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shitpostingsystem · 4 months

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bsd ramblings (season 3 and 4)

“is there really any value to this thing we call living?” dazai’s a mood

KID DAZAI AND CHUUYA OMFGOMFG

“what kind of suicidal punk are you” — chuuya to his future husband

omg i love the sillies

mori sounds like the kurzgesagt dude ngl

THEY HATE EACH OTHER OMG THEYRE SO IN LOVE

THE B A N T E R

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

chuuya being a shortie is so fun. “i’m still growing” growing my ass just kiss dazai already

THE ODA PARALLELS AAAAAAAAAAAAA

dazai you autistic motherfucker

chuuya being a gang leader is fun

dazai is my silly

wait so chuuya’s technically 7 years younger than he actually is?

gravity boi x suicidal manic, my favorite ship dynamic

THE BABIS ARE SKKING THE BABIS ARE SKKING THEYRE DOUBLE BLACK WKEHRUEHUFUEBDHDHSBEH

when are dazai and chuuya gonna kiss dammit

THE SILLIES ARE BANTERING JEUDHWHSUHE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

WHY IS DOSTOYEVSKY SO FINE

dostoyevsky is so silly

i am in dire need of more pm dazai. i need it all. i need more. i crave my husband’s past life. i need to see him and chuuya kiss while wiping out their enemies.

i can’t wait to write fanfic once i finish this show. i don’t wanna screw up anything canon wise so i’ll wait. i’ll watch all of the show plus the spin-off to get all the dazai i can. i’ve already pirated the movie, nothing can stop me now.

dazai is a slut and i love him for it. this is actually canon (at least during his pm years he was)

dazai x kunikida x chuuya

kyouka is my child, i love her so much

I HATE FANSERVICE. I THOUGHT BSD WOULD BE THE GOOD ANIME WITHOUT IT

KYOUKA MY BABY IM SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS I LOVE HERRRRR

power of money?? real american o7 yeehaw capitalism

bro just walked into someone’s home, sat down, and started laughing

“black daniels” HEY THATS JACK DANIELS

“hey poe!! it’s so nice to see you!!” JUST KISS ALREADY YOU TWO

the random ass fish-eye cuts in this show 😭😭

“OBJECTION!!” what is this, ace attorney???

i love how the superhumans are called gifteds, implying they’ve taken at least one honors/ap course. by that logic, i’m extra gifted (im in honors history and english)

i haven’t seen dazai in a while wtf. where’s my husband?? i’ve barely seen kunikida, let alone chuuya. ok he’s here rn, prob won’t be for long

ok but seriously mori is a pedo. elise is getting used even though she’s a fucking brat who gets what she wants

oh shit they got blew up

nvm

DID AKUTAGAWA JUST NARUTO RUN

oh shit i forgot the catholic existed. puritan, whatever. same difference, both are culty at times

FUCK MORI. THAT FUCKING PEDO.

i think what i love about bsd is that the characters are complex. dazai can be considered a serial killer and definitely bad mentor to akutagawa but an amazing mentor to atsushi and is my husband

i love dostoyevsky’s english va. they did such an amazing job. 100/10 russian accent

MY HUSBAND GOT SHOT OMGOMGOMG MY BABYYYYYYYYYYYY

HI CHUUYA I MISSED YOU. AKUTAGAWA TOO HI HELLO

RANPO <33 MY SILLY GETTING SERIOUS OOOOOO

HI KENJI IT’S BEEN SO LONG I HAVENT SEEN YOU

CHUUYA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

virus cannibalism my favorite /j

kunikida has tear gas powers? what is he, a cop???

oh noooo a kid got shotttttt how terribleeeeee /s

THE SAD AF MUSIC I CANT WHY IS THERE A CELLO HERE

oh that’s why, dostoyevsky has one

I LOVE GIN <33

kenji the silly!!

“aren’t you the one who lost to dazai?” RANPO RUBBING THE WOUND IN DAMN

the music is autism frfr

KARL <333333

“if ranpo really were to die in that world though, what would i do with myself?” — edgar allen poe

katai’s dead? damn. rip ig

oh shit here’s the bowl cut lemon dude

the office girls are dating

damn fukuzawa and mori had a past together

WHY DOES NATSUME LOOK LIKE WALMART HITLER

dazai making his kids work together is gold

“what did you have for dinner last night?” “yes” GOD I LOVE THIS SHOW

the classical music omg

“you’re quite the rough ride, yknow” that’s what she said

“enough, you’re not paying for this ride” that’s what she said

incel (katai) isn’t dead

i love how dazai is the mafia boss in a different timeline

akutagawa and atsushi are so down bad for each other omg

my native english speaking ass hears theodore instead of fyodor. i’m pretty sure it’s the same but different languages but still

dazai <3

ranpo <3

BAR LUPIN BAR LUPIN WJSBAJBSKWUSMSIMSJDBHSJSHSHS IM GONNA CRY

wait so season 4 is fukazawa focused? dammit i wanted more dazai

HI RANPO MY SCRUNGO HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI

i fucking love ranpo. the silly

he’s such a brat. good for him

IS THERE A CULT????? LOWKEY LOOKS LIKE CHRISTIANITY ON STEROIDS

oh it’s the play

“there something everyone else gets and i don’t get it” RANPO MY AUTISTIC SCRUNGO <33

ranpo my silly <33

honestly i keep forgetting they’re detectives

ranpo has adhd and autism

ranpo got fucking bitch slapped i love him

“as always, i have a hard time saying no to ranpo” ITS BECAUSE YOURE GAY POE

“but i got to see your rare, exasperated face so it was well worth the money!” poe you homosexual

“are you that detective’s fanboy or something?” “no i’m his rival!” how about boyfriend?

i fucking love ranpo omg

NIKOLAI IS SO SILLY

why can i handle anime gore but not irl organs omg

my gore levels are weird. organs and bodily fluids (beside blood) are a no-go but i can see a dead body no problem

when did atsushi become op

“a total of 625 charges…” MY BABY GETTING ARRESTED NOOO

GOD I FUCKING LOVE NIKOLAI

wait so the ada is a front? wtf??

