✧˚ · .✧˚ Darling
summary: you pose as Loid’s fake wife once more, without realising the dangers it comes with it, whether it’s loid himself, or another third party.
word count: 3,655
warning: gun violence!
tags: Loid x female reader! (can be seen as gn) Loid fluff?? Definitely angst..more or less.
a/n: I saw this idea on the character.ai chat…this became so much longer than I intended to. I was just going with the flow and also its very cringe as well...yeah..the plot of the story kinda just went south when I was writing oh well...(not proof read, so good luck I guess)
The night seemed all too normal, while music wafted through the air at the event. You weren’t entirely sure why Loid had asked you along, once more asking you to pose as his wife, but you didn’t press for information.
As he was off busying himself with making conversation, you stood alone, absentmindedly sipping your champagne.
If you were asked to play as the wife, the least he could do is play his part right. You sighed, clicking your tongue once you noticed your champagne glass was empty.
The classical music buzzed quietly in the air as you manoeuvred your way to the open bar, slipping your gloves off and placing them to the counter.
"I’ll have another glass please" you sighed once more, taking a seat.
The bartender turned to you, an overly cheerful smile spreading across his face as he asked the typical bartender line of "Can I get you anything else, miss?"
The smile didn't falter, even as he poured the rest of the champagne into your glass. In your mind you silently wondered what would happen if you ordered, say, a shot of whiskey instead, simply out of pure curiosity.
“A shot of whiskey if you will.” You shrugged, giving in. The bartender's smile briefly flickered, clearly taken aback by your unexpected request, but he obliged you. He went through the necessary motions, his grin once more plastered to his face as he presented you with the shot of whiskey.
Without a word of thanks, you gulped it down...and immediately had to fight back a reaction as you felt the alcohol kick in.
As your eyes drifted around the room, you couldn't help but feel someone nearby watching you. Or at least, that's what it felt like.
You kept a note of the feeling as you silently sipped your third glass of champagne this evening -- well drinks were your only company at the moment. Eyes still locked on Loid, irritated. Your black velvet dress hugged your body so perfectly, highlighting every curve. You had purposely chose to wear this dress but not a single compliment from his side....no.
Out of the corner of your eye, you could have sworn you saw the faintest hint of Loid's gaze sliding in your direction but as you turned to face him, any thought was instantly dispelled by his smile. A warm smile, mind you, the kind that would melt the hearts of lesser men. It didn't melt yours however and you found yourself scowling as you stared down at the glass.
"Something wrong, darling?" Loid's voice was a deep purr, with all of his previous formality replaced by casual confidence as he approached you. He was looking at you this time, you realized.
"Its darling now is it?" you muttered under your breath while taking another sip.
Oh he caught onto that alright. A corner of Loid's lip curved into a smile as he stepped right up in front of you, his breath hot on the side of your face as his arm snaked around your hips.
"Always has been, darling." He pressed a kiss to the side of your neck, his hands caressing you in ways you never would have expected... in public no less.
The grasp on your drink almost slipping from your hands as you try to gain composure. You softly exhale, placing your hands on his shoulder. While on the outside you seemed calm, internally you were freaking out.
A shiver went down your spine as Loid pressed his lips against your skin, his hand snaking their way up to your back to pull you in closer. He held you like a lover, with absolutely no regard for the eyes that were watching you from the side-lines. If he cared, he didn't show it.
"You're a bit tense, darling." Loid whispered, the low rumble of his voice filling your skull.
You placed the drink to the side, a delicate gasp escaping your lips as your hands draped around his neck, drawing him closer to whisper in his ear. "What are you doing."
"Showing my wife some affection." Loid's words were a breathy whisper that felt like it was just for you, that is until you heard the tittering among the rich folks, their eyes glued to your every move. "Is that such a bad thing?"
The sudden attention that fell upon the two of you made you feel overwhelmed. This is not what you meant by playing the part. Your breath fanned against his ear as you shuddered by his touch.
Loid continued the playful act, the attention of the elites be damned, he was going to show you off at any cost. He continued to hold you close and trail his kisses from your ear to your mouth before pulling away and gently kissing you on the cheek. As he pulled back a warm smile spread over his face.
