#tay dont look

[briarpatch-kids]

I'm so tired of the whole "hey when you're designing walkable cities make sure to include disabled people so we can access the town too" gets turned into "are you saying walkable cities are ableist??" Which turns into people calling us a bitch for trying to explain that we currently live in a walkable city but can't leave the house alone because the sideways slope of the sidewalks and deep inclines for the streets make every street crossing a broken bone risk.

I live less than a mile from a carless town square, a library, two grocery stores, a post office, a medical clinic, a mental health crisis center, laundry mats, ice cream shops, book shops, bakeries, restaurants, more than I can even remember. It's amazing and exactly what a lot of you dream of. The street crossings are super safe for pedestrians, people can jog, ride bikes, and push strollers just fine. Except I still can't access any of it safely and anyone using a wheelchair or scooter is in danger. But apparently I'm an oil industry shill and a bitch for pointing that out instead of a disabled person who wants to get groceries or check a book out at the local library a few blocks away.

#tay dont look #cripplepunk #walkable cities

[birdofmay]

"I've never met anyone who didn't think much about politics or wanted to keep politics out of fun stuff who wasn't conservative or otherwise stuffed full of ugly opinions."

Leftists forgetting people with brain damage and/or ID again.

An important thing you guys have to unlearn is thinking that people who avoid politics do that because they are somehow bigoted.

Because if you think that, you throw disabled people under the bus. And leftists tend to throw disabled people under the bus all the time.

There are people who don't understand politics, or who avoid politics because it's too confusing for them, and they do that because they're disabled. And at the same time they have very similar values and opinions to yours. They're not "stuffed full of ugly opinions", they simply don't understand literature and theory.

"Well I didn't mean you guys of course" - then THINK before you write things like that and don't say something like that at all, it actively harms disabled people!

Not being as sophisticated as you doesn't mean malice!

#not autism #tay dont look

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

autism levels, few “often get wrong” points need highlight again

[transcript: autism levels, few “often get wrong” points need highlight again]

^ masterpost by birdofmay for more basic stuff no able explain rn, like “what are levels” “how determine levels”

autism levels about how much support you need for autism specific symptoms—specifically, two autism criteria, social communication & restrictive repetitive.

not how much you feel like you struggle

levels compare you to all autistics. not allistic neurotypical nondisabled people.

level 1 mean “need support.” level 1 can struggle. unsupported burnt out level 1 can struggle a lot. unfortunately level 1 can be miserable in life.

not able finish school, not able drive, not able keep job, need help cant live independent—none of that automatic level 2 & 3. none of that automatic mean not level 1. know many people who level 1 who all that. level 2&3 people tend more common be those thing because autism symptoms cause very big struggle. but autism levels not actual about any of that.

autism levels is DSM 5 thing. country no use DSM 5 not get levels. countries use DSM 5, sometimes doctor still not assign levels, because that doctor don’t use levels, or level 1 & just leave out write.

autism level is official diagnosis thing. different from self diagnosing autism itself (which for lsn/level 1/etc have many resources about what it like, community, and like. not life risky), autism level really not same and not recommend self diagnose, to put nicely. because it about amount official support need, & limited info about level 2/3 (yes, even if look like many of us on tumblr, still very few), and because that most people never actual met entire autism spectrum met actual level 3 in person not to mention enough to be good sample size, so most have understanding of autism & autism levels that heavily lean to level 1, wrongly think any struggle w autism mean level 2 or 3. put in plainly, most you all don’t know don’t see enough about higher levels to actual label correctly (this actual include level 2/3 people—although yes personal experience, but that one experience).

many level 2 & 3 diagnose as that because we need the official support. for not die, for physical survive, and/or for basic quality of life. it not fun little label to collect to call self unfortunately

also, i say a lot of level 2/3 i abbreviate put them together because online autism community not often include both. but level 2 & 3 can be quite different quite far not “basic same thing”

autism level describe general average symptom & support needed

autism level can change over entire life, like born level 3 but adult now & level 2 or even 1(rare), or born level 1 & now adult level 2.

autism levels cannot change over hours days or short term in general. cannot “level 1 good day & level 3 bad day.” not even “last (few) month level 3 this (few) month level 1.”

autism levels not same as functioning labels. although can be use in same ableist way people use functioning labels. but fault is ableism. (remind that some people do self ID as low functioning after their diagnose and that okay)

autism level is not perfect and need improve

autism level important & needed especially for many of us who need many support or our autism symptom very big or struggle communicate.

