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literalliterature · 4 months

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🎯 🍀 🍩 for the oc thing, and all of them bcus i love your ocs lmao

Hiiiiii Opal sorry for the wait on this!!!

🎯 -What do they do best?

Keet: She would like the answer to be "fighting," because she feels that that is her only real utility, but given that once again she was kicked (temporarily) out of officer training she can't really make that claim yet. She is actually excellent at singing and doing shit like, fucking, memorizing entire epics and learning languages on the fly, but these skills come so naturally to her that she almost doesn't feel like they count.

Yonder: Answered!

Aisling: Connecting with animals. She gravitates toward them, they gravitate toward her, she has a lot of practice reading them and is naturally empathetic toward them. If she only ever had animals (and Cassius) to interact with for the rest of her life, she'd be more than happy. She's also a very good dancer, albeit out of practice and without the stamina she used to have.

Onyx: Oh......probably screaming like an absolute madman to intimidate anyone and anything around them lol.

🍀 What originally inspired the OC?

Keet: So, the current version of Keet is actually not the first one to exist. She was originally created for a different game, specifically using the Dungeon World system, and was not a selkie but a different kind of merfolk shapeshifter at the time--specifically a Scottish creature called a ceasg. Long story short, my GM at the time (hi Gray!) and I made a homebrew race that was effectively immortal, with the caveat that coming back from the dead cost the individual their memories. Everything else rose from there.

Yonder: I'm gonna keep it real with you, at the time I really wanted to make a character based on the song "Rainmaker" by Bruce Springsteen vksdjbdljvbslb. Also, yk, religious trauma and eco-anxiety, as ever.

Aisling: Listen. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002) rocked my shit when I was 8 years old and I have not gotten over it since. I will not elaborate (except in DMs if you want lmao).

Onyx: Another character originally from a Dungeon World oneshot! In DW, druids have powers based on the specific type of biome to which they are connected (a bit like non-revised rangers in D&D), and one of the biome options that you can pick is the Stinking Mire. I interpreted this to be a tar pit, gave them as much fossil theming as my heart desired (a lot), and off I went.

🍩 Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival?

Keet: I'm not sure she has any specific individual that she considers to be like, a personal enemy, with the exception of one of the members of the cult the gang has been fighting. This is because said cult member murdered her friend Alcaeus quite gruesomely and in a way that was pretty traumatic for her. (They Raised Dead on him though he's fine now lmao.) She does have a friendly rivalry with someone back home as well.

Yonder: They are going to rip the Raven Queen a new asshole if it's quite literally the last thing they ever do.

Aisling: I haven't quite fleshed out who this person is yet but one of the wardens in particular.

Onyx: There was a faction of people who betrayed them and framed them for regicide, many of whom were fellow nights whom they trusted or admired previously, and they all had their shit wrecked when Onyx fulfilled their insane vengeance quest.

Thank youuuuuuuuu ily

oc ask meme

#keet #yonder #onyx #a #thegempage #ask meme

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knifefather · 2 years

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ah ur last post about fugo made me go blush so yea and it got me thinking about him teaching his inexperienced fem s/o how to masturbate and pleasure like idk this is self indulgent but i was raised by religious parents so i have heavy religious trauma and shame around embracing sexuality even tho i know it’s a healthy normal thing to do (and it’s good for you too) i just can’t do it and i feel like i’m a freak so just being in his arms and exploring it in a safe and loving way <3 sweet praise and terms of endearment, just appreciating each other in an intimate moment, yk? we both gotta work on our trauma and its effects on our sexuality ( i’m sorry this came out to be vent-ish (?) i didn’t intend to. so i apologize if this made you uncomfortable)

also have a nice day!! ~🐚

also you are so right, the new tumblr icon looks so bad like wtf is it?! ~🐚

First off, I apologize how long this took me to respond to! Thank you for sharing this, it was not too much of a vent at all. I really appreciate getting more personal messages like these. (: One of the best parts of having f/os is being able to explore these kinds of feelings with their help imo.

I could see Fugo having a lot of complicated, shameful feelings towards his sexuality. He wants so badly to have a healthy relationship with sex, but it's a learning process for him. Having your support and listening to your experiences has helped him work through some of his feelings. Fugo finds peace in helping you work through your traumas, though. If anything, being there for you helps him more than it helps you, in a way.

Being intimate with you, gently guiding you through the experience, is therapeutic to him. His touch is so gentle, praise genuine and tender while he teaches you. You have to stop and start several times while trying to touch yourself, but Fugo is right there for you. He talks you down and kisses your ear gently from his place behind you. “It’s okay, hon… I’m here. Just relax." His sweet cadence in your ear sinks you deeper into the pleasure. Everything is okay while you're in his embrace.

#some fugo loving hours :)#also welcome to the anon gang!#it's been a while since ive seen that hehe #pannacotta fugo #jjba #not sfw #cw trauma #cw religious trauma

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swimmingelectron · 8 months

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What would you think if Chloe and Audrey heard rumours about the way they were going to be portrayed in Astruc’s new movie, so they went back to Paris in an unsuccessful attempt to stop the movie from being completed? Then an evilized villain (maybe a wishmaker-like villain or maybe even a villain that's unrelated to the butterfly miraculous) caused Chloe and Zoe to switch bodies somehow, and nobody fully understands what's going on, so Zoe (in Chloe's body) is taken by Audrey back to New York, despite Zoe desperately trying to explain things. But Chloe enters a fugue state (heavily due to trauma caused by the neglect of her parents) and genuinely thinks she's Zoe, and is even able to recall many of the things Zoe did due to being in Zoe's body. The class thinks “Zoe's” change in behavior is due to the psychological effects of method acting, since “Zoe” is playing Chloe in Astruc's new movie, but they gradually convince “Zoe” to let them help her relearn how to be “herself” again. Meanwhile, in New York, Zoe is trying to get back to Paris, but when she gets there, “Zoe” thinks she’s there to try to hurt Marinette.

Eventually, after listening to “Chloe”, Marinette starts to suspect that “Chloe” might be telling the truth, so she decides that she must test “Chloe” and “Zoe”. She fakes being in danger to see how they react. “Zoe” reacts slightly faster than “Chloe”, so Marinette comes to the conclusion that “Chloe” is lying and that “Chloe” has an evil and manipulative plan. Marinette thinks that “Chloe” must have picked up a few tricks from Lila, because she thinks no version of Chloe could possibly react faster than Zoe when it comes to protecting her. So Audrey takes “Zoe” back to New York again to “correct” her after “Zoe” fails to convince anyone of the truth.

10 years later, “Zoe” gets seriously injured after fighting a villain when Ladybug isn’t around, which causes “Zoe” to not have long to live. Then Ladybug accidentally stumbles upon the truth about “Zoe” while trying to help “Zoe” using magical powers. Ladybug decides that the moral thing to do is to switch Chloe and Zoe back to their original bodies. Once Zoe gets her body back, she blames Chloe for her impending death and for leaving her with 10 years of loneliness, while Chloe got off scot-free. When Lila gets defeated, Zoe steals the Butterfly Miraculous to get her hands on Ladybug and Catnoir’s miraculouses, hoping to “make things right”. Zoe gets defeated by the heroes (including Chloe, who has gotten her memories back) and Ladybug manages to cure Zoe’s injuries.

Firstly, i need to watch the whole movie attentively, Secondly, what are you doing in anonymous asks, write a fic!

Third, that's a little out of character for zoe to do at the end, maybe a more fleshed out angst part, but yes! Gorgeous plotline, would kill to read in detail.

Fourth, Scarabella would know when chloe gets a turn at being kitty, i think plagg and pollen would know too, but either they can't tell anyone because of their powers, or maybe that includes chloe or maybe they are kwami and don't care enough to distinguish if chlo is being good enough as a hero.

Btw, yk what would be awesome? If zoe uses the fact that she looks like chloe to sidle up to lila once she figures out who the new hawkmoth is and manipulates her. Then, defeats her without using powers.

It's like a plan in hatching but very, very fast. She knows lila is losing and in the last few months she steps in, weakens lila from the inside, leaks things accidentally like chloe would, (she knows chlo well enough to manipulate her canonically) and then, when lila is on the run from a fight that injures her, she steals the miraculous.

She then finds out that lb intends to switch em back. So she hides the miraculous away and brings it back out after returning to her now weak body.

Lila is in her hands, and zoe has become a greater threat than lila and hawkmoth combined. She is as manipulative and cunning and angry as lila and as desperate as gabriel. (Upping stakes)

(What hurt her so badly that she thought of doing this?what made her begin in the first place?)

She abducts lila and makes it so that the heroes don't realise that the powers changed hands.

Cue epic fight scene featuring lots of scared parisians, held hostage by akumas, fighting the team of heroes one by one.

