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synergysilhouette · 2 months

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Remaking "Fire Emblem: 3 Houses"

(Spoilers ahead, obviously)

The time has come for another rewrite! I'm an amateur (re)writer, and I KNOW people are gonna be picky about this rewrite since many consider this entry the Holy Grail of the "Fire Emblem" series, but I hope you'll still be open to my changes, anyway! This is purely subjective and not something that reflects the fandom's opinion or me saying how to make the game objectively "better" (even though the term itself is subjective). I don't remember every single aspect of the game, so if I mention something that I wanted from the game that they actually DID do, be sure to mention it!

General

DON'T RUSH US!--From the get-go, you're on a fixed schedule. Once you become a professor, you've got one day out of the week to explore the grounds, fight battles/do paralogues/xenologues, or another activity. Every Monday, you've gotta do instruction for your student, and the other days literally breeze by until you get to your next story arc. Letting us go at our own leisure would be awesome, particularly since it'd give us more time to get to know our characters via more missions and xenologues. Between school and war, it can get a bit monotonous.

2. Give us impactful dialogue options instead of the illusion of choices--I have the same issue with "Pokemon: Mystery Dungeon." Throughout the game, we're given dialogue options, but most of the time the choices are identical or offer no affect other than a character's approval/disapproval. It felt annoying to have the option to tell the Flame Emperor that you'd join them, only for them to say they could tell you were lying. It's annoying stuff like that that makes it feel like you don't really need dialogue options at all, just cutscenes with Byleth speaking for themselves.

3. Those Who Slither in the Dark being keeping us in the loop--It's wild to me that the people who did the most damage are the most underused in the game. Someone said that making their deeds more pronounced/known would ruin the point, but I disagree. In Crimson Flower, their role in the Tragedy of Duscur is revealed, but Edelgard defeats them offscreen before restoring peace. Dimitri never learns the full truth of this in Azure Moon, and if I recall, the organization does get more attention in Silver Snow (for like 2-3 chapters) and Verdant Wind, but I can't recall for certain. Either way, I feel like each route should feel complete, given that you're playing completely different stories, rather than it feeling like you're missing some information depending on the route you play. Not to mention, Kronya deserves better, even if I'm retconning her actions (more on that in a second)...

4. Don't make us forget about marriage--having to find a ring sucks. After Jeralt dies, you have a certain amount of time in order to find his marriage ring (which I completely forgot about in my first playthrough) that you NEED if you want to reach S-supports with anyone. I'd prefer if Jeralt just gave it to Byleth rather than us having to go to his office and find it.

5. Change the confusing Byleth bloodline--I'm fine with Sitri being either Rhea's daughter or (if you wanna romance Rhea and Sothis without ethical concerns) simply working at the church where she met Jeralt. The family tree above makes things a lot more confusing than what it needs to be.

6. Marriage to (mostly) whoever, whenever--In the game, you have to wait until after the war is over to be married, and out of them, you only have 5 romantic same-sex options for female Byleth--2 of which are route-exclusive--and 3 options for male Byleth--2 of which are either DLC or route-exclusive. I'd rather make it a free-for-all, save for Gilbert and Alois, who are married, and should've never prevented you from a romantic relationship with another character.

7. Keep Jeralt alive--I'm just...I'm just TIRED of the "dead parent/evil parent" storyline that "Awakening," "Fates," and "Engage" have done, along with "3 Houses." I'd enjoy having Jeralt kept alive, in this version. Nevermind, this is probably the longest a protagonist has gotten to keep their parent in one of the recent FE games. Having him stand by Byleth similar to "3 Hopes" would be awesome.

8. Let us have Child units--As someone who got into the series via "Fates" and "Awakening," it disappointed me greatly that child units were removed. While I prefer "Fates" using the Deeprealms, I think an "Awakening" approach fits best here. Perhaps Sothis' time manipulation is more powerful than she knows, having sent the child units from the future to avoid their dark fates. Since it's story-related, perhaps it's Byleth's child who comes from the future first, referencing Chrom's daughter Lucina coming to save him and Emmeryn in "Awakening," only the child comes to save Byleth and Jeralt. Personally I made a lsit of fanmade child units almost a year ago.

9. Recruit Jeritzia outside of Crimson Flower--"3 Hopes" allowed us to do so as long as we had Mercedes in one of our routes, and I'm confused on why that couldn't be done here. Recruiting Mercedes would be the wakeup call Jeritzia needs to join our side, rather than being the opposition.

10. Keep Byleth's hair color--This is a nitpick, but I'd like being able to change Byleth's hair color back to the way it was before becoming one with Sothis. I'm fine with keeping the hair color, though.

11. A 3 Houses United Route--I mentioned in another post about a route where Jeralt survived, TWSITD as the main antagonists. What'd make this route unique (since I'd want the other two changes to be changed in all routes) is that the almost-death of Jeralt would inspire Byleth to leave the church and become a mercenary again, only getting involved years later once they see how the war has affected their students, and they can still recruit others based on their stats, and since they're not tied to a particular "side" in this concflict, they could recruit the house leaders and their aides rather than having to kill them.

12. Fix Dimitri's turnaround (Azure Moon)--It's probably just me, but it felt like Dimitri's vengence and sudden change of heart following Rodrigue's death felt...too quick? I know this is a hot take, but I'd have thought Rodrigue's death would've fueled Dimitri's anger. Plus I didn't feel like Dimitri's redemption (so to speak) was earned. It was just kinda "sorry for being a jerk, guys" even though the whole team seemed to back him. I'd have enjoyed seeing more moments of his sanity and morality kick in amidst the chaos rather than being one-track-minded. I feel like a lot of poorly done villain arcs do this (even if he isn't the villain of this route, per se). Since in my rewrite we learn about TWSITD, it's quite possible that Dimitri's anger is focused elsewhere in any case. Maybe Rodrigue didn't even have to die...

13. Utilize 3 Hopes designs--This may not be a popular opinion, but I think some of the characters looked better halfway in 3 Hopes than in 3 Houses. It would be nice to have the option to switch their costumes to their 3 Hopes looks instead (even though I know they're older in the 3 Houses timeskip than they are in 3 Hopes).

14. NO IGNORANT BYLETH--Instead of other installments that use the amnesia subplots, Byleth is simply kept in the dark about their parents' pasts, the world, and the church (which is kinda the same thing). I'd alleviate this entirely so we can have a mature and well-learned protagonist rather than a teacher who's just learning how the world works and about the tension in the land.

Hope you're not too upset with my version of the game! Lemme know what you think and if you have any questions. The next FE rewrite I do (whenever I get around to it) will be "Engage," which is the last FE game I've played.

#fire emblem #fire emblem three houses #fire emblem 3 houses #3 houses #three houses #claude #claude von riegan #dimitri #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #edelgard #edelgard von hresvelg #blue lions #golden deer #black eagles

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regretfulmoth · 8 months

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Old art of Kristin from my old magical girl au from last may/june (lore under the cut)

In the au she's a vigilante with Phil who is against Schlatt turning the artform of being a magical girl into a glorified, government funded dog fights/beauty pageants. Kristin was once actually apart of the MGA (Magical Girl Association/Arena) back when it was just a program that paid magical girls for the work they do for the city. But once Schlatt retired being a MG and started running the MGA more as a business, Kristin was kicked from the program for her powers being seen as "too gruesome and unprofitable".

The MGA makes its profits in two ways: Selling licensed merchandise of its MG's and letting outsiders watch/make wagers on the MGs fighting each other as training. Kirstin, also known as "Lady Death" when she's in MG form, has the ability of speeding up one's lifecycle by touching them. (think of the Forest Spirit from Princess Monokoke) The speed of this rapid aging does somewhat depend on her emotions and her relationship with whatever living thing she touches (Example: if she touches Phil while calm for 30 seconds, he'll age 4-5 years. But if she touches Schlatt for the same amount of time while emotions are high, he would be a pile of bones.) Her power is known as "Life Acceleration" and is theorized to contribute to her slower aging. This power cannot be turned off and she wears gloves 24/7 to prevent any accidental aging. Its also been theorized that once/if she dies, then her life acceleration will plague the world and cause the extinction of life on earth, but those are just silly fan theories and head canons :).

Well with this darker reputation in mind, Lady Death had a fairly small fanbase and an even smaller demand for merchandise. Lump in with the fact she can't train like the other MGs because of the risk of killing her fellow MGs. At first Kristin was pissed but rather understanding as of why she couldn't be a part of the MGA to an extent but as the policies became more restrictive and bias towards more "profitable magical girls", her patience with the program grew thin.

Her final straw was the day the MGA change their payment policies to the point where only the most popular and "brand safe" MGs could ever make a living under the MGA. A program where its whole point was to give the dozens of people brave enough to defend civilians from danger the resources and pay they need to continue their work is now throwing money to whoever throws more back. These new policies essentially forced Phil into finding a new job because what once could comfortably cover his life with Kristin and a small family down the line is now barely anything.

So, during the day Phil and Kristin work their full time jobs and at night they each do commission work as Magical Girls as a side hustle. Since the new policies there has been a shortage of MGs who can/are willing to deal with threats that are causing a muck. This has led to people personally commissioning Unofficial Magical Girls to do smaller jobs like patrolling on a smaller scale to prevent any situations from happening. Doing commission work is rather risky because its illegal to be a MG without a proper license and the only way to get one is if you're part of the MGA and you work under the programs regulations.

The couple, especially Kristin is very against the MGA and what has become of it. There was a brief moment in time where the two were very vocal of these changes in policies but the movement was not successful. Kristin to this day is a unofficial magical girl and her persona as Lady Death is still openly against the MGA. Meanwhile Phil has retired from the magical girl scene and is now focused on being a stay-at-home father.

#magical girl au #minecraft magical girls #kristin minecraft #mumza my beloved #trixtin #misstrixtin #mumza and dadza #philza #dadza #jschlatt #<-he's mentioned like twice #but damn they got beef #I wrote a lot more than I expected #mcyt #Idk how gender works in this #I guess everyone is like fem presenting but they keep all keep their preferred gender identity #I know it just looks like Kristin but the magical girl stuff is in the lore #I can't believe I still remember all this #There SO much more I can go on about and I probably will when I find the motivation to type it down

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etincelleart · 1 year

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OK 2 things:

I don't think that Penny will not come back in v10, it wouldn't make sense to have a big emotional scene in one volume and then have her coming back, also Vacou seems like the last arc giving that all the kingdoms are there and there going to be an all out war.

How do you think she will come back?

1- I just answered something that is related to that question if you're interested, but yeah I agree as well with that. The way I see it is that either Penny could come back in Vacuo before the big final arc starts and the end of the story. Or, she could come back at the end as a big surprise, because I'm 90% sure that the Blacksmith and the two Brothers will be involved. Volume 9 set up a plot and lore informations that will definitely gonna be used in what comes next.

Even if I said I thought Penny wouldn't come back in V10, I feel like Vacuo is a good moment for her to come back, so maybe still in Volume 10 but at the end, or maybe in Volume 11. Depending on the time skip and on the characters that could play a role for Penny's revival, it could very likely happen at this moment. :]

2 - I have a few ideas for her to come back, some are more precise that the others, but I'll try to talk about each of them :

We know from V3, V7 and V8 that previous Maidens' soul are actually "merged" with the current Maiden when the power is transferred. Amber's soul went to Cinder when she got killed in V3, Fria's soul went to Penny's, and Penny's went to Winter's. They kinda set up something with that everytime, so that makes me wonder if we could actually see a soul be extracted from someone's soul.

I think about the ATM (the Aura Transfer Machine) too : we barely saw it in action, we saw it for a bit in V3 with Amber and Pyrrha, and Winter didn't have the time to use it with Fria in V7. I don't think such a big machine coming back in almost every Kingdom would be left like that, I feel like we need to see it work at some point, especially with Pietro still around in Vacuo.

So my thoughts are that they could probably use the machine to extract Penny's soul from Winter, so Winter can remain the Winter Maiden (or the power could be split in two parts, but I need to think more abou that).

As for where to put it, well, I have a few ideas : they could put it into another robot body for Penny, but I'm really not a fan of this idea, especially after Penny becoming human and enjoying warmth for the first time. She experienced pain too, but I think the virus might have traumatized her as well. I don't know if she would appreciate the idea of being put back in a metal body.

I also thought about the fact that Ambrosius said that he would love to meet "whoever did this" (talking about Penny). So maybe it foreshadows a meeting between Ambrosius and Pietro, when they are able to get their hand on the Relic of Creation once again. And as we know, Penny might have died, but her soul isn't lost : it's in Winter. So another extraction could very likely be the case.

The thing is that it worked for Penny the first time because her body was robotic, it could be destroyed. So Ambrosius couldn't do that in one part with Winter, because he wouldn't be able to destroy her. So I was thinking about maybe first extracting her soul and put it into an object, a simple object or even a robot body. Then immediately ask for another transfer like the first time, recreating the object without the soul so it creates another byproduct and a real body for Penny's soul once again.

It might be far-fetched but the loophole they did the first time for her seemed kinda crazy, I never would have thought they would do that and people even had to make and watch videos to fully understand what happened with Ambrosius and Penny. So I don't think this is too much far-fetched aha !

