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Undercover - Chapter 16

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TW: Rape

My arms were wrapped around him; my hands around his torso. His back was pressed against my chest. My legs were over top of his tangled in each other. I felt him shift in front of me.

"This is different", I heard him mumbled. I hummed in agreement. "I like it though."

"Figured you word, who doesn't wanna be held." He made quick movements and flipped us around so he was hold me. "Yeah getting held is nice and all but this is better."

His hand went under my shirt and were resting on my stomach. Right as I was going to fade away his phone rang. I let out a sigh.

"Every fucking time, welp I'm up now." I stood and went to the bathroom while around laid in bed answering the phone. I looked at the clock, it was 7am. I jumped into the shower, I heard the door open and close.

Aaron got in with me. I was letting the water over my body, "What'd they want."

"It was Dave he was letting me know that he made reservations for dinner at 5 they Morgan texted saying he wanted to do to a club tonight. I started laughing,

"They just went out 2 days ago, I swear one day were gonna have to take them to the hospital for alcohol poisonings."

I moved him into the water washing his body; he did the same with me.

We stepped out, "I'm starving, oh my god can we get room service. I know its dumb but I've never done it before." He chuckled putting on his shirt, "Sure princess." I sat down on the bed getting on the phone, I placed an order for the food.

"I'm gonna tell Spencer we'll be out later today cause I'm spending all my time with you." I tossed my phone to the side, sending the text. I went over to the edge of the bed where Aaron was and started tickling his side.

"Ah, fu- y/n.. stop", he rolled onto the floor. I was hanging off the bed laughing my ass off. Aaron just gave me a grin, staring at me, "Oh you want to be like that huh?" I smiled nodding my head. He started to stand up from the floor.

I knew what was coming and I got up and bolted towards the door. I opened the door walking down the hallway till I saw him coming after me. "No fuck you...." I was giggling now jogging down the hallway.

I was making my way down turning a corner, I didn't see him anymore. I thought I lost him when I felt a pair of hands holding me. He swiftly picked me up and put me over his shoulder. "Aaron!", I yelled tapping his back .

"I could feel his back tense and the laughter falling from his lips, "Thought you could get away? I mean good effort... you almost did." I gave up fighting him. "Ok hold on, put me down I wanna a piggy back ride."

He set me down on my feet turning around and I climbed on his back. My legs going around his waist and his hands hold me still with a firm grip on my thighs. We made our way down the hallway back into the room.

He flipped me in front of him and hovered over me.

I saw his eyes getting slightly darker. I gripped him by his shirt and slowly pulled his down to me kissing him gently.

His hand cupped my face deepening the kiss. My legs stayed wrapped around him. Then there was a knock on the door; my breakfast was here.

I opened the door and they rolled in a cart, I said thank you to the man and he left pulling the door shut behind him. "This is so cool", Aaron pulled the cart towards the bed sitting down. "Its just food."

"Like I said before I've never had room service before let me enjoys this", I had a smile on my face when I saw the food. I had ordered peanut butter waffles with real maple syrup and had them covered in butter. They were so flavorful and creamy from the peanut butter.

I took a drink of my coffee and fed Aaron some of my food. After he took a bite be picked up some of his food an fed me. He got French toast and bacon. I held up my finger and dipped the bacon in my syrup. He gave me a weird look, "Come on it's so fucking good."

"Yeah I'm not too sure about that", when we were done we cleaned up and laid in bed all day watching tv and playing some games. When it was time we went to dinner with the team and then we got changed for the club.

I stepped out of the bathroom and say Aaron. He was wearing a tight black t-shirt with washed grey jeans. The shirt was perfect for showing off his shoulder and his arms. I could see the veins running down his arm.

I walked over and started tracing them, he looked down at me. "Ready?", I said yes and we left. We walked over to the club, it was 5 mins from the hotel. I walked in with Aaron behind me and I saw Reid waving his arm at us.

Emily of course already had shots lined up I was going to grab on but she told me wait.

"We're gonna play a game ok. Never have I ever. If you've done the thing we mention them take a shot." We all nodded and started the game. Morgan started first, "Never have I ever had a one night stand." Practically every took a shot but Aaron and I. "Pretty boy my man", Morgan gave Reid a fist bump then they turned the attention to me.

"Really y/n? Not once", JJ said to me. "I'm more in it for the relationship." They shrugged it off then continued the game.

"Thought about sleeping with on of my coworkers." I took a shot real fast but so did everyone else. We wouldn't to keep those thoughts anonymous so we didn't elaborate. "What'd to date a coworker." I took another shot. They looked at me, "I'm keeping thoughts to myself." I said while laughing.

We continued that game for another 5 mins. I was 4 shots deep and I was starting to feel it. Aaron and I weren't planning on drinking too much because he knew how bad my hangovers were.

"If you didn't know anyone us who would you date." That question went around the table. Reid said me, Morgan said Emily so did JJ, Emily said JJ. Then that question came to Aaron and I. Aaron did answer till they forced it out of him. He said me, I wanted to mess with him so I said Morgan; He glared at me and tried to not make it obvious.

Morgan threw his arms up and yelled. "Ok ok calm down." Laughing I grabbed Aaron hand and went to the dance floor, the team soon followed. Morgan finding a group of girls to be with. I gave Aaron on more shot and he started to loosen up.

His hips landed on my hips swaying back and forth into him. My hands going backwards and landed around his neck. His breath going into my neck, they other people all around us raising the temperature.

Once I cooled off I felt really tired, "Aaron I'm gonna head back to the hotel."

"Okay let me know when we get there, I'll go back in an hour. Love you."

"Love you too", I walked away from his and walked outside. I started walking passing the building, there was no one around me.

As I was passing one of the building I felt hands going around my mouth and arms around my waist pulling me backwards into the ally between the building.

My mind was flooded with confusion, and fear; who just grabbed me, what the fuck if happening. My mind was running a hundred miles an hour; I was unable to process it.

I was still getting dragged, every step I saw the street lights getting further away and the darkness of the ally taking over my sight. I could hear the husky breathing of the man behind me.

He pulled me into a corner where there were dumpsters. We weren't in a building but we had cover; no one saw what this man was doing. When we got under he turned me around and slammed my back against the wall, my head smacking the cold concrete. I couldn't see his face, he had a mask; I could see his eyes.

I know those eyes, I used to see them all the time; those are the eyes that caused me daily pain.

He roughly moved his hand over my shoulder taking off the strap of my tank top. I was throwing my hands scratching down his arm; his skin was underneath my fingernails, "Fucking whore!"

He hissed through his teeth. He lost patience and held onto my throat, his palm pressing into my windpipe. I couldn't breath only taking very small wheezing breaths.

He used his other hand taking my shirt; with one forceful motion he torn off my top exposing my chest. There were tears flowing down my face, "Plea- please!" I cried out. I kept trying to move from his grip; he threw me to the ground. I scrapped my hands and knees on the pavement.

I hurried to my feet and grabbed the tin that was on the ground and hit him over the head. I made a run for it, but he dragged me so far down and I didn't have my shoes on. Every step was on rocks and chunks of glass.

I heard his heavy foot steps behind me and he kicked the back of my leg knocking me to the ground yet again; scraping my shoulders.

He flipped me over on my back and sat on me. His weight keeping me down. I was still tipsy from the drinks that were still setting in; I wasn't as strong. He slapped me across my face stunning me.

He brought both hands down to my pants and yanked my shorts down.

They bunched at my ankles and he ripped my underwear off. "Get the fuck off of me!", I screamed laying scratches on his face and trying to gauge his eyes. I would've done anything to make it stop. My mind was filled with what was about to happen.

Aaron thinks I'm in the hotel room peacefully sleeping; waiting for him crawl into bed with me.

I knew it was over when I heard the clanking of his belt and his zipper. He was getting ready to...

The fear I had in that exact moment was paralyzing.

It felt like I was being tore open, I knew there was blood. He was gripping my thighs leaving dark bruises. I finally gave up, I felt numb. I felt like I was outside my body watching what was happening to me.

There were tears flowing, I moved my head to the opposite direction of where his face was. I was praying that this was a dream; his face was covered, he wasn't going to kill me. He's gonna leave me with the constant thought of what he was did.

I squeezed my eyes shut, he had complete control over me. No one was coming to help; god I wished someone would. But even if they did the damage was done.

His hands had a frim grip on my arms; his nails digging into my skin drawing blood. He moved his hands to my hips forcing himself into me deeper, a blur covered my vision; I most likely passed out.

When he was done he knew I wasn't going to get up. He threw something over me, I don't remember. After an hour of fading, I slowly regained the strength and will to stand up. I pulled my torn shirt over my chest. I put my shorts on and put my shoes back.

I didn't have my phone with me, all I could do was go back to the hotel. I walked past a gas station and saw it was 2am. I left the club at around 12am. He was attacking me for almost an hour.

And I did nothing...

As I walked through the lobby there were eyes. Luckily just a few employees, but they just stared as I walked to the elevator going to my room. Knocking on the door not having my key I waited, I heard steps inside coming towards me.

"Where the fuck were you!", those were the first words to come out of Aarons mouth he quickly took notice of my appearance and the forming bruises. I didn't hold it against him he didn't see yet, he opened the door wider.

"Y/n what the fuck, oh my god", he went to go place his hand on me to bring me inside but I flinched away and he backed up. He let me walk in myself as he went to the bed and sat down.

I closed the door and walked away from him. I stopped crying but there was clear evidence that I had been. My eyes were blood shot, eyes were puffy, and there were streaks of dried tears on my face.

Once Aaron opened the door and saw my appearance he knew something happened, and he knew the answer. He had seen cases like these before, he knew what they looked like and how the victims acted. He wasn't ready to face the reality.

He sat quietly on the bed and I sat in the chair across the room. I turned it to face him. I was sitting uncomfortably as I could feel the dried cum from between my legs.

"Can you tell me what happened?", my mind lingered on those words; I wanted to tell him. He had to know, I just couldn't meet his eyes. His dominant presence made me fearful. I knew he'd never hurt me but it was the fact... that he was a man.

We tell rape victims to talk about the trauma; it helps them get through it... to move on. If I didn't take my own advice then how was I going to do it. I gathered the courage.

"I was on my way here, I was grabbed and uh- dragged", my voice was thick. It sounded like I was forcing the words out. I looked up trying to blink away the tears. But they were already falling, "I was forced to the wall, he- he tore off my clothes an- and he started to... touch me." I used my hand to wipe my face; reliving all of it.

I glanced up to see Aarons face mixed with emotions.

"He started to pull down his pan- pants... he." I couldn't continue. I met Aarons eyes and they were filling with tears.

They were flooding his face. His eyes were glassy, his pain didn't compare to mine but he was breaking just as much; seeing me like this broke his heart into a million pieces. I sat there crying and he knew I wasn't going to say anymore.

"Y/n, can I go over to you?", he spoke in the softest voice he possibly could trying to not scare me. I was contemplating and decided against it. Being hesitant; I needed space. I shook my head.

"Okay that's fine how about I gather some clothes for you... I can leave the room if you want."

He was doing as much as could to make me feel comfortable. "Don't leave just... please don't", Aaron nodded and started to get me clothes while I walked to the bathroom. It had been 2 hours since the incident and the bruises were more prominent.

I ran my fingers over them and my heart shattered, never in my life did I think I'd be in this situation.

I didn't tear but there were still blood from the penetration. I wet a rag wiping between my legs, I knew I technically wasn't suppose to wash off evidence I just- I couldn't leave it there.

I heard a soft knock on the door getting me out of my thoughts. "I'm setting your clothes on the bed, I'm going to get some food; if you want you can talk about it more." I took a step towards him.

"Please don't leave me, you can have Spencer get it. I want you to stay with me." Tears were threatening to spill yet again for the 4th time tonight.

"Okay", he left and sat in the corner so he couldn't see me get changed. He texted Reid and when I was done he turned around.

I was 'clean' but I felt dirty, like trash. Sitting on the bed there was a knock at the door. It was Spencer; Aaron walked to the door and opened it just enough for the bag. "Hotch what's going on?"

"Reid, not now", he closed the door and returned to the bed but didn't sit. He stood there waiting for me to say he could. "You can", he sat across form me. He handed me my food and I started eating. "Are you sure you wanna talk about it again?"

"Yeah", I let quietly and he was waiting for me to resume. "When he started to rape me, I gave up fighting when he actually went fully... in. I laid there feeling like I was just a ghost watching. I didn't do anything." I paused, I was upset and getting angry.

"I didn't do anything Aaron. I was getting raped and I didn't fucking do anything! I laid there taking it, I wanted to die from just fucking that!" They were flowing, I wasn't calming down. I was yelling and sobbing, pacing the room.

"Y/n this isn't your fault you might not have done anything but it definitely. isn't your fault." He was still speaking softly but at a normal tone, he was getting angry that I was blaming myself but he was trying to not raise his voice.

"Aaron how can I not, I'm the one that didn't stop it. God knows I fucking tried! He held me down! he choked me, hit me." I took a deep breath calming myself down. I looked at him in the eyes.

"He. had. complete. control over the situation and I had... nothing." My voice returned to normal. Lowering I wasn't yelling it was small.

"And the fact that I knew who did it doesn't make the situation any better." His face fell.

I saw anger flash through his eyes, his jaw clenched and he tightened his fists. "What do you mean you know who did it." His voice waved, he was livid. I knew I had to tell him but he was most likely going to lash out and go after him... with good reason.

"I'm gonna tell you but you need to promise me that you'll keep it together."

"Fine", he hated this whole night. He hated that I made him promise to not go after him.

"It was Mark... my ex. I could tell by the way he spoke and his eyes." He shut his eyes tightly trying to process the words that just left my lips. He knows that he was the one that abused me in the past. Mark was the one that was sending the letters to the house, watching me and Aaron, and now Mark was the one that assaulted me.

Mark was the one to finally pull the supports from my body. My world was close to collapsing but right now Aaron was the only thing keeping me above the ground.

He waited a few minutes before speaking. He lowered his voice again, "This is what I want you to do. You're gonna tell the team you're not feeling well and we're going to go to the hospital for a rape kit. That's going to prove Mark... raped you and I'm going to arrest his ass."

"Okay", I stood there leaning against the wall and Aaron sat still on the bed. "Can we go to bed."

"Yeah", I moved to the bed and Aaron moved to the other side. "Can you sleep on the couch, I want you in here but I just- can't be next to you."

"I understand, it's fine." He turned off the lights and I gave him a pillow. I laid down, wishing Aaron was holding me but I knew that I would be triggered if he was. I was cold the whole night missing the warmth he brought me and so was Aaron. He wanted to make me feel safe and protected but he also knew that I wouldn't be.

"Love you." I mumbled out.

"Love you too princess."

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tteokggukk · 4 years

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let’s fall in love for the night → kth

✳ pairing: taehyung x reader

✳ genre: college au, fluff, slow burn

✳ warnings: none! just pure fluff

✳ words: 9.4k

✳ a/n: hello! this was inspired by finneas’ song let’s fall in love for the night, which just really made me think of taehyung while listening. this is my first oneshot and also the first time i’ll be posting my writing so i’d really appreciate some feedback so i know how i can improve! thank you and i hope you enjoy!

S T O R Y P L A Y L I S T:

1. Let’s Fall in Love for the Night // FINNEAS

2. I Fall in Love Too Easily // Chet Baker

3. Realize // Colbie Caillat

4. Ain’t Together // King Princess

5. Lay Me Down // Sam Smith

6. Dreams // Fleetwood Mac

"It'll be fun, you know."

Kate says in an imploring tone at her hundredth attempt at trying to get you to join a party your other friends had planned. "It'll just be with people we know, and maybe a couple others but— you know how Justin is. Come on, please?" She looks at you with begging eyes while clutching onto different pieces of clothing she planned on trying out.

You were lying in your bed contemplating whether or not you should click on one more episode of (your favorite show) or give in and get out of your comfortable pajamas. Your best friend knew you didn't want to choose the latter, but you knew better that she never took no for an answer.

"I don't see what's more fun than being in bed right now," you groaned as you shut your laptop and stood up, walking over in front of the mirror as if staring at it would help you decide what to do. It’s been a while since you’ve last been to a party. Crowds and loud music were only fun to a certain extent, one that doesn't last very long, and you were pretty sure Kate was going to end up leaving you later in the night until she needed someone to hold her hair up while she puked in a bathroom stall.

But then again, winter break was only days from now and you'd be going off to travel with your cousins to places in Europe. It was a break you needed—a break from college and stress. All you could look forward to was the comfort of being around people you were free to be yourself around. Though this meant you wouldn't have any time to hang out with Kate and you certainly didn't want to leave without spending time with her, especially since you never come with her to parties anymore.

"Yet there you are getting ready anyway," You could hear her smile in victory as she spoke, making you roll your eyes.

"Just this once," you glance back at her before entering the bathroom to shower, silently regretting your decision.

Forty-five minutes later, you were done getting ready and Kate was waiting for you by the door frame of your shared dorm room. The only good thing about going out to party was that you always rocked the clothes you wore, and tonight you couldn't help but feel yourself in your tight black dress and combat boots. You took your keys from your drawer and you both headed out. You got in the driver's seat while Kate rode shotgun.

It was six in the evening, the sky faded into a deep blue mixed with purple and the stars were close to lighting up. The view nearly tempted you to drop the whole party and just go on a drive, until you remembered you were with Kate who was more than happy that you finally went with her after her endless invitations.

"I'm glad you listened to me for once," she says, head nodding to the sound of her music.

"I don't know if I should be happy or scared that I did," you chuckled, though you already knew your answer.

"Y/n, parties aren't so bad. You gotta learn to loosen up," Kate shakes your shoulder, "Plus, you need this. You haven't gone out much and had fun since Lance."

"I think I'm already a loosened up person, thank you very much," You glanced at her with a sarcastic smile, "And Lance? Lance who?"

Kate laughs at this, and from the corner of your eye you could see her shaking her head before looking out the window.

"You're over him, then?" She asks.

"It's been like, six months, Kate. At this point I'm just a loser if I haven't gotten over him," you laughed to yourself knowing full well how convincing you sound, you almost believed it.

Lance, that idiot cheater, you thought. You were over him, but that didn't mean there wasn't a slight pang in your chest at the mention of his name and at the thought of what he did. It wasn't him you were bothered with; it was the experience of being cheated on. It made you question your own worth, and sometimes even your existence.

But that was months ago, and right now there was really no time to get hung up over a guy. You've practically given up on whatever chances of love you thought you'd ever find when you broke up with him, you decided it was time to give some more time for yourself.

"I'm proud of you. Who knows, maybe tonight you'll meet your next prince!" Kate giggled a little menacingly, it almost scared you.

"Maybe."

You doubted it.

When you got to the house, it was exactly how you imagined it. Loud and trashed. You could already feel the bass from the blaring music being played and you weren't even out of your car yet. It made you feel slightly anxious, already sensing something stirring up in your stomach, your heart racing and your palms sweating.

Kate looks at you as if waiting for some kind of confirmation, probably sensing you didn't really feel okay. "You good?"

You didn't want Kate to feel guilty, nor did you want to kill the mood, so you decided to do what was best which meant having to go inside and get the night over with.

"Yeah, let's go."

When you both got out of the car, the noise only got louder and you could hear the sound of teenagers laughing. Before you could enter the place, you recognized a guy walking towards the two of you with a smile, first giving Kate a side hug before moving to you to give you one as well. It was Nick from your chemistry class and one of your friends. He gave you a surprised look and a smile before turning back to Kate.

"This is the first time in a while you brought y/n with you!" He says enthusiastically, "It's great you finally came!"

"It took me a lot of convincing," Kate says.

"I'm not gonna be here over the break, so I figured why not," You nod as you spoke. Nick was a good guy, he was smart and friendly, he pretty much knew everyone around the whole campus.

"It's good you could make it, Min-Jun's been wailing thinking you'd never come," Nick laughed. You gave Kate a look at the mention of Min-Jun's name, her eyes turning slightly wide. You could tell she knew something, but this wasn't the time and place to confront her. Nick places his arm around and you before telling you both to come inside and try the drinks.

It stuck in your head, though, the fact that you felt like Kate and the others had this all planned.

The house was huge and close to being crowded, but there was just enough space to walk in. You recognized most of the people from your batch and some of them looked as shocked as Nick to see you, though just as happy as they offered a wave while some even called your name.

"Where are the others?" Kate asked, referring to both your group of friends.

"They're over at the back, follow me." Nick leads you both to the backyard, revealing a huge pool surrounded by your friends along with some guys who also went to the same class as you but never had the chance to talk to. You made eye contact with one of them, specifically the tall, familiar guy who had black—maybe even dark brown hair, sharp eyes, wearing a black, rose printed dress shirt and black pants. He had the same classes as you but you couldn't recall a time you've ever had a proper conversation with him, the most you could remember was when he needed to borrow a pen or whenever he’d give it back. The eye contact might have been a little too long, so you quickly averted your attention to the others.

I didn’t know the Kim Taehyung went to parties with my friends.

Taehyung and his friends had a reputation for being popular with everyone. Unlike his friends who were more sociable and outgoing, Taehyung was much more reserved. He didn’t go out much either, nor did he date often, but his serious exterior gave off a mysterious aura that most girls (and even some guys) couldn’t resist.

Everyone else was visibly surprised to see you, and it’s safe to say it was a pleasant surprise as they all greeted you warmly, easing the anxiety you had previously felt. All that was gone by now and is replaced by the feeling of comfort around the people you knew.

Min-Jun caught your eye and even with the dim lighting you could tell he turned into a deep shade of red.

"Y/n! I can't believe you actually made it," Jen, one of your close friends, gave you a side hug.

"This is the first time I've seen you come to a party in years," Justin, the owner of the house and another one of your close friends, gives you a high five.

"Yeah, well, thank Kate," you grinned.

"Min-Jun, why are you suddenly so quiet?" Lucas teases, who also happens to be the guy Kate has a crush on.

"Shut up," Min-Jun bumps Lucas on the shoulder making Lucas laugh before he made his way to you, "Hey, y/n."

"Hey," you greeted awkwardly, forcing a smile. Honestly Min-Jun was a close friend of yours until he started creeping you out. He'd get jealous over Lance when you were still together and always indirectly told you how much you "deserved better" while you dated someone else. He was right, but you found that it felt too invasive and caused you to see him in a different light ever since, and not in a good way. It still didn't stop him from trying to make a move on you.

"Y/n, by the way, these guys are our friends," Justin points towards Taehyung and his friends as the three of them came forward to introduce themselves. "This is Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung, though you might already know them," Justin motions at them, each of them waving and saying "hi", "We have the same classes."

"Hey." You waved back.

"You look great," Jimin grins at you. He was cute, and you couldn't help but smile back.

"He's a massive flirt, so don't fall for that," Jungkook teases, and everyone laughs. Jimin shakes his head but laughs along while their friend, Taehyung, was just sipping on some coke.

"How come we never really see you around Justin's parties?" Jimin asks.

"I haven't really gone out to party in months," You told Jimin.

"What happened to your boyfriend? Was it Landon? Lee?" Taehyung asks, holding the can of coke in his hand.

Just as you were about to open your mouth, Min-Jun decided to race with you and answered, "Lance. They broke up like half a year ago, right?" He quickly spoke. Annoyed, you glared at him subtly, hoping he'd get the message.

"Right," was all you could say.

