#i love this site sm god damn

[patchwork-slime]

i literally was like "man having multiple blogs is cool and all but i wish u could have seperate dashboards per blog since theyre all so diff ykno" n then Discovered Tags like

#slime talks #I LITERALLY LIKE #HH #i cannot express how happy that makes me u have No Idea #like ik tags were a thing in general but being able to tags in a seperate page from the dashboard #to act as an even more personalized mini-dashboard???? #GENIUS #i love this site sm god damn

[faiirybread]

i know places ︴aa23

🌷 in which.. the fans aren’t happy, but they are!

pt1!

alex_albon just posted!

God bless America, God bless double points!🫡🇺🇸🦅raaaaahhh!!!!

tagged: danielricciardo, yukitsunoda, yourusernameofficial

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user1 YN?????

user2 great race today, you deserved those points!

user3 ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

user4 GET AWAY FROM HER

user5 MOM NO PLEASE

yourusernameofficial Amazing job today, it was awesome to watch! 💙💙

alex_albon Thank you so much!

user4 BRO GO FOR IT

user6 is yn dating him?

user5 we dont know, all the interactions between them is him liking her post and posting her stage on his story, her going to a race, and now this post

user6 ah ok

user7 NO WAY yourusernameofficial ARE YOU A GLUTEN FREE GIRLIE

yourusernameofficial Yes! I went gluten free because I kept getting muscle injuries, and it’s really helped! 💗

user7 YESSSS SHE IS ONE OF US I LOVE YOU YN

user8 STOP THEY WENT TO TRADER JOES TOGETHER???

user9 THATS WHAT IM SAYINGG LIKE THEY ARE TOGETHER

user10 RAHHH LAND OF THE FREE TO DATE YN YLN

user11 he isnt dating her you bitch.. get out of here

user10 RAHH CANT HEAR YOU OVER ALL THIS FREEDOM

user11 why would yn lower herself to him, she knows her worth and he isnt it.

user12 WHATS THAT SOUND?? THE SOUND OF LIBERATION FROM WACKASS KPOP STANS

f1gossip just posted!

recent photos released by korean news site dispatch of yn yln and alex!

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user1 YOUR JOKING

user2 most random couple

user3 yn.. how could you betray us like this 😔

user4 ALEX ALBON WITH THE RIZZZ

user5 wtf are you talking about? this isnt a good thing..

user4 lol what why

user5 yns whole career is on her fans, who shes betraying with this. ive been a fan since she was 16 and to see her grow up to be such a slut is really disappointing.. i wouldnt be surprised if her company terminates her contract

user4 bro wtf are you on about?? shes a fucking human being who is allowed to live and have friends and partners. calling yourself a fan of hers then saying shes a slut is just laughable. your a 40 year old man who became a fan of a 16 year old and cant bear to think that shes not a doll for you to play with. fucking creepy and disgusting.

user6 NUH UH NUH UH

user7 ok but ehy this guy?! yn could literally have anyone in f1 and she chose a guy who cant even win a race??

user8 dude poor alex he does not deserve the crazy kpop stans breathing down his neck

user9 wait theyre kinda cute 🤭

user10 NO THEYRE NOT

ynupdates just posted!

OFFICIAL STATEMENT FROM SM ENTERTAINMENT:

Hello, this is SM Entertainment. A series of photos were shared today of YN YLN. We cannot confirm or deny the rumors, and request that you give YN privacy and empathy in this time. Thank you.

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user1 what was the point of the statement if theyre not gonna confirm anything 😭

user2 sm this isnt kai and jennie.. williams racing is not gonna post a statement

user3 ok so….

user4 #DROPYN

user5 get tf outta here ‼️

user6 BOOOO

user7 this is how her company responds to alex getting this amount of hate??

user8 unfortunately its really common because of the industry standard that idils stay single/keep their relationships private so this is probably the most we’ll get from sm

user7 really? ive seen some companies do legal action, are they not doing that?

user8 not for alex, only for yn

user7 damn this is gonna be tough for alex then

user9 alex_albon pls see the light this is not worth it

user10 #DROPYN

alexalbon just posted a story!

user1 YES ALEX

user2 thank you for defending her!!

user3 just not a good idea to be around her..

user4 GET OUT GET OUT

yourusernameofficial just posted!

3 songs for the ones I love ��

Slut!, Teenage Dream, and Mirrorball out now on all platforms 🌷

tagged: smtown, alex_albon

liked by alex_albon, imnotningning, and 7,273,127 others

📌alex_albon WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME ABOUT THESE

yourusernameofficial 🤭 🤭 luv ya babes

alex_albon I LOVE YOU TOO!!! I WILL ALWAYS MAKE IT WORTH IT!!

user1 TEENAGE DREAM IS SO 😭 😭 😭 IM SORRY WE MADE YOU FEEL LIKE THAT YN

user2 are you gonna cancel promos for these too?

alex_albon soz but promos are only for me 😝

user3 bad start dad…

alex_albon sorry kiddo had to say how it is

user4 MIRRORBALL 😭😭😭 YNNIE WERE SO SORRY

user5 slut! is so romantic?? alex how did you do it

pierregasly amazing songs!

yourusernameofficial thank you!!

user6 YN ARE WE GONNA GET MORE PADDOCK CONTENT

yourusernameofficial YES!!!! IM SO EXCITED

user6 OMG OMG OMG PLS ARE YOU GONNA BE IN THE GARAGE??

yourusernameofficial i cant say yet but ill deffo try and meet you guys there!!

user7 she seems so happy with him dude, she never used to respond to comments or anything

landonorris I WANT YOU TO KNOW IM YOUR MIRRORBALL ILL SHOW YOU EVERY VERSION OF YOURSELF TONIGHT

yourusernameofficial 🫶🫶🫶

user8 WE LOVE YOU YN!!!

user9 BLOSSOMS LETS STREAM THESE AND SHOW HER OUR LOVE!!

user10 FLOP #DROPYN

alex_albon waa waa waa 😹😹😹

charlesleclerc16 OUTSOLD 👏 👏 👏

yourusernameofficial thank you charles!!

#f1 x reader #f1 fanfic #f1 imagine #f1 #f1 fic #alex albon #alex albon x y/n #alex albon x you #alex albon x reader #alex albon fic #alex albon imagine #📌myfics!

[heeseongism]

Can you do a mutual appriciation post pls?

Love your works ! Slay bestie 💪🏻💜✨

Ooh okay !! Im rlly bad at writing sappy messages tho so bare with me 😭 also im going thru my following list as im writing so this isnt in any particular order <3 also ty @sluttyenha for re-sending this ily

@foxdaisy MY PRECIOUS DAISYYY 🥺 notice how i said my daisy? Thats bcs shes mine so all of u hoes better back off, daisy should srsly have the Guinness world record for most adorable person in the world bcs my god shes the cutest 🤧 always so so supportive of all her mutuals and never has anything bad to say abt anyone, shes rlly reminds me of this one mutual i used to have on my old acc and it just made me feel so at home on this new blog <33 daisy rlly just deserves the world, she's just that one friend that you can always count on to brighten up your day 💕 i always look forward to the asks that she sends me and ngl i feel my eyes watering sometimes by how adorable she is :( we’re always active at different time but whenever we do interact it makes me rlly appreciate and love her <3

@sunghoonalter raven, oh god where do i start. raven first and foremost is my bae so everyone back off bcs she is MINE MY PROPERTY 🔪 yes i have claimed both raven and daisy deal with it (i may claim some of my other mutuals so beware) shes also my no 1 angst writer even tho i hate reading it bcs it crushes my heart but I'll read it for her ✋😔 honestly raven deserves way more than shes getting on this hellsite BCS WHY TF ARE YALL SLEEPING ON HER DAMN GOD GIVEN WRITING SKILLS?!?!?!? WAKE UP AND APPRECIATE HER FFS shes the cutest girl in the world with her bambi eyes and might i say beautiful lips 😩 also her humor >>>>>>> it makes me love her even more than i alr do. We may disagree on some stuff (her being bambi and sunghoon having tiddies) but i still love her nonetheless ! I hope ive made her tumblr experience just a little bit better just like she did with mines ❤

@hee-pster - jan my fellow girl boss and lifeline is by far THE LOVELIEST person ive met on this site and im not even over exaggerating. She was the first person i properly interacted with and she immediately made me feel so comfortable on her and ilh for that 😭 she rlly deserves all the praise and love that she recieves bcs shes just such a kind, funny, and bubbly mutual who im proud to call my friend :( shes also hilarious and i love how we can both match each others energy, shes such a beautiful person and i just know shes beautiful on the outside too 😔 we wouldnt be able to handle a face reveal 💔 i rlly do love her, so much that words cant explain how much she means to me, I'll always try my best to be her supportive moot 💕 I hope she always remembers to take care of herself bcs life can be an ass sometimes <3

@jaylaxies aria aka the president of coochie clenching smuts AKA MY QUEEN 😩 WHY IS NOBODY ON THEIR KNEES BOWING TO HER FEET RN??? She is just so so hardworking and i rlly admire her for her perseverance despite all the obstacles she faces on her blog. Shes such a gorgeous person inside and out and shes still so humble even after gaining a massive follwoung which makes me love her sm more. Shes just one of the ppl who im extremely proud to call my friend bcs its not every day you meet someone as amazing aria, shes a rare gem fr 💕💕 I want to give her the world and to protect her from all the hate but sadly im merely a 19 yr old with multipe deficiencies and couldnt fight for my life without shattering my bones. However i hope that my love and affection can help her even if its in the tiniest way possible. Shes honestly one of the sweetest ppl ive met on here and i always look forward to her posts and when we interact :(

@end-hyphen MY LITTLE 5'2" GENIE IN THE BOTTLE 🧞‍♀️ ik alot of ppl say this but genie rlly is just like a big bundle of sunshine and she never fails to make my day whenever i see her in my notifications :( literally a free package of positivity like WHAT DID I DO IN MY PAST LIFE TO DESERVE BEING BLESSED BY SUCH A WHOLESOME HUMAN BEING ??? We haven't been mutuals for very long but i rlly hope our friendship can last for a very very long time bcs tumblr would be so lifeless without her, the happiness would literally be drained out of my tumblr experience ngl 😭 im always looking forward to when we interact and just seeing her interactions with other ppl on my dash makes me so happy that theres still sm positivity despite all the hate anons ew,, genies rlly is just a beautiful person both inside and out and i wish her all the happy things in life!

@jaysbiceps amy or should i say my angel in disguise and by disguise i mean KINKY LEATHER CORSET,, i legit never wouldve expected someone as sweet and GORGEOUS as her could be this sexy but im loving it. Amy is probably the person i dm the most on here, and shes just the cutest most adorable mutual i could ever wish for. Shes so supportive and is always checking up on me which i appreciate vv much, whenever i say i love her i rlly do mean it. I love our talks whether its abt being horny or screaming abt random drama she never fails to make me laugh even if im having a rough day :( She deserves all the love and happiness in the world and i hope she doesnt have to deal with nasty anons anymore bcs or else i will personally go to their house and drain the happiness in them and then gift it to amy.

@shu-ramyeonz shu is... chaotic to say the least... BUT SHES MY CHAOTIC BAE (another one added to the list hehe fight me if u object) I love how she always acts so friendly with ppl even if its the first time they've interacted she acts as if they've know eachother forever nd have gone thru 5 divorces together 😔 I admire her sm for her confidence and positivty despite all the haters in her inbox who hve nothing better to do. also she looks exactly like a pinterest girl THE ENVY UGH 🤧 anyways i love her sm she's always hyping me up and complimenting me for no reason whatsoever which never fails to cheer me up 💕

@hwxnghyynjin BILLIE MY HANDSOME BOY, firstly can we just appreciate how god damn sexy he is bcs the fact that there isnt a billie visuals appreciation day where we all cry over how hot he is doesnt sit right with me 🤨 billie is a mutual of mine from my old acc so we go WAYYY BACK and i can't think of any other mutual i would rather have find this acc (well technically i told him but who cares) he is the cutest bean ever and his smile is so so so so precious it just lights me up inside hes so cute sjakhska :(( someone stop me im fangirling anyways billie is just the light of my life rlly and we dont interact much nowadays but i still feel so comfortable with him which is a huge thing for me. I just love him 😭

@lunarxsun luna is the cutest most adorable most precious person to exist istg words cant explain how hard working she is, i rlly hope one day she gains the recognition she deserves bcs her ocs are SO GOOD 😩 shes always so positive no matter what the haters say and i love that abt her. She's always coming into my ask box to give a little hello and i rlly appreciate it so so much, she's always thinking abt those around her and u can tell she genuinely loves her mutuals, shes such a good person and im manifesting with her that she meets her future husband at the COOL club ;)

@clelevanters tala is an angel that was sent down by god for being too horny and i will stand by that statement 😤 she rlly was blessed by god with those stunning visuals and stunning voice too?? Apparently she sings and im crying bcs i haven't heard her heavenly voice yet 😭 shes such a positive bundle of energy and i love when she randomly pops into my ask box simping over enha or the dark moon characters sjsjsksj tala also shares my pegging kink ugh could she get any better. Shes yet another one of my mutuals who i just wanna protect with all my might and also the fact that shes younger than most of us makes her so babie :( enhablrs babygirl me thinks

@polalvsjy MAE IS THE HUMAN PERSONIFICATION OF COTTAGECORE ISTG SHES SO SOFT AND CUTE except she listens to chase atlantic- shes one of the most beautiful person ive seen im not even joking. She gives off HUGE golden retriever vibes and its so adorable 😭 literally jakes soulmate in my opinion. She's also extremely talented LIKE FIRST SHES AN AMAZING WRITER AND THEN I FIND OUT SHE CAN SING LIKE AN ANGEL, DRAW LIKE PICASSO AND DANCE?!?!? God truly does have favorites 🤧 i always look forward to seeing her on my dash and in my inbox <33 i feel like it’d be rlly nice to just have a picnic with her and talk abt anything bcs shes so easy to speak with <3

@forjongseong NANA IS LITERALLY MY SOULMATE ATP HER MUSIC TASTE IS CHEFS KISS SHE ALSO LISTENS TO MAYE TOO SO LIKE 😍 once again a very very very talented mutual of mines,, her carmesi series OH MY GOD SHE MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH THE SECRETARY!JAY AGENDA. We actually dont interact as much as it feels like we do bcs i just feel so comfortable with her and i love that abt her, i love how shes such a kind inviting person and also extremely pretty too might i say 👀 shes adorable and her love for jay is even more adorable skjndk i always look forward to seeing nana on my dash and i hope we can become even closer!!

