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Astarion: Walk safely into the dark. You were truly tentacular.

Astarion... No... Bad Astarion... No puns...

I guess it's nice to know that even ascended Astarion is not immune to the desire to make a bad joke or two. But also this is maybe worse than everything else he's done.

#bg3 #astarion

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Now why would I ever side with the Emperor over Orpheus when that means fighting these assholes. The brain copies your party composition and almost certainly will play all their classes better than you. I thought the guardians constantly trying to silence Gale and make the party freeze in place was bad, but fighting around these guys was a nightmare. Kept getting counterspelled. Also the rogue counter kept going invisible and then disrupting the Emperor's casting and then vanishing again before I could kill it. Basically it made the fight so much worse and I kind of hated it.

#bg3

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The Netherbrain: Murder incarnate.

This is a resist Durge, by the way. You wouldn't know it from the murder smile on his face or the way he's straight up being called murder incarnate, but he is. Larian should've decided if resist Durge was Totally Normal And Basically Just Tav Now Shut Up or still a Bhaalspawn formed from Bhaal's own gore with everything that entailed before releasing the game, because they really don't seem to have made up their minds. Personally I'm a firm supporter of the latter, but a little consistency in the writing would've been nice.

#bg3 #durge

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Astarion: Little love, whatever could be the matter?

Okay, I'm not going to lie. I kind of adore romanced ascended Astarion calling the PC "little love". I'm here for it.

#bg3 #astarionmance #kind of annoyed spawn astarion doesn't use it ngl #it just pleases me immensely #'he's being patronizing' bold of you to assume i care about that

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Narrator: *Many killing moons have waxed. As each set, more your mind waned. No mortal cell could hold you. The bars broke like bones. You pray with each new heart-spillage. You worship with your diseased embrace - siring a mad legion. You scream, for you cannot speak. Yet... in the treacle-pulp of your brain, something called you back here. What is this place? It was something. Once. Bonds, warmth, strength, fear... love... Now, you feel only impatience for these blood-sacks to sleep, so you can strike with the death-dream.* Kyvir: Father, my body is your wretched vessel. Descend upon me. Reap by my hand. Narrator: *Each time you unhinge your maw, the words of the prophet tumble forth. Not long now. Not long. Wait until they are at rest to strike. Patience.* Kyvir: Glance piteously upon your false bride. Narrator: *You are Bhaal's stallion - many of your own Bhaalspawn have been born to die in this half year. Your new children will become the tyrant's hoard. Why do you spare even one thought for your forsaken mate?* Kyvir: Live... MUST... Narrator: *As soon as it tries to pass through your lips, you feel violently ill. Now you are what [Astarion] fears most. A starved ratling, an itching prowler. A reminder of his worst self, best left to history. The revelry is falling to a lull... Your witching hour draws close.* Kyvir: Father, I love you. I'm a good boy. A good good boy. Narrator: *Kill them all, mad Bhaal-bairn. Kill them all.*

This really is a brutal ending. Durge's mind is just... completely gone. They can barely remember their friends, they can't speak (except to pray to and praise Bhaal) without immense effort, it takes everything they've got to even want their lover to live... The way they feel violently ill if they even try to say they want their lover to live hurts me. If you take this path the very best Durge can hope for is either someone killing them or them reaching a point where they lose the ability to care about anything but killing. The happiest way for this ending to go is for the party to catch Durge and kill them before they can kill anyone else! It's horrific even before you get into the SA aspect of Bhaal forcing Durge to have children whether they like it or not (and the body horror aspect of Bhaal apparently either potentially forcibly altering Durge's anatomy so that they can sire children regardless of whether they were biologically capable of that before or accelerating their pregnancies to an absurd degree).

I'm not sure what's worse: Withers calling Durge to the party despite their situation, Durge being drawn there by their own memories and desire to see their friends again, or Bhaal sending them with the intent of making them kill their friends. At least with the first one it's possible he warned the party and there's a plan to capture and kill or try to save Durge...

Also that "Father, I love you. I'm a good boy. A good good boy" line has been living in my head rent-free since the epilogues dropped and I am pleased to report that it is definitely not leaving now. Ah... the daddy issues are so much...

#bg3 #durge

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Withers: Thou remainest in thy chains. Separate from the light of the world. Removed from its temptations. Thou feared thou would be a slave to thy desires. Dost thou still fear that which lurks within thee? Hast thy cruel father taken all of thee that thou once was? Kyvir: End... me... please... Withers: There thou art. Amid the ravenings of thy cruel sire - thy soul, intact. The realm of men will forget thee, books left bare, to be filled with falsehood, myth, and superstition. The tapestry of fate, however, will not forget. Nor will I. Rest well, friend. Thou deservest as much. Till next we meet, remember: Thou gave all thou wert to save lives, to reclaim the world from a fate most dire.

Because if I came across a friend who was begging me to kill them my response would for sure be "Ah, I see you still have enough of your mind left to be in a state of constant suffering! Good to see! Right then, I'm off. Good luck with the inevitable descent into murderous madness!" Withers really is such a good friend and definitely doesn't just want to use Durge for some unclear purpose that feral Durge is no longer suited for. Also like. "Dost thou still fear that which lurks within thee" well Withers given Durge is currently in the process of irreparably losing their mind to the ceaseless need for slaughter I imagine everything left of their mind is pretty scared! Also I don't think this is going to be particularly restful for them.