i’m so confused wtf is going on

the decay of angels would be a cool ass band name

ok so moot says ada is innocent and shit like that. i trust them.

teruko is my child

everyone’s a shitty person i love them

HI CHUUYA OMG I MISSED YOU SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAAA

why chuuya kinda 😳😳

kunikida has ocd (i’m not projecting wdymmm)

“i won’t let anyone mess up my schedule!” whole mood and a half there kunikida

WHY DOES THE FANDOM IGNORE KUNIKIDA BEING AN IDEALIST OMG

dazai <33333333333333333333

dazai and dostoyevsky are besties fuck you

“she’s so strong-willed! i love it!” MORI YOU PEDO

“Dazai is a good person SOMETIMES! But he’s also a criminal who has done fucked up shit! And he has a personality! He’s really smart! And lowkey manipulative to get what he wants! He’s not amazing!” my moot gets it!!

morally dubious characters <33

i love yosano so much

HI ANGO

i love lucy

sticking out your gyatt for the rizzlerrr you’re so skibidiiiiiiii you’re so fanum taxxxxxx i just wanna be your SIGMAAAAAAAAAAA

sigma is so silly. i love him

dazai is a weezer fan

chuuya is a nirvana fan

i’m terrible with names so i’m like “oh damn That Dude” both fictional and irl. like atsushi was Terrible Bang Traumatized Furry until i got his name

i don’t even read omegaverse but every time they say sigma i cringe

sigma has amnesia?? mood

bro’s a fictional character within a world of fictional characters

dostoyevsky <3333

sigma named himself??? nah don’t even he was born with an ao3 account

i don’t know shit about cosmetology but if i got ahold of sigma i would fix his hair

oh hey catholic scarlet letter man

if my beautician aunt saw atsushi and sigma she would take them out of the show, fix their hair, beat them up, and put them back as changed men

I LOVE DAZAI OMFG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHEN HIS VOICE GETS SUPER LOW AND AKENSISBIZHWHXHWBZUWBZIBQIXHWNXHD

WHERE THE HELL IS CHUUYA OMFG

#bsd #shitpost

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authoroftwwm · 7 months

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AAAAAAAAAAAAA BRO I NEED IT

tl;dr is that Professor layton helped w trauma, listed is the journey through the games and future hype for PLWoS

So, I recently got into professor layton (a year ago, to be specific) and I must say, It has helped me SO FUCKIN MUCH WITH SO MUCH TRAUMA--

I have schizoeffective disorder. I have severe PTSD from years of mental and physical abuse from my parents. I have ADHD and may also be autistic, getting tested at 25 years is difficult.

When I started Professor Layton, I decided to play in release order--"I want to experience what long time fans experienced." I felt it would be more genuine. So, I downloaded an emulator (yeah i know, bad Vero) and started to play. I wrote down my reactions to each game after i beat them:

PLCB: THIS MAN GOT CHASED BY A FERRIS WHEEL!!!! THATS COOL AF! It was a really fun game, cool story with neat puzzles tHaT wErE hArD aF (i was kind of nonchalant about the games, just getting into them)

PLPB: ayo he got a box OH WAIT HE DED--i enjoyed the gameplay and watching the bad guy be the bad guy. interesting sequel, hopefully luke stays with the professor a long time lol (I jinxed it lol, also felt a bit more connected to Luke as a character and his admiration for Hershel)

(I took a long break after this one due to college lol but now i just play after my homework is done)

PLLF: I didnt write anything after this one. i just sat in silence for about a week, and I didnt eat for a few days. This was when my foster dad died, and i felt strangely as if i had healed a lot. After that week. I guess I just kinda took the time to process the loss of someone who i consider my true father. It was at this point I realized that playing the games had helped. I also didnt mentally process that luke left the professor lol until i watched someones playthrough of the last part of the game again

PLSC: BRO ITS LUKE AGAIN BUT HES YOUNGER AND HAS TRUST ISSUES WTF ITS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE except luke didnt go through massive trauma (unless you count the ghost stuff and the witch stuff and the house stuff as trauma) yeah i like it very good

PLMM: RANDALL IS WAY TOO FUCKIN HOT FOR MY LIKING I JUST NNNNNGGGUHHUHUHUH also SIBLING BINDING WOOOOOOOOOOO

I am currently playing through Azran Legacy, and I must say it lives up to the hype. Havent reached the ending tho so im trying to not run into spoilers. also I know descole is sycamore im not dumb THEY LITERALLY LOOK ALIKE AND THE BUTLER IS THE SAME WTF if theyre not the same person im gonna spazzzzzzzz

All in all, I plan on figuring out how to a b s o r b all the content from the spin offs (in order to do this i also want to play all the phoenix wright games, wish me luck lol) and will eventually get the Katrielle game.

I have a lot to do in preparation for New World of Steam! I hope im able to do it in time, and also that its just as good as the previous games. I know Quizknock will do a good job, its just whether i will enjoy it or not.

Thank you for reading, sorry for the long post; i have no potatoes to offer but nevertheless have a good day~!

-Vero

#professor layton #new world of steam #pl nwos #hershel layton #he isnt my savior but MY GOD I GOT SO ATTATCHED TO THE SERIES #rant post #self healing #self love #healingjourney #rip dad i miss you and love you #i wish i couldve said goodbye but i know youre doing alright #nintendo #nintendo switch #ill be okay #tldr #puzzle games

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mcondance · 10 months

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Hobie sucking up his pride and taking you to an aquarium buying out their shark shit cause you autistic af an love sharks.

Him mumbling shit about capitalism while you excitedly add another shark stuffed animal to the pile in his arms.

(Based off one of my special interests)

>>while writing this…I had a thought HOBIE SEWING PLUSHIES FOR YOU / OR MAKING STUFFED ANIMALS CROCHETED JUST FOR YOU

>>🧃

AAAAA THIS IS SOO CUTE JUICENON!!! he would so be into his s/o’s spins and makes sure they don’t feel weird for being a lil obsessed 🤭

#tell me more abt sharks bae i love hearing about people’s special interests #｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧ mail 💌#🧃

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lab-trash · 2 years

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Here is yet another reminder that I take prompts

It will likely take me a while to write them, but I do take them, trust me.