@drunkjaked SAX IS ALSO MY SOULMATE STFU she introduced me to kehlani and i’ll always love her for that 💕 we also havent interacted much but it feels like shes a lifelong friend whenever we talk with eachother! Shes such a talented writer and im proud to be mutuals with such a sweet and funny person such as her. I hope that in the future we can become closer friends and i hope she takes care of herself <33

@donghoonie-3 AVERY MY LOVE istg describing how precious they are is impossible, i always love seeing them interact with other ppl on my dash, and HE ALSO SHARES MY LOVE FOR SUBBY HOON 🥹 the best sub!hoon blog on here imo. I dont have much to write bcs we dont interact much but i truly do love and care for them <33

@hee-pot @vivvys @robyncore @4hsng @thots4hee @softforqiankun @amourhee @svnoohe4rts @muffinminnie @criceofpain @blond4enha @sluttyenha @taekookstiddiemilk @nyanggk @valley-of-lies @2minbin @heetro @pandorasblogbcuzican @tfwheeseung @yunskies @jinfie-lvr ILY GUYS I RLLY DO BUT WE HAVENT INTERACTED ENOUGH FOR ME TO WRITE ANYTHING 😭 but i srsly do love u all equally and i hope we can interact more in the future mwah <33 also if i missed out any moots the same goes for you guys

#anon :3 #ask box ! 🖂 #only those who were active a few weeks ago know the hell i went thru when writing this up 😭

[rainybubbles]

Imagine exchanging e-mails with Izuku

You were on a forum named «Why Wash is the best hero?», and you exchanged with some fans… .

.

.

False.

You were two to exchange and the person who talks with you was just a troller who said that nobody can beat Endeavor, and that Wash is ridiculous.

Like you didn’t know that, and kids haven't laughed at you for your favorite hero all your life.

But this user «All_Mighto_besto» came.

And he defended you and argued with the troller.

Your heart just cried in joy that someone else likes Wash, so you started a conversation with him.

...it was more like a speed queen command about portholes, or favorite washing-machine, but who can judge you ?

«So you prefer your socks red ?» He asked after all the talk about the details of a washing machine and clothes

«I mean I feel like it’s angry day when I’m wearing it, I know it’s ridiculous but….»

«No it's not ! I wore my All Might underpants when I want luck !»

«...you have All Might underpants ?»

«Hmm...I..O_o»

He panicked on his bed, through the screen.

He just makes a friend, and now he probably looks like a weirdo nerd and...

«Damn I think, I was lonely&nbsp;! Happy to meet some underpants mates *^* !»

«You...have one too ?»

«Yeah ! I also have an Eraserhead scarf, and some classic merch.ヾ(o✪‿✪o)ｼ"

«Wow ! I search the scarf too ! But it was sold out.(๑•́₋•̩̥̀๑) »

«Like good fan like you, I guess.»

You didn’t know that he blushed through the screen.

«Or good person like you.»

So you started to exchange, but it was a public forum, and you didn’t want your mother or a random stranger found out that you have an All Might underpants.

Therefore, you share your contacts and closed this forum.

And you continued to talk by email, because your phone plan was not very good with calls and SMS.

Even if sometimes you just…

«Endeavor has a nice ass.»

«O/n...»

«Sorry, I just want to say it.»

«I can’t contest that.»

«So you think it too.» «It’s a friend’s dad.»

«I know, but he could literally stroke me with this.»

«O/N. ಥ⌣ಥ »

«But you can too, I mean I rewatch the festival and yours is not bad. :-) »

«...»

«But I prefer the arms if you want to kill me.» «And love?»

«Yeah choke me with love.»

«I was talking to kill you with all my love O/n, not to choke you.»

«Oh..."

...

...

...

...

..."

«Yeah. I...»

Izuku deleted his messages immediately.

«Why are you deleting ?» «You were against, I mean you didn’t answer and...»

«And my face looks like Wash, I was just like «wow the broccoli likes me for whom I am, it’s amazing, I won’t die alone with my 39 cats »»

«Your 39 cats ?»

«Yeah it’s a project.»

«I like that.»

«Guess it’s our project now ?»

«You… OMA ! »

«OMA ?» you asked and searched on google

«Oh My Allmight ! »

«Oh…

Wait, did you just compare All Might to God right now ?»

«It’s not the point, you said yes.»

«Yes.» «And you say it again.»

«I can repeat if you want, except in yes/no game.»

«So do you want to go out with me ?»

«Of course ! But you still have to support my wash merch.»

«I have my All Might ones.»

«True, our clothes matches will be a disaster for the fashion industry.»

«But we support our heroes !»

«We support. But I don‘t think that my Hawks crocs will be a good thing for our date.»

«They are beautiful ! »

«They have wings, and they’re red with light neon, and they have some flames on it.»

«It’s cool, my friend Kirishima have them.»

«That was I said, I’m pretty sure it’s ugly.»

«...you can still wear your best jeanist's jean ?»

«Yeah, plus my ass is cool in.»

«O/n !»

«I know, don’t talk about ass. Can I talk about legs then ?»

«No because you will talk about how Tenya can crush you on bed.»

«False, I will talk about how YOU will crush me with your legs on bed. But that’s not my point. I think that your new fight style was cool !".

«Oh.

I look like a pervert now.»

"...Can’t tell the opposite.»

«...you were supposed to support me O/n.»

«I support you.»

«...»

You laughed.

«So for our date...I mean it’s our first real meeting.»

«Yeah a meeting not on Google.»

«Did I laugh at that ?...maybe, it was a good joke

So for the date I wonder if the hero convention pleases you ? I heard that Wash be there.»

«Oh I want to go it for a long time ! I mean I have tickets and…»

«Cool, it’s a date then.»

«YEAH !»

You smiled.

Finally exchange on a forum, was cool.

Even if you were officially the only wash's fan on this site.

(Sorry for my english it is not my first language ^^ !)

#boku no hero imagines #imagine izuku #boku no academia #my hero academia #izuku x reader #izuku mydoria #mha imagines #mha #bnha imagines #bnha izuku

[agustdiv1ne]

thank you + milestone!!

damn, never thought we'd get here, did we?

in all honesty, it's been a pretty shit year. march 'til now has felt like the same month on repeat with tiny tweaks to make it all so much worse. but i'm not here to complain about the worst parts of this year, i'm here to celebrate the best ones.

this was the year that i finally started writing, that i was finally spurred to open a google doc and just type away until a tiny work of fiction stared back at me. my first one was 1k words, a rant to get all of my emotions off of my chest with an idol as my muse. it felt...great, though it also felt a bit odd writing after being an avid reader for years. i always did prefer essays to creative writing, but this year definitely changed that perspective.

i wrote that first blurb along with another fic in late july, and in early august, i asked my friends if i should post them. om august 3rd, i changed this blog from a fic rec to a fic writing blog just like that. i regret none of it.

it's been nearly five months since i revamped this blog and i couldn't be more grateful for the support i have gotten from all of you, whether it be a kind comment, a like, a reblog, all of it. i never thought anyone would like my content, but i've been proven severely wrong by this community. from my irls that are on here, to my lovely mutuals and followers, to those i've talked to a lil bit on this hellsite, to the writers whose fics i absolutely adore, to those who have left a like or a comment on one of my fics, i want to say thank you from the very bottom of my heart ♡

have a happy and healthy new year! i love and appreciate every single one of you!!

though i'm painfully bad at writing letters and getting all sappy, i wanted to write them anyways hahaha let's goooo

to @hwaddict:

my irl best friend!! my partner in crime!!!! i love you sm carly, and there are not enough words in this world for me to describe the extent of my love. you have been there for me during my lowest moments, you've seen me cry, and i don't cry in front of many ppl. i trust you with my life and i'm so glad that we became friends back in middle school bc you are one reasons that spur me to keep going. i can't wait to see where life takes us and know that while i might not always be able to be there physically (especially with college right around the corner), i will always be there for you in any way i can be. again i love you and i can't wait to conquer next year with you ♡♡

to @hopejanaee:

hope!! hobi!!! one of my irls! though we just became friends earlier this year, it feels like we've been friends for ages. it's crazy how close we grew so quickly but i am so grateful to have you in my life. you never fail to make me laugh whenever we're together and you're so chaotic but in such a good way hahaha. you were the one who got me into writing with your own wonderful fics so thank yoi for that. i'm so happy that we became friends because you're so kind and caring and ahhhhhh i love u sm ♡

to @oikawasmilkbread:

we talked for like 0.2 seconds but you are so kind and hella cool!! it was nice having random conversations with you and i'm so glad you randomly dmed me bc i am shy and i have 0 idea how to start conversations with anyone lmao. i always smile when i see you in my notifs! i hope you have a happy new year!!! ♡

to @luthenia:

i know you're on hiatus but seeing you in my notifs always excites me hahaha. we never talk but you are so supportive of everyone in this community and i just wanted to shout you out for that! your memes are top tier LMAO and i can't wait for when you come back, happy new year ♡

to @starsforten:

we also talked for approximately 1 second but it was so fun talking to you about astrology stuff (virgo sun libra rising gang hahahaha) and those teuta matoshi dresses! you are so nice and easy to talk to and i hope your new year is happy and fruitful! ♡

i recommend every single one of these blogs for their amazing content!! i added some of my favorite fics as i'm a whore for great writing hahaaaa

@kinktae

waterloo — a masterpiece! taehyung is so bitter at the beginning and it's adorable seeing how y/n breaks his tough shell. loved this from beginning to the end ♡

hot rod — the 50s slang, the dynamic between hoseok and y/n...*chef's kiss*

@untaemedqueen

welcome to seoul land — werewolf!namjoon really got me going, 100/10 would recommend

graceful gods — this is one of my all-time favorites, greek god!jungkook has my brain going brrrr

@shadowsremedy + @therealmintedmango

support system — adorable!! this is a hybrid!yoongi fic i really enjoy, and the series isn't over yet! check it out~

@bratkook

tear you apart — demon!taehyung...holy shit. i was speechless

@tatertotthethot

the doms next door — THIS SERIES OMG, i've read each part at least five times already. taekook got me acting UP

scream (posted to @yandere-society) — a really cool take on the movie scream with jungkook, yandere fics don't always appeal to me but this one absolutely did

@ateezmakemeweep

broken — the immense ache i felt in my chest while reading this, but i loved both parts with a burning passion. san is so sweet in this :')

@atinybrew

dirty free for all — the ULTIMATE demon!san fic. the writing is absolutely immaculate and this is the first fic that had me blushing down my mf ARMS

rice milk lattes and bryophytes roads — another san fic admittedly because i'm whipped for san lol. anyways, this was cute and hot at the same time and best friend!yunho made my double biasing ass that much happier

@seacottons

pan — an adorable peter pan!hongjoong fic, it had my heart going achhfhsjfjsjf

sir kiss me — circus au with san holy hell i loved every twist and turn of this

@actuallythatwaspromise

bad romance — one of my favorite yunho fics ever, punk rock!yunho x nerd!reader has my entire heart

aurora garden center and desire ink — florist!mingi had me uwuing for the entire fic, this was adorable and i loved it sm

@yeonjuncore

every single fic on this blog is an absolute masterpiece, i swear

the devil's little angel — THIS IS ONE OF MY ULTIMATE FAVORITES, demon!yeonjun had me screaming and it was just so fun to read and i loved every single second of it so much that i've read it nearly ten times now. so go read it, you won't regret it!

the boy with the horns — another of my ultimate favorites (i told you, their writing is just that amazing), woodland fey!soobin just had me going so soft :(( i literally sobbed at one point, that's how invested i was

bleeding heart — the tension between vampire!yeonjun and vampire slayer!reader had me screeching

curtain call — i have a sad crush vampire!soobin

i love you, always — this felt so..bittersweet? taehyun loves y/n so much, i lowkey cried while reading this

@angelfic

the art of (mis)communication — i am a whore for both reconciliation and yeonjun, 100000/10 pls read this i beg of you

@angelictaehyun

growing pains — ahhh once again a yeonjun fic, my chest hurt a lil bit at some points but it was so sweet!!

