#sometimes it feels like everyone else is getting everything they want in terms of romance except for me

[spicymushroomz]

Baby, I’m Jealous

Sebastian Sallow x Ravenclaw!GN!Reader

Synopsis: You get asked out by a guy from Ravenclaw and a certain brunette is not happy at all

Not Proofread

All Characters aged up to 18.

Word Count: 1056

Warnings: Jealousy, not historically accurate, Sebastian is aware of readers feelings, no use of y/n, use of an oc love rival, rushed pacing, making out, probably bad writing.

Author’s Note: Omg im so sorry for not posting. Ive been rlly stressed and dealing with #issues lately so im so very sorry. Please enjoy this little sebastian sallow fic (p.s. I might make this into an actual fleshed out fic if y’all enjoy this!)

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Well, this was certainly an unusual day.

You sat down at the Slytherin table to eat with Ominis and Sebastian like usual, talking about various gossip going around lately, and discussing what shenanigans you might get up to later.

“No Sebastian, I am not sneaking into Scribner’s desk to find her weird demented romance books.” Said Ominis sternly.

“But Ominis! It’s for the greater good!” Pleaded Sebastian as you giggled at the two of their antics.

You had started hanging out with them after Sebastian showed you the Undercroft. 2 years back, even after all you went through, you stuck by each other. After these 2 years, it was no surprise you were in love with Sebastian. Even from the beginning you thought he was gorgeous, and Sebastian wouldn’t have it any other way.

You see, Sebastian had been aware of your little crush since the day he showed you the undercroft. He saw the blush on your face as he taught you confringo. He thought you looked great when you were flustered. It’s why for the past few weeks he’s been teasing you, whispering softly in your ear, fleeting touches, and sometimes you could’ve sworn you caught him staring at you. (Not that he would admit that anyways)

You desperately hoped he would ask you out, but as the days went by that hope dwindled. You couldn’t really blame him though, especially because he was trying so hard to look for a cure for his Sister, Anne.

You silently resigned yourself to a quiet, single life forever. Or at least, until you got over Sebastian. (Which might as well be forever)

Which is what leads us to this very strange, peculiar day. As Sebastian continued to plead with Ominis to go steal Scribner’s weird romance books, they failed to notice Dmitri Lockhart, another 7th year in Ravenclaw.

You met him on your first day, he was kind, if not a little cocky, and mostly everyone liked him. Apparently, he was the Ravenclaw Quidditch Team’s beater. You thought he was fairly handsome, with his toned body, fluffy blonde hair, and piercing blue eyes. However you didn’t think he held a candle to Sebastian in terms of looks.

He sauntered over to the Slytherin Table, sliding in next to you.

“Hey there, [name].” He greeted.

“Hey Dmitri.” You greeted back. Sebastian clenched his jaw, his eyes lingering on how Dmitri’s arm was touching yours.

“So listen, I was thinking that maybe we could-well maybe we could go to Hogsmeade sometime this weekend?” He asked, stuttering a little bit. You were impressed by his straightforwardness but you wanted to refuse. As sweet as the boy was, you would rather hang out with Sebastian.

Which speaking of, was seething with jealousy. How dare Dmitri think he can just saunter over here and ask you out, especially because that’s what Sebastian was planning to do.

Sebastian looked at you, the faint blush on your cheeks made you look ravishing. What he wouldn’t give to kiss you there and then. But then this guy had to come over and make everything difficult. Sebastian knew that in the end it was your decision, so he just had to sit there and take it.

You smiled softly at Dmitri, and let him down gently. “I’m sorry Dmitri, but I’m afraid I already have feelings for someone else.” You said, glancing at Sebastian.

Dmitri nodded. “That can’t be helped then, sorry [name] see you later.” He said, getting up and walking back to the Ravenclaw table.

Sebastian smirked smugly. Of course you chose him over Dmitri, you were smart after all. He looked at you with dark eyes, like at any moment he would gobble you up.

“Excuse us Ominis, me and [name] need to go have a private discussion.” said Sebastian, leaving the table and gesturing for you to come with him.

Ominis sighed, hoping that whatever you guys were going to do, you would at least save some space for Jesus.

Sebastian dragged you out of the great hall and into a small corridor nearby.

“Where are we going?” You asked, excited. Sebastian looked at you with hungry eyes.

“[Name], I’m in love with you.” You turned red. This was not what you were expecting. You had no time to process before he hit you with a blunt question. “May I kiss you?” He asked frantically, his eyes fleeting from your lips to your eyes.

You were even more shocked, your brain short circuiting but still managing a small nod.

Sebastian wasted no time. Hungrily, he dove for a taste of your lips. He was like a starved man, having a meal for the first time in a month. He couldn’t get enough. He ravished you, not letting you come up for air for what felt like hours. His hands had wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him.

He needed you closer to him. You drove him crazy, everything about you. From your lips, to your eyes, to the perfect shape of your body, everything. Everything about you was perfect for him.

When you finally looked at eachother, out of breath from the kissing, you were an utter mess. Dazed, and in a state of bliss you had no idea if this was real or the best dream you’ve ever had.

“I love you.” said Sebastian softly, “I always have.”

Realizing this was all real, and not some strange dream, you replied. “I love you too, I always will.”

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Author: I know this is cringy, but I have been craving just a cringy little fic lately. It’s also nice to ease me back into writing after a short break.

#hogwarts legacy #literature #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow x mc #sebastian sallow x reader #oc #fanfic

[da-birb-writes-sometimes]

Hi, I discovered your writing today and I loved it. So I wanted to request the frist years with a partner who is gender fluid.

First Years With a Genderfluid Partner

Characters; Ace Trappola, Deuce Spade, Jack Howl, Epel Felmier, Sebek Zigvolt

Content; Genderfluid reader (I don't use pronouns though, since everyone's experience is different), fluff, crack, romance, some implications that strangers are rude but not in detail

Word Count; 600+

Author's Note; Sorry that these are pretty short anon (brain is being mean), but I hope that you enjoy!

Ace Trappola

He’s still a little imp, regardless of everything else. But he’s perceptive. He notices the small things; and he’ll reaffirm you as well.

“Huh, they’re not all that bright if they can’t see that you’re obviously the coolest person around,” he’d scoff. “I mean, my dad only allows me one gender- OW WHY DID YOU HIT ME?!”

But he would say things like that, but he does in fact think you are the coolest person around. 

He does take mental notes; of what terms make you happy (pronouns and pet names), what clothing makes you comfortable, and more. No, he doesn’t keep a little notebook, but he has it memorized. 

Deuce Spade

Always checks in to make sure that you’re comfortable; he doesn’t want to screw up, even if it’s something you may consider small. He’s just trying his best and wants you to be happy.

“Wait, do I call you my boyfriend, girlfriend, joyfriend, partner? I want to make sure that you’re okay with it.” He asks that question pretty often, since he wants to make sure that you’re okay with it; you always come first.

He learns more about your identity, only because he’s curious and feels that he needs to do so. Please tell him to put the books down and just come and hang out.

Well-meaning but a little too gung-ho. He just doesn’t want to mess up, but he also wants you to be happy. 

Jack Howl

The most normal of the group; he likes you for you and nothing changes really. He’ll touch in though, making sure that you’re comfortable.

He would let you (within reason) try out some hairstyles or makeup that you want to try out on him. He doesn’t really mind, plus sometimes it takes looking at someone else to realize that that look is indeed a look and a great one at that.

Jack is a pretty large guy, so if you’re smaller than him he raises a brow at you stealing his clothes. But if you’re larger than him? He might wear one of your outfits (he likes lowkey matching outfits couples do).

Super understanding if you have ‘blah’ days, and will let you vent to him. He may not have much to say, but he’s there when you need him.

Scary dog privilege #1

Epel Felmier

He would come to learn more about your identity throughout your friendship before the two of you started dating. May have messed up here and there at the start, but not anymore.

The accent will be coming out if someone is being rude towards you, and Epel doesn’t care if he gets scolded or not; no one treats you rudely and gets away with it.

Pomefiore also helps him understand that gender is a spectrum; nothing is wholey masculine or feminine, that they blur, and that blurring is beautiful. 

“Pardner” is one of his go-to endearments; you’re his partner (in both the romantic, but also if either of you feel like committing felonies).

Scary dog privilege #1.5 (scary like a very yappy pomeranian way)

Sebek Zigvolt

Sebek definitely knows a few people who are genderfluid back in Briar Valley; fae live for a long time, so playing with gender is pretty normal. He commends you for being honest with yourself.

