teach them what's right" or whatever. A person is allowed to have their own thoughts and opinions. You can retort, discuss, disagree, hell you can even block them, but for the love of god don't single them out and make them a villain. It doesn't automatically make you the right side if they stop talking.

Also, the anonymous button isn't for keeping the blame off yourself. It's not for sending a dozen death threats while still looking pretty and proper on your blog. The person recieving anons has no way to disengage from the conversation. They cannot block, the best they can do is disable anons and stop the kind, shy people from asking silly questions or hope you give up and stop. The last resort is completely deleting your account, and again, its not a sign of your victory, it's a sign of the fandom' loss, and it is a sign that you are the vicious aggressor.

If youre struggling to stop doing these things, by no means am I a saint or a therapist, but removing yourself from the situation and letting yourself breathe, even for a moment, will probably help a lot with your relationships and mental health. I'm a believer that people can change and it is in human nature to do so, even if it's hard. It's a conscious decision to be a good person (I'm not calling you evil) and being a kind person is fulfilling in amazing ways.

tl;dr don't harass people :( it doesn't give you the high ground and it makes the fandom a worse place.

#this is about shinybluebirdwizard #and spyxfamily #the show is about creating peace and making a world where children dont have to cry #so why is the fandom making a world that grown adults cant handle being in? #if you drive out the biggest contributors because they jokingly said yor is the “less liked parent” #again #jokingly #then youre going to run out of people to talk to #youre going to be standing in a wasteland and asking why no one likes your show anymore #humanity survives and thrives through community #spy x family #personal rant #spyxfamily #fandom #toxicity #please dont make the fandom unlivable #edit i have no proof that shinybluebirdwizard got death threats #i dont know everything about the situation so i did not want to extrapolate and cause confusion #id like to believe that it didnt happen but we cant prove that

[sparklecryptid]

I had no patience for people policing other peoples ships before i went to library tech school and library tech school has make me a little bit pissy about the entire thing actually.

#its 1:47am i am not going to rant about it #but Jesus Christ on a cracker i hate how censorship has become common and almost mainstream if it’s ’for the right reasons’ #fuck you and fuck your ‘right reasons’ #there is no reason to deny someone the ability to create or access material that you don’t agree with #‘but-‘ i do not careeee about your arguement it is my job as a library worker to provide ACCESS TO INFORMATION FOR EVERYONE #‘but it has siblings that kiss!’ DONT CARE. BOOKS DO NOT DICTATE MORALS. MOVE ON. #‘but it has (insert other thing)’ DONT CARE. THE PATRON ASKED FOR THIS BOOK. THEY ARE GETTING THE BOOK. NEXT #‘but but but THE CHILDREN’ THE CHILDREN NEED ACCESS TO INFORMATION JUST LIKE THE REST OF US. I AM NOT PARENTING YOUR CHILD. #IF CONTENT MAKES YOUR CHILD UNCOMFORTABLE BECOME THE PERSON THEY GO TO TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #OR TELL THEM THAT ITS OKAY TO CLOSE THE BOOK AND PUT IT AWAY #IT IS NOT MY JOB TO MAKE SURE YOUR CHILD IS FOLLOWING WHATEVER RULES YOU HAVE ON MEDIA CONSUMPTION AT YOUR HOUSE #MY JOB IS TO PROVIDE THE BOOK.DVD.THING. THEY WANT #YOUR CHILD NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO CONSUME MEDIA CRITCIALLY AND THAT SOMETIMES THAT INCLUDES #READING THINGS THAT MAKE THEM UNCOMFORTABLE AND THEN HAVING A SAFE ADULT TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #AND NEWSFLASH: IF YOU ARE NOT SEEN AS SOMEONE SAFE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH YOUR CHILD WILL GO ELSEWHERE OR JUST #NEVER TELL YOU WHAT THEY ARE CHECKING OUT #anyway. turns out i did go on a rant. whoops. #moose rants

