#finally you guys will understand what this tag mean haha

[l-antre-des-merveilles]

I have a writing blog now ! :D

https://www.tumblr.com/thechroniclesofhavren Here for you good folks, if you wanna hear me ramble about my OCs and worldbuilding I created for my future book !

Logically it shouldn’t need a password for you to see and scroll it (there’s only the intro post on here for now though lmao), and you can ask me questions on here too (even in French if you want xD)

#Book!AU #finally you guys will understand what this tag mean haha #writeblr #writeblr intro #queer writers #lgbt books #lgbt writers #lgbtqiia+ #lgbt #found family #writing intro #writers on tumblr #new writer #writting community #writterscommunity #writtingcommunity

[hisui-dreamer]

CONGRATS ON 1K RINNAAAA :((( YOU WERE ONE OF MY FIRST MOOTS EVER AND ITS MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND PROUD THAT YOU HIT THIS MILESTONE!! THANK YOU FOR BEING ONE OF THE MOST WARM AND WELCOMING PEOPLE IVE MET IN THIS FANDOM <33 YOURE SUCH A GIFT ITS INSANE!!!!!

IM SURE THIS DOESNT SURPRISE YOU BUT!!! for the 1k event i was thinking soulmate au with azul (HEHE) except its the doodle one? LIKE WHERE YOU DOODLE ON YOUR BODY AND YOUR SOULMATES GETS THE SAME MARKINGS YK

and i have a habit of doodling sea creatures like octopi and morays on my arms and hands so i think it'd be cute for him to like, take his gloves off one day and just see a little eel on the back of his hand :((( squishy guy <3333

headcanons or a drabble is totally fine, whichever one is easier for you!!!! thank you for easing me into this fandom :(( i will never be able to thank you enough for making my anxious ass WAY less nervous <3 and no pressure if this doesnt inspire you ofc hehe you're never obligated to write anything !!! :D

the doodles that drew us together

Pairing: Azul Ashengrotto x gn!reader

Synopsis: Azul thought all his life he didn't have a soulmate...

Tags: soulmates au (doodling), reader is yuu, fluff, comfort, reader likes sea creatures, bot proofread

Word count: 591

Notes: aubbie thank you so much!!! I'm so glad we became moots, you're one of my closest friends and everything I see something azul related I think of you haha! I hope you'll enjoy this azul soulmate au ♪⁠ヽ⁠(⁠･⁠ˇ⁠∀⁠ˇ⁠･⁠ゞ⁠)

Masterlist

Azul had been fascinated by the idea of soulmates as a young mer

it was something that gave him hope, that despite all the other mean mers who would make fun of him, there was someone out there who would understand him and love him

and so he kept drawing on his arm, doodles of shells and other fish that caught his eye

but there wasn't any response.

maybe his doodles were too ugly and his soulmate didn't like them?

and so he learned to draw better, drawing again and again, hoping he would get a response

but still not a single mark would appear on him

it had been a tough blow to him, but he eventually accepted that he didn't have a soulmate

if he was going to be alone for all his life, then he had to take care of himself (because nobody would)

he became super greedy and selfish, always prioritising himself and his materialistic needs

although he also had a friendship with the tweels, he really only befriended them because they could help him out (but he did get attached to them over time)

and so, he opened the mostro lounge and became the sly businessman that we all know

on the first day of his second year, as he was going over documents after closing the lounge, he felt a slight tingle in his hand

Azul's eyebrow rose in response to an unexpected sensation. A peculiar warmth, like a gentle caress, emanated from the back of his gloved hand. Intrigued, he swiftly removed his gloves, revealing smooth, pale skin. A gasp of astonishment escaped his lips as his eyes fell upon a minuscule masterpiece, a tiny, adorable octopus delicately inked in pen.

"Is this...real?" Azul murmured, his voice tinged with disbelief. A surge of hope surged through his entire being, dispelling the weight that had burdened him for far too long.

With a trembling hand, he grasped his own pen and cautiously began to sketch his own octopus upon his wrist, with one tentacle reaching out, holding hands with your octopus.

And he can't stop he smile that graces his lips when a little heart appears between the two octopi.

What a hectic day it had been! For a magicless student to arrive in NRC and for him to finally connect with his soulmate!

...?

Oh. Azul had to speak to said magicless student as soon as possible.

when the two of you start being a couple, Azul does everything and anything for you

when you're in exams and your nervously doodling sea creatures, he'll draw some flowers nearby to help calm you down

no he doesn't help you cheat by writing you the answers, he's already given you the perfect study materials, you shoud put in some effort too

he gets jealous if you draw other sea creatures too much though, especially moray eels

he lets you work at the lounge with a very high pay, making sure you're not working too hard, and always offers to tutor you if you're struggling

his soulmate had to go to a different world just to find him, you'll be sure he helps to settle in and hopefully never leave again

Insert clingy octopus wrapping his tentacles all around you because he can't bare to let you go

when you have dates and appointments, he'll help remind you by writing on his arm

this man has waited for you his entire life, he's ready to lay the world down at your feet if you ask him to

Masterlist

if you liked this post, don't forget to reblog!

#✧1k! another life✦ #twstnexus #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #disney twisted wonderland #twst imagines #twst wonderland #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader #azul x reader #✧auburn🐙✦

[hiding-in-the-vault]

How does one get into Dreblr? I've been watching a few people get into it and I wanted to shoot my shot on maybe becoming like you guys, I've looked up to you for like over a year and wondered how to get into the Dreblr scene

Contrary to popular belief, dreblr not a secret club that you need permission to enter.

I'll be blunt. If you start posting and tagging dreblr, one of two things will happen:

The dreblrs will see you, get excited at the prospect of new people who also like the traumatized green man, and start talking to you- or pay closer attention when you start talking to them. Cue follows and reblogs and internet friendship wooo

OR

The dreblrs will see you, but your takes are in fact not dreblr approved and you get blocked by everyone.. I feel bad even using 'you' here, since I doubt that'll be the case if you've been following people here for so long. but sometimes people show up in the dreblr tag not understanding what it means, and its glaringly obvious. Tagging stuff like "#dreblr #i hate ccdream but cdream is fun haha", making it clear they think he's just an evil girlboss who is #irredeemable, staged finale was a retcon or ruined the story, and how he's ssoooooo obsessed with ctommy- that ain't in, chief.

I'm spelling it out because sometimes people act like dreblr is a big group chat that you need to get an invite to. While, yes, it is a bit more isolated than just everyone who posts c!dream art, but the distinction is largely in how you understand the character.

Beyond that, just start posting! You don't need new fresh exciting takes or shiny polished art. Really anything that fellow fans will relate to on some level will do the job. Reblog people's posts with barely coherent comments in the tags (my personal favorite~), send asks, engage with AUs, and people will notice your name becoming more and more common :)

#vault asks #dreblr #or join the discord in my pinned ahhaa

[ofallthingsnasty]

I just remembered that one ridiculously cute thing in uni during the body donor class - for context: we dental students got pooled together with the meds during the pre-clinical semesters a lot, and that class was no different.

We were separated in two main groups, and one body donor was shared between 12 students - coming in from Monday to Thursday. On Fridays, you could come in until 12 and just look at the donors without any supervision, you just needed your coat and name tag. And I remember going in before the situs oral and trying to understand how blood flows through the heart and then one of the meds (super intimidating buff guy) saw me struggle and was like '... Hey do you want me to explain that to you?' and then we sat there - him with a whole heart in hand, explaining it all to me, more than happy to help. Not gonna lie, I had a bit of a crush on that guy for the rest of the semester. We weren't even in the same group, so we never saw each other during prep hours but I always had my eyes peeled for him during lectures haha tw.anatomical stuff (i'm german so if my translations are a little off then i'm sorry hah), cadavers, just fluff

Long story short - I'm thinking about that with Law. You and Chopper are at the same table, come in every Friday to review the material of the week, both a little on the not-so-studious side. (Don't get me wrong, you go to every lecture - but those suckers are two hours long and not the only class you have. It's easy to lose track, especially when all you wanna do is catch up on sleep during the weekends.)

You pull your donor out of the body bag, lay them down and go over your notes, some sessions more and some less successful. The two of you are usually not alone, either - there is always someone else rifling around on their own table. Today it's a guy with a severe expression and some earrings. You've seen him in the lecture hall but you and Chopper aren't in the same group as him, so that's really all you know. You get through this week's lecture notes just fine - until it's time for the heart. The way blood gets fed through the atriums and ventricles, how the pressure changes, systole and diastole, the coronary arteries... You two are feeling beyond lost and so, so close to simply giving up - it's just too much and too intricate (at least for someone who has heard all of that info only once, maybe twice). But then there is also that other student - and maybe, just maybe, he knows more than you two do. It's not unusual to ask - and so that's what you do.

Law can't be assed, actually.

He's reviewing his notes, trying to get his own studying done. He's really not the type to do tutoring, doesn't have the patience for it. But you two are loud - hemming and hawing over your own cadaver and if he has to hear you confuse the mitral valve with the tricuspid one more time, then he's going to get a migraine. What are twenty minutes of his time if it means that you get done with your little idiot session and finally leave the hall? So he sighs and motions you to come closer. He's surprisingly good at explaining. The heart of his donor in one hand, a tissue forceps in the other, he walks you through every fact one would want to know about the organ. You probably have stars in your eyes while he talks because finally, finally you're grasping the material - and really, it might be confusing at first, but it's not that hard. He even lets Chopper regurgitate it all to him and has the two of you giggling over it. Law is just glad you two morons are finally having your little eureka moment because it means that you'll be off in a matter of minutes.

But no good deed goes unpunished.

It's then that you notice his tattoos through the nitrile gloves and suddenly he's the most fascinating living guy around (the most fascinating guy is dead on table 5, with golf ball sized cysts in his liver, sorry Law). He gets bombarded with questions, you and Chopper all over him, way too loud, too excited, too fucking annoying. He's already regretting his little act of charity.

And not only do you have the audacity to ask him to explain fetal circulation (because, please, please it's so confusing) as well, no, from that moment on, you're all over him very goddamn Friday and he's been added to three different group chats the moment Chopper and you leave the hall.