Now, he is putty in your hands, absolutely WHIPPED for you. You thought the praise he was singing for Malleus was bad? Well, multiply that by fifty.

But it’s quiet, not shouted. Yes, it is still obvious for anyone to see; the way he holds your hand and looks at you. You are the royal of his heart; his Monarch, King, and Queen.

Would be semi-awkward if the two of you went to a pride event; he just doesn’t know what to really do. He's having fun, just awkward.

Scary Dog Privilege #2

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#twst #twst x reader #twst x genderfluid reader #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland x genderfluid reader #ace trappola #ace trappola x reader #ace trappola x genderfluid reader #deuce spade #deuce spade x reader #deuce spade x genderfluid reader #jack howl #jack howl x reader #jack howl x genderfluid reader #epel felmier #epel felmier x reader #epel felmier x genderfluid reader #sebek zigvolt #sebek zigvolt x reader #sebek zigvolt x genderfluid reader #also sorry this took me a bit anon (was sent in on October 18th) #but as a fellow 'gender is my playground to play with' person i hope this is okay #genderfluid reader #i highly suggest playing with gender btw; it's a lot of fun

[aka-indulgence]

Do you have any thoughts/headcanons for buckshot roulette themed au for skeletons or just in general just headcanon for the dealer?

OH MAN DO I

(these are gonna be about og dealer because i gotta fixation rn sjhf)

Strong, stable hands. Calloused hands. Dextrous hands. But can crush a can of beer. Good for hand holding… they’re warm

Teeth fall out and regrow like a shark’s would (might give them to you because he’s not all caught up on romance customs kdjfg)

Outside of his face and hands, he has a nebulous, vague body, but he can choose to have a humanoid body (He’d like using his humanoid body around you,,,)

Big chest. Big broad chest you can sleep on. He wants you to sleep on him like he’s your personal bed,

Mobster-themed outfits, naturally… (personally I love suspenders the most)

He really ‘dies’ when he loses the third round, but he always comes back. Just takes a while after he’s been shot 9+ times…

Smells like a casino

Has 0 tolerance for cheaters (because who doesn’t love a fair dealer who can turn into an angry monster?)

Pretty good at disguising his anger whenever he gets shot. But you can tell from the way his finger and mouth twitches, how eager he is when grabbing the shotgun. Especially on the third round, he seems all too happy to point that muzzle on the player with gleeful hatred on his face

I assume in canon the two red dots in the end are some sort of mechanic… robo… thing…(???) but I really like the idea of a red glow when he loses/feels a strong emotion, in short bursts. Sometimes, looking at you…

(I like imagining that you either work for him or work at the club he’s lingers in)

He doesn’t need anyone to nurse him to life after he dies. But he likes having you do it, wiping his blood and patching him up… likes seeing a pretty face while he recovers. Holds onto you while you fix him up. Stares… a lot.

He likes smelling you. Nose is used for sniffing cute humans

Gentle with his ‘kissing’. Because of his teeth it’s more like a very careful nuzzle… don’t want to nick you with his knife-teeth.

He wouldn’t want you to play the game. He’d actively dissuade you, but won’t stop you if you’re persistent.

When he’s pointing at you and it’s a live, it always misses, somehow. He acts like it’s a mistake- but everyone knows the Dealer doesn’t miss.

He likes it when you squeak every time a live misses you. He also likes that you look hesitant every time you point it at him… but always reminds you its the game.

Usually the more he’s shot the angrier and moodier he gets, the more he wants to make sure the player stays dead.

But when he’s playing with you, it’s more like… he’s shows off that even though he’s bleeding. Smiles at you after he gets back up

If you saw him play against anyone else… it’s obvious he wasn’t playing normally with you. You’re not his usual player…

Picks you up like a potato sack

100000% purrs because I’m indulgent that way. Sounds more like a truck engine

Also in terms of Sans AUs? HMF!Sans fits the role the most, and if it was an au, everything I wrote above applies to him heheheh

#buckshot roulett #dealer buckshot roulette #look i gotta get the thoughts out #or else im gonna be eaten by my fixation dkjfgh #i like the idea of hmf as dealer in an au #i also like dealer as dealer #ask #also man is there like a #dealer buckshot roulette x dealer #tag????? #the dealer x reader #dealer ask

[loops-n-boops]

Seed Dump!!

after a little unexpected turn to a DC hyperfixation that lasted roughly two weeks I'm back to my farcry shit (the usual) so imma give y'all a three for one, John doodles, Seed playlists and hcs in one post,, take your juice

Jacob Seed:

listens to cheesy love songs and some rock and metal

Most think John swears the most but that's a lie, it's him. Whenever Joseph isn't around he'll throw a "fuck this" every now and then

likes adult coloring books and crossword puzzles

if Joseph asks a favor that doesn't involve strength he always goes "I volunteer Johnny"

He opens doors for John and goes "ladies first"

can and will tackle John to the ground and yell "say uncle". He does all the annoying older brother shit idc

Tends to fight with Joseph. They always fought back and forth. As kids it was about how Joseph wouldn't 'man up'. Now it's about how he treats John, not knowing Joseph's been manipulating him to stay this whole time too

So in the past I hc that he's gay, I feel he struggles to come to terms with that. To this day he still is under the impression that it's wrong and makes him look soft, so he still tries to act like he doesn't

Rants to the judges. He is waits until he knows he's alone with the alpha of the pack and just dumps everything he has in his mind. That dog knows things no one else knows

His friendship with Eli in the past was a good one. It reminded him too much of his friendship with Miller (minus the possible secret romance part). They had similar inside jokes, Eli playfully punched him the same way Miller did. He hated it. He still hates it

Jacob is much more of a listener than a talker but prefers surrounding himself with people who talk a lot

Joseph Seed

Joseph doesn't hate John. He's hard on John so he learns. Johns become their father in Joseph's eyes and is making sure to shape him up. However he doesn't realize how terrible he's being to him as he does so.

His biggest fear is being alone. To combat that he almost subconsciously manipulates people to stay with him. He doesn't want to hurt them, but if he doesn't they'll leave. He'll be alone again

As a child Joseph wanted to be an author. He had notebooks filled with vibrant stories he made up in his head. Once a teenager though he found an interest in baking. Him and his wife's date nights consisted of them playing music as they tried a random recipe they found. It was a piece of happiness he never had as a child. They wanted to save money and open a bakery together. Still, to this day, Joseph gathers ingredients on Friday nights and bakes.

Has a heavy preference for Jacob. The man was with him the longest, helped him the most. It isn't that he doesn't love John, but he's detached. John wasn't there as long as Jacob was. John was raised by different people.

He hates winter. Winter was when Faith taken from him. He won't enter any vehicle. He won't go outside much. He hates it.

Puts everyone before himself. He could have not eaten at all that day but he will still be sure to make sure everyone else has. He will forget to eat unless someone else tells him to

His favorite song is Little Lies by Fleetwood Mac and whenever he hears it he gets a boost of happiness. He knows every word.

I don't care what anyone says, I think he's shockingly the worst with kids. He can't handle the tantrums, they stress him out. He doesn't yell or hit but he completely shuts down and won't really react

Doesn't put his hair down often. He sleeps with it down but beyond that? It's always up. Usually in a bun, but sometimes he'll go ponytail.

When angry he tends to quietly glare. He tells from time to time yeah, but he more often will glare at whoever upset him. A look that basically says 'you know what you did'

Hes actually much more of an introvert than people may think. He doesn't like being alone but that doesn't make him an extrovert. His idea on a relaxing day is sitting in a room with his brothers where they all do their own thing but they don't speak much. Comfortable silence. The idea that they're there makes him happy, and the fact that they can indulge in their own hobbies without judgment makes him even happier

John Seed

Much more of a talker than a listener. This makes him and Jacob a good pairing since he would talk a lot and Jacob would smile and listen.

He despises fast food. He tried it once and declared it as the grossest thing to every touch his mouth. He's also definitely the pickiest eater in general. He hates most seafood, broccoli, brussel sprouts, fast food, pizza if it's too greasy, chicken if there's too much tendon, the flavor of mashed potatoes and steak together but he'll eat it on separate occasions. He was picky as a kid and he's still picky as an adult

Actually needs glasses but will not wear them. Luckily he has contacts. However one time he lost one and had to wear his glasses and his chosen were staring at him confused. He needed them since he was little but he never got the appointment when he was with his brothers. Jacob did notice him squinting a lot. Joseph only had glasses because he got his prescription years ago (but they should've been renewed)

He went to religious schools from second grade onward. I'm talking the ones with uniforms and all your teachers are nuns. There's so many pictures of little John with one of those school uniforms and dorky glasses and a big smile.

