#like surely I am the only one to whom what I just said doesn't apply

[wittyandcharming]

Man I really cannot write for shit anymore.

#it’s just so BAD #Actually hi I'm back to go off some more in the tags I JUST #LIKE #I get that it's a skill you hone and momentum is a thing #I get that #but also hoollly shit I got so bad at this #like surely I am the only one to whom what I just said doesn't apply #and I'm just really stupid and somehow got stupider? #idk like my brain tries to think of words and the bitch is like but I am le tired #no joke I get TIRED trying to FORM SENTENCES in my BRAIN #what the FUCK is that about?? #Like I USED to be able to do this can you become IRREPARABLY WORSE at a skill?? #I'M FINE IT'S FINE

[androgynousblackbox]

I looked into the video James Somerton talks about his HP merch in and made some screenshots. He's not full on bawling per say, but it's sure something. (An Over-Emotional Look at Why JK Rowling is Bad)

Screenshots: https://imgur.com/a/UwFPhZ7

He waxes quite long how for some kids HP was essentially a safe space from the real world, the characters were their friends and family and so on. The books are the fans' property now, she might legally own it but the brand is nothing without the fans, Hogwarts is home for an entire generation yadda yadda. You'd have to see the smug head shake when saying "I'm not letting her have the power to take it away from me", wow. Just wow.

Coincidentally, here's a 2 HOUR LONG video by the youtuber Shaun calling out just some of the weird and highly problematic shit in HP books: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1iaJWSwUZs

Jesus fucking christ, what a terrible ass fucking video from a terrible ass person.

slow clap

Truly, how brave of Serial Plagiarist Somerton to decide that he, as a cis binary man, can wear his HP backpack without feeling like he is contributing and supporting TERF ideology. And how absolutely nice of him to not make a single fucking mention during this one hour jerk fest of "I am good, uwuw, believe me, I am good!" of how to actually support trans people.

A big chunk on the video relies on the assumption that Serial Plagiarist is NOT bad, okay? He is not a bigot, okay? He said so. He has trans friends to whom he wouldn't talk about Joanne Karen so OBVIOUSLY he couldn't have any hidden bias or blind spots. Forget the fact about how he denied that Rowling "did anything explicitely racist" at the start. He met his first black person at 16 so that means he is not a bigot. But as soon he tries to convince me of that, he does share the opinion that the phrase "people who menstruate" sounds "off", that it's "deshumanizing" (he ommited explain how me, a person who menstruate, against my will I might add, should care about what a cis man's opinion about a completely accurate description that is relevant to menstrual related health) so OF COURSE he understands why people had a problem with it. It's very fucking understandable. Nevermind the amount of trans people who were already calling that already or the mountains of afab people who defended the terminology as being inclusive and fine. Serial Plagiarist is not a bigot because he said so. That is the only thing you need to remember.

Strike one.

Serial Plagiarist of Queer Authors didn't talked either about the pen name of J. Karen is the name of a conversion therapy supporter, even though in Twitter trans people and actual allies who listen to us always point that out.

Strike two.

At some point he says that the fanfiction communities exploded only after the books were finished. I was on HP fanfiction communities at 14 before the fifth book came out and it was the largest fandom at the time. I am talking about the hispanic fandom so the english one must have been huge too. How does he have the confidence of just saying such blatantly wrong information, I have no clue.

Like, he says "we were loving, kind, accepting people… that is why we had to defend J. Karen" like… he actually is making the argument that he is a good person at heart and he had no agency, no responsability, no autonomy at all and no bias anywhere when he decided to defend J. Karen and ignore criticism until it was too late. It's giving Shane Dawson pushing for his shitty "I am such an empath uwuw" whenever people would call him out on blackface or whatever shitty unfunny joke he made. "I am a good person, therefore, if I did anything wrong it was a mistake and that doesn't reflect my values or who I am", like fuck it does.

That phrase "I won't let her take that power away from me" appears before on the video refering to trans people having HP related tattooes to spite Rowling. So he took this sentiment from trans people and decided to apply it to himself… a white cis binary guy, and he thought he was doing fucking something.

I swear I almost lose my fucking mind when this piece of shit really bring out syrian refugees grabbing HP books with them and being all "is it really fair to ask them to give that up?". The same man who literally groaned and complained about how he can't guy a fucking lego set has no fucking business in hell comparing his need for scapism with these people. He had no fucking business to pretend like he has the same power of reclamation that trans people have. He had no fucking business doing this whole fucking charade of "I am not letting her take that power away from me uwu" when he never, EVER, was the most affected person on any of this and NEVER had any power taken away from him. While he was playing the smallest violin for himself from the inside of his ass, he barely even touched on the real life impact that J. Karen had on making the lives of trans people actively worse. He didn't say anything about how laws are inspired by her or how hateful and violent people she had little tea parties with. It's like he thinks all she did was some offensive tweets, a bad books, a manifesto and done. That no further impact and didn't harm anyone.

He wants to play the victim on all of this so fucking hard and it's embarassing. This is giving me Sarah Z bringing up the fucking Turner Diaries to talk about problematic fanfiction. It's the exact level of otherwordly lack of self awareness. No fucking wonder they are best buddies.

#james somerton sucks

[rubiatinctorum]

listening to the 2006 taylor swift homophobic CD for the meme. thoughts:

the first three songs are BAD. they're bad.

insert picture to burn homophobia here. "shade never made anybody less gay" but she sure tried in 2006 to prove the difference

DREW DON'T CAARE

a place in this world is on thin ice bc my friend says it could apply to a book i really like. its fine. it's nothing to call home about but it's fine

why is cold as you quieter than all of the other songs so far. did anyone look at the mixing for this CD before putting it on the market. shame bc its the best song so far but maybe thats the nostalgia talking

with a debut album like this who needs a flop era

whatever this sixth song is sounds like it would be fun to sing while drunk with friends, just because of those notes in the chorus that flick upwards. also very cheesy. dear god this album is so cheesy please stop im lactose intolerant

am i halfway through this already

ooh a duet? with whom? probably one of those Country Music Television lads from back in the day no?

this song isn't bad. i forget which one we're on. it's not bad. tim mcgraw set my expectations really low you see

there's this next song (stay beautiful?) that the verses are sooooooo bad but the chorus is fun. taylor could write chorus melodies only in this era i think. nothing else is good but by god those choruses sound a bit fun that it kinda rots my hater soul a bit

good evening rubia. you said you own the homophobic edition of the taylor swift 2006 cd. before you you will find 45 free minutes and a CD player, if you bop in your seat a bit and admit some of these songs sound fun, a mallet will come down on your head blasting your brains to bits immediately. listen wisely

do i hear a fiddle? the fiddler is carrying this

OH i recognise this what the fuck is it. i remember this what's the name??? should've said no? the chorus is the best part once again, the verses are hard to get through. 6/10 it's listenable and she doesn't bitch about gay people in this one (i think i'm not reading the lyrics to this)

i'm starting to regret deciding to listen to this whole CD.

I'll never sin again please make it stop

I need to stop being sober

THE BEGINNING OF MARY'S SONG IS . I DON'T LIKE THAT!

they use this CD to brainwash people into becoming conservatives but it's not going to work on me it's not

"Yeah rubia like your politics were any better than this in 2006." they were actually. i was a six year old but i was a six year old with standards

i could turn this off at any time and delete this post draft and no one would know. there's still time to save myself

oh thank god the fiddler is back. OUR SONG!?!? not the worst song, not the best. nostalgia is assisting me through this one. at least it's kinda fun. at least she's having fun. see i can be a joyful person

never mind the bridge in this one is kinda weak. hey at least it's also short

i survived this CD. don't ever make me do this ever again

#rubia speaks #taylor swift CD (homophobic edition) #music review #stans don't hate me im taking the piss is all i'm doing

[mmriesoftvat]

" ... what if... " He begins observing Kazuha intently, as he always does. He's never met someone who feels so... oddly SIMILAR to him in ways he cannot describe. Kazuha appreciates nature, THRIVES in it, just like he does. He is artistic, well articulated, and a brilliant conversationalist, to the point Albedo knows there will never be awkward pockets of silence between them, or forced discussions. Everything comes naturally between them, and he cannot deny that there's... a pull. A connection.

Yet...

" ... what if... that which is out of reach is better left out of reach? " He knows he isn't being fair, speaking in such a roundabout way, but there is MUCH Kazuha does not know that Albedo fears telling him. That he has let the ronin get this close was a mistake, in and of itself, because despite how much he STRUGGLES with emotions and feelings... even he knows there comes a point of no return eventually.

They're tiptoeing dangerously CLOSE to that point.

" ... nevermind. My thoughts can be... irritatingly and needlessly complex a lot of the time. I may be... overthinking it. " // it's about time Albedo and Kazuha had a talk, tbh.

Kazuha dimly recalls a long forgotten tale, something about a tin soldier and a ballerina. While he can't remember all the details of that story, he remembers a fire and a heart within the ashes. Kazuha doesn't want to go up in flames only to be left with a broken heart. It's an outcome that's certainly sure to happen if neither of them actually address this -- though Kazuha really doesn't want to. It's complicated and already difficult to bring up, to be direct feels very much like a confrontation.

Confrontation is such an ugly word, too. It feels too final, too set in stone and closes a lot of doors that Kazuha would rather stay open. But then again, wouldn't both of them be able to just move on after that? The ache would sting, but it'd be final. It'd also be the very last option Kazuha wants to take.

It's not like Albedo is directly saying no. Kazuha knows, or at least is sure of, Albedo's meaning. What is unclear is the reason why. Kazuha wants something, and Albedo is more hesitant. The why being a mystery feels Kazuha with some vague terror, like something is incredibly out of reach and so wrong. He is just a wandering ronin, he isn't interested in wars or politics or whatever cosmic horrors may come. Those concepts have always been beyond his understanding. Those cosmic themes had taken the life of someone he cared very much about, over some uncomfortable 'eternity'.

So why is Albedo's phrasing bringing about that same faint dread? Kazuha tries to shake it off. Albedo is very much human like him. They're friends at the very least, and both have brilliant minds. If there's anything more serious to discuss, it can wait until they have this conversation first. Albedo's words have to mean just that: that maybe he can't give Kazuha want he desires. Or is very resistant to the idea for personal reasons.

"Your thoughts are fine," Kazuha says, daring to take a step closer. "I have no problem with the way you apply logic and reason to everything." It's part of why Kazuha adores the other man. "I am simply..." he trails off, lifting a hand before letting it drop back to his side. "...another man with yearning in his heart."

He'd said it. He'd said it directly, without trying to hide it behind whimsical poetry and riddles. He could have likened the situation to leaves again, considering he's still holding one, but his word choice felt appropriate.

"I do not wish to put you out," he continues, glancing downward. The leaf is placed back into his pocket. No doubt it will be crushed with the slightest amount of pressure, but he's used to gathering more leaves along the way. It's not like he keeps them for long, anyway. "I want to be selfish sometimes, and announce what and whom I desire. Is that a horrible feeling?"

#( ANSWERED. ) #tenebriism #; albedo #( SELF | KAZUHA. ) #( IC. ) #kazuha vc: can i kiss him yet

[transgirlhoshizorarin]

No, This Isn't About You

The person mainly referenced here will not see this.

Being someone whose only real interaction is with other people in twitch chat, and sometimes with housemates, and occasionally one or two other people on discord, makes life a little lonely sometimes. The vast majority of these interactions are very surface-level, as there are obvious things not to touch on in a public forum like twitch chat or even in #general in a discord server. You only really get those in private messages. But the number of private messages I get these days on average has gone down to maybe 1 per day if I'm lucky.

And I still cherish them so.

I was considering confessing my feelings to them, but at this point we hardly ever talk. Maybe a meme here or there. But every time I share something I really find interesting, or a new song I'm digging, silence.

