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nogenderbee · 2 months

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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ 𝕀𝕟𝕧𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕠𝕣 ₊˚ˑ༄

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ anon request: Hope requests aren't closed. Could I request Gepard, Argenti, Dan Heng, and Jing Yuan with a s/o who is an excellent inventor? Toys, machines, they can make anything.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ They weren't when you requested so you're good! Also, I don't write for Argenti so hope you don't mind me changing him for Serval! She just suits here so well and I need more of the girlies so you can say I kinda took the opportunity there~ Anyway, hope it's still up to your liking!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ fluff

✧ Dan Heng probably knows both a lot and a little about subject of inventing

✧ he read about it and even saw few constructions due to adventuring from planet to planet, but he also never really did it himself

✧ you'll have to introduce him to all the shortcuts while inventing something because he knows just the long and boring way, like instructions said, he'll do the exact steps

✧ he doesn't really mind and find it actually quite interesting to help you around

✧ but if your workshop is loud... he may not be big fan... and if you're trabilazer like him and all the noise is coming from the next room? Yeah, he'd loose it...

"Y/N. How about we go grab some sweets and you finish your work later? I need a break..."

✧ don't get him wrong, he's happy you're working on your skills but he just doesn't like the noise and would much prefer go on a walk while you work

✧ but at least he helps you with cleaning and quieter parts of inventing!

✧ tho if you live on planet and he rarely visits you we it is... he may not mind the noise as much. He's simply more focused on spending some quality time with you than that

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@miya-akane @toyaswif3y - come get your quiet but scary trabilazer!

✧ Gepard is honestly happy for your achievements and you probably met each other through Serval

✧ but... let no one ask him who's better inventor... he's not gonna be able to choose between you and his sister so he'll end up with basic answer, simply saying you're both great which he's not lying about

✧ but if we can avoid that, he knows quite a bit about it so he'll often drop by and see how you're doing

✧ and if you need help, he wouldn't mind doing so we long as he's not busy

✧ if he won't know something... he can always ask you or Serval if you'll need some professional advice too!

✧ this boy is so busy and now he also has 2 inventors to help... he often leaves you or Serval mid day to go to another one, so he won't seem like he's playing favorites because he loves you both equally, just in different ways

"Hey love, I'll go see how Serval's doing, okey? I'll come back later so I can help you more since I know you're busy. I'll be back in 1 of 2 hours."

✧ but... Serval often kicks him out to help his partner, she's like tou cupid if you think about it...

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✧ Serval is too!! You guys either met through work and bonded OR became close and just later realized you're both inventors

✧ when you were far enough into relationship, she definitely wanted to combine your two workshops so instead of "competing against each other", you could work together

✧ and lemme tell you... if you do it, your business is going CRAZY since you're both one of the best inventors in Belebog

✧ if you ever struggle with idea, fixing or making something, she's the one you should go for!

✧ she knows you're a bit better than her and will often mention it, not because she had low self-esteem but because she's proud girlfriend and wants to compliment you

"Hehe~ C'mon, you're the best at it! You need to teach me your trick someday, alright? In exchange... I could take you on a date next week! I'll clear my schedule so we can spend entire day with each other."

✧ expect her to be a little flirty from time to time when you work, sneaking little notes between not important machines so you'll wonder why it's not working just to find love letter there, or send some flying little robot with hear or chocolates on it... many can happen when she's in the playful mood!

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✧ Jing Yuan most likely knows every citizen of Xianzhou Luofu, some worse some better... so he definitely knew you even before you got into relationship

✧ but your relationship either developed by him hiring you one day or him getting w little crush and visiting you often

✧ and when you're together, he'll often drop by to see how you're doing and he'll you around

✧ and when he can't come check up on you because of his work... he'll simply send someone to you! It can be either Cloud Knight on patrol or Yanqing passing by

✧ he loves seeing how much you can do with just the idea and materials. So he'll sometimes sit down next to you and watch you work

✧ his favorite thing is to see the project developed all the way from simple scratch to finished product

✧ he'll also remind you of breaks, taking you out for something sweet or to restaurant whenever you finish project you've been working for days

"It looks great, my dear. Now let's go eat something. My treat. Trust me, you deserve it for all the good work you did there."

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@miya-akane - come get your soft general~

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lawlietscaramels · 4 months

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Yandere ╾ L Lawliet

Because apparently I fell into a yandere stage and this is my tunnel out.

CW typical yandere stuff (stalking, obsession, overprotection, manipulative, worship, dependence, monopoly, killer)

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Yandere L is interesting because I think yes, he could absolutely be a yandere

canonically too

BUT only if you defined a yandere by "do they have the traits?" as opposed to "what do they do?"

so first: what KIND of yandere is the detective? top five traits incoming.

STALKER

Let's just get this one out of the way

He obviously to some degree "stalks" people just for his work, through cameras and policemen if not in person

he's a stalker guys. that's it.

so he wouldn't have a problem just turning up wherever someone who interested him was

again

and again

and again...

He's pretty hard not to notice because of his peculiar mannerisms, but he's also literally black and white enough to blend into the background.

So if he was careful (he is) it would take a while before you noticed you were seeing him everywhere you went. And by then you wouldn't be able to think of a time where he wasn't sitting quietly somewhere in the background.

L knows this.

he knows you're going to assume he just happens to live in the same area as you, or something like that.

I don't think he'd actually follow you into your home but he would go when you were out someday to set up cameras

and I think L would genuinely believe himself to be a good person

what if he goes away and you get in trouble? you don't always have a roommate, who would notice? well, now L will, and he is quite able to get you back to safety. but back to the stalkery.

oh man he's gone through your stuff. your closets your phone whatever. he wants to know about you

one day he might just arrange for a little... near accident somewhere you both frequent

and oh my oh gosh oh diddly darn

guess who just happens to be there to save the day

(L. it's L. notice him please?)

OBSESSIVE

There are two things that L is canonically obsessed with: work and desserts

but if he found a romantic interest that list suddenly has a third item: YOU.

especially if you bake him cakes or help him in cases. because then he ties those things he loves to you.

and I'll just quickly mention these traits are always a little bit in his personality but the order I'm writing in is the order they come out more strongly around you.

Obsession is also tied with stalking.

Some days he watches you and dreams about you smiling at him the way you smile at the rain and the sun and the world.

he imagines how everything will work out. you're a distraction to his work: he would have to find a way to integrate you into his life in a way that allows him to be close to you and not distracted. he imagines he imagines

you'd find a way to fit into him while he was sitting, your body pressed up against his torso, legs pulled up, head on his shoulder.

he could play with your hair with one hand. you could feed him sweets.

L is for the first time not in control of his own thoughts. it's new and unpredictable so it's completely terrifying to him, and for a while he'll slink away into the darkest recesses of society and draw away from you.

but it doesn't stop. it gets worse.

he can't look outside without wondering if you're looking at the same skies. can't eat strawberries without wondering if you like them.

so then he does a full 180 and will devote all of his available attention (some must be spared for work) to you. if you don't already work together or if he hasn't made contact during the stalking at all, this is when he does it.

he reaches out to see if you'll take him.

and when you do (it's not a question of if, see manipulative) he will calm down a fair bit.

but he is still, quietly, obsessed

OVERPROTECTIVE

what can I say?

gosh he just wants to keep you safe.

He's seen every bad thing about the world through his work, he knows bad things constantly happen to good people.

but. not. to. you.

L just won't let it happen. he can and will secret you away in a hotel room. never enough for you to become suspicious, to rattle at doors and windows. And you move with him, every couple of weeks, so it's just an adventure, dear.

also I think he'd use darling in a sweeter sense. dear or maybe doll is his yandere pet name for you.

