#i miss who i used to be

[nobodyknowscamila]

"I need to see my dad" but the dad that I need to see is stuck in my childhood and the dad I know now is a different person.

#girl problems #female hysteria #hell is a teenage girl #girlhood #girlblogging #daddy issues #i miss who i used to be #i wanna be a kid again #female rage #female manipulator #femcel #im going insane

[spiderempath]

bilbo scream singing Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve after returning for the quest

#i’m so right and you know it #the song is literally about him #i miss who i used to be #the tomb won’t close #stain glass windows in my mind #i regret you all the time #cmon it’s literally him #he’s a swifty #bilbo baggins #thorin oakenshield #the hobbit #bagginshield

[theirsweetestsymphony]

my hobbies include listening to a song on repeat until it makes me cry

#would've could've should've #i miss who i used to be #i regret you all the time #give me back my girlhood it was mine first #swifties #taylor swift #cancer #pisces

[jugheadthelesbian]

yes, im a would’ve could’ve should’ve girlie and it’s for the same reason im a tolerate it and mirrorball girlie, im a people pleaser and i miss being optimistic 🫶

#taylor swift #wouldve couldve shouldve #taylor swift mirrorball #tolerate it #i miss who i used to be #give me back my girlhood it was mine first #ive never been a natural all i did was try try try #shining just for you #use my best colors for your portrait

[trashmagic333]

talking to older men online has me relating to wouldve couldve shouldve a little too much 😂😂😂🤣😂🤣😂😂😂🤣😂

#im scared for my safety lol #i miss who i used to be #i regret you all the time #i feel so used and worthless rn 🤣 #Spotify

[la-principessa-della-squadra]

just dropping by to say i miss your stuff a lot and i hope you're doing okay!! 🥺🫶

It's nice to hear from you again!💕

I Hope you're doing good too! You are one of my first readers and a muse to me!

I'm thinking of redesigning my blog from 0 or just giving it to someone else who is more active.

-La Principessa della Squadra

#not jojo #answering my lovelies #i miss who i used to be #i miss writing

[niceboyeds]

GOD REST MY SOUL I MISS WHO I USED TO BE THE TOMB WONT CLOSE STAINED GLASS WINDOWS IN MY MIND I REGRET YOU ALL THE TIME

#taylor swift #taylor allison swift #swiftie #ts10 midnights #midnights #would’ve could’ve should’ve #i miss who i used to be #i regret you all the time #who allowed this #screaming crying etc #mostly sobbing #i am unwell

[jagerstian]

I had a realization earlier while reminiscing on past traumatic events that those events did in fact change me as a person and I only just now connected those very obvious dots and now I'm pissed off because do you realize how cool and carefree and extroverted I could've been? This is so bogus, I used to be the popular kid and then BAM. Trauma. Now I'm a hermit who sometimes goes days without hearing myself talk without realizing it. People used to greet me by name, complete strangers i had never seen before in my LIFE, but they knew me because word got around. What the FUCK. I WAS SO COOL AND BELOVED? Now I'm basically if a potato was sentient. AND MY REPUTATION STILL PRECEEDS ME? THERE ARE KIDS FROM YEARS AGO WHO STILL THINK ABOUT ME AND STILL WANT ME TO LIKE THEM? THERE ARE GUYS WHO STILL LIKE ME SO MUCH THAT THEY ARE STILL ASKING ME OUT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS? What a downgrade I became. Today I had to work up the courage to cheer for my cousins soccer game out loud. I used to be EVERYONES hype man, effortlessly. It was like a switch, the way I changed. How do I reset to my default settings? Thanks brain, for protecting me, you did a good job, now please retire so I can be fun again, thanks

#i really did just become boring #not because im not interesting #but out of fear and self preservation #i had to learn to keep everything to myself #to build impenetrable walls #to not trust ANYONE #to keep my head down and not get noticed #i think I've gotten better! #it's just going so slowly #it's been 4 years #can't the process go any faster? #i miss who i used to be #i know a lot of people who miss her too #some people get trauma and it gives them their spice #i got trauma and became a giant thumbs down #and it's CRAZY that my biggest insecurity has been how boring i am for so long #and i never connected the dots till now #tbf i tend to force myself to not think too much about what happened #i made a promise to myself to never get that bad mentally again #and I've kept it #but im tired #im tired of BEING tired #and I'm tired of mourning the person I lost #myself #ew whyd i get all edgy tonight #bye #im off to draw dumb shit to make myself feel better