#actually autistic #actuallyautistic #autism #loaf screm #level 1 autism #level 2 autism #level 3 autism #long post #tay dont look #tay don’t look

[horribleprotagonist]

dex pining after openly out nursey, it's a classic we all love it okay BUT!!!!!!!! have we considered the far superior nursey pining after an openly queer dex??? will comes to Samwell after growing up in small town conservative Maine and dealing with homophobia on his Jr hockey teams and he decides he's not gonna hide at college he wants to be the role model he needed as a kid. and he absolutely Thrives!!! he's open and out and Radiant and he makes casual queer jokes with bitty and nursey (who is either closeted or hasn't realized his own identity yet) is just obsessed with him but doesn't understand Why so he just continues sulking and maybe staring a dex a bit too long during practice......

#LISTEN!!!! CONFIDENT QUEER DEX IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME!!!! #he's like: nursey wtf is wrong with u ur not a homophobe are u #and nursey is like: fuck no dude i have 2 moms!!! (nursey internally: wait what is wrong with me i keep thinking about him i hate him) #corley says stuff #omgcp #omgcheckplease #check please #nurseydex #derek nurse #william poindexter #tay dont look

[lillypadcrochet]

I love my parents so much but I fucking hate having anti vaxxers as parents.

I really feel like I can’t tell them anything about my health and how I’m feeling, or it’s

“Oh all this autoimmune stuff didn’t start til you got all those vaccines!”

And

“ are you taking this vitamin? Are you taking that one? I just learned about this new herb combo and it’s supposed to be good for dadadadada”

And my dad bitching and moaning about how health insurance isn’t graded like cat insurance bc ‘fat people use 80% of all healthcare a year’ (source needed) and how the only covid super spreaders were fat people bc their immune systems suck (idk how that’s supposed to work?)

I just love them and respect their input on everything else! But fr I wish I could discuss my health with them without having to smile and nod through a bunch of bullshit about WesTeRN MediCInE and some bullshit chiropractic supplement

#lilly chit chats #vent post #tay dont look #crohns disease #chronic illness #anti vaxxers #fatphobia

[aurora1040]

My Grampa is was just in the hospital. The drs are pretty certain that its stage 4 cancer. They wont get the results back until the 24th.

I'm going to be leaving by Tuesday to go be with Grampa and family at least until we get the prognosis. Depending on how much longer he has left to live, I may stay until his passing. Hopefully he has more time left on him, though.

He is my last grandparent on my Dad's side and he has a special place in my heart. As sad as I am that his time is ending, more than anything I just want to be there with my family when it happens. I think I would regret not being there for my family when we lose him more than anything.

#tw: death #tw: cancer #tay don't look #tay dont look

[mousetaur]

All the "how to's" for hooded eyes are like "How to do wing liner without making your eyes look smaller" and I've had enough

Maybe I don't care if my eyes look smaller

Maybe I want my eyes to look smaller

Maybe I want the whites of my eyes to be so obscured that the almost-black of my eyes blends with the black of my eyeliner like I'm some sort of Eldritch being from the dawn of time

Have you thought about that?

#make up #personal #tay dont look #i just like the thick wing look

[autistic-poohbear]

My friend: "I'm not sure, but I might be ADHD and/or otherwise neurodivergent" Also my friend: "I'm sorry, but my hair is suddenly Touching Me and I need to pause this conversation and go and get it out of my face, but not with a ponytail because that would also Feel Bad"

Sounds like definite sensory issues to me!

#ask #tay don't look #tay dont look

[accidentwithapen]

hello hermitfans, this is a friendly PSA to remind you that Buff Gem is Best Gem

#this is a wip so look but also dont #idk man i drew this and was instantly like GREAT GOOGLEY MOOGLEY #also trying out a new rendering style so lemme know how it goes #hermitblr #hermitcraft #mcytblr #hermitcraft fanart #hermit doodles #art #gemini tay #geminitay fanart #geminitay

[briarpatch-kids]

I think I'm a better person because of my disability, I have a perspective that I wouldn't have gotten as an able bodied person and I've met a lot of people along the way who taught me a lot of things.

However, if an able bodied person told me "everything happens for a reason! You learned so much from it!" I think I'd fight them to the death.

#cripplepunk #tay dont look

[taichouu]

I wanted to do some quick birthday art for my birthday twin ! I had a ton of fun doing this ... My KNY cowboy AU still thrives in my heart it seems !! Happy birthday to our Rengoku, he still brings me incredible amounts of joy.

#kyojuro rengoku #kny #kny rengoku #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer #coffee break #uzui tengen #kny tengen #cowboy au #tais 1k twang #This wasnt for my event but im putting it in there to start it off #if you see mistakes NO YOU DONT i only had a few hours to do this OK !!! #HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BOY !!!! #god his ass is so fat. why did I DO THAT TO MYSELF UGHH let me hit it just ONCE kyo PLEASE #im literally so sorry tengen looks busted i just could not get him to look right for some reason. I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU ALL I PROMISE. #also technically hes not my bday twin but my bday is tomorrow so I just pretend we are bday twins bc i love him so much shhh

[birdofmay]

[Because this is Tumblr: My country doesn't have autism levels, so I'm not going to say level 3, and I'm not going to say high support needs - I was diagnosed with severe autism as a child, and most autistics in this category use severe autism for themselves. It's not a bad word, it's not "the same as functioning labels". Listen to us for once please 😑😑]

A difficult thing about severe autism, especially in combination with severe intellectual disability, is that sometimes you can't tell the individual about another perspective, a different opinion, or try to say "Yes, in your case, but not all", because it's too much for the brain to handle in an already extremely confusing world.