#i loved that class lol... so good #some universities have free videos of the instructors doing the dissections if that sounds good you should def give it a try #it's fascinating stuff and i have only the fondest memories 😊 #/one piece #/law #trafalgar law x reader #law x reader

[just-another-author-i-guess]

John Bender relationship hc

Requested HERE

Tags: fem!reader, 80’s setting, John is cute, and also kinda feral, like one mention of sex?

Authors note: omg it’s been too long since I’ve seen the breakfast club ): no but also there’s no fics for any of them? Literally?? They’re so underrated. It was kinda hard to write ngl, like we don’t really get that much info on them in the movie haha I hope this is readable tho

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oh man 

He is so goddamn emotionally unavailable you wouldn’t believe it 

He’s pretty self destructive too and pretty quick to act out 

You probably met him in detention 

He immediately noticed you, tbh he thought you were hot as fuck 

He wanted to flirt with you but his idea of flirting is.. interesting 

Low key just bullied you for the entire day 

Affectionate bullying? 

You thought he was super annoying, but also couldn’t deny that he was hot 

He literally doesn’t shut up, it’s kinda impressive how he never runs out of dumb shit to say 

He acted up a lot more than normal during that detention, yk trying to impress you and all 

It low key worked

No but like he really only have two moods 

Annoying or gross 

After bullying you didn’t seem to work, he started making sexual innuendos 

Honestly he would find it so hot if you stood up for yourself and put him in his place 

It probably wouldn’t work, but he would be very ecstatic lmao 

When detention finally ends, he sneakily tries to ask you on a date 

By which I mean, he said “Hey sweetheart, I know this reallyyyy nice motel not too far away. How ‘bout we rent a room?” 

You didn’t even respond, just rolled your eyes and walked off 

It now becomes his goal in life to take you on a date 

He “accidentally” bumps into you in the hallways at school the next day 

He’s a goddamn loudmouth, sometimes he just can’t help himself from saying dumb shit so the first few times he asks you out.. don’t really go well 

He feels like he has to upkeep his bad boy persona

He tries to be even louder and more reckless around you, bc he assumes you’ll only like him if he keeps up with his reputation 

Eventually you tell him that you actually like him more when he’s just himself and he’s just mind blown 

He literally went :0 

When you first start dating he really has to get used to physical affection 

He has only experienced physical touch in a sexual or violent manner 

So when you just simply hug him, he’s stunned 

You held his hand once and the man was too stunned to speak 

Please just pet his hair 

I mean, have you seen how luscious it is 

You’re the first person to genuinely understand him and communicate with him 

His whole life he’s just been bossed around by his dad and authority figures 

So he falls for you, hard. Like, the guy is following you around school with heart eyes 

He skips his classes to watch your cheer practice lmao 

(He just wants to see you in a short skirt ngl) 

When he finally gets used to it, he’s a huge pda fan 

Literally doesn’t care where you are, you will sit on his lap and hold his hand 

Even if it’s in the middle of your English class 

This eventually leads to more detention, but to John that’s just more time he gets to spend with you! Yay :D

He’s with you all the time, but will never ever take you to his house 

He’s actually terrified of what his dad would do to you 

Or even worse, maybe he would do something to John in front of you 

John is so scared you think he’s weak for getting beat up by his dad 

Which is absolutely ridiculous, you would never think that 

You also tell him this, telling him that you also think he’s very brave for finally talking about it

If you have a similar home situation he would be your biggest support as well 

But if you have a good home situation, he’ll basically live at your house 

Ngl, he can be quite the charmer when he wants 

He’s really trying his best to impress your parents 

And besides all the times he’s been in the local newspaper for vandalism, they’re absolutely in love with him 

He still has those episodes sometimes, like when he gets too angry at his dad and goes and does something dangerous or stupid 

It always ends up with him hurting himself in some way 

Sometimes he takes his anger out on you, he would never hit you or anything but he can get pretty mean 

He always regrets it immediately after 

After a fight, he feels too shitty to go back to you and apologize 

So he just stays away for a bit, the longest he’s been away is a week 

You legitimately thought he left town or something 

He just hates seeing you cry and feels like the biggest asshole ever

As your relationship progresses, you’d be able to discuss these things with him a bit more 

He’s still very quick to blow up and get angry, but he really tries his best 

After a while, he stops leaving for such a long time, coming back after just a few hours 

You didn’t hear it from me, but makeup sex with John is the best lmfao 

Anyways 

He  l o v e s  it when you wear his big coat 

Sometimes he comes up to you and drapes it over you just because 

He can’t help himself, it’s so damn cute how you almost disappear inside it 

You’re definitely known as John’s girl at school 

Ppl don’t really mess with you, anything is better than having an angry John Bender on your ass 

He would literally do anything for you 

Such a simp tbh 

No but he definitely starts saving up his money, his plan is to buy a place for the two of you after you graduate 

Please just let him wife you up lolol 

He definitely became a lot nicer to other ppl when you started dating too, good job

Hi! Thanks for making it to the end <3

If you want to request more John Bender or anything else, you can do it HERE

#the breakfast club #john bender #john bender x reader #the breakfast club x reader #80’s retro #John is cute #self insert

[voltronisanobsession]

Hi! I was wondering if I could request relationship hcs for pidge? Thank you! :)

Being in a relationship with Pidge

Hellooo!!!! Thanks so much for requesting, I was finally able to get around to writing down some headcanons for our homegirl💯💯 it might seem a bit all over the place but I had so much fun writing for Pidge😍😍😍

I think you two would have to be REALLY close to each other if this relationship is gonna work

Pidge is so comfortable with you like she lets you pick her up, play with her hair, etc.

You have special privilage🎉

You’re one of the only people she lets stay with her when she’s working on stuff

You could be talking her ear off when she’s typing away on her computer and she would not complain a bit

Loves to hear the sound of your voice

You also love hearing her rant on and on about the new tech and programs she’s currently on

Even if you don’t understand anything she’s saying

“I was able to break down the Galras’ digital wall, which wasn’t that hard, I think they need to change whoever is making this tech. It was really easy trying to get in since I only needed to use-“

“Haha, brain go vroom”

Pidge makes you guys little locator charms to wear just in case something happens to either one of you during a mission

I think you would try to learn some of the things she talks about, either from her or Hunk, just so you could talk about it more with her

Pidge is a little awkward with pda

Doesn’t mind holding your hand but can be a little huffy when you try to kiss her cheek or something in front of people

Omg wait she loves it when you rub her knuckles when holding hands AHHHH

Like she feels so happy when you do that 😭💔💔💔

Never stop rubbing her knuckles pls💔

I think you would have to take the lead in your relationship since Pidge doesn’t really know what she’s doing (neither do you if you haven’t been in a relationship but you guys make it work)

The group likes to tease Pidge a lot whenever they can since they say she’s a different person when you’re around

While she does still make her sarcastic comments, I think it’s obvious that she’s just trying to make you smile when you’re around

Lowkey kind of protective of you

Whether it be from the Galra, random strangers, or getting defensive over you, Pidge is willing to stand her ground and protect you no matter the cost

Being with Pidge means that Matt LOVES you, you guys are totally besties

He tells you funny and embarrassing stories of Pidge when she was younger, she despises him for it

You and Matt tag team against Pidge to tease her about stuff

“You need help there Pidge? Your height doesn’t exactly help you in reaching that jar!”

“Why are you teaming with Matt against ME?! IM YOUR PARTNER!”

Just know the Holt family adores you

You’re able to tame the wild flame that is Pidge and not get burned while doing so

Remember how I said she’s awkward with pda?

Well just know that she can be very clingy in private

Knowing that no one is lingering around, she feels more comfortable returning your affectionate advances!!

She feels very vulnerable around you, which sometimes scares her, but homegirl knows you wouldn’t doing anything to intentionally hurt her

Pidge’s wall are down to the ground, she likes snuggling against you and just releasing all the stress that has built up inside of her

You guys talk about anything and everything, from how your journeys have started, to the new planets you’ve visited, what foods you missed from earth, to the kinds of pets you wanted once things have settled down

A little habit Pidge has picked up is playing with your hand absentmindedly when having these conversations

She doesn’t even realize she’s doing it but you definitely do

When you guys decide to go to sleep (which is really really late at night), you firmly hold her hands, almost grounding her since she tends to let her mind wander during the night

Those are the sweeter moments in your relationship

You support her so much whenever she’s out doing her thing and she appreciates that so much

Loves to jump and crawl on you whenever she can, she thinks it annoys you (it doesn’t)

In all, Pidge just loves being with you

She’s able to be her complete self around you without any judgement and same goes the other way for you

She needs someone to support her, to bring her down to earth whenever she gets too ahead of herself

She’s so sweet with you but won’t hesitate to roast you if you do something dumb

Plans on being with you no matter what gets thrown at both of you, you’re stuck with her forever now

#pidge x reader #pidge #pidge gunderson #voltron x reader #voltron #vld #voltron legendary defender #katie holt #pidge voltron

[aliorsboxostuff]

can I request Javier Peña x ftm reader ?

Like reader maybe works at the us embassy and he becomes friends with javi and tries not to fall desperately in love so fluff angst smut whatever all is good idk or care what happens haha I will do anything for that man 😓 tysm for being another male writer i am so sick of Pedro universe characters being written about with only women :((

and if y are not in a fixation (am the same way with that too) of Peña I would love maybe Tim Rockford +ftm reader or Joel if u are into them at the moment. just Pedro simping out rn it’s insane

thank u so much again ! am stoked to see this or any other fics yu write!!

Holy SHIT this took a while!! I'm so sorry but i literally finished Narcos s3 and fell into a writing slump T-T I finally got this out tho and tbh, i like this one, so i hope you all too! Tysm for requesting, I hope this is a good enough Javier Peña fic! If there are any mistakes please don't hesitate to tell me! <3  Remember to Reblog!

