#why the fuck am i like this

[crimsonlovebartylus]

convert to bartylus. convert to bartylus. convert to bartylus.

#bartylus #LMAOOOOOOOO IM LAUGHING SM #why the fuck am I like this

[mushrooms-spiders-and-roses]

Sometimes I feel imposter syndrome about being neurodivergent because I don’t have a bunch of specific information about random computer shit and old technology and I don’t know as many fancy words as my friends and I’m not the best at academics anymore. And I wonder, what the FUCK did I actually spend my Hyperfixation Points™ on.

But then I remember.

I can absolutely crush Animal Jam trivia. I know a ton of little tidbits about local flora and fauna in my hometown. I know almost all of the L’manberg lore. I’ve been doing video game-based online character roleplay for years and have dozens of meticulously thought out characters, hundreds of pages of storylines and world building. I can draw portraits and landscapes in distinctive me-style. I know almost everything about Slime Rancher. For a time, I had a running catalog of every flower type in Sky CotL. I’m really good at building Minecraft cave houses. I have enough homemade jewelry to probably fill a Nalgene water bottle. Etc etc.

I’m not a fake ND,,, I just stopped hyperfixating on computer skills at 9th grade because I no longer had to make 3D models for school

#dsmp #adhd #actually neurodiverse #neurodiverse stuff #neurospicy #slime rancher #sky cotl #nature #i literally just walked in the woods all morning and then started embroidering my jacket #because I don’t want to work on my humanities paper right now #why the FUCK am I like this

[v-is-for-vivienne]

*me, with several unmistakably trauma related disorders, after feeling pretty ok for 30 seconds* I am normal. I am not traumatized

#why the fuck am i like this #i can have breakdown after breakdown after breakdown #feel engulfed with rage and subhuman and worthless and ashamed of my presence on this earth #and then turn around and say #i only remember pseudotrauma so i must be endogenic #my stupid ass #osddid #did osdd #osdd system #traumagenic system #did system #actually cptsd #cptsd #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd #actually npd #npd safe #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #actually dissociative #actually narcissistic #actually borderline #actually traumatized

[staggersz]

i get nervous reading a LONG list of hcs in one post because if i like majority of them but then theres a tiny handful of headcanons i dont like i cant get myself to like the post because im very specific 💔💔

#the black phone #tbp #tbp fandom #tbp headcanons #tbp hcs #why the fuck am i like this

[delightful-69]

do you ever trying to avoid the fun things even tho you're sad, and you need those fun things to like, cheer you up? because you feel as if you won't feel better, and kinda scared that you would hate those fun things instead?

#i'm just #there is like...few things i can do to like...giving me a boost #but i'm just #kinda anxious now #why the fuck am i like this

[201-klz-dead]

his ass is NOT doing the work

#(( me )) #procrastinate ?? more like kms #why the fuck am i like this #girl please get your work done for the love of god you have to finish it SOON #least productive member of society #im just sleepy .. #all i need is bed #ratz !!

[jesusbutbetterrr]

do next to nothing all day without getting drained as shit challenge, level: impossible

#why the fuck am i like this #jesus speakz

[eli-spyke]

Doodled this during a Chemistry test. I wonder why I'm failing.

#pokemon #rival silver #trainer ethan #trainer silver #doodle #why the fuck am i like this

[cats-and-confusion]

Let's count 'em baby

Diagnosed:

Anemia

Vitamin D deficiency

Chronic Depression

PTSD

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Seasonal Affective Disorder

Scoliosis

Highly probable and suspected by family/medical professionals:

Fibromyalgia

Hypoglycemia

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Autism

Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria

Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder

Some other shit I'm forgetting probably

I'm gonna just start collecting them. Like pokemon

#why the FUCK am i like this #and also i still have to go to school. #bruh. #vent post #anemia #vitamin d deficiency #chronic depression #chronic pain #blood sugar issues #ugh. tags.

[normal-sea-urchin]

gay polyamorous sex on a pool table, call that 8 ball

#im actually so funny you guys #why the fuck am i like this #xoxo

[edith-is-a-cat]

i wish i could be offline again UGH AM I SERIOUSLY BEING LIKE THIS IM IN SCHOOL THIS SHIT CAN WAIT TILL I GET HOME

#silly little bear chatters :] #why the fuck am i like this #is this just attention seeking or what #you have no reason to feel like this????

[elnotwoods]

me, genuinely sick: okay, let’s write emails to all my profs and apologise for my absence and missing a test

also me: they know you’re faking it and will give you hell for it

#why the fuck am i like this #i’ve up half the night trying to keep my dinner down #i’m pretty sure i’m running a low grade fever and i’m still glued to one of my textbooks in case one of them tells me to still come in #and write the test #the way i’m fucked in the head #uni life #el rambles

[smolvampiregirl]

Time to dump my embarrassment on the internet ... last night my boyfriend kissed me for the first time and I did something hugely embarrassing.

My bf: *kissing me goodbye for the first time as I am leaving*

Me: *forgets his front door has a large step down and falls out the door*

My bf: well I can see this is off to a good start

Me: you took my breath away

Him: starts to laugh

Me: I will message you when I get home if I don't die of embarrassment on the way.

#why the fuck am i like this #i said you took my breath away #why would i say that

[qulizalfos]

digital art is so so great until u try and draw traditionally with ur laptop beside u here's a list of things i just tried to on a literal sheet of paper

zoom out (when this did not work i responded by zooming out Again)

undo

redo

change brush

save

#why the fuck am i like this #lizaarts #i GUESS

[princesslink]

the forever debate with myself over taking my meds to get rid of the head hurt and not taking not it because it’s not that bad…

#and I know it’s not going to go away by itself and I know it’s just gonna get worse #why the fuck am I like this #JUST TAKE THE UBRELVY YOU SHITHEAD

[purplelad]

Z stop designing Eldtrich Deity designs that only 1.5 people will understand challenge: failed

#why the fuck am I like this #I am a monsterfucker but mostly only to bloodborne bosses #I have never personally played bloodborne but I will one day #shaking and crying and coughing #the eye motif will be so overused but that’s my thing