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

[chippuyon]

coping

#tiger and bunny #taibani #tiger and bunny 2 #kotetsu t. kaburagi #Barnaby Brooks Jr #lara tchaikoskaya #pao lin huang #nathan seymour #peep that new season #(it was ass im sorry) #(did a whole rant on twitter and i will here if someone wants to send an ask) #you will never be her(the charm and visual punch of s1) #chip art

[introspectivememories]

bruce fucking hates tim's boat. and he tries so hard to not let it show but like bruce is a billionaire baby who's never lived in anything but a sprawling estate so it's just fucking hilarious. so it just ends up like

tim showing off his boat: and here's the kitchen! so what'dya think bruce? real nice huh? rent's cheap too

bruce calling upon all of his batman training to not actively recoil: it's... nice.

#alfred: it's been awfully quiet since master time moved out. that being said how did you like his new living situation? #bruce face contorted into disgust: oh yes. the /boat/. it's.... quaint #any one of his kids ask about tim's new house he'll go on like a 10minute rant #alfred unthinkingly: yes it must be quite small. esp considering bernard lives there too. #bruce whipping head around: THEY'RE DOING WHAT? #tim drake #bruce wayne #bernard dowd #timber #dc

[sleepanonymous]

hello fellow worshipper ^^

so from most of II’s drum cams i’ve seen, you can barely hear Vessel’s vocals… like do you think that ever makes him sad? not being able to properly hear his pretty siren voice on stage? :(

ofc feel free to ignore, i’m just a curious dude :)

Heeey, thank you for the ask! And I’d never ignore you or anyone else (on purpose, but my object permanence is as bad as a newborn's, lol) 🖤🖤

So, I have two answers for you. My first answer is that, yes, II probably does feel some type of way about not hearing Vessel’s amazing live singing (or even the Vesselettes, or III and IV). It’s obvious he’s a fan of the music he writes with Vessel, and he gets really into it during certain songs like Atlantic, where pauses between the percussion parts exist. But if it makes you feel better, II absolutely loves what he does and fully kills it every time he goes on stage. I’m sure it’s a sacrifice he willingly makes.

My second answer is much more technical and would apply to any touring drummer/musician, not just Sleep Token, so I’m just gonna shove it under a cut to hide my nerdiness, lol (and also not to shatter anyone's illusion with how much planning and work goes into live performances).

What we hear in II’s live drum playthroughs and what II hears while playing is a lot different. Performing musicians wear unique earplugs/earphones called in-ear monitors (I’ll abbreviate them to IEMs). The IEMs have several purposes, mainly to protect musicians’ hearing and allow them to hear themselves and backtracks while performing over everything else during a concert (because concerts are loud, obviously lol). But the IEMs also enable the musicians to hear other things, like the stagehands/sound techs can speak to them, they’ll more often than not have a metronome going, and they may even have spoken cues like, “Verse Two in 4 3 2 1.”

I can guarantee that II has at least a metronome going during all of Sleep Token’s rituals. Since none of the band really speaks on stage (I don’t count III’s yelling), II also might have either Sam (his drum tech) or an automated voice telling him what song he’s playing next, along with a numbered countdown for the beginning of the song. II might even get in-the-moment verbal queues from Sam, or Sleep Token’s FOH, Thom.

This isn’t Sleep Token, but the video below is an excellent example of what I’m talking about. I don't expect everyone to watch the whole thing but it's great, tempo changes, count-ins, and everything. Flash warning, just in case.

The two screenshots are from the same video and add a bit more information on what a musician might hear in their IEMs during live shows.

I might be alone here, but I really wish Sleep Token would release at least one of the live drum recordings with an in-ear mix like the video above. I’d nerd out so hard over hearing exactly what II or any of the other Eepy guys (especially Vessel during The Summoning, omg) are hearing live in their IEMs.

I know there are people who do mockups on YouTube of Popstar’s supposed IEM mixes and I swear if I had any musical knowledge or video editing skills it would be my self-proclaimed mission to put an in-ear mix into all of Sleep Token's live shows 😅😅

#asks #answered #sleepanon rant #sleep token #ii sleep token #ii #the other eepies too but this is about drums mostly #also a wild #tesseract #has appeared lmao #flash warning #video #youtube video #tesseract band #jay postones #(britney voice) oops i did it again #i took a simple and straightforward ask #and blew it up into something nerdy and technical #anyway can you imagine the stagehands talking to vessel through his iem? #ten seconds until chorus… #ves five seconds until chorus stop doing pushups #vessel get off the fucking floor you have one second!