He probably has several trackers somewhere on you. probably not IN you... probably...

also you know that nail polish they developed that changes colour when it comes into contact with common poisons in drinks? he makes you use stuff like that. for your safety.

hate hate hates that he can't be with you all the time. you tend to find yourself with reasons to stay at home when L's not around. once again see manipulative.

he does trust you, he really does. but he doesn't trust the world. men in particular are often disgusting. it's just true. he's seen it time and time again as a detective. who knows what scary things could be out in the world? and if they knew you were dating, that you had ANY relationship with the world's greatest detective? L's afraid he's putting you in danger. please just humour him and stay home for a week, dear. you can work on your baking.

if you started getting really rebellious, thought you were being chained up, whatever, L would let you go and do whatever you wish. He doesn't want you to feel like that! He loves you! he may or may not have organised for a brush with death for you so that you realise how right he is about the horrors of the world and want to stay home like he asks you so nicely to.

you're just so pure. so innocent.

there, there. he won't let them hurt you.

he'll even close all the blinds so the darkness of the world can't reach in to taint your beauty. isn't he the best?

MANIPULATIVE

IT'S CANON.

I can't think of any particularly specific examples but he lies about everything. Whenever he throws out a number (5%) it means he suspects someone over 90%

so he has no issues bending the truth

sigh if L's manipulative side is triggered it's triggered ALL the way. one one hand he hates doing this to you

but on the other it's for your own good and you're being stupid.

He will do ANYTHING to make you believe him. he will manipulate you into thinking he's being manipulative so he can get upset at your lack of trust in him so he's able to manipulate you

did that make sense...

can cry on demand.

but it's not all about making himself the victim, he will also just.. isolate you if you're starting to drift away from him. Suddenly your friends find other interests, your family are renovating the house or your parents won a radio prize for a vacation.

and L is the only one left. and he himself is distant until you cry and plead and apologise

the isolation thing is actually a yan trait itself and the scenarios above are also kind of training. but they're only a part of the bigger trait.

he will also manipulate situations and other people, not just you.

L just wants what's best for everyone

(coincidentally this always aligns with what is best for L.)

he's so smart though. it's really really difficult to realise he's manipulating you unless he wants you to.

WORSHIP

you're so pretty, the most perfect thing he's ever seen

you're an angel, really.

and people who don't respect you as such are going to get a subtle but clear message from L to STEP AWAY.

cold glares.

he will literally turn his head 180° like an owl to stare at them while he walks you away

they might end up fired. I mean someone who can't see what's right in front of their eyes doesn't deserve whatever job they have...

he just wants to spoil you sometimes and he has the resources to do it and more.

sometimes this gets a little suffocating but it's sweet. mostly.

it's nice to have time with your boyfriend instead of big, grand, empty rooms. L just doesn't have a lot of time. He does his job to protect you, protect you from everything in this world because it is all inferior to you.

I do not like to think about how he would react if you happened to meet Light...

I wasn't sure about whether or not to put this in the top five because I don't think he'd see himself as inferior. his IQ is big. but you could still jump from his ego down to his IQ and fall for hours. he thinks you're more good than he is but he's under no delusions about your relative intelligence or anything.

but yeah, I think he's a worshipper.

Just... a quiet worshipper. all his yan traits are kinda quiet tho haha

L wants to give you the world. he would sacrifice anything for you.

he would take a bullet for you

his work makes this a good possibility. he'd prefer not to get shot but he'd still do it for you.

probably the most harmless of his yandere traits. this one comes out when he decides this is it, you are it, forever.

HONOURABLE MENTIONS

really quickly a couple of the other traits L might have and express are:

dependence (mostly for manipulative purposes. he will cry if you ever fight. L is honestly quite dependent on you, he might die without you-- or more likely just force you back into his arms-- but he puts on a lot of an act, a puppet master pulling strings behind the stage. he wants to be seen as vulnerable, not just a stoic and brilliant detective. because which one is it easier to lose your heart to? and you must lose your heart. you stole his first.)

monopoly (when he has time, he needs you to have time for him and only him. he doesn't have a lot of time. will manipulate you into spending time with him but it's more of an occasional pest thing than anything. quite harmless. especially because he works a lot. you have plenty of time without him, which makes him sad, but he can't help it. and you wouldn't love him if he stopped you from seeing your family and friends...)

killer (yeah... not in the top five by any means but if someone tries to hurt you? god forbid, if they SUCCEED? you'll be stuck at home for a couple of weeks while L frets over you. and sometime in that couple of weeks.. well.. maybe that someone who hurt you finds themself in trouble with a gang. L's not doing the dirty work himself but he's behind it and you will never find out. if they only TRIED to hurt you L won't be able to justify killing them to himself, but they'll quickly find themselves in jail.)

YANDERE?

so back to what I mentioned in the first part: L is a yandere, IF you're only basing the classification on the fact that he has these traits and the ability to act on them

but as anyone who's watched police or court drama knows, you need more than means and opportunity:

you need MOTIVE.

this is where I can't base my thoughts on canon so much anymore. the only people who we really see L caring about the death of (spoilers‼️) are: the FBI agents (though not on a personal level); Ukita (pretty sure that's his name); and Watari (though L himself dies too soon after for this last one to be useful)

so. Ukita.

L probably wouldn't care enough for the guy to go yandere for him LMFAO but we do see him refusing to rush in and take action without thinking, something which a yandere might be more inclined to do if they cared about someone.

HOWEVER we also see he's trembling. like he's a little in shock about the death and what it means, but also he wants to do something about it.

a yandere urge, brought out by something bad happening to someone he cares about.

My point being?

L has the traits of a yandere, and has the ability to act on any of them any time. he's smart, he's rich, and he has the trust of the entire world (or respect at least)

but he doesn't act unless triggered.

and ofc because he doesn't have a canonical love interest, we can't prove either way what he would do for/to them.

but I think he is more deredere (love) than yanderu (sick).

anyway, L is smart enough to realise that the yandere doesn't usually win the game of love, and that the things are not things you should be doing for/to someone who trusts you. not things you should be doing to someone you love.

but sometimes, when his emotions are high and so is the danger to you or your relationship,

his control just slips

and you might just find yourself locked in a hotel room while he works on the Kira case.

SO IS HE A YANDERE?

no. I'd say that he's a kuudere.

cold, cynical, sarcastic sense of humour, views feelings as a weakness but DOES have them and will open up over time.

but oh...

wait...

according to the dere wiki...,

"Due to the way a kuudere acts, a yandere can easily pretend to be a kuudere when not acting insane."

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so, what do we think?

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but hey that's just a theory... a DERE theory! aaand cut.

𝖎𝖋 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊𝖉 𝖎𝖙 ˏˋ⋆˖⁺˖⁀➷ 𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊 𝖗𝖊𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌 + 𝖋𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖜

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tokoyamisstuff · 4 months

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Dad! Mark Hoffman HC's

A/N: Thanks for all of your Requests! I'll try and get them done over the holidays.

In the meantime a lil' treat for you.

Before the death of his sister and involuntarily association with a serialkiller, it had been Mark's absolute dream to have a family of his own someday - sadly, life happened and he deemed himself undeserving after everything he had done.

The two of you are an open secret to anyone, yet were never official - even though you were basically living like a married couple for a long time already.

You knew he was terribly afraid of commitment, so as long as he never had to label your relationship as such, he could continue lying to himself.

So obviously, when you realize that you had become pregnant despite precautions, you panic.

How would he even react to the news? Furious? Afraid? Indifferent?! Either way, you were certain his fight or flight instinct would kick in.

You had already made up your mind, yet don't dare confronting him directly - but hey, he can't really blame you.

He'll find the positive test on his bathroom sink, together with a letter from you explaining that you intend to keep the child but him not having any responsibilities shall he not want to.

You don't hear from him for days and it breaks your heart - until he suddenly appears at your doorstep with a bonquet and a bigass stuffed animal.

Tells you he needed to settle some things which definetly involved murdering Jigsaw and any other possible danger before he could face you again, but from now on he'll always be here for you and the baby.

This will be the first time he'll actually open up about how much you meant to him all this time - yet the fear to lose you as well made him keep his distance.