@neovisioned

bed of spiderwebs — spiderman!mark has my heart screeching, i loved every second of it ♡

eddie ate dynamite — johnny suh coming for my throat yet again

cupid victorious — cupid!jaehyun :'))) definitely one of my favorites!!

@domjaehyun

quarantine chronicles — ok if you haven't read this or the part two yet then you're missing out big time!! the tension, the buildup, every single part of this fic was just *chef's kiss* but multiply thay by a million

all these years — every single moment of this felt so nostalgic and the ending was so sweet :')

@caiuscassiuss

muse — i keep going back to this one constantly, the angst in this phenomenal and i love artist!taeyong sm here

@neoct-zen

loverboy — HOT, AMAZING, I SCREAMED. the blurbs that accompany this are also top-tier i recommend reading each and every one!!

@moondustis

pink + white — i'm so soft for mark i stg, this was the cutest thing ever

@loviejaehyun

can't avoid this feeling — hockey player!mark is the best thing ever

all tied up — i just- screamed as i read this bc professor!jaehyun is too hot goodbye

@hopejanaee

incapable — this is one of the best yoongi fics i've ever read ngl, it's not completed quite yet but the parts that have been posted are top tier!!

breathless — THIS. I LOVED THIS. yuta is just so hfjshhfhshfnsn and i love this sm

@hwaddict

melting point — big boy mingiiii, 100/10 would recommend

@okayau

house next to mine — frat boy!yeonjun rly got me going, cute and hot at the same time ahhhhbfnsnnf

youth — ADORABLE, yeonjun's confession is peak i love it here

run away — how many yeonjun fics can i fit in this post? (answer: a lot) definitely one of my favorite harry potter aus!! it was awesome seeing how their relationship changed throughout the years and perhaps i teared up a little at the end :'))

@starrychannies

baby steps — ONE OF ALL-TIME MY FAVORITE FICS ON THIS SITE, every single part is so well-written and ahhhhhfhdhhf chan makes me feel some type of way

my stupid — another yeonjun fic! angsty but v cute at the end :')

@baekhvuns

this youth of craziness — 40k words of pure gold, this fic is absolutely one of my favorite san fics ever!!

replacement — prince!ten makes my brain go brrrr, i love how the y/n just speaks her mind here

@masterninjacow

untitled project — i saw soulmate au with mark and i knew would already love it, and i did! pizza boy!mark at that, amazing and i adored it

more amazing blogs!!: @galaxteez, @poutybinz, @lustjoong, @bloominghigh

these are just a few of the fics and blogs i found this year, find more on my fic rec blog @agustdiv1ne-recs!! (my thumbs are starting to hurt i'm so sorry bfjshfhsh)

wrapping up each month since august since that's when i actually started posting LMAO

☆ august

03: good enough — chan

03: bloodsucker — seonghwa

04: cutie — san

09: veloxrotaphobia — mingi

19: want — changbin

21: numb — yunho

100 follower special — i reached 100 followers towards the end of august, my first ever milestone :') also my first ever time taking requests, 'twas very fun ♡

☆ september

03: on camera — jungkook

☆ october

27: oh, worm? — namjoon

31: demon days — san

☆ november

10: a letter to my love — xiaojun

23: bad for u — jaehyun

27: home sweet home — yeonjun

☆ december

christmas bash 2020 — my brain went hey what if you did this- and i listened so here's 17 holiday fics hahahaa (not all of them are out yet but i'm working on it!!)

things i plan to release in 2021!!

☆ sunflower — jimin

☆ cross — yeonjun

☆ landslide — seonghwa

☆ nice save — san

☆ red — hyunjin

☆ a secret series (that will be revealed once i plan everything) — ateez

☆ 4 unrelated secret fics oOoOoo — will i reveal them? you'll just have to wait and see ;)

there will definitely be more posted! these are the ones that are going to be my priority at first, but my imagination is always churning so expect a lot more :)) check out all of non-secret wips here!

i hit 500 followers a couple days ago! i nearly screamed when i saw that LMAO. thank you so much for liking my content because i work hella hard on it :') sometimes i feel like i don't deserve y'all really, but @hwaddict will yell at me if i say that so ig i take it back hfhshhdhg

a post for celebrating this milestone will come as soon as i finish up the rest of my christmas fics!! sorry that i'm so slow :( (hint: my requests will be open, so look out for it!)

so yeah!! that's it, sorry for the painfully long post (i'm sorry to my thumbs for typing this whole thing out </3). thank you to everyone who read this far!! i hope everyone has a happy and healthy new year, and in the words of txt's cover, fuck 2020. may 2021 be a much better year for all of us!!!

much love,

ashlee ♡

#i'm sorry if i missed anyone :(( #j know i love and appreciate u a lot #it's j my thumbs are literally cramping up as i type this :( #2021 celebration! #happy new year y'all #lmk if any of links are wrong bc i will fix them asap

[taeyungie]

hiiiii~ 🎨 pleaseee? 🥺

SKY YESSSS EVERYTHING FOR YOU! YOU'RE HERE! A REAL QUEEN HAS ARRIVED INTO MY ARMS AAAAAAA I CANNOT WAIT TO WRITE A WHOLE BOOK IN THIS ASK ✨👍❤️❤️❤️❤️ idk i know it's silly but i get so much joy from complimenting you in practicular sjdhsjks you're just the cutest and you deserve all the love AND I'M HERE TO GIVE IT TO YOU AT ALL TIMES!!!! 😌😌😌❤️💕💘💓❤️💕💘 you're really truly the one who carries this site on your shoulders and it makes me so incredibly proud of you because you always work so hard 🥺 YOU MAKE SO MANY PEOPLE HAPPY i couldn't imagine being here without you!! YOU'RE ESSENTIAL, ANGEL. Before i start with showering your gifs in love all i want to say is that YOUR GIFS JUST OPEN MY THIRD EYE AND I HEAR ANGELS SING. DON'T YOU TELL ME LATER AGAIN THAT I'M EXAGGERATING (I'll get to that later on 😤) BECAUSE YOU'RE SIMPLY A GENIUS ✨ your style are one in a million, there's no way i could ever get confused on whether a gif is yours because your gifs are unmistakable!! ONE OF A KIND! you're such a precious baby, always being worried if your gifs are pretty and this makes me want to give you all the love (BUT AT THE SAME TIME LIKE 😤😤🤜👊🤛✊🤛👊✊ HAVE YOU SEEN YOUR OWN GIFS???? LIKE /ONE/ EVEN??????? OH MY GOD) and write essays about your every gifset because every 👏 single 👏 one 👏 of your sets makes me want to write poems NOW MOVING ONNNNN

I'll really have to put this under the cut because oh my god i'm so sorry you might want to get a popcorn on the way because.... yeah

good god i think i need to lie down YOU DROPPED A BOMB AND NEXT SECOND YOU JUST VANISHED LIKE '💆🏻‍♀️😌💅🏻 uhuh goodnight' AKSNDKSJSKSKKSKSKSKD ARE YOU SANE THIS IS INSANE FKANDKDKDKSJSSK THE WAY THAT I SAW THIS CLIP BEFORE AND THOUGHT oh he looks gooood BUT NOW YOU DECIDED TO JUST UH??? PUT SOME OF YOUR ✨SPICE✨ INTO THIS MEAL AND PUT IT ON A PLATE LOOKING LIKE /THIS/???????????????? bro i need a doctor i'm having literal heart palpitations...... WHERE DO I EVEN START 🙏 (warning: a very stupid and corny word-play ahead) he's beauty he's grace he's mr. golden face WKDHSKSKKS BUT REALLY HIS SKINNNNNNNNNN HISSSS SKIIIIIINNNNNNNNN 😭😭😭😭😭 THE WAY HE'S GLOWING, PLEASE!!!!!!!!! only you can make them look like this, you pull out in their skin colors everything what's the best, just stunning. next, lips.. oh my goodness, lips. beautiful, amazing, just *mwah*, beautiful, kinda desaturated (which i love in your gifs) red shade. next we have CURVES GAME ON POINT, JUST STUNNING, IF I TELL YOU THAT YOU INSPIRE ME SO MUCH AKSJSJSJSJSJKS amazing blend to the background, beautiful contrast. your gifs make me fall in love with him more and more every day 💔 and i can't leave without mentioning SHARPENING SETTINGS AAAAAAA i love itttt

indeed the cutest pie 😭😭😭 i loooove how you sometimes make your gifs so tall, you know, it's so pleasing to look at and makes them so unique and pretty. I LOVE the coloring here, it's so soft and makes everything look so flawless and light?? because gif itself is a bit dark too and his skin, and light hair are just outstanding but the contrast is so soft that everything is just pulled together nicely and looks amazing! and i love how you just pulled a magenta on me and made his mic look THIS GOOD ahhhh it's THE PRETTIEST MIC EVER 😭

this set is just... yummy 🤷‍♀️ you know???? YOU KNOW i know you know 👏 I'M– so in love with the coral, mustard and soft minty shades of background probably that's why it reminds me just of a good candy 👍👍 to add to that there actually ARE candies on the screen, like 4 of them 👀👀👀👀 again, curves adjustments - *chiefs kiss* i love skin colors and lips, it's something i can't get enough of i just simply want to eat a gif 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

now, we have reached the star of the show. I'll bring back something as a friendly reminder :

you cannot just say it's not the best and then have me just staring at it for five next hours ISLSNSJWNSJSJSNKSSJSJ please PLEASE where am i supossed to start FIRST OF ALL WHICH PARALLEL UNIVERSE YOU'RE LIVING IN THAT YOU MANAGED TO MAKE MAGENTAS LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL I JUST CANNOT UNDERSTAND HOW KAJSJSKS i'm really saying this seriously right now but this gifset made me tear up because i notice every single detail and it overwhelmed me to the very ends of my nerve endings KSJSKSK BECAUSE– 😔 skin color, suit color, hair color, lip color, mic color, sharpening, background, lighting, contrast, exposure.... all of it is just so beautifully composed and i don't think anyone could ever make something this amazing, especially looking at raw footage like comparing your gif to video frame it's just.. insane. you have magic hands and big brain that's all i have to say and i think it's truly one of my favorite sets of yours

run episode koo 🥺🥺 first and foremost i wanna notice and highlight how much i love that you just got rid of...... all blue and green KSJDJS LIKE PERIOD QUEEN AS YOU SHOULD ✨✨✨ i was kinda scared to do it on my own gifs and here i have another example of how you're just a genius, not scared of ANYTHING ✊💯💘 and then we can move onto his beautiful, tanned, golden skin and gorgeous red lips. I LOOOVEEEEEE IT SO MUCH I LOVE CURVES HERE AGAIN AAAAAAA I'll literally say it every time because it's the best part of your every set and I'm A COWARD TO MAKE MY GIFS TOO DARK AND DO THE CURVES THE WAY I WANT TO SKDJJSKS so i admire yours 😌✨

this gifset just simply brings me so much joy, it's like drinking a glass of cold water in the middle of the night, it's like feeling a warm gentle touch of sunlight on your skin when the sun is rising, it's like a fresh breeze ✨ again, stunning coloring, i love how you mixed oranges with this pastel blue and beiges you have kinda going there 🙇‍♀️ on its just so so so pretty AND ALSO OF COURSE /THEM/, THEY ARE JUST SILLY AND BEAUTIFUL, NEXT QUESTION

AJSHSJJSDKABSJDKSKKSS FIRST OF ALL THE ✨BONUS✨ IS LITERALLY ME @ YOU AFTER YOU DROPPED OF THIS GIFSET like you know i like this whole situation we have going on here wink wink how old was he in 2015 lemme do a quick math yeah 18 EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD WAS HE AND HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO LOOK LIKE THIS???? yeah no if i was a stan back then we would have a problem you know 👊✊🤜👊🤛✊👊 me looking like.... just nowhere near /this/ good..... at almost 20th year of my life is crying. i love the use of reds and brown here AND OF COURSE CURVES, MOVING ON

🍯🍯🍯🍯🍯!!!!!! THIS SET LOOKS LIKE A HONEY COMB!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️ i love how vibrant and bright the background is but you still managed to restore his skin into a perfect golden shade AHHHHHH it's so pretty