Probably the most famous theory for Penny's revival : Pietro sacrifices himself to bring Penny back. We know how much Pietro cares about Penny, he wasn't even able to grieve her the first time and immediately decided to rebuild her. He didn't hesitate to give parts of his soul twice to her. I know he said he wouldn't be able to rebuild her if the worst happened, but he loved her as a father and the way he was portrayed in V7 and V8 just show how much she loves her. I wouldn't be surprised if he decided to give his soul for her to come back. He said he wanted the chance to watch her live her life in V8, and he could completely decide to do that for her to have that chance.

I'm kinda bothered about the fact of putting her back into a robot body as mentioned before tho, so I'm not really sure about all that.

Maybe this could be a collective effort and sort of a combination of that : Penny's soul is extracted from Winter, but in order to survive or to be fully whole again it needs other parts of Aura. So maybe Pietro could give some of his own soul, but maybe Jaune and Ruby could decide to give parts of their soul to, so it could also have a significance for her return. Like showing that they truly want to have her back, and do everything they can for that to happen.

With Volume 9 lore, I can also imagine Penny coming back later in the series, especially after what we saw from the Blacksmith and her/their definition of balance and life. The idea of reincarnation wasn't just metaphorical for Ruby this volume, and I just don't see why the Blacksmith would say something like "nothing, no one, is ever truly lost" just like that when Ruby talked about Penny's blade. I mean, this is too big for it to be ignored, ESPECIALLY when we know she's the very true god of RWBY aha. She could come back with amnesia, or be different but remember everything, kinda like how Somewhat started to do at the end of V9 when they said to Ruby "It will he alright, Huntress". I'm still not sure about this but eh, why not !

I might have some other ideas but I don't think we have enough informations for them to be more precise, I just think there are many different ways for her to come back even if people could disagree with that (and I understand). It's very up in the air, but I believe it's not done, at least I hope so--

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bookwyrminspiration · 10 months

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Bit of an out there ask, but I think you’ll enjoy the thought experiment. What if Sophie or another main character got turned into a vampire/vampire like creature? Think less twilight more Vampire the Masquerade/Interview with the Vampire/What we do in the shadows.

You're right, I would! Unfortunately the only of those references I've seen is wwdits (the movie), so I don't have as solid an idea of what you're going for as I would like.

Well first and foremost I think it would be very limiting and difficult to adjust to, but that's a given. They live in a world that revolves around light, and now they can't see the sun without bursting into flames. Judgment and scorn are sure to follow from their world, more intense than what they're facing currently. That is if the news goes public.

Also incredible alienation from their friends, as no one would know what to do with them--not for lack of trying, though! Their friends would absolutely do their best to support and get them through this, but it's also a very new and unexpected situation. Even at their most supportive, there will be aspects of their new situation (vampire) that their friends just can't relate to or connect with them on the same.

Interestingly, I think a lot of what makes the wwdits vampires the way they are wouldn't affect the kotlcrew. Because part of what makes the wwdits vampires (and vampires in general) Like That is that they're out of place temporally. They still live life very influenced by a past that doesn't exist anymore, everyone from those times dead and gone, leaving them alone and ill-adjusted. But the kotlcrew are elves, they'll live for thousands of years yet at least. Whoever is turned into a vampire wouldn't be as odd because everyone they know will still be alive, the world isn't moving on without them. Unless they sequester themselves away for centuries and talk to no one, but I don't think their friends would let them do that.

So a huge aspect of vampirism--living while everyone you love dies, stuck in time while the world leaves you behind--wouldn't be nearly as impactful here, much less of a curse.

I think the diet change would be most notable--vegetarian species -> blood drinker is quite the shock. Coming to terms with that would be a process (perhaps easier if it was Sophie, given her exposure to vampirism prior and her willingness to eat animals), and it would make everyone uncomfortable. Except maybe Ro. She'd think it was cool as fuck. There might be some self-starvation involved as they try to resist, but depending on how tempting blood is, they might not be able to resist. Which would make everyone see them very differently--though I do think they'd get through it in the end, perhaps with some hiccups in the road.

I'm rambling at this point, but basically: depends on who and depends on the specific mechanics of their vampirism. The blood thing would be a huge deal, but the outliving your friends and growing out of sync with time wouldn't really happen, lessening the burden. Of course we could get into more specifics, but i hope that helps answer your question!

#kotlc #quil's queries #nonsie #long post #i literally have interview wtv on my shelf at home rn I just haven't gotten to it yet #alas #so it's entirely possible there are details or vibes that you're thinking of that are going over my head #in which case: feel free to correct me!#i didn't even get into trying to source food...oof #depends on if it /has/ to be human blood #or elven perhaps in this case #point is what blood matters #thinking thoughts over here...

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cr-noble-writes · 11 months

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Beep beep; 7, 8, 21, 26, 27, 34, 47, 49, 50 for Jackson because I'm a nosy bitch 👁👁

ooooo this is a lot of questions hahahaha

7. Do they have any unusual fears?

I don't think I'd classify any of Jackson's fears (that he would absolutely say he doesn't have, he's not afraid of anything, what are you talking about?) as unusual. He really isn't afraid of much, and most of his fears tie directly into a fear of intimacy.

8. Do they collect anything? If so what and why?

Drumsticks. Because he's a drummer lol. Shot glasses from places he's been. And, uh, I'm not sure if this actually counts but languages. He speaks several, and he learned them because he enjoys learning new languages (and also he enjoys it when people expect him to not understand what they're saying and he can hit back in whatever language they're speaking). He knows enough languages that he actually rarely uses a translator when he's out and about.

21. What is more important to them, friends or family?

Friends, without question. The only family Jackson has left is his mother, and they're not very close. It's hard to get onto the list of people Jackson considers friends, but once you're there, you're absolutely more important to him than his mother lol.

26. Have they met any of their heroes? Did they regret it?

Hmmmm. This is kind of a cheesy answer, but for a long time Jackson's hero was his dad. And then he died, which was very difficult for Jackson because up to the point when his dad died, he'd really been trying to follow in his dad's footsteps. It was kind of a turning point for him where he realized 1)the reason he was trying so hard to be like his dad was because he felt that was the only way he might ever be 'good enough' for his mom, and 2) that the direction he wanted his life to go was not in his father's footsteps.

27. Has a chance encounter ever had an unexpected effect on them?

I think that this has happened multiple times, in different ways. A chance encounter as a kid on Arcturus led to a distant but very important lifelong relationship. A chance encounter on Omega ends up, for all intents and purposes, getting him benched (sent to Eden Prime). A chance encounter leads him to a chance to bring his best friend back from the dead. There are probably more, but these are the most striking, I think.

34. How well do they deal with grief?

Jackson deals with grief about as well as he deals with any other emotion, which is to say poorly at best. When Kaidan gets spaced over Alchera, he just flat out refuses to accept that Kaidan is dead. Very Loudly. Which does, eventually, lead to Hackett sending him to infiltrate the Shadow Broker's operations, which leads him both to helping Liara become the new Shadow Broker and recover Kaidan's body and to Cerberus and bring Kaidan back.

47. Would they lie to get someone else out of trouble? Even if they would have to take that someone else’s place?

Oooooooh. This is a good one. And the answer is, it depends. Because the thing is, no matter how close of a friend Jackson considers a person, or how he feels about that person, the mission always, always, always comes first. So, if it's someone he cares about and it doesn't cause him work problems, then maybe. The closest instance of something like this in his canon, I think, is that when Hackett calls up the Normandy about Dr. Kenson, Jackson takes the mission specifically to keep Kaidan out of it. He's worked in intelligence, and for Hackett, long enough to know that whoever goes on a mission like that is being set up as a scapegoat if anything goes wrong, and he absolutely will not allow Kaidan to be that scapegoat.

If it's a matter of choosing between completing an objective and getting his friend out of trouble, though? The answer is no.

49. Do they have trouble keeping their enemies and their friends straight?

Not really. He has a very short list of friends lol

50. What is your favorite thing about them?

Every time I answer this question, it's a different thing lol. I think my favorite thing about Jackson is the fact that the job comes first, always. It's such an interesting character trait to explore, especially when he does get attached to people. It's just very different from how I usually write characters to write someone who, no matter how much he cares about or loves someone, would absolutely and without question sacrifice them to get the job done if it became necessary.

#crnobleanswers #oc asks #ask games #Jackson Shepard #Mass Effect

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barnesbabee · 3 years

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collab || J.Y

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Summary: Two famous porn stars have a fun collab together.

Pairing: Jeong Yunho x gn!reader

Words: Just enough

⚠ although there is no mention of gender, the reader wears makeup and lingerie, so if you are uncomfortable with that, don't read ⚠

As Yunho dried his hair with a small towel, he heard the familiar ding sound from his social media. He had just finished uploading the edited version of his live stream, so it wasn't unusual for him to be contacted by a bunch of people right after, however, he didn't expect to see you.

You weren't well known in the porn scenario, as you were fairly new and the competition was vast, but your 'Around The World' series had become a huge success and a major hit for its originality.

Yunho was quite a fan of the series, so when he saw your message, his fingers were crossed.

Y/N: Hello! My name is Y/N, I'm not sure if you know my work, but I am a porn star that is currently doing a series called 'Around The World' where I... well, fuck people all around the world. My next stop is South Korea and I have seen your work before and I think our style is very similar and I would love to do a collab with you! Feel free to check out my work on my page, I hope to hear from you soon! xoxo

The tall man squealed like a high schooler getting a text from his crush, he's always wanted a collab and now he was about to get one in one of the biggest series of the moment!

Yunhxxx: Hello Y/N! I am aware of your series and I am a fan! I would love to do the collab with you! I'll send you my number so we can talk about the details more comfortably :)

Part of your anxiousness died down at his response. Most porn stars were very polite and kind in front of the camera, and in business discussion, all for that quick buck, but you'd find, with your series, that a lot of them were just assholes with a huge ego. You had a good feeling about Yunho, but you didn't want to get your hopes up and then be disappointed.

The arrangements didn't take long, as you were both excited for the collab to happen, making it very easy to communicate. Yunho was kind enough to offer his own home for you to sleep in, arguing that 'whoever fucks me gets to sleep in my house for free'.

Yunho spent the weekend preparing everything for your arrival on Monday morning: he cleaned his whole house, stocked his fridge and cabinets with all sorts of food, and sanitized every toy of his. By the time he received your 'I'm on my way!' text, his house was the cleanest it had ever been.

The man showered, put on his best cologne, and applied some dark eyeshadow under his eyes. As he stood in front of the closet in his briefs only, he wondered what he should go for. A sophisticated look? A sexy look? An outlaw-looking look? He wanted something to get you immediately attracted to him. Yunho wanted to make you feel good, not to make you act as if you felt good.

Ultimately he chose a black button-up and black suit pants. He decorated his long fingers (that he had come to learn was something many people liked about him) and rolled up the sleeves of his shirt.

Yunho was aware of his innocent appearance. He had had his cheeks squeezed one too many times, so he caught on quickly. However, the man loved to play with his looks. He loved to make people wonder what kind of person he was, with a cute face, yet an intimidating look.

Before he knew it, his doorbell rang. Yunho took one last look in the mirror, just to make sure everything was in its place and walked towards the door. The first hello wasn't awkward at all, as you'd already had a few zoom calls to discuss what would happen in your collab, just to make sure there were no misunderstandings.

Once you stepped in with your suitcase, you couldn't help but notice how neat, modern, and well decorated his house was. The walls were white with big windows, and the furniture was a mix of grey, light blue, and white. Yunho lead you to the guest room where you'd be staying, and it was a lot nicer than you expected. The bed was high and large, the duvet was grey with a bunch of fluffy white and red pillows decorating it. In front of the bed was a modern black vanity with lightbulbs around the squared mirror, and against the wall in front of the door was a black, sliding door wardrobe, with a large, orange, and red abstract painting of a couple. His house looked simple yet classy, with just the right amount of colour and decoration. You took a look at him, his dark look contrasting the house.

"You already got prepared?"

Yunho looked a little puzzled for a second, but then understood. "Oh! Oh no, you've just arrived, you must be tired! This is just... how I dress?" He said, feeling a little embarrassed.

You took a good look at his outfit.

"You always dress like that? Wow..."

Yunho's cheeks became a little red at the comment, and he stumbled over his words as he thanked you. He was used to receiving compliments when he had his clothes off, but with clothes on? Not so much... Before closing the door, Yunho told you to feel at home, and that when you were ready you could start setting everything up in the room he used to shoot.

The man had never felt that nervous, so when he finally closed the door, he immediately headed to his living room, and found the whiskey bottle he kept for emergencies. He poured a generous glass and sat on the couch, scrolling through his phone as he waited for you.

You were pretty much used to the routine, and since you had a stopover in a neighboring country and spent the night there, the trip hadn't been too tiring. You sat on the very convenient vanity and re-did your makeup. You liked to match your look to your type of content, so you went for a dark look: dark purple lipstick, a heavy, black smokey eye, and loads of mascara. You made sure to apply a lot, so it would run down your face and give the viewers the fucked out look they loved to see.

The lingerie matched your makeup: black lace lingerie with some bling here and there, and a garter belt to accessorize. You grabbed your robe from your suitcase and exited the room.

"Yunho?" You called, peeking your head from behind the wall.

"Hm?"

His eyes widened when he looked up. You were completely different from the person he had met.

"I am ready if you are!"

He nodded and stood up, downing the rest of his 2nd whiskey cup in one go. Yunho took you upstairs and opened the door to his 'studio'.

In the center of the room was a carpet, and a big, empty space behind it.