You'll end up having a long talk throughout the night, just lying in each other's arms and speaking about both your worries and wishes for the future.

Afterwards Hoffman will make a whole 180, turning his life around from this day onwards. Immediately becomes sober and gets his shit together. Time to become a functional human being!

Man is unrecognizeable in his efforts. No more half-assed bonds, asks you to move in with him in a better part of the town as soon as possible. You won't get rid of him anymore.

He's not really a fan of marriage, but reconsiders because it'd be easier to care for each other, at least officially. Good luck convincing him to host an actual wedding ceremony, though. Most likely only celebrates with your close family and some mutual friends.

Is really traditional with other values, however. Shall you not want to keep working, he'll be so happy to provide. And damn, you'll be taken good care of!

Backrubs, feet massages, holding your belly or bringing your cravings - Mark's love language is acts of service!

Sadly misses most of the appointments du to working his ass off, but hell make it up in other ways. At least tries to come to some birth prep classes.

It's hilarious seeing this gloomy old man so invested in baby-stuff. He is so clueless, but gives it his utmost to learn.

Mark is an overthinker, after all. Makes plans and preparations years in advance. The house will be baby-proof before you even hit the second trimester.

More overthinking. What if there's still students of Jigsaw alive, after all? And even if there isn't, as a cop his family would always be in danger! This man has seen so many traumatizing things in this cruel world, he will go to any lenght to protect you.

Underneath this behavior he's actually afraid to be a bad father due to his past. Sure, he cared for his sister a while but a baby is on a whole different level. He never got to experience what a real family is like, so he is both incredibly excited and scared.

Contemplates leaving the state to somewhere safer, but only if you want to. You have family there, after all.

Will shamelessly beg you to name this child after his sister, shall it become a girl. At least only the second name, pretty please?

Discovers that your pregnant state is a huge turn-on for him. Cant take his hands off of you, gosh you make him weak. Would've never thought you could become any more attractive but there you are, proving him wrong!

Definetly gains some weight together with you during the pregnancy. Jokes about his belly almost being bigger than yours.

Advocates for you in the hospital. Your body, you decide how it's done. Good for you this man is used to seeing worse. He won't leave your side even for a second, like a guard dog until you're discharged.

Definetly cries when holding his child for the first time. Utters neverending words of gratitude and adoration at both of you.

Is a little hesistant to handle the child at the beginning. I can imagine him being way more comfortable as soon as it can hold it's own head and he's safe to play with them.

Tries to take some time off of work until you're feeling well enough to be on your own. He'll take good care of the household and your healing body.

My man is old, let him rest. The nights really are killing him, no coffee in the world will help.

Enjoys bonding with the baby so much! He could look at it all day, and gosh as soon as you show him how to babywear you probably never get it back except for feedings lol

He's one of those dad's who has his whole wallet full of photos of you and the baby. Will proudly show them everyone at every possibility - may they want to or not, they'll have to listen about how amazing you are.

In the end Mark will always say that you and the family you gave him has saved him in more than one way - and you were blissfully unaware about the extent of that statement.

#saw #mark hoffman #mark hoffman x reader #self insert #writing #headcanon

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merotwst · 10 months

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remember | solomon

» angsty-ish; gender-neutral reader ; mentions of reader dying someday in the future and solomon having past lovers ; me being delusional and sleep-deprived and losing grip on reality (a cry for help)

you shifted your position so that your face was hovering on top of him, "someday, when I'm gone..." you said, gazing lovingly into his eyes, "i want you to remember me as your love that kept your lonely heart full in nights where the feeling of emptiness was too much. the love whose insuperable melancholy, no matter how heavy, would lift all of it off themselves to wrap their arms around you. you over everything else." your voice grew more stadily as you spoke.

"when I'm gone someday, i want you to think of me when you're wrapped up in a sweater and remember how i loved to knit them for us. think of me when the coffee is just a bit too milky because i like mine that way. think of me when you're alone and remember that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you would end up in." you leaned in to kiss him softly but with so much love, closing your eyes to savor the moment with him.

“remember i'll always choose you in any lifetime.”

solomon listened to every word. every whisper like a secret melody only both of you could hear. his hands on your hips as bare skin brushed over bare skin in sending intimately beautiful sparks over both of you.

his loves past, loves to be discovered throughout the course of his immortal timeline—he didn't want to think of them. he wanted you. he wanted the now to last forever more than anything. 'there couldn't possibly be anyone after you when you're long gone,' he thinks to himself, 'no one could ever compare.'

that's what he tells himself, but he knows it's inevitable.

he's still only human, after all. humans need love to survive.

you'll die someday and he'll live past you. another stone on the ground of someone he once loved, memories to be placed in a corner of his mind thay would be too painful to go back to for a good hundred years.

then it'll get better. and he'll meet someone who he treasures just as much as you and everyone that he'd given his heart to in the past. but you will always have a special place. you will always be a love he would never get over no matter how long and whoever would be in his arms because he knows he'll see you everywhere, hear you everywhere, feel you everywhere when you're gone. And somehow, the thought comforts him.

with your hand to his lips brushing over your knuckles so tenderly, eyes shut and savoring the moment, he whispers back earnestly and honestly.

“how could i ever forget?”

#i pictured you with other people in loooooove then threw up on the street #had a conversation on c.ai #had an epiphany #wrote something #haven't studied for my exam in an hour #failing #i hate being in stem #. merowrites #obey me #obey me solomon #obey me solomon x reader #solomon om #om solomon #om solomon x reader #solomon x reader #obey me x reader

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yanderes-galore · 19 days

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Yandere romantic concept for Sans from Dusttale AU?

I can try, sure! Naturally every fic involving DustTale's going to be tragic so prepare yourself.

Yandere! Murder Sans Concept

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Angst, Violence, Murder, Deteriorating mental health (Sans), Mercy killing, Delusional behavior, Forced/Dubious "relationship"

I like to imagine, when it comes to this type of yandere Sans, his obsession is someone he's been close with.

Throughout countless runs he's managed to befriend you.

Y'know... when he was still Sans, or someone close to the original.

Sans wants nothing more than to just live his life with you.

But then the human came along... and the loop of Genocide Runs began.

Sans mental health already starts to go downhill when he is forced remember every run.

Even more so when he has to relive seeing his brother and partner killed.

My HC is with this AU, Sans' obsession is due to the mental decline he experiences due to the resets.

For the first few resets, he does his best to protect you and those he cares about from the human.

He really tries the first few times.

He loves you with all his SOUL... but the human gets to you eventually.

By the time of the 300+ run, Sans realizes he needs a new tactic to break the cycle.

He decides the only way to fight fire... is with fire.

Which leads to his decision to kill monsters in order to grow stronger.

Putting you in the crossfire of two killers.

Sans was most likely not yandere before the Genocide loop.

It's the huge amount of mental strain caused by all of it that makes him snap.

At first, he's just protective every reset.

Which then transitions into possessive behavior...

He tries everything from locking you away to attacking the human first.

He doesn't win... he can't win...

Each failure he deals with makes his mental state decline more and more.

Eventually he'll pull out all the stops.

Which just so happens to be him deciding killing the monsters first will give him the power he needs to face the human.

He views it as "mercy killing" when it comes to you.

If he doesn't kill you... the human will.

If you let him do it, he can at least promise you he'll be quick.

He doesn't want his partner to suffer.

However... are you even his partner, anymore?

You've noticed his change in behavior and distanced yourself.

Only Sans remembers the resets... but you can just sense something's up.

Especially when Sans decides to kill monsters before the human does.

You can run... but Sans is against it.

Don't make things harder... you're preventing the inevitable.

He'll just have to chase you now.

Sans is delusional in this state.

He thinks that you will want to help him stop the cycle in the end.

Even if it means your death.

Sure... he can see you backing away and running... but it's for the good of both of you.

After all this ends... he'll put you both in a better timeline.

You just have to trust him.

Just hold still...

