#autism stuff

[concerningwolves]

sorry i was so weird but you invoked a topic i am incapable of being normal about

#autism stuff #special interest

[madamefortressmommyy]

If you are ever thinking of an autistic person and say to yourself "I never really have to make any/many accomodations for them."

Yeah.

That is because WE are the ones making the accomodations for YOU.

You always hear about how we need all this support and patience but no one ever talks about the sacrafices ASD people make for he NTs in our lives that they never even see or know about.

Oh, you think I am "well spoken?" Thats cuz i spent a ridiculous amount of time rehearsing my lines and facial expressions to make sure they meet your liking.

I don't seem to have any sensory issues? My guy, i have nerve damage from raw dogging the pain. You ever watch a lactose intolerant person eat dairy? They aint gonna shit their pants in front of you. You dont have to follow them into he bathroom to believe them.

Oh you mean you dont remember me ever having a meltdown? I locked myself on the bathroom to have my "temper tantrums" in private since i was 5 years old.

You think I dont stim? Let me roll up my sleeves and show you the gashes and scars from clawing myself under my shirt. The inside of my mouth looks like a crime scene. I can taste the blood. You cant. I would much rather be "squirming" or wearing very strong perfume but i know that bothers people so i find another way.

You think i am "smart?" Yeah i might be, but that is because i am constantly using my problem solving skills to quietly and covertly solve problems i am not "supposed" to have. Problems that would never even occur to you. Problems you would never even know about because i am fucking terrified of what people would say if they knew it takes me 3 hours to get dressed and shower sometimes.

I have given myself perminant nerve damage just because i was afraid to make other people even a little uncomfy.

You understand body language because it comes naturally to you.

I understand body language because it comes naturally to you.

We are not the same.

#autism #asd #actually autistic #disability #neurodiversity #fibromyalgia #adhd #autism stuff

[doctor-mccoys-sanity]

autism and strong emotion just be like… SHAKE! SHAKE SO HARD! BUT FEEL TRAPPED BY THE PRISON OF YOUR BONES *screams*

#this is about meltdowns not shutdowns btw #if any other autistics see this pls say if this is also your experience with strong negative emotions #i’m curious how universal this particular description is #particularly if that’s how meltdowns feel for you #autistic community #autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic experiences #being autistic #neurodivergent #neurodivergency #asd #autism spectrum disorder #autism struggles #autism stuff #meltdown #autistic meltdowns

[solreefs]

“the way autistic people express empathy can seem strange to others, and they might be incorrectly seen as unempathetic when in reality, the problem is miscommunication” AND “many autistic people have low or no empathy, and talking about this does not promote stereotypes or make us bad people” can and should coexist.

#solreefspeak #autism stuff #actually autistic #low empathy #no empathy

[ghostslimu]

#adhd #autism #neurodivergent #adhd memes #autism memes #neurodivergent memes #actually neurodivergent #art #adhd stuff #autism stuff

[smorp-a-dorp]

Autistic person without headphones, forced to be alone with thoughts

No survivors

#autistic stuff #autistic #autistic person #autistic things #autism #autism acceptance #autism posting #autism stuff #autism things #autism tag #autism won today #comfort item #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodiverse stuff #smorp original

[xenosaurus]

there’s an autism test going around again, and those are always WILD to take as an adult who has actively worked to adapt to certain symptoms.  My score has almost definitely “improved” by neurotypical standards because I put in an unholy amount of effort to get there.  I didn’t “become normal”.

I was a deeply anxious child with no idea how to interact with other children and could rarely identify my OWN emotions, let alone how they looked on others.  I got badly bullied because all of my social interactions were “off”, too forward or too quiet and too fixated on single topics.

As an adult, I work in training, where I often teach classes to large groups of strangers, and every year my performance reviews are full of comments about me being friendly and welcoming.  I get along with most of my coworkers, even the ones I have nothing in common with.

I have not become less autistic.  Nothing became instinctive or “just makes sense”.  I didn’t “grow out of it”.  I have 10+ years of therapy under my belt and understanding friends who were safety nets while I tried new things and let me ask “weird” questions about body language or social interactions.  I learned body language the same way I learned math-- by reading instructions, by practicing, by cheating off someone sitting next to me if I had to.

And I only got through it at all because I find people interesting; if I’d been bored by them, I’d have been stuck, and no amount of intervention would have gotten past that stumbling block.  I weaponized a special interest in personality development to get here.

