#cnp rants

[wawataka]

every time i see something labeled as “4 years ago” im like oh so like 2018 NO its 2020

#i wish you could capitalize numbers #just when i’ve finally got used to 2016 being more than two year ago #i’m hit with this Horrible dilemma #cnp rants

[sneakystorms]

The fact this is being said by a policeman 💀

#s #crime and punishment #FUCK YEAH this whole conversation is delightful #see i distinctly remember that rodyas Napoleon theory pissed me off tremendously when i first read cnp #because it seems so blatantly stupid to me and i considered it unrealistic that a character would ever believe it #and like... at the time i already loved stories that were blatantly unapologetically philosophically argumentative #and i think what annoyed me is that after this chapter the characters never sat down again to discuss this theory #or maybe just that i felt they didn't argue with it sufficiently in this chapter #i have a feeling that now a few years later i might be more able to see the argument being made in the story itself rather than in dialogue #though I'll still probably be annoyed at Dostoyevsky's judgement not complying with mine lol #anyway the most important point is that i love it when authors or characters rant about their highly specific philosophical takes #the historiography essays of war and peace are a delight

[jjoelswatch]

Big ol' health rant under the cut.

I'm beyond frustrated with my care team and how hard I have to advocate for myself to get tests/labs done.

I've been not feeling well symptomatically for over a year, and been dealing with lack of appetite issues for about three years. Started with right side stomach pain last August that led to potential gallbladder issue concerns. I had every test under the sun to rule it out (abdominal ultrasound, upper scope, HIDA scan, stool sample) and everything came back okay aside from some inflammation (no H. Pylori, no celiac, no gallstones, no ulcers-- gallbladder, liver, pancreas, etc function all normal). So it was just like "well okay, I guess nothing's wrong with me except that my right abdomen hurts from time to time" and I tried to move on with my life.

I started having strange neurological symptoms back in March of this year (tingling/numb sensation in my face, strange senses of touch in parts of my face-- like parts of my face felt like a balloon). I've always suffered from ocular migraines with aura and no pain (and flashes of light/visual snow), so I thought it was just fun new migraine symptoms. They went away for a few months then came back in full force with even more fun symptoms (tingling in my hands and feet, lack of sensation in my right leg but not total numbness, a gradual increase in forgetfulness/short term memory issues that are SO not the norm for me, middle back pain??), so I scheduled an appointment with a neurologist and went to my shitty CNP "doctor" (disclaimer, CNPs are not doctors despite how the American healthcare system treats them like doctors) and basically pleaded with her to run bloodwork on me and to try to do anything to get me into for brain scans or something. Because weird neurological symptoms are super scary and it's hard not to assume the worst when you're experiencing them fairly suddenly.

She ran my bloodwork and found that my B12 levels were really low. I learned that B12 can cause literally all my symptoms, so I was relieved and they put me on 4 weeks of weekly B12 injections, with the plan to start monthly injections afterwards. She also told me they were going to test my bloodwork for folate levels and talk to one of the doctors in the practice to get to the bottom of what's causing my deficiency since I wasn't anemic or vegan/vegetarian. I felt...hopeful? and like we were headed down the right path.

Well, the office failed to click "submit" to order my blood to be tested for folate. So my CNP couldn't work with the other doctor to try to puzzle out what's wrong with me.

I was feeling pretty good during those 4 weeks of injections. My memory was sharper and my symptoms were gradually reducing (there is apparently something called "nerve wake up" when dealing with neuro issues from B12D, which can still cause symptoms to show). I knew that recovery would be gradual, as it can take 6 months to a year to really recover from neuro damage/issues from B12D, so I tried to stay positive. But a week and a half out from my last weekly shot, my symptoms returned with a vengeance.

Now my symptoms are a right leg that wants to cramp up from hamstring to calf, a left toe that just...twitches of its own accord, other random muscle twitches/tenseness, and (possibly unrelated?) increased acid reflux issues. My neuro appointment isn't until the first week of October (because the US sucks and it literally takes 5-6 months to see specialists at the bare minimum), so I messaged my doctor in a bit of a panic with some questions about my symptoms and asking if we could more aggressively treat the deficiency, because like...I'm concerned about perma nerve damage at this point?? And she tells me she's going to refer me to a neurologist without answering any of my other questions or trying to see me any eariler.... If she'd looked at my file or remembered our last conversation, she would know that I already have a appointment with one.

I caved and did several things. I tried to switch to the other doctor in the office she said she was going to work with to get to the bottom of my issues, because...why not go straight to the source? That failed, as the practice "doesn't do that, as a rule" which like...okay? Desperate for relief, I started sublingual supplements of B12 (fucked up at first at did the methyl version which just didn't agree with my body and switched to the same form as my shots were). I started seeing some relief in my symptoms, including my muscle tension in my leg (which was previously causing me to have trouble walking) and some of my muscle twitching.