But here's the thing about zoe. She's not only persistent and capable, but she's also kind to a fault. She will make sure the rejected akumas hound the target victim until they give up. she will direct each of them on how exactly to fight. She will also ensure that right as they're verging on horrible, painful defeat, she will lead the next akuma victim into the fight AND get that one out to safety, release from the akuma that looks for it's next victim.

The final fight actually lasts a whole week due to this. Zoe isn't defeated because she messed up. She is defeated because she is literally dying. It's not a cutesy end with a lovestory. It's grim war fr. Somehow, despite everything with hawkmoth, chat blanc, and lila, lb and team newly realise the importance of safeguarding the akumas.

Because if zoe wasn't a truly good person, the heroes would have had to deal with the ghosts of blood on their hands, and still they'd have barely scraped by, still they would have been unable to take zoe out.

They had still been unable to take zoe out.

When zoe's life is finally saved, they don't put her in jail. They give lila up. Zoe doesn't get to keep the bee miraculous, chlo has earned it. This wasp protects its territory, nooru. The butterfly will be safest and strongest in her hands.

#the miraculous ladybug #mlb #genius ask #op this is god tier #please write it out?#write how YOU think it'll go #chloe bourgeois #zoe lee #ladybug and chat noir #adrinette and ladynoir IS still happening in the bg #best friends to enemies #enemies to teammates

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rafesproactiveprettygirl · 1 year

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these are the guidelines for my blog, all i ask is you respect these rules and we’ll get along great!

• i don’t care what age are to interact with my blog, as long as your respectful and have good intentions i don’t mind chatting!

• there will be absolutely NO form of racism, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, discrimination against any religion, so basically i’m saying be a good person or fuck off

• i probably won’t post much NSFW, as it’s something i’m not used to writing it and writing it makes me physically cringe😭. i’m okay with people my age flirting with me or complimenting me, obviously with my age and generation i’m used to being called mommy, daddy, and stuff so yk jokingly here and there being called mommy wouldn’t effect me or my everyday life but we are all strangers on the internet, i don’t know you and you don’t know me, so let’s not be silly and make careless mistakes please<3 but i don’t mind pet names! i actually find them comforting

• i like to put my opinions out into the world to see who agrees and who disagrees and i also love seeing other hearing opinions, so i don’t mind having conversations and discussing our opinions, but there will be no disrespect and if i don’t feel like discussing the topic anymore i will politely end the conversation, so i expect you to not caring it on. same goes for if you’d wish to end the conversation, just kindly ask me to stop:)

• if you do show any form of hate im not the type to take it lightly, i am very sensitive and will snap back. and i don’t mean criticism, CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is allowed, but just straight up being rude i will not tolerate. i don’t care about how the “real world works/will work” and i don’t care if i’m “a child and don’t know anything about the world”. i plan on being rich and having my own company so it won’t matter anyways🤷

• i don’t care what you believe in, your welcome on my account regardless! just don’t push your beliefs and religion onto people. i personally believe i’m deity’s, crystals, manifestation, tarot readings, etc. but my family is very religious and often push it onto me and won’t allow me to have my own beliefs which is why i’m very strict about not pushing your beliefs into others. unless your the type of satanic that agrees with killing people, because i do not. 😁 i know there are multiple different times of satanism so all satanist are welcome besides the ones that thing it’s okay to kill people. if you enjoy/believe in murder please leave.

• if you’d guys would like share your opinions with each other your more the welcome to do that but if it gets ugly i’ll start deleting your asks, messages, whatever and ask you to take it privately. i don’t want drama on this page, i’ve dealt with enough to last a lifetime😭

• please don’t randomly trauma dump, some topics are sensitive to me and others. i do talk about sensitive topics in my writing but will always put a warning. if you need help please talk to someone <3 if you need something like relationship or friendship or family advice you can message me! but please nothing like telling me your 5 minutes clean or shit like that

i’ll add more if i need! last updated: march, 9th, 2023

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iseulsoda · 3 years

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People I believe to be chaotic academia

Van Gogh

Listen to the man speak:

• I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process

• I would rather die of passion than of boredom

• I feel there's nothing more truly artistic than to love people

(He is my spirit animal and I don't accept any comments about it, it's not arguable)

He painted this:

He looked like this:

JRR Tolkien

• Man came up with The Lord of The Rings during WAR

• And it's ALL a catholic analogy??? He was like "let's invent an entire universe just to yk write my thoughts about my faith (he was a hardcore catholic) and all the traumas of war" instead of just going to therapy?? If this is not chaotic academia I'm done.

• He got beef with Disney bc he already knew they were shady and wouldn't let them make a movie out of TLOTR, he said that he sincerely hated Disney movies

... I recognize his talent, but he has always seemed hopelessly corrupted. Although in most of the 'images' that come from his studies there are admirable or charming passages, the effect of all of them is unpleasant to me. Some have made me nauseous ...

Disney's name is not mentioned in that letter, but it refers to a trickster man who is willing to let the less experienced down, believed to have been in reference to Mary Poppins and the controversy over the PL Travers book adaptation. — Javier Flores for IGN

• Literally invented a language. Literally. Like. For real.

Saint Lawrence

• Guy was grilled alive and said "I'm well done on this side. Turn me over!" and now he's the patron saint of barbecues, cooks, chefs and comedians.

Do you really need any other reason

It is said that Lawrence gave the church’s treasures to the poor and the sick before his arrest

"One of the seven deacons of the city of Rome under Pope Sixtus II who were martyred in the persecution of the Christians that the Roman Emperor Valerian ordered in 258"

And I believe that anyone who has faith is a rebel, so great for him, mostly when being persecuted and discriminated — So Chaotic Academia

I won't stop romanticizing religion freedom? Religion is chaotic academia and you won't ever change my mind

Apparently very smart and sassy but also very kind so

Sherlock Holmes

• ??? Tell me I'm wrong. I dare you.

• Messy af

• and a genius

• I was broken when I was told he didn't exist

How often have I said to you that when you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth?

My name is Sherlock Holmes. It is my business to know what other people do not know >>>>

Education never ends, Watson. It is a series of lessons, with the greatest for the last.

Da Vinci

• the definition of why do one thing

• again, messy af:

• crazy man vibes

• painter, anatomist, architect, paleontologist, artist, botanist, scientist, writer, sculptor, philosopher, engineer, inventor, musician, poet and urban planner

"It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things."

"I have been impressed with the urgency of doing. Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do."

"Just as food eaten without appetite is a tedious nourishment, so does study without zeal damage the memory by not assimilating what it absorbs."

"Poor is the pupil who does not surpass his master."

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johannas-motivational-insults · 3 years

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I recently decided to try something different and asked my neuropsych (who I am soon losing to retirement) to try putting me on some ADHD meds in lieu of my antidepressants (mixing the two would have bad side effects based on the type of meds I was on). My old meds did help with mood and energy but not as much as they originally did and I wanted something to improve my focus and motivation and hopefully my energy levels. And y’all, so far it feels life-changing. I’ve been on these for a week now and holy shit I actually feel like doing stuff? I’m actually having a good time? What is this sorcery?! Suddenly my stack of WIPs looks less daunting and I’m actually excited about writing again, and about life in general again. Idk if the effect will always be this strong - like I said, the antidepressants lost effectiveness over time, but for now I’m gonna enjoy actually having the motivation to get out of bed in the morning and actually do stuff. I feel kinda like how I used to (and with better concentration) before the depression kicked in literally half my life ago. Which is a depressing thought in and of itself but yk...

I’d been resistant to messing with my meds for a long time because I’ve had previous experiences with unwanted side effects and I didn’t want to mess with a mostly functional system and risk falling into a major episode. Despite my thirst for adventure I’ve long been pretty risk-averse due to trauma, but I’m glad I finally tried it. I didn’t know if they would work because I was briefly on Ritalin as a kid and was taken off of it (idk why), but I have neurodiverse friends on similar meds who found it helpful so I tried it anyway.

My point is, there’s no shame in taking meds to make up for something being off in your body. I used to balk at the idea that I could be autistic and had some shame about it, but accepting it allowed me to be happier and to have some compassion for myself, and I guess this was the next step in terms of giving my brain/body what it needs to function optimally. I really do hope the effect lasts and I can really get back to living again.