I don't have ID, but I was extremely developmentally delayed, and I remember the fear, anger, and confusion I felt whenever somebody tried to tell me something that wasn't in alignment with my beliefs.

Autism makes it already hard to switch perspectives, and with severe autism, the world is one big chaos and makes no sense, and once things settled and you think you finally understood your little world, suddenly somebody says a contradictory thing and booom, chaos again.

So sometimes people with more or less severe ID and severe autism only see their perspective and their life, and therefore what they say and think seems pretty "black and white" to outsiders, but it's important not to tell them "Hey, this isn't always true, this is only partly correct", because what you try to tell them is too complex for an already overwhelmed brain.

And that's difficult to accept sometimes, but rest assured that somebody will at some point find a way to modify the knowledge you want to share in a way that it's not confusing and overwhelming, when the time is right.

I just wanted to say that because very often people hear or read something and immediately go "Hey, not necessarily ☝🏼", and then they don't understand why the individual melts down and screams, when they "just wanted to add on, that...".

#tay don't look #tay dont look #long post

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

whenever talk about level of autism (1/2/3) and support need labels (low/mid/high), see bunch people say how they don’t like levels because can’t be described by single number or single word, and how if someone want know what they need help with, just ask, disabled people know their needs!

by all means, allowed feel this way for self! this post not way say you must like autism levels or support need labels for self.

and yes! ableism & infantization like assume all disabled people not able know self, so it sensitive topic for many, and true that many disabled people do know own self & needs & disability & limits.

but do notice pattern: often, people who say this, more likely comparatively less language & communication struggle, comparatively less intellectual & cognitive struggle, and able be somewhat independent—people who can know and explain their needs in timely manner—which become problem when they go beyond talk about self and try speak for all autistic (or I/DD, or disabled) people. become problem when say “levels/support needs labels useless and gloss over details and ableist, just ask disabled people themselves we can answer for self.”

(human experience complex. no one number/word/phrase/label can perfectly explain all experience. this include levels, support needs, but also diagnoses like autism.)

here only some! reasons why some autistic people cannot explain struggle & what need help with, why need quick short easy remember word like autism level & support needs labels & severity (but other I/DD may feel similar, but wide and am not entire know don’t want generalize. people with dementia and similar may also feel similar) :

1. cannot communicate all

autism impact social communication ability. may not able explain all complex need and how exactly help. may not have language and word for all. may only able say few words. may only able know few words. may not have functional communication. may not have any word communication.

2. cognitive struggle, cannot remember all, cannot understand all

may be too often confused or overwhelm or brain not clear to explain. may not able know what specific need help with, just “need help.” maybe not remember all thing need help with. may not remember need explain. may not able understand need help. may not understand need explain need help.

3. too much, or take too long explain, too private for random internet, but need something

“level 3” “high support need” may not tell you what exactly need, but definitely tell you “will need a LOT more help than most people, need especially watch out for.” because “autism” not specific enough.

mid/high support need, level 2/3, moderate/severe, often struggle with so much and need help on so much, even if able perfect communicate & cognitive, actual explain can take very long, even hours or more and only touch basic. many half joke about name what don’t need help with faster.

during time sensitive emergencies, or “you don’t need all my medical info but you need know” situations, or “no time/space need be short & sweet summary” situations: ambulance, medical ID, lanyard, ER, quick medical intake paperwork, be/about be called police on, be see as suspicious / act “weird.” all no time/space/ability say anything more than few words.

even outside that. it personal medical info. some don’t want name all. for some, say all bring out many emotions and trauma, like embarrassed or ashamed or hopeless.

why do you say autistic instead list all autism symptoms everytime? same reason why many people use & need autism levels and support needs labels.

4. specific for so called “outdated” autism severity: not all able change language. not all want change language. not everywhere have levels. for some, severity most accurate describe how autism symptoms impact.

so, no, not all autistic people, not all disabled people able know & explain self! not all able answer for self! some may only able use quick summary words like autism levels & support needs & severity, some none at all. some need others help explain, some need lanyard or other visual ID for everyone see explanation because we autism visible and everyone already see.

remember us

#long post #actually autistic #actuallyautistic #high support needs #autism #loaf screm #tay dont look #tay don’t look

[horribleprotagonist]

have some more hilson poetry if you'd like

"informed consent"

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also!! both house poems ( + some other fandom poetry) are up on my AO3 if you'd like to read it there!!

