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#accidentally hit d but you know what :/d is a mood also. dont know what its conveying but i feel it
dykefaggotry · 2 years
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today is my day off which i need to use to do homework, laundry, and go grocery shopping but i can already feel it’s gonna be a bad day for chronic fatigue why did god make me like this lmfaoooo
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dootdootwriting · 3 years
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CONGRATS FOR 600+!!! I SAW UR EVENT SO IF I HAVE THE CHANCE, IM TAKING IT
The whole alphabet for Thoma. (Gn reader)
PLEASE dont overwork yourself though. You dont have to do it all if youre tired or something. Thank you and congrats!
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ty for ur request anon!! also you're funny. overwork myself? how could i possibly do that when i'm already avoiding all of my schoolwork? entire alphabet for thoma coming right up! (under the cut for length)
fluff alphabet with thoma; gn reader; no warnings apply
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A-Activities (what do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?)
- thoma enjoys pretty much any type of shared activities with you, but ultimately his favorite kind is any that involves food. he'll go on tours of inazuma city with you to find the best places to get ice cream, or he'll buy a whole bunch of food and see what kind of dishes you can make together! nine times out of ten it ends up being really weird and a little gross, but it's fun and he loves spending time with you.
B-Beauty (what do they admire about their s/o? what do they think is beautiful about them?)
- he admires your ambition, your humor, and your own personal flair. he loves the person you are, and almost everything that goes into that, but he specifically loves the unique little traits that make you you.
C-Comfort (how would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?)
- his first instinct is to give you a big hug or rub your back, but only if he knows you're okay with it and that it would actually help. his first goal is to make sure you're okay, and then his second goal is to cheer you up: with bad jokes and kisses, usually
D-Dreams (how do they picture the future with their s/o?)
- thoma isn't super picky with how you two end up in the future, as long as you're together and happy. he wants to grow old with you, ideally, though however you do that will decide itself.
E-Equal (are they the dominant one in the relationship or rather passive?)
- thoma is used to taking the lead in your relationship, but he's not necessarily more dominant or anything - he's just excited to be with you and wants to make sure you're just as happy as he is. your relationship is pretty balanced!
F-Fun (what do they do for fun with their s/o? what's their idea of a fun day out?)
- he loves loves loves going out on walks, especially in the city, and just finding random things that seem fun to do. there are a bunch of people playing cornhole over there, how about you guys join in for a game? they're selling a new kind of hotpot at that restaurant, better give it a try!
G-Gratitude (how grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?)
- he's definitely aware of everything you do for him, and he's also very grateful that you're with him. he makes sure to let you know that every day.
H-Honesty (do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?)
- i think the only time thoma would ever keep something from you on purpose is if it would be somehow dangerous for you to know. other than that, he likes to make sure you're aware of everything you need to be. he likes his privacy like anyone else, but he also values communication.
I-Inspiration (did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?)
- being with you hasn't necessarily changed him (aside from the fact that you two are almost always seen together now) but it's definitely improved his mood a lot, not that it was ever really bad. he also likes to show off more now that you're around...
J-Jealousy (do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?)
- thoma gets jealous relatively easily but is also not one to step in unless it's a situation in which you seem uncomfortable. he trusts you wholeheartedly, which sometimes means he has to keep himself from getting overly worried.
K-Kisses (are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?).
- he's a very good kisser. thoma's kisses are playful and sweet, or alternatively full of reassurance and love. your first kiss was a little rushed and he was a little nervous (not that he'd ever admit that) but he knew it was the right time.
L-Love confession (how would they confess to their s/o?)
- confesses accidentally while watching you do something that's actually pretty normal. you tap him on the shoulder and ask where he wants to go for lunch and he just kinda stares at you and then says "man i love you" and you're like. what. but he plays it off like he TOTALLY MEANT to say that and definitely didn't slip up.
M-Mornings (what's it like waking up with them? do they sleep late or wake up before the sun rises?)
- lazy lazy lazy. thoma knows he has to go to work but why would he do that when you're next to him all curled up into him? he can't just abandon you like that! fortunately the kamisatos are very forgiving, so when he shows up late they don't give him an earful.
N-Nicknames (what do they call their s/o?)
- babe/baby, sunshine, and occasionally sweetheart but usually just to tease you
O-On cloud nine (what are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?)
- when thoma first realizes he's in love with you it hits him like a truck and he has to sit down for a second to process it. after that he hangs around you a lot more often, and it's pretty obvious to anyone watching that he's in love.
P-PDA (how are they with PDA? is it fun to them or are they more reserved with their affection?)
- thoma's comfortable with pda and likes to tease you with it sometimes, unless you're someone who absolutely hates it, in which case he'll settle with handholding. otherwise, he'll give you random light kisses on the cheek or will grab you and pull you into him at random points throughout the day.
Q-Quirk (some random thing they do when they're with you for no reason in particular)
- his nose scrunches when he's trying not to laugh at you, which makes you laugh at him, which makes him laugh at you. congratulations! you have achieved pile of laughter.
R-Romance (how romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?)
- thoma is very romantic and also values friendship with his partner as well. he's sort of a mix between cliché and creative - while he will definitely take you out for a fancy dinner and lend you his jacket, he will also take you out to the lake and push you in or make a date out of who can spot the most dogs on a day out.
S-Support (are they helping their s/o achieve their goals do they believe in them?)
- one hundred percent he believes in you and will do his best to help you achieve any goals you have. ok thats the end of this headcanon i have nothing else to say GHCCN
T-Thrill (do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship or do they prefer certain routine?)
- thoma loves trying new things! he doesn't need things to change constantly (and also that might be very tiring for him) but he does like to switch things up a little.
U-Understanding (how good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?)
- forgot to change it from "good" to "well." WHOOPS. anyway
- thoma is very empathetic, so he's quick to understand how you're feeling, though it'll take him a little longer to understand why it is you're feeling like that. once you explain to him, he knows just what to do, whether it be celebrate with you on a big win or comfort you or give you some space.
V-Value (how important is the relationship to them? What is its worth in comparison to other things in their life?)
- it's SO important to him. having you in his life is one of the most important things to him. he's also been with the kamisatos for a really long time though, so thoma will need a little bit to sort out where his priorities are. rest assured that you're definitely up there.
W-Wild card (a random fluff headcanon?)
- thoma really likes the feeling of you running your fingers through his hair. bonus points if you wash it for him (he'll return the favor)
X-XOXO (Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?)
- if you're ever available for affection, thoma will take advantage of it. he loves being close to you and generally just the feeling of loving and being loved in return, especially when that incorporates physical affection. listen he just really likes being kissed.
Y- Yearning (how will they cope when they are missing their partner?)
- when you're gone thoma will surround himself with things that remind him of you. he'll also occasionally call your name or say things to you absentmindedly before remembering you're not there at present. poor guy... he'll be very happy once you're home.
Z-Zeal (are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind?)
- it depends on the lengths. the worst case scenario for thoma would be if he somehow had to choose between you and his work - that would terrify him, even though there's no way it would ever happen. other than that, since you're way up on his priority list, there's not much that he wouldn't do for you.
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tender-rosiey · 3 years
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No matter how much I say it ur writing is always a bless to make my day happy🥺💕
Atsushi/Chuuya/Dazai dealing with their lovely pregnant wives😊❤
❥ Dazai and Atsushi dealing with their pregnant s/o
❥— Chuuya’s part: ❤︎
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ᴀ/ɴ: I am so happy you liked it and I hope you enjoy this one as well! Chuuya already has one tho and I linked it above 💘
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Dazai Osamu:
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LETS FUCKING GO
man has two lives depending on him now 😙
YOU WILL BE ABSOLUTELY PAMPERED
“Belladonna, do you need anything?”
“Would you like me to do something for you?”
“Do you want me to get it to you so you don’t have to stand?”
ITS NOT EVEN TEASING
that’s for another time ;)
He is gonna be so nervous during the pregnancy but will try his best
He will try and do things that will keep your mood light and happy
If lord doesn’t want him to be spared then
Despite his efforts he will get twice the trouble the demon you were on your period
“I AM SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME”
“Belladonna let’s talk this out o-okay?”
Osamu honey, a couch won’t stop the knife she is gonna throw
Now to the teasing
He doesn’t get near the teasing of your weight tho
He knows that you may be troubled by it so instead he keeps complimenting how you look
“You look so pretty with our baby inside of you 🥺”
what he actually teases you about is how you might walk funny then he relate it to ‘something’ else
“That walk reminds me of that time after we-“
He has been hit by a chair
K.O.
He always smiles when he lays his eyes on your baby bump
You could be just standing there and Dazai would just look to it and smile softly
HE CANT WAIT FOR THE BABY TO BE IN HIS ARMS
I genuinely think Dazai would need reassurance from you that he will be a good father
He is like scared that he might be unable to raise someone well and that the baby will be like he was or what he is trying to hide in a sense
So please tell him that he will be alright and that you will by his side guiding him through it all
Now you know how chuuya doesn’t let you leave the house, right?