"You really are beautiful." he whispered, clearly only talking to you. "I don't give these sorts of compliments often either." He added as an afterthought.
You would have scoffed at his comment if it weren't for the lingering touches of his fingers on your back. This was the first time he had complimented you this evening. You would have questioned his sudden change of behaviour before you noticed the grip of the fingers on your waist had tightened, in a way that implied danger. Your mouth almost felt dry with the way he gazed at you. You weren't sure where or who the danger was but you decided to trust Loid's instincts.
Your fingers gradually ran through his hair as your lips grazed his. The pleading look you gave him nearly sent him over the edge.
Loid took a sharp breath in through his nose. He had to steady himself so he wouldn't act on his... impulses but by God if you didn't see the pure lust in his eyes he may have just lost control.
From the corner of your eye, you detected the hurried movement within the crowd. You were right, someone was watching you and they were getting closer. The uneasiness heaving of you chest didn't calm you down, instead you glanced at Loid, as if waiting for his response.
The smile on his face disappearing as he took one final look at the crowd. He had long before observed the movements in hopes that his little charade would distract them.
He spoke in a hushed whisper. "Darling, we have to go." His voice was calm, reassuring even, but the steely glint in his eyes left no doubt about the danger that was approaching. With you in tow, he took your hand and started weaving his way through the crowd, clearly headed for an exit.
The three people, armed heavily, emerged from the crowd as the rich people scattered in terror, screams and shouts echoed within the hall. With that cue, Loid's hold on your hand now steady as his legs carried him forwards. Your body being forced to be pulled along with him. A couple of staggers and stumbles from your side had slowed him down. He stopped abruptly, head twisting to you.
"Its my dress, I can't run in it." you replied to his silent question. With a nod, he swept you up and continued to run. He picked up the pace, taking twists and turns until he managed to lose the pursuers, only stopping once you were out of sight.
"Jesus Christ..." He hissed, his breathing ragged as he lowered you to the ground before getting down beside you. "You could have told me about the dress."
"Really?! You could have told me about the pursuers!?" you yelled, clearly you were kept in the dark here. Your fingers nit-picked at the fabric of your dress as it clung to your skin.
"That's a fair point I suppose." He got to his feet and held a hand down to help you up. "Come on, there's an exit right here and it's close enough to a safe house where we can lay low while I figure out what their next move is." He spoke as if he was reciting a script, as if all of this was a regular thing to him.
Your brows furrowed heavily, taking a couple of steps backwards. "Who are you?" you asked. This person almost seemed like a stranger to you now. For all you know, his name might not even be real.
"Huh?" Loid paused briefly, but then his expression hardened, upon hearing the pursuers getting closer.
"I can't tell you that." Loid's patience was running scarce, as if he was in a rush to be out of here.
"The less you know about me right now, the better." He added, sounding almost... apologetic?
You could see it now, the truth behind his fake smile. The carefully crafted persona that he showed to the world, the one that hid his real self so perfectly. The grasp of his arms around your waist and alarmed sounds of gun shots brought you back to reality.
"Hold tight." was all he said for you to understand. His breath staggered with every twist he took, to lure them away. The car coming in sight with his line of vision. He turned to you, warm breath fanning at your temple.
"The car keys." he nicked his head to his pockets, gesturing for you to pick them out. You glanced up at him in surprise, face clearly etched with confusion. Yet you didn't waste any time, directing your hands into his pockets. You rummaged through, not being able feel the keys but however grabbing onto something else.
Loid let out a grunt, catching you by surprise. "The...other pocket..." he breathed as your ears blushed red. You hurriedly searched the other side, in hopes to feel the cold metal so that you could excuse yourself from this moment immediately. Without a word, you unlocked the car.
He carefully set you down into the passenger seat before he himself slipped into the drivers seat, pressing onto the gas immediately. You braced yourself forwards, catching yourself in time.
Loid glanced over to you before his eyes were back on the road. "Seatbelt, darling."
You growled silently, shifting to click the seatbelt in place as his foot hit the gas, the sudden acceleration causing you to gasp and your heart to skip a beat. The screeching of the tyres and the roaring of the engine were both muffled as Loid slammed it into the first open road, his attention glued to the road.
