#stop my misery

[lakrimasx]

Being miserable is so familiar, this is who I am

#i can’t do this anymore #tw depressing stuff #tw self destruction #depressing life #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #tw depression #tw death #su!cidal #su!c!de #sorry for being depressing #tw self loathing #depressing shit #tw selfhate #self h@rm #self destruction #i’m so sad #stop my misery #tw self h4rm #tw self destructive behavior #self h@te #kinda depressing #i’m so tired #tw self destructive thoughts #tw self sabotage #tw sui vent #tw sui ideation #depression relapse

[nemkero]

guess who just finished omori

#im so distraught #ohh the misery #everybody wants to be my enemy #this game broke me #i also ended with?? #almost 50 hrs??? #MOST OF THOSE WERE SPENT ON THE SLOTS #I CANT STOP #anyways #cha cha real smooth #omori gang #omori #omori fanart #omori kel #omori aubrey #omori hero #omori sunny

[divorcedfiddleford]

leave the door ajar

#gravity falls #stanford pines #fiddleford mcgucket #fiddauthor #artwork of the damned #this is sloppy but i just had to get it out of my head #i just think especially at first there was a lot of fear of saying the wrong thing #and of feelings not being reciprocated #they'll be okay they'll talk about it later #well. more accurately they'll imply they don't want to stop working together and build a doomsday bunker with one bed about it #but that's basically the same as talking #also apologies for the alt text #i know it's not very good #i might try to re-do it later. or just tack it under the post in a readmore. i'm open to suggestions #anyway happy fiddleford friday please enjoy his misery

[s-aint-elmo]

girl who has suffered more than alll-mer

(ID in alt text)

#fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fear and hunger 2 #samarie fear and hunger #fear and hunger samarie #samarie #doodles #mine #so hard to tag for a mononymic character. girl get a last name. domek is right there #these are the three samarie emotions: yearning radiating and Abject Misery #she also gets an emotional support mini-rina. it's what she would have wanted #took a 5-hour crash course in funger bc i saw marina's moonscorched. ended up feeling so strongly for samarie i had to exorcise it thru art #you can't put a pathetic sopping wet shaking unhinged little creature in front of me and expect me not to itch to treat her kindly for the #first time ever in her life #poor little unloved lamb let me keep you and coddle you and cover you in blood. let me give you one good day like a mouse soon to be fed to #a pet snake. let me feed you to the snake regardless. #anyway. the psychic attacks i've been fielding bc of samarina have been relentless. can unwell teen girls stop reflecting my life circa #junior high school. thanks

[shortnotsweet]

[ “SOMEBODY TOLD ME”]:

BREAKING MY BACK JUST TO KNOW YOUR NAME. SEVENTEEN TRACKS AND I’VE HAD IT WITH THIS GAME. A BREAKIN’ MY BACK JUST TO KNOW YOUR NAME—BUT HEAVEN AIN’T CLOSE IN A PLACE LIKE THIS.

— The Killers, Hot Fuss (2004)

Princess Rhaenyra’s insolence is wearing her stepmother’s patience thin. Queen Alicent is not ten years her senior, but even during her own sixteenth year, she cannot recall herself behaving so brazenly. She would never burst into courtly discussions in nothing but gilded armor and the underskirts of her riding leathers, awash in blood. (She would never be spotted in blood that was not her own, anyway. Alicent has never picked up a sword, not one that belonged to her.) Nevermind that Rhaenyra is attending to diplomatic affairs with bared teeth and scales, no—the crux of the matter is just that, her affairs. Rhaenyra is the Realm’s Delight, a beauty incomparable to any fair maiden, Alicent included. She indulges herself with appetite of a spoiled child, the confidence of man, and the pickings befitting only to her royal blood. Criston Cole. Daemon Targaryen. Harwin Strong. Laena Velaryon. She’s full of love, isn’t she? That selfish, foolish girl. What does Rhaenyra Targaryen know of love, of duty? She is a child in so many ways—she thinks killing makes her a man, thinks the throne is hers despite being a woman, thinks she can have her knight and her uncle and her protector and Laena Velaryon in one fail swoop. She’s wrong. She doesn’t know herself half as well as Alicent does. Alicent, who sees her for what she truly is, who wants to see all of her and more of her and none of her. Alicent has been stolen into the Keep by her own father—both of their fathers—but Rhaenyra is the key to this place, is the window to everything barred. Rhaenyra Targaryen has a dragon. Rhaenyra can fly.