Rookie

Tags: Javier Peña x FtM!reader, Javier Peña x m!reader, Javier Peña x agent!Reader, Steve Murphy, Connie Murphy, Colonel Carillo, other DEA personels, First Meeting, Fluff, Slight smut, making out, Kissing, EXCESSIVE eye contact, Slight OOC, Smitten Javier, Javi is DONE FOR, Bisexual Javier Peña, supportive Steve, He’s an ally!, I dont understand how police ranks work okay, so sorry if theres mistakes about those!, Period typical Homophobia, Period typical Transphobia, Use of queer slurs, sorry guy!, Hurt/Comfort, Healing, Patching up, All English, Gunshot, Alcohol, injuries, No one dies! (Note: I can reclaim the slurs used in this fic as I am in fact a queer, trans man.)

Javi’s breath got caught. The man simply meets his dark browns, thick lashes blink slowly before he promptly tilts his head. Then he breaks eye contact, turning back to Carillo, continuing their conversation. The colonel said something which made the man laugh, creases on the edges of those captivating eyes, the way his lips curled with a professional laugh. Javier finds it hard to rip his attention away. Only when Steve promptly cleared his throat did Javi blink, glancing over to his workmate, who was fixing him with a glare. 

Javier scoffs, turning away. 

—

Javier was at his desk when an unfamiliar face came waltzing into the department. The guy seems to follow behind Steve, a confident smile on his lips. The agent takes a sip of his coffee, following the man with his eyes before he disappears into Carillo’s office. He blinks, promptly places his mug back down and rereads the passage before he got distracted.

A minute later, Steve walks out without the mystery man and makes his way to his desk, facing Javier. Curiosity got the best of him, so when his friend went to take a seat, he leaned over his desk enough to whisper to him.

“A new guy? One of yours?”

Steve blinks, before he huffs. “Yeah, the embassy sent him over, apparently he’s got a record with tracking down slippery dealers back in the US, and thought we need more help,”

“Sure, more mouths to feed,” That made Steve scoffs. Javier sits back down, still eyeing Careillo’s office, which makes the blond raise a brow. 

“Don't break him Jav’s,”

“What are you even talking about?” The agent picks up his cup, taking a gulp. 

“You know what I mean,” Steve simply replies, already pulling up his file folder and looking into it. Javier shakes his head, backing up into his chair and resuming his work.

The new guy spent half an hour in the office before he came out, shaking Carillo’s hand with a firm nod. Seems like he already got the guy on his side. Carillo talks to him out of earshot, then suddenly points to Javi’s and Steve’s direction, which makes Javi meet the guy's eyes. 

Javi’s breath got caught. The man simply meets his dark brown, thick lashes blink slowly before he promptly tilts his head. Then he breaks eye contact, turning back to Carillo, continuing their conversation. The colonel said something which made the man laugh, creases on the edges of those captivating eyes, the way his lips curled with a professional laugh. Javier finds it hard to rip his attention away. Only when Steve promptly cleared his throat did Javi blink, glancing over to his workmate, who was fixing him with a glare. Javier scoffs, turning away. 

“Gentlemen, meet our new field agent,” Carillo stands next to their desks, beside him the man stood, button up and in casual pants as he hugs a briefcase, a dark denim jacket over everything. 

“This is Agent Javier Peña, and you’ve met Murphy,” He continued. The man nods at Steve before extending his hand to Javi, which he shakes easily. He notes the calluses on the man's hand before he lets go. 

He introduced himself, stating his purpose. And Steve was right, the embassy did send another agent they thought could help on the hunt. “Pleasure meeting you, Agent Peña,” 

He smiled, a small nod before he moved back beside the colonel. Javier only ran his gaze up and down the man, before promptly nodding. “Welcome to the hunt,” 

—

Agent Peña looked at you up and down, before he nodded. “Welcome to the hunt,”

The colonel smirks, before he pats you on the shoulder. He turns, presumably to return to his office, which leaves you in front of the two agents. On Steve's left, there's an empty desk, which must've been cleared out for you. You gave Agent Peña a once over, the man currently blowing smoke from his lips, before you cleared your throat. “Good luck on today, agents,” 

And with that, you left the two to set up your own space. You heard a huff from one of them, you couldn't pinpoint who, which made you roll your eyes. The embassy entrusted you to help the Search Bloc on locating Pablo Escobar, or at least find more of his sicarios and drug kitchens in order to stop and raid them. You did your job well back in the US, easily finding many drug distributors, often leading the raids there. Seeing your rapid success, you’ve been transferred to the DEA, which you took with pride. In the midst of all the wars, the good guys need all the manpower they can get. 

You begin to open your case, pulling out files you brought from the US of what leads you’ve gathered even before getting assigned to Bogota. After setting them out, you slide off your jacket and drape it over your chair. Maybe it was your mistake of wearing denim to a hot climate, but there wasn't as much time as you anticipated when Steve picked you up from the apartment you were staying in, so you picked the jacket you arrived with the day before, which resulted in a steady gathering of sweat near your collarbones. After securing your jacket, you begin rolling up the sleeves of your beige button-up, exposing your forearms to what air is still available in the stuffy office. You sigh, before taking a seat at your desk, beginning work. 

—

The brunette swore under his breath as he saw their new agent standing meters away from him, just behind Steve. He begins to roll up his sleeves to combat the heat, which exposes his forearms, the soft smattering of hair running up the lengths of them. Javier could keep his thoughts to himself when the man only took off his denim jacket, which Javi almost snickered at and almost commented on the ‘rookie mistake’, but when he peeled the jacket off, it reveals the way his pants hugs the swell of the man's ass, which raises heat under Javier's collar.

He tried to look back down to the important paperwork he should be pouring work into but he’s long abandoned that when steady hands reveal entracing arms. When he sat down, Javi instead bit the inside of his cheek before taking a long drag of his cigarette. There's no way Steve didn't notice, but he appreciates the silence he gives him instead of an accusatory glare.  

Javier had his fair share of experiences with women, mainly his valuable informants around the city, but aside from that, men are unfamiliar territory for him. That doesn't mean it deters him, Javi is anything but exploratory on that side of the spectrum. But finding interest in a co-worker is new, especially a fresh face that showed up mere hours ago in the compound. It worries him, something small in the back of his head telling him to reel back, to run away from those hypnotizing eyes and soft smile, but another part urges him to know, to be curious. Javier stands, pocketing his cigar packets.

“Where are you going?” Steve glances toward his friend, brows furrowed.

“Out, smoke,” Javier simply says before he leaves his partner. Steve only stares at him incredulously before shaking his head, turning back to his papers. 

—

It had turned late. When everyone in the office had decided to retire, some of the guys invited themselves to one of the bars near there, and somehow Javier found himself roped in with the others. To be fair, Steve was the one that invited him, and Javi doesn't really refuse a chance to get himself drunk, maybe pick up a gal before bringing her home for the night, but all his plans went straight out the window when he heard that they also invited the rookie. 

He was standing beside Steven when the man decided he has had enough of socializing with the others and excused himself, heading to the bar. Javier has already started to miss his short laughs and nods as if he understood what his co-workers said. It would surely surprise him if he knew Spanish, maybe basics and everyday words, but unlike Steve, he only arrived in Bogota this week. But it’s rude to assume, people come with varying background knowledge, so Javier turns to the group instead. 

“I heard some gossip about the new guy,” One of them says, eliciting a curious glance from Javi. “Something about him not being a man?”

“Like one of those queer freaks?” 

“Apparently they're called a tranny now,” Some laugh, others shudder before muttering the Lord's prayer.

“God save them,” A couple drinks to that. Steve meets eyes with Javier, something wary in his glance. Javi only rolls his eyes before finishing his shot. He has no business spending time with the likes of these men, if they even deserved to be called men. For all he knows, the man that currently has his back turned toward the table is more of a man than any of them. 

He’s glad to have Steve as his partner. Maybe it's due to the nature of having grown up somewhere like the USA, but the first time Steve found out that Javier has an interest in men, he only shrugged and never saw Javi in another light. From this conversation, Javier also clocks how tired Steve is over the homophobic bullshit their co-workers have. The brunette sighs, blowing out smoke. He goes to take another sip but realizes his empty glass, and pats Steven to indicate his leave to the bar.

He saddles up next to the rookie, the man's fringe slightly blocking Javi to those addictive eyes. He orders another drink, which catches the man's attention. 

"Peña,” He nods and takes a gulp of his drink. Javier is momentarily distracted by the long column of the man's neck, before he shakes his head, resting one arm on the counter. 

"So, what's a handsome man like you doing here?” Javi tries to smile, which might have worked, judging by the grin that appears on the man's lips. He looks down, the condensation coating those lithe fingers, Javier notices. 

“Just trying to pass the night,” He shrugs with a small smile, deciding to humor him. He swirls the alcohol in his glass and Javier follows the movement. He hadn't realized how close he was sitting next to the man. “Listen, Agent Peña-”

“Javier- Javi,” 

Javi’s response made him chuckle. He sips at his drink, before fully turning to face the brunette. “Isn't there a rule against fraternizing with a fellow co-worker, Javi?” 

“Not when it’s outside of work,” That makes the man grin, subconsciously leaning into Javi’s space. 

“I’ve noticed that you’ve been following me with your eyes,” He says, glancing briefly at Javi's lips before returning to his eyes. Javi gulps.

“What can I say, I have an eye for attractive people,” 

“Well, considered me flattered,” Javi tilts his head just so, breathing in the tang of alcohol in the man's breath. They’re dangerously close, too close for just ‘co-workers’. Regardless, Javier finds himself entranced by those deep eyes. 

“But,” He suddenly leans back. “You’re gonna have to try harder than that,” The man picks at his breast pocket before putting down some bills, already reaching for his draped jacket. He swiftly pulls it on, making Javi scramble out of his seat, before he pats his shoulder twice, a dangerous glint in his eyes. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Peña,”

Javier is left starstruck. He stays in his seat, following the sway of the man's hips as he walks across the bar, waving to Steve, before exiting through the door. Javi swears, his brows furrowed as he gulps down what's left of his drink. He turns in his seat, spotting Steve still at the table with the others, an accusatory brow raised. 

Steve drives back to the apartment with Javi. They share an understandable silence. 

—

It's the second month since your arrival. 