Taehyung just raised a brow and sipped on his coke again while he nodded his head. You were slightly disappointed at what impression you gave off to Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook— the girl who stopped partying solely because she broke up with her boyfriend, but right now what bothered you most was the way Min-Jun stood right next to you, beer in his hand, looking at you as if he had the right to speak for you. You didn't want to cause a scene, but man did this irk you.

"We should head back inside before we run out of drinks," Justin announces and everyone follows.

Before you got in the house, you could swear you saw Taehyung glancing your way. Or it might've been your imagination, so you decide not to think much of it.

In the kitchen, you waited for Kate as you stood next to the punch bowl while you watched as she flirted with Lucas. You took a glass of punch, leaning on the counter while looking around the place. Min-Jun wasn't in sight, what a relief, you thought, but you also saw Taehyung, Jungkook, and Jimin surrounded by quite the number of girls. Jimin seemed to be quite flirty, Jungkook only nodding his head while someone spoke to him, and Taehyung sat on the couch’s arm rest, just scrolling away on his phone.

Kate finally noticed you and walked over.

"Why didn't you tell me Min-Jun was gonna be here?" You asked, arms folded.

"Cause I knew you weren't gonna come if I did," She whined, "I'm sorry. The others wanted you to come too, you know."

"You know how uncomfortable I am around him, Kate."

"Look, I'm really sorry, okay?" Kate held both your arms, "I'll make it up to you, I promise."

From behind Kate, you could see Taehyung making his way over your area. He looked at you, causing your brows to raise so you looked back at Kate.

"Fine," you sighed.

"Yay! Thank you, y/n," Kate pulled you in for a hug. Taehyung was looking at you both before proceeding to fill his red cup with punch. Kate must've noticed him as well because she began to pull away from your short hug.

"Justin says we should all go to his room to play a game. The others are already there. You should come," she takes your hand and then looks at Taehyung, "Taehyung, you should come too!" Taehyung nods at this while gulping down the drink.

The three of you headed upstairs to the second floor. There were people playing games on different consoles while taking shots, people making out— it was like a whole 'nother party. Kate walked ahead into Justin's room while you lagged behind with Taehyung in front of you.

Taehyung looked at you as you scanned the area, "Weird how people get used to these things," he comments, making you look.

"My sentiments, exactly."

"Y/n, what are you doing?" The sound of the familiar, irritating voice pierces through your ears. Even through the loud music, his voice manages to be the most annoying sound.

Min-Jun's head pokes out from Justin's door frame. He looks at you then at Taehyung before stepping out to walk in front of you. Taehyung watches Min-Jun with eyes slightly squinted as if he's onto him.

"You're hanging out with him?" He asks.

You couldn't make a scene. This guy's never seen you angry, and you weren't going to risk for people to see that either.

"I was just heading inside," you smiled politely and walked past Min-Jun to head in Justin's room, Taehyung following behind you.

Everyone was sat in a circle and there was a bottle placed in the middle. You knew where this was a going and you weren't sure if this was a good idea. From what you could tell, everyone in the room was way more buzzed than you. Could you really handle this game without being drunk?

You sat on the empty space next to Jen, but Min-Jun found his way next to you. Taehyung sat opposite from you where he started talking to Jimin and Jungkook.

"Great, everyone's here. You know how the game works, spin the bottle and whoever it lands on has to go in the closet with the next person," Lucas explains.

"Seven minutes might not be enough though," Min-Jun whispered in your ear and smirked, making you very uneasy. You wished you could switch spots with someone else, but at least sitting next to Min-Jun could lower your chances of being paired with him.

Yet you weren't the only one who felt like strangling the boy next to you. Taehyung felt it too.

Several spins and unnerving whispers from Min-Jun later, the bottle finally landed on you. Your eyes went wide as everyone began chanting your name. Your luck has gone so well for the whole of the game, you thought for sure it would end without the bottle landing on you— but it did, and Min-Jun took this opportunity to quickly spin the bottle, thinking it would land on him and that he'd be the guy to enter the closet with you.

But it didn't land on him.

It landed on Taehyung.

You could feel the anger radiating off of Min-Jun as he tried to keep his cool. Taehyung gave you a look that seemed as if he was asking for your consent. All you wanted was to get as far away from Min-Jun as possible, so you stood up.

"Y/n's down for it!" They shouted. Even Taehyung's own friends started applauding.

Taehyung stared at you as you walked into the closet, him following behind but not missing the chance to send a mocking smirk at Min-Jun. The door closed behind the two of you and there was nothing inside except the closet lights, a bunch of coats, and just enough room for two.

"Seven minutes, you guys!" Justin slurred behind the door.

Silence.

"I really wanna get out of here," you sighed to yourself and ran your hand through your hair as you leaned on the walls of the closet.

"You wanna call it quits? I could talk to Justin," Taehyung asks, his hand already on the knob.

"No! No," You chuckled, slightly feeling bad, "Sorry, I meant this whole party."

Taehyung smiles shyly, "Oh, sorry."

He had a different aura now than he did earlier.

"Same though," He spoke quietly, "I was dragged here by my friends, as always."

You let out a breathy laugh, "I was forced to come here as well." You looked around the closet, realizing the whole purpose of getting in here was to have a seven-minute make-out session. Taehyung probably heard you gulp nervously, so he looked at you with a fond smile, "We don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with, don't worry."

What a relief.

Taehyung leans on the wall opposite you so he's facing you. "Maybe it's not my place to say, but your friend, Min-Jun, was it?" He starts, making your left brow raise, "Seems like he's been trying to impress you all night."

You snicker, "He makes me uncomfortable."

"You're good at hiding it, but I could tell," He gives you a sympathetic smile, "Sorry you have to put up with that."

You had to admit he was already extremely attractive from afar, but he's deadly up close. His skin looked so smooth and his eyes were so captivating. You noticed he had both a monolid and a double eyelid, then you shifted to his nose and noticed a little mole. His eye had it too, and so did his mouth.

It was like God put a whole constellation in him. It fascinated you.

You must've been staring at him for a long time, because he suddenly snapped his fingers in front of you. It took you by surprise and maybe it was cause of your facial expression, but this made Taehyung laugh.

And his laugh made you laugh.

"You're so annoying," you chuckled.

"Am I? Can I compete for most annoying with Min-Jun?"

"You know, something tells me you'd win," you say sarcastically, earning you a smile from Taehyung.

You were both silent for a moment until he started talking again.

"I know this seems too sudden, but do you wanna get out of this place?" He asks.

"Like, the closet?" You look at him, confused.

"No, out of this party. I know we don't know each other well but I really wanna go out and have more fun," He scratches the back of his head, "And something tells me it'll be exciting with you."

You felt the heat building up on your cheeks at his words. Maybe it was the punch talking, but for some reason you suddenly felt a little more confident. Whatever it was, you just had to blame the punch for the words that were about to slip from your mouth within the next few seconds.

"Do you wanna go on a date with me?" You blurted, "Just for tonight, though, then we forget it all in the morning."

You couldn't believe what you just did right now.

Taehyung only smiled, his eyes turning into crescents before saying the words, "I'd love to."

Seven minutes were almost up, but you and Taehyung rushed out of there as fast as you could. For a brief moment you could hear the others shouting 'Hey! It isn't over yet!'. Then you saw Min-Jun standing up in shock while Taehyung ran to the door, his friends Jungkook and Jimin shouting 'What's going on?' as you tossed your car keys to your best friend Kate, screaming 'I'm sorry!' before finally running to Taehyung, who was waiting by the door frame.

You took one last glance at everyone knowing full well you had a lot of explaining to do tomorrow, but you had to start running because Min-Jun, Kate, and Justin were suddenly following the two of you.

Taehyung took your hand as you both ran down the stairs, trying to squeeze your way out of the crowd. When you were near the door, you heard Min-Jun scream your name though you never bothered to look back. Taehyung held your hand tightly until you were both in front of his car. You quickly got in and rode shotgun and he immediately stepped on the gas, leaving no time for the others to catch up.

The feeling of your heart pounding in your chest and the rush of adrenaline caused by the chase was the most fun you've had in months, and it was all thanks to the guy who you barely even talk to in all your classes. You looked over at Taehyung who had on a wide, toothy smile, panting as he drove.

"That was crazy!" He shouted.

"That was actually fun!" You breathed out, "I can't believe we really did that."

"I know! The way you threw your keys at Kate! That was funny," he laughed and so did you.

You never expected the guy who looked so intimidating to be so spontaneous.

"So wait, where are we heading now?" You asked.

"Anywhere, we'll make the most out of this night," Taehyung grins, "I'm taking you on an adventure before this offer expires in the morning."

"I can't wait," You grin back.

You looked out the window. The sky had already turned black with stars scattered all around it, it was beautiful. You had been so occupied with the party you hadn't noticed it was already 10:45 in the evening, so there weren't much cars on the road. Taehyung drove fast but it didn't scare you, in fact it only excited you more.

"You wanna roll the windows down?" He asked.

"Can I?" You looked at him.

"By all means." He gave you a quick smile before turning his attention back on the road. You smiled and rolled the window down, feeling the wind run through your hair. The way the streetlights illuminated his face made you see him clearly, and though you'd never admit this to yourself you knew he made you flustered.

Taehyung drove for another ten minutes before pulling over at a nearby park. No one was around but it was an open park so you were both free to wander. You both got off the car and Taehyung ran to the slide, a big smile plastered on your face as you watched him. You sat on the swing adjacent to the slide and watched as he went for a second round before walking and sitting on the swing next to you.

"I'm sorry for asking about your ex," he spoke.

You hadn't even thought of it and it didn't bother you, but you found it heartwarming for him to apologize over such a small thing. "Oh don't worry, it didn't bother me. I don’t mind when people ask me questions about him. Thanks, though."

"What are your plans over the break?" You asked, changing the topic.

"Not much. I might go to my family, help them out with the farm," he looked up at the sky.

"You have a farm?"

"Yeah, a strawberry farm," he grinned at you.

"That's so cool, you should bring me some."

"Yeah, I should," He chuckled, "What about you? Any plans?"

"I'm not sure yet," You started kicking the sand on the ground. You lied only because you didn't really want people knowing you were going out of town for a few weeks, and it wasn’t important anyway you thought. You looked over at Taehyung, who was already looking at you.

“Well, I know we only promised this one night but if you ever get bored just know that you can call me.”

You smiled at him, which you found you’ve done quite often tonight, “Maybe I will.”

He started scrolling through his phone and you wondered if he was getting bored. Just as you were about to ask him what else he wanted to do, he stands up and puts his phone down while a song begins to play.

You recognize the song as one of your favorites, Chet Baker’s I Fall in Love Too Easily.

Taehyung was now standing in front of you, offering his hand. You stare at it first before asking, “What?”

“You asked me out on a date, so we’re dating.”

Before you could open your mouth to your defense, he beats you to it.

“For a night, yes, I know. Come on,” he says, his hands inviting yours to hold his. You tried to keep a serious look but you fail as a smile cracks on your face. You take his hand as you stood, then he takes both your hands and places them on his shoulders so he could place his on your waist and he begins to sway you both to the music.

“Didn’t know you had nice taste in music,” You muttered.

“Thank you. If you like it then yours must be wonderful too,” he grins.

It was just the two of you swaying in the night with nothing but the sound of your feet on the sand, the music playing, and the cars that would occasionally pass by. The moon and the stars along with the warm streetlights around the park gave just enough light for you to see him standing inches away from you. You realized the kind of person you’ve been missing out on after all these months. Why haven’t you had the chance to talk to him?

“If you don’t mind me asking, why’d you break up with Lance?” Taehyung asks after a minute of silence.

You look at him, not expecting him to be interested. Or maybe he just wanted to make conversation. You decide not to read into it too much.

“He cheated on me, to make things short,” You nod and his eyes go wide, “But I mean, we only dated for like—five months?”

“However long or short your relationship is doesn’t give him an excuse to cheat,” Taehyung stopped dancing now, his arms were crossed but you kept your hands on his shoulders. Cute, you thought, chuckling.

“What?” he asks.

“Nothing, you’re right. I wish he thought the same as you,” You smiled, “Come on, the song’s not over,” you place his arms back on your waist, earning a small smile from him.

“I’m sorry you had to go through that though,” he apologized.

“You sure do apologize a lot for things that aren’t your fault,” You told him, “But it’s fine. I got over him pretty fast, it’s just the experience of being cheated on that really stayed and bothered me.”

“Like a trauma?” He asked.

“Kind of, I guess.”

“Lance is dumber than I thought. I can’t believe he’d let go of someone like you,” He scoffed while you smiled to yourself. The song ends after a few seconds and Taehyung lets go, bowing in front of you. You copy him, making you both laugh, but the sound of your stomach growling makes him laugh even harder. Taehyung takes your hand again and leads you to the car.

“Let’s go get something to eat.”

Taehyung drove you to this small restaurant that he claims sells the best jajangmyeon which you had to try. You couldn’t object, you were hungry and you didn’t have time to play the guessing game when it came to restaurants. Plus, he just looked so happy talking about it, you didn’t want to burst his bubble.

“Wait here,” Taehyung told you before he got off the car. Maybe he was going to check the place first, or talk to the owner and ask if they were still open. You were surprised when you saw him walk to your side of the car and realized he wanted to open the door for you. His hand was extended out to you, waiting for yours to hold his.

“Thanks,” You told him, taking his hand.

“Don’t mention it.”

When you both walked into the restaurant, you almost felt bad because the staff was already packing up and cleaning, the smell of food already faint. But when the staff members saw Taehyung, they all lit up and so did he, greeting each one of them with a wave.

“Auntie, Taehyung’s here!” One of the staff members shouted.

Just then, a short, plump woman who looked like she was in her forties walked out of the kitchen and walked up to Taehyung. She had short, curly hair, and the crinkles in her eyes were evident with the way she smiled.

“Taehyung, it’s so nice to see you. It’s been a while since I’ve seen you here with your friends,” She spoke.

“Ah, yeah. We’ve all been busy with college, but I really missed your food,” Taehyung grinned.

“Well come on, sit down!” she motions for us to sit and offers us a table, “I’ll make you your usual.”

“Ah! For two please,” Taehyung puts two fingers up as he sits down before looking back at you.

One of the staff members began talking to Taehyung in a foreign language while placing down tissues and chopsticks on the table. Taehyung, whose face turned into a deep shade of red, nervously began talking in the same foreign language while picking up his chopsticks to rub them together. The staff member said something back to him, sending Taehyung what you could only assume was a teasing smile. This caused Taehyung to laugh anxiously before replying to the staff.

You looked at him in confusion, but also amazement. You found it so cool the way he was so friendly with the staff and how they were nice to him as well, it was even cooler when you heard him speak in Korean for the first time. You were mesmerized.

“That was so cool,” You spoke, sounding as if you’d been holding your breath the entire time.

“What is?” He asks, dumbfounded.

“Just now. The staff here knows you and you speak Korean? That’s amazing, your voice sounds so nice in Korean.”

His eyes widened, “Wait—you knew it was in Korean… did you understand what we were talking about just now?” Taehyung felt as if his heart was beginning to palpitate. It was an innocent conversation about how the staff member found you pretty and thought you were his girlfriend, and how Taehyung agreed that you were gorgeous indeed, however you two weren’t together.

“No, I just recognized the language. Plus, there’s a small Korean flag outside this restaurant. One would notice,” You spoke blankly, “Why? What was it about?”

“Oh,” was all he could say before coming up with an excuse, “He just told me that it’s late and we shouldn’t overeat or we’ll get nightmares.” That was a fast excuse, I deserve an award for that, he thought.

You may not have known him enough, but it was easy to tell he was lying by the way he wasn’t looking at you properly. Maybe it was a personal thing, so you decided not to push his buttons and pry. Soon enough, your food came and both your mouths were watering. It smelled delicious, and you couldn’t wait to dig in. Taehyung let you taste it first to see if you’d like it, and you did.

“Do you come here often?” You asked him.

Taehyung took a sip of water, “Yeah, I used to. I think the last time I went here was two months ago, with Jungkook and Jin, our older friend.”

“You’ve seen Jungkook and Jimin, right?” He asked to which you nodded. “We’d come here with four of our other friends, they’re all seniors in college now.”

“It’s nice that you have lots of friends.”

“Yeah, they’re great. You should meet them sometime, I have a feeling they’ll like you,” he says, giving you a grin you were starting to feel accustomed to. You smiled at the thought of him wanting you to meet his friends.

When you were both done eating, you took your wallet out and asked Taehyung how much the food was so you could split. No matter how hard you insisted to pay for your food, he was more persistent in paying for everything, so he did. Taehyung thanked the lady who owned the restaurant and so did you before you both walked back into the car.

“Are you up for some karaoke?” Taehyung asks.

“Yeah, of course! Let’s go,” You beamed.

The twenty-minute car ride was spent with you and Taehyung not-so-seriously singing to a bunch of songs from the 2000s as well as original soundtracks from cartoons you both watched as children. You’d laugh every now and then whenever Taehyung would try to copy the female voices and Taehyung would poke fun at you for trying to imitate voices with lower ranges.

Taehyung was enraptured with how you were able to hang out with him like he was an old friend of yours. You were fun to be around, and he wanted to take every opportunity he could to make this feeling of elation you caused to last because he knew things would probably change in the morning. Prior to your party-turned-date-night, he already had a hunch he’d have a great time with you. What he didn’t expect that as the hours passed, you were turning out to be so much more.

“We’re here!” Taehyung exclaimed after he finished parking, “Wait inside.” He got off the car and you laughed to yourself knowing he was going to open the door again for you. This time you took his hand before he could give you his. He looked surprised at first but not even half a second later that was replaced by a wide, boxy smile you found endearing.

As you walked in, you noticed how well-lit and alive the whole place was at night. You barely come to Karaoke Bars, the last time you went was in high school when you and a couple of your friends tried sneaking drinks but failed because you were minors. It wasn’t the most exciting experience, at least this time around you didn’t need to sneak around anything.

“For two, please.” You heard Taehyung tell the person behind the counter.

“Would you like any food and drinks?” The lady asks.

“Want anything?” Taehyung asks, looking back at you.

“Any is fine,” You told him, but really you’ve been eyeing the spicy wings on their menu. Taehyung looks at what you were staring at and quietly laughs to himself.

“We’ll take the spicy chicken platter and 2 bottles of fruity soju, please.”

This was the absolute bare minimum, yet your heart couldn’t resist leaping after hearing Taehyung order the wings you had your eyes on. Had he noticed? If he did, he was only making you fall deep without you even realizing.

You both entered the room. It was square, and it looked slightly smaller than a studio apartment. Two songbooks were placed on a table in the middle of the room and there was a long couch that faced the television. For some reason, the magenta lighting made it feel like it was an intimate space.

Taehyung plopped himself onto the couch and took one songbook. You followed him and sat down, careful to leave a distance of at least one foot between the two of you.

"Here, you should sing," he hands you the songbook.

"I think I'm gonna wait for the soju first before I can sing, thanks," you placed the songbook on his lap, and as if on cue, a lady knocks in and walks into the room holding a tray of spicy chicken on a plate and two bottles of soju with two shot glasses.

Taehyung thanked the lady while you stared at nothingness, silently cursing this unlucky timing. He laughs while reaching over for the bottle of soju, opening one and pouring you both a shot.

"You said you needed one before you could sing, so here you go," he hands you a shot glass and you glare at him, taking the glass from his hand and downing it in one go. He raises his brow in amazement, letting out a breathy laugh before downing his shot.

"Give me that," you held your hand out for the songbook. You scanned the pages, looking for a specific song. You were the kind of person who wanted to relate to what you were saying, the kind who wished people could read between the lines and realize there was a meaning to whatever song you chose.

So you picked Realize by Colbie Caillat.

You looked at Taehyung hesitantly before standing up. Would he notice? Maybe he'll think it was just one of your favorites. Maybe he won't even think about it. Either way, there was no turning back now as you've already entered the numbers.

"I just want you to know, I am by no means a singer," you warned.

"In our date, there's no room for judgement," he grinned, visibly awaiting your performance as he watched you while he rests his head on his hand.

The lyrics popped up on screen and you began to sing.

Take time to realize

That your warmth is

Crashing down on me

Taehyung leaned forward from his seat the moment he heard your voice. You lied, he thought, you were most definitely a singer. His heart began to race for the nth time tonight, but this was different. You've got him wrapped around your finger, and he knew. Your voice was the final thing that trapped him into the pit of feelings he's been falling deeper and deeper into throughout the night. It didn't help that he was the type of person to really analyze every line from a song, wondering if there was some hidden message behind your song of choice.

He couldn’t help but wish that song was meant for him.

If you just realize what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'd never find another

He was captivated by you. When Taehyung realized he'd been thinking of you and just you, he had to snap out of it by downing a shot.

By the time the song ended, you felt your knees go weak and your hands were trembling. You took a shot of soju hoping it would calm your nerves and placed the microphone on the table. "I can't believe I just sang." I can't believe I just sang a song like that.

"I can't believe you lied to me," Taehyung tried to play it cool, "You have a beautiful voice."

Singing wasn't something you could easily do in front of people. As much as possible, you wanted to keep that hobby to yourself. You never really had the confidence to let people listen to you, but hearing those words from Taehyung felt like an affirmation. You were touched.

"Thanks," you gave him a soft smile, "That actually means a lot."

"You have to sing one more," he begged.

You raised a brow, "Are you serious?" Taehyung nods at this. You wanted to protest but his eyes made it impossible. How could you say no to him?

"Fine, but you're singing after me."

Before you sang for the second time, you made sure to drink another shot to get rid of your nerves. The next song you chose was Ain't Together by King Princess and you were hoping Taehyung would read the lyrics on screen and realize they were for him and not for the sake of singing.

When you were done, you found Taehyung staring at you. His eyes followed you even when you were already sitting down, you had to snap your fingers in front of him to get him back on earth. When you did, he suddenly dropped his head down the way participants would wake up after being hypnotized.

"Are you okay?" You asked.

He looked back up, only to reveal a smiling face before he reached for the bottle of soju and poured himself a shot, running his hand through his hair. Thoughts of you were devouring him. The alcohol was supposed to help, but it was only stopping him from suppressing his emotions.

"Never better," he told you.

I must be going crazy, he thought to himself.

"I've done two songs, Taehyung. It's your turn now," you handed him the songbook, your fingers accidentally touching. Taehyung took the songbook from you, his heart nervously pounding when he felt your index finger.

You watched his hands as he flipped through the pages, looking at every ring wrapped around on his fingers. Your eyed then trailed to look at his ears and noticed he was wearing several earrings as well. He always did, you figured, but they were way more noticeable now.

"What's your favorite song?" Taehyung asked, leaning on you a bit. Your faces were suddenly inches apart; you didn't notice how close you were getting as you were inspecting his accessories. Taehyung's eyes grew wide, so you quickly leaned back.

"Uhm, Dreams by Fleetwood Mac," you tried saying nonchalantly trying to ignore the warmth on your cheeks because of that brief moment.

"Oh, sorry, I don't know that. Any faves from Sam Smith?"

You laughed, "Lay Me Down, definitely."

"Perfect," he began typing the numbers and the song appeared on screen, "I actually know this song."

"Are you gonna serenade me?" You teased.

He stood up from his seat and held the mic in his hand. Funny how the microphone seemed to belong in his grasp. If he weren't majoring in (your major), he would probably do well as a performer.

"I intend to," He smirks, "I'm gonna make you fall in love with me with my voice, darling."