He'll make sure it doesn't hurt too much because he loves you.

What doesn't make things better is when his plan fails.

Now he has to try again... and again... and again.

Poor Sans is stuck in a perpetual loop of watching his friends and partner die.

At some point... the pain won't even matter even more...

He may even get used to chasing you down and plunging a bone deep within you... is it even worth it to say sorry, anymore?

At least he can keep you to himself this way... being the one to mercy kill you over and over until the cycle stops... if it even does.

"Someday we'll love each other again... someday you'll belong to me again... someday... I'll fix things...!"

#yandere undertale au #yandere dusttale #yandere murder sans #yandere dusttale sans #yandere dust sans

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voidandabyssal · 6 months

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My Horrortale brothers HCs!

horror sans = axe

horror papyrus = crooks

Axe:

much like the actual horrortale comic, Monsters resorted to eating human flesh in order to survive, in my HC, this includes Sans. Years of despreation and hunger eventually drive him to start eating the humans he hunts.

Axe used to feel guilt, at least in the beginning. Once Undyne cracked his poor skull, well, he was just too lazy to feel anything.

He's too far gone to care anymore, and fuck anyone who tries to make him feel guilty. He kept his brother alive, his community alive. That's all he cares about.

He's quiet, The skull injury makes it difficult for him to speak. He's not entirely mute but he his mind moves to fast for his mouth to move. So a lot of the times he'll say parts of a sentence, and it may be disjointed, or he may speak slowly.

he also struggles with memory loss. Remebering things that have happened recently is really tough on him. So hes taken to carrying around a notebook, when he wants to or needs to remember something he writes it down. Then he can just check whenever he needs to.

he stares. Seriously, when he likes something (or someone) he just looks at them. You can tell when he's looking at someone he likes because they'll have his full attention, and if he likes, likes them? His remaining eyelight will be all blown up.

It's cute, creepy, but cute

Once the barrier is broken he struggles to find something to do. Axe spent years just surviving, he never had to worry about what other people thought of him, or how to get a job, or how to get and maintain finances. His skull injury and processing issues make this even harder.

so he bounces jobs for a while, somedays he's a hotdog vendor, sometimes he's a retail clerk, sometimes he's a security guard. Sometimes he's unemployed. You can never guess what he's up to.

he, and every other Monster, receive government money. As restitution for their whole species being locked under ground to suffer. So him and Crooks aren't poor, they're doing pretty okay for themselves

Crooks:

Crooks feels horrible surviors guilt. In the first few years of being on the surface it's something that made him horribly depressed. Even if he hide said depression. He suffers from nightmares of the Underground and all the friends and neighbours he lost for years. It's something he never really gets over.

He wears braces! Crooks needs a lot of dental surgerys and treatments in order to correct the years of abuse Queen (horrortale Undyne) put his teeth through.

When all the identitys of the humans who fell underground and were killed are revealed, Papyrus writes letters to all their families. Apologising on behalf of everyone.

He gets a job as a nurse! After years of study (and therapy) he starts working in Ebott hospital.

He consitently wins employee of the month once he starts working

He and Axe still live together, they don't ever want to live apart from one another. Not after what they went through. So if you wanna smooch Crooks or Axe. You gotta accept the other brother. they're a package deal

he forgives Queen (ht undyne) and Doctor (ht Alphys) for what they did. He doesn't speak to either of them, however.

He largly still remains the same happy skeleton as before, just a lot of his naivite and innocence has been washed away. He's more of a hopful realist then an optimist now.

He and Axe have a cute three bedroom home in the suburbs. It's a quaint cottage. Perfect for the two of them. It's quiet to, which is important for when either of them are struggling with an episode.

did I mention that? Yeah both of them occasionally have flashbacks to the Underground. Sometimes they forget they're not starving, sometimes they're so stuck in a flashback that they end up physically lashing out.

Feel free to send me any askes! I'll answer anything!!

#undertale #sans undertale #undertale au #horrortale sans #horrortale #horrortale papyrus #my writing #undertale headcanons #headcanon

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Taran • Wales, one of my dnd character and my Tav in bg3.

Half-elf bard, college of sword. The pronounce is He/They since he's an intersex.

Here's how he looks in bg3. And his dream visitor.

I didn't find any hair style that looks close to the D&D version, whether in game or mods, so I just pretended he cut his braids off.

And here's Taran's background story. It's the same in both versions, but the developments are different.

Born as a human and an elf, a body of male and female, Taran • Wales didn't fit in with other human kids during his childhood. Only a half-elf boy, Edwin, who is the same age as him, is willing to interact with him. They share the same experience of being isolated as a half-elf and see each other as best friend of themselves.

They have the same dream of becoming a bard and have adventure around the world. They promised each other that they will complete their dream together when they grow up. However, Edwin is more talented than Taran, and he's more good at social skills, letting him become more popular among others. He's more than just a half-elf who's being isolated when he's little. Though Taran is a positive person, he keeps telling himself that he will become just like his friend, and Edwin also keeps encouraging him. He's still afraid that he would become just a foil of his friend, living under his shadow.

Until one day, Edwin got an accident and passed away at a young age. Taran couldn't believe it. He's being left alone in this world. What should he do next? He had a feeling that he'll also passed away no longer, so he decided to enjoy the rest of his life, for himself, and for his best friend. He'll die someday eventually, so why not enjoy the rest? He set out his adventure without a doubt. Started his journey of a never-ending adventure.

He believes he will see Edwin again, and he'll share his exciting adventure with him. This is a secret between him and Edwin, as a best friend. When someone asks about his motivation of adventure, he'll say that he wants to experience the greatest and the most awesome adventure by himself.

And here's his development in bg3.

He was caught and put a mind flayer tadpole in his brain, but he met some people who shared the same experience.

"Become a mind flayer and DIE? That's terrible and disgusting, and there's no way I'll die in this way! "

So now his goal is to find a way to get rid of the tadpole problem. Until one night, he met "Edwin" in his dream.

"Holy... Am I...dead? ... Is that you? Ed?"

The dream visitor looked and sounded just like his best friend, Edwin. He told Taran that he'll be safe as long as he's there to protect him. He also reminded him that he needs to learn how to wield the power of the tadpole for the sake of both of them.

Maybe it was just a vision. Maybe it was really Edwin. Whoever it is, Taran's determination of the former goal has shaken.

I only started for 11 hrs, and I have no idea whether the dream visitor's intention is good or bad. No matter how it'd end up, I think it would be a dramatic turn of the story.

#bg3 tav #bg3 #oc #dnd charcter art #dnd #half elf #bard

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void-botanist · 19 days

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🪄 🪄 🪄 🪄!!!!

Admittedly I have more songs for Sorian and Avis than pretty much everyone else but WOE SORAVIS BE UPON YE

Maybe Someday by The Cure

This entire song is extremely Avis and Sorian I can't

No, I won't do it some more, it doesn't make any sense If we can't be like it was, I've got to let it rest I don't want what I did, I had a change of tense But maybe someday, yeah I'll see you smile as you call my name And start to feel and it feels the same And I know that maybe someday's come Maybe someday's come again

This is basically the anthem for their story in CM, you know, minus all the fighting they do on the way. Avis finally admits to herself that she wants Sorian back, and she's almost sort of ready to face that things will be complicated and different.

Breakfast At Tiffany's by Deep Blue Something

I see you - the only one who knew me And now your eyes see through me I guess I was wrong So what now? It's plain to see we're over And I hate when things are over When so much is left undone And I said "What about Breakfast at Tiffany's?" She said, "I think I remember that film And as I recall, I think we both kinda liked it." And I said "Well, that's the one thing we've got."

This song is all about how Avis is still clinging to the marriage she ended, really. She can't stand the fact that Sorian, the only person who has ever really known her, no longer occupies the same place in her life. She can't decide whether she hates him or hates losing him more. But they've still got something in common - something to build from - right?