Speaking of which I believe he was the cutest kid out of all of them. He had big ol doe eyes and got excited over everything. Joseph and Jacob used to call him sunshine when he was young because no matter how miserable and dark the world was around him he always was a happy little boy. He was bright, loving, innocent. An absolute sweetheart in his youth. He was the kid that waved to strangers on the street, his go to form of affection was hugs, and he comforted his brothers when they were upset despite not understanding why they were even upset.

The Duncan's viewed Johns innocent nature as why he was a tainted soul. He didn't understand accountability and the idea that not everyone was good confused him. They had to teach him. Besides, the Duncan's weren't too good themselves.

His adoptive parents were Henry and Amelia Duncan. They adopted John due to Amelia's infertility. John was the youngest there and was promising so they chose him not knowing they were taking a broken boy and breaking him beyond recognition. Johns obvious mental illness also made them feel he needed to be shaped. They were the type of people that thought praying could solve everything. John barely saw doctors, he never got therapy, and when they found out their son was bisexual they threatened to send him away.

However, Henry's mother: Evelyn loved John for who he is was. Accepted her little grandson. Henry's family was large, the man having four brothers and a sister. John was the baby, all of his newly adopted cousins being older than him. Not a lot of them were good, John wasn't even that good, but Evelyn had a clear preference for John, always calling him her angel. (I have too many Duncan hcs I'll stop there)

Johns behavior first began to plumiit near his sophomore year of high-school. He got a stick and poke tattoo when he was too young to have one from a friend. It did get infected but that was fine for him. It was a taste of freedom. A taste of freedom he never had in the past. He wanted a taste of the freedom of adulthood and was willing to rush his adolescence to get that. By the time he was a senior the little angel people knew and loved died, and in his place was a cold hearted snake that lacked any form of remorse for what he did. All he cared for was his own amusement.

As a boy he drew a lot, he quickly discovered art was something he enjoyed. He drew pictures of him and his brothers, but when he lived in Atlanta their faces started to become blurry. Were Joseph's eyes blue or were they green? Who was taller, Joseph or Jacob? What didn't help was the Duncan's wanted every aspect of Johns life before them to not exist. They tried convincing him that they weren't his family and that they hated him. They made him go into speech therapy to force his rural accent to go away. They didn't adopt a son, they adopted a pet.

I'll do a little softer one for the end: Johns secretly a bit of a hopeless romantic. He's always been fond of the idea of romance. He loves cheesy rom-coms, he reads romance books. All of it. Hes well aware that a romantic relationship is something he'll never have, but it doesn't hurt to wish for one. He falls too quickly, but then gets scared when he has to be vulnerable. He has issues, he's not a good person. His issues will scare everyone away. He has no chance. A part of him envies his brothers: Joseph for having a marriage and Jacob for clearly not being interested in romance at all. But some nights, he doesn't care. He'll grab a DVD player and watch his silly little romantic comedy movies (or say yes to the dress if he's feeling something dramatic) and will eat half a bag of gummy bears

#far cry 5 #fanart #john seed #joseph seed #jacob seed #headcanons #sketches #fc5 #doodle

[xerith-42]

What do you think of the handling for Aaron and aphmaus romance? I know a lot of people who hate it and a lot who love it

Take everything I say here with a grain of salt as my feelings on their romance are bound to change once I actually get to Season 2 in my rewatch/breakdown. I'm mostly speaking from memory here.

As it is now, I'm very disappointed by their romance. While there is wasted potential left and right in Minecraft Diaries, never is it more egregious to me than when looking at Aaron. His introduction into the series in episode 67 is great because it's so fucking vague that the creators can take him literally anywhere they want. And in episode 91 my beloved he gets reintroduced and has it slapped onto his character in equally vague terms that he has beef with Zane.

And even though he doesn't get much else in Season 1, hell he's barely graduated from being a "hot mysterious stranger" as the description of episode 92 describes him, I like where they can take his character. Who knows what atrocities Zane has committed to make him willing to fight Zane to the extent that he is. The problems start when we find out the truth as to why Aaron wants to kill Zane.

Aaron is given so much potential with his backstory and deep connection to the conflict with Zane, but it never really goes... Anywhere. And that's because of the vector in which both Aphmau and the viewer are shown his backstory. In Season 2 episode 42 Aphmau just gets shown Aaron's back story because something something Irene's relic, and it is NEVER EXPLAINED. Because the creators don't actually want to explain it, or even care beyond something something Irene's relic. It doesn't matter how, just that she did.

And this takes away a lot of potential from Aaron because he isn't given the choice to open up about what happened in Falcon Claw on his own. He doesn't get to tearfully tell Aphmau in gory detail what Zane took away from him. There's nothing but his anger that she knows after she's already seen it. And this sucks, because we really could have had a moment of the two bonding here, of Aaron opening up about something he's been understandably cagey about, of Aphmau showing him love and empathy in his time of grief.

I know a lot of people parrot the phrase "Show don't tell" but god dammit sometimes it's best to tell. Sometimes it's worse to be shown. This is one of those moments where Aaron should have been allowed to just be standing in the ruins of Falcon Claw, heard Aphmau come up behind him, and try to push her away. Tell her it's just an old village he found in the woods. And Aphmau can then very calmly and tenderly ask "Then why do you sound like you're about to cry?"

This could have lead to Aphmau comforting Aaron during a difficult moment and solidly establishing a real palpable connection between the two. But instead Aphmau is just shown Aaron's tragic backstory, and then they start romancing each other right after. I don't object to this romance happening, I just would've liked for them to have a little more to go off of. I would've liked Aaron willingly opening himself up to Aphmau and that being the vector for their eventual romance.

And obviously I want this romance to happen NOT at the expense of Garroth and Laurance's characters. I want this romance to happen unexpectedly for everyone, but for Aphmau to be able to actually explain why she and Aaron love each other, especially after his death. Aphmau is a character who has never been allowed to explain her romantic feelings, which is fine if you never plan on pairing her with anyone, but having her ship teased with two people and then enter an explicit romance with another and still NEVER go into details about it is just bad writing.

TLDR: Aarmau angers me because I can see where it could have been a good couple but Jesson had to do a Jesson and be bad at writing.

#minecraft diaries #text post #aphblr #aphmau #mcd aphmau #mcd aaron #mcd #aaron lycan #aarmau #answering asks

[kusuokisser]

oomf reblogged a bunch of aro stuff and in honor of pride hour (i made it the fuck up Dont ask me any questions i dont talk to paparazzi) i want to talk about MYYY experience being arospec because it is Isolating and even if this reaches literally no one id rather at least have tried to share my feelings. Spreading love! 💝

growing up i very quickly realized that i wasnt getting crushes like the other kids were. as early as second grade i started trying to force myself to like the boys in my class. id, like, look around the classroom at the start of every new school year and look for the next boy to have a "crush" on. It sounds kind of funny looking back but like i remember how desperate i felt doing it. i remember one year i genuinely hated every boy in my class with a burning passion and, if nothing else, i remember the feeling of being wrong. i, a 4th (maybe 3rd?) grader, felt isolated and gross because i couldnt force a crush for a year.

i had known none of the other ones were really crushes, but it wasnt the romance i wanted it was the connections. i wanted to be able to join the girls talking about their crushes and i wanted to have a reason to try talking to boys; i wanted to be liked.

in 6th grade i think was the first time i didnt try to force a crush. i dont remember much from that year but i know that i didnt feel good. youd think that, as an arospec, i would have enjoyed the break from faking romance but at that point i didnt understand that my feelings werent quite real. i knew they werent like everyone elses, but i really wanted them to be even if it meant lying a bit to myself on the way. i felt wrong and weird.

in seventh grade that was when covid hit and everyone was quarentined, and also that is the year that holds my worlds most obvious example of my aromanticism ever. genuinely think back to this and go "how didnt i figure it out sooner"

i convinced myself i had a crush on my at-the-time best friend. there was no crush by the way, i judt knew i liked him more than all my other friends and to my socially deprived brain that meant it had to be romantic right? well he didnt like me back and literally i went, watched like two YouTube videos on something or other, and was over it. because the feelings were never genuine. it was never love it was a desire to be close with someone

