#autistic people have feelings too

[clearingmyheadspace]

“Well, Dougie Seeger’s [non-verbal] autistic. He didn’t care. His heart wasn’t broken.” - Dr. Temperance Brennan on Bones

Bullshit.

First, I know this was on the air in 2009, and at the time Asperger’s was still an acceptable diagnosis (or “high functioning autism), but that doesn’t make the statement any less inappropriately stereotypical or hurtful.

Side note: Dr. Asperger was a Nazi and a eugenicist. The diagnosis was removed from the DSM-5 and is no longer used. Some people (ie mostly white males who were the predominant group to get this diagnosis) do still call themselves “Aspis” but they are perpetuating the ableist and harmful Nazi supremacist ideals the diagnosis was born from. It is largely shunned by the autistic community.

The truth is that many autistic people feel very deeply. Overwhelmingly so… which can lead to autistic meltdowns and burnout. The reason it’s called a spectrum disorder is because it’s a variation of traits that are experienced and expressed in a myriad of ways.

Also, this notion that non-verbal autistic people can’t express themselves is major bullshit. They may express themselves in a way others can’t understand. They may have different ways to communicate other than through language.

I know it’s just a show and I know it aired a long time ago but these are the very harmful stereotypes and media portrayals that have left me unable to get a formal diagnosis as an adults, and left others without the supports that they need even if they do have a formal diagnosis.

I can’t stand Sean from “The Good Doctor” for the same reason. The stereotypes and naivety he portrays are the actual worst because it perpetuates the stigma that autistic people are clueless about social norms and emotionless drones. We are absolutely capable of learning social norms. We absolutely feel just like allistic (non-autistic) people

The more I learn about myself and my autism, the angrier these types of things make me.

#autism #adult autism #autistic adult #audhd #late diagnosed autism #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosis is valie #autism in the media #autistic people have feelings too #autistic stereotypes

[sliceofdyke]

hey. dont cry. 1 million autisms on earth ok?

#maddie moment #highlight reel #autism tag #1k #5k #10k #15k #20k #seriously tho as an autistic teenager when i realize that there are so many autistic adults that have grown up and succeeded #and not in the corporate success way in the personal happiness way #like people who have good support systems and jobs that they genuinely enjoy #it just makes me feel really happy because that means i have hope too #sillies

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Rejection Sensitivity

Rejection Sensitivity might kick in when...

Someone leaves you on read

You get blocked randomly

You aren't invited to join in

People talk secretly without you

You see people having a good time without you

You don't understand an inside joke

Everyone disagrees with you

This could lead to thoughts of...

Something is wrong with me?

Why does no one like me?

Have I done something wrong?

I'm fed up, I can't do this anymore

I hate my life

People are better off without me

I hate everyone

As well as feelings of...

Anxiety

Hatred

Frustration

Fear

Depression

Loneliness

Overwhelm

Anger/Rage

The effect of this might be...

Acting impulsively

Meltdown/Shutdown

Losing friends/family / romantic partners

Being excluded from a group

Self-harm/suicidal thoughts

Being perceived negatively

Trust issues

Things that might help...

Removing/distancing yourself from the situation

Distracting yourself with interests/comforts/stims

Talk/vent to someone

Try to remember that your feelings are valid

Autisticality

#autism #actually autistic #rejection sensitive dysphoria #autism & RSD #autistic people can have RSD too #it isn’t exclusive to ADHD #Autisticality (Facebook) #feel free to reblog/share if you’d like #tw bright colors #tw eye strain

[eddiezpaghetti]

Okay, so my experience with Stranger Things is a weird one.

I didn't care when it first came out, started to watch it out of "might as well" in 2020, wasn't interested in it enough to make it past S2, forgot about it outside of going "oh, hey, cool, there's a lesbian in it now, I guess," in S3, got really annoyed when "Running Up That Hill" got popular from it because it was a song I listened to on fucking loop after one of my best friends died in high school and I fully expected its appearance in the show to ignore the whole survivor's guilt theme of the song (and was very happy to learn later that it did the exact opposite of ignoring the lyrics), saw people drawing Eddie, suddenly got a lot more interested, watched just the fourth season like a fucking psychopath because I was seriously only there for Eddie, then got interested enough to start the show over properly, having mostly forgotten what I did watch of the show before.

