#atypical anorexia recovery

[peculiar--princess]

Just a reminder that your eating disorder will not give you the sense of control you’re looking for.

#therapist had to remind me today that I am in fact not in control rn and the Ed voice is convincing me I am.. so that’s cool #Ed recovery #eating disorder recovery #anorexia recovery #bulimia recovery #atypical anorexia recovery #BED recovery #positive #positive blog

[whsprings]

"my ed almost killed me" yeah well mine didn't. I was very much alive and "healthy." no one noticed I was struggling; I didn't get treatment until I asked for it myself because I didn't "look sick." and guess what! I still had to recover! I am still just as worthy of a better life, of a life free from my ed! you do not need to be near death to deserve recovery. you do not need to be medically compromised to deserve recovery. just because you can sustain this disease for what feels like forever doesn't mean that you should or that you need to. normalize recovering for reasons other than "I almost died."

#ed recovery #pro recovery #mental health #recovery #mental illness #edxorcism #anorexia recovery #osfed recovery #atypical anorexia recovery #bulimia recovery #bed recovery

[recoverycat]

I am not stupid or broken, I am reacting humanly in inhumane conditions.

#affirmations #eating disoder recovery #mental health #eating disorder #osfed #anorexia #atypical anorexia #bulimia #binge eating

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

early in recovery these labels rly bothered me

#atypical #eating disorder recovery #ed recovery #atypical anorexia diagnosis #doodles #bad art #lousy drawings #doodle #positivity #self love #healing #recovery #bmi is garbage #diagnostic criteria is bullshit

[fuck-your-proana-blog]

So my older cat is on his way out. He has hyperthyroidism, cancer, and late stage kidney disease. He can barely eat because he has no teeth so we hand feed him when he has trouble. Despite having all the food he can handle, he is still very skinny. Sickly skinny. Do I look at my 21 year old dying cat and think "body goals"? Of fucking course not. He's sick. He's dying of cancer. The same can be said of anorexic bodies- the inhabitants of those bodies are sick and dying, yet society and especially pro anas promote them as "body goals" and "thinspo," yet I doubt any one of them would look at an emaciated animal and think the same. We have more sympathy for dying animals than we do for ourselves. Some of us would starve to get an unhealthily skinny body, but would we ever starve our pets to make them emaciated? I'd hope not. Extend yourself the same compassion. Being sick is nothing to covet. Deadly mental illnesses should never be fetishized or promoted as something to be desired. Take care of your body in the same way you would your dear dying pet. Your life is worth more than suffering to be sick on purpose, you deserve more. Remember that.

#anti pro ana #ed recovery #pro recovery #ana #mia #ed #eating disorder #anorexia #osfed #thinspo #body goals #thin #skinny #bonespo #atypical anorexia

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

girl help i discovered another character i want to write stories about

#patience is spawning SO many stories i Cannot #this one is one of hannah's friends. elizabeth #she has atypical anorexia and it's hannah's death that gets her to finally choose recovery and there's a story there too #i really feel like it's discovering not creating. she just Appeared #also: i feel like id figured it out but ive forgotten: what do y'all think hannah should do for a job/study at uni #since she meets elizabeth at uni #writing

[slaying-strong]

What’s crazy is looking back at older pictures when my ED was at its worst physically and mentally and remembering exactly how I felt about myself (all negative self talk and negative body image thoughts that I will not detail here) and thinking damn, i look so (insert some positive thoughts here) and I never could’ve seen it at the time.

#recovery #anorexia #recovery blog #ed recovery #anamia #bulimia #ed #thinspo #ana #ednos #thin #atypical anorexia #skinny #anorexix #osfed #anorexiia #mental health #calories #eating disorders #ed warrior

[sunsetsandhope]

I wish I did not know how many calories are in 3 slices of bread I eat for breakfast

I wish I did not know how many calories are in 22 strawberries from my garden

I wish I did not feel the need to exactly track the amount of calories I eat because of fear

I wish I did not know how long I need to walk in order to burn certain amount of calories

I wish it would be easier on me. I wish I could stop one day and don't worry about calories, weight gain, and not having the body that everyone is telling me that I should have. I wish it would be easy. I wish I could forget how many calories are in the food I eat daily. I wish my ed voice would be gone because I don't want to listen to her anymore

I wish ed recovery would be easier and I would be at peace with my body.