8th grade was the first time i actually fell in love. by then i had figured out im a lesbian, and i met this girl named Jane. She was literally everything you could want in a girl and i fell HARRDDDDDDD i was so in love dont even. but I found that my capacity to love her fluxuated. the love was always there, but some days it was more platonic than anything. sometimes thr platonic periods would stretch for weeks. sometimes it would switch between platonic and romantic multiple times a day. it confused me and honestly? it scared me a lot. i distanced myself from her and eventually we broke up (for seperate reasons but this def contributed)

that really messed with me because now i was left with two understandings: i can definitely experience romantic attraction, and the romantic attraction can change at the drop of a hat.

after a lott of time and research i finally realized and accepted that im aromanticflux (will go into detail if necessary) and you know what? it didn't make me feel better. if anything it made me feel worse; i felt like such an asshole for getting in a relationship if it was always going to end.

now i am. Still coming to terms with my identity but i am learning to love and be kind to myself. the point of this whole thing is. youre never alone. there are eight billion people on earth, at least one of them is going through the exact same thing as you right now. you are not any less of a person because of your attraction or lack thereof

#Mimi gets serious wtfff #gross never do it again #faun talks about something other than saiki??? #aromantic #aroace #aromantism #arospec #Umm how do you even tag this #If it finds you it finds you. Love yourself ☺️💝

[andsheoverthinks]

on femcels and women's right to be horny (and have feelings in general)

i understand how being voluntarily celibate can be empowering especially for het women, but both men and women are in denial and believe women cannot be involuntarily celibate, even though the person who started the term was a woman named Alana. unfortunately now Alana's movement isn't about shy late bloomers, it's about stupid misogynist hateful serial killer rapist men. i hate that they took this term away from women.

why does everyone talk about Elliot Rodger but not Christine Chubbuck? why is a hateful misogynist serial killer tragic and overanalyzed and moralized and even worshipped while a sad, lonely woman who killed herself unimportant? in fact, many of the comments on a post about her suicide call her ugly or a horrible person, or worse, say they want to see the video, even asking where they can watch it. women's pain isn't real, it's just entertainment.

the way people talk about women's experience of romance and sexuality is very isolating for me. there's this belief that all women are swimming in dick and lusty DMs and men willing to drop everything for us and someone asked us to prom in high school and it's not true. i wish we could have more discussions about women who are late bloomers, women who are horny and unwanted and undesirable, women who are seen as below 'normal women' in a patriarchial society. if you aren't desirable, men may not see you as a sexual utility but they will still see you as free therapy, free to offload work on, and a resource to 'practice on' to learn to court and charm 'real women.' men ask for my number to pick my brain and drain me. to ask me to do their thinking and their work for them.

ugly women are invisible. sometimes this invisibility to men (and women) keeps me safe around them. sometimes it makes me want to curl up into a ball and cry because i've felt so inconsequential my whole life. like sometimes people see right through me.

i am not even that fucking ugly! i am black, and i'm flat chested with no ass, and my face is a little asymmetrical, and my top teeth need braces so i have a better bite, but i'm not even that fucking ugly! i dress nice, and i wear makeup (sorry radfems, i'm weaning myself off), and i smell nice! i'm not even that fucking ugly! i have reverse body dysmorphia or something. i look in the mirror when i've feeling like shit, and think wow, i'm actually kind of cute. would i get followers on social media? no. but i'm not even that fucking ugly.

it's deadly to your self-esteem to know that men would fuck anything and you're below anything. you are not just a woman, which is an object, you are a defective object. it's hard to talk about this because people see sexual exploitation as wrong, but don't care about emotional exploitation. when men aren't sexually active, it's a crisis and we have to talk about legalizing prostitution because women are resources not people, when women aren't sexually active, it doesn't matter because women don't have needs and feelings. especially as a black woman, i am expected to give give give. the only reason my body is not one of things i'm expected to give is because no one wants it. everything else? give give give. ever read the giving tree?

and everyone says well if it bothers u so much there has to be a guy willing to fuck you (use you as masturbation sleeve) somewhere in the world! after all u are warm body w pussy someone will come along to use u as blowup sex doll! go on tinder and sell ur body for $3.50 coffee! you want to have mutally enjoyable sex with someone who cares about you and maybe loves you and doesn't just see u as wet holes w legs? fuck you, uppity bitch! no wonder you're single!

u tried asking men out? they said no? well u must have went for 6 foot 9 figures 12 inch dick man? is that right? no? ofc you did, lying bitch!

no one would ever say this shit to a man. keep your head up bro! these hoes ain't loyal! lemme tell u what, take a shower and get a job and the bitches be flocking to u! i was just like u bro, then i met my hot wife! get ur passport and get out this country, these modern women are ran-through bitches, find urself a submissive traditional woman from (insert Slavic or Asian country).

the idea of femcels, especially dissatisfied femcels, makes terminally online men so so angry. because it suggests that women do have feelings and needs. and we shouldn't. femcels are transgressive. we're not supposed to exist. even funnier, it suggests that some of them whining and raving, have actually been turning down perfectly good women who don't fit their porn-informed standards.

if i say i want to have a romantic experience at least once before i die, i'll be told i'm just brainwashed or dick-struck (never seen one in real life) or some other kind of delusional. you don't really need it. you don't really want it. what is with the obsession of forcing women into self-denial? nothing tastes as good as skinny feels! stop fantasizing about getting to have a sloppy makeout session, you don't really want it. of course women are better than men at reducing their carbon footprint, we're used to limiting our consumption.

but it's not true, i fucked myself up already believing i didn't deserve to experience desire and have a sexuality because i was too ugly and you're not pushing me back there again. being horny is my right, i'm human too.

#ranting #femcel #female hysteria #radfem #radfems do touch #i'm not even that fucking ugly #desirability politics #desirability #misogyny #tw suicide

[ya-killin-me-smalls]

how do you feel about purely platonic or character study fics? i feel like theres a great lack of it in the madcom space lol. theres like only one or two authors i know of that dont focus on romance or nsfw (not saying that any of those things are bad btw)

I actually really enjoy platonic dynamics and try to incorporate them even in romance-centric fics. something I've noticed in a lot of fandoms actually is that they either ship everyone with everyone or they have the main couple and they're just. indifferent to everyone else around them

like with the current fic, it's definitely a 2bmos fic but I do wanna expand on the friendship between Deimos and Sanford because there's just so much you can do there when you remove the romantic aspect of sanmos, same for Hank and Doc

I throw the term character study around a lot but really just about everything I've written is a character study of some sort. there are characters and they are in situations and I am studying them throughout the whole story. that said, fics that are JUST platonic character studies are my kryptonite, like of everything I've written I think I enjoyed doing Preposterous the most because platonic 2bmos is such a fun dynamic to work with

I am ranting

anyway caveat to all that is that sometimes you have to write what you wanna see because no one else is gonna get your vision until you show it to them. I see people frequently complaining about one thing or another not getting enough attention in xyz fandom and I'm like. what are you doing about it? because I wanted more 2bmos content and guess what I did about it? I started writing it in hopes that a) I will get lots of nice comments because I'm an attention whore above all else and b) that people will read it and go "oh hey I never thought of that, now I wanna write 2bmos too." fiction is a pyramid scheme in that regard

if you wanna get into writing the stuff that you wanna read and don't know where to start, there's tons of free resources and hundreds of authors including myself that are thrilled to talk about the process and give tips

this answer is unnecessarily long so I'm gonna stop myself here but tldr your brain is so huge and right anon I am biting you /pos

#asks

[nerves-nebula]

For a while due to trauma reasons and probably maybe the tad of the tism, I’ve had problems with romance in general.

I want to do the romantic things, I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach, I want to kiss, I want to hold hands, I want to go out on dates…. But I can’t. I just can’t.

Everytime I imagine myself in those situations or try to put myself in those situations I just feel sick, like I want to tear the other person into shreds. Out of fear, self defense, or just out of hatred for even thinking I can be in those situations.

It just doesn’t sit right with me. I’ve recently started using the term aroace, and it feels right and wrong for me at the same time.

I want to feel what everyone else feels! I want to know why you think someone is the coolest and most extraordinary person ever just by looking at them! I want to feel at ease whenever someone gets too close or tries to be forward, but I CAN’T.

And it sucks.

Everyone tells me I’m not broken because it’s normal and ok to feel like that, but I don’t feel complete or ok about.

- 🫒

its alright, kinda hard to feel ok about having issues with romance when everything has always pointed towards romance as like, the nucleus of human existence. being aro/ace doesn't always mean you feel ok about it. sometimes it sucks and it hurts and that's just how it is. i will say though, just cuz you feel broken and incomplete doesn't mean you ARE those things. but i know just saying or knowing that doesn't help much, seeing as I feel a similar way.