And let me tell you something from the perspective of someone who started with the complete fourth season, who wasn't there from the start, who wasn't tainted by ship goggles or this internal battle of hope and despair, who wasn't theorizing about what the painting could be or expecting Mike and Will to kiss when Volume 2 happened or rooting for Mike and Eleven's relationship to go down in flames or whatever the fuck. Just someone who went blind into Season 4.

It's really fucking obvious that Will and Mike are gonna be endgame.

Like holy fuck. It's so fucking blatant I don't even know why people are nervous.

No sane fucking person would shoot this scene this way if they wanted the audience to care about El and Mike as a couple. Despite being all blurry in the background, Will's reaction to what's happening here is smackdab in the fucking middle, clearly showing that the important part is what's going through his head here. What he's feeling. It's like the opposite of that scene from Kingdom Hearts II where Sora and Riku reunite and Kairi just fucking vanishes into the aether while it's happening because, despite the fact that she was standing between them when the scene began, she doesn't matter to the scene, so she's just kind of gone when the camera angle changes. Will could have been behind one of their heads, or so far in the distance he blends in with the background, but he's not. He's so obvious that despite being massively blurred out, he's still the first goddamn thing you look at. What, you think that's an accident? You think he's in the middle of this dramatic fucking scene because of a mistake? He basically has a big flashing neon arrow pointing at him with "THIS IS THE POINT" being screamed through a megaphone.

And then this?

They're paired up like they're taking fucking prom pictures. Each one of these pairs is so fucking close to one another and so fucking far from everyone else. It's not, "Oh, they're standing vaguely near each other in a group shot," it's fucking Noah's Ark out here. Again, there's no way to take this as an accident. It's not just a framing issue. If they wanted to make the shot look balanced while still not hiding anyone else behind El, they would have scattered people around much more naturally. Even if they wanted to keep Nancy with Jonathan and Hopper with Joyce, there's so much room on that hill for three people to stand on El's left and three on her right. But they didn't do that. They put Mike and Will together on purpose in the most obvious way possible.

Like I get that coming up with crackpot theories is fun in and of itself and I'm not blaming anyone for having fun. I totally get the appeal of arguing a point and reaching for every stupid little thing to pull into it because it's like a game, okay? I've done that. But if you're trying to actually convince someone (whether it's someone who wants to believe or someone who's pissed at the very idea that Mike and Will could be in love), stay away from blue and yellow lights, stay away from costume design, stay away from the existence of closets in backgrounds. And don't worry about whether Mike's gay or bi when he's in love with Will either way. I'll give you a little tip about persuasion: You're only as strong as your weakest argument. Even if you've got strong stuff in there, too, the person you're trying to convince is going to dismiss anything you say as complete insanity the second you start going on an entire tangent about the shape of a character's fucking pocket.

Sometimes, clothes are just clothes. Sometimes, there's a closet in the background because it helps establish that a character is in a bedroom. Sometimes, blue and yellow are just a couple of colors that look nice together. And sure, it might be set designers and costume designers and cinematographers smirking and winking at the audience from behind the camera. But if the show was just those things, instead of those things in the context of everything else, they wouldn't be saying anything of note.

But this?

This tells a story all on its own. Someone with no context can look at this and automatically assume that each paired person is standing with someone they care about deeply, seeking comfort as they watch some sort of disaster unfold. And yeah, romantic couples usually come in twos, and we live in an amatonormative society, so that's going to be the first association anyone makes seeing a bunch of people paired off.

It's the same reason you look at this

And go, "Oh..."

"Those two are probably a couple."

And I genuinely don't understand how people could have watched S4 Vol. 2 and gotten scared. Because as someone who went in with no investment whatsoever, I just looked at these two--

--and went, "Oh, those two are a couple. Good for them." And I moved on. Shut up about the trees for five seconds and just see the forest for what it is.

