#like borderline yelled at me

[fagbearentertainment]

I’m glad people weren’t like screaming in the theater the whole time when I saw the movie but I also kinda wish I wasn’t the only one like. Fighting the urge to squeal and scream and happy stim (still talked way too loud a few times tho) when the fandom references and YouTubers appeared lol

#people keep talking about how when they went it was all hardcore fnaf fans in the room #freaking out when matpat came on screen and the it’s me Easter egg appeared #but mine was like #one group of fans in matching Freddy shirts #who stayed mostly silent #and me the autistic freak #visibly shaking and borderline yelling when the living tombstones started playing #fnaf #fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers #<- for one of my tags

[kirbsto]

Obligatory thruple post

#they mean the world to me #ppl need to stop leaving Gwen out of their polycule fr #Merlin is the chaotic pansexual with no impulse control Arthur is just as bad but yells at him anyways despite being worse and #Gwen has them both on child leashes while also goading them on bc she thinks it’s funny #Merlin and gwen like to jump scare arthur bc he’s so serious it’s borderline comedic #arthur and gwen dog pile Merlin bc he simply never sleeps and it’s annoying #Arthur and Merlin do the “guess who’ thing to Gwen every single time they see her and it’s more obnoxious than endearing #let them be annoying together i mean it 🤬 #bbc merlin #Merlin #merlin fanart #murther #arwen #merwenthur #??? #is that the ship name??? #oh well #my art

[dodgeryy]

Seeing the WORST fucking takes on PD tumblr sometimes 😭😭 idk who this "we" is but it's certainly not me.

#npd safe #actually narcissistic #cluster b #bpd #actually borderline #persodivergent #hkes be like yea i killed a man but my mkm yelled at me when i was younger so its ok #its not ok babes

[swordfaery]

aita for publicly pouring orange juice on someone

I (20nb) have a close guy friend (22m). We hang out a lot, text a lot, and I have viewed him as one of my best friends.

I imagine you can guess where this is going.

A couple of months ago, when we were friends but not as close, he attempted to get with me. We were in his bed after a night out, but I am a lesbian and have been very clear about this fact. We were both drunk and giggly and then he said hey what if we made out right now. I was a bit upset as I saw him as a friend and it felt as though he didn’t see me as a friend, but rather as an opportunity. However he was really cool when I said no thanks, and I figured he was probably just drunk and that our friendship was more important.

This week I discovered that after failing to sleep with me, he went and told a bunch of his friends an ‘embellished’ story about how I gave him ‘blue balls.’ He reveals a different number of people he said this to each time he apologises, but frankly that is low on my list of concerns. I am furious with him about the level of entitlement he felt to have sex with me, I feel objectified and dehumanised and as though he does not respect me or my right to not have sex with him. He was also one of my closest friends, so on top of that I feel pretty betrayed. I yelled at him and he apologised a bunch, but didn’t seem to understand why I’m upset with him.

He knows that I don’t like it when men objectify me, and he’s watched it happen before. He tried to hide the fact that he had spoken about me like that, and when I asked him if he always talked that way after getting rejected he said ‘fucking hell no’ so clearly he knows this is bad.

The day after I confronted him we were both supposed to go to a uni party. The dress code was black tie, and he was wearing a suit. Even though I was still furious with him, he did not attempt to apologise again or even try and make it up to me, and instead flounced about talking to other people. At one point I saw him laughing so I bought a glass of orange juice and poured it on his head.

He was not wearing the suit jacket at the time, just a shirt, but it got him absolutely soaking and made him look very stupid.

He is now angry with me for pouring orange juice on him, but I am more angry with him for treating me as though I owed him sex and getting upset when this wasn’t given to him. However he is not texting me to apologise anymore and honestly I’m kind of upset about losing my friend. But then after how he treated me I sort of don’t want to be friends with him, I want to be friends with a person who didn’t do that.

#life updates w november #it’s also like. everyone there was fuvking baffled when i poured juice on him #which shows how much i’ve mellowed put recently bcos in sixth form everyone kinda expected that from me #i promise i dont shit like that unless i feel like ppl deserve ot tho #honestly i try not to yell at ppl i’m really working on. Responding not Reacting #borderline is gonna borderline

[honeypleasejustkillme]

does anyone else get super anxious when people use your name when their tone is negative? like i had a friend say “i’m sorry ____ i don’t wanna talk right now” and i just started crying because i’m scared he is upset with me but ofc i’m leaving him alone since that’s what he wants, i’m just so paranoid he’s upset with me.. and people being upset with me is one of my biggest triggers

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #like it brings back memories of my childhood and i just hate it #it makes me so anxious and scared #especially when people yell