And yes, I know what it's like to be on the other side. Some people I don't really vibe with sending messages and I wish they'd stop and let me breathe for a bit, or hope we'd get a dinner together first before we even start considering rubbing bodies together. That last statement was obviously metaphorical, but apply it as you see fit and it makes sense, maybe.

Being on both sides this late in my life finally hits home how bad relationships get when there's such a big imbalance when it comes to what one feels about the other.

Of course, our first meetings were very rough. I called them toxic in a game of overwatch while they streamed. I'm sure they hovered their cursor over the block button for a bit. And I know I could feel that sense of "buyer's remorse" coming from them every time I got to do something for myself on their time - playing a song for them on their rhythm game account, playing a song in their car while they drove, being the one to suggest an anime to watch together instead of always being on the receiving end.

It's clear they're not into me. But what do I love about them? Their interests aren't exactly aligned with mine, but I get no less than satisfaction to see them happy and talk about their newest interests and obsessions, getting to experience that new anime series or TV show together, or watching a movie together and sharing in those moments. And I know they don't feel that same thing toward me, for the reasons I said in the last paragraph. My music has too much screaming. Not enough boys in my anime. They're not the one in control at that moment.

And I know they have their own friends and are much closer to them now than I ever have been or will be. They have more people who share more of their interests and can actually hold their attention.

The people who have shared in my interests eventually grow bored of me and leave, even if there's no romantic feelings involved. As bad as it sounds and as borderline/BPD or mentally ill or socially unacceptable it might be to say it, "they all leave eventually."

That's the inconvenience of having so few acquaintances.

And even fewer friends.

Maybe I'm really THAT boring to the people with whom I want to share my experiences.

I've even been called "the one who doesn't want to do anything," and while that might be true to an extent, I don't want to be alone. Just doing my own thing while someone else does their own thing, but doing our own things together is what I want. And occasionally sharing things with each other. Or someone who has the energy and patience to pull me away from the things that make me look like I "don't want to do anything."

It also helps to be attractive, but lord knows it's annoying to deal with people who are attracted to you for your body or the things you can do with it. I streamed on a certain website once and the comments people left in the chat were enough to turn me off of doing it again. Never again.

Am I really that annoying to the people around me? Nobody I PM or DM anymore actually responds to me.

My housemate and friend of almost 10 years was supposed to go to a concert with me in June, but they moved out and away a few months prior, and since then have ceased all contact with me except for packages that showed up on the front door. I gave them the tickets and they didn't claim them or even say anything about them. I'll send a message to another friend about something, and won't get a response until later, if I even do get a response. Or they'll simply ask me a question or send me something completely unrelated as if they never received the message in the first place. And occasionally they'll invite me to things, but I think it's because they'll feel bad if they don't do it.

Yeah.

If I die, it literally wouldn't affect anything. If anything, it's a net positive.

Just need to start planning again.

#personal #don't read this

[lilisouless]

No one

Not a single soul

Me in the shower : But by making Jesper mess up with the coal and Kaz being way nicer and just letting go the incident without minding it, they are messing up the dynamic.Sure, they let Jes have his momment shooting the volkra but is also harming the future of his character by implying Jesper mess ups a lot when he later says to Kaz he has "done it right" many times. By the time the show catches up with the book dynamic and the fight scene , the show by making Jesper a little bit messier and Kaz not the jerk he is in the book; you are kind of telling the audience (even accidentally) that Jesper actually deserves the way Kaz treats him,despite being pointed out by Inej that as much as Jesper needs to be responsible for his mistakes he DOES deserves to be treated better than Kaz.

Yes, right now it seems like Kaz and Jesper´s friendship is better (and while it is) but by the future seasons when we get the previously said fight, instead of a more equal ground where Kaz is a jerk who projects his own trauma for Jordie over Jesper while Jesper is a troubled guy who let his impulsiveness and vices get the best of him,like in the book. If the show continues with this dynamic the result will be more on Kaz is favor, with Jesper as the guy who allways messes up and Kaz as the saint and patient friend who got fed up.

There is nothing wrong with characters being nicer in adaptations than they were in the source material .Hell this same show is a proof of that with Alina,Mal,Marie and Nadia ,since them being jerks was not really something needed and nothing really came from that.

Kaz on the other hand,while Inej is certainly the group´s heart , is probably the most important out of the crows in terms of character relationships since he has a say in all the crows character develoment,ex : Nina begining to see things in a less black and white view ,Wylan imitates his "focus" and takes at heart his advice about his shame ,and maybe i am overeaching but i am sure Kaz trusting that Matthias would choose Nina and them over Jarl Brum helped him.

I put those three examples first because none of those rely on Kaz being a jerk ,but Inej and Jesper do: Inej eventually understanding the reason why he is so cold and unfriendly and acepting he does love her but it´s hard for him to heal ,and i already mentioned Jesper whom his arc can be resumed in learning to make better choices, and one of them is beging to standing up to himself in front of Kaz who ,in his eyes, always took him for granted. What i said for Jesper also applies to Inej, if we have her saying how she genuilly believes Kaz only sees her as an investment after Show!Kaz already told her he needs her, she may come out as unrealistically oblivious who is only denying her feelings for the sake of drama,something that doesn't apply to Inej.

And i am not saying Jesper or Inej are doomed already, like i said; this is what may happen if the show catches on with the SoC plotlines and keeps portraying Kaz as they have until now. This can be solved in two ways

-You either change the context and relationship dynamics from the book

-Or, my own personal sugestion, get rid of Soft!Kaz. He is fine for fanfiction, for POST CK works but making him nice so early (before even the SoC events) may make him more likeable to the general audience but eventually it will come at the expense of both Inej and Jesper.

So, this is my case against nice!Kaz , i acept counterpoints if someone doesn't agree

#six of crows #kaz brekker #jesper fahey #inej ghafa #netflix shadow and bone #leigh bardugo #crooked kingdom #kanej #sab netflix #shadow and bone netflix #netflix sab #freddy carter #amita suman #kit young

[asavt]

Another cookie squad Headcanons

Featuring Sparkling, Vampire, cellphones and the Espresso and Madeleine Story of how they came together. Consider it an AU now baby!

-As a note, when I say the squad I'm mostly referring to the adults, so no worries about Walnut or Creampuff useless I mention them too

-Each one of the squad has been in Sparkling's bar at last once. There's no need to say who has been there the most. Sparkling has a time every time someone besides Roguefort comes, because to him it's mostly like "Oh I'll finally know the continuation to the burnt toast accident or maybe the cat catastrophe? Maybe a new POV of the--"

He practically knows a lot of what happens in between the squad.

-As another note, Sparkling's bar is called Milabo (You know, like the song from Zutomayo of the same name, which, btw, I relate a lot to Latte)

-*A great part of this “AU” is kind of inspired by the song. Part of its lyrics and vibe.

-Vampire is there most of the time when the squad visits the bar (it's almost as if he never leaves the bar and this is definitely not me low-key putting sparkvamp in this oh no--) Sometimes the fakes his sleep to listen to the things others say (Which is how he knows most of Rogue's pan-ic).

-Walnut has been in Sparkling's bar too, but at day and for case-solving purposes only. Sparkling will give her some alcohol-free drink for free sometimes (mostly because he gets along pretty well with the nut family and because Almond usually pays him whatever he serves her).

-If the squad had cellphones (and probably an app like discord because.), their group chat would initially be called "Coffee mage appreciation group" and then be changed to "Coffee bean appreciation group"

Coffee Bean: Can we please change the group name and mine?

Guided by the Devine: No <3

Coffee Bean: Fuck you.

-*And they all would dedicate half their time to make fun of Almond but with love.

-Espresso has been mistaken for a dark mage before by Almond. It was how they meet actually. Almond had pulled him to interrogate him and got a long lecture on the differences between black magic and coffee magic.

-Madeleine gets along rather well with Roguefort. Rogue seems impressed by Maddie’s acting skills.

-Madeleine is currently living with Espresso. Out of his armor most of the time. He usually takes care of keeping the house clean and preparing meals (He never really had to cook before but the first dish he made wasn’t bad at all). Sometimes he will tag along Almond in the detective’s work, or Almond will ask for his help.

-I’m still unsure if I want the Almond/Roguefort/Latte to be romantic or platonic. But honestly? Both are good. Latte is pretty close to Almond and Roguefort but not in the way she is with Espresso (that makes them look like siblings jkashduawhu). Perhaps I’ll keep it platonic.

-The Espresseleine/Madespresso story of how they came together, because I seem to not be able to write it down JSHALDHUIWADWA-

--It happens after the Puppet Show mini quest. Madeleine starts to ask for Espresso's "assistance" in different mission that are given to him. Angel is there too, of course.

--During these missions is that Essy clarifies that no, they are not friends, no, he does not like Madeleine. Bringing up the knight begin too prideful and self-centered if not all then most of the time.

--Is not until one of their missions goes wrong, were Angel is knocked out and Espresso (seeing and knowing that if Madeleine is knocked down too they might not be able to go back to the kingdom ever) pretty much receives a rather big attack for Madeleine is that he kind realizes the facts given by espresso true. All while he is carrying Essy and Angel back to the kingdom, running and exhausted too.

--Clover begin kind of a mediator between the two (I want to see more of my son--)

--"Devine, protect us" Should happen too after this. An scenario like, Madeleine coming to think something like "I'm the shield, the one who goes on the front line and receives the blows for those who can't, always looking straight ahead... but if I am doing that then who watches my back? Who do I rely on and trust to take care of most enemies so the damage received is not overwhelming...?"

Power of team work baby!!!

--As a note to this, Maddie getting his cape damaged as well as his hair. So, you get short hair Maddie~

(I've been drawing him with short hair in secret now I have an excuse to show)

-- "You...cut your hair..." *Madeleine touches the points of it with one of his hands, pensive* "...pft it'll grow back!"

--There's also this "Search for your own light" thing between Angel and Maddie. Angel encouraging Madeleine to do so. Maybe Madeleine giving his best wishes to them for their wish to fly before they decide to part ways.

--Madeleine trying other ways to befriend Essy. Which at first Espresso mistaken as the knight usual attempts to befriend anyone he sees out of habit and attention seeking, but once they realize the feeling is completely genuine, Espresso is rather perplexed.

--"You can't just befriend people by buying them gifts (although I do appreciate them)" "Then what?" "hmm..."

--Said gifts used to be rather expensive things, simple though. Eventually Madeleine settles to just pass by Espresso's place, give him any food he had bought that day (which usually is glazed donuts), ask if he needs any help with something (getting a vase, materials, moving things), and if not then he just says his good byes, best wishes and silently leaves. (A note on the "silently leaves": Madeleine is pretty much used to speak loudly and enter loudly anywhere, he still does this at this point, but when it's about Espresso he is a bit more quiet, a bit showy over his entrances still, but less loud, and he actually knocks the door)

--Madeleine eventually manages to go out with Espresso to other places that aren't some place in the forest full of enemies. Probably after some more visits to his place and more calm talks between the two, Madeleine brings up that Espresso tends to act a bit cold or distant towards a lot of people, and that, although he understands his discomfort at begin in public spaces or too long out of his work, he should try and open up a bit. This reminds Essy of a certain friend he hasn't seen in some time, and from whom he keeps getting letters.

--Shenanigans.

--There's still some bickering between the two, always with a playful undertone though.

--Espresso explains Madeleine, one time the knight has gotten Espresso wrapped in a blanket burrito again and got him to bed, that sometimes, no matter how tired he might feel, he is simply unable to sleep. Part of a headcanon of mine that coffee magic has this side effect on it's users, prolonged usage of this kind of magic will induce a high caffeine kind of state, which on the long run can fuck up the user's sleep schedule. Madeleine understands this, but remains stubborn about keeping Espresso in the bed so at last he can get some rest from his work and clear his mind a little, the idiot falls asleep in the process and Espresso doesn't try to wake him up.

