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I just want some bisexual wlm content. Some internalized biphobia. Some ‘I’m scared to date the opposite gender because then I’ll feel invalidated by the lgbt community.’

#there are so few books that scratch this itch #I cry

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reblog this to have a Happy Wildcat New Year™

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Bouncing off of @/pradoxolotl’s tags Aaron is very good at fading into the background because that’s why he’s used to doing. He had to be not seen or heard around Tilda. If he wanted to go through his days unscathed he had to stay out of the way and pretend things were okay. Until eventually drugs were brought into the equation which could have very likely aided to the feeling of fading. Aaron probably felt like a background character in his own story.

I’ve been trying to put my finger on why Aaron feels different from the other foxes and I think it’s that, while he absolutely has as tragic a back story as everyone else, he ended up with the most normal mentality of everyone so he reacts not like rest of the characters who mentally adapted to their situations and more like a regular person

Like when Neil gets the blood bag exploded in his lockers everyone’s like oh poor neil are you ok what can we do for you?

And Aaron’s just like hey what the FUCK just happened

Aaron: I killed an objectively horrible person for a justifiable reason but I’m still haunted by my actions because killing naturally takes a role on your psyche

Neil, Andrew, Renee: Can’t relate

Neil and Kevin: This sport is the most important thing in my life I would die if I couldn’t play this college sport

Andrew: I physically could not care less about anything than the sport I put half of my time in every day for the next 5 years

Aaron: I’m just fuckin here to play a game I like man idk

#i love Aaron Minyard

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As Aaron is in medical school he realizes he kinda misses exy but still want so be a doctor, so after thinking it through with Katelyn alot he decides to go into sports medicine.

After graduation, residency, and fellowship he works really hard to get hired by Andrew's team, so that he can start taking care of his brother just like his brother always took care of him.

#do you understand how fucking SAFE ANDREW AND NEIL WOULD FEEL WITH AARON AS THEIR TEAM DOCTOR THOUGH??? #i know they’re both older and probably aren’t as worried about strangers touching them especially when they have to but to not have to worry #they both trust Aaron and neither has to worry about sympathy or guilt when they show their scars #I love this sm #aaron minyard #aftg #all for the game #sports medicine Aaron Minyard is everything

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Dadmack gets one of those giant pair leashes and has mixed results

Sorry it’s a bit off I did it on my iPad

#i just know Aaron is hating life back there with josten and andrew 😭 #aftg #all for the game

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Nicky, trying to get Neil to gossip about him and Andrew: Oooh Neil, come on l, spill the teaaaaa

Neil, looking at his mug in hand: This is coffee?

#aftg #all for the game #neil josten #nicky hemmick

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So I gave up, then decided to continue, and now I’m giving up again

so u get this unfinished mess. I call it ‘how much of a disaster can I get away w making their hair’

this is probably too soft for them, but u see, idc

#this is so adorable I want to die #GOD THE BOYS DESERVE SO MUCH GOOD #LOOK AT HIM #ANDREW JS SO RELAXED IN NEILS ARMS #aftg #aftg fanart

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Neil 😩 😩 😩

                       ☕️ Buy me coffee☕️ -  ETSY Shop

#aftg #andreil

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OK but Andrew’s relationship to kind people.

His friendship with Renee, the one that confuses the Foxes, that sends them betting because it just doesn’t make sense.

His obvious closeness with Betsy, cheerfully receiving texts from her. The picture of Bee in the bee costume!

Him listening to Wymack! Sometimes!

Andrew doesn’t see other people’s kindness as weakness and that is so important.

He hasn’t received much kindness in his life, but he recognizes it.

And he may not know how to give it back in normal ways, but he gives it back regardless.

And even if it’s all mixed up with threats and knives and cigarette smoke, Andrew knows what that exchange looks like, and he’s learning to accept it.

