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novlr · 1 year

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How should I go about describing a character who goes through a lot, becoming more disheveled and desperate as the plot goes on?

Desperation is the emotion that drives characters to their limits, leading to their most intense and extreme behaviours.

By showing how characters become more desperate as your plot progresses, you can create characters that are interesting, dynamic, and relatable.

Here are some ways you can show desperation in your characters. As the plot moves forward, these elements can get worse, showing their decline.

How do they behave?

Obsessive and/or compulsive

Repetitive actions like hand wringing, or overuse of stock phrases

Self-destructive and risk-seeking

Enhanced aggression

Avoidant and isolationist

Manipulative

Exploitative

Short-tempered

Impulsive decision-making

Unrelenting pursuit of something

What physical signs do they show?

Heart palpitations and short, rapid breathing

Sweating profusely

Shaking or trembling

Sudden onset of nausea

Feeling weak or dizzy

Muscle tension

Headaches

Insomnia caused by worry and stress

Feelings of fatigue

Stomach pain and cramping

How do they interact?

Begging or pleading with others

Manipulating others to get what they want

Increasing paranoia and questioning other's motives

Pushing away loved ones

Becoming overly clingy

Either an inability to trust or being too quick to trust others

Self-sabotage

Single-focus conversations

What do they look like?

Unkempt hair and poor hygiene

Rumpled, slept-in clothing

Nervous tics, like fidgeting, pacing, or picking at nails

Extreme and unexplained weight loss

A haunted, faraway, or panicked look

Dark-rimmed, bruised eyes from lack of sleep or exhaustion

A constant sheen of sweat and clammy skin

Unusual clothing choices

What body language do they display?

Hunching over, as if trying to protect themselves

Fidgeting or pacing

Avoiding eye contact

Clenching fists or grinding teeth

Sweating or shaking

Staring intently at something

Repeatedly touching hair or face

Darting eyes and biting lips

Meek and under-confident stance

Pleading look

What is their attitude?

Feeling hopelessness

Sad and dejected

Becoming increasingly irrational

A loss of faith in themselves and others

Obsession to the point of resorting to extreme measures

A sense of helplessness

Blaming others

Feeling powerless

A sense of urgency

What are some positive things that can come out of desperation?

Increased motivation to achieve their goals or solve their problems

Resilience and adaptability in the face of adversity

Heightened creativity and resourcefulness

The ability to form deep and meaningful connections with those who share their struggles

Catharsis or character growth through their struggles

What are some negative things that can come out of desperation?

A tendency to become self-destructive or engage in risky behaviour

Difficulty forming and maintaining healthy relationships

Increased isolation or loneliness

Chronic stress and physical health problems

A tendency to make impulsive or irrational decisions

Prone to depression and anxiety

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rayroseu · 8 months

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I love Tamago!Malleus' Design because his eggshells looks like Black Opals

Again, Like the purple Wisterias from Dorm!Malleus Groovy, Opal stones also takes millions of years to form, like how Malleus has long lifespan and is incredibly "slow at growing up". (Referring to the scene where he took 20 years to even stand up as a baby).

Black Opal Spiritual Meaning

Black Opal is considered to be extremely lucky and the most uplifting of the Opals, bringing Light into the aura. It eases distress and dissolves depression and hopelessness, helping one face their darkest fears and to release that which is holding one back.

It is a protective stone for deep inner work, soul retrieval or past-life recall, and can be used for “gazing” into the past, present or future. It is highly prized as a power stone for magic ritual and can be used for “reading eyes” in order to scry the truthfulness or intent of a person. Black Opal is a Storm element stone of death and re-birth, and utilizes Fire energy.

We know that because of Malleus' magic, the Dream Quartet managed to gaze into Lilia's Past.

Malleus is heavy on the death and rebirth motif considering his promotional art involves him rising from the coffin. And, we know how he is always related to fire because he's naturally a dragon.

Additionally, Opal is also one of the birthstone of October, which is month of Halloween season.

We know that the previous Halloween Events has Malleus as an integral part of its story and gave his character depth up until Book 7.

Although, I think the most strange thing about this egg is the vines that surrounds it.

I'd expect it to be thorns because this is Briar Land after all, but it doesn't look like typical thorns but rather looks like Dripping Blot.

We're aware that Malleus has a unique handle of his overblot than the previous housewardens. It almost seems like he's in control of his own overblot because of how clear his voice is and how he's literally unstoppable.

Since this egg is a result of Meleanor and Levan's Love, I think its safe to assume that the blot-like thing surrounding it is related to Levan?

But if so, does that mean that Levan can control blot? Has blot-like magic?

Human Magicians existed only recently (I think this is what Lilia and Trein said on Book 6?? Iirc) , however blot and phantoms has existed long before that because STYX says their blot curse has been here since the time of gods. So, its possible for Levan (who's from the past) to have magic and be related to blot.

And, We know one person who's seemingly connected with overblots or blot in general... Crowley. 💥

Malleus Overblot is literally just a combination of his parent's magic if Levan is related to overblots and phantoms 😭

I'm still sad we didn't get anything about Levan and Maleficia😭 But I know waiting will always pay off with Book 7 🙌

#twst #twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #twistedwonderland #malleus draconia #lian notes #twst theory #twisted wonderland theory #twisted wonderland book 7 #twst book 7 theory #diasomnia #disney twst #malleusdraconia #twst malleus #twst malenoa #malleus twst

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littleroaes · 6 months

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( 🌷 ) ❀˖° — ‘ ACQUAINTANCES ‘ — a list of my MOOTS ( writers and non ) who I have interacted with and fic RECS.

( 🌷 ) ❀˖° — AUTHORS NOTE : a list of my acquaintances here on tumblr! as I’m very timid, I don’t have too many interactions with some users. but the net of people here is very sweet and sincere. please please give them love!

I will update it as I get to know new people, read past works/ new works!

• LAST UPDATE : oh my god! it’s done! I think I have gathered all? don’t feel afraid to comment or something else if I missed you! It’s pretty rushed at parts, but I’ll improve on it, for the time being, I’m released it’s finally up!

➵ @blue-rainydays 💙

➵ @cloverdaisies m.list personal rec ➤ HEY CHAT! ∩^ω^∩ ↳ no one loves this fic like I love this fic! reread it a lot because it genuinely makes me so happy! i wrote it in my reblog but im so sad this yn and hj arent together lol. i would be the biggest minecraft fan if they were real →

➵ @cupidjyu m.list personal rec ➤ he’s hopeless! ↳ the fluffiest fluff that has ever fluffed! kicked my feet all the way through! juyeon's character is so entertaning to read! → other: detention for romance

➵ @everynewiee m.list ( @adorablehyunjae ) personal rec ➤ Honey - Dew Cat Cafe ↳ so cute! juyeon wears an apron and owns a cat(do I need to say more?) their pet bring them together!au !!! →

@floatingpluto

➵ @from-izzy m.list personal rec ➤ this summer… ↳ hyunjae is so patient! real love im telling you! that giddy feeling of when you feel special! It's what it gives! I wish to have someone like this hyunjae →

➵ @haet-sal m.list personal rec ➤ Cinderella Boy ↳ really creative fic! i loved the concept, had me in my seat the entire time! youre gonna feel so bad for juyeon though →