NEXT ONE IS DEDICATED FOR USER TAEYUNGIE IDK HER BUT SHE'S SURE DAMN LUCKY 🔊🔊🔊🔊 PLEASE i was so happy when you decided to make this set in the end 🥺🥺🥺 i belive i already screamed lots under the set in the tags but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it's amazing beautiful just gorgeous from head to toe (a gif i mean cuz clearly we cannot see his toes SKSJSJSKSJSK) A M A Z I N G coloring, veey warm very soft he just looks like a carmel with raspberry on top (WHY DO I USE SO MANY FOOD REFERENCES SKJSJSKS I'M NOT HUNGRY I SWEAR) BUT NO, FOR REAL. he just looks so cozy here and i wanna hug him so much 😔😔😔 long story short my mind and stomach perform pirouettes because i'm head over heels for this man. AGAIN THANK YOU SM BABY FOR DEDICATING THIS ONE FOR ME ❤️❤️❤️

we're here, we survived till the 10th and at the same time last gifset of this post, TIME TO POP THE CHAMPAGNE ✨ and scream a little but more because HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL I'M LITERALLY FEELING MYSELF EVAPORATING SJSJKSKSKS the contrast here is darker than usual AND I'M LOVING IT it's bringing all his best features also he just looks like a glazed donut which kinda makes me cry (WAIT I JUST REALIZED I AGAIN DID A GOOD REFERENCE SKJSJS WTF) BUT HIS GLOW 😭 HIS GLOW 😭😭✨ just amazing, it's inappropriate how much i spent staring at this set KSJSJSKSK

when i tell you that writing this one took me like... two hours. but it was totally worth it and purely out of love for your stuff. anyway, i deserve a kiss on the forehead 😌

creators send me 🎨 & I’ll tell you my favorite of your last ten creations and why

#answered #ask game

[indigocloudofnarcolepsy]

I got tagged by @tough-girl9 to list my top 7 comfort films which turned into a top 8

I'm more of a comfort song type, so that was a tough (girl) one

1.: Treasure Planet

I adore this movie! I loved it when I was smaller and I love it now. The only reason I didn't watch it to death was the fact that I lost the DVD. It's gorgeous and although the main premise is space pirates thanks to the focus on the characters it feels grounded and easier to relate to or to feel simpathy towards them. Besides Jim Hawkins being a childhood crush I could always relate to him. The feeling of being lost, aimless and the words

"- I can't watch you throw away your future like that!

- What future?"

always spoke to me. It's not an edge and teen angst fest tho, John Silver and his speech is both in character and always chokes me up and gives me hope that there are pathes that could lead to the future I want and that I wasn't abled to see.

It's the perfect movie for those who feel lost or confused and want to sail to far away planets from their current situation, those who want to be understood and given hope to.

(I could gush about the art and animation and characters for hours, but this is not the time)

Amazing background music and the songs fit well with the steampunk-ish style of the movie

2.: Ratatouille

A family classic. We even have the ps2 game and it's one of those rarities which my family could watch anytime. Besides being beautiful and having a 10/10 aesthetic (and a huge dose of food p0®π) it's a grounded movie.

The premise is as feaver dream-y and goofy as it gets. A rat learns english (or french? The movie takes place in Paris but it's either confusing or I'm just a dum dum) and thanks to an imaginary friend version of his chef idol ends up in his restaurant and makes a deal with the garbage boy of whom the chef thinks can cook and reluctantly agrees give him another chance to make the soup that was actually made by (fixed by) the rat aka Remy. So the boy Linguini and Remy has to team up where it seems like Linguini is making the soup but he is actually in Remy's control.

But the movie is actually about being an artist and coming from an unexpected place and being surrounded by people who don't support you or believe in you even if they were just trying to protect you or think that it's the best for you.

Fellow artists could definetly appreciate the movie. Whether you croche, draw, animate, sculpt, dance, act or do any kind of art I would absolutely recommend.

Le Festin is great and is on loop during dinner

Warning: get food ready because you WILL get hungry. Even if it's just bread this movie will make it taste like garlic bread just you wait

3.: Strange Magic

It's one of the controversial ones. Not everyone likes it and a lot hate it but that's okay.

It's one of those films where either you praise it to death or wonder which deeper layer of hell did it crawled out of. There is no in between. I'm one from the first category. Even my IT teacher called it a classic and I roped most of my friend group into the SM cult.

It has a certain tumblr aesthetic and feels like a fanficrion the best way possible. One of those where altho something unsuspected happens it's written well, the characters are in character it's finished and the grammar is proper as well.

It's a jukebox musical which is one of my fauvorite kind of musical, the covers are amazing and damn they can change up the originals songs aesthetic to it's opposite so damn well (Trouble - Elvis Presley)

It centers around love and I ain't no shipper nor romantic but even I was gushing over the main couple which is spoiler alert so that's all you get

I absolutely adore how the characters express themselves with their wings and body! I'm all about feelings and expressions!

So try it out and even if you don't like it you're allowed to stop. And if you like it: welcome to the fandom in this house we respect Marianne, the Bog King is a snack and must protect Dawn at all cost!

(this is a pick me up movie for me the other two more of a shoulder to cry on)

Speaking of crying

4.: The Little Prince

Not gonna lie I was extremely suspicious of this movie. I immediately categorised it as a cheap cash grab which only use sonething known and beloved because it's known and beloved so people will buy.

I expected the Emoji Movie, I got the LEGO Movie.

This movie. Hoo boy, this movie. You know, it's nothing, I only cried 4 times after all!

It's so respectful towards the material it's given. So heartfelt and creative and artistic! It's the Little Prince sequel that fits well in modern times.

In this film the Little Prince is a story that an old man tells his new young girl of a neighbour. Both of them needed a friend and it's one of those unexpected duos where the girl is forced to be mature way too early and the man is way too childish so they balance each other out and the man gives the girl (I can't remember their names god damn it) the breath of fresh air she needed.

This movie is so damn cute! I mentioned a shoulder to cry on movies and pick me up movies, this one is both! It's a bittersweet dream!

You are going to cry. So get ready.

5.: Hunchback of Notre Dame

Oh man oh God oh man oh God oh man

I'm obsessed with this movie (and musical)

It's dark and mature and definetly a-shoulder-to-cry-on movie. I love and relate to Quasimodo. Altho I'm not deformed I was always the weird girl everyone picked on and hated and I still can't understand why. I think I'm a perfectly normal person but when my mom calls me a freak/eccentric behind my back and my aunt gives me a gift with the words "since you looked nothing like the other girls on your prom..." I... I'm just more confused honestly. I'm always so damn tired and basically a hermit so thanks to that Out There hit way too close to home.

Esmeralda is a 10/10 role modell. She is a beautiful soul inside and outside. And she's romani. Which is the most hated minority in my country.

The movie deals with lust, abusive and manipulative parents, racism, religion, "ugly"ness, lonelyness. These might sound repelling but to see something similar happen to you/a character looking/being/sounding like you is worth more than life, honestly. Unless you can live through this kinship with a character, you have no idea how needed this is.

(I cried so hard watching The Grinch (2018) since I used to have Panic disorder and I'm an anxious person to see him being scared the way I do and to fiddle with his fingers and think like I do was the most comforting thing I felt in my life)

This movie is so damn gorgeous. I know I said that to almost every movie in this list but this is a biblical epic gorgeous. And of course, Hellfire is THE best Diney villain song FIGHT ME I'M RIGHT

The musical is even darker and more serious but damn it's worth a watch. It's on youtube.

6. Brother Bear

This movie is *drumroll* gorgeous. Each movie on this list is gorgeous in different ways. This is nature-gorgeous.

Pick me up movie, definetly. It's mostly adorable but they tap into some meaningful things and there are tragedies happening, my dude!

Like Hunchback of Notre Dame the main subject is "who is the monster and who is the man?". This movie shows some perspective, I tell you!

7.: Coco

I know the hungarian translation by heart

It's very family oriented, so if you don't have any or have a bad realtionship with it, this movie will give you a heartache

This movie takes place in Mexico and explores parts of mexican culture.

I adore and am interested in different cultures, folklore, tradition and religion so I was head over heels really quick with this movie!

Gorgeous imagery and music. Heartfelt, that last Remember Me WILL get you

8.: The Croods

Y'ALL

I know, it looks like a movie that made only for kids. But dude! It's about family, change and how people deal with it. It takes place in an alternative world, where animals we know are mixed together (MOUSELEFANT!! CROCO DOGGO!!) the most adorable way possible and it takes place in prehistoric times.

Oh god, this movie is full of feelings and gorgeous imagery! Pick me up, definetly! Of course, it's full of jokes but they are so witty to me!

Sorry, I got impatient by the end of it

I would tag people if I would know anyone well in this site. The 2 people I want to tag: is already tagged me and the other one is probably too busy

#treasure planet #ratatouille #strange magic #the little prince #the hunchback of notre dame #hunchback of notre dame #brother bear #coco #pixar coco #the croods #top 7 comfort movies #comfort movies #my comfort movies

[speechlessxx]

hi hi! just me dropping by to say hi i love u sm and update you on what's going on. tumblr has become crazyyyyy like hate anons are back at it again :( i really wish all this tumblr drama would just stop bc it's exhausting to deal with yk

part 2 to me ranting kinda (i hope you don't mind) but i wanted to ask you for advice before following through. i know of a few writers who are underage and read/write smut...what are your opinions on that? (there's some stuff i might just end up personally messaging you about but) skskskj tumblr is lowkey a mess and it's draining

omg love! *HUGS HUGS HUGS* 

i had some idea that this was going on, but i didn’t realize how toxic tumblr as a community was becoming because of it. 

tumblr should always be a safe haven for all fandoms. please ... let’s not make this platform toxic. 

so... okay. i started this blog when i was around 14/15 (don’t quote me on this. this blog is really old - let’s leave it at that)... and yes, i was exposed to a bunch of NSFW content. back then, tumblr used to have p*rn. 

i have a very controversial outlook on this, so forgive me if i’m offending anyone. i’ve just been on this site since i was a young teen, so i just see things a little differently. 

i don’t see an issue with readers under the age of 18 reading smut, but young readers should always heed to warnings put out by writers. some smut can be too much, so it’s always important to read warnings. 

as for writing smut... that’s a slippery slope. i, personally, don’t find it an issue. if you’re comfortable with writing it, then go for it. i’m 19 and i feel weird writing it, but god damn do i read it LOL. i think it’s really preferences. 

but don’t lie about your ages, guys. it’s one thing to say you’re uncomfortable with sharing your age or your personal info, but it’s another thing to lie about your age. don’t claim you’re over 18 when you’re not. the only time this situation worked was with Mila Kunis when she auditioned for that 70′s show. 

feel free to message me, babes <3 i’m sorry you’re getting hate (i’ll fight ‘em). 

always feel free to reach out to me, y’all. whether it’s anon, non-anon, or a private message. go ahead. i’m here for y’all. 

[dear-selena]

Omg, if you’re feeling it could you make a Caught Web Handed part two? I loved part one sm!

Caught Web Handed (Pt. 2)

Peter Parker x Reader

Request: “Omg, if you’re feeling it could you make a Caught Web Handed part two? I loved part one sm!”

Summary: When a new Tumblr blogger who claims to be Spider-Man starts reblogging a ton of Spider-Man fanfiction, including yours, the community goes into a frenzy and you confront the boy who promised not to say anything. 

Warnings: Some swearing, this is literally so meta be warned

A/N: I would like to thank the anon who requested this two months ago! I’m sorry it took me so long to write this out! I genuinely didn’t know how to continue this story until recently. If you want me to continue this, please let me know! I could possibly write one more part to this, but only if you guys want it. 

Words: 1971

REQUESTS ARE OPEN 

Part 1

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You love that Tumblr started the group chat feature, but damn, you wish you got notifications from it.

Yawning, you cover your mouth and suddenly crave your bed. Last night, you stayed up messaging a ton of bloggers in a new group chat someone created for your favorite web-slinging hero and didn’t even realize how late it was when the conversation whined down. 

The group chat is called “Them Spider-Man OCs 😩😍🕸🕷❤️💙” and is filled with a bunch of your mutuals. The entire night was spent complimenting one another on each other’s fanfictions, and sharing anything and everything about everyone’s OC’s. You couldn’t help the giddiness you felt when people told you how much they loved Trevor Trenton, your Spider-Man OC. 

Because Tumblr mobile refuses to send notifications when you get new messages, you stayed on the app for hours to make sure you were as involved in the conversation as possible. You knew you could have left the conversation at any moment, but you were just way too excited to finally bond with all your mutuals at once. 

Walking down the halls of Midtown High, you lazily stroll to your first class as if you had all the time in the world to get there. You hadn’t seen your friends yet this morning, making time go especially slow. Not knowing what else to do, you decide to open the Tumblr mobile app and check for new notifications in your group chat. To your surprise, a green circle appeared on the group chat photo someone edited of Spider-Man swinging through Queens with heart emojis all around him. 

You open the chat, and your heart jumps immediately. 

(Your Favorite Spider-Man Blog): Guys did TheOfficialSpiderMan account reblog your work too or is it just me?!?!

