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hardlystrictlystarwars · 2 years

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Always Hiding Pt. 2(Din Djarin x F!Reader)

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Din Djarin x Former Padawan!F! Reader

PART 1

A/N: Well... It's almost June and I'm posting my first fic of the year. I'm not gonna lie this fic is really dense and relies a lot more on dialogue. But I really love the interaction and tried to stay true to all the characters. Anyways, I hope you really enjoy it. I'm just glad to be back and posting stuff that's mine.

Warnings: Mentions of violence, angst and Order 66

GIF is not mine, credit goes to the original creator

Reblogs, comments, and likes are always appreciated!

You stared at the little one across from you, sucking on the fabric of his robe like an infant.

He seemed so small, so green, so defenseless. Yet, you remembered one of your masters who was small, green, seemingly helpless. It turned out he was all but helpless when he took down the biggest foes in the galaxy single-handedly.

“You came back,” You greeted them again after previously dismissing them. You had promised to hear the Mandalorian out, but not at the expense of your students’ education. And true to his word that he would be back, a few moments after the final of the straggles of your class had gone home for the day, he was at your classroom doorstep.

“I want to know more about the jedi, about your kind” He said, standing again in your doorway, “To help my foundling”

“I never said I was a jedi,” You replied sitting down at your desk.

“You didn’t have to, I could see it on your face,” His hemet tilted down in the direction of his little companion, snuggled into a little sack, sitting right at his hip, “Ahsoka Tano felt it too when she first met him. She told me you would sense it too,”

You felt a tightness in your chest as you sat down in your chair, hearing that name for a second time today. If Ahsoka told him how to find you.

You pulled out a stool for the Mandalorian, gesturing for him to sit down, “When the Empire came to power they didn’t just kill the jedi you know,” You told him, “You know, they also killed mandalorians too?”

“What does that have to do with anything?”

“I can tell that you have shared a table with them,” You sneered, “No man wears that much beskar without getting his hands dirty with the wrong crowd,”

“Never said my hands were clean,” He confessed.

“Neither are mine, but I did not become a sister for the empire,” You chuckled but there was no heart to your voice.

“A sister?”

“An inquisitor,” You stated, “Force wielders who recruited or killed other force wielders for the empire” You paused, trying to get a reaction from Mando but he speak, “I’m guessing you haven’t met any yet then,”

He nodded.

“I wouldn’t recommend it for your little one,” You glanced down at the sleeping bundle who was softly snoring, “It’s rumored they the opt for the latter option now to keep off the Republic’s radar,”

“That’s why I need you,” His hands rested on his knees, “He’s fallen into the Empire’s hands before and I won’t allow that to happen again,”

“And why should I trust you?” You asked. You had every reason in history to not.

He let out a signing grunt before digging through his sack. Moving his companion around before finally grabbing and laying a little package on the table. His hands slowly unwrapping the cloth that covered it. As soon as it was fully unwrapped you recognized what his answer was.

“Jetii kyramud,” You murmured under your breath looking at it.

“I haven’t heard that name for it before,”

“Do you know what this is?” You hissed at him, pushing it away from you.

His hemet nodded.

“Why would you bring such a thing here?” Knowing the history behind the hilt, it was only a matter of time before more mandalorians, or worse, the Empire came knocking at your door for it. You had done a good job at staying hidden all these years just for some stranger to come and mess your life up.

“I intend to do well by my foundling and his kind, even if my ancestors have not” He answered, “But I need someone to train him. The blade is nothing but an offer of peace,”

“I didn’t know peace was a word a Mandalorian knew,” You smirked.

“It is if you can help me,” He replied.

“And what if I can’t train him? Or if he’s not as strong as you think?” You had seen those with the strongest ties to the force fall. Those seemingly invincible killed by their own sword. Those with the best hearts die at the hands of those they trusted. You had seen it in your master, the last look on her face as she accepted her fate.

“He’s strong, he was strong enough to survive the Empire,”

You looked down at the sleeping child and felt your stomach churn. It was in your DNA to help, to protect. That’s why even after the Empire took over, you looked for a school, somewhere where you could help others. You couldn’t continue to help and hide anymore, your fate being at a crossroads.

“Tomorrow, after school. We’ll see what this little one can do,” You said, “No guarantees,”

Tags: @yodasbitch @alsheyra @rintheemolion

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teaveetamer · 10 months

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Oh god, the romance in Fates was... wow. I remember when people were squeazed out by the fact that for example, if you S support Leo or Takumi, they keep calling you Nee-san, but it's simply because IS was'nt gonna rewrote the 3 ENTIRE ROUTE just to add this modification, they could do it for Awakening when Robin marries Chrom or Lucina cause Awakening only had ONE route and it was only 2 character, they could'nt give Fates the same treatement with it's 3 route and 8 siblings and unlike 3H and Engage, the S support in Fates can happen before any chapter once you unlocked one of the Royals in your party, like even Awakening had Chrom marries automatically after chapter 11 and then whatever happen once you completer chapter 13 for Lucina but it's at least 2 scenes (the reunion and Lucina's judgement), with Fates it would be ENTIRELY different dialogue cause when you marry Takumi before the chapter where in Birthright's story he starts opening up to Corrin, the whole thing doesn't make sense anymore. They still tried to include it int the story in some way, like how in Awakening, if you S support a certain unit, they have special dialogue in some moments they could add it, but overall it kinds of damage the plot more then necessary.

On a more serious note I say one thing Fates definetely did better was the "You traitor !" and handling betrayal compared to 3H, cause Corrin literaly as to either fight people who love them and cherished them like family and that they knew all their live VS people who yearned for years to see Corrin again and never stopped loving them (even if they did not knew except Ryoma iirc that Corrin was their step sibling) whereas in 3H... literaly all the people that are friends are in the same class so unless you recruit someone (like Marianna and Hilda) no one murder their friends, but just classmate they sort of intereacted with :/

The marriage mechanic in Fates is honestly basically aesthetic and a way to get the child characters. It exists because Awakening had it and Awakening was popular, so I don't really get too pressed about oddities like those tbh.

I've actually said before but I wish Fates had gotten a bit more room to breathe after Awakening released, because most of the problems I have with Fates is just "IS was desperate because they almost went bankrupt so they just tried to make Fates 'Awakening, but more' since Awakening was successful". Like how BR largely lifts its map design and cast archetypes directly from Awakening, the shoehorned in Awakening characters, etc.

Anyway, I do agree that I think Fates handled its emotional punches much better. Corrin is genuinely part of both of these families and genuinely loves both of them. Their greatest wish is for everyone to get along and so they don't have to choose.

In Houses most of the characters have known each other for a year or less, and in Hopes it's like a month. Unless you recruit them or try getting supports you basically never even interact with any of the students of the other houses. The one big emotional moment they try to contrast the tragedy with - the feast everyone has together after the battle of Eagle and Lion chapter - doesn't even happen on screen. The characters bring it up numerous times like we're supposed to relate to this happy memory of everyone getting along... and they didn't even show it to us, lol.

Even if Corrin doesn't remember the Hoshidans, they at least show them in Hoshido for multiple chapters! You get to see them interact with the Hoshidan siblings numerous times before they rip your heart out and make you choose sides! They give you reasons why Corrin might want to stay with them (finding out more about their life before they were kidnapped, revenge for Mikoto, etc.)

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rosietrace · 1 year

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Shard family thoughts; Victoria on Touma Kadokawa

Victoria's thoughts on Touma Kadokawa, the alluring two-faced resident of Terrovania

Ocs featured: Victoria Shard, Touma Kadokawa (@nem0-nee)

Mentioned: Zenith Devi, Sumeragi Yuuta, Claudia and Wendell Du Nord

Terrovania belongs to; @celiica/@terrovaniadorm

The following banner will be used for the next couple of OC/Shard family thoughts

Important note; I will likely be using this format of character interactions/thoughts from now on

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▹ 【 ♛ 】 Victoria Shard, the beautiful manipulator of Pomefiore; Thoughts on Touma Kadokawa

“Touma..... He's certainly of use to me. I allow him access to my funds and to spend them freely, so long as he continues to be of service to me.”

“Now, don't get the wrong idea, our beneficial relationship is nothing as you'd imagine. As long as he uses his influence to get what I want, I'll give more than the world can offer.”

▹ †𝆤࿙๋࿙࿚⊱【 ♛ 】⊰࿙࿚๋࿚𝆤†

╰──・⌕・- Additional thoughts(Non-dialogue)

→ Victoria…. Was once completely neutral about Touma

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ At first, she didn't completely care much for the young man, almost completely neglecting his existence

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ That was until Zen mentioned Touma in passing during one of their many conversations together

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ Curious, Victoria began doing some peculiarly devoted levels of research on Touma in order to get a better understanding of what kind of character he is; To satisfy her curiosities, of course

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ She didn't have a proper conversation with Touma until three weeks into her research on him; Which was going surprisingly smoothly, might I add. Her subordinates such as Claudia and Wendell are very thorough when it comes to research

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ The conversation was brief at best, strained at worst; Touma was - in Victoria's eyes - annoyed that she was unaffected by his badmouthing of her

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ Then again, he did and still does somewhat respect her for her bulletproof confidence

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ A couple of days after that conversation was when Victoria was reminded of Touma's materialism after spending time with Yuuta; A man who is notorious for being a bit too materialistic for his own good

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ For circumstances I cannot and likely will never elaborate on, Victoria sought out Touma

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ She sought him out, and once he had his sights on her, she offered him something he couldn't possibly reject; The benefit of spending her funds as freely as possible

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ Of course, her services to Touma didn't come without effort on his end; In exchange for the ability to spend on her wealth, Touma had to promise to assist her by…. Manipulating dealing with people she doesn't want to deal with herself

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ After all, as manipulative as Victoria may be, even she has her limits; And it just so happens that with Touma's cult-like following, he's able to fill the gaps she left by being equally as manipulative

→ And so, began the progress of what the two of them referred to as a “Mutually beneficial contractual relationship”

→ Though, some say that certain relationships can evolve in the oddest ways.