[eloquent-apollo]

Hi my name is Sol and I absolutely fucking HATE Gilmore Girls, which is why after watching all seasons & the year in a life show I will be writing a 50k CodyWan fanfic that is not only inspired by Gilmore Girls but will make significant improvements to many aspects of the plot that I personally found to be severely lacking.

#codywan #commander cody #obi wan kenobi #do not ask me about gilmore girls do not ask me about the plot I will end up ranting for AN HOUR AND A HALF ABOUT WHY I HATE IF #but Sol why did you watch all 7 seasons and the year in a life show then? #because I am nothing if not a hater to the core + my mommy didnt raise a quitter #but yea I have been thinking for weeks on how to drastically improve the plot of Gilmore Girls but with Cody as Lorelai #sorry Emily and sorry Jango im about to make u two so much worse than u have any reason to be but whatever #also Rex is Rory obviously #except he is not Cody’s kid but Jango’s dw we will get there later

[psychiatricwarfare]

i wish i could know everything. like, sure, it might break my brain but im just so curious about everything and how everything works down to mircoscopic and macroscopic levels. i want to know the history of every culture, every historical figure, every poet, everyone whos ever made a footprint in the sand. i want to understand the combination of chemicals and electric pulses throughout a brain that make up what a consciousness is and what it means to be a self aware animal. i want to dive into a black hole and come back unscathed. i want to die and come back. i want to feel everything and learn everything there is to possibly know. i want to understand the secrets of the universe and i will never have enough time. i will never be able to know absolutely everything and it kills me. i just want to understand

#bug talks #bug rants #i guess learning to crochet will have to do for now #npd #actually npd #npd safe #autism #actually autistic #this is what happens when you spend ur entire life incredibly existential #like my first memory was an existential crisis :-/ #constantly asking myself 'who am i?' n 'why am i me and not someone else?' #etc and so forth #my most clear memories growing up i think are my daydreams and/or playing pretend w myself #and my laying awake at night wondering why everything is the way that it is #i was a natural born greek philosopher ig #little 5 year old me staring at the ceiling with bloodshot eyes thinking #'so if i can prove im me because i can see out of my eyes but i- #'-cant prove anyone else is real bc i cant see outta their eyes.. and idk if they have thoughts..' #like why #why did i do this #i still do this #and it makes me dissociate

[wawataka]

someone was talking about the infantilization of serizawa and how they hated it and i was like yeah you’re so right but i was completely thrown off when they showed this picture of him

#i asked them why this picture of all pictures #did you not have any others #they said he looks like he farted in a silent room and i just #i think it’s the framing of it #like he looks small #cnp rants #mp100 #serizawa katsuya

[admirableadmiranda]

I recently read somewhere here (won't name them) that after the Guanyin Temple confession, Lan Wangji's actions were selfish. That he should have stayed there to comfort his brother who has just lost (and killed) the love of his life instead of f-ing of to screw the love of his life. The person has referenced chapter 110 (111 on some websites) where Lan Wangji says that even comfort from his brother by birth will be in vain.

I hope you will analyse that part. Because I think it is a translation issue. It doesn't sound like something Lan Wangji would say. I would have accepted that person's analysis if their post wasn't so blatantly anti-wangxian?

Well anon, the thing is that the person posting it does have the correct line. It’s not a translation issue.

The issue is their whole interpretation of the situation. Lan Xichen was not in love with Jin Guangyao, he did not kill the love of his life and this person is doing the same rude shit as a lot of people who don’t like Wangxian choosing each other over nebulous ideas of duty.

They are taking a narration line and putting it in Lan Wangji’s mouth from the sound of it, lemme grab it for you. It is from Chapter 111, right after Wei Wuxian reveals that the Guanyin in the temple looks like Jin Guangyao’s mother.

