#i don't know if this makes sense

[random-letters-i-just-thought-of]

Random Codywan headcanon:

After many complains and some pressing by the Jedi for some more gear for the clones than only the bare essentials, every clone is reluctantly equipped with one sweatshirt-like black by the kaminoans. Officially for "colder temperatures", inofficially (intended by the Jedi) for comfort and to give the clones at least a tiny little opurtinity to custumize their outfits. (Let's just pretend they have time for that in the midde of a war)

And after the complains that the standard-blacks aren't distinctable enough to actually belong to one clone, because they get all mixed up after the next wash anyway, each of these sweatshirts comes with a embroidery reading "Property of insert Clone's number".

Of course the Clones are not having that. In the 212th, a small group of dedicated Clones make it their mission to redo every single one of these embroiderys and replace the number with the clone's name before the sweatshirts are delivered.

Anyway, Cody doesn't end up really wearing his. Not because he doen't like sweatshirts, but because it's just a little to tight to his taste. It does, however, perfectly fit Obi Wan, who's a bit leaner than Cody, so he ends up frequently stealing it. (It gets cold when they're doing paperwork together until late at night and he's not going to walk all the way back to his own room just to get one of his).

Cue, emergency council meeting on one of these evenings and Obi Wan's called to give a quick report, so he's standing there in the middle of the meeting, "Property of Cody" embrodied on his back and chest. Mace is just staring him down in true "Are you f*ing serious? I'm so f*ing done" fashion and the other masters can hardly hold back their giggling. Cody, who's standing in the background of the call, is embarrassed and blushing like crazy when he gets what's going on. Obi Wan is beaming. He thinks it's hilarious. He wears the sweatshirt to every single council meeting from now on.

#I don't know if this makes sense #welcome to todays round of 'I came up with nonsensical star wars scenarious in the shower' #Let's just pretend there are sweatshirts in Star Wars #codywan #star wars #the clone wars #obi wan kenobi #commander cody #clone wars #star wars the clone wars #clone troopers #jedi shenanigans #jedi

[wisecloudnightmare]

Ghost circus (Dick/Danny) Soulmate au

In dc universe, the first sentence your soulmate says to you is tattooed on your skin (if you're injured, it appears in the same place on top of your scar don't worry).

In dp universe however, you have a birthmark in a shape or a picture that tell you about your soulmate. Maybe a football for a football player or an instrument (or fifteen if your soulmate is an overachiever, you never can be sure). Maybe a logo of their favorite movie idk. But Danny, practically growing up in a lab that mainly studies ectoplasm in a town that is the richest ectoplasm spot in the world, has a weird mark: a robin egg that changes with time. As he grows up, it changes to a red-yellow-green baby bird and so on.

What I want to say is, Dick meets Danny who is a dimension traveler (probably doing Clockwork's a favor or investigating the Lazarus Pits) and hears him say his soulmate's sentence but when he responds Danny just doesn't react and goes on his way. Dick is like "am I not his soulmate? Can it be one way??" Just angst and existential crisis as you do.

Then, Danny is doing something and the batfam appears. Maybe he's fighting a rogue? And Danny sees Nightwing. And he knows that the vigilante reminds him of something, a blue-black bird of his own. Wait.

"Are you my soulmate?" Danny asks.

"HOW DO YOU KNOW?" Nightwing loses his mind.

Cue teasing siblings ("that has to be the shortest time someone uses to learn your secret identity.") and overprotective Batdad trying to investigate this boy/man who takes down the rogue and the goons like it was nothing even before the bats arrived on the scene.

#i don't know if this makes sense #it's 2.20 am here #soulmate au #dpxdc #danny fenton #dick grayson #I lost the note I made of this... prompt? somewhere. I'll post it if I find it. #ghost circus #danny fenton x dick grayson #danny x dick #dp x dc

[sinsmockingbird]

Idea; Himeko x Mara Struck!Reader x Kafka.