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#twisted wonderland oc #twst oc #twst ocs #mutuals oc #friends' oc #victoria shard #nrc oc #twst night raven college #night raven college oc #night raven college #touma kadokawa #terrovania #terrovania oc #twst pomefiore #pomefiore oc #pomefiore #「🌹」 oc interactions #mutuals <3 #『 vic ♢ 』

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drewsaturday · 4 months

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exocolonist round 8

ACCIDENTAL PROFESSOR ENDING !!!! this is the first time i haven't gotten botanist without trying ;jlksdfl;kjd but it makes sense since i did so much tutoring to get close to nomi

also got second engineer to get the manuals for next round!!

did all the delusional options but didn't come across enough to get lobotomized, or i at least should've maybe chosen a diff dialogue option when it was brought up :/ pwease slice my brain up mommy instance ;-;

i romanced cal so i could break up him and tammy. i liked the idea of cal more on earlier playthroughs i think because he reminds me so much of ger, but he's... kind of missing a level of consideration that makes ger such a malewife? at least from what i observed when he was with tammy. he kinda never grew up. i got him on the home menu at least this time.

it is kinda cool to be second engineer because you become chief when instance retires, but idk when she retires so you could very well be working on the same-ish level as flulu (or ger) OR with cal which is kinda cool when ur married to him.

cal is a pushover and tammy is a people pleaser and this shows a lot in the ending i got with him, how he's not as good as pushing people as flulu was and it takes a toll on him. i think that's another part of why i find him and tammy a bit unbearable the more i play j;aklslkdjf they're just... too conventional/nice in a way i don't vibe with, whereas i like rex and nomi's flavor of kindness and support more.

this was also my first ending since my initial playthrough with nem where i got to have kids!!! with nem i had 2 but with cal we had a ton so that's a cool change of pace. thinking about flu and ger being grandparents ;-;

i lowkey wish cal and i broke up here (i know we have communal raising but THAT many kids plus us both being chiefs means that's gonna be stressful) but he fucking DIES in his fifties while defending geoponics during an attack (i didnt make peace w the gardeners lol) so at least i'm free to go fuck other people now.

this was the first time i got nomi in an ending!!! i love their creativity and that they end up sooooorta being a rancher? and getting a pet unisaur? perfect for them. horse nb vertumna style.

god also i got to read their writing project and i love that it's just... a mini version of exocolonist meets animorphs

OH AND I GOT THEM TO GET WITH REX <3 though i hadn't talked to rex a ton so AFTER i got them dating i had a dialogue option with him that's supposed to come before that discusses how they're just friends sj;klf

another sad ending for tang, she was my second and got obsessed with what happened to dys since he did the bomb. the ending talks about her being in a nightmarish waking state due to her augment or something? awful, i hate it. this reminds me i probs couldve done the plague this round.... will do after the next couple.

i stayed in the creche etc during attacks a lot more this time and had an option to save tammy from an attack during the one where kom dies. i kinda wonder if she wouldve died if i didnt bother but i didnt wanna fuck up the achievement for breaking up her and cal. tempted to let her get severely injured though or not save her next time... but i do like having free cakes to give other people, so maybe i'll let her live. gonna keep letting her lose her dad in a brutal attack tho.

i think up next is the transcendence ending, and THEN i can recalibrate the shields and i think that'll result in a situation where flulu is more chill so i'm excited to see that.

the only person left to put on the homescreen is vace though :| i will consider getting close to him and shoving him into therapy after the above, maybe with an ending in mind that also involves getting close to nem again.

i think apart from the vace, friends, and all endings achievements everything else i need to do is card related so i'm gonna be a tad directionless apart from looking for diff endings to beat once i get through vace.

i also do need the 4 pets one though ive heard thats glitchy, but getting closer to vace does bode sorta well with that.

#iwatex tag #i really need to go be productive now lmfao #i love how 7.3% of players unlocked vace on the homescreen....#compared to everyone else being so much more desired #about 2% less ppl got the all friends achievement tho which points to quite a few getting close to him for just completionism reasons #would love to study the ones who voluntarily went for him like bugs #though maybe some of that was also with the intend of an all endings achievement #but less than 1% of ppl got there so who knows

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bi-bats · 10 months

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for the get to know the author asks!!! 3, 6, 11, 18, 23, 25. i know thats a lot so feel free to pick and choose haha

p.s. i am LOVING your jaytim week works!! ive gushed in the comments but i really am having a blast reading everything that youve shared so far <3

ASLKDJFALSDKJ omg thank you!!! I'm so flattered that you want to know that much about me actually, cause I never shut the fuck up so this is going to be long 😂 And thank you SO much abt the jaytimweek fics!!! I worked so hard on them 😭 also!!! what's your ao3 username? I usually recognize my serial commenters (and as you probably know sometimes have full conversations with them) so let me know which one is you, if you're comfortable!!

Also, I answered all of these so I'm putting it under a read more because it is. So much lmaoooo

3) what order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

I write favorite scenes first- usually there's an idea that gets stuck in my head or a bit of dialogue and that hits the page first. Then that spirals into other thoughts I have to write down, until I have something that actually resembles a plot and has the beginning and the climax of the story. (For Know yourself it was chapter 1, then a scene from chapter 8, then the scene where they finally get together, then the scene where they fall asleep watching star trek for the first time, then a bunch of scenes I ended up having to cut. For Rooftops and Bookshops, it was chapter 1, then them getting together, then the scene in the breakroom, then the scene where Tim gets drunk.)

Then for a longfic I take my plot to the corkboard™️ and sort it out, and then I start writing in order. Usually, I end up completely rewriting the scenes I wrote beforehand as I go along, and sometimes I end up replotting the whole thing. Then I work on it chapter by chapter until I get to the end, but I usually along the way I keep writing scenes for future chapters when inspiration hits!

6) something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now?

Honestly? All of rooftops & bookshops. I would rewrite the entire thing and change absolutely none of the plot or dialogue. It's just... the rest of the writing. God. It seems so rushed to me now? something something I've improved as a writer, but like. I would rewrite it if that wasn't so much work. And also, whenever I say that I hate it people rage at me, so. fine. I guess it stays. 🙄

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

Actually, plotting. I've been writing since I was in the third grade, and it took me FOREVER to realize that the reason I never finished anything was because nothing had a plot. Like, within the last 4 or 5 years I bought a book called Plot & Structure by James Scott Bell after listening to a writing podcast (No Write Way with VE Schwab) where Marie Lu (I think) recommended it, and suddenly, it wasn't just that I could write, it was that I couldn't stop writing.

18) were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? what were they?

Oh I get to talk about actual books!!! akdfalskdjfkj YES!!

Vicious by V.E. Schwab and the Echo Wife by Sarah Gailey, but honestly anything by either of them is amazing. The way both of them write is just so. SO. ASLKDFALSKDJ. For me, they both scratch the itch for sci-fi and characters that are incredibly fucked up but justified and logical and their prose is just perfect, especially when it comes to lines that just fucking slap. Sincerely, I don't have any fic recs for this one. Just book recs lmaooo

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

LMAOOOO okay so specifically when it comes to writing in this fandom, I have a lot of life experiences that have helped me write what I write, especially when it comes to writing Tim. Some of them are not so fun (<- overachiever perfectionist who thinks they need to do everything by themselves), but some of them are funny so we'll talk about those.

I have a coffee problem. Like, I know off the top of my head that the FDA recommends that a healthy adult doesn't ingest more than 400 mg of caffeine a day (I try not to ingest more than 384 mg a day), and you would overdose around 1200 mg of caffeine a day. I use this fact at least once a month when someone expresses concern about my caffeine intake, and I did not have to google that, just ask my girlfriend 😂

Also, I have severe insomnia, which predates the coffee problem. Usually, I average 5-6 hours of sleep on a good night, but I can go about 5 days straight getting between 2-4 hours of sleep before I have to do a night with at least 6 hours. I am intimately familiar with what running on that little sleep looks like. I once was not able to sleep for 4 days! So also, I know what that looks like! I have gone over 40 hours without sleep within the past four months! It just. happens. Like, at some point in the night the calculation stops being "how much sleep am I going to get if I fall asleep right now" and starts being "if I do sleep, will I be more tired than if I just don't?"

And it is such a useful reference when it comes to writing any of the bats, but especially Tim 😂

That also helps because in the time I am not sleeping, I am usually reading or writing. I'm a huge reader and that really has helped me. There's that one quote that's like "a person can be an expert in any field if they put 10,00 hours into studying it", and I have put in my 10k hours. If you write, reading is basically a part of the job.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

YES YES YES OKAY SORRY THEY'RE ALL BUMMERS BUT I'M SO PROUD OF THESE BITS. THE FIRST ONE ISN'T IN ANYTHING AS OF RIGHT NOW, THE SECOND ONE IS IN MY JAYTIMWEEK PIECE FROM TODAY, AND THE REST ARE FROM KNOW YOURSELF!!

Tim was his own worst critic. It was just self-defense, something he’d picked up while he was learning how to stay alive. He’d learned how to slip binds, and how to take a hit, and how to be so harsh on himself that whenever someone found a new hurtful thing to say to him, it was the second time he’d ever heard it, because he’d already thought of it first.

But the strangest thing is how everyone believes Jason anyways. Just like that. Then again, Dick is backing him up, so of course they believe him. Everyone believes Goldie, all of the time. He just flashes that gorgeous smile like a fucking master key, and Jason’s always been a tiny bit jealous that everyone else turned out so goddamn endearing.

But apparently, his body had been hiding that instinct somewhere: Jason’s angry. Defend yourself.

He’d done what he did best: tried to freeze over his white-hot anger, and still managed to be surprised when the ice cracked and steam shot out.

Now he knew Tim wasn’t just some kid who slipped into his life like it was a suit that fit him better.

This was what he did. He wrecked things. He couldn’t be trusted with anything delicate or valuable, because he’d crush it in his clumsy, blood-stained hands.

This was so much fun!!! Thank you for popping into my inbox and giving me a chance to ramble for a while, I had such a blast!!!

#🫘 this-was-a-terrible-idea #batsasks #bibatrambles #ASKDFLKJ SORRY THIS GOT SO LONG ALSO #I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!!!#AND IT WASN'T JUST INSANE RAMBLING AT 3 AM!!!

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loominggaia · 2 years

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crass question incoming: why hasnt lukas killed himself KJDKSHJFKJD (this is in the context that he struggles with suicidal thoughts/tendencies?)... like, glad the guy is somehow finding the will to live, but he just seems really miserable all the time so, what DOES motivate him to Live Another Day

I think that's a perfectly fair question! Lukas has had many ups and downs throughout the series. In my opinion he reached his lowest point in "Divine Executioner", and while he does have his moments of weakness here and there, he's been on an upward trend ever since that story.

I think the events in that story made him realize that his depression wasn't just hurting himself, but the people he loves too. That was the kick in the ass he needed to start taking his recovery seriously. If your vibe is so dark and terrible that you attract the Divine of Tears herself to you...yeah, it's time for serious intervention. Lukas doesn't care about himself, but he does care about his friends, even if he struggles to show it.

The theme of that story was "darkness attracts more darkness". Lukas realized that the only way to stop spiraling was to turn and face the light, make positive changes in his life even if he didn't believe in them, and then more light would eventually follow. Now, as of the story "Pig Bait", he's finally starting to reap the seeds of change he sowed. He's able to open up and be more honest about his feelings, and in return, he's able to build more positive relationships with others.

So what kept Lukas going before then? I would say hope. He had a lot of hope when he was younger because he hadn't experienced much of the world beyond Uekoro. His mother was awful to him, but he had hope that he could leave her and her abuse behind one day. So he fled Uekoro with his lover Itanya...then Itanya died, and to add insult to injury, Lukas was enslaved by bandits shortly after. This enslavement lasted weeks and his hope was quickly dying. Towards the end of "The Perfect Shot", he was ready to give up and kill himself because his escape attempts kept failing and he saw no other way out of his horrible situation.

Then just in time, Evan arrived. Like a knight in shining armor, this random mercenary arrives and rescues Lukas from the bandits. Evan expected nothing in return and extended his hand in friendship. It was the only kindness Lukas had known since he lost Itanya, and just like that, his hope was restored. He once again believed that he could have love and happiness, that he could build a life worth living after all.

Lukas and Evan developed a very, uh, "passionate" relationship. They loved eachother just as much as they hated eachother. They brought out the very best and the very worst in eachother. This passion kept Lukas trucking onward because he cared about Evan, though he was becoming jaded and cynical about life the more he experienced it. He buried his emotions instead of confronting them because confronting them hurt too much, and his mental health began a long, slow decline. He was gradually losing his hope again.

