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bo0zey · 1 year
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manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs
#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly#also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday#was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled#6:13???#then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything#so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs#and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor#i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk#and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years#i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly#so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again#i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to#i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone#they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday#they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words#i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone#meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs#i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her#“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’#i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again#i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again#ooos im crying again lol#im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child#23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol#i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t#i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol#pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid#drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem#i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like#i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive
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gotyouanyway · 1 year
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having a lot of fun thinking about the different types of genderlessness embodied by different doctors.. not in-universe agender identity (as fun and interesting as that is to think about) but in a more narrative sense of a genderless character. like, 11 is genderless like a child. 4 is genderless like an insect. 7 is genderless like a dark silhouette in a doorway. 8 is genderless like a dissected corpse is genderless. do u know what i mean
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marioggy · 16 days
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Oh my god Rambo Jason *blushes*
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lactose-tolarant · 17 days
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april 13th day !!!
happy day to:
Neil Banging Out The Tunes
Homestuck day
JUICE launch
<3
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qalrey · 7 months
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13 years of pones!!
flats + sketch bellow!
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i had a lot of trouble drawing AJ, then i realised i've never drew her in my entire life
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t00thpasteface · 17 days
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the crustiest crab
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chinzhilla · 4 months
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Do you remember when we first met at camp? You know, I really wanted to hug you then.
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originalartblog · 5 months
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Do you know who's also 15 has a final form values friendship above most things wants to keep everyone safe and has fought and won against multiple gods or god-like entities???
anyway I firmly believe a little bit of Sonic could have saved Chuuya.
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vicsy · 21 days
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hey mutuals, please reblog and put in the tags what number you’d race under if you were an F1 driver!
mine would be either 6 or 13 (lucky number etc) 🫶🏻
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shineforthee · 10 days
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13.6: Tombstone, done in charcoal for @stevebcks
Friend, knowing you this past year has actually genuinely changed me. I'm so grateful for your friendship I could go on about it forever (and will, for the rest of eternity) but for now, here's this piece art I'll give to you in September. Thank you for loving these idiots as much as I do, and for loving me as much as you do. I love you too much to say. I always say that all the fic I write is certainly in part for you, and that's true, but I don't do nearly as much art so this one's a touch more special.
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marshmallowgoop · 23 days
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no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)
#detective conan#case closed#amv#my amvs#eye strain#heiji hattori#harley hartwell#conan edogawa#shinichi kudo#funimation english dub script#video#happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'!#while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?)#it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real#it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺#and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up'#but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project#it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster!#which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results!#to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio#video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds#but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now#but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!)#i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten#and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it!#thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333#like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3#but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522#and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol#i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...
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pastadoughie · 2 months
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Are you familiar with The Horrors or is it just a small town thing
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you could say
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bruceawaynefrfr · 9 days
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btw guys smosh post around 34 videos a month over the 4 channels and mythical post 46 videos a month on 3 channels
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cocogum · 1 month
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ANKAMA STOP TEASING ME WITH POTENTIAL YUMALIA KIDS‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
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dailyloopdeloop · 17 days
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DAY 24: two roads diverged in a yellow wood
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nalt0r · 24 days
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Hot take: every incarnation of the Doctor brings something new and wonderful to the table and every actor who has played the Doctor was brilliant in their own way.
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