Suddenly frozen in place, you reread (Favorite Spider-Man Blog)’s message. With your heart bouncing in your chest, full of uncomfortable adrenaline, you quickly leave the chat and check messages and had to stop yourself from screaming. 

An account called TheOfficialSpiderMan had indeed reblogged your latest update on your Trevor Trenton fanfiction. 

Tapping on the blogger’s icon, you start investigating if this was truly the “Official” Spider-Man. The first thing you do is read the bio: 

“Yes, I’m the real Spider-Man XD. Still trying to figure out how to use this site so bear with me.

Queens, NY | Avenger | Science Nerd”

Looking at the blog’s avatar, you see that it’s a selfie that the hero took while swinging in the air. You’ve never seen a photo of Spider-Man like this before, but you couldn’t tell if it was edited or not. If this is a fake account, this person must be really good at photoshop… 

Scrolling through the blog, you notice that this person’s not only reblogged your fanfiction but almost all your mutuals too. You recognized some of the stories as one’s you’ve read prior and almost all of them were from people who were in the Spider-Man group chat with you. Eventually, however, you scrolled to the bottom of the blog and found a simple text post. 

“Hey Everyone! It’s me, Spider-Man. I’m just here to interact with you guys cause I’ve heard that I have fans on this site. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for supporting me. Love you all

The post, although wholehearted and sweet, immediately fills you with worry. If this truly was Spider-Man, that means your favorite hero, the hero you’ve been fantasizing about through your writing, was reading your stuff. He was reading this personified version of himself that you created for your silly romantic pleasure, and that scares you shitless. A part of you feels exposed in a way you never thought possible, and even though your Tumblr username doesn’t quite give away your identity, you still feel extremely vulnerable. The thought of the man behind the mask seeing your work makes you feel quite uneasy, especially because you don’t know who the man behind the mask is. 

Suddenly, the bell for first-period rings, and you’re brought back to reality. As peers shuffle through the halls around you, you shove your phone in your pocket and pick up the pace to get to your first class. While walking, you couldn’t help but wonder Why Spider-Man chose to solely reblog fanfiction. There are plenty of Spider-Man Tumblr posts consisting of gif-sets, fan edits, and general news about him, so why fanfiction? 

It was as if Spider-Man has some sort of motivated intentions. 

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Peter Parker hits the reblog button on yet another well-written story about him. 

Well, better yet, him as a superhero. 

Ever since he found out that you write fanfiction about Spider-Man a couple of months back, Peter couldn’t stop wondering what else was written about him. After a self-debate for whether or not it’d be a good idea to actually make a Tumblr account and find your work, he decided to go for it. After all, he was pretty bored last night, and what better way to interact with fans that through a popular fandom website? 

So he created “TheOfficialSpiderMan” and immediately started reading fanfiction. 

He has to say, he was quite amazed at how talented his fans were. A lot of the stories and characters they created were so unique, and the plots they wrote up were quite clever! He instantly picked up on some tropes people would write about, including ones where the reader was Iron Man’s child (he has to admit, he found those stories quite meta). 

And after a ton of scrolling and reblogging, he came across a story about a version of Spider-Man named Trevor Trenton. He immediately knew that this story was yours, and took notice of your Tumblr name, (Your Tumblr blog name). He wanted to follow you but figured he should lay low right now. ‘I shouldn’t be giving certain fans special attention… especially if this certain fan is a good friend of his and possibly his crus-.’ 

“Hey, Peter!” 

Peter turns around to see Ned with his usual smile on his face. 

“Oh, Ned! Guess what?” Peter proceeds to shove his phone in his best friend’s hand. “I found (Y/N)’s Tumblr account!” 

Ned’s eyes go wide as he examines Peter’s phone, seeing a post with your blog name on it. “Oh my god, Peter,” Ned starts to laugh. “You did not just join Tumblr to find her fanfiction.” 

“Of course not,” Peter protests, going to show the blog account. “Spider-Man did.” 

Ned looks up at Peter with a raised eyebrow and a smirk. “Damn Peter,” Ned says sarcastically. “Didn’t think you’d be one to join fandom culture.” 

Peter rolls his eyes as the bell rings, indicating that second-period was about to start. Saying a quick goodbye to Ned, Peter quickly makes his way to his robotics class, a class that you just so happen to share with him. As Peter enters the room, he scans it and instantly spots you at one of the workshop tables, head buried in your phone, and wide-eyed. 

Peter smirks. He knows exactly what’s going on. 

He makes his way over you, and plops down in the seat next to you, causing you to look up at him in surprise. “Oh, hey Peter.” you squeak out, completely caught off-guard. 

Peter couldn’t help but stifle a laugh. The last time he saw you this flustered was when MJ caught you writing Spider-Man fanfiction back at his place, and he had to admit, you looked pretty cute. “Hey, (Y/N). What are you looking at?” 

You look back at your phone and quickly snooze the screen, shoving your phone in your pocket. “Oh, i-it’s nothing…” You say unconfidently, a blush appearing on your face. “Just a stupid Tumblr update.” 

“Oh?” Peter asks, knowing what you meant by ‘update’. “Does it have to do with Spider-Man?” He couldn’t help but push the conversation on you. He was too excited to see your reaction. 

“Actually, yeah.” You finally admit after a moment. “My mutuals and I are kinda freaking out cause a blog that claims to be Spider-Man is reblogging our stories. It’s weird.” 

“Really, weird?” He questions. “What makes that so weird?” 

“Why would a superhero go online just to read fanfiction. Superheroes shouldn’t even know about this kinda stuff. They should be focused on, I don’t know… saving the world or something. It’s just weird that he’s only reblogging fanfiction and-.” You cut yourself off when you look up at Peter and see he’s just sitting there, head propped up against his hand, leaning on the table with his elbow, sporting a knowing smirk of some sort. Confused at why he was looking at you like that, you almost question him. But that was when you started to connect the dots. 

It feels like Spider-Man has some motivated intentions. Peter Parker is intentionally talking about this with you. 

You squint your eyes at the boy in front of you. “Peter, did you tell Spider-Man about fanfiction?” 

Peter blinks, his smirk off his face. “W-what? No, I didn’t.” 

Your glare intensifies, and Peter sits up straight. “Are you lying to me? You just had your ‘I-know-something-you-don’t face on.” 

Peter swallows, suddenly nervous. He didn’t think you’d react like this. “I’m not lying, (Y/N). I did not tell Spider-Man about fanfiction.” 

You did… a couple of months ago… 

You look away, now glaring at the table. “Then explain how Spider-Man knows about fanfiction and why he only reblogs it?” 

Peter starts to sweat. “Uh, I-I don’t know. Maybe he likes to read?” 

“Or someone told him to find it?” You look back up at Peter, whose clearly uncomfortable, making it easier for you to believe that he’s lying. “Maybe while they were at their Stark Internship or something?” 

Peter mentally facepalms. He’s not getting out of this, is he? 

“(Y/N), please.” Peter pleads. “I promise I didn’t say anything to S-Spider-Man. And even if I did, why is it so bad? Why is it bad that he’s reading fanfiction?” 

“Because!” You shout, catching the attention of some of your classmates. Embarrassed, you force Peter to crouch down close to you so you can whisper. “The stories on Tumblr can get a bit uncanny. What if he finds smut about himself?” 

Peter raises an eyebrow. “What’s a smut?” 

You roll your eyes. “Exactly, and I’m NOT going into that right now.” You shudder, realizing what could happen if your favorite hero finds stories like… that.

Nevertheless, you push those thoughts out of your head and continue on. “But seriously Peter. You told me you wouldn’t tell him about this stuff, and how he’s reading a ton of it? Something doesn’t add up.” 

Peter wants to argue back, but he honestly doesn’t know what to say. He can’t assure you that your writing is good and that he’s enjoying seeing his fans’ creativity because he’d have to reveal his secret to you, and that’s the last thing he wants to do. Especially now. 

Before he knows it, your packing your stuff back up, getting out of your seat and slinging your backpack over your shoulder. “Find me when you can tell me the truth.” With that, you walk to the other side of the room and sit at a new table, just in time for the teacher to walk in and discuss the new project. 

Peter couldn’t help but mentally beat himself up. Was doing all this a mistake? He genuinely just wanted to find your work and actually interact with his fans. He never expected it to backfire like this. Now he has to find a way to assure you he wasn’t technically lying, all while keeping his identity a secret. With all the thoughts racing through his mind, there was one that stood out: 

He fucked up.

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-Peter Parker Tag List-

@sweetcoffeeblandtea // @house-arya // @jovialpeanut // @bookstoreblossom // @jackiehollanderr

-Marvel Tag List-

@sammghgecko

-Permanent Tag List-  

@mindset-jupiter // @romance-geek // @imcharishope // @fakindob // @cutiekoa // @wowursofunny // @cals-cigarette // @supernerdycookietrashblr // @delicately-important-trash // @unlikelygalaxygive

#peter parker fanfiction #peter parker #peter parker x reader #peter parker x y/n #spiderman #spiderman fanfiction #spiderman homecoming #spiderman ffh #spiderman far from home #ffh #marvel #mcu #tom holland #tom holland x reader #dear-selena fanfiction

[p5youllneverseeitcoming]

Please give us the Mishima x Akira headcanons, I love that ship sm.

Yes. Give the boy the love and appreciation he deserves!

Side note: I’m really sorry for the lack of content lately… I’ve been really busy but I shall try and make up for it ASAP!

Akira Kurusu x Yuuki Mishima HCs

> Mishima couldn’t actually believe it

> How can a boy like him be dating the leaders of the Phantom Thieves?!

> He often found himself asking Akira why he chose to date a loser like him instead of all the other amazing people he met

> “Loser? Why on Earth would you call yourself that Yuuki?” Akira asks, his voice sounding rather sad

> God why did Akira have to have such a pretty voice?!

> “Eh? W-Well.. I just run a fan site so..” Mishima murmurs

> At this point Akira takes Mishima’s hand in his and gently strokes it with his thumb

> “Don’t you think that’s more than enough? Without you… We wouldn’t be able to hear the voices of people that need help.”

> “Akira-”

> “You may not be an actual Phantom Thief, but you’re still part of the team, besides,” Akira says with a smile before leaning down and kissing Mishima’s forehead “You’re the most important person in my life.”

> Mishima chuckles quietly at that

> “Don’t lie to me Akira.”

> “Huh?”

> Mishima looks up and meets Akira’s beautiful grey eyes before grinning

> “Your cat is the most important person to you, don’t think I don’t see you ‘sneakily’ feeding him whenever we go out to eat.”

> Akira stares at him for a moment but then he just starts laughing

> “Well damn, I guess I’m not as sneaky as I thought I was.” Akira replies, still laughing

#p5 #persona 5 #p5 imagines #akira kurusu #kurusu akira #yuuki mishima #mishima yuuki

[jooheonbot]

tumblr crush challenge

Rules: post your own favorite blogs to spread positivity and get your amazing blogger-friends some new followers!

oof ok,,,, i was tagged like a billion years ago but!!! im using this as an uh,,, excuse to make a thank you post for some of the amazing people that follow this dumb lil blog and that have made this year great!!! thank you!!! since im stoopid and write a lot im putting all this under the cut

but! before that! i still want to wish everyone a happy new year!!! thank you for making this dumb fuckin site more bearable and like,,, fun!! every single one of you is so cute and precious uwuwuwu i wish you the best

ok so im gonna go,,, uh,, in alphabetical order lmao??? i have barely truly talked to a couple of u but kshfkjdsf idk, i just felt,,,, like writing stuff,,,, about u bc i secretly love u sjkdkdf 

@boo-kihyun hannah!!! it’s been great talking to you and freaking out abt joo, that old fool, and mx in general rknjgkjd. it’s great to have someone to just. yell at when you’re dying at 5am or smth dkfjdkjgkjkl. i know you’re not on here that much but i want you to know that i really appreciate you a lot, and our conversations have been rly fun!! i hope youre doing well and i hope the new year treats u damn fuckin well!!! :*

@festiivebebe ahhh nao!!! you’re so nice!! i rly love your blog and your tags!! theyre such A Mood ksdjhfksd. i love how the 🤧 emoji is literally. yours??? whenever i see it on my dash im like,,, that’s nao,, and when it isn’t im liek!!! WHAT. you’re so cute and you seem like a super nice person uwu!!! ((says a fool who should like, talk to u or smth LMAO im sorry im liek this))

@hyungkyun OOF BINCH. the most annoying lil idiot on this site, probably. my obnoxious ass soulmate.  ugh!!!! it’s been a whole fucking year CAN YUO BELIEVE and yet,,, here we are, being annoying as all hell and talking nonstop wow. i love u sm bih ))): you have become such an important person in my life ): i enjoy talking to u even if it’s about,,, fucking clowns or food or literally,,, whatever lmfao. we rly bicker so much why are we like this jdfhsjdk we never shut the fuck up but im!!! so grateful for that!!! you rly mean so much to me :/ . honestly whenever we don’t get to talk it just ??? feels weird??? idk mayhaps,,,, when that happens i miss you,,,,, i miss a furry i cant believe... smh. guess :/// all thats left to say :///// is that ill love u always no matter what ://// u funky lil vampire cowboy ://// gross lol. i rly do love u a whole! fucking! lot!

