#annoying bc it’s like ok you made that choice so live with it. but im so fucking mad at myself and i wish i could undo it. i know it doesn’t
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STILL wide awake! i did not put down my phone! and now im hungry. so i will not be sleeping tonight ♥️
#purrs#also… im gonna admit it. ive been up for hours cleaning out… my toyhouse accounts. not cleaning them out but cleaning them up. and im so#FUCKING mad at my 18 year old self for giving away characters that meant so much to me to 12 year olds on warriors amino who never finished#their half of the art trade… and now so many of them are like. completely out of my reach and i can never get them back. im trying to ask#for the characters ive been able to find and track them down. which for ppl who actually love and care for them im sure is predatory and#annoying bc it’s like ok you made that choice so live with it. but im so fucking mad at myself and i wish i could undo it. i know it doesn’t#matter bc i don’t do that kind of deviantart stuff anymore but like.. i gave away characters who were so special to me growing up and now so#many of them are like.. on locked / unauthorized toyhouses or deleted or the person already owns them and is never trading them and#imjust so SAD!!!!!! over pixels i know. PULLING AN ALL NIGHTER over pixels. but im so saddddd aughhhhh#delete later#(i also did clean out photos and do practice drivers tests btw. but ive mostly been doing toyhouse stuff)#also im so sad and angry charahub went down and i didn’t even know it and i can’t access my data at allll like so much precious info#on there is gone forever. pain and suffering. also it’s worth naming im not in this to like have the best most expensive whatever designs im#doing this bc i desperately want to salvage every piece of my childhood / adolescence and never let go of anything in my life ever and when#i was 18 i thought i could run away from deeply permanently hurting and betraying a friend by selling all of my characters starting w the#ones they made me and then branching off into baiscally all of them to not make it look like it was just abt them bc i couldn’t bear to be#reminded of what i had done. and now i live with the consequences. in more ways than just the characters obviously. so there’s that#(i had my reasons for doing what i had to do btw. but i will never stop feeling guilty about it or regretting how it must have felt for them#bc we were like best friends and then i turned cold and awful because i didn’t know how to communicate my needs so instead i just shut them#out and didn’t even have the decency to explain why. and it fucking sucked that i did that. lol)#* and still sucks. and i think abt it all the time and try not to talk about it for a lot of reasons but here i am so. lol
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tbh sometimes when you get extra vocal about being suicidal, im like, Please can someone take this girl outside and make her go for a two-hour walk outside of her neighbourhood every day, phone turned off, tumblr acct deleted, force her to meet twenty-five new people a day, and also help her get on buproprion or smthing. and then i remember all the times ive been through ancient and industrially-ravaged decrepit ass english villages, and how miserably fucking tiny and same-y and landlocked they were, and realize that you absolutely cannot survive in such a miserable country. we've got to move you to a heaving city with buses and trains and a waterway, and a few dozen million people that you will have no choice about talking and listening to. girl start saving up now, you're moving. pronto. this is your new purpose. im starting a gofudnme. england is the pits. it is a tiny walled-off room compared to the rest of the world. affectionately: it is a gated community of unimaginative cunts and miserable cynics, and it is bad for anyone's overall health and perspective to live there. get free!!!!!! (**this is england-specific; scotland's all right, i hope they raze england to the ground. but even so)
honestly and genuinely and kindly if me being suicidal/sad so often annoys you to any extent or gives you a bad impression of me, it's ok to unfollow bc that's what i made this blog for LOL 😭 anyway you are literally so right i screamed. england dragged. my friend has said almost the same thing to me verbatim whenever she comes back from another country she's like Chloe......U don't understand......how grey and perspectiveless and small england is. literally and metaphorically. the people, the towns, its an energy vacuum lorded over by unfeeling tory cunts. it'd be bad for anyone's wellbeing but ya this is why i always laugh when ppl act like the answer to my Mental health is as simple as going outside like newsflash going outside in an industrial town up north is just like. asking to be more depressed sooo uhhh yeah. what now. a tiny walled off room compared to the rest of the world is exactly it. also i am legit broke and prob will be forever like all the money i make goes on bills and food lmfao there is literally no way out even of the flat never mind this fucking town. what a hell hole. and before anyone jumps in i know im privileged to be born in england for a myriad of reasons. doesn't mean it doesn't fucking such dick like U said!! huge fucking dick
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meow meow, angel! good morning! love time for good heath!
'understanding chavs that go innit is gauge of big brained-ness for you ??' why can't i be amazed by something i can't do so it seems cool to me?? i say you're big brained for literally anything WHY not this??
i just wanted to remind you of how wonderful you are TT can't i love you?? can't i say you're cool????
WE CAN BE MUTUALS!' i do absolutely NOTHING in the internet so is this a thing?? idk anything about this concept tbh TT but ig you could discover my account pretty easily, if you'd want to. (not saying anything. just a thought that popped out in my mind)
'aren’t we already' idk i was asking you? i consider you my MASTER what are we talking abt TT no but really ig we are? hope we are. luv u
'for how would i know' i'm literally reading your fics and sending asks abt hotd TT not like you should have known. i just answered you TT
'they’re all problematic' YEAH hdjsks it's kinda ridiculous how people fight so vigorously to prove their fav is the most innocent among the problematic culprits(?) they are all unholy and we're trying to find the jesus TT characters are characters. it's fiction. we all should take it easier.
'people that are taller than me inspire my rage even more' do i insire your rage??? 'you think your safe' NO i don't, i can crash into this very celling TT
'you really are my #0 fan' im not the one to joke around you know meow meow
'sometimes i dont think i write it well enough' oh nono it's just fine! you trick with my heart enough! ok now i feel stupid for wanting to comfort you... like the real little sister who just doesn't understand the elder's problems... you took away my 'mom friend' role and i'm frustrated... just don't forget you're vvveryvery talented and bigbig brained. love you my talented angel!!
ok so i've been listening to a witch themed playlist on youtube and now i feel sososoooo like daemon x witch!reader? like him not being able to win some stupid war so he goes to a witch in the woods to ask for protection? blessing? and she's like ok but i can only make such magic for a person i have the strongest bond with. like a husband yk? daemon is like you bitch better give me this spell rn and reader shrugs her shoulders can do nothing for you then. after being a sulky prick and being almost defeated he comes back saying make your magic sorceress i'll have been your husband by tomorrow's evening. in the moment she does the ritual/potion/curse, he thinks she'd bewitched him and confronts her after. turns out she just wanted to make herself more powerful bc being a princess and a handsome man's wife? why not. that's the price. so now he needs to bewitch a witch to live happily after his victory.
no but this thought made me so disappointed. i always see fics with a vulnerable and such innocent reader (not accusing any author, you can write whatever you want, and it's absolutely ok to be the one, just my personal feelings). that moment i was reading yandere!aemond fic and reader was so terrified and like... silly... srry. but have they ever thought about adaption?.. yes it's terrifying but you have a man that is willing to do anything if you so much as look at him sweetly? he kills anyone who bothers him but you're still alive? and you choose to hide and annoy him even more?? giiirl you can tell him someone you don't like touched you and have him killed. you can kiss his cheek and have the iron throne under your pretty ass. why (in this fictional reality ofc) do they always choose to be naive and try to escape for nothing instead of manipulating this manipulative prick with obsession? you have no choice either way so why risk so much? you either die or adapt. plain biology. srry it's so long but this thought was bothering me for a while. not to offend smn, just my own impression. maybe my trust issues and fear of being vulnerable. maybe. i'm not the most mentally healthy. so i'd like to know what do you think. about this (again TT) fictional problems. irl it's not even a question bc.. yeah??
take care! love you! <з have a nice day lovie!!
heelloooo lovie!!!! <3 <3 (((((((((:
love letta toime <3
meow meow, angel! good morning! love time for good heath!
good morning too? ig idk what time you read my letters now that i think of it hahahahh (It BEtttter not be in the late hours of night 😡)
'understanding chavs that go innit is gauge of big brained-ness for you ??' why can't i be amazed by something i can't do so it seems cool to me?? i say you're big brained for literally anything WHY not this?? i just wanted to remind you of how wonderful you are TT can't i love you?? can't i say you're cool????
ok ok youre so right that was so stale cinnamon roll of me im sorry 😞 youre right you can be amazed by things that seem cool to you and you should always feel that way. it was just surprising/odd to me so ///: now i feel like a old soulless man T_T ewww BEGONE
WE CAN BE MUTUALS!' i do absolutely NOTHING in the internet so is this a thing?? idk anything about this concept tbh TT but ig you could discover my account pretty easily, if you'd want to. (not saying anything. just a thought that popped out in my mind)
lol i think i already your account but i decided not to say anything about it (all will continue to do so) because youre on anon for a reason and i respect that. its fine that you dont do anything (a gross exaggeration considering you send me letters everyday) you we dont have to be mutuals if you dont want to. i'll always be here on my small side of the internet
'aren’t we already' idk i was asking you? i consider you my MASTER what are we talking abt TT no but really ig we are? hope we are. luv u
daMB masTER? T_T my child you are not subservient to me. we are equals. we are friends T_T i have decided
'for how would i know' i'm literally reading your fics and sending asks abt hotd TT not like you should have known. i just answered you TT
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH OK YOURE SO RIGHT YOU CAUGHT ME THERE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHHAHH
imma show myself out hahahaAHHAHAHA
'they’re all problematic' YEAH hdjsks it's kinda ridiculous how people fight so vigorously to prove their fav is the most innocent among the problematic culprits(?) they are all unholy and we're trying to find the jesus TT characters are characters. it's fiction. we all should take it easier.
so true, so real, im so 😬🙄 girl its not that deep
'people that are taller than me inspire my rage even more' do i insire your rage??? 'you think your safe' NO i don't, i can crash into this very celling TT
you dont actually inspire my rage because i have not seen you face to face lol. you dont have to crash into the ceiling, youre safe... for now
'you really are my #0 fan' im not the one to joke around you know meow meow
[gives you some kibble]
'sometimes i dont think i write it well enough' oh nono it's just fine! you trick with my heart enough! ok now i feel stupid for wanting to comfort you... like the real little sister who just doesn't understand the elder's problems... you took away my 'mom friend' role and i'm frustrated... just don't forget you're vvveryvery talented and bigbig brained. love you my talented angel!!
thank you. i appreciate your efforts of comfort. you can mother me still even though im your mom HAHAH again im honored that you have such a high regard for me <3 i mean it. thank you my love. i love you. i learn from my little sister irl so i can 100% learn from you too <3 dont feel stupid. dont feel frustrated. i hear you <3 and i am glad for it.
ok so i've been listening to a witch themed playlist on youtube and now i feel sososoooo like daemon x witch!reader? like him not being able to win some stupid war so he goes to a witch in the woods to ask for protection? blessing?
BONK 🤠 WRITE THAT DOWN WRITE THAT DOWN
and she's like ok but i can only make such magic for a person i have the strongest bond with. like a husband yk? daemon is like you bitch better give me this spell rn and reader shrugs her shoulders can do nothing for you then. after being a sulky prick and being almost defeated he comes back saying make your magic sorceress i'll have been your husband by tomorrow's evening.
[shaking] WRITE THAT DOWNW DWRITE THAT DOWNE!
in the moment she does the ritual/potion/curse, he thinks she'd bewitched him and confronts her after. turns out she just wanted to make herself more powerful bc being a princess and a handsome man's wife? why not. that's the price. so now he needs to bewitch a witch to live happily after his victory. no but this thought made me so disappointed.
i always see fics with a vulnerable and such innocent reader (not accusing any author, you can write whatever you want, and it's absolutely ok to be the one, just my personal feelings).
NO BUT SO TRUE! as much as possible, i try to write strong readers cos i aint no naive girl i have a mind and strength. even in times where i want to make her meek, i cannot bring myself to make her have 'naive' qualities. i love your story so much i might just give it an express ticket pass T_T
that moment i was reading yandere!aemond fic and reader was so terrified and like... silly... srry. but have they ever thought about adaption?.. yes it's terrifying but you have a man that is willing to do anything if you so much as look at him sweetly? he kills anyone who bothers him but you're still alive? and you choose to hide and annoy him even more??
T_T the patriarchal values so imbedded. i mean to each their own. i will say if you're really in that position, growing up in that era where women were oppressed and you're faced with a 'grotesque' prince that is trained with the sword, sure being terrified of him is not far fetched, but it's human nature to fight back i think. annoying your captor AHHAHAH honestly HAHAHHAHHHA i mean it could be a power move if done correctly HAHAHHAH. we should give women more credit though
giiirl you can tell him someone you don't like touched you and have him killed. you can kiss his cheek and have the iron throne under your pretty ass. why (in this fictional reality ofc) do they always choose to be naive and try to escape for nothing instead of manipulating this manipulative prick with obsession?
GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS. youre so right. maybe YOU should write that. i will say though, people try to escape because the thought of being captured/kept against your will is not nice. no one wants to be a prisoner/slave. that's why i would think its hard to manipulate someone in any case.
you have no choice either way so why risk so much? you either die or adapt. plain biology. srry it's so long but this thought was bothering me for a while. not to offend smn, just my own impression. maybe my trust issues and fear of being vulnerable. maybe. i'm not the most mentally healthy. so i'd like to know what do you think. about this (again TT) fictional problems. irl it's not even a question bc.. yeah??
so true, you should learn how to adapt to survive. but i will say, part of the reason why i became a writer was because i disagreed/didn't like the plot points of the fics i was reading so maybe you should try it!!!!! id love to read them if you do <3. im glad to hear about anything you want to tell me my love <3, especially since we are so similiar in personality
take care! love you! <з have a nice day lovie!!
love you baby <3
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Ask Answers: May 15th Part 1
It’s been longer than usual since our last answer session, so I’m answering a ton of questions today! It’s so big I split it into two parts. Thank you for the patience on getting a response to these.
Thanks for reaching out to us with your questions and kind words ^^!
Sorry if this has been asked before or isn't something you can say but is there anyway for Cove to confess in step 4? I wanted him to confess in step 3 and followed all the steps to make him do it but ended up texting my family instead of Cove at the end.
Yeah, Cove can confess in Step 4!
Hello! I heard that Cove is on the spectrum, albeit undiagnosed. As someone who is ND, this makes me UNBELIEVABLY happy. I literally was brought to tears! Thank you for that!
Out of curiosity, will Cove be diagnosed in Step 4? I have a strong feeling y’all won’t make it a HUGE deal/make it out to be negative, so I’m not worried about that whatsoever! I’m just curious just he’ll off handedly mention it? Or will it just not be touched upon at all (which is ok!)?
Either way is ok, I’m just curious!
I’m happy it made you happy! Admittedly, Cove simply being someone with autism that grew up not being diagnosed was something I included for myself. I didn’t really think anyone would notice or ask about it, aha. But players did start to have questions about his traits, so I started to talk about it outside of the game. It’s great to see it get such a positive response and now I do feel like having it be a non-topic may have been the wrong choice and bringing it up would’ve been good in terms of having positive representation for that. I don’t know if I’ll find a way to mention it in Step 4 now, with how far along the game is, but I am at least thinking about it when originally it wasn’t something I really even considered.
Hey! Just wanted to say thank you for Our Life. It's been a bright spot and a needed escape in what's otherwise been a crummy year. I know you just did a Q&A post but I figured I'd ask anyway. Was just curious about Step 4. Will it be similar to the other Steps in that it consists of several different moments or will it just be one long sequence?