[angrylesbianstereotype]

Real talk tho I don’t think we’re actually going to get anywhere in terms of destigmatizing mental illness until we start accepting that A) some mentally ill people really are not fully in control of their actions and this does not make them monsters bc they are not actively choosing to hurt others, and B) that does not mean that you are obligated to take shit from them bc you’re foremost obligation is to protect yourself, and bc there are shitty ppl out there who will feign being out of control so that they can get away w hurting you w/out suffering any of the natural repercussions that come w acting like a jerkoff. Also! Bc that person who really was out of control does not really want you to put yourself in the line of fire for them, bc they don’t really want to hurt you! And I think of these things are really hard for ppl to come to terms w bc it’s a lot harder to feel in control of a situation when there is no one person to blame, then it just feels really doomy and like there is no right response, which there really isn’t on an individual level, bc the reality is that the only constructive response to any of this is for the system to stop making it impossible for ppl to get the help they need, which… isn’t going to happen anytime soon :(

#i don’t want to be a source of anxiety and trauma for the ppl around me anymore #and i’ve tried to change but when i’m having an episode i can rlly only redirect my terrible vibes into doing some other crazy person shit #that still freaks ppl out but at least it isn’t directly targeted at them #until they get mad at me for my regulatory behaviors and then i start yelling :) #like pls just let me act not normal in peace this is actually the best that i can do #the only way i can fix it is w meds that i have to jump through flaming hoops to access #i don’t know if any of this is helpful for anyone or if i’m just over sharing on the internet but hopefully #borderline personality disorder #bpd #mental illness

[hellonoblesky]

Actually the funniest part of hannibal is that they call Baltimore a "small town". are you insane

#turtledove yells into the abyss #brother that is not a small town im sorru #I've probaly psoted abt this befpre but like forgive me bc I'm borderline delerious and half asleep rn #but like . GIRL THAT IS A CITY

[late-for-the-sky]

How are you doing today?

My whole body and all my emotions are yelling at me through like 14 megaphones at the same time. Hbu ?

#how am i doing? #yelling at me #body and mind are rotting #lost myself #falling apart #bpd #lost #depressiv #borderline personality disorder #suffering #drugs #love #suicidal #feel like a hundred #too much #too depressed to sleep #tw #vent #sad #broken #bipolar #actually bipolar #bipolar 2 #bipolar disorder #depressed student #depressing shit #kinda depressing #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts

[ihatethishellwebsite]

Thinking about... Aberdeen Zalinki cover again...

Bro really uploaded one of the most beautifully painful songs I have ever heard in my fucking life and then wiped it off the face of the earth without warning, I only have it downloaded bc I was gonna use it in a speedpaint and then HOURS after I downloaded it he took it down like holy shit

#I have this like #specific memory of having listened to this song one time and then saving it for later bc it's a song I knew would inspire me #and then the next day at work I at somepoint became incredibly stressed and started to have a mental spiral #like I very narrowly avoided brain turning into jelly in the middle of my shift #and during this the part where he yells aberdeen in a drawn out scream just. #looped and spiraled and contorted and twisted in my head #for that entire time I was borderline having a breakdown #Zalinki's music got me through a lot of that summer and I have a lot of emotions tied to his work #but man that specific instance was definitely one of the more surreal things I've experienced #like wow my mental state sure was collapsing what the fuck was that #I'm fine now tho that job just kinda sucked

[bo0zey]

manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs

#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly #also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday #was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled #6:13??? #then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything #so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs #and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor #i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk #and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years #i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly #so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again #i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to #i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone #they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday #they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words #i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone #meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs #i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her #“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’ #i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again #i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again #ooos im crying again lol #im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child #23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol #i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t #i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol #pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid #drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem #i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like #i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive

[vegaseatsass]

Queen Seondeok spoilers (~ep 50)

Queen Seondeok, where the worst character dies stupidly and his devoted disciple ultimately becomes best friends with his murderer like nothing happened (V SATISFYING, V DELIGHTFUL, GOOD RIDDANCE TO BAD PARENTS+), but the best character dies so epicly and maddeningly that it keeps you up at night*.