--This happens several times after, neither of them thinking of the implications of not begin bothered by the sudden closeness they share until it's too late.

--Espresso realizes first that he has slowly, yet nicely, fallen for Madeleine. I think I talked about this before but I'll do it again: Is in one of the times Madeleine has gotten Espresso to bed to get some rest, Espresso not begin able to fall asleep and Madeleine doing again. Is while he thinks of how he has gotten to know Madeleine for real, not the Knight Commander from a noble family or the Chosen by the Devine, but as he is, that he comes to think that "Ah.... I love him" and he remains calm about it.

--Espresso doesn't overthink it, just thinks that, if Madeleine ever got an interest in him, he would surely show it. So he waits. Even if in the end his feelings aren't mutual he knows he'll do just fine remaining friends.

--Madeleine realizes not many days after. And the realization hits him like a truck. Alone in his place and probably in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about Espresso. Once he realizes and thinks about it a bit more his face gets all red and chooses to scream in the pillow.

--He would think about telling Espresso as soon as he can, after all, he doesn't want his feelings to make their friendship weird. He values it, a lot. Maybe because his friendship with Espresso it's the first one where he genuinely wanted to become friends with someone.

--Espresso takes the confession calmly, gets all flustered after they kiss for the first time.

--As a few extras of this: Madeleine goes back to the Republic, asked to be seen by his family and Espresso goes to Parfedia, where a few students have applied to his class to his surprise. When they see each other again is at Parfedia (Madeleine sending a message to Espresso beforehand about his arrival) -there was this one drawing I did once of Maddie running to hug Espresso, something like that happens-. Madeleine gets very clingy for some reason, which they speak later and comes out as “Home doesn’t quite feel like home…” “Why is that?” “I don’t know… maybe I’ve become used to be around you”

--Espresso lets ends up letting Madeleine stay with him until he either feels like returning to the Republic or is called back, whatever happens first (though none will happen for maybe a year or a little more).

--Ends with Madeleine meeting Latte and Almond.

#Headcanon time baby! #The cookie squad #Espresso Cookie #Madeleine cookie #espresseleine #madespresso #Roguefort cookie #Almond cookie #Latte Cookie #Sparkling cookie #Vampire cookie #Walnut cookie #Bar gays

[freelancearsonist]

In recent times, I rarely contribute here, but I thought I'd write to you. I read the latest posts and replies. I may have the right to comment as a person with a mental disorder. I don’t know. Nowadays, little is certain. I didn’t find the anon questions about Moon Knight strange or inappropriate. I was rather wondering how little is said and written about DID, and people with it (here I mean the main character). Anon didn't attack you, and I don't quite understand the strange hate being poured out on him, but okay, I don't need to understand everything. As a woman, however, I would like to point out that what is published gives people a picture of the world, and sometimes an inserted post that it’s just fiction bypasses the reader like an advertisement on the side of the road. And that is about everything. This applies not only to DID, but also to many other topics. It doesn't apply to you either, because it respects your work, but rather is a general reflection.

Maybe I’m weirdo, sorry.

i’d like to clarify that i never said i was being attacked??? i didn’t feel that way even a little bit so i’m not sure where that came from. and no one is hating on anyone, i’ve specifically said in my posts that i wanted to help educate this anon. i DID get some asks that were hateful towards that individual which i deleted because my blog will NEVER be used as a platform for that kind of behavior.

which, by the way, i feel the need to remind everyone that spewing hate at someone for being uneducated about something as complex as mental illness is NEVER okay. if someone is actively seeking answers and trying to learn and better themselves, HELP THEM. and if they refuse to educate themselves, they aren’t worth your time or the effort it takes to write or say hateful things to them. just walk away.

that being said, i am not the person to come to for questions about did. plain and simple. i’m not sure why that anon chose to come to me with their concerns, and part of me just wanted to delete them. but i want to be the best advocate i can and part of that is trying my best to educate those who need it.

just because i have mental illnesses doesn’t mean i can speak for every person with any mental illness. if you have questions, please ask an actual system, many of whom are right here on tumblr and would LOVE and SHOULD HAVE the chance to have their voices heard, rather than going to someone who just writes fanfiction about middle-aged men.

finally, anyone who ignores the fact that moon knight is fiction, that can’t separate said fiction from reality, maybe needs to take a step back and reevaluate their thought processes. i should not have to remind anyone that these characters are fake because the fact that they are SUPERHEROES should be indication enough. but i digress.

i wish you all the best in your endeavors to learn and grow in your understanding of did and mental health. 🫶

#clarke answers #psa

[ritchieblackless]

×If we don't like something, we'll hit it right away, Ritchie and me.×

{Cozy Powell Muziekkrant Oor Magazine, 1979}

(Right, before we start I'd like to say that I won't put the whole interview, just the Cozy and Ritchie parts. Also, the bold letters are the interviewer's questions. The grey lines are the answers and this cursive thing but in blue will be my comments and... Omg that title, this didn't even start and it's already cute)

It is often said that it is virtually impossible to work with Ritchie and that he has worn out so many musicians for that reason. May I hear your opinion on that?

"The cooperation between me and Ritehie is ellxcellent and I don't find it difficult at all to work with him, on the contrary; I feel him very well and he feels good about me." (Why this sounds so... nevermind) "The problems really lay with the musicians. One wanted to be the star when there was no reason to do so, the other did not appear at rehearsals or even performances, yet another just turned out not to be good enough to develop, or thought he was there with Rainbow and didn't do anything to push the band forward and so on. Of course Ritchie and I (<3) apply fairly strict standards, but that is also necessary if you want to function optimally as a group. And especially Ritchie gets annoyed if something is not right and then intervenes immediately. That is why he also left Deep Purple; others might have stayed in the group for the money or the good life and accepted the artistic stagnation and differences of opinion, but not Ritchie. When some time after the arrival of Glenn Hughes and David Coverdale, Deep Purple was no longer what it should be according to Ritchie, he left to start his own group. And he is willing to work very hard for that." (Oh look I'm Cozy powell and I have a natural talent for getting along with difficult guitarists)

(I like how Cozy speaks different about Ritchie like... The other musicians who have worked with Ritchie when this kind of question comes up they say "Yes but Ritchie is Ritchie" or they say "Yes sometimes he is" but Cozy is a straight "No.")

How come you are the only one who has survived in Rainbow for almost five years?

"First of all, I get along with Ritchie, like I said." (Important advise) "We respect each other one hundred percent and I do my job well. I have input in the music, Ritchie always thinks my opinion and advice is very important and I am willing to give it all." (They were so cute I can't)

"You know, Ritchie is just a simple guy who plays guitar and writes songs. He simply needs people who are willing to commit themselves to the development of the group." (Cozy said: He's simple why you can't understand that? Stupid people) "Without a certain input, Ritchie is of no use to you; you have to cooperate very hard. Second, I don't hang out with the other Rainbow members, including Ritchie. I always go to gigs alone, usually on the bike, sometimes by car, but never with the other guys."

"That may seem a bit anti-social, but I am simply very private and if you don't see each other that often, you can't get into trouble so quickly and it's always new when you see each other again. Ritchie has that a bit too and in that respect we fit together well. I don't think there is more than that, except perhaps the fact that I am always on time for rehearsals and performances, that I am always prepared, etc, That is part of the job; if you work in a factory and you do your job properly, but you arrive late every morning or sometimes not at all, you will also be fired. Doesn't that make sense?"

You've gotten into a fight with other groups too, haven't you? Reo Speedwagon for example.

"Yes, that's right. After all, we are not a Fairport Convention. At a certain point we had enough and then you get into an argument and then there are blows. Ritchie and I (<3) won't let ourselves be insulted by a bunch of fallen Midwestern farmers (HSHAHAH fuck you REO) or other hard-haters who think they own the truth because they have a big bank account (BANG). Also, they shouldn't say ugly things (Cozy is so soft I can't... instead of saying 'shit' or somethinghe said 'ugly things') about our music or insult our road show, because we won't take that. Look, Ritchie and I (<3) are both from the slums, where you have to be able to defend yourself physically in order to survive. That was often hard, so you made sure you could stand your ground. We are both quite good at boxing and karate and we are in good shape too. So if we don't like something, well, we'll hit it off right away, Ritchie and me(<3)". (I automatically picture them as a Tango & Cash kind of movie like Lethal Weapon or some Buddy films... they definitely were dangerous together)

(Now I want to know what the fuck happened)

Did you fight with many groups?

"I lost count years ago (He's tiny, that's the problem). Ritchie and I (<3) are therefore not very popular among the musicians in the States, but yes, we had bad luck."

(I'm sure they kick the shit out of pretentious American musicians. I told you, goal friends.)

What about those rumors about a Deep Purple reunion.

"There is no chance of that, because Ritchie is definitely not participating..... for no price. And there is no reunion without him." (This is such a protective behaviour... <3)

+Bonus:

Final question, Cozy. How long will this Rainbow line-up last?

Longer than any previous line-up. Whatever that means, hahaha (painful laughs).

And the last 'Ritchie and I' of the interview but I didn't know where I should put it

"but despite the fact that there were some very good singers and also famous names, there was not one, of whom Ritchie and I (<3) thought: that is him!"

#THEY JUST THEY #that’s why I'm telling you that Cozy was special or important as Jon Lord to Ritchie... one of those few people #two dorks #they loved each other but they were English... bad luck #cozy powell #ritchie blackmore #i will add this to the Blackmore and Powell friendship series #rainbow band #rainbow #ritchie blackmore's rainbow

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Chapter 27

Who's still reading this? Have fun!

CW : character death (This spoils a lot I'm sorry but I have to put it.)

THE ROAD SO FAR

Previous Chapter : What's behind door number two?

Staying in Shape

John Price

MacTavish Residence, Glasgow, Scotland

It has been almost three days since the culmination of the New York Attack and most of his contacts regarding Nero and Shepherd's movements were quiet. He was getting anxious to step back into the fight, but without sufficient intel, or even better weapons, they couldn't do anything.

Price scanned the room, everyone else started to pair up with each other, a dynamic he expected to happen anytime soon. With all the challenges they've been through, finding love within each other was inevitable. And Price was fine by that. Heck, when he was younger, he had his fair share of romance during missions.

With the thought of Nero and Shepherd resurfacing any moment soon, Price devised a plan, to keep his crew in shape and always prepared to deploy as soon as sufficient intel is presented.

With the help of Jack, they created a training and endurance exercise schedule, where the soldiers, including Price himself, would follow to still continue to stay in shape and prepared for battle. They asked permission from Soap who was more than willing to help, an excited grin all over his face.

"I'll help you set up." he said, gaining a nod from the old man.

"France will train at the basement gym." He added and Soap nodded.

From that moment, the team started training, improving their physical abilities and endurance. Weapons training wasn't possible at the moment as they left it all in Brazil.

Jack overlooked the team from afar, Samantha and Maxine were at the gym helping out France's version of the training. They did the regular set of training from standard 141 protocol, using everyday materials in exchange for some of the equipment Soap didn't own. Price also instructed a specific dietary plan for the soldiers instead of just eating whatever they liked.

While on break, the two girls, Samantha and Maxine approached Price with an excited look in their eyes. Priced raised an eyebrow and asked what they were up to.

"Everyone's doing their best and We both wanted to offer our help." Samantha explained as Maxine inserted.

"We'd like to apply as the team's dietician and health consultant. My resumé is that I have vast knowledge in cooking along with their nutritional information." She grinned.

"And Samantha here has little background on tending to physical wounds and pain. You could see how fast Alex's face healed!" Maxine added. Price was more than happy to accept their offer, it goes to show that they were willing to give whatever it takes for the people and cause they cared about.

"Alright. Guess you're both hired." he chuckled as the two cheered and made their way to their respective 'partners', probably out to share the good news.

Wiping his sweaty forehead with a towel, he looked around the main room where everybody was. Jack was by the office, looking up something on the laptop or probably just playing solitaire. Soap and France were at the gazebo, he could barely see them by the angle he's at but he couldn't miss that flashy mohawk.

