#but she doesnt regret things. not that much

[magstorrn]

another thing i rly like about ac valhalla/mirage is that eivor meditates before battles (or a major kill) and basim meditates after them

#ac valhalla #ac mirage #missives #i should not overanalyse this but i will in 3 2 1 #my perspective on eivor so far is that she takes large battles very seriously but she is also acutely aware of the human cost and what #may follow as well as the likelihood of death on account of her culture #you have her discussing what awaits in the afterlife with other characters in the midst of battle #but she doesnt regret things. not that much #what's done is done and in the past #the battle is done and the cost is assessed and the world keeps turning #but basim never has that - he has so much confidence both in mirage and valhalla #'why do you have so few scars' 'i dont get hit' etc etc etc #and in mirage he also doesnt do a lot of questioning before going in for the kill #but he thinks about it SO MUCH... and obviously all of that is key to the story in mirage #idk this probably didnt warrant commentary but i am Thinking

[lambjock]

i have too many thoughts on the deleted jackienat scene for a girl who's supposed to be enjoying her birthday lol. i think at the root of it all, it's highly likely that when the actresses breathed life into the characters, and scenes got improvised, some things just stopped making sense for characters to do. including good things, like with jackie's 'i love you' to shauna! and i think this is the case for natalie looking at jackie with hatred before leaving her out in the cold. maybe at one point in her early stages of characterization it made sense, but clearly the people on the show didn't think that way anymore at some point, hence the cut. also ngl people taking this deleted scene, which for all we know didn't even make it into the final script, as some sort of 'gotchu' for jackienat enjoyers ( romantic or otherwise ) is weird as hell to me. like, it was removed for a reason.

#my posts. #yellowjackets #im tired and its my birthday so maybe this doesnt make much sense but #i have lots of thoughts i cant stop thinking abt this scene #a mix of good and bad tbh #but mostly watching people act as if this completely destroys jackienat is hilarious to some degree #since a huge part of their appeal has always been how similiar they are. that's what jackienat is founded on #and with that similarity comes a hatred especially since both girls have a self loathing streak #so regardless whether people view this as a huge characterization moment for nat or not doesn't change this #people seem to forget how much natalie genuinely hated lottie and was jealous of her as well! it doesn't mean she loved her any less #natalie at her core is a teenage girl like the rest of them. she has flaws and pettiness and does things she regrets. a *lot* #but on the other hand she'd do anything for travis. that's who she lives for. and the only one who helped her save him was jackie #jackie might've stolen him away for the night but the others were gonna take him away forever #which is something natalie would hate more than jackie fucking him. hell in the show she even says she could care less about the sex #she just wanted travis to be *alright.* #had natalie been in the cabin when jackie was calling the girls out for what they did last night you KNOW she would've sided with her #would she have cared about the highschool drama between shauna and jackie? who knows. #but no matter her personal feelings on jackie they had a mutual hatred and disgust for what happened during doomcoming #and i think that would've mattered more to nat at the time. in a swarm of angry feral teenagers the only one she could trust then was jacki #of course these are just my personal opinions which im purposefully keeping brief lol #but like. i just have too many thoughts on this it would take an essay to iron them out so here's this i guess!

[bitchapalooza]

I like the theory that Eri is either Emmet's daughter or a descendant of Ingo but I raise you this:

Ingo had been in Hisui for a total of five years, three more years than Akari/Dawn. In that time frame, he'd fallen for Zisu and eventually married her. After everything has calmed down and the village and clans have finally gotten along better, they decide to try to make a family. And at the same time, Akari has finally finished the pokedex. Arceus offers to take her home after the official publication of the pokedex as it signifies her mission finally being complete. They even restore her memories. Akari, now going by Dawn because, again, memories are back, asks Them to also restore Ingo's. Arceus does as such and then offers to take Ingo home, too. He's intrigued. He's aching to see his brother and friends and the station again now that he remembers. But there's Zisu. And now their daughter Eri, who'd been born 5 weeks too early. He couldn't just leave them, especially with how scared and worried Zisu was for Eri's health. He's prepared to tell her he was staying, refuse Arceus' offer, but Zisu, straightforward and stubborn as she is, tells him to go. And take Eri with him. Her reason being; "whatever this future you described to me is, maybe they have the stuff to help her? So please. Take her with you. She's gotta have a better chance of living there than here!" She pleaded. She broke down in tears, something she doesn't usually do, or tries not to anyway. After much serious talking, he agrees. He's sad to leave her, but he knows she's strong. So, together, they wrap her up in warm layers to combat the early winter air. And Ingo and Dawn departs to his destination— the Temple of Sinnoh. And so, Arceus takes them home. They're bombarded by press once word gets out. I mean the missing champion coming back in strange clothes with the missing, long presumed dead, Subway Boss who's also holding a baby? Yeah, that would definitely make the news lol. But in the end, Eri got modern medical attention and went on to have a very healthy childhood.