Step 4 is shorter than the prior Steps because it’s just an epilogue rather than a full arc of a story. It’ll consist of scenes that all happen in a set row one after the other. There won’t be a collection of Moments to choose from. But it’ll still be very sweet and fun.
¡hola!, you see, first I want to say that I love Our Life! (°◡°♡) and I have 2 important questions, would Cove cry watching titanic? and what is the saddest part according to him? (sorry for my english)
Titanic would make him cry. He’d probably think the parts showing people who aren’t able to make it to the life boats/are choosing to stay and go down with the ship were the saddest.
Hello, I wanted to ask how much you earn with creating games? Like is it possible to make a living? Thank you >< <3
How much I earn varies a lot month to month based on Steam sales, Patreon backers, and how many projects are in full production at the time. It’s also hard to say how much I make historically, since that also changes dramatically year by year. But I do earn enough to work on these games full time! I really appreciate all the support that allows me to do that.
Hey!! I was wondering for the 18+ Our Life moment, will there be an emphasis on safety/comfort for all involved? I feel like there would be just going off of what the rest of the game is like, but I wanted to ask
Yes! Cove is a nervous boy himself and also super cautious about doing anything the MC doesn’t like, so clear consent from both is absolutely needed for anything to happen. It’s a conversational sexy times Moment with stops/starts so the two can talk about how they’re feeling, rather than a heat of the moment just going for it kind of thing.
Hey!! I was wondering how long the wedding dlc would be? Will it be broken up into moments, or just one big event?
It’s one long series of scenes all in a row rather than a collection of Moments to pick from. It’s the shortest and the least expensive of all the DLCs. It’s not super crucial to get and those who aren’t into big weddings can totally skip it without worry.
HELLO AMAZING DEVS 👋 i am hopelessly in love with the worst guy ever (jeremy king) and because of this i have a really stupid question: does he really hate people who are nice to him? TvT he’s too cute to be mean to istg it’s a miracle JB held the urge to be consistently nice to him bc just look at his FACE he is so cute! thank you for jeremy’s route it’s so lovely (and awful bc he’s scum 11/10) it gave me so much laughs LMAO i hope you guys have a good day!!
Haha, thank you. He doesn’t hate them but he’s certainly not pleased with them. Jeremy is either uncomfortable with or annoyed by people being sweet on him, depending on how they approach it. He’s far more comfortable with jerkiness. It lets him relax and he can be himself without it being a problem, since he’s also a jerk. He feels a level of guilt being such a little punk to kind people, not enough to be a better person but still.
Has Cove dated or been interested in someone other than MC?
Nope! He stays single over the course of the game if he’s not with the MC.
Is Step 4 more mature? Or it's gonna be set in similar atmosphere as Step 3?
Step 4 is a similar atmosphere as Step 3. Though, it’s actually kind of less mature-topic heavy than Step 3 since it’s just a ‘hey, let’s check in on the gang to see what they’re up to’ style epilogue rather than a story arc with serious issues.
will there be new music for now and forever?? or will the old our life music be reused?
It’s gonna be a brand new soundtrack. We’ll be opening up a job position for that soon.
Hi, is it okay if we use the assets in Our Life (like the sprites) for fanworks or fan content content, like edits?
Sure! Just as long as you don’t use the assets made by those artists to make money.
Quick clarification on Step 3 choices: I hope I didn't come off rude (because I LOVE the game, really!!), I was just curious because the intro threw me off at times. For example, you could choose how you felt about Elizabeth in Step 2 (Dinner), but during the Step 3 intro, it says that you got closer to Liz and I didn't get a choice in it.
For the example, it can’t be helped that you’re closer to Liz in Step 3 than you were in Step 2 because she’s inherently closer to the MC regardless of whether you liked her or not in Step 2. Her feelings are out of your control and the game isn’t so dramatic that you can push her affection away and not let her bond with you, haha. But ‘being closer’ can still be relative. For some people maybe that means you’re best buds now and for others it might just mean you’re not fighting all the time any more. If there’s other parts you want to mention, feel free to let us know.
Did the illustrator for Our Life change?
We have many OL artists! The main artists who set the game’s style haven’t changed, but there’s multiple other artists who help finish assets.
So Miranda's type is confident and outgoing, huh? So...does that mean Terri's her type?? 👀
Haha, sorry for the late reply on this. As you might’ve seen in our post yesterday- yeah that is her type.
Hey! First, I just want to say I've really enjoyed how detailed OL got with gender identity and sexuality and how respectful the topics were handled! It's been so wonderful to play since the experiences could be close to my own (I'd be lying if I said I didn't tear up at parts). Second, I was wondering, would future games explore the topic of polyamory? I'd love to see more visual novels allow room for that and I saw you've explored the topic before.
Keep up the amazing work! ♡
Thank you! We do want to include polyamory in at least some of our future projects. Floret Bond, which might be what you’re referring to when mentioning how we’ve explored the topic before, is on hold unfortunately. So right now I’m not sure when something might release or what will be the first game of ours to come out with poly relationships (we might do something else before FB is done). We’ll have see how things ends up coming together.
Hey um. I feel like im not allowed to ask this on the private discord cuz people will yell at me but why is there so much focus on OL2 and not finishing OL1 stuff? I like the new people but i kind of want to finish cove's story and get derek and baxter stuff first. didn't people pay for it?
I’m sorry, I don’t understand entirely what’s making that situation a concern. There’s a channel in the discord for critique where no one is allowed to comment back. People can voice things they’re worried about without any way for others to push back on it. And the two teams working on the OL games are different. We try to post pretty often about how we’re hiring brand new people to start on Our Life: Now & Forever. The OL1 team is all still working on OL1 like normal. There’s only more updates on the Patreon for OL2 because the expansions to the first game are mostly script-based at this point while OL2 is just starting to get all its art, which means there’s a lot more to show off as previews.
Also, there was a Kickstarter for the first Our Life, if that’s what you mean by people paying for it. But one of the stretch goals was to start Our Life 2 early, before fully completing Our Life 1, so that the new game could be out sooner. It wouldn’t make sense to stop doing OL2 work because that would be going against what backers were promised. Maybe you didn’t get the full story before and hopefully this clears it up!
Hello! I know it's up to every player but.. What is your recommendation for playing order? Did you ever had any timeline events planned?
I didn’t make the events with a planned timeline. The events got made simply as I had ideas for them and then I just kind of organized them from left to right on the screen in an order to space out more dramatic ones between more lighthearted ones. Any order the player wants to go with is totally valid!
Hi! It's Step 4 a paid dlc or update? And how long it's planned to be? Ps. Love the game!
The Step 4 epilogue is free! The Cove Wedding DLC does cost money, though. Those are planned to be shorter than the usual Steps/DLCs.
Will we have options for what sort of job the MC might have by the time step 4 takes place?
Yeah, you can. It’s not super exact or detailed, but there are options about it.
Is there a pandemic in Our Life world, or is it just in a better timeline with no pestilence?
Our Life is pandemic-free! That didn’t exist when we began working on the project and it’s not something we’d like to feature in this story now that it has unfortunately come along, aha.
Hi, you said that you can play tic-tac-toe or hangman with Cove in Boating if you're sick/scared but I keep getting tic-tac-toe. Am I doing something wrong?
After being sick/scared you have to continue to be upset/unwell. If you calm down and decide to just chill you’ll end up playing tic-tac-toe.
Hi, GB Patch! Since Lee was initially commissioned to only appear in two Steps does this mean she won't appear in the Wedding DLC? I really like her character so it'll be a little weird to not have our cousin at our wedding, aha.
She is gonna be in Step 4/the wedding DLC after all! We’re still working with her creator to make sure it fits with what they wanted.
Is Sunset Bird based on a real place? Asking for a friend, not trying to move there or anything. 👀
It’s based on small beach towns in So-Cal, but not one specific town you could go see in real life, I’m afraid. It’d be nice if it was real, though.
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cr: Sufficiently Advanced Magic
*spoiler warning*
Chapter 1 - 5
Chapter one
“I was prepared in a thousand different ways that didn’t matter” - Me for every test I’ve ever taken ☺️✨✨
Omg is he gonna go look for his brother 🥺 This book said found family but make it literal - side note, love the name Tristan.
I hope it’s explained as to WHY hundreds of 17 year olds are enduring a judgment to their possible death????
Imagine you’re brother going basically missing, your mom leaving, and then your dad pulling you out of school so you can prepare to possibly ✨die✨
“It could take years to grow strong enough-” 🥺 He’s going to sacrifice years of his life and risk certain death just for a chance to reunite his family is this book gonna make me cry?
I don’t like his name as much as I like his brothers but yanno whatever- how do you even say Corin
I already hate the dad??? Hello? Your first son is gone and your second could follow in his fate and you don’t even see him off?? Fuck you buddy why are book dads such assholes
“I loathed hurting people. I always had.” so i have decided that if anything happens to Corin I will kill everyone in the room and then myself. WHAT A CUTIE SWEET SOUL
If this book forces him to hurt someone I’ll riot-
Oh my gosh he hates fighting but he’s willing to fight for his brother I LOVE HEALTHY BROTHER RELATIONSHIPS they’re so pure
Corin is so nice to try to explain all of this weapon stuff and rune stuff to me like I have any idea wtf he’s talking about- he’s talking and I’m like I’m just happy to be here ☺️
I feel like the fact that he’s paying for everything he takes is important- like maybe other people just take and don’t leave anything? But he’s like here’s a coin for you scary tower~
“It was too cute to die” why do I love Corin so
What a cute ass sweet ass cinnamon roll, my god🥺
HE FELT GUILTY FOR KILLING A SHADOW SNDKDNSK I love him sm what a king
Chapter two
Why does everything he say sound so intelligent
ldmoaha not Corin having a convo with a book
It’s been too long since I read a normal romance book why did my brain just decide to ship Corin and a BOOK
Ok but him taking time to ask about his brother has me so soft
What the flip chapter 2 was so short??? ):
Chapter three
“You shouldn’t have done that” how ominous and amazing and I love it
He so casually was like OH LOOK A DEAD BODY OH LOOKIE PEOPLE
Omg is he gonna find his brother in here- OH MY
OMG HE DID AHHHHH
just... kidding. He did infact not find him.
Oh wait someone younger than him though- so is going into the tower a choice? That would make it a little better. Like you decide when you go in or? I NEED MORE INFO PLS
The word resh is growing on me
He risked his gold key on her 🥺
I love this little merry band of criminals- also just hoping the kid doesn’t yanno....die
omg Keras is out here crushing stones with his bare hands 😏 hellooooo
Wait I’m so conflicted??? I want to trust Keras and Vera but I also want to trust the book alsnsish
Vera is a whole mood I really hope she’s not like evil or just a weird thing in the tower or idk whatever I want her to stay
AWWAIT ☹️☹️☹️ They left Keras behind- that can’t be it. He’s gotta come back right? Like book person is gonna save him? Right!!??
Chapter four
VERA SUCH A BADDDDIE
This ‘kid’ they’re carrying is just making out like a bandit, he’s just getting carried through the tower 😂
WOW FUCK YOU VERA??? UH I HOPE SOMETHING KILLS HER-but not rhe kid 😔
Okay this might be a weird jump- but WHAT IF THE BOOK ENTITY ISSSSS HIS BROTHER??????????? Like the book person seems to really care if Corin lives? so it’s either just like a really caring person, OR HIS BROTHER
Pls let me be right
That would be so cool
The book entity helped him to finish the rest completely? Is this allowed? This feels not allowed
Corin: fighting monsters with criminals in a magical tower, very time sensitive needs to escape quickly
Also Corin: lemme just wrote a little diary entry ✨☺️
So obviously he’s going to get to keep his memories
Also like he got out of the tower so easily? What?
“And don’t let anyone hassle you about your attunement.” HOW VERY OMONIOUS OF YOU TO SAY
Honestly- Fuck Magnus Cadence
REPLACEMENT? What?
His childhood bestfriend is his half sister? I love that???? Instead of making them love interests they’re half siblings that’s cool as hell. We love childhood friends to siblings trope
I will reiterate, FUCK MAGNUS CADENCE
I hope we get to see their friendship bc I’m here for this trope
Chapter five
🥺 he sent the boys glove to his parents I’m so soft
Their relationship makes me so happy?? Like I love this. So they better reunite or I’ll riot
BROTHERLY RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE BESTTT
I miss Keras 🥺
I am so unsure of Sera. I do love the sudden sibling, and I really really hope they end up having a cool relationship and like she helps him find his(their) brother and hdjsjdjs
If anyone gives Corin a hard time for his attunement I’ll throw hands-
Not them earning points at their schools- All I can think about how is “10 points to gryffindor”
I love the word behooves
Can they go back into the tower already 💀 This down time is killing me. I want book entity, Keras and that boy who was unconscious the entire time back.
-side note, I absolutely love how all three of them(Keras, Corin, and Vera) were all so concerned with this unconscious boy and they literally carried him to complete safety. Who is this boy?? Will he come back? I miss him he better not be be dead. Vera can die but not unconscious boy.
I don’t know if I’m supposed to like Sera... but she’s giving me “I’m better than you because I have a better attunement” vibes and I do not like that at all so if Icneed to I will pretend to doesn’t exist.
Aw the schools has like animal representatives decisions?? CUTE UM. - there’s way too many for my brain to keep up with but I love them anyway
Not them assigning kids to basically play pranks on everyone else and tell them if they don’t find the prankster kids they lose points- what a weird ass school
“You and Patrick were practically brothers” GIRL YOU CANT SAY THINGS LIKE THAT TO SOMEONE WHO HAS AN ACTUAL BROTHER WHO IS MISSING AND/OR DEAD
-Also I know Tristen isn’t dead because like then what would be the point huh? HUH? So he’s got to be alive
Or I’ll riot.
“A walking rainstorm” idk why but that is so fucking adorable. I love my new comfort raintorm, Corin.
I can’t wait for them(Corin and Sera) to meet up with their friends and they have to explain that they’re now half siblings.
Them reminding him to not lose his little sigil pin makes me feel like he’s going to lose or forget it ummmm
Imagine getting fucking EXPELLED because you forgot your pin on your other uniform.
I feel like that would be me honestly. Are people not just...forgetful in this universe??
Ngl i would hate to be in the tortoise division
Corins attunement is lamer but his division is called the Phoenix? Like that’s so much cooler than tortoise
The fact that sera is trying to convince me the Spider division isn’t real makes me feel like she’s in it???
I know my babey Corin didn’t mean this as snarky as I would have liked him to but I love this line so much.
SARCASTIC BOYS WITH DADDY ISSUES OWN ME AND IM NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT
Ngl I was hoping they would have roommates- I love a good school roommate dynamic
For the third time I would like to make my opinion to be known; FUCK MAGNUS CADENCE
Why has no one made a playlist for this book on Spotify? I am throughly disappointed
Not Corin being ghosted by his book-
I wish I had half the motivation Corin has? Like it’s my boys first day of school and as soon as he gets into his room he starts studying. I would have taken a nap
Oop jk as soon as he couldn’t find the rune he was looking for he went to lay in bed.
I’m sorry what in the hell is Wyddsday??? Did I miss them explaining to hat this universe has different names for it’s days of the week?? How am I supposed to know when this is Corin? Or what day it even is currently
World building is so intricate and interesting and I absolutely live for it- but it’s literally so frustrating sometimes learning and remembering everything
Okay Sera being less irritated about her studies being interrupted because it’s Corin is cute
Fuck
I still don’t know if I’m supposed to like Sera
Tashday, Fersday, Kyrsday, Tensday, Vasday, and Wyddsday- either I can’t count or they’re missing a day. And what order do they go in? I need a calendar insert pls and thanks
Wait wait did he just run into an ex? What is this sndlsnsin “long-buried emotions”??