That’s what Rhaenyra had promised her once, with her lips pulled back in a grin, exposing the white of her teeth like the violently radiant creature she was. “Perhaps when you grow tired of plotting against me, we shall ride on dragonback together,” she had said. The tease.

Alicent had yanked her into an empty corridor by the silk of her sleeve, ready to chastise her for her ill behavior. Conversing with the lords and ladies of the court at a feast was one thing, but chattering about her bloody encounters in battle over the pudding tureen were another. The lord at her elbow was going green. Alicent’s own face was likely red; her heart raced whenever Rhaenyra got like this. Alicent had never seen the battlefield—only seen battered men in dented armor and the slumps of corpses lined along dirt roads in the aftermath of war—but her own imagination terrified her like nothing else.

(Rhaenyra is better with a sword than half of the knights in Westeros, and more lovely than the lot. Her reign has not yet begun, but already the commoners flock to her—lured in by tales of her beauty and fine hair—and soldiers would follow her into battle. Alicent would not follow, but she would watch and bite her nails down to the quick.

She thinks of the figure Rhaenyra cuts in full armor, the heat in her gaze underneath the slots of her helmet. Alicent remembers the weight of her own hand in Rhaenyra’s—which was gloved—when the princess rode up to the spectators box and grasped it in her own, bringing Alicent’s knuckles to her lips. She thinks of Rhaenyra murdered in the sky, skewered with another man’s sword, plummeting to the ground, torn in half, streaking crimson across the clouds. Alicent would scream, or cry. She might laugh. She would throw herself from the window of her tower. Rhaenyra’s bloody exploits terrified Alicent for reasons she could not identify, and excited her for reasons she refused to.)

“I’d sooner be confined to the castle for the rest of my days than get on the back of that bloody lizard,” Alicent scoffed. Rhaenyra only tucked her hand over Alicent’s, where it was resting on her forearm. She flexed her fingers, moving to release her grip on the dark fabric, but Rhaenyra intertwined their fingers and held them fast.

“You’re confined already. You are already accustomed to such a thing. I know you. But—”

“But you forget yourself. You think you’re invulnerable, Rhaenyra. You don’t know who you are.” Alicent intends for it to be a sneer, but instead it comes out quietly, and too gentle for disdain. She can’t know. Rhaenyra is as trapped as she is, but they’re trapped together. They belong together. She belongs with Alicent.

“I am Rhaenyra Targaryen, Heir to the Iron Throne and all of Westeros. I am a dragonrider. I am—I am your daughter. In a way. Your sister, too. Your enemy. Your sword, your shield.”

“And what am I?” What else is left for me? Alicent wonders.

“My Queen. For now.” Rhaenyra cocks her head, and the gleam in her eyes burns like fire raining down. “When I am Queen, you will be my lady.”

#rhaenicent #rhaenyra targaryen #alicent hightower #house of the dragon #hotd #rhaenyra x alicent #my art #a book show fusion where alicent is the wicked resentful older stepmother first and foremost but even so she and rhaenyra have a connection #burdened by envy and fixation and reluctant affection. in this universe rhaenyra is given more liberties and trains as a knight would #is given a sword and flies into battle frequently and wears extravagant clothes which endears her to the small folk and makes her a hot #topic amongst royalty for her strangeness and charisma. alicent is expression not only of her freedom and expression #but of the company she keeps. rhaenyra has so many lovers and so many who are willing to follow her and it’s just not fair ok. alicent #and rhaenyra understand each other and know each others misery like no other. those other flings and beloved friends are going to get #her killed w how much they indulge her and encourage her dangerous habits and alicent may be in a cage but she won’t live in it alone. with #out her stepdaughter to torment and be tormented by (she represses the urges rhaenyra inspires bc she is devout to the faith) then there is #no meaning to suffering. god she’s in love w her. she hates her so much she wants to be her she wants to be with her she needs to touch her #she need rhaenyra to stop looking at other people bc it’s killing alicent by the day