➵ @heemingyu m.list personal rec ➤ Serenade ↳ so feel good! I absolutely adore eric's and sunwoo's dynamic in this one! eric is down so bad, and i love it! → other: Rainy Days

➵ @hyungseos-cafe m.list personal rec ➤ the thought of you ↳ love this series! very easy to read since all of them are pretty short, but each one is so distinct and cute! I especially like changmins and erics! →

➵ @juyeonszn m.list (@fawnieszn/ @jungwonszn @yeonjunszn @eunseokszn )

personal rec ➤ BLAH BLAH ↳ I feel like there’s a lot of coincidences between me and this fic lol. but I do truly love it. jacob is 🫠🫠, basically all fawns fics make me feel 🫠🫠 lol →

➵ @kimsohn m.list personal rec ➤ polaroid & hearts on your sleeve ↳ polaroid is such a cute one! makes me want a jacob for myself even more! hearts on your sleeve is heart-aching, but I find it so creative! →

➵ @kpop17

➵ @leaz-kpop-life

➵ @onceuponabloom tag system! personal rec ➤ taste your lipgloss ↳ I’m so bad at describing things! but kicking my legs! very typical flirty, oops, heart fluttering vibe but I love it! →

➵ @o-onikix m.list personal rec ➤ Enchanted ↳ was some time since I read it, but I remember enjoying it! First time I wish to end a relationship with hyunjae →

@seolboba m.list personal rec ➤ 8:36 AM ↳ not tbz, but very cute! I really like rin (oc)! though I’m a kevrin stan, I really like Felix and her in this one. chans immediate leadership/ family ship is amazing! →

➵ @sungbeam m.list personal rec ➤ ain’t no romeo ↳ listend to it in speechify! a fic with so much to explore! there's so many good dynamics between characters and different elements! from humor, cutesy, fluttering and mysterious! →

➵ @winterchimez m.list ( @midnightfantasiez ) personal rec ➤ Make or Brake ↳ love changmin childhood friends to lovers! he fits it so well for some reason. really feel good fic! → other: criminal,

➵ @zzoguri m.list personal rec ➤ of linked arms and bruised hearts (you are the reason i keep on going) ↳ a long one, but the ending is so satisfying. every moment feels well-earned! again, changmin fits f2l so bad! I love their friend group, and jacob lowkey broke me lol →

#mutuals #moots #fic recs

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professional-nutria-enjoyer · 6 months

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WARNING! THERE WILL BE HEAVY SPOILERS FOR THE GAME "OUTER WILDS"

can we talk about how "balanced" outer wilds is? Like, the first thing that comes to mind is obviously the black-white hole mechanic: the black hole attracts everything towards itself, a colorless pit where everything will fall into at the end of the loop. The white hole is instead the beginning of the cycle, a singularity that spits you out from the other side of death and depth, a dot with all colours in it.

Then there's the hourglass twins, on one you must be patient and on the other you must hurry. On one side you wait for the sand to reveal the secrets beneath, on the other you may not even have enough time before it covers everything and crushes you between itself and the ember twin crust.

Then there's the Nomai and Owlks thing going on. The Nomai met their end through years and centuries of researches, only for their end to be something completely unrelated. The Owlks found the eye and were disgusted and scared, not fascinated, and met their "end" as a direct consequence of their desperate run for blissful ignorance and estrangement to the outside world. Not to mention how each species communicates with the player: the Nomai utilize writing, something formal, something that is hard to misunderstand, a writing that forms around a spiral (something potentially infinite). The Owlks instead use art as a medium, slides that told the player of their civilization decadence. Slides of drawings framed in a circular shape (that couldn't be more limited)

Then there's obviously the "wow death is a real thing now" that happens after you get the core. Imagine being stuck in a situation where the end is meaningless and not really the end, you will always wake up beside a campfire regardless of how you died (unless you destroy the fabric of space-time). Now imagine for everything you learned about how meaningless death is to be virtually useless, you are left with the existential fear you thought you forgot that came back in full force.

Now, i find the parallel between the Prisoner and Solanum to be fascinating. Two different beings recluded in a giant jail, one by choice, the other sentenced to an eternal bodyless life. Both are more dead than alive, but while Solanum is the nearest anyone has ever got to the eye, the Prisoner is the farthest and furthest. Poor Owlk, inmate of a giant digital jail made by those who hated him and what he fought to free; haunted by the failure of his attempt to free the Eye, but the arrival of the player made him understand that there was still a chance for the universe. Poor Nomai, victim of her own success, surrounded by nothing but the haunting of loneliness, the hatchling's arrival made her understand that the ash twin project finally worked (and what was necessary to make that work *happened*).

Outer wilds wouldn't be as loved as it is without these elements, it needs them to be complete, to have a meaning, to show how cosmic perfection is only achievable by following the universe's rules, it needs the horror element to it's peaceful exploration one, it needs funky music to it's sealed screams, it needs light, it needs darkness, it needs explosions, it needs calmness, it needs water and deserts, it needs geysers and small wooden cottages, it needs blue, green, red, pink, beige, yellow and purple to it's black. It needs so so many things and it has them, it doesn't need anything else to be loved.

Outer wilds isn't just a game about how small we are, how our past will influence the future and the beautiful part of hopelessness. It's also a game about balance, how everything must have a counterpart, how we can't just live on one side of the coin. It's a game about cherishing the sad parts of life, the parts that want to make your legs give up and curl in on yourself. Even in real life nothing would exist if the balance between matter and anti-matter wasn't just right, it's a game about how an existence resting on one side of the plate isn't just impossible, but also empty.

#outer wilds #brain dump #But it's just a theory #I may be reading into this to much #I think Solanum would be sad af if she knew it all #While the prisoner kind of happy #Not to talk about softly playing your banjo while the world around you is falling apart

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littleholmes · 4 months

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I really feel for the anime onlys who are either about to or have already hopped over to the manga to get caught up, because I’ve seen posts already of people being surprised and upset, and I feel so bad.

like…jjk is not a happy series. I know for me, I started reading just before the culling games and I expected the situations these characters are in to get better and for there to be happier moments and I was surprised. Things kinda don’t get better for these characters and oftentimes it feels like it just gets worse and worse. There’s positive moments, yes, and we get short bits of reprieve and the fights, the domains (I could go off for days on Hakari and Higuruma and Takaba’s), and the characters are so awesome but, admittedly, it’s not a happy series.

It’s about death, and fighting, and families, and dealing with loss, and generational curses and trauma, and so much more. And I know for me it hit me late that this series is deep and heavy—in fact, I wrote a post (spoilers) about delayed grief in this series bc I don’t think I personally realized how heavy this series is until later on because we lose so many folks and so much happens back to back, and there wasn’t time to truly process how much happens. But that said, it’s truly it’s one of the things I love most about jjk and what, to me, makes it unique along with other elements of this series.

idk I’m rambling but idk…anime onlys who are planning to read the manga, I highly recommend reading it, but I’ll say it how I say when people ask me IRL: “I recommend it with an asterisk and here’s why…”. I recommend it with a small warning to be prepared because it’s a lot and this series will make you feel hopeless for these characters at times and make you sad and angry and a myriad of emotions. It’s a wonderful series but it comes with a lot of heaviness.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk thoughts #jjk manga #jjk manga spoilers #I saw a post last night of someone who caught up and just felt awful after reading and I was like 😣no one warned them I feel so bad

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sinizade · 1 year

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Nadia Hawke - Blue Hawke

24 (Beginning) // 31(Defeat of Meredith) // 39 (Inquisition)

Mage - Elemental / Primal / Force Mage

Romance: Fenris

Friends: Merrill, Sebastian, Aveline, Varric

Teammates: Anders, Isabela

Nadia had to learn from a young age to take care of both herself and her family, especially Carver and Bethany who always seemed to be getting into trouble together. Spending so much time with such responsibility, especially after her father's death, left her with an almost maternal sense for her brothers even though Leandra asked her not to and Carver constantly said he hated it when his sister played his mother.