Oooo we get a name. Cecily Lambert
I didn’t possibly think I could relate to Corin anymore than I already do but here I am
The dorm chiefs introduce themselves to everyone? How cute and Curtis didn’t seem at all annoyed by Corin asking so many questions I love when upperclassman in books aren’t rude for no reason. It’s such a tiring trait they often have smh
I need his exams to hurry up because I would very much like to get back to the fast paced tower scenes-
I know absolutely nothing about Jin but I love him immensely
#book commentary#if you’ve read this pls dm me ☺️#sufficiently advanced Magic#arcane ascension#uhhhhh I’ll just edit this post whenever I have thoughts
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ok. so. the number one anti anders argument i hear from da2 is “i hate the way he treats fenris and merrill” and from a human / elf standpoint, thats completely valid.
however, when it comes to him and fenris in their banter, and how they trigger each other, it is a very different situation.
putting behind cut bc it gets lengthy, and mentions of abuse, slavery, gaslighting, ptsd
they are both escaped survivors of abuse and slavery, both on the run, on different “sides”, both trying to convince each other that they are right and the other side is wrong. and their side has had it worse. i dont know if this is a common thing, but i know for myself, i have been there. i’ve had “friends” that have constantly invalidated me and almost asked me to “prove” that my abuse was real, constantly gaslighting me to the point where I got angry and turning on them.
fenris and anders alone are not bad people. they are both fighting by hawkes side for 7 years in kirkwall, trying to help in this shithole town because people are suffering. the poor are suffering, anders runs a free clinic to heal the poor people, and fenris is always willing to go after the (endless) number of slavers trying to take people away to work them to death. they just simply do not get along in certain situations.
if you take them together during a quest where youre forced to make a decision templars or mages, they will both have their opinions, and talk about it to hawke, and bicker at each other. which, given their nature as people, and their background, is so normal. yes you will win or lose approval as hawke, but as far as their banter, you cannot intervene. which, does kind of suck, but you know what? hawke is not their parent. fenris and anders are grown ass men. they can fight each other, and they still work together. neither one of them threatens to leave hawke, neither one of them *actually* fights each other. they dont try to kill each other. they just fight with words. (which yes, as someone whose suffered emotional abuse, i know how much words hurt). but both of them say exactly what is on their mind. they dont let anything fester.
both of them take things too far. anders says god awful racist things. fenris says anders former lover deserved to die. (not to say that they are the same at all, just that these are the worst things that come to mind). as i said, they are both victims of abuse, they both suffer ptsd. not excuses.(i dont think kirkwall really knows about ptsd) they are caught up in the moment. they are triggered by what is happening with hawke, with the other, what is being said and done, and they feel like they’ve lost control in that moment. plus, neither one gives a royal shit about each other. anders, to fenris is just another mage. fenris, to anders is a templar apologist. all they have in common is hawke and a common goal to help kirkwall.
i’ve seen some pretty nasty fenris hate, but a lot of anders hate comes down to old fashioned ableism. he “whines” too much. he talks too much about his trauma. talk about a privileged position. i guess if youve never been traumatized, it would be “annoying”. or maybe you have, or you had a good support system. you had a good therapist or friends / family. lots of people have not. anders had nobody, except maybe karl, who was immediately killed. anders had the warden, who we don’t really know where they are. and justice. who we know is a part of anders, but they dont really ‘talk’, they more feel each other.
fenris is open and honest about his trauma, and is pretty good with it. (i think). he sits down and has a conversation about it over a bottle of wine. anders talks about it here and there. he is open about it, but hes full of anger, rightfully so. hes not angry at hawke, in fact hes very appreciative for hawke. and if youre blue/purple he shows affection and appreciation for it. (both anders and fenris get hostile at a hawke that is rivaling them, thankfully).
point is, survivors are allowed to be angry. survivors are allowed to talk about their trauma. hawke is their friend, other companions are their friend too. if other companions can randomly talk about their lives, their sex lives and random shit, it should be assumed that heavy topics are okay.
at any rate, yes, as a human, anders is an asshole. (not for the chantry explosion, that was completely necessary) but, his trauma is completely valid. and im sick and fucking tired of that being erased. people in this fandom have sympathy for cullen??? but not anders??? cullen made a CHOICE to be a templar. anders did no such thing.
people always want fenris and anders to be friends, but honestly, within da2, i dont see that happening. maybe, years after. not necessarily when the mage vs templar shit is over, because that never really ends, but when they get some time alone, to think things over. to REALLY get to heal. to get some self love, reflection, everything they need. then they can meet on equal ground.
forewarning - this is not an invite for anti anders people to chime in with their hatred of him. i love anders. i understand him in ways i cant quite write yet.
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LOL A 401K IM DEAD but honestly...... tru
all that tax stuff, retirement plans.... nanami’s got it covered. and then there’s gojo, committing tax fraud 🤧 i’d compare gojo to salt as a seasoning but that’s kinda mean, he does have some flavor. like, sugar probably suits him better?? sweet, can be addicting, but bad for you if have too much of it 🙈 AND THEN NANAMI. man’s the whole spice rack, he wouldn’t have it anything less since he loves food so much 😤 he is, as we say, umami personified 🤌
yeah, it’s unfortunate lmfao but oh well. i do occasionally have them in a smoothie though, like you said!
alsjfhsha it’s def time consuming.... like i’d be sitting down w my family and when i’m finally done picking it all out, they’ve finished eating welp 😭 and yeah, the rational part of me knows that, but i’m that person someone has to go up the service worker for and be like “excuse me she asked for no pickles” (except i didn’t 🙈) i’m much better in restaurants bc the language barrier isn’t as intimidating so i will tell them to leave out an ingredient if it’s something i can’t easily take out
mmmmm i can see that! he’d be the guy who’d eat pizza with a fork and knife wouldn’t he lol. and dab all the excess oil off w a napkin. he probably only goes to the Legit pizza places too haha but i think if he likes you enough he can be convinced to eat almost anywhere
ofc!! ask games are more fun if it goes both ways 😌 and ooooo tsumu! interesting...... 👀 those are honestly such good date ideas w a guy like atsumu! that’d rly be smth he’d enjoy and ngl the moment i read ‘something physical’ i immediately imagined y’all racing LMAO. he’s a prime example of how competition can be good for you w the right person, so i can see you filling in the space osamu left after he decided to focus more on his food aspirations. like imagine making cute lil bets w him and the loser having to do what the winner wanted hehe. omg a double date w the miya twins would be sm fun tho??? from my impression of you so far, i definitely trust you to keep tsumu in line lmfao so catch me there. me and osamu are the ones spectating and judging your guys’ competitions and cheering you on to beat atsumu like we’re olympic commentators or smth LOL
aaaaa i’m honestly p shy but if anything can get me to come off anon, it’d be nanamin 😂 (it’s like we’re todo and yuji bonding over their shared type but w nanami skdjfjsjsjs) let me know if you prefer to keep it here or on discord and i’ll give you my account, whichever platform you like better! also congrats on 1k! much deserved!! 🎉
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A;LDSKJ GOJO WOULD COMMIT TAX FRAUD. lmao salt is a lil mean!! sugar is more fitting <3 sugar is also used for more fun foods, and I feel like it matches him bc of his sweet tooth. but Nanami........ o lawd. definitely the whole spice rack yes. 100% agree. pls I would use him in everything. wait was that a weird thing to say?
ah I totally understand! well, u got this friend. the next time u go out for Mexican food, I’ll be there cheering for u in spirit!!
and yes.... ugh... I don’t think he’s particularly picky, he’ll try anything. he just doesn’t like foods that are excessive, if that makes sense? like what you were saying with the grease. I think he’s more the type to like subtle flavors. an obnoxious meat lover’s pizza from The Hut would be a no go, but he’s down for a, quote, Legit Pizza Place. the kind of Italian restaurant that’s authentic! but let’s admit it, by that point it wouldn’t even technically be “pizza.” authenticity comes with a price :’)
ty friend you’re far too kind 🥺 AND PLS YOU’RE MAKING ME BLUSH OVER MY LAPTOP HHHHHHH. I would love nothing more than to fill the Osamu-shaped hole in his heart once they both go into their separate careers. and god..... don’t encourage him. or me. I would definitely make bets w him. and I would win. but thank you sweet anon, I would do my best to keep him from annoying the shit out of you!! it would be an honor to have you and Osamu comment on our tomfoolery. 👉👈
MY GOD I WAS ABOUT TO KEYBOARD MASH AGAIN. we’re definitely Todo and Yuji.... u like Nanami and so now I’m obligated to imagine a whole life we coulda had together in high school together. even tho I graduated five years ago. and I’m assuming you did some time ago too since you mentioned you’re old...... lordt. anyway! thank you for the congrats!! I would love to discuss more headcanons and such w you over Discord! dm me and I’ll add you so that we can sob over Nanami’s absence in the anime <33
nanamin date anon said: me, rewatching eps 9-13 on replay until the new episode comes out: hahaha i love all the jjk characters equally! nanamin and *looks at smudged writing on hand* the extras
lol i love them all rly, it’s just super refreshing to have an adult like nanami in a shounen
haha yeah, i’m definitely glad i’m not the oldest (bc that’s way too much responsibility for me, idk how they do it) so being player 2 as a younger sibling isn’t too bad, especially since it’s the story that i’m usually more interested in rather than the gameplay itself. i don’t have to worry about remembering which buttons to press in a fight when i can just watch the plot play out lol. (it’s definitely a good game, i just suck at the controls 😅 my brother let me play a bit and i couldn’t get the web swinging down i was struggling so bad aslfjjfsjak) what sort of games are you into? 👀
even if it’s boring to some ppl, watching is a good way to experience the game for yourself as well, esp if it’s a single player game! ofc i do tend to prefer multiplayer games, but it’s not too dissimilar to watching someone play a sport tbh. AND NO KENMA IM PRO-SIDEQUEST LIVE OUT YOUR COMPLETIONIST DREAMS. if we gotta fetch that dude a super rare item to unlock his backstory we MUST do it ok
YEAH! mikorin is also voiced by noya’s va! it’s honestly a shame gsnk didn’t get a second season, it’s so good 😔
me: lol does that mean kuroo’s your tomoda
kenma: ok this date is over
LMFAOOOOO not my fault the popular choices are the ones that get you the good end 😤 and it’s all good, i’m also guilty of replaying to see how the other choices impact the story haha. if there’s no save system tho, i’d make him switch out w me every time we replay bc i’d zone out at all the repeat stuff (bless games that have a skip option 🙏)
UGH TELL ME ABOUT IT!!! ok so I love the other charas too but.... Nanami’s so good. so good. iono about you, anon, but I went back and rewatched his episodes from the dub and it made me Feel Things. and I agree, it is refreshing to see an adult like him in shounen. esp since he treats the kids like kids. and he makes it clear that their being kids is never a bad thing. I will reiterate: he’s so good.
ahhh friend that’s so nice!. your brother sounds really chill. plus it sounds like a good balance: you get to watch the story, and he gets to dick around!! win-win. and as for my fav games, I’m up for anything! I try to avoid co-op games like Overwatch bc I get too competitive and I’m a sore loser lmao (but they are fun!). the last games I played were the Last of Us 2 and Persona 5, two very different games, but stuff that’s a good time nonetheless. tbh as long as I can immerse myself in the story and there’s tons to explore, I’m down. what about you?? you’d kind of mentioned otome games and Animal Crossing, but I’m curious!
hm. interesting. that’s a nice way to look at it. I guess if it’s a really good game, it’s no different from an interactive movie! also Kenma would love that omg you’re going to save so many villages in the rpgs he plays w you.... gotta max out EVERYTHING. every side quest! every mundane task!! collect literally every feather!!! but I feel like he would pass the time by making idle conversation. like some dumb shit Lev had mentioned earlier that day. such a nice way to unwind at the end of the day, shit talking Lev w his fav person 😌
anyway! going back to completionist stuff: Kenma would have such a blast going back and replaying games w you! and yes bless games w a skip option hhh. thankfully he’d remember all your previous choices together, so he can help navigate where to go next. he has no qualms handing the controller over, I think he’d love to curl up next to you and analyze how you play! but I also feel like he’d be giving unwarranted suggestions....... thanks, Kenma.
also, about Mikorin’s va: WHAT. OH MY GOD. so many things to learn..... pls. indulge me w your trivia.
#nanamin date anon#FRIEND you are SPOILING ME#so many good scenarios and general content.....#thank u for popping by!#and I'll reiterate: I'd be more than happy to chat over Discord#if you're comfortable that is!#I would love nothing more than to yell about Nanami w you#toya slides u a note#Anonymous
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yang chaowen is really a sensitive kid... man he brings out renyu's song's feels and then brings up ylq to relate to the lyrics bc he knows his friend isnt getting as much appreciation as himself. (this makes even more sense after ylq said he had been crying before ycw went onstage and ycw was comforting him... and then after ycw came off the stage, it was time for ylq to comfort him from crying TT) Their friendship is really something. But then ycw saying he just gets ripped for getting screentime for crying all the time ouch but i dont get the feeling that hes doing it for attention but maybe im becoming partly biased towards chaowen :)
Lol the fact that they focus so much on xzx and how hes favored by gjm but feels like it's unfair to be treated uncomfortably by other trainees as a result... all i can say is, what do u expect, of course the other kids will be salty, their lives are on the line and theyre getting nothing close to the attention you are, so unfortunately u cant win everything :(
Lol I see why everyone on twitter is annoyed at gjm... Jackson is literally trying to say something meaningful and mentor-like to su er and gjm literally interrupts with his own opinion.... jackson is like unable to finish his thought. and then when Cheng xiao is actually trying to give ma haowen advice, gjm just goes WELL I DISAGREE, THIS IS RENYU'S FAULT and everyone's like wtffffff???? And then he starts saying people can help Xinhai with his terrible dance (ouch) but renyu didnt help haowen sing and Huang enyu MY CHILD just goes: but dancing and singing are different....... and I'm just smh.... gjm really shouldnt act like he knows everything when hes the only mentor with zero actual relevant experience :( Poor renyu literally looks like hes about to burst into tears, ma haowen looks so sorry and appalled renyu's getting yelled at and none of the other mentors seem to agree with gjm lol
lets appreciate renyu’s song, its really good!!!
Lol this whole mentor segment is a mess but man chaowen and renyu won a lotta votesss ayyy
I think xue en seeing hwh as a pro rapper shows him humbling himself, since hes technically a more seasoned and popular idol performer
Cheng xiao fangirling over xue en I mean SAME hahahahahahaha awwwwww yzx being soooo genuinely happy for xue en is the cutest!!! Aw cto friendship and xue en crying :’) actually one thing ive noticed i feel like yzx seems like a genuinely kind and cheerful friend, maybe people are bashing him bc he pushed off some leaderly responsibilities to lin mo in the last round but maybe hes just not someone to take on a strict leader role (looks at aj from afo...) and realized that since lin mo has such experience and is really good at it, it makes sense to respect his experience and skill and let him take on that role. of course its unfortunate that means lin mo worked extra for less recognition, but i think it seems like yzx really respected and admired him so im hopeful what happened wasnt due to mean intentions
watching chen junhao feeling lost oh man :/ maybe he hadnt fully prepared himself for the idol life when first coming on this show. its unfortunate reality that in this kind of idol survival show, the focus is more on stage presence and face and performance, rather than the music itself. Hopefully he really feels that hes found a path forward through this performance. This is a really real way to present him but I'm sad theres not as much focus on li chenxu when this is hissss song
Man both the self composed songs are really good!! Mann them making this song a dance song is really hard to watch for li chenxu bc its makes it hard for him to shine at his own song which is sad :( also lzx's rap is questionable lol but cjh's vocal part in the middle part is so emotional, I hope he felt like he was able to express himself fully there
Lol does gjm not realize they didnt have a choice to not dance. Lollllll cheng xiao literally said they had too much to do and tried very hard but he didnt listen.