@joohanis AJ QUEEN OF JOOBEBES. you are rly!! a fucking icon you’re so nice?? and kind??? don’t let me get started on how gorgeous you are every time you post selfies an angel is born (´:. thank you sm for bringing us quality content and the funniest tags ever, and,, overall,,, a rly nice vibe to this hellsite?? you’re so approachable and charismatic you’re really amazing!! thanks queen.

@kihyussy my one and only sun wife!!! miss ria!!! im so happy that we started talking again!!!  we’re both messes answering,, i promise thatll change on 2k19, now youll never get rid of me 😔! djhghj i rly love all ur messages you’re so entertaining and funyn and witty mdfgdhjfg,,, but you’re also the fucking sweetest!!! as a cancer should be ofc, i love ur soft lil heart 💕💕💕. i cant believe you’re really out there saying im gorgeous when no one is as stunning as you, miss ria wtf!!! ugh you’re such a cutie!!!! ily baby!!!

@prinzelee jazz!!! my beautiful coffee goddess gf!! i probably got the order of that wrong oh my god!!! you are SUCH a gorgeous human being, inside and out. i love your cute compliments and nicknames, and i love how much dedication you put to your writing blog. you really have a heart of gold. you are so kind and gentle, you also work so hard... you deserve happiness and everything good in the world!!! i hope 2k19 brings u peace and good vibes!!! 

@wonho-deactivated MDHDFJDH murr. you’re so fucking chaotic and ilysm for that djfhkjsds. ive honestly laughed out loud reading your messages and your tags bc theyre so fuckign funny how do you even think of all that you’re. fucking hilarious. i love your sense of humor and how you rly are out there living your best libra sun sag rising life!!!!! and being a goth!!! you’re truly an icon, even if you deny ur love for mistre fendiman :// i know the truth. smoochies for you and shermy, ily both!!!

#hopefully this will appear on yalls notifs if not then im gonna kms lol #blablabla.txt

[jewel-s-blog]

about me + bias list

 hi there, I’m jewel :)

she/her/hers ・ 20 ・ kpop (writing) blog

Yes, Jewel is my real name although my parents admit I was supposed to be named elizabeth but changed their minds last minute after I was born how cute and I’m currently in university. I study political science and japanese for those wondering (because yes, I am japanese and it’s helpful when you live in hawaii to have that degree yk?). If any of this stuff is even mildly interesting and you have any curiosities, pls feel free to ask me!

I try to write some things when I can, so feel free to take a look at my masterlist. I also read A LOT of fics on this site, so also peep my recs if you feel like it. Warning: its mostly fluff and angst and almost always includes smut but there’s some really good stuff worth reading still! 

Feel free to talk to me :) i don’t have any kpop friends irl :( all my friends are locals smh 

I try my hardest to be active as much as possible but it’s taken me over a year to finally get used to tumblr lol marklee and i both struggle with complex technology i guess Of course, there are times when I get busy with college and will probably seem to drop off the face of the planet exam season kills but now that I’ve been in quarantine for a month, I figured now is the best time to start building an active tumblr routine. 

That’s all for now! Keep reading below for my bias list :)

xoxo, jewel <3

Bias List 

Before I begin, I will warn that this is basically a giant NCT shxtpost. With LOTS of hyperlinks for educational purposes and absolute crackhead-ery. I’ll eventually make a separate list for other groups I stan, but this blog is mainly NCT and this is already so long so I’ll leave it as this. Enjoy!

Biases are bolded in the beginning of each unit, so you can skip everything after if you don’t wanna see my ramblings following it.

A/N: After biasing nearly every member in NCT/WayV I’ve settled for now on my biases for each unit. This will most likely rotate fairly regularly as I literally fall in love with a different member every day cited here. solo stan? I don’t know her.

ULT

Jaehyun  *ahem excuse me i mean* 

Johnny Suh, it’s official. Don’t know how to explain, but I love everything about him. In the end, it’s always him. damn i sound like y/n thoughts but istg it’s true From SM Rookies to NCT Life to MV behinds, he’s the one. But I’ve also come to realize that I find myself most relatable to him as a person and I think that’s why no one else can trump him wow narcissist much jewel It’s kind of just my gut feeling. It also helps that hes the fluffiest tall, muscular tight booty hottie on the planet. See this black on black dance practice for further scientific explanation even in this jaehyun trying to wreck me so badddddd

Not gonna lie, I HAD IT BAD FOR MARK LEE still do and yet Johnny overcame that. If mark lee were my first love, johnny is my soulmate.

UPDATE! 

Lee Jeno has officially been added to the ult list. *See the entirety of my april activity on my sns accounts if you would like to see how this happened haha :)

NCT U  

im in love with him bc he literally reminds me of my boyfriend -- i like chill guys ok

Taeil is my little teddy bear who looks great in red hair and has a voice form heaven. Evidence? Here you go. He didn’t stand out to me much in the beginning because I was either deaf or blind but after Chain, the game was OVER. +moon taeil in shorts?? serve them thighs honey. Love you bebe tomato <3

BUT Doyoung is the #1 bias wrecker here because have you seen his cover of beautiful on masked singer?? have you?? if not, let me educate you. Also his collab with Sejeong?? Literally the cutest MV ever, perfect for Christmas, listened to it every year since it’s release.

Listen to Coming Home - NCT U for further scientific evidence that NCT has top vocals in the kpop industry.

NCT 127

THE Jung Jaehyun. For reasons that need no explanation. but ill give it anyway smh

After watching the performance of herin and jaehyun singing a whole new world I knew that was it for me. (I still watch it once a month for my jaehyun-related health and to honor SM’s biggest loss, seo herin and ji hansol but thats for another conversation) back to jaehyun His vocals are unique in NCT and bring a nice color to their songs, the man looks good in literally anything, and I’ll probably say this about every member, but I love his dance style--body rolls for days sis. Definitely my ideal type, which my boyfriend is 100% aware of; no secrets in my relationship ofc which explains the wreckage. Pretty sure 81% of the fandom gets wrecked by him daily, so I think I’ll stop here. 

NCT Dream 

Renjun.  why? i just think he’s neat but no really, it was this performance (ok actually this got me ALL SORTS OF WRECKED) and this fancam that had me falling in love with him but were gonna ignore the fact that I get bias wrecked DAILY by all the other members  GOd-tier vocals, personality for daysssssss, variety KING HUANG RENJUN. Safe to claim that I go into renjun feels about 3x a week. Check my twitter for proof. +dnyl renjun was a blessing and I sometimes cant believe that it actually happened. How do I explain?? He’s literally the best boy, but when he gets all worked up....let’s stop there before I have to go to confession again.

But for fun, lets list why I have biased every dream member at some point shall we? (in no particular order) Dream might just be my ult group, songs always bop, members at star quality 

mark- yes i am including mark bc he was the reason i even started stanning dream dreamies leader since mmc days, mentor, A1 rap skills, ad libs go crazy, unparalleled dancing style, hardest worker, cutest watermelon advocate ever, all around amazing person can you tell he used to be my ult? + he’s a good christian boy and my catholic *ss has to confess my sins for being a simp for him 24/7

chenle- vocal GOD, most steady live vocals in kpop, laugh to die for

jeno- i cannot resist his eye smile i wanna cuddle and onstage charisma-2:54 “let’s goooooo” and i alskfdfjlkdldkfa. 

jaemin- “other than my members, i don’t have any friends” and yet he’s literally the most caring and wonderful little puff in existence fight me pls dont im a pacifist 

heachan- idk why but donghyukie feels like he could be my best friend and also cant stop staring at him in their dance practices his body proportions are unreal and his vocal ad libs?? don’t even get me STARTED on heachans vocals

jisung- he is my son, but also my son’s vocals?? MWAH that voice got me second guessing if he’s really my son 

WayV 

Ten Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul another member where it kinda just....happened? In the end I was like “damn, when did you sneaky bugger get in my heart?” He’s got a similar vibe as Johnny AND DO NOT COME FOR MY THROAT FOR SAYING THAT THATS MY OPINION Like Johnny, I see myself in Ten. There are so many reasons why I love Ten, so I’ll make it simple and provide them to you. 

Reason 1 - Performance/dance  he just hit different, he’s THAT good. Reason 2 - vocals the amount his vocals has improved?? UNMATCHED. Reason 3 - INTELLECTUAL (still trying to find the clip of him talking about different kinds of love) Reason 4 - multi-lingual KING ok so this vid is him struggling in mandarin, but imagine, you speak thai and english and learn korean to debut and all of a sudden your agency says “ok learn chinese now.” MANDARIN IS ONE OF THE HARDEST LANGUAGES TO LEARN. Reason 5 - bad b*tch he just radiates bad bitxh energy in everything he does, and I appreciate a bad bitxh

BUT I love wayv’s chaotic energy and chemistry so much that I literally love them all dreamies watch out 

+special shoutout to xiaojuns vocals in Love Talk

+kun being a dimpled zaddy (jaehyun&kun type CONFIRMED)

+lucas holding binoculars like THAT @ 1:10

+yangx2 doing THIS (prepare to be blown away)

+hendery being a the best teacher 

+winwin BEING WINWIN THE DANCE GOD 

+winwin AGAIN and with Ten here i don’t even think i have to say that i tweeted about this everyday for a month and im still not over it. This specific dance really allowed winwin to shine even though ten is my bias. It really allowed others to see the fruit of his classical training even in modern dance which he never trained in. Not gonna be repetitive and SCREAM  say that he’s underrated, because we all know that already. Just show winwin some love, ok? thank you.

And so finally, we’ve reached the end. Phew, this took me almost 5 hours to put together because I definitely got carried away. For those who made it all the way to the end, thank you, I love you. It’s so messy and I don’t have the mental capacity to do anymore editing but I hope you got something from this massive post <3 Feel free to let me know what you think! xoxo, jewel

#jewel-s-blog about me #jewel-s-blog bias list #jewel-s-blog

[spideyyverse]

Story Time - Benverly

Requested by @kitaruhakiashi Thank you for being patient with me! I hope you enjoy it!

Summary: In a modern AU setting, Bill asks Ben and Bev to babysit his younger brother. 

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“A-and m-make s-sure he’s in bed by n-n-nine. Also, h-he d-doesn’t l-like m-mustard-” Bill began, for the fourth time, as he gathered his things and threw on his jacket. Bill entrusted Bev and I to watch his younger brother Georgie for the night. His parents were gone for the weekend and he needed someone to babysit the younger Denbrough. However, one babysitter clearly wasn’t enough so Bill asked us both.

”Yes Bill we got it the sec-” Bev sighed.

“He can only s-s-sleep with his s-s-stuffed t-teddy b-bear, his s-s-sandwich-”

“His sandwich needs to be cut into triangles, he likes the window open while he sleeps but not more than a couple of inches or else he’ll get sick, he also can’t watch Courage the Cowardly Dog or else he’ll have to sleep with you for an entire month with the light” Bev sighed once again while I laughed silently.

“Tell-”

“Tell him a bed time story but it has to be one that I bring from the library because he only trusts my book recommendations” It was my turn to cut him off as I motioned over to my book bag with books from the library.

“Bill! We’ll be fine! It’s not like Richie is babysitting him!”(Much to Richie’s dismay, the first time he babysat Georgie was also his last time, needless to say). It’s just me, Ben, and good ol’ Georgie!” She smiled.

God, even her smile is perfect.

“M-maybe I s-should c-cancel m-my d-date with S-Stan. He-” He ran his hands through his hair as he worriedly looked over to his younger brother playing with his paper boat.

“Bill! I swear to fucking God! Georgie will be fine!” She tried to assure him but also had a hint of annoyance in her voice. I stifled back my laugh. ”Beverly! Language! Georgie started to pick up on Richie’s sinful mouth-” Before he could continue, a voice spoke behind us. “Ready to go Billiam?” Bev and I whipped around puzzled, not at the fact that Stan was standing there but the fact that he somehow got inside the house. He didn’t even knock.

“I-” Bill began

“Nope! You two are going to have fun on your date! Go be crazy teenagers you two! Have fun!” Bev began to push them out the door.

“Since when is bird watching cra-” Stan started.

“Uris shut the fuck up before I call Trashmouth to crash your guys’ date” I said pushing them out the door.

“Bye Georgie! Love you! Don’t forget-” Bill began but Bev slammed the door.

We looked at each other before breaking into a fit of laughter. “God, and I thought Sonia Kaspbrak was bat shit crazy.” She laughed. I’m not sure what it was but either I was going crazy (More than I already am) or the Denbrough’s residence had amazing lighting. It captured her constellations that are freckles, her laugh, her radiating blue eyes. It captured everything.

 I just wanna kiss her.