"I usually move the bed or the couch over there, depending on what I want to do that day. I found that it was easier to move the furniture than the whole set up." He explained, pointing at the empty space.

Against the wall, opposite of you, there was a bed, much like the one on your bedroom, and a nice, black leather couch. Beside you there was a closet, where Yunho kept all his toys, accessories, and streaming outfits. Other than that it was just the usual setup: a desk with a computer, professional lights, and a camera.

Yunho walked over to the couch and moved it with ease to the empty space.

"So we've already decided?" You asked.

The man smirked as if simply entering the room turned him into a completely different person.

"I already have everything planned out for you dear, it would be rude to have my guests work."

You blushed slightly, and sat on the couch, waiting for the green light.

You watched as he opened the closet, displaying his wide collection. He picked a bunch of stuff that he set on top of a towel on the floor.

"Alright, that's about it."

You cocked your head to the side, in confusion.

"You're not getting dressed?"

Yunho reached for the choker he had brought and softly placed it around your neck, tying it just tight enough. He hooked his finger on the big metal ring on the front and tugged on it. You followed his silent command and knelt on the ground, in front of the couch.

"I'm already dressed, for the concept we're gonna try."

You were getting curious and excited. You stayed still as he started up the live stream. Yunho turned on the lights, set up the camera, and pressed 'Start Live Video'. The screen counted down from five, until the live started.

Yunho sat on the couch behind you, and placed his large hand on your head.

The man smirked as soon as the comments started raining.

There was a mixture of fuck yeah's and happy cheers as they recognized Yunho, and became excited for what was to come. The live was obviously happening on your account, although you would always split the tips with the person you worked with.

"Hello," Yunho started, and you let him take the lead "welcome to the 24th edition of Around The World, I am today's guest, and we have such a great show for you today, don't we?"

Yunho tugged on your hair, making you wince. You looked at the camera and nodded.

The 30 dollar donation ding sounded, announcing that someone had made a request.

'Make her sit on your thigh'

You let Yunho take the lead once more, hooking his finger on your choker's hoop and pulling you up, to sit on his thigh. You hummed as you rolled your hips, causing friction between your core and his thigh. Your hand ran along his torso, feeling the fabric of his shirt.

"He has too many clothes, don't you think?" You asked the camera, in a flirty tone.

There was a rain of comments agreeing with you, and you immediately got to work, unbuttoning his shirt slowly. His dick print was already very visible in his pants, and you could now understand why he wanted to wear that look.

You removed his shirt, slowly and teasingly, as the viewers praised Yunho's toned body.

The male hooked his finger on your underwear and snapped it against your skin. Your little whimper at the sudden pain made him smirk.

Yunho ran his hands along your body, making you shiver from the cold metal of his rings.

Tips and donations rained down with many requests, and so you went back on the floor and laid your head on Yunho's thigh, your face mere inches away from his hard-on. You perked your ass up and traced the shape of his cock with your finger.

"What do you think? Should we reward them?" Yunho asked, petting your head as he stared into the camera.

As expected, everyone gave you the green light to continue, so you slowly opened his fly, to find he had no underwear on. You freed him from his pants, gripping his length in your hand. You kept eye contact with the male, and although you were a professional, you were always nervous when you had to take dicks on the bigger side.

You spat on his tip, and played with his cock for a second, before slowly inserting it in your mouth. Yunho groaned and threw his head back, taking in the warmth of your mouth. His hand was tangled in your hear, gripping it and tugging on it from time to time.

"Shit, you're doing so good..."

Yunho was very vocal, to your (and the viewer's) pleasure.

The 50$ notification ding sounded, and a message played right after.

'bby I wanna see you jump on his cock'

Yunho smirked and gripped your hair, in a firm, yet not painful way. He swiped his thumb across your bottom lip, cleaning the remaining saliva.

"Hmm, you know what, so do I."

You stripped from your underwear, in a sensual way for the viewers (and Yunho) to enjoy.

Yunho slapped his thigh, and you climbed onto his lap, slowly but surely sinking down on his length. You gripped onto his shoulders for stability and groaned as every inch of his cock disappeared inside of you.

His hands gripped your ass, spreading your cheeks in a beautiful way for the camera to see. The male helped you, as you rode him, not only by holding your hips and guiding you, but also by snapping his hips up against yours. Filthy slapping sounds along with the mixture of your moans echoed in the room, and the donations were reaching their peak.

"F-fuck baby you're s-so good, you're doing so well."

You gripped his shoulders harder, as his praises drew you closer and closer to your edge.

"They're c-close! Should we l-let them cum?"

It was impressive how professional Yunho was. How he looked so immersed in you, so tired and fucked out, with his fringe sticking to his forehead and eyes burning into your soul, yet he didn't forget to interact with the viewers.

There were many people leaning towards yes, begging to hear the way you sounded as you came, and so he worked hard until you screamed his name and tightened around his cock. He let you rest and recompose for a second, but the way you clenched around him made it impossible for him to hold it in any longer.

"Shit, get on the ground."

You gladly complied, and got on your knees for him, immediately sticking out your tongue, as you could predict what would come after.

Yunho jerked himself off to your fucked out face, and soon a string of curses came out of his mouth, as he spilled all over your face. He smirked and wiped some of his cum off of your face with his thumb.

"Say ah, pretty baby."

You smiled and opened your mouth. He inserted his finger in your mouth and you happily licked it clean.

Yunho cupped your face with his hand, and smiled.

"You behaved so well, I might have to reward you again."

His head tilted to the side, pointing to the couch, and you followed. You sat down on the couch, and Yunho knelt in front of you. His arms wrapped around your thighs and pulled you forward, so your hole would be of easy access to him.

The man teased you, as his tongue danced around your hole, not quite getting where you wanted him. You rolled your hips up, earning a slap to your inner thigh.

He looked up at you, with a hint of darkness in his eyes.

"Behave."

It didn't take long for you to get what you wanted, as he started tongue fucking you, with the help of his fingers. You gripped his hair, and your back arched as your high approached once more.

You came quickly, with his tongue still inside you, and he held your trembling legs and body, to keep you stable.

He didn't move for a second, giving you time to breathe and rest. After you had recomposed yourself, he helped you up, and the two of you shared a heated kiss, Yunho's hands never leaving your ass, that he definitely had a fixation with.

You finished the stream by thanking the viewers and donors and shut everything off. Once everything was done, you sighed and plopped onto the couch.

"Do you not want to shower?" Yunho questioned, as he saw the mess in your face and body.

You chuckled.

"Yes I do, very much, but I'm so fucked out..."

Yunho very kindly scooped you up.

"Well, I wouldn't want my guest to work too hard, I'll help you out."

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imagines-by-a-typical-fangirl · 3 years

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When I Found You (Pt. 02 of 19)

Pairing: Daryl Dixon X Reader | Negan X daughter! Reader

Word count: 2.4 K

Summary: You saw Negan build his empire, saw your father become a monster, a murderer, and never had the courage to stand your ground. So everything you do it help as much people as you can, carrying the guilt of being part of it. But one day, your world is shaken when you find him, the man with blue eyes locked up inside a cage. You decide to help him, to keep his community safe. And for that, you'll have to pretend you and Daryl are in love... But how long until the lie becomes the truth?

Warnings: Some sensitive topics such as mentions and light descriptions of self-harm. (I kept it light, so don't worry about graphic descriptions.)

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A/N: I wanna thank (and give a lot of credit) to to absolutely awesome friend @multific, who helped me with a lot of ideas, and also with the final editing of the text. Love you, girl!!

“Are you sure this will work?” You ask Jim for the hundredth time.

His idea is good. You can make it work, you can make it believable. But it doesn't depend on you alone. Daryl has to accept it and put some effort into it as well.

“It will.”

“How long do we have?” Walking fast through the halls, you try not to overthink. This can't backfire, because you have no idea what to do if it fails.

“Eight weeks until Negan goes to Alexandria. But you know him, he could go anytime he wants, but since he's eager to torture them psychologically, he may give it some time. Make them think they can come up with some kind of plan.”

Daryl's group is smart. And strong. You and Jim are getting all the pieces of information about them, and about Negan's plans. For you, it's easy, you just have to ask Negan. But Jim's job is to go around the men and get their ideas because sometimes some of them have an interesting addition to the plan that Negan is eager to follow.

So what you have is this: The leader, Rick, is a survivor. It means he had to get his hands dirty before, and will again. And your father knows how to break a man like Rick. He hates men like Rick. It doesn't help that the Alexandrians killed several Saviours, and tricked Negan a couple of times before.

Your father wants to unleash hell upon them. And Jim was right, you've never seen Negan so furious about a group before.

He won't just take their things and leave, no Negan will break them, slowly, painfully. He will strip them off of everything they care about, everyone they love, one by one, until he gets to Rick.

But you won't let that happen.

“Ok.” Taking a deep breath, you stop by the apartment door. “If he doesn't play along...”

“If he doesn't play along, his group dies. Just tell him that.”

As if it was so simple.

Nodding, you unlock the door and walk in. Jim quickly pushes it close, gun already in hand. This could be dangerous. You wouldn't blame Daryl for trying to attack you.

“Hello?” You mutter, moving to the living room and peaking into the kitchen. “We're just here to talk.” Keeping your voice as soft as you can, you move towards the hall, as Jim does the same, walking ahead of you and pushing the first door open.

When he comes out, he simply shakes his head no before moving to the other room. “Where the hell is he?”

“Take it easy, Jim. I–” You're cut short suddenly, a strong arm pulling you backwards, knocking all air out of your lungs. There's something sharp and cold against your neck, as a giant hand grabs your shoulder, keeping you tight against the body behind you, painfully tight.

“Damn it!” Jim exclaims, gun pointing at whoever is holding you. But it doesn't take much until your mind solves the mystery. “Let go of her. Now!”

“Drop the gun.” The voice, raspy and angry, comes right to your ear. “Or I'll kill her.”

“Jim put it down.” You tell him, both hands coming to hold on the man's arm as you struggle to breathe.

“I have a clean shot from here, asshole. She's tiny, I can shoot you right in the head.” Jim cocks the gun, and the knife is pressed against your skin.

“Shoot me and she dies. I'll draw this damn knife right through her throat.”

“Stop it, both of you!” Shouting, you suck in a sharp breath when Daryl moves, pulling you further away from Jim. “James, you do as I freaking say. Put the gun down now.” Using the strongest voice you can, you give him a stare. You hate ordering him around, but it's necessary now. Your eyes are saying ‘trust me, I know what I'm doing’, and that's what makes him reluctantly move, slowly lowering the gun until it's on the ground, kicking it to the wall behind him. Way out of Daryl's reach.

“Daryl, listen to me.” You start, keeping your voice soft. “We're here to help you.”

“How? Gonna throw me in another goddamn cell!” He squeezes your shoulder, making you wince.

Jim steps forward, ready to fight, but you raise a hand at him, making him stop. “I know about your group. About Alexandria, everything. And I know Negan's plans. I swear, I just want to help.”

“She was the one to bring you here, man, trust me,” Jim speaks up, both hands raised. “We spent all night trying to find a way of helping you and your group. You kill her, you're doomed. You and everyone you care about.”

You feel Daryl's grip get a bit loose, just a little bit, but enough for you to get what he's thinking. Taking in the information. “What the hell does he plan to do with us?”

“The same, as a start.” You explain the pain on your shoulder bringing a few tears to your eyes. “He'll take whatever he wants, and go back every once in a while. But he hates Rick, your leader, so he'll put traps in the way, looking for a reason to torture them.”

“Huh.” He grunts.

“I was in the meeting. He wants to kill the Alexandrians one by one, make them chop off pieces.” Going graphic was never the idea, and it makes you feel sick. “H-he said he will make Rick go all the way next time. Cut his own son's hand off.” Tears start rolling down as the emotions overwhelm you.

The image is in your head now, a father being forced to do such a thing. The axe, the blood, the severed hand... You need your cell. You need to let things out. You never wanted to be part of this. You never wanted to be here. But you can't lose it, not now.

Blinking to push the stubborn tears away, you put yourself back together the best you can. This isn't the place to be weak.

“How do ya know all that?”

“Negan is my father.” This makes the grip gets tighter than before, as the knife is now placed on your throat. “It doesn't mean I agree with his methods!” You're quick to add. “I have a plan to keep him away from your people. From Alexandria.”

“C'mon, man, you're hurting her,” Jim begs.

“Keep yer damn mouth shut!”

“These are your options, Daryl Dixon!” You yell again, trying to make your voice heard despite everything. Despite his grip, the knife, and the situation. “You can kill me, kill Jim, take the gun and run. But you won't get too far. They'll take you, and as soon as they find out you killed Negan's daughter, the man himself will make you watch as he feeds your people to the dead.” This wasn't supposed to be this way, you didn't want to threaten him. But you'll say anything for him to let go of you. “Or you can at least hear me out. Because with or without your help, I'll find a way to keep Negan away from this group because I'm not my damn father!” Voice cracking in the end, you close your eyes, letting the darkness surround you. This isn't enough, but it has to suffice.

You're becoming so weak. After so many years, being in this nightmare since the very beginning, you're breaking. And you can't break. You won't know what to do if you break.

“Just listen to her, man,” Jim mutters, and when Daryl finally let go, you run straight into Jim's arms, releasing a breath. “Damn it, (Y/N).” He whispers in your ear, softly rubbing your back. This hug isn't about you being hurt by Daryl, it's about you being hurt by everything else. Jim has developed a way of knowing when you're about to collapse, exactly when you need some time to recover. “Can you do it? Because if not we can–”

“I'm alright.” Pulling away, you wipe the tears away before turning to face Daryl.