Oh, and if you're still nervous? Little thing from a storyteller here: You don't leave a hanging thread like "Will confessed his romantic feelings for Mike by projecting them onto El, but Mike either didn't understand or at least didn't say he understood," without coming back to that later. That's Chekov's gun hanging on the wall, babes. It's gonna fire at some point. If Mike was going to reject Will's feelings, if they weren't relevant, they would have had that discussion in Argyle's van. There'd be no reason to leave you in suspense.

#byler #meta #stranger things #theory #I mean I fucking guess #in the same way gravity is a fuckin' theory. #It feels silly that I even have to say this honestly. #Watching people freak out over these two feels like I'm being pranked. #Like you guys aren't pulling a Goncharov are you? Just making believe there's any chance these two aren't gonna be endgame? #Like completely ironically? And I'm too autistic to catch it? #It genuinely feels like I'm explaining that red and blue make purple here. As if you guys should have learned this in kindergarten. #Or like watching whole-ass adults watch Cinderella for the first time and being on the edge of their seat #wondering if she's going to live happily ever after with the prince or not. #It feels like I'm talking DOWN to people and I don't WANT it to feel like that but it's so obvious and I don't want people to be like #anxious for no reason you know? #Like I get that we're all scarred from queerbaiting and I know you guys are biased from years of shipping these kids. #But like. These guys? The most obvious 'there's only one way this could go' couple I've ever seen? You're scared about THEM?

[jasontoddssuper]

Idk how people read Pjo and thought Percy Jackson was a soft uwu ray of sunshine boy.He's mean and ruthless as fuck,he's always snarking at people and gets embarrased to show 'mushy' emotions and has anger issues out the ass and manipulated multiple of his enemies and some of the shit he's pulled on the battle field was like something out of a horror movie/novel and even his tastes reflect that since he's canonically a rock music fan.Yeah he's a massive mama's boy and respects women tons and is also a Team Dad but those don't contradict any of it-I mean,just look at Jason Todd

#then again people call jt a softboy too so ig that's yet another thing they have in common #the only good soft!percy is him having kidcore as a special interest.he's not an edgelord but he's got edgy traits y'know? #it would honestly be hella unrealistic if he didn't and that also applies to jason and it feels ableist to erase their trauma responses #that might just be me though #percy jackson #perseo jackson #persephone jackson #jason todd #black percy #latino percy #afrolatino jason supremacy #punk!percy #bigender percy jackson #genderfluid percy jackson #trans jason todd #agender jason todd #and jason is adhd like percy + they're both autistic #pjo #hoo #tods #toa #batfam #ditf #lost days #utrh #rhato #teen titans:damian edition #dead sidekicks force #good times #letters from summer

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[uncanny-tranny]

This might be a weird piece of advice, but instead of complimenting somebody (especially children) with an overarching, nonspecific compliment (like "smart" for example), it can be better to compliment somebody for their effort or for the work they have done.

I was always complimented as the "smart kid," and was always doted on for being "smart," but I found that it really stressed me out as a kid because being "smart" was a good thing, but I had no idea what they meant by it. I stressed out about it because it felt like, at any time, my status as The Smart Kid could - and would - be taken away at anybody's discretion. I wish my efforts in being a Smart Kid would have been highlighted, because maybe that would have made me feel less like my status mattered rather than my efforts.

#advice #maybe this is because i'm like. autistic. and don't understand what people mean with very nonspecific labels like smart #i've noticed people label a lot of things as 'smart' when to me that seems too nonspecific like i've said #like we have book smart and street smart but people don't get what 'smart' is. also smart looks like a stupid word to me now. #it got to the point where i told people directly i dont like to be called 'smart' because it's Stressful #and again maybe this is advice that's too specific but i think it can be helpful to keep it in mind #my biggest thing is making people (especially young folk) feel empowered and feel like they are being seen as they are