This decline finally came to a head in "Divine Executioner", but the story "Allmother's Gift" is where we see Lukas really making an effort to turn things around. He agrees to see a therapist, and this bit of dialogue between them says a lot:

The doctor hushed him. She paused, letting him gather his composure before she added, “That elven girl must have been very important to you.” “Itanya was everything to me,” [Lukas] replied quickly. “She was the only thing that made my miserable life worth living!” “And yet you persist,” grinned Dr. Jan, steepling her knobby fingers under her chin. Lukas took another deep breath and sighed, “Barely. I don’t know what keeps me clinging on like this. I guess I’m just waiting for something to change, but it never does. Look at me, I’m in my forties now! Still bitching and whining about things that happened decades ago! Decades! Gods, what’s wrong with me?” “There is no need to judge yourself,” the doctor advised. “How can you overcome your pain when no one has taught you how? Clearly your parents were not fit for the task, but that is why I’m speaking to you now. Forties—bah! You’re a child in the eyes of the cosmos! It’s never too late to conquer your demons.”

Lukas has depended heavily on others in the past to keep him going. Evan, as well as his other friends, have always supported him even at his worst. Now he's trying to love himself enough to stand on his own two feet and support himself.

TL;DR: Lukas is tethered to this mortal coil by the power of good ol' hope and friendship. He doesn't really want to die, he just doesn't want to hurt anymore.

Questions/Comments?

Lore Masterpost

#ask #askliterature #asklukas

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reilliane · 2 years

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Vigil ✤ Kazuha

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A/N: Here is the Kazuha angst, sweeties :')) I wrote this with my prepared angsty playlist hehe- I.. well, my heart cracked..

✤ She/her

✤ Warnings: Death

➸ Honor (Sequel) ➸ Little Brother (Scenario) Resolve (Alternate Ending)

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"Text in this format means dialogue in flashback!"

The memory of peering into the crib with excited blabbers remains fresh, untarnished with the passing of time.

It feels like it’s just yesterday when your mother reached for the wailing baby laying inside to hand him in your caring touch.

“This is your little brother, [Name].” you squealed when the boy clung unto your finger, “His name is Kazuha. Be a good sister for him, understand?”

“Yes!”

Ah, that did feel as if it was just yesterday.

“Nee-chan!”

Dropping the basket of laundry, you frantically looked around.

“Nee-chan!”

“Kazuha-!?”

He was sprinting, arms flailing as tears spilled past his eyes and panicked exclaims left his lips.

His friend was chasing him from behind, laughing as he waved an undercooked fish—your brother’s worst nightmare.

Comedic but understandable.

“Tomo’s making me eat it!” your younger brother mumbled behind you, pointing accusingly towards his friend who sheepishly spluttered excuses at your stern gaze.

Taking the skewered fish in Tomo’s hands, you hummed, patting his and Kazuha’s heads.

“How about I cook something for the both of you, instead? How’s that sound?”

“Yes, please! Nee-chan’s cooking is the best!”

You can never get tired of cooking for the two of them, even if your sibling eventually asked to be taught, you find yourself still taking over cooking duty. Lovingly whipping up dishes is your forte.

It stuck around when the household eventually lost the attending servants following the fall of the Kaedehara clan. It even stuck through the grim times of your parents’ passing.

Kazuha had gone through so much at a young age, changed little by little—and you aren’t oblivious to it. With his growth, you are a witness to his budding shell of maturity.

Single years fold into a decade and all of a sudden, the mirthful silverette who doesn’t last a day without calling you ‘big sister’ has grown up.

Far too quickly, to be honest, but who are you to hold him back?

“You don’t call me ‘nee-san’ nowadays,” you laugh jokingly, “My, you’ve grown so much, Kazu!”

He stares at the plates of food you set on the dining table, his sigh small and feeble as you continue gushing. Albeit he has a smile on his face, it appears tight. Forced.

But you turn a blind eye to that—you’ve always been doing it.

Now, however, it seems that your brother has grown tired of humoring you. It has been going on for too long.

“I’m not some child anymore..” his monotonous voice is so unlike him—it’s as if he no longer is the person you grew up with.

Having him address it bluntly prompts you to pause, the only sound being the sizzling of unagi meat, frying to perfection.

The richness of its color, however, dulls when you process what your sibling has mentioned.

As if its vividness is an illusion meant to shield you from present-day reality.

Still, you shake it away, keeping the smile on your face as you set the fried meat on a new plate, turning to put it down on the table beside the other dishes.

“Oh, Ka-“ you stop, seeing the look in his eyes.

The way his carmine optics bore against your [c]s is foreign.

It’s scary.

It’s different. It’s new.

You sit down in front of him, trying not to show how restless you’ve become. Such an attempt is futile, of course, since you’re in front of the person you’ve been with for years.

“Kazu-“

Thud!

Silence zips your lips when he lays his chopsticks down. It isn’t by any means a slam—but someone like Kazuha doesn’t need to be outright with anything in order to express a negative opinion.

“So please refrain from initiating unnecessary coddling,” he cuts you off with a swivel as he leaves for the door. “I have grown up now, sister. I... need you less.”

What?

A multitude of emotions hit you at once, all coming from his sudden statement that feels like it can tear you apart. But oh—who were you kidding?

You know that this will eventually come.

The very day where he admits that he is capable of being alone. Without you.

The opening of the door causes you to stand from your chair, “Wait!”

He does as you said but doesn’t look back. His hand remains on the handle of the knob, unchanging of his decision to leave.

You tug the black and red scarf from your neck, inching close to the man so you can wrap it around his neck.

“It’s cold outside.. won’t you at least eat something?”

It takes him a moment to respond—but his decision does not change.

He detangles the fabric on his neck and, without looking you in the eye, sets it in your hand, rejecting your offer.

“Later.”

And he’s gone.

Nothing changed much after he left with that declaration.

Often times he still returns in the dead of night, a smile on his face. It will only ever droop when you come in the room greeting him a lovely evening, and he will sigh.

“I told you not to wait up for me.”

He will depart for his room before he can hear your explanation.

It leaves you hanging, hollow with bitter hope and refusal to believe that you both have reached that time in life where he doesn’t need you as much.

Each time he turns his back, you are filled to the brim with sorrow you didn’t know you were capable of holding.

Retreating to the upper floor of your home, you will stay at the balcony sighing your concerns away to the stars. To the place where you believe your parents are staying, listening to your bouts of frustration and worry.

“Was I a good sibling for him, mother? Father?” you’ll sometimes mutter as you play with your silver locks, the only thing you share with your sibling other than the forgotten name of a once esteemed clan.

And as you vent all these to the stars, you remain oblivious to the lone figure hiding by the shadows in the adjacent room. His frown is tiny. Sad, but not guilty.

Kazuha will leave once again before he’ll hear his sister’s frustrated cries.

Sometimes, he will chew over it when he is wandering Inazuma—thinking, pondering if perhaps there could’ve been a way to say it without hurting his sibling.

But as he contemplates over and over, he finds that there is no easy method to admitting the truth.

His friend Tomo, albeit not being told anything, is naturally cognizant of the things revolving around the silver-haired siblings.

The older sister’s presence has been diminishing and he can count her appearances at Kazuha’s side getting less.

He has implied several times to make up with the female even if they had no outright argument, and when faced with a baffled question of ‘why’, Tomo only smiles.

“Because you’re family.”

So simple and yet—when Kazuha thinks of the matter a minute longer, the taste in his tongue becomes acrid.

“What upsets you?” his friend questions as he coos over his white feline, “You’re not the Kazuha who’s always crying for big sister, heh.”

The silverette cannot even find it within him to send a retort. His silence, to others, is a message that typifies a want to be alone—but to Tomo, who has known him since they’re both children, that silence is different.

With a hum, he stretches his limbs, yawning as his cat rolls around the grass.

“You know, [Name] won’t hate you for wanting it,” he starts, “You want to wander, don’t you? But you feel like you’re tied down. You’re grounded—because [Name] is here.”

Kazuha flinches and his friend snickers.

Spot on.

“I’m just going to repeat what I said because I meant it, Kazuha. Tell her the truth. She’s literally the most understanding person I know—it’s not like she’s going to despise you for wanting something.”

“… I’ll think about it.”

Tomo sighs. It’s not what I was hoping for but it’s a start.

Remembering something that moment, Tomo lets out a loud scream that nearly sent his friend toppling in the nearby stream of water. Kazuha looks on with slightly wide eyes as the other man jumps to his feet, violet eyes gleaming.

“Oh, right! I plan to initiate another challenge!”

Another challenge…

Kazuha closes his eyes with a hum, “I do hope you’ll last another. You’ve been faced with the worst of the worst.”

The chuckles that leave his friend’s lips are excited and sort of expectant.

“It’s going to be the ultimate one of all! So if you’ll excuse me~”

Perhaps a talk with your brother will do you both good.

You’ve both been acting like strangers walking on eggshells underneath the same house and it is driving you insane.

He’s not even looking you in the eye anymore!

Given his quiet personality, confrontation will be difficult, but he’s a cooperative person. Besides, he always hears you out.

There isn’t any reason for him not to when he knows that this will be done only for the betterment of the future.

So, with a nervous disposition but eager heart to settle things right, you lift the basket from its place with plans to head over to the market. It’s an hour or two before dusk, just the perfect time to shop for dinner.

“Mm.. some dry-braised salted fish for tonight sounds lovely.” You muse, remembering how the dish is your brother’s favorite.

Ah, the number of tries he takes to perfect and stylish it into his own can’t be forgotten.

It doesn’t take too long to cook it, but you’ll be making tons of other side dishes and dessert, so it’s best to start early!

You exit the abode, the smile on your face present as ever even when you’re greeted outside by a couple of Shogunate Soldiers. Their features appear sterner, their hold on their naginata rock solid.

“Are you Kaedehara [Name]?”

Hm?

“Yes. Can I help you?”

The soldiers lunge forward, spears falling to a position pointing at you from all possible angles, cutting any means of escape as you furrow your brows.

“What’s the meaning of this?”

“Your brother has defied the Decree of the Shogun and was hereby declared a criminal. Going against an Imperial Decree results in punishment inclusive to his immediate family.”

Your basket falls to the ground.

Thud!

Kazuha’s feet create a loud sound following his landing, a breath of panic expelling past as he rushes away.

The warmth in his hand escalates to a scalding degree, burning and searing like the fading power of Electro held within the golden casing.

To think that that was what Tomo meant.. !

He does not feel anger, no, just the burn of desperation and want to hide his friend’s Vision because he doesn’t want it to be taken away—to be placed in that statue that displays the lost ambitions of many others.

He’ll be damned before the Shogunate can take it… !

The criminal evades those at his tail, making swift maneuvers on rooftops and alleys without a second thought.

His limbs are answering his every command, be it to duck, to jump—or to even draw his blade.

He is still ways away from the port but getting there won’t prove to be too complex for someone like him. He’s cut down plenty of the samurai in his escape from Tenshukaku.

Tomo…

“You’re family. Tell her.”

Family—

“This is the first one in a long time I’ve heard of it being extended-! To whom again? The clan that has lost its prestige a decade ago, right?” he almost trips in his sprinting, darting to an alleyway so he can further eavesdrop.

Did I hear that correctly?

A relieved sigh escapes when those chasing him run past his hiding spot.

Sucking in his breath, the silverette tightens his grip on the faded Vision of his best friend as he listens in the hushed conversation.

“Be quiet!” someone hisses, “If someone overhears us, what next? Still, I do feel bad.. they lost so much already. I can’t believe they’d drag an innocent person into it, too..”

“Well, there’s nothing we can do. The Shogun issued the penalty to immediate families, right? As far as I know, there are only two Kaedeharas left—”

Kazuha feels his heart stopping. Kaede..hara?