#corley says stuff #house md #gregory house #james wilson #hilson #tay dont look #described image #corley writes

[lillypadcrochet]

This is kinda gonna be a niche rant post but I’m really struggling in my career path lately

….

So to be a child life specialist you need 600 internship hours. And those internships are insanely competitive so I decided to go to the graduate program that basically matches you with internships. AND I STILL CANT GET A FUCKING INTERNSHIP!!!! The hospital I was supposed to be at this spring dropped me because I was taking too long to get my health clearances and so now I’m at a freaking EI place which is BARELY CHILD LIFE and my supervisor took me on as a PITY JOB because she’s an alum from the program.

And then for the fall one program saw my application and didn’t even want to interview me! And two others I matched at and interviewed at and they BOTH said I wasn’t showing the BREADTH OF KNOWLEDGE they need from interns!!! But I thought the interviews went really well! And most people are accepted by both internships they interview at but apparently I’m so pathetic nobody wants me as an intern!!!

And now I spoke with my advisor and she said they might not be able to get me into a traditional internship setting because so many places have already chosen interns but if I don’t intern in the fall I can’t graduate!!!! They might even beg my current internship to take me on for longer! And I can’t fucking take another community based setting because it’s not Really child life and I won’t actually have any job experience!!!!!!

I’m just so upset and I hate myself for fucking up my spring internship and I hate myself for flopping my interviews and I hate myself for being the worst student the programs ever had and I hate hate hate this!!!!!! I should have done something else I should have chosen a different career path

I HATE MYSELF AND THIS STUPID FUCKING PROCESS

Not to mention how exorbitantly expensive this fucking program is!!!! And how high the cost of living is in this city!!! I’m gonna have so much fucking student debt and no job prospects!!!!

#lilly chit chats #rant #tay dont look #child life specialist #unprofessional career rant

[aurora1040]

Normally I am very positive about being disabled. Im always looking at the positive while acknowledging the struggles. I reblog jokes and memes to make light of my life while spreading awareness to my followers.

....but not today.

Today is a bad day for me. Today I hate how disabled I am. Today I hate how broken and dysfunctional I am. Today I found out thay I cant even PRETEND to have anything at all together with my parents who live an entire state away. Im so broken that I cant even FAKE it. And today, its hitting me really, really hard.

Ive been crying for almost a half hour straight. Today, life SUCKS and I feel AWFUL and BROKEN and like a complete FAILURE. I lost at the game of life. The friend who came to unlock my door yesterday while I was face down got some of our friends to come clean my apartment while I was gone and dont get me wrong, I am incrediblu greatful and indebted to them for their act of kindness. I didnt like that they saw my apartment in such a terrible state, but I could handle that. One of them called to let my mom know how bad it was and honestly, while Mom was the last person on earth I wanted to know, I could handle that, too.

No, what got me was after i got back home from the hospital, mom sent me a text that she and dad *already had plans to come around the end of september because they already knew how badly i was struggling.* Thats a whole 8 hour drive.

That. Is what got me in tears. That. is why today is awful. Why today i hate being disabled. I hate having exective dysfunction and adhd. I hate having unexplained fatigue. I hate that there appears to be absolutely no evidence whatsoever in my blood work or heart monitor at the hospital to explain why me going off of salt made my legs give out from underneath me. I hate that i dont know how to properly advocate for myself. I hate it i hate it HATE IT

For the first time in a long time, i habe actually, consciously feel and think that I am a failure. DONT COME AT ME SAYING IM NOT. I am ALLOWED to have days where I just feel too much and hate it all. regardless of if its true or not, *that is how i feel. That is what im thinking.* This is not my default state of mind. Tomorrow I will be back to my self, the negative thoughts processed and filed away for when i finally see the therapist again. My coping mechanisms will be functioning properly again.

Just let me have one day. just ONE DAY to hate my lot in life. Just ONE DAY to hate myself. you can come at me tomorrow to check in on me if you want. I am safe, i am fine, i am not going to hurt myself or anyone else.

I just.... needed to let my feelings exist. be typed out so it can be tangible. And now that it is, i can process and move on after i get some rest and more water.

If youve read this far, comment with just a ♡ or a ☆. Either one is fine. no words. no tagging. just a heart or a star.

#tay don't look #tay dont look #vent #invisible disability #disability #hidden disability #depression #negative #for spoonies #i hate being a spoonie #spoonie life #spoonies #out of spoons #spoonie #no spoons #chronic fatigue #chronic fatigue syndrome #living with adhd #adhd culture #adhd #adhd post #adult adhd #executive dysfunction #tired #sick of it #done