The first years she spent in Kirkwall were difficult… Losing her home, her sister, seeing her mother so sad and hopeless gave her the strength to keep working hard so that she had everything she needed to be happy again.

Her father, her sister, her brother and now her mother… Nadia had to learn to be colder, as cold as ice, no one would ever play with the ones she cared about, no one would ever hurt the ones she loved... She has Fenris now and no one will ever dare try to hurt him again.

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #dragon age fan art #da art #da fanart #fenris x hawke #fenris #fenris da2 #Nadia Hawke #mage hawke #da2

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muirmarie · 18 days

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mcspirk month mYEAR planning post

idk if anyone likes these (these being planning posts), but here, it feels weird to have it tucked away in my notes when my BTHB and mcspirk bingo planning posts are on here, so. anywho. you know the drill: this is just me rambling, feel free to ignore!!

the bolded are those i still don't have a plan for <3 - as per my usual these are all tos unless otherwise noted

Day 1: Forced Proximity (“this isn’t a blessing,” mccoy hisses. “one day,” the king says, “you’ll see that is it.” - the one where spock and kirk cannot get more than an arm's length away from mccoy for 30 days w/o causing him debilitating pain)

Day 2: Touch-starved (spock and kirk cuddle mccoy out of touch starvation - this is like 75% done, I just need to finish it)

Day 3: Only One Bed (established mckirk to mcspirk. um. very nsfw. by far the most nsfw i’ve ever even considered writing lmao. currently sitting at almost 12k, probably will be around 15-17k all told. i don't even know how to describe this. kirk aggressively helping spock play gay chicken with mccoy until mccoy finally believes spock wants both of them, idk.)

Day 4: Hand Holding (maybe the one where spock & kirk slowly gaslight mccoy into holding hands with them - yes the tags are spones but i am very certain kirk would be very happy to gaslight mccoy into hand-holding as well)

Day 5: [hurt comfort or against a wall (no story planned)]

Day 6: Protective McCoy (no story planned)

Day 7: Hand Kink (the one where spock is cucked w/ hand sex lmao)

Day 8: Public Display of Affection (would you still love and/or employ me if i was a worm?)

Day 9: Spock is a Hopeless Romantic (the flirty spock one probably?)

Day 10: [Hands or a bonus (no story planned)]

Day 11: Fuck or Die (vulcan sex magic hanahaki, this is, like. I have elements of it, but it’s not nailed down yet quite how it works. it's a vulcan disease but naturally mccoy's the one who gets it.)

Day 12: Aliens Made them Do It (the plato’s stepchildren one - i've been poking at this one since. like. january lmao. it's maybe 30% done, but it's not gonna be super long, i'm just slow with it. it is. hm. not a fluffy story. the platonians decide that mccoy simply needs to learn to say yes to them. how helpful they have spock and kirk around to help underscore the point.)

Day 13: [time loop or sex in a three way body swap or a bonus (no story planned, BUT do I really wanna write another time loop fic and/or can I really handle writing another smut fic lmao. If I did do time loop tho it would be the one where Kirk refuses to leave the time loop until he can solve the no-win scenario, i just don’t know how that goes yet. The sex in a three way body swap would be the AOS mcspirkura one, probably. Or the tos spones to mcspirk one. idk idk.)]

Day 14: Tarsus IV (kirk: i always knew i’d die alone. this is....jim character study, i think? I do need to come up w/ a happy (or at least: not sad) ending for it tho. So I’m still Thinking about this one.)

Day 15: Fake Dating (the one where the royal is trying to marry mccoy in order to keep him, and spock and kirk independently decide to fake date him to save him. also sarek loves trashy romance books. background uhura/scotty.)

Day 16: Lost the Ability to Speak (bones and uhura signing in federation common sign language - yes that's vague but all i need is something to center around tbh)

Day 17: McCoy Hurt w/ Spock & Kirk Comfort (this is like 95% of what i write lmao but i don’t have a specific plot yet)

Day 18: [Jealous Bones OR Oral Fixation (no story planned but it it’s jealousy it’s not gonna be traditional jealousy, bc I’m generally not a fan of jealousy storylines (unless all parties are unaware that they’re jealous - those I find VERY funny)]

Day 19: [Kirk is Missing, Presumed Dead or a bonus - probably a bonus (no story planned)]

Day 20: Accidental Voyeurism (okay the one where mccoy wakes up and his arm is trapped underneath kirk’s head and spock’s holding that hand as he’s laying on top of kirk and making out with him. I will have to find a plot tho. a reason. a Reason. It’s not established spirk either)

Day 21: Bondage (heh established spirk discovering mccoy’s penchant for getting tied up and/or tying others up and then literally not able to shut up about their platonic friends private habits for like a solid three months. they only care platonically of course. you don’t need those other ppl to tie you up bones you’ve got us. this one’s about 10% started.)

Day 22: Mirrorverse (mirrorverse katra sharing, it’s a whole thing, this is out of my wheelhouse but i have some Ideas, but this one isn’t going to be anytime soon)

Day 23: [reunion or teasing or a bonus (no story planned) - *eta actually for teasing i could maybe do the one where spock conducts an "experiment" in a private lab where he has mccoy & kirk work on a project for him while he gets extremely handsy w/ them - he's doing a study ("study" - they're all aware this is just spock's ideal version of foreplay) about human arousal in a working environment, and they're supposed to not let him distract them*]

Day 24: Temporary Blindness (this is going to be such a long messy mccoy whump story tbh. orpheus and eurydice part two. before i can even really start it tho i have to decide on pov, because that….really affects things for this one. but i mostly know how the story goes. also not anytime soon tho, maybe not even this year)

Day 25: Praise Kink (i COULD go temporary awkward ability if i don’t want to write anything too sexy, but the planned version is, like, kirk blossoms like a bashful babe and spock is genuinely moved when it comes to praise, but mccoy turns bright red and wants them to stop? BUT they like so much the way he flushes and struggles to accept the praise that they ask him to be good for them because THEY like it, and so he’s absolutely mortified but still? allows it for them? and they of course like it because they want to make him accept it.)

Day 26: Expectations vs Reality (counseling fic! The one where spock and kirk are dating but still somehow drag mccoy to their relationship counseling.)

Day 27: Vacation Gone Awry (no story planned)

Day 28: Awkward Spock (checking for pulse over the liver instead of the wrist because he forgets where human hearts are when jim or leonard is hurt)

Day 29: Getting Interrupted (mcspirk sexy 3d chess - that’s right they’re interrupting mccoy’s WORK lmao)

Day 30: Desperate Measures (the enemy within one that’s 80% finished where kirk’s wolf and sheep sides both have to have sex w/ mccoy while spock melds with them both, all for very important science reasons - don’t worry about it.)