He's wearing a black long-sleeved shirt, and now you get why his hand felt so big. The man is huge, and it's clear now he didn't hurt you as much as he could if he wanted to. His dark hair partly covers his eyes, but you can see the bright blue colour, set on you. He's clean, and now you can see the purple bruise on his left cheek. Daryl still holds the knife, ready to act if you or Jim try anything.

“Can we sit?” Gesturing at the couch, you just make your way there, taking a sit. Jim does the same, taking the armchair. But Daryl just stands, those predator-looking eyes, following your every move. “You don't have to look at me like I'm some kind of threat. Look at me. I couldn't take you.”

“But yer boyfriend here could try.” Eyes locked on you, Daryl jerks his chin towards Jim.

“Jim is not my boyfriend. He's... My personal bodyguard.” You sigh, running a hand through your hair. “Jim's wife was dying. He was working for points so he couldn't have the medicine. He stole it and got caught. His wife passed and he was going to die too for what he did, but I stepped in.” Exchanging a glance with him, you take in the small smile he has on, and also the sadness in his eyes. Jim is still in love with Mariam. “I told Negan I wanted someone by my side, at all times. And Jim was strong and well-built even before, so I had my will done. And here he is now, not only to protect me but as a faithful friend. As I am his.”

“It's true. (Y/N) saved me.”

“So ya want me ta’ believe Negan does everythin’ ya want?” Daryl is sceptical, but anyone in his position would be. You're still one of his captors, and you could be setting some kind of trap.

“(Y/N) is everything Negan has left. Say whatever you want from him, it'll probably be the truth, but he loves his daughter.” With both elbows on his knees, Jim looks up at Daryl. “She's the princess around here. And the king will do whatever she says. If she wanted to tear you to pieces just for her pleasure, he would clap.” Jim's voice gets darker because he stands where you stand. He does what he has to do to survive, but he doesn't enjoy it. “But instead, she puts on a show out there, just so she can act behind his back helping people. She could be a tyrant, the very image of her father but she isn't. So if (Y/N) can help you and your people to make out of this mess alive, take the freaking chance or get the hell out of her way.”

Furrowing your eyebrows, you try to understand where it came from. Jim never said anything like this.

“We came up with a plan to make Negan give up on your community.” You say, taking a deep breath. “Of course we'd have to say Alexandria would be mine to rule and shit like that, but I promise you if we manage to make this work, he'll leave your people alone.”

“And what is this miraculous plan?”

This is the hard part. Biting your lip, you exchange a long stare with Jim, who raises both his eyebrows at you.

“We'll have to pretend to be dating.” Saying it as slow as you can, you feel a heat spreading through your cheeks.

“What the hell?”

“I know how it sounds.” Standing up to your feet, you raise both hands at him. “But all the other options weren't good enough. Negan hates your group like he never hated anyone before, and Jim and I came to the conclusion that the only way he'll step back is if I put my heart on the matter.” Shrugging your shoulders, you sigh. “If we convince them we're falling for each other, he will let me have Alexandria. And if he places the city under my care, nobody will come to take anything. Nobody will be killed.”

Daryl weakly nods, his hair all over his face. “Fine. But if ya lie ta’ me, I kill ya.”

“You–”

“We have a deal.” You speak before Jim does, reaching out your hand. Daryl looks at it before looking up at you again, not taking your hand, so you let it fall. “Well, you'll stay here now. There's food and... Pretty much everything you may need. I'll talk to Negan and let you know the next step.” That said, you nod, mostly to yourself, gesturing for Jim to follow as you leave.

Right before you push the door close, you take one last look at Daryl. Then, the wood separates the two of you, and you lock the door, sliding the key into your pocket.

“It'll work,” Jim says, a hand on your shoulder.

“It has too.”

When Daryl is left alone, the silence, now very familiar, surrounds him again. In a jolt of adrenaline, he has an impulse of checking if what she said was true. Everything he had done ever since the Saviors dragged him into this apartment was to shower, clean the blood from his wounds, put on some clothes, and sleep.

So, he's quickly moving through the kitchen, opening the cabinets and fridge, finding more food than he has seen since the world broke.

To say he's confused is a misunderstanding. When he first saw her, from the darkness of his cell, he wondered if he was seeing an angel. Her smooth skin, clean and shining, as if she didn't belong to this world anymore. Her hair, rolling down her shoulders, reaching all the way to her waist. And he swears he could smell her hair conditioner, candy-like. It took a while for him to believe she was real.

But she's Negan's daughter.

And Daryl has to be careful, smart. He will do anything if it means his group will be safe. But still, he has to be alert. In case this is a trap. In case she's not as good as she shows.

There are no angels, not in this world. Not living among these people.

And she certainly isn't one of them.

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this might be a silly question, but i just watches saw iii for the first time and im wondering if youve ever talked about amanda and johns relationship? id love to hear your take on it, as an amanda scholar

hi! congrats on the first saw iii watch, hope you're doing all right, and no, not a silly question at all! in fact i've wanted to talk about this for a while now. i am very tired and this topic makes me very emotional so do not go into this expecting it to be particularly intellectually driven. or organized

shawnee smith has talked about seeing amanda and john as more of a partnership of equals than an apprentice-mentor relationship, and despite the fact that i largely find her takes on amanda solid additions to the character (the self harm, the childhood abuse) i just .... can't agree. once she said she and tobin would take walks discussing philosophy together because they thought that's what john and amanda would do. as interesting as the thought is it's never felt right to me because

i mean. i have to start with the bible verse john wrote on the wall in the reverse bear trap room. matthew 10:39: "whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it." (what's actually written on the wall might be different, i quoted the niv, i do not want to go back and look at the wall to check the wording/translation) i think it's really um, interesting, the implication that amanda, specifically, won't actually get her jigsaw-trap-promised new appreciation for life if she just wins her game & survives: she has to lose her life for john's sake in order to actually "find" it. she hasn't actually won when she stumbles outside, newly murderous and bleeding from the mouth - john has moved the goalposts & she'll only really be "saved" if and when she joins and loses herself to him (you will give everything to me / every cell in your body ...)

so like ... start from this. he chooses her to bear the unique burden of his attention, teaching, & eventually legacy. she accepts, thinking ... ? i'd like to think she really thinks he helped her, i'd like to think she wants to help people. i think (& i know this is my own interpretation and not necessarily evidentially supported) she is desperate for a way to comprehend the singularly horrifying experience of waking up abducted and about to die & being made a murderer in a few short minutes, and i think she is also, at this point in her life, craving guidance: any kind of structure, code, role to which to attach and make sense of the world. & i think john saying, hey, think of it this way: i helped you, you can understand this as being helped, and furthermore, you can help other people because of what i put you through, which was, may i remind you, helpful ........ I think it crystallizes in her mind into self-evident truth, the one way forward. may we also remember she is the first known jigsaw survivor & utterly alone

this is the backdrop against which i view her relationship with john. i uh ... god. he wanted a follower and an apprentice specifically so he'd have someone to carry on his work after he died, and also so he'd have some help while he was still kicking. he wanted someone who'd follow his instructions to the letter (notably: NOT someone who would attempt to rise above the jigsaw philosophy to assert their own) and i think he saw amanda as directionless & dependent enough that he could mold her into just that. if i'm being generous then maybe he also saw her stubbornness and ferocity, it'd ... be really nice if he did. BUT regardless.

he chooses her, and he chooses her because there is a role he wants her to play. she accepts, because she wants to play that role but also because she is desperate and alone and trying to shoulder something almost no one has ever dealt with before. to her he says you're exactly what i want, you're not there yet but i see "there" in you; we will bring it out together, you're capable of it now, you're better now. to him she says thank you, i will, i will, i will.

are they father and daughter? kind of. as i mentioned, shawnee & leigh have both said amanda was abused by her father, & obviously john characterizes himself as a father without a child. i see their relationship as acting on all these lost & dropped threads of paternality the way you'd expect it to .... i think the father/daughter bent is one of the most compelling aspects of their relationship and one of the most fucked up ones, too. are they mentor & student? yes, absolutely. something something the old astronomer to his pupil, you have learned the worth of scorn ... there's another dynamic, too, that i find hard to describe dyadically, but it shows through the way amanda in saw iii so often comes so close to outburst or violence & then john commands her to stop and she does. that ... level of obedience. raw power and fury holding itself back meekly for someone who's bedbound & frail

this relationship, with all its weird tenderness, all its care, all the thought and effort john put into its cultivation, into being kind to her, into directing her, into manipulating her, into "saving" her, is predicated on the belief that amanda will successfully transform into Jigsaw 2: Still Jiggin' and become exactly what john wants her to be.

the problem is that it doesn't work like that. amanda is still herself, and she knows it, and john knows it. nobody fucking changes nobody is reborn .... god, the agony of thinking you're a new person now & then every morning you wake up and realize a little harder that you're as miserable and lonely and flawed as before! trying not to look straight at the creeping doubt in the belief system you gave up everything for, because beyond that doubt there is the same old chasm, bigger & darker now. the rifts and uncertainty don't surprise me, the rage doesn't surprise me, the fact that she goes rogue doesn't surprise me at all. i don't know why it surprised john.

i think. what kills me. more than anything. is that he chose her knowing exactly who she was & then deemed her a failure for being exactly who she was. going back 2 the bible verse on the wall ............... john was the arbiter of this change, this "rebirth"; he was the one who undertook the responsibility of remaking amanda in his own image. & in this way he is the one who failed

but the way he frames it, she failed. wayward daughter? mediocre student? beast that snapped its chain one too many times? or woman with decades of trauma behind her, charged with the crime of failing to extinguish herself for an ideology that she does not believe in anymore, for a man who styles himself a father, mentor, adjudicator but is really just a man?

i want to think john loves her. i don't know if he does. he cares for her, certainly. their relationship was at the beginning predicated on amanda carrying his legacy: i WANT to think that, at the end, he cared about more in her than just her instrumentality to his plan. but in the end i care so much less about that than about the woman who dies alone on a cold floor minutes after realizing the person she has put so much trust and faith into has judged her & found her unworthy. who promised to save her & then blamed her for her inability to be saved

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The overarching themes of Vanitas no Carte: Identity

The Case Study of Vanitas is a very good, too little known manga (I hope the anime changes something), with some central themes than are exposed in different ways through different characters. In this meta, I want to explore one that was brought to my attention pretty recently: here a little examination on the various ways to face one's own identity in The Case Study of Vanitas.

The Stable Identity( Noè)

Let's start off with the positives, shall we? Noè has probably the most secure personal identity of all the bunch.

And this is pretty amazing, considering everything he went through. He has no memory of his birth family, but gets adopted by some nice people - who die shortly afterwards. Right at their graves, he is kidnapped by slaves, in an accident that left him injured. Then he is bought by someone who actually treats him nicely and is a good mentor for him, he finds many friends his age - and then one of them, the one he was closest to, turns out to be a cursebearer, kills all of the others and then tries to kill him; he is saved by the mentor, who beheads the friend right in front of him. The most immediate emotion is relief for being alive, and he will always feel terrible for that. Then, he has to witness his surviving friend try to cope very badly with her mourning by repressing her identity and try to substitute it with that of her dead twin. That's a lot.

And Noé reacted to all of this by becoming a confident person, kind and attentive to others, but not to the point of being a pushover. I'm not saying he walked away unscathed from the events of his childhood: he regrets the way he handled things with Louis, the way he didn't understand him, and has developed quite the savior complex as a result.

What I'm saying is that he is probably one of the very few well-adjusted people in the psychiatric ward that is Vanitas no Carte. He is still questioning himself, but in a normal way for a nineteen-years-old that has just left a sheltered environment for the big wide world. He is aware of some of his strenghts (his naivete) and is realizing others (putting unfair expectations on other people, underestimating other people due to racial biases); but most importantly, when he realizes these mistakes, he doesn't run away from them or obsess over them believing they make him a horrible person: he recognizes them, apologizes to the wronged person if necessary, and works on improving them.

This isn't to say he's completely happy-go-lucky with no regrets; he feels guilty about being relieved that he lived while Louis died, and he has a lot of uncertainties regarding his identity as an Archiviste and the impact his powers can have on other people. But he managed not to tie his entire identity to that guilt; and as for the second point, Teacher helped him rationalise that and figure out a conduit that didn't undermine him and at the same time showed respect for others. Noè went through several traumas, but received one thing most of the cast didn't: guidance and support from his environment. Whatever Teacher's actual motives are, he shaped a well-balanced person.

The Group Identity (The dhamps, appearently 99% of vampirekind)

"Us dhams are only loyal to each other!" This is what Dante says in one of the first chapters, giving us the first clues to their status as outcasts.

The war between humans and vampires ended up with each deciding to keep to themselves, but dhampires are the living exception to that silent agreement. So, both societies decide to reject them, and they can't find a place in the world unless they stick to others of their own kind. This common history of traumatic experiences of abandonment and subsequent resentment of both human and vampire society for it goes on to create a very strong group identity: the only ones they give a damn about are those like them, everyone else is a potential enemy and is only good to be exploited.

Then, we have the vampire culture. I mean ... it might be because insofar we have met almost exclusively aristocrats obsessed with their respectability ... but they have a lot of prejudices.