To his left, he saw Samantha sitting on Alex's lap as she carefully cleaned Alex's bruise, Roach sat on the other end of the sofa, chugging a bottle of Gatorade while Maxine stood behind him, he could barely hear it, but it looked like the newly hired dietician was already lecturing him about the benefits of said drink, saying the word 'electrolytes' somewhere in the sentence.

He felt proud that this team stood by him ever since he made that choice. He was very grateful that he had someone whom he shared common goals with.

"Price. It's for you." Jack called from the office, causing him to immediately get up and answer the call.

"Aye, this is Price. Got anything for me?" he muttered.

"John. Looks like your friend is on the move." Kate Laswell spoke on the other end of the line, her voice was authoritative as always.

"Which one?" he chuckled, it was about time he received some news.

"Shadow Company. Looks like they're brave using the same car again. Same plate and all." she informed, giving Price the last route they went before going cold once again. It led them to an empty warehouse just by the docks.

"Just what are these bastards up to…" he muttered.

"I have no idea. Think you'll do recon? It doesn't strike as a threat to warrant an official team, this leads really calling your name, John."

Laswell hinted. Despite him being out of the force and one of Fbi's most wanted, Kate insisted to use such perk for further trapping the suspicious Shepherd.

"I worked hard forming the 141 and he easily disbands it like it's nothing…" she added, her voice sounded very bitter.

"Now now, Kate. Take it easy. We'll get him. He's bound to fuck up anytime soon. Keep in touch, mkay?" he said as they both said their goodbyes and ended the call.

"A little recon mission won't hurt, right?" he nudged to Jack who grinned proudly at the solitaire victory screen, cards bounced all around the edges of the screen.

John Price found himself unable to sleep. It was either he's actually excited to do some missions or he's too worried about what they're about to discover, what would Shadow Company be up to and what is the quiet Nero planning behind the scenes? His thoughts raced to a dozen possibilities, all calling for drastic measures and sacrifices. He knew he had allies by his side, allies that are always ready to do whatever it takes to fix this mess.

He lazily dragged his feet to get a glass of water in the kitchen, despite being huge, the house was awfully quiet. Too quiet that he could hear every soft rustling from the halls.

He wasn't one to eavesdrop but he couldn't help but hear soft murmuring near MacTavish's bedroom.

"So.. um.. same time tomorrow?" said a low Scottish voice a chuckle followed. It was obviously Soap and Price thought only enemies were doing something behind the scenes.

"You wish.." a female voice giggled.

"But seriously… Thanks for tonight John." she added.

"No problem, Francine. So.. what's stopping you from staying overnight?" he chuckled. Price knew this was wrong but his glass of water was still half full.

"You know that I'd love to… but Maxine also needs me right now. Especially that she's slowly recovering bits and pieces of the past." she reasoned and Price knew it was time to head back to his room quietly.

Maxine Winters

MacTavish Residence, Glasgow, Scotland

It felt real. She looked around and felt that this was more than just an ordinary dream. The vision was too dark with a small ray of light peeking from the slightly ajar door.

She knew where this was. She liked hiding here, her parent's closet.

She was waiting for Francine to find her, Francine always knew where she hid. But in this certain memory, she wasn't there.

She giggled quietly and hushed herself as soon as the door opened, France was going to find her. But instead, what she heard was her Dad saying words of assurance followed by heavy breathing. She was curious enough to peek through the small opening.

Her dad carried her Mom to the bed, his hands held hers tight, wiping the sweat off her forehead as her chest rose and fell quickly, her breath was labored and her eyes looked tired.

"Hang in there, love. The doctor's on the way." his father assured, making his wife comfortable as they wait for help to arrive.

"I don't think I can make it anymore…" She whispered.

"No no no. Don't do this to me Coraline, don't you want to see our angels grow up?" he sobbed, tears fell on her hands as he kissed it. Maxine remained still, she wanted to cry but she just sat inside the closet, peeking, frozen in a mix of fear and worry.

"I do , Love … but it looks like my body can't make it to that day… I'm sorry…"

"Don't! Please Coraline, stay strong, for me… for the kids…"

"I am… and I know that you know it." she exhaled, panting heavily after the last sentence. Her Dad hugged her until her breathing stabilized, while Coraline weakly raised her hand and hugged him back.

"Promise me you'll see the kids grow up…

Promise me to tell them how much I love them every single day…

And promise me that you'll never forget how much I loved you… Francis Maximus Winters." tears fell from her tired eyes. Her dad held her cheek and wiped it off, sobbing as she slowly closed them.

"I'm not sure if I could keep all of those promises… but I will try… I love you Coraline Winters, I always have and I always will, until the time we'll meet again." he muttered. Maxine witnessed it all, the way her father's face frowned when he realized he just lost his wife. It was one of her saddest memories.

~

Maxine gasped and opened her eyes, touching her face as soon as they opened. Tears. She was crying while asleep. She flicked the lamp and looked around her, France wasn't around. Just as she pulled the sheets so she could leave the bed, the door knob slowly turned and a soft creak was heard. It was Francine.

"France!" Maxine gasped and immediately ran to her side, hugging her tight as she began crying. France smelled different, almost masculine, but she didn't mind.

"Max! What happened? Are you okay?" France quickly hugged her, rubbing her back as she quietly bawled out her emotions.

"I saw… " She panted.

"I saw… Mom…"

"Mom died…" She exhaled as Francine escorted her downstairs to the kitchen, grabbing a glass of water to calm her heart.

"You were in the closet. We were supposed to be playing hide and seek." France muttered as Maxine turned to her.

"Francis… Maximus Winters." she recalled.

"That's dad's name. It's quite long, right? Mom actually liked him because of it." France enlightened, trying to make Max calm down.

"Yeah… is he ?" Max asked.

"Yeah… but he's kinda forgot about us now. Every time we visit he just looks for Coraline."

"Mom."

"Yes."

"He kept his promise." Max said.

"Huh?" France tilted her head.

"Mom's last words. Promise me you'll see the kids grow up…

Promise me to tell them how much I love them every single day…

And promise me that you'll never forget how much I loved you…" Max recalled from her dream and as more words were added, France's sobs were louder.

"He… he did them all…" France cried as they both hugged each other. And it was the moment that Maxine remembered what France looked like when they first met, her smile… It was the smile of someone who was finally reunited with her only family, and it was painful how the only ones she could cling to couldn't remember her.

"What's that smell?" Maxine asked as she killed the mood of the sisterly hug. France's face turned red, even in the dimly lit room, Max could tell that she was blushing.

"N-Nothing… I don't smell anything." She laughed nervously.

"I swear I passed by that scent somewhere…" she looked at her suspiciously and laughed, shrugging it off which actually made France relax her shoulders.

"Let's go back to sleep." Maxine invited her sister and they both got back to their room.

Next Chapter : Docked and Loaded

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[dramione-tea]

recommendations & little snippets of myself

by Cassiopeia Candles ( Instagram: @casseopya.candles )

note: click the title in order to be directed to the desired fan fiction.

- for the dramione shippers, I wish you luck! 

Unrequited Love  [ casspiane ]

“Darling, I wished you knew,” 

Draco Malfoy x Original Characters (OC)

1. Love Never Dies. [ rosebuds_ ]

Rachel Farrell, pure blood witch, family of Gryffindors. First year is not the best for Rachel. She struggles trying to fit in and be accepted by those around her. Falling for Draco Malfoy, Rachel has to overcome a wave of obstacles. She finds it difficult to be accepted by her family and turns to the Malfoys... Which was undoubtedly one of the biggest mistakes she made. Find out what happens to Rachel and what truly changes her life.

- Literally binge read the whole book during my 6th grade examination. ( I know it was bad for me ) But hey I didn’t fail.  

P.S. Don’t be like me. 

2. midnight of the masquerade [ seraphilims ]

a story in which two people realize masks only hide the appearance - not the heart. 

- Love the story plot.  I’ve read this thrice in different years. 

3. Imperio [ pansyparks ]

The younger sister of Cedric Diggory, Arden, is a Slytherin who doesn't fit in. Draco Malfoy, a wealthy Slytherin bully. The two come together, and Arden realises that being a Slytherin isn't so bad after all; but with a few bumps in the road for Draco, can they stay together?

4. Dear Draco [ malfoyuh ]

❛stay a little longer❜

- 15 year old me were in tears, so was my heart.  Rate it as 5/5.

5. Let’s Kill Tonight  [ Bambey ]

Rebecca Rosewood's life is dramatically changed when she becomes a Death Eater. With blood on her hands, she is summoned by Voldemort to go to Hogwarts and extract information from the famous Harry Potter, finding herself hopelessly attracted to Draco Malfoy at the same time. But it all gets a little too much when her past finally catches up with her...

- One of the first fan-fictions I’ve read about Draco.

6. if looks could kill [ WhenInDoubtSleep ]

In times like this, the truth can rewrite the past and alter the future. In an attempt to find herself amidst the deceptive lies and horrible truths, she finds Draco Malfoy instead. She honestly just wants to make it out of the year alive...and maybe with a few less kisses from the blond git. Love story set during the sixth year at Hogwarts.

7. Always Had A Thing For Bad Boys [ oxNeverShoutNeverxo ]

8. Who Are You?  [ TheBlondeAdventurer ]

Draco Malfoy. One of the most arrogant teenage boys in Slytherin's house. He struts through the school and doesn't miss an opportunity to cut someone down, just as he has been by his father his entire life. Now enter Elena Crowe. A quiet girl who tries her hardest to stay out of trouble, and one of Ravenclaw's best students. She always has the best answers and never fails to help someone in need, even if they may not deserve it. In their sixth year at Hogwarts, Draco finally runs into Elena, whom he has never seemed to notice before. Elena does her absolute best to stay away from him, because all he can be is trouble, but Draco finds amusement by forcing himself into her life. For what reason, he doesn't know; but what he does know is that he enjoys bantering with this quiet girl, because even she can get riled up and fight back. But Draco will see that Elena is a lot more than what she may seem. Soon he will be battling morales, his past, his family, and both of them may end up facing off in the final battle not with Lord Voldemort, but each other.

- To be completely honest, read this one more than 3 times. 

9. Unwanted Legacy [ writtenbyciara ]

" admit it, you care about me. "

- Recently read this months ago and found it quite interesting. The author’s writing style is different from the rest as her words make you visualize more on what is happening. 

- Book 1 & 2 is complete, while book 3 is still on its way. 

Draco Malfoy x Hermione Granger (Dramione)

1. We Learned The Sea [ floorcoaster ]

Draco Malfoy turns himself in after a very successful career as a Death Eater, then enlists Harry and Hermione to help him in a scheme to bring down the Dark Lord.

- This gave me the feels.  Draco’s personality in this is far most different from the books and other fan fictions.

2. The Bachelor  [ Fluff ]

Hermione's mother is pressuring her into finding a boyfriend. On a whim, she applies and is accepted into the wizard version of The Bachelor. But what happens when The Bachelor is none other than Draco Malfoy himself?

3. Defending The Dark  [ Cece Louise ]

Almost three years after Voldemort's defeat, Hermione Granger is a Ministry-appointed Defense Inquisitor. Her next assignment: defend Draco Malfoy. She's sure there must be some mistake. Confronted with mysterious memories, candid conversations, and confusing feelings, she is plagued with uncertainty. Just who is Draco Malfoy? And does he deserve a second chance?

4. Graveyard Valentine  [ Bex-chan ]

Hermione thought she was the only person in the world who would spend Valentine's Day in a Graveyard, but she was wrong. He's there. Every single year, with his gloves, roses, and answers. Dramione Valentine's Day one-shot. Post-Hogwarts. 

- All time favorite.

5. Eighteen Months  [ Istalindar ]

When Hermione is diagnosed with a magic allergy and kidney failure during the summer, everything changes for her, friends, enemies..life.