Dazai is the opposite
The reason is that he doesn’t want you to leave his sight so he can be able to help you in case something happens
“I can still do stuff Osamu, I am not a baby-“
“You HAVE a baby in you so technically you are baby.”
Aw
He likes telling jokes to the baby bump 🥺
Gets so excited when the baby kicks
One day he was just caressing it when he was telling a story about how he pissed off Kunikida
When it came to the funny part, the baby kicked and Dazai got so happy and sparkly eyed
“HE LIKES MY STORIES; BELLADONNA HE LIKES MY STORIES!”
Well at least you know prior to its awakening
That you will have a another mischievous little shit
A cute one tho <3
Atsushi Nakajima:
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How dare he be so adorable
And of course he is an aged up bean
Also Wan watchers how are you all feeling about the ending of the episode of the fireworks 😃
Okay now let’s get to business
He would be so cautious about everything
Even more cautious than you
And you are the pregnant one here
“NO Y/N DONT MOVE”
“NO I WILL COOK”
“PLEASE JUST STAY IN ONE PLACE; I DONT WANT YOU OR THE BABY TO GET HURT”
Atsushi baby they aren’t made of glass
Another one that would pamper you like a queen
At least with what he can manage
but as we all know Kunikida has a wallet for a reason <3
Low key making him a bank right now
I genuinely love Kunikida tho
Anyways
So atsushi will search videos on what to do so he can make your preganancy easier on you
Most of the time he will just keep complimenting you so you don’t get in a bad mood
And probably use his puppy dog face cause he finally knew it’s your weak point
But yeah he still gets thrown with chairs
“Angel did you-AHHHHHHHHHH”
He just wanted to tell you a pick up line Dazai told him ;(
Atsushi LOVES and I mean LOVES talking to your baby bump
“How’s daddy’s baby doing?”
Talks to it when he had a bad day and just complains to it
“Dazai-san ate more poisonous mushrooms and tied me to the ceiling today 😔”
Or when he had a good day :D
“I kicked akutagawa’s face accidentally today when I saw him shopping; that was the accomplishment of my life.”
“And you are alive?”
“Exactly,”
Don’t interrupt their conversation or Atsushi will pout and go ‘our dumpling was gonna talk, angel :(‘
He kisses it too 🥺
Then kisses you and proceeds to thank you for having his baby
And for being with him <3
The first time he felt the baby kick he was so excited and happy
You know the gif of him up there?
Yeah that reaction
I think he will buy the baby so much clothes :0
He imagines cute scenarios that can happen with the baby when it comes
“Y/N, what if for example the baby’s first word are papa? 🥺”
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jeanslongschlong · 3 years
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Hii!! I love your writings and i was wondering, could you do an a-z porco version?? You can choose whether you prefer nsfw or not, i dont mind at all!! Just wanna see some content about mu baby🥺 hope you have a great day/week/month/year and please be safe💖
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hi! i’m gonna do a separate fluff alphabet for him bc i love him so <3 i did this in a modern (college if u squint) au bc that’s generally what i think about when i write so i hope this is ok! hope u enjoy, i’m sorry this took so long! stay safe and have a lovely day ❤️
warnings: extremely nsfw lol, mild cursing
word count: 1491
a-z nsfw alphabet for porco galliard
nsfw under the cut!
A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
I feel like Porco is a PRO at aftercare. I don’t know why, it’s just a hunch. I feel like he gives lots of shoulder kisses and runs his fingers through your hair, whispering to you just how much he loves you. Probably really enjoys taking baths with you! And MASSAGES! Especially if you guys just had a rather rough session (which I feel like is very often. IDK dude just the vibes I get from him)
B = Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partners)
He loves his hair, and he ESPECIALLY loves when you pull it. That’s one way to make him cum in his pants in .00005 seconds. On you I’d have to say your nose (: I feel like he loves giving you nose kisses and also putting you in positions (like the mating press) where your noses are practically pressing together when you’re having sex.
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum, basically)
I feel like his cum is kinda salty, but nothing too bad. It definitely doesn’t taste bad. Porco doesn’t seem like the type to be too picky about where he cums, but I do think that his favorite and preferred place to cum on you is your face. It makes pride swell up inside of him that he’s the only person who gets to see you like this. It’s also kinda just his possessiveness showing?? IDK mannnnn but it’s hot as fuck
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Before you started dating he accidentally called one of his flings your name. He just brushed it off like it didn’t happen and made the person he slept with feel like they were hearing things LMFAO
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)
I feel like he’s pretty experienced and knows what he’s doing, but mostly with people that he wasn’t involved with for more than a night. I don’t see Porco as someone who easily enters relationships, so most of his experience comes from clumsy and/or drunken one-night stands with random people he met at frat parties LMFAOOO
F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying)
Mating press. He loves being fully in control and seeing you struggle to gain any sort of leverage on him. Also, the eye contact and the deep ass angles he can hit; he brushes against your sweet spot with every languid stroke. Need I say more?
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment? Are they humorous? etc.)
Definitely not. Porco sees sex as serious even if he’s not in love with you- I feel like if you laughed it would just piss him off LOL
H = Hair (How well-groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
I mean I don’t think he actively shaves so he’s probably got a bit of hair down there, but it’s nothing too wild. I feel like he keeps it soft lol and it’s definitely not a bush. The hair is a few shades darker than the hair on his head. He one hundred percent keeps clean, tho, so that’s not something you’ll have to worry about
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment? The romantic aspect.)
Most times sex is a way for Porco to release his frustrations and anger. He doesn’t really see it as a loving act since most of his past experiences weren’t related to that in the slightest, but every now and then he gets a strong urge to worship you in every way possible because he wants you to know just what you do to and for him.
J = Jack off (Masturbation Headcanon)
Probably twice a week. Unlike a lot of the other AOT boys, I feel like Porco masturbates rather frequently. I feel like a lot of it stems from boredom, but some of it is (like most other things) related to frustration. It helps him zen out a bit
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
Complete domination, choking, bondage, & spit play. I don’t think I need to say anything else on this topic, you can see what I’m getting at, yeah?
L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)
He’s honestly fine with wherever, just as long as the price of getting caught isn’t too great. He enjoys the risk and adrenaline rush that comes with doing it in public places (for example in the bathroom at a school football game or at a restaurant while you’re on a date). But if his or your reputation was on the line, he wouldn’t even think twice about it. His preferred place (if he had to pick) would be the floor ;)
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Tbh just about anything LOL I really see him as a guy with a high sex drive, so if he sees your shirt ride up a little too far and catches a glimpse of the undersides of your boobs? BAM. Boner. You bend over in front of him? Boner. Obviously he can keep this in check most of the time, but sometimes? He just doesn’t want to.
N = No (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Pegging. Sorry guys, he just…wouldn’t.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He is SOOOO good at giving oral, however, he definitely prefers receiving over giving. It’s probably one of the only aspects in the bedroom where he ever hands you the reins. He may push your head down sometimes, though, he’s one of those guys. But he just enjoys seeing you struggle to take it. Polishes his ego
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
He tends to be pretty fast and rough. He doesn’t really have the patience to go slowly LOL I feel like he’d get bored-
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
He loves quickies. Especially when it could make one of you late (preferably you, he loves making you all flustered when someone asks what your reason for being late is). Like I mentioned previously, doing things slowly is definitely not something that Porco is very well versed in, so I don’t even really see you guys having long sessions very often. Quickies are just the norm for you guys. (You should be grateful for this, the longer sessions take DAYS to recover from. Praying for u)
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)
It really just depends. You have to talk to him about it first, but I will say that he is more likely to say no than he is to agree, especially if his dominance is in question. He doesn’t like to give you control often
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)
He can last a good while if he wants to, but he doesn’t normally. Your sessions tend to last 10-15 minutes on average (not including foreplay), but when he really wants to he can last 30-40 mins.
T = Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
Probably a few vibrators lol. Definitely wants to buy a sex swing smh. Probably has a whip. All of these are for you, the thought of using a toy on himself makes him a bit uncomfortable.
U = Unfair (How much they like to tease)
I feel like Porco likes to tease on occasion, but something tells me that often times he’s way too impatient to bother. When Porco gets in the mood, he wants nothing more than to just bend you over and fuck the shit out of you right then and there. Anything that prevents him from doing so brings him out of the mood a little.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
I don’t think he moans perse… He definitely lets out long sighs and grunts and other animalistic noises, but there’s not much moaning. I will say that he is very very verbal, and his dirty talk is TOP TIER. That’s it. That’s all.
W = Wild Card (A random headcanon for the character)
His biggest fantasy is to fuck you while someone else is sleeping in the room-
X = X-ray (Let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
Probably a good 6.5-7 in. And he THICC. You will definitely feel the burn at first with him
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH
Z = Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep afterward)
Not too quickly. He likes to make sure you’re okay first, and if you’re not feeling the best he’ll lay awake with you and talk to you until you’re asleep.
