#restrictedeating

[whatzyoureta]

I eat 100-950 calories a day, for two weeks, then I binge for two days, I cry everyday, I cut myself here and there, I shower maybe every 3 or 5 days, I lay in bed for days, I wear headphones so I don’t hear anything outside of my room, but I still make sure I wear makeup before I go out

#proed #prorestrict #ed #lowcal #proedsupport #restrictedeating #low calories #restricting #an0r3xic #only pr0 for myself #proanna #bodycheck

[movedtoeskew]

rating some covers i found on archive.org (links under readmore)

The Yellow Wall Paper (Small, Maynard and Company, 1901; cover art by E. B. Bird)

rating: 5/5 the stark typography of the title presses almost uncomfortably to the top edge of the cover, immediately catching the viewer's attention and planting the seeds of unease. the pattern is subtle, yet intricate and the artist has clearly lifted details directly from the book's description of the titular wallpaper. the deliberate central symmetry of the composition, which is only broken up by the title, creates an impression of uncomfortable proximity and restrictedness: one would have to stand quite close indeed, to have such a perfectly symmetrical view. how long have you been standing there, following the patterns on the wall?

2. The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman (Feminist Press, 1973; cover art by Gilda Hannah)

rating: 2/5 they picked a nice, sickening shade of yellow (personal opinion if mine) and it sure is torn. unfortunately the pattern is rather meh.

3. The Yellow Wallpaper and Other Stories (Dover, 1997; cover art by Manuela Paul)

rating: 5/5 in a stroke of genius, the designer added a distortion effect to the lower part of the cover, making the already dizzying pattern look even more disorienting. a great and subtle cover, so i wont deduct points for the yellow being almost too warm.

4. The Yellow Wallpaper and Selected Writings (Virago, 2009; cover art by Noumeda Carbone).

rating: 4.5/5. the floral patterns are organic and intricate, but there's nothing especially unsettling about them. there's even a woman (even though she's not creeping). the overall impression is nice and it suits the book -- i quite like it

5. The Yellow Wall-Paper (Createspace Independent Publishing Platform, 2013; artist unknown)

rating: 2/5 a nice yellow shade, though not especially sickening. the artist made an acceptable effort with the pattern (they even included a woman), but it feels kinda sparse

6. The Yellow Wallpaper (Createspace Independent Publishing Platform, 2015; artist unknown)

rating: 0/5 it's bad. like what in the aesthetically curated instagram infographic is this. if someone locked me in a room with this wallpaper i'd become a greige minimalist momfluencer within weeks.

#🍲.txt #its just my onion etc etc #movedto book club #feel free to repost the picture if you need it for whatever or want to rate them yourself

[rhube]

Compelled loneliness and necessitated social isolation: “It’s like being on the other side of a mirror, just looking in”

The analysis illustrates how loneliness can be an integral part of living with ME and offers two novel conceptual contributions - necessitated social isolation and compelled loneliness. Necessitated social isolation concerns how ME symptoms can make social lives increasingly restricted. Compelled loneliness highlights how the combined experiences of both stigma and contested illness can lead to social withdrawal and rejection, which create a sense of loneliness. The article argues that loneliness and social isolation can be conceptually distinct yet recursive and overlapping. With the worsening of ME, the participants experienced a cycle of loneliness, in which social isolation and loneliness reproduced each other. Three key themes draw attention to how loneliness is affected by the situational aspects of living with a chronic and contested illness: (1.) spatial and temporal restrictedness (2.) communicative alienation and (3.) discreditation. The article highlights how health challenges can impact on loneliness and how the stigma of contested illness exacerbates loneliness. ... Despite the apparent prevalence of loneliness, neoliberal discourses on the subject have tended to be excessively pathologised and focussed on individuals’ personal responsibility to overcome and withstand loneliness (Duggan, 2021; Jones, 2022). ... Scepticism and disbelief about the reality and nature (psychological or somatic) of ME, placed a strain on relationships. Friends and family severed ties, or the participants socially withdrew to avoid continuing with negative interactions. Sometimes, there was mutual retreat from a relationship. ... Social withdrawal from negativity and stigma was sometimes necessary to avoid worsening loneliness and to preserve a sense of self-identity and illness narrative. In many cases, social withdrawal and loneliness were the least negative option when faced with humiliation and stigma. Both situations were lonely but withdrawing often seemed less painful than continuing with harmful relationships. ... [F]riends and family were unable to accept that she was genuinely ill so they were offended by her lack of effort... Evelyn was not relieved of her usual roles and responsibilities within her friendship group but treated with scepticism and rejection.