6. Love Me Twice [ Bex-chan ]

'"They tore her apart and then wiped me out of her mind to send me a message. To mess up my life. To break..." he trailed off. Blaise nodded his head with understanding. "To break your heart," he finished for him.' Dramione. One-shot.

7. The Wrong Strain [ Colubrina ]

Everyone knew what veela were. Veela were magical creatures, breathtakingly beautiful, who captivated men with a single look. It would have been nice to have been that strain. Instead, Hermione Granger was infected by another. Instead of captivating all men, she was captivated by one. She'd die without him. She was already in almost constant pain. 

8. Entwined In Time  [ TheSummerNightingale ]

When Hermione and Draco get put into detention together, a potion mishaps throws them back in time: into the Marauders' era. As they begin to adjust to life twenty years into the past, the two become drawn together, sharing the bond of the future as they are forced to work together to return to their own time.

9. Destiny [ Annie Lockwood ]

Hermione's wedding night is everything but perfect for the young witch. Her new husband and long-time friend, Ronald, is passed out drunk and she thinks upon her life leading up to that night. Hermione falls asleep, despondent and alone. When she wakes up the following morning, she is still in bed with her husband. But it isn't Ronald Weasley.

10. Silencio [ AkashatheKitty ] 

One late night, hate turns to lust.

11. Clean [ Olivie Blake ]

Malfoy's handsome face was contoured into a condescending smirk. "No faith in that giant brain of yours, Granger?" She looked up at him defiantly. "Maybe I don't have faith in you!" she said, raising her voice. Malfoy only looked at her. "You'll find I'm very surprising."

12. Marked  [ Olivie Blake ]

Two dead. Three missing. The Order is down a leader and another innocent takes the Mark. Where is the Chosen One, and who killed Draco Malfoy?

13. The Fallout [ everythursday ] 

Hermione learns about growing up through the redemption of Draco Malfoy.

14. Every Day, a Little Death [ LovesBitca8 ]

It has become common knowledge that Hermione Granger cannot have an orgasm. Many have tried, none have succeeded. Can Draco Malfoy offer his assistance?

15. familiar faces, worn out places [ LovesBitca8 ]

“You are at St. Mungo’s. You were in a coma.” He looks me over again, taking a pause. “I am a Healer here now,” he says, like it explains something. My fingers stretch, drifting across his sleeve. He looks down, like I’ve thrown mud at him.

Forcing my vocal chords together for the first time, I whisper, “What’s your name?”

16. Kiss Me, Haunt Me, Kill Me [ LovesBitca8 ]

"So," she said, and her voice was just as he'd remembered it, "you've chosen to haunt the castle as well?" She lifted her brows. "I'm dead. What's your excuse?" ~*~ Draco Malfoy returns to Hogwarts as Potions Master to find the ghost of Hermione Granger floating through the halls.

17. Ribbons Down Her Back [ LovesBitca8 ]

The unintentional annual seduction of Draco Malfoy through a series of ribbons and bows - or - Christmas Fluff with a dash of Secret Santa.

18. Manacled  [ SenLinYu ] 

Harry Potter is dead. In the aftermath of the war, in order to strengthen the might of the magical world, Voldemort enacts a repopulation effort. Hermione Granger has an Order secret, lost but hidden in her mind, so she is sent as an enslaved surrogate to the High Reeve until her mind can be cracked.

19. The Library of Alexandria  [ SenLinYu ] 

 The Library of Alexandria is not for just any witch or wizard. Many bookworms may try but few are permitted to pass through its doors. The books residing there are ancient and powerful and, if one happens to make a mistake, the consequences can be rather—novel.

20. A Slow Cruel Descent + A Fragile Ascent  [ SenLinYu ]

A Slow Cruel Descent

The war grinds on and Hermione Granger, the lead intelligence for the Order of the Pheonix, is captured. Unable to crack her through interrogation without risking her mind, Voldemort conceives a cruel method of breaking her that involves a reluctant Draco Malfoy.“He stared at her in disgust.She looked—broken.The fire she’d still had when she was dragged in was now extinguished. Her eyes were locked on his face like she were memorizing him.“Stop staring at me.” He snarled. “You stupid bint. You’re supposed to be so clever. They can’t break you with torture but a fucking potion reduces you to a sniveling traitor.”

A Fragile Ascent

The War is over. Voldemort is dead. And Hermione Granger is broken.

21. Sweetly Broken [ LadyKenz347 ] 

As the dust settles following the Battle of Hogwarts, Draco’s confidence, belief system, and world are shattered.In an attempt to mend his broken pieces, he turns to vials that take the pain away. But once the high’s are no longer so high and the lows get so much lower, Draco has to start a journey of healing and redemption that often hurts more than it helps.

22. Truth, Lies, and Storytelling  [ BreathOfThePhoenix ]

“Hermione,” Harry took a deep breath and flipped the book over to see the back cover, “why is my name on this?”“Like I said, someone is writing about us. The film we just saw was based on that book,” Hermione tapped the cover of the book on the top of the stack, “and it was incredibly accurate.”Harry passed the stack of books over to Ginny, holding on to the first one. He turned the title of the book over in his head, mumbling the words quietly to himself.“Harry Potter… me… Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone. Philosopher’s stone. Hermione, this feels weird. Am I the narrator?”When Hermione and Draco uncover a familiar new film called “Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone” they learn that the wizarding world may not be as well hidden as they thought.

23. DIVINATION FOR SKEPTICS  [ OLIVIEBLAKE ]

The latest in magical advancements is an enchantment that reveals the bearer’s romantic compatibility with another person. Effectively eliminating uncertainty from dating, the charm can tell you whether or not you’ve found The One with a precise, Hermione Granger-approved calculation of traits and preferences. It’s a foolproof method of predicting relationship happiness. It’s also, for Hermione, positively dreadful news.

24. Isolation [ Bex-chan ]

He can't leave the room. Her room. And it's all the Order's fault. Confined to a small space with only the Mudblood for company, something's going to give. Maybe his sanity. Maybe not. "There," she spat. "Now your Blood's filthy too!"

25. Hunted [ Bex-chan ]

Forced to work together when their old schoolmates start dying, Hermione & Draco must overcome their differences to solve the mysterious deaths. The tension in the office is getting rather...heated.

If you reached to this part. 

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Jungkook's One-Shot

Topic: His ex comes back to your lives when you two married and tries to get him back by creating problems inbetween you two...

Genre: Angst/Smut/Fluff

Warnings: Smut (Dirty talks/games)

Rating: 18+ along with angst and drama

The following first few chapters would be though fluff and a little smut...

Part 2/Chapter 2

A/N's POV

Steps could be heard from upstairs as Jungkook left the shower and made his way down... His wet messy bangs fell down till his eyes as his muscular body covered in the comfortable PJ's appeared from the staircase and made their way to you... You were so much into those beautiful orbs that you didn't realise when the gap between the two of you had decreased to null...

He called your name sweetly but you were too much into the beautiful work of art that his voice never reached your ears... He waved his hands infront of your eyes but still no movement from your side... He smirked finally knowing what had happened to you and with one swift movement his hand went around your waist just to grab your body tightly and press it against himself... Your chest and entire front side pressed tightly against his... But what brought you back to senses was when your nipples underneath the shirt rubbed against his nipples...

The movement send shivers down your body.... And you quickly responded to the touch with a muffled moan... the moan was suppose to be loud but you muffled it... You still hadn't forgotten about the secret guests at home afterall... "Am I that handsome that someone can't resist herself for falling for my beauty!?" he asked more like a challenge... This handsome bunny of yours could be competitive and challenging over anything... Like literally anything... Just yesterday he got challenging over who can drink the most banana milk and in the end it was Jungkook ofcourse who won...

"You know dear, Daddy really wants to fuck his baby right away... But you're on your periods so I just can't... I wish so badly if I could just rip of those PJ's and slid my cock into that tight pussy of yours but it seems to be on a bloodfall :(" he said... Gosh! This man got you wet in seconds... But it was unusual for him to talk dirty when you were on your periods cause he didn't wanted you to be turned on during such a time and then couldn't help yourself... Though you weren't for real... "Leave for today, but I really wanted to fuck you hard, atleast on our wedding anniversary just like every year but it seems like this year I have to jerk myself off and help the growing problem... "....

Someone please stop this man!! If you had put your finger in your vaginal folds by this time, then for sure you could be easily able to hear the wet erotic sounds loud and clear judging by the wetness there... His lips then suddenly attacked your neck making you moan and throw your head backwards as your body leaned in his tight embrace......... "J-Jungkook... W-what a-are u d-doing...?" you managed to speak in the worn out state of yours... "Mmmmm! I'm just showing my love to my wifey! Can't I?" he asked yet sucking at a weak spot on your neck... Where he knew it drove you crazy... A couple of more moans left your mouth until you finally remembered that the other boys weren't far from you two... Just like the floor underneath... And thus you half-heartedly pushed him away from yourself...

"Horny Bun! I said na, that I'm on my periods, then why are u teasing me!? Huh!?" You asked... "Y/N... I'm really turned on baby! I can't fuck you so atleast let me kiss you and keep u close..." ... "Jungkook that's not like u! You never do any such thing to turn me on during periods! Cause you don't want me to suffer by not being able to get rid of a new problem when I already have this stupid problem of blood and cramps!?" you asked not being able to accept the fact that it was your same bunny boy doing such thing... No reply from the other side... Then suddenly he grabbed you be your thighs and picked you up before throwing you on his shoulder and taking u somewhere... You screamed in shock from his sudden move and then worriedly asked where he was taking you cause the expression u saw on his face before lifting you up was like when he was mad at something...

He took u to your bathroom and let u down while u asked rather confused that why he did he brought u here and like that? He then finally spoke up... "Y/N! You know I hate lies!! And if u didn't wanted to have sex with me or u don't like me touching u like that any longer, so you could have just told me that! I must have been hurt but atleast you must have said the truth to me!! Instead you opted for lying about periods to keep me away!?!!" he said as his eyes started to get teary and the hurt clearly shown by his voice... You took sometime to process what he said and spoke up...

"Who told you that I'm lying about my periods!?"... He gave a sarcastic laugh and said, "You still care how I got to know that instead of explanaing yourself!? Anyways... I checked the number of tampons and pads and they were exactly equal to the number last time left... If you were on your periods, atleast one pad or tampon must have been used but no! Not even a single one missing!".. "You seriously count the number 😑 Jungkook" you asked in disbelief... " Yes I do! But that doesn't matters any longer... You don't like my touch... Have u found someone else... Better than me.... If yes... Then don't worry just tell me... And I'll make sure not to come between the two of you..." he said in a low tone as a tear strolled down his cheek... Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait! Where is this hell going too!!??? You though to yourself.... Fuck Y/N! You really mess up the things!!

You were really hyped up seeing where this shit was going as you looked at your wristwatch... Just 20mins more... And it's 12:00... Till then u have to keep yourself from telling the truth but also keep him engaged in something.... You finally spoke up, "My fluffy Bunny 🐰! Don't cry *wipes away his tears, cups both his cheeks and lifting his head up, makes his pouty self look her in the eyes* It's not like what you're thinking... I love u and only u! There isn't anybody on this earth who is better than u! You are the best, the most perfect one for me!! And for that lie... Well... I fell down today in the morning and hurt my back....*another lie* I didn't wanted to worry u by telling you about the accident and thus lied... But seems like I needa tell u now seeing the situation..."

His face lowered down again and his baby sniffs were all that was heard in the room... He turned into a 3yrs old kid sobbing his heart out 😭 seeing whom u too felt bad... He then moved closer and wrapped his arms around u as his face buried in the crook of your neck where he sniffed and let out muffled sobbing... You lightly swayed your palm on his back in a to and fro motion while your other hand moved along his neck to his hair massaging there... You two stood there for about 10mins in absolute silence after which Jungkook slowly detached himself from u and looking into your eyes... Spoke up, "My lovely bunny girl!!! Sorry for accusing u for cheating 😔😞😓...