There’s no mistaking it.

But why—?

Why would a punishment meant for him extend to her?

She’s innocent!

Going off-course, he sprints in the direction of his house.

The house that he lives in with his sister who takes great care of him—the same sister he’s willing to leave in favor of chasing what he wants in life.

He’s willing to, but he doesn’t.

Because perhaps—perhaps if he stayed and buried his desire, then he will amount to the same greatness she has done for him.

But he cannot stand it, either. As patient as he is, as kind and ‘gentle’, [Name] can always see through his face.

He’s always been antsy—always itching to wander and he’s stumped that his sister is well-aware of that fact. Still, she’s always playing the ignorant one, pretending not to care- still coddling him as if he’s little and he’s had… enough of it.

But now that the situation has pinned this misfortune upon them, the ronin realizes that she’s only pretending for his sake, as well.

“Cut that out, I don’t need it. I fear that.. you will only embarrass yourself.”

Wasn’t it him who refused to tell her of his want to roam free in the first place?

“I understand that I am your brother—but there is no need to worry over me all the time. I can look after myself, [Name]. Do worry about something else, instead.”

Wasn’t it him who stuck around, still?

The bitterness in his tongue increases with each leap of his feet. He doesn’t even process the race of his heart as he’s carried through the same path that leads him home.

To his family—to his only sister.

Everything seems to pass by slowly, in a blur, like the specks that decorate his vision the more his mind throws stacks and stacks of memories. This is madness.

Complete and utter madness.

He rounds the corner to see the figure of his only sibling, her back turned to him—she cannot see him, but he can see the armed soldiers flanking around her.

His throat tightens and certainly, he wouldn’t have been able to utter a word due to how it feels like his throat has been crushed.

“[Name]!”

Yet, the furious scream that tears past his lips denies all kinds of ‘impossibility’ the instant he sees the female falling to the ground, the sight of red splatter making him draw his blade.

Whoosh!

The summoned wind is opposingly gentle to the brewing storm in someone’s beautiful carmine eyes.

“[Name]-.. !”

That voice.. Kazuha?

Sometimes, the depth of emotion in Kazuha’s eyes is too deep for you to understand. Despite being so silent, he’s so, so expressive with his stares.

That even when he isn’t trembling when he lifts your torso, you know how much he’s quaking from within.

“What are you.. doing here? You have to go,” you cough red when he adjusts you in his arms, the sight of the fallen soldiers reminding you of the situation at hand.

“Quick—before they.. catch you.”

He shakes his head,

“I’m taking you with me, I have a boat prepared, come, let’s—”

“Don’t lie to me, Kazuha.”

He pauses, flitting his gaze down to meet yours. You hate how you can’t seem to focus on him, though.

Your sight is blurring in and out, only providing small intervals of clarity where you can see the panic in his features.

A sight you didn’t think you’d see on him until now.

“I know you made it for yourself. You’ve been planning to leave home, weren’t you? I’m not..” you’re not oblivious to his wish, “I’m not mad. I was only holding you back, wasn’t I?”

He sucks in a breath.

“I-I-“

What was he supposed to say?

Weakly tapping his arm, you start taking quick breaths—just to take in all the air you can while tolerating the gaping wound from being impaled.

It hurts. You want to scream. It hurts.

But you don’t—because you do not want to appear weak to your brother.

You promised mother and father that you will not cry when faced with problems—he mustn’t see, Kazuha mustn’t see.

But at this moment, you just want to break apart. Disbelief is kicking in, you can’t believe this is happening.

When—where did everything go wrong?

“Besides, I’m not of use to you anymore. As if I’ll last the journey to Liyue-“

“Don’t say that!”

You blink owlishly, gasping out in pain when his hand presses against your wound, futilely attempting to hold back the bleeding.

“K-Kazuha?”

Your own hand shakily plants itself atop his own, helping him press—as if his hand isn’t heavy enough to stop the flow—it down.

It will hurt, but you can’t say for sure. You’ve already grown numb and your head is swimming.

Still, you focus on him.

Still, you help him apply pressure even if you know—even if he knows—that it’s too late.

“Don’t say that. You’ve..” his voice cracks, “You’ve done so much, [Name], you-“

You took over the clan household when our parents died. You struggled to make ends meet for both of us. And yet.. all I do.. all I do is… !

Kazuha angrily bites on his lip, his hold on his composure beginning to slip as his mind throws in a reel of olden days.

“I’m leaving, [Name]. Please don’t wait up, I may take longer.”

“I’m grateful, but I don’t need that anymore.”

“Stop that, already.”

He dips his head with a muffled cry. All I do is wander and desire for a future where I can roam freely. I haven’t even thought of you..!

“You’ve grown, Kazuha,” he snaps back into this harsh reality when he feels the hand atop his disappear, presently moving to brush his messy locks.

He doesn’t know why all of a sudden his sight is becoming misty, but perhaps—perhaps it is because he remembers when his sister used to brush his hair the same way with a loving smile.

It is the same touch he flees from nowadays.

The same touch now—the same loving smile.

“As much as I hate to admit it, you’re right—you’ve grown so much.. and I’m still clinging onto the past.”

So lively, so beautiful and yet—

“You’re strong now..”

Yet it’s dying.

He presses harder on his sibling’s wound, almost sadistically—as if he’s hoping that it’ll ignite a painful reaction. “[Name], please, let me-“

Because if it hurt—then it means she’s still okay. She’s still responding.

“So capable.. so independent, you are.”

So why—? He almost chokes out a sob. Why are you not reacting to it!?

“Mother and father would be so proud of you. I am sorry if I was lacking in any way.”

“Please, [Name], you can’t do this.”

He trembles, the composure he created so, so close to breaking as he gives up on endeavors that are pointless, to begin with.

Instead, he tilts his head up, wishing to curse the heavens above.

For everything.

“I’m happy to be your sister, and.. I’m proud of you… Kazu..”

“Wait-“ he stumbles over his words, catching the falling hand of his sibling and registering how deathly pale she has gotten in a matter of seconds. “Wait, please—I-“

As much as he wants to voice out he’s sorry..

For many things; for turning his back on her, for being distant when all they have is each other, he’s unable to find his voice when he sees the tears dripping out of his sister’s [c] eyes.

His strong older sister—weeping. It’s the first time he has seen her cry.

Her smile trembles—

“I love you. My nice.. little.. brother.”

—And her [c]s are then hidden forever.

The way she endearingly called him in her dying breath has him freezing, his heart pausing as if he had died along with her.

But then the spark of pain welcomes him back to reality—to life.

And then he is leaning over her.

“[Name]..” breathless whispers escalate into panicked murmurs. “[Name]?”

His heart is pounding in his chest as he tries to shake her awake, like when he’d do when he’s eight and awake from an awful dream.

“Nee-san.. can I sleep by your side tonight?”

And although her [c] eyes are tired, she will still smile. “Okay.”

And she’d keep watch over him the whole night.

He’s reminded of it when he hopelessly shakes her awake, to no obvious avail. But he keeps grasping her arms, anyway, like he used to many years ago.

But things are different now.

“[Name]—[N-Name]!?”

He said it himself—he’s no longer a child.

“Please, don’t leave me- I- you’re all I have left!” The ronin’s composure finally breaks loose and his tears begin landing like a profuse waterfall. His uncontained sobs remain unheard.

This time, there is no one to wake him up from his nightmares.

“No—no, no- no, please..!” Kazuha weeps as he holds his sister’s cold hand, shakily pressing it to his forehead, imitating the sweet action she has always given him. A hand on his head, on his shoulder—or on his cheek if he’s tearful.

“You can’t!”

She’ll tell him not to be sad because it’ll make her sad, too.

And he’ll hurriedly wipe his tears because ‘no! big sister mustn’t feel sad because of me!’.

Then [Name] will muster a smile as bright as the sun and hold his face in her warm hands, and press a kiss on his forehead.

He’ll get red and thrash around, whining, ‘onee-san!’. And about how embarrassing it is so she mustn’t do it anymore.

Now, he is holding her hand in his own, trying to remember the same warmth it emitted just a day ago. Just a few hours ago. How long has it been?

And when he doesn’t feel the warmth—when he doesn’t remember the warmth, when all he feels is the cold and the obvious lack of love, Kazuha breaks apart.

His heart squeezes and his tears spill more, his lips parting to release the honorific he has dropped a long, long time ago. “Nee-san!”

“You don’t call me ‘nee-san’ nowadays,”

“Onee-san!”

“My, you’ve grown so much, Kazu!”

“Onee-san!”

I’m calling you. He cries, like a picture of misery. So why aren’t you waking up? Sister! He cries, like a heartbroken child.

The winds around him pick up, warning him of incoming men sent to apprehend and penalize him the same way they did to his sibling.

It’s suffocating—maddening, even, and he wants to tear them all down himself.

But [Name] wouldn’t like that.

So, with a muted cry and bolster of willpower, he tears himself from the body of his kin, trembling.

He can hear the thundering steps of the samurai as he hurries to untangle the same black and red scarf [Name] has once attempted to give him. The same fabric he has rejected.

“I’m sorry.. I’m so sorry.” he hugs her with all his might, with his soul, and with his heart before he’s back up on his feet and running. I love you, too, nee-san.

“Get him!” someone roars from behind.

And although he wishes to turn and slice them away, he couldn’t—because he’d be seeing the fallen figure of the same person he had neglected to cherish.

So, instead, he nestles the scarf around his neck whilst clutching onto the Vision of his friend.

Down the path, he runs.

Years ago, he will be accompanied by the people he loves, chasing a faraway future.

Now he is running on the same path alone, running after a dream that can now be turned into reality.

Far from Inazuma.

Far from home.

a/n: did it hurt-

@lehra @melkxsh

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#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #reader insert #genshin imagines #genshin angst #kaedehara kazuha #kazuha x reader #kazuha angst #lmao is this even called a ficlet this is a full blown oNESHOT #LOVELY LOVELY ANGST I MISS YOU #genshin platonic #kazuha is your little brother and he is hurting :)))#SUFFER #(-SLAPPED)#female reader

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coolbeans32 · 2 years

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Birthday Gift from ME!

Today is my birthday and I finally turned 18! 🎉I have been on this app for such a long time and the people I’ve met here are amazing. I’ve read a variety of different works and have read many different authors’ fanfics from mainly Harry Potter and Marvel.

To celebrate this amazing day and to show my appreciation to many fanfic writers on this app, I have decided to share an entire list of recommendations from both HP and Marvel that you can read.

I am also opening a celebration that you can ask and request anything from the following until February 4th! Let me get to know you and provide works!!

Celebration

🦋drabbles

send me any HP character or Marvel character + scenario to write a drabble (300-500 words approx)

👑dialogue

send me any characters (HP or Marvel) + scenario and I’ll write a short dialogue

💗Q+A’s

ask anything you want that you’d like to know about me or if you are a moot, send this to me to write a short letter about you and to send a song recommendation

🌸 games

any games like fmk, top 3, would you rather, this or that. i’m a sucker for games

🥀poetry or book

send me this if you’d like a poetry recommendation or a book rec

i’m also writing a fanfic that I hope to upload asap amd again I thank each and every one of you for everything you do. I could write so many more recs but here are a few that were at the top of my list for reading likes and some I follow

Recommendations

Marvel Recs!

@existenceisfunny | Masterlist

My (writing) fiance, is an absolute amazing writer, despite her not thinking so. Absolutely amazing style of writing and I adore the different AUs and plot changed you added towards the Marvel fandom. Your incorporation of the reader feels so real, anyone can picture themselves as a badass you portray the character to be. Don’t stop what you do babe. Love you so much!