Anons are on, if that is something that you’re worried about. If you’d like, you can leave your AO3 username so I can dedicate the fic to you there.

Under the cut is ships and headcannons that I like

Ships I'll write for-

Kaz x Chase

Marcus x Oliver

Owen x Adam

Tecton x Megahertz

Skylar x Jordan

Skylar x Stefanie

Stefanie x Jordan

Jordan x Experion (girl experion)

Leo x Logan

AJ x Kyle

Douglas x Thomas (oc)

Gender/Sexuality Headcannons I like-

Trans Chase

Trans Spin

Trans Tecton

Trans Kaz

Trans Marcus

Trans Owen, maybe

Oliver’s family is homophobic

Kaz's family is homophobic

Bi Douglas

Donald is trying his best not to be homophobic

Greysexual Demiromantic Oliver

Sapphic Skylar

Bi-Spec Bree (unlabelled/shifting labels)

Pan or Gay Kaz

Bi or Gay Chase

Trans Femme Experion (thanks for that @platonictaycus )

Sapphic Jordan

Queer Trent (internalised homophobia)

Other Headcannons I like-

Tecton is Spark’s dad (again, thanks for that @platonictaycus )

Tecton and Megahertz being Kaz’s dad figures

Past, toxic, Kazperion and Sebase

Things are kinda awkward between Kaz and Spark

Kaz cooks

Kaz and Skylar friendship supremacy

Kaz and Bree friendship supermacy

Basically Kaz is great at girl talk

Kaz is good with kids

ADHD Kaz, Autistic Chase, ADHD Oliver (but different from Kaz)

Kaz used to have a crush on Oliver (unrequited)

Oliver’s lowkey rich af

Kaz’s family is poor and religious (I mean, come on, he has 11 siblings)

Very religious

This isn’t a headcannon but I’d like to write Trent more; he’s awesome

Longer hair/Gender non-conforming Marcus

Shorter hair Skylar

Kaz isn’t gender non-conforming, but he does like to break the occasional gender norm.

Daniel looks like a blonde Dorenbash from Caldera

Non-LREF Universe Stuff I’ll write-

Best Friends Whenever

Barry x Renaldo

Shelby x Alex

Cyd x Daisy

Wizards of Waverly Place

Zeke x Justin

Harper x Juliet (maybe; still thinking about that)

Max x Zack (Suite Life on Deck)

#lab rats elite force #lab rats #mighty med #headcannons #headcanons #archive of our own #please send in stuff #anons are on #im having some writers block #i just want some ideas pls #best friends whenever #barnaldo #kase #marliver

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slow-drowned-angels · 5 months

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I think @autistic-af said this in one of her SpIn descriptions but having books about a special interest and just being happy about having them (reading not necessary) clicked something in my brain for me. As someone who grew up in a household that very much focused on practicality (understandably, given the situation), having Things That Were Collected But Not Used was not really understood. So I’ve been trying to slowly work my way out of that mindset. Because I do love Having Things that are interest-related. But end up feeling bad if/when I don’t actively interact with them. Especially if it’s for a hyperfixation that fades or if it was a large purchase.

#this is hard to do while moving A Lot #void.txt #brain thoughts #I have giant books about WWI at my parents house mwah

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the-whumpening · 2 months

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Son of Bat! [OC Context Post]

Working on more Ash fics, but I need some time before I'm ready to post them, so in the meantime I'll introduce my other OCs!

So uh, technically, these OCs started as part of a Scooby-Doo fan thing. Later in the Hex Girls' career, my spouse and I headcanonned that they would start a record label and help other artists get started. Son of Bat is one of those bands! This later morphed into something else entirely, but technically speaking it exists in the Scooby-Doo universe lol

Son of Bat is a fictional band which I’m slowly working on making into a webcomic or some kind of longer project. The whole project is intended to explore themes like family trauma, identity, and relationships, largely based on my and my partner’s lived experiences, so each character was designed with certain traits in mind to reflect that (well, once it left the Hex Girls spin-off phase lol). There’s so much I want to say about each of them, so it’s really difficult to condense it down into something succinct and readable!

The story takes place in modern day, in a nonspecific US city, though the characters canonically grew up in Florida. The band’s music is a mix of metal, emo/alt rock, prog rock, and a few sprinkles of nu metal and EDM. In short, they aren’t as pressed about genre so much as vibe. The band consists of:

James Snyder: 25, huge af, primary writer and guitarist. James is a perfectionist and workaholic who is not only running a successful band, but also studying for a PhD and working as a personal trainer on the side. Most of his free time is spent in the gym, working out to anime soundtracks and kpop. He grew up in a shitty, abusive household, and he no longer has contact with his family. Around age 14, he got expelled from private school for once again refusing to cut his hair and getting into fights, and his family kicked him out. He became friends with Eddie in public school and was taken in by him and his mom. Vince is James’ older brother, and though they had a rocky relationship for a while, the hurt feelings are mending. James is aroace and in a queerplatonic relationship with Molly.

Vince Snyder: 29, trans man, bassist and vocalist. Vince has gone through a ton of personal growth—from leaving his abusive family, to struggling with alcoholism, to navigating transition. He’s always loved animals, even the “gross” bugs and reptiles he was told not to play with as a kid. Although his onstage personality is over-the-top and gregarious, he tends to be more reserved and laid-back with his friends. He struggles a lot with imposter syndrome and fears of inadequacy, as well as guilt from his upbringing. At this point in the story, he has married Cassandra Prince, the band’s manager, and is taking time off to be with her and work on a solo album.

