#i want to love my lover

[da-dykefather]

haha early ramadan mubarak

#i want to die #i want to so badly #it is mentally emotionally exhausting living in this toxic unhealthy overly deoendent Muslim household #as an ex Muslim and lesbian who isn't out to everyone #just god i want to survive #i want to keep living i want to try #but its so fucking hard #i want to love my lover #and spend my life doing so #i want to love myself and how i live and i try #but its so hard #i want to die but not really #maybe not really #i don't fucking know #I'm just tired of this #I've made it so far #but god this door won't come any closer no matter the years i push myself further #fuck i fucking hate this all

[perfectlyripeclementine]

calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.

#nonbinary love #nblnb yearning #nb4nb #nblnb #wholesomeposting #yearning hours #ive been thinking about how some languages dont have a possessive tense #so you dont say “i have a thing” but rather “a thing is by me” #and like im not usually one for psycho linguistics and like critical thoughts etc etc etc #but i really like the framework of responsibility/commitment rather than ownership #i think about this mostly in terms of ecology #and relation to land #but i also love it as it applies to language shared between lovers #like i LOVE calling them mine or for them to call me theirs #but i'm also nonmonog and that was kinda weird to square for a while #and it clicked one time when i was talking about my neighborhood and i was like well #when i say my neighborhood or my city it's understood i'm not taking it away from anybody else #its understood i just mean the city where i live #so why cant we apply the same to lovers? #mine in the way i want to show up for you again and again #ok #done now

[inkskinned]

in internet posts it is easy to cut them out of your life. they are hurting you! they aren't listening to you!

they held your hair back. they lent you lipstick. they held your hand at the train station and got you home safe. they rounded on your bully, got loud, said get fucked, spitting-mad in your defense.

they also cut the hair off again. told you that you should really think twice before wearing something like that. took you for granted. took your insecurities and threw them in your face again.

you know logically it should be easy. all the internet advice comments always read it will feel better. like an equation - if a person is rotten, you just remove them. you pull the tooth that's hurting.

but it was never a big flare-up moment. you don't live in a sitcom. they never tried to take your boyfriend or steal from your apartment. they showed up to birthdays and they wrote songs about you and bring you water without you asking. once you found out they carry an emergency inhaler for you, even though you haven't had an asthma attack in years - just in case.

where is the line? people fuck up. sometimes they fuck up badly. sometimes people have raw personalities, like a powerline, and being around them is dangerous. addicting. sometimes they can't help themselves, but you know they're trying. sometimes they are just rough-around-the-edges. sometimes they don't even realize how they sounded when they said that. sometimes it's just - you've both loved each other for so long now, the way this thing hurts goes back to the root.

and that's the fucked up part. you have pushed your fingers against the sweetheart of memory. things these days are electric, tense, harrowing. they didn't used to be. there were a lot of good days in there. sometimes you want to just close your eyes and say can this be over yet? do we still need to be fighting?

doing that would give up any chance you get of getting an apology, but you don't always know that you need an apology, you love them. once they flaked on your birthday party. once they told you to get over it, people are always dying. they also let you crash on their couch for a week after the breakup, handfeeding you when you were so sad you couldn't eat. they are also judgmental about everything, occasionally react to banal statements with an attitude that is weird and fiery. they also love you like a lighthouse sometimes, so strong they cut the storm like lightning.

but the problem is that you might be storm. you might be the thing that needs breaking. what if you are two forces who are desperately, horribly drawn to each other, shaped by the other person's passions, and both good for each other and bad in equal measure.

what if you're both just people, and you're no saint neither.

just cut them off! swallowing the saltwater, you catch yourself in the mirror. you've been shaking more than usual. there's an ache in you that is oblique, loud, impossible to soothe. is this what it looks like? when life is "easier"?

your mouth will always have a hole, is the thing, if you remove the tooth.