@im-in-love-with-pizza-bites | Masterlist

Lex, I swear your writing is pure chef’s kiss. I am a sucker for your !teen reader stories and I love the platonic relationships. I never really have read any teen reader or child reader but they are amazing. I swear I cry and I love it. You need more recognition!! Go read Ranch Hand right now!!!

@rachaelswrites | Masterlist

Racheal, you angsty and fluffy queen! How dare you write amazing fics?!! No frr, there’s such an amazing art form that you add into each fic and series that make your stories unique. I loved your FATWS Rewrite, and I gotta say, I think I’m officially a fan of !daughter reader fics. Keep writing girl!

@writing-for-marvel | Masterlist

Em, you deserve more appreciation for your writing. Period. I swear ever since you popped up onto my stuff for you, I had to keep reading. I love your Peter Parker fic and two part series. Everyone go read!

@tylerdown13rw | Masterlist

There’s so many things that I can write rn but you were the first person I actually ever followed you when I first opened Tumblr and created an account. I have seen and read your amazing fics and I think everyone should just enjoy your art for themselves. Absolutely amazing!

@kiritella | Masterlist

Fuck, AMAZING FICS! I swear that I love all your Bucky Barnes fics! A New Maybe to Flames and Bridges...you’ve broken me and mended me...and all I can say is thank you. For all the content and beautiful writing you share to the Tumblr community, you deserve everything and more. I hope college is going well and that you have me supporting you every step of the way.

@afictionaladventure16 | Masterlist

I absolutely love your writing, especially Remember Me. Everyone needs to read this Butasha fic with !daughter reader. The suspense is immaculate and each chapter is more and more interesting. Made me tear drop at the memory parts.

@pellucid-constellations | Masterlist

Kathie! what a queen! Let me tell everyone that you have my fave Bucky fics! Everything you write is immaculate anyways. Obvs my fave was For the Love of the Game. Ingenious I swear! Keep sharing your amazing art! Everyone needs to go read!

@youre-a-total--poser | Masterlist

Maddie, your Natasha fics are sublime! I can’t believe that your writing doesn’t get the attention it deserves. Your fics are amazing and everyone should appreciate your writing and works.

@smilexcaptainx | Masterlist

Lily, you are an absolute amazing queen of writing. Each and every fic I have read is beautiful and heartwarming. You have such a way with words and anyone and everyone will love your fics.

@mrsdrysdale18 | Masterlist

Dara, I recently found you on my stuff for you page and I absolutely love all your series!!! IMMACULATE ✨chefs kiss✨ he promised and tfatws rewrite were my faves. your art form deserves more appreciation and everyone go READ!!!!

Harry Potter Recs!

@dr4cking | Masterlist

one of my fav HP writers who has an amazing heart and an amazing imagination. her works are sublime and never fails to amaze me. cinta you have grown so much and i am happy to have been a part of your journey. i can’t wait to keep reading and hyping you up with tea. go read her entire masterlist asap.

@papillon-mechant | Masterlist

amazing writing and papillon, you have a gift! i really love the way you write and i can’t wait to see you hopefully start your own poetry blog. especially your works with angst breaks my heart. keep doing you and please go read!

@fortisfilia | Masterlist

Filia! I absolutely love your writing. You have a way with words and the series you have written about Tom Riddle are fucking amazing! You gave me such a roller coaster ride in the first series, I can’t wait to read more on Promised and Kept. I look up to you as a writer and I love how you have such a beautiful relationship with your boyfriend! you deserve the world! Go read Promised rn peeps!

@missdawnandherdusk | Draco Masterlist

i have so much to say but first and foremost, anyone who reads anything you write will be captivated. even though you aren’t writing anything HP currently, I still think everyone deserves to appreciate your art and enjoy it!

@adorerdraco | Masterlist

Gigi, you are an absolute fucking genius with angst. Ugh you killed me with Healing Heart. I am so glad you were able to come back to upload the last chapter of that series! Everyone needs to read Healing Heart and all of your other works. Idk what you all are waiting for.

@iliveiloveiwrite | Masterlist

Millie, i swear to you, I will bow down with your fluffy writing, i can’t. I LOVE yuor HP writing and basically anything you write. My absolute fave fic is Paging Healer Malfoy and Time Heals. Both raw and amazing in stylistic choice. Anyone would fall in love with your writing. I also love your marvel fanfics but ill add that in my Marvel Recs.

@willowbleedsonpaper | Masterlist

Willow, my dear, anyone in love with Theodore Nott will fall in love with you. You have an amazing gift with angst and fluff. You give such humanization to such characters and amazing depth that she-who-must-not-be-named failed to do with her bias and hatred towards Slytherin. Every Theodore Nott fan or Draco Malfoy lover, to our dear Padfoot should go on and read your works.

@hannitizer | To Have a Home Masterlist

Ace, you have talent from the writing Gods. Your own creation of an AU that travels into the world of Draco Malfoy and his development with each chapter is beautiful. Readers can see a different light of the broken boy who has a chance to experience a gift he never had- true family love. Go read!

@k2padfoot | Masterlist

Cora, please you need more attention. You have amazing soft fluff and don’t stop what you’re doing. Every fic counts and I can’t wait to read more from you. Everyone go read and request! Spam her with love!

#les’ celebration 18 🎉

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prompts-of-a-dreamer · 3 years

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Levi : Does He Like Women?

I'm pretty sure that if you've been in the Attack on Titan fandom for a while, you've heard about 'proof' of Levi being gay from an interview with Isayama. Let's dive a little bit into it, and determine whether or not is this true.

The interview quoted is from a Bessatsu Manga fan event, it is most likely a question from an event called 'Another Maga Thanksgiving 2014' (most likely because I read a comment stating so, but when I searched up the terms no official sources stated the interview, only fans did)

The only source of this particular dialogue was from a tweet by the user @ b5559247 replying to @ aira_toka

Here's the 'original' Japanese transcript:

Ｑ．リヴァイ兵長の好きな女性のタイプを教えてください。

"Rivai Heichō no sukina josei no taipu o oshietekudasai."

Ａ．女性が好きなんですかねえ…？…小さい人って背の高い人を好きになるじゃないですか…。もしかしたら背の高い人が好きかもしれません。

"Josei ga sukinandesu ka nee ....? ....Chīsai hito tte senotakai hito o sukininaru janaidesu ka…. Moshika shitara senotakai hito ga suki kamo shiremasen."

The most common English transcript used for that is:

Q: What type of woman does Levi like?

A: Does he like women, though ... Short people tend to like taller people, so it's possible that he likes tall people.

A lot of fans, at the time mostly 'fujoshis', interpret this as Levi being BL/gay. Some others think he is ace/aro or bi/pan.

However, there are other lesser-known translations for the Q&A. I'm not a native Japanese speaker nor am I proficient at the language.

However other people translate the line :

"Josei ga sukinandesu ka nee...?"

"What type of woman does he like, huh...?" (repeating the original question as a rhetorical) instead of "Does he like women, though...?"

This one is based on context, taking into consideration the Q line. Also the ending 'ka nee?' is, although not a formal ending, used mostly as a rhetorical, like adding ' ..., right?' or '...., isn't it?' at the end of a sentence.

The word 'moshika shitara' is also used, which means 'probably', so Levi 'probably' likes tall people. The term 'people' was not an attempt to discreet Levi being gay by the translator, the interview sincerely uses 'hito', which means human with no definitive gender.

The language used may be suggestive, or Isayama never really thought about it and had to make up a sort-of answer during the interview.

I will remind you again that this interview has never been stated in any official sources - only the fans have been spreading it around, therefore it cannot be taken as 'canon proof' as interviews could be fabricated by fans or taken out of context. AoT Editor Kawakubo Shintaro has asked and advised not to take everything mentioned at some fan events as strictly canon, as some things mentioned may be subject to change. Since most of the time these questions are asked in an informal manner, fans are asked to take this information as not strictly canon.

In the Ilse Langnar OVA 'Ilse's Notebook', there was a scene in which Hange, known to be the closest person to Levi, had the following conversation with Oruo :

H :"Let's say that, hypothetically, Levi's trying to kill you. Kill you dead. What would you do? Can you fight and beat him?"

O : "No way. That'd be impossible. Also, I can't breathe."

H :"Let me tell you how to win. You do the research. You figure out where he goes, the food he dislikes, the girls he likes, and how many times he goes to the bathroom."

Hange's statement in the anime hints that Levi does like women. After all could it be that someone so close to him not know his sexual preference? Not to mention that Hange is extremely observant - there's no way they'd miss something like that about Levi, right?

Well, sadly, in the canon manga this scene never existed. It was probably only added by WIT to extend the runtime of the OVA. I have no idea if Isayama has a say in how his manga is being adapted, so it could be that he approved the dialogue, or not. It's very unclear.

But what about LeviHan/EreRi/EruRi/Rivetra (or most recently, Levi x Zeke)? Well, those are all fanon ships since there is no official statement from Isayama. There is nothing wrong with shipping him, with whichever character you'd like, but keep in mind that it stays fanon and he still has no canon lover.

There are some people who states that Isayama confirmed that Levi has never had a crush (suggesting he is aromantic), but my efforts to find the original source came up null. Levi, however, has no canon love interest in the manga.

If Levi is aromantic, what about the Ackerbond? Well, first and foremost, the Ackerbond isn't confirmed to be real, and if it was, the Ackerbond is a heightened sense of trust and loyalty, not romantic love specifically.

Conclusion:

The entire research and thread has proved inconclusive - that Levi's sexuality has never been confirmed, nor does he have any lover that would indicate something.

Personally, I'm more a fan of asexual Levi, take it with a grain of salt, but you can headcanon him as anything you want or ship him with anyone you like.

If you'd like to correct something with citation and sources or add your opinion, please do so, but nicely and respectfully. I know this is a pretty controversial topic, and any insights would be welcome.

#levi #levi ackerman #levi headcanons #attack on titan #levihan #eruri #aot #snk #shingeki no kyojin #levi x reader

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OBEY ME! LESSON 59 DETAILED SUMMARY + DISCUSSION/THEORIES

*I wrote this days after the lesson was first posted and never bothered to go back and edit it so meaning there will be me theorizing about the next lesson as well

*I write a small para for each chapter and I write it immediately after finishing that chapter so there’ll be theorizing about the next chapter too

*I swear more than usual here

*Some of the dialogue is heavily plagiarized and a few is lifted directly from the story, the game is to figure which is which.

*Summaries and Discussions/theories for all the other lessons can be found on this blog under #obey me spoilers or #my theories or #my headcanons

There’s spoilers for The Arcana down there too in the 6th para…. Don’t ask me how or why it just happened

Asmo greets them in the morning and they have normal breakfast/early morning talk sprinkled in with things like how great the waffle maker is and ‘get a cuppa coffee yourself it’s just a button on the espresso machine’ and ‘remember when Satan thought the Roomba was a vehicle was cats?’. Satan blushes and says he meant it can ALSO be used as a cat vehicle but Levi says they all know that’s BS. Lucifer already looking tired tells Levi to sit down and eat and that Beel’s got whipped cream around his mouth. MC, now power crazy after becoming a legit sorcerer, uses their magic to make a napkin float and wipe Beel’s mouth. Beel blushes and thanks them. Belphie says it’s impressive that they don’t need to recite an incantation to use simpler magic. Mammon comes down half asleep and yawning and nearly trips over the cat’s vehicle when MC uses wordless magic to create a gust of him to pick him up and drop him on the couch. Lucifer praises them for it and Mammon snaps at them to be gentler next time they do something similar. Belphie asks if getting the full seal means anything has changed in MC’s magic and they say they can use more spells in this world now. Mammon says ‘cool just don’t use it to send me flying about again’. Beel asks if they can use summoning magic. Satan says it’s not the type of thing novices can do and even though Solomon will teach it to them now it’ll take a lot of practice. Lucifer tells them to start practicing soon and Asmo remembers the rest of them will be leaving soon (ugh I knew this was coming but I still hate it). Mammon asks if they really have to go back. If they can’t stay here longer and call it a homestay. Beel and Levi agree saying there’s more food/anime events here they want to experience. Lucifer tells them all to quiet down and eat breakfast, MC’s quiet an contemplates having to say goodbye again soon.

