if i didn’t know better (i’d think you were singing to me now)

Julie Molina didn’t think that she’d have to go through one of life’s biggest milestones without her mom, but here she is, standing in front of the window wondering what it would be like to have her mom by her side. Little does Julie know, Rose has always had a plan for her daughter’s wedding day. It just might take a little bit of searching and time. 

“When Julie had gone to pull the wedding dress off the closet door, she hadn't originally noticed it. But as she went to pull the garment off the hanger, her eyes zeroed-in on a cream coloured something. She felt her breath catch a little as she placed the dress back down onto the bed. Quickly reaching to flip it around, she had instantly recognized her mom’s writing scrawled across the little piece of paper and pulled off the key that was taped to the back. Grabbing the note, and ignoring the shouted questions from Flynn, she ran down the stairs to find someone,  anyone, who could give her answers.” 

trigger warnings: mentions of canonical death (julie’s mom) and overall a lot of thoughts/feelings about Rose’s passing

word count: ~ 10,200 words

Happy (early-ish because I can’t post during work tomorrow and also timezones) birthday, @tangledstarlight! 

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I like how Buffy’s fatal flaw (at least in the early seasons) is her self-absorption, in that she always assumes all evil plans center about her as the chosen one, and she always assumed solitude, and that leads to her double (Kendra), who broke her solitude by providing another slayer, dying.

It’s been almost a week and my list has been shuffled some, I think it’s time for an update!

I was going to reblog the post from last week and add to it, but it got so long. I’m making a new one. Here’s a link to my top 10 a week ago.

Norway (+1) This was my instant fav after my first listen and it’s back at the top. I just love it soooo much and if you don’t that’s fine but I don’t want to hear your thoughts on that.

Latvia (+12) This also spoke to me instantly. There were a few parts that annoyed me though, I’ve since gotten over them and it’s now in my absolute top.

Iceland (+5) This. Is. So. Good. That’s all.

Italy (+6) This was “low” last week because I had so high expectations but I’ve since made my peace with it. It’s an amazing song.

Malta (+2) I love this, it gives me energy and I’m always here for a song with this sentiment.

Belgium (-5) Look, this topped last week. I still love it a lot. I just, I don’t know, it’s tough competition.

Bulgaria (-3) Still giving me all the feels. I think it’s beautiful.

North Macedonia (-5) Okay, this is like a baby to me, I’ll protect this song with my life. I love it, I’m weak for songs like this. It hurts my soul that I can’t place this higher.

Lithuania (+2) This was actually in my top 3 a few days ago. It’s going up and down every other day. This is very much a mood song for me, I need to be in the right mood to really appreciate it.

France (-4) This is such a beautiful song and I kinda wish I could place this higher too.

It’s such a tough year, there’s so many songs I just absolutely love and there’s only one song I find my self skipping in my playlist. 1 out of 39, that’s insane.

Here’s the ones that just missed out on top 10:

Romania (this has grown so much on me!! It started out somewhere between 25 and 30) Ireland (This is also so good, but other songs are just starting to speak to me more) Finland (I’m still a bit disappointed by this one, but it’s growing more and more on me) Croatia (It’s a bop, I really like it) Israel (First; she’s soooo beautiful!! and I really like this too, always find myself singing along to it)

Old art but i forgot this existed-

My fe3h self-insert w Dimitri because why not, drew it for the "he asked for no pickles" meme lol

imagine yelling at me because I used the dryer for like... fifteen minutes because ‘you’re wasting power don’t you care about the environment’ but the second it’s a little bit cold they have to have the aircon on full blast on so hot that it starts making me feel dizzy and get full-body pangs telling me that I’m overheating get cool immediately, but no they can’t just wear a jumper

i feel like when i bitch about my parents on this site i make them out to seem more right-wing than they might actually be but the truth is that i mostly just want to pretend that my parents are secretly good people

watching leftist youtube videos like “can i send this to my parents? wait nope youtuber mentioned they’re trans. wait nope youtuber explicitly supports sex workers. oooo this one focuses on the historical use systemic racism against chinese as a point of comparison against our current focus of systemic racism against latine people-- oh wait nope youtuber used internet slang i don’t want to explain to my parents”