Oof, yeah, this resonates only too deeply.

Worth noting: Only a minority of people these days will out and out say they don't believe you're ill (this is a relatively recent development) even just 4 years ago people were a lot more open in their disbelief. But the vast majority of people will nevertheless disbelieve your symptoms. Again, not by saying 'I don't believe you,' because they know that would make them look bad, but by continuing to behave as though you don't have those symptoms.

That is to say: they still expect exactly the same behaviours, responsibilities, and roles that you fulfilled before you got sick. And if you don't fulfil those, they will be offended, complain about you to other people, and slowly withdraw contact. Sometimes they will get angry to your face about the things you can't do that they perceive that you 'won't' do. It doesn't matter how much you explain that you can't, they will still blame you for not doing the things and for being 'difficult'.

They will also ignore necessary boundaries and limits you set, and go back on any adjustments they have agreed to. Again: in the first instance they almost always assent to what you need and assure you they will respect your limitations. They just don't. They say they will, and they don't.

So yeah, as a result, I have become even more avoidant in my behaviours than ever. I'm desperately lonely, but a lot of the people I *could* contact I don't want to, because they behave in extremely harmful ways when I do.

To be clear: I have a small number of very good friends who don't do this. I am very grateful to them. But the number is very small.

#mecfs #chronic illness #loneliness

[alliewhatevver]

i’m actually dying for mutuals my feed is so dry i have like no friends on here :’( but i’m scared to use tags and have my account terminated

#ed rant #just ed shit #ana rant #rexy girl #rexii #ednos #fooddiary #anafooddiary #notproforanyonejustforme #bonespo #restrictedeating #4n4 #4n4 blog #ana fast #4n0r3x14 #tw ana stuff #tw ana thoughts #tw disordered eating

[joalinder]

I just had a really bad binge, and i feel sick. Like literally like im about to throw up. Ive overeaten for a few days, but nothing like this. I don't know what happened. I feel fucking awful.

#bingeeating #weightloss #thoughts #restrictedeating #food struggles

[ssridontwannaexist]

fasting starting at 12 AM

today i donate plasma and have to eat beforehand to keep my protein and iron levels up. after this, i plan on fasting from 12 AM tomorrow to just about the same time on thursday, as i’ll be donating plasma again. it’s the only way i can make money in college, and also the only way to pay for gas money to visit my boyfriend, so i do it as much as possible.

i’ll be posting updates all throughout this week. i know this will be a challenge as i haven’t fasted like this in months, but i’ve restricted these past couple of days and feel stronger than i have in a while. i’ve gained so much weight it makes me sick. at least i have muscle relaxants, tramadol, and weed to help me get through the cravings because that shit will just put my ass to sleep.

#ana #anorexia #depressed #anorexic #triggerwarning #tw #losingiswinning #bulimia #mia #tired #fasting #restrictedeating #starving #body dysmorphia #bulimic #thinspo #bonespo

[ketofoodus]

Keto Chow Electrolyte supplements are a fantastic way to get your electrolyte le… Keto Chow Electrolyte dietary supplements are a implausible technique to get your electrolyte ranges up. three totally different varieties allow you to get the combo you want, and none comprise any sweetness, colours, flavors, or any synthetic substances.