To your disappointment, progress was slow. To no one's surprise, it seems, but from your prestigious work back in the US, the expectation that you’d help with the hunt was high. To just be another field agent with no lead on Escobar in the compound would be a failure to you.

Though the search hasn't gotten any easier, your relationship with your co-worker has. Mainly with Murphy and Peña, and at this point they’ve insisted on you using their first names, so it's Steve and Javier now. They've invited you to drink more than once, spent late nights with you when the paperwork came down like an avalanche, and most of the time, Steve always brings back three boxes of food when it comes to lunch. 

Somehow, Steve has grown closer to you than you expected. When you were overcome with work, Steve would make sure you and Javi weren't missing your break time. He’d pull the both of you out into the cold night air when it turned too late. He fusses over your choice of fashion more times than you could count, commenting on your choice of jacket or shirt, reminding you of the weather and how it’ll be affected with heat. On stakeouts and recon missions, Steve would be the one to pat your jittery leg softly, an encouraging smile beneath his stache. You’d nod, inhaling deeply before releasing the air alongside your tension. 

Then there is Javier. Though you met Steve before him, Javier had caught your interest since the first day. His constant sharp eyes and the lingering smell of nicotine become addictive, the memory of that night at the bar in constant repetition. You could still remember his scent, a combination of something heady, a touch of smoke and sun underneath it all. You were a breath away from his lips, the dimmed light of the bar didn't help to distract you from his captivating brown eyes. 

Ever since then, thankfully, you’ve gotten closer to him. Javi spends more time with you than Steve. Some nights, he’d stay behind when Steve needed to retire earlier. He’d give you a ride back to your apartment, which turns out just a couple blocks down from where he and Steve stayed. Some nights you’d stop by, from Javi’s invitation, and chat about nothing and everything while sharing a couple of bottles of beer. He’s good company, and you always find yourself hoping for an invitation from him whenever it gets too late. 

This week was different.

There was a shootout. While raiding one of Escobars many drug kitchens, a stray bullet from one of the guards shoots your arm. You screamed and dropped to the floor, immediately gripping your upper arm. You were sure the bullet was still inside which doesn't make it a clean shot. The pain shoots throughout your upper body, making you wheeze out every breath, sweat gathering on your crown. A minute later, Steve was crouched beside you, hauling you up, putting most of your weight on him. 

He brought you outside and into the awaiting medical group. You were rushed into the emergency room, and you shortly passed out. 

Buzzing fluorescent lights woke you up. Blinking away the groggy sleep, you notice a heavy weight on the back of your arm and realize it must've been the IV. Finally regaining enough strength to fight against the blaring lights, you open your eyes to find Javi slumped on a seat next to your bed, a thin blanket draped over him. Seeing him asleep, clear lines of exhaustion under his eyes, something wells inside your heart. You quickly dismiss the feeling as dehydration instead and try to turn your body to reach for the glass of water on the tray next to you. The noise must've awoken your partner, because as soon as you try to stretch your arm for the glass, Javi quickly fills it up with water and hands it to you. You blinked, before slowly accepting the cup and taking big gulps. 

The water extinguishes your drought, but not the other growing feeling. The cup sits on your lap, both of your hands holding it while you catch your breath. Javi has taken his seat again, the blanket draped over the back of the chair. “How are you feeling?”

“Like shit,” You scoff, glancing at your currently bandaged hand. Javi looks at the tiled floor. “But, not my worst,”

“You’ve been shot before?”

“Yeah, on my calf once, the other near my ass,” You chuckle, remembering those years prior before officially gaining your Agent title. “Almost made my legs not work if it weren't for the surgery,”

You found yourself looking into Javi’s deep browns, his brows knitted. “This is just another day on the job,”

“Yeah…” Javi nods solemnly. You were back to staring into the half-empty glass before you felt your partner's warm hand wrap around yours.

It had been a couple of days after that.

Your arm was sadly still in a light, and you were lucky it wasn't your dominant one. Menial tasks are made difficult by the pain that still spreads sometimes, which also raises your annoyance. 

Javi has graciously allowed you to crash in his apartment until your arm has properly healed up. The doctors said it’d take another week or two for your arm to sort itself out, so you're stuck doing things one-handed for the time, sometimes helped by Javi. You've been given orders to stay out of the office because you were insistent on finishing work there, but Javi and Steve brought back your paperwork into Javi’s apartment against your wishes. 

The clock reads 8 PM. Javi has decided to come home earlier than his usual shifts, his excuse; is to help you prepare dinner. Javi has gone as far as to get a cookbook with the help of Connie, making dishes he’s familiar with. 

The sound of the door clattering pulls you away from your paperwork, and you spot the brunette bringing two whole bags of groceries inside. You quickly stand and rush over, prying one bag from his hand. 

“Javi, what's all of this?” The man only blinks as he hauls the bag onto the countertop.

“We can't really survive with just beer,” He shrugs, which makes you chuckle, and bring the other bag, putting it next to it.

“What were you working on?” He continues, pulling out groceries from the bag. You leaned on the counter, caressing your bandaged hand. 

“Just finishing up the report from our last bust,” You wiggle what you could of your bandages arm. “Y’know,” 

Javier solemnly nods, pushing a can into the cupboard. You've moved on pretty quickly from the incident, but something hangs around Javier, making him hard to reach sometimes, especially if you bring up the subject. You know trying to pry the reason out of him would result in coming up empty, so you've decided to wait until he's come to his own term. 

“I'm gonna start on dinner,” He turns, hips leaning on the counter so he faces you. Your eyes impulsively trace the languid way he sways before turning your head slightly, not meeting Javier's dark browns. 

You nod quickly, already feeling the blush forming. “Yeah, sure,” You add before walking back to the couch. 

—

Dinner went by quickly, Javier whipped up something easy for you to digest and quick to make. When you were writing down other notes in your report, Javi calls you to eat and spends the rest of the time talking about his day in the office. Apparently, Steve was worried, asking Javi if he’s been taking care of their partner correctly. He’s had to shrug off Steve’s insistent questions the whole day, which made you chuckle.

After cleaning up, Javi joins you on the couch, bringing two bottles of beer. He hands one to you which you accept with a thankful nod. The couch dips as Javi takes a seat, his head tilts back as he takes a gulp. You blink before taking a short sip, averting your eyes. 

When the man beside you shifts, you half-heartedly thought he was reaching for his pack of cigs. He hasn't been smoking since you crashed in his home, and it slowly became odd, watching Javi’s relaxed posture whenever you both sit together without silver smoke framing his profile. But you've been expecting wrong, because he only shifts to adjust his seating before settling back, his usual pack of cigarettes nowhere in sight. You worry slightly if he stopped because of your presence, even though you enjoy sneaking glances whenever he inhales, the muscles on his neck almost prominent, the way he’ll tilt just the slightest to reveal the expanse of skin, most of the time glistening under the Columbian heat. 

“Listen… About the last week,” Javier’s tone sobers you from your daydreaming. The man is hunched over, arms on his knees, one hand swirling the alcohol. Something in the air sours. 

“I should've been there, I should've- Shouldn’t have gone for that fucking guy, I should've stayed behind-”

“Javi there wasn't any way we could've known-”

“But it shouldn't have been you.” His hand lands on your injured arm, his body facing you. He hesitates; the movement seems accidental, but your hand covers him before he can move it away. You can't keep letting Javi get away with blaming things on himself. 

“Javier, it wasn't your fault. Like I said,” Your head tilts, mustering a small smile to coax Javi from staring at the floor. He notices the pause and meets your eyes. “It's just another day on the job,”

The air hangs heavy, only mere inches sitting between you and Javi. His brows furrowed slightly, hand tightening beneath yours. Your eyes follow the minutely twitch on the man's lips. Javi gulps when his eyes go to your lips fleetingly. Your breath catches. You feel yourself quiver. 

“Javi….” was the last you breathed out before the man pulls at your shirt, closing the gap and pushes his lips against yours. Javi’s staches tickle the top of your lips, the slide of his slightly chapped lips against yours. Your hand holds his jaw, before brushing at the short hair on Javi’s neck. He shivers, shifting himself to press harder against your lips, his hand releases your shirt but moves to hold your hips, eliciting a gasp from you. He uses the chance to slip his tongue between your lips, making you shift until you hit the back of the couch. Your hand travels down from his jaw to brush over his chest, you stored the slight hitch in Javis' breath inside your memory, before you find the man's waist and he moves to straddle your thighs, aware of your healing arm but somehow not breaking the kiss. 

When the need to breathe finally separates you and Javi, his chest heaves, pretty lashes flutter against his cheek. A steady hue of red spreads on his face down to his neck. You manage to regain your composure slightly, one thumb pressing slithy into Javi’s hip, making him drop to your shoulder, burying himself between your neck. You grin, now patting Javi’s hair softly. Your mind focuses on the unsteady beats of Javi’s heart that matches yours, still trying to tap down your adrenaline. 

“I should be careful about your arm,” Javi suddenly says, sitting upright on top of you. It makes you laugh slightly, which Javi smiles at. 

“I’ll be alright, Javi,” You grin, cataloging the way the dim light reflects in his dark irises. “We’ll be alright.” 

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Chapter 4 Couple Fight

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Summary: Nightmares of the past start to cause panic in SMG4 as he starts to doubt his and 3 relationship. So when the pair have their first couple fight and three leaves something in SMG4 sparks as he realizes how strongly he feels for the other man. Tag: First love, First kiss, fluff, angst, emotional hurt/comfort, SMG3 has to battle some inner demons

Chapter 4 Couple fight It was an intense battle, swords clashed as SMG3 and four glared at each other. He couldn't believe that the play Mario got a part in was a copy of their lives by SMG3. SMG4 gets knocked to the floor and starts to panic, could this really be the end “Goodnight sweet prince..” three says as he lifts his sword. Only the swing didn't happen due to Mario getting in the middle “Waaaait! I’ve figured out a way to settle our differences,” he throws a bottle on the floor “We play spin the bottle over who was right!”