#the euphoria of finding meds that work #god #psychiatric meds #adhd meds #antidepressants #asd #autism #adhd #personal

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shinsoussimp · 4 years

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all right, you said it’s fine, so here’s another one 🤍 (yes, i’m addicted to your writings so :0 )

mirio? big yes. hurt/comfort with a gay reader? definitely.

so like, the reader used to study in another school, and had been outed and everyone in his class were very mean and rude about that. so now it’s his biggest fear to be outed again, but he really falls in love with mirio after some time. they spend a lot of time together, and get really close. reader doesn’t know mirio likes him back because for him, every person will be mad at (y/n) for liking boys (because of the past trauma yk). and one day someone from their class accidentally activated their “saying truth” quirk on reader and confession to mirio just slips from his lips in front of him and the whole class. and like, after that he runs away in absolute panic, thinking everyone will mock and hate him again. he starts avoiding mirio just not to see him disappointed, when in reality togata just wants to say he likes him back? 🥺 so one day he just catches him and doesn’t let him to run? 🥺 saying he would love to be his boyfriend 👉🏻👈🏻 maybe a bit comforting from classmates yk? sorry it’s so long again 😞🤍

a/n: sephiii you’re requests are always amazing :) i would never say no to you sending one in! i hope you like it!!

a/n: y/h/n= your hero name, also i said parent (they/them) in an effort to be more inclusive, i don’t know people’s family life. if you have any other ideas where i can be more inclusive, please let me know!

TW: homophobia, violence (shoving), blackmail

a/n: requests are open! (p.s. i’m on a mirio kick right now to let everyone know ahaha)

Mirio x homophobia

becoming a hero was always your dream, since you were a little kid. you didn’t want anything standing in the way of that. so when you finally made your way to shiketsu high, you were determined to never let anyone find out about you being gay. but somehow, it still happened.

“yo, y/h/n!” a second year student ran up to you as you were walking to the cafeteria and threw his arm around your shoulder, “can you do a favor for me?~” he always would get you to help him cheat on exams, but at this point, you were tired of breaking the rules.

“dude i can’t keep doing this. i’m not gonna risk getting in trouble so you can get good grades. try studying.” you huff while shaking his arm off you. he moves to stand in front of you to block your path as you try to get to your table, and he gets visibly more and more angry.

“seriously?” he says through clenched teeth. you could tell he was one of those kids who was too used to getting what he wants whenever he wants it, and he doesn’t know how to handle anything different.

“i’m serious. we would’ve been caught some day.” you try to move around him but he grabs your arm and starts pulling you to the middle of the cafeteria.

“fine. then i guess i’m gonna have to tell everyone your little secret.” shit. you had gotten so used to helping him you forgot the reason why you began your little deal in the first place, he knew you were gay. before you could stop him, he had already begun.

“hey, everyone! i have a little announcement that you all would enjoy. y/n over here, y/h/n if you will, is gay.” you weren’t able to cover his mouth without him grabbing your wrists and holding them down by your sides so he could continue talking, “that’s right, he likes dick. do with that what you will~” he shoves you back a bit when he finally lets go of your arms, and waltzes out of the cafeteria like nothing even happened. everyone starts gossiping around you, giving you weird looks as you run off into the bathroom.

once the bell rang and you needed to go to class, you tried to get there early, so you didn’t need to walk in front of a full classroom. you sat in the back today, but that didn’t mean you were invisible. it started with the girls that sat in front of you giggling, then one of the boys that only had your number for a group project sent you an eggplant emoji. but the cherry on top was one of the most well known boys in your class coming up to you and asking, for everyone to hear, if you were trying to suck his dick. luckily the second bell rang and the teacher came in, forcing them all to back off for now, but this lasted for the next week. it lasted up until you couldn’t take it anymore. you stood up and stormed out of the classroom and never returned. you didn’t go to school for the rest of the year. and with you refusing to return to shiketsu high, you thought your dream of being a hero was ruined. but one morning your parent mentioned the idea of applying to ua.

even though you thought you had no chance of getting in, you took a chance. you went to the admissions office, sent in your application, did all the interviews, and now it was time to wait. and now after a long summer, you finally got a letting from ua.

you got in.

not only were you thrilled to be admitted to the best school for heros, you were thrilled that you never had to go back to shiketsu. you could start over, continue your hero journey. and hopefully you would not get in another situation like last time.

your first two months at your new school went great. you were a second year now, and getting to do many new and exciting things with your training. you made great friends and even developed a bit of a crush. this was dangerous territory, since you didn’t want anyone to know about your sexuality, but you couldn’t stop yourself from hanging out with him. the person in question? mirio togata. the cute third year you passed by in the halls and always came in your class to talk about his experience as lemillion. and you got to call him your friend. you two trained together, you hung out with him and the rest of the big three after school, and he always made sure to join you during lunch breaks at school. in such a short period of time, you two became best friends. and you would never risk messing that friendship up.

but then one day, the unthinkable happens. you thought since things had been going so well for so long, you were in the clear. nobody seemed to know, shiketsu kids didn’t snitch, and training was going incredibly. you and a group of second and third years were hanging out in an empty classroom when someone suggested playing truth or dare.

the rules were simple, pick dare and someone picks a dare for you to do, pick truth and you would be hit by your classmate, asami’s quirk. her quirk was called confession. when in effect, you will be compelled to spill one of your deepest secrets. but you seemed to have a bit of a misunderstanding of her quirk. you didn’t get to choose which secret. so little did you know, your fake secret that you ‘once called your teacher mom in 3rd grade’ was not going to be of use.

“you excited?” mirio plopped down next to you happily. you nodded, because you were. you were genuinely excited to have a friend group and play stupid games like this.

after a few rounds, mostly of people picking dare, you wanted to be the one to switch it up. so once mirio finished bawking like a chicken and walking all around the room with his arms bent like wings, you prepared for your turn.

“truth or dare, y/n?”

“truth.” everyone dramatically gasps, then all bursting out into a fit of laughing, talking about how you had some balls to pick truth. asami sat down in front of you and took a deep breath to prepare herself.

“you ready?” she smiles. you nod, letting her hand brush yours. you felt a rush of warmth through your body then suddenly your mouth was moving.

“i’m gay. i’m really fucking gay and i like mirio.” your hand slaps over your mouth, your stomach dropping as your whole body starts shaking. that was not what you wanted to say. but there is no going back now, and you didn’t want to be here when everyone started teasing you. you especially didn’t want to see what mirio had to say about it. you didn’t want to see the disappointment that would surely be on his face. you jump up and race out of the room, ignoring mirio’s pleas for you to stop running.

he was sent to talk in your class that day, but he didn’t see you. you had decided to go home early for the day. would you really have to leave ua? you were beside yourself with anger and sadness, having to leave the best school because of a stupid game spilling your secret. you knew when you returned there would be endless teasing. it was possible that your friend group spilled the beans to the whole school and now even the first years knew. your parent tried to take your feelings into account, but they wanted to remind you of your dream, your biggest passion.

“you want to save people. it doesn’t matter if you’re gay, you can still protect people, that doesn’t stop anything.” you keep your face shoved into the pillow you were hugging close to your chest as they spoke. they took a deep breath and placed a comforting hand on your back, “look worse case scenario, they told everyone, and now people tease you. they’ll probably get over it, and if not, it’s only two more years. then you get to live your dream happily, as yourself.”

their words encouraged you to return to school after about a week. but you still couldn’t face your friend group. especially mirio. so when the lunch bell rang, you left the school building and made your way to the side of it to eat lunch out on a bench by some trees. you figured that mirio or some of your friends saw you, but you prayed that they wouldn’t follow you. sadly those prayers would go unanswered because next thing you know you hear a familiar voice shouting your name. you turn around and see mirio jogging towards you. you turn around and start walking faster in an effort to avoid him, but right as you arrive at the bench you’re stopped by his hand wrapping around your arm.

“would you talk to me?!” he pulls your arm, making you turn around, “you drop a bomb like that and then fall off the face of the earth for a week?!” you sigh and set down your lunch and bag behind you, still not saying anything.

“y/n seriously. what the hell?”

“if you came here to make fun of me, just get it over with.” you finally look up at him, all of your walls up taller than ever before as you prepared to have your heart broken.

“what are you talking about?” his face has confusion written all over it but it has to be fake. he’s trying to trick you into thinking you’re safe then he’ll talk about how stupid you are to all of your other friends that has to be-

“you really think i would make fun of you?” his voice is soft and even in such a high stress moment, still puts butterflies in your belly. but he’s lying.. he has to be. he’s gonna react how everyone else did.

“y/n, i would never.” he takes a step towards you and reaches out his hand, but you slap it away taking another step back.

“i’m not gonna fall for it! you all are gonna react exactly how all those dumbass shiketsu kids did!” tears start streaming down your face and you realize that you’re shaking again. you sit down on the bench behind you and put your face in your hands as uncontrollable sobs kept coming. mirio knelt down in front of you and put his hands on your knees.

“i like you too.” your head shoots up and you look at him with wide eyes.

“w-what?”

“if you hadn’t ran out the day you said it, you would have heard that i like you too. and i didn’t know if you were gay or not but i really wanted to find out.” you relax a bit as your brain tries to comprehend the idea of something like this happening, “they all said that i was a lovestruck idiot... and they were all accepting.” he held your hands in his as you lifted your head so you could look at him.