Love or Let Me Be Lonely by The Friends Of Distinction

This is extremely a Sorian song:

I could live without love If I wanted to in this lonely room But I don't want to, so I leave it up to you To wash away my gloom

He's been alone for the last fifteen years, rebuilding his life without Avis. He's seen what it's like to be without her, and it's not so bad, though he'd rather be with her and her specifically (he doesn't feel like no one else has ever known him, but she's certainly known him better than most, and he will never stop being hopelessly in love with her).

Fadeback by Fitz and the Tantrums

It just feels like your heart ain't, your heart ain't in it Wish that I could just stop the universe from spinning I just want you to fade back into me I just need you to fade back Just fade back into me

This song is actually on the Captured Moonlight playlist because it applies equally to Avis assuming that getting back together would be as easy as just saying "you wanna sail together" and to Emma not really vibing with the whole "Sid lives his life on another planet" thing (Donovan's made some kind of peace with it, which is unbelievable when Sid is not home). But Avis also expects that when she sees Sorian after a year that he'll still be a wet noodle, and that is not how it happens.

Soravis taglist: @vacantgodling @athenswrites @kk7-rbs

Music taglist: @outpost51 @kk7-rbs

#you should know their playlist is called “the only port”#also if you ever draw them I will perish of joy tbh #c: Sorian #c: Avis #wip: cm #wip: aom #magic wand ask game #soravis

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Hello there! I've recently come to the realization that I may be panromantic asexual and was wondering how you learned to accept yourself as God made you? I grew up in a time where the whole "conversion therapy is bad, God will convert you straightness instead!😃" rhetoric was a thing, and I constantly have that in the back of my head. I want to be free, to love, to know that God didn't make a mistake with me and that I'm not lying to myself. I know you don't have all the answers, but thank you for taking the time to read this. I'm praying for nothing but the best for you.

Hi, beloved! Thank you for your prayers. I'm so proud of you for learning more about yourself and being willing to start this journey! Getting that rhetoric out of the back of your head is a hard one. It's hard to free yourself from what you've been taught. Here's some of my journey, and some thoughts!

I had a similar rhetoric taught to me—"Yes, abusive tactics were wrong, and we shouldn't treat queer people badly, and it's not their fault, but they need to not act on their thoughts, they need to not identify with their emotions, and they need to pray more. And even if God doesn't take away their attractions, he'll give them the strength to suffer through heterosexual marriages, which is what we should all strive for!" The thing about realizing you're queer is it doesn't take those beliefs/instincts away. This is why there are a large number of homophobic gay people, and also why there's an even larger number of people like us, who know what we believe, but sometimes can't get rid of the stuff we used to/were taught to believe.

I started questioning my identity around age 13. And the one thing I decided on was that I couldn't be gay. I just couldn't be. I knew what gay people were, and I didn't hate them, but I knew what my parents said about them (that they were confused/sinful/sick), and I wasn't them. And I have a very clear memory of a journal page from middle school—I'm sure it's still around somewhere. It was titled "What I Would Do If I Was Gay." Now looking back this is hilarious, and not really something one writes if they're straight. But being the organized human being I was, I had a plan. I don't remember all the bullet points, but I know one of them went something like, "Decide on a man that I wouldn't mind marrying. Be nice to him." Again, hilarious, very straight I promise. But I was following what I had been taught. The last bullet point was, if all else fails, to die, because that's the only future I could imagine for myself if I couldn't live the way my parents wanted me to. You internalize this stuff, and imagining a future in which you're free is the hardest thing in the world sometimes.

I am here to say—and I'll say it over and over again to as many people as I can—that there is a future. We have so much beautiful time. So much of the pain I've been through involved a failure of imagination—I couldn't imagine a future for myself, so I assumed it didn't exist. There's such a lack of trust there, both in myself and in God. The first step (besides admitting to myself that yes, I was some flavor of queer) was trusting. That I couldn't see a world in which I was okay with myself, but that there was one. And I would get there someday.

The beginning was surrounding myself with people and communities that were affirming. I couldn't leave my home—partially because I was a kid, and partially because I didn't want to (I still haven't)—but I had the internet. If you dig deep enough on my personal Tumblr (please don't, I'm begging you), I was calling myself a straight ally—I've been on here a long time. Tumblr was the first place where I really saw queer people just… being normal? I didn't know any out people in my life, and so my ideas of queer people were stories and ideas and news articles. But I remember the first time I saw someone just, casually mention being gay, and it blew my mind. Because they were normal, and they weren't afraid. And if they could be, I could be. A Google search led me to Queer Theology, which is still a beloved resource of mine. And slowly, the people I followed and the friends I made and the websites I visited… they were queer. And suddenly it wasn't a bad word, it was just… how some people were. And I hated myself and my identity viciously, but I never hated them.

That was one thing I held onto. My friends started coming out to me (yeah, we all ended up queer), and I responded with joy and love. I didn't have that for myself, not yet, but knowing I had it at all kept me going. The thing that helped me love myself the most in life is paying attention to how I treated others. Love your neighbor as yourself. (Confession: sometimes I'm thinking a bad thing. And I imagine that someone on this very blog put the bad thing in my inbox. And I know what I would do: I would validate their feelings, and maybe find some ways to feel better, or give them some things to read, and remind them they're loved, and pray for them. Why am I different? Why do I uniquely deserve to be alone? And I do those things, for me.) Sometimes you have to ask, if a friend was going through this, what would I say to them? And that's what you should say to yourself. I'm willing to bet you are free and loving and supportive of other queer people. Not that you're perfect, etc. etc., but that you are a good friend. You've been lovely to me! Maybe not now, but someday, you will be able to give that to yourself.

Another question I ask myself: When have I been a better, more loving Christian—when I was repressed and self-hating, or after I accepted my identity? And the answer, in every way, is the second. Self-hatred is just another form of self-centering. I don't say this to blame or guilt anyone, but it is a truth I had to process. I used to worry every day about every single thought I was having, and call myself the worst person alive, and sit around hating myself, and worrying about my future. Now obviously this was partially because I'm severely mentally ill, and also because of the homophobia I had been taught, and I don't blame my past self. But the reality is that I was so consumed by myself that I wasn't really… being a person. And if I had kept going like that, if I was right now forcing myself into heterosexual relationships and curbing my self-expression and despising my love and terrified of the Bible, I would be a selfish, lonely person. And I wouldn't be much of a Christian. But right now? Loving and celebrating myself, seeking fulfilling relationships, finding joy in God? I am a better person, a better Christian, for being affirming. Whenever I get a thought, an instinctual, intrusive thought from the past, telling me to go back there, to that place, I remind myself that God asks me to be loving and faithful, and this is where I am loving and faithful. And in the future, hopefully I will grow into more love and faith than I can even imagine right now. But I can't go back. Wherever you are right now, know that you could use your energy to center yourself, to repress and erase yourself, or you could use it to love. To let yourself exist, and live a life. Be a person. And no God I would worship would prefer the former.

Re: mistakes: Something I learned from exploring queer Christianity is that our religion is made so much better by queer people. The art, theology, and joy that queer people bring to Christianity is not a mistake, it is a purposeful diversifying of the human experience that God welcomes. "Love does no harm to a neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law." There are no mistakes. There is evil to defeat, and there is suffering to overcome, and there is the fulfillment of God's law through love. We're fulfilling the law, right now, by having this conversation—we both approached it with love.

Re: lying to ourselves: Usually when we worry about this, we're worried that we're wrong. That we'll feel differently tomorrow, and this is proof that we were lying. But that's not what lying is. There aren't very many permanent senses of self. It is generally harmful to consider queerness a phase, and it's not the lens through which we should view people's identity, but the reality is that we don't know everything all at once, and there are phases of emotion/experience. There are times when I question my gender identity, and times when I feel completely comfortable as the gender I was born with. I'm not lying to myself during either of those times, and those experiences are not less real because they don't last forever. You have recently come to a realization regarding who you might be; you've found words that might describe you. Unless you are purposely sending me lies (this would be a very strange thing to lie about), you are communicating to me an honest experience and interpretation. It may be that since you sent this ask (a regrettably long time ago), you interpret your experiences differently, or feel differently about sex/attraction, or any number of things. This doesn't mean you've lied—it means you're a person. God created you with the ability to grow and change, and this is a good and holy thing. Whatever words feel right to you at this moment, whatever experiences you're having, you're here now, and that is the truth. Tomorrow is a new day, with new space for truth. Not knowing everything isn't lying, and being wrong isn't lying, and changing isn't lying, and not seeing the whole picture isn't lying. It's just existing.