Day 31: Insecurity (*eta - mccoy gets out of a LDR and is bummed, and kirk tries to cheer him up by putting his name up for the underground "sexiest starfleet officer" bracket that scotty & uhura are running, to prove to mccoy that ppl find him attractive. unfortunately it turns out the crew finds him VERY attractive, kirk is having some jealously-related revelations, spock is gonna kill jim if he has to watch mccoy get asked out one more time, and mcco is yay close to having a nervous breakdown from being turned into a sex symbol*)

Bonus 1: nightmares (look this is fucked, just trust me this is a very messy thing and it is very fucked and i have to make all my maths fit together before i write it or it will feel too flimsy and fall apart, but. kirk's trapped in a nightmare by a parasite that bleeds into the waking world (there are reasons for it) that cause physical damage to mccoy. spock melds w/ kirk to try to change the dream. this has unexpected side effects. - this one WILL be written for mcspirk month i just don't know what day i'm replacing yet.)

Bonus 2: pet names (i think i might be able to fit the kiss me/fuck me fic into this prompt but i’m not 100% sure yet - aka the one where mccoy & kirk use “kiss me” as a SFW swear for “fuck me” and “don’t make me kiss you” as a SFW swear for “fuck you” and annoy everyone around them w/ this silly in joke until one time mccoy says “kiss me” w/o thinking to spock, and spock’s just. hmm. don’t mind if i do. and kirk thinks it’s so funny he starts kissing mccoy all the time as WELL. very pre-them even realizing they want a relationship (except for spock, spock has Plans, thank you). this will be written at SOME point, it depends if i need another bonus/if it fits the prompt enough.)

Other bonuses i’d consider if i need them, but no stories planned: blindfolds, misuse of the bond, uhura helps them out.

Other vague stories i have that i could rotate until they might fit a prompt: pacific rim au, space forgetties, [number]+1 of mccoy getting kissed awake/the +1 getting kissed to shut him up, spock going through the wringer re: mccoy getting hurt (that was written spones but could easily by mcspirk), empath era katra au, post-empath spock won't stop touching mccoy, katra transfer requires a kiss, this isn’t even all of them, it genuinely is absurd how many tag spirals i’ve written like this lmaoooo /sigh

#mine

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kess-in-the-perthchimzone · 7 months

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The umbrella as a symbol of protection

From the moment Kang rescues Sailom in episode 2, he takes on the role of the protector in their relationship in both their minds.

Sailom chooses to trust Kang from episode 3 onwards because when it truly mattered, Kang proved to him that he would keep him safe.

And Kang consistently starts protecting Sailom, in a variety of different ways.

Jealousy notwithstanding, whenever he sees Sailom looking uncomfortable, he immediately jumps in:

He also worries about Sailom:

And he takes care of Sailom when he is sick:

When Kang gives him the second umbrella in episode 4, it becomes the physical representation of Kang’s steadfast determination to keep him safe, happy, and comfortable.

The narrative then uses this in interesting ways:

First, after Sailom gets fired as Kang’s tutor in episode 4, he’s shown walking sadly in the rain. He thinks he’s lost Kang. But he still has Kang’s umbrella. Kang is desperately worried about him — Kang is going to figure out a way to make up for failing his midterm.

And similarly, although Kang turns him down in the art room in episode 6, Sailom still has the umbrella.

No matter what Kang said aloud, he loves Sailom. It is KANG who gets pelted with rain — he is punished by the elements for lying.

The only time Sailom gives the umbrella back is when he comes to live under Kang’s roof — when he has an even stronger, wider form of protection overhead.

Side note: I need to call attention to this line below which destroyed me when I finally caught it. LET ME HELP YOU — that is what Kang keeps asking Sailom over and over in different ways.

The use of the umbrella as a symbol is most pronounced during their fight in the rain. Sailom loses hold of the umbrella as Kang shoves him. In this moment, he has no protection because it is Kang who is hurting him. Kang is pushing him, he’s yelling in Sailom’s face, and Sailom is thus getting soaking wet.

I am very interested in the way Dangerous Romance will use the umbrella moving forward — in both directions, happy and sad.

Because there are actually TWO umbrellas. They could each use one, showing they are protecting each other.

Or they could stand underneath the same one together (a kiss in the rain??)

But this could also go horribly wrong. If Sailom leaves Kang’s house, he could leave the umbrella behind, showing that he’s turning down Kang’s protection.

Or, if Kang breaks up with him, the umbrella could physically break.

So many possibilities!! And to our knowledge, Kang still doesn’t even know he’s the one who gave Sailom it in the first place.

All this to say, when he was a child, Sailom accepted a gift of an umbrella and that simple kindness stuck with him. But then for many years after, Sailom felt — he was shown by both the world and his brother — that he needed to be self-reliant. He prided himself on it, even as his life felt like this exhausting, never ending series of math calculations and worry.

But then in the most terrifying moment of his life, Kang saved him, comforted him, and nursed his injuries. Although it was not initially Sailom’s choice, from then on, Sailom began to see Kang as a source of strength and support.

His choice to accept Kang’s umbrella the second time was the physical manifestation of him finally letting someone share the load — allowing Kang look after him. And Dangerous Romance consistently uses the umbrella to show us that even in those moments when Sailom feels hopeless that Kang still cares for him — will always want to protect him.

#I’m not crying over an umbrella YOU are #kanghansailom #dangerous romance #dangerous romance the series #meta meta meta #kess babbles about dangerous romance #kanghan kirttin sukprasert #sailom homchan

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unearthly, m. sturniolo

synopsis: in a small suburban area of boston, a group of teenagers—matthew sturniolo and his two triplet brothers, nick and chris, and a childhood friend of theirs, y/n—travel to an old destination named granger's deathly hill; a place in which hadn't been visited merely since the early 1970s. atop of the old haunted hill, the group soon realize things aren't truly as picturesque as they imagined and conclude that they are in grave danger. as they meet people along the way, they realize that the journey home may be harder than expected. knowing that they are in a situation that could ultimately ruin their lives or end them entirely, they make up a plan to make it back home safe, or better yet, alive. amongst the chaos, while trying to save each other, matt and y/n realize that there is more to them than just friendship.

chapters: 00. introduction 00. prologue

genre: friends to lovers, psychological thriller, crime thriller, romance, matt x reader, horror in some aspects; psychological horror, survival!au, soulmate!au, i want to make this out alive with you!au, romantic tension, partial smau.

warnings: includes mentions of disturbing and/or triggering elements such as gore, death (not of any character), supernatural creatures of some sort, mentions of hopelessness and sadness. matt and y/n fall in love in the midst of trying to survive a dangerous predicament.

taglist: @taking-a-footnote-in-your-life, @lostwonderwall, @lomlolivia, @sturniolomads, @kylespencersvocalcords, @stxrniqlo, @sophialimass, @loonielol, @siriusfahey, @getbillzoned, @kjd55, @ceceswritings, @dancingintheedark, @yoongoboongo, reach out to be added!

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icedroplove · 3 months

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Chapter 6

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Gray had been tossing and turning on his bed for the past hour, unable to sleep after everything that happened that afternoon. When Juvia told the team about her past relationship, they were shocked. She explained they dated shortly when she was on Phantom Lord and that she wouldn’t be comfortable going on a date with him, even for the sake of the mission. Some tried asking questions, but Lucy argued that it was a private matter and that they would discuss an alternate plan tomorrow. After that, everyone went to their respective rooms. And Gray couldn’t sleep.