[horse-head-farms]

thinking about Jevin and xB and how they both bully Hypno, and, in the context of ships, interpreting it kinda as… Jevin is mean to Hypno because he has romantic feelings for him, kinda like the stereotype of “he’s bullying you because he likes you and has a crush on you” in school children. Meanwhile, xB is mean to Hypno because it’s funny, and any romantic feelings he has are purely coincidental. Is this making sense

#posts inspired by in jevin’s episode: etho suggesting something smart and jevin accidentally going “wow hypno’s so smart” LOL #technically because hypno was in his chat at the same time. BUT. i think its funnier if c!jevin just assumes anything cool is hypno’s doing #a subconscious bias that goes into everything. saying “ugh hypno smells” but secretly believing hypno is handsome smart funny etc #also: don’t get me wrong i think hypno and xb bullying each other is a way of displaying affection for them. but it isn’t xb #trying to respond to his own internal feelings. hypno is just bulliable #on a serious note the “he bullies you because he likes you” concept annoys me a lot irl as an autistic person who was bullied #i think people just bullied me because I was the nearest “weird” kid and they were unhappy with their lives so wanted some control #BUT in fiction + where its more of a mutual teasing where nobody is too upset. love that trope #hermitshipping #hermitshipblr #hypnotizd #xbcrafted #ijevin #jevno #hypxb #hhf #these aren’t the only hypno ships i have but they’re the two most common for him and the ones that fit the point i was trying to make

[misfithive]

Im really really hoping the theory about Wille having a birthday in s3 are true because i want Simon to give him a gift SO BADLY. I want it to be something sweet and whimsical and soft bc Wille deserves whimsy in his life. Even if it is a gag gift that Wille actually ends up keeping. I really want the stuffed animal frog like i mentioned in my unhinged s3 list bc its the opposite of the snow globe with the hard (now jagged) edges. Like a soft stuffed frog (no crown) it would be so cute :(((((( But really Simon giving Wille any kind of sweet simple gift would be so cute to me.

Editing to add a picture of what i am envisioning bc i’m annoying like that! Pls just imagine it !

#i fear young royals might be too serious to do something like this #but simon’s stuffed animal and sara’s horse stuffed animal are feeding my hopes of wille having a atuffed animal s3 #plus u know when the rich person has everythinn the could ask for but then they get something thats not expensive but very mesmingful? #idk if thats a real trope but i love if #i am also stereotypical autistic person who has 500 stuffed animals and i think everyone should have the same #i thought i posted this days ago but oh well #simon deserve whimsy too but idk i think wille making him the sandwiches and taking care of him is more what i want vs a gift #unless its like a promise ring or him giving simon something sentimental that belongs to him idk i cant explain it #plus i think it would feel vulnerable for simon to give wille something and hope he likes it which would be soooo cuteee i love shy simon #wilmon #simon eriksson #prince wilhelm #young royals #young royals s3 #yr spoiler #<tagging as a spoiler incase people dont want fan theories or something im sorry #yr s3 spoilers

[gen4grl]

kantrio in masters actually makes my heart melt blue and leaf chattering away and red responding with “…!” and them knowing exactly what he’s saying …. oh they’re BESTIES

#kantrio means a lot to me i feel like they’ve gone through a lot together but they’re still soulmates despite it all #i RARELY talk about my kanto hc’s on here even though i have sooo much i think their dynamic is really unique hmm #putting my autistic hc on red too seeing two people able to completely understand you no matter how you communicate also heals a part of me😭 #ramblings #pokemas #red pokemon #leaf pokemon #blue pokemon #kantrio