The pair get annoyed “Shut up Mario your idea sucks ass!” in sync throw the sword at the fat plumber. It surprised him that the two agreed on something that had never happened before, though it did anger him that SMG3 dared to have the nerve to attack his best friend. Mario frowns after being attacked by the two causing SMG4 to get even more aggressive, much to his surprise it seems SMG3 also wasn't a fan of him attacking Mario also. “Hey! What are you hurting Mario for? Only I can do that!” he will let three get away with a lot but not hurting his friends. SMG3 rolls his eyes and scoffs at four “No he is clearly on my side, so only i can hurt him!!! Not you!”

Another round was about to begin only to be stopped by the plumber again “Aww come on guys, you both can hurt me!”

They turn to look at Mario confused only for him to smile at them in return “You both think you’re cooler but in reality you both are dumb asses! After all, just look around you, you’re misunderstood losers wanting attention.” The pair looks at each other then around to their own crew. Mario pats both their backs “You’ve both made friends with other losers in the hope that you don't become lonely that ends my ted talk.”

SMG3 looks down “Maybe we aren't different after all…”

SMG4 felt terrible after learning what happened in college then Mario showing how alike they are he didn't understand why he was still so aggressive at the other man, they should have been friends from the start. They hug crying “You're right! I'm sorry!” SMG3 nods as he cries “It’s ok bro, i didn't mean to try and kill you! Uh er okay maybe i did..a little.”

Finally a friendship between the two, or so he thought as he learned the truth of their so called friendship. He sees a smirking SMG3 with a youtube remote “Friends? Haha i was acting you ass, think i would be friends with someone like you? The day that happens is the day I die!”

Everything fades to black as SMG4 falls to his knees, they have so much in common can they really not be friends. Then he hears it in the darkness, looking up he sees a smiling SMG3 in his present design reaching out to him “Remember what i said?” Three then grabs his hand picking him up “We’re friends!”

Then SMG4 notices another person behind him. It was the old design version of SMG3 “Ha you think i can truly fall in love with someone like you? It was all part of the plan to take your crew from you! I could never care for someone like you!” he throws the magazine at his feet with the page open to how villains date heroes. The answer, they can't.

SMG4 blots up sweating from his dream, he turns and stares at the magazine next to him that he took from SMG3. Maybe reading this thing before bed wasn't good for his mental health, as he picks up the magazine he reads more on how romance works. It says ex villains can be with everyone but the person they attempted to kill, it explains that the lack of trust would make it hard for a healthy bond to be born. He will show this dumb magazine that it's wrong, he gets up from bed and frowns.

He says this but he was dreaming about their past, his dreams clearly show he is unsure about his relationship with SMG3. In the past he acted like his friend, what's stopping him from acting like his boyfriend to get close to the crew. He shakes his head, that's dumb after all not everyone knows about them being together. His mind was swirling with so much doubt it made him sigh, he needed to shut these worries down but how?

SMG3 woke up hearing loud hammering outside the castle, as he walked out his eyes went wide seeing SMG4 building something “Oi! What the hell are you doing? Some people need their beauty sleep!”

Looking down he smiles waving at his boyfriend, SMG3 notices the plank that four was on shake the moment he waved at him. He stares at it worried while four puts down his hammer “Hey three! This is part of my grand plan for a challenge I came up with, trust me it's going to be perfect.”

SMG3 twitched slightly hearing the line as he kept his eyes where four was standing “Did you uh get any sleep? Cause this shack thing your building here takes a while to you know build, not sure its very stable.” SMG4 scoffs at the comment as he goes back to his project. Unable to go to sleep last night he looked up ways to get closer to your partner, one that kept popping up was having a place that only the two of them have access to. If he can finish this cabin he can make sure only the meme energy of him and three can open it, then they can hopefully get closer and shut these fears down.

The plank started to shake more causing panic in SMG3, the amulet started to glow as he steps closer “Listen idiot you obviously haven't slept! Don't repeat what happened with the perfect video, you can get hurt!”

SMG4 chuckles as he looks down “Please i know what i'm doing, it's not the first time i have built something.”

SMG3 growls getting angry that the other man wasn't hearing him out, the amulet glows brighter catching SMG4 attention. He leans over the edge looking at the man's neck “Is your amu-” a loud crack could be heard as the plank he was on snapped in half causing the meme guardian to fall. He looks up and notices that he wasn't the only thing falling as the other planks that were poorly put together were also falling alongside him, he closed his eyes ready for the impact as he screamed.

“SMG4!” was all he heard before he felt something soft grab him, he slowly opened his eyes to see he was being held close to SMG3 body. SMG4 blush slightly being so close and being able to smell the detergent on his boyfriend's clothes, he hears a groan from the man snapping him out of his day dream to see SMG3 had taken all the hits from the planks that were falling with him. In a panic he breaks from the hold to check on the man “Oh my god three! I'm so sorry, are you okay?”

SMG3 eyes now glowing purple glares at his boyfriend “WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!” four was startled and let go of three watching him confused. SMG3 turns looking at the now destroyed cabin “You didn't listen to me…i said you would get hurt and now look! What was the point of all this to get yourself killed?!”

SMG4 frowns, shaking his head “I just wanted…I wanted to make something for us.”

SMG3 lets out a dark chuckle “WELL LOOK AT THAT! This death trap you made for us look great four, anything else you wanna do like keep forcing me to record shit for that announcement video i don't want to be a part of!” three turns, visibly angry. SMG4 hasn't seen three so angry in years, it brought back dark memories of the youtube remote. He blinks when he processes his partner's words “Wait.. you don't want to do the announcement video of our relationship?”

SMG3 sighs “You came up with the idea, ever hear me say I'm super okay with millions of people judging us for being people and dating!” Now SMG4 was getting mad “Why didn't you just tell me no!” without thinking he let out his dark thoughts “Bet this is just like before your just being a pretend boyfriend, DO YOU EVEN WANT TO DATE ME!”

The glow in SMG3 eyes faded, the light vanished as the amulet turned black and cracked. He takes a step back looking hurt at SMG4 “I..i helped you when you lost yourself making videos, i risked my life for you when you got that cursed keyboard…I GAVE UP TERRANCE TO GO DOWN THE RIGHT PATH FOR YOU!” his eyes start to water “And you…you really thought after all that..i'm still pretending to want to be around you. That…I just took those hits for you so you wouldn't get hurt, and you don't…”

SMG3 opens a portal making SMG4 realize what he has just done “Wait no three i didn't mean it like that!” three smacks four’s hand away “You told me enough..” with that three left to the internet graveyard.

SMG4 fell to his knees, what did he do? The one thing he didn't want to do he did, he pushed away SMG3. Lost in his thoughts he jumps when feeling someone's arms around him, from the smell alone of pasta he knew who it was. He starts crying, turning around and hugging Mario, it seems the plumber arrived in time to hear the whole fight. It was surprising that he didn't step in to stop the fight, that's when he heard another person walk up to them “SMG4…i don't mean to get in the middle but what was that fight about?”

He looks up to see Meggy giving him a soft smile to comfort him, slowly he lets go of his best friend and wipes his tears.

“I was scared, i mean i'm scared of a lot of things but i was scared of screwing things up with three. I saw this page,” he takes out the magazine from under his hat “The page about heroes and villains unable to be together got me worried. What if three read this and thought..he made a mistake?”

“Oh SMG4..” Meggy frowns looking at the magazine, Mario hearing everything shakes SMG4 slightly “You have to be coo coo crazy to think SMG3 would do something because of some random words!” He has been friends with them for years; he knows those two had always had something for each other. When things came to it three would switch sides just to help four only to then come up with a lame reason for doing it. The need for power is what pushed the other man to his limit, but thanks to that he learned the truth and is now their friend. “You need to go now, before SMG3 leaves for good.”

SMG4 nods, Mario was right which is rare. He gets up and looks at the magazine, picking it up he puts it back under his hat “Right! I wasn't being honest with him, this time i'm going to open up i can't be scared of the past we all grow and change!”

SMG3 frowns as he looks at the amulet, this is what he gets for always wearing the thing the gem now was cracked. It’s not a big crack so there is a chance he can find someone to help fix it. He thinks back on his fight with four and sighs, maybe he wasn't being honest fully with the man and that's why this happened. In the mirror he hears a laugh, he turns glaring at the mirror “Oh i'm sure you have fun commentary.”

His other self shrugs, “I warned you, they only see you as a villain, didn't this fight with four prove it?” SMG3 was ready to fight with his other self only to notice the image did not look like his old design anymore but close to what he looks like now. He felt uneasy by this change, before he could think anymore on the topic he heard Eggdog barking.

He runs to the front and sees SMG4 with a gift in hand, he gives an awkward smile and waves. SMG3 glares at him “What do you want, have more to say to me?”

He nods “Three I’m an idiot, and I'm so sorry that I hurt you I never wanted to do that.” He uses his free hand to throw the magazine at SMG3 feet, surprise he picks up the magazine “Why do you have this?”

“I noticed it when we recorded our cooking video, seeing the dating section of it scared me…after all we have had a wild relationship over the years.” hearing this he turns to the page and reads it. SMG3 sighs and tosses the magazine, of all the reasons the man snapped and started randomly building things was over a sentence in a magazine. Seeing this four took it as his chance to continue “I let the past and that magazine cloud what we built together, we trust each other with our lives…and I lo- care deeply about you. I don't know when it happened, but I know I want nothing more than to be your boyfriend.”

He hands the gift and blushes “Remember the gift I told you not to open, well i guess now is the best time for you to open it.”

He opens it to see it was a purple hat, closer look the skull was changed with a new logo. It was a lit bomb with the roman number three on it, he notices a note in the hat and reads it “For the person in my life that is the bomb.” He starts to laugh at the cheesy line giving four a chance to let out the breath he was holding. Four thought since he was part of the crew a new logo would be a show of his growth, then when the party happened he started to panic at the thought of how their friends would react.

“I really am sorry three, I understand if you want to end things and go back to being friends or just rivals but I'm serious. I want to be your boyfriend. I will be more honest about my feelings and be a better partner..that is if you want to still be with me.” Now was the moment of truth he felt like he was going to pass out watching the other man look at him then the hat.