Skip seventeen years, and here we are. Eri is studying abroad. Ingo is working the station with his brother still. Ingo doesn't talk about his time in Hisui. He doesn't talk about Zisu to Eri in full, as it would be.... a lot to explain why she can't meet her.

#lmao my shower thoughts really said dojoshipping hours huh #its all a happy au here :) #maybe :) #okay ingo is plagued with regret because he couldnt find much about zisu past when he left her #only thing he found was how she was inspo to modern sinnoh gyms #as well as her death date and descendants #otherwise he doesnt really know how shes faired #pokemon #pokemon headcanons #pokemon legends arceus #pokemon scarvi #team star eri #warden ingo #subway boss ingo #trainer akari #trainer dawn #captain zisu #dojoshipping

[thatone-highlighter]

The last 3 imply that Marceline grew older but he recreated a younger version that still liked and trusted him or one that doesn’t remind him of bad memories

#this idea is so facinating to me #i think personally i subscribe to the idea that shes alive and doesnt talk to him because of PB #because of the people makinh the betty comparison with marcy and bonnie. its so yummy i love paralells #but the idea that he got so lost in the crowns madness he did something to hurt her and/or kill her #hooough mmmmmm yummy. and maybe that pushed him to the edge #because in ooo even has IK he still deeply cared for and seeked out marcy. regularly. #so even while under the crowns full influence i thibk he would be Devestated if something happened to her #let ALONE if it was something he did himself. maybe to the point he just wants to get rid of it #as much the madness WK doesnt have. it still seems to have affected his memory and/or attachments. i lost where i was going #i could even see marcy confronting him about pb and him losing it and hurting her and then regretting it and wanting to ‚fix‘ it #by bringing her back. but he cant stand to see her face anymore as a constant reminder of what he did. so he bribgs her back as a kid #full of love and trust in him and none of the bad things #Tree Man Posts #adventure time #fionna and cake #f&c #f&c spoilers #marceline adventure time #the winter king #f&c the winter king #polls #princess bubblegum #candy queen

[ourhouseishaunted]

70% of my trigun thoughts are abt how plants (independent and dependant) work and what they symbolize and their relationships with other characters and the world and stuff and the implications of independent plants coming with the earth forces and what it says about how earth has progressed since SEEDS left the planet, 20% of my thoughts are "hope those guys (meryl milly vash livio ww knives) are having fun" and 10% is rotating trimax Rem Saverem around in my head at all times

#i think abt rem a lot for a character that is like important but also isnt materially present in the story much #like idk her relationship with grief and regret and the idea of her looking at the shambles of her life and having to say #'well at least i can start over since theres nothing left for me' multiple times (after alex dies and she joins seeds #and after failing to keep tesla alive and getting a 'second chance' with vash and knives) idk its just so fascinating to me #and her idea of a blank ticket to the future and what it means in terms of how vash shapes his worldview in trimax #where it seems to be about how. death stops all future potential of a person. if they die they can never get better they dont learn #they cant change and experience consequence #like smth i find fascinating in trimax is that vash doesnt kill people but he will let somebody that person has hurt punch them in the face #and he thanks ww for killing to save the colony that one time. hes not opposed to killing/consequence entirely #i think it comes down a lot to how rem behaved in the aftermath of him finding out about tesla. how the potential for things to get better #would have died with him or rem and it would have just stayed horrible #idk idk im Rambling im turing things around in my brain #also man my main complaint with the manga is i wish it focused on the dependant plants more. they clearly experienced a big emotional #struggle esp in the final volumes and i wish we got to see more of it #but also i just like the wacky small town hijinks esp in the 98 anime i love when the main cast is just goofin around. i think they should #get to goof more #trigun #.txt #Dont Look At This Post Man its EMBARRASSING nobody should let me talk abt anything #the secret special bonus tjoughts are about chronica bc she fascinates me but i cant draw her good the way i can draw meryl and rem :(

[biolums]