Something where Reader is a long life species, and over the years they've been alive, they've slowly become more and more mare struck. At this point the only thing keeping them grounded is Himeko, but they both know at some point not even she is gonna be able to keep you from insanity.

Because of that, Himeko makes a "deal" with Kafka in order to help you. Using her Spirit Whisper (like Blade) she's able to suppress the mara for longer, subsequently pausing the erosion happening in your mind. But of course there's always something that needs to be given in return to Kafka.

That something being Kafka being able to have you or Himeko whenever she wishes. It reopens the old wounds between the two from their past, but Himeko knows she has to deal with this, because she loves you and doesn't want to lose you just yet.

#*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟsins rambles #i don't know if this makes sense #i kinda wrote this on a whim #don't know if i'll expand #or do something with it

[rin-u-pos]

I think Rhys uses the mating bond as an excuse to act like a possessive, aggressive horny dick. After Feyre accepts the mating bond, Rhys acts like an animal. Constantly wanting to fuck her and would probably kill anyone who looks at her for too long. Then there's Cassian x Nesta. Cassian can't keep it in his pants, but he doesn't display the aggression towards anyone who wants to harm Nesta. He treats every other chick in his life better than his own mate.

Another example is Kallius x Vivianne. They've been mated for less than a year by the time the high lords meeting occurs, but he seems so chill. And finally, Lucien x Elain. He seems to be coping quite well with Elain's refusal to see him. I'm sure he suspects about Az x Elain. But Lucien gives her space and is respectful towards Azriel. Lucien should be driven mad by the bond, but he keeps himself busy and tries to move on.

I know you can argue about Rhysand letting Feyre marry Tamlin, but the beginning of ACOMAF can be reinterpreted as Rhysand inserting himself into Feyre's relationship during a difficult period.

#anti rhysand #anti cassian #lucien vanserra #anti feysand #mating bond #i don't know if this makes sense

[fellthemarvelous]

Invisible scars

(TW: religious trauma)

Looking at me, you wouldn't know that I've survived religious trauma. The marks of religious trauma are seldom visible. In fact, I had no idea for the longest time that I had religious trauma (I thought it was a thing that happened to other people). I simply spent decades questioning the reasons I felt like I was so broken on in the inside. I kept trying to figure out what I was doing wrong and why I never felt happy or like I was never able to connect to anyone. I had no idea that my experience with the church as a small child is what shaped me into the anxiety-ridden, majorly depressed disaster creature I am today.

I spent 12 years learning inside of Catholic schools. It has taken me more than 20 years to process and deconstruct, and I am always going to be a work in progress. I was brainwashed into believing the very worst about myself, and I was always just beyond saving because I had the misfortune of being a woman in a church that taught us that women experience pain during childbirth as a natural consequence of Eve eating the apple, which is why they enjoy making us suffer in the first place. They taught us that Adam ate the apple because Eve seduced him, so even though Adam also ate the apple, his sin still wasn't as bad as Eve's because she did it first and used sex to get him to do the same. They placed the blame for Original Sin squarely on Eve and thus onto every single girl who entered the church. If a boy did something to me that I didn't like, it's probably because I did something to provoke him first.

Do you know what I learned to do at a very young age just to be able to cope with that?

I learned to use humor to deflect when I was struggling. I smile when I don't want people to know I'm sad. I laugh at inappropriate times, especially when I'm uncomfortable. I learned to bottle up all of my emotions because expressing anything other than happiness is bad. I learned to compartmentalize. I taught myself how to pull out the right emotion for the right occasion because I was always striving to be who I thought everyone else wanted me to be. It was exhausting.

In the midst of all of this, I'm trying to figure out which parts of me are really me and which parts of me are things that were put into my head. If you've experienced indoctrination, you know what I'm talking about. They pulled us apart as small children and placed us in specific boxes and told us that deviating from the norm was bad.

Crowley is a fallen angel. His change from angel to demon is drastic on the outside.