#nnstuff #ask #aroace #got this like 2 months ago i think. still not sure how to respond to it

[bookaddict24-7]

REVIEWS OF THE WEEK!

EVERY WEEK I WILL POST VARIOUS REVIEWS I’VE WRITTEN SO FAR IN 2024. YOU CAN CHECK OUT MY GOODREADS FOR MORE UP-TO-DATE REVIEWS HERE.

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87. Sidekicked by John David Anderson--⭐️⭐️⭐️

SIDEKICKED was a fun adventure following a kid who has extra strength in his senses (sight, smell, etc). He was paired up with a less than interested mentor who is never really there to save him when he needs it the most. While there is definitely an emphasis on the idea of good vs. evil and what that entails (and the black and white levels of moralities that come with these two terms), we also get a pretty good insight into a middle school young teen boy and his varying emotions about his crush and the new kid in his secret sidekick program.

I honestly thought the concept of this book was fun, especially because we got to see the world of superheroes from the perspective of a younger kid. And because I've always been a fan of superheroes and stuff, so that's always a fun thing for me to read. But the tone of this book felt...older? The main character was sassy (which I loved), but his thought processes also felt like this book would have been better set in high school.

But that being said, this was fun for what it was. I felt really bad for him and the hand he was dealt in the mentor department. But I did enjoy seeing how everything came together. I can see 11+ year-olds really enjoying this. I think it would make a good movie too, tbh, made me think of Sky High a bit, too!

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88. Cherry Magic! Vol. 2 by Yuu Toyota , Taylor Engel (Translator)--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Okay, I'm officially obsessed with this series. I know this is only volume 2, but sometimes I just know when I'm going to devour a series and this volume is it for me.

Still not the biggest fan of the artwork, but I love these two characters and the hilarious thoughts and commentary. I also love this idea of a character who isn't popular being romanced by another character that everyone else wants. I love this and need more!!

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89. Stay Gold by Tobly McSmith--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

It took me a while to pick up STAY GOLD even though I knew I was going to love it (I was right). From the very beginning, I was pulled in by the personalities of these characters and how well they worked off each other. I also felt their emotions and frustrations as they navigated the difficult and sometimes dangerous halls of high school. I also appreciated how McSmith navigated the complex emotions teens have of how they are perceived by the people around them.

This was such an emotional punch and I think that some trigger warnings will need to be read by those who are sensitive to suicidal thoughts, misgendering, dead-naming, and homophobic violence. The way McSmith wrote on these topics also showed me how having people who love you surround you is so incredibly important. It was also a great insight into how one's experience can't be seen as everyone's experiences. There was one character who was pushing the MMC to do something that though could be helpful to a group of people, it could be incredibly dangerous for the MMC.

I'm cis, so I am privileged enough to never have to deal with this level of danger, but it broke my heart to see the MMC torn between what others believed to be right and what was right for him.

The FMC had such great character growth and is proof that sometimes patience is a virtue--but also hope.

I just really loved this book and I'm so glad I finally picked it up! Now I have to read McSmith's other book!

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90. Cherry Magic! Vol. 3 by Yuu Toyota , Taylor Engel (Translator)--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Ugh the cuteness. I can't. Watching the MMC slowly fall and realize his feelings? Please.

I remember finishing this book and immediately cursing myself for not having Volume 4 readily available to read right after. I'm excited to see how those around them react to their slowly forming love. I also love seeing the jealousy and how intense the love interest is with the MMC.

Also, something I noticed is that the volumes have a content advisory but these are pretty clean (so far). Gay manga must equal parental advisory, I guess LOL. Please.

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91. The Haunted Forest Tour by James A. Moore & Jeff Strand--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Holy crap, THE HAUNTED FOREST TOUR was such a fun and bloody horror. I don't know what I was expecting, but it wasn't that. The brutality and blasé way that the authors killed off characters was actually amusing. I don't think there was a heck of a lot of depth into this book, but I honestly just had such a good time reading this.

The one thing I wasn't a fan off and why the one star was taken off was the unnecessary mentions of these creepy men wanting to bend over certain women to have sex with them. It just felt predatory. Like the dude who had to constantly remind himself he was married. Or the ones who were always thinking about having sex with women who had no idea they were thinking these thoughts. It was creepy and unnecessary. God forbid we have a horror book where women aren't sexualized for the sake of making the reader either uncomfortable or just...because male authors can't help but comment on women who are "do-able".

Anyway, other than that, this story was pretty original and so, so bloody. It's a perfect October read tbh. Surprised the hell out of me. Would also make a great movie.

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92. The Escape by Katherine Applegate--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I'm starting to find that I really like the story told from this perspective. I think this character is one of the more underestimated ones because when we see him from other characters' POVs, we see someone who is one way, but from his perspective, we see his true depths. Which is something he touches on here: he's the funny friend; the one who never seems to take anything too seriously, but this kid wears the humour mask as a survival thing.

This was a great addition to the series because of the emotional aspect. And THE ESCAPE also makes me want to read more of the series just so I can see this character get his greatest wish granted.

Also, loved how great they all worked together!

Will hopefully read the next one soon!

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93. Cherry Magic! Vol. 4 by Yuu Toyota , Taylor Engel (Translator)--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Stop, I can't with this adorableness.

The fact that these two characters are so different but not at the same time kills me. One is very good at hiding their nerves and if it wasn't for these powers, the MMC wouldn't even know it. Sigh, both a gift and a curse.

I love that the character growth in this one--especially as someone with social anxiety--happened so organically. The MMC is going at his own pace but is still keeping the love interest's feelings in mind. I seriously can't wait to see how this all develops over the next few volumes!

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94. Dick Fight Island by Reibun Ike--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

My adventures in Boy Love Manga has led me to this interesting work of art.

While yes, the majority of this is definitely porn, the storyline was actually really interesting and unique. And the artwork is freaking stunning. My friend told me that he didn't finish volume 2, so I'll probably just stay with this one and remember the story (cough) fondly.

I'm happy I read this because it was truly something else, but if you're thinking of reading this, be prepared. I don't think I'd recommend reading this on the bus.

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95. Dread Detention by Jennifer Killick--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I read this book under a different name and I was so surprised to see it was the same book (I just bought a physical copy of this book and the other books in this series, so that was a nice surprised.)

I genuinely really enjoyed DREAD WOOD (or DREAD DETENTION). It definitely gave me EIGHT LEGGED FREAKS vibes, especially with some of the scarier scenes. I love middle grade horror books like this one because it's just pure story--sometimes, older books have too much focus on the characters themselves rather than the scary side of a horror book. I thought there was a good moral story behind this and I think it's great kids will (hopefully) get this message.

I also was reminded of the Katherine Arden middle grade horror books where kids work together to solve monster and scary mysteries.

DREAD WOOD did have moments where it felt older than its intended audience, so I'd probably recommend this to the older side of middle grade.

If you're scared of spiders, you'll either have to miss out on this one or you'll have to find your bravery!

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Have you read any of these titles? What were your thoughts?

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Happy reading!

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[greypetrel]

Hello, friend! c:

☘ for all of them

❤ for Aisling in your Fenris AU vs canon Aisling (so for both)

⚠ for Raina

Well hello friend! :D

Oh god you unhearthed the Fenris AU ahahahahahahah (no thank you sometimes I think about it still so it's always welcomed)

Tis the prompt list

⚠ : How does your muse react to possibly dangerous situations? Do they face them head-on, or do they plan out their actions first?

Raina Hawke: She runs constantly ten minutes late to everything and lives by the day. She is not a planner if not on long-term goals. A possibly dangerous situation? Oh no she will jump right in like Pocahontas. Face head-on, improvise along the way. She's good at improvising, makes her little predictable in her moves.

❤ : What are your muse’s thoughts on love? If they are not in a relationship, do they believe that they will ever find a perfect someone for them?

Canon Aisling: She does believe very firmly that everyone deserves love. Everyone. Romantic and platonic love are the same, reaching out and listening and accepting, and she doesn't consider one more important than the other. She stood way too much with a girl that was wrong for her: in the end Aisling broke it up, it wasn't a clean break up and things were said that they'll both regret. She never once doubted that Ydun loved her (that's why she didn't call it off before she did), and later just thought that she MAY take a small trip South to show herself that Ydun was wrong in defining her a scared fawn and a dead-weight... But then she WILL find someone else! She loves being in love! And caring for other people! And kissing and sleeping hugged! She hates sleeping alone, actually! She kinda decided Cassandra -who reminded her of Ydun, but with a "able to rethink her decisions and admit she's wrong, and also she listens to me and ask me questions about my life" bonus- was that person. It ended very badly. Cullen crept in like moss, basically.