#have been so down lately and just thought about subnautica. specifically peepers and got happy :) #something something little thingsin life #ive told myself i will visit my grandma today. will report back if that happens #trying to be easy on myself while also not doing something ill regret is hard #i am. so not ready to see my grandma. im mentally so not there and ive been so shakey mentally for months and i just. idk #it would be easier on me if i didnt see her. but im not sure thats fair to my future self let alone my grandma herself #i just. i dont know. i hate being in survival mode like who fucking doesnt want to see their grandma when shes dying. whar the fuck #fun fact i get an anxiety attack everytime i receive text messages now because im convinced its my dad telling me she died #its. probably a good thing i have a psychiastrist appointment tomorrow #anyways. hi #im just. popping in idk if i will like. come back #lifw rn is. so much #im literally driving 10hrs in less than a week from now

[fenharel]

ysabel of all people, the woman who was surrounded my power hungry and selfish mentality all her life, who for the majority of her life had the same mentality, growing so much in this journey to stop astarion is actually poetic cinema

#she is Still power hungry and a bit selfish #just like astarion #but there are many things she regrets. things she wishes she did different. and i think she wants astarion to never be #in the same position she is now. to have done things you can never take back #to have had redemption at your fingertips and be too much of a cowards to grasp it #having finally admitted to herself that shes not really into everything lolth also helps; ofc. #she doesnt know how to be good. but she'll be damned if she doesnt even try to be better #ysabel do'rahel #ysabel x astarion #ocs tag #saskia plays bg3 #ysabel full of love for her bf and her friends is so feral. this is all so new and shes intense with it

[arolesbianism]

Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

#rat rambles #starve posting #maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person #and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer #but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him #and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption' #like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person #like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me #like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person #it just made him a more miserable person #and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development #and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity #I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out #but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that #shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened #its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff #mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it #which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards #which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion #this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control #and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt #its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation #and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation #and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope) #the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked #I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet #her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell #so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head #I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk

[arinemone]

[Act 3, post vampire spawn ambush, very serious tone as Idalia's (Tav) and Astarion's conflicting ideas start simemring again, as it always does with the Ascencion question.]

Astarion: "You're the only one. Other people dont have a heart like you. Youre you. Nobody is like that."

Idalia: (Trying really really hard to not make a joke out of that, given its. Unfortunate timing. In this rare state of weakness, shes ((unfortunately)) not subtle about it)

Astarion: (Completely Exasperated, how did he not see this coming*) "I-- oh my gods, Idalia, please, im trying to be genuine here. can you not right now"

*he cant be mad at her bc hed make the same joke given the circumstances.

Anyway im in Act 3, and as i finish other companion quests, tensions r high between the ex-schakled lovebirds here bc they Still Cant See Eye To Eye on Astarions opportunity for Ascencion/Idalias opportunity to inflict the same Heart-stealing curse that was done to her. Despite everything theyve come to compromise on, learn from eachother, the repertoire that theyve built, the fact that these two bitches sleep in the same gd quarters bc theyre so used to cuddling/sleeping after feeding that they have a hard time SLEEPING APART (i hate them. hate them so.much oh my god), that one dissagreement has been a point of contention since theyve met, and things... havent realky changed. Not from the outside looks of it, anyway.

#she doesnt make the joke out of respect for the mood of the room #idalia: ofc nobodys gonna have a heart like me #not when i 👉 dont have one 👉 #but damn she was close #anyway i still plan on having astarion NOT go thru w the ritual #But its very angsty for the two of them bc Idalia feels like shes taken the one thing from him hes always wanted #Not fully realizing that Seeing her own experience in his shoes and traveling with her has like. Actually influenced him #more than hed like to admit #Very much a weird reassuring argument on how She didnt take anything from him. he made his choice. and he has no regrets #bg3 idalia #bg3 tav #Idalia/Astarion tag #i dont have a fun one for them yet im figuring it out #bg3 astarion

[kaoharu]

i dunno man

#✧ chatting ! #this whole situation is insanely ironic to me in a bad way #like i rlly dont have ? the right to be like this over them when i literally got upset abt another friend essentially doing the same thing #which pretty much killed off our friendship of 4yrs . . . smth i still kind of regret #altho i realize that she wasnt a good friend in retrospect i still feel like i was too mean abt it #which i guess is why its hard to imagine myself actually being able to commit and be happy over this ? #and all these thoughts are not smth i wanna bring into our interactions #but at the rate its going . . . i dunno #im alr rlly attached man #ykw #if this doesnt go away by my bday. i'll do smth abt it #thatd be in feb so we'll see what happens i suppose #gahhh #head in hands #slash silly