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ddalgi-yong · 4 years
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[friends with benefits]
requested? yes; i accidentally deleted the ask!
genre: smut, fluff
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"what made you think we'd be going together to that party?", you asked donghyuck furiously. you couldn't believe that donghyuck had decided for the both of you that you'd be his date for jeno's party without asking you.
"please, y/n, you don't have a date yet, i don't have a date yet. so we're going together. end of the story", he said and just shrugged. you scoffed and shook your head.
"that's totally not going to happen."
well. it did happen.
you couldn't find anyone else to be your date so you ended up going with donghyuck. even though you didnt want to.
"you look beautiful. i mean it", he said and grabbed your hand to make it look less like he forced you to go with him.
"we're just here together. don't you dare to think that this means anything", you hissed and gasped as he suddenly pulled you closer to himself.
"you're lucky we're at prom right now. i'm just waiting until we're alone. there are way too many things i'd love to do to you right now", he murmured and smiled then.
"fuck you", you said and rolled your eyes.
"i'm up for it if you are", he grinned and softly brushed your hair behind your ear. "hey jaemin!" suddenly his attention was at his best friend; he let go of your hand and acted like you're not even there anymore.
you sighed and just went to the buffet; you had to distract yourself from being treated like shit by donghyuck.
"hey sweetheart", you were greeted by your ex-boyfriend, jeno. you hadn't talked to him for over three months now.
"what the fuck are you doing here?", you snapped, obviously not in the mood to talk to someone, especially not your ex.
"hey, i know we didn't end things well but there is no reason for you to be like this", he murmured and put his arm around you. "did hyuckie hurt your feelings or what? poor girl, i told you he isn't worth it."
"this all is none of your business. fuck off already, will you?", you tried to get away from him. in that moment, donghyuck appeared in front of you, pushing jeno away and that started the whole fight.
"leave her alone, you dick", donghyuck shouted, he seemed a little beside himself; you didn't know if it was because he had already drunk a little or if he was sober but got pissed at the fact that jeno was next to you. it seemed like the loud music had stopped, there was nothing else you noticed besides the two men. both of them started fighting, you were more concerned about donghyuck since you knew exactly that jeno was much stronger than donghyuck.
"stop this! don't fight", you screamed at both of them. but it seemed like they couldn't hear you. and then there was a pain, which seemed to go through your whole body. as you finally realized what had happened, you were already on the ground, struggling to breathe as jeno accidentally hit you on your chest as he was trying to hit donghyuck and you had tried to get in between them.
"fuck, y/n, i'm so sorry", he immediately apologized and tried to check up on you but donghyuck didn't let him.
"fuck off, i will get her home. don't you dare to touch her again when i am around", hyuck said with a loud and clear voice. you still hadn't processed what had happened and as you did, you already were in donghyuck's car.
"what the fuck?! why would you fight him? are you crazy?", you yelled. "stop the fucking car, i want to get out."
"you're not going anywhere", donghyuck muttered in annoyance and locked the doors just in case you were up to do something stupid.
"you dont get to decide that."
as he didn't answer you anymore, you just sighed and looked out of the window, lost in thoughts.
"look, i'm sorry. i shouldn't have fought him but... i just got angry as i saw him next to you and you clearly were uncomfortable. i just wanted to keep you away from him", he then said, making you jerk an eyebrow up.
"just... shut up", you said and turned back to the window, ignoring him completely.
he finally stopped the car and before he unlocked the doors, he softly put his hand on your cheek, pulling you towards him and before you could do anything, he was already kissing you. what wondered you was that he wasn’t being rough as usual. he was kissing you very softly rather than aggressive.
“i’m sorry, princess.”
you don’t know why your heart started beating faster when he called you princess. your whole body fluttered.
“don’t apologize. i… i actually wanted to thank you for helping me out. you’re not that bad as i always thought”, he laughed softly, shaking his head a little.
“do you want to come upstairs? i’m pretty lonely at the moment, now that my brother is gone”, you smiled a little, making him laugh out again.
“sure, why not”, he said and unlocked the doors so you could both get out. you already knew things were going to get heated before you even got out to prom but it was donghyuck. he might be a normal person, but he also is very unique and dirty minded; he also knew how to seduce you without even trying. the way upstairs was quiet, no one talked and you just waited the elevator to arrive at your floor. you opened your door and made space for him so he could enter the apartment after you.
“do you want something to drink?”, you asked him, your voice was really soft and quiet; the way his presence made you nervous scared you. you never felt as indulged before because of him.
“sure. water please”, you nodded and gave him the glass. little did you know that he was taking his chance to seduce you.
“you look so beautiful in this dress, my love”, he whispered into your ear, making your body shiver and he softly placed his hands on your hips. donghyuck slowly pulled up your dress, you started shaking because you were nervous and he made you feel so worked up just in a few seconds. he softly chuckled as he let his hand feel over your already wet panties.
“who got you this worked out, love?”, he breathed out into your ear; it made you grip the cup you just took out for donghyuck tighter and you had to breathe out softly to calm down.
“i didn’t hear anything”, he said, pulled your panties a little down before he softly started massaged over your clit. you closed your eyes and smiled as the pleasure hit through your body.
“you, hyuck. it’s you. it always was you. not jeno, not anyone else”, you moaned out as he slowly inserted his finger into you.
“good. now go to the bedroom and wait for me there. i’ll be there in a few, i promise”, he said, his voice was still very soft and deep. you nodded obediently, and moved away from him as soon as he finally pulled his finger away. you gasped at the sudden emptiness and bit your lip for a second before you hurried into your bedroom and started to pull the zipper of your dress down.
you were struggling to pull it down until your hand got replaced by donghyuck’s warm hand. he easily pulled it down, making your dress fall down with a soft sound, you stepped a bit forwards so you could lie down on the bed. the way he was still standing there made you feel even more nervous of what will happen next.
“you look so beautiful, my love. i can’t wait to have you all for myself again”, he said grinning and slowly sat down next to you. he was being so teasingly slow that it almost started hurting. his fingers softly brushed over your body; every single touch made you jolt up and when he finally hovered over you, he stopped being slow and teasing. he probably had no patience left to tease you as he finally kissed down your body and started sucking on your clit.
you moaned out loudly and your fingers first were gripping the sheets tightly before you gripped his hair tightly and pulled a bit. you felt him smile against your core and he continued to suck and lick over your core, making you moan and even scream as soon as he made you come on his tongue multiple times.
“donghyuck”, you breathed out. “please, fuck me. please, i’m begging you.”
“be patient, my love”, he smiled before he started to kiss his way up to your belly and chest, his chin was still glistening with your come and he kissed you, making you taste yourself. he always loved to be messy and you never complained. he absolutely loved it.
“i can’t be fucking patient anymore!”, you exclaimed, tried to turn you around and straddled him. he looked up to you, chuckled when you managed to turn around and you did your best to position his hardened cock at your core to go down on him.
you moaned out loud and your whole body started shaking as you started to move your hips as fast as possible. “god, donghyuck”, you whined out. he never answered you, making you look down on him.
“what gave you the right to turn around?”, he said with a threatening voice, making you shiver again. he gave you a look that made you feel scared of him. he didn’t say anything else before he turned you around again before he thrusted into you deeply, his pace was very fast and hard.
“s-slow d-down”, you grunted out. he ignored your request and continued with his current pace. you didn’t complain, though. the pleasure he made you feel was immense as you finally reached your high, falling over the edge as your whole body started twitching because of the overstimulation.
“oh god, hyuck”, you murmured as you finally were able to think and speak again.
“let me clean you up, then we can go to sleep”, he said caringly and got up as you nodded. he came back with a wet cloth and saw you sound asleep. he smiled as he saw you there and slowly cleaned your core up so you could sleep comfortably.
he lied down next to you and put the blanket over you.
donghyuck never had slept so peacefully like he did that night.
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“ouch! watch out you dick”, you exclaimed, waking him up as he hugged you too tightly and his fingers were gripping your hips too hard.
“sorry, did that hurt?”, he asked you giggling.
“no, i’m just a little sore from last night”, you said grumpily.
“oh, really? didn’t think i wore you out that much. but i took good care of you yesterday, didn’t i?”, he asked you again, which you had to nod to. maybe he was going very hard on you whenever you fucked but he always took much care of you. he never really acted like he cared but he actually did. you knew that.
“yes, you did, you dickhead. no get the fuck out of my bed”, you said grumpily and turned away from him.
“why should i? sleeping next to you is comfortable”, he answered back and you shook your head.
“no… my brother returns home today. you have to leave, or i’m pretty much doomed”, you scolded him and got up to put your clothes on.
“alright then.”
he then got up and also put his clothes on. “do you have any comfortable things from me left around?”