*night = tonight. There's so much adrenaline in my body, I can't live again until I read or write fix-it fic

+she was a bad parent too, to the same exact kid as the other guy no less, but it's DIFFERENT because she's sexy

#i'm also still not over the second best character death #so the fic i'm borderline feral over needing to write will fix all of it #but not in a way that focuses on plot implications at all #literally just gonna write a fic of deokman time traveling back to when she was a trainee and mishil asked her to fuck #and have her seduce the shit out of mishil. 'i'm gonna make her love me more than she loves silla' #but i need to watch the last 11 episodes to decide like what precipitates this #but i don't want to wait i need to write or read fic NOW #queen seondeok #queen seondeok spoilers #lady mishil the goat #she would LITERALLY RATHER DIE than just let a nice girl take her back to her bedroom and treat her nice #gdi #anyway her bad parenting came in the form of leaving her baby on the floor #she was like 'i don't need you anymore' and peaced out #so when he came back i was like OH MY GOD THAT'S THE BABY MISHIL LEFT ON THE FLOOR #every scene IT'S THE BABY SHE LEFT ON THE FLOOR #you see how that is a superior kind of bad parenting to a guy who yells a lot and makes you feel worthless #for not understanding his oblique paternalistic morality w/o explaining? #her other bad parenting is that she's literally dying and tells him that it's bad for him to like love unselfishly #her dying words: be shittier to the woman you love. trust me #but he doesn't seem to take it to heart lol so it's fine #unlike everything munno says which he completely takes to heart #forever #i'm so glad he befriends munno's murderer. it's WHAT HE DESERVES #'would it have killed you to hug me?' dude seriously #i came back to this post and added more tags because i have no one to talk about this with #i love mishil and i love the twincesses and i love the baby mishil left on the floor #dear diary

[imagineitdearies-old]

Damn your ass really out there again supporting transphobic content creators after everything. What happened to your apology tour for hating on fem Luke? Nah we back and liking the terfy authors shit again because you are the fucking worst. Please find a single principle

So no joke my notification just showed "Damn your ass..." as the preview to this note 😂 As I've mentioned to other anons (or maybe you again?? starting to wonder), I'm going to answer by flirting with y'all now.

So heyyy, don't be shy anon, it sounds like you've been hanging on my every word of late instead of blocking and moving on like I suggested so you MUST want a piece of this ass 😘🥰💕✨

though i honestly don't know which creator or which post you're referring to, we clearly have very different definitions of what transphobia and good principles are, so there's no point in discussion at all. sorry babe, i don't think this is going to work out--time to move on 💔😞

#any future asks about this are just going to get deleted srry bby #i think literally everyone but you has moved on #if we're talking transphobia lets address actual harm happening in the world #my best friend is literally losing their rights in the us state they live in #so shit like this is borderline hilarious to me rn #especially bc policing authors was the issue at the table but ppl like YOU are the actual policers yelling at authors looool #ask me shit

[brimk-personal]

Parents guilted me into spending basically all my spring break with them at home (in their defense I never told them I wanted to only be home a few days)

Fucking basement flooded. Again. There’s some sort of flooding/water damage every year or so in this goddamn house. I don’t know if it’s bc the house is fucking put together and was repaired with gum and duct tape by the previous owners or that the ppl my dad brings in to do actual repairs always suck ass, but both is likely

#I can’t get to the back corner where my home art stuff is bc the basement is a borderline hoarder situation #like the og plan was finished + SOME storage + video game/kid hang out area #then more random crap from my parents would end up down there or wouldn’t be put away after digging around in storage #then flood 1. had to gut it out. didn’t refinish it (thankfully) and tried to stick with the same plan (but w suspiciously less kid space) #then flood 2. after clean up it started off w mostly the same usage then became a more dedicated work space for me and hs bro during covid #and during that like 2-3 year gap w/o basement flooding (dw other parts got fucked instead) soooo much junk ended up down there #like cardboard boxes of literal junk my dad cleaned out from his car/office desks. and just plopped down on the floor #and just spread out everywhere. like it wouldn’t be AS bad if the junk was stacked up #oh wait I lied. we HAVE had water issues since covid down there. but just small things that didnt wreck it 🙃 #anyways. had to deal w dad yelling and blaming everyone else for there being a bunch of crap down there <3 yay!! #bri rambles

[on-the-edge-of-dune]

#its not even 10am #and i already can't cope #being borderline fucking sucks #quiet bpd is not so fucking quiet #it would not be pounding at my skull and YELLING at me #just fucking die #OT but who cares #quiet bpd #bpd vent #uuuu its like the old edgy tumblr

[halinski]

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#what even is with some ppl tho #like some strangers saw my scars and pointed and were like: BORDERLINE? #and im like... can ppl stop immediately yelling borderline when they see scars? #plus like why should i have to tell you my diagnoses upon meeting? like i think not stranger #and then they had the audacity too keep asking questions like #did you stop sh? #or did you just move to a different area #and its like cool prpps for knowing more abput bpd than anyone else in my life and recognizing it all in me #but like????? #rude much #sleep i can't sleep and i just wanna go hooooooommmmmme #ignore me