You know he fell and that his wings turned black and he ended up in a pool of boiling sulfur. It's the reason Crowley is so easy to sympathize with. He suffered unfairly because of arbitrary rules that deemed him unforgivable. He's accepted that part of himself. He's clever and creative and it has helped him find ways to get out of doing his job for centuries. Hell doesn't care how jobs get done just as long as someone does them, and at this point humanity is doing more to damn themselves than the demons are able to keep up with. They're tired and overworked. Hell is overpopulated even though it should be infinite in size. Crowley wants no part of that system because he sees it for what it is, just as he sees Heaven for what it is. He has the marks to prove that he is one of the damned, but that has given him all the perspective he needs to see that both sides are fucked up and toxic and "irredeemable" (just like him). He has yet to fully let go of the hold Heaven has over him because of how badly he got hurt.

Aziraphale is still an angel.

He never fell, and he doesn't know why. He has lied to God. He has lied to Gabriel repeatedly. He lies to protect Crowley. He lies to protect humanity.

Remember, Crowley and Aziraphale started off in the same place.

They both started off as angels who were created to do God's bidding. Aziraphale is the one who told Crowley what he'd heard about everything shutting down in 6,000 years. He was simply trying to make conversation. He didn't think it was something Crowley would object to. Angels were just supposed to go along with God's plans, but Crowley had a different opinion and was vocal about it. Where did Aziraphale get his information in the first place? Why does nobody ever ask this question?

Aziraphale knows Heaven is toxic. He's not blind. We need to move past this idea that because he still has love for God that he doesn't know Heaven is fucked up. He never fell, and it's something he still fears because who the hell doesn't fear the thought of eternal torment, especially if you know it's real? God has never cast him out of Heaven though and he doesn't know why. It's probably something that hangs over his head like the Sword of Damocles.

Letting go is not an easy task. Aziraphale has always been an angel. He didn't have his identity ripped from him the same way that Crowley did. Crowley had to adapt to a brand new way of existing because he was cast out of Heaven.

Crowley's trauma is evident on the outside. Aziraphale's trauma is hidden on the inside. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there.

Crowley was an angel and then he was a demon, but he doesn't want to be labeled as either.

Aziraphale has only ever known how to be an angel. He's only ever known the ways of Heaven.

I'm only in my early 40s. It has taken me 20+ years to undo 12 years of religious abuse. Aziraphale is immortal. He and Crowley have abandoned their jobs, but four years in the space of millions isn't a lot. No one overcomes indoctrination in four years. Especially when you had millions of years of blind obedience indoctrinated into you. It simply does not work that way no matter how much you want to believe it can.

It has taken me more than two decades to learn how to stop hating myself. I still have no idea how to love myself, but it's something I'm trying to learn.

My entire identity was wrapped up in what the church told me it would be. Once I fully denounced it and all organized religion, I found out I had no idea who I was. No one had prepared me for a life outside of this one very specific identity and role that I was expected to fill based on a very specific box I was placed into.

I still struggle with black and white concepts. It's hard to unlearn when you have no other basis for comparison, but that doesn't mean it's impossible. It means that these changes do not and will not ever happen overnight.

The fall didn't just affect the demons though. It affected the angels as well. Look at how tightly wound the angels are. They're always trying to do the good thing, but they have no idea what that actually means, and you realize this when Uriel asks The Metatron if they had done something wrong. They are scared of making mistakes, but none of them know what they are supposed to be doing since Gabriel disrupted the status quo. You can see they are unsure of themselves and of each other. The concept of free will is so foreign to them, but Aziraphale showed all of them that it was in their grasp when he allowed Gabriel and Beelzebub to decide where to go so they could be together.

It takes a lot of audacity (and sheer ignorance) to dismiss Aziraphale as power-hungry and abusive.

Aziraphale did nothing to punish Gabriel and Beelzebub. He allowed them to leave because they were in love with each other, and he knows what that feels like. He thought he was about to get the same fate with Crowley until The Metatron showed up and refused to take no for an answer.

He doesn't want to fix Heaven because he thinks it's perfect. If he thought it was perfect he wouldn't want to fix it.