“nope. but i can give you something from my brother’s closet”, you told him and left the room as he nodded approvingly.
there was no tension as there was yesterday night. it was rather awkward. donghyuck might be your fuck buddy, but you weren’t anything… even though you never could admit that you wanted more, you never had been anything but fuck buddies with donghyuck. it’s always been like that and you doubt that there would be anything else.
you had a small breakfast with him before he just said goodbye and left. you didn’t hear anything until the evening where you were spending time with your older brother. he called you when you were watching a movie while you cuddled your brother.
“y/nnnnnn”, he said your name and he sounded very drunk. you excused yourself and went to your room to talk to donghyuck in peace.
“what is it?! i told you i’m with my brother now”, you said with a scolding undertone.
“i looooove youuuuu”, he said in a singing voice. you rolled your eyes as he said that.
“how about you hang up and tell me this when you’re sober?”, you asked him.
“i’m not drunk, i’m totally okay”, he said but you knew exactly how he talked when he was drunk.
“we’ll see about that tomorrow.” those were your last words before you hung up. you didn’t notice it until then but you were shaking when you put your phone down. your brother called for you as you still didn’t return after a while and asked if you could get new snacks and drinks. you yelled back a ‘yes’ and did what he asked for you.
your brother asked you to sleep in the same bed that night. you smiled at his request, even though he was older, he still was acting like he was the younger one.
both of you always did that. you always found comfort in each other’s arms. but you didn’t know if you could ask your brother for advice about a fuck buddy you caught feelings for?
you were awake for the whole night. there were so many thoughts, so many things you were breaking your head over. you just needed to know if it was true. if lee donghyuck actually loved you or if it was just him drunkenly not knowing what he was saying.
but after all, drunken words are sober thoughts.
you werent sure if you should call him or not. you had to know the truth.
as your phone rang, you jumped up. recovering from the shock, you looked on your phone screen to see that it was donghyuck who called you.
“you told me to tell you when i was sober. here i am. i love you, y/n”, he blurted out as soon as you picked up.
“you… what?”
“i love you”, he repeated.
your heart stopped beating for a second as you realized his words. he was in love with you?!
“hyuck, i’m… i’m just so overhelmed right now. i love you, too”, you said and your heart was beating so fast and you didn’t know what to say or do. “i love you, too.”
“come over. i want to see you”, he said and you imagined him grinning as you accepted.
you couldn’t hide your smirk as you saw one of those red lacy underwear you once bought for special occasions and decided to wear that one before leaving, lying to your brother and saying that you were going to your best friend while you were in the bus, thinking about how you were going to let your now boyfriend fuck you into oblivion as soon as he saw what you were wearing under the baggy clothes.
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elftwink · 3 years
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d/on/t r/b this post but as of late ive been struggling with a loss of appetite to a degree which i know is damaging to my health and that other people are noticing and it feels very difficult to talk about because for one, i’m almost certain it’s a symptom of something else so i don’t really know how to address it on my own, since my relationship with food is somewhat beside the point. even if i love a food and want to eat it and know i should, not only am i not hungry but the thought of eating makes me feel ill. but it’s also not like an actual physical thing wrong with me or my digestive system because i’m able to eat just fine when i have the munchies lmfao.
its very similar to my sleep schedule being messed up like around wind down time when i think about going to sleep i am overcome with a violent and prolonged sense of dread only relieved by accidentally distracting myself long enough to forget i should be going to bed then rinse repeat until 2-4am. but i know its somewhat different from normal executive dysfunction because w/that any feeling bad about it is self-imposed and it’s guilt or anger or frustration at not doing what i want to do. the like, fear/dread/revulsion is new and i have no idea why its happening or how to make it stop
and then ofc they all compound. i barely eat so i’m tired and low on energy all day, making it that much harder to break the routine ive set for myself. i stay up until 2am every night and that makes me more tired. i dont go anywhere or see anyone for obvious reasons. i really think if i could fix my diet and sleep schedule that would already make everything so much easier to deal with but every time i try i genuinely feel like it’s making it worse. like quicksand; the more you fight it, the faster you sink. obviously forcing myself to sleep is only inducing anxiety attacks and forcing myself to eat is making the nausea worse but if i dont do anything than its just a matter of time until i hit some kind of breaking point.
idk where this post was going. i just wanted to talk about it. i type posts up like this all the time only to delete them because im embarrassed or ashamed or because i don’t want the ppl i know irl to bring it up in person or because i don’t want to dampen the mood. obviously this post is pretty far from a solution but i dont wanna feel alone in it anymore, and on the off chance i do feel better after posting this, i think thats worthwhile even if it doesnt ‘solve’ anything
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lamp-up-my-ass · 5 years
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You wanna know what I want?
I am a lover of all things angst, and this includes toxic relationships, and sanders sides fanfic has not failed me with this. Theres the steadily growing amount of unsympathetic patton relationships gowing around, and a hanfull of unsympathitic roman fics ive seen. But the most ive seen is with deceit and remus being the abusers. I get it, its easy to put them in this role sense theyve been labeled the dark sides, but youre missing so much angst potential! So ive compiled some fic ideas revolving around these two characters.
Warnings:teen/adult, physical abuse, mental abuse, injury mention, smothering behavior, self harm, emotional abuse, blood, crying, breakdowns, isolating behavior, and unsympathetic patton and virgil.
Mociet with unsympathitic Patton
This can work in so many gut wrenching ways. Patton is so offten seen as the Dad friend, so maybe a fic where is older and Deceit younger? Imagine a 23 year old Patton, known for being nicest guy in the town, meeting 16 year old Deceit who, despite his punk style, is relatively sheltered and innocent. Patton prays on this innocence, but is put off by Deceits style, so he sets out to change him. All Pattonhas to do is treat Deceit to some tasty foods and kind words, and the teen cant stop thinking of him. Patton makes the first move and kisses Dee with no warning, before pressuring and convincing Dee into a relationship. They keep it secret, and for a while it's good. Until its not.
Patton starts to "accidentally" lose the clothes Dee would leave at his apartment, in exchange smothering him in gifts. Gifts of scratchy yellow sweaters and too tight pastel converse and other things that aren't his style. At first Patton acts normal when Dee doesn't wear these things, and its fine. Until one day Dee cant find his normal leather jacet on a cold day and opts to wear the sweater. He visits his boyfriend after school, and Patton instantly starts to cover Dee in praise when he sees him, calling him adorable and his little sunflower. They even have a heavy makeout session that abrudtly ends when Pat sees the black band T underneath the sweater. But its fine, Dee tells himself, probably nothing.
From then on, Deceit starts to notice how Patton becomes more distant, only ever gifting him cutesy clothes. All he wants is the attention he got that one day. So he starts to wear the clothes. Even when the sweater on his skin itches or the converse leaves small blisters or the bright colours leave him feeling uncomfortable. Its a small price to pay for the adoring look patton gives him.
Then, one day Deceit decides to wear his leather fingerless gloves on his date with Patt. When Patt answers the apartment door, he instanly frowns at the gloves. The dinner they have is stiff and quiet, patton not even glancing at the teen. When dinner is over and Dee is about to leave, Patt stops him. He asks why hes wearing those gloves, and starts to insult Dee. The teen tries to counter argue him, but Patts shouting and its scaring him. He never shouts.
Dee backs a few steps away, attempting to put space between him and his lover, but he bumps into one of Pattons flower vases and it shatters. Patton becomes more angry, screaming and stomping towards the boy. He grabs Dee and rips the gloves off. Dee panics and pushes himself away, but thats puts him off his balance. He falls backwards, onto the glass. The shards push into his hands and hes bleeding. Dee becomes upset, but before he can shout at Patt, his boyfriends there.
He has tears in his eyes and is apologising, pulling the teen into a tight hug. He keeps saying sorry and that he didnt mean too. He picks the boy up and puts him on the couch, smothering him in compliments. When patt "calms down" he attempts to lighten the mood. He says " next time dont be so clumsy." Dee ends up staying the night, missing school the next day. This is the last time he wears something like that.
When hes home, he gets a package from Patton. The note says " so that your not sutch a clutz next time :D." Inside theres a pair of pure white gloves, with little embroidered sunflowers.
Anxceit with Unsympathitic Virgil
This idea was easy to come up with. Virgil is the embodiment of anxiety and theres alot of things that can make you anxious in relationships.
They met at a concert. Deceit say the shorter man and his rainbow pin amd decided to give it a shot. He flirted with the little emo, cautious on if he was uncomfortable. They hit it off and went to a starbucks after the concert to get to know each other.
They kept in touch and continued to grow closer. Suprisingly, it was Virgil who asked him out. Their relationship was perfect. They ended up dating for 1 and a half years before they decided it was time to move in together.
Deceit noticed the change immediately. Whenever he would be on his phone, Virgil would go quiet. Whenever Dee came home from something or another, Virgil would launch himself at the taller individual. At first Dee thought nothing of this, thinking it was cute even. Until it was not.