“Hello? Earth to Haystack” A hand waved in front of me.

“Hm? What did you say?” I snapped out of my thoughts, I could feel a blush creeping along my cheeks.

“I asked what we should do”

“Oh. Uh, board games?” I suggested.

“Sure thing! Oh Georgie! Wanna play Twister or Monopoly?” Bev called out to the smaller boy.

“Twister!” He shouted excitedly.

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“Right hand on Blue Ben Ten!” Georgie giggled.

I struggled but managed to move my hand over to my right hand to blue. We were on the sixth round of Twister, as Georgie played the role of calling which colors one of our limbs needed to be on. Much to his dismay, he had to sit out after the fourth hand because he almost broke his hand trying to reach for red. If there was even a scratch on the poor boy, Bill would lose it. As in, Sonia Kaspbrak finding out Eddie has a blocked nose, lose it.

The site was quite interesting, to say the least. Bev and I looked like a complete and utter mess. One hand was under the others leg while someone’s leg was over the other. “Left hand on yellow Bev! Right foot on green Ben!” Georgie laughed.Then it was game over, for the both of us. Both of us went tumbling down, or I went tumbling down. Bev landed on top of me, our faces meeting dangerously close. Bev’s face began to match her hair as I could feel my face becoming just as heated.

She quickly got off of me and turned over to Georgie, “So George-”

“Woah! Ben and Bev sitting in a tree-” He began but I cut him off, It’s nearing       dinner time. How about I let you eat in the living room and watch TV? Yeah?” I asked in hopes he would oblige. As any eight year old would, he agreed without even thinking about it. He ran towards the remote and put on Power Rangers.

Bev and I glanced at each other, faces still red. “So, who wants to make the sandwich?” She asked quietly.

“I will” I responded and quickly rushed towards the hallway and into the kitchen. I breathed a sigh of relief once I made it then proceeded to follow Bill’s unnecessary instructions on how to make a sandwich. I made sandwiches for all three of us then headed over to the living room.

Do ou love Ben Ten? You look at Ben Ten the same way Billy and Stan look at each other.” Georgie asked, his voice sounded through the living room and into the hallway. 

I stopped abruptly in my steps, my heart began to pound. I was waiting to hear the answer I’ve been craving since I first met her.

“Now, what do you know about love Prince Georgie?” She giggled softly.

Did she avoid the question with a question? That meant her answer was no, right? Of course it does, who would love me? Certainly not her.

“I’ll have you know I know a lot about love Beverly Weverly. My mommy and daddy are in love with each other. Billy loves me and I love him because he’s       my best best-duh. Billy and Stan are in love with each other. Richie and Eddie are in love! Mike loves animals! Is Mikey in love with someone? I’m sure he is! Ben is in love with-”

“I’mn love with what?I asked stepping into the living room, hoping the conversation could be changed.

“Books!” Beverly shouted a little too quickly grabbing the sandwich from my hands. Our hands brushed together, another blush creeping upon our faces.

“Uh huh..” I slowly said looking over to a smirking Georgie.

This kid is good.

It was finally nine by the time Cars was over and we finished our sandwiches. Bev got Georgie ready for bed as I quickly cleaned up and got a book from my book bag.

“Ready for story time Prince Georgie?” Bev softly asked with a smile.

That God damn smile.

“Can I tell my own story instead?” He asked softly clutching his teddy bear.

Bev and I exchanged confused glances as we furrowed our eyebrows but ultimately agreed, “Go for it bud” I said.

“Once upon a time, there was a Princess named Beverly and a Prince named Ben. There was also a joker named Richie but he was sent to the dungeon by Princess Beverly because he made a joke about her mother. Anyways, They both loved each other very much but couldn’t admit it because they were scared. But, one day, King Billy purposely set up the princess and prince and told them to babysit Prince Georgie so he could be with King Stan. Then they kissed and lived happily..ever after.” He dozed off into a slumber as Bev and I looked at each other with shocked faces.

“Wait, Billy set us up?!” She squealed.

“I-”

Ping

SMS MSG FROM “B-B-BILLY”

”I see that it’s 9:10 meaning my great scheme to get you guys together has worked. I’m sure my great apprentice Georgie has told you his story. You’re welcome.”

“Wait-”

Ping

SMS MSG FROM “STAN THE MAN”

”He may seem calm in his message. I can confirm, he’s not. He’s currently panicking over if Georgie brushed his teeth or not.

“I-”

Ping

SMS MSG FROM “TRASHMOUTH”

”Now that you two are getting married, I would like to announce myself as that priest dude that gets you guys married. Also, I would like to give the first speech.”

”Bev I-”

Ping

SMS MSG FROM “EDDIE SPAGHETTI”

”Ignore the dumbass please. Congrats you two!”

”P.S Can we plan double dates now?”

“Ben listen-”

Ping

SMS MSG FROM “MIKE NOT IKE”

”My children. I’m so happy for you :’) My barn can be used for your guys wedding reception. Also, I make a MEAN red velvet cake. It’s vegan though.”

“That’s it!” I shouted but then remembering poor Georgie was sleeping.

“Ben?”

I grabbed Bev and kissed her. She kissed back.

It was the best ending to this fairytail.

#the losers club #benverly #beverly marsh #ben hanscom #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #sten #stan uris #mike hanlon #bill denbrough #georgie denbrough #bill skarsgard #it #it 2017 #reddie

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Damn I️ obviously didn’t write this but thank you so much to the person that did like this was amazing! Thank you so much to yunhojaeboo!!!

I found this…

we love you so much…. i have a story like this……. Long time ago, somewhere in Korea, a 15 year old boy bid goodbye to the city that had raised him, he gathered up a few pieces of luggage, said goodbye to 8 sisters and 2 parents who loves him deeply, he got on the train to Seoul, his family cried at the sight of his back walking away, the boy heard his loved ones crying for him, but he was afraid to look back, because he knew if he looked back, he wouldn’t have the heart to leave, but he didn’t want to throw away his dream, plus he didn’t want his family to see his tears. Just like that, with a very thin jacket in a freezing winter, for the sake of his dream, the boy left his home town for the first time in 15 years, to a big city he’s only seen in his dreams. Finally, the train has stopped, the boy got off of the train, as he looked at this strange yet fancy city and all its glory, busy streets, limelights, he’s never seen anything like this before. He felt his heart grow weak because it was so overwhelming. Really.. can he really find his place in a city like this? The boy hesitated, his faith was shaken. But, the dream he has in his heart can’t die, if he just goes home like this, he’ll never forgive himself for being such a weak coward, so, without any help or anyone, the boy found himself an apartment the size of a tuna can.. and call it home. SM Entertainment, the biggest music entertainment company held its second singing contest, the boy went, in the lobby, he saw so many other boys are that just like him, hoping to get picked through his contest so they can be on their way to a great singer, all the boys were well dressed, they were wearing the hippest clothes, with high-end mp3 players in their ears as they practice. The boy looked down on his plain grey tshirt and jeans, he felt like he has already lost half of the battle. He was contestant number 12, he walked into the audition room, there sits 5 stone cold expressionless judges, he was a nervous, until a judge asked him to open his mouth and sing. Just like that, his voice touched everyone in the room, that voice, was by the far the purest, the softest they’ve heard, when you listen to his voice, you can’t help but feel this sadness and tons of emotions, but even so, you want to continue to listen to his voice, forever and forever, just be loss in the sound of his voice. But still, his voice was too soft, too weak. The reason the boy won the contest because he has a flawless face, perfect skin, long eyelashes, delicate features that are even prettier than a girl’s, big watery eyes, pouty lips, and that white as snow skin. They said his face was born to be in the entertainment business. He got signed by SM, with a 7 year contract, two years of training, he has to pay for all of his music, dancing and other classes. The next five years he would actually become an entertainer, seeing himself that much closer to his dream, the boy signed the contract, knowning in the next two years, his life will be extremely hard, hard like he’s never experienced before, but he knows this is his dream, so he can not give up. So he begun those two grueling years, he knew his family isn’t well off, so he’s never asked his parents for a penny, everyday he jumped in between 3 different jobs, *when everyone else was still sleeping, the printer will drop off a stack of newspaper that are as heavy as he is, he would ride an old bike and deliver those newspapers door by door. ~In the afternoon he would jump from construction site to construction doing temporary work, that gorgeous face is being covered those pounds of cement and dirt, he had to suppress his beautiful voice because he wanted to be liked by his superior. After his music lessons early afternoon, in order to save a few dollars, he walks 3 hours to his waitressing job at a restaurant, he quietly does his job, quietly takes on everything a 15 year shouldn’t. quietly doing everything he can to get through these two rough years. All for the day he will be surrounded by bright lights. The boy did everything he could, but he still couldn’t manage three meals a day, every time he gets his salary, the first he does is pays for his lessons, even if the left over isn’t nearly enough for him to eat or buy any clothes. Finally one day, the boy realized he didn’t have anymoney left for food, he had been starving for two days, his weak body shouldn’t even be walking, but with the pressure of he has to pay for his classes, he still went to work. That night, when he was cleaning a table at the restaurant, he saw a customer has left more than half bowl of his noodle soup, it was still hot, he couldn’t take the hunger anymore, his hands were shaking.. he picked up a spoon and started to eat the left over noodles.. huh. He wonders why it starts to taste so salty.. then he realized it was his tears.. has dropped down in the bowl w/o him realizing. One the day, the boy got sick, he was running a high fever, he laid in his tiny little apartment for three straight days, thank god he already paid for his lessons, but he’s short 3 days worth of pay, so once again, the boy dragged his fragile body, walked three hours to his restaurant job. On the way back, he saw a blood donating booth, his stomach growled at him, the boy once again did something he didn’t want to.. he walked inside.. after an hour, he came out with a few bills in his hand, dragged his lifeless body into a store and bought the cheapest pack of cracker there is. Finally, he got through these two years, he was chosen to be in a group of five, the company have announced that this is going to be one of the best group of all times. Even though the five boys are very different, but the company believe that together, they will be perfect. The boys thought he was so lucky to be chosen in such a group, at the same time, being the oldest, he got four younger “brothers” who adores him. When they put out their first EP, even though there are only two songs on there, they topped the charts in Korea, also broke the fact that EP doesn’t sell well in Korea, the boy finally got a taste of success, as he sees more and more fan letters everyday, he knew everything in the past two years was worth it. But nothing’s perfect, good times are always short, it’s cruel actually. The first time they held their fan meeting, the people that came were fans of other members, watching lines of fans lined up in front of other members, there’s not even a single soul in front of him self, he wanted to scream and cry, The crew members didn’t want to make things weird, so they dragged a few fans in front of the boy. The boy held his sadness, starting talk to the female fan girl. But the fan girl coldly threw him “ I was forced to stand in your line, I don’t even like you”.. his heart was shattered again. But he didn’t cry, he rather bit his lip and let it bleed, but he doesn’t want to cry in front of anyone. Esp himself. The boy didn’t know why the fan didn’t like him, but what he doesn’t know is that his fans were still waiting outside the building b/c the meeting room was full.. their hearts were shattering along with his. Once he found out online that it’s not that others don’t like him nor he did anything wrong, but because he’s just too pretty.. even the girls are jealous.. reading this silly gibberish, the boy chuckled. He never gave up, everyday he puts on his sincere smiley face to public, hoping and praying that others will see him for who he really is, hear his voice. But the harder he try the more pressure he felt. Whenever he makes a mistake during performances, it makes him nervous, because he’s scared that others will dislike him even more b/c of it. So little by little. The boy stopped smiling in front of the camera, watching his every action and words. But because of it, the fans were chatting he’s pretending to be too cool, so the company should consider switching him out.. he was seriously scared, he didn’t want leave this place that was practically his 2nd home, but he understand that he’s just a “body” that makes money for the company, if the consumers are tired of this body, then the company must switch the body out for new one. He didn’t get switched, he found out that his fans roamed the streets in his honor for days, begging the company to keep him in the group. Also, the maknae of the group, changmin, despite what the manager forbids him to do, begged in front of the camera, that if the company takes the boy away, he will tear up his contract and go back to being a high school student. The boy cried, he knows that everyone in this group has a passion for music, Changmin the youngest, just like him, has gone through hardship to get to where he is today. The boy cherished everything he has even more, he begins to practice harder and harder, to thank his fans, also he wanted to show his best to his fans that loves him. During concerts, the boy always looks around in the audience, the director said that looks funny when he sings, said it’s better for the singer to stare at one particular spot when he sings, but he can’t do that, because he wants to see the face of every single fan out there, even if the picture captured of him was ugly, he doesn’t care. Once during dance practice, the boy fell.. he thought it was normal to fall when dancing. But this time he couldn’t get back, his knees was hurting like crazy, he balled up and started shaking in the corner of the room, the leader, Yunho, w/o saying a word, carried the boy on his back and took him to the nearest hospital, at the split second that the emergency room door was closing, the boy saw four familiar figures on the other side of the door. Worrying for him, praying for him. The doctor said his right knee is pretty much gone, he needs surgery asap and it’s a major surgery so he needs to rest for a long time post-op, but the boy refused, the 2nd day after his surgery, he arrived at the Seoul Olympic stadium with the rest of the members, like his schedule, he met with his fans, before the meeting, Yunho was by his side all the time, didn’t leave his side for even a second. During the fan meet, they asked what does Changmin want for new years, Changmin’s answer “ I wish for hyung to get better soon” The boy hates crying, he looked down, tried his hardest not to let his tears fall, he finally looked at the fans, he saw them crying for him, his heart was breaking, he picked the microphone and said “ I’m not hurting at all, really, please don’t cry for me, let’s face each other with smiles, please?” this is the first the boy has lied to everyone, it was within 24 hours of his surgery, how can it not hurt? But he toughed it out, for the love he has for his fans. He finally recovered, he celebrated with his friends, on the drive home, he was pulled over by the police for drinking and driving, Yunho came to pick him up at the police station w/o a word, but the boy knew he has disappointed Yunho and others. The boy was kept in silence by the company for two weeks, he knows that this is actually the lightest punishment for his foolish actions, and he knew his member have begged the company many many times, so that he’s not going to get kicked out. Because of it. He insisted in the next fan meet, he will apologize to everyone. That was the first time the boy has shed tears in front of his fans, .. when his fans said that they forgive him and they still love him. The boy started to get more and more popular, people started seeing him for more than just a gorgeous face, he’s a passionate musician with a beautiful voice and he’s a brave soul who isn’t afraid to face his mistakes. Three simple words “ we forgive you ” from the fans gave him all the faith he needed to carry on. This boy, is Kim JaeJoong, a member of the hottest group in Korea. DBSK. The company gave him the stage of name of YoungWoong Hero JaeJoong. So whenever the boy wants to cry, he reminds himself he can’t.. because he’s Hero JaeJoong and a Hero doesn’t cry.. a hero will fight ‘til the end and win the battle. Once a DBSK fan said that the first time she saw JaeJoong, she thought his name couldn’t possibly be Hero because it didn’t suit his fragile image, but she knows now why his name is Hero, because underneath his beauty, lies the soul of a true hero.