[hussyknee]

Listen I love Ellen and Oscar but

June Claremont-Diaz 🫱🏽‍🫲🏻 Princess Bea

↓↓

✨ Parentification Trauma ✨

#listen I know there's many reasons this happens even with loving parents #but it's incredibly psychologically damaging to have to fill a parent's shoes for a sibling even if you're legally an adult #because your brain doesnt give a shit how legal you are #it just knows you're prioritizing playing a parental role when you need to be focusing on yourself #my most intense parentification trauma years was between 17–22 #it broke my heart that June left her boyfriend to be with Alex because she knew she's the only one who would prioritise him #and Bea pumping the brakes on her mental health spiral because her baby brother didnt have a functional parent left #granted that may have saved her but having to claw yourself back to sanity bc you have to take care of someone else is seriously non-ideal #and yeah I know that their brothers were worth it and they dont regret it #but they have so much reason to be burnt out and hold their mothers to account good god #women arent caretakers and protectors because we're just built naturally kind. it's because we get left to do the nurturing and caretaking #until it becomes second nature #for my part being a big sister is fundamental part of me and caretaking and protecting and nurturing is who I am now #but the inability to ever put myself first and take space when someone needs me #the inability to turn off the kindness tap even when it's running blood #the instinct to fix things and take responsibility for everyone #it's all incredibly damaging in the long run #''southern goodness'' baby that's the gender conditioning ideal #do you know how much repressed pain it takes to be that kind and gentle #firstprince #june claremont diaz #bea fox mountchristen windsor #parentification #child neglect #emotional neglect #feminism #gender conditioning #knee of huss #rwrb #red white & royal blue

[newyorkcitywater]

sprained my ankle after getting too drunk on homecoming night and falling down the stairs at the football party house :(

#gave a shitty guy my very best drunk girl wizard curse beforehand tho #went from hyping him up because his girlfriend broke up with him to screaming at him when he called a girl who didn't give him a beer a bitc #*curse tag limit. anyway she was walking by with beers and didn't give him one and he called her a bitch and i turned on a fucking dime #went from 'you and her were destined for different things the future holds so much' to 'you will never find love your life will be a misery' #i wouldnt have done it had he not doubled down. ANYWAY i dont regret it and he prob doesnt remember it

[rouge-the-bat]

working on a new yyh oc lately whos another student at meio academy and after she first interacts with kurama she basically wants to study him in a lab HFKJSKF

#for a short bit of info shes huge into mysterious and rumors and works for the school newsletter #and she has a psychic ability where she can tell when someone is lying #and when she first talks with kurama. she realizes he lies. CONSTANTLY. even over the littlest things. #and it piques her interest and she begins trying to figure out What His Deal Is. slowly uncovering more stuff about him that is really Off #kurama probably is like 😓 oh boy Another classmate crushing on me to deal with #but in reality shes just like wow this guy is so strange. whats he hiding 🧐 #wants to study him in a lab. put him in a zoo and observe his behavior #she ends up discovering his best friends are delinquents and actually hes dating the little spiky haired one #and shes like OHO THE PLOT THICKENS #bc what is the SEEMINGLY goody goody polite minamino doing with a bunch of rough bad boys ?? #she has an absolute blast researching kurama because theres just So Much to discover and the mystery keeps going deeper and deeper #and then is promptly disappointed in the end when she cant write an article about him being a demon HFKSHKF #shes like ough its so fascinating. itd be a killer article itd get EVERYONES attention. #but she doesnt want to basically destroy kuramas life HFKSHJF #kuramas like heres the thing. i have many excrutiating ways to make you regret outting this. #and if i ever suspect you are going to go through with revealing my identity i will wipe your memory of me. #and shes like 😔 damn okay (isnt even scared at all. just disappointed LOL) #yyh #a lot of my ocs are kuramas classmates or knew him as a youko bc its just so fun to think about kurama interacting with others #bc theres SO much you can do there. its so fucking fun

[elympios]

For a character who is literally the only other Key of Kresnik that we know about, it is crazy how little we know about Cornelia as a person. We don’t even know how her own son felt about her because all Julius says about her is that she’s dead and he only remembers being looked after by Claudia, presumably even when Cornelia was still alive. I thought Cornelia was just your generic nice dead wife and nice dead mother but then. She was 22. Bisley was 15. The game argues that he did legit love her even after her death. What the hell did Claudia think, seeing her older sister have a child with a boy even younger than Claudia herself? What does Julius think about his mother? It doesn’t seem like he really thinks about her at all, he only seems to have good memories of Claudia and his resentment of Bisley has little to do with Cornelia’s death. Or maybe it’s the guilt of having killed Claudia and taking in Ludger that makes Julius fixate more on her.