I've said a lot. I think I've said what I wanted to say. In summary: it takes time, and changing your environment, and constant self-reminding re: your values; and lacking imagination isn't the same thing as lacking a future; and wanting to be free is the only way you get to freedom; and you already have love, you just have to nurture it; and you're not faking or lying or a mistake, you're a person. I learned to accept myself by accepting others, and remembering I'm just as worthy of love as they are, and by validating my truth even as it changed, and by remembering that being queer (or rather, loving and living out my queerness) has made me a better person and Christian.

What gets you to self-acceptance might be radically different, but I pray it's just as life-changing, and I know it'll be worth it. Peace be with you.

<3 Johanna

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Thoughts on the final Given chapter

I got my copy of Cheri+ so these are just some thoughts after using my basic Japanese and piecing together the panels with Keru's wonderful twitter translation.

-- SPOILERS AHEAD --

I was hoping for a cover illustration of Mafuyu AND Ue together but I'm okay with solo Mafuyu too. This was ultimately the story of his grief, discovery, and growth, so to see him smiling at the end of it all is so beautiful. He's surrounded by cherry blossoms, which symbolize change and a new season, and is set against the ocean, which holds special meaning in both of his relationships. I cry.

The fold out poster (pictured above) is so cool!! I really want to cut it out of the magazine and display it somewhere but I'm afraid I'll mess it up...

Given debuted, rejoice!

It's really nice that Kasai wasn't just cast aside as "that jealous girl" competing with Mafuyu for Ue (although she never stood a chance lol) and grew to become kind of a confidant and supporter for him. They may not fully understand each other, but they share a mutual respect and provide little bits of unexpected encouragement for each other and it's so wholesome.

Hiiragi being a menace but also sparkly, usual stuff. It's so funny because Hiiragi and Ue don't get along on the surface (two ore-sama types am I right), but they totally jive as artists, which is why Ue will continue playing support - and "ONLY SUPPORT" says a very bitter Mafuyu - for SYH.

I'm surprised at how little Haruki and Akihiko showed up in the chapter, but we did get crumbs that Haruki is apartment hunting~ They are so stable, just get married already.

When Keru initially tweeted that a significant portion of the chapter covers something she was hoping would happen but wasn't sure if it would, my mind immediately went to the gutter and assumed it was RitsuMafu sex lolol. It wasn't just me, right???

Anyways, they went to the BEACH. Mafuyu has gone to the beach with Yuki, but they went during the biting cold of winter and weren't "officially dating" so they didn't really do date-y stuff. His experience with Ue was totally different. There's several pages of them just eating and having fun, and they look like they can't get enough of each other.

Ugetsu calling Mafuyu out of the blue to thank him for the CD was really sweet. When I initially watched and read the series up to the end of the AkiHaru arc, I wasn't too big on Ugetsu and I actually thought that he was romantically interested in Mafuyu and would stir things up or cause trouble. Clearly I was wrong, and I'm glad. Their friendship is so valuable for both of them as two musical geniuses who are a bit socially awkward, and they've taken turns being there for the other when they needed a push, whether it was to say goodbye to an unhealthy relationship or to take a step towards love and music.

Ugetsu's wish to Mafuyu back when Yoru ga Akeru was in the works - about hoping that despite everything that's happened between him and Akihiko, if at least the music could remain - ends up being the driving point of this chapter and the end of the series. Mafuyu tells Ugetsu that he believes that Ugetsu remains in music, and so does Yuki, even if he can never see him again. When Ue comes back and kisses Mafuyu before offering him a drink, Mafuyu muses that someday, he'll probably forget this moment too, and that's why he wants to keep making music. It ties back to his last time at the beach with Yuki, because Yuki insisted that Mafuyu would eventually forget that day, but now with Fuyu no Hanashi and Umi e, these moments are able to live on.

The kiss had me squealing! It's nothing big or grand, but Ue is kneeling and he looks up at Mafuyu for a moment before going in for the kiss. This is such huge growth for Ue~ Their first kiss was a result of his overwhelming emotions after the live, and he didn't even remember it later! When they shared the classroom kiss after their fight, Ue wanted to take initiative but got shy and so it was ultimately Mafuyu who made the move. Now Ue has kissed Mafuyu on his own, in public!!! and with full intent and absolute love and affection. When he pulls away, the look in his eyes is like Mafuyu is the most amazing being in the world and he can't believe he's his. Ughhhhhh.

There is a full blank page of just text that says, "If only everything could stay like this forever." This is what Mafuyu is thinking as they ride the train back from the beach. I found it a weird thought to highlight because obviously, things WILL and SHOULD change.

As they get up to leave the train, Mafuyu (blushing slightly) calls out to Ue and says, "When we get back, should we do it?" to which Ue responds with "EHHHHHHHH?!" A little unexpected as the final panel of the final chapter but it's a nice callback to when Yuki asked Mafuyu the same question. MAH BOY UE IS FINALLY GRADUATING! I knew Mafuyu was going to have to take the lead, hehe.

MINOR GRIPES AND FINAL THOUGHTS

I've had two months to deal with the series ending and I had already tempered my expectations knowing the ending was going to be rushed, so honestly as long as Kizu-sensei didn't like, spontaneously kill off a character or break up a couple, I was pretty okay with anything the chapter was going to give us. I do still have some some gripes and things I just wish had been explored more.

My biggest complaint is in regards to the treatment of Ue as an individual and his relationship with Mafuyu. If we recall, Given actually starts off from Ue's point of view. He had been in a musical slump until Mafuyu came along and rocked his world. He had to come to terms with his unfamiliar feelings, and then he also had to deal with the fact that he knows almost nothing about the boy he likes. Even after they started dating, Mafuyu really didn't share anything about Yuki with him, so whatever he knew was very vague and second-hand knowledge. THEN in addition to that, he's tasked with finishing the demo of a piece that Yuki had obviously intended as a love song for Mafuyu. And ironically, he works on this song at the expense of his relationship with Mafuyu. He had brief moments of vulnerability, once when Aki called him out for his feelings toward Mafuyu (this is one of my favorite scenes in the anime), and again when Mafuyu rejected his invitation to SYH's debut concert. But then we never really see him working through these complicated feelings. My boy's been through so much and he is strong, but I wanted to see more growth and development from him. After all, he's just a teenage boy who fell in love for the first time and is trying to balance that with music, school, a part-time job, etc.

As for Ue and Mafuyu as a couple, they are my endgame, my OTP, so while I enjoy the arcs that focus on AkiHaru and ShizuRagi, I was never as invested in them. I was okay reading 20+ chapters of them because I always assumed that the series would circle back around to have a final arc focused on Ue and Mafuyu. I also found the resolution to their problems in the hiiragi_mix arc to be very rushed. They had MAJOR communication issues, which is completely understandable for two young guys. Ue was trying so hard to finish the song as a gift for Mafuyu, but Mafuyu pulled away because he saw a repeat of what happened with Yuki coming again and got scared. The root of the issue is that they've never talked about Mafuyu's relationship with Yuki and Yuki's death.