Aww jackson teaching them about team work :') o gosh I have PTSD about jin fan getting classified as a vocal now after uuu..... also not surprised the entire segment was about sxl and even the judging portion lol....
Oof Jin fan's voiceeee I love
Man why does Jin fan always get stuck in not dance songs ><
more appreciation for xu zhaohao vocals pls!!! imo sxl has a poor attitude :/ he doesnt perform calmly under pressure and isnt doing well at making a good atmosphere for practice
LOL why do i feel like lin mo is always saying "song" things hahahah hes really a kid
but mannn yan an just walking into the elevator is so oof
Aw duan xuyu is too nice... but I guess this is the leader in him coming out
Aw yan an immediately encouraging xikan when he lost the center to him
Lolll xikans little “heheh” when he won
Mannnn ngl even tho yan an leaves the show, I kinda wish he had a bigger role in this perf bc it's literally like his jam.... chinese style influenced dance.... I wish he had at least 1 memorable dance move, like I feel like Luo Joe already had one in the last perf and he has one again here (and hes very talented and he deserves recognition!) but yan an has yet to really show anything and im scared hes gonna just disappear soon :/
They all did so well tho!!! Truly a group of dancers. Really made me want to rewatch the whole thing immediately. altho the beginning I cant unsee the lin mo meme LOL
and xikan did really well!! His stage presence is real. And hes put effort into his facial expressions
Luo Joe being cute is iconic
Aw yan an cheering on lin mo when revealing his votes!!
Aw I'm surprised 100 ways kids didnt get more votes.... lol ngl i feel like this show is just randomly adding vote bonuses in for random reasons not prespecified for kids they like.... cough gjm yet again
but oo the next ep looks fun hahahha im excited for a happier ep thats not as stressful.
Ycw keeping it real 2020: "im not good at controlling emotions.... i hope if you want to cry or laugh do it loudly, dont care about what other people think"
ok so maybe im liking more new kids than i expected, but i think thats a good thing that the show is making them likable and some kids are able to stand out! honestly i realized I kinda can see why they eliminated so many to begin with. It's sad but also kinda nice tbh (ouch, i know) bc if they really got rid of the ones who have less skill, it makes it easier for the others who dont have to teach from zero (cough lin mo) And then those with skill get to have at least 3(?) stages, unlike qcyn where jin fan got eliminated after only doing 1 silly stage lol The skill level of the stages is also raised, like there's multiple groups of almost all people who are well qualified. im sure the kids are happy that they get to do more stages, im sure that means a lot to them.
At least on snzm they attempt to give most trainees a positive light and give screentime to more than just the top 10 trainees. and they allow someee time for vocals, dancers and rappers to get appreciation (even tho dancers are still dominating lol)
but yea honestly I disliked the judging on pdc2019 too tho so at least the judges here can be supportive... at times. it is SUPER biased and gjm is very vocal despite his lack of knowledge tho lol
it's so bad bc I feel like my standards for shows are so low at this point. my standards get lowered with every show I watch. It's like I guess the snzm songs are okay bc I hated the ones on afo more so at least the stages aren't thattt bad lol At least the rules/general setup aren't as terrible as they were on afo..... at least the camera time isnt as biased as it was on qcyn.... sigh the show isnt doing great, and itd be best if the show would help the tygers get more popular, but I guess its prob better than just doing nothing at star master lol.
qcyn was just painful to watch from "spirit of the knight" onward bc momo literally was buried, mistreated, disrespected and taken advantage of. at least on snzm he gets some screentime and positive recognition.....
tbh i like snzm, maybe thats an unpopular opinion, but at least there have been some really great stages, where the kids really get to shine. at least i can confidently say that bc of snzm, i have met some new kids who i will be sure to follow for new music moving forward :)
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hey on your post about the cut iron man scenes confirming rhodey is gay- i don’t understand how it would’ve confirmed it? no hate bc gay rhodey is >>>> but i’m just stupid and don’t understand it, especially that end scene with the guns and stuff?? would you be able to explain it?? :’)
ok so, i wanna make something clear, evidently, because like 50% of those posts are sorta shit-posting: the only actual confirmation of rhodey being gay would be to have him say literally “i’m gay” or “i like guys” or just have him date another man or someone say something like ‘hows your boyfriend?’ or whatevs (hell, i’d even take rhodey dropping a ‘he’ pronoun, idc). that obviously hasnt happened so, whatevs.
now in the realm of subtext, i feel like there’s a lot about rhodey’s character to take in consideration. the post you mention included (tho, we can argue the canonicity of it since those are scenes that didn’t make the final cut).
first, we have the fact that rhodey is one the most sexually ambiguous character in the mcu. we’ve never seen rhodey being engaged in flirting with any female character, not even something slightly suggestive that he might be interested in anyone (granted, i guess the same thing can be said about male character which would have us discussing the possibility of an asexual rhodey, but, well, his interactions with tony are my next point) – the only time we’ve seen rhodey dealing with female characters in a sexual/romantic manner was IM1 prelude comics & that one (1) shot of rhodey sorta oggling the lady standing next to tony at the casino scene of IM1. other than that, nothing, zero. (even rhodey’s reaction to carol’s “good luck” quote was ambiguous)
now, further on the subtextual aspect, although marvel has written rhodey as being ambiguous where interpersonal romantic/sexual relationships are involved, they also have made jokes & puns about rhodey being with guys or just basically had moments of rhodey just not being interested in the attractive women surrounding him:
the first thing to come to mind is obviously, tony’s quote about rhodey “guessing wrong” (which yes, it reeks transphobia, but statement still stands) in spring break of ‘87. “that lovely lady [rhodey] woke up to, what was his name? Was it Ivan?” – Rhodey tells Tony to stop because ‘they’ll believe that’ (sortof back-hand denying the whole thing, textually) – BUT it’s important to note that DADT policy was still a thing then so it makes sense for Rhodey to try to deny that in front of fellow airmen on an air force base)
then theres another innuendo about rhodey & guys/dicks that happens actually before this scene: rhodey finds tony at the casino & comes over to him & tony asks him to give him “a little something” as he points his dice to him to which rhodey goes, serious, “I don’t blow on a man’s dice”
then there’s tony telling rhodey “if we survive this, i’ll hold your own” & rhodey replying “you had to make it weird” (again, this can count as a no-homo reply or whatever but it’s still a comment)
not to mention tony telling rhodey “you have a big gun you are not the big gun”, which is another dick innuendo since we’re introduced to Rhodey’s big gun with Hammer saying “let me tell you something, size does matter”
ALSO in the iron man 2 novelization, which i’m not sure counts as mcu canon but some people count novelizations as canon, tony makes a comment to rhode about how he “needs a boyfriend”.
AND then, there’s those deleted scenes (& even the actual scene that made the final cut) i put in the post you mention. which brings me back to answering your question on what i meant it confirms rhodey’s gay: there’s an aspect of those two scenes that i find sorta telling: rhodey isn’t actively interested in any of those women. in both the deleted scene & the actual scene of the air-plane, rhodey’s invested in talking to tony about the importance of the air force as a support system & about how he [tony] is a good man. in the deleted scene, rhodey actually comes to notice the girl’s presence going all ‘oh’. & then when being approached by two of them --- i’m not sure if it’s a thing of terrence’s acting or an active script decision -- he doesn’t look exactly engaged only a little chipper due to his drunken state. he even goes to joke about guns to them & im puzzled between reading that as rhodey being gay or just a big ass nerd that has no idea how to flirt with women (i mean, im not ruling out the second option either, i love my some nerd rhodey). in the actual scene that made the cut, rhodey doesn’t even address the ladies: tony tells him “would you excuse me if i’m a little distracted here?” & rhodey interrupts him yelling, drunk, “no! you cant be distracted right now!”
in the second scene i put in that post (later on, as a reblog), kind of the same thing happens again, this time in IM2, at tony’s birthday party: tony has a conventionally attractive girl in a short dress flying above him with his tech, rhodey comes over & the scene could’ve had rhodey trying to subtly oggle the girl (like he did in the second-long shot of IM1) but instead it has him unbothered by her & just annoyed at the situation.
even taking from behind the scenes aspects i got material because don cheadle has talked about a lot of rhodey things in interviews since he’s played him since 2010 & he never once has made a comment about rhodey being romantically involved with anyone -- except in one interview during the CW press tour, where he said, jokingly i presume, that rhodey “has a crush on clint”. tho, he did call brie ‘darling’ a few months ago on twitter.
now, what i mean with all of this is: there’s a somewhat solid foundation for them to make rhodey canonically gay in the mcu, if only proven by the fact that he’s almost the only secondary male character that’s never actually been shown to have an interest in female characters (not even extras) -- not to say that they cant have a character whos been previously shown as “straight” suddenly be gay bc i believe anybody can be gay at any given time of their lives but yk, i feel like rhodey is one of the top easiest choices
#Anonymous#rhodey#james rhodes#JARVIS got mail#like idk almost all side-characters of marvel have had moments where they flirt or go out with women/girls & rhodey's not one of them#i find that *eyes emoji*
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ok not to like jump into a conversation that's already over but i wanted to talk about abby for a min bc i don't love her character either. i thought she was a bit bland and had that annoying 'im bad at everything while actually being perfect at everything' quality. but i think the fandom often brushes over her struggles. im not saying she was perfect or a good partner for buck (and im not accusing you or the anon of doing this. yall both had valid points that i agree with) (1/)
“but caring for one's dying mother is HARD and i think a lot of people maybe don't understand what abby was going through?? buck was there for her all the way throughout this which was wonderful and i could not love him more but abby put everything into caring for her mom, because it takes everything to do so. it was maybe unfair to buck (although he was willingly there, don't forget abby did try to break up w him so he wouldn't have to deal w it) but abby shouldn't have had to give up living her life to take care of her mom.
again, not saying she was perfect and she certainly shouldn't have just left right after. or if she did she should have handled it better and actaully talked to buck realistically about what it meant for them instead of just stringing him along but still. idk i think maybe people just don't have any sympathy and that's not fair? she's as human as any of the other characters in the show. like she's not a BAD person and i think a lot of the things ppl accuse her of are more bc of cersumstance rather than idk malice. sometimes it feels like people treat her every action like proof that she didn't care for and was just using buck which seems a bit harsh. she hasn't made perfect choices but neither has anyone else in the show (4/4)”
I mean listen I do agree that it was rough on her and she had her own struggles with her mom and I do sympathise with that, but for me personally it’s hard to get real perspective on it because she was only there for one season and that’s all we saw. Her character didn’t develop like any traits outside of taking care of her mom so idk I just find it rly hard to connect w her.
I also don’t necessarily think she didn’t care about Buck it’s pretty clear to me that she didn’t care about him the same way or as much as he cared about her. They were both looking for different types of relationships and they looked similar enough that they thought it would work but I think it’s p clear that even if she had stayed and her mom lived they woulda broken up eventually because he wants more from her than she can give
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➳ pairing: kim seungmin x reader
➳ word count: 7.0k [ 7056 words ]
➳ warnings: bulletpoint scenario
➳ genre: angst, fluff, friends to lovers, band au
➳ a/n: two words, stan day6
➳ summary:
in which your life is a sad music video revolving around the world’s most famous sad music video concept: unrequited love.
❝ because of you, i’m better, better, better baby.❞
- you always knew that it was jisung’s dream to be in a band
- i mean, of course you knew,,, when you’re neighbors with a schoolmate for years, you kinda get close
- funny story, you and jisung actually used to bicker all the time when you were little—you weren’t always on the same page
- it started when he, your neighbor (who was also seven-years-old like you at that time) mocked your favorite t-shirt
-“eW what ARE YOU WEARING!!!! WHO WEARS A CAREBEARS T-SHIRT AT OUR AGE!!!!”
- U WERE READY 2 THROW HANDS
- WHO WAS THIS SQUIRREL-LOOKING BOY WHO WAS MAKING FUN OF THE T-SHIRT THAT BROUGHT U LOTS OF COMFORT
- ??? it wasn’t UR FAULT THAT CAREBEARS WAS THE SHOW YOUR PARENTS MADE YOU WATCH WHEN YOU WERE A TODDLER
- IT GAVE U STRENGTH OK,,,
- unable to come up with a coherent answer, tears began to fill ur eyes and u began to sniffle
- “YOU’RE MEAN!”
- from that moment on, you never got along with your neighbor
- it was really to your surprise that you went to the same school
- but whatever, right?? u decided to avoid him like the plague for YearsTM,,, and he did the same to u
- idk u just,,, yall didn’t vibe with each other
- anyhoozle, when you turned 12, you began to take interest in music
- there was smth u just. really liked about it. and u wanted not just to be a listener but to actually make some of ur own
- so, you did what every other 12-year-old would do when they found smth they were interested in
- that’s right friends and family
- u begged ur parents to allow u to take guitar lessons at a nearby music school !! :DDD
- u thought guitar was a good place to start learning music, and plus, someone was offering lessons for really cheap so why not
- and this made u real excited!!! Bc wow!! Ur finally!! Gonna learn how to make music :000
- it was all sunshine and rainbows until u walked into the practice room and there sat
- han jisung
- at that moment, u turned around and slammed the door bc Nope,, u were NOT dealing with that today
- sike, u didn’t, bc if u did, ur mom would beat ur butt with a broom
- u had to. Sit. And go through weekly lessons. With Jisung.
- twas hard not to argue w him all the time :///
- “stop hogging the tuner, freak!!!”
- “get your own tuner, dummy!”
- but ur teacher had enough of that щ(`Д´щ;)
- for ur first showcase, u were partnered up together for the performance
- when you look back, you suppose that you owe it to your teacher and that performance for bringing you and jisung together because hooooo boy, after that, u and him were practically unseperable for the many years after
- ok fine 👉👈 so u had to admit… jisung became one of ur closest friends…
- if not… ur best friend…
- he was ur go-to as u went through ur school years
- and oh boy,,, y’all would talk about everything under the sun, really
- new shows? Check
- cool jams?? Check
- how it was jisung’s dream to be part of a band one day? Check
- so one day, when one of jisung’s senior friends held an audition for band members, it was only natural for him to drag you along
- u weren’t as hyped as he was, but u sure were interested.
- you both, of course, auditioned for guitar positions (yours being rhythmic and jisung’s focusing more on delicious riffs), but jisung also showcased rap and you showcased some vocals in addition to being able to play an instrument
- U didn’t really think u’d get in but
- results came out and sksksk u BOTH GOT IN
- TWAS A SIGN
- and that, ladies and gentlemen,
- was the start of one of ur rollercoasteriest rides you’d ever experienced
- in the band, there were six of you:
- chan, the leader, who produced most of your songs and played the bass
- woojin, the talented lyrcist with honey-like vocals
- felix, the dorky drummer
- you, the rhythmic guitarist
- jisung, who was in charge of rap and also played the guitar
- and lastly, seungmin, the pianist
- That was how it all began, really, with the meshing of different instruments and voices coming together as one.