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

#what’s even weirder is that half of these precious sunshine baby characters will canonically have some kind of temper too 😭😭 #like sorry I don’t think Adrien is an innocent ray of sunshine he was literally destroying property out of spite 😭😭 #cal.txt #autism stuff #fandom ableism #infantilization #she ra spop #entrapta #spn #supernatural #jack kline #autistic jack kline #adrien agreste #Like of course he isn’t canonically ND but the whole angle of his social awkwardness and unawareness #miraculous ladybug #it’s still a common trait in ND people and it’s probably the most infantilized aspect of us #but come on man #and don’t even get me started on jack. we know how I feel #TLDR jack strangling the gas n sip employee in a rage so blind he had to be shot in the back to snap out of it #like am I alone in this am I detecting a pattern that nobody else is . #siigghhh #we will never be free 😭😭😭😭 #castiel #at some point in the fandom and probably still in a few corners #autistic representation #this goes for when a character is simply coded that way too #like I cannot stress enough how coding and representation work #I also cannot stress enough that ableism does not have to be intentional to be ableism holy BALLS dude #you can do it by accident!!! you can play into tropes that you didn’t realize were bad!!!! ITS NOT A MORAL FAILING ON YOUR PART #it’s just a product of society like everything else.

[etandthekeet]

This college au has given me life. I just had to draw their party outfits. Especially with the way scarab’s was described.

This is from the fic Social butterfly, anxious beetle. It’s so sweet so far

#I would tag the author but tumblr doesn’t seem to want to let me. #I’ll troubleshoot in the morning perhaps #prohibitedwish #the way people headcanon their human scarabs are too relatable #like. not just in this fic specially ( although I am going to my first *party* party this weekend) #but also when people are making scarab a human in their AUs he’s usually an ftm autistic bug enthusiast who likes to be on his own at first #just like me fr #it’s been a while since I’ve drawn humans #I’m feeling extremely shy and nervous about posting to the tag. please don’t perceive me. just look at the art #also I have a scarab blog called scarab-scuttles I just think the url is cute. I’ve only reblogged my own posts on it so it’s pretty bare

[pickled-flowers]

Also just because you get annoyed by something someone is doing doesn't mean they are evil you can leave us alone

#this is about autistic people. #that guy in you class that is always asking questions? he always raises his hand theres nothing wrong with it #it takes time in the class but that's how he makes sure he understands the subject #and meanwhile every other student decides hes an asshole #that girl who doesnt blink and who cant seem to have a linear conversation is not doing anything wrong #you dont like interacting with her but that doesnt say anything about her you can leave her alone you dont have to bitch behind her back #that person cant read social cues? why are you getting mad? can you shut the fuck up? #it is insane how often some of my friends talk about people who are clearly autistic and are mad at them #no its not because theyre autistic theyre just always interupting! #its not because theyre autistic they just make me uncomfortable! PLEASE LISTEN TO YOURSELF #i swear youre all asshole to us #no respect fr #its so annoying to see you run in a circle trying to justify calling someone an ass for doing literally nothing wrong #youre allowed to feel how you want about other people but you always jump to bullying #and whenever i try to make them realize they get so deffensive #just because you grew up with an autistic brother does not make you a fucking expert youre not even close to him!! #ok sorry im gonna go hit my bong im getting too angry lol

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Important PSA:

Autistic people can experience Rejection sensitive dysphoria too.

What to Know About Autism and Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria:

#autism #actually autistic #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rsd #rsd and autism #autistic people can have rsd too #rsd isn’t limited to just those with ADHD #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent #feel free to share

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though #it often takes me a long time to write that response #my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly #I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times #I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory #so I keep putting off reblogging gift art #because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give #maybe that sounds dumb and fake #but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that #often weeks sometimes months even #and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed #I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time #not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person #so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet #please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess #and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you #feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot #and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it #because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond #thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it #sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot #because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness #I'm trying to work on that #answered #anonymous

[dailypokemoncrochet]

I forgot I have to remake an Onix because I somewhat impulse gave it to someone at work

#text #i thought he was having a bad week/month #and i knew onix was his favorite #so before leaving for work one day i grabbed the onix from my ceiling #(felt like picking a fruit off a tree lol) #and then handed it to him when we passed in the hall #i ended up quitting like a few weeks after i think #but i heard he was walking around with it on his shoulder the other day so thats good #i got way too attached to people at work and i feel weird about having quit so suddenly for ostensibly a dumb reason #but uh im too autistic for whatever middle management shit they got going on. and possibly too autistic for any job 😔