At SYH's debut live, Mafuyu hears Umi e, instantly recognizes that the song came from Yuki, and then is so moved and inspired that he basically proposes to Ue that he wants to make music with him for the rest of his life. And then the final chapter just cuts forward after this declaration to Given debuting. This resolution is too fast and unrealistic. I would have preferred at LEAST one whole long chapter dedicated to Ue and Mafuyu after the live debriefing and talking. In an even more ideal world, they would have also done it after the talking. I never expected anything explicit but I would have at least liked to see the lead up, because it would have been the truest form of intimacy they could share, and Ue coming to terms with his sexuality and what exactly he wanted to "do to Mafuyu" was such a big part of the series early on.

Regardless, Kizu-sensei wrapped everything up nicely, brought back every character for at least a cameo, and ended things on a happy, meaningful note. I've seen that many people are unsatisfied with it but I mean, I watched Game of Thrones, so I know a bad ending and this was just fine. Although I didn't get everything on my Given wish list, I am glad that I got to see the end. I prefer that over it getting cancelled at some point for whatever reason and being left unfinished. And we still have more to look forward to! I'll be hoping for some extra manga content with the volume 9 release and waiting to hear Umi e in the anime.

Just like Mafuyu says, Given and the music will remain with us. It touched my heart and will always have a special place there. Thank you for everything, Given!

#given #given manga #goodbye given #kizu natsuki #given anime #satou mafuyu #uenoyama ritsuka #uenoyama x mafuyu

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"You Might Not Like Her" by Maddie Zahm Sentence Starters

POCKET BIBLE

"He/she/they could've been the best friend I couldn't have."

"Passed out advice, never passed out on drugs."

"I/You carried around judgement and labeled it love."

"I thought I knew how to live exactly right."

"The truth ain't travel sized."

"What's it gonna take to heal a heartbreak?"

"What happens if I kiss a girl/boy for Christ's sake?"

"If I'm getting high, am I mistake?"

"Why'd they start to want me when I lost the weight?"

"Why do I feel better when I don't pray?"

"I must've missed a verse that was vital."

FAT FUNNY FRIEND

"I have to be nice or I'll be the next punchline."

"I'm just the best friend in Hollywood movies who only exists to continue the story."

"The girl gets the guy, while I'm standing off-screen."

"I'll wait for my cue to be comedic relief."

"If I don't answer now, are they still gonna need me?"

"Do they keep me around, so their flaws just seem silly?"

"I say 'I'm okay', cause they wouldn't care anyway."

"And I could try to explain, but my effort's in vain."

"I've done every diet to make me look thinner."

"So why do I still feel so goddamn inferior."

"It's funny when I think a guy/girl likes me."

"If I don't answer now, are they still gonna miss me?"

"Life of the fat, funny friend."

IF IT'S NOT GOD

"Be pretty and don't make it look like you're trying."

"When they were wrong, I could never keep quiet."

"I searched for the truth, and had faith that I'd find it."

"I let myself be the liar."

"I never understood some types of love being wrong."

"Something inside me was always steering left."

"What father/mother picks a few just to leave the rest?"

"I heard a voice inside my head, it disagreed."

"So if that wasn't God, well, thank God it was me."

"They called me a sinner when I was a saint."

"I let them call me the liar."

"He'll/she'll/they'll know why I left, why I ran in a hurry."

"Either way I choose, I'm not wasting my life."

"The voice in my head has always been right."

INEVITABLE

"You spent ten years with somebody, didn't end up working out."

"You call me a friend, again and again."

"We could try to resist, to keep our distance."

"We could call this what it isn't."

"This has more push than it ever had pull."

"We're inevitable."

"You look out for me and it scares me."

"Every time I meet someone new face to face, the pieces don't fit the same."

"We both know it's inevitable."

"This was never in our control."

"Can we both admit it's out of our control?"

YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE HER

"It's against everything that we stood for."

"Someday, you'll kiss a girl/boy and you'll panic."

"You'll learn to let people have their opinions."

"Someday, you'll learn to keep your own secrets."

"You'll say you're doing okay and really mean it."

"You'll lose your faith a bit and question if she's/he's/they're you."

"For a while you not like her/him/them, but I do."

"You'll the old you, but here's the deal."

"That good girl/guy you were was really fucking bad at being real."

"They'll love you not despite, but regardless."

"You'll learn to let people have shitty opinions."

#rp memes #rp starters #rp prompts #rp lyric meme #lyric prompts #lyric starters #roleplay starters #roleplay prompts #sentence starters #not the old me. 2.0 me. no it's all of meme combined (ask meme)#when there was me and queue (queue)#tw: drugs #tw: religion #tw: religious themes #tw: body image

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deejadabbles · 8 months

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More Whisper Headcanons for OC Sunday!

A continuation of these headcanons 🖤

Whisper is big into art of all mediums, but he's especially interested in charcoal sketching and wood carving. He likes how dramatic and moody it can look with simple shades of black and grey. If he gets a moment to breath while on different planets he likes to sketch his surroundings, otherwise he'll take stills recorded from his visor and try to recreate them. Then he found that he loves making little charms out of wood. When his bestie Fixit welded him a good luck charm he wanted to make him something in return, so he tries carving and found that he really likes it.

As mentioned before Whisper really likes tattoos (another form of art expression). He gets some of those blackout tattoos down both arms, solid stripes/bands around his biceps, and ones that fades into a mist-like design on his forearms/wrists, similar to something like these:

He also gets a lotus over his heart (inspired by Liv's lovely flower matchmaking!) For now it's not in color, but deep down, he hopes that someday he'll meet "the one" and plans to fill it in with his love's favorite colors, with the tips of the petals fading into black to represent the both of them 🖤 like I said, he's a romantic! (He also gets a really detailed piece on his back but I'm still thinking about what that would be exactly)

Despite his quiet, and very chill nature, Whisper doesn't mind boisterous people (part of the reason he can put up with Bravo). He actually likes how lively others can be, especially in a group setting. He does need some peace and quiet sometimes (Mayreen taught him some great meditation techniques) but he won't get annoyed around "loud" people easily. When the rest of his group is causing shenanigans you can always find him tagging along with a soft smile.

It's nearly impossible to cause Whisper to lose his cool, he's incredibly patient…. except when it comes to disrespect. He doesn't care a ton of it's directed at him, but he will fight anyone who shows disrespect to the people he cares about. Has been known to escalate fights at 79s when the offenders don't back off from his one and only verbal warning. If some sleemos is harassing you, Whisper is also a great person to ask for help. He'll invite you to sit with him and Fixit and if that doesn't scare the sleazeball off he's ready to throw hands.

Speaking of 79s, when him and the squad go out, he's usually the one who stays at the booth to watch everyone's drink. He loves people watching in general but especially at the bar, everyone having fun and letting loose makes him smile. Also, no one can tell when he's drunk. Even when he is, the only noticeable sign of it is that it's easier to make him laugh out loud. He rarely gets drunk though, usually tries to keep as sober as possible to keep his brothers out of trouble.

I have more about him to share but they're very deep and angsty and I'm not in the right headspace for that right now so that's all for this week! If you read this you're awesome and I appreciate you (even if you didn't I still do but you know lol)

I'm not sure who's okay with being tagged in my OC content but for now I'll just tag @commander-sunshine @blueink-bluesoul and @moonlightwarriorqueen (as always no pressure to read of course 💙)

#clone ocs #clone oc #oc: whisper #my OCs

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xivu-arath · 10 months

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unfinished kyousougiga fic

I'd like to get back to this one day but I need to rewatch first and polish this up

It is spring when Myoue opens his eyes and his heart, and finds somewhere the courage to love these strange, fragile lives that have chosen to surround him. It is a long, gilded spring, as he learns who Koto is, and lets her learn him in turn. There is a novelty in being together, in being more than one, and he delights in it as he has not delighted in any part of the world for centuries.

The summer and fall are just as long, just as golden – but they begin to stumble, as people do, even the divine. Koto realizes that the man she knew as a rabbit as a little different from the man she knows now, held down by the weight of the world. But where he is opaque and secretive and endlessly frustrating, she has the patience of one who never expected her wish to come true, but wished anyways. And so they live, and happiness blooms.