I still struggle without accommodations my peers don’t need.  I still can’t go to concerts or clubs or loud parties.  I can still lose myself for hours in a special interest and forget to eat.  I still miss euphemistic jokes if I haven’t heard them before.  I still struggle with executive dysfunction and sensory problems, and if there’s a NEW social skill to learn, I’ve got to figure it out from the starting line.

Getting good at navigating around your disability doesn’t mean it went away.

#autism stuff #bullying mention

[soullessjack]

a collection or mood-board of sorts

#cal.txt #glitter text #animated text #shitpost #autistic characters #autism representation #jack kline #spn #autism #your fav is #ID: your autistic favs do fuck! me. I’m fucking them. die mad about it #image posting #image collection #autism memes #autism stuff #blorbo tag #your fav #every day I remember that jack is literally a grown ass romance-feeling sex-wanting autistic adult infantilized for his autistic traits #and then I die a little bit inside #but will that stop me from carnal posting ab him? absolutely fucking not. he’s pretty and I want him and that’s never gonna change #sexualizing autism is actually crucial to beating ableism im so serious

[trashandwriting]

Me, confidently: I am autistic. So I don't always understand social rules. That is totally okay, it is part of my disability. I shouldn't beat myself up for that.

Also me when I don't understand social rule: I AM ACTUALLY WORTHLESS JUST LET ME ROT IN MY APARTMENT FOREVER WHY DO I EVEN HAVE TO GO OUT AND DO THINGS EVERYBODY HATES ME

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autism stuff #autistic struggles

[sillystringedrat]

God didn’t give me any normal healthy hyperfixations cause he knew if I was productive I would be too powerful and create things against his name

#hyperfixations #adhd memes #autistic memes #neurodivergent #adhd stuff #autism stuff #special interest

[katnisseverdeenlovesprim]

Not my meme, rust reposting on tumblr.

#autism stuff #autism memes #autism #actually disabled #actually neurodivergent #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autistic pride #autistic spectrum #autistic community #autistic experiences #neurodivergent #neurospicy #funny memes #memes #meme

[stompybootz]

chicken nugget has a piece of unseen gristle in it

10 word horror story for adhd/autistic folks

#help me i can't look at it without feeling nauseous #time for a new safe food #adhd memes #autism #autism memes #living with adhd #adhd life #autistic things #neurodiverse stuff #neurodiversity #picky eater #chicken nuggets #relatable memes #adult adhd #adhd #adhd things #adhd stuff #adhd problems #autism struggles #autism stuff #autism swag

[concerningwolves]

Also, this talk about scapegoating ND people because of "incorrect" or "weird" behaviours vividly reminds me of this time in middle school when our entire year group did this desert island survival team-building exercise.

I've blanked most of it from my memory because the whole scenario was unspeakably miserable, but I don't think I'll ever forget what happened when the teachers introduced a Traitors-type mechanic. Basically, they randomly picked a student who would "sabotage" the "supplies" by stealing some (iirc, these were a stock of those little beanbags we used in PE), and we were supposed to work together to salvage the situation.

What actually happened was a witch hunt for the saboteur, and because I (undiagnosed autistic) wasn't reacting "correctly" to the situation, everyone came down on me. I remember standing in the corridor while a bunch of people that I called acquaintances, and some who I considered friends, all crowded around asking me if I was the thief. I think I might have been almost hysterical, because I started laughing and grinning in that painfully embarrassed way while I protested my innocence, and they took this as further "proof" and pressed me harder. I remember feeling absolutely filthy with hot-and-cold sweat, so frustrated I wanted to cry, because nobody would believe me. They were convinced it was me, because I'd committed some social transgression or other that I didn't understand, and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it.

The teachers put a stop to it in the end. (I think they actually cancelled the entire exercise, but maybe it was just that particular aspect they scrapped). Our form teacher gave everyone a very disappointed talk and revealed that the real thief was someone nobody had even glanced at, because he was popular and well-liked. I don't remember if anyone ever apologised to me. One of my friends told me I'd been "over-reacting", because it was "just a game", but to me it'd felt like a microcosm of my social life with the stakes dialled up a 100%.

I will always be able to point to that instance as the first time I became really, excruciatingly aware just how Different I was. For some reason, I'd put a target on myself, I thought. I know now that it was actually a case of ableism and inherent biases against neurodivergent behaviors, but that's a recent revelation. And my heart breaks when I think about how that kind of thing happens every day, all across the world, because so many societies train people to see ND traits as red flags.