Eddie Glenn: 24, drummer, short king, pansexual. Eddie is the co-founder of the band, along with James. Growing up autistic/adhd, Eddie dealt with a lot of bullying and isolation. But when he met James, they just clicked. When he found out James was functionally homeless, his mom insisted on taking James in. They essentially became brothers overnight, and that bond has remained into adulthood. Personality-wise, Eddie is a goofball and a sweetheart; this works against him sometimes, as people tend to infantilize him. Eddie is also an artist; he makes all the merch and graphics for SoB and is studying to be an art teacher. Because of his autism, Eddie struggles with selective mutism and sometimes uses ASL and AAC. He and Molly briefly dated, but realized they’re better as friends.

Molly “Moondust” Rivera-Roth: 27, nonbinary/demigirl, keyboard and mixing. Molly Moondust is her DJ name, and how she met Eddie (he was graffitiing the outside of her venue). Molly was adopted as a baby by her two loving dads, one Cuban and one Jewish. Between the two of them and the rotating variety of foster kids in their home, Molly’s childhood was extremely multicultural. She was an awkward, geeky, chubby girl growing up, finding solace in her family and her love of technology and music. As she got older and found the EDM scene, she grew more confident and honed not only her craft, but also her outgoing personality. Molly is loud, affectionate, and a great friend. Being away from her family when she went to college was really tough, and she got caught up in the party scene (and party drugs). James and Eddie’s friendship and concern helped pull her out of the hole, and she and Vince keep each other accountable. Molly loves James and is happy to be in his life however he feels most comfortable; they view each other almost like spouses, at least as far as their level of security and trust.

Cassandra Prince (name may be changed): 30, band manager/idiot wrangler, engaged to Vince. Cass met the others while working with the performance arts department at their university. James was impressed with her management skills and asked for her help. Cass is physically disabled and uses mobility aids, and she loves cottagecore/pastel goth fashion. Because of growing up disabled, she had to "grow up fast," so she often feels disconnected from her peers and struggles to lighten up. The only person she really loosens up around is Vince, who gets to see the cutesy, babyish side of her. (Cass is a late addition to the canon and isn't fully fleshed out; her details are subject to change.)

Debby Glenn: Eddie’s mom and James’ surrogate mom. Debby was a dental hygienist when Eddie was growing up, but by the time he graduated, she’d become a dentist and opened her own practice. She and Eddie pretty much just had each other since her family wanted nothing to do with her as an unwed mother, and Eddie’s dad was a stalkery asshole. She had to get a restraining order against him and move cities to get him off her back. Debby was a rockstar mom, despite having to work crazy hard to support the two of them as a single mom. She encouraged Eddie's love of percussion from a young age and always did the best she could to accommodate and advocate for Eddie—and, naturally, that translated to James as well. Debby has a big, open heart, and she took James in with barely a second thought; though she loves all the SoB kids like they’re her own, James has a special place in her heart as her second son.

That's the band! I have a handful of great whumpy scenarios for them, mostly on the milder side compared to Ash's story. I'm hoping to develop this into a full comic or web series over time, but I'm not quite confident enough yet to really give it a go. So in the meantime, I'll post the few fics I have of theirs and maybe post some slice of life stuff on another blog (I'll link it if I do that). Pictures will be added to this post later.

#whump #whump writing #writeblr #my ocs #oc stuff #band ocs #son of bat #i dont think i'll tag scooby doo here lol #whumpblr #rublewriting

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beardedmrbean · 4 months

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Ah thank you, sorry my autistic tunnel vision is on this game.

Yeah they probably will just called Yasuke a gaijin or “dark gaijin” by his enemies

Now I was talking to a friend why Yasuke was chosen and I theorize why as I said in my snippet. Now I’m more excited because I really need a black person away from western racial politics in pop culture

Also how non whites are written especially in Hollywood. Seem like it either black people who have a huge hate boner towards whites or surface level af as they only used their college course or trendy metropolitan black friends as references

Now ac stories heavily varies on quality, but I think they can pull a cool spin on their Yasuke what if, if they did do it right.

Let's hope they hit it out of the park with this one, the shifting tide on all the crt and dei things might have occurred to them when doing the script and story which might keep the nonsense that's honestly irrelevant for the game out of it.

#anonymous

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foggynelsonsblog · 3 years

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Just a small psa I actually haven’t met Luke yet, only through fanfics and my friends talking about him because I’m nervous af for anything past early s11 !! So I’m very sorry if I miss type Luke’s character please feel free to correct me! Also this is my first time writing so please go easy on me

-Ralvez One shot-

Fluff, Autistic Spencer, Pre-Established Relationship, nicknames!! Luke Alvez is the best husband ever, non binary Spencer, Gay Luke, Gay Reid, background Garcia/Prentiss, Weird timeline, Luke alvez makes blindfolds good again, SFW THO! He/they Spencer!

The dim sun leaked through the blinds in the bedroom, coating the floor and part of the bed in a soft golden light. Luke had been up for a few hours already making sure everything would be perfect for when he woke up Spencer. He already planned for his grumpy complaints, knowing his husband wasn’t a morning person so he had made a cup of Spencer’s favorite coffee, in their favorite mug. When he returned to the bedroom Luke almost had to stop and take a picture of the adorable sight. Spencer’s head was buried between two pillows, his sleep tousled hair went every which way. “Cariño, it’s morning. I have to show you something.” He set the mug down on the bedside table, and pulled a very grumpy Spencer up into his arms.

“Luke..” Reid began “Love of my life, My favorite person in the whole world, My husband... why did you wake me up at 9:30 when we don’t have a case?” He groaned face burying into Luke’s shoulder. “So not fair..” he pouted, eyes squeezing shut. Luke just smiled. “Because Mi amor, I have something to show you that’s time sensitive, and a surprise. Now have your coffee.” Luke kissed his head, nose being tickled by their messy curls. “Mh..okay.” Spencer couldn’t stay mad at Luke, not when there was coffee AND a surprise involved. He had no idea what though, they had just moved into a house Morgan had renovated for them and were both quite exhausted from the move, so what did he have planned? Spencer slowly rose to his feet, shivering in the cold morning air. Even the slightest drop of temperature made him crave the protective warmth of a sweater. He pulled a dark green one on, one that Luke had given to him a few months back. It was originally Luke’s but Reid had stolen it so much that he gave in. “Now Spencer..you trust me right?” Luke began. “I don’t know if I like where this is going.” Reid chuckled and turned around, his smile dropping when he saw a blindfold in Luke’s hands. Spencer had told him about the assault that happened to him in highschool at the beginning of their relationship, quite frankly Spencer had convinced himself that their first date had been another ruse and spent the first half of it trying to scope out the modern day equivalent to his highschool’s football team, and the second half having a panic attack at Luke’s place as he apologized profusely to a very confused and concerned Luke. So, neither of then were no stranger to the anxiety any reminder of the event brought on.