“[Wei Wuxian] turned and glanced back, letting out a rare sigh, “I don’t want to care about any of those nasty things anymore. This is it.”

Lan WangJi nodded and tightened Lil’ Apple’s reins. He continued to walk with it.

Each could only deal with their own troubles. Even if Lan XiChen was his brother by birth, Lan WangJi couldn’t do anything to help him right now. Comfort was useless. It’d all be in vain.”

Bolded line highlighted for necessary emphasis.

It’s just narration there, it’s being treated as a fact - and it is. The things that Lan Xichen needs right now are not things that Lan Wangji can provide him. Lan Xichen needs time and space to grapple with everything that he saw and his own role in all the events that came to pass. What could Lan Wangji do? Lan Xichen is confronting his own guilt both in what he participated in and what he looked aside from, things that brought irreparable harm to a lot of people including his brother and the love of his brother’s life.

How would Lan Wangji staying help anything there? Lan Xichen has just watched them cuddle through a siege, flirt and laugh and tell each other how much they loved each other. It is the one unquestioningly good thing to come out of that night, something that he wanted, for his brother to be happy. That’s the whole crux of his rant at Wei Wuxian, he wants his brother to be happy and he thinks that Wei Wuxian is knowingly toying with his feelings.

Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian are already planning to elope even before anyone else gets there. They sneak off really quickly and easily. Lan Xichen is not looking for them, he’s busy telling Lan Qiren to shut up and let him think.

Lan Xichen is already filled with guilt and confusion over what’s happened, but also think about how much worse it would feel if he knew his brother set aside his own marriage and honeymoon to come sit with him, sacrificing his own happiness to Lan Xichen again, this time much more knowingly. That wouldn’t make him feel better. That wouldn’t make anyone who has a shred of empathy feel better. It is more likely a comfort to Lan Xichen to know that something good did come out of that terrible night.

They return three months later, when they are settled and choose to come back and then Lan Xichen is ready for that comfort. He wouldn’t have wanted it then. It was too soon and the cost of it would have been too high.

These brothers care about each other and know each other well and they are in their thirties. They are not helpless children any longer. Lan Xichen is not alone and suffering, he returns to his clan with hundreds of people living in it to pick up the ashes at his feet. He has solace in knowing that at least one person is happy and better off despite his actions in the matter. Let him have that.

I hate that stupid trend you reference in your post. I hate the idea that Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji have to continue sacrificing their lives and everything else to take care of the people around them first.

They have been parted by circumstance, homophobia, war, the aftermath of war and fucking death for twenty years. They have in fact actually gone through worse than most of the rest of the cast and somehow finally found their way back to each other and a happy ending. What more do people want before they are allowed to be selfish for once in their lives?

#mdzs #wangxian #wei wuxian #lan wangji #lan xichen #asks #anon #anon asks #like dude what a terrible take to take #just let them have their happily ever after for once #and let everyone else deal with the consequences #also get the XiYao stuff off of the ending #please cite to me where mxtx ever says anything like that in book or interview #it’s literally just being used as a cudgel against wangxian for daring to have their own lives #something that LXC WOULD WANT for his brother #or did you miss the meaning of the entire rant in the temple?

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard? #i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug? #i would. a million times over. #anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal

[sinnbaddie]

JJK Spoilers (Chapter 143)

I love both of their reactions here for opposite reasons

With Megumi, he’s consistently taking responsibility of the consequences of Yuji being alive. He has no regrets about it because he knows Yuji to his core is a good person

So when Yuji says this, Megumi looks absolutely disgusted and angry with him. He knows firsthand Yuji would never willingly kill someone, he’s too kind for that. So he shares the responsibility that Yuji feels is weighing him down instead of telling him “it’s not your fault” because he knows he could never convince him otherwise, he tells him it’s their fault so Yuji can lean on him, so he knows he’s not alone in this

Yuji on the other hand believes vehemently that he’s the one to blame because he harbors Sukuna. He saw the aftermath when he reverted back. Which is why he looks so desperate here, he wants – needs to convince Megumi that he’s dangerous and being around him will get you killed. He doesn’t want anyone but especially Megumi to end up hurt or dead, which is why he’s trying so hard here to make him understand that

That’s why Megumi was so incredibly smart for telling Yuji to save him. He knew too well that arguing with him would be pointless. He gives him solutions, distractions so Yuji wouldn’t sit on if he deserves to die or not.