Those words sent your heart jumping and you had to restrain yourself from touching your cheeks to cool them. Thank goodness Taehyung's eyes were now fixated on the screen waiting for the lyrics to come out, or else he would've seen you fanning yourself with your hand trying to cool down.

Yes, I do, I believe

That one day I will be, where I was

Right there, right next to you

Your mouth dropped at Taehyung’s deep and velvety voice. You always knew his voice was deep—it was evident in the way he talked, you just didn’t expect he’d turn out to be an impressive singer.

And it's hard, the days just seem so dark

The moon, and the stars, are nothing without you

Your touch, your skin, where do I begin? Taehyung turned to face you as he sang, making you flustered. He might’ve been joking about making you fall in love with his voice, but right now you were certain that you no longer took it as a joke—you could easily fall for him right then and there. Maybe you already have. It was even harder to resist with the way he had his eyes set on you, only emphasizing how it was just the two of you in the room. His soulful voice made you feel something—an inexplicable leaping feeling in your chest.

Soon the song ended and Taehyung placed the microphone back on the table before sitting back down, the distance between you two measuring at only half a ruler. Maybe it was the alcohol kicking in, but you could swear you were within an ace of losing the filter from your mouth. All you needed was one more shot.

So you took one.

"You didn't tell me you were such a great singer," You spoke while you rested your elbow on the couch.

Taehyung laughed at this, though his laugh sounded deeper than it did earlier, "I told you I'd make you fall for me with my voice,” he says as he reaches for his shot glass.

"Is this how you get girls, then?" You teased, placing your glass back on the table. Cause it’s working on me.

He laughed again, shaking his head, "No."

"Then how?" The question comes out in a more serious manner than you had originally intended.

“Why?” He places his glass back on the table before looking straight at you, his warm eyes turning to an even darker, more alluring shade of brown. "Do you want me to show you?" He asks looking straight at you, head tilting coyly and his voice treacherously deeper than it normally sounds.

A small bead of sweat began to form on your forehead. Show you what, exactly? Though you were curious about his ways of picking up women, you weren't exactly sure if you were ready to find even more reasons to like him. For a split second you caught his eyes traveling down to your lips before making eye contact with you again. Perhaps your mind was playing tricks on you, or maybe it was the soju, but you almost felt him leaning into you.

Time was moving painstakingly slow, but before you could decide whether or not you wanted to find out what was going to happen next, you anxiously clear your throat and decide to shift the topic to the spicy chicken platter that you both have barely touched.

"I-is the spicy chicken here good? We haven’t even touched it and it’s probably getting cold."

Taehyung was only teasing and though he’d never admit it out loud, he noticed the way a blush formed at your cheeks and how flustered you were at his question. It has to mean something, he thought. He never imagined he’d ever relish in the fact that he had the capacity to affect you in that way.

He uncontrollably grinned to himself as he watched you take a bite from a chicken wing.

A few more songs and chicken wings later, you and Taehyung decided to get out of the Karaoke Bar and drive to a nearby beach to stroll around. You appreciated how consistent he was with opening the car door for you, even when you tried to argue that you could open it for yourself.

"It's a date, y/n. Even if it was storming, I wouldn't let my date open the car door for herself."

The way he reminded you each time that you were both on a date made you regret telling him it was something you could both forget in the morning.

It was cold and the breeze made it even colder. Thankfully, Taehyung had an extra jacket in his car to lend knowing your black dress wouldn’t be enough to keep you warm. As you walked you would breathe into your hands and rub them together to keep them warm. Taehyung noticed this, worrying your enjoyment would be compromised because of the temperature.

"Do you wanna go someplace warmer?" He asked.

"No, I like it here," you smiled.

He looked at you with much concern on his face, you had to convince him you were fine, really. Because you insisted so much that you were alright, he took your hand instead, placing it in his coat pocket. At this point your heart was leaping out of your chest, you found yourself questioning how he could make the absolute bare minimum feel like such a grand gesture.

"Your hands feel like ice,” He told you

“Say it,” You joked, referencing a film.

“You’re a—a vampire,” Taehyung played along, making the two of you laugh.

The whole night with Taehyung really got you thinking. It’s not like you were the type to easily fall for guys, but for some reason Taehyung was different. Nothing felt forced, and you could tell he was just being his genuine self around you. Though he’d call you his date, there was a certain comfort you felt around him, as if he’d been your friend for years—a sense of familiarity you’ve never felt towards anyone else.

“I see people doing this a lot in movies whenever the girl gets cold, but it never really occurred to me until now that it only helps one of your hands,” he comments, making you giggle.

“It’s a sweet gesture, s’all that matters,” you reassured him, making him smile to himself.

The two of you walked along the shore while Taehyung would tell you stories about his childhood and his friends, then he’d tell you jokes that made you laugh really hard, your stomach would ache. In turn you’d also talk about your childhood and how you wanted to be a singer when you were younger but eventually realized you wanted other things. Later on when you both got tired of walking, you decided to lie down on the sand. Talks of childhood memories transitioned to opening up to each other about your own individual worries about the future and random thoughts.

It was so easy to talk to him. It was true when he said there was no room for judgement on your date, and you absolutely loved how you could just be yourself, because now you were really wishing you two had been closer sooner.

“You know, you’ve always seemed a bit intimidating to me,” You spoke.

“I get that a lot,” He sighs, “But so are you.”

“I get that a lot too,” You smile followed by a small laugh, "I just never imagined I'd have this much fun with someone who I can only remember borrows pens from me."

Taehyung laughs, slightly embarrassed, "You have the best pens in class, you know that?"

"You're the only one who actually gives them back, thank you for that."

There was silence for a moment while you two stared up at the sky, the stars were almost fading.

“I wish we got closer sooner," you said quietly.

“Yeah, me too. I guess we just never knew how to properly approach each other,” He takes your hand and begins playing with your fingers, “But better late than never, right?”

“Right,” You smiled.

You wished this night would never end, but you could already feel your eyes drooping as a yawn involuntarily escaped your mouth. You hoped that Taehyung wouldn’t hear, afraid that he’d think it was time to bring you home, but he did and no matter how hard you tried to protest that you weren’t tired yet, he wouldn’t buy it. He laughed as you tried to hold back another yawn before finally helping you up.

“I’ll carry you, get on my back,” He offers, not taking no for an answer.

For the duration of the drive, you struggled to keep your eyes open. Taehyung found it adorable whenever you’d tell him to turn back and find some other place to hang out in, but it was already 4:30 in the morning and most shops and restaurants were closed. “You can sleep, y/n. I’ll still be here when you wake up,” He chuckles. He tried singing you to sleep, but his voice just served another reason why shouldn’t doze off so you could hear it.

The sky was already turning into a lighter shade of blue and the stars were long gone, why couldn’t time move slower?

The car ride was tranquil, just you and Taehyung sharing what a fun experience you both had and how you’ve both never had this much fun with anyone else. Something in you wished he would do something more, though you weren’t exactly sure what. The scenario from the Karaoke room floods back, making you feel slightly embarrassed from what you pictured would have happened. Forty-five minutes later, you finally reached your dorm building. Taehyung, staying as consistent as ever, opens the door for you one last time and walks with you ‘til you reach the outside of your dorm. You were slightly less sleepy now but couldn’t help but feel downhearted that your date had come to an end.

You stared at your room’s door, mentally groaning at all the packing you had to do for your trip along with Kate, who apparently had 86 missed calls and over 200 unread messages in your phone, would probably nag you while you were at it. You didn't really want to go in.

“So,” Taehyung starts, “Date’s over.”

You forced a small laugh to try and disguise the small disappointment you felt because it was over, “Yeah, guess it is.”

Taehyung digs his hands into his pockets, “I had a great time with you.”

“Yeah,” You nodded followed by a sigh, “Taehyung, thank you, really. I haven’t been my best self lately and this date with you was the most fun I’ve had in months. I hope you know this means a lot to me.”

Taehyung had no idea what to say. There were too many thoughts going on in his head and they were all about you and how much he appreciated this spontaneous date you just had, but he didn’t know how to piece them together to tell you how much it all meant to him as well.

A wave of confidence unexpectedly washes over you, "Don't take this the wrong way, but this is just a thank you for being the best date I've had in years." Taehyung watched as you moved closer to him. Your faces only centimeters apart now, you'd think you were the only one whose heart was beating faster than a person racing in a marathon. You stared at each other for only a second before you pulled him in for a hug. He was shocked, but he couldn't help but smile from ear to ear as he wrapped his arms around you. You wished that was enough for a goodbye, but deep down you knew it wasn't.

When you were about to turn your back and open your door, Taehyung took your hand and pulled you back so you were both facing each other.

"This has been overdue since we left that karaoke room," he spoke as he pulled you closer. He stared at your lips before glancing at your eyes to search for any sign of discomfort, but you wanted this just as much as he did you almost asked him to just kiss you already.

And so he finally did. And oh my god, he was a phenomenal kisser. You could both feel each other smiling through the soft kiss, but it wasn't long before you two had to pull away.

"I'll call you. You can keep the jacket," he smiles before letting go of your hand, "See you soon."

"Drive safe."

After he left, you quietly entered your room. You couldn't believe that actually happened. Of course everything just prodded more questions in your head, did he like you? Were you two going to keep this up or will you both really just forget the whole thing when the sun comes up? Immediately you began to regret telling him to forget it all in the morning.

You carefully got in your bed, trying not to wake Kate who was sleeping soundly on the other side of the room. The light from the sun slowly made its way into your dorm, your eyes closing while your thoughts drifted off to the image of your kiss with Taehyung, repeatedly playing in your head before falling asleep.

The date felt like a dream. Maybe Kate was right about finding your prince tonight, only he was much better than that.

It was Kim Taehyung, and you couldn't wait to see him again.

a/n: hello!! if you finished the story, feel free to leave comments so i know how what stuff to improve on!! i’ll be posting stories for fun (just as a “creative outlet”) but i’d also love to receive some feedback. if you liked it, please look forward to my next uploads!

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haechanplsacceptmylove · 4 years

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Regret pt.4 (final)

Part one 🍓 part two 🍓 part three 🍓 part four 🍓

Warning(s): smut ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

A/n: omfg finally im posting this, I couldn’t upload this from my phone so I gave up and used my laptot, guys the editing is bad cuz idk how this aMaZing app works on pc. Anyway this is the last part!!! I hope you like it omg. Now I’ll be waiting for you requests!!! I write about anyone, don’t be scared and just request uwu.

You wake up at the feeling of the sun warming your face and check the time "oh shit it's already 11pm" you get up quickly and go take a shower. You do your morning routine and prepare breakfast. "morning" your best friend Mina says walking with her eyes half open "morning lazyass" you chuckle and tell her the breakfast is ready.

You decided to put on some music from the speakers while you eat and chat. After a couple songs NCT DREAM's Ridin starts playing and you stop eating, looking emotionless at your food, flashbacks filling your head. Your friend quickly changes the song feeling guilty for not checking the playlist before putting it on play. You look at her giving her a faint smile "their new album is pretty good.." she looks at you not knowing what to say. "should I agree or change the topic" she thinks to herself looking at you confused , "Mina!" you startle her and chuckle "your food is getting cold, eat! I didn't cook it to be thrown away" you say and she nods and continues eating.

It's been almost 2 months since what happened. You both never talked after that night. After crying your eyes out everyday and night for a whole 3 weeks, you decided to get out of the sorrow you're in and get a hold of your life especially when your comeback was very near, you thought that working hard and for yourself and your members and fans was more important and so you continued on living trying to not think about the whole incident, which was obviously pretty hard. You missed each other so much but you both were too hurt, you were afraid that staying together will hurt more than letting go of each other. Your band had a comeback last month and you're more than thankful that you both didn’t have a comeback at the same time, otherwise you would've had to promote together. You congratulated the nct members for their comeback , except of course Haechan. You're still in contact with the members, and they believe that there was a misunderstanding between you two so they also were trying their best to talk to Haechan about it whenever they get the time. After that incident Mino apologised to you and promised you to make things right. Well you also feel guilty about it so you forgave him, not wanting to lose such an important person again. -meanwhile- The dreamies are all sitting in the dressing room watching their comeback performance. "yo hyuck did you make your mind?" Jaemin whispers to Haechan but of course the other members heard him and switched their attention on Haechan who's now looking at his bubble tea thinking deeply. He sighs "I don't know..." "c'mon man they did wrong but you know damn well y/n was completely not in her right mind!" Chenle says "that's right, and you know how easily y/n gets drunk and how clumsy she could be" Renjun adds and the others nod. One month ago Mino finally had the chance to meet Haechan after getting rejected numerous times, and he finally explained everything to him, from the beginning till the very end and took the blame for starting it. "I know y/n didn't understand what she was saying nor doing and i knew she didn't mean anything of it but i was just.... I just really missed her. I know that was very selfish of me but it's not her fault! I was wrong, i made a mistake, please don't hurt y/n more, she's already broken i can't see her like that" Mino says in one go afraid he'd get interrupted again and ending up in another misunderstanding. After that, Haechan had been thinking about it and he decided to forgive you, after all he loved you more than himself, you were his everything. But he was afraid he hurt you too much, not forgetting how you once told him "when someone hurts me... I usually automatically start building hate towards them so my good feelings end towards them and I can live without being or getting hurt anymore, that how my escape or fight-mode works" you told him after getting out of your toxic relationship. Haechan just couldn't stop thinking about that and kept getting more scared everyday thinking that your hate towards him is growing more and more everyday. ----------- "you look gorgeous" you stylist looks at you mouth open. You had a yellow crop top that showed your shoulders and black mini pencil skirt, with yellow and black thigh high boots. You looked gorgeous, everyone looked at you in awe, especially when it was your first time wearing yellow in such an event. You're on an award show, where basically all the artists are attending and especially the band where's also your boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend. "wait let me put this necklace, it suits your outfit very well" your stylist says going behind you, you look in the mirror and see her putting on the sunflower necklace Haechan gave you on your first date after getting officially together, long time ago. You hold the necklace and hesitate "what's wrong? You don't like it??" your stylist says and you shake your head "oh no.. Bu- nothing it's pretty" you smile and she nods putting it on around your exposed neck. Your members look at you in awe "y/n you look- wow you're really gonna be the prettiest in this event" "i know rightt! Ugh I'm jealous" your members whine and you chuckle. You were the last band to enter the hall and everyone stood up bowing to you and you doing the same to them. Your table was near NCT's and you feel yourself getting nervous. You sit down and start chatting with redvelvet members who were sitting with your band in the same table. You feel someone's gaze on you and automatically turn your gaze to meet his, Haechan's. As soon as he realises you're looking at him he looks away and you do the same. He was looking extremely handsome that night, "a whole snack" you thought to yourself. It's been already 45 min in the event and you just can't hold it in anymore. You and Haechan keep gazing at each other, until you both finally hold eye contact that lasts 5 seconds. You look away and sigh getting up and walking past NCT's table towards the backstage. Haechan's eyes follow you and see where you're going. You go backstage and walk till you reach the cafeteria that's made for idols. You buy a water bottle and drink it. Suddenly you feel someone grabbing your wrist and pulling you to the nearest empty dark room. As soon as the door closes you're pinned on it. Thanking god for the open window where the moon's light is shining through, you could see who it was. The one and only, the boy who owns your heart and your soul, the one who completely owns you; Lee Donghyuck. His face is so close to yours as you can feel his breath on your lips, he looks at your mouth and back at your eyes, then he scans your face, the face he's been missing for the past 2 months; 60 days; 1440 hours. Without words he leans in slowly, making sure to give you the time to react and stop him before he does what he's about to do, but you don't do anything, instead you grab him by his collar and pull him in for a kiss. A kiss full of emotions, sadness, hatred, happiness. Soon the slow kiss turns into a heated hungry make out, you both pull away panting and holding an eye contact. "I fucking missed you" he says leaning his forehead onto yours. "i missed you too, hyuck, so much" you say closing your eyes, you soon feel his lips back onto yours and you start another make out session wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling his hair. He moans in the kiss, damn he missed you, everything about you. Your smell, your taste, your voice, your smile, your moves, everything. Haechan's hands move from your waist to your ass, giving is a small squeeze as his hands then slide down to your thighs to pull you up. You jump and wrap your legs around his waist not breaking the kiss. Haechan places you on the nearest table and lets you sit on it, he moves from your mouth to kiss your jawline down to your neck and collarbones till he reaches your necklace. His eyes glows as he chuckles and kisses your necklace and your chest area around the necklace. He leans back and looks at you "you're gorgeous" he pulls you into another kiss but now you can feel his apologies in it, his regrets and his sorrow. You feel as tears stream down your face he pulls back and holds your cheek wiping your tears "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" he says now tears streaming down his cheeks too. You hold his cheeks "Sorry Donghyuck, forgive me I was so stupi-" he interrupts you "shhhh i can't stay mad at my baby for a long time you know" he chuckles and gives you one last kiss before kissing down your chest, pulling down your top, showing your breasts and he wastes no time to attack them, sucking on them as if his life depends on it. You let out a whimper and hold pull on his hair, letting your head fall back and arching your back. His hands go down to your boots and zips them off, massaging your bare legs, not letting go of your nipples. You feel your nipples getting numb and moan loud trying to pull your chest out of Haechan's mouth and he pulls away kissing down your clothed stomach reaching your sensitive clothed clit. He pulls your legs putting them on his shoulders pulling your skirt up and taking your pants off, attacking your sensitive nerves immediately and you let out a moan putting your hand on your mouth right after. Haechan groans knowing he won't be able to hear you moan since people could be anywhere out there. He eats you out, giving you full satisfaction as you arch your back and hold his head pushing him deeper "ah fuck hyuck! I'm-im close" your back is about to break arching trying to reach your long waited climax. Just about when you reach it, Haechan pulls away and you whine at the cold feeling. Haechan looks at you smirking zipping his pants off and freeing his thick dick, you bite your lips as soon as your eyes lay on his thick member, feeling the saliva in your mouth you just want to get on your knees right now and give him the best suck but his chuckle wakes you up from your dreamland, "already feeling hungry baby?" he says. "I want to suck you" you say straightforwardly and he nods "I'll remember that and make sure you keep your promise" he says and slams into you. "Ah!" you let out a loud moan "fuck you're big" you say panting and he chuckles "it's not like it's your first time having me inside you" he kisses you jaw waiting for you to adjust but you start immediately moving your hips "needy aren't we" he smirks "just move- fuck!" he interrupts you with a harsh thrust, another and another until he's thrusting at a fast rhythmical pace. You try to keep you moans in, he pulls you closer and you put your legs around his hips, making him go deeper and hit that perfect spot making you a moaning mess "fuck it" you think and let go of your mouth hugging Haechan biting his shoulder and moaning. Haechan on the other side keeps groaning in your ear as he bites and sucks on your sensitive neck, leaving red and purple marks that will definitely cause you troubles with your stylist. "fuck babygirl you're so tight" he whispers growling sending goosebumps down your spine "only for you daddy" you say feeling yourself getting closer to your lost climax and arch your back "ah fuck im close!" you moan and his thrusts get faster if that's even possible "fuck me too baby let's do it at the same time" he kisses you swallowing each other's moans as you reach your climax and soon you feel his hot cum filling you up. You ride your orgasms and lean your foreheads on eachother's. "I love you y/n" "I love you Hyuck" you smile at each other still panting feeling him getting softer in you. "Okay are you done now? Get out it's our time to perform" you hear a knock and Jaemin's voice, and dreamies' chuckles.

"they'll never stop teasing us" hyuck says and you laugh putting your clothes on and getting out of the room hand in hand, face red. You see the dreamies smirking at you both and shaking their heads. "you hornyass nasties!" Jisung yells in disgust and they chuckle.

"Y/N!!!!!!! WHAT'S ON YOUR NECK" you hear your stylist yell and you swear under your breath. Well you both got in trouble in that event but you didn't forget your promise later that night ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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tellywoodtrash · 4 years

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immj2 13 + 14.11.20 lbs

13.11.20

i’m just gonna skim through this one, coz i don’t wanna dwell on the death and maatam and all.

hahahahahahahahaha riddhima is screaming at god for letting this happen and kabir is like “bhagwaan ko beech mein kyun laa rahi ho, mujhe bhi toh credit do!” i truly love this crazyass fucker.

riddhima continuing to scream at god about vansh jissne “KOI KABHI BURA KAAM NAHI KIYA HAI” ?!?!?!!?!?!?!? sis what the fuck???? first of all, none of us over the age of like...... 7, are truly sinless. and THIS MAN PARALYZED AND THREATENED TO KILL YOU MULTIPLE TIMES, FFS.

KABIR IS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I AM KABIR

now she trying to throw herself off the cliff and for some reason i cannot understand, kabir is holding her back????? literally why, my bro????? let her die, saaari musibatein khatam. ugh, you still have some kinda residual feelings for her from your not-that-kameena days, don’t you?

asalkdjaldkjsaldkjsalkdjl riddhima ke andar OG prerna ka bhoot chadh gaya, she hitting kabir with danda the way Mother India did dhulaayi of yudi in the disco (still one of the most iconic scenes of tellywood for me, istg)

dude, idk if it’s just ego waale possesive issues or he still has feelings for her, but kabir def wants riddhima to be “his girl”. even after danda beating he’s trying to help her as she stumbles around in sadma.

anyway she sauntered off rubbing that stupid muffler of vansh’s on her face. SIS YOU GONNA BREAK OUT IF YOU RUB SUCH GANDA KAPDA ON YOUR FACE.

5 min of flashbacks of vansh. fwding.

family (dadi, chanchal, and all the rest of the riff-raff) has come back home and ghar is all dark.

weird how angre is also with them. i woulda thought he’d be on whatever tasks vansh set him on, instead of doing mandir yatras with these assholes.

mummy has decided to break news in most non-tactful way ever. wearing all white and has set up photu with haar already.

yeah, requisite screaming and crying blah blah. nahi dekhna.

i’m only here for ishani and angre’s reactions. bechaare look genuinely devastated. i mean dadi does too, but bohut hi zyaaaada overdramatic and i’m getting uncomfortable.

riddhima has returned.

to her surprise everyone already knows. zara dimaag lagao behen, how they even found out before you reached??? (ok no i understand you’re numb from trauma rn and can’t think of all this, but i hope your idiot brain thinks of it later.)

WHY THE FUCK IS DADI YELLING AT RIDDHIMA KI TERE HOTE HUE KAISE HUA YEHHHHHH, WHO THE FUCK IS SHE TO TAALOFY GIANT COSMIC DECISIONS LIKE LIFE AND DEATH????? isse apni khud ki jaan nahi sambhali jaati, let alone someone else’s.

holy shit she’s actually saying, “tu toh uski dhaal thi, uske liye tuney goli khaayi thi, iss baar kaise chook gayi????” MAN, FAMILIES OF DESI BOYS REALLY BE FUCKIN WILDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WITH THEIR EXPECTATIONS FROM BAHUS. one time she took a bullet for him wasn’t enough????? you want her to actually fucking die before something happens to him. god forgive me but i really wanna slap this dadi rn.

mummy cooking up some fucking ridiculousssssss story about gunde in the house and how vansh was chasing them and gaadi khaayi mein gir gayi and god knows whatttt

ok she’s saying siya got the call about it and she was running down the stairs while in shock and now whoopsie daisy, she’s in critical condition (probably in a coma or some shit.)

aryan looks sad at the siya news. thank god this mummy ka niyana has basic consideration for someone else other than himself and his mother.

mummy ka rona dhona drama fwding.

ishani is now yelling at angre. which..... kinda deserved. you’re his safety person dude.

ok too much crying. fwding.

riddhima asking mummy why you lie to family about how he died. mummy like how tf i tell them police dragged him out and he died in an encounter for trying to escape. it’s better for them to not know the truth. which.............. ok fair, but coming from this shadyassss woman......

god this mummy ka ainvayi praising vansh waala scene is going on too long. fwding.

riddhima back to room. some more flashbacks. OUFF. FWDING.

obligatory kamre ka tod-phod scene. FWDING!!!!!!!!!!

fell asleep crying and holding one of his coats.