"Loid!" You shouted, the shock in your voice barely covering the terror. In an instant, the car was hurtling down the street, swerving around cars as it continued to speed away.
"You have some explaining to do, Loid." You huffed, grasping onto the side as you struggled to calm your nerves.
You questions were drowned out by the sounds of the engine and the squealing of the tires but he didn't seem to care as he kept his eyes on the road, pushing the car to his absolute limits.
After what felt like an eternity, the car finally reached a safe house on the outskirts of town, only to stop with a sudden screech of the brakes as Loid stopped the car. Before you could complain any further he killed the engine.
"Let's calm down and talk, okay?" Loid said in a soothing voice, his head turned to the side to meet your eyes.
Your eyes were closed for a moment, and you took a deep breath before nodding.
"Okay, first things first, are you hurt anywhere?" He asked, a hint of anxiety clearly present in his voice. "Anything that needs immediate attention?" he was already reaching toward glove box, getting ready to get his first aid-kit even without an answer.
"I'm fine." You replied after taking the time to make sure no injuries escaped your notice. When he reached for the first-aid kit, a raised eyebrow was all you showed, a silent question of why he was so worried. "I'm not the one who just pulled a James Bond." You quipped, leaning back against the seat.
When you received silence, you glanced at him in concern. You glanced over to his arm, which had seemed to be bleeding. "You're hurt."
"It's just a scratch." Loid said, but his words were unconvincing. There was no denying that there was a fair bit of blood leaking from the wound but he made no move to treat it.
You frowned, feeling that there was more here than he was leading on and once again voiced your concern.
"Loid, we need to look at that."
You grabbed the kit from his lap, hushing him from any refusal. His breath became more ragged as you rolled up his sleeves. Your eyes widened in surprise and all the air that had been filling your lungs escaped through your open mouth in a gasp as you reveal a bullet wound in his shoulder.
The reality of the situation hit you like a truck. People are trying to kill this man.
Loid's expression was unreadable, his face as neutral as always despite the bullet wound in his shoulder. Without a word, he allowed you to treat his wound. His eyes were focused on you the entire time, analysing every movement you made. You weren't sure if it was out of concern or if it was something else, but either way it made you feel just a little bit uncomfortable under his watch.
He flinched slightly once you began treating the wound, clearly the pain was agonizing but he said nothing more. Your brows furrowed as you finished, frustration and worry displayed on your features.
“You need to calm down.” his hand reached over to yours, stopping it from shaking.
You huffed, unlocking the door of the car as you walked out barefoot.
Loid seemed caught off guard by the sudden turn of events. You could see a faint flash of confusion before he quickly collected himself and got out of the car, standing tall with his feet shoulder's length apart. His one undamaged arm folded across his front as he stared with narrow eyes, watching you walk away.
Your brow furrowed with determination at the sheer nerve of the man. His silence, his cool demeanour, it made your heart pound in your chest even now. With no further words, you began the walk into the house, completely forgetting about your heels.
You could feel the his eyes on you the entire time, his gaze burning a hole in your back.
As you reached the front entrance of the house, you began to twist the door knob in hopes for it to open. When the door didn't budge, it just added to your frustration. The calming footsteps from behind you made you freeze in place.
The sound of the keys dangling from his hands made you move to the side without sparing him a glance.
When you turned, you found Loid right behind you, the key already inserted into the door with an unreadable expression on his face. His eyes seemed to be watching you like an eagle from the side.
he turned the keys in the lock and pushed the door open before taking your hand and gently steering you inside.
The door shut quietly behind you. As you stepped inside the house you saw that it was small but cosy, it was the perfect place to lay low for a few days
Just as he was about to lock it, you ripped your hand away from his grasp and stood before him, your hand on your hip as you spoke, your head not quite at eye level with his.
"Explain." You demanded.
You fell onto the chair and watched him walk up to you, a frown deep on your face as you were unsure what kind of tactic he was trying to employ now.
Once again, his movements managed to catch you off guard as he slowly kneeled and faced you, staring into your eyes as they shifted between his for an answer.
"What do you want to know?" He asked, his voice soft, almost as if he cared.
"Everything..." the anger and frustration in your voice vanished, just tired of being kept in the dark. You just wanted answers. He let out a soft sigh, taking a hold of your hands and creasing his thumb along.