The way they view Megumi saving Yuji that day is fascinating.

Megumi sees him saving Itadori as a good thing. He saved a good person who can change the world for the better. Yuji sees Fushiguro saving him as a ticking time bomb of destruction. His existence now is going to make the world worse off

The relationship between these two is so well done because really, they work phenomenally together. They care deeply as well as respect one another, especially their opinions. However the angst and tragedy of their writing falls within their own view of themselves and how they view each other, but even then, it’s not because they hate the other, it stems from a place of caring and love.

Megumi not only saved Yuji’s life, but he gave him a purpose when he truly thought his existence was evil. It all boils down to protecting the other.

#jujutsu kaisen #itafushi #megumi fushiguro #itadori yuji #this is why I will never believe Itafushi is one sided #you see how hard Yuji was trying to convince Megumi he’s dangerous? that he can’t have people around him? #he knows that what Megumi did was against the very existence of Jujutsu society so proving the higher ups right #destroyed him. he wants Megumi to stop caring about him so he won’t feel responsible for the evil within him #he wants to protect Megumi so much so that he would push him away and never see him again #and Megumi in response asked him to save him #asked for his help because he knew Yuji was the only one who could help him #he trusts him so much he put his life in his hands and it woke Yuji up #FUCK I love them I’m sorry for the rant I genuinely just love Itafushi so much #brainrot4ever

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i wanna talk about amber and illuminata's event, yk the one... just wanna complain about it bc i was thinking about it and it hurt 13 y/o me so much so i gotta yell it into the void for lil me

so at the start of the event illuminata comments how she think the lake is missing something and lets it go. later, flowers are missing from her shop and goes on to look for the culprit in one of her detectively-rampages. fast foward and she meets amber, her roommate? person she looks after? still a bit unsure how you could label them but they are friends

(im omiting screenshots for the sake of getting it down to 10...)

illuminata, who is always outspoken and loud just pauses here dry... and that just added to the horror of it all to me...

horrible

and slaps her???????????

she asks amber where she got the flowers and yeah, she had taken them from the store

GREAT! hit someone before you explain anything? normal behavior, she clearly didnt do it with malice, maybe you can fucking talk about this

she tells her to shut up before her command and authority then xiao pai comes along and asks illuminata to let amber explain herself

yeah and what about the moment you just told her to shut up just now two seconds ago maybe. i think you got your order of events wrong. so you slap her, then scold her, then ask her why she did it? fantastic. all for the loss of some fucking flowers.

amber explains she wanted to make her happy because she had said the lake was missing something and apologizes!!! amber!! i think her hitting you is worse than some flowers getting planted!!! illuminata says Apology Accepted AND DOESNT APOLOGIZE FOR HITTING HER. OK.

the event ends with them hugging. amber stops crying when illuminata asks xiao pai and frey/lest to get seeds to plant bc if amber does it she gets hit, but if its her then its okay!

so thats why i hate this fucking event and illuminata. even if the flowers are important this is no way to treat anyone. what fucks me up the most is that you just know that if it had been someone else that did this she wouldnt have hit them, she is imposing authority over her and that makes me sick. why do you need authority over her when she does not disrespect you, when the crime could have beem spoken through. LIKE IT WAS AFTER YOU SLAPPED HER, slapping her didnt add anything to this aside from makimg her cry and if thats what she wanted thats just cruel. She never apologizes for this either

#rune factory #bell rants #doesnt help that amber has fantasy DID that she keeps hidden from everyone unless you do her route #i know people dont like her as a marriage candidate but honestly i relate to her a lot..... #ask to tag? #rune factory 4 #rf4 #rf4s #rune factory 4 special