Aziraphale is going back into the Lion's Den. He knows what he's going up against. He's been humiliated and belittled and abused by Heaven for thousands of years.

His scars are there even though you can't see them, and he hides his pain with humor and silliness.

When I see people advocating for Aziraphale to suffer even more because they don't think he has suffered enough, I find myself sitting back in one of those classrooms in Catholic school being told that I deserve the bad things that happen to me because I somehow failed to measure up to some impossible metric. The cruelty of that mindset aimed at Aziraphale is kinda the reason Crowley hates Heaven in the first place because he's been there too.

And as someone who is processing religious trauma, it's disheartening to see people say that because Aziraphale has yet to fully let go of Heaven that he deserves harsher treatment. Crowley would definitely not agree with that sentiment.

#good omens #crowley #aziraphale #religious trauma #ex catholic #i don't know if this makes sense #i know the discourse on religious trauma is already another thing in this fandom #but this is how i process #deconstructing isn't fucking easy

[va-va-vamp]

I think one of the most important concepts in Bloodborne is the idea that every Great One loses its child and then yearns for a surrogate.

There are so many surrogate characters, the Doll is a surrogate for Maria, Vicar Amelia is a surrogate for Laurence, Alfred is a surrogate for the Executioners, and so on and so forth.

The old will always haunts the new, just as Yharnam is built on the Ruins of Pthumeru.

#I don't know if this makes sense #I mean surrogate also as successor #bloodborne #bloodborne meta

[shu-box-puns]

Right so hear me out, we're in the Hallelujah Mountain base and Quaritch has decided he needs to inspect the compound for security reasons. So basically, Military!Reader has to tidy up QUICKLY, and hide their cat which they SOMEHOW, illegally, smuggled onto Pandora (don't ask, I haven't worked out how yet) and they're really stressed about hiding it before Quaritch turns up. Discovery will result in Military!Reader having to return to Hell's Gate and face rotating home, or Quaritch shoving the cat outside to teach them a lesson.

Logically, the only thing to do is get everyone else in the compound involved. I mean, Grace and the Colonel are natural enemies, so it would be laughably easy to convince her to get on board. So within hours, Grace has roped in the others, and there's a plan for Jake to get rid of the cat hair whilst Norm puts the cat in an exopack and sneaks it out back when Quaritch enters to carry out his inspection. Meanwhile, Trudy is on standby to stuff the cat in the helicopter as a very last resort, whilst Graced nags the man's ear off to distract him.

In exchange, Military!Reader just have to act as security for that day's forest mission since Trudy's sick. It's a win win :D

ANYWAY, to cut a long - and excellently thought out - story short, come morning, Military!Reader now has a much bigger cat to hide.

(Tsu'tey followed them home because they've been growing closer and he's assured all of them he'd be long gone before the helicopter arrives. In simple terms, he is in no way a morning person, and is too big to move. Very quickly, it becomes the whole compound's problem.)

Cut a tense but funny sequence of three fully grown adults (Norm, Trudy, Jake) trying to sneak out a groggy Tsu'tey as well as the cat, whilst Military!Reader fails to keep a poker face, and Grace wonders how the hell she ended up in this situation.

And yes, Tsu'tey and the cat become best friends.

#Tsu'tey #I'm sorry but the cat characteristics I could bring up #The way I could just spend X amount of words comparing Tsu'tey to a cat #this is unhinged #It's giving sneaking out your date before Mum finds you #you know that trope where the love interest sneaks in through a window to spend the night? #Well this is the aftermath #with the added stress of a cat #tsu'tey x reader #I don't know if this makes sense #If I write this out in full this reader is going to be chaotic as fuck #avatar

[insanity-laughs-under-pressure]

In season 1 Aziraphale left Heaven to find Crowley. He did that. He teleported to Earth without a body so that he could get to Crowley and warn him about armageddon.

In season 2 he went to Heaven to "make a difference". He knows it's corrupt, his hope isn't in Heaven but in what it should stand for, what he could reinstate it to.