LMAO ISHANI KA MANN NAHI BHARAA GHAR KE ITNE CASUALTIES SE............ SHE’S LIKE WHAT’S ONE MORE????

dadi slapping ishani for doing what any one of us would do, honestly, so.... whatever. fuck off dadi.

ishani telling 100% truth ki jabse this useless b has entered my bhai’s life, his problems have been never ending, i’m fucking sureeeeeeeeee she’s the reason he’s dead. the only voice of reason in this show, truly.

dadi all WOH EK HAADSAAAA THAAAA, NOONE CAN CONTROLLLL THOSEEEE, oh yeah, not the sentiment that you were expressing to riddhima when she walked in, you stupid old bat. whatever, i’m fwding this scene.

kabir and mishra have entered house. coz they are awwal no. ke sadists. need to get off on watching this family cry and suffer.

LMAO THE LOOK RIDDHIMA GAVE KABIR. HE’S LEGIT SCARED OF HER.

angre bhi staring daggers at kabir. chal hatt, i know for sure you’re behind saving vansh and stashing him somewhere to crawl out whenever it’s the right time.

body nahi mili blah blah blah

lol this one’s face clearly says milegi bhi kaise, main tum logon ki tarah nikamma nahi hoon. i have 16% success rate. it’s low but it’s more than y’all 0%.

lmaoooooo oh DOW DIGGY DIGGY DOW DIGGY DOW DOW, i love you sooooooooo much.

ALSO WHAT A MISSED OPPORTUNITY TO MAAROFY THE PUN KI “MAINE VANSH KE VANSH KO MITAAAAA DIYAAAAAAAA” severely disappointed in you, kabir.

yup. appropriate response. to just generally all the men in your life.

lmao riddhima like you arrested vansh ONLY COZ I LOVEDDDDDDD HIMMMMMMMMMMMM. lol the amount of self delusion. sis, his feelings for vansh were faaaaaaar more powerful and intense than anything he ever felt for your dumb ass.

kabir saying there’s nothing left for you here, why don’t you come back to me and lmao............... he tried.

“riddhima nahi. riddhima vansh raisinghania.”

ok whatever you say, sis. i’m just grateful to god this manhoos episode is finally over.

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14.11.20

redo of last scene.

lmao kabir is like I HATED VANSH WAAAAAAAAAAAAY BEFORE YOUR DUMB ASS FELL FOR HIM. YEAH I DON’T LIKE THAT YOU PICKED HIM OVER ME, BUT I’M NOT SO BAD THAT I’D TAKE REVENGE FROM HIM FOR THAT. yeah, dude. he just wanted his money; not youuuuuu. like..... chillll. kahaan se aata hai logon ko itnaaaaa confidence khud pe???

kabir saying i had proof vansh killed ragini, i found his watch there next to the body. she’s like i had it, i took it to repair it, and ragini died in front of me. vansh wasn’t anywhere near there.

lmao she’s back to shoving him around. what an annoying bitch she is.

kabir like did you SEE who shot ragini? no????????? then it could very well have been vansh, right????? plus i got that footage from 3 years ago.

she’s like hein hein heinnnnn where you get it from when i burnt that chip????????? OH NOW SHE’S USING HER BRAINNNNN. SO WAS VANSH THE ONE RENDERING HER SO FUCKING STUPID? NOW HE’S NOT ADDLING HER BRAIN WITH LUST HORMONES, HER 3 BRAIN CELLS ARE FINALLY WORKING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! take this as proof, ladies. MEN MAKE YOU FUCKING DUMB AS SHIT BY JUST MAKING YOU BREATHE THE SAME AIR AS THEM.

kabir saying someone from inside the house probably saved it and sent it. and that vansh made all this happen by taking mishra’s gunnnn and forcing them to take the sunsaaaan paaath and he tried to runnn and blah blah blah.

again he’s asking her to come be with him and she’s like gtfo i don’t wanna see your cuteass face anymore, you’re dead to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok she didn’t say the cute bit, i did. i think y’all already knew that. but how to resist??? he sho cute!!!!!!

mishra like this b kuch zyaada nahi bol gayi????

“dil par jo chot lagti hai, woh nazar nahi aati, but ghaav bohut gehra hota hai. yeh dard maine bhi mehsoos kiya tha, jab riddhima mujhe chod ke chali gayi thi vansh ke paas.” heinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn? now he suddenly is/was truly in love with her again???? bhai, tu decide karle, ki if she’s just a pawn to you or something more. ainvayi jhool raha hai idhar udhar.

mishra like, ok whatever, but where vansh’s body tho???

clearly not him. the head shape alllllll different.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS THEY FINALLY PUT RRAHUL’S FINE ASS IN JEANS!!!!!!

again, no wedding ring. dead body is not vansh.

“bhagwaan jaane kahaan chali gayi uski laash.” lmao i really loled the way he delivered the line. i really love him the mostttttttttt.

kabir you are honestly suchhhhhhhhhhhhhh an idiot, if you think not getting his body is a good thing. DON’T YOU KNOW HIM AT ALL??????? AT ALLLLLLLL????? NO BODY MEANS HE’S STILL OUT THERE, BIDING HIS TIME TO FUCKING COME GET YOUUUUUU.

he’s like good, vansh didn’t even get antim sanskaaaar. who knew kabir was sooooo religious??????

vansh so efficient and independent ki khud ka kriyakaram kar raha hai. aatmanirbhar ho toh aise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not before he maarofied his own pocket tho.

“bohut jald iss VR mansion ke aage KR mansion ka signboard hoga.” hein???????? the R in there is for RAISINGHANIA. why the hell would you add one random surname to your name??????

YEAH. I KNOW THOSE CHITTAAA-ASSS EARSSSSSSS.

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG BHAGWAAAAAAN NE MERIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII SUNNNNNNNNNNN LIIIIIIIIII THEY MADE HIM SHAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE ASALKJDLKJDSLAKJDLASKAS

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THE DUMBASS FAKE DEEEP VOICE IS GONE TOOOOOOOOO ALKSDJSALKDJLASKJDLSAKJDLASKJDLASKJDLKJLKS I JUST

styling also EXAAAAAAACTLY HOW I LIKE IT.

helllllllllllllllllllllllo hunny. NOW YOU’VE MADE THIS SHOW FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY WORTH WATCHING. bas thodaaaa saa tharakkkkk ka maska i need to make my tellywood viewing experience sooooooo much easier. AUR WOH MUJHE AAAAAAJ SE MIL GAYAAAAAAAAAAA.

ok 13 days later.

bitch looks better after going through life-altering trauma than i do on my most stable mental health days.

talking to portrait about how the misery is unending, etc. etc.

kabir still calling her. WHY??????? dude just take the L and move the fuck on.

lmaooooooo mummy is like 13 din rone ki acting kar karke aankhon ki band baj gayiiiiii.

standard mwahahahahaha we succedded bufoonery from too complacent evil ppl. dumb dumb dumbbbbb!

but let’s admire this evil cutie bean.

riddhima’s mangalsutra which she justttttt set down on that bureau missing. she in a panic.

ofc these two are behind it.

ishani wants the truth about that dayyyyyyy and aryan jumping in about how riddhima never loved vansh and just always doubted him and blah blah.

my question is since when aryan loves vansh bhaiiiiiii so much huh???????

anyway. this happens. and those two are left plotting some more about getting the truth out.

VIHAAAAAAAAAAAN is the new name.

seeeeee????? i knew his ass had some lucrative skill in the current economy. he some tech bro types.

CAN YOU BELIEVEEEEEEEEE THEY HID THAT FUCKING JAWLINE AND THOSE DIMPLES UNDER THAT BEARD FOR 5 WHOLE MONTHSSSSSSSSS. FUCKING HUMAN RIGHTS CRIMEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

unf, boy got cake. that ass just needed shirali to stay tf away from it.

also askdjalskjdlsakdjlaskjdlkj they turned ragini’s container waala room into his hacker man cave. what a wonderfully multipurpose room!

honestly, i’m just soooooooooo relieved i can just watch this show for eyecandy now. kaleje ko suchhhhhhhh thandak, yougaizzzzz.

banda khud vansh ke net worth (5000 cr.) ko dekh kar hairaan pareshaan. yeah, this much wealth accumulation is fucking immoral, asshole. you vansh did deserve to get thrown off a fucking cliff.

show laaaaaaaaaakh convince karne ki koshish karle ki yeh koi aur hai, my bullshit meter says it’s vansh vansh and no one else but vansh.

unrealistic af, someone PRINTING photos out in this day and age. what kinda tech person are you???????

lmao he’s checking out each photo for each family member and the commentssssssss.....

rudra chacha and chanchal chachi: “kaafi expressive faces! koshish bhi kare chupaane ki toh bhi chupaa nahi paa rahe ke lomdiii hain yeh ghar ke.”

aslkdjaslkdjlsakjdlskjdlksj i already like him better than old vansh.

aryan: “doosron ke bharose jeene waala.”

ishani: “raisinghania hone ka bohut ghamand hai, magar bechaari ki shaadi angre se ho gayi.”

how he know that if he not vansh????? angre not even in this set of pics.

siya: “kehte hain jo chal nahi sakte, unka wifi network bohut strong hota hai..... kab, kahaan, kya pakad le, koi nahi jaanta.”

“aur yeh hai....... RIDDHIMAAAAA....... iss parivaar ka most special aur khoobsoorat member.”

“moh aur maaya...... dono ka mel [...]”

yup, i definitely like this cheeky and cheesy persona better than the murder-threatening-paralyzing shit we had to put up with earlier. happy days, you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ishq mein marjawan 2 #immj2 #immj2 lbs #episode liveblogs

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dyke-remy · 3 years

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Live And Let Die, part 1

Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

Description: Agent 008 and Agent 009, professional spies for the MI6 with liscense to kill. Partners in both work and love. After an agent goes missing the partners have to once more go out into the field. (It’s a James Bond AU)

You don’t need to know anything about James Bond to be able to read this fic, trust me

Words: 3516

It was 7 am when the alarm clock went off. It's loud blaring filled the room that had been peaceful a few seconds ago. Remus let out a grunt. Without opening his eyes he took out a knife from under his pillow and threw it at the clock. The noise disappeared.

"You can't keep doing that" Remy muttered, half yawning it out "Q is like running out of clocks"

"If he could make that morning star that also worked as a disco ball for my birthday he can make some new clocks" He replied.

The room (and the entire apartement) was of average size with just enough space for everything necessary. Which made sense, they didn't spend much time in there anyway. Soft morning light was shimmering in through the window.

The blanket had been wrinkled since Remy was laying over it with their head on the pillow. Remus had his arms wrapped around their waist. They were so close their hair twined together on the pillows. He leaned closer and gave his spouse a good morning kiss.

Their slow awakening was interrupted by someone knocking on the door. They glanced at one another as their expressions turned serious. Remus quietly got up and grabbed the gun laying on the nearest drawer. Butt naked as he was he sneaked over to the door and slowly opened it and at the same time held the gun out.

"Good morn- AAAHHHH!" Patton Moneypenny screamed when he saw the gun peeking out at him. He had on a dark blue knitted suit jacket with stylish bows instead of buttons. With it he had on wide blue matching suit pants.

Remus' posture relaxed when he saw who it was. He fully opened the door "Hiya Moneypenny. You should yell it's you next time or else your brain might paint the walls.....That would look kinda nice tho"

"You should take something on" Patton suggested with a cheerful smile while his cheeks went bright red.

"He should" Remy who had come up behind their husband agreed "One day someone will shoot your dick off"

"Naaaahhhh. They will be too surprised by seeing my massive cock to think about attacking me and then it'll be too late. Boom bang dead! It's a genius tactic!!"

Remy rolled their eyes. They sent Patton a warm smile before pulling him into a hug "Hiya PatPat! Wanna come in?"

"Yeah" As he looked around the room which he'd been in many times he continued with "M wants to meet you in 15 min"

M was the leader of the MI6, the organisation they all worked for. Patton had been his secretary for as long as anyone could remember. It would be weird to imagine M's office without Pat working tiredlesly on his desk right outside.

"15? Girl a lady needs time to get ready, what the fuck" Remy opened a drawer and pulled out the black suit pants, white shirt, black tie and black blazer that acted as their dress code.

"15? Oh! Too little time to spend with my Favorite person in the whole MI6!" Remus exclaimed. He still didn't have anything on.

He took Patton's hand and moved the other to lay on his waist. He spun him around in some sort of dance which made the shorter man giggle and blush harder. He tried not to look down at Remus'....

"Oh Mr. Moneypenny! Rotten apple of my eye! Every mission is spent missing you!" he continued to dramatically lament. He dipped Patton and playfully moved in for a kiss.

Patton let out a chuckle while leaning his head away. "I'm married"

"Ah yes! The greatest tragedy of my life!" Remus held his hand over his heart and all.

"Tragedy indeed" Remy commented before flicking their finger to the back of their husband's head. They dumped his clothes onto his head too "C'mon gal the sooner you get done the sooner you can go out and play fisticuffs with someone"

"Fantastic point dear!"

After gettin dressed Remus jumped up on the bed and pressed a specific spot on the painting on the wall. It turned around to reveal a collection of guns, knives and various other weapons hidden behind it. He patted his morning star and throwing stars goodmorning, fully knowing that M nor Q would allow him to bring them on a mission. Instead he took a gun and carefully cleaned it as if he was cleaning a marble vase.

"I hate these fucking suits. They're so boring. No style. No style at all!!" Remy groaned out while tying their husband's tie because he'd been a spy for 7 years now and he still couldn't tie a tie.

Patton nodded along in sympathy "Very gay of you to think that" The duke chuckled.

They fixed his shirt which had been buttoned wrong "I don't think about fashion because I am gay as fuck! I think about it 'cause I've tots been the most fantastic disguiser here for years and fashion is like integral to a good disguise!! Besides my mothers are fashion legends and I gotta represent y'know"

"I know"

He handed over a gun (Handler ppk) and a few different knives to his spouse who swiftly hid it in different places on their suit. He himself preffered a bit more heavy handed attilery even when it came to handguns.

The couple followed Moneypenny out of their apartement. They lived in a normal looking apartement complex, a little bit fancier than a normal one. They went into a cleaning scrub.

Patton grabbed a mop standing in the corner. He pulled off the top of the handle revealing a scanner underneath. He pressed his thumb against it. A panel of numbers appeared on the wall. He quickly pressed in a code which finally made the inner wall open up, revealing an elevator.

They stepped inside and chit chatted about the weather and what they'd done on the weekend as the elevator went down.

The elevator opened with a satisfying ding. They were many many levels underground now. Long grey hallways stretched forward. It could be a maze for someone new to the place. Patton walked in front of the other two, he knew it like his backpocket.

After 5 or so minutes of walking he stopped by his secretary desk and sat down. There were stacks of paper work on his desk and cute animal posters hanging on the wall beside him.

Remus leaned over the desk and moved a piece of Patton's hair behind his ear "One day I'll get you on a date my dear Moneypenny"

"Sure you will mr. Octopussy. For now I think you will have to stay satisfied with taking whatever mission M gives you"

Remy took Remus' hand and dragged him with them into M's office. He was able to blow a kiss to Patton on his way in. Pat simple chuckled and rolled his eyes. They both knew neither of them were serious.

The office was an old fashioned one with walls and furniture of dark wood. Purple satin clad the windows. Plants and terrariums littered the room and all kinds of snakes slittered about.

Though the biggest snake of them all sat in the chair behind the desk. M. Most people called him Deceit. He had a menacing smile, ebony skin and dark hair pulled back into a braid that reached his shoulder. On his shoulder laid one of his most dearest and most deadliest pets.

"Look who finally decided to join us" M greeted as they came in.

"Aww you missed us so much didn't you??" Remus replied while sitting down on one of the chairs in a way no normal person should "It's okay Deecy. We can invite you to our next movie night"

"Yeah" Remy sat down on the desk and leaned close to Deceit "We're gonna watch Saw 4 and legally blond"

"I can think of much better ways to waste my time thank you. So onto ghe case. It's about-"

M stopped talking because the agents were obviously too busy flirting with each other to listen. It was nothing compared to how they used to spend entire briefings making out right when they'd started dating.

"Please if I wanted to get ignored I would go home to my children which honestly I wish I could" M muttered.

He gave one of his snakes a pat on the head before sending it to twist around Remus' neck which made them both shut up very quickly.

"So about the case. Agent 0012-"

"Like Emile Picani 0012?" Remy interrupted.

"No agent 0012 the giant whale. Yes Picani"

"Oh he's a great kisser! Babe y'know how I like worked in the Q department a bit before becoming a full fletched agent. Yeah I was Pic's quartermaster. We would stay together during missions sometimes. We made out lots and he showed me a bunch of like cartoons"

Deceit put on a more serious expression "He's gone off the radar. He was sent on a mission to Latvia together with 005. Agent 005 has been confirmed dead. Right now we're suspecting that Picani is the killer"

"He wouldn't!" Remy objected.

"We can never be sure. He could have gone rough or been paid to turn sides. Or he's being tortured right at this moment. Anything could have happened"

"I wish I was being tortured right at this moment" Remus who had completely zoned out until now added.

"Well you can gladly take his place if you found him then. He and 005 were supposed to attend a poker night. I suggest you two attend it in case he is there. Disguised of course. If he's gone rough we can't have him be hostile towards you if he recognises you.

"Non suspicious straight couple?" Remus asked while looking over at Remy.

"Non suspicious straight couple!" They replied while high fiveing him.

A bit over a day later later Remus was driving a silver aston martin. They were on their way to the casino which was placed away from any nearby town. Among the snowy hills the ice casino stood tall.

"Girl these shoes hurt worse than the time I got shot" Remy groaned while fixing their high heels.

"You can just change shoes y'know" Remus replied.

They looked at him as if he'd just spit in their food "No??? It's part of the character girl!! Like you can't do a great disguise if you don't dress like the character would"

"Which characters are we tonight?"

Remy shone up into a smile "Glad you asked! You are Louis Roy. French guy who inheritated his dad's company. Total asshole. Straight cis you know the type. You're 36-"

"Is that why you put all that make up on me? To make me look old?"

"Yep. And your mustache tots helped. I'm Chelsea Roy. 24. Model. Married you for the money. Housewife. I'm cheating on you with your dad"

Remus let out a fake audible gasp "In return I only married you because I liked your feet model work"

"Touche"

The car stopped in the parking lot of the casino. Remus leaned back in his seat and checked his gun. He glanced over at his spouse who was strapping a blade to their thigh.

"What?" They asked when they caught him looking.

"Nothing" There was a soft smile on his lips "I just love you. Like a giant elephants heart ripped out and bleeding on the ground love y'know"

"I know"

Remy unbuttoned the top button on Remus' tuxedo shirt. They pressed a kiss right below his shoulder, leaving a red lipstick mark, before buttoning it again so it was hidden.

"Just as a reminder" They explained with a cheeky smile.

Remy leanded against Remus' shoulder to fully look like arm candy as they entered the casino. A worker took their coats by the door. Uphead was a luxurious bar made of ice and a large area with tables here and there to mingle. To the left was the casino area. It was the only place where nothing was made out of ice. Instead glistening lights shone on red slot machines and people in expensive clothing were gathered around large poker tables. To the right was the entrance to the casino's hotel and the desk to get keys.

The couple casully went around the mingle area while looking for Picani in the crowd of hundreds of people.

"People are looking at you" Remus mumbled to them after at least 2 guys has been too busy looking at his spouse to not walk into walls.

"Who can blame them" Remy shrugged.

They had on a dark blue satin dress with an open back and a slit on the front so they could move easier. Their wavy light brown hair was pressed down under a blond wig and they had a fake sapphire necklace around their neck. Their dark eyeliner stood out against their pale skin. Remus had on a black tuxedo with a matching bowtie. His dark brown, nearly black hair had been slicked back. His olive toned bordering on brown skin honestly looked amazing in the lighting of the casino.

"Q said Picani was supposed to stay in room 235 so I'll like go and get the key while you like mingle or something I dunno. Kay?" Remy more commanded then asked.

"Yes dear! " He did a mini salute while sticking his tounge out before walking away.

All the keys to the rooms were hanging on the wall behind the desk. Remy took off their necklace while walking up to it. They fixed their posture and took a deep breathe to get ready to make their voice as high as possible.

"Exscuse me sir!" They put on a panicked tone as they walked behind the desk.

The man who presumebly worked at the hotel glanced at them before doing a double take and full on looking at them with heart eyes. "Something wrong?"

They put on a bright smile and twirled the end of their hair between their fingers "Yeah I uh just kinda dropped my necklace and it's like suuuper hard to put on by my own so could you like put it on for me? Pleease?"

"Of course!"

Remy handee him the necklace and turned towards the wall. While he was busy putting it on they took the keys to room 235 without making a single sound. In one smooth motion they stuck it to where the blade was already strapped to their thigh.

"Done!" He said.

They sent him another smile "Do I look good?"

"You look amazing!!"

"Aww thanks sweetie"

They sauntered of without another word. They took a glass of champange from a server they passed to look more casual. They inspected the key while looking for Remus. When they stuck their nails down into it a mark was left if only for a moment. It was a fake.

Remus was sitting by the poker table, loudly boosting about a made up story while betting way more money than he should. He shone up into a grin when he saw Remy. They leaned on his chair and moved one hand to comb through his hair. He moved an arm around their waist to pull them closer knowing fully well that his spouse was distracting everyone else in the poker game.

"Got the key?" He whispered.

"Got the key. It's a replica. I can see it"

"Okay so Picani has the other one. Makes sense. Now we know he's alright"

"Nah girl" Remy glanced around at the other players "Trick them into shoving their keys. Trust me"

"I always do" Remus put on a cocky smirk and leaned his elbows onto the table "Isn't this game becoming a bit boring? How about this: we all bet the amount of money our hotel rooms cost. Including the ones just for the ladies if you get me hurr hurr" He took out the key to his room he'd gotten from Q and laid it on the table "Just as a showing"

Most of the people had been drinking so they all threw up their keys without much thought. Remy subtly moved around the table and glanced at the keys while Remus continued with the game.

Remy stopped midstepped and quickly walked back to him. They made it look like they were kissing his cheek when they were actually whispering

"The mistah on the other side of the table was the one who threw the second 235 key. You know his name or do I have to like pretend flirt the ugly bastard?"

"Ron Stewart. Was real quick to introduce himself just to brag about his money"

"Good. Q can deal with like finding info about him. We gotta find Picani"

They grabbed him by his arm and dragged him up from the table. Remus made some comment about women always hurrying to the other people around the table while quickly throwing his cards away.

He took their hand in his and intertwined their fingers as they entered the hotel part. Ice chandelierd hung in the hallways and deep crimson mattresses where laid over the icy floor. He held his other hand close to where his gun holster was hidden under his jacket.