I have so many questions and I can only make up answers!

#x2 #v #i like to headcanon that cornelia had bought in fully to the destiny of the clan thing #and also that she was not a good person #but thats partially bc i have a fic thought where a fractured cornelia is brought into the prime dimension #and julius is just. DEEPLY UNCOMFORTABLE #but not as uncomfortable as he gets when cornelia pinpoints ludger as claudia’s son #cornelia’s talking about the good of the trial and julius just sits ludger down like #dont listen to her. and ludger doesnt really get it but hes like. its fine #bc saving the world is too much. he just wants to help elle and julius #i dont have a point i just think itd be funny to torment julius here #watching not just bisley coerce ludger into helping the trial but fractured cornelia making it sound like something noble and glorious #just the way julius himself had been raised to see the trial as noble #(partially inspired by mauro’s draft here but i do think claudia was the only person who had issues with everything) #(i like the idea of her trying to convince cornelia to talk to her son and cornelia just being too busy destroying worlds for the waymarkers #hearing about the chromatus and seeing julius train to destroy worlds too #not being able to do anything or stop it from happening and when cornelia dies and claudia has ludger she just KNOWS. theres no way to be #safe here. they cant be safe here not with the clan and not with bisley #i do wonder if she ever regretted leaving julius behind. because i like to think she did consider running away with him #but there would be no way they wouldnt immediately be hunted down #and NOW i need to write a fic of the last time julius ever saw claudia #it was probably something mundane... or maybe claudia knew it’d be her last time seeing him and made him one last tomato pasta... #.............. i have so many thoughts

[birchbarkz]

ken levine is like i will give you a canon female autistic character and then talk about her like this

#autism doesnt define her #AND HIS FOLLOW UP WAS SO FUCKING BAD TOO #he said she lacks empathy not because shes autistic... tenenbaum lacked empathy because (???) #incomprehensible #in some aspects the regret slowly dawning on her as she learns to see the little sisters as human could be the trope inverted #but i dont think the writers were that knowledgable or cared that much #im just glad she exists at all im taking my beloved autism gal and rescuing her from this series #i did the quotes thing and it fucked up the tags pretend the first tag is befote the (??)

[tinylittlebab]

hmm.

#ack. i wanna but a scale so bad but idk how much money i have rn #well at least since im restricting again ill have more money since i dont spend it all on food #wish i could get a job but id have to walk to it and i cant in the weather so im gonna wait till spring or summer #might wait till i turn 18 bc ill have way more options so i might aswell. its only like 2 months off from when i could even get one at all #hmmm. ill have to ask my mom to tell me how much is on my card bc i cant check it myself. im kinda regretting letting my sister not pay me #back immediately for $30 bc then i could buy a scale rn but she doesnt have much rn so whatever #going another month without a scale wont kill me. for the majority of the time before i recoved it didnt have a scale so whatever #but i remember feeling so awful not even knowing if the pain i put myself through did anything so idk if its worth that #i fall ever enough as is with my pots so idk if i wanna add starvation to tye mix when i cant even see the numbers drop #well. ill find out how much i have today and if i have a fair bit then ill buy one soon but if not then ill just cry ig #idk. i feel stupid for relapsing. i KNOW.it feels terrible and i dont even care much about getting skinny. i just miss starving myself #its not about getting skinny its just about seeing the number go down and hurting myself and i know it doesnt actually feel good but like #idk. my life has felt chaotic and out of control recently and i need something to hold on to even if it kills me #i dont even wanna die anymore either. i used to but now i dont. i have life plans that i wanna pursue. im not stuck in a moldy house with #people who abuse me. i live with my only friend in a place where i can actually go places. not many places but theres at least something #idk. i think itd be easier to be ok if i had other friends but i just have my sister. i dont even know how or where you meet people #everything i read either says scool for minors or bars for adults which is useless to me. the only others things are things not around me #idk. i guess ill have to get a car eventually and when i do that then i can go places. i feel so bleh lately #i just. i wanna be sickly and skinny. not bc i think im ugly but bc i wanna be sick. i dont dislike my appearance. im relatively thin #not that it matters bc theres nothing wrong with being fat but like. idk. i used to hate my appearance so much but i dont now #so it feels so weird that im relapsing anyway #idk