It's been said so many times but Aziraphale did truly go to Heaven to protect Crowley. His act of defence in season 1 proves this.

Aziraphale was thrilled but unsure about going back to Heaven until the Metatron mentioned he would be involved with the second coming. Then we see Aziraphale with that manic smile, because he is now right in the centre of what he wanted to change.

#I don't know if this makes sense #But I've only just properly really come to terms with Aziraphale leaving #Even then I don't believe it #Either way he has left Heaven for crowley before #He's just back to fix something bigger than the two of them #good omens #good omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands

[shawolsos]

If Eurovision was a kpop award show, Finland and Slovenia would currently be embroiled in a very serious dating scandal

#my random thoughts #i don't know if this makes sense #but they did commit the cardinal kpop sin of being friends and visibly enjoying each others performance #kaarija #käärijä #joker out #esc finland #esc slovenia #eurovision #eurovision 2023 #kpop #cerys rambles #shitpost

[lyralit]

how to write a strong female character who isn't physically strong?

how to write a strong character who isn't physically strong.

give them a different kind of strength. many times, mental strength or even emotional strength can give them a grasp and advantage that others may not have.

give them an opinion. give your characters instincts and values, making them all the more real. maybe they don't want everyone to die in their crossfire. maybe they want to stand up, when others don't. adding those details adds complexity and makes the character more well-rounded.

make them feel. the strongest of characters still break under pressure. little things that go bump in the night may not make them stir, but something surely will. give them worries, give them habits and hobbies that showcase depth of character.

run from the old tropes. a character—especially female ones—can be smart and attractive. they can be muscular, they can be loud, they have all of the flexibility as any other character. so many characters are defined to the ones you see on tv: the "dumb cheerleader", the "nerdy geek". you can expand so much farther than that.

give them ticks. small actions, small tells that show they're human, not a supersmart robot. it's so easy to centre your characters around a singular trait, but ticks and habits help to round them out.

essentially, I think, you want to be able to have dozens of traits that showcase their strength, not only have that strength. seeing characters stumble and break and swear display how brave they were in the first place. their flaws, really, are what define their strengths.

#I don't know if this makes sense #lyralit #writerblr #creative writing #writers #writblr #writing #writers block #writing prompts #writing ideas #lovely person <3 #strong characters #character development

[keter-class-anomaly]

i was thinking about the sides outfits today, and i'm totally over thinking this but hear me out,

remus and roman have the sashes obviously, but patton and janus both have something wrapped around their shoulders. patton's being his cat hoodie, and janus's being his cape thingy

this makes me think the orange side might have something similar to a neck tie. if he ends up being the dark side equivalent to logan that is

#i don't know if this makes sense #but i just noticed that janus's cape parallels patton's hoodie #sanders sides #orange side #logan sanders #this will prolly end up being nonsense #but that's ok #i could have worded this better

[silas-is-sleepy]

One of the biggest differences in the dsmp vs qsmp storyline (purely story line and lore) is that. In the dsmp there was no hope in the end. There only could ever have been a bittersweet ending, a double edged sword, a moving on but never truely healing. There was only wars and trauma and hatred. Everyone separated, there was no family anymore there was no love, no friends. The only somewhat happy ending i can think of was a Wilbur going back 'home' to Utah after apologizing to as many people as he could. There was no chance for a truely happy ending. It was all pain and angst and one final hurrah. However on the qsmp. At least for now. There is always some form of hope. When felps got kidnapped, Cellbit was going insane looking for him and others supported and helped him during it, there was always love there. When Cellbit got kidnapped himself, so many others looked for him and banded together. There is always love, family, hope. The residents trust each other, no one is left out, at least not intentionally. Even now, with that trust being tested, there are still laughs and joy. they made one of the NPCs into an actual character, they gave Walter bob his name, his clothes, even a face. He is cared for so much now. There is of course horrors, and traumas, and loss, but there is Love and Hope mixed in. It is balanced. When charlie lost juanaflippa, when quackity lost tilín, when max lost trump, there were people there for them, wether they realized it or not. When the eggs started dying and being attacked by codes and the island itself seemed like it was trying to kill them, Forever created N.I.N.H.O, a safe haven. Everyone trys so hard to stay together and united because they know it's them against the island, them against The Federation, and they don't stand a chance alone. But even then it's not only out of necessity, it's out of Care. There will always be hope. There will always be love. Ultimately, despite The Horrors, the qsmp is about connections, love, and hope. It's cheesy but it makes all the difference.