[evermoredeluxe]

every single time i think about the lyric “god rest my soul” i want to kill myself

#i miss who i used to be #arshia talks

[god-of-all-things]

Listening to FoB and thinking about love, trust and complications

#motley talks #adventures of the chaotic nb #I want life to be easier again please #i miss who i used to be #and I wish my best friend was within a reasonable distance #and I wish I could kiss my partners #and I wish I could go on a picnic #and I wish my irl friends weren’t making everything so hard #I want the world to be kinder #I want life to be easy #it’s less than 200 days at least

[queenofhella]

midnights is so Laurent coded.

would’ve, could’ve, should’ve?

you’re on your own kid??

the great war???

AND MASTERMIND?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

#i miss who i used to be #the tomb won’t close #and now that i’m grown i’m scared of ghosts #memories feel like weapons #give me back my girlhood it was mine first #laurent of vere #damen of akielos #damen #laurent #damen x laurent #taylor swift #midnights

[crunchycrystals]

i cannot actually comprehend the fact that we have would've could've should've like this is too good what did we to deserve this. i don't think i deserve this its that good

#i can feel how much shes thought about this specific incident like i regret you all the time #i miss who i used to be #im lying face down on the floor this fits the midnights theme so well #ts #crunchyposts #taylor swift #midnights #i love this song wtf #wcs

[find-me-beneath-wonderland]

I do miss you.

I refuse to go back to you.

I miss who you used to be.

I shut you out the best I can.

I refuse to let you back in.

But you'll always be a part of me.

And for that I know I can never let you win.

You're a drowned out piece.

The demon that lost.

The absolute tragedy.

I had to kill you off to finally find me.

#fighting my demons #mental health awareness #mental health #old me #fighting with myself #i miss you #poem #poetry #poet #poets #poems #poetic #i miss who i was #i miss who i used to be #i miss me #beautiful #beauty #pretty #california #poetically #poetically speaking #life #myself #find me #find you #find myself #find yourself #words #writing #writer

[x-itzzzzzz-x]

i can’t seem to do anything right at all

i’m just consistently a let down

#i miss who i used to be #ppl liked me better

[burytheminflorida]

i hadnt listened to wouldve couldve shouldve in sooo long until today so that mashup really just tore me limb from limb

#that song is sooo growing up disabled and being gaslit coded okay #give me back my girlhood #and if i was a child did it matter if you got to wash your hands #all i used to do was pray #memories feel like weapons #i miss who i used to be #the wound wont close i keep on waiting for a sign #if clarity's in death why wont this die #also my dad coded for reasons tumblr doesnt need expansion on...... #it's the god damn fight of my life

[deltarose]

My personal biggest flaw is the fact that I hold on.

I hold on to negative experiences.

I hold on to negative interactions.

I hold on to attachments.

I hold on to grudges.

I allow these things to be part of my spiral. And I spiral more than I’d like to admit. I’m one that won’t let go because of a bad interaction. It takes me hundreds of thousands and even then. It may not be enough to let go of a person, event, or thing. I could get hurt again and again and still hold on.

If there’s one thing that’s been consistent, it is that personal flaw. Things change and grow and that’s okay. But I’ve always had issues letting go. Especially letting go of people. Still, I miss my friend that turned their back because I was unwilling to let go of my relationship. And I still hold on to hope that they’ll come back. They may never come back to me, that’s my weight to bear. I loved spending time with my friends for new years, that’s not happening this year. One left, though I’d still consider her a friend. One moved, one has life.

I’ve never been the one with a lot. So I’ve always held so tightly in the best ways I knew how.

Holding on to so much hurts.

I realize it hurts and would hurt so. So. So. Much less if I’d let go, but atlas. I don’t want to.

The things I hold on to, so many of them brought me so much happiness at some point. Letting go of lots of the things that hurt, would be letting go of so many things that make me so happy.

Anyone that knew me at all knows how hard I hold on to things

#my thoughts #everything is heavy #heavy #hold on #stop holding on #my cross to bear #personal flaw #personal blog #memories #i miss my friends #i miss who i used to be #an empty cup cannot fill another but it’ll still try #1:00am