“Luke.” Reid frowned “What..What is this? You know what this reminds me of and-“ Luke gently cut him off. “Spencer, darling please just trust me. I want to make blindfolds good again.” He gently cupped his cheek but was in no way going to force Spencer into it. “I...okay.” Reid closed his eyes and allowed his husband to tie the blindfold around his eyes. Luke relished in the fact that Spencer trusted him this much, he gently crouched down to pick him up bridal style. “I’m right here Mi amor.” He purred into his ear, then chuckled at the blush on Spencer’s face. Upon arriving at the previously locked door in their new home that Spencer had thankfully paid no attention to, he opened the door and set him down, slowly removing the blindfold to show a huge library and office, the door even having a name plaque that read ‘Dr Spencer Reid’

“Luke Alvez-Reid. You did all this for me?” He turned around to look at him, eyes wide with excitement to which Luke chuckled and nodded, wrapping his arms around Spencer to pick him up and spin him around ((even if Spencer is taller)) “who all knew? Who helped you with this?” He asked as he was set down, smiling at the way the golden light colored the beautiful library. “Penelope and Emily did, though I owe them now and I’m kinda scared to see how I’m gonna have to pay them back.” He laughed and looked over at Reid who was just beaming.

The end :]

#criminal minds #ralvez #spencer reid #ralvezfic #luke alvez #oneshot #this is my first time writing sorry #enjoy??#spenceshot

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supercasey · 4 years

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King, give us your autsitic headcanons for tma please

I don’t know if I’m the best person to come to with this request, seeing as I’m diagnosed with ADHD but I haven’t officially been diagnosed with Autism yet (though I’m fairly certain I have it), so I’m sorry in advance if I suck at this. Anyways, here’s some autistic headcanons for characters I HC as such!!!

Jonathan Sims: His special interest might actually be working because he just really likes consistency. Struggles with understanding sarcasm and “under the table” type jokes. Leg bounces for days. Hyperfocuses on researching stuff to the point that he was an amazing employee back in Research, but he often had to take a few days off after big projects because he would’t take proper care of himself while hyperfocused (he still struggles to). Can’t eat a lot of sugar or he gets hyper. If You Touch Him Without Permission, You Die.

Martin Blackwood: His special interests have mostly ever been related to dogs or writing poetry. Tea is the only drink he can stand having because everything else isn’t textured right. Weighted blankets are the best invention ever in his opinion. Has really high sensitivity to criticism and it annoys him to no end. Keeps his nails extra short to avoid them touching Bad Textures. If he has to wear jeans, he’ll be really uncomfortable for the entire duration of wearing them. He’d rather hang out with Annabelle than eat one single chip.

Tim Stoker: Doesn’t really have many special interests tbh, save for maybe outdoor activities. Can’t eat anything too bland or he will cry. Happy flapping is his favorite stim but his leg bounces alongside Jon’s a lot, too. Refuses to sit still ever and prefers to walk around while reading/working (one of the many reasons he refuses to record statements). Wears Hawaiian shirts at all times because they’re Good clothes to him. Refuses to wear a coat because it has a Bad Texture no matter what he does.

Sasha James: She switches interests non-stop and it’s hard for even her to keep up with them. Picks at the skin around her fingernails to the point that they’re always torn up; she’s tried bandaging them, but it doesn’t help. Spins in her office chair to stim at work. Forgets about personal space most of the time, but most everyone is chill with it by now (Jon still gets scared by it sometimes). Chews on pens and pencils constantly, the archives literally has no unbitten pens or pencils left. Has absolutely exploded pens on herself before.

Georgie Barker: Ghosts and the supernatural are her special interest. The Admiral isn’t an officially licensed service animal, but Georgie’s trained him to help her calm down from panic attacks when she’s home for them, otherwise she self-isolates until it’s over. Happy flaps a lot when she gets excited. Bites her fingers to the point that they bleed without her even realizing it. Needs a lot of physical stimuli to stay well.

Melanie King: Photography and cameras in general are her big special interests, so she collects a lot of cameras and photos. If she touches something sticky, a part of her will die. Hates being touched on the shoulders and back of her neck, even by people she’s close with. Presses up against the wall a lot in order to get stimulated. Petting animals is a surefire way to help her calm down if she gets upset.

Peter Lukas: Has no idea what a special interest is but he sure af likes boats. Gets overstimulated so easily that he can’t go anywhere that’s even remotely loud. Gets overwhelmed if people raise their voice at him. Cold places make him a lot calmer, and he likes holding ice until it melts. Lies down on the floor to decompress; weighted blankets help with this a lot. He has a service dog that helps him get out of crowds when necessary.

Gerry Keay: His special interests are fires, history, and grunge music. Likes to head-bang in order to stim, as well as snap his fingers and knock his knees together; honestly, he just does a lot of stimming. Used to get punished for stimming by his mum, so he does it really fast to avoid being noticed, which hurts a lot. Chews on his clothes if he can’t stim. Loves getting hugs more than anything else; please squeeze him until he explodes.

Michael Shelley (OG): His special interests are mostly related to the Spiral related supernatural cases, as well as to music from the 70s and 80s. Has to wear headphones and listen to music or he’ll be really anxious. Anxiety attacks happen so frequently for him and he hates it. Scratches his arms a lot when he needs to stim and can’t. Happy flapping king!