The door up to the second floor was locked. The two of them glanced at each other. Now they relly knew something was off. Remy took out 2 hairpins from their wig and unlocked the door in under 3 minutes.

The hallways were eerie and quiet. The lights were low and the sounds from the casino were now only dull faraway whispers.

Sudden footsteps were heard. Remy pressed their back against the wall and pulled Remus by his collar into a deep kiss. Out of the corner of their eye they saw a guard walk into the hallway. It was clear there was a gun hidden in a holster connected to his belt. The enby hoped he would just leave them alone if they made out hard enough. It usually worked.

When he saw them his already grumpy expression turned into a grimace. He grabbed onto Remus' shoulder and forced him out of the kiss.

"Visitors aren't allowed on the second floof" He said in a gruff voice.

"Oh come on. Whats a guy gotta do to get some privacy" Remus replied while keeping his arm around Remy's shoulder. They nodded along while blinking innocently and swaying back and forth.

The guard seemed to think for a moment. He took a step back before in a split second pulling out his gun and pointing it at them.

Remus went on instinct as he moved forward and forced the gun out of his hand. He stood like a shield in front of Remy in case it shot. The guard stumbled back as the gun was dragged out of his hands.

Remy shot forward. They dug their nails down into the guard's wrist and kicked his knee to get him off his balance. With a huff they turned around and with the motion swung him over their shoulder and down on the ground. Before he even had time to regain his breathe they kicked their foot onto his neck, knocking him out instantly.

"Should keep him out for long enough" They commented while leaning down to feel his pulse.

"I love it when you do that sudden kissy thing. I wish murderous people would walk in on us more so you'd do it more often" Remus replied.

"Babe you can literally ask me to kiss you whenever"

"It's not the same if the threat of death isn't looming over us!!" Remus did an overexagarated pout.

Remy stood up and moved the blade on their thigh to their hand "Leave that to when we've found Picani" They said while continuing into the next hallway.

Remus quickly followed them, even walking a bit before them so if another guard showed up they would shoot at him first. "So eager to see him huh?"

"Duh. He was like the closest thing I had to a boyfriend before I met you. Like sure we were never official but we kissed and did all that sorta couplesy stuff. I haven't seen him like years! I wanna catch up y'know"

"Do I have to be afraid of being replaced" Remus joked.

They bumped against his shoulder "Babe neva!"

He was about to reply with something lovey dovey but the conversation immediatly stopped as they both saw it. Room 235. The door stood slightly open.

They moved silently, weapons in hand. Remy was the first in. They looked around with urgency in their eyes. They searched through the entrance before going into the bedroom. Remus checked the bathroom but there wasn't a trace of him. No traces of other people either.

A sudden choked back sob came from the bedroom. Remus ran to it while holding back the urge to yell out his lover's name.

Remy stood with shaking shoulders by the door. On the floor with his back leaned against the bed sat Emile Picani. Dead.

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jungkookfeelz · 4 years

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Not What You Expected 5

Description: After years of dating Min Yoongi and starting a life together, he ends your relationship out of nowhere. Will you finally find out why the love of your life left you in the cold?

Words: 2K

Notes: Oooooh what a twist 0.0 I wonder what’s gonna happen next! The series is almost over, thank you for all the love so far.

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You shoved open the back door with a bang and ran out in the pouring rain but before your legs gave in, a pair of arms wrapped around your waist.

"Y/N I'm so sorry, please forgive me" Yoongi cried into the back of your shoulder "I was just so stressed with this comeback and you didn't come to see me before any of the other guys, it made me jealous"

"Enough for you to kick me out?" You whipped back to face him, eyes closing every second due to the heavy rain.

"No, I'm sorry, I never should've done that, I don't know what came over me, as soon as I shut the door on you I freaked" you sighed, you can never stay mad at him no matter how much you hate yourself for it, you nodded your head and smiled lightly, you were going to remind him about this later when you weren't in the pouring rain but all you wanted to do now is kiss him, you've missed him so much

"I love you Y/N" Yoongi whispered, you almost couldn't hear him from the roaring of the rain. You stood on your tippy-toes and kissed him, he kissed back right away, putting his hands on your waist to deepen it.

"I love you too weirdo, but never do that again" You scolded, pointing a finger at him

"You got yourself a deal, now let's go inside so you don't catch a cold"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You opened your eyes and groaned, turning over to hit the snooze button on your phone. You laid back down and put your hands on your face to cover your eyes from the sun that was shining through your white curtains. Dreaming about him wasn't helping you get over him, you have to figure out a way to stop them. To say the least, you were nervous, today was the day you were meeting Yoongi, after months not talking to him, not including the time where you slapped him and told him to go to Hell after belittling you in front of people. You turned around again and grabbed your phone before the alarm would go off again, noticing a text from Y/F/N you decided to respond.

Y/F/N - You going to see him today?

Y/N - Yah, I think so, I'm rethinking my decision....again

Y/F/N - Listen, you need to find out, if you can't move on and live your best life without knowing then you need to talk to him. BUT if it's too early then you can back out, not like he gives a shit about you

Y/N - Gee thanks girl, that made me feel so much better lol

Y/F/N - This is what best friends are for, telling the truth when you can't say it yourself

Y/F/N - Anyways good luck, I LOVE YOU, text me it's over xoxo

It took you a while to get out of bed, millions of thoughts ran through your head, deciding if you should actually go see him or not. You were petrified if you were going to make things worse...but you were also scared if you would make things better. Do you even want to take him back and pretend nothing happened if everything went well, or would you leave him like he did you? You groaned again, feeling helpless to your own problems.

Looking into the mirror you noticed a picture stuck to the edge of it, you picked it off and held it up to your face, it was a picture of your birthday from the past year. You looked so happy, with Yoongi by your side. The rest of the boys and Y/F/N were around the both of you, all of you wore weird headbands holding different color balloons in a beautiful sunflower field, how you wished you could go back in time to that moment. You touched the picture fondly before dropping it into the garbage can by your bed. This photo reminded you about the Yoongi you thought you knew, the one who paid a farmer just to be able to use it for your birthday, knowing they were your favorite. Not the one that you see now, the one who lies, who doesn't care.

"Okay do I seriously have to wear a blindfold, I'm going to trip and die and it's going to be all your fault" You whined, carefully jumping out the van with the help of Y/F/N

"Oh calm down, drama queen" You can just hear her eyes rolling

"If I die, I swear I will haunt you" You pointed at her, making her laugh while turning you to actually point at her, you laughed sheepishly at the incident.

"Guy's be quiet, she's here!" You heard Jimin yell

"See, we were quiet till you told us to be quiet" Jungkook pointed out, making Jimin glare at the Maknae and punch him in the shoulder, getting a bunch of 'shh's' from the other members. Apparently, you were finally where you needed to be since Y/F/N took off your blindfold, you squinted since it was so bright out. When your eyesight returned to you, you noticed it all. The beautiful field and your best friend huddled together in front of you, while Yoongi was in the middle, he had a singular flower in his hand and his beautiful shy smile that grew on his face when he saw your attention was on him. He walked right up to you and shoved the flower into your chest, putting a hand behind his neck, he coughed slightly. He was nervous.

"Yoongi...this is beautiful, thank you" You whispered, coming closer to him bringing your arms up to his neck to give him the biggest hug you could muster.

"Y-you like it?" He stuttered, wrapping his arms around your waist to return the hug.

"Oh my gosh, yes. This is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me" You exclaimed making Yoongi chuckle.

"I'm so glad" He pecked your lips making you pout, you wanted more. "You can have whatever you like later, we have more surprises for you" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You had your hand hovering the door with the 'Suga' sign on it, you were psyching yourself out all day you couldn't help it, you don't know what you were going to find out today and it scared you. Your hand trembled in front of while, hand fisted, you took a deep breath before finally having the courage to knock. After a few painful seconds, you could hear a faint 'come in' you opened the door and shut it quietly behind you. You could see Yoongi playing around on his laptop, with big headphones over his head, not paying any attention to who had just come into his studio. You fiddled with your shirt starting at the stupid beautiful man in front of you.

"Yoongi" you interrupted, getting frustrated that he hasn't turned around to acknowledge you. "Are you going to stop and look at me?" You cross your arms over your chest and leaned back against the door, you needed something to lean on or you swear your would have fallen from how much your legs shook out of nervousness. He stopped what he was doing in an instant and was right in front of you faster than a blink of an eye.

"You have no right telling me what to do" Yoongi growled, his voice was low making your heart flutter. He put his hands on the door behind you, trapping you. He leaned in close so that his lips were against your ear "watch your tongue next time" he whispered, his breath fanning over your cheek creating goosebumps all over your body. You gulped loudly, your mouth dry. You haven't been this close to Yoongi for a long time, you missed the way he made you feel, the way he used to touch you

"Yoongi..." you breathed out while he attacked your neck with his lips, he grabbed your waist harshly hearing you moan his name. He loved the way his name came out of your mouth he sucked harshly making your back arch, your chest's practically touching. You would never get tired of how good he made you feel, he didn't even have to do much, that's how putty you are in his hands.

"What do you want baby?" Yoongi breathed out, grinding into you making you moan again.

"Y-you, all of you, please" You whined slamming your lips onto his and pulled his hair, you knew that would help you rile him up. You wanted him, needed to feel all of him.

Yoongi smirked, his pride growing from how you much you wanted him to touch you, he looked down at your naked body and smirked "Your wish is my command princess"

"Y-Yoongi" Your voice betrayed you. You put your hands on his chest, in an instant he was off of you, standing on the other side of the room breathing heavily. His hair was over his eyes so you couldn't see his face. You weren't surprised but hurt was all that you felt, he rejected you, yet again. Your face fell seeing him like this. He didn't look like his normal self, he wasn't the man that you remembered, he had dark circles under his eyes like he hasn't slept in weeks, he looked skinnier and his face was paler than normal. You didn't notice any of this when you saw him at the restaurant two days ago, assuming he was wearing some makeup and baggier clothes.

You felt sorry for him, he looked exactly how you felt inside. At least you weren't the only one "When was the last time you slept?"

Yoongi chuckled, putting his hand on his jaw. "Why the fuck do you care?"

"Because I care about you, that's why"

"No you don't, if you cared about me you wouldn't have done what you did"

"What did I do Yoongi?" You pleaded, he didn't respond, so you walked over to him and pushed his chest "What did I do so fucking bad that made you leave" You kept hitting his chest, you didn't know when you started crying but you could barely see anymore. But you didn't care, you kept pushing and hitting until he responded, but what you heard left you speechless.

"You broke my trust and slept with another man! That's what you did!" He was shaking in anger, spit flying everywhere as he screamed at you. He grabbed a stack of papers on his desk and threw them to the side to relieve some of the anger he felt at that moment. You flinched and backed away from him in an instant, eyes wide open.

You cheated on him? You would never even think about doing that horrendous act, you loved Yoongi with everything that you had to offer so why the hell would you sabotage your relationship for sex? You had great sex with Yoongi, he always took care of you and put your pleasure over his own, you never had any complaints. Before you could get a word in, he started verbally attacking you with more;

"Was I not enough for you? Did I not please you well enough? Did you expect more? Is that why you to spread your legs for another guy? Was I not fucking enough for you? Did you even love me, or were you using me for the shit I am able to provide for you?" He roared out again. He was seeing red, he thought he would be able to control himself, he prepared for this day for months but seeing you, lying to his face made him snap.

"What? How could you say that?" You gasped shaking your head not believing a word he said, did you not show him how much you loved him when you were together?

"You heard me, I know everything." He blatantly ignored your second question, he stood before you, sending daggers to the form before him., he was breathing heavier than before, chest rising and falling rapidly.

"I...What?" Yoongi sighed and grabbed his phone from his back pocket if he had to show you proof then so be it. He looked through his photo album before finding the photo that broke his heart. He put it up to your face and watched your reaction. You looked from him to the phone in his hand, when you realized what the picture was you frowned, how did they know you were meeting him?

"Oh"

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ginny-rose-sixx · 4 years

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What the Fork? Ch 1

Story Summary:

Eva Rozlyn "Roz" Roberts accidentally time travels when she fiddles with her time turner while watching The Dirt. She ends up in 1981 in the Mötley apartment. How will the Crüe react? Will she ever be able to get back to 2020? Will Roz be able to handle their way of life? Will she ever be able to control the time travel?

A/N:

I decided to start putting my story ‘What the Fork’ on Tumblr in addition to AO3 and WattPad (11 chapters). I wanted to organize my writing some more. Since I plan on this being a very long book and I want to make it a series, I want to take notes on my chapters so that I avoid continuity errors. Also, if I find any grammatical errors that I missed I will fix those. With the notes and everything, I thought that I would start putting this up here as well. As time goes on, I may do alternate takes on chapters and stuff like that.

Oh, and the title is a bit of a funny story. When I first was trying to come up with a title, I asked for my boyfriend’s help. I told him the premise of the story and a summary of the first chapter. The first words out of his name were, “What the fuck???” And I was like, “Ok, there we go.” Of course, I wasn’t gonna swear in the title even though I do in the story. So, I decided to make a reference to the tv show ‘The Good Place’.

Pairing: Not disclosed to reader yet

Warnings: swearing

Word count: 1886

Chapter One

Eva Rozlyn Roberts, aka Roz, was sick of waiting for her friend to pick her up. She was supposed to be going to her first ever convention. She was dressed as a Gryffindor witch. She started to fiddle with parts of her costume. First, she was twirling her Newt Scamander replica wand for a while. *Why on Earth am I still waiting for her?* Roz wondered. Roz put her wand up her sleeve, and she tried calling her friend Katy for what felt like the 100th time that day.

After the voicemail picked up again, Roz decided to start watching The Dirt again. She had lost track of how many times she had watched the movie and listened to the songs since the movie came out. As she watched the movie, she took out a time turner necklace and started twirling it in all of the different directions. *I wish I had never agreed to go with Katy. She always forgets about me or bails.* She dropped the necklace and started to braid her hair.

About an hour into the movie, Roz had already braided her hair so that it hung over her left shoulder. Her hair was black and it had deep red highlights all throughout. When she started twirling her time turner necklace again, a faint blue tendril of light started twisting around her fingers and slowly working its way up her arms. Before she even noticed it, the light was covering the entirety of her forearms. She immediately stopped playing with the time turner and started to panic. *Time turners are NOT even real! I cannot deal with this. I just turned 19 and I have to move soon. Fuck! What’s gonna happen to Hope?* The blue light had engulfed her and no matter how hard she tried; she couldn't get the time turner out of her hands. The last thought she had before she blacked out was *I hope she’s safe and that I’m at least gonna go somewhere fun.....*

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The guys had just finished agreeing on a name. Mötley Crüe was finally a reality. They kept drinking together and didn't pay any attention to the strange blue light emanating from under the table. After a few hours, Tommy exclaimed, "Dudes, the only thing that could make this better would be for a chick to be here!"

After a pull from his beer Vince laughed and asked, "Where exactly do you expect a chick to come from?"

Mick growled sarcastically, "In a ball of light ya dumbass."

Tommy's eyes lit up with teenage enthusiasm. "Ya really think so Mick?"

Nikki just laughed and said, "He was joking dork."

By then the light had waned and then, all of a sudden, it flashed back out from under the table. It engulfed the Crüe and Vince screamed. Once the light was gone Mick was shocked. "Seriously, I was joking about the light. What the fuck's going on under the table?"

Tommy ducked his head under the table and immediately popped his head back up. "Dudes, I can't believe it. I think I drank too much! There's a fuckin chick under the table!"

Nikki cackled "T-bone quit fuckin around! Is there even anything other than trash under there?"

Tommy glared and pouted "I'm not joking. Just look for yourself dude!"

Mick grunted in pain as he got down on the floor and saw the strangest thing. There was girl who was maybe in her older teens. Her sudden appearance wasn't the only strange thing. She had unnatural black and red hair that was braided. She was also in what looked to be a school uniform. She had a red and black plaid skirt, knee high socks, odd combat like boots, a black blouse, a dark grey cardigan with a lion crest on it, and oddest of all a cloak. Mick decided that they needed to at least get her out from under the table. Maybe wake her if possible. "Nikki stop your cackling and help me move her to the couch."

"Fine, fine" Nikki said as he rolled his eyes.

Tommy and Vince moved the table and Mick carefully lifted her head and shoulders with a grimace while Nikki got her legs. Once they got her on the couch, Vince decided to bail to his girlfriend’s place, "Sorry, but I'm not sober enough for this shit. I'll be back later."

Tommy leaned over the girl and asked, "Where do you guys think she came from?"

Nikki shrugged, "Fuck if I know. Wake her up and see."

Tommy started to poke her in the cheek. She mumbled "...5 mur min mum..." Tommy giggled and then decided to poke her sharply in the side. The girl's emerald eyes flew open as she shot into a sitting position.

She screamed and flailed her arms which resulted in smacking Tommy in the face. "What the fork? Son of a bitch! What kind of asshole jabs someone they don't know in the side? Seriously, what the fuck?!"

The guys looked at her with wide eyes and then at each other. "Well Mick you're the one who said a chick would come from a ball of light. What do you think we should do with her?" Nikki asked.

Mick chuckled "Your apartment, you guys figure it out. I'm gonna just drink more."

Sitting up fully and looking around the room, the girl was disoriented. "She's right here and she even has a name! She also wants to know who you guys are and where she is," she snapped at them.

Tommy sat next to her on the couch and responded, "Well I'm Tommy, that's Nikki and that's Mick. You are in our apartment."

"Well theirs" Mick said pointing between Tommy and Nikki with his bottle of Jack.

"Now your turn" Nikki said pointedly to her.

Roz nervously tucked her legs under herself and hugged her knees. Looking down at the floor Roz said, "I'm Roz, that's all you're going to get from me right now. I want to know what city I'm in and what year it is. I've learned from books, TV, and movies that fresh out of a ball of light you figure out where and when you are."

Tommy's brow knitted and he said, "Um its 1981 and you're in Los Angeles. Uh I guess that means I should ask you; where and when are you from Roz?"

She looked with wide eyes between Mick and Nikki before settling back on Tommy. "Please don't freak out," she said quietly. As she looked down at her boots, she mumbled, "I'm from Madison, WI, and I was in the year 2020. I was born July 1, 2001 so I turned 19 a week ago in my time.”

Nikki snorted, and Tommy elbowed him before he interrupted, “Seriously dude?? You’re from the future AND from Wisconsin?? How the fuck did you get here? Also, why under the table?”

“I have no clue Tommy, I was just messing around with my necklace and then POOF………” Roz trailed off and then stared wide-eyed at Mick, Tommy, and then fixed her eyes on Nikki. She had finally realized who she was with. “Holy fucking shit balls!!!!!! M-Mick Mars? T-Tommy Lee? …. A-a-an-and N-ni-Nikki S-ss-Sixx?” She continued stare at Nikki who, after a bit, narrowed his eyes at her before turning to Mick and Tommy.

“How the hell does she know who we are?” Nikki wondered.

Mick shrugged and Tommy laughed and said, “Wait dude, she’s from the future, right? We’re probably famous. Hey Roz is that how you know us?”

“Shit, I shouldn’t have let that bit slip. This better not fuck up the space time continuum. I refuse to tell you guys about your futures.” She said wildly staring at Tommy.

“Ok… ok… What should we do with her until we figure out if she can even go home?” Tommy asked turning to Nikki.

“Well we can claim she is related to one of us,” suggested Nikki. “Hey Mick want a sister or a cousin?”

Mick shook his head and chuckled slightly. “If she’s gonna be my cousin I wanna know her whole name. So, lady teen, what’s your name?”

“Seriously Mick? Lady teen? Ugh fine, my name is Eva Rozlyn Roberts. I prefer Roz though.” She looked between the guys and then around the disgusting living room. “So… um…. Where am I going to live? If I recall this place only has the 2 rooms and Vince and Tommy already share one of them.” She thought for a moment, *Honestly, I hope they say I have to share with Vince and Tommy. Sharing with Nikki would be nerve wracking.*

“Seriously dude, it’s creepy how much you know about us. You can share the room with me and Vince. I know Nikki ain’t gonna wanna share.” Tommy said looking like a hopeful puppy.

“I guess that works. I’m gonna need something other than my costume to wear guys. I can’t always walk around LA dressed as a character from Harry Potter.” Roz said.

“Wait who’s this Harry guy?” Nikki asked frowning.

Roz giggled, “He’s the main character from a series of books that started in the late 90’s. He is a wizard and goes to a magical boarding school. It’s my favorite series of books ever. Right now, I’m wearing the Gryffindor version of the Hogwarts uniform. I also have a time turner necklace and a replica of Newt Scamander’s wand.”

Mick rolled his eyes, “ So let me get this straight. You just decided to dress like a wizarding school girl and then play with magical objects?”

Roz’s face clouded over, “Well I was supposed to be going to a convention with my friend Katy. Bitch never actually picked me up. I was fiddling around with the time turner necklace while watching a movie. Then I was in a blue light and passed out. Seriously, magic isn’t real. At least it wasn’t until the time turner decided to spaz out and actually work.”

Nikki smirked and asked, “Are you sure you’re not a witch? You’re already a time traveler. Why not be a witch too?”

“Bro do you really think she’s a witch? That would be so cool!!!” Tommy turned to Roz and asked, “Do you think that your wand will work too?”

Roz giggled, “That would be amazing, although I doubt it does. But damn is it getting late or what? Any chance we can go back over this after some sleep?”

“Well Tommy show her to Vince’s bed. I think it would be hilarious if Vin came back while she was sleeping in his bed.” Nikki says lighting up a cigarette.

Tommy turned to Roz, “I should have some sweatpants and a shirt for you to wear.”

“Tommy I hope you’ve got some workout shorts because your legs are way to long,” Roz said as she followed Tommy. Tommy handed her some shorts and a t-shirt and pointed out Vince’s bed. “Thanks Tommy.”

After Tommy left the room Roz shut the door and changed. She folded her clothes and stuffed them in the pillowcase, and she still wore the time turner and kept the wand in its sheath on her forearm. She laid down and her last thought before sleep claimed her was of how strange this all is.

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a-fritterer · 4 years

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@mytalkingraccoon , I thought I’ll slide it because of the number of questions but ended up doing it anyway 👀 Thank you!!! 🤗🥰gonna tag @literallybina , @purrrrrrr @supergeek1999

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? I think my father said that to me, so of course he meant it.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? I’m an aro, dating doesn’t interest me. Also that person would be a child compared to me.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Can’t recall.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? I’m quite shy.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? I don’t think so.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? no

7. What exactly are you wearing right now? a BBC Sherlock t-shirt and trousers

8. How often do you listen to music? everyday

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? jeans

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014? I hate my life before 2014 (not entirely but mostly) and my life started changing after 2014.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? social with friends, anti-social with relatives and others.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? does my dad count?

13. What about ‘R’? never kissed anyone other than my family 😶

14. Can you drive a stick shift? I can't drive but want to learn it.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? I hate myself so fucking much but I can’t care less about others hating on me.