“they all love you. and they’ve been worried sick, wondering what happened to you. but most of all me. i thought you left the school i-” he pauses to take a deep breath, “i thought i lost you.” his grip on your hands tightens. suddenly the tears streaming down your face were tears of joy, accompanied by a few laughs. he stands up and pulls you up with him, wrapping his arms around you, swallowing you in a warm bear hug.

“i would love to be your boyfriend, if you’re okay with that.” you giggle into his chest and grip onto the back of his shirt.

“i am okay with that.” he pulls his head back a bit to look at you, for a few moments not saying anything just making a smug face at you.

“i was hoping you would be, i mean you are ‘really fucking gay’“ he teases. you smack his chest as you shake your head, laughing. he explains how you should go talk to your friends and explain what happened, then you two could tell them the good news. he even started planning a date as you two made your way back to the school building, while holding hands of course.

you didn’t know it was possible, but you were going to be okay. you were going to be able to be yourself. you couldn’t wait for what the rest of your time at ua would hold.

#mirio togata #mirio x male reader #mirio angst #mirio fic #bnha fic #bnha angst #mha angst #mirio bnha #mirio fluff #bnha fluff

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putseraphinaonthaphone · 3 years

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Adjustment | Group Chat AU

CW// angst, abusive family, CPTSD, trauma survivor reader (it's a weird mix of self indulgence and these four using sex to show their affection and care instead of therapy talks, yk?)

tw// rough sex, orgasm denial, d/s dynamics, anal sex, spanking, recreational drug use, high sex, CGL, sexual age play, group sex, m/m, degradation kink, praise kink, daddy kink, dacryphilia, double penetration, creampie, breeding kink

It shouldn't have surprised any of them, but the first time you threw a fit you were met with shock before the anger.

You were in a shitty mood after a call from home you couldn't dodge, and it threw off the rest of your day. You locked yourself in your dorm and smoked yourself into oblivion- ignoring your phone and the many texts from your boyfriends, and masturbating until it hurt too much to continue. Your clit was sore and throbbing and walking was uncomfortable when you got up to take a shower.

By the time you finished cleaning up there was a violent pounding at your door. You opened the door and Shoto's concerned faced morphed into anger when he was hit with the smell of weed and your blank face.

"Why the fuck weren't you answering the chat? Or my calls?"

"I turned my phone off early this morning. Didn't want to turn it back on." Was all you could manage, turning to finish getting dressed, a flash of annoyance going through you when Sho grabbed your wrist.

"Do you know how fucking worried I was?"

"I don't fucking care Shoto! I didn't want my fucking phone on. I didn't want you people fucking calling me." You were too angry to realize you fucked up, only scoffing in the face of Shoto's complete shock at your rudeness.

You both knew sometimes the haunting effects of your trauma could make you lash out at each other, Dabi too, but you had also all agreed never to take it out on each other.

So even though Sho could see something had obviously triggered you, he couldn't allow this behavior to go unchecked.

"We're not people, you fucking little brat. And if you want to make your punishment for today's little stunt worse then by all means keep running your mouth." You winced as you shifted your weight from one foot too another once the sharpness of Sho's tone finally cut through your bravado.

"What the fuck did you do." It was all but growled at you while he took out his phone, to call the others for you punishment you realized with a gulp. If all four of them were needed to punish you... you must have really fucked up.

"N-nothing.." It was a strange, insidious form of self harm you'd developed in highschool. Usually only realizing what you'd done when it was too late. But masturbating until your clit hurt too much to walk was self harm just like any other form.

"That's fine, we'll get it out of you one way or another." He clenched his jaw but only spoke a few terse words to someone, Dabi you guessed. "Found her. Come pick us up at her dorm. Call the others."

"Get dressed." You almost flinched at the way he barked at you, Shoto was usually soft spoken to the extreme even when he was high. But now he was properly angry at you and you just felt like shit.

You tried to hide the winces and awkward movements to accommodate the new discomfort, and eventually Sho orders you to get on the bed and spread your legs.

When he sees just how engorged your clit is, how you flinch from the barest touches to it, he glares at you with such anger you're truly worried for what your punishment was going to hold.

"I'll carry you to the car. But you're in no way off the hook."

You end up being piggybacked to Dabi's car, and told to lay down and shut up in the backseat while the two men talked in the front seat. Unfortunately for you, Shoto's anger and the chill of Dabi's leather seats sobered you up quickly. Not to mention the bits and pieces of their conversation you overheard.

"Bakugou's fucking pissed. Even Shinsou raised his voice."

"So did I... stubborn as usual."

"The fuck are we gonna do with her?"

"Considering she rubbed her clit literally raw to the point I'm literally concerned, I thought it'd be a perfect time to remind her orgasms are a reward to be earned or taken away depending on her behavior."

"God damnit, that's my job stupid fucking slut." Dabi cursed at you worriedly over his shoulder, and you couldn't stop the way you whimpered in response because your thighs clenched together automatically and now you were paying the price.

Or so you thought.

But even through all the torture they put you through that evening for not coming to them when you had been triggered, and for shutting them out- resulting in them not being there to stop you from hurting yourself, you weren't truly sorry until you were stretched around Bakugou's shaft while Shinsou, Shoto, and Dabi took turns fucking loads into your ass.

They decided that each of them would give you a load for every missed call they sent to your phone.

Bakugou's job was to spank your ass hard enough to make you clench around whichever two dicks were in you at the moment, making you apologize for every missed call and reminding you "We wouldn't fucking call if we didn't care."

You were trembling in his lap, your face buried in his neck as Shoto fucked you relentlessly- happy to take out all his worry and anger on your ass and adding his final load to the mess in your ass.

When Shinsou pressed into you for one last round in your sloppy hole, Dabi and Sho went to either side of Bakugou, sitting beside him so they could see your face as you were fucked as befitted a punishment- hard, with little pleasure that didn't come with more pain.

"Do you know why you need to answer daddy's calls baby?" Shinsou groaned in your ear as he gripped your hips tightly, and when you took too long to gather your scattered thoughts Bakugou was happy to pop your ass. "You were asked a question, brat."

"B-because I belong to you." You answered, more a sob than anything, like Dabi drilled into taught you. At the end of the day that's what he saw the crux of the problem was, you didn't truly think they wanted you to belong to them. And maybe his moody ass was right.

"Yes, and because you belong to me, to all of us, we need to always be able to reach you. Keep you in line, keep you safe even from yourself if we need to. Cause that's what you need, isn't it kitten." This time it wasn't a question and as you finally broke down and cried. Sho's cold hand and Dabi's hot hand each claimed on of your thighs on either side of Bakugou's waist, and Bakugou wrapped his hand around your throat loosely to make sure you kept your eyes on his even through your tears.

Shinsou felt his orgasm approaching as you started to whimper out apologies to all of them, told them you needed them to keep you safe and that you'd be good from now on, because nothing aroused him more than fucking you with the others back into his sweet baby.

When you woke up next, you were sandwiched between Shinsou and Bakugou while Dabi and Sho made out at the foot of the bed.

"You finally awake sleepy head?" Shinsou's soft voice was heard above you, and as you took stock of the fact that you were freshly washed and dressed, you felt grateful for these guys all over again.

"Hurts, daddy.." You admitted quietly, and Bakugou reached to the table closest to the bed and grabbed a cold wash cloth, both him and your daddy holding you open to press the cool cloth to your aching clit. Sho and Dabi paused to watch worriedly, Dabi's piercing blue eyes glaring at you as he growled, "Don't you ever pull that shit again. We can't touch your clit for days now."

"Days?" You pouted but Bakugou just pressed a little too hard and you were whining from the pain. His crimson eyes met yours angrily as well.

"Days. This is a punishment afterall. You're going to remember who you belong to. Who you obey. If we have to drive you insane by fucking you without giving release, then maybe you'll learn your lesson this time."