SMG3 shakes his head letting out a sigh “I made millions of mistakes, if you can forgive them…” he blushes looking away “then i guess i can too...baka” SMG4 lights up getting closer to three, he needed to hear the words he needed to hear that they should give this another shot. SMG3 didn’t say anything as he removed his hat putting on the one four made him, that was enough for four to run and hug three.

A light flickered in the amulet catching four attention again, as he looks at the amulet he sees it has a crack “Oh no your amulet! Did this crack happen when you saved me?”

Three nods as he looks at the amulet “I think so but dont worry im sure we can find someone to fix it, i mean it's just an amulet not like the world will end cause it has a crack.” with a nod Four and Three open a portal to go home as they go through the portal they notice Meggy and Mario were outside waiting to see what has happened.

Three rolls his eyes as he walks up to the pair, SMG4 watches as Three talks with the two. Four turned and looked at the mess he made then at the almost finished cafe, if SMG3 didn't forgive him that cafe would have been a painful reminder of how he lost someone he loves. He blinks at his own thoughts as he slowly turns to look at three laughing at something Mario did, his heart skipping a beat seeing the joy on his boyfriend's face.

SMG4 facepalms now realizing why he was so panicked over the magazine, what that emotion was when he first asked SMG3 out. The words he wanted to say in his second confession but couldn't get it out, he looks back up at Three and whispers to himself “I love you.”

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[tearsoftime0086]

Uhhhh so while I'm distracting myself from finishing my fic, here's a ton of random headcanons for a steve burnside lives au and what would happen after they get off the island (aka writing notes that i will never get to bc holy heck does wesker not having t-veronica change things)

The fact that steve's not vaccinated nor inoculated means that they do a data scrape for potential cures of the Antarctica facility before they blow it up (I'm thinking the explosives come from the contingency plan alexander had)

Chris showed up on the island with a two seat fighter jet. Steve and Claire get some sleepy snuggles in the back seat

Why didn't wesker show up in the intermediary? Uhh good question - probs bc to him steve's still a walking b.o.w and much more difficult to retrieve

Chris, claire, and steve debrief a little on the way back for alibi matching, what to reveal/hide. Obvs the main topic is how much they tell about steve's t-veronica. There's a lot of physical signs, so it's a tough situation

They land somewhere in australia for a few days to get their bearings. Claire gets in contact with Leon, who's INSISTENT they don't get USSTRATCOM too involved. He's still feeling guilty over how everything with sherry went

Meanwhile Steve's still rattled over the whole thing and is even more unnerved when the injuries heal over (except the veins) - the three of them talk about sherry and jill, but steve's starting to be more convinced he needs some kind of serious help

(As for how this all actually resolves??? That is a problem for future me, or anyone else who's reading this post haha)

They eventually land back in the states, and claire meets up with sherry. They confide in each other and the topic of steve comes up. He ends up tagging along next time, to when sherry inconspiciously mentions that he looks like a derpy version of leon. Steve's irked until he does finally see a picture of leon and has to be like "wow you're right. This guy's handsome as hell"

Sherry and him connect over their shared infection woes, so he becomes the "derpy uncle" of their little family

Chris doubles his energy with Jill on founding the BSAA and amassing their trusted contacts with the additional pressure of someday getting steve fully stable. Although the two started on rough footing, chris grows fond of him (obvs playing the big bro role to claire once they start formally being in a relationship)

Speaking of the relationship, claire finds steve clamming up about a lot of it once they're back. He thinks there'll never be a "normal way to say it" bc well.. everything. They work it out eventually, get that dinner, watch that movie

Steve grows out of a lot of his edgelord tendencies, esp since the virus makes him realize how big the whole bioterrorism business is. Probs a few scary scrapes w being an active controller of a t virus strain. Still says a lot of loud, half -thought out things tho

He probably lands in a role as like a civilian consultant for the bsaa. Works with rebecca on research. Claire feels tense sometimes that both chris and steve are so intricately tied to the bsaa and their line of duty, but understands why they do it.

Lots of impromptu dates and catch-ups as they all travel a lot (esp claire for terrasave). It's tough sometimes, but they're happy and they always make it work

Anyway this concludes my denial of code veronica's ending. Thank you to anyone who makes it this far lol

#resident evil #writing #fanfiction #headcanon #recv #steve burnside x claire redfield #steve burnside #claire redfield #chris redfield #aaah i got myself too distracted by the happily ever after that im stalling lol #gosh i could ramble on this by command #random musings #sherry birkin #code veronica #temporary brainworm tag

[chiefbeifongcanrailme]

Ask Game!

You know I'm back-back when I'm engaging in my second favorite kinda game😌

Thank you, @linnorabeifong for the tag!

Are you named after anyone? Umm, sort of? I don't think it is as intentional as people think it is. However, my dad first heard the name on the stylist who designed his wedding fit and quite liked it. Fast forward to my mom trying and testing names, he suggested this and they both loved it.

When was the last time you cried? Hahahaha this morning on the bus on my way to work. It was raining and smelled like home because of it. And I miss it. High time I go home now, don't you think?

Do you have kids? I have a cat? She is my child. I gave birth to her. You can't prove otherwise.

What sports do you play/have you played? I grew up playing a lot of badminton, basketball and soccer among others. I also danced/still dance- jazz.

Do you use sarcasm? Sarcasm uses me💅🏼

What is the first thing you notice about people? Their boobs. Jk, probably eyes. Someone once said "the eyes are the nipples of the face."

What's your eye color? Ha. It's like a hazel brown.

Scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies with happy endings? Happy endings with scary post movie thoughts? I think happiness scares me so this question is pretty paradoxical for me I'm sorry.

Any talents? I really don't mean to toot my own horn but you guys don't know me. I have a photographic memory- to the point where I'd feel guilty in school during tests (especially when I didn't study/understand the material) and stuff cuz I was "copying" from my mind pictures? I cried to a teacher about this and she died laughing. I can sing and could hop around 3-4 octaves (I am severely out of practice). I also dance- I am a better dancer than I am singer. Also, I write! Bet you didn't know I write.

Where were you born? In a hospital lol. My mother was all about that epidural. Funny story about that: there was a celebrity who was pregnant getting a check up at the same hospital and all the nurses disappeared to go see her while my mother was screaming bloody murder in labor. When my dad received the call that my mother was going into labor, he left his office and somehow lost his phone before he got stuck in traffic in the rain. Soo there was no way to reach him until he finally showed up lol.

What are your hobbies? This is going to be a repetition but dancing, singing, reading, writing, working apparently? I love organizing and shopping and rewatching my comfort shows and they are hobbies I will not hear it.

Do you have any pets? My child doubles as a pet sometimes. She'll meow from time to time. Get zoomies. That kinda stuff. Most of you know her by now haha.

How tall are you? 5' 1" - taller than you.

Dream Job? I currently have my dream job and it ain't it. So I'm revaluating my dreams. Gimme like another 10 years🫠

Tagging: @ilovelin @orangepanic @superliz6 @risingsoleil @wishingforatypewriter @crookedmouth-mountainbones @badlucksav @kinzjoydragon @vr-tb @khrystyav and anyone else who wants to go!

#merkittty answers #ask games

[atomicpaintercandy]

SMG4 Cyber World

Chapter 2:  The tuna 

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3rd person pov:

15/04/XX 10:23

 Smg4 surprisedly woke up earlier than usual, he gets up, dressed and get breakfast (bread with butter) and directly went to the “tuna”, on his way he saw a poster about the Supreme Leader that had been tagged by (probably) some teenagers.

He didn’t pay more attention than that and directly went to the area where the “tuna” was.

The old sushi restaurant who was here before was totally destroyed, actually, the whole quarter was destroyed, some people said it’s the gouvernement who burned all the street because someone was disobedient to them, but the band know it was wrong, it’s Bob who burned it when he burned the sushi restaurant.

15/04/XX 11:08

 Smg4 get in the restaurant and went to the cave, when he push the door he found some of his friends talking together.

🩵-Hi Smg4! You came pretty early today.

💙-Hi Tari! Yeah.. I don’t know why I woke up SO early

🩷-11am it’s not what I call “early” 

 The fact that Saiko was talking to 4 with a sarcastic tone means she totally forgot about the discussion of yesterday.

💜-Oh come on Saiko, you know 4 usually wakes up at like, what, 1pm?

💙-Haha keep laughing guys, anyways, where is Boopkins and Bob? They’re usually the first to be here.

🩷-Bwaa, they’re probably fleeing from the police or something likes that.

🩵-Boopkins explained to me the mafia was kinda tense those times, he thinks a conflict between the gouvernement and the mafia that takes care of zone “B” will explode soon.

💜-Am I the only one who doesn’t understand what they mean by “zone”?

🩷-They never revealed it to any of us, and I understand them! I mean.. just imagine what the mafia will do to them if they learn that two of their employees have a friend who work for the police, so I don’t want to imagine what they will do if one day they revealed to us about those “zones”.

💙-Uhf.. I wish I could work with the mafia too.. I’d finally have some adventure in my monotone life.

🩵-I don’t think it’s a good idea to join the mafia NOW, Boopkins also told me that the gouvernement were arresting more people then before they suspect to be in the mafia, even if they don’t have any good proofs.

💜-It seems like they are scared of a rebellion..

🩷-Noooo do you think there’s some people who want to change power? I mean.. good for us! But..

💜-I’m only making supposions, but it’s kinda possible.

 The silent grow, Smg4 decided to broke it.

💙-Hey, what are YOU guys doing here early too? 

🩷-We decided to meet earlier so we can talk about preparing a party for Meggy! You didn’t check your messages… don’t you?

💙-Really? Why you guys doing that? It’s not like she’s going in another country.

🩷-She’s gonna work for the police 4, that’s even worse..

 The guys were silent again and if Boopkins and Bob didn’t arrive at this moment they would probably didn’t talk until the supreme leader resign.

🤎-Hi guys! Sorry for being late.

💙-Bob! Where you guys were?

🐠-We were running away, of the police.

🩷-May I ask you for what reason this time?

🤎-Because Boopkins thought it would be a good idea to use the money for buy sugar for cakes..

🩷-Aaaannnnddd?