I also called the neurologist's office like, "listen I know you guys haven't seen me yet, but can you order some scans to give me some peace of mind?" and they finally agreed to send me in for a cervical spine MRI and an EMG. I did the MRI only to find out that the reason they had me down for one was "neck pain" which I've literally never said I had and they didn't include a brain MRI like I'd expected given my symptoms. MRI turned out fine, which was a relief as much as it was kind of expected. The EMG is yet to be done (on the 28th).

I finally had my appointment with my CNP on Monday for my first monthly shot and to do labs, including the folate lab they screwed up. I told her that I wanted her to run labs for the missed folate, iron, vitamin D, magnesium, and copper. She sort of...laughed at me?? and told me that we ran those labs already. I told her to look at my chart because we didn't, and she obviously had to walk back her sentence and was like "I don't think we need to run labs for vitamin D but we can if you want?" and of course I said that I did. She refused to run labs for magnesium because that was "a more serious lab" and then said she "didn't know how to even test for copper because that's a heavy metal". I get my labs done, get my first monthly B12 shot. She sends me on my way with "depending on how your labs turn out, we'll see if we need to continue B12 shots"...when it can take a year for my symptoms to correct themselves.

Go figure~ my labs come back - the labs I had to TELL her to order for me - and out of a desired 30+ range for vitamin D, my level is 7 lmao. Thankfully I still am going to be getting monthly B12 shots since my levels are higher (due to self-treating) but still low. I also have to take vitamin D and a multivitamin now. She also referred me to a hematologist because I brought up the MTHR gene that can affect B12 absorption since I'm not anemic or vegan. I just want to know what's causing this deficiency, because she seems to have dropped the ball on the matter altogether.

I'm close to a week out from my last shot now and my muscles are getting tense and twitchy again. It's so, so hard to sit here and tell myself that this healing process is just going to take time-- trying to reassure myself that my muscle twitching is just "nerve wake up" and not a sign of something much worse. I've been going quietly crazy worried about ALS, Parkinson's, or MS because these deficiencies can mimic their symptoms. I just want it to be the 28th so I can get my EMG done and over with, and then see my neuro on the 2nd of October. I so tired of going to the doctor. I'm tired of feeling like they don't take me and my symptoms seriously. I'm tired of feeling like an annoyance. I'm tried of having to go out and do my own research and then bringing that research to my doctors, because between the two of us, I don't have a fucking medical degree. I'm tried of hearing "don't consult Dr. Google" when what else am I supposed to do when you're not doing your job thoroughly?

I'm just tired and I want to feel better.

#health stuff #b12 deficiency #vitamin d deficiency #detailed medical talk under the cut so read at your own discretion

[sirensplayhouse]

This ask just reminded me

Okkkk so I don’t know if u guys remember but i was one of the anons who was complaining about this ig blog who kept shoving her beliefs down peoples throats and saying revision isnt natural and how people in ur life arent real and blahhhh blah blah. She found out 🤭 because earlier today, she removed her pfp, deleted her posts and sent me a message. I was debating sending this bcus i was scared of her but Idc bc what she gonna do?? Roar at me?

Here’s what she said:

(she said the r word so just a beware)

cnp: “you’re a stupid ass bitch i hope u know that lmao. ranting about me to another account and swearing your beliefs are right. u really think my followers wouldn’t tell me? bitch they sent me screenshots you thought you were slick PLSSSSS I’M PISSING THROUGH MY PANTS 😂😂 thank fuck i don’t have tumblr, stupid ass apps for retarded ass people 🤣 revision isn’t a proper nor real manifestation babes because tell me why you didn’t get your desire the first time if revision is so “real” 😂? why’d you have to revise it 😂? retarded cunts. y’all dumb ass mothafuckas think you can go on other accounts and hate on the LITERAL truth. shut the fuck up pls it’s embarrassing LMAOAOOA 💀 anyways! don’t bother asking me for help ever again!!! i’m leaving this toxic ass community. ”

🤣nahhhh drop the @ because one thing I don’t play about is that , because first off ain’t nobody gotta screenshot shit off my blog because I said wtf I said and stand on 10 tens behind it😂two , she can go to the deepest depths of hell twice on a Tuesday 🖤and three thank fuck she’s leaving the community with her toxic limiting ass beliefs the hell😂

and I hope whoever sent her the screenshots see this too and send em😘

and heavy on the wtf is she gonna do 😂got me hot over here

[wawataka]

every time i see a potato smiley i am immediately reminded of evil potato smiley and by association, mogami keiji

#i was gonna say i don’t know why but that’s a lie #i do i do know why #cnp rants

[wawataka]

things to say after your packer falls from your pants

my eyes are up here

is that your phone on the floor or were you just excited to see me

five second rule!