But god, imagine how awful this would be for Durge. Locked in a cell knowing that if they get out they will kill people whether they want to or not, feeling their mind breaking under Bhaal's assault and knowing that the best they can hope for is for someone to kill them, or failing that for their mind to break to such an extent that they stop being aware of what's happening to them. The feral ending is so horrible for Durge, and one of many moments that make me wonder why the game insists that Chosen Durge is pure evil for the sake of being evil while also having all these scenes that show just what an awful idea defying Bhaal actually is, given Bhaal could presumably have done this at any point if he chose to.

#bg3 #durge #bg3 withers

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So I just saw a post by a random personal blog that said “don’t follow me if we never even had a conversation before” and?????? Not to be rude but literally what the fuck??????????

I’ve had people (non-pornbots) try to strike conversation out of nowhere in my DMs recently, and now I’m wondering if they were doing that because they wanted to follow me and thought they needed to interact first. I feel compelled to say, just in case, that it’s totally okay to follow this blog (or my side blog, for that matter) even if we’ve never talked before.

Also, I’m legit confused. Is this how follow culture works right now? It was worded like it’s common sense but is that really a thing?

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being a fan of a friend's ocs is actually so humiliating....... like yes my favourite character rn is tragically doomed and a pillar of humanity who i think is relevant to the current world. you can find information about them on discord dot com and sometimes in late-night conversations with this guy i know. what the fuck

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I hate you shipping discourse I hate you unnecessarily aggressive DNI banners I hate you dehumanization of those you disagree with I hate you harassment over ships or favorite characters I hate you purposeful lack of nuance I hate you false equivalencies I hate you policing how people engage in fandom I hate you actively trying to make fandom spaces hostile I hate you refusal to filter your feed I hate you making it everyone else’s problem

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reminder to worldbuilders: don't get caught up in things that aren't important to the story you're writing, like plot and characters! instead, try to focus on what readers actually care about: detailed plate tectonics

#writing

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I regret to inform you that Discord's new Terms of Service includes an arbitration clause. You can find it here https://discord.com/terms/#16. This clause includes an opt-out, which I have transcribed here:

You can decline this agreement to arbitrate by emailing an opt-out notice to [email protected] within 30 days of April 15, 2024 or when you first register your Discord account, whichever is later; otherwise, you shall be bound to arbitrate disputes in accordance with the terms of these paragraphs. If you opt out of these arbitration provisions, Discord also will not be bound by them.

These clauses are underhanded ways that corporations seek to deprive you of your right to participate in class-action lawsuits and your right to a jury trial. (This does only apply to us users ,other people still spread the word though )

#not in the us but for those who are

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It will never cease being funny to me (in a "my god this is pathetic" way) how much the doppelganger subplot in BG3 sucks ass meanwhile BG1 had none of the flashy visuals, yet that part of the game had me literally questioning my own sanity thanks to the power of that game's storytelling alone. I really felt like I couldn't trust fucking anyone, including myself. In Larian's Gate it's just like.. oh yeah Hi Orin. Even when I'm not expecting someone to be a shapechanger, I just get surprised. There's literally no emotional weight to it.

And don't get me started on how stupid the whole Yenna failsafe is.

#bg3 #yeah she never really does anything. she's just There #even when she infiltrates your camp the only consequence is losing one companion for a bit #you are in ZERO danger #why wouldn't she start killing people off!

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Horniness is not intrinsically less pure than any other human motivation

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The last character you drew/wrote about is now stuck in the last game you played. How screwed are they?

#that'd be kyvir and gort in mask of the rose... #my god. these two in alternate victorian london #that'd be chaos

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why is pride always in summer. what about the dykes that can't tolerate the heat huh. what about us. I mean them.

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One more joke hate: You may claim to be a woman but biologically you are a featherless biped and thus a man.

Finally a good argument for why I'm actually a man

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correct me if I'm wrong, but did you once make a post referencing corvids/crows/ravens being a symbol or preferred animals of bhaal, or related to him in some other way? I feel like I remember you posting something like that once, but I can't find anything of the like trying to search your blog and idk if I imagined it or if tumblr's search function just isn't working lol

Tumblr's search function is a nightmare.

I've mentioned that the original games had Bhaal manifest as a crow in one of the dream visions, which would indicate that they're one of his sacred animals.

I know of no tabletop source on Bhaal's manifestations. For some reason, Faiths and Avatars didn't list Bhaal's non-avatar-ish manifestations as it did for every other god, but both Myrkul and Bane have both been associated with corvids, and Jergal is associated with vultures - maybe carrion birds were one of Jergal's holy animals and the entire Dead Three inherited them or something.

It's actually quite annoying that we don't have that list: all Realms deities have sacred stones that they use to show pleasure and disapproval, it'd be useful to know what Bhaal's are.

#bg1 #ohohohoho... crow affinity... #i HAVE wanted an excuse for durge to turn into a crow