- If anyone asked why you’d joined in the first place, you’d say that it was because your best friend egged you to audition with him for this band
- But, deep down, you knew a slice of you wished for this too, to be able to be part of a group where you could freely express your love for music.
--
- OK SO THAT WAS HOW IT STARTED
- BUT, AS FOR PRESENT TIME,,,,
- you were in the practice room, looking forlornly out the window, earphones accompanying your tired frown
- the sky was grey and you were having a momen—
- “why do u look like a typical sad music video??” came a voice, snapping you out of your trance
- you paused your music. “shut up, seungmin!! im listening to day6!! Look at me straight in the eye and tell me that ‘Goodbye Winter’ doesn’t want to make you think of your sad love life !!”
- he rolled his eyes
- EXCUSE HIM??? WHO WAS HE, THE LITERAL MYDAY PRESIDENT, TO JUDGE YOU???
- “yeah but you don’t need to be so dramatic about it!”
- “says the guy who started crying on the bus listening to ‘I smile’!!!” p(●｀□´●)q
- “OKAY, FINE !! let me listen”
- “whatever, dork”
- that led you to hand seungmin your right earphone before you started up the music again, wonpil’s honey vocals once again sounding out in your ears
- he plopped down on the chair next to you and in that moment,
- it was just you, seungmin, and the serene melody of day6
- …
- it didN’T REALLY HELP HOW UR PROXIMITY WITH HIM WAS LIKE,, KINDA CLOSE
- BECAUSE UR HEART WAS BEATING AND IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF DAY6
- hell, why did u have to have this stuPID, PHAT CRUSH on kim seungMIN
- CHIEF CALLED AND SAID THAT AINT IT
- HHHHHHUUUURGHHH
- just then, felix and jisung burst into the room, laughing about a topic you didn’t really care to find out. it wasn’t your concern
- what you WERE concerned about, however, is that when they entered, seungmin threw off your earphone and flung himself to the keyboard like he was caught red-handed with something.
- “o-OH HI FELIX! JISUNG! WHERE’S CHAN AND WOOJIN?”
- “I DON’T KNOW!”
- “STOP SCREAMING, FELIX!”
- “HE STARTED IT!” the freckled boy pointed at seungmin, who was awkwardly fiddling with the keyboard’s buttons
- hhhh wait what did that mean?? Did he not want to be seen close to u or something??????????
- HNGHHHGHG SAD HOURS o(╥﹏╥)o(╥﹏╥)o
- oh well
- you got up and reached for your guitar, since you supposed your day6 session needed to come to a close with the start of practice
- “Hi guys! Sorry we’re late. We picked up some chicken after class! Let’s eat!” Chan announced as he entered the room with Woojin, who only waved amiably in greeting.
- Felix began to scream in excitement again, to which Seungmin sighed at
- so there you have it, ladies and gentlemen
- that’s it
- that was pretty much your life now
- it was a sad music video featuring a big crush on someone you knew didn’t feel the same way you did.
- oh well, right? it didn’t really matter. what was important was that you were both friends, bandmates, and made music together.
- so as long as you would still be able to have that, you didn’t mind.
--
- Saturdays were the self-proclaimed ‘Jisung and [y/n] Day’ !!!
- they were a tradition that started ever since yall began to get along bc !!
- Saturdays were boring and who better to spend it with other than ur bff??
- what possibly could be MORE fun than beating jisung in mario kart, huh??
- “STOP PICKING WALUIGI!”
- “I DON’T SEE WHAT’S WRONG WITH IT, T O A D”
- so when jisung appeared at your front door with an extra guest on YOUR day, you couldn’t help but raise a brow
- this was the first ever guest to barge in ‘Jisung and [y/n] Day’, and you would have appreciated some sort of heads-up from ur neighbor slash bestie……,,,,
- “[y/n]!!! seungmin wanted to hang out today so I brought him along~ let’s go play some smash!!” jisung announced, dragging the other boy in as he kicked off his shoes
- what the MCFRICK
- U DIDN’T EVEN FIX UR HOUSE
- HOLY CHICKEN NUGGETS,,,,, WHAT WAS SEUNGMIN GOING TO THINK OF YOU AND YOUR HOUSE
- AAAA
- screw YOU HAN JISUNG
- “uh, I hope u don’t mind,,,, I didn’t know jisung practically had a second house…” seungmin smiled sheepishly, bowing in respect to u “also, i didn’t know you were neighbors.”
- “nah, it’s okay. make yourself at home, but please fix your shoes as you take them off. Jisung always leaves his lying around here and it doesn’t look nice,” you sighed, fixing jisung’s nike slides
- “please take care of me,” seungmin mumbled as he arranged his sneakers to be neatly aligned with your slippers
- you let jisung show seungmin to the living room, where he started to fix up the console so you could all play
- meanwhile, you prepared some unhealthy snacks consisting of chips and soda
- “I swear, [y/n] always picks metaknight and it’s so annoying,” jisung rolls his eyes, taking a chip from the bowl you put out on the small coffee table in front of the tv.
- “you’re just salty that I’m actually good at the game,” you fire back, hitting him. The three of you settle comfortably on the couch and pick out your characters. To your surprise, Seungmin picks Peach and all you can do is laugh.
- “really?” you snicker, picking metaknight like usual.
- “princess peach? wow, seungmin.” Jisung chooses Samus and joins you in poking fun at Seungmin’s choice.
- the boy stays silent, only pulling out his glasses from his bag. In moments, the game starts.
- It takes only mere seconds for Jisung to let out an ungodly scream as his character gets thrown off the map by a certain pink princess.
- “SHUT UP SEUNGMIN! WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU?”
- “I didn’t say anything,” Seungmin responds non-chalantly and begins to chase you.
- The game session of Smash continues in this manner: Seungmin targets Jisung, Jisung screams, and you avenge the poor squirrel boy. Occasionally, Jisung fights back. There’s a lot of screaming, but you know from which single mouth it comes from.
- When you get tired of playing, the three of you stop and take a break to jam. Jisung borrows your guitar while Seungmin plays on the living room piano. You sit on the cajon and cook up a steady beat for the others.
- It’s no surprise to you when Seungmin picks a song from Day6 and starts belting out the chords on the piano. Of course Seungmin would pick a Day6 song to play, because that’s so Seungmin of him to do. But even if you’ve heard ‘When You Love Someone’ a million times, you’ll never get tired of it, most especially because it’s him who’s singing it.
--
- The first time you realize that okay, maybe you’re starting to have feelings for your band member, was during your first performance together as a band.
- At first, you were opposed to it. When Chan burst into the practice room one day with a flyer for the school talent show in hand, you didn’t hesitate to express your disapproval towards it. Honestly, you weren’t even sure why you were so against it, because you knew that on any other day, you’d welcome the opportunity with open arms.
- But of course, overridden by the majority decision, you had to do the performance anyway.
- It was only during the performance day itself that you finally figured out the reason why you didn’t want to do it.
- When you saw from behind the curtain all the empty seats that would later be filled, something inside you erupted. There were now going to be a million people watching you. Every note, every strum had to be precise—
- two hours before the performance, your members had gone into a frenzy.
- two hours and you were missing
- you weren’t in the practice room, you weren’t in the backstage, you weren’t anywhere
- jisung was FREAKING out because he knew you didn’t exactly love performing in front of people, so he told everyone to start finding you immediately!!!!!!!!
- chan was also extremely worried bc hhhh you should have told him, the leader, about ur concerns
- aghh chan felt bad for not realizing it
- but despite everything, it wasn’t jisung or chan who found you having a nervous breakdown at the back of the canteen, it was seungmin
- and when he found you crouched down, sobbing quietly, he didn’t go on a long and crazy rant about how he was really worried for you
- he didn’t give you a long speech of encouragement
- no, when he found you crouched down and sobbing, he simply crouched down too and wrapped his arms around you
- no words, just a very tight hug
- which is funny because like
- a minute after seungmin hugged you (which by the way, he hadn’t let go), your hiccups died down and…
- u stopped crying,,,,
- omg seungmin a sweetheart
- strangely enough, you…you really just stopped crying for the first time in like,, 30 minutes
- and even when seungmin couldn’t feel you shaking and hear you sobbing, he continued to just hold you
- in fact, you were the first to break away, when you started to apologize for disappearing so suddenly
- you started rambling about how you were justreallynervousandyouwerejustsosososorrysomethingcameoveryouwhenyousawtheseatsofthetheatre
- and when you were done, seungmin offered you a warm, genuine smile, gave you a quick hug again, then said, “it’s okay!!”
- on your way back to the others, he told you, “hey. if you feel nervous onstage, just look at me, okay?”
- when you came back, jisung STARTED GOING ON A LONG AND NERVOUS RUN ABOUT HOW HE WAS SOSOSOSOSOSOSO WORRIED and you BET that squirrel boy squeezed u like there was no tomorrow
- the rest of the members gave u some words of encouragement, too!!
- so in short,, u were able to perform :>>> u were able to get onstage !!
- and like !! seungmin kept his promise :DD
- when you felt a pang of nervousness mid-song, you whipped your head to look at seungmin, and he indeed give you a smile before he started singing his verse
- it was then that it hit you.
- you knew, by the suddent skip in your heart, that it hit you.
- oh no. you liked him.
--
- so when seungmin starts singing ‘When You Love Someone’ while playing on your old, beat-up, living room piano, you’re immediately reminded of why you started liking him in the first place.
- maybe it was the way he smiled at you that day, maybe it was the way he hugged you like you were the only thing in the world that mome—
- RRRRING!!! RING!!!!
- holy mcfrick u were having ur Thoughts! And u were having a jamming sesh!!! Who could THAT BE,,, SIGH??? ＼`•̀益•́´／
- Ring… leader bAnG cHaN is calling…!
- o shoot it was chan
- “hello?” you spoke into the phone, halting your music-making
- “Hello?? [y/n]?? I have news. I’m setting us up to go on Battle of the Bands! Sign-ups just opened!”
- “O SHOOT HELLO?? THAT’S GREAT!! Hasn’t that been our goal since we started! We finally get a shot at winning the trophy!!!!! I’ll go tell the others. Jisung and Seungmin are with me,” you grinned, beaming.
- Jisung mouthed a “whos-that” and you mouthed “chan” back.
- “Okay! Just wanted to let you know. See you on Monday!”
- beep
- “Well, what’d he say?” Jisung asked, on the edge of curiosity.
- “Battle of the Bands! In! Our band! Chan signed us up!” you smiled, hopping up.
- “WHAAAAT?! WAH, NO WAY!” Jisung screamed, and he rushed to you to give you a big bear hug.
- Seungmin stood up as well. “Hey, that’s great! I’m proud of us!”
- guess your ThoughtsTM were gonna have to wait until after the event.
- “C’mon! Let’s practice something! And later, let’s order something nice to celebrate!” you suggested, sitting back down on your cajon.
--
- “oh frick!” you exclaimed, setting down the banana milk on your usual cafeteria table
- jisung jumped in surprise, felix waved, and seungmin looked up from his triangle kimbap
- “what’s up with you?” seungmin questioned, wiping his mouth
- “i forgot to do our math homework! do you have a copy of the questions? guess I won’t eat lunch now,” you groaned, shoulders slumping.
- jisung shook his head. “sorry, our class already submitted that.”
- “holy heck dude, our class submitted that already?” felix gasped.
- jisung narrowed his eyes. “uh?? Yeah, dude. Like, last week.”
- “OH SHOOT I DIDN’T DO IT”
- “felix—"
- “sometimes I wonder how I’m friends with such an idiot,” seungmin sighed, handing you a bright, red notebook. “here. you should be glad you’re classmates with me. questions are on the page with the pink sticky. DON’T flip the page because the answers are there, and I’m not having you leech off my perfect grades.”
- you let out a ‘tch’. “who says I can’t perfect math without your answers? Besides, I’m betting it’s not even perfect.”
- “thank you seungmin for lending me your notes!” seungmin imitated in a high-pitch voice before taking another bite from his triangle kimbap.
- “whatever. Thanks I guess,” you retorted, copying down the questions and answering them one by one.
- it was times like these when you were grateful to have such a competent classmate, even if he was really hard to ask notes from. now that you thought about it, there was no other person seungmin would lend his notes to except you.
- you tried your best not to make any sort of expression, but inside, you were leaping for joy. who knows? maybe the tyrant-in-academics kim seungmin had a soft spot for you ???? >:DDDDD
- lucky for you, you were able to complete the homework before class started. Unfortunately, you needed to start walking back from the canteen to avoid being late, so you didn’t have a chance to grab a bite.
- once jisung and felix left the both of you (they had PE next and went towards the gym), seungmin shoved a triangle kimbap in your hand.
- “finish it before we go inside the building,” he mumbled, halting just in front of the doors.
- OK WHY WAS HE BEING SO NICE
- U WERE KIND OF CONFUSED
- AND ANGRY BECAUSE
- STOP!!!!! HE WAS MAKING U BLUSH N STUFF
- NONONOONO
- in attempts to hush ur red cheeks, u scarfed down that kimbap like it was nothing. U inh a l ed that thing
- anyway, after that whole thing, you guys went back to your classroom and waited for your teacher to come.
- you were really happy bc of that whole cute thing with seungmin, but your happiness didn’t last long as your eyes trailed off to see seungmin handing his red notebook to some other girl who’d asked for it
- you buried your face into your arms.
- of course. there it was.
- there was that constant reminder that okay, you weren’t really special to seungmin. in that moment, when he lent you his notes and gave you something to eat, you were just a friend, a bandmate, who needed help that he could give.
- he didn’t like you back like that, he just had a big heart.
- it was probably the same when he hugged you that time before your first performance. he was just… being nice.
- it was okay. you should have been grateful to have such a good friend who was always watching out for you.
- you shouldn’t be selfish and want more than that.
--
- k so at this point it wasn’t even ur sad, fat crush on seungmin that was talking
- u were genuinely worried as a friend as to why seungmin didn’t come to school the next morning
- ok, so u texted him, but to no avail???
- WHERE WAS THE MAN????
- during lunch, you tried asking jisung and felix but they didn’t have a clue either
- after school, you rushed to the practice room and asked chan and woojin if they knew anything about the missing guy
- chan nodded. “oh, seungmin texted that he won’t make it today. he’s sick. Like, bed-ridden sick.”
- u gasped
- :00 oh no ((o(;△;)o))
- u asked if u could leave practice early so u could visit seungmin
- and ofc chan said yeah bc umu he’s worried too,,,
- it was all fun and games until u realized u didn’t know where seungmin lived so jisung offered to come with you to show you
- WHAT WOULD U DO W/O UR BEST FRIEND
- “u,, complete me,,,”
- “ofc I complete u [y/n] wth if I didn’t then we wouldn’t be bffs”
- “｡･ﾟヾ(✦థ ｪ థ)ﾉ｡ﾟ･｡ I lov u bro”
- “ilu too fool”
- anyway, the walk to seungmin’s was fun !! u knew u could always count on jisung to give u a good laugh
- u even stopped by a store to go grab some chicken soup and medicine
- when jisung led you to a certain tall building, you g a s p e d
- WTH
- IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST EXPENSIVE LUXURY APARTMENTS????
- “HE LIVES HERE??????”