Mike Crew: His special interests are collecting and caring for succulents and the science behind aerodynamics. Free falls through the Vast to help himself relax after a hard day. Jumps around a lot- off of and onto furniture, up and down on trampolines, etc- in order to stim. Prefers not to talk if he can help it, but he’s not selectively mute (he was as a kid, though). Wears oversized coats and sweaters for that sweet, sweet pressure.

Agnes Montague: Has no special interests tbh. Is selectively mute a majority of the time, but she talks every rare, rare once in awhile, mostly when she’s forced to by the cult. Extremely touch-starved, and it makes her skin incredibly itchy, to the point that she scratches herself raw more often than not. Hot coffee cups are one of her favorite stimulants, right up there with submerging her body in hot water until it all evaporates into steam.

And that’s pretty much all the characters I HC as autistic (though I’m sure I missed a few)! I hope you guys like these, because I actually really enjoyed writing these headcanons!!!

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butterflyinthewell · 4 years

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I’m going to tell you the story of why I love Godzilla.

When I say not to make fun of an autistic person’s special interests, I say it from a place of deep understanding and pain. For me, an autistic SpIn is like being in love, or (for the aro folks out there), it’s like being with your best friend ever and it just feels so comfortable and good.

Sooooo in January my dad mentions wanting to watch KOTM with me. Any excuse to watch KOTM is good, so of course I jumped on it. We watched Godzilla KOTM. It’s the movie I spent all of 2019 talking about from January to May. I got it for Christmas 2019 because mom knew I was going to want it as soon as the first roar hit the screen in the theater. (I took her to see it as a Mother’s Day gift, she liked it too.)

Lemme tell y’all something: when I was a young kid, my dad got me into Godzilla. Starting when I was around 5, he told me the stories of the movies he’d seen (the whole Showa era and Godzilla 1985). So I knew about Godzilla, Rodan, Mothra, King Ghidorah, Minya, MechaGodzilla, Gigan, Hedorah, Megalon, etc long before I ever saw them.

My dad said “these are important characters.”

Then he started renting the movies when he felt I was old enough to not be scared by them (age 7 in 1987) and pointed out who was who.

And my first ‘real meeting’ with Godzilla was the same as the people in 1954, when he popped his head over that hill and roared that haunting sound I never forgot, and I was hooked forever.

I loved it. I loved all of it. Dad warned me about the ending of the ‘54 movie, so I wasn’t surprised by it, but I still cried! He got me over it by showing the the rest of them, as if to go “see, he’s okay!” Then dad warned me that Godzilla was ‘the bad guy’ again in Godzilla 1985, but didn’t tell me how it ended. I was reaaaaally upset when he fell into that volcano. I probably cried about it for three days. That scream still hits something in my soul.

My favorite childhood Godzilla movie is Godzilla’s Revenge. It’s the first Godzilla movie I ever owned. I loved Ichiro’s dreams of making friends with Minya, outsmarting his kidnappers and standing up to his bullies. I even tried to pick up Monster Island using a little portable am/fm radio I had as a kid. It didn’t work, all I got was static, but I sure tried! 😋

I wanted to be an island lady like Saeko from Son of Godzilla who could call monsters for help. I wanted to be a cyborg like Katsura, except I would use MechaGodzilla to make friends with Godzilla instead of trying to hurt him.

Anyway...

Dad’s interest in Godzilla stuff kinda dropped away as the 90s hit and my autistic traits began to make me deviate more and more noticeably from my peers. I had seen all the Showa era movies, so he stopped telling stories because there weren’t any more to tell.

My love for Godzilla carried on into the Heisei era and beyond. Dad acted like I should “leave that crap behind” when I kept buying movies and talking about them to him. He didn’t want to watch them with me or look at pictures in the Godzilla Compendium I picked up.

I didn’t stop my enthusiasm for Godzilla, I just stopped sharing it with dad. I kept at it through high school. I sobbed over Godzilla vs Destroyah because I thought that was the end of the franchise, and I can’t even mention what happened to Godzilla in that movie. If you’ve seen it, you know.

In the year 1998 the rumblings for the ‘98 movie started around New Years, so of course I made noise about going to see it. Because GODZILLA, y’all!

Well, dad surprised me and took me to see Godzilla ‘98 when it came out. I had been bugging about going to see it and he kept giving me a hard no, then had me convinced we were going to a baseball game that night instead. I did nothing to disguise my boredom or hurt in the car, and it broke when we pulled up to the theater. Okay, he pulled a fast one on me and he said I did an emotional 180 spin, but it was worth it. (I still like that movie, but I don’t call that creature Godzilla. I call him Zilla or GINO instead.)

Literally right after that my dad would get mad if I talked about Godzilla. He griped that I was “so obsessed with that stupid monster” and that I needed to grow up. I was almost 18, and I had, just not the way HE wanted, I guess...

Godzilla 2000 came out. Dad grudgingly took mom and me to see it, and I finally got to live my dream of seeing a legit Toho Godzilla movie in theaters. I was yelling and clapping (as were other people) and just had a huge blast. In the car, he told me to knock it off when I talked excitedly about what I liked in the movie. He slapped down all talk of Godzilla.

I still continued to be a fan. When more Millennium era movies came out, I grabbed them when I saw them on the shelves. I got everything from Godzilla vs Megaguirus to Godzilla: Final Wars in a little Japanese shop my dad found near where he worked at the time. I was in my early 20s then. I also got some figurines from that store: a Heisei era Mothra, a Heisei era King Ghidorah and a Millenium era (Final Wars) Godzilla. Dad rolled his eyes when I walked out with them in my arms.

And so began his weird pattern of indulging my interest, but getting upset at me if I talked about it. I was discovering the online fandom at this point, so I had another outlet, but still, it used to be our thing, and his behavior really stung.

I only discovered there were more movies in the Millenium era becuse I happened across GMK on HBO and realized I didn’t recognize that Godzilla suit or the setting.

Then I missed the ending because of a very badly timed phone call. But I was like “omg more Godzilla movies...hey dad, can we go to that shop?” (And then I was like a dragon with treasure when I came home....)