You're born under a uncommon moon? You're a pariah. You're mixed race? You're a pariah. Your parents committed a crime? You're a pariah, and are used as a tool. You're born as part of a set of twins? Either you or your sibling are killed at birth, because of something that is SAID, not even a certified element of vampire biology. You're stuck with a curse? You're executed, no attempts to heal you.

Their society seems to run on an ideal model of person which depends on factors outside the individual's control, and whoever doesn't fit this description and deviates from the group in any shape or form gets ridiculously fierce punishment. They make the freaking Church look good by comparison, at least their repressive and racist side is composed of extremists instead of everymen.

The Clan Identity (Chloé, and partially Noé again)

Chloé identifies with a group of people too; but it's not a race, it's a family. The D'Apchier family, the nobles who are responsible for Gevaudan. Her father made sure she had this idea in her right from the start, and she interiorized it.

And this had mixed results: while on the one hand she was chained to self-loathing by the guilt of having accidentally caused the massacre of the family and was only saved by Jeanne and Jean-Jacques reclaiming her as part of theirs, on the other she was able to resist to Naenia because of the love and responsibility she felt towards the people of Gevaudan. Chloé is, at this point, the only curse-bearer who managed to trick and attempted to fight directly against Charlatan.

Then there is Noé in relation to his Archiviste identity. He seems to think of it mainly in negative terms, very conscious of the living invasion of privacy it turns him into ... and nothing else. We have never seen him wonder about who his birth parents were, ask himself why he doesn't remember anything, why was the clan exterminated, or how he feels about being a survivor, one of the only ones if not outright the only. He sees his heritage as a burden,and hasn't thought of it in any different term. I wonder how a change in perspective could impact the above 'stable identity'.

The Someone Else's Identity (Vanitas, Dominique)

I already dedicated a whole post to this trait they share, so I'll be short: both Vanitas and Dominique hate themselves and try to become something worthy by taking elements of people they admire: Louis for Dominique, a combination of his birth father and Luna for Vanitas.

The Object Identity (Jeanne)

The very first thing Jeanne was said in her whole life was that she was an object. A vessel for something (or someone?) else, who mustn't have feelings or desires of her own. Encouraging, isn't it?

Luckily, this wasn't all she got in life. Soon afterwards, she was adopted by Eric and Louise, who loved her a lot, received kindness by Ruthven, met Chloé who became an older sister to her. Unluckily, all of this was taken away from her in the most cruel way possible.

She couldn't make any sense of her parents's betrayal and death, and the way her life suddenly changed; she rationalised it by telling herself that it was her fault, if she had been just the good object everyone told her to be nothing would have happened. So she accepts the Object Identity: she is a tool, so she doesn't feel, she exists only to obey orders, and as long as she is nobody else will ever suffer. It gets even worse after she fails to kill Chloè: she couldn't fulfill her duties, and both her and her big sis suffered for it. This mindset traps her in a world of pain, but also prevents her from facing the fact that she is subject to a senseless injustice, one she has no control over.

Vanitas managed to help her with that. He validated her feelings, and showed her that nobody had to die if she had them, solving the situation with Chloé and Jean-Jacques. This gave her a nice confidence boost, returning her to the cheerful attitude she had as a young girl; the consequences of this change remain to be seen.

The Unknown Identity (Luna)

This one is interesting because Luna themselves is pretty explicit about it. They see themselves as something 'other', who is outside commonly used categorization; starting with 'male or female' (and here I am left wondering if they had specific sexual characteristics but didn't feel like they 'fit', or were intersex and nonbinary, or had an entirely different biology from both vampires and humans).

Luna doesn't like this condition: they said they tried to figure out what they were, to understand themselves, and they regret doing so now. Why? Maybe they didn't find any answer and were left perpetually unsatisfied, or they found an answer, and they found it to be awful?

Still, this indicates Luna has never been particularly happy with themselves, and this found no resolution. And then they died. Nice, uh?

Well, I think this was all. There are other characters I would like to know more about in regard to this, like Ruthven, Marquis Machina, and Mikhail, but there is still time.

All in all, I'd say Vanitas no Carte explores the theme of identity pretty throughly; many character arcs are still in progress, and I'm interested about how things will develope especially for Vanitas, Dominique and Jeanne.

Thanks to anyone who bothered to read my ramblings!

#vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vnc meta #vnc analysis #vnc noe #vnc chloé #vnc vanitas #vnc dominique #vnc jeanne #vnc luna #elia's recaps

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hawkinsschoolcounselor · 2 years

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Okay, I hope you're well and down for a little game... or something: imagine you were part of the government... how would you trick Will into helping them? He probably knows what you have done to El so it might be a tricky thing to do. And now please imagine you'd figure he can manipulate reality... what would you use that sort of force of such a powerful Jedi for? Now try to imagine these two things combined... he would probably try to use these abilities against the gov eventually and they already were inferior to El and her powers back then. Can you think of anything to prevent that case from escalating or happening this time? It'd be real cool if you answered this. Take care my friend. :)

I'm mostly well now. Still recovering from Covid, unfortunately. I'm not contagious anymore, but the fatigue is really sticking around.

Assuming Will does have this power (which I have endorsed in the past), he would be an extremely valuable asset for Brenner, or any other power-hungry individual or organization for that matter. But, yeah, the problem is how do you compel someone that powerful to work for you? It would really depend on just how powerful he is.

For example, if you tried to threaten him to do your bidding, such as holding a loved one hostage, then what would stop him from just using his powers to save them?

There would need to be some sort of limit on his powers, at the very least to ensure a good story.

Let's assume the powers are quite limited in scope. He can't just wholesale change what is and isn't. Perhaps he can make small, focused changes. Someone could probably coerce him into using them for their own nefarious ends because of the aforementioned hostage situation. Will always, always, thinks of others before himself. This is why he put up with Mike and Lucas' BS for so long in season 3. He snuck a message to his friends on how to stop the Mindflayer, likely knowing it would kill him, too. Hell, this kid was also more concerned with Jonathan's hand wound after waking up in the hospital. Threaten someone he cares about, and he'd probably do whatever you wanted. Until he figures out how to stop you.

Another way to do it may be to take advantage of his desire for acceptance. This would mostly be available only to Lonnie. Much like El with Brenner, Will has been shown to desire his father's love and approval. It's feasible that Lonnie would, again, for a while, be able to get Will to use any powers he has to benefit himself. All he would have to do is throw some feigned approval at Will, or, perhaps more his style, emotionally abuse the boy until he feels he has no choice. "Will, don't you want to help your dad? You want to be a good son, don't you?"

The problem with both of these scenarios is that Will would, ultimately, turn on whoever takes advantage of him. In the first scenario, Will would find a way to fight back, as he did with the Mindflayer. We already know he wouldn't care if he died, and he's also incredibly clever. He'd have no problems pulling a "taking you with me" in order to stop you. In the second scenario, it's simply a matter of time before he reached his breaking point. This kid adores Mike, but he still lashed out at him after being mistreated for too long. Will has some emotional vulnerabilities, but he's no pushover.

I don't see any realistic situation where anyone could contain Will indefinitely. It's a case of The Dog Bites Back. You're forcing someone in a power class well above anything your capable of to do horrible things against his own will. You might have some success for a while, but, without real loyalty, Will would take advantage of any opportunities to break free.

#stranger things #will byers

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I hate that if Connor survives, in Inquisition, some of your companions blame Connor for what happened at Redcliffe. Connor also blames himself. I wouldn't put it past the Circle to have even convinced Connor, who was at the time a terrified child, that he was guilty of everything a demon did. Loghain should be blamed, but no one dares to do that. :(

Yeah, it's like... he summoned the demon, yes, but he was a kid with only Jowan's lessons in how to use magic and deal with the Fade to guide him (and as much as I love Jowan... yeah, his lessons probably weren't great all things considered; he's an apprentice on the run and distracted by poisoning Eamon, after all). His father was dying. Of course he turned to demonic help; if you're a kid and your father's dying of course you're going to listen to the one person who seems to be offering concrete assistance! And while Jowan probably did warn Connor about the dangers of associating with demons—he's not the best mage but he's not stupid, and while the Chantry is full of shit it's certainly important to recognize the potential dangers of interacting with denizens of the Fade when you're kind of pushed into doing that every night—given the whole "poisoning Connor's dad" thing the kid probably wasn't too interested in listening to what he said. Connor is I'd argue the least responsible for what happened. First and foremost is the demon, of course, but then there's Loghain for pushing Jowan to poison Eamon, Jowan does have some of the blame for the general situation (even though I do argue that his situation mitigates a lot of it)... You could even blame Isolde for hiring an apostate instead of giving her kid to Proper Teachers, although more than that you should blame the Chantry for being so awful to mages that the best available option for Connor was hiring an apostate to teach him control and hoping for the best. Connor was just a desperate, frightened kid who got in over his head.

One of the quiet tragedies that Inquisition's writing kind of brushes under the rug (presumably because it makes the Chantry look bad) is... if you do In Hushed Whispers, when you go to the future in a world state where Connor survived his possession, he kills himself. He's so terrified of being possessed again that he burns himself alive, one of the most agonizing deaths imaginable, to escape that possibility. Despite the fact that there is nothing to suggest that getting possessed once increases your chances of getting possessed again! And while the Inquisitor responds with the right degree of horror at it, there's... no followup. You don't get to go to your Chantry faithful advisors and ask them what the hell was being taught in the Circles that this young man was blamed for something done using his body without his input or permission when he was a child to the point he thinks it's all his fault. A non-human mage Inquisitor, who likely would've been taught different traditions and so may well have very different opinions of possession than the Chantry, doesn't get to ask why this child was pushed into believing something that everyone who knows a damn thing about spirits and demons knows is wrong. You don't get to bring up in discussions about whether the Circles should be restored or abolished that this young man dies because of what they taught him and how they treated him, much less all the other lives ended or ruined by that system.

Inquisition adds in all these little things showing us how terrible things are for Circle mages, on top of everything from the last two games—in both previous games the Templars push you to help them murder every mage in a Circle down to the youngest child! That is what we call morally bankrupt!—and then... tries to tell you that mages are Bad, or at best stupid children, and that the Templars (aforementioned would-be—or successful, depending on what world state you're in—mass murderers) are the good guys. I swear, it really does read like whoever does the writing for the mage stuff didn't get the "mages are bad now" memo that the rest of the writers got. The mages are so fucking sympathetic, and then half your advisors are telling you they're bad and dumb and can't be trusted and you should just put them on a leash and... no! These people are survivors who accomplished an incredible amount from nothing and the game just does not let you treat them with the respect they've earned. Hey! DA writers! This is not a situation conducive to grey morality! Stop trying to make all the Chantry's atrocities morally grey by trying to make their victims less sympathetic! It does not work!

#dragon age inquisition #asks #anon #don't even get me STARTED on how they treat the elves...

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Don't know if you're still doing the controversial asks but I have 3. They're very long and

Tw// slavery, cannibalism, torture, & racism for the third one

One there should be more stories of vampire just befriending a human. Vampires stories of dating and constantly being in romantic or sexual relationships is mostly boring (I probably wouldn't hate it so much if they gave a good buildup to them becoming lovers but it's either not there or forced.) Give me wholesome vampire running through the forest at night to sleepover at their human friends house and watch movies or vamp friend showing human friend all the trinkets and outfits they've gathered over time, even flexing all the languages they know dead ones too! What kind of vampire wouldn't pick up a few languages on the way? (Once human friend gets the hang on one of the languages this is the way they secretly to each other)

Give me vampire turned as a teen forced to continue going to school (once they graduate wait a few decades until everyone at the school who'd know them dies or retires and then mosey on back in there) to not raise suspicion who's older than everyone there tired of school and would usually skip ends up actually going to school just to hang out with their human friend cause it's funny watching them fuck up in French class, their human keeps them up to date on slang and fashion, they help their human friend with homework usually history (no he did not, say that I was there I know)

And it's nice to have someone sit with them during lunch even if it has to be in the back of the library where the light is out (that will probably never be fixed) cause they forgot to put enough vamp sunscreen on but the hoodie their human gave them is kinda working? But they're having fun! And having lunch with someone that's not gonna end in them brutally sucking the blood and life out of them. They haven't felt this alive in decades.

Two piggy backing off of my first note vampires turned when they're teenagers or younger probably fucking hate it (this was explored well imo with Claudia from Interview with the vampire.)

Imagine living for years hell decades with a young face and body but a mind older than seniors can't go anywhere without drawing attention cause you're a teen or child alone, depending on the time period having to stay in the school system so no one points out "that kid isn't in school" having to leave family cause you're gonna outlive them or staying and watching in agony as your family dies out while you still look young 68+ years later, having to keep up with current fashion/slang even if you don't like this era cause you don't want to raise suspicion. If you look too young having to live under the radar with a family who takes you in believing you're a lost orphan child and slowly outliving them until no one is left laughing and chatting in the house.

You cry a little it's the same song and dance but it still hurts you clean the house, make a small snack as a gift for whoever is gonna inhabit the house next, pack your things, and leave (sometimes someone does buy the house! And you watch the new family move in before you move...out. Other times it's usually abandoned or demolished.)