GIF's owned by me 😁❤️

I'm really sorry! I would never ever blame u again for anything!! I am sorry... I don't know what happened to me... I just thought like I was loosing u and that made me so scared and angry that this happened...." And he peppered your face with thousand sweet pecks.... You then tip toed and kissed his forehead... The soft feeling of your wet, plumb lips on his forehead gave him a feeling of contend and relaxation and the ache in his head just vanished away!! He changed back to your smiling happy bunny!! You checked the time... Just 7 more mins and it's 12:00!!

"Wifey! You hurt your back 😞... So come let's go to our room and let me massage your back and apply some antiseptic lotion! ☺️" he said... Aww! He's always so caring!! "Bun! Just wait... You lifted me up like that and my back hurts a bit... I need some rest... Just let me stand here for a while and I'll be better and then we may go..." *another lie 😐* "Sorry 😓😔😞 Hmm... We can wait as long as u want"... And after it was exactly 1min left to be 12:00 you quickly wrapped your arms around his neck and pulling his face towards yours, you attached your lips with his, as you roughly kissed the "Jungshooked" boy though he kissed u back more roughly than u did.... And for the next 1 min it passed in a blissful moment until it was interrupted exactly at 12:00 by six dopes!

To be continued in the next chapter... I know I promised to make it a smutty truth/dare chapter but then I got this angst or I must say more of fluff scene in mind... So truth/dare skipped for next chapter... But I promise, next chapter will definitely have the truth/dare game! ☺️😁 DO NOT COPY MY WORK! OR REPOST IT ANYWHERE!

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Arina and Nina used to only meet once a week - at activities organised for the care home where Nina lived. Now, Arina is applying to become Nina's guardian, giving the 27-year-old hope she might finally be able to leave the institution where she has lived her entire adult life.

For the past few months Nina Torgashova has been able to enjoy an independence that had always been out of reach for her - shopping, cooking and washing her own clothes.

Things that would be every-day life experiences for most 27-year-olds.

But not for Nina, who has always lived in institutions, and moved when she was 18 to what, in Russia, is called a psycho-neurological care home. When the pandemic hit, she was able to savour life outside the home, with a volunteer, Arina Muratova.

Nina recalls the moment she found out she was leaving.

"I never thought anyone would take me. I had thought: "Oh no, I am going to be stuck in the care home."

It was April 2020 and the Covid-19 pandemic forced Moscow into lockdown. As visits to Nina's institution were stopped, charities lobbied for volunteers to be allowed to take responsibility for some of the residents until they could start up again.

Arina, a market research expert who loves nail art and embroidery, offered to look after Nina.

But when the 27-year-old got a taste for the freedom she'd never had, she decided she didn't want to go back.

Her 31-year-old friend was faced with a life-changing decision.

Arina has been involved in voluntary work for a decade - starting with helping children with learning difficulties and their families. She then became involved in adult care, which is when she met Nina through a Russian charity called Life Route. The charity organises trips and classes for the residents of some Russian psycho-neurological care homes (known as PNIs).

Arina started volunteering in PNI 22 - where Nina was living with hundreds of other residents - about four years ago. The care home looks after adults with a wide range of disorders, thought to relate to both cognitive disabilities and mental illness of varying severity.

Arina and Nina got to know each other through the charity Life Route which organises camps for the care home residents

Nina's diagnosis remains confidential to everyone except her care home director. This is usually the case for those residents the state judges are unable to live independently. So neither she nor Arina know why she is in the home, but Arina is surprised that she is.

Although Nina struggles with literacy and maths, Arina says she is very capable.

"She is such a quick learner and is well-adapted in everyday living," she says.

Nina was admitted to a home for disabled children when she was very young, before transferring to the PNI at 18. It is not clear whether she was taken to the children's home by her parents or was forcibly removed from their care.

She says they visited her there once, but she was frightened and hid under the bed.

"They were drunks. I was afraid. They stank of alcohol," she says.

Arina says Nina always stood out during her visits with Life Route, taking an active role in the activities and trips organised by the charity

"Nina was a very active person at her care home," says Arina. "She took part in various creative activities: amateur dramatics, arts and crafts workshops. She took part in sporting competitions, too: she played darts, she played football. Football was something she really missed after leaving the home."

When the lockdown last spring made these visits impossible, Arina suggested Zoom calls with the residents instead. But from the start is was clear this wasn't going to work - the home's internet simply wasn't strong enough. Other charities helping other care homes in Moscow and St Petersburg were facing similar problem

So these charities pressured the authorities to allow some care home residents to be released for the lockdown.

"It was all arranged in a day, and the next day the person was out. I cannot imagine anything like this before the pandemic," says Life Route's director Ivan Rozhansky.

Nevertheless Arina admits she was nervous when she made the initial decision to look after Nina. She was counting on Nina's relative independence, given she needed to work from home.

"There was a certain calculation in taking Nina. I had a lot of work to do, even during the lockdown. I realised I had to live with someone who'd be able to occupy themselves - at least some the time. With Nina it was clear that I'd be able to say: 'Now I have to work for three hours but afterwards we can make lunch together!'"

But Nina's move into the flat the charity had given the pair to live in during lockdown did get off to a slightly rocky start.

"She had very few possessions with her, just a small rucksack. She looked lost. While I was signing papers brought by the care worker, she walked around the flat. She didn't look especially overjoyed, and I had been counting on that.

"When I saw Nina looking so lost, I wondered if this had been a good idea. It's one thing to ask a person in a text if they want to move, but it's quite different to actually move them."

But not long afterwards, Arina shared a selfie with the other volunteers of herself with a grinning Nina, arms raised in joy.

Not only did Nina start shopping for food and cooking for herself, Arina arranged for her to have a maths tutor - important now she was buying things on her own.

"It's not that Nina doesn't understand things. She just never needed maths before," Arina says.

Arina herself began helping Nina with her literacy - she could read and write, but slowly and with difficulty.

"I need to be able to read and write," says Nina. "To be able to cook for myself, to go to work. I do want to have a job.

"I could make and sell friendship bracelets. I asked Arina: 'Do you know anyone who might want one?' She asked her mum, her mum was quite keen. I said: 'I will sort this!' Her mum picked the colours, Arina showed me a photo [of the colours], and I started making it."

Arina says she wanted to make sure she gave Nina responsibility for herself, rather than always taking charge, even if this did not always go to plan.

She cites the example of Nina wanting to learn to draw. Arina found another volunteer who could teach her over Zoom, and explained to Nina that she should make sure she joined the lessons. But after a while she discovered Nina had been missing some sessions.

"I don't want to chase another grown-up and pester them," says Arina. "I felt this was the kind of responsibility Nina could sustain, and we had conflicts around it."

But on another occasion Arina wanted to be more involved in Nina's life than regulations allowed.

Nina had complained of a terrible stomach ache and was admitted to hospital for several days of tests. Arina was not allowed to stay with her because she was not a relative or guardian.

"Pleas, send Nina some reassuring messages," she texted to the volunteer group chat. "Poor thing's terrified, she is having a third blood test and is scared."

Thankfully there was nothing seriously wrong.

As the Moscow lockdown eased in June, the Life Route charity was faced with a challenge.

"It became obvious that those people our foundation took to the assisted living flats for the duration of the quarantine did not want to go back to the PNI," says Ivan Rozhansky, the charity's director.

These institutions have been a focus of concern for some time.

In early 2019, Russia's deputy prime minister Tatiana Golikova ordered an inspection of living conditions in 192 psycho-neurological care homes. A consumer watchdog, Rospotrebnadzor, discovered violations of health and safety and other regulations in around 80% of them.

In January of this year Russia's Ministry of Labour introduced a number of structural changes to the provision of care for those in PNIs, including a move to help social workers provide assistance for some people in private homes rather than in state institutions.

"Obviously, all these changes will not be realised immediately on January 1, 2021, but step-by-step the situation will be changing," Golikova said.

Maria Sisneva from the charity Stop PNI says the quality of life in Russian care homes is poor.

"At a PNI you will have 500-1,000 people living in close quarters, but with very different levels of ability, and different backgrounds, different needs. They live in extremely cramped conditions, at best they'd be two to a small room, often in corridors, in spaces similar to military barracks, isolated from the outside world. They barely have any real social experience."

The director of PNI 22, where Nina was living, is clear about the benefits of care homes, however.

"The main advantage of psycho-neurological homes is security," says Anton Kliuchev. "The residents are looked after by professionals, who know exactly how to help and support them, how to talk to them, how to take care of them."

Care homes for people with specialist needs and mental illness exist all over the world. But from the mid-20th Century in the US and some European countries, a process of deinstitutionalisation started, aimed at replacing long-stay closed facilities with care within the community. Yet, in Russia care homes are still the predominant model.

According to Russian government statistics, as of February 2020 there were more than 150,000 people living in PNIs.

Unlike many countries, Russia's assisted living provision is only in its infancy. National charities believe that if this alternative system were more established, many care home residents could leave their institutions.

"Right now the system in Russia is such that if a person is believed to be insufficiently independent by the state, there is nowhere for them to go apart from a PNI, or [for those with physical disabilities] an invalids' home," says Sisneva.

Life Route began to discuss how the assisted living arrangement could be made permanent for the nine people they rehoused during lockdown. The charity rented four apartments, including one for Nina to share with fellow care home residents Sergey and Ivan. Arina moved back to her own apartment, and began instead to spend one night a week at Nina's new accommodation on rotation with other volunteers.

But there was another hurdle.

The PNI can only release their residents' care permanently to Life Route if those people have what is termed "legal capacity" - in other words, the state considers them able to function independently in theory, even if in practice they are in a care home.

Nina does not have legal capacity - all decisions about her life are made for her by the director of her PNI. As Nina is so functionally able, it is not clear why this is, though experts say it can be simply a foible of the system. If, like Nina, someone has arrived from previous care such as a children's home, and has never been properly assessed, their legal status might never be challenged.

So Arina has applied to become Nina's guardian.

"One day it just sort of clicked. And I realised I had to do it."

If her request is granted, Arina will become responsible for every element of Nina's life - financial, practical, emotional and medical. As her guardian the PNI will finally share Nina's diagnosis with her.

The process won't be straightforward, she says, involving extensive financial, physical and psychological check-ups on Arina.

"Emotionally [the decision] wasn't easy either," says Arina. "But once I took Nina out of the care home, she became my responsibility."

This all-consuming obligation might explain why there are so few people who volunteer to become legal guardians in Russia.

While Arina waits to be granted Nina's guardianship, the PNI could demand that Nina - whose state benefits they are currently losing out on - return to them at any time.

Meanwhile, Arina says she is still working out the exact role she plays in Nina's life.

"I can never be Nina's mum. I will never be able to give her the childhood she deserved."

But she accepts that Nina sees her as much more than a friend. Nina expects her presence on all important errands: to the dentist, to get her ears pierced, to get registered at the local GP.

And these new responsibilities have come at a time when life has been tough for Arina in other ways.

"It wasn't just Nina who went through a big emotional change. I went through a lot emotionally, too - during this time my salary was cut; I have had complicated developments in my personal life."

But Arina says all this has brought them closer together.

"Once you have gone through all these experiences [alongside another person], it is hard to backpedal.

"I won't say I'm not anxious about it. I'm incredibly anxious. And there are certain people around me who freak me out even more. They keep asking me. 'Have you thought it through? It's for life!'

"I calm myself down by saying that we have a plan."

That plan is to work towards eventually restoring Nina's full legal capacity.

Nina needs to be deemed independent by the state if she ever wants to live alone or get a job.

Other than Arina, she has one other close relationship - with a man called Sasha, who she met in PNI 22, and who is now in assisted living in a different apartment. Nina regularly meets up with Sasha in the city, and is clearly fond of him. Arina is aware that Nina may want to eventually marry and she would need legal capacity for that too.