#i actually can’t think of any more #i thought of this while my friend was talking abt being terrified of his packer falling out and i just blurted out “my eyes are up here” #i laughed so hard i cried #cnp rants

[wawataka]

draw dimple controlling reigan like ratatoullie

h. hair pulling and everything?

#cnp rants #HELP ME #got it boss

[wawataka]

made these edits for the age swap au. dies

#there were supposed to be like two others #accompanied by sketches of my own #but i ended up pushing them so far back that they never saw the light of day #so i was like fuck it #i’ll take the one thing that’s actually presentable and post that #so here you go #for tome’s suit i took the blue from her seifuku and picked a color from the opposite end of the spectrum. which turned up a nice brown #if she had a tie i’d make it green #cnp rants #mp100 #reigen arataka #tome kurata #mp100 ageswap

[wawataka]

i need them to put reigen arataka into fortnite

#i’m not joking when i say i would actually start playing fortnite if they do #im serious. this is not a joke #cnp rants

[wawataka]

i think the idea of ritshou and terumob happening at the same time is hilarious. the bloodline ends with all of them

#sometimes i think about how neither me or my sister will have biological kids #sometimes i think that’s hilarious #sometimes it scares me #but alas #cnp rants #mp100 #shou suzuki #ritsu kageyama #shigeo kageyama #teruki hanazawa #terumob #ritshou #i think #i guess it counts

[wawataka]

as much as i love the new resurgence of ageswap partakers i have to put in my two cents: mob would not start the Spirits & Such agency

for starters, he would be good at it. i mean, he has psychic powers. he’d be a legit psychic. part of the comedic value (and i guess plot value in general) is the psychic kid working for and believing a fraud who can’t even see spirits. you could argue he’d do bad at the consultations part and that’s where my second point comes in

never in a million years would Mob ever start a career based on his psychic powers. he kind of rejected the idea of being a magician when ritsu suggested it. mostly because he lacked the charisma most magicians had. also i swear he’s said that he doesn’t want to depend on his powers for any domestic task, so why would he start a psychic business.

one last nit-pick from me, if reigen was never around for mob when he needed him the most, i don’t think mob would be… out in society? like the advice Reigen gave to him when he was ten was absolutely crucial and i doubt anyone else would’ve said that to him. I personally believe mob would more or less be in serizawa’s shoes. He hurts Ritsu, someone who he cares very deeply about, and without Reigens guidance, locks himself in his room. Whatever happens next, up for you to decide (cough cough i haven’t figured it out)

SO who runs the psychic business then? Who starts Spirits n Such? Well, who else doesn’t have psychic powers? who else wants to be involved in the supernatural? who else wants to do something with their life? Tome.

Tome Kurata starts Spirits n Such

#i’m listening to viva la vida as i’m typing this #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #cnp rants #STARTS BITING YOU #sorry that was uncalled for #yeah idk what to add to this #explodes #i’ve thought about this a lot #you guys don’t understand #mp100 ageswap

[wawataka]

love the scene where shigeo asks reigen for advice on how to confess and for once in his life reigen can’t bullshit his advice to him so he literally just. looks it up. doesn’t even try to hide it he just whips out his phone and reads off the first results he finds in front of mob and serizawa

#ever since my 6th grade teacher said that “search it up” isn’t grammatically correct i can’t stop thinking about it #i always use look it up and whenever someone says search it up i cringe #it’s been 6 years #help #cnp rants #oh yeah #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 spoilers #reigen arataka #he gets no bitches #he just like me fr #cries #shigeo kageyama

[wawataka]

in honor of mcr and mob psycho 100 coming back oh the same day (quiet whispers) what. what do you mean that was over a year ago

#back with another mil— HEELLLP. HELLLLPP #no joke this took me a year to complete #in my defense 90% of the clips were from s3 which wasn’t out at the time i started this #i’m soooo normal about this #cnp rants #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #my chemical romance #foundations of decay

[wawataka]

tsubomi looking through her bag: where are my yassification pills

reigen, thinking he’s taking his antidepressants: huh

#they deyassified my girl #and they yassiffied reigen even more #good for them good for them #drugs #technically? #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #cnp rants

[wawataka]

someone was talking about the infantilization of serizawa and how they hated it and i was like yeah you’re so right but i was completely thrown off when they showed this picture of him

#i asked them why this picture of all pictures #did you not have any others #they said he looks like he farted in a silent room and i just #i think it’s the framing of it #like he looks small #cnp rants #mp100 #serizawa katsuya

[wawataka]

#i didn’t know what to do for the (show result/idk/bunch of other miscellaneous stuff) #so you’re getting sonic fandub reference #spurred on by my sister saying they experience the cain instinct with me and that every sibling does #cnp rants #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #ritsu kageyama #shigeo kageyama