#Autism #Autism stuff #Ableism #Neurodivergent

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

shout out to-

the level 2-3 autistics, (I fucking love you so much!!!)

the autistics who are insanely fucked up by trauma

the autistics who are treated like shit by the aspies (fucking aspies)

the autistics who have incredibly fucked up special interests

the autistics who are always hallucinating and see weird shit

autistics who literally were starved because ARFID and bad parents

mute, AAC, nonverbal, deaf, and hoh autistics who are treated like shit

cluster b and schizospec autistics who deal with so much bullshit

autistics who are also adhd/add who are so fucking done with being BOTH

the 50+ year olds who just found out that autism exists and are getting diagnosed soon

AND

- the disabled autistics who are so fucking done and want to commit manslaughter

I hope you know I love you <3

#-pop #disability #autism stuff #neurodivergent stuff

[digitalmagpie]

It was brought to my attention on a different social media platform that there was a lack of this type of information in Spanish. I don't speak the language, but one of our group members does and created this to be shared. Credit to Merianne Riestra.

#autism things #red instead #autism speaks doesn't speak for me #autism stuff #autism acceptance

[philcoulsonismyhero]

A thing I've been thinking about a lot as I've been obsessively re-listening to the Rivers of London books on a loop and putting colour coded bookmarks into my paperbacks (in short, being Extremely Autistic about the series) is just how interesting it would be to explore what it would be like to be an autistic wizard in that 'verse.

Like, take vestigia. It's a whole extra category of sensory impressions on top of everything else that you're picking up on, and you only get more sensitive to it the longer you train for. Peter wonders at one point if Nightingale isn't just straight up listening to the magic of the city in order to find out about cases, and even if he isn't doing that he's still got to be picking up on a Huge amount of sense impressions from the magic around him. Would an autistic practitioner be even more sensitive to vestigia? Just how much of a sensory overload trigger would it be, given that it's not a true smell/sound/whatever? Do really skilled practitioners like Nightingale ever get overloaded by just how much they can sense? Would an autistic wizard have to train themselves to shut out their sense of vestigia so they didn't get overwhelmed?

And then there's how you learn magic in the first place, which is a lot of repetition, doing the same thing over and over again until you produce an effect, and then continuing to repeat it until the effect becomes consistent. And you build spells by learning more and more formae, memorising them in the process. Which sounds to me like Such an autism-friendly way of learning to do anything, I fucking love repetition and memorising huge amounts of information.

Also, it's pointed out a bunch of times that Nightingale has almost scary levels of focus. In Broken Homes he spends ages watching CCTV footage, and then a full half hour just staring at the dog batteries at Skygarden. And it's pretty obvious that his level of obsessive focus is what's made him such a powerful wizard, since he's willing to put in the hours of practice, so autistic obsessiveness would be useful too.

(Sidenote, but I'm not sure if I actually think Nightingale is a character I'd read as autistic. He's definitely got a bunch of traits in the right direction, like the single-minded focus, the scary levels of concentration, the things he's very particular about and the way he can miss Peter's sarcasm sometimes, but in his case I think it's more just his personality and training and age, plus all the trauma. But I do think it would be a fun possibility/what-if to explore.)

And when it just comes down to it, I don't think I've ever encountered a magic system that appeals more to the specific way that my brain works than the RoL one, it seems like it would be So fun to learn. Even, tbh especially, the Latin and all the other studying that's also involved. So it does rather entertain me that I've gotten really autistic over a book series that has such an autism-friendly magic system, it feels Good and Correct.

Although. Ben Aaronovitch. My guy. Give me a list of all the formae and how they work, I am Begging you. I've never wanted an in-universe textbook tie-in book as much as I do for this series and Eventually I'm going to get my hands on the TTRPG book and obsess over every little detail of how they've interpreted the magic for that.

#rivers of london #it's Such a good magic system and it scratches my brain in just the right way #also i think these books might have convinced me to pick up latin again #i did five years of it in school and i'm a bit rusty #but suddenly i really want to get back into it #but yes i've been bouncing off of various type of sensory overload for a month #and it's really got me thinking about how vestigia would interact with that #so here are some Thoughts #personal stuff #wizard nonsense tag #autism stuff #actually autistic