In Levi’s room he’s playing Devil Crossing and gushing over it. Asmo says he doesn’t get the game at all and Levi (kinda) explains why it’s so great. Satan asks Crowe to play the theme for “Another Purrrfect Day for Kitties in the Devildom” at max volume. Levi asks if Satan did that to be mean and he says the two of them were being so loud he couldn’t read his book, Levi tells him to go read in his room then. Beel tells Crowe he’s hungry and they say they’ll send a snack recipe to his DDD, Beel says forget snack and to send him one for a huge amount of food. Levi scolds him for ordering crowe around when they belong to him and Asmo says he thinks they should ask Barbatos to connect this house and the HoL together via portals so that they could visit whenever, and that it’d be the best example for friendly relations between their worlds. MC says they don’t know if Diavolo would agree and Levi agrees with them. Belphie says when Diavolo talks about peace and harmony between the three worlds he doesn’t think he means visiting the human world whenever. And Levi agrees with that. Asmo asks what makes them so sure and that they’re no fun at all. Satan says the two angels will probably stay here for longer. Asmo asks why angels et to stay and they don’t. Beel asks why they were sent down to the human world in the first place. Belphie says probably for the same reason they were sent to the Devilom – to learn about the world. Mammon comes to the door asking if MC’s there and they reply, he asks if they all never get sick of gaming (isn’t he the one who has weekly gaming nights with Levi, MC and sometimes Beel?). He tells MC they need to go to the angel’s halo asap cause Lucifer needs to deliver something to Barbatos. Belphie says that Lucifer probably told Mammon to do it and he’s heaping it on MC. Mammon tells him to stay quiet, that he’s busy and MC’s free. They don’t get much of a choice but I like to think they put up some token protest.

On the way they run into Diavolo and ask him where’s headed. He says he’s on the way back from the market. He asks where they’re going and when they reply he says he’ll join them as he’s craving Simeon’s coffee. They tell him that they heard about them all having to head home soon, he says he wants to stay longer but the new term at RAD is starting. He says they don’t need to feel sad though cause as a sorcerer all they need to do is learn summoning magic. He laughs and says that he’s never heard of a sorcerer summoning demons to their side just to hang out though. He says he knows Solomon can be a drill sergeant but he knows MC can do it and to hang in there. MC says that’s cool and all but I want to meet up with you too. He thanks them for saying that and says he feels the same and is sad that they won’t be able to see each other but without a pact between them they can’t summon him. And MC who has bigger balls than I could ever imagine having, whose bluntness gives me anxiety irl says cool so let’s forge a pact (WHEEZEEEE. You can’t just say that!? He’s the ruler of an entire dimension he can’t be under your control you dumbfuck I’m- Pls stop saying the first thing that comes to your mind! That moment in S2 where Diavolo and Solomon were acting all secretive and shady and MC just goes up to Solomon and says I wanna know the secret too still gives me anxiety. Fucking stop have some subtlety pls) And they don’t even ask it as a question? They just say “I’d like to forge a pact with you.” Ugh. I love MC but I could never be them. Diavolo, as expected, is stunned and speechless. He then bursts out laughing and later apologizes for it saying he didn’t mean to laugh and it just took him by surprise cause not even Solomon has had the guts to ask him that (You just know if the demon king was up and active MC’d just walk up to him and demand a pact too). And that he is happy they said that. He then gets serious and says he can’t cause as the future demon king he has his position to think of (Do you think the demon king will ever wake up? Or pass away? I mean Diavolo’s already doing his job I feel like this is something that can’t stay stagnant in the long run. And the demon king waking up would be an interesting storyline cause he’d technically outrank Diavolo but it was Diavolo who called the truce with the Celestial Realm so the last he knew the Devildom was still stuck in a war with the Celestial Realm, Lucifer and his brothers were still angels and humans were probably still on the menu…) Diavolo says though they can’t forge a pact he’ll always be there when they needed him and tells them not to forget that. They can then hold his hand or put their arm through his. If they hold hands he asks if they can hold hands the rest of the way to the café and if they don’t mind that it feels a bit like a date. If they link arms he blushes and ask if they could slow down a bit cause it’s nice to walk through town together.

Luke and Simeon greet them at the café. Barbatos is surprised to see Diavolo but thanks MC for the delivery. After Simeon brings the coffee he’s told about the start of the new term at RAD. Luke is surprised that Lucifer and the brothers are leaving and asks if this means Diavolo will be going too, Diavolo says that as sad as it is they will have to. Luke looks really sad and says “…oh…” and says he hoped at least he’d be able to stay longer. This initially shocks Diavolo before he says he wishes so too but that in addition to the new term he has lots of personal business to take care of as well. Luke then asks if Barbatos will be leaving too. He says his place is at Diavolo’s side and he must follow him wherever he goes. Luke seems even more upset and doesn’t reply. Simeon says he understands that Luke is upset but if he keeps looking that sad it’ll only make it harder for everyone else. Luke blushes and says he’s not sad and that all he was thinking about was how boring it’d be without all of them around causing trouble. MC asks if the two angels will still be there. Simeon says they will be able to still each other and Luke cheers, Simeon then says it’ll still be sad that they won’t be able to see everyone whenever they want to, Luke blushes and insist he’s not sad. MC suggests throwing a farewell party. Diavolo thinks it’s a great idea and Simeon suggests calling it a ‘till we meet again party’ saying it has a nicer ring to it. (I really really love how far they’ve all come since S1, that they’ve all made this mix and match chaotic friend group and that they’re all really sad that they won’t be able to hang out as a group anymore). Diavolo becomes very excited about doing “the thing”, “the thing?” asks Luke, “ah the thing…” says Barbatos. Simeon’s surprised that Barbatos can actually understand Diavolo and Barbatos says it’s because they’ve known each other for so long. Luke says being a butler is like having superpowers.

On the way home MC runs into Solomon, they ask him where he’s heading, he’s says he’s heading over to the café for a cuppa. He asks if something good happened to them, and then specifies and says he’s not using some sorcerer’s clairvoyance to see that cause their expression is telegraphs it. They tell him about the party and he says it sounds fun. He then tells them he’s been thinking about where they go from here and how to improve as a sorcerer they’ll need training, and he asks what sort of magic they’d like to specialize in, in the future. A.) Summoning magic – he says that makes sense cause it was why they wanted to become his apprentice/a sorcerer in the first place. B.) Healing magic (which MC used once in S2 without even having to be taught after observing Satan doing it just once – given their protective nature I’d think they’d be good at it) – He says that sounds like something they’d want to learn. C.) Badass attack spells (which they used against Diavolo’s kidnapper) – He says he’d be happy to teach them but asks he exactly they’re planning to fight (the way in S1 the answer would have genuinely been Lucifer is so funny to me for some reason). He says as a novice there’s a lot they need to learn about the magical arts and not just the spells but its history and origin in the three worlds. He says in order to master the stronger spells you need to understand its origin and relevant background. And that it might not be a bad idea to go back to RAD to study these things (the way my hopes soared at this, the way I got giddy imagining starting S4 already in the Devildom after MC leaves at the end of S3), then Solomon gets sad saying if they’re around the brothers he’d get to spend less time with them (BRO leave aside your jealousy and do what’s right for your student! If they need to be around 7pretty boys who just so happen to be in love with them, to study then that’s what needs to be done, I have no biases here I swear!) MC says they’ll do whatever he thinks is best (or they can say that he’s special to them and no one else will make them feel what he does). He’s surprised that they’d leave the decision up to him and says he’ll give it more thought and choose what’s best for them. He then hands them a ring. He says it’s a sorcerer’s ring and that cause they have the ring of light protecting them (aka stopping them from going super nova and destroying all three worlds) they don’t technically need another talisman but he wants to give this to them. They thank him (or they ask if it’s okay if they kiss him). He says they ‘re welcome and says that as his student and his apprentice they deserve nothing less and that they’re important to him (wonder if S4 will give insight to his first apprentice). He says there’s still so much he has to teach them and that he’s looking forward to it and that he’s happy to have them at his side.

Even from outside the manor MC can hear Levi and Mammon arguing. Mammon’s apparently got a part-time job in the human world and yesterday for payday and Levi wants his money back (and okay this is a question I’ve always had…where does Levi get his money from?????? As far as ik Mammon’s the only one with a stable part-time job but Levi always seems to have so much money? Not only is he able to spend a lot on akuzon but he always has money to spare for Mammon??? Where the fuck is he getting it from? Also does Diavolo pay Lucifer?) Mammon says he already spent it all and Levi says he wishes he would keel over and die, Mammon tells him to shut up and show his older brother some respect, Mammon tries to run away and Levi summons Lotan right as MC steps inside (Do you think Lotan ever gets tired of being summoned into small cramped spaces for no reason?) Mammon screams and asks why kinda idiot summons a sea monster inside a house, Levi screams at MC to watch out as (guessing by the noise) MC’s swept back outside the house by a tidal wave. In the bathroom, Levi’s sobbing and apologizing to MC, he says he was so pissed at Mammon he lost his cool, MC asks if they should be fighting like that as brothers, and he says they weren’t “fighting” fighting and the way I’ve said this same thing multiple times to my mother as a kid/teenager is…. Levi then says Mammon’s the worst cause he keeps buying things through crowe without asking Levi, he says that no matter how many times he changes his password Mammon keeps guessing it, MC tells him to stop using TSL passwords, he’s surprised that they figured it out as well (I mean…) He suggests they combine a word to make his new password - something related to a special date or time and they spend more time in the bathroom bouncing words off each other until they come up with the perfect one. Levi blushes and says it feels special to have a password only the two of them know. IF you tell him it’s cause their relationship is special he asks them to keep telling him that he’s different from the others so that he’ll feel less anxious and that he wishes he could stay with them forever and that they could be a family and MC asks if he’s proposing to them and that’s when I screamed HOLY SHIT and noped outta there because HOLY SHIT!!!??? S2 the last two lessons was MC going around collecting special items from the brothers, is S3 gonna be them going around tryinta have a shotgun wedding with one of them so that they don’t have to stay in the human realm??? God MC’s so fucking proactive I could never. Remember early in S2 when MC told Mammon things would be easier if he just admitted to being in love with them!??? It’s the same with The Arcana and Last Legacy MC’s too??? Last Legacy’s MC is such a fucking little shit I actually prefer them over the LIs but the way they’re so forward scared me like YES she’s super pretty but she’s also holding a sword to your throat should you really be flirting with her rn!? And The Arcana’s MC is on a whole other level (specifically in Julian’s route) like this is the second time you’re meeting him why the FUCK are you trying to strip search him on your doorstep in broad daylight WHILE he’s wanted for a murder YOU were hired to investigate!? Or better yet this is just the third time you’re meeting him why the fuck are you pinning him to a wall and pressing your palm into his open wound on the off chance he turns out to be a masochist!?? Actually wait. MC had known Julian for possibly years and worked closely with him for sometime before shit went down and they both lost their memories of each other, but after meeting again even without memories they both realized the other was familiar to them so do you think it’s possible some deep unconscious part of MC that already knew it sparked the strong hunch in MC that Julian was a masochist??? BACK TO OM! MC can also say it’s all in levi’s head (a little too harsh for my taste but whatever) Levi says he’s lost his happy moment - crushed into teeny tiny pieces and that of course he’s the only one that feels like it’s special. He sniffles. (CAN’T WE SAY IT’S SPECIAL IN A FRIEND WAY!?)