#aftg #all for the game #prev tags #andrew's response to kindness goes along with his determination to recover #he works so hard at it #while neil isn't quite there yet

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Funky concept - your height reversed is how tall you’d be as a cryptid/fantasy creature   ✌️

#twinyards punching the air rn #😭😭😭 #i saw this and could only think of them #aftg #all for the game #twinyards

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the thing is that andrew knows. 

when he gives neil the keys, tells him to stay, lets him sit up on the roof with him. when neil talks for hours on the bus and he lets him and they trade truth just for the sake of knowing each other. 

he knows already what he’s doing, letting it go this far. knowing that he’d never do any of that for anyone else. neil looking at him, always searching for him in a room. maybe neil knows too. andrew doubts it.

when neil kisses him on the bus before the binghamton game, it’s the first time andrew has ever been kissed. 

that’s not true, but it feels safer to picture than to imagine it’s the kiss he’s always wanted. neil reaching for him, wanting to kiss him just for the sake of kissing him. 

because they’d shared so many secrets? because he wanted to? 

andrew doesn’t mean to guess his intentions, to warp it into something ugly. it was golden light on the side of neil’s face, one half in shadow and the other bursting with color. he thinks beautiful but doesn’t say it, couldn’t manage it. neil reached his hands out, arms falling slowly into place to wrap his fingers around the back of andrew’s head.

no one’s ever reached for him first, hands going to hair instead of any other untouchable part of him. for a moment, andrew wished neil had grabbed his face. held fast, but only for a moment. just to see how it would feel. 

instead, neil presses his fingers lightly into andrew’s head, fingers gently rubbing through his hair. and what choice does andrew have? the real answer is that he could do anything right now, and knows that neil would respect it. still. 

the real answer pales, hides itself away. neil is watching him, mouth half open from anticipation and curved up into some sort of happiness. he’s smiling, but he must not know it or else he’d tuck it away where no one could see. andrew couldn’t do anything but kiss him, put a hand on his thigh so he doesn’t wrap his arms around him. it’d be awkward to hug him while they’re sitting together, would rip apart their balance if andrew tried something so reckless. 

it’s hard to know what he wants, now that he’s letting himself. it’s hard to know what will be too much, or something that he doesn’t like. harder to wonder if neil will tell the truth if something bothers him. 

andrew wants to hold him, to get closer until they’re pressed together.

instead, he shuts his eyes tighter and moves his hands off. 

that’s what you do, he thinks, as he pushes neil away. how do you break everything i’ve built to keep me safe? 

but it’s just neil. watching him, kissing him, going back for him. it’s neil wanting him to be safe, wanting to fight for him. andrew’s breaking it all down himself.

i want to go back for you. 

this kiss on the bus is the first time andrew’s ever been kissed. 

neil’s mouth sinks into a frown as andrew pulls away, whether he realizes or not, so andrew presses his palm against neil’s cheek and says nothing. 

he holds his breath when neil smiles again, and gets off the bus before he can do anything else.  

#idk if my tears are tears of joy or sadness at this point #aftg #all for the game #Andreil #andrew minyard

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I know everyone says Andrew paints his nails black but what if he lets Neil paint them orange

#what then? #how do I cope? #aftg #all for the game #andreil

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Much thanks to The Bog for helping me with this

#I just want to reblog this again because it’s literally my absolute favorite Aaron & Neil interaction #them being friends is such a power move #aftg

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ok wow unfollowing now, used to be a fan of the PSU Foxes exy team but I was not aware they had such close ties to the japanese mafia

#I’m SURE this has been done before #but I can’t find it so I’ll make my own #aftg #all for the game

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the foxes as troubled birds

neil:

andrew:

kevin:

aaron:

nicky:

dan:

matt:

allison:

renee:

seth:

neil, about andrew:

vs andrew, about neil:

+bonus neil @ his father (i’m not sorry):

#i this the best aftg post on this damn website #I will be thinking about this forever #they’re all perfect #aftg #all for the game #all for the queue

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Neil Josten is so selfless he’ll protect others even if it costs him the identity he’s been working for years to hide and he’ll put his problems last and will try to fix all of his teammates even though he’s himself barely hanging on. Neil Josten left for the nest without a second thought when he heard Andrew was in danger and would willingly put himself through torture if it meant his friends would be safe at the end of the day. Neil Josten left to die with ‘Thank you, you were amazing’ because he needed to tell Andrew that this wasn’t his fault, and that, despite it all, he didn’t regret anything and would do it again and i’m so sad i love Neil Josten

#neil josten #aftg #all for the game #all for the queue #even in the beginning he told himself stay quiet dont draw attention to yourself until kathys show- #until he saw how afraid of Riko Kevin was and Neil stood up for Kevin knowing it would put way too much attention on him

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Guess who’s rereading aftg for the fiftieth time 🙃🙃🙃

#LOOK AT THE BOYYYY #babey #neil josten #aftg #andreil #all for the queue