#i don't know if this makes sense #its so late and I have work in the morning but I had to get this out there #i love the qsmp so much #silas speaks #qsmp #I'll edit this or delete it in the morning probably #it will always be about love #long post #i think at least #idk if I'm remembering it all right I'll double check in the morning #I've been thinking Abt this for too long i need to get it out so I can sleep

[azrantimes]

So funny story(+ my love for htdio)

I'm disabled, I'm autistic and a wheelchair user, and I'm a theater kid. I'm also from Belgium, a country with minimal theater culture. I'm turning 18 this year and my birthday gift was a trip to NYC to see musicals and other stuff.

My parents have been saying that for a while now, since my health was shit and I had missed out on a lot because of that, but for some reason I wasn't that excited anymore, except for one thing.

How To Dance In Ohio. I fell in love with the highlights album and was counting the days till I could see it in April, but then the closing announcement came 3 weeks in advance.

I was sad, but gotten over it as best as I could in a few days but my excitement for my birthday trip dwindled, but my mom, even with my protests, rescheduled it and we were going to NYC with a week notice.

So I actually ended up seeing the 2nd to last performance of HTDIO, and I had the best time. My mom even told me that she understood me more after it. So after the show I was super excited and wanted to go to stagedoor, but due to accidents it took longer to get out and I had a full on meltdown because I could hear the cheers from outside.

I was still in tears when we finally left the theater and Jean Christian complimented my bag but I just couldn't reply (that made my day a little better though!). There were so many people outside the theater, but this lovely lady, without me asking, helped me navigate through the crowd (my wheelchair has 2 parts, so it's especially hard to navigate through crowds) and actually got me very close to stagedoor when I was stopped by Dr Amigo (the real one.)

I was still in tears and I don't know If he noticed but he asked me for a picture and complimented me and we talked for a while when he said he was going to talk to the cast and get them to come see me.

I didn't want to get my hopes up, but sure enough a woman who was closer to the door than me told me that they were talking about me and knew I was there and a little later Liam came to me and the rest of the 7 (except Madison and Conor) followed and I got signatures and pictures with them all. What started as a nightmare ended up being a miracle, so I'm super grateful for Dr Amigo and the cast. (Shout-out to Ashley who was very shocked I came all the way from Belgium haha)

#how to dance in ohio musical #how to dance in ohio #htdio #htdio musical #broadway #this was such a sureal experience and I'm so grateful #i don't know if this makes sense #i hope so #still don't know how tumblr works

[viivdle]

The Joker And The Queen (Jurdan's Version)

"How was I to know? / It's a crazy thing" fits incredibly well for them. on one side, we have jude - all she knows is cardan hating her. he insulted her, kicked dirt in her food, almost killed (!!) her, how was she to know he loved her?? or tolerated her at all?? on the other side, there's cardan - for me, these lyrics represent how low he thinks of himself. his own family didn't love him, so why would anyone else do it voluntarily? with the two of them, it's anything but - though it still counts to him.  

"I showed you my hand / And you still let me win" they both showed their weaknesses during the series - behind the dais in TWK, jude's constant mortality, cardan's confession in TCP,.. there's more of these moments than one might guess. 

"And who was I to say / That this was meant to be?" it would've been fatal for jude to say it. she herself would've thought she'd gone mad. a mortal and a fae prince? yes, right. and cardan for, again, thinking nobody would want what was left of his heart. 

"The road that was broken / Brought us together" is there anything more jurdan?? there road was not just a bit broken, it was DESTROYED. betrayal, lies, deceiving, murder. come on.  