In the kitchen Beel is trying to get Belphie to eat celery by offering to juice it and mix it with other stuff so you can’t taste it (I’ve never had celery but someone said it was like water but crunchy which doesn’t sound that bad?) MC asks what they’re up to, they’re using the juicer to make juice and are trying to decide what to add to it. Belphie says they’re making fresh fruit juice and want something a little extra and ask MC what they think should be added. “Celery,” says MC. Because they’re a shithead and I like to think this is revenge for that one time in S1…y’know what I’m talking about. Beel likes the juice, Belphie says he cans still taste the celery >:) Despite only making juice the kitchen’s an absolute mess and they’re all about to clean it before Lucifer sees when Belphie hears the ice cream truck. Belphie says he’s never bought anything from the ice cream truck before and Beel says he can go check it out and when Belphie brings up cleaning the kitchen Beel volunteers MC and himself to do it (y’know MC should really start putting their foot down) Once Belphie runs after the truck Beel says that Belphie being unable to stop himself from checking out something fun has never changed. Beel asks if they want the remaining fruit. They can ask him to feed it to them or say he can have it. After the second option he eats it before they can even get their whole answer out. He then gets sad about how after he leaves they won’t be able to do stuff like this again. He asks if there’s something they can do so that they can stay this way together. (MC can ask to take their relationship to the next level) MC says they can be made part of the family leaving whatever that means up to Beel’s interpretation (watch Beel go up to Lucifer and ask him to sign the adoption papers of a fully grown adult human being). He agrees that this could work and says while he already thinks of them as family that alone wouldn’t be enough to make it official. And says they should ask Belphie and that together the three of them will have to think of something. He says eventually they’ll think of a good way to keep them all together forever. He then tells them he’ll put the dirty towels in the laundry room and that he’ll catch up with them and Belphie later.

Outside Belphie hands them one of three ice creams and says they should head to the pool, they ask about Beel and Belphie says he’ll just follow the smell of ice cream (does ice cream have a smell? Like even a faint one? I mean it must right?) Belphie says that the twins also have a way of always knowing where the other is because they know each other the best, he says though it’s fainter he’s also sort of able to tell where the other 5 are and what they’re doing. And recently it’s become the same with MC as it is with the others. MC asks if it’s because they’re all family. He laughs and says that’s probably it. Before amending it and saying he’s sure that’s the reason. Belphie says that the brothers – Specially Mammon and after Belphie pauses to give it some thought, Asmo – would be thrilled about MC officially becoming family. MC – cheeky lil shit that they are – asks if only his brothers would be happy. He tells them of course he’d be happy and he asks them if they want a bite of his ice cream (they can ask to be fed it), they tell him no, it’s okay. He asks if they don’t like the flavour and then Beel shows up. Belphie says, “see when you’re family, you just know.” And When Beel asks what they’re talking about he smiles and says nothing.

So that’s the semi last lesson and then we’re done and each time they have to get separated again I feel so emotional but this time I feel like S3 really set up S4 with all this talk about the angels and Lucifer and Simeon’s worst fear and Simeon’s backstory and Simeon and Luke’s purpose in the human world, and possibly Solomon’s backstory too and maybe even Barbatos and just ugh I’m so excited for season 4 and the last lesson of S3 hasn’t even been released yet???

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Wanna Know a Writer

Thank you very much to @sparrow-ink for the tag - I love doing these when I get the chance! Incidentally, this is also my 1001st post on Tumblr!

How many works do you have on AO3?

It looks like I have 116 right now, but it will be 117 tomorrow (with a short Batman/Superman fic)

What’s your total AO3 word count?

716,792 apparently... I’ve been writing like crazy lately and I still swear that can’t be right, but there you go

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

It looks like I’ve posted fic for 30 (including crossovers and fusions) and there may be more I haven’t posted, so not listing all of them. You can see the whole list here

Following @sparrow-ink‘s example, I’ll let my filesystem speak for itself:

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Language of Chess has been the undisputed champion for a while (Kirk and Spock flirt using the Vulcan language of chess)

The Old Family Farm is a more recent fic that came up from behind while I wasn’t looking (Clark Kent takes Bruce Wayne to meet his parents)

The Gift Giving Game was my K/S secret santa gift for Herenya_writes (Kirk and Spock stir up rumors as professors at Starfleet Academy)

A Hidden, Personal Thing (Spock offers to mind meld with Kirk)

Human, Vulcan, and Everything in Between (Spock is ace, Kirk is polyamorous, and it works well for them)

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try to respond to every comment because there’s nothing I like more than talking with people about my writing and the stories that inspire it! I’m more than happy to answer questions on here too, if anyone has any!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

So, these days I’m generally a firm believer in happy endings, but in the pre-AO3 days, I used to mostly write death!fic and a few highlights actually made it onto AO3:

The Death of Spock - Spock dies during the original five-year mission and Kirk is left to pick up the pieces

Only a Fool - Watson dies at Reichenbach and Holmes is left to pick up the pieces

Honorable mention: Devoted - the inevitable tragedy of Mary Watson (nee Morstan)

Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

As it turns out, the other thing I used to write is crazy crossovers, many of which were never finished, let alone saw the light of day. I’ve dialed back on it (a little), but here are some highlights:

Spock in Wonderland

Millennium Death Note - currently in progress! (What if Light Yagami solved the Millennium Puzzle?)

The Mysterious Mr. Jeeves - Jeeves and Wooster x Everything, but I think the most outlandish one in there would have to be The Phantom of the Opera

Honorable mention: my old BBC Sherlock x Harry Potter - the writing isn’t great and the plot is a bit of a mess, but it will likely always be my most viewed fic

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Only a little bit and mostly just on FanFiction.net - there was one person offended that my big Star Trek TOS x TNG crossover was “secretly” Kirk/Spock. More often I get people who like most of my fics, but then get annoyed about Kirk being polyamorous or Spock being ace or don’t like how I decided to end something, which isn’t terribly helpful, but could be worse.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Nope, don’t read it, don’t write it, just not for me.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge, thankfully.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! I’m honored that people want to translate my stories into other languages (and make podfic of them)!

The first three chapters of Devoted (the tragedy of Mary Watson) are available in Chinese

Enough to Drive a Man to Madness (Mycroft puts up with Sherlock Holmes angsting about Dr. Watson) is available in Russian

Once Upon a Dream (Holmes and Watson dance) is available in Russian

The Appearance of Dorian Gray (Bertie Wooster meets Dorian Gray) has a podfic

And I think someone did a podfic of a scene from A Crazy Little Thing Called Love (the progression of Kirk and Spock’s relationship over The Original Series), but I can’t seem to find it right now

What’s your all time favorite ship?

My first and dearest will always be Holmes/Watson from the original Sherlock Holmes stories

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I’ve gotten to be pretty good at finishing things I want to write, but there’s this huge Disney crossover I started writing with a friend that is glorious and complicated and almost 1/3 of the way done despite being over 90k already. Whenever I think about it, I always think that, yes, I will finish it some day, even though my co-author has lost interest, but the truth is probably not... But who knows, maybe I’ll turn around and have it done for next year’s @wipbigbang!

What are your writing strengths?

I’ve discovered a secret talent for finishing what I start, which is nice - a combination of planning and just keeping at it, slow and steady.

I think I do a good job of capturing characters’ voices, whether in dialogue or narration, and it serves me particularly well when I’m trying to imitate a style - I’m especially proud of some of my Jeeves and Wooster. I can also do some nice flowery prose if put my mind to it.

What are your writing weaknesses?

For all of my love of pretty prose, it’s easy for me to forget to describe things, so my writing can end up fairly sparse. I also feel like I could get better at integrating romance and plot - the romance often ends up getting drowned out by everything else going on, which is especially frustrating because I’m usually writing it because of the romance.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

That’s a good question. Probably Death Note (my friends and I used to ship L/Light) - that’s the oldest fic I have on my computer, at least, but I used to write on paper, so there may be something even older there. The first fandom I posted anything for is Harry Potter (a next-gen OC fic about the daughter of Bellatrix Lestrange - it’s best not to ask). I also posted my first Holmes/Watson fic at about the same time (it’s pretty bad, but I tried).

What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

I’m actually really happy with a couple of my somewhat recent longer fics:

Generations - my Kirk/Spock Star Trek: Generations fix-it

Bertie Solves a Mystery - Jeeves and Wooster get embroiled in a murder mystery and meet Hercule Poirot and Hastings (also Jeeves has a mysterious backstory)

tagging: I’m going to second @plaudiusplants and tag @the-z-part and @marlinspirkhall if you’d like to do it, along with anyone else who wants to go for it!

#v writes #v was tagged #Star Trek: The Original Series #Spirk #ACD Sherlock Holmes #H/W #Jeeves and Wooster #SuperBat #Yugioh #Death Note #Harry Potter #Alice in Wonderland #The Phantom of the Opera #Hercule Poirot #Dorian Gray #Star Trek: The Next Generation

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lovethisletters · 3 years

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Dating Grell HC!

Hi! SO sorry for taking this long, irl stuff got in my way but I’m finally here! Agreed, finding Grell content is kind of difficult, and though they aren’t my favorite character, I do enjoy their personality. Before we start, I would like to clarify that I wrote this with gender neutral pronouns for Grell since I’m kind of confused: in the manga and anime sometimes, characters will refer to them with: He/Him pronouns, they refer to themselves with: She/her but their wiki refers to them with they/them pronouns; so, if someone could clarify that for me (and provide a link that confirms is cannon) I would be beyond grateful!

Word count: 1220

Keys: Y/n = Your name.

Summary: Grell starts to feel in a way they have never felt before.

Warnings/Additional notes: none…I think(? But I tried to keep it neutral for the reader too, since pronouns weren’t specified.

Grell being a reaper they have little to no time on their hands, so most probably they met you at work.

They were the one to approach you first by practically throwing themselves at you going on a ramble about how GORGEOUS you are.

I think that at the beginning their feelings are more like a simple crush that will fade away with time or mindless lust that is set to disappear the moment they get to have sex with you.

So, until that happens you will have to deal with practically a cat, they get all touchy: rubbing their cheek against yours, hugging you enthusiastically (like how a child would hug a stuffed toy) begging for attention constantly and even directing not so subtle innuendos at you.

But overall Grell is someone fun and pleasing to be around (especially if you are feeling a bit down) their bubbly and dramatic personality is just so contagious you can’t help but smile!

So that’s why you don’t push them away as harshly as Sebastian or William would

And I feel like that’s why they get a little bit more interested in you.

Even though they identify themselves as a masochist, that does not mean they enjoy being treated poorly all the time, they know their personality is…hard to cope with, but Grell appreciate when someone would still make the effort to get along.