- “twas what I said when he first invited me over. come on”
- u were shaking
- there was TOO much u DIDN’T KNOW
- SKSKKS U WERE SCARED
- WHAT ELSE COULD HE BE HIDING
- OMG WHAT IF SEUNGMIN WAS A RICH HEIR OR SMTH SHBFHBDHSDCHCW U FELT LIKE A SLOB
- “RELAX THE HECK UP MAN!!” jisung rolled his eyes, watching u freak the frick out
- ding dong
- “com—cough—ing!” came a voice
- “hi, how can i—oh? What are u two doing here???” a sick seungmin spoke, hair sticking up in a million different directions, face flushed, and lips dry.
- “it’s—” jisung did a little dance, “NURSING TIME BABEY!!”
- “omg stop im not a kid its ok I can take care of my—COUGH”
- suddenly seungmin started having a bad coughing episode and u and jisung looked at each other like
- ‘what is this idiot thinking’
- anyway u both dragged him back inside his apartment
- jisung volunteered to go make the soup, and you decided to help seungmin get back into bed and give him medicine
- after checking seungmin’s temperature (he was hot)
- (NO NOT THAT HOT, I MEAN HIS TEMPERATURE OK)
- you gave him his medicine and went to the kitchen to prepare a basin with ice water and a towel
- u came back and wiped his face and neck with the cold towel, wet it again, then placed it on his forehead
- just then, jisung finished making the soup and came back with a bowl of it and a jug of water
- “here, seungmin. make sure you drink lots of water even when we leave, okay?”
- the sick boy just nodded and grabbed a spoon to eat the soup
- ok so yall underestimated his sickness bc he literally dropped the spoon and spilled some burning soup on himself
- “OWIE WHAT THE HELL??” he screamed, dunking his hands in the ice water basin on the floor
- “careful!” you insisted, “that’s it, let me help you with that!”
- “I’m not a kid! I can feed myself!”
- “yeah? tell that to me when you don’t burn urself, dummy”
- you grabbed the spoon from him, got some soup, blew it a little so it wouldn’t be so hot, and gestured for him to open his mouth
- “you’re like my mom.”
- -9000 HP
- u mentally clutched ur heart
- #momzoned
- “shut up and eat the soup.”
- once he took a bite, he beamed
- “I’m surprised it’s good! I didn’t know Jisung could cook!”
- “whaT’S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN, PUNK?”
- you fed him like, half the bowl, helped him drink the entire glass of water, changed the towel on his head, and tucked him in again
- “im going to the bathroom. Im still mad that u thought I couldn’t cook,” jisung announced, huffing and leaving the room
- …
- …
- ok so it was u and ur sick crush
- ambulance NOiseS
- WEEE WOOO
- “hey [y/n]?”
- “mm?”
- “can you play some day6? my phone’s on the desk and the password is w0npil, with the ‘o’ as a zero.”
- “nerd”
- “shut up I know ur password is dowoon”
- “DO U WANT ME TO PLAY UR MUSIC OR NOT”
- “play the moonrise album”
- “fine.”
- the first song of the album, ‘Better Better’, began and you went back to your spot beside seungmin’s bed
- he turned around so he could face you, and in moments u could already feel your cheeks heating up with his gaze suddenly on u
- HNNNNNNG HIS EYES WERE REALLY PRETTY EVEN IF THEY HAD EYEBAGS UNDER THEM
- :////
- :////////////////////////////
- “[y/n]?”
- “what?”
- “I guess because you’re helping me now, you can say that because of you I’m getting better, better, better, baby~!!”
- “seungmin u big dork”
- “[y/nnnnnn],,,,”
- “yes, what do you need now?”
- “I’m getting sleepy.”
- “then rest.”
- “wait, I want something, can you come closer? I don’t want to yell.”
- “what is it?” you asked, moving closer as instructed until--
- he pecked your lips.
- WHAT
- WAIT
- WAIT W H A T
- YOU WERE ERRORING
- IM SCREAMING
- ALSO, THE IDIOT PASSED OUT
- WAIT
- “WHAT?!” you heard a voice come, but it wasn’t yours
- from the doorway, jisung was pointing at you, whose eyes were REALLY big
- “WAIT, I WASN’T THE ONLY ONE THAT SAW THAT, RIGHT?” jisung exclaimed, to which you put a finger to your lips
- “shut up!!! He passed out!!!” you whisper-yelled, hobbling over to your best friend
- “wait, he kissed you?!”
- “i-I don’t know! I think it was a feverish mistake! oh my stars, ‘sung, that was my first!” you panicked, burying your face into your hands
- holy mcnuggets, kim seungmin had KISSED you
- “o-okay, okay, calm down. Maybe you’re right, he did pass out.” jisung reassured you, patting your back
- “wait, I think we should stop his day6 music,” you said, turning off the speaker so soon.
- “okay. wait, what now?!”
- “I don’t know! I’m in shock!”
- “it’s okay,” jisung breathed, “I won’t tell anyone, I swear. Not even him.”
- “we’re never bringing this up again, okay?” you told him, completely exasperated
- jisung nodded frantically, equally as spooked as you were
- and just to absolutely make sure, you made him go to seungmin and check if he was asleep
- “yup. knocked out.”
- “honestly im kinda glad u saw it for urself instead of waiting for me to tell u bc I don’t know how I would” you admitted, fumbling with your hands.
- “id be mad if u didn’t tho”
- “HOW COULD I NOT TELL U?? ID BE TOO PANICKED NOT TO!”
- “let’s close the lights and go home, okay? it’s been a hell of a day.”
- on the way home, jisung helped u cope with the sitch by talking about other things, like band
- u were really grateful,,,
- as much as possible, u didn’t even wanna THINK of seungmin
- hell it was gonna be so awkward when he’d come back from school…
--
- seungmin was back 2 school babey!!
- great : )))
- yeah maybe for the rest of the world but like
- NOT U LMAO
- the frick
- the frick would u even say to him if u saw him huh??
- “hey we kissed”???
- “ur lips were really chapped bc of dehydration”????
- “I have a phat crush on u???”
- n is for NO
- u weren’t gonna say ANY of that
- which is why
- you guessed it
- interactions with seungmin were kept at a minimum B)
- ‘only interact if absolutely necessary’
- and u got jisung on it too
- so u wouldn’t feel so lonely not sitting w felix and seungmin during lunch, jisung offered to hang with u from time to time during ur Stage of Awkward Avoiding
- “dude its ok I totally get u idk how id approach him if I were u”
- “riGHT?????”
- but like
- u couldn’t avoid him forever
- chan changed practice times from every mwf to every d a y after school so u could prepare for battle of the bands
- and oh heck was practice the most awkward thing in ur life
- like ofc not while u were playing bc music is a medicine that fixes all
- but like during the idle moments u weren’t playing, u didn’t even know how to act
- “hi [y/n], did you see tha—”
- “HUH what excuse ME I NEED TO PEE BADLY BRB”
- ok talking to the others were ok ofc
- u still goofed around w felix etc
- but u just
- u couldn’t talk to seungmin
- u were really afraid he’d remember the thing
- actually more than being afraid of remembering the k@#$, you were more afraid that he knew and didn’t mean it
- BUT ANYWAY
- woojin took notice of this Immediately bc he’s just great at noticing things like that
- not in a creepy way, but woojin always watches
- I’d go so far to say he knew more than chan, simply by observing life around him
- everyone has their own way of watching out for each other
- jisung’s a companion. felix says. seungmin does. chan listens.
- woojin watches.
- so after noticing your peculiar exclamations and jittery fingers (he sees you rubbing them together as if they’ll break if separated), woojin does what he does best
- he finds out what the frick frack paddy whack is wrong
- after practice, he slings an arm around your shoulder and says one magic word
- “chicken”
- and also another magic phrase
- “I’m paying”
- so whO ARE U TO REFUSE THIS FREE CHICKEN HUH
- the rest of the band members are kinda confused like
- ok we get that woojin’s having a random chicken craving but why wont u bring us why are u only bringing [y/n]
- and to that he can only say
- bc [y/n] is the only one who will finish one whole chicken if I order it
- we stan some hungry fellows
- anyhow
- after arriving at woojin’s favorite chicken place (some place called hwang’s chicken or smth) and ordering, you finally break the beans
- “uhh,, woojin, so why did you bring me out?”
- a magician never reveals his secrets
- “you seemed kinda troubled during practice, so I thought you could use a good meal. eat well, okay?” he smiled warmly at you, making u wanna cry
- omg what have u done to deserve this Angel
- “how’d you know?”
- “well, your guitar was kind of out of tune and you didn’t tune it to perfection this time.”
- “HOW DO YOU KNOW I ALWAYS TUNE MY GUITAR TO ABSOLUTE PERFECTION”
- he sweats
- “I-I JUST DO!!!”
- ok so you had a feeling woojin already knew what was up so why not tell him right
- “anyway, thanks for this, woojin!!” you told him, bowing. “i’m actually, yeah, kind of in… a predicament with seungmin.”
- “oh?” he asked, sipping his water. HE WAS RIGHT BEAT THAT CHAN
- “so you know how jisung and I visited him when he was sick, right?”
- “I’m listening”
- “well,,,,, truth be told, we took good care of him… we gave him medicine and all… but when jisung had to go to the bathroom, seungmin had a feverish episode and um… he uh,,, h-he, well… leaned in… and stole um, something from me.” you fumbled with your words.
- woojin’s eyes widened at the choice of words. “ah,” he nodded, as if he was solving an intricate puzzle. “i see…”
- “Anyway, I don’t know if he remembers it or not, but it would still make an awkward conversation topic. Man! I wish it never happened!” you sighed, taking a swig of cold water.
- “Do you mean that?” Woojin raised his brow.
- absentmindedly, you slammed a fist to the table. “NO! I mean, I don’t mean that! Of course I don’t! I mean—wait—NO THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEANT, I JUST, WELL—”
- U JUST EXPOSED URSELF TO WOOJIN SOMEHOW ,, READER what did u dO
- woojin just narrowed his eyes at you
- “okay! fine! you caught me! I like seungmin, okay? and it’s really weird to be kissed by your crush who doesn’t even like you back!”
- “how do you know he doesn’t?”
- “well!” you began, “he doesn’t treat me specially or do anything he wouldn’t do for a friend. i reallllly don’t think he has feelings for me. one moment, I think that maybe, just maybe I’m special, but then he goes off and does the same nice thing for someone else and I think, well, that’s a bummer. Not that I don’t want him to be nice—”
- “I understand, relax. You panic a lot for someone who hasn’t even seen the situation until the end,” he commented, watching the waiter put the chicken in front of you both.
- “so what am I supposed to do then?” you sighed, taking your chopsticks and digging in.
- “well, for starters, don’t do that weird thing where you excuse yourself to the bathroom every time he tries to speak to you. it’s too obvious, if avoiding him is your goal,” woojin started, and you knew that woojin wisdom hours were now open. “But honestly? I don’t think you should avoid him. I mean, why? I don’t see how it will benefit either of you. Look, if he brings it up, confront it. Otherwise, you don’t need to bring it up again.”
- you shrugged. “I guess so.”
--
- heeding woojin’s advice, you avoided him less
- but that DIDN’T ERASE THE FACT THAT YOU STILL HAD A HARD TIME TALKING TO SEUNGMIN OK
- you avoided him less, but still couldn’t talk to him like you used to
- u cant just TALK to someone u KISSED
- and seungmin had taken notice
- he could not understand why you had that weird period of avoiding him, then began to talk less with him???
- “jisung, did I do something wrong?”
- “MY GUITAR IS CALLING GOTTA YEET”
- he could only frown. every time he tried to make some conversation with you, you’d seem pretty distant
- and this WORRIED him ok
- seungmin wasn’t the type of person to be okay if someone was uncomfortable with him, especially a good friend
- weeks in, he just couldn’t take it anymore
- The game plan was simple. Blackmail Jisung into bringing you to the practice room, then tell him not to allow you to leave.
- “Felix, I need Jisung blackmail.”
- “For what?”
- “To save a friendship.”
- “Easy, just threaten to leak his stan twitter to the entire school.”
- “p e r f e c t”
- and just like felix said,
- it worked
- jisung, under the immense pressure and stress of having his embarrassing stan account leaked to everyone, caved in and brought seungmin what he wanted after school
- you were confused as to why jisung kept apologizing on your way to practice, but when he threw you into the room screaming sorry and locked you in, you understood why
- “okay, [y/n]. let’s talk.”
- “h-hi, seungmin.”
- “why have you been avoiding me? or whatever. talking to me weirdly. can you stop it already? because I miss you.”
- “please seungmin,” you sighed, “don’t do that.”
- “Don’t do what?” he demanded. “I’ve literally had to start each conversation with you for the past how many weeks, and each conversation always ends on some awkward note! I don’t get it, so explain! I don’t see why you’re telling me not to ‘do that’ when I literally don’t know what ‘that’ is!”
- “The thing where you say stuff like ‘I miss you’!” you yelled, clenching your fists. “Stop saying things like that to me if you don’t even like me!”
- “What?!”
- “You do so many confusing things, and I’ve had it!” Your eyes were starting to brim with tears. “You do stuff like tell me you miss me or hug me for a really long time or give me things you don’t just give to friends! You make me feel like I’m someone special to you when I’m not! You have the audacity to do things like k-kiss me and not even mean it!”
- Seungmin’s eyes widened. “K-Kiss?”
- “When Jisung and I came over, you kissed me and passed out! You can’t just do that to people, especially people who’re prone to developing these big, stupid feelings—” you explained, wiping away your stray tears.
- “That wasn’t a dream?”
- “What do you mean a ‘dream’? That was very much real, and I’m angry about it because I don’t want to be kissed unmeaningfully! E-Even if—even if it’s from someone I really like! Especially if it’s from the one I really like!” you told him, mustering your strength not to cry even more. Why even were you crying? It wasn’t so bad!
- “I’m really sorry!” Seungmin exclaimed, extremely exasperated. He couldn’t believe his ears, the kiss wasn’t a feverish dream after all! “I thought I had dreamt that whole thing up! I swear, I didn’t know that I wasn’t dreaming. I’m really sorry, [y/n].”
- “Whatever,” you muttered, “but now since my big secret’s out and you didn’t mean it anyways, can we just never talk about this again? Forget that I like you. I’ll get over you, I promise. L-Let’s just please continue to be good friends.”
- “Who said I didn’t mean it?” Seungmin challenged, stepping forward. “What will you do if I said I did, I did mean it? With all my heart, I meant it?”
- U WERE SHAKING
- THIS WASN’T IN UR BOOK
- U DIDN’T PLAN FAR ENOUGH AND EXPLORE THE THOUGHT
- “Did you?” you shot back, fists still clenched.
- u weren’t about to back down tho
- “I did,” he confessed, “I meant all the other stuff too. And I could mean it again.”
- “So mean it again, then.”
- Gently, Seungmin cupped your face and allowed his eyes to linger on your lips for just a little while. And, when that little while was over, he stopped hovering and leaned in.
- In that moment, you suppose you could say he really did end up meaning it — just as much as you did, at least.
- And when it finally sunk in that he had kissed you once more, you thought:
- Oh boy. Looks like this typical sad music video just got a whole different concept.
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Bonus:
- “And I said—HOLY CRAP IM SO SORRY I WAS INTERRUPTING SOMETHING PLEASE DON’T KILL ME I THOUGHT YOU WERE DONE AND I HAVE THIS TERRIBLE CURSE OF WALKING IN ON [Y/N]’S KISSES PLEASE JUST EWIJFWBFWEBFWHEBFUWEBF IM SO SORRY” jisung screamed, covering his eyes
- “righty-o, now that you’ve confessed your undying love for each other, finally and I mean finally because your tension was making me want to punch myself in the face, let’s get to practice!” felix cheered, giving you wiggly eyebrows.