Got called gnc as fuck by my mother now I can live forever

but like, isn’t it?

isn’t it scary to fall in love?

why aren’t we allowed to control our feelings like that? or am i just too young? can you control with whom you fall in love?

isn’t it scary to lose control?

what do you do with all those feelings building inside? pack them away, shove them down, feel them to the end?

because i never asked to have them. not like this. not with such intensity. not for you.

why, why, why are they there; why, why, why can’t i do anything to quell them? why, why, why?

there’s so much we can’t control, but why, why, why couldn’t this have been one of the things we could?

current mood:

I have one of the Worst approaches to fanfic. Despite this, I do not plan on altering my methods much if at all

me shortly after midnight : ah yes finally done with physics, my archnemesis

physics *has two more chapters to revise that I forgot about because I was so immersed into that one chapter*

One of my favorite rarepairs is komamiki (Nagito and Mikan) I think you might have drawn art of them before? But I feel like post game they both would feel very odd man out, like they can't heal/move forward like the other remnants and would find solace in each other. Plus Mikan patching Nagito up when his luck gets him hurt.

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Fun fact: komamiki and komanami are both tied for my second fav Nagito ship juuuuust behind komaegi.

There’s just so much Nagito and Mikan have in common and in all honesty I can see them getting along pretty easily--especially post game. Considering their intense pre-existing self esteem issues (and close connection to Junko--at least on Mikan’s side, Nagito’s can be debated but if the anime is anything to go by I’m sure he feels particularly guilty for not being awake to notice the literal despair trap they were going into), I agree that they’d feel (and try to be) detached from the others more so out of guilt than anything. I’m sure Mikan and Nagito would be very harsh on themselves in particular, but wouldn’t be anywhere near judgmental towards the other since they understand that what happened was basically out of their control. The result would be them showering the other with encouragement, reassurance, and kindness (because the other deserves it unlike themselves) which would eventually evolve into a stalemate where in they agree to try not to be actively self-depreciating (“if I have to start forgiving myself then you do too’’) that then becomes the two of them finally being able to really move on from what happened together. It’ll be a slow and hard process, but they’ll have each other to lean on and grow from. Plus, yeah, Mikan will always be there to help Nagito with his injuries, and Nagito will always be there to remind her how important and necessary she is.

Imma end it here anon because I can just keep talking about these two for so long--I--I just love them both a whole lot. I know I haven’t drawn them all that much, but I have so many doodle ideas for them, rest assured there will be komamiki content in the future 🥰

... It occurs to me I have literally nothing to lose by making my super-powerful shape-shifting space girl like, six years old.

There is a scene in A League of their own (1992) where the girls's (all white baseball team because it's the 40s) ball ends up where some black women are standing - it looks like they might just have been to church - and one of these women throws the ball back to them after Geena Davis says "here" or whatever and then the music kind of swells as the women nod at each other, mind you no person of color has said anything in this movie and none of the black women, not even the one who throws the ball back, says anything in this scene, not even "is this yours?" or "who should I throw it to?". It's just, the ball gets thrown back to the main white character by a voiceless black woman and there's an "understanding" between them as they nod at each other ("it's the 90s our discrimination was/is the same fellow woman") and I- the movie makers really thought they were doing something with that scene. I can feel it. There's nothing here. Don't give yourself a pat on the back, you gave nobody nothing with that scene.

basically all the tags on the ask i got about the prince philip worship cult are people also going "what the fuck" and i'm just glad to see we're all on the same page about this

Where's the option for "tumblr do not recommend me this person's posts ever again"

Heads up for unfinished thoughts about this... But if you’re reading/watching/absorbing something in the realm of psychological horror/fuckery, is it worse to have an ending that explains nothing or an ending that goes “oh it was all a dream... but wait maybe it wasn’t” ?

asking for a friend