#tw ed in the tags #ed vent #ed recovery #ed rant #anorexia recovery #atypical anorexia

[anyspiridcomics]

Chapter 6, Part 1/4

Please be mindful of the tws

#disordered eating cw #tw disordered eating #tw ed descussion #disordered eating thoughts #disordered eating recovery #recovery #ana recovery #atypical ana #anorexia #ed recovery #recovering from ana #eating disorder recovery #comic #graphic novel #myart #comics #illustration #my comic

[henryandkalcavillsdogpack41482]

What no one tells you about being recovered

Before I start to either write or post any of my future stories, I felt like it was a good idea to post and share this. As I have shared in previous posts, I’ve been in Recovery for the past 12 years after a 15 year battle with atypical anorexia/binge eating disorder. There are some things that people even that we just assume will happen soon as you reach the “Recovered” Stage. Unfortunately, we get a bit of a major reality check of expectations. 

I guess by watching these videos or even listening to me or asking me questions what I was going through when I was sick, it might help understand some of the the thoughts a future character might be saying or thinking. 

#youtube #what no one tells you about being recovered #eating disorder recovery #atypical anorexia #binge eating disorder #12 years into recovery

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

I did a scary thing today.

I’m a medical student. My school is a little more progressive. We had a lecture today on anti-fat bias, but it never got to the lecture point. Instead, it became a conversation where a lot of people were confused about how we can create inclusivity while still providing best care. Some people were genuinely interested. Other people seemed to miss the point entirely and held onto this belief that fat = bad (always) and that it’s their duty to tell their patients that fat = bad.

I had atypical anorexia from the time I was 13 until I was 25. I recovered into a fat body (this is my preferred term). Listening to students argue and miss the big picture was triggering and infuriating. I held my hand up and put it down many times until finally the lecturer called on me even tho my hand was down. So I decided to speak up.

I told the entire class- including people I don’t feel very safe with at all- about my history. About how horrifically sick I was despite my “healthy” weight. How I wasn’t believed. How I could access treatment. And how the big take away is that weight isn’t something directly in our control- and it’s not helpful to focus on it. Sure, our behaviors may influence our weight, but so much of weight maintenance is not within our complete control. We can’t check off the box each day “weigh ___ lbs.” I tried when I was thin. I’ve tried post-recovery and have relapsed into behaviors more times I care to admit. Focusing on weight kept me sick. It kept me engaging in some of the worst behaviors (I won’t mention them here because they may be triggering to read about). Why put the focus on weight when you can shift the focus to health related behavior, like encouraging sustainable, accessible movement can reduce health risks dramatically? Encouraging eating more vegetables and fruits and fiber (rather than “fewer calories”)?

I completely dissociated while talking. I am open about my past eating disorder in the sense that I don’t hide it. I wrote about it in my application essays. I will answer any questions people have and share my experience in hopes it helps somebody at some point down the line. But I have never stood in front of so many people, some who hold biases about what an eating disorder looks like or what my health and value must be because of my body, and actually spoken the words “I had a 12 year history of atypical anorexia.”

I feel more vulnerable than I want to feel, but I’m glad I did it. Some people will roll their eyes and ignore that life altering restrictive eating disorder can and do happen in people with larger bodies, and that primarily weight focused medical care harms more patients than it’ll help. But if it helps just one person start to think- maybe this is something to consider, maybe I should be mindful of eating disorders and disordered eating in ALL body shapes and sizes… then the dissociation and tears and possible bias and stigma from a few confused people is worth it to me.

Thank you for letting me share 💜

Thank you for sharing :) that is a scary thing, and you were so brave for being so open and persistent. I hope you know how valuable it is to introduce the basic challenging of others' worldview in that learning environment, and you are so right that if you changed the views of even one person, then it was worth it to share, because that one person may go on to do a world of good in their own practice where there might have been harm.