🤎-..and that idiot bought cocaine instead of sugar..

🐠-For my defend the two look like the same.

🩷-Aaaannnnddd?

🤎-..and the drug dealer was a policeman in disguise.

🩷-Classic

💜-What did you guys did of the policeman?

🐠-We putted him in the “hole of silence”.

🩵-W..What is the.. “hole of silence”?

💙-That’s an old building which is known because the network doesn’t pass and as no one passes there we don’t hear you screaming.

🩵-Oh.. charming..

🩷-Guys we need to focus about the party for Meggy!

🩵-Yeah you’re right!

🩷-We gonna go by teams of two, Tari and Melony you will make the cake (or buy it), Bob and Boopkins you guys find the dishes, I will call Mario and Luigi to tell them to take the diner and Smg3 and 4 you two will take the decorations, okay?

💙-Do you really cares if we’re okay or not?

🩷-Absolutely not. Now, everyone go buy your things everything have to be ready until tonight!

🤎-Wait, and what are YOU doing?

🩷-I make sure Meggy doesn’t come here until everything’s prepared.

🩵-I sent a message to Melony and she’s okay with it.

🩷-Okay then... GO, GO, GO!!

 Everyone got out of the “tuna” and went in different directions.

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15/04/XX 11:47

Smg4 and Smg3 went to “Decorpseration” 

(decoration + corpse).

It was the only store who still selling decorations in the whole Sima Ring, so everything was kinda expensive.

💙-70.^ ?!! (.^ = bucks) They think we’re rich or smt??

💜-Yeah that’s the same price then in the Loda Area.

💙-Shall we do a hold-up?

💜-For party decorations?

💙-Yeah.

💜-Fuck yeah.

💙-My apartment is not very far from here, we can go get guns and hoods and come back.

💜-Yeah sounds good.

 They got out of the store and went to 4’s apartment, on they way to it they talk about all and nothing.

💜- …Hey 4?

💙- Hm?

💜- Are you… alright? Like how do you feel about Meggy and all?

💙- I- Y- yeah… I guess…

💜-…You still feel guilty.. right?

💙-How could I’m not? I’m the reason why the world is like this. And now I’m going to be the reason why my friend’s going to die.

 Smg4 lose his cold blood and start to yelled and cried.

💜-4...

💙-All of this is because I became crazy about a stupid video.. all is my fault..

💜-4 I totally understand what you feel but try not to scream in the middle of the street, you don’t want to attract the attention of police officers..

 Smg4 did I quick look around him and saw people looking at him in a strange way.

💜-Looks it’s only 12:02, we can go to your apartment and I can cook us diner.

💙-But.. the party..

💜-It’s for tonight 4, we still have the time don’t worry.

 Smg4 quickly nods and they went to his apartment.

💜-Go sit on your couch I made the diner

 Smg3 opened a drawer and was surprised to see that Smg4’s alimentation was only made of bread when he said he only had bread.

💜-WHAT THE.. YOU ONLY HAVE SPOILED BREAD?!!

💙-Yeah…

💜-You’re such an idiot.. I’m gonna command something.

💙-OH NO YOU DONT. YOU KNOW LIKE ME HOW COMMANDING FOOD BECAME EXPENSIVE.

💜-I don’t care and didn’t ask. So, what you want? I’m kinda into some hot dogs, what about you?

💙-Take the same order as you.

💜-K if you want.

 Smg3 called the restaurant and the manager seems kinda surprised someone command food but whatever. 

10 minutes after they receive their food and ate it. 

            ——————

 During the I.G.B.P arc when Smg4 throw the USB, it fusions with the goo and made a creature half-human, half-technology and it took over the world in only 3 years, 7 years later it’s still in control and is called the “Supreme Leader”

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The end of the chap2

Code color:

💙 = Smg4

💜 = Smg3

🩷 = Saiko

🩵 = Tari

🤎 = Bob

🐠 = Boopkins

(Sorry if you’re color blind)

#smg4 #smg4 au #smg4 smg3 #smg4 bob #smg4 boopkins #smg4 tari #smg4 saiko

[scalproie]

Haha. Kazuya. You understand.

one aspect about them i love

THEM TIDDIES

but fr he has his whole aesthetic on point. and I will say. him face. nice

one aspect i wish more people understood about them

HE'S A TRAGIC CHARACTER. HE'S SOOO DOOMED IN ANY WAY BC CHARACTERS LIKE HIM ARE MEANT TO BE PUT DOWN IN A SATISFYING STORY. HE HAS WINGS AT HIS STRONGEST BC THE MOST DEFINING MOMENT OF HIS LIFE WAS FALLING OFF A CLIFF. HE'S ON TOP OF THE WORLD, THE HIGHEST HE'S EVER BEEN, BUT HE'S NEVER TRULY LEFT THE BOTTOM OF THAT CLIFF. HE'S ALONE UP THERE. HE'S A CONTROL FREAK WHOM YOU NEVER KNOW IF HE IS ACTUALLY FULLY IN CONTROL (IF AT ALL) IF YOU REALLY STOP TO THINK ABOUT IT. HE'S SOOO COMPLEX BUT WE'VE NEVER BEEN ALLOWED TO DWELVE INTO THAT COMPLEXITY. HE'S A REALLY INTERESTING CHARACTER AND I DIE INSIDE WHEN THEY KEEP PUSHING HIM INTO THE "PURE EVIL" BOX WHEN EVEN WHEN HE MADE THOSE CHOICES HE STILL IS NOT!!! I FEEL LIKE AN INSANE PERSON WHEN I SAY THERE IS SMTH SO EXTREMELY COMPELLING ABOUT KAZUYA MISHIMA.

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have about this character

- hes still alive in the tekken:tmp timeline since jun successfully "saved" him, and while the familial situation isnt the best it could be, its still far better than you'd expect with jun and jin

- he doesnt even consider himself fully human anymore but hes truly at his core Just A Guy. take the morning coffee. collect shoes. eat boring food. hes a very plain guy and its hilarious. what does he even do all day, the role of a ceo is to make connections and relationships and hes a shadow ceo. he is so painfully A Man In His Fifties that if you remove the tekken context he could grill a mean steak I know this in my heart, what do japanese dads even do for a bbq equivalent.

- kazumi styled his hair Like That back in the day and so he will wear that hairstyle for life

one character i love seeing them interact with

Apparently in bruce's t6 ending, hes speaking to his superior(?) about a mission well done but it's said he's reporting directly to kazuya, so even if who hes talking to is speaking in english I have to wonder if it was meant to be kaz at one point. Anyway if it is I love the casualness of this interaction.

Also jin! people say theyre tired of the mishima focus but NOT ME bc those dudes only interacted ONCE until t8 finally drops. Anyway their hostility toward each other is sooo obviously fabricated bc if the writers REALLY wanted to get into it, this father&son relationship would be so much more complex than that. Also in the first project x zone, devil kazuya is a boss fight and at one point devil and kazuya are fighting for control and for one (1) second, jin sounds concerned for his dad in the way that he wont be able to kill him while kazuya is himself. fun stuff. Their more neutral interactions as a tag team in pxz2 are a lot of fun too, especially when they team up to tear verbally into heihachi. Anyway like everything about kaz, his relationship with his son isnt explored enough.

one character i wish they would interact with/interact with more

Harada For The Love Of God Don't Fuck Up Kazuya's Interactions With Jun In Tekken 8.

I want to see fucking flashbacks man, how did it fucking happen. They had to have exchanged AT LEAST a couple words before getting to jin's conception and I WANNA KNOW. ITS THE MOST MYSTERIOUS AND INTERESTING RELATIONSHIP IN TEKKEN.

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have that involve them and one other character

I feel like. if you stripped kazuya and jun of status and general opposite moral stances, theyre very very similar. I will wait for official t8 confirmation oh what they thought of the other but I feel they are two side of a same coin. People usually speak of jun making kazuya better but I like the other side of kazuya making jun a bit worse. In a very indulgent way I often wonder what it wouldve been like if they tried at all to make it work long term and I dont think it wouldve been that bad, especially compared to how the previous main mishima relationship ended up.

#kaz also has the privilege of not having been somewhat stained like jin in t6 and heihachi in t7 #cause both did disservices to these characters #and yet its so frustrating bc kaz. is just. SITTING THERE. #BAMCO HES READY TO GO HE HAS THINGS TO SAY AND DO AND REPRESENT AND INTROSPECTION TO MAKE #OR BETTER YET BAMCO GIVE HIM HERE I CAN MAKE THE NARRATIVE FOR HIM BETTER. I HAVE IDEAS I HAVE PLANS. KINDA #tagging later #nozomijoestar #ask meme

[spider-stark]

Hi! Hope everything is well!

I’m so happy you have an interest in Chronicle as well because the fandom is SO DEAD and for what??

I had a friend sit down and watch Chronicle with me (me rewatching it and for her it being her first time) and she LOVED IT! We laughed, we cried, we screamed when the movie glitched, and ended up making jokes about the gas station (because we ended up driving to a gas station parking lot). She also agrees with me that it would’ve meant more if it was Steve in the final fight and not Matt.

And on the topic of Matt, my friend and I both agreed that Matt was probably one of those guys that read a philosophy book for English class but never actually signed up for AP Lit. Like, he got lazy reading it and instead read an analysis on SparkNotes and actually thought it was cool, then proceeded to make it his entire personality. Like, “I’m not like other guys” type shit.

My friend also talked about how that red haired girl did not pass the vibe check. Like? I get it, if a guy threw up in my hair during ykw I’d probably die inside but damn, poor Andrew.