AU Aisling: Same as above. They met that she was already with Ydun, very young, very in love with the idea of love, "I WILL give you love whether you want it or not, even platonically. è_é". It worked with him, what can I say, it's the romance with a blue mage hawke. He was... Not ready for it, and left. Which just dropped a bomb on her trauma (her main fear is Abandonment. Guess how well it played.). It left her... Disillusioned. She had love once, and she believed she loved him for real. It went how it went. She doesn't want to try again end up in the same way, once was enough, thank you. Still likes the idea of love but for others, will be happy at her friends finding it, won't actively look for it herself and turn her head if it shows up for more than some casual sex to scratch a need (will refuse to spend the night, do it in the place she sleeps in, and will leave the room first). (I haven't planned an ending, I guess it'll get better with time and finding the right person but again, I have little ideas save for the "I won't write anything that means having a triangle that doesn't end up in polyamory". No trope shaming, it's just not a trope for me.)

☘ : Does your muse believe in luck? How about fate?

Alyra Mahariel: Absolutely not, it's annoyed by the idea. There's no luck there's hard work and circumstances. Fate, to her, is just a nice excuse people have to either do nothing about situation they could change, or justify themselves, or be unsufferably sappy.

Raina Hawke: She believes people can carve their own path. If there's a fate, she believes it can be changed with enough hard work and will, the idea of a fixed destiny makes her feel trapped. She does believe in luck, tho.

Garrett Hawke: Doesn't really care about either, honestly, he doesn't know whether there's a fate or luck, he just goes with the flows. If there are, there's nothing he can do about it anyway, so you'd just better do your best and live your life, there's no point in mulling over it.

Aisling Lavellan: She believes there's some sort of superior authority that guides your path. The concept of "Guidance" is very important to her, it's what made her go for Ghilan'nain and not Mythal for her Vallaslin (it was a tie, for the Keeper). She does believe it's ever changing with circumstances tho, more than a fixed path you can't stray from. She won't like Fate in the sense of Greek Tragedies and an immutable destiny. Luck? There's no hurt in believing there is, if you'd like, whatever helps. Doesn't really believe in it herself, but won't care if you do.

Radha Lavellan: Agrees with Aisling on Fate as basically a law of consequences on a bigger scale. Is very annoyed by the idea of Luck, tho, it either takes away merit from people, or takes responsibility away from them when they were sloppy or uncaring and somehow never faced the consequences.

Pavyn Lavellan: He believes in consequences more than in fate, in truth, and agrees with Radha that the concept of luck is just there to water down things in a way that's not pleasant. He will still flirt with people using fate as a flirtatious joke, smirking and wiggling his eyebrows. He's charismatic enough to pull it off, unfortunately.

#random headcanon meme #oc ask tag #aisling lavellan #raina hawke #cuties cohexisting #alyra mahariel #radha lavellan #garrett hawke #pavyn lavellan

[felteverywhere]

here’s a plot wishlist of things i’m thinking about lately but would prefer to plot than write opens for. i’d also prefer to plot on discord but it’s not entirely necessary since obviously i’ll be writing on this account. some of them are kind of variations of the same thing but i think it makes it clear what kind of stuff i really love lmao. if you like this i’ll im you, but even if you like a lot of them it would be amazing if you could whittle it down to 2-3 tops. reblogging and messaging people when i’m online in the morning!

hot & heavy by lucy dacus inspired — the angst of your first love, homoerotic teenage best friend angst coming back to haunt you, bitterness and nostalgia mingling in the worst way, you hate her and you still love her after all this time. optional: period piece (70s, 80s, 90s, early 00s), a dead friend dragging them back to town, one of them is still closeted. 

fear street inspired — small towns where dark, horrible things have happened and keep happening but not everyone can afford to clear out, young people taking on a legacy of evil in the name of love, the truth of the past being unearthed, the loss along the way. optional: period piece (90s), we can run with something similar to fear street in terms of why the killers exist or come up with our own thing. 

college sleuths — a body found in a classroom or maybe an old unsolved mystery, a small campus cradled by woods and hidden from the world, a desperate need to uncover what everyone else wants to cover up, a righteousness or maybe an obligation to the dead, an eventual game of cat and mouse as they creep closer to the truth. optional: literally everything i listed can be tweaked, i just love the idea of a pair of people (even reluctantly) solving a murder. 

scooby doo inspired, college cryptid/supernatural hunters  — they’re the only ones who believe and maybe that’s okay, could be a mumu/could utilise npc characters if we’d like a group. optional: more of a buffy style scooby gang who are solving problems/include creatures in it. 

dark academia, the secret history inspired  — 

zombie apocalypse romance... with a twist on top of that — what’s more romantic than finding your soulmate at the end of the world? well, i guess if she’s also an unhinged person who will murder humans too, if they cross her. finding out she killed her last s/o somehow doesn’t phase you. basically: muse a has met someone after so long alone but muse b is a little crazy and they get into shenanigans. 

thoroughbreds inspired — unsettling girls forming a strange bond in rekindling a childhood friendship, uncomfortable step fathers, murder as a tool to solve problems rather than a ghastly act, taking blame as a romantic gesture. gifset for fun inspo. 

a return to the hurt/comfort fanfic tag. i’d like to explore deeper things while also dealing with the relationship between two characters. optionally but not limited to: grief, abuse (tentatively and with discussion about parameters), child custody issues, divorce, etc. 

this post but like no really, let’s write it. 

people who believe they are impossible to love pushing away the one who is demanding that they let them in!!!! not strong enough by boygenius vibes also 

an affair happening in a position of power, in a place it absolutely shouldn’t, where everything could turn to crap if they gave in but... they really can’t help themselves. people who are slaves to their own feelings no matter how toxic they are with one another. bad people being so passionately and deeply in love that it destroys everything. oh also this. 

still would kick things over for a normal people plot. i’ll never be over it!! never!! gifset for visual. shame and regret almost overpowering love but not quite, hurting each other, miscommunication, all the things. “i'm not a religious person but i do sometimes think god made you for me.” it should be illegal for someone to say that but jeez i am obsessed with it. 

someone truly deranged and evil and bloodthirsty and the only one who can stop them, but also the only one who can understand them. the only one who knows them. the only one who loves them? ah?

figure skating partners for carling i beg on my knees. fc optional i honestly might change her regardless. 

more song inspo without long winded thoughts: reckless driving by lizzy mcalpine, taken by muna, holding back/crowded places/waiting game by banks, forever winter/tis the damn season/cowboy like me by taylor swift but also really any taylor swift song. 

#indie rp #indie bi rp #indie smut rp #indie lesbian rp #indie horror rp #should i be posting this with the state of my drafts? idc!!!! i do what i want

[kyr-kun-chan]

10 Characters and 10 Fandoms

Alright! I got tagged by @wen-kexing-apologist

Rules: name 10 of your favourite characters from 10 different fandoms, then tag 10 people to do the same.

Charlie - Heartstopper

I like charlie because he's so strong and confident but also insecure. He knows he's gay and he's mostly comfortable with that. He's also mentally ill and doesnt want to bother people or be seen as someone who needs to be taken care of. He's insecure about a lot of things but he also stands up for himself when Harry tries to apologize for his behavior. Charlie knows he doesnt have to forgive Harry for everything he's done. I love him, he's trying his best together with Nick.

Ida - Kieta Hatsukoi / My Love Mix-Up!

Ida is demi! I will take every opportunity to shout that because that's seriously my headcanon for him. I love that Ida was so serious and respectful when Aoki confessed to him. Ida probably never considered dating a guy (or even a girl probably) but he knows it's a big deal and he doesn't want to just ignore ignore the fact that it's possible that he likes a guy. Like he's being so open minded about this because he doesn't know yet what his preference is so he's going to think about if he can like a guy back for the first time here. I just love how considerate Ida is towards Aoki.

Karl - Gaya Sa Pelikula / Like In The Movies

I love Karl because he's trying so hard. He doesn't want to disappoint his parents and he is really struggling with coming to terms with his sexuality. Karl feels so real, I love that moment where he kisses Vlad and finds out his Uncle saw that and freaks the fuck out. He wasn't ready for that. He was comfortable in their own little bubble and he's not ready to come out of that yet. And that's fair! That's valid! And little shoutout to Vlad; I love that Vlad respects that too while not wanting that for himself.