I grabbed the two Kiryu movies first because a certain fanfic author in the fandom had written some Mechagodzilla fanfics where Kiryu (Kiryuu in her stories) was sentient and sexy af. The idea of the original Godzilla being brought back as a robot was amazing and that author basically took the idea and ran it to another level. She’s the reason I headcanon the 54 Gojira as Heisei Godzilla’s dad.

ANYWAY, I got all caught up on the Godzilla movies and blew up to a boiling fan girl froth when the 2014 movie got advertised.

I took mom to see that becuse dad’s Parkinson’s had advanced so far that he couldn’t go out much anymore. Mom likes Godzilla movies and sci-fi in general. While she’s not as into it as me, she enjoys them for the entertainment. We both liked G2014, so I got it for Christmas.

We watched it with dad as a family, he said it was okay.

Through 2016 and 2017 I was rattling on about Shin Godzilla. Got that as a late 37th birthday gift because it came out on dvd a few days after my actual birthday. I watched it for the first time with dad, and he complained the whole time and kind of ruined the experience for me, which pissed me off. HE was the one who wanted to watch it with me, now I wish I watched it alone instead.

2019 came, KOTM happened. So that brings me to sitting down to watch it with dad. I was excited see his reaction to the monsters he introduced me to in childhood realized with modern cgi effects and all. I love seeing things that remind me of happy times in my childhood, and I thought those memories were fond for him, too. So I watched, waiting for him to recognize Mothra, Rodan and King Ghidorah.

He said nothing when they came onscreen. I got engrossed in the movie and sort of forgot about it, but when it was over I bounced up and asked, “Wasn’t it cool to see the guys you told me stories about when I was 5?”

I thought back while I waited for him to answer. I thought back on the stories, the fun and the movies.

I thought back on how my love for this character has grown, and how in KOTM it was physically realized in that painful moment when Ishiro Serizawa looks up at Godzilla with such reverence and lays his hand on his snout. I feel like that was Dougherty telling all the fans he sees their love for Godzilla and gives them that one singular, intimate audience with the big guy through Serizawa. Because who wouldn’t want to give him a pat on the nose and thank him?

The director of KOTM understands what Godzilla means to the fans. He understands how they feel and what they want. In my mind he gave it in spades.

But my dad...

My dad, the man who taught me enough to get me into Godzilla forever, looked at me in the eyes and said, “I don’t remember any of it. They’re not that important anyway.”

“These are important characters.” Much younger dad said to much younger me.

“They’re not that important anyway.” Older modern day dad said to older modern day me.

I thought my heart had stopped and my soul fled through the floor. This franchise, these characters he brought to me with such enthusiasm, something that grew into a lifelong love, meant nothing to him. It was as if he gave me a diamond and later told me it was worthless glass to him. Godzilla was and still is a huge part of my life and who I am, and dad acted like this “us” thing I thought we bonded over during my childhood didn’t matter to him.

It’s almost like he expected me to take passing interest and then move on, but because I’m autistic and because I relate to Godzilla so much, my interest turned into love and respect for the character, what he represents and the messages he has sent throughout the years.

Part of who I am is shaped, literally, by Godzilla, something that started because my dad told me he existed. And in a sentence my dad took that root from my childhood and ripped it out because he decided it was a worthless weed.

It’s not my love for Godzilla that was ripped out. It’s the love I thought my dad felt for me when he was telling me all those stories and showing me the movies. I’m sharing this because I love Godzilla, because I love what he represents and means to me, and I thought my dad shared it with me for the same reason. This is a very autistic thing...I’m sure autistic readers can feel my love for Godzilla just by reading this.

I thought my dad did, too, once.

But no. There was no love at all like I thought there was, so I was not pouring my love into an ocean that still existed, I was throwing it into a black hole.

Dad didn’t care to remember Rodan, or Mothra, or King Ghidorah. He didn’t care to remember what all that meant to me during my childhood because he doesn’t and never has cared about my feelings.

He doesn’t care about my feelings.

He wants me to shut up about Godzilla.

I will not.

I love Godzilla. I don’t need dad’s approval anymore. I will turn 40 this year (2020) and there is no stopping what began 35 years ago. The plant that grew around the root dad planted is shaped like me now, and like Biollante I will keep blooming because Godzilla was my first love fandom-wise and that admiration and love for him stands on its own.

Dad no longer has a say.

But, my God, my dad has this remarkable ability to tell me something is important when I’m young and then claim it isn’t so many years later. He’s done it for a lot of things, but hearing him say Godzilla isn’t important after instilling his importance into me at a young age just...gutted me...and it gutted me as much as the time he asked me what I did to make kids bully me when I was being bullied as a teen.

I got bullied because I’m autistic. I existed. He said it was my fault for being that way. I was a newly diagnosed teenager when he said that. It was 1995, ironically, the same year Godzilla vs Destroyah came out.

And I was an adult when he ripped at that root of Godzilla he planted in me.

Godzilla was the last part of my childhood that he hadn’t sunk his abuse into, but he finally did in January of 2020. Now there is no part of my life untouched by his emotionally abusive crap.

It shouldn’t hurt like this. I feel ridiculous to be hurt so deeply, but I can’t keep pretending that I’m not hurt by it anymore.

I will get over it. My absolute love and respect for Godzilla is something my dad can never destroy no matter how much he tries to shit talk about it. I’ve let him ruin so many things, but not Godzilla.

Godzilla will never be a trigger for me. He is an anti trigger. On this day of April 19, 2020, I’m realizing he is the protector my dad failed to be.

To all parents of autistic kids, be careful that you don’t belittle the things you said were important when they were young. Don’t introduce something that becomes a special interest, say it’s important and then belittle it when they grow up.

Even if you don’t think it’s important anymore now, even if you think it’s silly now, even if you didn’t know they were autistic at the time and would dive in like that, it may still be important to them.

It may become their safe place. It may become treasure.

Don’t try to destroy that safety. Don’t treat it like trash.