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #this is about someone specific but feel free to blorbo on main. #tbh this is familial for me so that is an element but it's also about childhood best friends #and probably about ur enemies to lovers blorbo #(but i want to specifically say if ur partner is like this. not necessarily a good partnership lol.) #(the dynamics at play in familial/friend relationships feel equally important and in some ways are HARDER to escape. #bc we can see that this is a potentially toxic romantic foundation. #but in family ? ...... it's toxic and it doesn't stop u from loving them. bc u always have. #and i think that makes it harder. by a lot. which is what this is referencing). #but genuinely and really truly forever feel free to tag ur potentially toxic enemies to lovers on this and all my poetry #here i'll do one for u - adora & catra :x

[ruporas]

kiss of the divine

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #ruporas art #i will always love u vol 8… Obviously i was a vw lover even thru stampede alone but i think this chapter #really set it in stone for me 😭 aughhh wolfwood pleading to god and vash answers - that allll transpiring after wolfwood risked his life #to go Save vash in the first place - he fears death twice as much as anyone else. he is all the reason i need to fight #LIKEEEEE 🥲🥲🥲🥲 I drew this because i wanted them to kiss in my fucked up idealized world but truly canon did crazy work #in establishing their undeniable mutual trust and love already

[yuwuta]

satoru physically withers and crumbles every time you return his belongings. he doesn’t know how to tell you that he can only accidentally on purpose leave his glasses on your nightstand, or his jacket on your couch, or his shirt in your laundry so many times before he loses his mind. every time you don’t take he bait, he folds into himself and wonders why you don’t love him anymore and it costs him $22.50 to hear ieiri tell him to suck it up and use his words because he literally has to buy her company (and drinks).

but when you do take the bait, when you do wear his things, satoru thinks it’s all worth it. he can’t explain why it does what it does to him. it’s a sinister kind of possession he wants to have over you, knowing you’re your own person, free to do as you please, but also knowing you’re caged in him. it’s a lovesick kind of gooeyness that melts his heart seeing you fumble with the sleeves of a sweater that’s too long for you. it’s the vision of you seeing you drowning in him—in his clothes, in his things, in him, in him, in him. he’s selfish, he wants to consume you in as many ways as possible, wants you to drown in him, would die happily knowing you were one tenth as enraptured by him as he is with you. he doesn’t know how or why or when you gained so much power over him, but he doesn’t care, he doesn’t want you to ever stop, so if he has to keep pretending to leave his clothes and bags and glasses around then so be it.

#i don’t know how to explain that satoru’s love is so. beautifully consuming #he loves and loves and loves and he doesn’t even think about it it’s mindless it’s second nature #and sometimes he stops and pulls back and gets shy about how much you mean to him and how bad he wants you #he doesn’t know why you have this power over him but he doesn’t mind it and he wants more of it all the time always #oh…. my sweet sweet lover boy #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo x reader #satoru gojo x reader #gojo smut #gojo fluff #jjk smut #jjk fluff #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk imagines #jjk smau #💌.satoru

[guinevereslancelot]

my favorite ship dynamic is betrayal. not when they betray each other but when one or both of them turn against their cause, their principles and/or loved ones for the other. bonus points if the person they're abandoning everything for didn't remotely expect it. ultimate declaration of love. "you mean more to me than everything i ever believed in. i am more loyal to you than my conscience. i love you more than the thing i would die for."

#seeing lots of people talking abt ship dynamics and aaaaaaa #its abt devotion to your lover above everything!! #this is the appeal of anidala and gwencelot for me <333 #ship dynamics #otp #this has been a shitpost #please tag this with your blorbos btw i want to know abt more ships like this #to me that's romance #writing #1k #this is why enemies to lovers goes so hard #i love zuko more than i fear you bitch!!! #my kingdom for a kiss upon your shoulder etc

[habken]

sketches of some losers in love

#midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #mha #bnha #bakudeku #bkdk #dkbk #my hero academia #boku no hero acedamia #boku no hero fanart #habs art #doodles #scammers to lovers #I'm still working on the comic of ph baku and IT deku meeting outside work for the first time lmao #but I want them in love and married already >:-T

[k-0re]

Mia (?)

(color test)

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #re8 #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #resident evil #resident lover #mia winters #wanted to test out some textures and colors #and wanted to get like a vintage comic feel #also this is for that one mia anon #i have no idea what you are talking about in my inbox #but ik you love mia SO HERE YOU GO

[nanstar200]

Hi gueys 🧍 (run away again)

#HI AGAIN #sigh I love moon #I’m not even gona get into it because I will rant for hours incohearantly #I want to make him a little nest so he can be all cozy he deserves it 😔😔💔 #kills him with my mind #ALSO SOME SPAMTON STUFF SPRINKLED IN!!! #sorry spam lover followers I haven’t been making much 😔 just know I still love him #spamton #deltarune #art #spamton g spamton #fnaf #sundrop fnaf #sun fnaf #sun fanart #moondrop fnaf #moon fnaf #fnaf moon #nuttdoodles #my art #silly goober time tbh! #ALSO GGRGRGRGRGRGRGGRR IM GONA SHAKE THE DAYLIGHTS OUT OF MOON #TAKES HIM BY THE SHOULDNERS AND SHAKES HIM AFFECTIONATELY #im normal #also random doodle thrown in there because I liked it!