#CHOW #electrolyte #electrolytedrops #electrolytes #fantastic #fasting #fastingdrops #fastingforweightloss #fastingsuppliments #intermittentfasting #Keto #ketogenic #ketolife #ketoliving #ketoworks #magdrops #magnesium #omad #restrictedeating #supplements

[astrowithkaro]

Hi I hope you’re having a great day/night!! Could you please do January 11th for your language of birthdays series!!! ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎

Language Of Birthdays: January 11 - Capricorn

[You can find the rest of the series here; or check out my masterlist]

The Day Of Evaluation

It is the forte of the strong-willed, highly capable individuals born on January 11 to be able to accurately size up and evaluate the people and life experiences they meet. January 11 people often pride themselves on their unbiased approach to life but to the extent that their perceptions are dominated by their belief system, their objectivity can be clouded. Those born on this day who can put their personal beliefs aside more often can more evenly assess what they see around them.

A difficulty for many January 11 people is that they are highly moral, and to that extent rigid in their condemnation of what does not fit their beliefs. This can be hard on their children, in particular, since condemnation not only imbues children with feelings of guilt but also eats away at their self-confidence and ability to function as independent individuals. January 11 parents must therefore avoid placing themselves high in the judgment seat as such a stance ultimately foments antagonisms and rebellion.

When it comes to appraising texts, objects, methods, finances and systems of all sorts with which they are familiar. January 11 people really shine. In their area of expertise they are often sought out by others to render expert opinions, perhaps on the value of objects and investments or the quality- and authenticity of writings, crafts and arts. They display excellent analytical abilities and are skilled judges in this respect, calmly separating the wheat from the chaff. Those born on this day can usually spot something phony in an instant, and thus are extremely valuable when the task at hand is weeding out waste or corruption. Indeed, January 11 people are very hard to fool when it comes to most matters.

Unfortunately, those born on this day can be truly hard-headed and stubborn. They know what they know, and that's it. Very little is left open for discussion where their mind is made up. They may, however, speak with the same degree of confidence and sense of infallibility when discussing matters they know little or nothing about. This can drive others crazy, but they themselves often just calmly repeat themselves and stand firm. Unless proven wrong, what they say may be taken for the gospel.

The crying need of January 11 people is to develop greater flexibility. Because they already show marked human qualities of generosity, kindness and devotion, it is really only their judgmental attitudes which keep them from being even more open and accepting. Prejudices and rigidly held opinions can only stand in the way of those born on this day exercising their strength, that is. apprehending life experiences with insight and clarity of vision. Although great persistence and patience will be needed. January 11 people may be able to develop a more open mind through applying their own evaluative talents and analytical abilities to themselves.

Strengths:

Trustworthy

Capable

Strong willed

Weaknesses:

Judgemental

Rigid

Advice

Those born on January 11 often devote themselves to the care of others and can wear themselves out doing so. They must learn to relax and take vacations from their work. In addition they have to let up from time to time, and have enough faith to allow things to run by themselves. Certain physical manifestations of their psychological rigidity may manifest, particularly affecting the bones and skeletal system as they get older. As far as diet is concerned, January 11 people must avoid restrictedness here as well and be open to new recipes and in general new approaches to food and cooking. A highly varied, well-balanced diet is best for them. They should make an effort to get regular mild to moderate physical exercise—particularly walking and swimming are recommended.

Maintain flexibility and be open for change

Don't condemn someone before giving them a chance

Admit your mistakes, and be rich in your praise when ii is warranted

#capricorn life #capricorn meme #capricorn horoscope #capricorn sign #capricorn reading #cap #capricorn sun #capricorn #capricorn trait #capricorn monthly horoscope #capricorn astrology #capricorn today #capricorn aesthetic #capricorn women #capricorn placements #capricorn personality #witch blog

[risalei-nur]

The Words - The Twenty-fourth  Word - Part 13

Our third friend, the dew drop, is both poor and colorless. It swiftly evaporates in the sun’s heat and, free of egotism, rises into the air. The dense matter in its structure burns in the flames of love and changes into light. It holds on to a ray from the sun’s light and draws close to the sun. 