So Arina hopes Nina's tutoring will give her the option to be assessed at some point.

"Examiners look closely at a person's reading, writing and counting abilities," Arina has heard.

The process is not publicly available but anecdotal accounts suggest it can include everything from being expected to dance or sing a song, or even know the price of a loaf of bread.

Arina says they won't apply for Nina to take this test until she is as prepared as she can be.

In the meantime, Arina is involved in all the important moments of Nina's life.

"Maybe I'm just the type of person that is not afraid of responsibility. It is an unexpected - but actually a good thing - that has happened to me.

"I love her. There's not much to it. I love her very much."

My Friend from a Care Home is available to watch now on YouTube.

[homenum-revelio-hq]

Welcome (back) to the Order of the Phoenix, Sara!

You have been accepted for the role of non-biography character NILAM DEUIL REGULUS BLACK with the faceclaims of Go Ah-Sung & Ahn Jae-Hyun! We’re so excited to have you back into the roleplay with Regulus. We especially liked how you describe her readiness to explore her identity. We were very interested in the complications that having an underground informant pretending to be someone else via polyjuice can bring to the Order!

Please take a look at the new member checklist and send in your account within 24 hours! Thank you for joining the fight against Voldemort!

OUT OF CHARACTER:

NAME: Sara

AGE: i am so old, Karli

TIMEZONE: EST

ACTIVITY LEVEL: generally around every day for at least one post

ANYTHING ELSE: n/a 

CHARACTER DETAILS:

NAME: Regulus Black going by Nilam a shortening of Alnilam which is a star on Orion’s Belt and means “belt of pearls”. She tries not to use any last name but uses Deuil, the French word for mourning because it makes her think of black clothing and amuses her.

AGE: 19

GENDER, PRONOUNS, and SEXUALITY:

Regulus Black would not know how to have sex if someone took her hand, stripped her of clothes, and gave her an extensive, hands on, tutorial. It's not that she hasn't thought about sex, or that she wouldn't enjoy it. It's more that that she went from angry and angsty Hogwarts kid straight to Voldemort's inner circle. Then she participated in some murdering, uncovered some very uncouth dark magic practices, and then purposefully poisoned herself in a cave.

She's been busy and, really, this is her very first time she's ever had the chance to be on her own and try to figure out what she likes. In addition to that, there's been this pervasive understanding that Regulus Black was a boy. Along with stealing back some time (sort of), Regulus has really stolen back her own identity after her whole life time of pretending to be another gender. Unfortunately the identity she stole back didn't come with a tutorial or a new personality. At least, so far, her mother doesn't know but that might be because she faked her own death.

Oh, and if found out most of her family will want to kill her and the other part of the family, well, can she even trust them? 

Details, really. Stupid, unimportant, details. Totally doesn’t impact her self perception at all.

BLOOD STATUS: Pureblood

HOUSE ALUMNI: Slytherin

ANY CHANGES: N/A

CHARACTER BACKGROUND:

PERSONALITY:

Strengths--

Expansive Thinking:

It’s not so much cunning or perception or even intelligence that Regulus Black has. Her OWLs were okay—if not spectacular. Her ability to socialize… somewhat less so than other family members. But what she lacks in social and book learning she well makes up for in being able to piece together information. Sure, Regulus might have never been able to sit down and regurgitate a chapter of a book—but she could take that same information and connect it to other chapters in other books and understand how it works. The same concept is applied outside of learning and into social situations—a perception on who-is-interested-in-whom (which got her into trouble more than once at Hogwarts when he blurted it out in the common room) or just what someone else is getting up to. Regulus doesn’t require obvious information—just enough clues that, over time, fit together like a puzzle.

Cunning it's not just a descriptor for her house: Regulus might not be the most conniving social mover, but that doesn't mean she hasn't sniffed out ways to manipulate all on her own. Before faking her own death, she became quite good at blending into the background, looking softer and more malleable than she was (although, to be fair, she was always a little more malleable than Regulus would have wanted to admit), and collecting information without being thought of as, well, anything worth worrying about. Post-faking-her-death, well, she's got to survive somehow… sure she might have it  slightly easier (everyone's looking for a boy, after all, if they are looking for anyone…) but that doesn't mean she isn't striving, and mostly succeeding, to keep herself and what she knows safe. Regulus Black might feel like she’s been dealt a shit hand—but she’s been doing okay with it so far and that’s all down to being a cunning little asshole.

Weaknesses--

Anxious it's not mess that makes Regulus anxious: its life. Regulus as always been an unsettled, introverted, pureblood who  doesn't care for loud noises (shouting is the worst), mudbloods, werewolves or mess. Counting helps, rubbing the inside of her robes between her fingers helps. Not being around people helps. Really, all of this would be a dead giveaway to her figuring out Voldemort or Death Eater plans but… its constant. It's been a part of Regulus since, perhaps, the day she was born--or, if not then, then certainly by the time she landed at Hogwarts. In fact, she's even learned how to use it to her advantage to some degree--to throw someone off  or mislead them...but that doesn't really help when an argument breaks out and all she wants to do is cover her ears and shout stop stop stop.

Unstable so all the cunning and crafty thinking couldn't save Regulus from one stupid decision: drinking poison. If you asked her, even, she was perfectly fine before she went into a cave and drank a mysterious dark potion… but would anyone stable really think that was the best course of action? Into a cave. Alone. (Does a a house elf even count?) Knowing it was set up by one of the darkest wizards of her time who was fracturing his soul for immortality. No, Regulus Black reached the point of 'unstable' long before that poison touched her lips. It's even possible that the poison she drank has nothing to do with her difficulties now. Sometimes her hands  go numb and she drops things, other times she misses a little time...well, she thinks, she didn’t need that hour anyway! Thoughts get a bit out of order--though they seem perfectly acceptable right then. This should concern Regulus more than it does but she's survived this long, hasn't she?

BRIEF OVERVIEW OF FAMILY:

Walburga : Regulus likes to say that Sirius is more like their mother but, honestly, she's not so sure about that now (though she will be if she ever argues with Sirius again). Loud, dramatic, and demanding Regulus tried her best to stay in Walburga's good graces more often than not. 

Sirius : older brother, arsehole, Regulus simultaneously adores and loathes her older brother. The adoration came from when they were little, thick as thieves, and nothing could break them apart… until Hogwarts did, until Sirius left for good, until the war. There's a lot that Regulus has never told Sirius and likely a lot Sirius has never told Regulus--and Regulus isn't sure that's a bad thing.

Narcissa : honestly, if Regulus could have family related #goals Narcissa would probably be a good paradigm to aspire to… unfortunately, her poise and social management are so far out of her skillset the idea of attaining those skills is pretty laughable. 

Bellatrix : another family member Regulus delights in ascribing similar personality traits to Sirius. Bellatrix was instrumental in getting Regulus involved with the Death Eater's which was thrilling at sixteen and horrific by  eighteen.

Andromeda : Who? Even after having run away herself, Regulus doesn't  know what to  think about   Andromeda. Andromeda ran away for the wrong reasons, right?

It would be foolish to imply that Regulus Black is nothing like her family: Regulus Black is everything like her family. Slightly neurotic, settled in her own perception of right-and-wrong and superiority… all of this could be describing her mother, some of her extended family, and even her brother (well, neurotic in a different way, surely). The major difference between Regulus Black and Sirius Black is simple: Sirius was gifted a direct personality and Regulus a sponge. One might even call her sensitive—at least if they had met her at five and not fifteen. Instead of struggling against the tide of emotions and shouting in her home, Regulus absorbed it all. Instead of fighting, Regulus aquesessed: they knew better, after all. If she just did everything right maybe things would turn out okay?

Love might not ever be something said but perhaps there was that in the family, too. The language was just different and Sirius had a mistranslation. Regulus was better than that.

OCCUPATION: 

Regulus : family heir, do you think  she was allowed any "hobby" (much less job) other than Death Eater? After leaving the family "nest", so to speak, Regulus looked for ...well, it wasn't so much something to do as something to cover her weird erratic behavior. That something ended up being divination. She has an ad that runs in the paper once a week on different editions that reads: Nilam Deuil. Smoke and Ink scrying by Owl or Toad Appointment Only.

ROLE WITHIN THE ORDER/THOUGHTS ABOUT THE ORDER: 

Regulus is fairly certain they are all going to die--herself most certainly included in that. Granted,  she was expecting to die about two months earlier and that hasn't happened yet. Generally, Regulus has gone from one vigilante group to another and while the people are different  she finds a strange sort of comfort in the cycle of chatter and arguments  she hears. It's … the same? different but the same. In addition to that there’s even some comfort in understanding that they are all going to die--after all, if that's the case, what does any of this matter anyway?

Purpose: Regulus is providing information for sanctuary. Part of that sanctuary agreement is that she can present as the gender she is and not to be outed to anyone. She wanted some measure of freedom (thus new face and faked death) and protection (thus aligning herself with the Order). Her information is along the lines of organization structure, horcruxes, and methodology, among other aspects.

Role: Externally Regulus presents as a new order receuit named Nilam Deuil. A few upper level order members (Dumbledore, Kingsley, Moody, possibly others in play) know Nilam is Regulus while most simply know her as low level assistance in London. Other inner circle members may know that there is some sort of informant that has come forward and is involved in closed door meetings, however they do not know it's Regulus. In this way the Order helps protect Regulus but also holds the leash keeping her tethered to the conflict.

SURVIVAL: 

Regulus should be dead. Regulus is suicidal as a general rule (not that she’d admit to it) and that is no better displayed than in her visit to a cave filled with inferi and poison. However…  she ...didn't die.  she didn't die. Instead,  she was able to get in contact with Dumbledor. In addition to that, prior to her decision to leave the Death Eaters (by death or otherwise) Regulus survived based on her dueling skill and wits--although some would question the latter. She’s only now trying to get into the swing of things of moving around a lot or getting comfortable with a bunch of mudbloods and halfbreeds: she’d rather move around a lot.

RELATIONSHIPS: 

Mary MacDonald she and Regulus only overlapped in a few classes thanks to her being a different house, but  she certainly knows about her -- heard all about her as Mulciber bragged endlessly of that one time  she "put that mudblood" in her place. Regulus got used to gritting her teeth in a smile and nodding along as though  she were oh-so-impressed...but the woman she met didn't seem to have been put in any place and now Mulciber is dead. Maybe there's more to this Mudblood than meets the eye. Maybe there's a reason  she should avoid her -- and not just because  she doesn't want to be tripped-up and found out through a accidental reference to something she should have no idea about.

Sirius Black is the one person who will, at some point, be told who she  is and where she's hiding. Regulus knows the only control she has over that is to spill the beans herself..but should she? Or should she wait and see when Dumbledor or one of the  other  upper Order Member's out her? If she waits she might die before she ever has to deal with whatever fallout that will bring. 

OOC EXPLORATION:

SHIPS/ANTI-SHIPS: Regulus / Chemistry. Really, Regulus is more asexual then anything.

WHAT PRIVILEGES AND BIASES DOES YOUR CHARACTER HAVE?  Regulus : was born into every ounce of privilege and is having a hard time managing the fact she now lives as though she has none of them. Purebloods are obviously better than everyone else --except now it's everyone else that is inadvertently keeping her alive. In addition to that, Regulus also had the privilege of being tutored in dueling and additional educational opportunities. She speaks French and passable German in addition to English and… plays the harpsichord. 

WHAT ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO? Fuck Terfs, frankly.