#dabi x reader #bakugou x reader #shinsou x reader #shoto x reader #dabi x shoto #group chat au #gc au #group chat boys #tw: dubcon #tw: duboius consent #tw: dark content #tw: kink

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autisticlenaluthor · 2 years

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did kara and lena ever get into a fight when they were little? i was wondering because preteens are usually very hotheaded (i imagine kara was) and yk kids get in arguments with their friends. on the other hand, their dynamics were very different to usual friendships – with how they met and how precious both of them knew their time together was. but still, they were kids, and kids can’t always keep their cool so it made me wonder how they would navigate a possible argument yk?

oh they totally would argue

one of lena’s big things is that she hates being treated differently bc she’s sick. if kara were to let her win while playing a game or do something bc she feels bad for her, lena would pick a fight about it. kara would get it but that doesn’t mean she wouldn’t still slip up sometimes.

the type of radiation lena undergoes can also cause mood swings and irritability. she becomes generally more snippy and short tempered when in the hospital because she can’t act that way at home without severe punishment. so a lot of that pent up anger gets taken out on kara and casey because she knows they won’t hurt her for it (it’s not justified but she’s like 12 and most of it is a side effect to the treatment)

i also see lena having a lot of jealousy towards kara because she doesn’t understand why kara’s bio family and her adoptive family have both been loving and kind to her no matter what. she can’t understand why kara deserves a good family and she doesn’t. it’s one of those things she never vocalizes but she spends a lot of time wrestling with her jealousy as a kid.

i think kara on the other hand would get mad at lena for taking certain things for granted. lena is a genius and it’s very obvious given her medical knowledge at such a young age while kara, on the other hand, struggles in school (specifically in science which she used to be great at before her parents died). lena doesn’t have to try when she wants to be good at something and she doesn’t show any indication that she cares about how smart she is. it bothers kara bc she would do anything to be as smart as lena is, and it would definitely lead to some arguments between them

i also see kara getting irked by more petty things. if lena sides with alex over her in one of their sibling squabbles kara would get all “you’re my friend, you’re supposed to be on my side”. it’s not rational but she’s also getting bullied in school and she feels like lena’s the only one she has in her corner. so when lena doesn’t side with her, it feels like a direct attack.

as they reach 12-13 there would be some conflict over kara wanting to do things like play games or watch them shows made for kids their age or younger. lena would always say no because she thinks they’re too old for it, which kara would find annoying because they’re not actually that old. for lena, she’d see it from the perspective of a luthor, where shes never been allowed to be a kid, even when she was very young. she’d eventually snap at kara and say something along the lines of “not all of us get to do fun kiddy things, some people have a reputation to uphold.” it would be a mixture of her own trauma and also things she parrots from her parents and lex.

i don’t think any of their fights would be long lasting just bc like you said, they know their time together is limited. after a day or two they’d both realize whatever they’d been arguing about in the first place was probably pretty stupid.

#sorry this was so long lmao #supercorp #supercorp cancer au

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p-nut-butta · 3 years

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i want to make it expressantly clear that i love and live for a lot of MCD, but as with everything i have my criticisms.

which i will be expressing

because its fun.

anyways, ein time.

right off the bat, i will say that ein was shoehorned into the series, seemingly because jess didnt want to antagonize her husband's self insert character (aaron) and/or her own self insert character (aphmau) which would have been COOL AS HELL to see aaron become the main antagonist with ein as a side antagonist, and i wouldn't have complained if aphmau didnt even end up with anybody at the end because of the trauma of someone she loved being evil.

but this is an ein rant, so lets talk about ein.

like i said, ein was shoehorned into the series and its extremely annoying. i didnt like him from the beginning, and for that i think he should have been a smaller side villian, rather than being the big main villian.

ein's motives are off as hell too, like i get the whole yandere complex thing he's got going on but i dont think thats how it would go down for a genuine yandere (while keeping it somewhat child friendly-), i think the way he would do it would be that he would completely isolate aphmau from everyone through threats and stuff, with slim to no help from others; and then aaron or garroth or maybe even laurance (or all of them) could collectively realize "hey, this guy is trying to isolate aphmau so he's the only one there for her and thats sus asf" and they all correlate and say "hey, ein is trying to isolate aphmau from her friends and thats really fucking weird, we should confront him"- and so they do, and they end up in a fight in the gym (like in the last epsiodes of pdh season 2, but without the other guy there before i can't remember his name right now), and thats also where we can witness garroth's wack ass strength for the first time.

it would be super cool to see ein as a concept in mcd, but as a minor villian. it would be insanely cool to see zane as the main villian still in mcd and ein as one of his pawns like ivy was, but probably earlier in the series.

like he could be one of the new villagers in phoenix drop as a spy for zane, and ask to be a guard in the process so he can get closer to aphmau and therefore learn more.

as a side note: i think aaron would be much better suited half werewolf in the mcd rebirth, but still a descendant from shad (like his mom is a human, his dad is a werewolf dont ask me how it works) and it would explain his lone wolf nature (no pun intended) other than the fact that his villlage was destroyed and yk. he would probably just hide his ears most of the time, and we would only find out he's a werewolf when aphmau gets him to trust her enough.

anyways, in mystreet he could have been done better. I like the whole forever potions thing, but since they're just a remix of the originals i think they should be less potent (like they wont last as long or whatever. and ein as a whole can be revised to be this absolutely infuriated psychopathic man, because of aaron. aaron could be his main target to kill, and he could want to get aphmau under the effect of a forever potion so he could control her to not love aaron anymore, but he makes her stay put and he goes out and faces aaron himself while using aphmau as leverage like "if you kill me, she'll never be able to love you again" all dramatic n shit

anyways, this has been another rant

tl;dr: ein could be better.

#phoenix drop high #aphmau #mystreet #ein aphmau

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nonsamaro · 2 years

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anon:

Hey! Lord this blog is a blast from the past. I used to know your system back in the alloaro server days which was such a long time ago. But anyways, I can empathize with your problem. When I first became host a year and a half ago I was lost because the old host had a lot of things and I didn't want part in any of it. And yk what there was no shame in just leaving that shit in the past. People grow, yk? No one blames you are leaving the label leaving whatever else in the past, if it's not what resonates with you leave it. Trust me trying to live up to old hosts things is... frustrating to say the least. I wish you luck and I'm sending you love

hi, sorry im answerin yer ask like this, but unfortunately smiley faces are still a trigger, but I didn't wanna just ignore the entire message bc of it and my font is blasted on my phone so editin screenshots just get wonky fast

hearin the "alloaro server" be mentioned is honestly funny though. cause I mean. it was supposed to be welcomin to not-ace aros, but it truthfully was just an alloaro server with non sam aros tacked on for "inclusion"... smth which old host has ranted upon many times. and I do have a lot of issues with the idea of empathy/empathizin, although thats probably my gut reaction as a local sociopath tryin to run away from emapths at every corner. anyways

it's not that I want to abandon the blog, or at least not the idea of a queer-focused blog, I just. hate old host with a vengeance, 100% would 1v1 to the death for sport with them if they weren't already gone. and this blog is them. and I know so ppl use the non sam aro label and it existed before they identified with it, but with the flag bein their creation and ultimately helpin the spike in non sam aro's general recognition of at least a thing that exists... it kind of feels like their thing u know? idk. the thing is I'd probably identify as a non sam aro proudly if it weren't for old host's existence, if it werent for the trauma endured by pretendin to be them for months while sufferin with the desire to be myself. but trauma is forbidden to be a reason for why u do or don't identify with a term, right ? (/s but also /insecure idk djdhdhdj)

but honestly. I don't know if this blog's possible deletion would actually effect anything, sadly. even on the queer wiki's theres not even so much as a small link to the original post or any mention of why the flag is the way it is. the flag completely has lost all of its history, and this blog feels like the only thing keepin the flag, one of old host's biggest creations, from bein shred and devoid of it's original meanin and purpose.

how many people know why the colour is blue? how many people know why the flag is "upside down"? do people even know that the flag is "upside down" at all (re: last reblog)? can they even point to the creator despite the fact they literally held (or still hold idk) the url that is just point blank the name of the identity? do they even know why the flag was created? do they know the original terms and conditions of use of the flag before the creator almost disowned the flag because of repeated violation? do they even know what is non sam arophobic if they aren't non sam aro themselves?

like yeah, it's 5 stripes any1 could have done truthfully. but it was never just a flag, it was supposed to be a tool to be able to speak on issues, and flags are one of the most easily recognizable things to become a "valid" identity. and yes, I hate old host, but these things still upset me, whether or not I am non sam aro.

sorry to go off, and I do appreciate the sentiment of your message.... am just in a confusin place atm

#ask #anon #info #idk tags on this blog. its a mess jskdhfjfjf #I am Thinkin #lmao #oh yeah one thing that left me wheezin was someone usin a combo w/ another id non sam aro flag to be the nsa flag #im short handin to nsa now u cannot stop me. but idk like #just small things like that. like if u google nsa flag all that comes up is the original flag. how did they make that mistake?#I head in hands moment.