Deceit had went out and visited some friends, talking and joking around with each other. Dee felt the constant buzzing of his phone in his pocket, but ignored it to speak to his friends. When he finally arrived home, he foumd out his mistake. Virgil stood in the living room, head bowed, and asked where dee was. Deciet responded quietly, concerned for his partner. Verge looked up and asked "why didnt you respond to my messages?!" Dee was taken aback, confused by Virgils behavior. Virgil saw this and started shouting at him. Right when Dee was about to respond, Virgil started to break down into sobs. Deciet ran over to him and tried to calm him down, but the other wouldnt stop repeating " dont leave me." When finally calm, virge looked up at Deceit and asked " can you please just tell me when you go somewhere?" Deceit agreed.
Things like this kept progressing, Virgil crying and breaking down any time Deceit doesn't tell him when he leaves the house. He starts to even get upset anytime Dee dosent text 5 minutes after he texts him, saying how hes scared that Dees leaving. Deceit feels bad for his partner, so he stops leaving the house for anything thats not work or food. Virgil is very happy about this. But only for a bit.
Since Deceit starts to be at home more, he keeps up with his freinds through text. He doesnt tell the why he stopped hanging out with them, ignoring the question anytime its asked. Virgil notices Dee being on his phone so often, and becomes jealous. One day, he sees Dee laughing at something on his phone, and jumps to conclusions. Virgil stomps over to Deceit and yanks the phone from his hands. He starts to shout, accusing him of cheating and lieing. Once agian, right before Dee is about to respond, Virgil cries. Once again he says hes scared and doesnt want him to leave. Deceit comforts Virgil, and Verge asks him something. "Can you just let me look at your phone when i get scared? Please?" Deceit agrees.
And once again, its all fine. They fall into a routine. Dee goea to work, calls Verge on his lunch brake, comes straight home, talk to Virgil, help make dinner, eat, have Virge check his phone, watch tv, and go to bed. It was simple. But Deceit was lonely. He missed his friends, missed seeing them and knowing whats going on in there life. So one day, Dee goes into his room and voice chats his friends.
Virgil enters and Dee stops the call. Virgil is mad. Hes shouting at Deciet and accusing him cheating once again. When hes done shouting, he glares at Dee and demands to see his phone. Deceit says no. This is the wrong answer.
Virgils eyes go wide, before turning around and marching out the room, slamming the door behind him. Deceit doesnt make a move until he hears Verge open a kitchen drawer. Deceit races out the bedroom to see Virgil cutting his arms with a knife. Dee grabs him and triea to get him to stop, only for Virgil to drop the knife and fall to the ground. Hes sobbing, saying that he has nothing to live for without Deceit. Deceit tries to calm him and carefully cares for his wounds, virgil still in tears.
Deceit doesnt contact his friends for a long time after that.
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Hi! So these were just two of many ideas ive been having, and i hope you enjoyed! I plan to make a part 2 to this with lociet, roceit, and intruciet. If thats something youre intrested in, give me some feed back! Im ooen to any constructive criticism, and please tell me if i left any trigger warnings un named. Also, remember i have nothing against Patton and Virge, i actually enjoy them quiet a bit, so dont think I hate them or something! I just wanted to write something small including things like different types of abuse and character takes, im not saying that these characters are truly like this. Anyway, hope you enjoyed!!
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im-basically-logan · 6 years
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me yelling abt the new sander sides episode because i have no chill
under the cut, friendos!
i’m typing this as i listen/watch the video btw so it’s all in order! also this is very long
that’s... an intro.
i love joan so much hghfhgjfdhjk
new channel news yay
Tweet Tunes blz come back
“give me my shirt back!”
i still love the intro to sander sides so much
thomas what the fuck. i’m so confused
“Cast: Thomas Sanders” that’s sander sides in a nutshell
also thats a big fuckin wine glass
dont eat bad chicken wraps blz
“yeah but what’s your actual job?” oof
the beginning is very slow paced imo blehh. a good reflection on thomas’ mood in the video tbh
“i feel bad about feeling bad” me all the time
i cant believe roman got slapped in the face
roman x katana otp uwu
“Logan!!! It’s Patton!!” that was both cute and kinda odd? did he think logan would be suspicious of him being deceit? probably not
logan really goin for those claps and syllables
“Although I am overcome by a titillating, tingly sensation whenever deadlines are met” l-logan? what??? did you just say?? i agree with roman’s reaction on this one.
the poor 4th wall. also i’m not belittled
patton called himself, roman, and logan daddy
VIRGIL!!!!
virgil flapping as he’s like “Are you serious??”
the countless amount of beeps as roman and logan argue.
bestest duo
god the stretching shit
ROMAN GOT CALLED THE FUCK OUT
i mean we been knew he’s insecure but still
“do you know how dangerous that is?”
“I’m shooting straight, even though I’m gay”
dfkghdfkjhdskj patton knows what everyone calms down with hghghgfh
i love how logan just immediately starts solving the cube lol
it was 25 seconds jfc logan
tfw you’re just so good at being creativity that you color the mona lisa with shitty colors
are.. are they making a vine reference?? with the loop thing??
F r o o t
S am e  s i  es  logan s w ea t y B L Z
“get naked??” ROMAN PL E A SE
he was ready to strip what the  F UCK
intact and wet?
hfgjkhdjk logan’s trying his best
Sometime’s we don’t know that there’s a question to be asked: clarified
LOGAN COMPLIMENT PATTON FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE
i want a cogitating cap but it’s $25 sobs
textbooks, m I S T A KES (roman jfc), PUPPETS!!
yes virgil defend pat
tbh i had the same thoughts as logan at first abt the adult thing..
roman you over did the chin, buddy
“you are unbelievably extra any time you get” “put a sOCK IN IT!”
and then virgil becomes a sock puppet
I LOVE HIM I’LL TAKE 5
sweet coraline!!! BA BA BAAAAA
“if by up you mean the opposite of down to do this” that was very convoluted
what is with roman not liking the word figuratively??? are you ok?? is there some secret angst behind the meaning of that word?
patton cursed again
is... 5 by 5 a thing???
jfc logan, you wear light wash jeans?? i thought they would be dark
oh and you hit roman in the eye
ngl i laughed because he’s a puppet and couldn’t blink
oh my god logan looks so regretful w h a t?
also L is a new nickname
“Maybe I should go” “NO”
o shit
slight throwback to when Logan left in moving on part 1??? :3c
hfdjkhfkjd like mAR IA
ew feelings
“i’d rather go live in a garbage can” same
thomas we love you so much feelings are weird
jfc patton.
“oh i’m sorry, EXCEPT I’M NOT!”
big oof at roman being called out
“oh my gosh, what is up your butt?” “... an  ARM”
i mean he’s not wrong but i feel like he could’ve thought about that phrase a little more carefully
i really liked the text stuff when logan was talking about “Why?”
solid electric company reference yeet
SHSHDHGHSHSHDHHSHSHH
logan flailing his arms is a mood
“i could list off several factors that very well could be contributing to your doubts” someone let him sp e a k
and it’s virgil.
lmao that was a big “I’ll take what I can get” bit for logan ngl rip
hfgkdhjdkfs virgil as the count i’m
logan’s looks he’s giving virgil are m o o d s
“three depressing speculations, ah ah ah...”
“four uncomfortable characters in this room”
“jeez you slobbily eat some jam and accidentally make a jew puns and now you’re suddenly sensitive about being taken seriously?” “I’m not a joke!”
YI K E S
the logan angst i’ve been craving
logan blz hhhhhh
headcanon: adjusting his tie is a big stim
you can see virgil’s expression in the puppet when patton calls him a cute muffin wowie puppeteering is neat!
roman ur being an ass
“it’s too bad your brain isnt as big as your chin” “well you smell like FOOT” hfdjhgjfkdhs
there’s so many more logan screenshots i gottttttt yessss
“what? no-” too late, it’s musical time
“another song, really?” logan, you literally sang last episode
this patton angst return
“Did that work?” “Nope!” logan’s face at that. b o i did you not pay attention? to moving on pt 2? he was kinda there as thomas right?? maybe?? oh no
“I knew you’d listen to me as too scary to ignore” hello @asofterfan got that thing down to a T.
logan just looks so shook like “oh shit”
“but when you lo-care for someone...” virgil, we all heard it.
logan breaking down the musical into just the keyboard was p cool
hghgnhghfhsg THE ONE SHOT SLAM
ahdsdshjkdfsk i love this part with logan and thomas so MU CH
ALSO! I think there was a key change to something minor? sounded much more overlooming/scary as they ended their verses
“You’re lost” “I’m right here” “It’s okay. I was lost once too...” i’m just shook.
roman just hangs his actual dirty socks jfkdkfdh
that trumpet thoooooo
virgil just callin everyone out today
logince angst content yeet
“logic always has a part to play, logan” ye  s s s s ss  validate him, virgil
virgil is callin out and validatin everybody today
dont hug me i’m scared ref, nice
moxiety hug!!
“that god i can move my arms again”
i can’t say i was surprised with logan becoming a robot sorta puppet
“iron giant nerd!” yeah
“I’ve never felt anything in my life” no patton squeal?
oh my god logan just said beep boop what a nerd
virgil telling patton about the innocent talks thing was something i really liked and was expecting eventually tbh
logan giving roman a high five!!!