PLOT DROP IDEAS: You know me, I’m here to be the IC fuck up who blows up a building on pure accident unlike Dorcas… or providing information at the wrong time (or right one)

ANYTHING ELSE? N/A

EXTRA FOR NON-BIO CHARACTERS:

PAST: 

Regulus Black was never supposed to be the heir of the Black family. Sirius was louder, a natural at many things, and just almost the ideal Heir. Almost because he rebelled a bit too much and Regulus never quite understood why. It would have been so much easier if Sirius had just… relaxed. Family was important and for all that Sirius loved them, his friends were not family. While Sirius was learning the importance of close friends (and found family) Regulus was being immersed in the family mindset. She was never one to question too hard and certainly not socially skilled enough to find better contacts. It was almost natural, certainly half expected, that her counter rebellion to her brother was joining the Death Eaters. What wasn't expected was that  she eventually, slowly but decisively, realized that her 'go along and everything is fine' way of being was the worst choice she could have made. 

PRESENT: 

Regulus Black faked “his” own death. What else was she supposed to do, really? If she left she’d just be murdered and have never had the opportunity to live as herself. Granted, she expects this ‘opportunity’ to sell what she knows to the Order and live “freely” to evaporate shortly but something is better than nothing. It’s just too damn bad that drinking poison has given her some adverse effects and pretending to be someone she’s not takes social skills she’s never honed. At least when she looks in the mirror she feels like herself for the first time...or would if her polyjuice didn't round out her face so much. For Regulus, it’s all about the details and racing a self-made clock before she fucks up enough that everyone will realize: surprise! That weird new girl is a murderous Death Eater who had enough information to buy herself a new life.

Regulus' Alias is: Nilam Deuil a former Beauxbatons Academy student and current Smoke and Ink scrying divination "expert".

FC CHOICES: Go Ah-Sung (and Ahn Jae-Hyun) or Lana Condor (and Moon Gayoung)

#homenumaccepted

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Women Who Like Dudes Who Like Dudes Who Like Women

Thoughtful Thursday

I don't have stats on this (shocking, I know), but I would venture that at least half of the guys I talk to or am involved with are bi or pan. It's not something I actively seek out, so I suspect it's more a symptom than a cause. Why, though?

Cuddlebug: "But uhhhh, if I were to guess, empathy is very hard for a majority of people, so having firsthand experience with pushy guys would lead to higher likelihood of being empathetic toward females"

I also suggested that I just like people who are really sexually open-minded, so there's naturally a lot of overlap.

Today I want to poke at that.

I’ve talked a bit about how I like to think I don’t have a type, and how I absolutely have a type which is bearded, Hispanic, long-haired nerdy gamer musician potheads. 

But there’s something else, as well. I'm sure there's a term for a kind of guy I'm noticing myself drawn toward, but for the life of me I can't figure it out. The closest thing I can think of is what would have been called "metrosexual" in the early 2000s. 

Not quite "softboi" because there's not that hipster-like sense of like 

"ooh I'm so deep and tortured, look at me in my Doc Martens smoking my cigarette and reading Bukowski" 

but a guy who doesn't mind being emotionally vulnerable, uses nice bath products, wears pink and maybe floral patterns and color coordinates, likes twinkle lights, wants to be the little spoon sometimes, gets visibly/audibly excited about things, doesn’t wear a lot of blue jeans or cargo shorts, has a good group of friends, is more than likely attracted to men. Baymax had many of these qualities. Meximelt, too. Cuddlebug, to an extent. And I can't say that it's a reflexive reaction of wanting to be with guys who are the opposite of Dr. Strangelove, because it’s definitely not a new phenomenon.

So what is this, and why?

I imagine some of it is just wanting to be around men who are laid-back, low-pressure, and not necessarily physically intimidating, for trauma-related reasons. 

Though, that being said. Space Kitten is an imposing figure, (relevant Space Kitten quote: "I am secretly a physically potent individual.") but they are also soft as marshmallow fluff in a spiritual sense. I explained this to them at some point a while back

Me:  But yes the low pressure thing. Because I feel like that’s always been established with us, but particularly with where I am rn mentally and emotionally it’s unbelievably comforting to know that there’s no pressure or obligation or frustration, and also just…really refreshing to be around someone to whom that kind of thing is important. 

SK: Yessss.

Me: And especially with regards to how…you are a physically large person and trauma brain can say ‘whoa that’s scary’ but everything about your actions and personality is completely Not That, and it’s like ‘Hands so big!! But touch nice and sweet’. And it’s really the most disarming thing and so precisely what I needed to be reminded of.  

There's just something about a man who is capable of being strong, but knows when to apply that and when not to. Self-control, self-awareness, discipline, empathy. Very sexy qualities.

They say women are always looking to date men who remind them of their fathers, but I think that depends on how terrible your father is and your level of self-awareness. I tend to go in the opposite direction - my father would hate the men I date, which is fine by me because he doesn’t have to meet them.

Sidebar: Maybe that’s why I’m attracted to Jewish guys? My father once told me that “the only Jews (he) likes are dead ones”, which was a horrifying statement. 

I think the biggest thing is that I have this need to be involved with people who are more…outgoing? Not necessarily extroverted, but social for sure, willing to do things, not isolated. We can talk more about how that relates to Dr. Strangelove on Monday. I like people who bring out the qualities in myself that I want to work on developing.

And while I was looking for that Space Kitten conversation, I found another from 2013 which is semi-relevant, so I'll include it so you can judge how pretentious and EXACTLY THE SAME I am.

Me: [Prairie Chicken] made a comment that I want your opinion on.

SK: Hmm?

Me: I was talking about, like I explained to you earlier, how he's very much the "type" that I like, but rarely actually get with (short, stocky, Hispanic, into science and video games). And how most of the guys I see are none of those things.

SK: Right.

Me: "And he said that he finds that hard to believe, because (and he put it nicer than this, I promise) he doesn't really see why non-nerdy guys would be interested in me.

SK: Ha.

Okay.

What are you wondering?

Me: I think the way he put it, when pressed, was that for a nerdy guy, I'm kind of perfect, but with other guys he doesn't see what we would really have in common. And I was wondering whether you agree with that. As a nerdy guy, as someone who knows me, and as an objective observer of human nature and social interaction.

SK: I'm inclined to disagree. But I mean, I think that's because you don't have to interact with someone on nerdy levels to be appealing.

Me: Me personally, or people in general? Define your "you".

SK: Both.

Me: Okay.

SK: I intended you personally.

But both makes sense.

I think it's because sometimes people just wanna interact with a warm-body. I dunno. I don't really picture you with extremely "average" people for the most part, but that's because I figure in a lot of cases you'd just be disinterested.

Me: I mean, for me...I am usually attracted to nerdier guys, but I can have relationships with "non-nerdy" people, because the way I see it, nerdery is all about being passionate about something. Like we've discussed at length, what I (and you) like to see most in people is a passion for something, whether that be music or Star Trek or D&D, or something less "nerdy" like fishtanks or motorcycles.

It just tends to be that most "average" people are made "average" by their distinct lack of passion for anything which might mark them as extraordinary or individuals.

SK: Yes.

But also like.

You're like "I like movies." That gives you a lot of common ground with most people.

You're also relaxed and easy to talk to, and you have some sexual vibes goin' on.

So that's why I'm like... I don't think it'd be an issue for other people to be attracted to you that aren't nerdy.

Me: But when I say "I like movies" I don't mean "I like rom-coms and bullshit comedies and lots of explosions". I mean "I like disturbing foreign films with Nazi pedophiles and graphic rape scenes". And that's where me and a lot of people tend to part ways.

[Tarantino] and I had a similar problem. We were going to go out to eat, and I was thinking great, there are a ton of options. I know of this great Mediterranean place off University, or maybe that tiny Mexican place where I had that lengua torta. And he says "Is there like a burger place or maybe somewhere for pizza?"

I think non-nerdy people have an easy time being attracted to me on a superficial level. It's a lot harder for me to have a deep, special connection with someone else.

I have changed so little in 8 years; I just went on a weird detour away from living my best life.

That's enough brain dumping for today.

Tomorrow we'll check in on the responses I got to the Icebreaker questions!

#okcupid #dating #poly #online dating #dating app #tinder #Spotify #dating apps suck #thoughts

[unicolabsworld]

I took myself out on a date🎀 | Being my own boyfriend🎍

I think the most important thing in our life is Self-love. Let's see what self love means ' According to the bbrfoundations, Self-love is a state of appreciation for oneself that grows from actions that support our physical, psychological and spiritual growth. '

Taking yourself out on a date doesn't make you look like you are pathetic in any way. It's one of the ways you are making the bond with yourself more stronger, you are knowing yourself in a much better way. In the past I have been in many situations where I have criticized myself badly for something or the other reason, which actually is bad for your mental health. So I want to make it up to myself. I will try to make the date as beautiful as much as I can for myself. I want to give a whole day for myself❤️

I have chalked down all the ideas about what I am going to do. I am excited for my date. Basically it is going to be a Cozy Home Date because the temperature outside is going to be anywhere around 35° C. And anybody who knows me might be knowing that I hate summers more than anything.

Today is 29-03-2022, the day for my date. Let's get started.

I woke up at 5:15 am to see the sunrise. I checked online that the sun is going to rise at 5:32 am. And sunrises are beautiful like truly beautiful. I would like to quote a beautiful question said by "Unjaded Jade'' on Youtube "How are sunrises free?" That's my question too. How can this beautiful scenery don't cost any price? Generally we need to pay a good amount for beautiful things but this is free of cost.

After brushing my teeth, I exercised. I am not a person who goes to Gym [At Least for now, just because I don't have membership], I just did home workouts, even though I am a person who don't really like exercising but you gotta stay fit, right! After finishing, I changed my clothes to newer ones because I got sweaty. I took my medicines, applied some skincare products & made my bed.

After that I sat down to study - " Study Date". You might think it is boring but it was good for me considering that I like studying.

I took a coffee break in the middle with some 'Nimki ' - my favourite.

I took German & Korean lessons which I was putting off for a few days.

Ich liebe dich!! [German]

사랑합니다!! [Korean]

Both mean "I love you!!".

I was thinking of playing "Just Dance" for a few days but could not make out time for that. But I could do only two dances only i.e. "Icecream by BlackPink ft Selena Gomez" & "Say so by Doja Cat" [Yk I don't have that premium pack😬].

By the time I finished my dance session, it was already time for me to shower. I usually shower with a soap bar but today is a special day so I used Shower Gel.

After having lunch, I rested for a bit [Basically took a nap (¬‿¬) ]. And asked my mom to wake me up at 5:00 pm, I had to take some pictures😁 to keep this day as a memory.

After waking up, I washed my face and did make-up & went to my terrace to click some photos.

In the evening, my father brought fried dumplings surprisingly & it was soooo tasty. It was one of the tastiest dumplings I have ever had. So it was like an add-on to this special day. I ate the dumplings with my parents, whom I value the most in the world, under the summer breezy sky.

{Spending time with my loved ones is one my most favourite things to do.}

I read a few chapters of my new Harry Potter book "The Philosopher's stone". After reading Harry Potter I understood why people love Harry Potter books so much, it surely is lovable & addictive. I am definitely going to buy the 2nd series.

After dinner, I saw the movie - Encanto [Well, I love animated movies more than anything.].

And I went to bed at 12:25am. I went to bed 10 min earlier than usual. I guess that's a success, right!

My last thought on this Date - "Self-Date" / Self care days are just a fancy term for 'take care of yourself' or 'make a little time for yourself' so that we can understand ourselves better. These cute small dates are actually really fun & refreshing to the mind & body. These kinds of self-care days are like the refresh button of the body-system. Self-care days doesn't always have to be really fancy or aesthetic as in putting a nice mask or drinking a glass red wine in your pretty rose-filled bathtub like we see on tiktok, instagram or pinterest, it can be as simple as a normal home movie watching or watching the night sky or baking your favourite cookies. And also it doesn't have to be a whole day long, even 5 mins or 30 mins or 1 hrs will work is enough for that "Me - time".

My Self care Playlist :

You can find the pictures of my date on my instagram (__unicolab__). Follow me to see the updates.

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