[anon-nee]

Puppy Gale

Catering to me, myself and I with this one but if you thought of Gale Dekarios with dog ears too: you're welcome

Do not copy, steal, repost, distribute or edit.

#gale lovers unite #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #artists on tumblr #gale of waterdeep #bg3 fanart #digital art #gale dekarios #gale x tav #bg3 gale #gale #baldurs gate gale #when he says “yes my love?” all I see is puppy gale #Yes there is a version without the dog ears #no i am not posting it #I get such cuteness aggression from this grown ass fictional man it's concerning #I WANT TO HOLD HIM

[mychem1calbr0mance]

demolition lovers / my chemical romance

#didnt turn out quite the way i wanted it to but 🤷‍♂️ #my chemical romance #mcr #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #mcr art #graphics #graphic design #demolition lovers #mine #lyric edit #lyric art #ron's art tag

[sentientsky]

a hastily thrown-together good omens shitpost made with my actual real life text message conversations

(here’s part 2)

#imagine wlw says ‘angel’. I’m a lesbian and I’m too lazy to try and make that one work lol #I didn’t want to include too much of other ppl’s responses to my messages bc privacy but yeah #anyway true story I literally asked this girl (my best friend whom I was in love with) to run away with me #like as a joke (but tbh I would have probably done anything she asked me to lmaoo) #and she was like yeah!!! then she ghosted me like 2 weeks later :) #aksjksjdkdj #metatron one doesn’t rly fit but whatever #good omens 2 #good omens #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #crowley #ineffable lovers #go2 #ineffable wives #good omens season 2 #good omens shitpost #shitpost #good omens tv #David tennant #Michael sheen #the metatron #ineffable divorce #ineffable dumbasses #ineffable idiots

[hotgaytrash16]

Slow, sensual making out while straddling their lap>>>>>>>>>>>

#making out #kiss #kisses #love #kissing #kiss my lips #kiss me #women #lgbtqia #lovers #girls are just so pretty #wlw love #women loving women #lgbtq #lgbtq community #i want a relationship #relationship #loving #lesbian #gay girls #gay #girls like girls #girls are cute #girls are hot #curvy girls #curvy and cute #pretty girls #women are hot #beautiful women

[firstfullmoon]

Steve Scafidi, from “Ode to And”

#I want whoever you are to somehow enter my day with all the mysterious privacies and tender joints and ankles bones #and the lovely grace of that place behind your knees !!!!!!! #the mikko harvey for m and shauna barbosa gps of it all #w #poetry #steve scafidi #the earth was made for lovers

[canisalbus]

I found your art like right before you started featuring Vasco more prominently in the lore, and seeing the focus shift from "This sad wet cat of a dog man priest is doomed by the narrative" to "this sad wet cat of a dog man priest has a sunshiny gay lover who is his world" has been a fun trip lol

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#ah! so you got to watch this whole thing unfold! #I remember the early reactions to Vasco's reappearance #it seemed like people were cautiously hoping there was some chemistry going on but didn't want to jump to conclusions #I loved how well the first sneaky hidden kiss piece (saving grace) was received #it's one of my personal favorites still #not only because I think it turned out nicely from a technical point of view #but people were so excited to see it #it was heartwarming #answered #anonymous #sad wet cat of a dog man priest #and his sunshine gay lover who is his world #amen

[morningmask27]

catified resident lover, it's been a little while ago!

I had a few drawings still waiting and decided to draw somewhat tonight, so here's a new collection of the dimi sisters (with a Donna cameo) and their antics

#morningtalks #morningdraws #resident lover #bela dimitrescu #cassandra dimitrescu #daniela dimitrescu #donna beneviento #my little meowmeows #they're still running around in my head I'm just too tired to form comprehensive posts and it annoys me #love these siblings so much tho #I want to inflict upon them all my family trauma <3