O friend resembling the dew drop! Since you act as a direct mirror to the sun, whatever your rank, you can find a window through which you can look at it without any barrier. You will experience no difficulty in ascribing the sun’s amazing works to it; You will immediately attribute its deserved majestic attributes and the awesome actions of its essential dominion to it. 

Neither the thickness of barriers, nor the restrictedness of capacities, nor the smallness of mirrors will confuse you or drive you to any falsehood. Since you are turned directly toward it with a pure heart and a sincere intention, you understand that what appears in the objects and mirrors is not the sun itself, but rather its manifestations or colored reflections. Although these reflections describe it, they cannot display all of its majesty’s works in their proper splendor.

#allah #god #islam #muslim #revert #reverthelp #reverthelp team #convert #new revert #new convert #new muslim #muslim revert #muslim convert #welcome to islam #revert to islam #convert to islam #how to convert to islam #prophet #muhammad #quran #sunnah #hadith #dua #pray #prayer #salah #help

[astrologylunarfish]

New moon In Taurus! 🌱🌑🐂

This new moon occurs on April 22nd 2020 at 8:35pm mst at 3 degrees Taurus. Which is also earth day! This Venusian ruled moon on one end is all about nurturing the senses, cooking a good meal, sitting outside and smelling the fresh air, taking a bath, indulging the senses, setting up a garden, taking care of your home and your roots. With a weak conjunct to uranus, on another end there can also be a feeling of restrictedness, impulse, needed change and unrest. If you buy into impulse you will be met with some lessons as the new moon and uranus are all square to Saturn. Saturn is teaching us all how to be more emotionally self sufficient. Which means that growth is not linear. Change is not obvious. Freedom is in the mind. Continue to ground yourself and allow any unrest to find some calmness within the simple pleasures. See growth differently. Part of the unrest comes from the perceived need for external nurturing. But needs won’t be met in quite that way. Find a way to meet your own needs and see the world through a different perspective. Plant seeds and know they might require a different growth plan. Feeling grounded can provide some of the comfort you are looking for and the rest is in the mind. 💕

#new moon #taurus

[whatzyoureta]

Nothing like ending a 31 hour fast with a

265 cal bacon sandwich

Teehee

Grind o clock baby

#lowcal #restrictedeating #an0r3xic #notprojustusingthetags #pr04ana #not pr0 just for myself #only pr0 for myself #prorestrict #pr0 ana diary

[pieratt]

"The term self is often mixed up with the idea of God. I would not do that. I would say that the term self should be reserved for that sphere which is within the reach of human experience, and we should be very careful not to use the word God too often. As we use it, it borders on impertinence; it is unlawful to use such a concept too often. The experience of the self is so marvelous and so complete that one is of course tempted to use the conception of God to express it. I think it is better not to, because the self has the peculiar quality of being specific yet universal. It is a restricted universality or a universal restrictedness, a paradox; so it is a relatively universal being and therefore doesn’t deserve to be called “God.” You could think of it as an intermediary, or a hierarchy of ever-widening-out figures of the self till one arrives at the conception of a deity. So we should reserve that term God for a remote deity that is supposed to be the absolute unity of all singularities. The self would be the preceding stage, a being that is more than man and that definitely manifests; that is the thinker of our thoughts, the doer of our deeds, the maker of our lives, yet it is still within the reach of human experience. It is not only our best friend, but also our worst enemy; because it doesn’t see, it is as if not conscious of time and space conditions. We must say to the self, "Now don’t be blind; for heaven’s sake be reasonable. That is what I (the ego) am." --Carl Jung, Zarathustra Seminar, Pages 977-978.

[beneficialbooks]

IF HE BECOMES SICK, THEN VISIT HIM.