"When I fold, you see the best in me" for jude, folding represents her mortality, her weakness even when she is stronger than most. she can't escape it, no matter what. cardan on the other hand told her he always thinks about her, which was one of the first big steps to their end. he also involuntarily showed his cards when jude saw balekin and him in his room.  

"I've been played before" ironic considering most times they played each other.  

"So I kept my cards close to my foolproof vest" cardan hid his attraction to her with utter hatred, it was truly foolproof - at least it worked on jude.  

"And then you went all in / And we left together" to me, this screams the serpent scene in TQoN. she had to risk everything, but in the end they came out of it together. 

"And I know you think that what makes a king is gold / A palace and diamond rings" cardan knew next to nothing about ruling when he was put on the throne, but it's not the first thing that comes to mind. i can imagine jude telling cardan that when he has doubts, telling him that despite what he thinks, there's more to being a king than gold (i could get into the silver to gold pipeline but i promise i won't)  

"When I folded, you saw the best in me" cardan admires her mortal beauty like no other, he saw the best of her, the parts she despised most in her situation, when she decided to take that leap of faith. even when cardan was a serpent, she saw her husband, not just a monster. even when cardan was a serpent, he saw his wife, not just a target. 

"The Joker And The Queen" 

#i don't know if this makes sense #i'm really tired but it played and i suddenly thought i had to do this #taylor swift #the joker and the queen #ed sheeran #taylor song analysis #jurdan #jurdan analysis #cardan greenbriar #jude duarte #tfota #the cruel prince #the wicked king #the queen of nothing #the folk of the air #holly black #holly blacj #chai and anna #tcp #twk #tqon #taylor (jurdan's version) #or even #jurdan (taylor's version)

[zaless]

in my personal experience as an aroace person, being aro does not mean i don't feel love. i feel love, i know love, i understand love, just not in the way that alloromantic people do. i love my friends, some like family, some in a way that isn't familial or romantic, and both of those loves are beautiful and wonderful and perfect for me. i am perfectly content in my life without romantic relationships, and do not wish to be in a romantic relationship, and that does not limit my ability to love and be loved. platonic relationships are so so so incredibly important to me. and in a way, i have been in love, because i'm in love with love, just not the romantic kind.

#I don't know if this makes sense #aromantic #asexual #aroace #just as clarification this is my personal experience. i'm just speaking for myself here #aro

[whenthegoldrays]

The theme of episode 6 really floored me. How long can a secret remain a secret before it becomes a lie? (Spoilers incoming!) Woo-hak had previously been just as confused as Mok-ha, and possibly more than her, so any theory of his being Ki-ho wasn't a lie, simply a mistake. Bogeol, on the other hand, knew the truth all along and kept it under wraps because it was a secret. He hadn't had to lie and say he wasn't Ki-ho because no one was asking. Mok-ha asking questions and Woo-hak learning the truth in episode 6 makes liars out of them all — he tells Mok-ha that Ki-ho is married (a lie) and Ms. Song tells Mok-ha to be a hairdresser instead of a singer (lying about her intentions).

And yet these lies are somewhat justified in that they're being told for the safety of Mok-ha and the family. But how long can these innocent lies remain innocent, spoken under the intention of keeping a secret, before they become unforgivable? I'd say that Mok-ha deserves to know the truth, especially now that it's not just a matter of knowing, but that her career and future could be actively shaped by Ms. Song's advice.

#i don't know if this makes sense #I may make a more coherent version of this post later on #I just had a string of thoughts about this #the way that woo-hak learning the truth about the past forced him to become a liar in the name of his family's safety #also the fact that mok-ha began doing ran-joo's singing as a one time thing to save face and then it quickly became a national lie complete #with high stakes and blackmail #oh what a tangled web we weave etc etc #I had a whole other half of this post talking about how the lies in this show are much more forgivable than the lies in start-up but #the post was getting too long and I don't want to drag that show into every post I make about this show #castaway diva #castaway diva spoilers #kdrama #elly's posts