- “wait, so jisung saw me kiss u that day?” seungmin questioned, shocked.
- you shrugged. “better than not. How do you tell your best friend your crush kissed you feverishly? I don’t think you do.”
- “I told you. You owe me 10,000 won.” Woojin smirked, folding his arms in front of Chan.
- “Shut up, Woojin, it isn’t fair!” Chan cried, making you laugh.
- and mayhaps you were so happy you wanted to jump higher, higher, higher baby
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Breaking Down Clowns' Posts: Episode One with Mochi
let's get into a Breakdown, shall we? my interpretations are in bold :)
I’m fucking over this mewlin bullshit. Idc what kind of hate I’m going to get over this because obviously nobody is allowed to have beliefs contrary to your own anymore. to start off, saying "idc what kind of hate i'm going to get over this" before saying something defending a terrible opinion is a bad thing to do, just sayin. you saying "because obviously nobody..." makes it seem like you're annoyed with us being upset over transphobia! that's just my interpretation, but it'd bc a shame if you were :) because our opinion is valid and mewlin's transphobic opinions are not. anyways, if the beliefs you hold could potentially harm somebody/a community, they aren't valid whatsoever. let's put it this way (thank u alcides for saying this): bigoted people vote for bigoted opinions. bigoted opinions lead to bigoted laws, and these laws will harm people's lives & affect the choices they are able to make. also, blatant transphobia is so different from a VALID opposing belief such as preferring winter over summer. transphobia kills. favorite seasons don't. But anyways. Y’all need to laY oFF. Mewlin is a person, just like you and I. She thinks, eats, and breathes. nice to know she's living-- what exactly does this have to do with the point you're trying to make? homophobes think, eat, and breathe. racists, eat, think, and breathe. i could go on! She doesn’t deserve even a fraction of this harassment. are you sure...?? not even.... 1/100th of it? god, i can't believe a transphobe would actually DESERVE harassment!! the audacity!!! you should never be harassed for holding an opinion that harms someone's life! (extreme sarcasm, if you couldn't tell!) I get it, her beliefs are upsetting to you. thank you for stating the obvious! why wouldn't we be upset with a transphobe? Obviously I don’t agree with her beliefs, I think transphobia is nasty. i mean if my friend was a transphobe i'd fucking run from them but u do u boo BUT that doesn’t make her a bad person. You hear me? YOUR BELIEFS DONT DEFINE YOU. i've had to repeat something along the lines of this statement many times but i'll say it again: if your beliefs harm other people, then that's all people will define you with. Mewlin is a sweet, kind, supportive person with some controversial beliefs. some....? controversial beliefs? transphobia isn't even controversial ur either a terrible person or ur not. I’m not saying you have to love her, you can hate her with every ounce of your being, but keep it to your damn self! if u love her, keep it to your damn self! look what you've done by posting this. you've prompted a response from myself & many others. I don’t expect trans people to be all buddy buddy with her, or even cis people. But you have no right to dehumanize her the way you’ve been. i mean..... isn't she dehumanizing trans people by saying they're invalid & wrong....... :0c When she had her moments of saying nasty things, SHE DIDN’T KNOW BETTER. When she was called out, she stopped! did she really? Doesn’t erase what she said but it doesn’t mean she had bad intentions. i distinctly remember her defending her use of the word (tw!!) tr*p so like. ok You guys are so out to get her that you don’t realize she’s a person too. A person with emotions and a life to live. when are u going to stop using the "shes a person!!!" argument... zzzzzzz How do you think she feels reading about you all calling her disgusting and telling her she has no rights to this or that or even at all? i would hope she feels regret for her transphobic actions and that's all. Mewlin is truly a sweet, generous person. She gives people things out of the kindness of her heart. She’s gifted me a kalon and some edits, not to clear her name or to prove anything, but because she wanted to. what point are you trying to prove??? this is like saying a bully is a good person bc they're nice to their friends?? Have you ever considered that maybe her pfp on discord is that pride icon jish made because she wants to express her support?? okay... and? someone who's bi (assuming she's using the bi pride one) can still be transphobic lmao. Sure, she’s had her moments, but maybe she’s getting better. if she's getting better, i'd like to personally hear from her & not one of her friends. Maybe the pride icon is her way of trying to open up a little bit, and hey, she knows I’m a genderfluid lesbian and she’s never said a word to me about it. good for u!! must be because you're friends w her. she must be desperate to hold onto the few people who manage to ignore her bigoted opinions! Grow the fuck up and learn to either keep your mouth shut or GET OVER IT. Bitching about it on this blog for months is only keeping you angry and upsetting Mewlin more. i'm pretty sure people have the right to defend their identities & like. we would stay quiet if mewlin didn't continue to clown around This is counterproductive!! Yeah, you hate her. Woohoo!! You get a gold star! omg, thank u!!!! Now move on and do something with your life that isn’t obsessing over one person who is MISERABLE because of you. She is getting nasty dms all the time that are really upsetting to her all because you guys think it’s a fun idea to harrass her more. ok i haven't DMed her so i really don't have an opinion on that but., it's not like we're 'harassing' her without being provoked?? all of this drama starts with her & her bigoted statements/actions CS is supposed to be a fun, enjoyable game for everyone. It’s supposed to be a safe space. Lay off already and let her enjoy her safe space like you all get to as well. the problem with the last statement is that we don't get to truly enjoy this 'safe space' if transphobes like her are making trans people uncomfortable, afraid, and upset so like. Ok She’s not hurting anyone! really? she's not hurting anyone? If her existence makes you THAT uncomfortable, fucking block her and go. already have, luv xx I’m over it! I’m done reading the hate she gets on here and getting dms from my upset or even terrified friend because of what people said to/about her. are u trying to get us to sympathize w a transphobe..?? im confused. Imagine if it were you. i mean. if you read the salt blog last year it Was me so uhhhhh. what's your point?? i know i fucked up but it seems like all mewlin is doing is crying despite causing Imagine if it were your friend. i'm not friends with transphobes so i can't relate! There’s this DBT skill called radical acceptance. It’s where you recognize that it is what it is. You cannot change it so rather than sitting in your misery and spreading it around, simply accept that’s what it is and keep going with your life. Try it, it actually works pretty well. Radically accept that when it comes down to it, you can’t change her. So accept how she is and move on. are u asking people to accept that someone on what's supposed to be a safe space is a transphobe...??? Okay, I’m done rambling now. I’ve said my piece, I’m ready for the hate to come pouring in 👌
with this closing statement: it's 1am and i'm tired so! this is monky brain typing. i really don't have sympathy for mewlin whatsoever so like i really don't care if she gets upset over my response bc it's nowhere near compared to what trans people have to go through so :) my final words are: fuck mewlin and anybody who likes her despite her invalid shitty opinions.
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by this point im p sure u all know the drill.... i’m nora, 23, she/her, gmt and tonight matthew im going to be greta o’driscoll, a terrible person but a hot one which frankly makes it almost ok. here is her pinterest..... this intro is literally just copied n pasted frm the last time i played her so soz if u’ve read it like 10+ times....
「 diana silvers. cis-female. 」have you seen greta o’driscoll around yet? i hear she decided to be in POTENTAS for their SOPHOMORE year as a CRIMINAL PSYCHOLOGY major. the 20 year old SHEPHERD is known to be tenacious, magnetic, capricious and evasive. ➨ the muse is written by nora, she/her, gmt.
was adopted as an infant. had two foster moms and two older sisters so always surrounded by women. lived in a boarding house, very much like the one in 20th century women, with lodgers coming in and out all the time, mostly artsy young women because her gay moms were both high school teachers trying to set up their own arts collective. one of her moms left when she was 4, n she doesn’t really remember her.
while living with entirely women made her super into catlin moran and the guilty feminist, as a teenager she often let boys walk all over her bc she just craved male attention jst bcos she’d never really experienced it. saw it as something aspirational, like sitting in the back of chad’s second-hand truck while he drove you to macdonalds and offered you and his five friends with identical haircuts weed was the height of being cool to greta, she wanted to be their dream girl, even if it meant compromising her beliefs
was always a really sporty bitch. it started with a junior athletics squad, which turned into athletics and cheer, which then became athletics, cheer and hockey until she basically was doing a different activity every night. she came to see her body as a tool that she could make work for her if she trained it up and this attitude’s always kind of stayed with her that as long as her body is strong she is capable of anything. runs every day.
bubbly bitch but also massive snake. metaphorically and literally, always shedding her skin. loyal to few, ruled by none, out for herself, babey!! every place she goes, she becomes a new character, someone who’s a figment of her imagination, as if each city is repertory theatre and she’s a character actress, so as a result som ppl think she’s called rita, some ppl know her as margot, she just flicks through identities like nobodies business.
left school at 18 n went backpacking around the states making money in the casinos by being a shot girl (yeehaw) and trying to make it as a mysterious 1920s widow with a smoky voice, a dark secret n a heart of gold, looking for love in the big city. all she found was producers and acting agents who’d promise her stardom n actually just fuck her in a motel n then ignore her calls.
TW domestic violence, TW gun, her watershed moment came when she met luke in sioux falls while she was working at a strip club. he was a few years older and had a car, and they kind of went from seeing each other to being that super intense couple who are just necking all the time.
they got engaged like 3 months after they met n rented a flat together, much to her family’s annoyance but she was 19 so there wasn’t much they could do. their relationship was super super intense though, often really heightened and when they fought it could become quite violent, but she’d pass it off as just him being really passionate.
one of their fights got really heated and greta threatened him with the gun he kept in the glove box of his vauxhall corsa, but the safety was off and she accidentally shot him. she pleaded self defence in the trial n cos of the amount of times she’d been hospitalised for various concussions n things like ‘fallling down the stairs’ the police were like yea… pretty watertight evidence that he was a bastard who [chicago voice] had it coming…..
she’s now under witness protection, rehoused in livingstone as a sports-scholarship student, due to the amount of police involvement in the area, it would mean should one of luke’s family members try to track her down, she’d be relatively safe
massive sports fanatic. plays tennis. on the cheer team. was a track superstar in her high school. honestly just that sporty bitch, you’ll see her doing lines at a party at half four and then on your way to your 9am lecture you see her running across the park like a fresh fucking daisy who is this bitch. maybe it’s maybelline, maybe its coke.
massive feminist. low key quite scared of powerful men bcos of her ex. wants to start a female only lesbian commune bc she misses her childhood in a south dakota boarding house and has endless support for women. honestly annoyed that she is attracted to men, would so be 100% gay if it was a choice. cuffs her jeans and can’t drive. is That bisexual. skateboards. wears backwards caps. i hate her
isn’t a foward-planner, however. greta prefers to leave her options open, play the field, live in a spontaneous manners so her study style is mostly cramming a few days before a test, or staying up all night writing an essay on a massive adrenline boost powered by red bull or probably adderall, scribbling (or typing) furiously into the night.
has an addictive personality. seems unable to do anything in a small dose, she has to let it utterly consume her. with sports, she’s fiercely competitive. with alcohol, it’s never a shot, it’s a whole bottle – wine or whiskey – she’ll be table dancing before the night’s up and making out with someone she’ll regret in the morning.
not afraid to go after what she wants !! ambitious academically and romantically thirsty !! she loves the adrenaline of the chase. when someone’s easy to get, she becomes bored. very bisexual and very proud of it. feminist as fuck nd part of a queer representation in the arts group which holds fortnightly meetings to discuss lgbt representation in film, literature, art etc.
old soul in a young person’s body. all the shit that has gone on has kind of aged her. she’s quite cynical about everything now. always smoking smoking smoking. very edie sedgwick in that way. little girls skirts bought for next-to-nothing at the market because she’s skinny enough to get away with it, barely long enough to cover your bum, and then the ugliest baggy sweater you’ve ever seen thrown over it.
likes old things. old books, old music, old houses, it reminds her of happier times like when she wasn’t alive. buys all her music on vinyl and has a gramphone because “The Sound quality is Better” kfdsjj.
super into pop art and andy warhol. puts female friendships above everything but at the same time, would fuck her best friends man
her clothing style is like…. vintage thrift store but make it preppy. berets and cute hats, neck scarves, large fluffy cardigans or like those leathery jackets with big suede fringes on them, mini skirts (very 70s), and knee high socks or boots. quite often she’ll be in sports kit, maybe a cute tennis skirt, n when she’s feeling casual she’ll wear like, a talking heads tshirt with a pair of mom jeans and converse, but otherwise, the library is her catwalk.
aesthetics:
a bubble of pink gum on chapped lips, mom jeans, a beaten up pair of adidas, denim jackets, strawberry laces, knee-highs, chapped lips, peeling sticky plasters, split knuckles, bruises you try to cover with concealer, stick and poke tattoos, hot coffee, sleep caught in your eyes on a lazy afternoon, kissing girls, cigarette smoke shrouding you like a veil, alien conspiracy theories and sci-fi paperbacks, doc martens with fraying laces, the red string of a thong peaking out purposely from jeans, leonine arch of your back and that stellar smile that says ‘you have no idea who you’re dealing with’, a rucksack permanently packed for the move, a streak of red across your lips, roller blades, cut knees, not eating your greens, smiling with a mouthful of blood, and piercing your own ears with a safety pin when your mom wouldn’t take you, kate moss posters lining the walls of a teenage bedroom, his name scrawled in rage across the pages of a diary, thumb holes poked through the cuffs of your sleeves, a tennis racket you punched through in a fit of temper, feet pounding the earth until your soles bleed crimson, sleeping in a cherry lip balm and scrunchies to keep the wild locks from your eyes.
wanted plots
frinds !! unlikely friends !! toxic friends !! former best friends separated by sports rivalries ! sporting friends who are on other teams but who she absolutely loves playin against!!!
since greta literally can’t differentiate between romantic and platonic love, she’s got off with so many of her mates, so i want awkward friendships where they nearly dated, or exes that have now just turned into weird friendships
girls from the cheer team who she’s like, weirdly intimate with like the shower together but its not a Thing cos the other girls straight !!! what do u mean !! aha just fun !
and I want like, fellow criminology students who are like?? how is this bitch still passing?? i swear she goes out every night??
she works part time at a fast food restaurant, i want a mate that just goes and sits in there talking to her until her manager gets angry.
ppl she did a few modules with ie. art history, bio-med, film studies, before changing course and somehow sort of remaining in touch with
ppl who she runs track with.
someone she’s trying to make a zine with.
here’s a list of plots on her old blog if u want any of them w her.
would love plots of any type, throw them all at me please, i cnt wait to interact w all of u. like this if u want me to message you about connections / plots! xo
full biography if u can be bothered
trigger warnings: drugs, domestic abuse, gun.
you never meant for it to happen. you’d heard the stories, of girls who let their man walk all over them, and thought to yourself “i’ll never be one of those girls…” the kind that eat low-fat yoghurt and drink slim fast to shred a few extra pounds because he said she was getting round in the tummy, or the ones who spent their evenings tied to a kitchen sink drinking wine while him and the boys played poker, wishing god, if only I could get out of here. not you, not you raised by strong women, four bright shining beacons. single mother with her hard-as-nails attitude and her stony glares, elder sisters (twins) one ginger, one blonde, one doctor, one lawyer, both determined to take a bullet to the brain and a hammer to the patriarchy before they let a man touch them without asking. you were always so inferior, so insecure and small, like a bird (like a sparrow) with blonde plaits down your back sucking tropicana whilst your busom buds sucked dick, their lips permanently ripe with stories of their sexual exploits, fake tan and glittered nails whilst you sat in the unbroken egg of virginity wondering what it was like to be loved. one day you found out.