Depending on age turned can never love who you want truly. Imagine being a vampire who was turned young and falling in love with a person that looks older than you. And you have to watch on as they live their life without you cause you look too young to be anything more than a child or teen to them. Or you're bold and force yourself into their life as the nice kid no one knows where their parents are who helps them out and spends time with them. You'll never be married and you'll eventually watch them marry another and die but it's something? (I think this is why young or "baby faced" vampires go for humans who look their age even if they aren't the same mentally it's basically accepted in vamp culture in order to not raise suspicion most don't like it and instead choose to remain single but hey anything in order to not raise suspicion)

Phones or social media in general depending on the era & the age turned it's really suspicious to your peers that there's literally no trace of you online except for school photos but they usually shut up when you say your parents are really strict. (That doesn't stop the NOT EVEN A PHONE??!! comments) it hurts you can't really speak to your human friend when you're not at school or take photos with them but you try to make it up to them with gifts once you see each other at school and try to make the most of it. But your human being the angel they are manages to snag the most basic "burner phone" (as they call it) and finally, you can text. (Why the fuck do they keep sending the crying face if they're not sad?)

Last but not least depending on the era avoiding cps. (What happened to the 30's when people would mind their damn business when they see a kid living alone for fucks sake!!!) The cps calls are the worst and you either get them to fuck off with "my parents are overseas" or they get too suspicious and you have to pack up and move if cps finds you they will, find out you're not human. You don't wanna figure out what happens after that.

Three going off of another asks I saw about how vampires probably perfer black people's blood to others cause the darker the berry the sweeter the juice? This could actually tie really well into US history if anyone wanted to do a historical fiction story since brace yourself if you didn't know this before but white people eating their slaves or other slaves was very, and I do mean very, prevalent during the US slave era even to the point of white slave owners making recipes on how to cook negros, forcing their slaves to eat the scraps after they were finished, feeding scraps of negros to their animals, and even joking that their slaves were well seasoned to make them sell better. They also would beat their slaves til there were open wounds on their back and literally pour seasoning on their back or brine and pickle juice in the case of one teenage boy who was late with deliveries at his job (if you want to learn more I recommend "The delectable negro" by Vincent Woodard but I warn you it gets graphic and it gets dark.)

Hell, Frederick Douglass saw slavery itself as a form of cannibalism. Writing in 1845, he described it as a vampire, “its robes already crimsoned with the blood of millions . . . feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh.”

Long story short in a world where vampires exist I wouldn't be surprised if white vampire slave owners got away with sucking the blood of their slaves or hell regular vampires sneaking into slave cabins and feeding on them and it just being written off as an animal attack except for the ones that know if damn near every slave owner or even white people who didn't own slaves is cutting up and eating slaves I'm pretty sure some drinking blood wouldn't raise any eyebrows.

Yes, I'm still doing them—thank you for taking the time to write this all out!

So, let's get into it...

One: Yes! Yes! Yes! Vampires don't have many wholesome stories like this, and I totally agree that there should be some more stories where vampires become friends with humans without it becoming sexual or romantic. I guess it kind of reminds me of Vlad from Young Dracula, or I guess the dynamics between some of the vampires and humans in What we do in the Shadows, both the film and TV series. But it's definitely something that should be explored more and would add more layers to the vampires.

Two: Such an interesting and in-depth take on the younger people becoming vampires. I have seen that lore brielfy explored in a few series (Twilight, Vampire Chronicles, and the Anita Blake Series) and the variations seem to be that vampires who are in children's bodies still age like a normal vampire but are subjected to a child's body, meaning they can't live the life they desire, or also that child vamps go mad really easily because their brains can't cope with all that they experience and go through, as they still have a child's mind. There is so much lore to explore with this.

Linking your two points together so far, I would love a story about a child vampire who becomes friends with someone and they're like besties who hang out and become super close and have a really wholesome friendship but one is cursed to be a child forever and never age and the other is subjected to the normal human trials of aging and moving on.

Three: Wow, that took a dark historical turn. That was really interesting to learn about but also absolutely horrifying, and there definitely could be some interesting vampire historical fiction that could be written and explore that further, though of course, it would need to be done with such delicacy and respect. I don't really know what to say to this last one, it's pretty horrifying to learn all of that, but I really thank you for educating me and sharing this information.

Once again, thank you, Anon, for this message! You explored some wonderfully interesting ideas, concepts, and lore here <3 It was wonderful to read!

#ask #anon #ask dorian

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reynie-muldoons · 3 years

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'The Dance of the Celestial Orb' liveblog!

for real this time lmfao

book and show spoilers below

I'm ✨nervous✨ please let our children be okay

0:10 this Sticky arc hurts me so kuch

1:35 this music is BUMPIN

2:22 I just wanna know how she got under there without the dude seeing her

2:47 "all systems go" for the Improvement.... yikes 😬😬😬

2:55 she didn't wait even 5 seconds after they left, the door was still closing when she popped up 😂 can you imagine if one of them doubled back right at that moment

3:18 they look like the dudes from that veggietales movie, I think it was Esther- the island of perpetual tickling?? Anyone??? 😂😂😂

4:00 Kate vented.......

4:51 "not a rat" yeah no shit

5:07 if not for the suspense, I would be jamming out lmaooo

6:10 Mr. Benedict is looking at the shoreline, is he about to watch Kate dive in???? Because I mean that's where she's gotta be going

6:20 "memory challenges"? Is Rhonda talking about Milligan's amnesia, or has short term memory been affected as well??

6:29 .....thank you for answering so efficiently 😂

6:42 "I buy it. I completely.... buy it." RHONDA THAT'S NOT HELPFUL AHSKSHDJKD

6:56 can you imagine seeing your friend go down in a sub then hours later seeing the sub float up in fucking PIECES

7:06 KATE! KATE! KATE! KATE!

7:06 please let it be reunion time

7:25 oh hello that's a drop

7:38 *to the tune of Bezos I* come on Katie u can do it pave the way put ur back into it

7:51 she craves that mineral

8:06 Sticky, my child

8:20 oh my gosh they went out and LOOKED FOR HER I care them 😭😭😭

8:23 SHE KNEW HIS DREAM SHE KNEW HIS DREAM TELEPATH TELEPATH TELEPATH

8:34 STICKY STOPPPP

8:40 "jumping to conclusions is a failure of character" wow that really is something Curtain would say

8:52 angry Reynie. He is in rare form

8:54 "and you helped put her there!" OOOOOOOH I SCREAMED

9:03 "I shouldn't have yelled" okay but you kinda should have Sticky needs a wake up call

9:06 "dont apologize. I like this side of you." IS THIS THE START OF REYNIE AND CONSTANCE HAVING THE BEST SIBLING RELATIONSHIP

9:22 "if you really cared about me, you'd want me to be happy instead of standing there telling me who I am" oh Sticky my dude I am NOT digging the manipulation

9:36 Reynie pulling out the BFF card!!! Also Reynie digging in his feet because he knows he's right!!!! That's great setup for his arc as a strategist later

9:48 "I'm telling you, Kate's fine." Narrator: Kate was not, in fact, fine.

10:03 "they'll notice." Sticky has made one (1) good point.

10:11 oh dear god are they fingerprinting this bitch

10:19 all this equipment, has no one walked up to the cliff and looked down???

10:23 HAHAHAHA WAIT THEY ACTUALLY HAVEN'T

10:27 "we've been out here all night" that means Kate has been clinging to a cliff by her fingers and toes ALL NIGHT????

11:04 babe I know it's been a long night but maybe wait a second for them to actually leave before you climb back up

11:15 BUCKET NO

11:22 she has to go get it. There's no way someone wouldn't find that shit, it's in plain view

11:37 "WAS"???? WHY ARE WE SAYING WAS????? NO PAST TENSE HERE MILLIGAN'S FINE

11:43 "I only wish we could've known him better" NOOOPE NONONO WE'RE NOT DOING THIS

11:47 Rhonda back at it as the voice of reason!!!!!

11:59 "I have never met a more competent swimmer" throwback to "the baaAAAYYYY"

12:10 MR. BENEDICT'S FACE HAHAHAHA HOLD ON LET ME TAKE A PICTURE IM DYING

12:11 NUMBER TWO, NOT HELPING

12:14 RHONDA'S FACE HAHENDJDKDN

12:33 "we will go rescue him" because of COURSE he would

12:36 Rhonda is his best wingwoman omfg she's so consistent

12:54 MISS PERUMAL??????

12:56 MISS PERUMAL!!!!!!

13:00 SHE KNOWS HE'S RIGHT GAKSHDBDHEKSNND

13:09 "how hard can it be? It's an island!" PFFFFT

13:16 oh SQ baby boy please get out of there

13:25 "I certainly have my own suspicions" he said, looking at SQ why are you looking at SQ like that

13:31 SQ GET OUT OF THERE PLEASE IS2G

13:36 here we fuckin go

13:43 the captions have the f in forest capitalized like it's this special place

13:43 new hc that the Forest is a magical place like pixie hollow

13:57 TWO THINGS: 1. YES stand up for yourself baby!!!! 2. Shepard Quaid? Interesting! I don't think we ever got SQ's full name in the books, I hope TLS made that decision!

14:08 your "father hat"??? Oh my gosh shut the fuck up right there don't even continue

14:16 oh yeah real fuckin cute put on your "steward of this institution hat" and call that a good reason to be a shit person

14:43 "No." GOOD FOR HIMMMM GOOD JOB SQ

15:03 Kate's struggling right by the shore where a certain someone would be returning after a very hard swim, it would be a great time for a meeting wouldn't you think

15:09 KATE THE GREAT

15:11 "THE TRAPESE GODDESS" I WILL REFER TO HER AS NOTHING ELSE

15:26 sorry but that green screen of her falling was kinda funny

15:28 soooooo is someone, a very certain someone, gonna catch her...??????

15:36 YEEEAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

15:43 IS THIS IT????@?@?!?

15:46 awww poor baby girl you can tell how tired she is

15:46 just putting this out there- they look so good in frame together

15:46 the actor who plays Milligan is fucking huge in stature so I wasn't sure how that would go but it looks so good

16:00 THE WAY HE'S LOOKING AT HER WITH HIS HAND ON HER SHOULDER I CANT DO THISSSSS

16:20 "keep going." 😭😭😭😭😭

16:23 "you dont understand." Ohhhh I think he does

16:25 "I think I do." What did I tell you, he's got your back babygirl

16:45 I'm so glad she's talking this out, and with Milligan of all people

17:01 it makes so much sense for Kate to feel alone in that situation, and when Kate feels anything less than positive she goes and does something, whatever that something is.

17:05 "So.. I...." "fell off a cliff and nearly died." Thanks for putting things into perspective Milligan

17:05 Milligan is such a good dad stop

17:19 "most of the way" is an understatement LMFAO

17:29 I'm so glad we know the intimate details of Milligan's illustrious swimming abilities 😂 out of all the new things wfrom the show that one wasnt on my radar

17:52 leave it to Milligan to come up with an escape plan off of an island with no water vessel with four kids in tow

18:08 THEYRE SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭

18:08 lowkey I'm super surprised they didnt take this opportunity to have Milligan's arduous swim force his memories out and have the father daughter bonding time they deserve. I hope they give that moment ample time to flesh out.

18:13 BUCKET!!!

18:13 wait that shot is so artsy hold up lmfao

18:13 this looks like someone's photography final hahahaha

18:26 THE TENDER MUSIC STOPPPP 😭😭😭

18:41 Sticky is still on that jumping to conclusions bs he got from Curtain

18:44 WETHERALL'S WIDGET 😭

19:31 "Kate... she's in danger..." NO SHIT SHERLOCK

19:36 "and it's all because of me." Not just because of you but love to see you taking responsibility

19:52 once again I am asking WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT THIS IN THE OPEN

20:26 "Kate. She has changed." "Not really. She's always been who she is." "Her clothes. She changed clothes." PFFFT HAHHAHA they really took a moment of self-reflection and made it so much better

20:55 AYYYYY KATE'S DEPENDENCY ARC CONTINUESSSSS

21:35 yikes yikes yikes

22:16 I love that Mr. Benedict got closure in telling Miss Perumal that her words stuck with him

22:40 the way she just knows Reynie took the position of leader 😭😭

22:54 SHE WROTE HIM A LETTERRR

23:02 "Would it be possible to get this to him?" Ma'am what part of undercover spy don't you get

23:54 it's still really weird that we are now in a position where Reynie is the one who is not trusted and Sticky is the one in Curtain's favor

24:13 and here we see Curtain's thinly veiled anger issues shining through

24:21 "the little things matter. Every minor detail, it all matters!" CALLBACK TO MR. BENEDICT TELLING THE CHILDREN THAT THEY ALL MATTER

24:55 "I can tell with complete accuracy when a person is lying." first of all, no. second of all, I cannot wait for him to talk to Constance.

26:33 why is Mr. Benedict graphically explaining the children's potential trauma so funny to me

26:40 "you're catastrophizing." "Yes. I am. Quite severely. Thank you." WHY IS THIS FUNNY

26:58 MADGE!!!!

27:16 she's so prettyyyyy

27:33 GOOD JOB MADGE!!!!!

27:36 wait did she just take the LETTER??? she's delivering the LETTER?????

28:05 WHAT DOES "OKAY FINE" MEAN??? REYNIE??????

28:22 it's sad because it's true 🥺

28:24 "I miss my teacher from the orphanage" the best lies are the ones rooted in truth 🥺🥺🥺

28:48 roll credits

29:16 Reynie honey Orion's Belt isn't on the ceiling

29:29 the way he was so confident that he had it right 😑 Curtain Stop Being a Pretentious Fuck challenge

29:52 our babygirl is so smartttt

29:55 did Milligan plant his prints 😳 oh no OH NO

29:57 MARTINA???? WHATSUEJHDKD

29:57 is this the replacement for when they pin cheating on her????