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red-i-mean-blue · 4 years

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A:TLA romantic ships part 1

yes, no one asked for my opinions, yes I will give them anyway, yes because I have decided making a bunch of meaningless decisions and arguing for them will improve my mental state, yes I watched the show all in one very sleep deprived go and i’m not interested in rewatching it so yes I have absolutely no sources, yes this is a really long grammatical nightmare because I don’ t know how to be succinct and i use way more words than necessary at any opportunity because if my point doesn’ t come across exactly like i intend it will greatly upset me, no I have not yet watched Korra or read the comics because i’m tired now let’s do this.

includes Kataang, Zutara, Jetkara, Jinko, Maiko, Sukka, Taang, Tokka, Toko Ty Lokka, Tyzula, Yukka bc these were on the Avatar wiki ship list, part two will go into gay ships more

from 0 I despise people who ship this immediately to 10 I will read absolutely anything with this, I love it and could draw it for hours on how much I think the relationship would be good and how happy it makes me

Kataang (looks like a comic book sound effect so plus points)

very clearly built up over the series

cute kid crushes also ngl did not know katara was 14 and not older 12 or 13 so didn’t care about age when watching

now I know she’s 14 and he’s 12 it’s a little weird but still

haters say katara was just the avatar’s trophy girl, as if aang didnt kiss the ground she walked on and wouldnt stop telling anyone how amazing she is. Katara was the first face he saw from the new world and they immediately became friends. she was so excited to meet another bender, he clearly is trying to impress her and it is working, he listens to her about bending and offers to take her to the other side of the world to master water, TELL ME at this moment she is not ride or die and she doesn’t even know he’s the avatar, he lets her feel like a kid again, which is a feeling she’s forgotten after years of being a mother to sokka and the children. he literally sweeps her off her feet to save her from the fire nations ship i-. rewatched boy in the iceberg and hoo boy had canon not messed it up, this ship could have been legendary

hard to imagine older them working out what with the whole last airbender, preserve air nomad culture, let’s travel the world bc nomadic lifestyle, what’s marriage i’m a monk without biological family values vs last southern waterbender, preserve southern water tribe culture, I believe in the power of family and am ridiculously dedicated to my tribe, let me go home to my father and tribe shtick, but I don’t care for after the show finishes much except for following the gang fix the world so I don’t really care about the marriage issue

canon was good until that Mess in season 3, WHY did he kiss her after that speech, wish they talked that out properly, wish he learned letting go of her to open the 7th chakra was the only right decision, wish the ending was a little more vague in ships and just left things open but yk whatever

that finale kiss was sweet, they hugged foremost as friends, no blushing, and then got the fuzzies, that moment standing alone? a+ but without any talking about what happened on ember island, a little unsatisfying

overall, fine ship, not my favourite nor do I actively ship it, but I see a kataang moment, i’m like, sweet so I give it a 6

Zutara (apparently fans are zutarians which looks like an alien race, plus points)

latter half of the show had quite a lot of Zutara potential, but idk about Zutara actual

katara was so ready to drop his ass, no way at the start

there is only one dynamic between them in which I can see Zutara working and that is as in the Stalking Zuko by emletish series where katara is so distrusting over zuko she takes to stalking him to make sure he isn’t doing anything to hurt Aang or about to betray them (her) again but he is just such a sweet dork who keeps trying to apologise to her even while she’s apologising to him for being a bitch that she can’t help but start to trust him, i’m a third into the third book in the series not stalking firelord zuko and I am thriving and tbh this is the only situation where I accept zutara, read the series I love it

age gap is weird, I know it’s the same difference between kataang but they made a point of zuko being older in the show also he’s so much taller and I don’t like 16 year old boys with 14 year old girlfriends in real life and so would katara because jet

katara has a bad experience with bad boy sword weilders (jet) but I guess you could see it as the start of her type idk

they are both the moms of the Gaang. sokka is the fun dad.

there is a parallel between their families, with the leader of their people dad, mom who left the picture when they were young, an older brother who is not a prodigy at/can’ t bend their respective element so they become proficient at swords instead, prodigy at bending younger sister with a violent streak. this is why I see zutara as potentially a really close friendship, almost siblings, but not a romance because to me katara is a little too like azula for comfort...

tbh I think a lot of folk shipped it because ooh fire boy and water girl (not the game) that’ s perfect, and bam army of zutarians

overall, kind of weird but ok and good grounds for humour so I give it a 4

Jetkara (bad ship name, why would you like this, minus points)

Jet is bad. yes Katara really liked him, yes he was definitely her first kiss and she would definitely consider him her first boyfriend but they would not define it because it’s easier to manipulate someone when it’s unclear what your relationship is and Jet is bad, with his weird fricking eyebrows and not even real swords those hook swords

Not wasting my time, 2

Jinko (cool name, reminds me of Hong Jinkyung, plus points)

short but so sweet. not the first thing people remember from watching the tales of ba sing se (brb going to rewatch and cry) but really cute, so here’s a running commentary

his first thought was she knew they were fire nation rather than a pretty girl sat in a teashop giving him looks because she had a crush omg

that honest surprise when his uncle suggested she liked her and then she walked up and asked him on a date, adorable

anyone who looked at that god-awful hairstyle and still thought he looked cute has it bad also aww that hair ruffle and the little grab onto his arm

he’s pushing his food around and she’s trying out ice breaker questions and recieving one word responses he has no idea what he’s doing

“she is not my GIRLFRIEND” he’s not over Mai, clearly but he still is trying his best to be a good date even if he’s terrible at making conversation

anyone who sat through that date and the bad lying and the stilted conversation and still thought he was cute has it bad

he is So Bad At Lying he just told the truth very vaguely and then bam travelling circus

jin so knows the two are fire nation, the whole date she just politely ignores the clear lies and doesn’t react to the obvious firebending, what an icon we love jin

honestly I was really expecting the show to reveal that jin knew he was a firebender if not from the start then from the lights but eh I guess she can keep a secret, good for her

HE KISSED HER BACK BEFORE REALISING A RELATIONSHIP COULD NEVER GO WELL AND HE MAY HAVE ANGSTILY STORMED OFF BUT HE ADMITTED IT WAS A NICE TIME TO HIS UNCLE

that being said I can’t see anything more happening but this date but omg imagine fire lord zuko coming back to visit and they become friends I-

overwhelming support for pre-date jin flirting to an oblivious zuko and the date Jinko, 8

Maiko (name would be a good name for a cat idk why)

childhood sweethearts before the banishment i think

she crushed because he saved her hair from getting burnt by tackling her into a fountain? adorable

I love mai she’s so funny but I think not the best match for zuko? he has a lot of trauma to get over and she doesn’t seem like the let all your feelings out and let’s talk about it until you feel better kind of person. it was deeply ingrained in her to keep all of her feelings and emotions strongly hidden because she got what she wanted from her politician parents so long as she was quiet, well-mannered, and perfectly behaved according to avatar wiki so I get why she’s that way, until I was 11 I was that way too all the time, I understand freezing your face so you don’t look afraid or upset or angry and risk annoying adults, but I don’t think that that would fit zuko with his social ineptness

they literally broke up twice but are just assumed back together? she just surprised him and said they were back together and I think he forgot she existed

the deadpan firelady and the fire lord would be hilarious together tho she got the ruthlessness he lacks

post coronation I can see it happening, 6 but under Kataang

Sukka (terrible name lmao)

the cutest, sokka very excitedly says “Suki!! :DDD” every time he sees her

she didn’t give him the time of day until HE changed, incredible

just the best canon ship, the two nonbenders in the Gaang but very clearly shown to be important key members.

suki is sneaky and badass, rivalling zuko for position on the team as the sneaky badass one (they tie and bond over being sneaky and badass)

sokka is a great dad, he is the dad of the Gaang and he clearly loves suki and suki loves him back

sokka ships are ELITE, 9

Taang (a delicious orange drink mix that reminds me of home, nostalgia)

foreshadowing from the swamp where someone aang loved in the future really made me think taang was endgame yk

opposite elements ideology that I guess is what zutarians like also leaves everyone in the gang dating a Gaang member if zutara happens

actually the same age but not much else going for it

best friends, 4 but under Zutara

Tokka (great name of a small pet fight me)

sokka ships are elite, childhood crush turned adult strong friendship

I really like seeing the rough, tough, greatest earthbender in the world have a crush, adorable

sokka is a great friend and his and toph’s canon relationship is so sweet, I wouldn’t change it

toph was fully going to give sokka a kiss on the cheek for saving her life i’m melting

age difference is too weird for a romance he’s like 16 or 17 by the end I think and she’s 12

best friends, 10 as a relationship in the show, 2, but in their 20s after the show... 4 but under Taang

Toko (very forgettable name but both characters have 4 letters so I guess it’s hard to come up with something memorable but every time I read it as Toph because same shape ish so minus points for being annoying)

even weirder age gap than Tokka

not many moments that could be considered romantic?

toph first accepted zuko despite him burning her feet, how she sees, which was big and they resolved problems between them quickly

toph clinging to his arm and asking for a life changing field trip caused him to blush, but I see that as him being like oh someone wants to spend time with me?? she’s hugging me??? what is this

convenient ship for kataangers because the Gaang could be paired off as Kataang, Sukka, Toko

her crush on sokka seemed to go away or calm down when he showed up and she punched him and teased him a lot, her way of bonding

similar strict teaching styles and bonding over secret identities as Blue Spirit and Blind Bandit and parental issues and being the children of important families who made them run away to enjoy not having anything to do with politics and being nobility with impaired vision who have never stepped into a kitchen in their lives and being used to servants and then being on the run