16. Are you going out of town soon? No

17. When was the last time you cried? Just now. Demons from my past paid me a visit uwu and my life is shit rn.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? told my friends

19. If you could change your eye color, would you? I’ve black eyes which feels mundane. I wish I had eyes like Benedict Cumberbatch.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? for some friends’ I think.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Not being enough productive and being caught up in misunderstanding and unnecessary drama.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? How can I know? 👀

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? I never dated anyone

24. What are you sitting on right now? my bed

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? no

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? BTS Ot7 and Benedict Cumberbatch

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? a friend, on facebook

28. Do you get a lot of colds? I’ve sinusities so yeah

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? an online shop run by a batchmate of mine

30. Does anyone hate you? May be. My brain says that I’m someone to be hated

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? I never drink

32. Do you like watching scary movies? I’m a horror junkie

33. Do you want your tongue pierced? nooooooo

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? I think this one

35. Did you have a dream last night? I forgot already

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? can’t really recall

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I don’t want to be married in my life

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I don’t think so

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? nah

40. Did you have a good day yesterday? nope

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? no

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? no

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes

44. What’s the best part about school? nothing. my school life pretty much sucked and I hate that version of me who went to school.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? I do

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? that was a long time ago, can’t recall.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? all the fucking time

48. Were you single over the last summer? I’m forever happily single 🥰

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? nope

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? go to sleep

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? nope. He’s a really good friend of mine.

52. Are you nice to everyone? I try to be.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? not romantically but yes

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? I don’t want to be in one in the first place.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? sometimes

56. Do you think you like someone? nope

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? never

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Boys. I find them cool to talk with.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? yes

60. Do you hate anyone? only myself and myself only

61. How’s your heart? morbidly fine

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes

63. Have you ever cried over a guy? never

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? Really don’t know

65. Are your toenails painted pink? i don’t use nailpolish

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? not interested in kissing anyone

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? I have no idea

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? nope

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? a friend of mine

70. How do you look right now? ugly

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yes

72. Can you commit to one person? i feel suffocated to imagine it even

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? no

74. Have you ever felt replaced? yes

75. Did you wake up cranky? no

76. Are you a jealous person? no

77. Are relationships ever worth it? i don’t know cause i have no experience

78. Anyone you’re giving up on? no

79. Currently wanting to see anyone? no

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? help my mom to learn how to use the new electric oven

81. Last person you cried in front of? mom

82. Is there someone you will never forget? quite a few

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? I’ve no feelings for anybody 😅

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Yoongi? I’d faint

85. Are you over your past? i think i can never 🙃

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? never.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? no

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? i never had anyone like that

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? when i was a child i kissed my parents and that’s it 😶that was more than 16 years ago lol

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? no

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? never 😂😂😂

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? in my country there’s no chance to meet someone named like that

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? never 👀

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? I was in a dark place in January 🖕

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? I didn’t like anybody in March

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? she’s beautiful

97. Who do you have texts from? mobile operator, banks and some friends

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? 🤷‍♀️

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? i never kissed anyone lol

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? my profile picture is Min Yoonji

101. Ever kissed under fireworks? never even if I’d the chance

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? honestly can’t remember

#thanks for tagging <3 #done!#i had to use my stupid pc for this #had to answer between no and never cause i'm an aro #so it's a bit annoying even

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inspiringwhilerespiring · 4 years

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Get to know me?

Yoooo - yall remember Myspace, and people would blog survey posts lol. Well thats me, I’m people. And I just wanna write my lil heart out and avoid all of my real life responsibilities. So found a lil questionnaire thing and I’m gonna fill it out. Also lowkey like doing this every so often so I can look back on it and reflect and see how much I may have grown/changed/shifted viewzzz ya feel? :)

Sooo here yall go <3

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My neice maybe?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

People who know me would tell me to put outgoing, but I honestly feel shy on the inside, so it just depends.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Literally anyone lmao fuck this quarantine

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Definitely

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Lets hope so

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind souls <3 always notice how they talk to their friends and family, but even people they don’t know like servers or janitors, etc. that shit matters heavy.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Probably not

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

A few homies

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nah not really, just depends

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Not sure -it’s been a min since I had a “deep” connection or convo that I can remember - but was probably with my bestie R’Bo

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Google that shit” lmao me, giving advice to my friends

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

TOUGH!!!! After Hours by The Weeknd is up there, Cayendo by Frank Ocean (been jamming his shit HAARD lately) and Inside Friend by Leon Bridges & John Mayer….but also been listening to albums - like Childish’s new album, Floreyyy for lo-fi shit, and also got into 070 Shake recently just to name a few.

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

FUCK YA

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Yeah budddyy

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Idk, my bday party was lit?? And lots of river floats happened

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Lol

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Cant deny that there isn’t so yaaa

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Yes

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Just moved, so don’t know em

21. What are you bad habits?

Procrastination lol and biting my nails

22. Where would you like to travel?

Literally ANNNYY-fuckin-WHERE!

23. Do you have trust issues?

Hmm I wanna say generally no, but I also always keep it one hunnnid with myself, and as much as I’d like to say I don’t have any - I think I def have insecurities with myself, that have the potential to become “trust issues” in certain relationships, but overall no. I live by the whole “you have my trust til you fuck it up” mantra

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Coffee in the morning lately, missed it and forgot how energized it makes me - gives me time to wake up and reflect/set daily goals

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Stomach forever :((((

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Scroll on my phone, pee usually, or feed my cat lol

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Tanner maybe?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My mom or my best friend R’Bonney - but any of my close friends and fam honestly

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Not directly

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Lol ok, so this is always changing…but lately (and by lately I mean the past few years) its been a no. I’m open minded though and am aware that I’m always changing my mind sooo who knows

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yeppperoo

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Honestly, those aren’t my “thing” lollike id prob laugh or be awkward or just have to be hellllla drunk - but like I wouldn’t mind Jason Momoa and Tom Hardy tossin me around

33. Spell your name with your chin.

hjaylkee

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Scocer back in the day - actually went and kicked it like a week ago for the first time in YEARSSSS - felt so damn good

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV, music forreeevverrr

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Lol story of my life

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

“Soooo” then probably ask a question or some shit lol

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Hmmm…definitely have to be funny/have a good sense of humor. They’d have to be open-minded for sure. Up for trying new things, places, cultures, food, music, etc. Just have an adventurous spirit I guess when it comes to that. Have a good line of communication/openness - and just be able to have a deep/intellectual convo about anything and everything. Bonuses: taller than me, likes cooking, and going to music shows.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Amazon lol I hate shopping

40. What do you want to do after high school?

To go back to high school :( lmao so much id re-do, cant believe its almost been a decade

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Hell yeah, this is life my dudes, dont take it so seriously - we all fuck up at some point or another

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Something is on my mind for sure, or im just tired lol

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yeah

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

DAMNNN WHAT so hard - I guesss if I had to pick, space…just because it’s more rare/harder to do I’d think.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

My cat lol with his meowing ass

46. What are you paranoid about?

Lowkey a lot lol

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Who hasn’t????

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

naw

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black probably, like half my wardrobe

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Of course

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My bad habits

56. Favourite colour?

Yelllllow :)

57. Favourite food?

Oh gaaawwd, literally anything - lately: PB&J’s, fries, wings, Mediterranean, Mexican, pickles, ice cream, ramenzzzz

58. Last thing you ate?

Pistachios

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Cofffeeee w creamer

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Idk, not off the top of my head - maybe something back in elementary

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nah

62. Been arrested? For what?

Yeah lmao

63. Ever been in love?

Yes

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

No its really not that interesting and idc to type it out

65. Are you hungry right now?

24/7/365

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Lol yes a few of them <333

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Noooo

70. Names of your bestfriends?

R’Bonney is number 1

71. Craving something? What?

Foooood, and companionship? Lol

72. What colour are your towels?

Idk, random, mostly blue

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

A lot lol

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Lol no, but I have my one from my childhood in my room

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

1 - shout out to you Mr.Fluffy

75. Favourite animal?

I am fascinated by sharks; and like gators/crocs. But I have mad respect for elephants, they’re sooo damn smart and beautiful.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Dont have any on

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

BITCHHHH CHOC

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

All of them

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Tie-dye

80. What colour pants?

none

81. Favourite tv show?

Game of Thrones prob

82. Favourite movie?

Avatar or Shawshank Redemption

87. First person you talked to today?

Sissy

88. Last person you talked to today?

Friend on FT

89. Name a person you hate?

No one, maybe Trump? lol

90. Name a person you love?

Everyone, fr fr

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Nah

92. In a fight with someone?

Nah

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Not enough <3

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Not enough <3

95. Last movie you watched?

The Decline on Netflix, short lil foreign oil, was deep/interesting

96. Favourite actress?

Not sure-Sandra Bullock? Or Meryl

97. Favourite actor?

Denzel or Morgan Freeman

98. Do you tan a lot?

Nah not anymore honestly

99. Have any pets?

Yessss

100. How are you feeling?

Mediocre

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Im sure

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Lol im nostalgic af, so yes

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yes litttty tittyyy

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably :(

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Hell yeah brother, I’m from TX

108. What should you be doing?

So much shit lol

109. Is something irritating you right now?

The fact that I ain’t doing all the shit I should be lol

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yooo yes

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Prob my sister or my mom?? Lol I cry a lot, idk and idc

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Hayls?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yes

115. Do you play the Wii?

Back in the day

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Surprisingly, no

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Nah, unless maybe if its homemade

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Yeah occasionally, more of a Thai food chick or Japanese

119. Favourite book?

Kite Runner

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Low-key sometimes lol

121. Are you mean?

Hell noooo

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Ok, this is an interesting one lol I mean no, it’s not “okay” - since it usually constitutes lying/hiding/hurting someone - BUTTTT, for a lack of a better term - I wanna say it’s “normal”? But thats because I, personally, am on the fence about the concept of monogamy. Like no, I’ve never cheated nor experienced that in return - but the whole concept of monogamy and like that a person can love and only love or be with one person is WILLLLDDD and I can’t help but note that its a social construct that we, as a society, are conditioned to from the time we are born. Idk if that makes sense bc im high af lol but those are my thoughts…like to sum it up - cheating is fucked up and sucks, but at the same time its not all that surprising/shocking anymore, like borderline “normalized” just as divorces are and shit, so I feel like bc biologically we aren’t made to be with one person lol. I don’t condone it tho. Thanks for coming to my TedTalk.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Hell to the naw naw

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Hmmm idk about that one, but also can’t deny it

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah of course, you’re talking to a hopeless romantic

126. Are you currently bored?

I guess we could say that

127. What makes you happy?

Food and close, loved ones

128. Would you change your name?

Nah, too much paper work

129. What your zodiac sign?

Cancer, with my lil moody, sensitive ass

130. Do you like subway?

I did lol

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Story of my mf life lol literally all my exes are “best friends turned lovers” situation, so guess it would just depend lmao

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Lol oh godddd; ok off the top of my head - Tupac - Keep Ya Head Up is what comes to mind; just a timeless song and the lyrics are still relevant/apply to this day and idk just really resonate with the message behind that song <3

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Idk, but it was probably SO dumb, and told to my parents lol

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Either or, lately open so my cat can go in and out lol

137. How tall are you?

5’6 mayyybeee 5’5 actually lol

140. Summer or Winter?

Fall!!

141. Night or Day?

Def a lil night owl, always have been

142. Favourite month?

April and October for weather at least

143. Are you a vegetarian?

No but I try, and go through phases, I’m definitely mindful the older I get and more focused on my health I become

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

FUCKIN ALLLLL

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee but I like tea too, just seem to drink coffee more regularly

146. Was today a good day?

The grateful-to-just-be-alive in me wants to say yes lol but idk, felt off/unaccomplished and cried a lot, so no.

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“This too shall pass”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Sure why not

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“After all, what he had always wanted was just that: to know new places.” -The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho

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ssa-daddyhotchner · 3 years

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Undercover - Chapter 10

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He opens the door and his eyes are clouded with tears but they don't run down his face. His hair is disheveled and his breathing is heavy. I run over to him and hold him upright.

"Hey what happened, who were you talking to?" The conversation between him and whoever wasn't my business but he was really messed up from the looks of it. "That was- that was my uh brothers boss." I see a tear slowly run down his cheek and I cup his face using my thumb to wipe it away.

"My- my brother passed away this morning", my heart broke for him. "Come here", I sat on the floor and he fell into my arms, gripping my waist and neck crying into my shoulder. "Shh"

I picked him up off the floor and walked him upstairs. I laid down on the bed and he laid next to me. He nestled his head into my chest and softly started to cry again. I held him tightly and he went to sleep in my arms.

I stayed there for a while but pulled away and put him under the covers. I took a shower washing my hair and body when I felt someone's hand on my hip. I turn to see Aaron.

"You should be getting some rest", he looked at me and his eyes are glassy, red, and puffy.

I turned him around and washed his body carefully leaving kisses on his shoulders. I turn off the water and we step out. I throw on his shirt and sit on the bed while he changes.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

He stops moving and stands there. "Not right now, I can tell you later or tomorrow just not now."

We spent the day curled up on the couch and bed sleeping and eating. I heard my phone ring and I looked at the caller ID and it said unknown. I answered and I heard a deep voice on the other end. "There's a car out front, black SUV."

"Aaron we have to go," he looked up from the laying down. His face was still puffy from the tears.

He got up, changed and we left to go downstairs. When left the elevator; there was black SUV parked directly outside. We get inside car; the car starts to moving going to another location. The car stopped outside and warehouse. We walk inside and see Carmine standing in the center with his security surrounding him.

"Before we start what's your name." Carmine says to Aaron. "Christopher Harris", he did show any expression on his face. "We accept your offer"

"Great, all I ask for is an investment of let's say $200,000." I stare at him. "Ok done." he gestures to his men and he hands me a check. We know that Carmine only likes physical money no electronic transactions.

When we cash's that check the bank will give his marked bills only and will track the money. I write the check and hand it back to him. "Now seeing as we are now in business I need to make sure you're really in this." Carmine brings a couple inside the building and makes them kneel.

"Kill them." My heart drops, I feel sick to my stomach. I glance over at Aaron to me he looks furious and upset. To anyone else he looks emotionless. I didn't show any emotion taking the knife that was set on the floor.

The couple were turned around but I saw their faces when they were brought in. They were turned away from us. Aaron grabbed the knife from the floor looked at me and nodded.

"Before you continue I'm just going to state, I really want your business but if you choose to not go any further uh we'll have to you know."

I looked back at Aaron and pressed the knife to the wife's throat while Aaron did the same to the husband. The movements were fast; both of us slicing clean through their necks from left to right. Their lifeless body's dropped to the floor; the blood pooling around them. The husbands eyes still over looking right at me.

I felt a pit in my stomach; I felt empty. Carmine had his guards bring us back to the car and drive us the penthouse.

I don't remember the trip or how I was suddenly laying in the bed. Aaron put his hand on my shoulder and I went to sleep.

That moment was haunting me, replaying in my dream; I'd never killed someone in cold blood let alone someone that was 'innocent'. I was still wrong, how was I gonna go on. I just felt cold, alone; the only warm thing was Aaron and he felt the same way I did then we had to get through this together.

I woke up to Aaron laying on me, he was still upset over Sean's death; It was 10x harder for him. My phone was ringing, I had 10 miss calls. I answered and Garcia was on the other end. "How are you and boss man doing."

"Pen..", I had a hushed and pain full tone to my voice. "I need you to check who Carmine was in business with a few weeks ago." I can tell she wanted to ask me something but decided against it.

"He was working with Monica and Steven Benson." I nodded even though she couldn't see me.

"Send me their photos." I had a theory that Carmine technically didn't murder those people but their future investors did. So those people Aaron and I killed were Monica and Steven.

"Ok sent them." I got the message and open the file. I was right the couples faces were staring back at me. My breathing hitched and it woke up Aaron. He lifted his head, "Baby what is it." I could basically hear Penelope's smile through the phone.

"Y/n?" Garcia could hear me breathing picking up. My face started to feel numb and my body felt like pins and needles. My vision went blurry and as I laid on the bed.

I was having a panic attack; Aaron picked up the phone, "We'll call you back." He picked me up in his arms and held me close.

The warmth from his body bringing me some peace. I hugged him wrapping my arms around his neck. "Honey it's ok shh, I need you to calm down for me ok." His voice was quiet and low rumbling in my ear. I slowly after 5 mins started to calm my breath.

"Aaron we murdered them." I chocked out tears welling up in my eyes running down my cheek.

"I know." His arms tight around me. He pulled away, placed his hand on my face using his thumb to wipe the tears of my face.

He furrowed his brows, "tsk honey.." He pulled me back into a hug.

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A few hours later I was still on the bed. I calmed down enough to talk about to subject. "I had a theory which has now....been proven to be true." He looked at me through the mirror of the bathroom.

I continued, "After we uh proved ourselves I could shake this feeling. Garcia had called and I asked her about who he last worked with...Monica and Steven; she sent me their photos and they were the people we killed." I trailed off internally trying to calm myself down.

Aaron walked back into the room, "So we were done with our business or when he finds someone else. We'll be his next targets." I nodded.

Getting off the topic he held his hand out and I grabbed it. We walked us into the elevator and went down to the lobby. Our car pulled up and he took me to go get dinner.

I was now 7pm and was getting dark. He got us chick-fil-a and drove us too the park.

We walked around for a while just talking enjoying the others company.

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"Aaron I just got the text from Garcia, Carmine cashed the money we got his ass." I said while he was in the shower. "How long does that give us till he comes after us?" Aaron said coming out of the bathroom.

"I'm not sure, I think the last couple worked for him for a few weeks before...." I trailed off putting my head down. He walked up to me lifting my head with his finger. "It's ok", he reassured me.

"I wanna know something", Aaron nodded putting on his clothes. "How are you so ok with this... I mean you've been through more that I have in the last week. You know with the killing and Sean..."

He tensed up when I mentioned Sean; "Drop it y/n", he said walking down the stairs to the living room. I understood why he didn't answer his brother only passed 2 days ago. It was obviously still a touchy subject.

I followed him down the stairs and walked outside putting my hands on the cool glass railing. The balcony overlooked everything; looking straight down seeing the street below. We were easily a few hundred feet above the ground.

I let the breeze run through my hair with the warm sun on my skin. I walked inside to grab a speaker and went outside; sitting on the couch. I sat there listening to music.

I woke up to Aaron sitting across from me listening to the music gazing at the skyline.

He saw me shifting in my seat and turned his attention. He stood up walking over to the ledge. I went over to him wrapping my arms around his waist, resting my head against his back. He let out a sigh placing his hand on mine. He pulled my in front of him.

My back pressed against the thick glass. "You know it's always a girls dream to get absolutely destroyed on a balcony." It was a fantasy of mine for some reason. Aaron raised his eyebrows with a smirk growing on his lips. His hands made there way down my back resting on my ass; kissing me passionately.

I went in for another kiss but he pulled away unbuckling his belt. He pulled my hands together and tied the belt around them. It disappointed me that I wasn't allowed to touch but it excited me.

He cupped my face and crashed his lips to mine molding them together. His other hand running up and down my stomach making me have butterflies. He got dangerously close to my waistband tugging on it slightly. "Please", I whimpered. "tsk patience", his lips connecting with my jaw and neck leaving small hickeys behind.

The heat from his fingers slowly making there was down to my core had me begging. Releasing small breaths I grinded my hips on his palm but he took his hand away. He tugged my pants off, bunching up around my ankles I stepped out of them. Aaron threw them on the couch returning to me.

His rough hands finally giving me what I needed. I could feel myself slowly dripping down my thighs. "y/n you're already so wet." He said while sliding a finger inside me. He curled his finger rubbing against me g-spot. He slid in another, my tied hands going around his neck holding on.

My knees started to buckle, "Aar-." I said breathlessly, he took his fingers out bringing them to his mouth. "Little girl you taste so good", he got down kneeling in front of me.

Licking a thick stripe up my slit. Adding a little pressure towards my clit. His tongue pushing in my folds flicking over my clit while bringing his fingering back thrusting in and out.

I moaned out, "Fuck". I could feel him smiling against me; him never turning his attention away from my clit. "Aar- I'm gonna", he went even faster sliding in and out. His eyes went straight to mine never looking away.

The knot growing bigger and bigger until I released on his fingers. He came back up kissing me pushing his tongue inside my mouth.

I could taste myself on his lips; I smiled into the kiss.

I unwrapped my arms from around his and he unbuckled the belt; rubbing my wrists, "I'm not done yet." Gazing into my eyes he smirked.

"Please daddy." I looked into his eyes seeing them darken shade by shade.

I took off his shirt and ran my hand down his chest taking off his pants. My back still pressed against the edge. His hands on my hips, my hands gripped around his cock pumping. Aaron turned me around pressing my chest on the glass.

My head peering over seeing the street below. If only they knew what was happening above them.

His left hand pressed firmly on my lower back keeping me down an din place. His other hand running his cock up and down my slit. He slowly entered me; both of us letting out breathy moans.

He let me adjust, it had been almost 2 weeks since we last fucked; I was stressed, we both needed this. He made quick movements, coming out all the way before slamming back into me.

I met this thrusts half way clenching around him, signaling him to not stop. He brought his hand to grip my hip so hard he was going to leave bruises. He thrusted in and out with so much force. He moaned putting his thumb on my clit matching his pace.

His grip and the rail were the only things keeping me standing. I dropped my head in pleasure crying out, when he grabbed my hair pulling my head back forcing me to look out to the city. Seeing the sun going down and the building light up everything; it felt like a fucking movie.

He pulled out suddenly flipping me around facing him. Giving me no warning before pounding back into me. I whimpered and he groaned in my ear. He pulled my leg up on his waist holding it there. My hand went to his throat and he stared into my eyes.

His eyes only got darker as a grin crept on his face. He took the hand on my hip and placed it around me neck with more force. I was in a state of pure euphoria. The hand around my throat made my vision blurry and the constant amount of pleasure making the knot in my stomach tighter.

"Y/n...", he moaned my name. I clenched my walls around him making his finish quicker. I reached my edge cumming around him while he spilled inside me.

He pulled out and I stayed outside waiting for him to come back. I decided to walk inside to go to the bathroom.

When I came back Aaron was leaning on the ledge. He pulled my hand and spun me around him holding me close. His hands on my waist looking down at me. "Baby you got something...", he said chuckling he was pointing to my neck.

There was a forming hand print, I playfully smacked his arm. "You know you like to see them."

I nodded, "Yea I do but how do you think the teams gonna feel when they see cause I don't wanna cover it up." He started tracing the edges of the bruise when we heard the elevator ding.

Emily walked in with a tray, "Guys!" She yelled for us and we walked back inside.

"What are you doing here." I say to Emily as she walked to the couch.

"I'm 'delivering' food, Carmine has his men in the lobby; I had to be carful. Anyway before I head back down what are you guys doing?"

I glanced at Aaron before answering. "We were just sitting outside."

Emily nodded, "So nothing." I said yes and we started laughing. She went back to the elevator pressing the bottom floor. The doors closed and I let out a sigh.

"I know me hair was covering a little but do you think she saw it." Aaron said yes walking to upstairs to the bedroom.

My phone started to ring. "Mrs. Perez?"

"Yes? Whos this." Getting to Aaron, I put the phone on speaker.

"It's been a week since we last met and I'm calling ask for another payment. Come down stairs and hand the check to the man at the front desk." That was all he said then he hung up the phone.

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expression-in-its-essence · 5 years

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The Goldfinch movie.

7 min 26 secs in : Why the fuck did they start the movie like that. Why didn't the explosion take place? Theo's mom's apartment? His anxiety? Also.. why do they keep cutting the scenes abruptly? They ain't tweets... No limit.. then??

8 min 2 sec in : Okay they went to the apartment. Audrey's sweater deserved more screen time. The lipstain on the mug in focus *chef's kiss* poetic cinema!