So, when you don’t just…you know…kick them in the face every time they approach you (cofcofSeb&Willcofcof) they feel more comfortable being themselves around you, since no matter how eccentric they might be, you always continue the conversation in a kind manner.

Grell is someone who’s VERY emotionally driven, to the point I think it must be hard for them to differentiate certain emotions like: anger to frustration, sadness with deception and romantic love to lustful attraction. I feel like for them there’s no grey area, is either love or hate so in the beginning this might cause your relationship a bit of trouble.

As your relationship grew closer you started to notice a change in Grell’s behavior: They started being a bit more serious (still as theatrical as ever but different none the less)

They suddenly seemed to have become aware of what personal space is supposed to mean, the hugs became relatively short, the innuendos stopped almost completely and when the two of you started talking, Grell was eerily quiet.

This probably would make you feel like you might have angered them in some way, but don’t worry…the truth is..Grell is just confused.

Lust driven love is all they’re ever known, but their feelings for you have changed, evolved if you may. The only thing they know: is that they like you, but not in the way they like Will, Sebastian or Undertaker, no. They like you in a different way…a deeper way.

So please be patient and let them figure it out on their own.

BUT tbh I don’t think they figured out on their own…I just think they where in the phantomhive manor one day (just to tease Sebastian or double-check these newfound feelings were indeed different) But Ciel just felt so uneasy since he had never seen Grell so quiet and deep in thought.

—What is wrong with you, Grell?—His words condescending as ever.

—Pay no mind to them, master. The reaper is just hopelessly in love—Said Sebastian with a smirk creeping on his lips.

Sebastian’s words were almost eye-opening to them. “Love? Was it truly the right word to describe this feeling?”

Yes, yes it was, they knew the moment they went back to you that day.

Saying that you were surprised when Grell suddenly appeared at your house, late at night, pinning you to the floor by giving you the BIGGEST hug in your life, after weeks of not seeing each other since apparently, they were ignoring you, was a severe understatement.

—What has gotten into you, Grell?— you questioned, caressing their long red hair.

—Oh! Y/N my love! I love you!—You smiled, Grell had finally come back to you.

—Ha Ha Ha, I love you too, Grell!—Grell froze in place.

You thought they were messing around with you like countless time before, so you just responded in the usual joking manner.

—No, no, no! You’ve got it all wrong my dear!—For the first time since you had known them, their expression turned serious and gently took your hands in theirs.

—Y/n you are probably the only person I have ever felt this strongly, I feel like if you were to die today, I will die with you! Y/n my dear…I love you! This are my true feelings…Won’t you accept them?

Such sweet words, spoken with the most profound sincerity.

You couldn’t help but tear up a little (Which made Grell panic a bit)

—Yes, Grell, I love you too, so please accept this feelings of mine as well.—The hugh that followed was not only an acceptance but the seal of a promise, the true love kind of promise.

From here onwards you can see a change in Grell’s behavior towards you (in a positive way that is)

Dating Grell means you get to see them in a whole new light.

They are much more sincere (still dramatic as ever but a bit toned down)

They allow themselves to be vulnerable with you, no longer hiding their worries under a carefree and almost indifferent facade.

You become a safe place they can come to when things get difficult or simply when they just feel tired and overwhelmed with their reaper duties.

Something that stays pretty much the same in your relationship is how much attention-seeking they are.

You have to put on hold whatever you’re doing ‘cause those things can wait but Grell don’t.

“Nee~ honey, pay attention to me!” is a phrase you might hear often if you even dare to pay attention to something else when they are right beside you!

Grell will 100% shower you in kisses constantly.

Cuddles! Cuddles are a MUST with them.

Be prepared for Lots LOTS of PDA, they don’t care if it’s not the appropriate time or place, they need to show you how much you mean to them now!

I feel like they are the type to pull you closer and start dancing or reciting a dramatic dialogue of some romantic play they recently saw, out of nowhere in the middle of the street.

Grell also loves when you touch, caress, braid or brush their hair, is just so adorable! (If you want to turn them on, just pull their hair a little and see what happens ;)

If you have long hair, they will do the same but if you don’t expect them to go wild with how much flower crowns, hats, hair pins, etc they gift you.

Matching outfits! They even gifted you a red coat like theirs!

Grell loves when you let them do your make up! (if you wear any that is, otherwise they would allow you to do theirs) and it goes without saying, they are so good at it! you always end up feeling like royalty.

Theatrical pet names!

Sometimes they would allow you to borrow their Death Scythe (even if is for ridiculous things like idk cutting bread lol) but shhh, don’t tell Will!

Theater Dates!

Kisses, TONS of kisses (they love when you bite their lips, if you do; you might even hear them moan)

Overall, Grell is just so happy to have someone like you in their life and they will demonstrate it to you every chance they get.

♡♤♡♤♡♤♡♤

If you spot any misplaced pronouns, please let me know! I will correct it asap! just know that I didn’t do it with any ill intention and that english is not my first language and perhaps that’s why something might have slipped! as well grammatical errors, I’m trying to polish my writing in this language so calling me out on any mistakes helps me a lot!

I will forever thank you if you go check out my other profile: @aileysmirnov where I post things about my OC: edits, one-shots, imagines, art, etc. If you like Greek mythology and the bat family maybe you would like her as much as I do!

Anyway! Thank you for reading!

#grell sutcliff #grell sutcliff x reader #black butler #black butler fanfiction #black butler grell #kuroshitsuji #black butler edit #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #black butler fandom

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pathsofoak · 2 years

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Ingestopt (tucked in) WIP excerpt

So this is a rough draft of my rough draft, I don't have much of a plot yet... There is an English translation below the Dutch bit, which continues below the cut. It's roughly 500 words. Most of the dialogue is in English either way, though. So as a challenge, see how far you get on dialogue alone ;) I switched which language is italized in the translation, so it'll be easier if you want to figure out which word means what on your own.

“Wat?” Marijn trok de dekens iets verder over haarzelf en Vajèn heen. Het jongetje kroop dichter tegen haar aan in zijn slaap, weg van de rots die ze als rugleuning gebruikten.

Julia prikte met een stok in hun kampvuur om het levende te houden voor de nacht. Ze keek uit over de heuvels. “They’re getting closer.”

Ze doelde op de zachte lichtgloed achter een van de achterste heuvels.

“You two should move on.” Julia pakte haar spullen bij elkaar. “They don’t know about him yet. You two should go find the vallei, I’ll go look for the artifact.”

Marijn stond op and wikkelde de deken om Vajèn heen voordat ze naast Julia over dezelfde gloed uitkeek. Ze had haar verteld dat het niet veel meerwaarde had om het woord vallei te vertalen, maar Julia deed alsnog de moeite.

“Nee. It’s too dangerous.” Ze snapte het idee wel, vechten was niet echt een optie. Voor Vajèn in andere vorm en Julia misschien, maar Marijn kon het vergeten. Ze had moeite genoeg om haar lichaam stabiel te houden.

“The oath.” Julia greep haar zwaard vast. “Unless the magical people in your dreams can come here and keep you safe.”

Marijn gaf Julia een sarcastische lach terug. Ze had de anderen al weken niet gesproken, het strand was leeg als ze er überhaupt al binnenkwam. Die hadden sowieso hun eigen problemen om op te lossen. “I still don’t think it’s magic.”

Julia haalde haar schouders op. “If it is you help me out in the bakery for a week.”

“Een maand en ik ben het met je eens.”

Julia stond even stil om na te denken. “All I got was month, but I can do a month. But I’m serious, I need to take it. I can pay that price.”

“Waag het niet,” Marijn moest moeite doen om haar stem zachtjes te houden. “If I get sick, or tired, or—”

“That is exactly what it’s for. It’s a shield. Things would never get so bad you wouldn’t make it.”

“Ja, voor mij,” gromde ze terug. Julia zou er geen woord van verstaan, maar dat boeide haar even niet. “Jij bent degene die in d’r uppie de halve wereld over wil gaan op zoek naar een mythe waar je niks vanaf weet, idioot.”

Julia pakte haar wapens bij elkaar. “Go sleep. Please. Let me take it.” Ze had dat verdomde zwaard al in de handen. “It’s now or a week from now, or a month, I will take it.”

Marijn pakte haar notitieboek en schoof het in het voorvakje van Julias tas. Zonder een verder woord te zeggen zette ze het neer naast het kampvuur. Dat Julia het vertelde was een beleefdheid, de ede zelf had als leuke bijwerking dat niemand haar het zou zien of horen nemen. “I want a sketch of your glowing sword. Or a picture, if you find a camera before you take it.”

Julia boog haar hoofd tegen dat van Marijn en zuchtte zachtjes. “Weltrusten.”

Marijn legde haar hoofd tegen Julia’s schouder. “Vajèn will be pissed.”

“Gift. In zijn tas. I will make it up to him.”

English translation:

“What?” Marijn pulled the blankets over her and Vajèn a little further. The little boy huddled closer to her in his sleep, away from the rock they used as back support for the night.

Julia poked the campfire with a stick, to keep it burning for the night. She looked out over the hills. “They’re getting closer.”

She meant the soft glow behind one of the the hills in the very back.

“You two should move on.” Julia gathered her things. “They don’t know about him yet. You two should go find the valley, I’ll go look for the artifact.”

Marijn got up and wrapped the blanket around Vajèn before looking out over the same glow. She told Julia, translating the word valley didn’t have any additional value, but Julia still put in the effort.

“No. It’s too dangerous.” She understood the idea, fighting wasn’t an option. It was to Vajèn in another form and Julia, maybe, but Marijn could forget it. She had trouble enough keeping her body stable.

“The oath.” Julia took hold of her sword. “Unless the magical people in your dreams can come here and keep you safe.”

Marijn replied with a sarcastic laugh. She hadn’t spoken to the others in weeks. The beach had been empty, if she got there in the first place. They had their own problems to solve, anyway. “I still don’t think it’s magic.”

Julia shrugged. “If it is you help me out in the bakery for a week.”

“A month and I’ll agree with you.”

Julia stood still to think. “All I got was month, but I can do a month. But I’m serious, I need to take it. I can pay that price.”

“Don’t you dare.” Marijn had trouble keeping her voice quiet. “If I get sick, or tired, or—”

“That’s exactly what it’s for. It’s a shield. Things would never get so bad you wouldn’t make it.”

“Yes, for me,” she growled back. Julia wouldn’t understand a word, but for the moment, she didn’t care. “You are the one who wants to go across the world all alone to look for a myth you don’t know anything about, idiot.”

Julia gathered her weapons. “Go sleep. Please. Let me take it.” She already had the damned sword in her hands. “It’s now, or a week from now, or a month. I will take it.”

Marijn took her notebook and put it in the front pocket of Julia’s bag. Without saying another word, she put it down next to the campfire. Julia telling her alone was politeness. No one would see or hear Julia take the oath, as a fun side effect. “I want a sketch of your glowing sword. Or a picture, if you find a camera before you take it.”

Julia bowed her head against Marijn’s and sighed softly. “Goodnight.”

Marijn dropped her head to Julia’s shoulder. “Vajèn will be pissed.”

“Gift. In his bag. I will make it up to him.”

#wip: ingestopt #excerpt wip: ingestopt #the title isn't definitive #but I do like it #I won't play around with languages much in this one #Vajèn speaks Dutch #and Julia will be gone for half the story because of that oath they argue about #So it's mostly Marijn and Vajèn #please drop into my asks about this because I want to infodump so bad #(I'll even do it in English ;)#translated writing

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