Juvia having never mentioned it before was as much of a surprise than the fact that she had an ex itself. She didn’t lie to him, after all, they never talked about this subject but it stung nevertheless. Juvia was a hopeless romantic, she wouldn’t have dated someone she didn’t love wholeheartedly, but he couldn’t forget this happened when she was in Phantom Lord. She always told him that her life was miserable and lonely back then. Had Bora been a motive for her sadness?

Gray felt sick. Juvia was the sweetest and most loving person he met. She didn’t deserve anyone treating her badly, that was why he was working so hard to become a good man for her. He felt guilty for how much of a dick he had been, he didn’t want her to suffer ever again and the thought of Bora disgusted him. He sold women off, tried to do the same with his friend and now this? Gray hoped he got an opportunity to teach the dude some lessons… with his fist.

The sound of rain broke his trail of thought. Gray furrowed his brows and looked at the window. It didn’t seem her doing, but it wouldn’t hurt to check. After putting some clothes on his naked body, he walked down the stairs.

The lounge was dark and quiet except from water drops tapping against the ceiling. He had no idea what time it was, but surely he should be getting some rest for tomorrow. What he did was the contrary. Without any worries of getting drenched or catching a cold, Gray stood outside and let the rain wash his thoughts.

First thing he noticed was that this wasn’t her magic. Relief ran through his muscles and made him relax further under the cloudy sky. This wasn’t the first time Gray did this.

In Avatar, when he couldn’t stop thinking about his mission and the guilt from leaving behind someone so important to him, the best way to calm down was this. He used to stay a long time in the rain, concentrating on the concrete sensation of water against his skin. Not only it made him focus on the real world and stay cold headed for his task, it made him feel closer to her. As if she was there, with him.

“Gray-sama!” Her voice, always so sweet, called Gray in his dreams.

Someone tugged at his arm, making him open his eyes and stare at the blue headed girl in front of him. Wait, this time she was actually there.

“Gray-sama, what are you doing?”

He felt embarrassed for getting caught in this position. There weren’t many ways to explain why he was deliberately standing outside in the rain.

“Nothing.”

She pouted. That answer didn’t satisfy the water mage, but she let it go. “Please get inside, Gray-sama will get a cold!”

“Me? Getting a cold? Like that could happen. Come, stay here with me for a while.”

Juvia blushed, complying to his request.

“What are you doing here anyway? You should be in bed.”

“You too, Gray-sama!” After a moment of silence, she added, “Juvia couldn’t sleep. She went to close the window and saw Gray-sama outside, so she went to check on him.”

She was always thinking about him, wasn’t she?

They stood there in silence, eyes closed and chin up, feeling the rain fall over their bodies. Gray stole a glance at the girl beside him, admiring how she looked comfortable like that. She glowed in her element. Instinctively, his knuckles brushed against the back of her hand. She didn’t jump, only stayed put waiting for him.

His fingers touched her wrist softly, testing the waters. Gray took her hand in his, entwining their fingers.

He wanted to ask her about Bora, but he was afraid to ruin the moment they were sharing. It seemed that he did it anyway, though.

“Juvia should explain some things to Gray-sama. She doesn’t want him to make wrong conclusions about what he learned today.”

“Sure, but let’s get inside first so we can talk better.”

They stood in the lobby in silence for a few moments. It was Juvia who spoke first.

“Juvia didn’t love him. Having someone who didn’t run away from her was a rare thing, so she dated Bora for a short time. It wasn’t bad… not good either. He broke up with Juvia because her rain was gloomy and annoying.”

She looked down, upset. Even if she didn’t have feelings for him, it must have hurt. He couldn’t grapple with the fact that Juvia felt so alone that she stayed with someone she didn’t care about just to have someone by her side. It was heartbreaking.

“It's fine, it’s not important.” She was lying, the corner of her eyes were starting to water. Gray walked to her, seeing her mouth tremble as she spoke, “He doesn’t remember Juvia. He talked to her as if she was a random girl he was interested in.”

Gray hugged her and heard a sniffle. So that was why she was so upset. He forgot about her. That dick.

“Juvia swears she never loved him…” She mumbled against his chest. “She didn’t think she was this forgettable.”

In impulse, Gray caught her face between his hands and looked straight into her eyes. A single tear fell against her cheek. “You’re not forgettable at all, Juvia! Don’t say that”

The girl’s eyes widened as his forehead touched hers. “Nothing can explain just what you mean to me.” He whispered.

At this moment, he wanted more than anything to kiss her. He knew it wasn't the perfect moment he was waiting for, but it felt right to him. His thumb brushed against her lower lip. He was going to kiss her.

Suddenly a door opened. Gray jumped back in surprise. Erza walked out of her room, looked at them for a second with a very sleepy face and turned around.

“You should go back to bed if you want to have energy for tomorrow.” The knight said as she walked to the bathroom. They complied.

#gruvia #fairy tail #juvia lockser #ft #gray fullbuster #fanfiction #fairy tail 100 years quest #writing

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gingerylangylang1979 · 11 months

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So a lot of people still not feeling ANY romance on this show, even with new girl.

I have to laugh at the comments on the latest trailer “Carmy Meets a Girl”. I was I guess expecting more people to be into Carmy and Claire but actually a lot of people are raging about the show jumping the shark, not wanting any romance, how dare they. I thought the dislike would mostly be from Carmy x Sydney shippers but actually it seems like a lot of people really just don’t want ANY ROMANCE. This is interesting because it shows that a lot of people are earnest in their desires for no romance and it doesn’t matter if it’s with Sydney or someone else and people really hate romance. I just didn’t know that sentiment was this big culturally.

I’m wondering at what point do people think a show turns into a romance? I don’t think Carmy flirting with a girl and exploring dating as he’s trying to get his life and business on track equals the show is now a romance. It’s a drama. Dramas sometimes have romantic elements. That doesn’t make them romantic dramas. I think there are a lot of unrealistic expectations about what a show that is exploring a young man’s life should include and not include. Like, do they JUST want shots of cooking, crying, and screaming?

This reminds me of fandom angst within my other favorite show The Chosen. I mostly stay out of that fandom because my brand of Jesus believer doesn’t vibe with the random shenanigans and drama. Christian show + fandom = eek for the most part. Anyways, a big controversy is how much of the script is not exact scripture and people want a copy of the Bible reenacted word for word. These people don’t realize that doing that would not translate marvelously onscreen. I love the Bible but I don’t think it’s a screenplay. There are elements of backstory and side plot you need to add to make it a compelling onscreen narrative. People balked at one of the characters having a crush and they stopped that storyline, it seems. But it wasn’t this OTT romance. He’s autistic and it was really cool seeing him explore those feelings and being understood in a time and place that didn’t even know what autistic is. So it wasn’t just to have a romance, it was to show character development and inclusion. I didn’t even think they would end up together, that was just part of the journey. But, I guess they gave into a loud minority of fans who were bothered. The point is that storyline didn’t derail anything or ruin the tone. It only enhanced those characters.