9 min 19 sec in : Do you see what I see? Tom Cable's face has a stark resemblance to Boris's face. Did Theo have a crush on him?

9 min 54 sec in : Mr Barbour's hand is shaking. I like that they put it in there. He was sick. Nice. (I'd imagined Audrey's apartment building entrance like they showed the Barbour's apartment building entrance. Wild.)

11 min 8 sec in : Don't shove it into his face that y'all are fancy okay? He's not used to that life style. He didn't have maids making his bed. ARE YOU GIVING HIM DRUGS, MRS BARBOUR? But you just glared at your husband for offering him the same sort of thing?? Oh God. Poor child. "it's perfectly understandable" my ass. You gave him meds just because your sleep was getting affected.

14 min 39 sec : Woah woah woah Theo wtf you're so smol how'd you do that? Also... Again. The frame of Theo and Tom standing close and Theo and Boris standing close when they kissed, Theo is wearing the same damn sweater.

16 min 58 sec in : Ayyyy Jeffery Wright!

20 min 33 sec in : "He drank a lot", Theo about his dad. Honey just wait up, you will too. (The grilled sandwich and the cute lil smile 😍 also this is the first time since the movie started that Oakes' voice isn't deep.)

23 min 54 sec in : Wizard of Oz poster, I see you!

24 min 19 sec in : I love how Oakes is expressing being caught off guard. Theo knows he did something bad and every time he's dealing with something he didn't expect to deal with, he's like OMG THEY KNOW ABOUT THE PAINTING AND IM FUCKED even if no one knows.

25 min 1 sec in : The glasses made a difference. He went from mature to cute. Angry bird to angry birb.

25 min 44 sec in : Another sweater? Or was this THE sweater of Audrey? (Off topic but Oakes is hella cute. I could murder anyone who hurts him.)

29 min 9 sec in : Pippa doesn't remember or doesn't wanna remember? There was something in her eyes that was hard to read. Also, why doesn't anyone say 'I'm sorry about your mom' to Theo? Do Americans not care? It's weird to see no response when he tells people that Audrey is dead.

31 min 17 sec in : "The Goldfinch, destroyed"? Then why is Theo upset. Good riddance. Oh yeah. I know why. It's Donna Tartt we're talking about.

32 min 39 sec in : Hobie just casually predicting the future. "It's only fake if you pass it on as an original". Theo's like, "noted, gonna do exactly that".

34 min 16 sec in : Why does Theo write like a five year old child? That's toddler handwriting! And omg all the Andy-prom-dress memes are making sense now. (Also did I mention that Mrs Barbour seems more selfish in the film than she does in the book. Like hey I'm putting up with this kid because he helps my kid. He's serving a purpose for me. What the hell.) (How old is Andy anyway? He looks younger than Theo. I think he's different. Didn't grow up like other kids. That was mentioned in the book right?)

35 min 20 sec in : Ayyy Hobie's earring!

35 min 49 sec in : He shopped for himself? Nice! Didn't know kids could shop without adult supervision in the West. (Because they can't in the East.)

35 min 50 sec in : Ayyyy Sarah Paulson! Damn she's hot. How can you dislike her? *heart eyes*

37 min 30 sec in : I can't bring myself to hate Luke Wilson since Skeleton Twins but SHUT THE FUCK UP LARRY! AUDREY DESERVED BETTER. Look at how Larry and Xandra are looking at the place like they're vultures.

39 min 34 sec : They got the airport scene right. STOP GIVING HIM DRUGS WTH IS WRONG WITH THE ADULTS IN THIS MOVIE!

41 min 12 sec in : Ayyy Popper!!!!!

43 min 27 sec in : It just dawned on Theo that he's alone. Oh god. My poor baby.

45 min 12 sec in : Let me take this moment to say that Ashleigh Cummings is pretty. And I finally get why y'all were pissed at the non linear storyline and the weird voiceovers. Guess I'd been prepared for that so it didn't really suck that much.

49 min 30 sec in : I'd imagined Boreo reunion like the Platt Theo reunion. In the day. Dang it. Also... Adult Platt Barbour was not supposed to be good looking? In the book?

55 min 34 sec in : Without context, none of it could make sense. Apologies to whoever didn't read the book beforehand. Crowley fucked this up.

58 min in : Ayyyy Finn Wolfhard! BORIS IS HERE AND IM SO EXCITED IDK WHY

1 hour in : It's such a Boris thing to leave the bag unzipped.

1 hour 3 min 20 sec in : Slumdog Millionaire's Jai Ho (2008) is playing in the background. The only song that I've recognized so far. Wow. Lets me know about the time setting. Nice.

1 hr 3 min in : Someone gif " That cost twenty dollars!" *Stare* "That would have cost twenty dollars!"

1 hr 8 min in : So Boris's room is exactly like I had imagined but Theo's room isn't. Boris just mentioned Kotku though.

1 hr 9 min 14 sec in : Isn't it hella hot in Vegas? Why are they wearing sweaters? Or does drug intake make you more vulnerable to the environment?

1 hr 10 min 15 sec in : Xandra Theo argument : gold. "Cocktail sausages that you like." I wanna laugh in Crowley's face. What was he thinking?? Omg I'm dying.

1 hr 11 min 17 sec in : The slap sound didn't work??

1 hr 13 min 53 sec in : I like serious Boris better.

1 hr 14 min in : The slum house Audrey dream thing was not in the book. That's an entirely new addition.

1 hr 18 min 26 sec in : The Welty Theo scene is awesome. The sound effects work. I feel suffocated. The ambulance noise fiasco is also nicely pulled off. (also Theo's Yellow bag was dirty af then how did it get all clean when he didn't even do anything to it?)

1 hr 20 min 57 sec in : Shhhh Potter.

1 hr 22 min in : Holy shit he got slapped twice!! Ouch! And Larry's audacity to tell Theo to stop with the crying?? Good thing he died. Asshole.

1 hr 25 min in : "You don't tell me a lot of things but that's okay". I see what you did there, Boris. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 26 min in : "Act normal" - Theo knows his way around drugs pretty well, doesn't he?

1 hr 30 min in : "No family No friends" line punched me in the face. (Also awww popchik's excuse was the last resort for Boris to make Theo stay.)

1 hr 31 min 17 sec in : That pause after "What do you have to tell me?". You can clearly see Boris struggling to hold something back. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 31 min 34 sec in : What the fuck is that music? Oh heyyyyyy they kissed!-- he fucking runs away?? Also what kind of a kangaroo runs like that? (Yes, the taxi driver watched. I don't have to wonder anymore.) (They didn't address why he took the bus instead of flying?)

1 hr 33 min in : I didn't imagine Welty's room like that at all. Also why doesn't Hobie seem happy to see Theo again?

1 hr 35 min in : Longer stretches of one storyline are kinda bearable. From drugs in storage unit to waking up beside Kitsey. We got Vegas and Young Theo. Nice. (Also, who the heck puts jewelry in shoes? Is Theo that dumb? And now I can't think of anything else than Boris piercing his ear for the emerald earring. Tumblr has fucked it up bad.)

1 hr 43 min in : They nailed the Kitsey Theo confrontation.

1 hr 44 min in : Ayyy Ozma of Oz!

1 hr 48 min in : I noticed it before but I wasn't sure... Now I am. Pippa has Welty's ring. On her finger. At all times. (also, is NYC always that noisy? Must suck to walk on the roads.)

1 hr 52 min 23 sec in : They nailed the Theo Pippa date. What's that song playing in the background? I want the name. It's almost like two hours and I still haven't seen Aneurin Barnard once. Why! (Jerome's mentioned in the movie btw.)

1 hr 52 min 51 sec in : Complained too soon. Boris is sat in the dark doing god knows what. My man Aneurin is here!

1 hr 53 min 37 sec in : BOREO REUNIONNNNNN - no don't look at me like that I only watched it thrice.

1 hr 56 min in : Boris saying "it's someone else" with a knowing look and Theo looking at him. The frickin yearning.

1 hr 57 min in : Boris is like you're unhappy, I'm here, we're both rich, let's f*ck. "We could"... What are you suggesting dude he's repressed!

1 hr 58 min in : "you unwrapped it and showed it to me." So many meanings. The heart, the love the soul... Wow. Good for you, screen play writers! ( It's kinda hilarious how Boris got mad at Theo for never quote unquote fucking opening it.)

2 hr 1 min in : I'm calling it. They're going to fuck up the Theo Hobie confrontation. They put it on the wrong time. And they also fucked up the text from the book.

2 hr 5 min 48 sec in : Even Platt is saving his sister's face. Also where did Todd go? Did he never grow up? I wish Mrs Barbour didn't use Theo like she did.

2 hr 7 min in : The frame where Boris is between Kitsey and Theo. Chef's kiss.

2 hr 10 min 54 sec in : *intense music playing* Boris put his leg up on the table and I burst into laughter THOSE ARE THE FAMOUS FUCK ME PUMPS.

2 hr 11 min in : AAAAA THE FOREHEAD TOUCH AAAAAAA (Theo just knows without looking that Boris is close enough to touch? Theo are you sure you don't feel feelings for him?)

2 hr 12 min in : Theo is so worried that I'm not sure if it's for Boris or for losing the painting again. Omg he just murdered a man. Oh god.

2 hr 14 min in : Theo is spiralling. In the movie they imply that Hobie played a part in him attempting suicide. So wrong. Poor Hobie. In the book that wasn't the case.

2 hr 15 min in : The transition of the Goldfinch into Audrey, wow. Also, is it the first time we're seeing her? The movie started so long ago that I've forgotten if I saw Theo and Audrey in the museum. Boris following right after Audrey? That's a subliminal message. Boris is here to rescue y'all.

2 hr 16 min in : No shit Boris is freaking out right now.

2 hr 17 min in : The diner scene. They're both crying. "Happy Christmas, Potter" - which was of course, I love you.

2 hr 18 min in : No don't you dare compare Audrey and Mrs Barbour. Audrey would never drug her child or use him for her benefit.

2 hr 20 min in : Poor kid bumps into his mom lol. I found it funny.

On the whole

The movie was nice if you'd read the book beforehand. The first hour was steak, The second hour was Korean BBQ and the rest of the twenty minutes were minced beef. If you get what I mean. Weird analogy. It could have been much better. But it was really very nice in some places. Most places I'd say.

I didn't like how the pop songs ruined the mood of certain moments. I didn't like how you couldn't hear the conversation over the music playing. For example in the engagement party when Platt and Theo talked. Or in the diner scene.

Both Borises killed the accent thing. They tried their best. Cut them some slack.

Oakes deserves an Oscar for holding up this movie on his smol shoulders. I was shook at how a kid could act that well.

Popchik deserved more screen time. I'm still pissed they didn't add the Popchik Boris reunion. But then they couldn't make it chronological, what were we supposed to expect anyway.

Ansel Elgort y'all. Theo sure improved his handwriting lol. Ansel's writing is nice. He was actually good in this movie. Better than he was in The Fault In Our Stars. The internet is just mean. The critics too. I will never understand the hate.

All in all, it could have been a better adaptation but it didn't suck as bad as everyone made it out to be. John Clownery should be punished nonetheless. Special shout-out to Roger Deakins for making it work.

#donna tartt #theo decker #boris pavlikovsky #finn wolfhard #oakes fegley #ansel elgort #aneurin barnard #the goldfinch #boreo

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vicmc624 · 5 years

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Memory lost

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Word count: 6737

summary: reader is attacked outside a bar and loses her memory the boys work to help her recover

warnings: sexual assault, trauma

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Sam and Dean walked into the hospital, Dean had been struggling to breathe since they got the call from the sheriff. You were at a bar when you were attacked, after watching the security footage Dean felt sick to his stomach.

They could see you walking out to your car in the parking lot, when someone came up behind you with what looked like a metal pipe. After watching him hit you in the back of the head, you fell to the ground. They they watched him reach down and grab your leg, dragging you to a van parked in the very back of the lot. You started coming to about halfway there and pulled your leg from his hand. He tried to reach for you again when you punched him hard in the face, the man was stunned but quickly recovered hitting you in the side of the head with the pipe. Dean's hands were clenched in fist and he could taste blood in his mouth from biting his lip so hard. The man was dragging you again and when he reached the van he let go of your leg to open the door. You took the opportunity to stumble up and slam his face into the van as hard as you could. He backhanded you and you fell back down. After a few kicks to the ribs he lifted you and forced you into the van. The boys could no longer see you but now the could see the van rocking back and forth. Dean got up and left the room, feeling in the bile rising in his stomach. Why wasn't he there to protect you. Sam continued to watch, the sheriff fast forwarded the video for about 20 min, then he could see your limp body being shoved naked out of the side of the van before it drove off. The plates were blacked out. You laid there for another 10 min til someone walking by saw you.

As soon as they got to your room the doctor was coming out.

“Are you family members of Ms. y/l/n?” he asked.

“Yes, we are her brothers.” Sam said quickly.

“How is she doc?” Dean asked.

“Well, she is a very brave girl, a fighter for sure. She has 4 broken ribs, her wrist is broken and her nose. What has us worried is the bleeding in her brain. She had 2 different blunt force injuries and we had to drill holes in her skull to relieve the pressure. I have to warn you, we don't know what kind of damage has been done to her brain. We won't know til she wakes up, if she wakes up. She has a chest tube in for her lung that was collapsed. She is stable but not out of the woods. And I'm sorry to inform you, we weren't able to save the baby.”

“Baby?!” Dean asked in shock

“She was only about 5 weeks, she might not have known yet. There was a lot of bleeding and there's a very good chance that she will never be able to have kids. Again I'm very sorry, we did all we could but there was so much damage, the scar tissue is going to make it very difficult for her to carry a baby to full term. You can go in and see her now.”

Dean rushed passed the doctor to open the door but stopped as soon as he saw you. You were hooked up to machines, with tubes everywhere. You looked so bruised and broken, that Dean didn't know if you were going to make it. He heard Sam crying behind him as he slowly made his way to the side of your bed. The boys stayed by your side for weeks, waiting for you to wake up. The tube was taken out of your throat after 2 weeks, the doctor said it was a good sign that you were breathing on your own. They sat by your bed everyday hoping that this would be the day you would finally wake up.

You were desperately trying to open your eyes. You could hear voices close to you, but you didn't know who it was.

“This is all my fault.” Dean said trying to hold back the tears. “It was a stupid fight, I should never have let her leave the motel. What if she never wakes up? How am I suppose to live without her?”

“Don't say that, this is not your fault. And we both know y/n is a fighter. If anyone can make it through this it's her.”

“I didn't know about the baby. How can I miss something so much that I didn't even know existed.”

“I'm so sorry Dean, you and y/n would have made great parents.”

You continue to listen to their conversation, “are they talking about me” you thought.

After a few more days you finally were able to force your eyes open. You felt someone holding your hand. You struggled to turn your head to the side to see who it was. You didn't know the man but your first thought was how handsome he was. Maybe he had the wrong room. How could someone you never met before be sitting by your bed.

Dean looked up at you and gasped, “Sam she's awake! Call the doctor! We are right here y/n, you're going to be fine.”

You felt someone holding your other hand and your turned your head to look, it was another attractive man with tears in his eyes. Who are they you wondered.

“Glad to see you finally awake. I have some questions to ask you, if you don't mind.” the doctor said. “First, do you know your name?”

You stared at him for a second, trying to think, but no matter how hard you tried you couldn't remember. So you just shook your head no.

“Do you know what year it is?”

Again you tried to make your brain focus, trying desperately to remember anything. But no matter how hard you tried you couldn't remember a single detail before hearing the voices next to your bed. You shook your head no again. You could see the green eyed man break down in tears, but you couldn't understand why.

“Ok, I'm gonna tell you a little bit about what happened. You were brought into the hospital several weeks ago with severe injuries, do you remember this at all?”

“No” your voice cracked, your throat hurt so bad. “Could I have some water”

Dean rushed to get you some water right away. He lifted your head and held the cup to your lips. You had never tasted anything better.

“Ok Ms. y/l/n, do you remember your brothers at all.”

Brothers? You looked back and forth between the two men and no matter how hard you tried you couldn't remember ever seeing them before.

“I'm sorry, I don't remember you.” you told them.

“It's possible this is just a side effect from the head trauma. Sometimes it takes a while for the brain to reset. Her memory could come back without warning. But there is also a chance that it won't come back at all. We will just have to wait and see. I'm going to schedule an MRI so we can get a better look at how your brain is healing. A nurse will be in shortly to take you up to radiology.” With that the doctor left you with these two strangers.

“So” you started feeling a little awkward, “You guys are my brothers, are our parents still alive? Will they be coming by to visit?”

Sam and Dean glanced back and forth between each other, not sure what to tell you. Finally Sam spoke up, “No parents, it's just the three of us.”

You could feel tears welling in your eyes, “How did they die?” you weren't sure why you felt so sad about people you don't even remember. Seeing your eyes tearing up Dean broke down. “Sam we should just tell her everything.”

“Dean enough, we don't want to overwhelm her, she just woke up. Lets give her time to adjust before you start telling her about her whole life.”

Days passed, you saw your brothers there everyday but you still couldn't remember anything til one night you had a dream. You could feel someones arms holding you down, you could feel extreme pain between your legs. In the dream you fought, you were kicking and punching but you weren't able to stop the pain. You sat up in your hospital bed screaming. Dean was right there next to you, trying to calm you down.

“Just breath, you are safe now. We are right here. Shhh.” he was rubbing your back to calm you down. After several minutes your breathing slowed down finally.

“What was that? I remember someone hurting me, I remember thinking I had never felt so much pain.”

Dean broke down next to you. “I'm so sorry, we had a fight and you left to go to that bar, if I wasn't such an idiot you never would have left.”

Sam was trying to comfort him while you just stared at the both. Would you ever remember who you were or were you just going to live the rest of your life in the dark. After a few more weeks the doctors cleared you to leave the hospital. The brothers took you with them to their bunker and on the way they told you more about your life. You were a hunter, you killed monsters that preyed on people. They told you that they weren't you brothers. They only told the doctors that so they could see you and stay by your side. You were Sam's best friend and Dean was your boyfriend for over 2 years. They kept trying to get in touch with an angel named Castiel to heal you. They were hoping he could help you get your memory back. They showed you the room that you shared with Dean, but you couldn't let him touch you, you kept thinking of him as your brother and it felt too strange to think about being intimate with him. He moved all his stuff out of your room to make you more comfortable. Weeks went by, and you still couldn't remember anything. You were starting to believe that you would never get back the person you were. They boys told you more about hunting, but they were taking a break to take care of you. You told them that you would be fine on your own. You weren't planning on leaving the bunker and maybe some time alone would take the pressure you felt off for a while. You felt like they were constantly watching you, trying to see any spark of recognition in your eyes. You helped them with research for their next hunt, even though you don't remember how to do it. You wanted to try and do something. You picked up a book from the stack that was sitting in front of Sam.

“What language is this even in? Do I know how to even read this?” you asked.

“Definitely, you are great at Latin.” Sam said with the smile. You were slowly getting more and more comfortable being around them. You could see why Sam was your best friend. He had an energy about him that was hard to ignore. You smiled back at him and opened the book. You leafed through it a while and were surprised to find that you understand everything it said.

“Wait, how can I understand this language I don't remember, but I can't remember anything else?”

“Languages are stored in a different part of the brain.” Sam said.

After a few hours of research, they discovered what they were hunting and started packing to leave.

“Are you sure you'll be ok here by yourself?” Dean asked with a shy smile. You heart was fluttering while you looked at his eyes. You could understand why, he was incredibly hot, but he was also so sweet. You could tell that he still felt guilty for what happened to you. You got the feeling he usually blamed himself when things went wrong. You smiled back at him and told him you were sure. There was plenty of food in the kitchen and you were planning on exploring more, maybe watching something on Netflix, Sam had showed you how to use it again and pointed out some of the shows you had watched together.

“If anything comes back to me I will call you.” you told him. He pulled you in a for a hug and you stiffened at first but gradually relaxed. Something about it felt familiar, and they way he smelled almost felt like a memory that was just out of reach. He pulled back finally and they left. You made your way around the bunker, stopping at the gun range. You don't remember shooting a gun but they told you that you were good at it. You stared at it a while trying to figure out if you remember how to load it. But as soon as you picked it up it was like a reflex. You loaded it, and cocked the gun back quickly before aiming at the target and pulling the trigger. You hit the bullseye every time. You smiled to yourself. Well at least I remember how to do that. You made your way to the kitchen and decided to have a snack. All of a sudden you felt like there was someone behind you. You turned and screamed when you saw a stranger standing in the doorway.

“Y/N? Are you ok? Where are the boys?”

Cas had just showed up to the bunker. He was trapped in a cage by a prince of hell and couldn't get to you. Once he finally broke free he made his way back to the bunker. You told him about what happened and how you couldn't remember anything. Placing his finger on your head you felt some of your aches and pains disappear but you still couldn't remember anything.

A few days went by before Sam and Dean made it home. Cas told them that he healed you but you still couldn't remember.

“Cas what's going on? Why can't she remember us?” Dean asked, you could hear the desperation in his voice.

“I'm sorry Dean, her mind has built a wall to protect her against that night. I think the only way she is going to remember her life is if I help her remember that night.”

“No way, there has to be another way!” Dean yelled.

“I wish there was. I healed her already but only one thing can break that wall down.”

You sat there staring between the three men in front of you. Part of you kept thinking how bad can it be, yet the other part told you it was bad enough your mind created a wall to protect yourself, did you really want to remember?

“Do it Cas, I can't live the rest of my life not remembering who I am.”

With that Cas touched your head again and you saw everything that happened that nigh. Starting with your fight with Dean, over something stupid, he thought you were reckless on a hunt, jumping in front of a vamp to save a girl, you left to the bar to clear your head and decided that you understood the reason Dean was upset. You would be just as mad as him if he had done the same. You remember walking out to the parking lot to make your way back to the hotel, when you felt a pain in your head. You remember waking up and fighting the person dragging you before you were hit again. You remember waking up when if tried to force you into his van and fighting back as hard as you could. You remember the pain in your ribs and struggling to breathe before he forced you into his van. Once inside you remember fighting as hard as your could to keep him off you but you weren't strong enough. You remember feeling him inside you, the pain and the humiliation. You remember hitting him again before he punched you, knocking you out.

You stared screaming and couldn't stop. Cas tried to calm you down, and Dean came up to hug you. You flinched away from him and couldn't breathe. Everyone was trying to calm you down but you couldn't let anyone touch you. Even Sam tried to hug you and you flinched away. You couldn't breathe and you felt like you would never get a full breath again. Then Cas finally touched your head, and you fell unconscious.

“What was that Cas?” Dean asked with tears in his eyes.

“It was worse than I expected. The trauma was so extreme. I believe she just needs time. It may be a while before she heals.”

Dean carried you to your room setting you down and brushing the hair out of your face. In that moment he hated himself even more. Why wasn't he there to protect you.

The next morning you woke up screaming again. Dean rushed in to try and comfort you but you couldn't let him near you. You saw the broken look in his eyes when you flinched away from him again.

“I'm sorry, I know you only want to help. But I only remember bits and pieces of you from that night.”

“I know, I'll leave you alone. Just know I'm here if you need to talk at all.” He turned to leave but you grabbed his hand.

“Could you stay a while and just sit here? I don't want to be alone.”

“Of course sweetheart.” He gave you a small smile before sitting in a chair next to your bed. It was quiet for a while before you finally spoke up.