[fakevariety]

wha haaaa hahhattttttt

#lucy dacus #boygenius #SERIOUSLY END MY MISERY #STOP IT LUCY

[moeblob]

#fe fates #camilla #so i actually drew this a while ago but was gonna shade it and do more emoji things #but welp uh hmmmm im sick and apparently look like I'm dying #which isnt a problem until i sit down to draw and my vision is blurry and yeah thats a problem #so i just attempted to do a doodle and then failed and opted to apply a tiny but of shading to this and give up #but yup uh after a nice of body aches and misery and trying to sleep and failing #i crashed from 10am to 5pm thinking id just rest a lil bit #before anyone says oh you could have taken a day off you know - i technically can yes youre right #however my brain uses art as a coping mech and i need that coping mech really bad right now #which is why i stopped trying to draw something new for today and just went back to a past thing #im not overdoing it i promise #even if my mom and sister think i look like death walking around

[snzluv3r]

this day was so insanely itchy and i had fits like this for what felt like every other minute (though i like to think i was better at holding back than that) everyday for a week because my allergies were so bad and my nose was so sensitive…i don’t remember what was setting me off but WOW did it make me sneeze lol

#my wavs #snz wav #sneeze wav #snzbian #snzblr #sneeze kink #sorry i kept saying ow this is from a little while ago when my incision was more tender when i sneezed lol #it was healed but it still stings when i cough too hard or have really repetitive rapid fits like this #it doesn’t actually hurt that much i’m just dramatic #anyways #i don’t remember what was bothering me specifically this day but this entire week was allergic misery #and fits like this don’t ever actually get rid of the tickle they just dull it long enough to let me stop sneezing for however long

[zeb-z]

I just think Tallulah gets to be upset about this. “It’s not Wilbur’s fault” “He’s not a bad dad” “He loves his daughter so much” yes! These are all true! And it’s not his fault! But he’s still not there. And Tallulah has gone through so much and still hasn’t seen him, the one time he was around was the one time she wasn’t, and all she has are letters and “I’m thinking of you always” and things that used to be theirs together, but he’s still not there. She’s waited and she’s been patient and she’s loved him all the same, and he’s still not there. Like yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, from the happy milestones to the traumatic events, he’s still not there.

She knows that it’s not his fault, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s absent. That in and of itself just adds to the sorrow, because she knows why he’s gone, and she’s been told time and time again it doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, she knows this - it doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting, that it doesn’t hurt, that she doesn’t yearn for her father to be there more than anything in the world, and he’s just not there.

So yes, she gets to be upset, and be caustic, and stomp her feet and write bitter messages, and be angry and vitriolic, because she’s a little girl missing her father, who feels things with her whole heart and soul - and that means she gets to feel the ugly parts of it, too.

#it’s like no wilbur isn’t at fault. especially if we’re talking about cc wilbur. but fuck man of course she’s gonna feel like this #this doesn’t make wilbur a bad person! he’s just a missing one. and Tallulah feels all the misery and bitterness as a daughter left behind #where is her father kissing her injuries and reassuring her? where is her father protecting her? hugging her at the end of the day? #Wil isn’t around to do this and she wants him back and he’s not going to be back. not for a while. and it’s not his fault but it doesn’t #stop it from being upsetting. she’s a little girl #and at least she has phil. her dad. who’s there time and time again. and it doesn’t make him somehow morally better or wtevr. he’s there an #Wil is not. and he’s going to continue to be there as a solid figure in tallulahs life that she needs #idk man like. fuck #lmao relating my own experiences from here below in the tags ✌️ #as someone who’s been in that position? a parent absent for reasons outside of control? yeah it’s sucks. and I love them and they love me #*with a parent I mean I wasn’t the parent lmao #and it will never be the same. and when they were gone and missing things I was furious at them #that resentment grows and then it fades and sometimes bitterness strikes again and it’s how it goes. love is still there #and it’s no one’s fault. it just is. and what is is messy #anyways #mcyt #qsmp #q!tallulah #q!wilbur #z speaks