30:03 THE KEY CARD!!!!

30:11 MADGEEEE

30:21 "one attacked me as a small child" honey you are a small child

30:24 "it did not win," she said, smiling menacingly

30:40 "so we dance again" WHY DID THE MUSIC REV UP WHEN SHE SAID THAT HAHAHAHA

31:01 ✨woodworking is a passion✨

31:58 "was it functional?" "Well I guess that depends on how you define functionality" RHONDA'S FACE IN THE BACKGROUND HAHAHAHA

32:10 OH HEY MARTINA

32:17 wait 🥺

32:22 that has to be SQ :)

32:28 hi sweet boy

32:34 please tell me they did that shot of the sandwich because Madge is about to take it

32:39 LMFAOOOOO

32:44 hi good girl!!! Enjoy your snackies

32:50 oh god oh no the LETTER

33:25 oh wow we're doing this NOW??

33:52 and here we see another example of Curtain's thinly veiled anger issues bubbling to the surface

34:10 hey what if you uhhh weren't such an asshole

34:33 that man's voice is buttery

34:52 REYNIE'S TRYING TO TELL SQ????

35:02 and they're talking about this right in front of the office door, WHY??

35:24 AND THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT THIS RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE OFFICE DOOR, WHY????

35:55 he's letting him go 🥺🥺🥺🥺

36:14 why does that look like a body bag

36:17 oh my gosh it definitely is a body bag, hey Martina

36:25 yep, that's about what I expected

36:36 "whoever did this to me, they're gonna pay" oh girl do I have some bad news for you

37:12 ahhhh, so Martina is the burnt out gifted kid who keeps going out of spite and sheer force of will

37:12 everything makes much more sense now

37:30 ohhhhh my gosh feelings time

37:44 "I think it's awesome." "Yeah. I know you do." THE SHIPPERS ARE THRIVING

37:54 THEY REALLY WANT TO MAKE THIS AS PAINFUL AS POSSIBLE HUH

38:10 "it's the least I can do" that's an understatement 😬

38:14 AAWWWWW SHKSHSLSBDK

38:20 "I don't know what I'd do without you, Wetherall" STOPPPPP

38:30 HEY BUD UH MAYBE CLOSE YOUR DOOR???

38:38 he's been writing letters to her every night and now he finally gets one back 😭😭

39:34 so Miss Perumal wrote this letter with the intention of it being sent to him, right- why did she write it like that?? 😂

39:34 they've gone to such lengths to communicate in code but the letter kind of undermines that- it was written in such a way that an onlooker would know Reynie was a spy but wouldn't know what he was doing or why. No wonder SQ was pissed

39:41 KATE!!

40:10 BREAKING NEWS: local bastard man treats everyone like shit

40:15 ohhhhh SQ bud please be careful

40:30 "always have time for my son," he said in a clipped voice that implied that he does not have time for his son

40:35 ohhh he's getting RIGHT INTO IT HUH

40:41 you mean to tell me he's never asked about Mr. Curtain's work?? Ever???? Somehow that doesn't seem right to me

40:57 hey uh what if you didn't talk down to SQ at every opportunity

41:02 "would you care to reconsider that answer, son?" "No." DIG THOSE HEELS IN SQ!!!!

41:22 I'm really not digging that Curtain is using the guise of openly expressing his feelings to communicate his anger and his unasked question. Not cool bitch head

41:33 the fact that he didn't answer SQ's spoken question kind of also answers his unspoken question

41:45 "I knew there was something off about that girl. But espionage?" "How do you so convincingly fake a tetherball obsession?" I love that this entire conversation could be about Martina or Kate interchangeably

42:34 WELL THAT'S NOT GOOD

42:36 IF IT WAS THAT EASY TO FIND WITH BINOCULARS HOW HAD THEY NOT BEEN SPOTTED UP UNTIL THIS POINT?!!?#? HOW????

43:05 Kate advocating for Martina with the Society 🥺🥺 the interaction I didn't know I needed

43:58 "I definitely don't like to leave anything unfinished." "That's true, I've seen you eat." PFFFFT

44:05 YESS YOU GO STICKY USE YOUR ACCESS FOR PRIME INTEL

44:19 "well, you can't succeed without me, so..." baby girl you have no idea how right you are

44:28 please let that be Milligan PLEASE LET THAT BE MILLIGAN

44:32 YEAAAAAHHHHH

44:35 I simply adore him

44:45 "would you mind helping me down, please? I'm stuck." Your honor I would die for this man

44:54 oh shit, Martina's tryna sleuth it out herself.. this can't end well

45:04 is she about to find Kate's marbles or something?? Callback to the book?

45:26 the absolute MURDER in her eyes

45:31 FUCKIN YIKES

45:41 "the clothes of someone who had given up" ASEJDGEIDNDLFK

45:47 well that's not good

46:00 WELL THAT'S NOT GOOD

46:04 PLEASE let them be on their way already, please

46:14 THEY MADE A BLIMP????

46:17 Goodyear is QUAKING

46:35 why the fuck is Number Two in red, that's upsetting on principle

THEYRE JUST ENDING IT THERE???? goddamnit!!!!

How surreal is it that next week is the finale?? Idk if I'm ready for that????

#mbs disney+#mbs liveblog #the dance of the celestial orb #the mysterious benedict society #charity's talkies

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In Another Life

Bucky Barnes x reader °part fifteen°

Summary: Waiting 88 years to find your soulmate? It was cruel. But it was a cruel fate Bucky would have to face whether he accepted it or not. Bucky was a tortured man all his life and he wasn't even granted the solace of having his soulmate at his side. All he had was the promise of one in another life. They were separated by two different times.

But the pain in their lives were connected.

Y/n had been alone ever since she could remember. All she could depend on was the soulmate that was destined to be at her side. Yet when the snap occurred she lost him.

And Bucky never got to meet her.

When Y/n awoke it was dark. Impossibly so.

She didn't know what time it was and she tried to rationalize the darkness as an outcome of it being so late but the darkness didn't feel right. Especially since she had left a small light on in the living room in case Bucky needed to find the bathroom or get a glass of water. Had the light turned off somehow?

Then the cold hit her. It was like she'd left a window open. The nights were getting colder and leaving the window open would freeze the entire apartment. But she distinctly remembered making sure all the windows were closed.

In a daze, she moved to sit up but that was when she noticed something. She wasn't lying in her bed. The ground below her was frozen to the touch and rough like she was lying outside.

Her heart sank.

Where was she?

How did she get outside?

Maybe she'd been sleepwalking? She'd never done it before but maybe due to recent events, her mind was acting out in strange ways to cope? Yet as she moved to find her way back inside through the dark, she hit a surface with the same feeling.

Rough and cold. Like dirt.

She was surrounded by it. At this point she became more panicked, her breathing growing ragged and her heart started racing painfully. Frantically she reached out for the surface before her, finding that it crumbled in her hands.

It hit her all at once. She was underground.

She'd been buried alive.

Terror filled tears welled in her eyes as she desperately beat at the dirt above her, trying to dig her way out of the hole she'd been put into. With each hit the dirt crumbled, weakening enough to give way as it tumbled down upon her. She cried out, covering her face in an attempt to spare herself from the mountain of dirt she probably just dropped on herself but the great weight she feared would crush her never came.

The scent of smoke came to her first, dragging her horrified gaze back to the space she'd dug open. There was a hole now, one just large enough for her to peer out of. The sky above was a dull blue, clouds of dust preventing the sunlight she'd been hoping for to shine down.

In a panicked haste, she tore at the hole opening it enough for her to crawl out. It was a struggle but she managed to drag herself out onto the ground, laying beside the hole as she tried to steady her breathing.

The sky was filled with smoke and ash, as if some disaster had just struck. That's when she realized. The dirt below her, it was covered with debris and chaos. She was back at the battle. The battle she'd lost everything to.

There was a weight on her chest, one that seemed to grow with each breath she took. But the weight was quickly forgotten as her gaze drifted to the hole once more. There, displayed next to it, was a helmet.

Tony's helmet.

She wasn't just buried in a hole. It was a grave. Tony's grave.

She gagged back a scream, scrambling away from the hole as she clambered to her feet. This had to be a dream, some sick nightmare her guilty conscience had concocted to torture her.

Her tears fell freely now as she staggered back several feet, wanting to put as much distance between her and the grave.

She knew it was just her subconscious. Her subconscious was projecting her guilt by putting her into Tony's grave. When she said she wanted to take Tony's place, she had meant it but seeing it herself- it petrified her.

She just needed to wake up. Just wake up.

Suddenly her unsteady steps stopped as her back hit a wall making her halt. Yet as she whipped around, she realized it wasn't a wall or any type of surface to trap her once more.

Instead there stood Bucky, a soft comforting smile on his face. But it wasn't the Bucky she remembered. His hair was much shorter, tucked neatly under his green sergeant hat. He appeared younger, smaller. Yet these things went almost unnoticed as she caught his gaze. His eyes were the ones she'd always known. The ones she'd envisioned whenever she thought of her soulmate. They were bright and full of life. The welcoming blue told her he was mischievous yet kind, always ready to playfully tease someone in that loving way. They were so full of wonder and hope.

They were the eyes that sadly Bucky didn't have anymore. This wasn't her Bucky.

Yet her hysterical mind couldn't see that. All she saw was Bucky and she threw herself into his arms, sobbing into his chest. His arms came around her without hesitation, holding her like it would be the last time he could.

"Shh, doll. It's alright. You're alright." He soothed, running his hand along her hair. She could feel the warmth of his hands as they held her, the tenderness one of them no longer possessed now resting on the nape of her neck. She could feel the love he'd always held for her. "You're safe."

His words put her at ease and she felt safe in his arms. He wouldn't let anything hurt her.

But as soon as she let her guard down the warmth faded. Her blood ran cold as a familiar sound echoed in her ears. A sound she could never forget. The whirring groan in his arm when it shifted to attack. She didn't even have time to speak before his hand tightened in her hair, harshly yanking her back and slamming her into a wall.

She collapsed onto concrete, her already torn knees staining the sidewalk with blood. She recognized this. It was all too painfully familiar.

She was back on that street. The day it all happened. The day her life as she knew it ended.

Bucky didn't hesitate to grab her throat, dragging her back up against the wall she'd nearly died against all those years ago. She felt like she was 15 all over again, panicked and terrified. She fought and begged and cried for Bucky to let her go.

Not again. Please, not again.

She couldn't bare to stare at those eyes again. The eyes that haunted her. They were just as lifeless as she remembered. They held no mercy or remorse. The Soldier followed orders and didn't care about the lives that got in the way.

She continued to plead, her eyes closing as she ran out of air. But she continued to go against all odds and beg for her Bucky.

The one that was neither innocent nor guilty. The one that spent years as a weapon and now dealt with the guilt of all the lives that his handlers used him to end. The man that was trying to be better. The man that still remembered what he had done. The man who escaped.

"Y/n?" His voice came to her like a call from a savior. The pressure on her throat disappeared and her eyes opened as she fell to her knees once more. This time she wasn't met with concrete, instead a dirt road. The very one she'd met Bucky on.

She quickly looked around, finding that the rest of the scene that had haunted her dreams for years was also gone, replaced with a road that would forever be the place she first held her soulmate. The first time she'd cried in his arms and made silent promises to him. Their meeting place.

"Oh, God." Bucky mumbled, the remorse he'd been lacking all those years rolling off his words in waves.

Y/n's gaze snapped back up to her attacker only to find him gone. The Winter Soldier was gone. And there was Bucky. Staring horrified at what he had done.

She opened her mouth to tell him it was alright. To tell him she forgave him for all he'd done and everything he would do. He was her soulmate and there wasn't anything he could do to change how she felt. But all that escaped was a gasp. Something had grabbed hold of her, ripping her back against the ground. She screamed as she was tugged across the rough earth, away from him.

"Bucky!" She cried but it was no use. He watched, unable to move to help as she was dragged back toward the grave by what felt like hands that continued to grip her tighter. She frantically grasped at the dirt, dread filling her chest when she was unable to grab onto anything.

Without warning she was falling down the hole, slamming against the bottom and knocking the already limited air from her lungs. She struggled to recover and for a moment she debated just staying in the hole.

Was she going to be stuck here in this nightmarish world forever? Would she constantly be tormented by her guilt and trauma? Forever being attacked by the man her soulmate was created to be. The man they both hoped to forget.

Hopeless sobs racked her body as she trembled in the grave. Her hand pathetically came to wipe her tears but only ended up over her mouth as her tears became more powerful and her cries grew louder.

She couldn't do this. Couldn't stand this nightmare anymore.

The familiar sound of dirt shifting above her made her muffle her cries slightly. Was something else here to attack her? The Winter Soldier? Or maybe something darker? Something worse.

"Y/n?"

Her sobs fell completely silent when her name was spoken. It wasn't the fact that whoever was up there knew her name. No, it was how easily she recognized the voice.

"Nat?"

Like a vision, Natasha peered down into the hole, her smile visible even through the darkness that surrounded them. How was this possible? "Let's get you out of there."

Her hand came down and Y/n took it instantly. This couldn't be real. This was just her memories of Nat resurfacing as a way to comfort her fragile mind.

