#i was just a kid

[tattoo-kisses-and-what-ifs]

if i could go back to before everything went to shit, i would have no clue what to say to the little girl in front of me. how could i even explain any of what was going to happen to her?

#girlblogging #hell is a teenage girl #mental health #trauma #childhood trauma #childhood #she didn’t deserve that #i didn’t deserve that #i didn’t ask for this #girlblogger #girlblog #im just a girl #girl blog #girl blogger #just girly things #i was just a kid #rant #vent #i’m just a girl #i hate my mother #girlhood #girl things #girl hood #girl hysteria #female hysteria #girl interupted syndrome #lana del rey #slyvia plath #lisa rowe #daisy randone

[fallenqngel]

its crazy what having daddy issues does to someone like tf u mean i view every teacher as my dad and break down whenever any of them even slightly reject me or scream at me

#daddy issues #bpd vent #borderline pd #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd fp #manic pixie dream girl #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlblogger #girlblogging #just girly things #this is what makes us girls #girlhood #lana del rey #lizzy grant #i was just a kid

[free-if-we-want-it]

Then you gave me something...something to believe in. NOTHING BUT THIEVES performing “I Was Just a Kid"” (live in Seoul, KR, 28.11.2023) //🎥 source

#nothing but thieves #conor mason #i was just a kid #broken machine #live performances #tw: flashing lights #gifs

[sak-supernatural]

This is actually crazy! TODAY IS THE DAY!!!

I watched this when I was like 11 and I loved The Flash for the longest time (part of me always will), but I never managed to finish the show I stopped somewhere around s4. I randomly thought about it again today and looked it up only to find out that TODAY is the exact date that seemed so far off in the future in 2013. ONE day later and I would have missed this iconic moment in my life. How have I made it this far? As a kid it seemed like APRIL 25 2024 was nothing more than a fictional date that was never going to happen.

This was actually my first real fandom and I am forever greatfull for that, the first time I discovered shipping could be between any two characters canon or not and the first time I discovered gay fanciction (coldflash). Also a time where I delved hardcore into Xreader for the first and only time in my life, I had the biggest hugest fattest most gigantic crush on Barry Allen and consequently Grant Gustin. How can time be real when I am now the same age as he was when he started in The Flash? This is truly nuts and an iconic moment in my life!!

Anyway as a thanks to anyone who bothered reading my crazed ramblings I’m putting together a playlist of my favourite edits from this era of my life:

P.s. I don’t know how many times I listened to Barry sing “Running Home To You” and imagined it was to me, it was too many.

#the flash #the flash tv #the flash cw #barry allen #the date #April 25 2024 #tv shows #this is a milestone in my life #coldflash #my first crush #i love this man #i love him #i loved this show #oh my god #i was just a kid #i’m getting old #how did I make it this far #how did i get here #my first fandom #first fandom #finding new fandoms #this is actually crazy #this is so cool #this is actually insane #this is actually so funny #this is actually hilarious #fandom #fanfiction #lgbtq fandom #lgbtqia

[shuffle-kerfuffle]

So I’ve started like four, five different campaigns trying to find one thing Astarion said that hit a little too close to home on my first campaign and

Found it

#I existed #and that was enough #I probably shouldn’t relate to that as much as I do but like #with all the shit I’ve been through #I was just a kid #I did nothing to deserve any of it #but I existed. and that was enough. #bg3 #astarion ancunin

[certainstudentdreamer]

how many times do I have to go through this? what was I even meant for? I miss the person I was 4 years ago, many things happened after that, a lot. She didn't deserve any of this. I owe her a huge apology. I don't know what to do, I feel completely helpless. Everything changed after that when I started caring more, loving more, and opening my heart. Having needs, opening up—it all started when my only best friend abandoned me. It hit me so hard, even the top student in me struggled to focus. I developed some seriously unhealthy coping mechanisms, and they're still haunting me today. I found myself doing things I swore I'd never do, enduring that heartbreak for three agonizing years. Every day was a nightmare, with voices in my head screaming nonstop. Then came my second platonic love and the cycle repeated itself. She left me for her boyfriend, leaving me hanging by a thread, which made me wonder, am I that easy to forget? I miss her and after three years, I finally opened up to her, loving her with every fiber of my being but unfortunately it's never enough. Now, there's a third one who hasn't abandoned me yet—or at least I hope not. I pray things will get better once the sun rises again, hoping this is all just a bad dream. If not, I doubt I'll ever open my heart again. Each heartbreak has left me more closed off, always on edge, struggling with basic things. Every possible horror has befallen me, causing irreversible damage and shaping me into who I am today. Sometimes, I wonder about my potential self like what if I hadn't let it all get to me? what if I had been just a bit more lovable, a bit more bearable, someone worth fighting for? I miss the person I used to be—the cheerful, outgoing girl and now, here I am, wondering what I've become...