“you did the stretchy arm!” “it’s not as gross when a robot does it” i need to see the arm thing jfc
“Can you tell me how to get-” “How to get to sesame street!” they just all... left him. rip
logan can’t summon well or control his shapeshifting powers that well?? hmm?
i love that ending with the sesame street throwback again aaaaaa
the way roman and patton laughed in the end card?? what the hell lmao
thomas throwing shade at himself with his own characters is a mood
Thanks to everyone who works on Sander Sides!! This was the longest episode yet, I think. The team grew so much
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lovehelpmewrite · 6 years
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The People Who Love You [1]
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A/N: This is very angsty, there's a lot of abuse!triggers, rape!triggers and the like. I was really in the mood to angst so yeah. Please enjoy at your own risk, triggers and angst ahead. Also, I didn't originally intend for it but its going to be 2 parts because tumblr only allows 100 blocks I guess... I don't know the word count because I'm on mobile, and I'm hoping my keep reading works but sorry if it doesn't. Its un-beta-d, and unedited and un-spell-checked, so all mistakes are mine. Anyways, read on.
"Yeah? Seriously? That's insane. Yeah. Yeah of course! Yeah I'll let him know. Thanks Sam. Yeah, you too. See you in a bit." I hung up the phone feeling happier than i'd been in a long while. Sam had called, asking for help on a werewolf out in Nevada. When he'd asked if I was still with Tyler I assumed thats who he really wanted on the case but I was excited to see them either way.
I walked out into the living room, seeing Tyler on the couch with a beer in hand. Out of reflex I grabbed another and set it next to his feet on the coffee table. He smiled in return.
"You're too good to me," he said, giving me he full attention for a few seconds before turning back to the TV.
"So, uh, Sam Winchester called. He and Dean have a case out in Nevada they wanted our help on. Werewolves. I told them we'd check it out, what do you think?" I asked quietly.
Tyler let out a deep sigh and I turned my eyes to the corner of the coffee table.
"I think," he paused, taking a drink of his beer, "that you should have asked before you went saying yes. And that I don't like those Winchesters, too fucking uptight, and Dean always stares at you." He threw an annoyed look my way before letting out another deep breath and finishing off his beer, getting ready to open the second.
"When do they want me?" He asked, tossing the metal cap onto the table. I watched as it skidded and slid of the edge onto the floor.
"ASAP. I told them we could be out there in a few days," I answered timidly.
Tyler let out another sigh of annoyance.
"Well, go back a bag, we'll leave tomorrow and I don't want to have to wait for your sorry ass to finish up."
I nodded and stood quickly, walking into the back bedroom and shutting the door softly. I let myself smile as I packed, enjoying the thought of seeing old friends again.
- - -
"Tyler, Y/N, good to see you," greeted Dean, pulling me in for a hug that made Tyler frown. Even so, I hugged Sam as well, enjoying their familiar embraces.
"So, where are you guys staying?" Sam asked, hands shoved in his jeans pockets.
"The Historian, on Gibson by the diner," I answered, unable to stop the smile on my face as I spoke.
This only seemed to annoy Tyler further. Quickly he drew an arm around my waist and pulled me to him.
"Yeah, she wanted to make sure we had a good view," he joked, Sam and Dean laughing as I cringed, remembering how upset Tyler was that the neon sign from the diner was visible through our window.
"You know me, only the best," I added.
Everyone laughed but I could feel Tyler's fingers on my ribs like knives.
- - -
"To a hunt well done," Dean toasted, plinking his beer bottle against mine and Sam's. We all drank and shared a small smile, me ignoring the fact that Tyler was dancing with some girl on the dance floor.
"I gotta ask," Sam said suddenly, after several tense moments. "What's with your boyfriend?"
I flicked my eyes momentarily at the girl grinding on him before turning on my stool to face solidly at the bar.
"He's just dancing, its fine," I said monotonely.
Sam and Dean shared a look.
I absent mindedly pulled my flannel sleeves down to cover the hand mark Tyler left from this morning, when I had taken too long to get ready so he gripped me by the elbow and shoved me at the door. My shoulder still stung but I could blame that on the werewolf at least.
"What thhe fuck?" Dean said suddenly. I looked at him oddly until he pointed out a still healing bruise on my sternum, visible with my shirt unbottoned. "What is that, Y/N?"
Nervously I shoved my shirt to the side so it wasnt visible anymore.
"Haven't you ever heard of a hickey, Dean?" I laughed anxiously, sipping my beer and hoping he'd let it go. He didnt.
"That's no hickey. Did he hurt you?" Dean asked seriously, his voice low.
"What?! No! He wouldn't! It... it was my fault. I was carrying the laundry basket and not watching where I was going and he accidentally bumped it into me a little hard. Its nothing," I shrugged it off.
It was from the laundry basket, from when he shoved it at me hard enough to leave a mark. "To remind me of my place," he said.
Sam and Dean just eyed me cautiously as Tyler came back from the dance floor.
"Hey babe, lets go, I'm beat," Tyler said.
I went to argue that i wanted to stay with Sam and Dean but I knew better than to speak out in public.
"Okay. See you guys later," I said, Tyler pulling me quickly away and out of the bar.
He yanked me out into the alley and shoved me against yhe grime covered bricks, pressing kisses to my neck and chest.
"Come on baby, lets do it right here," Tyler said, unbuttoning my flannel quickly.
"Ty, no, lets just go back to the motel," I said, gently pushing at his hands on my body.
"Come on, it'll be hot. You can scream for all the bar to hear," he continued, going for my jeans.
"Ty, I said no, stop it," I said more forcefully, shoving him off me.
He stood a foot away, bewildered for a moment while blood rushed in my ears. Suddenly his hand came fast and heavy against my cheek, knocking my head to the side. I held it in shock as it heated up. Tyler seemed to be gauging my reaction to it which was fear.
He sprung forward again and spun me around, pressing my shoulders against the cold brick as he undid my jeans.
"When I say I want to fuck you, I mean it you dumb prude bitch," he growled against my hair.
I stood, helplessly pressed against the bricks as he yanked my jeans and underwear down and pulled my hips back.
The only indication I gave that I felt him was the shutter as he slid into me. My whole body was numb, the slight rocking the only thing keeping me grounded.
When he was done, he came onto the ground and pushed my hips forward in disgust, making me stumble into the wall.
"Come back when you're ready to be an obedient whore," he spat, pulling up his jeans and walking away.
I felt the shake in my hands as I slowly pulled up my underwear and struggled to button my jeans. I let myself lean against the wall a moment, pressing cold hands over my eyes and smearing tears I didn't know I was making.
I sucked in a deep breath, cleared my face and stared dead ahead. Just another day.
- - -
I realized quickly I didn't want to go back to him so soon. I didn't want to seem that desperate for him. In a spur of the moment I walked to Sam and Dean's motel room, knocking on the door before I remember deciding to. Sam answered.
"Y/N? Whats up?" He asked, voice gentle and slightly tired.
"Hey, sorry to bother you guys, me and Tyler had a little fight so I just wanted to shower here for tonight if thats okay?" I asked timidly.
"Yeah! Yeah sure, whatever you need," Sam replied, letting me in immediately.
Dean was sat up on the bed reading something when he looked up and smiled at me.
"Hey, what're you doing here?" He asked, closing the book to give me his full attention.
"Just need a shower, me and Tyler had a fight," I explained. Dean grinned.
"Finally. You should really dump that douche bag," he commented, standing and walking over to his duffle bag.
"No... we just need ti work some stuff out. I dont know where i'd be without him, he's such a better hunter than me," I said absently, not thinking twice about the words coming out of my mouth.
Sam snorted behind me, Dean sniggered.
"Sure, okay Y/N," Dean said sarcastically.
"Really, I would have died on half my hunts if he hadn't been there," I tried, more to convince myself than them.
"You're ten times the hunter he is, he can barely shoot a sawed-off. But whatever you say, sweetheart. Enjoy your shower," Dean grinned, handing me one of his shirts and a pair of boxers.
As I stood under the steaming hot water and scrubbed my skin raw, I replayed what the boys had said. How could I possibly be a better hunter than him? All he talks about is how much easier it would be for him to do his job if I wasnt around.
I shook off the thought and went back to scrubbing at my thighs viciously.
- - -
I walked out in Dean's oversize Metallica shirt, picking at one of my cuticles, mulling over my options very carefully.
"He hits me sometimes," I mumble, watching Sam and Dean scrunch up their eyebrows before looking at me.
"Huh?"
"Did you say something, sweetheart?"
I turned my eyes up, forcing myself to back eye contact.
"He hits me sometimes," I said again.
I watched as Dean's jaw set and Sam's face turned to stone.
"Not often. I mean, not really anyways. Sometimes its worse than others, especially if he's been drinking," I said, finishing the sentance looking at the ratty carpeting as the nights memories came back.