Longtae - A Tale Of A Thousand Stars

I love Longtae because he was the only one in that village that tried to ask Tian to really explain everything. When he heard the whole story he told Tian that it's not his fault. He was on Tian's side like no one else was. He made Tian feel a little less lonely and like he had a real friend there when everyone else started to hate him.

Woo Young Woo - Extraordinary Attorney Woo

Do I even need to explain why I love my favorite whale obsessed attorney? It doesn't matter that she's my only whale obsessed attorney. I love her and her weird and random whale talks. I love that she's very aware of her autism and that she knows how people view her and that she doesn't get social things sometimes. She's always so hard-working even in the romance department because once she thinks that she likes Junho she does everything she can to figure out if she really likes him in her own unique way and it's just really sweet to watch.

Mafuyu - Given

"I'm not lonely" is the first line in the anime and it's the line I think about most often when I think about this show. I love the anime and manga more than the live action so mostly talking about those. Mafuyu is such a sad puppy in the beginning. He says he doesn't know how to express himself which I find very relatable. He closed himself off from his old friends and takes Yuuki('s guitar) with him wherever he goes. However once he meets Uenoyama he starts to open up more. The manga recently ended and I have read it all. I liked how Mafuyu and Ugetsu formed this unexpected friendship. Mafuyu really grew even though he's still the same quiet kid. He's quiet but feels so much and he loves so much and he is s grieving boy who found someone new without properly getting over Yuuki. And of course he never will completely get over Yuuki. He will move on and live his life but Yuuki will always have a place in his heart and Uenoyama knows that.

Oh Aew - I Told Sunset About You & I Promised You The Moon

I love Oh Aew because he's so real for wanting to pursue something he loves while also having a back up plan for if it doesn't work out. I love that he's insecure about his future and in the end doesn't know exactly what he wants. Teh has always knows he wants to do acting and he's talented and he can do it but Oh Aew has never been that confident about it. Oh Aew thinks more rationally about his choices and his future. I love Oh in IPYTM too and how he loves himself enough to make the choices he makes. That's vague enough to say what I wanted to say without spoiling IPYTM lol

Shin Daon - Light On Me

I love him. I thought this would be a tough choice between Taekyung and Noh Shinwoo but it really isn't. Daon already has parents who don't care about him and who are never home. He's already a huge people pleaser and can't say no even to the point of hurting himself. But now he's starting to like a boy, Taekyung, and that's all fun until he gets outed by his friend. Now the whole school knows he's gay and he's not dealing with that very well. Then on top of that Noh Shinwoo tells him he likes Taekyung and that means he has competition. But how can he fight for Taekyung if he hasn't even accepted that he's gay yet? How can he talk to Taekyung without worrying what people are saying about him? So much happened in such a short amount of time and he had to deal with it all so he just didn't have the brain power to also have a romance that no one accepts. So that's why I love him. He went through a lot but he dealt with it and grew more comfortable with himself and and more honest and he's saying no to people when he really has something important.

Justin - The Day I Loved You

Justin is the most recent character from The Day I loved You which hasn't even finished yet. I do love him because he's Nikko's best friend and they've been together for a very long time. Justin loves Nikko but Nikko doesn't love him and Justin knows this and yet he tries. He wants Nikko to be happy even if it's not with him. But I'm sure that if Eli ever hurts Nikko Justin will make him regret it. Justin wants to protect Nikko and just spend time with him, he gets worried when Nikko fell at school. And Justin got hurt when he saw Eli and Nikko have fun together and later kissing each other but he didn't interrupt them.

Austen - Always Human

Austen is from the webtoon Always Human. It's a cute GL about a fantasy world where there are special mods that can help with anything. You can use it to study, to get rid of hay fevers or to change your body however you want with the ability to undo it. You could do something innocent like dye your hair a wild color or you could get cat ears or have blue skin color and no one thinks you're crazy. I love Austen because she has a condition which makes her unable to use those mods so she can't use the hay fever mod or change her skin color or get cat ears. This means she had to learn to accept that she will be different from other people. She also has to work way harder than other people because everyone else has an advantage in learning new things because of mods that can help with studying. She's a very stubborn girl and has always wanted to work towards almost impossible to achieve goals because she refuses to accept that some things may be too hard for her if she can't use mods. I love that she's so passionate about not giving up but I also love that when she does change her mind it's not because she's giving up, it's because she wants to change. Sometimes a change can feel like you're giving up but that's not always true. A few days ago I reread the end of this story and I relate to Austen way more now than when I first read it. I also took this opportunity to advertise Always Human because I love this comic so much.

So that was it! Like usual I don't know who to tag or if they've already done this feel free to ignore me @waitmyturtles @elnotwoods @gilly-bean and if you see this and haven't been tagged consider yourself tagged now

#tag game #tagged

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hey Raven! I appreciated and loved reading your thoughts regarding your recent Twst dating sim asked! What stood out the most to me as someone who is aromantic is how you questioned how romantic love is more powerful/influential compared to platonic love.

I love Twst so much because even if you decide to ship some characters (canon x canon, oc x canon, and so on), it's still inclusive of everyone. You still get to have platonic relationships, even when it's hinted at some "romance" moments. It focuses on platonic relationships and how important it is to heal and work through your problems.

If Twst was a dating sim, I believe it would reinforce amatonormativity and that the boys are only interested in you because they want to date you. Not only would there be a good chance that it would be targeted towards a predominately female audience, which would exclude the male and nonbinary audience that makes up a large portion of the community as well; it would forsake all the hard work the lore has already created.

Not everything has to be romantic, romance is Not the end goal. It's fine to want to ship with the characters, in fact, I encourage it. But if Twst was Just a dating sim, it wouldn't be exclusive to those who identify as aromantic. With just how much everyday media is centered around romance, friends to lovers, "true love conquers all" etc, Twst being a dating sim would feel so exclusive and constricting. I apologize if this seems a bit more emotional than logical thinking. I'm just an aro who is so tired of everything having to be centered around romance or the forced ideology that romantic love will fix all of your problems when it won't.

Platonic attraction/love is so important in stories like these for me because not everything is about romance. But I also think it's important to the other side as well because there are some aplatonic and asexuals within the Twst community! I would love to hear any of their opinions on this as well and see what they think

Anyways I apologize for the ramble but I rlly do enjoy reading thru your posts and seeing the conversation it's creating ! I hope you have a good day/night

[Referencing this post!]

Before I respond to this proper, I want to quickly define some terms that this Anon used in their ask for my readers!

Aromantic means one has little or no interest or desire for romantic relationships. Aplatonic means one has little or no interest or desire for friendships. Asexual means one has little or no interest or desire to engage in sexual activities.

***PLEASE NOTE: as is the case with all sexualities, these definitions are NOT extremes or binaries; they are on a spectrum. Every person is different and we should not make broad assumptions about those that identify as any of the above.***

Amatonormativity is a set of social assumptions that everyone prospers in long-term exclusively romantic relationships. It assumes that amorous relationships are the norm and the expectation.

And with that done, now to the ask itself! ^^ I think you brought up a lot of interesting points for discussion.

I completely agree that romantic love is something that is heavily promoted in all forms of media. It’s often portrayed in a way that undermines the importance of friendships and familial love, or in a way that holds romantic love up as the pinnacle of ALL forms of love. Because of that, it can, quite understandably, feel extremely alienating for those that experience little to no romantic attraction. Aromantics sometimes end up thinking they’re the ones that are “broken”, since they cannot feel what everyone else seems to be feeling. I see you, I hear you, andI understand you.

As I’ve said before, a BIG draw of TWST for many is that it’s pretty open-ended in terms of the types of relationships you can have with its characters. You can ship as many people as you want with whoever you want, and you can avoid shipping them altogether if that’s what you prefer. You can have romance if you want, and you can have friendships if you want. You can be male, female, nonbinary, trans, straight, gay, aro, ace, bi, whatever you want to be. You can truly have it YOUR way just like at Burger King, and we’re lovin’ it just as Ronald McDonald would want us to for that. Everyone can be included.

I really love how TWST appeals to so many different people! 🥰 And I definitely think that platonic love deserves more of a spotlight in media; it’s very underrepresented compared to romantic love. That’s what amplifies TWST’s greatness--it can tell complex stories with deep and compelling characters without necessarily having romantic love as the centerpiece for the narrative. At the same time, people can still enjoy the fanservice (in the card art and some lines of dialogue that are vague enough to be viewed as either romantic or platonic).