It is winter again, when a noble's house is torched to the ground, its family strewn carelessly. It is winter, when the last surviving child stabs himself because his entire world has crumbled, and duty rests on his shoulders. But he does not die, because gods meddle, and Myoue might be a god on a honeymoon but he cannot help his instincts. This season is colder, bridged together by anger and long silences. Yakushimaru is a child, and thinks nothing of the future except that it is vast and empty, but he is also human, and knows that somehow, he has lost something when he gained immutable, certain life.

“He'll adjust,” Myoue tells Koto as they watch their newly adopted son huddle on the edge of the porch, as far away as possible. “He has all the time in the world to get used to it.”

“I think that's the problem,” she murmurs back, and the memory of the fruit they bound him to life with lies heavy on her tongue.

The wind blows, cold and cutting. None of them flinch.

But the snows keep them confined to their temple in the mountains, and Yakushimaru slowly unthaws. Koto stops keeping count of the times her son smiles or laughs, and instead tracks progress through the times they argue. No one has the strength of will to argue with her, not for long, but Myoue and Yakushimaru squabble endlessly as they settle against each other, and Koto glows with quiet pride all the while. This is the family she has wished for, strange and cobbled together and incomprehensibly hers. In the end, she stops dreaming of the tart taste of pomegranates.

Spring is strung together with frail promises.

“I don't get how you do it,” Yakushimaru says one day, hands stained with ink and gazing down at a scrawled rabbit. “Ink is ink. What makes it live?”

“Maybe I'll show you how to do it someday,” Myoue says, and ruffles his hair, earning an indignant squawk. He retaliates with an elbow to the face, and Koto has to stop clapping in time to soothe both their bruised egos, laughing all the while. She laughs a great deal in those days, when she no longer has to lock away the knives.

It is spring when Yakushimaru has siblings again – a sister with stars in her eyes, fierce and strong enough to drive away any number of attackers, and a brother wise beyond his apparent years. Sometimes, he thinks he can see the ink in them. Surely it's there in Yase's blue-black eyes, in Kurama's hair. Despite that, they are as real as he is, and far more content to settle in the roles assigned to them. Well, mostly.

“Why do you keep fighting with Myoue?” he asks Yase one day, as they all sprawl on the veranda. Kurama is quietly sketching some design, apparently absorbed – though Yakushimaru knows he's still capable of listening intently. It's been long enough that he's somewhat used to his siblings, and no longer so fearful of Yase's wild strength. His new mother floats as if she's a feather, his siblings are stronger and smarter than he is – he's a little baffled as to why Myoue even keeps him around. Surely such extraordinary, frustrating people wouldn't want a normal child.

“Well... he made me an oni, didn't he? I didn't ask for that! I want to be graceful and pretty and a real lady, like Mama. But then I get angry and get big and clumsy, instead! But,” she adds thoughtfully, “I like being strong.”

“Did he say why?”

“Just that that's what he felt like drawing! And he said it made things more interesting, and he won't change my painting.” She pouts and thumps a fist against the floor. The wood creaks, but holds up – Yakushimaru's pretty sure Myoue's been strengthening it, somehow.

“He always does what he feels like, I guess.” There's a thoughtful sigh from all three of them. For an instant, they feel like the siblings he had and lost.

[I stalled out here but put down some ideas for how to end it at least?]

It is summer for a long, long time.

And it is still endlessly summer on the day that a girl, destruction sizzling against her palms, will smash her way into the world.

Kurama pauses, driving a whole meeting to a halt. Around them, Kyoto hums onward. “Hm... has fall come early?”

“Ahhh, what a delightful spring breeze!” Yase says, reclining in the garden. The tremors in the air make her tea ripple, but her hands cradle the cup gently.

There's a distant roll of thunder and Myoue, still remembering the chill of a day when his name was his own, rolls over and goes back to sleep.

#kyousougiga #important rabbits #my words #I do miss this anime

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useramor · 1 year

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your fall out buck post is awesome do you have any other thoughts on what music you think buck would listen to ?

for some reason my mind interpreted this as eddie not buck and by the time i noticed when you meant i had already compiled a list for eddie so you get both! under the cut because, as usual, this got pretty long.

also here is my fall out buck post if you haven't seen it :)

buck—

i think aside from fall out boy, he was very into green day up through his early twenties. he was 21 in 2013, so there's no way he didn't also go through an arctic monkeys moment, blasting flourescent adolescent in his earbuds all the time.

"flicking through a little book of sex tips / remember when the boys were all electric" was a lyric that'd get stuck in his head constantly as he bartended

also, the chance of buck not being an imagine dragons fan is zero.

i definitely also headcanon he had his white boy rap phase. i mean, c'mon, the guy was 26 in 2018. between 2016 (24) to 2018 (26) we had blond, coloring book, the life of pablo, starboy, damn, flower boy, astro world...you get it. and buck in LA during this time, going through the academy in southern california? yeah, he listened to drake.

i think he has his soft pop favs now. i think he's mostly past the rap, still listens to his pop punk music but more in a nostalgic sense. i do think current buck is a big fan of noah kahan, walk the moon (specifically what if nothing, though he found them through shut up and dance), some hozier, a good bit of sufjan stevens and phoebe bridgers on a sad song playlist he has set to private.

he's definitely the type to listen to one song on repeat for days, and i think that happened with some of the songs off melodrama by lorde to the point that they were his top songs on his spotify wrapped, even if she wasn't one of his top artists.

something about buck listening to supercut as he drives around LA late at night you know?

"cause in my head (in my head i do everything right) / when you call (when you call, i'll forgive and not fight)"

"i'll be your quiet afternoon crush / be your violent overnight rush / make you crazy over my touch / but it's just a supercut of us"

when he's pining for eddie??? come onnnnnn

eddie—

eddie listens to classic rock, country music, and has a spanish songs playlist sophia made titled "canciones favoritas" that he has downloaded on his spotify.

he loves pink floyd, i think he's a big eagles fan, no doubt in my mind he listened to a LOT of the beatles growing up, and if you think he doesn't know every word to rumours by fleetwood mac, you've got another thing coming. eddie hums rhiannon under his breath as he cooks, a gentle rhythm that fills up his kitchen.

(buck's a little bit in love with his voice, always tries to bug him into singing out loud, and usually ends with them duetting queen loud enough for christopher to complain from his bedroom.)

but he's also from texas! he's got his classic country faves, privately listened to dolly parton whenever the house was empty. definitely a big george strait, willie nelson, rascal flatts fan. loves a good carrie underwood song, and he'll say it's because of his sisters until the day he dies.

(it's really not. there's just something about female country that eddie loves.)

his favorite song, though, now that he's older and in love and a huge sap is still the one by shania twain.

"looks like we made it / look how far we've come my baby / might've took the long way / we knew we'd get there someday"

"you're still the one i run to / the one that i belong to / you're still the one i want for life / you're still the one that i love / the only one i dream of"

he plays it for buck one night and they slow dance in the living room and eddie feels more love in his body than he ever thought possible, thanks.

now, the spanish song playlist. it has a truly absurd amount of selena.

like.

so much selena.

also gloria estefan, celia cruz, and enrique inglesias' 1995 album that he used to hate as a teenager but that, admittedly, grew on him.

i've included this in a fic, but i stand by it. i think one of eddie's favorite songs is algo contigo by rita payés and elisabeth roma.

"what is missing is me telling you that I would die to have something with you / and it is that you have not given account of how much it costs me to be your friend / now I can not get close to your mouth without wanting it in a crazy way"

(^ the lyrics are in spanish but this an english translation)

also every time eddie listens to baila esta cumbia or bidi bidi bom bom he subconsciously starts dancing to it and the way he sways his hips drives buck crazy <3

okay i hope this is good!!! i've been thinking about eddie's a lot lately, i could probably do a more in depth lyric analysis like i did with my fall out buck post if anyone would be interested :)

#bia gets mail #buddie #buddie music analysis #anon

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