#i was just a kid

[twinkallegations]

decided to clean my camera roll and now i have to stop crying before returning to work

#i was just a kid

[notasaint]

i lost some sort of light in my eyes at sixteen that i never really got back

i'll mourn that forever

#i was just a kid #tw depressing stuff #self destructive behavior #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #me #words #spilled ink

[reveurrer]

regardless of how my people-pleasing attitude goes, i'm afraid i cant forgive you for what you've done to me

#i was just a kid #quotes #sad #forgive others #no way how do i forgive you for taking away my love for myself? #toxic friends #toxic family #school #school problems #mental problems #school was hell #trying to fit in with the popular group was even worse #sad quotes #angry quotes #relatable quotes #relatable

[healution]

I never deserved what happened to me and it sucks that I'll have to learn to find a way to live with something that you will get away with.

#p #But i won't get away with it #I was just a kid #How could you #How can you #I was 7 #I was 8 #9 #10 #At 11 it got even worse #12 #13 #Kinda crying now

[lovecatsys]

im worrying that im annoying to other comics fans especially Akihiro fans since im a much newer fan and especially with Akihiro talk about a lot of things that im sure people have talked about before

#i need to not worry so much about this but also its because i used to get so much hate and shit on here #in older fandoms but still #i have anon turned off for a reason #but also ive like... had incidents before where i found people in the same fandom talking about posts i made or thinngs i did behind my back #that had like hundreds of notes #and i was like 15 lol so this hurt me way too much and i cared way too much #i was just a kid #i definitely should not have been on tumblr at the time because i was struggling So Much then #but also it was a haven for me

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

[sobbing] we did it,,,, we did it joe

#ITS BEEN ELEVEN YEARS ON AO3 #AND NINETEEN ON FANFICTION DOT NET #I WAS JUST A KID #THIS IS INCREDIBLE IM 😭😭😭😭 #about rie

[everythingseasoning]

Who’s afraid of little old me

Song of me, growing up in an abusive household

I was just a kid, why were you afraid of little old me? (My own lyrics added in)

read the tags if you want

#i sound crazy to them #as I scream: who’s afraid of little old me?! #but I’m the most sane #i was gentle and tame #til the circus life made me mean #i wanna show you just how disturbed this has made me #you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me! #I’m fearsome and I’m wretched and I’m wrong #no I’m not #is it a wonder I broke? let’s hear one more joke #I’m going crazy #you caged me #and you called me crazy! #i was just a kid #why were you afraid of little old me? #I’m drunk on my own tears

[mywordsfortheuniverse]

When I was little I used to dream of having wings. No, not fairy wings. They were grand wings like an owl with silky smooth feathers and were the color of freshly mixed chocolate chip cookie dough. These great wings were my shield from the world. They would wrap my brother in their safe embrace too. They were indestructible and could bear all our pain. These beautiful wings could take us somewhere far away from everything. I can remember seeing them stretch out wide as they protected us time and time again.

But then I would wake up.

#poetry #poem #depressing poem #growing up #i was just a kid #oldest daughter #dreams #the dreams of my youth #wish I had wings

[apathyakaza]

Wait how did i manage to convince myself that my emotions were too big for my parents but their adult emotions were just fine for me

#i was just a kid #but i knew the entire family backstory + some of the neighbors #hmmm #great more things about my past to explore #(👾) #parentified child #emotional neglect

[vesperlionheart]

Today I watched Casino Royale and it had the woman Vesper and the drink in it. It made me think of you because you were the first Vesper I ever knew, from FF for your Saku-centric fics. What's the story behind your chosen name vesperlionheart? Thank you for the joy you've shared with all of your great, big fantastical stories!

Vesper was a character I came up with for Yu-Gi-Oh fan stuff I would play with friends, well before I had any internet access or fandom literacy. I've kept 'vesper' as a name in my heart too long and now it's grown too deep for me to ever cast off.

#I was just a kid #playing games with others where we'd banish one another to the shadow realm #We sat around and came up with terrible backstories #and call dibs on anime characters #like we weren't still in braces