Anyways, back to The Bear. I don’t think people realize what they would be missing character wise if we really just only saw miserable chef Carmy being miserable in his restaurant, being miserable in his apartment, with an occasional side trip to Cicero’s or Sugar’s. You may think you want three to five seasons of ONLY that, but that would get stale as fuck. I think it’s actually sad when I see tags saying oh he’s miserable and alone, just like me, HE SHOULD STAY THAT WAY FOREVER. Talk about hopeless doom generation.

I’m depressed and struggling and anxious too but I want to see someone navigating away from that onscreen. My current therapist is trying to coax me back into dating because she views it as part of healing. I’m the one that’s bitter and doesn’t want to do it but guess what she’s right. If someone has desire for intimacy, they should have it, even if it’s messy and not at the “right time” and even on a show that’s not a romance. Carmy deserves healing. And if part of that is oh horror, having a crush, a date, maybe some sex, so be it. I don’t even ship him with this girl but I’m excited to see it. I want to see Carmy explore this part of himself because he’s a person and he obviously cares about it, and I think he deserves all the things.

#the bear fx #carmy berzatto #jeremy allen white

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princess-unipeg · 1 year

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It’s almost Christmas time so I figure it would be the right time to talk about one of my favorite animated Christmas movies.

It’s the story of one postal worker named Jesper and how he participated in (or practically invented) the origins of the Santa Claus myth. Taking place sometime before the 20th century, Jesper was a young man who would rather coast through life living off his family’s wealth rather then partake in the family business. His father the Post Master General decided enough was enough and gave his son an ultimatum. Fulfill a large quota in a certain amount of time or be permanently cut-off financially. A task which proved challenging for Jesper as the mail route he was assigned to had a long history of neighbors battling on a daily basis which meant no one was interested in reaching out to one another even by mail. Just when things are looking hopeless for the guy, Jesper comes across a stray child’s drawing and a widower woodsman. The woodsman who is named Klaus saw the sadness in the child’s drawing and tasks Jesper with giving said child a toy he had made back from when he and his late wife were planning for children they were never able to have. Realizing he could work this to his advantage, Jesper convinced Klaus to keep giving away his old toys to the children so he could fulfill his quota and go back to his wealthy lifestyle. Overtime they both indirectly transform a desolate town into a warm community. Jesper started out as wanting to get back to a life of luxury but that begs a question. If he found the right people, does he want anything more?

There have been a lot of Christmas movies and specials over the years. Animated ones, live action ones, and romantic ones where the lead learns the true meaning of Christmas from small towns where most times their love interests turn out to be royalty. But this particular recent creation stood out to me. It’s not very commercial, the color schemes are more subtle and it’s not particularly overt with religious tones that usually come with the holiday. It wasn’t so much as about Saving Christmas as it is with Saving a community with Christmas.

It’s particularly a down-to-earth kind of Christmas movie where it’s not very clear about the magic occurrences that goes on in particular scenes. It also gives credit to the postal service. Portraying it as the serious function to society as it’s meant to be. It also serves a bit of a humorous tongue-in-cheek wink to the instance of Santa Claus taking credit for the deliveries made by the put-upon postal worker. We also get representation for the Sammi people, which rarely happens even in live action works. Not to mention how they serve the plot and the contribution to the reindeer element of Christmas.

Overall this movie deserves love and praise for its themes of community and good deeds sparking a chain reaction of positive change. This deserves to be in the top ten list for Christmas movies to watch annually.

#my post #my posts #thoughts #my thoughts #movie review #klaus netflix #klaus 2019 #Klaus

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little-peril-stories · 1 year

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LPS: Blog (Re)Intro

Little Peril Stories | Kate | adult | she/her

Masterlists:

The Queen of Lies (ongoing): AU for The Prince of Thieves—sheltered, rich sad girl meets snarky criminal; chaos ensues; whumpy, Victorian forbidden love vibes with a side helping of angst and girl power

The Court of Rogues (work in progress): sequel to The Prince of Thieves; details to come 2024.

The Prince of Thieves (complete): guy and gal get arrested and tormented by super cool, totally normal constable while pals on the outside freak out and make bad decisions; fun 1800s prison vibes with a side helping of angst and chosen family

Blood Garnet (side WIP, low priority): girl gets lost in magic woods and gets chased by her hapless cousin and a grump hunter; awkward magic man tries to help; supernatural(ish) romantasy vibes with a side helping of angst and betrayal

Man of Letters (UNRESOLVED; part of Whumptober 2023): awkward scholar boi tries to save the girl he falls in love with and gets way more than he bargained for; light romantasy paired with heavy emo vibes, with a side of helping of angst and torture

Fen and Freddie (complete): gal gets kidnapped, dopey cinnamon roll with hopeless crush tries to rescue her and fails; vague superhero sci-fi vibes with a side helping of angst and pining

The Curiosity Collector (complete): sweet non-confrontational magic boy gets kidnapped and needs rescuing by bf and sis; witchy, autumnal vibes with a side helping of angst and falling in love

✨ Check out: OC & WIP extras (mood boards, lyrics inspo, tag game creations, and more!)

This is a whumpblr/writeblr space! Sometimes I’ll post/reblog writerly posts, memes, etc., but a lot of the posts/RBs will be about whump. I post original writing and reblog the work of others that I enjoy, gifs, tropes, prompts, and other such things.

I’m down with asks and tag games but may not respond right away. If I seem to ignore you, it’s not personal, it just means real life is taking priority at that moment.

I love comments and feedback on my writing and welcome them with open arms.

A note on age: I know I can’t actually stop you from accessing this blog, but I do not wish to interact with people under 18. It’s not personal, I’m sure you’re great, but it has everything to do with my job IRL. Please respect this boundary and come back on your 18th birthday.

Check out: My Most Common Tropes

My favourite elements of whump have to do with power dynamics, intimidation, dread, and angst. I love captivity-with-a-cause: kidnapping for ransom or as leverage over someone else, prison (in fantasy or historical settings, less so for modern settings though it’s not a hard rule), and the like. Fantasy presents so many creative versions of this trope, so I do love me some fantasy whump! It also gives lots of opportunity for dungeons, shackles, and other fun implements like that. Gratuitous tying or chaining up is always delightful to see. Pining, desperately trying to protect a loved one (…and failing), and self-sacrifice are other big tropes I love, so expect to see lots of those!

As for characters, I love it when they are as far as you can get from perfect, pure, and innocent—when they’re good enough people, but whose flawed or maybe even problematic decisions lead them into trouble. Always, always, I want my characters to have a hand in their own fates. Pure-hearted victims of the narrative who simply fall into a whumpy situation are cute and fun, but not what I tend to write.

A few odds and ends I’m such a sucker for, so you’ll probably find them in my writing:

Sibling relationships

Allusions to songs, books, folklore, and musicals

Nature and weather helping to set the scene (oh my goodness, how many times can I work snow into one story?)

If romance, either slow burn or instant attraction

…with a sprinkling of “huh, I don’t understand what I’m feeling, wtf is going on??”

‘In the nick of time’ rescues

Painfully awkward moments

Fluff and comfort, but only once they’ve really earned it

Almost kisses

Hard choices

Happy endings

You probably won’t find much gore or explicit noncon here, but there might be some elements of those in my stories or in reblogs. I don’t write BBU or pet whump.

My original “whumpy things I like” post can be found here.