Fans interpret the relationships however they wish because the base game leaves the choice up to them. That is the real magic of Twisted Wonderland.

#twst x reader #twst #twisted wonderland #twst en #twisted wonderland en #disney twisted wonderland #notes from the writing raven

[hexhomos]

RE #5: When you boil it down, Ja//y/Mel is mostly pandering to straight guys: Jayce gets a little shot or two of him being all infatuated with her but she initiates it and he gets laid with the prettiest, richest woman in Piltover without much cost or consequence. In the theater especially, it's very obvious she's manipulating him. And yet, there's a disconnect after, cuz it feels like the team wants us to be happy about them being a thing?? To mixed results imo. Honestly, I don't know what else the team was expecting, putting Viktor getting sick between the shots of the hetero sex-scene. You can feel the Rito execs going "noooo they can't seem gay! Give Jayce a sex-scene with a woman!!1!!!!" The audience is thinking about both of those things at the same time, and yet, it's (apparently) surprising when people find Viktor sympathetic in all that??? Unpopular opinion maybe, but it makes me a little nervous that we're gonna see some kind of scorned gay man thing with him like "ohhhh he had a crush on Jayce the whole time but oh no, he's straight! Better cut his emotions out now! You're welcome gays."

In very cut and dry scriptwriting terms, the jaycemel plotline in arcane is a very convenient catalyst for the series' eventual end-of-season tragedy. They needed something or someone to push jayce into playing a political game, since this was never a part of his character and, if we're being honest, still feels forced in the end product anyway; point being, viktor and jayce as built in arcane have no interpersonal conflict to do with eachother. This is kind of a glaring issue, considering their whole deal as a dynamic duo is Literally Just That. You see the problem?

The story was written in such a way that they had to grasp for outside third-party excuses to give these characters a different motivation, and to set up traps so "everything goes wrong" as it does in the end without following their original lore, and the shoehorned old-as-time heterobait that majority of viewers cite as the most unnecessary scene of the season is what we're left with. It was meant to be Obviously Readable To The Largest Public Denominator; GAMERS. here's a low effort sudden temptress storyline just so you don't get the wrong idea about these guys being gay or whatever. It's why there was so much confusion during the episode drops - everyone was just sort of expecting viktor and jayce to have their own thing, and they were coming off pretty strongly as fag material.

Knowing what I do about the tv show's production, I strongly suspect they weird tonal whiplash in their scenes (sometimes deeply manipulative, sometimes stupid, contradictory naiveté) is a result of the writers room...... not knowing what the fuck they actually want. My guess is that maybe they drafted this storyline as very cut-and-dry political peonism at the start, but noticed with following test passes that there was absolutely nothing for the audience to sympathize with and grasp there, hence the backwards add-on of a few stockstandard generic man and woman standing in the same room scenes where we're supposed to get Romance In The Air from it.

Personally, I just think its really funny that once one of the writers was sent a video compilation of their scenes with jinx snoring "BOOOOOORING" over the whole thing, and she replied, with some paraphrasing: "Yeah, I did that on purpose ;)"

#Hexposts #Arcane #Long post #My foremost explanation: caitvi is supposed to be the one true appealing romance in this #If youre sucking up a lot of copium you could argue viktor and jayce will Maybe Perhaps Come Off as Gay Next Seasons #But who knows #I sure do remember the vkjc fanart on the showrunners walls as they accepted those animation prizes tho #They know it flopped

[sylvaridreams]

Alright Dama it's your turn >:) 4 and 5 with canach, 1 with rama, 11 with auruim, 12 with trahearne and uuuh 2 with peitha because the idea makes me laugh ( do any of you want i know i sent a lot <333)

You're the devil you made me THINK about things.... <3 thank youuu

Commander love interest ask game!

Canach

4. What was their initial opinion of the commander? Has that changed at all?

Bearing in mind I started playing right after lws1 ended so I never got the full s1 Canach experience... Initial opinion was "oh look at this little goody-goody, how cute. What an asshole." Not at all impressed. Mutual distrust and dislike for a long while heheh.

After the point in lws2 where they're injured and stranded for roughly a week, a mutual respect and some degree of trust and camaraderie was earned. Feelings came into play long after the relationship progressed to physical.

Where Canach stands right now with Alba, he basically feels like... Alba cares more about being the hero who saves the world than he does anything else. Not even in a necessarily egotistical way or anything, just that he HAS to be able to save everyone and do everything or it's the end of the world. He can't ask for help or step back and take care of himself at all. He WON'T step away and it's been eating at their relationship for years.

And Canach has his own issues that he tries to deal with quietly and privately. Before they became any kind of real couple, he made it clear what his limits and boundaries were, what he would and wouldn't do, with the expectation that those boundaries be respectfully avoided, and yet intentionally or not Alba has almost always pushed and poked at those limits as if testing them out. Not out of malice; most likely he just doesn't realize he's doing anything hurtful, but it makes it VERY hard for Canach to be around sometimes. He's at a point where he's isolating himself playing a capitalist in Arborstone because he can't keep watching Alba try to get himself killed.

But despite it all, he loves him. And that's probably why it's so hurtful that Alba keeps doing what he does.

5. How do they feel about their LI being the commander? Are they concerned? Proud? Is it a "keep work stuff at work" kind of thing?

Concerned is putting it lightly. There have been countless times where Alba should have rightfully stepped down from his position (as Commander of... nothing) and stepped away from it all and let himself heal. The rest of the heroes of the world would have worked shit out. But since Alba views himself as having no destiny outside of heroism... he can't allow himself time to rest.

After he nearly lost a leg in the Silverwastes, he should have stepped down. After dying, he should have taken a break: after Kralk blasted him with a direct hit of brand lightning; after Jormag, after Braham tried to break his spine, after Soo-won and then the oni, after fusing with his tiger for six months--so many opportunities to step back and say OK it's been cool but this is my limit!

If it were up to Canach he'd be fully retired in the middle of nowhere with no comms access to be informed of current events, just so that he can't go running off into danger with a target painted on his chest.

Rama

2. Who are they and what's their dynamic with the commander?

Why, he's a funny detective with a big goofy hat.... :) dynamic with Alba is good. They get along really well, work well together, Rama isn't at all afraid to call him on shit, or to back him up as deemed appropriate... Rama falls into the friends with benefits category for Alba. I don't see them ever doing much in terms of romance, though they might occasionally go out together, largely because Rama feels awkward if he asks Alba over just for sex without any pretense.

Auruim

11. What parts of the commander do they get to see that nobody else does?

Bearing in mind that Auruim sees what he wants to see...! But also bearing in mind that they were really close a decade ago, when Auruim was a sapling and before Alba started to really gain commander momentum. Auruim gets to see both Alba's caring, "elder-sibling" side, as well as his cruelty. Alba is often unintentionally more open and honest about negative feelings with Auru-- they're both sensitive to the time that passed when Auruim was left in the jungle, and VERY sensitive to perceived slights from the other. Auruim has a tendency to start fights and goad Alba into fighting back, and Alba gets very mean very quickly with the right combination of words jabbed at him, because he feels the need to defend himself.

But he also loves Auruim and cares deeply about him. It's hard for Auruim to always understand this and see past "you left me in the jungle" to "youre trying to make up for it and take care of me now." A lot of Alba’s caring actions are taken as hostility by Auru because again, he chooses how to perceive Alba’s actions, and he goes for the "this is mean to me" answer often.

I.e., currently post-SotO, Auru is minus one arm and rarely conscious. Alba tries to be there as often as he can when Auruim is awake to take care of him; Auru knows at least subconsciously that Alba is doing his best and that everything he does is to help him, but that makes it no easier to accept what's going on at the time. Alba's not there when he wakes up = he hates me, Alba is there and has to do something that hurts or makes him feel briefly uncomfortable = he's trying to hurt me to be mean, etc.. that isn't to say that it's always perceived as hurtful, and sometimes he's a good sport about it and doesn't try to fight, and they get to peacefully enjoy one another's company until he sleeps again.

Trahearne

12. What's a song you associate with the relationship?

Time Machine - Autoheart

Peitha

2. How does the rest of Dragon's Watch feel about the relationship?

"Are you guys fucking seeing this" all around. A lot of concern and a lot of fear for Alba and a lot of worry that he's not in his right mind (and he's not!)

#asks answered #alba #ugh am i gonna tag my ships uhjhhhhh #canalba #aurualba #peithalba #ramalba