"If you must know, I'm a spy..for WISE."
The eye contact you two shared, unwavering. "To be completely honest, I only approached you because of my mission."
You retracted your hand from his, the words he spoke sounded like they pained him greatly, but he knew it had to be done.
"I see” Your eyes were focused on your fists that were curled up on your lap, betrayal evident in your voice though you tried to hide it. You could feel a lump growing in your throat as the reality of the situation settled into your brain but you did not break eye contact, desperately trying to see if there was more to this lie.
"What was the reason for seducing me? What is it that you want?" You demanded, a slight crack in your voice giving away just how hurt you were at the moment.
Loid held your gaze, his eyes filled with pity as you fought back tears. He could tell what this revelation had done to you, he cared! If he didn't, he would have walked away the moment he got the chance, but he wasn't like that. No, he cared too damn much, maybe even more than you thought he did.
"The mission..." He sighed as if having to fight his own emotions, "Was to gain access to your father's company." He let out another sigh, the guilt still apparent in his tone. "...That's it."
"You have to understand that it was nothing personal. You were- you're just a target. A means to an end." His words grew more and more stern as he spoke, his face growing colder as he went. "I had no choice."
The tears threatened to spill from your eyes as you listened to him. A lowly chuckle from your end as he finished. You got up from your seat without saying any words and slowly made your way to the bedroom.
"(Y/n) wait." his voice echoed within the room. You stopped, pressing your lips into a thin line.
This was the first time he actually used your name. Something you never noticed before until now. You turned on your heels, tears staining your face.
"What?!" you yelled, "So that you can remind me that it was all a lie? What you said you felt for me? What you made me feel?" Your lips trembled, before you exhaled a shaking breath, chuckling. "I mean, of course it was. Who am I kidding?"
Loid stepped closer, his hands slowly reaching for your chin, his eyes meeting yours. The gaze was unbearable to you so you looked away.
"(Y/n)," a pause, "look at me, darling" he spoke, desperation in his voice.
"I felt something for you."
You froze once more upon hearing him use your name, the word seemed to have more meaning to it now than it ever had before. You let out a shaky breath as you took a moment to process what you just heard.
Your confusion was palpable as you paused for a moment before you asked. "Wh-what?" You fumbled, your voice small and quiet as you looked at him once again. He was being honest with you.
He sighed and looked away. "Things are complicated." He explained in a hushed voice. "I'm a spy, my life is not my own, I don't get to choose who I love."
"I can't change what I've done, but I can try and make up for it." And like an involuntary reflex, his thumb brushed over your bottom lip in a gentle stroke that made your heart flutter. "I know my words mean nothing to you now, but I can prove it... I want to make this up to you..."
Loid moved his face closer, "I want to... love you for real."
"How do I know you're not only saying this for the mission? How can I trust you?" you wanted to, truly, especially with the way he was looking at you right now. The way his touch made you feel.
"You can't." Loid answered, a solemn look in his eyes as the reality of your predicament finally hit you. "That's the curse of falling for a spy, isn't it?" He chuckled dryly, trying to sound optimistic but in truth he knew there was no way he could do that right now.
"But... I want to make you trust me." He continued, his eyes piercing into yours. "Can you give me that chance?" He questioned, his lips just an inch from your face right now.
Your hot breath fanned against his lips, as you neared him. You knew you shouldn't, you knew it could have been another one of his lies, tricks, ways to manipulate you. But, even it was just this one time, you wanted to give in. Just this once.
Your hands resting on his chest when your lips connected. Everything that had led up to this moment, the lies and the deception, was thrown out the window as Loid brought you in closer. It was soft....and warm...and felt so right.... You let yourself indulge in the kiss as the rest of the world seemed to melt away between you two.
Loid finally broke the kiss, his breath heavy as he gasped for air.
When he did, he stared deeply into your eyes for a few moments before he finally spoke.
"That's proof." He whispered as his voice trembled, his thumb still resting against you face as though savouring the moment. "That's proof it's all real."
A/n: also I guess you could tell by the end I kinda gave up… I might write a smut continuation on this so hang on tight or smth. Or not if this doesn’t get enough likes..haha…
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