I really see them as siblings with her helping him relax from his duties as fire lord because you already know this boy’s sense of honour is going to make him work tirelessly to fix the world and him helping her relax from the whole i’m not a fragile, weak little blind girl, i’m the greatest earthbender in the world shtick and reminding her she can be both a blind 12 year old girl and the most powerful earthbender in the world, she can accept help without being weak or lesser than anyone, people want to help because they care not that they pity you

best friends 10, relationship in show 1, after show 3

Ty Lokka (I don’t like this name looks like a place but can think of nothing better)

yeah I guess ty lee’s obvious flirting is grounds for a ship but in every interaction he’s involved with someone else and doesn’t seem to like her as a person

do they even interact while on the same side?

friendly aquaintances at best, don’ t understand, 2 but above Jetkara

Tyzula (don’t like this name, like a mineral water?)

canon I don’t care it is canonically a possessive relationship

azula’s only genuine apology goes to ty lee after hurting her feelings

Azula clearly loves ty lee, her betrayal sends her mad

after a lot of therapy for azula and apologies, maybe a healthy relationship could form after the show, 8 above Jinko

Yukka (looks like a childish insult, surely someone could have thought of a better name)

Sokka’s love for Yue stays with him for the rest of his life, she was the first person to die in front of him and he sees the moon as her facing the earth

love this forbidden lovers content, sokka ships stay elite

Sokka and Yue spend as much time together as possible with secret midnight dates flirting (“you wanna do an...activity together?”) Sokka’s reaction to Yue’s engagement shows that he wants to have a serious relationship with her, and also he thinks Hahn is a bad person for Yue, which he is.

Yue dying devastated him and he never falls out of love with Yue. her last words “[she] will always be with him” are true. swamp visions show Yue as one of the most important people in his life like a season or so after he last saw her. he wouldn’t kiss suki in front of the moon, and cries when Yue appears on stage, ignoring Suki. he talks about the moon as if it is directly Princess Yue in that cactus juice scene.

she died in his arms oh my god don’t look i crying, he feels personally responsible and guilty

yue was great even though she was the indigenous or black girl with light hair and eyes character and I wish she could have helped aang in the spirit world

despite her arranged engagement she clearly really likes sokka even though she knows nothing can happen, 9

Kataang, Zutara, Jetkara, Jinko, Maiko, Sukka, Taang, Tokka, Toko, Ty Lokka, Tyzula, Yukka

#kataang #zutara #jinko #maiko #sukka #taang #toko #tokka #tyzula #yukka #my ramblings

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yunsoh · 5 years

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finally watched the new ep and! i loved it!! some thoughts:

- i know some of yall were annoyed that it was a whole episode focused on the yuki fan club going to hana’s house, to which i say: cool it.

- this episode was a necessary break from the heaviness of the past few episodes, and also a good break from the sohma intros. it was both a relief for us, and also tied into hana’s perspective of how much time tohru has been spending with the sohmas!

- it was also necessary in reminding people what the yuki fan club even is. the last time we heard anything meaningful from them was literally in episode 1, maybe episode 6 if you consider their role in the culture festival. they’re not just some weird club of girls to brush off -- the club’s existence is important in yuki’s story, and becomes especially important when machi comes along.

- and on that note: anime-onlys probably forgot that these girls even existed. my boyfriend certainly did (in the beginning when motoko is having her nightmare, he asked me if she was hana. because they both have long dark hair lmao. and i literally couldn’t blame him because! it’s been months since he’s even seen this character!)

- anyways! onto actual episode things

- holy shit those nightmare sequences were so. fucking. good. just absolutely bizarre and perfectly creepy.

- motoko’s stalker photo of yuki? like it’s such a minor thing (pretty sure it’s in the manga too, but yk) but the fact that it’s the main thing we focus on in her bedroom, after both of her nightmare sequences, is so telling.

- i know it’s been mentioned but. the image of “prince yuki” includes white booty shorts and thigh high boots. what even lmfao

- megumi megumi megumi megumi. i love this kid so much. the scene of motoko opening the door, and then slowly closing it again without so much as a reaction from him? so good. and i love the he was the one to deliver the wisdom this ep because 1. tohru needs a break lmao and 2. he really is just? a wise kid? we’ll see it next week in hana’s backstory but he really has always just been Like That.

- actually seeing how megumi is versus hiro, in back to back episodes, is kind of interesting. we don’t see a lot of middle schoolers in this series so it’s just nice to see how two boys of the same(ish?) age kind of handle their maturity. especially since they’ve both experienced some level of trauma (hiro more so, but i would imagine that megumi seeing his dearest older sister bullied relentlessly, to the point of physical harm, had no small effect on him.)

- the comedic timing was on point. a lot of laughs this episode (again, a much-needed break from these past few eps). the yuki fan club girls are really a trip and a half but they delivered.

- that frame of “evil tohru” i’m mghadsfhdf just?? perfect. loved it.

- hana was ofc lovely this episode...... i feel like it’s been a while since we’ve seen her and oh how i’ve missed my goth girl 😔 that shot of her smiling at megumi, thinking about how tohru is her weakness...... love her love her love her

#fruits basket #and those...........are my thoughts #i really enjoyed this episode!! i kept seeing people bash on it and i don't get....why.....#except that they're salty that kyo wasn't in it but like?? chill #it aint all about him #fruits basket spoilers

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howtodisassembleyourdeviant · 4 years

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Once in a Lifetime Ch.2

You didn't say anything further as you gestured for them to follow. Gavin looked like he was about to get up but after glancing at Connor, thought better of it and remained.

"Y/n, what happened?" Connor asked, desperation in his voice. He needed to know. You continued to look down, refusing to look his way. He felt torn, the pain in his heart only getting worse. He needed to know Nines was going to be okay. He wanted to tell you that everything was going to be okay, but he couldn’t do it. He couldn’t do anything. He didn’t even know what was going on. He never felt so powerless, so useless before.

"We'll talk once we're somewhere more private." You sounded like you wanted to be reassuring, but it was too much to ask of you in this state, sounding emotionless. His heart ached.

They entered into what looked like a small office. A desk with a few papers stacked neatly on top along with a datapad, a bookshelf with various medical books lined the shelves, and a few leather chairs. Standing beside the desk was Markus, giving a small sympathetic smile as he nodded to his friend. In the chair behind the desk was Elijah Kamski.

"What the fuck are you doin' here?" Hank asked before even fully entering the room.

"Please, sit down, and we'll explain everything." Kamski spoke in that same condescending voice that Hank came to hate. Still, Hank sat down in one of the seats. Connor looked to you and gestured for you to take the seat, but you acted as if you didn't see him, you stared ahead but you weren't looking at anything. Connor placed his hand on your shoulder, rubbing the back of your neck with his thumb soothingly. You slightly flinched at the contact before relaxing into it. The repetitive motions calming him as well, if only a little.

Once the door was shut, Markus began. "To start with, right now, Nines is in a stable condition." Hank let out a relieved sigh and Connor momentarily felt a weight lift off him, but the look on Markus' face told him there was more. "However, his body was damaged beyond what we can repair right now. In all honesty, I don't know how he even made it here."

He thought he was going to fall over as his legs threatened to give out on him. He gripped your shoulder a little tighter, prompting you to rest your hand on his. He didn’t want to dwell on the the possibilities.

"Several biocomponents were destroyed from the bullets, and because Nines is a unique model with specialized parts, we can't replace them. We tried using similar parts, including parts from one of the destroyed RK800's, but they were incompatible."

"Don't we have the blueprints for his model? Can't we make more?" Connor spoke softly, his voice stained.

"We do, but the blueprints are encrypted, and even if they weren't, we don't have all the materials here to replicate them. It could take anywhere between a couple of weeks to a month or two just to get the necessary materials, and another week to make the parts."

"Was it really that bad?" He whispered.

For the first time since entering the room, you spoke up. You sounded so out of it, it was like listening to a voice recording. He hated that voice. You only used it when you were locked in panic and fear, running on a strange form of autopilot. "He was shot several times in the abdomen, and one of the shots ricocheted throughout his torso. He had a crack in his thirium pump regulator so we put him on a specialized machine that can act as an external thirium pump, and we replaced several thirium lines, but the bullet tore through his ventilation system and his artificial lungs, so he started to overheat. We put him in low power mode and currently have nurses packing ice around him, but he won't last much longer if we don't do something."

"And that is when I received a phone call asking for help," Kamski smiled.

"What the hell can you do? Nines was made after you left Cyberlife." Hank crossed his arms over his chest, not bothering to hide his hatred of the man. "Well, while that is true, I'm still the one who wrote the basis to all androids, and it's my code that they continued to use to encrypt classified files. I also know where to get the needed material and can pull a few strings to get it here faster. I'd say I have a lot to offer."