Nat's hold was firm, tugging Y/n up out of the hole with ease and grace. Y/n helped to lift herself, finding a new hope with Nat's presence. If Nat was here in this place with her then maybe things weren't so bad.

Suddenly as she climbed out of the hole, a wave of water hit her, encasing her in an underwater trap. Yet unlike when she awoke, Nat was there to pull her up, making her break the surface of the water with a gasp.

"Sorry, I should've warned you," Nat chuckled, pulling Y/n to her feet. "This place is strange."

Nat was right. There was an orange sky with clouds that glowed with the same intense color. And as odd as that was, it wasn't quite as strange as the infinite lake that seemed to make up the ground. They were standing on it, the water.

Was she dead?

Was that why Nat was here? Not simply from her subconscious but actually here?

"Where are we?" Y/n asked, looking around at this other world. Surely she was dead.

"The soul stone. At least that's what that Gamora girl said." Nat explained. She watched Y/n with a careful gaze, taking notice of how battered she appeared. She definitely hadn't expected to look in better shape than Y/n especially considering the fact that she was dead.

Y/n looked exhausted. Her hair was unkempt and she looked as if she had just run 30 miles with her sweaty brow and flushed face. It wasn't just her physical appearance that worried Natasha. Y/n's eyes remained unfocused and her hands quivered slightly. And there was a faint purple scar along her wrist and forearm, one unlike anything Nat had seen.

"Am I dead?" Y/n questioned, hesitant for an answer. She feared what would happen if she was dead. Would Pepper have to carry out Tony's wishes alone? Would something happen to Peter if she didn't watch out for him? Would Bucky move on without her?

"No. I don't think so anyways. You feel- I don't know almost at a distance. You're not completely here like I am." Nat told her, trying to ease the worry that creased Y/n's brow.

"What does that mean?"

"I can't explain it." Nat sighed. "You just have to trust me."

Y/n nodded softly. She trusted Nat. More than anyone. But she didn't trust herself. Especially not to return to her life. "How do I get back?"

"You will in time. But first there's someone for you to see."

•••

Bucky couldn't sleep.

How could he? He was just a short distance from his soulmate and yet it felt as if she wasn't there at all.

His Ma described meeting a soulmate as a tug and a hitch. The tug pulled a person to their soulmate and the hitch was that click that happened between them. That feeling that told them they were perfect for one another.

But Bucky hadn't felt it yet. And that killed him.

He already knew he cared for Y/n, much more than he had cared for anyone even though she was just a stranger to him. But it didn't feel right. The way he felt for her didn't feel natural yet, didn't feel justified.

He longed to be the person he once was. The easy going and lovable man he knew himself to have been. The kind of man that made a woman feel at ease, the kind of man that could dance all night with a girl and win her heart.

Oh, how badly he wished to win Y/n's heart. How badly he wanted to give his in return.

But he wasn't that man anymore. And it wasn't going to be that easy.

Why did everything in his life have to be hard? He was beginning to believe nothing would ever be peaceful for him and it only crushed his hopes of clicking with Y/n.

After everything he'd done, he wondered if this was punishment.

Or worse, what if Y/n wasn't clicking with him because she knew what he'd done? The thought made him sick.

What if she was scared of him?

Bucky groaned, standing up from the bed. It was dark outside but the lights from the city were enough to see his way through the room. He just wanted to move. To go for a walk or a run. Anything to get his mind off his painfully obvious disconnect with his soulmate.

Silently he slipped his shoes on, making his way out into the living room to find his coat. Maybe he'd run to Brooklyn? It sounded pitiful running home but he didn't know where else to go.

Slipping on his coat, he made his way to the door pausing only a moment. It didn't feel right to just go without leaving a note or saying goodbye. He would've been devastated to find that she'd left during the night and he knew it was wrong to do that to her.

With a sigh, he searched around her apartment for a pen and paper, eventually finding some in the desk Steve left behind.

He wrote a quick note explaining where he'd gone and that he'd eventually be back. He wasn't sure when he would. He needed time to think, to just figure out everything that had happened before trying to connect with her. He couldn't put that responsibility onto her. Couldn't make her bear the weight of loving a man who neither one even knew.

He tried to ignore the heaviness in his heart as he entered her room, hoping to set the note on her bedside table where she'd see it. It felt so wrong, leaving her. Was he making a mistake? He shook the feeling off, placing the note next to her lamp.

Yet rather than turning away to leave, he paused. He watched her silently, cursing himself for being a creep. Soulmate or not, they were strangers. And yet he couldn't stop.

She was his soulmate. His actual soulmate. He had found her after all these years. And he was leaving.

He felt stupid.

Slowly he crouched next to her admiring the way her hair laid across the pillow or how her hand cradled her face as she slept. He leaned on the bed, inching forward ever so slightly. Her eyes flickered under their lids, some kind of dream playing out before her unconscious mind.

She was so beautiful and he wondered if he really deserved someone like her.

He knew he didn't have much to offer being a 106 year old man with enough PTSD and survivor's guilt to trouble him for another century. The only thing he could promise was that he would protect her and that he would do without fail. He swore it.

He didn't know what he was doing until he was leaning forward. For one tender moment he pressed a kiss to her forehead, his fingers tracing her hairline softly.

Abruptly, he pulled away, realizing very suddenly he had gone from a creep to a major nut job. He sighed, harshly rubbing his face to try and whip away his guilt.

Then he stood, deciding he'd better go before he couldn't bring himself to anymore. So with one last look to her, he left heading off to somewhere he'd yet to find.

Part sixteen

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Chapter 93 - Fancy chair, love it.

- So my theory is that Raizel just never learnt how to write in Lukedonian either.

- Tbh the janitor is suspicious. Like how hard was he googling M-21?

Chapter 94 - SUYIIIIIIIIIIII

- Ah geez the first of the racistly depicted characters.

Chapter 96 - Suyi getting mad at the kids for complaining about Hansu is so funny like when she first appears you think she's perhaps a stuck up celebrity or a pushover but it turns out she's just a really sweet friend.

- Suyi being stunned by Rai's looks but not falling for him (same with Yuna) is one of the things I always liked about Noblesse. Like sure in the first meeting they get blushy but I'll just jot that down to the inherent beauty of nobles since I can't relate to it at all.

Chapter 97 - Frankenstein's house always being stocked with so much food because the kids just started coming over daily is hilarious. Even funnier since Frankenstein obviously thinks it's overkill but is the one stocking up anyway.

Chapter 98 - Regis and Seira 🥺 Seira's og outfit was the best one she had like it only goes downhill from here folks.

Chapter 99 - It would have been so funny if Frankenstein went "they must be cosplayers" instead of realising the two were nobles.

- Regis taking all the initiative shows how it's his roadtrip coming of age journey which is pretty clever. Also Seira's just like that but still.

- Shinwoo stop exercising in class bro. Do not flex on the rest of us this is so rude 😭😭😭

- Regis confidently saying he's a noble in class to humans he doesn't plan on mind controlling... Baby boy why are you so dumb? How is this hiding your identity??? And Seira just lets him,,, good for her.

Chapter 100 - Ah yes their elegance boner at seeing Raizel... nobles are so fucking weird.

- M-21 thinking he won't get any information because of his time at the Union and thus being surprised at how open Frankenstein is is actually really sweet. Like yeah I still think Frankenstein is an unethical and questionable person but he is kind to most humans (werewolves and nobles can go fuck themselves I guess lmao).

Chapter 101 - The second hand embarrassment I felt when M-21 called the two noblesse... how do I even consume content?

- Yeah 100% most union members don't know the difference between nobles and vampires. I bet they'd classify jiangshi as either mutants or werewolves. Or to be more specific, that would be the classification given to low leveled members. On one hand I think it's dumb that the Union gives members twisted information because how would they even use it? But on the other hand it makes sense since it prevents said members from seeking nobles for help. After all, if they believe even the 'noblesse' are vampires that drink blood, than obviously they won't see them as possible escape routes.

- 'Noblesse only applies to one person'. Yeah because Rai's brother is fucking dead. And so is whoever was his predecessor/parent.

Chapter 102 - Those bullies got backup so fucking fast like Shinwoo literally just asked Regis and Seira if they were okay then boom! They're back.

Chapter 103- Regis going ??? essentially when Shinwoo tells him to take care of Seira is so funny like yes ofc he's confused she's literally a clan leader + noble females aren't physically weaker + noble women work out just like the men.

- Rude, Regis. You can't just ask someone why they're mingling among humans. You're doing that too. Who doesn't mingle among humans smh. Even cats and pigeons mingle with us.

Chapter 105 - Love how everyone else in the household is so sick of ramyeon like Raizel stop please you're being selfish.

Chapter 106 - Frankenstein is the definition of the 'right in front of my salad?' meme at Regis and M-21 arguing at the dinner table. Then there's Seira and Raizel just waiting for the noodles to get soggy so he can't even eat. Wish Urokai could see him getting tortured like this.

- The soldier rejecting backup because he knows the enemy is the Union hurts my heart. Wanting to prevent casualties... iwi

Chapter 107 - Shark how tf do you not know about South Korea? That's one of the asian countries people actually know about. I guess maybe it's because this is from around a decade back? K-pop is more recent and made the country more visible I guess.

- Ah yes Takeo. Forever known as "the first time I read Noblesse and he appeared I thought he was Marie's sister since they had the same hairstyle". Like I thought that before even learning about the Aris Taivra fiasco. My power 😔

- Oh don't worry M-21, Frankenstein stopped experimenting on people 830 years ago. You know, as one does.

Chapter 108 - Shark has like no general knowledge. Geography? History? Tf is that I guess.

- Tao saying they're the worst possible people for the job is so funny like yeah he's right. "All we do is massacre people in warzones why are we in Seoul?"

- The rest of the squad complain or are confused about the peace meanwhile Takeo is vibing. He's the normal guy TM of the group.

- Ah yes noble lore. If you take canon at face value than the fact that nobles were around when humans first emerged and there being about 2-3 clan leaders before the current generation means you can estimate their lifespan. Ofc it differs wildly depending on how you interpret the 'first humans' part. I'll assume there were 3 generations before the current generation (mvp lord being the third generation) and won't be adding the current generation since a 0.5-2k years is kinda meaningless. I'll also be assuming that mvp lord entered eternal sleep at around the same age as his predecessors and that he would have died soon from old age anyway (since canonically they do have limited lifespans). If we assume it's just the first human ancestors (7 million years ago) than the average pureblood lifespan is 2.33 million years. If we assume it's when homo sapiens started to emerge (300k years ago) than it's 100k years. If it's about modern humans (130k years ago) than it's 43.3k years. Regardless I'll ignore it since my hcs are that nobles are effectively immortal unless killed and that the 2-3 clan leaders is a misconception due to a mix of Gechutel just straight up lying, because there are clans that have had fewer clan leaders, because I have nobles settling on Lukedonia only 30k years ago, and because Gechutel is factoring in his own age of 10.2k so it's more like 'There have been 2-3 Ru clan leaders before the Ru clan leader 10k years ago since after we settled in Lukedonia'. There's also the possibility that nobles didn't have lords or clan leaders until a few thousand years ago in canon but the species has existed for much longer.

- 'Nobles are individualistic... They don't despise humans but don't love them either.' Humans w/ ants. Now if the ants were capable of speaking with us it'd be exactly the same situation.

Chapter 109 - "What were they researching here?" Since when does the Union research anything aside from human modifications Kranz? Why do you even need to ask? More seriously this means that the Union doesn't actually only do human experimentation and weapons lmao. The other shit just isn't relevant I guess. It's a shame, I'd have loved to see how a lab focused on like, fixing up polluted waters, would be fit into the story.

- The fact that Tao beat Jake up is never mentioned enough. Also confirms that Jake was lying out of his ass about being the strongest.

- Marie being the weakest assassination squad member is interesting like I know why Crombel doesn't need bodyguards as the reader but you'd think the Union would be suspicious of him not having a stronger bodyguard. Also I still can't believe the Union doesn't bother learning who the members are aside from the ones Crombel tells them about like. Bro???

- Shark calling Takeo uptight is hilarious because the guy literally just shot the falling ceiling light which is the opposite of uptight. Either he was preventing them from getting hurt/being caught or he wanted that to happen considering the fact that he shot it and it shattered. And then he just goes back to leaning against the wall. Takeo please 🤣

Chapter 110 - And Shinwoo's still staying over at Ikhans place. Wonder when he's gonna move back. I really love their dynamic like yeah I beg my sister to get me food all the time too. Also love the apron and skeleton hoodie.

- Shinwoo went through the five stages of grief pretty quick huh? Like yeah it's his own misunderstanding that Ikhan is dating someone but still. Homophobia is annoying as always though.

Chapter 111 - Suyi paying for their food is so sweet of her and also I relate so much like yeah mood that's me and no I don't want to be paid back.

- Takeo,,, the fact that he just hands his wallet over because he doesn't like violence and doesn't want to beat them up,,, my heart. Otoh... how did he even get cornered in an dark shady alleyway lmao.

- Aris managing to make herself look like a teenager as Taivra is interesting since Takeo says he wants her to be able to go to school like Yuna and Shinwoo when he's treating them. I guess she looks younger without makeup.

- Takeo just straight up pointing his gun at Shark in public because he mentioned Taivra... anger issues much? I understand why but taking your gun out is an overreaction.

#noblesse #raining while reading

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