Anyway, thanks for reading! 💕 Happy whumping!

#blog intro #whump intro #writeblr intro #this is a reintroduction #whump community #writeblr #whumpblr #pinned post

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salora-rainriver · 6 months

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The Sympathy Problem, or "Why I'm Too Much of a Monsterfucker to Get Into Horror"

I don't know what the fuck this is, but I'm writing an essay about a problem that, as far as I know, only applies to me (but i might be totally wrong, who knows).

I think the title speaks for itself, but lemme just elaborate on what the fuck happens inside my brain, and how that fundamentally affects the way I handle horror media, to the point where I cannot truly appreciate it as horror on the same level as everyone else.

now lemme post a cute bat here so that there'll be an appropriate image to represent the whole essay when its link is shared on stuff like Discord:

trust me this was important. Okay, let's keep going.

Part 1: Why I'm a Monsterfucker

Let's start at age 4. I'm a dinosaur kid, like roughly 1/3rd of all autistic bitches. I'm a dinosaur kid to the point of owning multiple Land Before Time movies, and tie-in games, and I think I even had like two plushies at one point.

you know it's serious when this is your childhood.

I also had miscellaneous dinosaur plushies, and dinosaur toys, and a dinosaur book I frequently read front-to-back, and you get the idea.

dinosaur love evolves into dragon love, evolves into "funky monster creatures and animals of all kinds" love. I become a freakish savant of the wonderful world of the animal kingdom really quickly, to the point where my child-brain career prospects include "vet" as a pretty high finalist.

And then I find Starcraft, a game in a genre I otherwise wouldn't have given a shit about... but guess what? it has bug dinos.

it's all over for me.

But like, why? why do I like dinosaur so much?

... because I am dinosaur.

Look. LOOK. I can't give a good comprehensive list on the connections between my particular strand of autism and the state of Being A Dinosaur, because by this point, me being autistic and me being a dinosaur are so completely intertwined that it's often a chicken-egg situation. But the point is,

I make weird noises instead of using my words. I toe-walk. I don't like shoes. Sometimes I like to not wear clothes at all, even. I like to hide in small crevices when spooked. When I'm in a meltdown, I scare people.

Me dinosaur. Or at least, me some type of feral.

So is it any fucken surprise that when I go into an RPG, I latch onto the animal shapeshifter, the furry species, or the person who fights unarmed and/or uses a claw weapon?

Is it any fucking surprise that I am the opposite of spooked by snakes and spiders and other such creepy crawlies?

is it any fucking surprise that I have a fursona?????

is it any fucking surprise that I picked Pokemon Scarlet without the slightest HINT of remorse?!

Part 2: Wait, That's not the Intended Response

now let's talk about horror. Let's talk about the elements that make horror into horror: the fear part.

So what scares people? Well... people scare us. A serial killer, a mad scientist, a cult leader, a corrupt government entity, maybe? or maybe even society itself, its darker side full of atrocities and danger and problems where there's no easy solution and things can often seem hopeless?

... lmao who are we kidding that's not the vast majority of what scares people in horror. IT'S MONSTERS! Monsters scare people!

From Xenomorphs to Jean Jacket to The Babadook, it's monsters! Shit that ain't human and never could be human, and maybe it's pretending to be human, maybe it used to be human, but now it ain't, and it's gonna getcha!

And it just.

I'm a monsterfucker.

I'm not scared of ghosts. Sure he's fucked up and wailing in endless pain and lashing out at everything, but that just makes me feel sad. Like, poor ghost dude. We should help him.

I'm not scared of vampires or werewolves. They're people like anyone else, and sure, there's an inherent danger from being around them, but there's also an inherent danger from being close to an alligator, and I'm sure as fuck not scared of an alligator chilling on the side of the road. Cautious, maybe, but not scared.

I'm not scared of zombies. I mean, if they were real, I'd be a bit spooked, cause I have no combat expertise and would definitely be Fucked. But the same would apply if my hometown became a war zone. And... a war movie won't scare me. So a zombie movie wouldn't, either.

I'm not scared of xenomorphs. I mean I don't want to die, but that just means I should be entering alien environments with all proper safety procedures. TBH I'm more pissed at Weyland-Yutani than anything else.

I'm not scared of the Babadook. I'm worried for the well-being of the family as they try to come to terms with grief, and the monstrous shape that grief has taken. But it seems like they're coping in the end, so that's good.

I'm not scared of Jean Jacket - okay no. I'll be honest. It makes me uncomfortable. I will not be going into detail on the difference between this discomfort and actual fear. That is not a Salora Lore I want to disclose here. If you Know, you Know.

Part 3: Horror ceases to be a genre for me

So the monsters in horror movies don't scare me. And yet... I've watched some horror movies. And I've liked them. From this one list I've been using as quick reference to remind myself of What Horror Movies Exist out there, I've watched a few of these, or am at least familiar with them. You know, I've seen some classic horrors like "The Shining" because I went to film class in high school, and I've watched some installments of classic franchises like "Scream", or oddball picks like "Warm Bodies" and "The Relic", because I was having watch parties with friends.

Even beyond film, I read some Lovecraft once, and I've played plenty of spookier-themed videogames, like... well, like Silent Hill 2. Didn't finish that one. Bcs I'm bad at puzzles. But I loved the atmosphere.

And even when I'm not directly experiencing the horror media, I often look it up, read the synopsis, and watch video essays about it.

I know way too much about Hereditary, Midsommar, Get Out, the Slasher Genre in general, Creepypasta, Resident Evil, and mascot horror, for someone who's supposedly not able to properly engage with horror as a medium.

And I like some of that shit! But uh...

... not. as horror.

I just. Don't engage with them as horror films. I engage with them as whatever other genre you could slot them into. Hereditary is a tragedy. Get Out is political allegory. The Babadook is psychological allegory. Ghost stories are dark fantasy. Alien is sci fi. Slasher films go back and forth between mystery, action, and dark comedy. Warm Bodies is a rom-com. (like. that's not even a weird hot take. I don't know why this Rotten Tomatoes editorial decided it was horror, but I'm not gonna dispute their assertion, Bcs like. this entire essay is about why I'm not a good judge on that sort of thing) Silent Hill is a puzzle-adventure game with light action. Five Nights at Freddys is a time-management simulation game that would stress me the fuck out if I ever played it. Amnesia: the Dark Descent is a stealth game.

You get the idea.

So I'm just... in this really weird position. I'm a huge fan of spooky monsters, strange happenings, stories that engage seriously with the anxieties of mankind through allegory,

but I can't. truly enter the horror genre community as an insider.

Cause I ain't scared.

And honestly, it gets even worse when I start to imagine myself maybe, idk, *writing* a horror story of my own. Because... since I don't get scared by them, how am I supposed to know what scares others? Apologies to my fellow disabled folk for this clumsy analogy, but... it feels like trying to paint while visually impaired. I mean... you can do it. You can do it super well if you push yourself. but it's a strong disadvantage, and it might result in an artwork that could baffle the seeing people in your audience.

And maybe there could be merit in that. In writing my attempt at a horror story from the perspective of someone who doesn't find any of it scary. Maybe it's be intriguing, even surreal or dreamlike or alien to the audience who doesn't engage with this subject matter in the same way I do.