lily milligan’s parents gone and a free house for the night, bottles of ouzo and tequila swiped from your mother’s liquor cabinet thinking she wouldn’t know (she always knew) your legs, hardened from pep squad, slut dropping on a kitchen table because the boys thought it would be fun to get the quiet girl drunk. you’d never had a sip before that night. band t-shirts, denim shorts and the split soles of rotten converse that you refuse to let go of, you still clutched with both hands to your youth, but in a tube top now (borrowed from alice carmichael who had a sister in college) and a short tennis skirt, your feet not in trainers but in thigh-high boots. uncomfy as hell but lily said you needed to look sexy. you didn’t know if you wanted to be sexy. you didn’t know what kind of girl you were, if you were even a girl at all. but robbie looked at you like he knew exactly who you were, like he knew you better than you knew yourself, and his lips had the pink cupid’s bow of a movie star, and his hair was dark locks, curling like a mane. his hands were soft, and suddenly on your waist, and after three more shots his lips were on yours and his name was the only sound in your head and on your lips as you lost it in lily’s college sister’s bedroom beneath the glare of a T-Pain poster. you bled for what seemed like hours, his hand still in yours, kissing on the sofa as truth tellers and dare devils continued to spin a bottle of unprecedented youth. you thought it was love. robbie was the one. he loved you, you knew it, how else could someone be so soft? but soon he grew bored, scrunched up your paper heart and set it alight. then came the tears, the hatred, the ‘fuck robbie, in fact, fuck all boys.’ and that you did.
you were known for being easy. any boy could be yours for a night, as long as he promised to love you for those few short breaths and pants before you cried yourself to sleep. you felt poisoned, but poisonous as well, as if by ensnaring these young boys you were gaining power over them, and not the other way around. soon it started to work. they’d want more, but you’d deny them it, sick of sucking off silly schoolboys, they’d call you a tease, a vixen. maybe you were, but you couldn’t help but want older men. you got the history teacher first time, him bending you over his desk to sneak a hand up your tennis skirt as the after-school clubs carried on next door, unawares. love didn’t exist, not for you. it was nothing but a game for pretty young girls to play, bubble gum in their canines and a hand tugging at the hem of their cheer skirt.
there was so much anger inside of your small body, ‘beware of boys and their hook-like words’. hockey helped. there was something formidable about the feeling of a stick like a weapon in your hands and the thwack it made against thighs in the heat of a scrum - “slipped, sorry!” - you’d utter with a snakeskin smile, millicent quinn knowing that you’d hit her on purpose because she shagged robbie at that party last week. she couldn’t prove it, cobbled acne on her forehead turning green with disgust. ben came into your life like a car crash. two years your senior, with a baseball jacket and shoulders like a god. he became your personal hero. on the pitch, he was lethal. together, you could bring anyone to their ruin. each day after last period he’d be waiting in his car. you’d leap into his arms like a girl-half starved, love me, love me, love me, your heated kisses the envy of every junior girl. he was yours for three blissful years, utterly yours, and you were his, his star-spangled girl, and he was your knight - you were both the same, playing games, always difficult to predict. it was a shock to all when he proposed, high-school sweethearts find love in south dakota.
the engagement was a bittersweet affair; three months – you barely out of your gingham print skirts and into a graduation gown, him, a surly quarterback towering above your sisters, cigarette at his lips and a scowl like a fart in a lift. they hated him. so did you. but you were eighteen and in love, and he fitted the cookie cutter mould. everyone wanted him, and you had him. you had him and you were happy, happy, happy, and he loved you. he said he’d give you the world, anything you wanted hand-picked and given to you. instead, he gave you a jack russell terrier and a flat you couldn’t swing a cat in, wallpaper peeling like the rotten bits inside of you, the bits that only he knew. and you got tireder and tireder of the sad excuse of a life he’d picked out for you, him out doing god knows what to pay the bills, and you dancing on tables to pave your way to stardom, and this was love, this was real, until the shine wore off and your fresh-faced, dimple-cheeked cheerleader facade faded and the ugliness started to reveal itself, the whining, the petulance, the sharp-tempered cruelty, the mind games, the need to always win, win, win. he was dull, he was boring, he was nothing like the boy the girls had said he was and no chiselled six pack could hide his lack of anything remotely interesting, your patience wearing thin until it snapped like rubber, a rucksack on your back, running shoes on your feet and the joint bank account emptied into your eighth grade birthday wallet.
you built your small fortunes working the casinos of sioux falls, a crimson dress and an attitude to match. bookish archie with his little dipper freckles was fun for a month, before he became just as dull and dreary as the rest. a three hour bus and you were in minneapolis, bright eyed and bushy tailed, fresh meat ready for the pickings. a hostel here, a friendly co-worker’s sofa there as you made what you could by taking off your clothes and shaking your ass like you were back in pep squad, doing what you did best. you met your fair share of creeps, and soon it was back on the road to escape a wide-eyed stalker and a restless itch for more. milwaukee, chicago, you made the roads your own. log cabins and lodgings, and the occasional motel, a beaten up pick up truck purchased at a scrap merchants – you got a few miles out of it before it bit the dust, and when you finally set it alight after nights spent lounging across the driver’s seat, a parka tucked over you as a duvet, you were sad to see it go. you’re nomadic by fault, never attaching to place, people or things, creating a new personality in every place you go like a character actress; each town is a different repertory theatre, and you’re the star. a compulsive liar, you even fib about your own name, to some you’re ellen, nineteen, bookish, a law student who likes smoking and cosmos. to someone else you’re rita, you’re twenty five and look young for your age, like smoking, comics and fucking in public places.
in the bright lights of michigan, you found charlie, sweet charlie, too good for you, though you let him spoil you while he thought you were the small town girl of his dreams. next came abigail, who was fun until the jealously kicked in, and then luke, gorgeous luke, dangerous, exciting, who despite his temper, despite the fights, despite bruises down your spine and your teeth marks on his arms, loved you with the strength of a wild fire. there was destruction in your wishbones, a savageness from the field, from the pitch and now somehow in his arms, you were godly. he was cruel, he was careless, and he refused to fall at your feet like so many other boys had, which only you made you want him all the more. you were rage incarnate. you hated him so fiercely you thought you might kill him, so he played the only card you wouldn’t predict; proposed.
the house you shared was a backstreet flat in detroit, you making your name as a downtown singer while he footed the bill with pills. they had a drug for anything these days, to dull the senses, to pick them up, to drive you to insanity or pull you out of the madness hole. the two of you lived like criminals on the run (you never told him that you were, living out your days as the enigma he wanted you to be), you with your voice like caramel and fishnet legs. you were his and his alone until his hand was at your throat and the gun was in your hands screaming at him to stop, stop, stop, until a bullet stoppered his brain, crimson staining linoleum as you cast yourself out like lucifer. self defence was decreed the moment they saw your violet neck, black tears and headlight eyes and mind screaming red, red, red like the pom-poms you shook so willingly in school and the insides of his skull. you were gone, and “you” was born, renamed “greta”, boxed, shipped-out, and next-day delivered to livingstone where under witness protection you were a student, blank slate, fresh-faced in a place where no one knew your name, doing what you always did and starting again.
#this is soooOoOOO fuckin long cos every time i play greta i add more shit to it..... her seventh form will just be an entire fuckin novel.#anyway call me beep me if u wanna reach me#aka pls msg me either here or on discord. my discord is linday lohan's meth8664#wshedintro
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she-ra season 3
i LOVE scorpia
this show has a bit of tonal issue in my opinion. they keep going back to a very teen-parent relationship between the trio and mum - when there’s a terrible war on.
people get killed but generally it really does just feel presented like a game or a fight about curfew and sometimes thats a bit jarring. (or is it strange to expect the graveness of situations to bring out a quality of sincerity even during puberty?)
i don’t really understand why Adora would jump to the conclusion that Shadoweaver showing up means she’s changed
but Adora, you ARE stupid. lol
but the rest is too. ‘don’t listen to her Adora’ why not? is it so terrible to be from another world? the stakes are quite murky
Entrapta’s comments really go to show how shit of a leader Hordak really is. HOw the hell did he manage to create this empire when he’s so damn incompetent? OOOHHHHHH CATRA SAID IT!!! just after i wrote that sentence she SAID IT
Hordak is an idiotic beserker
so why didn’t they take their unicorn flying steed?
‘well yeah - but you said that while saving us - so - you can’t be all bad. what do ya say’
i love the voice actor for Adora lolololol. she is clearly having SO much fun.
and Adora has a small crush on Huntara and absolutely ruins her chances with the barmaid by popping up. totally did not expect that voice for Huntara tho
entraptak is.....real. wtf. it’s.....cute. Hordak is just trying to be Prime. Failing at it miserably, lashing out. jfc it’s an endless cycle isn’t it.
‘know about she-ra? ahahahaha! I AM she-ra!’ THAT WAS BADASS. i love it when Adora is being rowdy and cocky
oh wow reversed chin-tilt with sword, and then lifting her head and soulful look? She-Ra really has chemistry with ALL the Princesses.
I LOVE scorpia. i loved that moment when Catra pushed her away nobly - i love how Catra has plausible deniability to herself. Love how the narrative reinforces that Catra is literally the most competent person around etc. (if they could get her for the Rebellion it would be over and out but hey)
surely Mara cut Aetheria off to save it from Hord-Prime’s war? Light-Hope wanted She-Ra to join the other She-Ra’s (’this world’s she-ra’) in the battle but she decided to hide the world and people she loved, breaking most of the magic-tech system. What I don’t understand is - the First Ones lived on Aetheria, but the people that populate it now are a different quality of organics, they can only survive in a specific atmosphere. The princesses are living components in the balancing of the tech-magic system...what are the people of the world? We don’t realise this most of the time, but all of them except for princesses, are animal-humanoids (and...kyle.....). What does this mean? Did the animal life unintentionally evolve? Were they an underclass - simply part of the system? (seems too edgy for this show).
‘why was i taken from my family? why was i forced to become a soldier?’ this line was GOOD
yesss!!! Mara! i love her already.
Scorpia is blushing lol. I am also liking Catra being completely off her shits careless and powerful.
Catra and Scorpia bonding yesssss!!!
ohhhhhHHH the magic of the planet is something of Aetheria itself! the tech is just latched on??? First Ones were colonisers (’settlers’)! but AETHERIA is what’s dangerous to the rest of the universe!!! (because it can be used as a weapon??) probably Aetheria would die as a result?
‘maybe it’s been a week, maybe it’s been thousands of years’ that is so fuckin sad
Catra being so hung up on acknowledgement is her greatest tragedy.
wow Scorpia really proposed a super cool thing and it could rearrange Catra’s WORLD
I want this show to stop repeating the same cycle after this last one time of Catra going: WAAAAHHH Adora made my life so hard now im going to do something inadvisable that might destroy us all as payback
Adora’s greatest tragedy is that she’s so self-centred that she doesn’t understand Catra at all.
if they have Angella and Glimmer fight and then have her mum die before they’ve made up i’ll be very upset (i’m not really loving Glimmer and Bow in this so far - they’re toeing the edge of annoying). and the fights about having to have plans and fighting or not fighting due to the fear of losing people - that’s always been uhhhh - well they always got away safe with shit plans and i just really don’t think that they’re meshing the commander-queen and daughter-mother stuff well. because there’s literally NO ONE ELSE in charge. there’s some magical queen and some villagers and a barely present guard. where’s the court, the advisors, anybody??
it would be silly to trust Shadoweaver (she did mercilessly torture you - no psychological effects from that stupidly enough), but i am hard-pressed to think of a reason she’d betray them.
still don’t understand how Frosta went from icy, frosty queen to idk a kid. i mean she can be both, but it was weird to see no uhhhh connection at all
I think this show is about how every single character is held back by their inability to grow and grow closer to others. Glimmer has disobeyed Angella SO often, why is she surprised at all? Why can’t she be honest and say: I am afraid! I am afraid I will lose you! I am afraid of that pain and I want you to take the risks seriously, to plan for them. I want to protect you!
That Glimmer would work with her torturer is of course a ridiculous notion. that is to say - if that kind of thing was properly given weight.
why fight Catra??? Why not just teleport to Hordak’s inner sanctum?? it’s stupid. why waste all the damn power
glad entrapta finally heard from Adora that she didn’t mean to leave her behind though.
‘you can’t fight them they’re too strong!’ ?? Glimmer just got sucked dry tho? like what. the way this show always postpones its fights on shitty pretexts is ....acceptable but pretty roll-eye-y
Catra burning all her bridges.
“there’s no choice” fucking bullshit, just teleport lol.
lol Catra feeds the anti-princess propaganda right back to Hordak. that’s poetic but jfc i really hope next season is going to be a little less *shuffles deck, cards end up in a million different hands, literally all cards feel betrayed*
so catra is willing to pull the annihilation switch on the universe just to one-up Adora just this once LOLLLL. if only somebody hadn’t ingrained a deeply seated inferiority complex in this cat
anyway i want her to feel the consequences of all that for a change
that animation on everything going VWWWWWWOOOOOOMM darkness was awesome
OHHHH the next episode has an awesome premise.
can i just say that i LOVE this episode. it’s so damn creepy and cool and kind of nostalgic. and i LOVE that it’s Scorpia and Adora who are remembering things - the ones closest to Catra. AND THEN THEY BOND!!!! and hold hands!!!!
reliving the betrayals. love the way the memories hit people, the way Catra goes from her old self, their playfulness, their casual violence ratcheting up at each other because that’s how they’ve been trained - to defend themselves, and then - the true Catra, the hysteria, gone so far off the deep-end. “i’d rather let the whole world be destroyed than let you win.” geeze that’s rooted deep.
angella and mica are so cuteeee. but angella really hasn’t changed has she? no tolerance for difficulty. she honestly is a bit of a shit queen. thought that was bc of grief and trauma but eh
he puts a truth spell on her but then he doesn’t believe her? does he think she’s crazy?
don’t think i’ve ever shipped something as hard in this show as Mica/Angella. i just LOVE royal woman x good man apparently. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. god why didn’t she kiss him on the lips>????
oh SHIT, MARA IS STILL TRAPPED INSIDE THE PORTAL LIKE ENTRAPTA SAID - THAT’S WHY SHE SAID: HAS IT BEEN A DAY OR THOUSANDS OF YEARS?
so...is there a reason that Angella is not faded?
wow that speech about bravery and cowardice. she truly. TRULY, ok they made something of her. I HATE losing Angella because the voice acting is INCREDIBLE. but that was actually an amazing end. (and she got to see Mica for the last time, at least)
ok so if i lost my mum forever i would be SCREAMING in pain but i guess these itsy bitsy tears from Glimmer will do?
that look of pure determination and anger and mercilessness in Adora’s eyes at Catra? nice. wish Catra didn’t go into a sulk at it but kept her goddamn FEAR (Adora was totally right, she vanquished another demon from her past - everything Catra did, she CHOSE to do. and her keeping on blaming others is simply - cowardice)
#anyway#that was a very good season#but i am not sure about this glimmer and angella thing#it still feels totally fuckin#weird#even more so now#kdslabf#sdjabj#sdjakfj#my stuff#she ra#vidi
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