It is so hard to stand up for yourself when the whole world disagrees with you. I am in immense admiration of your courage and hope you took good care of yourself after that class, anon.

#fatphobia #medical fatphobia #haes #ed recovery #body posi #fat posi #atypical ana

[cherrydi3tcoke]

my poem about anorexia:

"ana"

my caved in chest

and chicken arms

my pencil thin legs

and all my scars

my hollowed out cheeks

the rituals begin

the bags under my sockets

the definition of my chin

the fatigue every morning

the dizzy every night

the hunger pain

and the shivers

triggering myself

ana is the boss

find a way to cope

weight loss

decreased testosterone

or the absence of your period

workout routines

food diaries

nausea

sudden death

making others worried

shortness of breath

constipation or diarrhea

cut out food groups

weigh in every day

osteoporosis

my hair falling out

lanugo on my skin

bruises on my legs

my collarbones thin

my spine visible

my sternum is too

my bicep non-existent

daydreaming about my meals

every calorie counting

working out for hours on end

stomach flat

unable to keep a friend

a kilo or a pound

obsessed with the numbers

check each ingredient

water instead of oil

unsweetened almond milk

or a rice cake

oatmeal

scared to attempt to bake

blueish fingers

yellow-tinted skin

anemia

distorted self-image

feeding all my friends

counting while I eat

portioning myself

starving is my treat

women

men

children

and teens

memorize the macros

"i am not a dog, food is not my treat"

cry yourself to sleep

"but I've seen you eat"

big

tall

short small

haunted by her curse

hours in mirrors

isolate from others

heart palpations

and restless nights

incurable thirst

intermittent fasting

binges or purges

all effects are lasting

normal on the outside

dying on the inside

questions from passersby

self-harm

"just one more hour"

"just one more meal"

"i already ate"

"it's not that big of a deal"

suicidal thoughts

being underweight

scared of being healthy

scared to get too sick

feeding tubes

hospitalization

thinking about food

hyperventilation

racing thoughts

loneliness

using laxatives

diets

going to the gym

going for a run

bodychecking

never having fun

infertility

cracked, dry skin

thin, brittle nails

weakened teeth

ruining my life

ruining my relationships

ruining my future

unable to eat a bag of chips

eating disorder speaks in my place

therapy

"just eat"

excuses for each meal

obsessed with my intake

obsessed with the math

obsessed with my weight

following this path

ice

water

gum

coffee

hoping that they notice

never tell a soul

hide it all from others

staring at my empty bowl

atypical or not

never feeling valid

covering my body

starving till I'm on my deathbed

recovery is useless

"i want to stay this way"

I'll have to fight my whole life

to keep her voice at bay

searches on the Internet

headaches

vitamin deficient

aspartame

comparison

"no cal is better than low cal"

refeeding syndrome

"I'm not good enough"

"once on the lips forever on the hips"

quick ways to lose weight

calculate my BMI

freak out about what I just ate

ana,

oh how she will lie

she doesn't want you to just be a number

she wants you to die.

-zsc

#@nor3×14 #light as a 🪶 #light as a feather #th1nsp1ration #thin$po #pro for me not for thee #thinspø #@n@ #@na vent #ana angels🪽 #starv1ng #i wanna be skinnier #i want to be skinnier #pro for only myself #poetry #ana poetry #ana poem #ana trigger #ana is my friend #ana is my life #bonespø #meal$p0 #thinner is better #tw thinspi #i will be a skeleton #a4a tips #@n0r3xia #@na fast #ed behaviour tw #depressing shit

[whsprings]

the only way to get out of the treatment cycle seems to be to build a life that is actually worth living, that you do not want to give up, that you like more than the ed and treatment and everything that comes with it. if I have something to lose, something I am willing to fight for other than my own sanity, then maybe I will actually be able to pull through. romanticize the hell out of life. not recovery, not treatment, and definitely not sickness, but life. you can save your own life, yes, but sometimes your life will save you.