[esmes]

#sweeney todd #sweenett #josh groban #annaleigh ashford #Them #themthemthem #just a head full of them #her smile when she's hugging him from behind just makes me SO sad for her lmao </3 #and the misery on his face as he stares at the razor that she snaps him out of by peppering him with lil kisses. idk y'all let her cook. #nellie lovett: you can be a BARBER again #nellie lovett five songs later: mmmm ok maybe not #i need the person who pointed one that she's the only one he doesn't kill by blade to pay my therapy bills thanks! :D #** #one day i'll stop making sweeney gifs but... not yet. #i just need to study them a little longer #otp: if you only knew

[corazon01]

You have fully convinced me that I am forever unlovable.

#damage #i’m not okay #when will it fucking end #i just want to cry #put me out of my misery #breakup #relationship #confession #i wish i never met you #heartbroken #personal diary #unlovable #when will i get over this #i don’t want to feel anymore #i want to stop feeling #poetry #broken heart #i want to forget you already #sad poem

[lakrimasx]

I didn’t know it had a name

#tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destruction #depressing life #tw sh implied #tw sui ideation #su!cidal #su!c!de #tw self destructive behavior #tw self sabotage #tw self destructive thoughts #tw self h4rm #tw self loathing #self h@te #self h@rm #i wanna die #i can’t do this anymore #i’m tired #stop my misery #tw death #death mention tw #self destruction #i’m so sad #tw depressive #depressing quotes #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #tw depression #kinda depressing #this is depressing

[alackofghosts]

oh sweetheart. my foolish / hope. my sun-swallowed sky

#this was much spicier initially and then i spent like a month going back to it every once in a while in hopes that it would #stop violating tumblr community guidelines. like any minute now. surely. so finally at last - victory! #(i say dragging my feet in misery over the state of the internet) #anyway whoops i have not done any work. see u all on the other side. #Ardbert #warrior of light #fanart #speedpaint #i draw sometimes #Final Fantasy XIV

[lambinarmor]

#Jill being told a bunch of crazy rumors about what’s behind weskers glasses when she first joins stars #and so he decides to put her out of her misery #I cannot stop drawin g this man #my art #albert wesker #wesker #re #resident evil #dbd #dead by daylight #fan art #jill valentine

[positively-peachy-143]

TW mentions of ED

I feel like Johnny either eats like a bird when he's with the Curtis' and they feed him bc he's used to not eating much, or he absolutely inhales any and all food they set in front of him because he gets like actual table scraps at home. Overall I feel like he has a very unhealthy relationship with food in general and always feels sick after eating regardless of it being a lot or a little. Also has trouble trusting food coming from anyone but the gang.

#me??? projecting??? never #but he's literally me also #the outsiders #johnny cade #Johnny cade hcs #the outsiders hcs #my poor boy #why do I bully him #life is out to get this man I swear #first his hair now an ed #someone stop me #before I make him trans #or give him more mortifying awful backstory #someone put this man out of his misery #OH WAIT #lololol #Im so funny

[layla-carstairs]

can't wait for twp in a couple years & for it to be offhandedly mentioned Jace plays piano or something because I WILL be like "Alastair used to play piano 😢😭😔" and have to close the book & collect myself over half a sentence

#& I will be posting about it on tumblr rested assured I will not stop being annoying <3 #it's mentioned alec has blue eyes & I'll be like omg just like will and cecily and anna and- #it hasn't even happened yet & I already need to be put out of my misery 😔 #but also jace playing piano is truly so carstairs of him 😌😌 #the wicked powers #tsc #the shadowhunter chronicles #the last hours #the infernal devices #twp #bella talks