"Its usually my fault anyways, I take too long, or I forget the laundry, or I get him the wrong beer," I added, trying to justify it in my head again. My face scrunched up as his words came at me as they always do.
"You'd be nothing without me. A dead whore in a ditch somewhere. You're lucky I'm here to teach you."
"He's dead," Dean said simply.
I jumped forward quickly.
"No, dont!" I said, gripping his arm tightly as he stood. "Its fine, I can handle it," I added.
Dean's hand came slowly up to my face and I winced as his fingers ran over the spot where Tyler had slapped me.
"You dont have to," Dean said quietly.
"I love him," I replied, eyes closed. Dean let out a slow breath and stepped back from me.
"Then you better get back to him," he said sharply.
"Dean," Sam interjected, eyebrows creased in disapproval.
"No, if she loves him she can head back to his room, and when he hits her again we'll come pick her up because thats what people who love you do," Dean spoke, eyes sharp and jaw set.
I stared at him a moment longer, my throat tight before I slowly grabbed my things and opened the door. I gave one last glance to Sam whose eyes were wet with unshed tears.
I shut the door behind me and let a few tears of my own fall before I made my way back to Tyler.
- - -
I woke up to the sound of beeping next to my head and throbbing in my ribs. I groaned as I turned my head, my neck stiff and sore as well.
As I looked around at the pale green walls and the bright florescent lights, I recognized the beeping as an EKG.
I panicked, trying desperately to sit up and pull out my IV's until a nurse came in.
"Sweetie, you need to relax, you're pretty banged up," she spoke, gently pushing my shoulder back and readjusting the IV tube on my arm.
I tried to relax, looking up to the ceiling and taking deep breaths to try and stop the tears burning in my eyes.
"Good news is your boyfriend's here, said he was worried when he found out you fell down those stairs. I'll send him up," the nurse spoke kindly, patting my hand before walking out and closing the door behind her.
My throat closed up painfully, tears falling back into my hairline as I thought about Tyler seeing me after what he'd done last night.
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Highlight of the dinner party
(my trans - so if its not perfect sorry.. i tried my best but dont blame me if i made a mistake please T-T )
 In the beginning they were debating how to cheer (with the alcohol) - Jimin suggested to go simple with Jjang (its often used when people clink glasses OR when they say something is good) - but Tae said let’s go with Eouuuuu -> Namjoon caught on quickly saying that you can interpret eouuu (the crying noise) into different things based on how you say it: it can show sadness, happiness etc etc - so they shouted eouuuu
They filmed this earlier again than their comeback +birthday (like every year) so they just thrown in their predictation for their achievements - funny, they predicted to land at #8 in top 100 but we all know they actually got #1 :D
Thay talked about the trip which was planned by Tae ( during festa there were pictures of it on the festa “magazine” - i dont know how to call it sorry hahah but im sure you remember it) -Jinmin slept in one room, Hoseok alone, Yoongi/Namjoon/Tae/Jungkook in one room but Jungkook couldn’t handle NAmjoon’s snoring so he slept somewhere else
They made Hobi drank for not putting the right amount of number on Yoongi’s cake lmao (there was a question about Yoongz’ brithday)...btw if you noticed he was drinking through a straw hahhaa also he is such a lightweight like at one point he blanked out and Namjoon even hurried Yoongi’s ith the questions because Hobi was getting red hahah
They scored each other’s style ...Seokjin said something about how face (your look) completes your style so even if your style is not good your face cane save it lmao...the confidence...  + They praised Namjooni saying if its fashin then its KimDaily ~..a.lso they said Jungkook has been the same for years :) - he only started to change recently [ this was where Tae hit hobi accidentally lmao]
BBMAs/AMAS talk - Yoongi said he cried after AMA but not because he felt like wow, yeah we did it (write history etce tce) but because of the pressure? - i hope i understood it well
my favourite one: IS it hard to be a maknae? it was a direct question to Kookie - Jimin or Yoongi even told him to be 100% honest, but Jungkook said its not that hard...it has never been (because he feels at ease with the hyungs)...he is more awkward with younger people
the next question about true happines??...or something which made them genuinely happy without force...Hobi said it was his mixtape (later he talked about how Namjoon and Yoongi taught him everything about music and how thankful he was for them) ...i didnt get Namjoon (sorry my skills are not on his level sorry) Jimin talked about how the rap line writes song for them, feeling always relatable because they are about them and even thanked them 
Suddenly we took a turn and we ended up with Namjoon and Yoongi talking about how Yoongi has music for Jimin...or in Jimin’s style? because it fits with him perfectly and Jimin was like: give me them, give me...and out of nowhere Tae said I will give you one ...BTW later they also talked baout how Tae was composing songs, Namjoon complimenting him and Jimin proudly saying that Hold Me Tight was also great and the beginning of V but that time the others /directs his words to Joonie˛/ doidnt take him seriously or there was a misunderstanding (sorry not clear) so Namjoon apologized and hugged Tae
Request of other members: Jimin pointed out something with the shoes..if im right, bangtan (Namjoon) doesnt put his soes in their places mostly hahah
MEmbers who you are thankful? - as I mentined before- Hoseok thank Yoongi and Namjoon for helping him improve as musician; Seokjin said Jimin: saying he is perfect , and hen he is having hard tie with dancing (namjoon too) he always helps them out ^^ ; Jimin pointed out the members, the team as his source of energy and teh reason why he works hard, Namjoon was talking about teh hard times during concerts; Taehyung revealed that when he was having a really hard time he received a long message from YOONGI!!!!! (everyone goes crazy over it) - Seokjin joked that eh barely got text from him, Namjoon saying that he gets short messages too hahahha Yoongi was csreaming from embarrassment - Yoongi said I love you in the end of his message ~ then it was revealed Jungkook also got message from Yoongi saying I love you at the end...and after that everyone was whining about how they want confession from Yoongi XD
what’s your motto in life ( i wont translate all of it because i already saw someone doing it on tumblr so...yeah...sorry t.t)
When I’m having hard time this is what i want to hear: - Tae isad: I love you then Jimin said that if Yoongu ever said i love you to him he would gain strength from it so Yoongi colly said: Jimina-ah i love you lol Tae was like after that: when i got the message i trie dto imagine how he would have sounded saying it (they asked him if it was similar) but tae imitated how he imagined it which was slightly different (NAmjin complainag again the lack of text from Yoongi’s part)
they they started the hardship of being an “idol” for being on the spotlight - the hardship how others see them - their stage “me” and real “me” struggle, the practice and yoongi was talking about the importance of family
- im getting tired...phew...my brain is freezing let me catch my breathe....-
btw my other highlight of the show was when Namjoon hurt his knee and Yoongi facepalmed or when Tae opened the soju hahah they were pretty funny in my opinion ~ also kookie admitting that he does 240 push-ups a day is pretty insane in my opinion lol   ...okay back to the main....
I didnt understand the next question ( im sorry im sorry...im going to study more in the summer to improve my korean ...im sorryT-T) but Jimin talked about a shooting experience if i get it right, saying that when it was cold he stopped thinking  (relatable lol)
they talked about school tests, and gave point out of 100 with different explanation to each other?  - they even joked that besides namjoon provbably nobody got 100 points on their tests  lol..and Yoongi even said that for his music exams he didnt get good results lol
last question: whats the meaning of happiness? ~ Jungkook siad: laughing/  Jimin joked at first but said he doesnt really know but something whcih makes him laugh, put him at ease? / Yoongi said he has been thinking about it for months but cant define it - basically you just feel it / NAmjoon: ...i cant ...im sorry i cant understand what namjoon says im so not on his vocab level that it hurts lmao / Seokjin: he talked about how he tries his best to lift up the mood / Hoseok said he thinks othervise than others - he said even if you’re happy you can cry? then Kookie said an idiom (once again im not on that level T-T) then Tae said happiness is when you dont have worry...he felt that when they went on the trip and he was just at peace, he gained lots of strength from it he just so happy during those days
Then Seokjin and Jungkook said the last words and they cheered ~
im sure there will be professional subs up soon...or some parts being translated  by others better than me ...but until they came out i wanted to at least help out others with that much i could understand...sorry if i made mistakes but i hope it was at least more than nothing ^^
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can i request headcanons for what hanamiya, kise, aomine, kagami, himuro, akashi would do when them and their female partner and getting frisky in le bedroom, and they are both ready to get started but they find out they dont have any condoms & its too late @ night to go out and buy some? thank you in advance !! :D
Bahaha I love this ask, and this answer.  It was hella fun to write… I was in a good mood and you could tell lol  This is the first of the really good answers coming up (I’m looking at you cliche!anon ;) )
Hanamiya Makoto
He’s just minding his own business, reading when you startto accost him.  First of all HOW DAREYOU.
Just kidding, he knows your game the second you startit.  From the first brush of yourfingers along his arm, he knows what you want. His dick.