#jyj jaejoong #kim jaejoong #jaejoong #dbsk jaejoong #dbsk #dbsk changmin #amazing #story #submission

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Old vs New Generation? Again?

I just read an article about how the “old generation” of k-pop is basically dead, there are no more talents like SJ, TVXQ, SNSD, Wonder Girls and so on... they were also saying that “nowadays scouting happens on the streets”, “Old generation’s trainees used to be such for a decade before debut” and although there are some talents, new groups are mostly unknown and garbage.

Let’s talk about something over here.

This famous site was aiming for both hate and love of newbie’s fans and fans of the groups that have been in k-pop for over a decade now.

I might not like some groups and even think that some others are no worth but this is my personal opinion (since there are stans out there thinking that Super Junior are done) but this article was throwing shit at everyone.

Super Junior’s Siwon was literally scouted by SM because of his face. Like, someone was looking at him on the street and went like “hey boy, here’s my number, call me, I work for SME” (I mean, maybe not that literally but still); again, Super Junior’s Kyuhyun entered the group after some months from their debut, scouted in 2006. I guess there’s no need to tell how much did he struggle since they were eleven and another one was more like a threat than a friend.

Methods of scouting never changed; it only depends on who you scout.

They talk about untalented groups but I hear voices and raps in BTS that give me freaking goosebumps because I really want to hear if anyone in my university class can rap the way Suga or RapMon do, even in multiple languages (because yes, Rap Monster has this name for a reason and I barely manage not to stutter when I speak).

I stan different groups, not many (I’m pretty aware of that since a good friend of mine stans A DAMN LOT of them) and I love music above everything else, only writing can compete with it.

I’m first an ELF, a Shawol and an ARMY and I’m pretty sure I’m slowly becoming a Cassiopeia too.

And you know what? Half of Super Junior is in the army (pun not intended) now, TVXQ! are in the army as well.

I’m still suffering for Ryeowook’s enlistment and Kyuhyun is next.

I know SHINee is going to be in the same situation soon and then will be BTS.

That’s the only reason why they’re not active right now.

They’re not dead, thanks God they’re all healthy and ready to come back as soon as possible.

Both TVXQ! and Super Junior are going to release an album, THIS VERY YEAR.

And instead of being happy and all, I see ARMYs being like “they’re old” and now even articles about how “old times are now past”.

Come on, we’re all better than this.

ARMYs should be respectful of SHINee they hate so much (because some of them keep on insisting that the blindfolded performance of Lie has been copied by SHINee when you know, Evil came before but it’s fine since honestly just some of the fans got angry) even just because JIMIN AND TAEMIN HAD A FUCKING AWESOME DANCE PERFORMANCE TOGETHER.

Because I hope you all out there realize that there’s no fight among all of the groups. Many of them are friends.

Minho grabs Taehyung’s butt.

Suga shows up in the middle of the night at ZhouMi’s to have a beer together.

We should protect them, because they’re not treated the way they should be. Red Velvet’s Wendy previously admitted to be scared of eating because of her manager (and I really want to praise Taeyon of SNSD for scolding that bastard in public and Kangta for encouraging her to eat). Hangeng left Super Junior because he was working too much and not even paid for that.

Why spread hate all over when there’s already so much? Instead, we could all just... you know, enjoy the music.

Which is the reason why they’re working so hard for us.

Not to see us fight but to cheer for them.

Sorry for the outburst but I just needed it.

Peace&Love.

#love #happiness #joy #article #kpop #generations #old #new #newbies #wondergirls #superjunior #snsd #bts #shinee #hate #friendship #relationships #kyuhyun #taemin #changmin #yunho #uknow #zhoumi #suga #jimin #taehyung #jin #henry #rapmonster #namjoon

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Emily Nunn’s Comfort Food Diaries: Lessons in Life and Love

Emily Nunn’s new book The Comfort Food Diaries: My Quest for the Perfect Dish to Mend a Broken Heart is a memoir about a woman in the midst of grief. In the wake of her brother’s death, her fiancé breaks up with her and her life falls apart. What does she do? First, she moves toward health, going to rehab to get sober, but then she embarks on a “comfort food tour,” visiting friends around the country who have offered to host her (and cook for her) while she puts the pieces of her life back together.

I caught up with Emily for a sneak peek at her book and the lessons she learned along the way about connection, community, and love.

Tell me a little bit about your book?

Well, you know, it’s got a lot going on, but the premise of it was, I had this period in my life, years ago, where the top three or four things on that list of terrible things that can happen to you—I can’t remember the name of the chart—but about four or five of those happened to me, all within a couple of months. I just completely fell apart and I drank a bunch of wine and I got on Facebook, the way people do, and I complained about my life. I woke up the next day and I thought ‘oh my god, what have I done. I’m going to have lost half of my Facebook friends.’ Instead I had these amazing, incredible, warm notes from people—I mean hundreds of them—from friends that I hadn’t talked to in ages, some who were living across town from me, basically on my side, telling me they had a place for me if I needed it. It was like crying across the backyard fence with all your friends, or going down to the river to mourn—all of this kind of community on the internet. One of my old friends from college said ‘Well, you should just come with all of us and make comfort food—come visit us,’ and I was like ‘That’s a really good idea.’ So even though that didn’t happen immediately, and even though my life didn’t repair itself immediately—things got a little bit worse for a while, and that’s the reality of most situations like this, you don’t heal them with a comfort food tour—but that’s what I ended up doing. I ended up traveling around and staying with friends and cooking with them and they cooked for me or I cooked for them and some of them gave me favorite recipes and sometimes we just hung out, but it ended up turning into a real project for me and it was a real lifesaver, that part of the book, visiting so many old friends and friends also that I had actually never met before, some of them were friends from the ether that I had met through food sites. Meeting them in person was pretty amazing, and it turned into a book.

Obviously your book is about a lot more than food. Why did you choose food as a lens to explore heartbreak, family, and friendship?

Because at that point in my life it was kind of the only thing that I felt like I could count on. It actually makes me feel like crying saying that. I don’t know if I’ve ever really thought about that. I was a food writer at the Chicago Tribune and I had covered restaurants at The New Yorker magazine so food has always been a big part of my life, but it’s a way to connect and at that point in my life I felt so isolated and alone, despite the fact that these people were coming to me, I felt a little bit like I was in a jar and my trust was kind of shattered and my desire to be around other people was kind of shattered, but I knew that I needed to learn to trust people, I needed to connect. It’s the way that we all do connect, I mean our culture, you know, you meet for coffee, you meet for a hamburger, you meet for a glass of wine, you go to the zoo and you feed animals. We’re a food culture. I mean sitting at the table with people you love, there’s nothing like it, and there’s nothing like it with strangers either, so it turned out to be really perfect and natural.

At the beginning of the book, you had a hard time believing that you were worthy of love, even from yourself, what changed along the way and what are some of the ways you’ve learned to show yourself love?

I wish I had an easy answer for you but my path back from heartbreak, in many different ways not just a love relationship, but other areas of my life was hard for a while. I actually avoided it as long as I could. I avoided grieving, I avoided facing the heartbreak but you know it was a really gradual process and for me it actually took a really, really long time.

But as far as taking care of myself, there was this night, a really clear night, with moon and stars and I was outside and I was drinking coffee even though it was night time and I looked up and I could see the stars—I was out in the country and I just had this feeling that I was going to be okay, and it had been a long long time since I had thought I was going to be okay. I struggled for a long time. But I trusted that, I just chose to believe in it and I hung on to it.

As far as changing my habits, I had to ease into it, of course, but I think it was the people connection. I had to cook for other people before I could cook for myself, and that eventually led me to cooking for myself. I cook for myself all the time now. Back then, I stopped doing things that were harmful first. What I would do is I would force myself to accept love from people who were offering it to me. I forced myself to be aware of other people, that I wasn’t alone in the world, that nobody really is. It is partly your responsibility to not feel that way. It was really hard for me to accept things from other people, and I forced myself to do it. That’s part of what the comfort food tour is about—making myself accept love. I think if you didn’t learn to do it as a kid I think you kind of have to teach yourself.

The comfort food tour was at at least in part a way to break unhealthy relational habits that you had. Would you talk a little bit about that process?

First of all, of course you have to be aware of it. When something happens in a dysfunctional family like mine, the patterns develop so early that you don’t notice for a long time that you are picking people like your family. If your family is, say narcissistic, or if your family is very shut down—if you have very reserved parents, I think you pick a very reserved guy. I think I’ve done that in my life and it didn’t really dawn on me to the degree that I needed it to until everything fell apart. When it felt like nobody in my life was really there for me, they were worried about how my break down made them look or made them feel, but I didn’t get a lot of support—it was a wake-up call. I was able to except certain kinds of ways of relating that might not be exactly the healthiest kind, they didn’t seem abnormal to me. So having everything split wide open the way it did really opened my eyes. I don’t recommend my method, it would be better to go to a good therapist, but I had it thrust upon me. I wasn’t going around saying ‘I wonder why I feel funny all the time?’ until the bad things came to visit.

Not everybody can take quite so elaborate a comfort food tour in the wake of the end of a relationship or in the midst of grief. What advice would you give to those wanting to experience a similar journey in their own lives?

First of all, anybody can cook. I say this in the book again and again: making a sandwich for somebody is cooking and there’s a saying: the best damn sandwich is the one someone else makes for you. It’s such a special thing to do for somebody. It’s just incredibly healing.

If you’re single and all your friends have families, you have to say: ‘Can I come and have family night with you? Can I be at your table?’ You have to say to your friends: ‘I want to meet people, I want you to set me up. I want to come to your house for dinner. I want to be with you. I know you have a family. When can you and I go for coffee?’ Whatever it is, you have to make yourself a part of other people’s families, and not get your feelings hurt if they are like: ‘No, this is family time,’ but you have to kind of sing above your voice in terms of getting the love you need.

What was your greatest take away from living this story and writing this book?

For me personally it was that I could survive anything, that no matter how far down I fell in so many different ways I could pick myself up and keep going. I could continue on some sort of path but that to do that I had to connect to other people.

When I was writing the book and not quite sure what I was trying to say I think what I wanted was to make sure that people knew that there was a way out of a deep hole—that when you feel like you’re being pushed just further and further down and you feel hopeless that you can get out—it does happen eventually.

The food lens is a really important aspect of it, but I think it applies to anybody’s life, especially when talking about relationships. You have to find a window into relating to other people, you have to get outside yourself and that can be really difficult. I wanted to show people that no matter how dysfunctional your family is, no matter how horrible a thing has happened in your life, not just to you but to other people in your family, or your friends, I guess it’s about finding your inner strength and connecting. I guess that was kind of the point of the book.

Cara Strickland writes about food and drink, mental health, faith and being single from her home in the Pacific Northwest. She enjoys hot tea, good wine, and deep conversations. She will always want to play with your dog. Connect with her on Twitter @anxiouscook.

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