Also yeah, I love Dane’s characters too!

yay hi omg another chronicle fan i love you

the Chronicle tag is so insanely dead, and you're right? for WHAT? the movie is quite literally timeless and i'm shocked that more people don't talk about it? more than that, i'm shocked that more people don't write fics for dane's characters cause the boy is gorgeous but all of his tags are in such a drought lmao

i'm so so glad that your friend loved it and that you got to watch it with her! i love showing new people Chronicle! it gets me unnecessarily excited haha.

totally agree with all of your opinions here! i'm forever gonna believe that the final fight would've been way more emotional if Steve was the one that had to make that difficult choice! because they made it so clear that Steve truly cared about Andrew, whereas Matt was just kinda indifferent most of the time and a dick. it would have hurt so much more to watch Steve come to the realization that there was no 'saving' Andrew.

and Matt omg you're both so right! he literally just oozes "not like other guys" energy and it's such a red flag. i just love that so much because it literally just sounds canon lol

THE RED HAIRED GIRL. i've been waiting for so long to talk about this! because you're right, she did not pass the vibe check!! by no means would i be thrilled if that happened and i'm sure i'd likely get sick myself, but i also know i'd genuinely feel bad for the other person because i know they'd have to feel shitty and bad about it too! she bothered me a significant amount lol

but seriously, dane's character are just absolutely amazing and i love them with everything in me. man is talented and i really don't understand the lack of content in the tags for his characters.

#thank you for sending this #i love a chance to ramble about chronicle #and dane #chronicle 2012 #chronicle #dane dehaan #andrew detmer

[officialjamesflint]

I've been bitching in private channels about the current Pirate Show Poll Discourse but I've finally snapped so here's my take for the day: I think that many people currently fighting on certain sides of this debate are missing a very important distinction between something being groundbreaking and something being important to them personally. I think that there are people arguing that a certain show that I will not name because I don't want this to go into main tags for it is a Huge win for diversity and queer representation because to them it feels really exciting that two men kissed onscreen, and I get that that feels really big! Especially if you've been in spaces where queerness is erased or ignored, and especially if you've been up until now engaging with media that doesn't include queer people in any meaningful way! But I think that taking that feeling and assuming that it's true for everyone is not only silly, but also ignorant of the fact that just having gay people in a show isn't really groundbreaking anymore, especially when it's two gay men. Like, there's media that's really important to me because of how it represents my personal experience, but my experiences aren't the universal experience. Just having representation isn't really what makes shows groundbreaking anymore! It's also important that those shows are engaging thoughtfully with the broader queer experience and aren't just going "haha what if this person were queer now....whoa we've changed the game." This goes especially for younger people engaging in this sort of discourse. I'm saying this as a younger person myself, but if your idea of big groundbreaking queer media is "two guys kissed and there was a nonbinary person also," then I think you ought to go explore the wide range of really quality queer media that's all over the place! And a lot of it isn't perfectly digestible into fandom content! Which doesn't mean it's "bad representation!" Also, people critiquing your favorite special fun media doesn't mean they think it should be burned in a fire. Critique is a normal and healthy way of engaging with media and honestly, if you're reacting like that to critique of something you enjoy then you should probably do some deep thinking about if you're too invested in that media. I know a ton of people have been saying basically this since yesterday but this is just my little two cents on this issue.

TL;DR: representation isn't the end all be all of groundbreaking media anymore, also go watch or read more queer media than just fandom-esque content and you'll Understand

#tam speaks #this is okay to reblog i just don't want it drifting into main tags :)) #i should also note! i am a gay man and also autistic and adhd so if you come in my inbox accusing me of homophobia or ableism #because of the points i made in this post then. you have problems sorry. #i have some further thoughts about shallow representation and how it's ESSENTIAL to think about how you're representing marginalized groups #in media but i will save those for my little groupchats #in conclusion: people critiquing your pirate show that revises deeply racist history aren't being mean they're being normal. please stop.

[theold-ultraviolence]

hi again!

thank you so much for the positive vibes and kind words on my last message!! ☺️

I have now gotten a solid 12 hours of sleep and I am having aemond thoughts that I would love to share if you're interested!!

bc I finally got a little free time last night, I was going through the aemond tag and saw a couple of posts talking about how alicent is really religious and that since aemond is so close with her, it's likely that he sort of adopted her religiosity and as a result he may have some religious trauma (in addition to all the other trauma 😭)

but I was like "haha religious trauma?? I have that!!" (so I guess cw for religious trauma for the rest of the ask) and then I was thinking about what that might mean for him. obviously my experience with religion is very different from his, since he lives in a polytheistic culture and I was raised catholic (also I openly admit that I do not know very much at all about westerosi religion, so if I get things wrong I'm so sorry - these hcs are mostly extrapolated from my own experience and based purely on vibes) but there's this kind of weird narrative that I grew up with that if you were good enough and prayed hard enough/well enough, god would listen and like grant your prayers?? this did end up getting more nuanced as we got older, but certainly as a young child when you couldn't really understand the scripture and all the religion stuff had to be simplified for you, there was this kind of feeling that if you were good and asked for something, god would answer your prayers

I share this because I was suddenly seized with the thought of little aemond having just lost his eye and deeply influenced by his mother's religiosity praying desperately to the seven every night that they would grant him his eye back. like maybe if he was good, so so good, and if he prayed every day and tried really hard, that would be enough for them to hear his prayers and grant him a miracle. and then I wondered if that could have been one of the many factors that influenced his endless quest to be the best prince, son, scholar, swordsman, etc. that he could be. obviously as he got older, he realized that the gods granting his eye back was a foolish, childish flight of fancy, but I wonder if that impulse still lingered subconsciously, that if he could just be good, like really good, and did everything he was supposed to do, he would finally be rewarded somehow

okay I'm so sorry this got long - I'll end my ramblings now! I was just really in my feelings about him this morning and this just came to me and I wanted to share - I hope that's okay!

sending you so many positive thoughts and hoping that things are going okay and that you're taking care of yourself!! ❤️

🐍 🔪

First of, I’m so glad you got to catch up on sleep, friend! And I’m loving that because of that now you got some fresh thoughts! And also, please NEVER be sorry about long messages, they’re my favorite thing in the world, especially when they’re about a silly fictional guy, so this was such a treat to receive, so thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me! I Am sorry however for waiting until tonight to reply, when I get long messages I like to wait until the end of the day to sit down properly to read them 😅

I think this is a fire ass take and very spot on regarding his faith in relationship to his eye, and I hadn’t really considered it in this way before, and it makes the most sense!! I was also raised catholic but I don’t really practice it anymore. The way I keep my faith now after leaving the community I was in, is super different and private — which is why I don’t think I read too much into the religious aspect of the world Aemond is from. Nor do I know much about westerosi religion, but many religions share elements in common all across. So now reading this, I’d say it is key to understand his drive to excel! Because he’s so young when it happens I totally see how he’d be praying desperately and holding on to his faith, as Alicent would. Then, in some dimension, Aemond must know that asking for his eye back would be unreasonable. A line from the show that’s very significant for me is when he says to Alicent, “Don’t mourn me, it was a fair exchange. I might have lost an eye, but I gained a dragon.” He’s a dichotomy of faith and fact and he’s mature enough to be the one to ease his mother, for he’s already understood that a sacrifice had to be made in order to get what he spent most of his life wishing and maybe praying for, as he resented not having a dragon when it was his birthright. In his logical brain he knows he can’t just grow an eyeball again, and even if he gets a prosthetic, it’ll never truly be his own. The miracle of having his eye back must be false hope. But what he can pray for is strength and to be shown a new sense of self. He can make up for that by building himself to be as powerful and indestructible as he can be to compensate for what he now lacks.

#aemond targaryen #aemond targaryen rambles #🐍🔪

[yandere-daze]

hi i just found your blog and i read like,, everything in your enstars yandere masterlist 😭 but i was afraid to leave likes and reblogs cause i read that doing that makes the algorithm think you're botting your posts or something like that? if it doesnt im going to go back and like everything because they were so good 😔

anyway this isnt a request and i just wanted to bounce around this idea in your head but like this is an imagine the self aware yandere au because reading it got me thinking how itd work out with my history with enstars 🫡

so like i was a fan of enstars since its like 3rd anniv cause i saw some photos of ryuseitai and i was like "haha these guys look so goofy and cute" which then translated into two years of fervently saving fanart of ryuseitai (but especially chiaki and midori 😭) though i never actually played the game all that properly since it was in japanese and i didnt really know where to find tls yet

then came engstars and i was finally like "omg i can finally understand chiaki" cause i had a phone that could actually run it at that time but when i played the game i instantly just swerved to hiiro ,, like he was the one i picked for the starter pull and he was and still is my favorite and most collected character (i got his vermillion card in like 12 hours 😭)

anyway going on to the actual self aware au thing wouldnt it be kind of funny to see the "original" cast members of enstars just see their beloved reader not even give them a glance, just completely focused on the new units and characters??

like some of them would be so pissed it would be downright terrifying, some would be so heartbroken (sorry chiaki) because they thought you loved them most of all??? and you just know some of the more obsessive ones would not take that disrespect lying down 💀💀

anyway thats all! i know my experience isnt exactly universal so i get it if you cant relate to it at all! i really just wanted to get the idea out there

First of all thank you so much, I'm really happy to hear that you like my yandere enstars writing!! 😊

As for your question, I'd really appreciate leaving likes and especially reblogs on my works as it shows that people actually like what I'm putting out there! Staying silent and lurking is not going to give creators any feedback so it might make them think that their works aren't really appreciated or that no one really cares about them. It's very unmotivating to have zero comments or reblogs with tags on your writing ( made worse if the post actually has a good amount of likes because it just means only around 1% of all people reading your writing though it was good enough to hit a single button to support you :/)

Silent readers and lurkers don't do anything for creators and just take our work for granted which is why I often block people that follow me that haven't reblogged anyone's writing before.

I'd definitely appreciate it if you went back to reblog my works because it shows that people care and it feels good ^^ For me, the main issue I have with spam-liking is if you do that and then reblog or comment on a single post. Because it obviously shows that you liked my writing enough to immediately read everything there is of it but not enough to want to support me :/

Sorry to go onto a rant in this post, it's not really directed at you in particular or anything like that!

As for your question for the self-aware AU, I'm actually not taking any new asks for that AU right now so you won't get a very in-depth reply for this, sorry!

But Chiaki would probably be very sad about that, thinking that he must work harder to regain your approval!

Something kind of similar actually happened to me because I chose Rei as my starter card in jp and now I'm not really much of a ReiP at all and instead chose Shu for my starter card on en ejej

#anon ask