#actuallyautistic #special interest #godzilla #emotional abuse #gaslighting #dad issues #swearing #ableism #gifs #long post #tw emotional abuse #tw gaslighting

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unicyclehippo · 5 years

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autistic kara and dyslexic lena being a power couple is honestly goals af

i was just gonna write some headcanons but

it’s cold out, even though it’s well into spring, which kara thinks probably has a lot to do with the whole climate change thing. though it’s a much bigger issue than one oddly chilly evening in early october, she’s kinda pleased about it because it’s been hot—as balls, the tiny alex-voice in her mind adds, helpfully—recently and the wind cools her down as it whips past her, ruffling through sweat-soaked hair and blasting through her clothing.

if eliza could see her now, kara knows she’d be furious. it’s not just because of the fact she’s wearing ripped up jean shorts and her tie-dyed shirt—the fugliest outfit alex has ever laid eyes on, kara has heard from the reliable source of alex herself—and if she hits the bitumen going twenty k’s an hour on her board and pops up without a scratch on her, that might garner a few raised eyebrows; eliza would also be furious with her because of the fact that this evening, at ten fourteen pm when kara ought to have been tucked into her bed—a single bed with soft sheets the colour of a perfect deep-blue sea, underneath the window that looks out to the cliffs—she was in fact on the far side of town having skated out there with her backpack filled with the requisite items to cause a significant amount of property damage. toilet paper, canisters of aerosol paints, glue. the necessary items for this game.

she’s leaving now, after finishing some of her best work, and there is nothing but the cool air, and the sound of her wheels grinding against the bitumen-coated road that unfolds ahead of her under the silver moonlight like a river of shimmering glass.

until there is something: the sound of an engine turning over, being started up, and a flash of headlights like great yellow eyes.

kara zooms past the car, turning to look with interest. she knows this part of town well. it’s quiet, only a few houses on this block, and doesn’t think that the old jeffrey’s couple, who live on the corner, would be out and about at almost midnight, even if it is a saturday evening. it must be whomever moved into the castle, kara reasons, which makes sense as the car is parked under one of the trees that stand by the castle driveway. she peers in the window and sees only a pale face and dark hair until the driver reaches up and switches on the lights, so she can read whatever it is she’s holding—for the driver is a she, a girl of about kara’s age, with long straight dark hair and a long straight nose and keen green eyes.

oh.

she’s looking out the window at kara, and the quick glance that had seemed to stretch on for a long moment now catches up to her. kara feels the front wheels of her board catch on something—a pothole, maybe, or a raised piece of the road where a tree root has started to grow up—and she goes flying. not literally, she’s not all—she can’t fly, that is, that would be ridiculous. she ducks and rolls and, upon standing, finds she hasn’t left even a slight dent on the road. also, she’s fine. how lucky she is. her shorts, she notes with some remorse, are not so lucky and the impact has just about shredded the right thigh. popping up onto her feet, she collects her board and sets her bag properly on her shoulders. and something, something pulls her eyes to the car as kara sets herself back onto her - thankfully not damaged a board.

the girl is watching her, eyes wide in shock. the shock—and worry—eases when kara stands, and when kara grins as wide as she can and gives her a clear thumbs up, she can hear the quiet laugh all the way from across the road. through the glass and the murky night that grows heavy with a chilled mist, the girl gives her a thumbs up in return, and then she turns off the reading light and spins so she is seated comfortably once more, kara apparently cleared from her mind. the engine idles, rumbling away.

kara lingers for a second, watching. but nothing more comes of it and so she pushes off down the road again.

she was right. eliza was furious.

‘someone could have seen you,’ she hisses in that controlled way she does when she wants to impress upon kara the fact that they’re all in on this secret together and it is a dangerous one. and she turns it on alex, who she’s dragged out of bed for this, and adds, ‘you should’ve known better, alex.’

‘hey, whoa, how is this my fault?’

‘you should have stopped her,’

‘right, like i could stop her from doing anything,’ alex drawls. kara admires her sister silently, sucking down a carton of some gross breakfast drink eliza had bought for her; alex wouldn’t be able to stop kara physically, that was true, but what she also doesn’t say is that she hasn’t tried to stop her with words either, being that she was too busy encouraging kara and making sure that she had all she needed for the very important job.

‘you,’ eliza says, and from her tight, tired tone it sounds as though she is well aware alex is lying to her in some way, ‘are in trouble. you are grounded.’

‘hey! i was in bed!’

kara hisses her sympathy. eliza whirls on her, dressing gown flapping like a cape around her ankles.

‘you as well! grounded! understood?’ eliza holds firm in the face of pleading eyes and pouting until kara sighs and nods. ‘good.’ she sighs. rubs both hands over her face. ‘i...am going to bed. please, for the love of anything in this world,’ she says, sounding so bitingly tired that kara catches a look of worry on alex’s face, quickly masked. ‘please don’t break anything, please let me sleep in tomorrow morning.’

‘aye aye, captain,’ alex drawls, though there’s considerably less snark in it than she usually musters. ‘c’mon, kara.’ she leads the way up to their room and collapses back onto her bed, yawns mightily. ‘well?’ she demands of kara, despite being obviously tired. ‘how’d it go?’

kara nods.

‘and? you got all the toilet paper around the house?’ she nods again. ‘and the paint?’

kara pulls out her phone, taps a few words in and shows alex a mural she’s always liked. simplistic figures, straight lines.

‘but, rude, right?’ alex asks, and she seems appeased when kara tilts her head side to side and waggles her hand in a so-so gesture. ‘good. oh man, incredible.’

kara thinks about what else she had seen that night—the girl being only part of it—and wonders if a sleepy alex would be able to parse it out from her charades. she suspects not, so she texts it to her sister, fingers typing slowly so as not to splinter the delicate screen.

alex yawns. snuggles into her pillow. eyelids droop as she waits for kara’s text. kara presses send and watches as confusion, then comprehension, then surprise and a fast following shock skitters over alex’s face and her sister rockets up onto her feet.

‘what does this mean? kara, what does this mean?’ she demands, holding out her phone so kara can see her own message clear on the screen.

SAW AN ALIEN CRASH SITE TOO 👽 🛸 ✌️

#prompt fill #sry lena isnt rly in it #think kinda scoobs crew #lol

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