“Tell me how we met?”

“Well Sam and I were hunting a vamp nest down in Texas, there were more than we expected there to be. I was starting to think that we were going to be overtaken when we heard the sounds of fighting from the kitchen. Some of the vamps trying to attack us left to see what was going on and that gave us the advantage we needed to finish them off. We ran to the kitchen and there you were, 5 vamps on the floor around you, and I remember thinking how hot you looked holding your blade, breathing heavy and covered in vamp blood. We invited you out for a drink to thank you.”

“Eww, there is no way you thought I was hot with vamp blood all over me. That so gross. Did I at least shower before we had that drink?”

“Of course, we were all covered in vamp blood, but trust me. You were hot, you looked like a total bad ass!”

“What happened next?”

“Well since you were hunting alone I asked you to tag along with us. We made a pretty good team taking out the vamp nest. You agreed and started hunting with us.”

“I know that you are my boyfriend but when did we start dating?”

“Hitting me with the good questions, I like it. Well we were hunting together a few months, I had a major crush on you but I was too chicken to make a move. Then one night we were all at the bar and some guy was hitting on you. I knew than I never wanted to see you with someone else. So I just walked across the bar and got between you two. I leaned down and kissed you, you wrapped your arms around my neck and when we finally broke apart you looked up at me and said 'took you long enough'” he chuckled at the retelling.

“That sounds so romantic. I really thought that I would have remembered by now. I keep thinking that there has to be more that I can do. If Cas took down the wall why can't I remember.” You started crying, this time you didn't move away from Dean when he hugged you. He shifted onto the bed and held you while you cried. You eventually fell asleep in his arms. You woke up again still being held by him. To you it felt like home. You kept your eyes closed, breathing in his scent when you had a flash of a memory.

You and Dean were laying together in bed, you were both coming down from your orgasms when he looked down at you. “Y/n, I have never loved anyone the way I love you, I want you to be mine forever”. “Then I'm yours” you leaned up to kiss his lips softly before snuggling back against his chest.

You shot up for a second and Dean looked around the room scared. “Are you ok? What happened?”

“I think I remembered something.”

“What was it.”

“We were laying in bed and you told me that you had never loved anyone the way you love me. You said you wanted me to be yours forever and I told you that I'm all yours. Is that real? Did it really happen?”

“Yes! That was the first time I told you I loved you.” He said with tears in his eyes.

“I can't believe it. I'm starting to remember!!”

You jumped out of bed right away and ran down the hall.

“Sam!!!!”

He jumped up from the table in the library running to you. “What's wrong?”

“Nothing, I remembered something!!”

He picked you up in a tight hug spinning you around. Then you started getting another flash, of Sam hugging and spinning you the same way after you beat Dean at pool.

“Wait! I remember you hugging me like this when I beat Dean! Right?”

“Yes, I was so excited someone finally kicked his ass for a change.”

You couldn't stop smiling. He set you down and you ran back over to Dean for a hug.

“My memory is coming back.” you whispered into his neck.

“I am so happy. Take it one day at a time. Eventually you will be able to remember everything.”

Another couple of weeks, you were still getting spontaneous flashes of memories. You and the boys in a shitty motel eating pizza, chopping off a vampires head, steamy sex in the back seat of the impala, staying up watching movies with Sam, hanging out with Cas in the library. Still nothing from your childhood or your parents. You were starting to think that those would never come back. You asked the boys if they knew how you got into hunting, they knew you were raised into it by you parents. They knew that you lost them both at some point but you had never told them how. One day you were walking down the hallway when you heard Sam and Dean talking.

“You think we should tell her, I mean if she remembers and we didn't tell her she could be upset.” Sam said.

“I will eventually, but she's just starting to come back to us. If she found out I think it will break her. Let's just wait.”

“Tell me what! What are you hiding from me. Did we break up, it that why I was at the bar? Tell me! I refuse to stay here and be lied to!”

Dean lowered his eyes to the ground. You could tell that he didn't want to tell you what they were talking about. You looked to Sam and he was avoiding your eyes too.

“You know what! Screw you both. If you can't even be honest with me I can't stay here!”

You turned to leave with tears streaming down your face. You went to your room and started packing. So what if you barely knew who you were. You weren't going to sit here with people who are lying to you. What could it be about. Maybe they had something to do with that night. Maybe they planned it to get rid of you and they only stayed with you because you survived, they must be waiting for you to remember before they kill you. Panic started rising in your throat. Your mind refused to stop coming up with different things that they could have done that was so bad they had to hide it from you. Dean came in the room and interrupted your packing.

“You cant leave, please. Let's talk. I'll tell you everything.”

He took you hand and led you to the bed. You could see the tears in his eyes, trying to break free and run down his cheeks. You sat there and waiting. When he started, his voice was choked.

“The doctor was telling us about your injuries that first day....he told us....he told...” and then he started sobbing. You were so surprised you didn't know what to do. You reached out and held him while he caught his breath finally. “He told us that you were pregnant when you were attacked. He told us that they couldn't save the baby....you were only 5 weeks along. He also said that there was a lot of damage, and he thinks it would be unlikely for your to get pregnant again.”

You stared at him for a second before you felt yourself scream. “Nooooooooo”. You sank to your knees on the floor sobbing, Dean knelt next to you holding you while you cried. It felt like hours later that he finally rose to his feet reaching down to pick you up. He laid you down on the bed and covered you with the blankets. You cried all night before you finally drifted off to sleep. When you woke up Dean was still there. He was staring at you and you could tell he didn't get any sleep.

“I'm so sorry, I should have told you sooner. I just didn't want to overwhelm you more.”

“Have they found the monster who did this to me?”

“The police said they have a few leads but nothing concrete. The plates were blacked out and the quality of the camera combined with the darkness of the parking lot makes it hard to get a clear view of his face.”

“I want to go back there. I know exactly what his face looks like. I'm going to find him and kill him. He took everything from me. My memories, my baby, and my chance to ever be a mother. I'm leaving today whether you're coming with me or not.”

You got up from the bed and started packing a bag. A hard look had settled in your eyes and Dean knew that nothing would stop you now. He went to go find Sam to tell him that you were going back to where it all happened. Dean didn't know how he would be able to handle being there, much less how you would. An hour later you were all on the road. You sat in the back seat staring out the window. No body knew what to say. You drifted off at some point and felt yourself back there, feeling helpless and humiliated. You jerked awake with a small yelp rising from you throat. They both asked if you were ok but you didn't answer. When you arrived in town you told them you wanted to stay at the same motel. You even got the same room and when you walked in, you got more and more flashes of memories, you remember the hunt and the days leading up to it. You remember the fight with Dean. And you remember leaving to the bar.

“I have to go back to the bar.” you told them.

“Absolutely not! You can't go back there.” Dean said.

“I'm not asking permission.” You went to the bathroom to changed before you were getting ready to walk out of the room.

“Well you sure as hell aren't going alone.” Dean said as he and Sam followed you out.

As soon as you walked into the bar you got more and more flashes of memory. You sat down at the bar and ordered a drink. You remember a guy walking up to you and offering to buy a drink. After you turned him down he put his hand on your thigh. You shoved him back hard causing him to stumbled and fall as you threw some money down. You got up and walked out, it was him. You heard him behind you only a second before you got hit. As you started remembering everything from that night you started having trouble breathing. Dean rushed over to you as soon as he noticed the state you were in. He hugged you close while your breathing slowed. You excused yourself to the bathroom to splash some cold water on your face. When you came back out you saw him. He was just walking into the bar and you froze. You quickly texted Dean and told him and Sam to find a booth and just wait. You were going to draw him out.

You saw the anger in Dean's eyes as he looked at the door seeing the man who hurt you. But he did as you asked and he moved with Sam to a booth nearby. You took a deep breath to collect yourself before heading back to the bar. You ordered a double shot to calm yourself and before long you felt someone sit next to you. You turned to face him and your blood ran cold. You kept your game face on and turned back to your drink. You saw his face the second he recognized you, he kept waiting for you to say something but you just sipped your drink. You could tell he was nervous and he got up to leave quickly. You turned back to him before he could exit his seat, you reached for his arm and said quietly “hey, I was thinking of doing a shot but no one is here to do one with me. You want one? My treat.”

His eyebrows went up and you could tell he thought you didn't recognize him. He sat back down as your ordered two shots. He asked you what you were doing in a bar alone and you told him, “Well I have amnesia, I am here in town trying to jog my memory. I can't even remember my real name so you can call me Jane. That's what I've been going by.”

You could see a smirk on his face that made you sick but you kept your cool. He bought you another shot before asking if your wanted to get out of there. You told him why not, and that this would be your first time that you remember. He followed you out the door and didn't notice when Dean and Sam followed right after. You walked through the parking lot with him til he stopped at his van. That night started to come back in waves making it harder and harder to keep your cool. He opened the door and got in, reaching his hand out to you. You took it and climbed in after him. When he shut the door and turned around, you punched him in the face. He fell to the ground and you continued to punch him. He threw you off him and reached for a lead pipe. You were quicker when you reached for your knife in your back pocket. You stabbed in once in the neck before his hand even gripped the pipe. You stabbed him again in the chest and then the stomach. You stabbed him over and over til Sam and Dean opened the door and pulled you off him. You were drenched in blood when they pulled you out of the van. You had completely shut down. Sam went into the bar to sneak into the office. He erased the security tape while Dean took you back to the motel. He made sure no one was around when he pulled you out of the back seat. He led you into the room and straight to the bathroom. He turned on the shower and helped you get out of your blood soaked clothes. He then guided you into the shower, you still had the same blank expression on your face and you hadn't spoken a word. You just stood there while he cleaned you and washed your hair. Making sure to get ever last trace of blood off you. He dried you off and got you dressed in pajamas before leading you to the bed. You let him lay you down and cover you, but you just laid there. Starring straight ahead and not moving. Sam came in later with food and asked how you were.

“I don't know Sammy, she hasn't spoken or moved. She's just had this blank expression the whole time. I had to shower her, she wouldn't move. When I laid her down she just stayed there. She hasn't moved at all.” You could hear Dean's voice crack. Still I didn't affect you.

“She's probably in shock. Maybe we should call Cas?”

“Let's let her sleep tonight. Tom we will head back to the bunker. Maybe being home will help her. Did you delete the footage?”

“Yep, erased the entire night.”

Dean made his way over to you and took your hand. You didn't move or even acknowledge him. You just closed your eyes and laid there. The next morning you still hadn't moved. Dean helped you sit up and get dressed but that's all you would do. You wouldn't move to drink or eat at all. Dean gave Sam the keys to the Impala to drive you back to the bunker. Dean sat in back holding you. You still hadn't spoken and barely moved. When you finally arrived at the bunker, Dean carried you to your room. A little while later you heard Cas come in. He put his hand to your head for a moment, “you are right, she is still in shock. She has buried herself deep inside her psyche. She is right now in a room holding a baby and smiling. I think being there with him again brought everything back from that night. It seems like she has retreated into herself. Keep talking to her. And just give her time to find her way back on her own.”

Two days later you still hadn't moved. Sam hooked you up to an IV with saline to at least keep you hydrated. They knew the next step would be a feeding tube. Dean couldn't take it anymore.

“Sam get the African Dream root, I need to bring her out. I can't keep waiting.”

Sam knew Dean was right. He didn't want to have to try and insert a feeding tube in you just to keep you alive. He brought the drink in while Dean laid down on the bed next to you. He drank it quickly before waking up in your dream. Upon seeing it he understood why you didn't want to leave. He saw you laying on the floor next you a baby, maybe 3 months old. The baby was starring out you making all sorts of noises and you were looking at it with such love his heart broke. He slowly walked up to you.

“Y/n, I know that it seems easier in here. There's no pain here. And you have our beautiful child. But it's not real. Real is out there. I know you lost a lot, but you still have me. And I can't lose you. I love you and I need you. You make me a better man, and a better hunter. I know that I let you down by not protecting you from that monster. But I swear, I will never let you down again. I know losing our baby hurt you, I know, because it hurt me too. I didn't even know it existed and I was still heart broken when I found out. I can only imagine how you feel. But please....please, I need you to come back to me. I need you. And who cares what the doctors say, I believe in miracles. We can keep trying, we will try as long as you want. I will do everything in my power to give you everything you need in life and so much more. Please wake up and come back to us.”

You turned your head slowly to Dean. The man you loved and you felt all of is love wash over you, healing your pain as it did.

You slowly blinked your eyes open and saw Sam sitting next to your bed. You turned you head and saw Dean blinking next to you. You pulled him towards your bringing his lips to yours. Then you looked over to Sam and reached your hand towards him. He grasped your hand with a tear sliding down his cheek. You saw an IV in your arm and wanted to know what happened but you didn't ask. Because in that moment all you felt was hunger.

“Who's a girl gotta kill to get some food around here?” you asked causing Sam to giggle.

“Anything you want is yours.” Dean said.

“I could really go for a Dean burger right now. Extra bacon.”

Dean smiled and kissed your lips before leaving the room.

“So how are you really?” Sam asked.

“Been better, but I think that I'm finally starting to heal. I remember everything. As soon as I woke up I remembered my entire life. Dean brought me back. And I have never felt so lucky to have him. I know he is going to keep blaming himself, and I'm going to keep telling him it's not his fault. Thank you Sammy, for being here for me.” you glanced up at his teary eyes.

He pulled you in close for a tight hug. “You are the best sister I could ever ask for. I will never let anything happen to you again.”

Dean came back in.. “Who's ready for burgers!”

3 Years Later

You sat in the bathroom with 4 tests face down on the sink. You had been feeling exhausted and sick the last week and you were 2 weeks late. You held your breath as you turned the tests over at the same time. All came up positive. One has a plus, two with 2 lines, and one that just said 5 to 6 weeks pregnant. You couldn't control the sob that came from your throat. You gathered the tests before heading out to find Dean. He was sitting in the library with Sam and he looked up as soon as you walked in. You could see his eyes shift to concern when he saw you were crying.

“What's wrong, are you ok?” he asked.

“I'm fine. But I have to tell you something...” you held up the 4 tests for a second before comprehension filled his eyes.

“Are you serious?!!” Dean all but shouted.

“Care to fill me in?” Sam asked from the other side of the table.

“You're going to be an Uncle!!!!” you screamed.

He shot up from his seat and ran around the table. Picking you up in a tight hug and spinning you around. When he set you down he turned to Dean, tear filling both their eyes. They hugged each other in a bone crushing embrace.

“I'm so happy for you Dean,” he said with his hand still on Dean's shoulder. “I'm free to babysit anytime you need me!”

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The Return- Part Three

Okay y'all so here it is!! Part 3 of the Return series!!! Ivar and reader relationship developmentttttt💕 Hope you guys like itttt :) Lemme know if you guys wanna be tagged too. And don't kill meeeee pleaseee 😂

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Disclaimer: My sucky writing again. Bad grammar and spelling😂 Character death. And bad plot in general.

Your POV

Excitement. Thats all I could say I was feeling at the moment. To finally be back in Kattegat with my family was something I never thought would have happened again. After my father’s grand announcement of my return, the room overflowed with happiness. People were coming up to me, asking me where I had been for the past 6 years and how I had survived. Obviously, I tried to answer everyone’s questions to the best of my ability without giving too much information. For I still didn't know, the true reason as to why I had to leave or who wanted me gone.

The happiness in the hall however did not last very long. Aslaug, the woman who was questioning Bjorn earlier that night. Was actually my father’s wife. “Im sorry? She's your what now?!?!” Aslaug screams of sorrow over my existence could probably be heard all the way in Frankia. My father however, seemed to have very little interest in her reactions at all. He had cast her to the side as if she meant nothing to him. During the course of the next few hours neither my father nor Bjorn left my side. It was as if they thought something would occur to me if I was out of their side for more than a second. “Father, if it is alright with you I would like to go outside for some fresh air.” I tell him, whilst grasping his hand to truly catch his attention. Cupping my face he says “My sweet little girl, you may do anything you please. However, I would prefer that you do not stray too far from here, as I have just gotten you back. And I would not be able to handle losing you again.” With that he gives me a kiss on my forehead and sends me on my way.

However, I can still feel the overbearing presence of my older brother. “Bjorn, you know Im not gonna run away, if thats what you're afraid of.” I tell him whilst stepping outside. “Im not afraid of you running away. Im afraid of something happening to you (y/n). Plus worrying about you is my job, always has been.” Leaning on one of the wooden beams, I cant help but to stare up at the sky and hold my cross between my fingers. Thinking to myself how different life would have been if I had not left. “ Im only a few steps away shout if anything happens. Okay?” “Okay! And Bjorn... I love you.” At that Bjorn kisses my forehead and walks back inside.

Unbeknownst to me, a certain dark haired man was lurking in the shadows. “Awwww, If I had a heart I would think that was probably the sweetest reunion Ive ever seen.” Turning to the sound of that familiar voice, I see Ivar leaning on his crutch making his way towards me. “I never thought that I would have a sister. And a Christian one at that.” The way that his eyes scan over my body makes me feel a certain way that I cannot quite describe. And the way that his features are outlined by the moonlight really gives a sense of how handsome he is. “Wait, are you implying that...”

“Well, if all Christians are as slow as you I don't think we’ll have a problem conquering them.” A smirk is displayed on his face, while his eyes show a hint of deviance in them. “Why do you think that Bjorn and Ubbe look so much alike (y/n)?” “Or the fact that we all share similar traits like our eyes?” As Ivar continues to talk down to me as if I were a child, I start to connect the dots. Why it was that Bjorn and Ubbe look alike. The way that they all seem to share the same traits as my father. The four young men that Bjorn introduced me too, are actually my brothers.

With wide eyes I come to the realization that...“You’re my brother.” “Took you long enough.” At that Ivar seems to crack what looks like a genuine smile. “You know, I always thought that I was the youngest, but now that I'm not...” The genuine smile I had probably imagined was now a devious one. “ Now, baby sister. Why don't you and I go and sit down by those steps down there. And you can tell big brother Ivar, what you've been up to all this time?” Without being able to answer, Ivar grabs my hands and takes me towards the steps. Why do I feel like this night is just getting started...

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Ivar POV

Needless to say all of us were in shock to learn that (y/n) was our sister. Especially Hvitserk, who had not only been enchanted by her beauty, but was already planning how he would take her from Bjorn. I however, knew something was up the minute I saw her in the great hall. She had no scars whatsoever on her body, meaning she wasn't a shield-maiden. And absolutely no callouses on her fingers from when she took the ale, meaning she definitely wasn't a thrall. And Bjorn wouldn't cheat on Torvi, unless he wants his balls cut off. Something intrigued me about her instantly. It was if she had been sent to me by the Gods, her sharp tongue reminded me of mine. The way that she stood up for my mother not even knowing that she had caused Lagertha and Ragnar to break up amazed me. The way she handled herself with grace and dignity was exactly what I wanted. No, what I need for in a wife.

“Ivar, are you okay? You've been staring at me for the past 5 mins without saying a word.” (y/n) places her hand on my knee to draw my attention whilst looking straight into my eyes. “As a matter of fact, Im trying to piece together, how we’re the same age, and we never met before you left.” As she goes to lift her hand from my knee, something instinctively goes over me and I grab her and hold it were it was. The initial shock she and I both had at my actions soon subsided. She let her hand rest under mine. As if we had done this countless times before, our fingers intertwined and they in my eyes fit perfectly. I could see the inner turmoil inside her, on whether these small affectionate moments between us were something that was so wrong, but that felt so right.

It was not just moments ago that I had found out she was indeed my sister. Blood of my blood. But somehow, something in me told me that we were meant to be. I felt safe and strangely loved by this person in front of me, whom I have never met before. “You know Ivar, we lived on a farm. I was 100% certain that I would be a farm girl for the rest of my life. I was content with knowing that I would spend my life tending to the animals and my family. But, this is just too much.” Looking down at where our once intertwined hands were. I see that she is now staring at the ground playing with the ends of her long braided hair. “Why? Because you feel as if you're not good enough? Look at me for Odin’s sake! Im a cripple!” At that moment our eyes connected and I saw a reflection of myself in her. A scared child who was deprived of a normal childhood. Seeking for acceptance and love from anyone.

“(Y/n), come inside father wishes to speak to you.” Bjorn says coming out from the great hall ale in hand. Clearly drunk as well. “Sure thing, I’ll be there in a second.” As she goes to stand up (y/n) turns to me and kisses me on the cheek. “Thank you for the pep talk, big brother.”

I knew that I could not be the only one feeling this way. She had to have been feeling the same about me. And I will go to the ends of the world and face the God’s themselves if they think that for a second I will not make her mine.

Your POV

What had I just done! I kissed him whether it be on the cheek or not. I kissed Ivar. My brother. Oh lord, forgive me for these sinful thoughts are consuming me. The intense feeling I got from us holding hands and from when he stared into my eyes. I had felt at home. Felt safe, felt something that I should only be feeling for the man I should marry. Not my brother! As I enter the great hall, all eyes turn on me. Remembering what I had just talked to Ivar about, I keep my head up. I shouldn't be ashamed, or feel as if I'm less than I am.

As I make my way to my father through the crowd once he spots me his eyes light up immediately. Sitting on his thrown he extends his hand and makes me sit on the throne beside his. “My beautiful daughter are you feeling alright now?” He says to me a little louder as if to make sure that people know not to mess with me. “Y..yes father Im feeling much better.” I murmur to him. At that moment my eyes trail off as if to find something that would take me out of this position right now. I have never been one to be the centre of attention. And as much as I wanna believe in myself that I can be a good princess to my people, at the moment that is not going to happen. As I scan the room my eyes land on Hvitserk. He’s eating a piece of chicken las if it were his last meal ever. I cannot help, but to laugh at him and that when he notices. He flashes a smile that could certainly melt any lady’s heart. Without realizing I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear and bit my lip. Biting my lip when Im nervous is something Ive always done.

However, what did not realize was Ivar eyeing me from behind him. At that I stop and stare at the ground. As the hours go by, finally the last person leaves the great hall. Leaving only my father and brothers with me. “Sooooo, where is (y/n) supposed to sleep, father?” Asks Ubbe. Coming from behind me Hvitserk puts his arm around my shoulders bringing me closer to his body. “She can sleep with me! I don't mind sharing my bed with her.” At this Ivar scoffs. “Of course you wouldn't, you wouldn’t mind sharing your bed with anything that has a pulse.” I tilt my head trying to figure out whatever he means by that. And all that can be heard is the snickering of my father.

“I was thinking that perhaps I could sleep with Bjorn. You know since we used to share a room when we were little...” I say wishing that what I feel most comfortable with could be taken into account. “I don't know about that one baby sis, you'd have to ask Torvi. She defiantly doesn't like sharing thats for sure.” as Ivar says this he smirks at me while taking bite out of his apple. “Who’s Torvi?” “Wait! Bjorn didn't tell you? He's married.”

At that moment a scream was heard throughout the town.

“Oh My God, Mira!!!!” at that moment I shot out of Hvitserk’s arms and ran as fast as I could. How could I have been so stupid that I left my friend by herself in an unknown place. Seeing the people gathered around Bjorn's cabin only made my heart more nervous. Pushing my way past the crowd I make it up the steps in one piece. But what I saw would forever haunt me. There on the floor lied my once best friend and most trusted subject Mira. And on her back was carved the death rune. All I remember is hitting the floor and watching a pair of worried and frantic electric blue eyes.

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