This is a right that he has upon his Muslim brothers and it is an obligation that they carry it out. If the sick person who has a right upon you was a relative, companion, or neighbor, then going to visit him is even more emphasized. As for going to visit the sick, it varies depending on the condition of the patient and the condition of his sickness. So it is possible that the circumstances require that you go see him many times, and it's possible that the circumstances require that you do not go see him often. So what is more appropriate is that one takes into consideration the circumstances. As for the Sunnah with regard to going to see the sick, then one should ask about his condition and supplicate for him, and the door of comfort and hope will open for the one who is sick. Verily in doing this is from the greatest reasons (by the permission of Allah) for good health and recovery. Also it is a must that one reminds the sick person about repenting (to Allah), in a manner that does not intimidate him. So he says to him for example,

"Due to your sickness you are obtained (a lot) of good, because Allah expiates the sins, and wipes away the evil deeds, and perhaps you are getting a lot of reward, because of your restrictedness, and you are increasing in the remembrance of Allah, and seeking His forgiveness and supplicating to Him."

Book: The Innate Rights According To Islamic Laws

By Shaykh Muhammad al-Uthaymeen

Reviewed by Rasheed Barbee

Authentic Statements Publications

P. 57

[alliewhatevver]

30.03.21

30 min bicycle ride ~ 10.15am

          ^ -271 cals

two sugar free red bulls ~ 11am

     ^ +10 cals

tuna salad ~ 4.30pm

     ^ +187 cals

cauliflower gnocchi with tomatoes ~ 6.30pm

     ^ +140 cals 

frozen grapes & ice cream ~ 8.45pm

     ^ +67 +104 cals

inner thigh workout ~ 9.30pm

          ^ -94 cals

burn thigh fat workout ~ 9.45pm

          ^ -130 cals

TOTAL: +508 -495 cals +13 cals

today was a great day :) i am now in the 150′s instead of the 160′s and i was getting really intensely dizzy and lightheaded whenever i stood up. got a pretty intense blood nose which was scary but it all turned out fine.

#ed rant #ana rant #just ed shit #rexii #rexy girl #ed #ednos #ana #proana #thinspo #bonespo #food diary #fooddiary #anafooddiary #notproforanyonejustforme #edtumblr #restrictedeating

[joalinder]

i don`t know why i use tumblr so much. It`s not that anybody cares anyways, but it feels so nice to express some of the thoughts im having. - also, there`s a bunch of things ive written here that i could NEVER say to anybody i know. It`s not that i don`t have supportive people in my life. I do. - But i want them to see me as im portraying myself, i don`t want them to pity me, or view me as weak, needy or out of control. Yes ofc, i often joke around with “man my motivation for studies is truly out of controll lol” or “you have no idea, i ate so much yesterday, i had literally no control hahahah” - and they laugh, and even agree. - and i wonder, how much do i have to joke around before anybody notices the red flags? Are they waving the red flags for themselves since they agree? I just think ive gotten too good at hiding my struggles. Im conflicted too, because i don`t even know if i want to talk to anybody or not. I don`t know if i should, or if im just faking everything. Maybe im totally normal, maybe i`m fine? Maybe it`s just how life is, and I just need to deal with it. Maybe im spoiled? Maybe i don`t have any problems at all. Maybe im just overdramatic? For the one reading this, i don`t expect you to comment on this post, or even read everything, but i wonder, do you also feel the same way? Am I alone in this?

#Thoughts #mental help #mentalhealth #psychology #health #ed #restrictedeating #bingeeating #food struggles

[ssridontwannaexist]

vyvanse is fucking fantastic.

#drugstw #ana #anorexia #depressed #triggerwarning #anorexic #tw #losingiswinning #bulimia #tired #mia #bulimic #selfharm #eatingdisordeer #restrictedeating #mentally unstable #mentaldisorder #mentalillness #binge #starve #sad #thinspo #bonespo #fasting