Or maybe it'd just end up similar to that one phase of the creepypasta fad where folks were going "wooo! hyperrealistic blood! isn't it spoopy n fuked up????" and it'll be garbage idfk

Bonus Round: ...Okay I Might've Lied a Bit

There is one movie that for me, truly could be considered "horror".

It genuinely terrified me as I watched it. It shook me to my core and opened my eyes to how other people feel when they see some shadowy monster figure with too many teeth reach out and eviscerate a poor bitch. I fucking get it now, to some extent. I don't know *how* the spiky boy elicits that response in you, but now I understand how it feels.

Because I watched FUCKING M3GAN

[SPOILER WARNING: I'm not saying the exact plot beats of the movie but I AM going into detail about its themes and the character development of the protagonist. It's massive spoilers but they're all vague spoilers.]

Me and my friends didn't pick this movie thinking we'd get spooked. this is the movie where the doll does some sort of modern dance routine while carrying a katana. It's goofy shit! We figured this was goofy ass modern trash and we were gonna laugh.

MOTHERFUCKERS I WASN'T LAUGHING????

Is the premise unrealistic and goofy? yeah. are the characters exaggerated and cartoonish? yes. are there like, numerous jokes throughout this film, that are portrayed as jokes? yes. was the dancing robot doll chase sequence goofy as shit? yes*

*ok but the context of That Scene made my brain gloss right the fuck over how goofy it was bcs I was too fucked up over everything else that already happened!

So like. What? How? How is goofy robot doll horrifying? Salora, you know how many stories about rogue AIs and killer robots there are? Why doesn't skynet scare you?

It's not about the doll. It's about the humans who created her.

This film is as subtle as a fucking anvil when it comes to it's social commentary. Like, "opening sequence is a kids commercial for Deranged Knockoff Furby" and "a therapist character explains attachment theory for a whole scene" levels of unsubtle. and honestly that makes the horror fucking worse. in this bizarre cartoonish parody of society, we're seeing a laid-bare and raw allegory for the real harm we are inadvertently delivering upon real fucking people. Weirdly enough, the exaggeration just makes it feel more real.

and what's "It"? Not the uncanny valley of a too-perfect silicon face, the gruesome deaths, the murderous AI,

No, "it" is the commodification of childhood, the degradation of familial ties and human connection through overwork, the way we try to patch these broken ties with product, the outsourcing of parenting to toys and machines, the disastrous consequences of allowing an orphan to vanish into wish fulfillment fantasy instead of being given space to work through her grief,

the exploitation of her grief in order to market the very thing that's spiraling her further into an unhealthy dependency, to do the exact same thing to children worldwide, all because of profit.

Look. Monsters, ghosts, demons, serial killers, zombies, predatory animals, rogue AI, they're not scary to me, because I know them. and if I don't know them, I want to know them. The solution to the threats things like that pose are simple. Keep your distance from the crocodile. Punch the shark's sensitive nose to make it back off. Invest in security measures so your house doesn't get broken into. Don't anger the ghost. Exorcise the demon. Shoot the zombie's head.

How do you, an overworked engineer for a toy company, find the time to connect with your orphaned niece on a human level?

How do you take away said niece's beloved doll when you slowly come to realize that her attachment to it has become unhealthy?

What the fuck are you supposed to even do when you realize that you might have created a murderous monster and marketed it to hundreds of kids, and your overzealous boss is in your ear pressuring you to get it ready for launch?

WHAT A FUCKING NIGHTMARE.

Conclusion: But fr am I like the Only One

so uh. yeah.

My fear response is mucked around by an unusually high level of sympathy for the monsters that tend to populate horror media. I'm Too Kinky To be Tortured, and it puts me in an awkward relationship with the horror genre, where the only things that can well and truly terrify me are unhealthy relationships and capitalism, and even then, only if those topics are presented in just the right way to make me feel like this shit is Real.

And like you know how there's a whole language of like, scares and signifiers and shit that's been well-researched, all these tiny tips and tricks to exploit primal fears in humans? (I dont know if language is the right word but im just gonna call it that until further notice)

well, a lot of that Language of Horror doesn't quite work on me, because it's all related to monsters and physical threats, and I love the monsters too much,

and I imagine there is a whole different Language out there of the shit that can be exploited to scare me,

but fuck if i know what it is. I only got a single movie as my frame of reference. How the fuck would you even find a movie that handles social anxiety like that?

Like idk, do y'all think Carrie would spook me? Carrie's about societal ills, right?

#horror #horror movies #the following tag will spoil the plot twist of the essay oops #m3gan

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It doesn't matter. Not really.

“It’s all pointless. Nothing matters, so I’m just going to do whatever I want! We’ll all die anyway, so who cares?”

— ZEL

An eccentric young man who appeared from nowhere. He is either seen laughing or crying, lamenting about the fact that there is no meaning to the universe or embracing it. His moods swing and vary drastically, and why he is like this, and how he came to be, is entirely unknown. He tends to show up at the most inopportune moments, and enjoys speaking to the Masked Fools.

AGE: ???

SPECIES: ???

PRONOUNS: He, it, they.

FACTIONS: N/A???

PATH: The Nihility.

ELEMENT: Quantum.

— NOTES ABOUT THE CHARACTER

THIS is his lore doc! Includes character descriptions, stories, voice lines, and more!

Zel tends to change the way that he acts depending on who he's talking with. He has a multitude of identity issues and finds that since nothing matters, neither does the person that he truly is. He's lost himself.

Zel is unlabeled and single, without much desire to find a partner.

Zel will generally either not react or laugh when aggression is directed towards him. He is usually more happy than he is hopeless, so he will most likely joke around and make humour of serious topics. He prefers to laugh rather than cry, yet, he is constantly aware of the fact that his own existence has no meaning and that is able to bring his mood down if he ends up expanding on his thought process.

Zel has no surviving family… or at least, that is what he says.

Zel is incredibly out of touch with his own emotions, despite feeling them vividly and deeply. He prefers to ignore them after he has to “go through the motions of experiencing them”, but this is actually just a poor coping mechanism. He only knows sadness or joy, and anything that isn’t one of those two things is usually pushed away into the back of his mind.

Zel enjoys pissing other people off and playing pranks on them, singing about the idea of death with a cheery tone. He loves nothing more than talking to people and making them question themselves. He is not necessarily malicious, but what he says can end up being incredibly mean as he has a rather pessimistic outlook on life.

— NOTES FROM THE MOD

Art credits to @ 82a_sumi on twitter!

I am a minor!

I use they/them prns.

No NSFW. I will toss you into a wall.

PLEASE LET ME INTERACT WITH YOUR OCS

I am incredibly normal

I don’t bite, if you wanna rp a specific situation you’re free to!

I sometimes get wordy with my replies. Author stuff 😔- no pressure to match my energy!

I respond quickly most of the time. Yes, I’m chronically online. Help.

I love interacting with anybody. Feel free to send shit into the inbox!

NO FLIRTING WITH ME I AM TAKEN THANKS GUYS THOUGH!

Will add onto this later.

I mod @yingchens-writings , @dreamingmachinery & @robbery-dollie so the format isn't stolen!

If you want to use my format, PLEASE ASK FIRST.

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr oc #oc #honkai star rail oc #rp #oc rp #oc rpg #oc rp blog #hsr rp #honkai star rail rp #honkai star rail roleplay #hsr roleplay #hsr ocs

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