#ed recovery #pro recovery #mental health #recovery #mental illness #reminder #atypical anorexia recovery #anorexia recovery #bulimia recovery #osfed recovery #bed recovery

[recoverycat]

After losing 13 years of my life to a debilitating eating disorder and cptsd that left me disabled with chronic pain and fatigue, I’m finally getting my life back. I dropped out of middle school due to my psychosomatic mental health issues and never managed to hold a normal job. I’ve been living at the outskirts of society since then, isolating, hating and fighting myself.

I recently had a cold and it made me reminisce how hard everything was before I recovered. I constantly felt like I was sick and everything was so hard. Lightheaded, dizzy, hungry, weak, out of breath, headaches, constipation, feeling blood struggling to pump to my head when standing up and seeing stars, freezing, my feet could barely support my own weight. It was absolutely horrible. My cptsd left me with restless nights, nightmares, severe anxiety, paranoia and body armoring. The chokehold these two disorder had around my throat left me desperate to escape myself which only worsened all my issues.

So much has changed. Once I managed to recover from my ED, everything became so much more managable. I got the energy I needed to claw back control of myself and my life.

I managed to get an apprenticeship as a traditional dress maker, which has been a dream of mine that I never thought was possible due to my previous pain and fatigue. I’m moving to a beautiful nature municipality to start a new chapter in my life. My new apartment is much nicer than any place I’ve ever rented before. I’m really moving up in the world and it all started with eating properly so that I could function enough to manage everything else.

My grandma always said “Uten mat og drikke, duger helten ikke.” A rhyme meaning without food and drink, the hero cannot function. I guess she was right!

#anorexia recovery #atypical anorexia #eating disoder recovery #mental health #bulimia #binge eating #cptsd

[ttouch-starvedd]

• about me! •

• i’m liv!! (nice to meet u)

• i’m 18

• i use she/her pronouns (they/them works fine too!)

• OSFED (atypical anorexia)

♡

my stats:

BMI: 24.1

height: 5’5 (about 165cm)

HW: 208lbs

LW: 145.7lbs

SW: 177lbs

CW: 145.7

GW: 175 lbs | 155lbs | 135lbs

UGW: 125lbs

UUGW: 110lbs

♡

pro recovery!! (just not for me :p)

i love reading, writing, studying polisci, and taylor swift!!!

DMs/asks are always open

♡

DNI:

- if you do not have an ED/are currently in recovery

- if you are under 16

- if you are pro ED or don’t support recovery

- if you are f4tph0b!c/share f4tsp0

- if you post gore, violence, or graphic images of SH (scars are fine!)

- if you are racist/homophobic/transphobic/an asshole

#ed bllog #4n0r3xia #tw ana shit #ana and mia #tw ed rant #tw ed diet #ed not ed sheeran #tw disordered eating #tw ana diary #ed behaviour tw #ed bullshit #notprojustusingthetags

[fuck-your-proana-blog]

There's nothing wrong with an OSFED atypical anorexia diagnosis. You don't have to covet an anorexia nervosa diagnosis, your diagnosis is just as valid. There are differences between the two that affect the treatment program in recovery, so the differences are relevant and there's no need to hold anorexia nervosa on a pedestal like it's some sort of accomplishment. Doing so just adds to the stupid "hierarchy" in the inherently competitive nature of EDs. I was my worst exercise and restriction wise when I had atypical anorexia, so stop glorifying anorexia nervosa by saying you're anorexic when you have OSFED. BED, OSFED, bulimia, etc are all just as valid as anorexia nervosa so stop trying to equate OSFED atypical anorexia with anorexia nervosa. It just adds to the "sick enough" stigma that we should all be fighting to dismantle. There is no "better" ED to have. They all suck and put us through hell so just stop. Your diagnosis is valid no matter what your weight is.

#ed recovery #pro recovery #bed #osfed #stop erasing osfed bulimia and bed #bulimia nervosa #anti pro ana #anorexia nervosa #anorexia nervosa criteria #osfed atypical anorexia