Connor finally sat down, breathing a resigned sigh as he drew his hand down his face. Kamski wasn’t the type to do anything if he couldn’t get something out of it. "What do you want?" Kamski smiled. "Nothing excessive. I merely request to study Nines and the effects of deviancy in androids. As you said, the RK900 was created after I left and with its advancements, I'd like to see just what Cyberlife was capable of. It might even help with a side project I'm working on."

"That's great and all, but from the sounds of it, Nines can't wait that long," Hank cut in. Markus spoke up this time.

"Well, much like Connor, Nines has the ability to transfer himself between androids."

"Shit, Connor, I didn't know you could do that."

"Yes, though he is restricted to only other RK800 models. The RK900 model was designed to transfer between most models, in the event he needs to go undercover. However, Cyberlife never had the chance to create more RK900 models before the revolution and any android that can operate independently was awakened and sent to New Jericho. As it was deemed unethical to activate YK models without a guardian, there is an overstock available. The plan is to transfer Nines into one of these models until repairs can be done to his original body."

Kamski stood up, holding a microchip. "While in this body, I will have this installed in the YK model. It's going to record how Nines reacts and adapts to a model that is ill equipped to handle the tasks he usually performs, along with his emotional range and stress levels to better understand deviancy. Y/n will also be required to report on any behavior changes. Additional tests will be ran as well, but we can deal with the minor details later."

"Can I get this in English, please?"

"They're going to put Nine's into the body of a child android while y/n and Kamski observe his behavior." Connor ground out. He couldn't believe his ears. His brother wasn't some science experiment! He didn’t deserve to be poked and prodded. If it had been anyone else that agreed to this, Connor would never agree, but it had been you. Things had to be dire for you to agree with such ludicrous demands, but he trusted you wholeheartedly.

"When can we do the transfer?"

"Connor! You're actually agreeing to this?" Hank gave him an incredulous look, voice full of disbelief.

"What choice do I have? You said it yourself, Nines doesn't have long, and the longer we sit here and discuss it, the less time he has. This is the only way to save him."

"I had Simon go down and choose a model close to his appearance. He's going to meet us in the trauma ward." Markus left the room, followed by Kamski and Hank. As you turned to head out, Connor grabbed ahold of your wrist. He stood up and pulled you in. You sagged against him, like a marionette with its strings severed, trembling. He ran his fingers through your hair as he held you. "There was so much blood, and all I could think was how devastated you would be if he died," you whispered into his chest.

"Shh, you saved him. He's going to be ok. We are going to get through this." You continued to avoid looking at him, staring at the ground instead. He cupped your chin and pulled your head up, forcing you to look into his eyes. His eyes held sadness, but also so much understanding and forgiveness, your own scrunched up in pain. You grasped onto the back of his shirt, holding him tightly. The pressure and warmth helped to melt the ice that settled in his chest. We were going to make it through this, somehow.

After a few peaceful moments, he pulled away. Some of the thirium from your clothes stained his shirt. He ignored it for now. Nines was going to be alright. He will not be losing his little brother. You wiped a stray tear from his face he had not known was there. Still, you were shaking even more, the adrenaline that you had been relying on for the past few hours draining away.

"How about, after all this, we order some greasy, not at all healthy for you, pizza, and then take a bath together?" You nodded with a soft smile, suddenly looking much more tired and worn. He laced his hand with yours and headed towards the trauma ward.

#Connor #Connor fanfiction #connor x reader #rk800 #detroit rk900 #reed900 #detroit become human #DBH #gaming

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just-bpd-thoughts · 4 years

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I have a lot of followers on this account and I need to vent my emotions somewhere so like hey y'all

I haven't been super active in a long time bc of life, which is how it goes sometimes yk. But for the past several years, life for me has been dealing with abusers and facing trauma on top of trauma. My biggest abuser has been my mother, and mother's day was yesterday, which is why I'm thinking and feeling so much about this.

She victimized me for years. My entire high school career was ruined because I was too busy being her emotional dumping ground and protector, as well as her punching bag. There were days when I had to miss school to make sure she didn't hurt herself or to make sure my brother didn't kill her. And she often tossed my needs to the side, as I would ask for things I needed and wouldn't receive them for months on end, if at all. She put off making important appointments and phone calls for me. And then she vilified me for not being able to take care of myself properly due to my mental illnesses.

She was constantly belittling me for the negative effects my mental illnesses had on my life, even though she had a lot of the same illnesses and saw a therapist. We did therapy together and she never wanted to work through anything. She only admitted to having done something wrong when we were in therapy. She didn't talk about her emotions or about boundaries, she just did the bare minimum to get us through the appointment.

I didn't even know how bad it really was until I reconnected with a childhood friend and got to know their best friend (who would become my now girlfriend of almost 8 months) after all of my other friends had virtually disappeared from my life because I was so draining to be around anymore because I was a wreck at all times. Until then I didn't know how wrong my mom was and how unnatural and toxic our relationship had become. What my friend and girlfriend got me to see was that my mom and I were entirely codependent, and I was trapped in a cycle of abuse, and I needed to get out. Especially because mere weeks after my girlfriend and I got together, my parents started planning to move six hours away from home. I didn't finally realize that I didn't have to go with them until a week before the move, and up to that point, every day I woke up thinking that soon i was going to be torn from everything and everyone in my life that mattered, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. And I knew that if I had to go through with that, I wasn't going to survive. Either I was going to wind up dying or completely self destructing.

Leaving my mom's home was a fucking FEAT. But my loved ones gave me the means and the courage to do it. She made me help her move, and then brought me back to where I'd be living. I stayed at her new house for a little over two weeks, and she let me bring one of my close friends (in fact, OFFERED to let me bring said friend, it was her idea, and then she treated me like a nuisance later bc my friend came along w us). She treated me like garbage every day. She was always putting me down and being passive aggressive and getting an attitude with me, for no reason. She started pointless and petty arguments in front of my friend and verbally abused me the whole way through with zero fucking remorse. The day before she took me back, she got into two fights with me, the first one in a goddamn IHOP bc she said I "might as well be an atheist" simply because I'm not a Christian and I told her that it hurt my feelings to hear her say that because she knew I had a religion, and she lost her MIND, because how DARE I tell her she did something wrong? And the second was me crying to her and begging her to stop bullying me all the time and to just be my mom, which she didn't listen to at all and instead screamed at me for an hour or so about how rotten I was for wanting to leave

This was at the end of November and the beginning of December. She left me in the town I live on December 4th. Since then, she has started COUNTLESS disputes with me over social media for no reason. She has threatened me and blackmailed me, saying she'd come get me, which she can do because she convinced me to let her get legal guardianship over my person when I turned 18, telling me it was "in my best interest" and "for my health and well being". She has stolen money from me and conned me out of money when she has more than she needs and I'm living off of social security. She has publicly abused me on my Facebook page for my friends and other loved ones to see, talking to those who came to my defense like they were less than human to her, throwing slurs at my queer friends. Talking to me like I was garbage while people watched and then praising herself for being so good to me. This has further hindered my quality of life as well as my education.

She bounces between that sort of behavior and telling me about her art projects and how much she misses me. The past few days she's been nice, when last weekend, she was a terror. This past Friday my therapist told me I don't have to make any decisions yet about whether I should - or even want to - have my mom in my life. But today she finally sent me a friend request on Facebook again, after not having me on social media for awhile because of the aforementioned arguing. So before I accepted it I told her that my boundary is that she can't start fights with me over the shit I post because I will post what I want on my Facebook and none of it is ever meant to have a go at her. She simply said "understood love you" and that was that.

Then I was scrolling through her Facebook a little bit ago, and she had shared something. It was a shoddy list of the defining characteristics of a narcissist. And she captioned it with something that alluded to me being a narcissist and not even realizing it, without using my name (but of course she misgendered me on purpose). And that just fucking BITES. More than I can even say.

She's mean to me so often. She's so abysmally nasty to me. She treats me like dirt and I'm still so nice to her all the time and she still acts like I'm the bad guy. Like I'm not her fucking KID. Like she didn't and doesn't hold a position of power over me. Like it's even possible for her to be victimized by me. And then she tells me that I play the victim so much that I can't see the error of my ways ?!?!!?!??

When she was still arguing with my Facebook friends some months ago, she posted something in a comment thread while responding to my girlfriend's dad (who was standing up for me). She told him that I was going to tell him to lay off of her because, ever since my dad passed, I would "do anything" to keep her in my life. So she admitted that she knows she holds power over me emotionally and that she can and will use that to her advantage any and every time she feels she needs to. Publicly.

And now she's still acting like I'm a narcissist and a manipulator ???

Tl;dr moms ain't shit

#bpd thoughts #abuse tw #ptsd #trauma #vent

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