He makes you work for it though, ignoring you for the mostpart as your touches get bolder and bolder. He makes you touch him all over, press your breasts to his back and wrapyour arms around his shoulders.  Onlythen does he pull you into his lap, and then it’s just to hold you there.  
He goes back to his book.
You’re pretty mad, because damn it, why isn’t hereacting?  Basically, he’s fucking withyou.  He wants to see how upset youget.  Truth is, he’s already hard.
Determined not to be thwarted by him, you leave open-mouthedkisses along his jaw.  You might eventry biting him, this makes him suck in a breath of air, but other than that, noreaction.
If your horny enough, you better start begging, becausethat’s what he really wants to hear.  Hewants to hear your voice squeak as you whine for him to fuck you, because damnit, he’s goddamn hot and how are you supposed to survive?  Pretty much, he wants to know your mad forhim.
When he finally reacts, you are overthrown.  He pins you to the bed and purrs in your earwhat a naughty girl you’ve been and how you should be punished.
Is going to take forever to get to it, because he’s in atorturing mood.
When he finally, finally gets there, and reaches forcondoms only to find there are none, he pauses and tilts his head.  You complain, and say something aboutgetting off another way.
Yeah right, reader-chan.
He says fuck it, and fucks you so hard youscream.  Literally doesn’t care if it’sbare back, when he wants to ride, he rides. You should have checked before you started your little game with him.
Goes out and buys Plan B for you the next day, and you hatehim a little bit for the whole thing because that shit isn’t fun.
Kise Ryouta
When he gets going, he gets really into it.  His hands are EVERYWHERE.
He has a pretty high sex drive, so expect to entertain him alot, as much as he can get away with really.
Sometimes lets you control it, but most of the time, you’realong for the ride.  This night’s nodifferent.  He leaves marks on yourthroat and shoulder, even though you tell him not to because it’s a pain in theass to explain.
His hands and mouth attach themselves to your breasts and itbecomes pretty obvious pretty quickly that he’s trying to get your going.  You were only so-so when he started.
But you’re sitting in his lap so you can feel his raginghard on, and he makes it easier to feel but grinding up into you.
Okay, so he’s got you going.  There’s something so hot about him rearing and wanting you sobadly.  You can never say no.  He’s too pretty.
And he knows it.
“___cchi,” he whines, panting in your ear when he’s donemaking your nipples rock hard and sensitive. “I’ve waited all week for this.”
Liar, it’s been two days.
When he reaches for the condoms and finds the box empty,he’s devastated.  Like, mortallycrushed.
You have to sooth him, run your hands through his hair andkiss his forehead.  “We can have lots offun without that, you know?” You tease him, because you’re into it nowtoo and he better not leave you unfulfilled.
That’s all he needs. His fingers seek you out right away and bury themselves in side ofyou.  Your moan of approval makes himshiver.
Finger fucks you until you cum all over his hand, then helicks it clean.  Honestly, so hot youwant him all over again.
But he’s been a good boy, so you reward him.  Shifting, you push him back onto the bed andtake his cock in your mouth.  Groans andimmediately tangles his hand in your hair so he can control your pace anddepth.
Accidentally comes all over your face, much to your chagrin.
Aomine Daiki
Purposely forgets the condom anyway.
It’s your fault forbeing so fucking attractive.  Youliterally haunt his daydreams and he wakes up hard.  After that, he’s restless and cranky and everyone can tell.
You’re just minding your own business, finishing up someclub work when he appears, eyes dark and full of meaning.  You’ve seen this look before.
You sigh, because honestly, he’s such a handful.
He drags you off to some semi-private place and then pushesyou against a wall.  He’s going todevour you, so you might as well just give in. Thrust your fingers into his hair and pull and he’ll growl delightfully.
You get swept away in his fervor, because how could younot?  He’s aggressive in his style andit’s so easy to lose your mind when he’s nipping at you bottom lip andsqueezing your breasts through your bra.
Before you even realize it, your legs are wrapped around hiswaist and his hands are on your ass to push you closer.
Your moans only make him more frenzied and his hands quicklyleave your ass and one somehow gets beneath your skirt to stroke you throughyour underwear.  Is unaccountablypleased to find you already wet and ready for him.  
Literally can’t wait. Even if you protest the location, he’s going to convince you that it’ssafe enough even though it’s not. He shoves aside your underwear and unzips his pants at the speed oflight.  
That’s when you realize what’s happening and that he mostcertainly doesn’t have a condom. “Daiki, don’t you dare-”
Too late, he’s inside you, hissing and groaning and justgenerally a mess.  You don’t fight himthough, and you could have.  His stanceisn’t so solid that a push couldn’t have dislodged him.  “You better not come inside,” yougrumble, but he’s kissing you, so it’s really hard to talk.
One of your feet is on the ground now, while the otherdangles as he has one arm  under yourknee.  It’s hard and fast like this andyour head hits the wall behind you in the heat of the moment.
To his credit, he doesn’t come inside you, he comeson your thigh and it’s gross and sticky and you actually wish he had just comeinside you.
Doesn’t help you clean it up.
Kagami Taiga
This one just straight up forgets to restock.  Just the thought of sex is enough to makehim blush, so it’s usually you that has to buy them anyway.  
So it’s really your fault.
Things get heavy after he makes you a pretty awesome dinner,which has put you in the mood as it usually does.  The adage that the way to a girl’s heart is through her stomachis true… or maybe that’s a guy’s stomach. Either way, you want him pretty bad by the time dinner is done.
You’re patient though, because he’s structured and likes todo things in order.  It’s a date night,so in Kagami speak that means dinner, movie and cuddling, then maybesex.  It’s not that he doesn’t alwayswant sex, he just doesn’t want to pressure you.  Precious baby.
Too bad you’re about to pressure him.
You decide you can’t really wait until the movie is over –you’ve seen it anyway.  About half waythrough you throw your leg over him and straddle his lap, your hands movingover his chest and shoulders until they find his jaw so you can pull him into akiss.
He blushes, of course, but doesn’t protest, and his handscatch your hips pretty fast.  Despitethe red in his face, he’s not at all shy about touching you.  He runs his big hands over whatever he canreach, and the situation devolves pretty quickly into a makeout-pettingsession.
When you decide that you’ve had enough of the couch, youclimb off of him, grab him by the hand and haul him to his bedroom.
Clothes fly everywhere and his attention is centered on you.
You’re ready, he’s ready, unfortunately, when he opens hisbedside table drawer and finds nothing, you are both left incrediblydisappointed.
Worry not, however, because he’s actually prettyenterprising.  He’s gotten pretty goodwith his hands.  He gets you turnedover, stretches out beside you and touches you.  He starts slow, because he doesn’t want to leave youdissatisfied, and oh boy, you aren’t by the time he’s done.  You come moaning into his mouth as he kissesyou gently, moaning with you.
You can’t let such devotion go unrewarded of course, becauseguess what?  You’ve gotten pretty goodwith your hands too.
Himuro Tatsuya
This one knows he doesn’t have any condoms before thefrisky-business starts.  He’s a littlehesitant, because you both have a tendency of getting carried away and that is nota risk he’s willing to take.
But he’s also pretty creative.  There are so many other things he can do to you, afterall, and no one’s going to be disappointed.
He takes his sweet time. He’s into body worship and he employs it now.  He loves the sound of your soft cries and he drags his tongueover your collar bone and down between your breasts to your belly.  
He’s very gentle, no biting here, just enough pressure totease and make you pant.  He smiles ashe does it, eyes watching you carefully as he strokes in perfectly calculatedtouches that have you writhing in no time at all.
His mouth gets a little more daring as he reaches yourthigh.  His teeth scrape over your softskin and earn a long, pitiful whine that makes him chuckle.
Doesn’t mean to be teasing, but totally ends up being soanyway.  You kind of hate his pace,because it’s frustrating and your burning so brightly and damn it just getto it already!  “Taaatuyaaaa…” youmoan, hoping to encourage him.
“Ahh, ahh,” he replies, smirking against you before pressinghis tongue to your clit.
Ugh, reader.exe has stopped working.
Licks and sucks until you come all over his face, hipsrising so much he has to hold you down. He’s proud of himself, because he’s all about your pleasure.
Doesn’t even want anything in return.  Pushes your hands away when you try sleepilyto help him.  He wipes his faceoff and spoons you until you fall asleep, which is pretty quickly.
Then gets up and jerks himself off in the bathroom.
Akashi Seijuro
Let’s face it, he’s never going to forget, especiallynot something so crucial.  He probablycarries one around in his wallet just in case. He’s 100% prepared 100% of the time.
The only way it happens is… actually, I can’t actually thinkof a scenario when he isn’t prepared.
But there are often logistical issues to consider, timeswhen getting a condom on and off just weren’t practical.  That’s the kind of situation you foundyourselves in this time.
You’d forgotten something in your classroom and onlyremembered after his practice was done and he was set to take you home.  Of course, being Akashi, he refused to doanything other than escort you to said classroom to retrieve what you’dforgotten.
Normally, he’s above such impropriety and base instinct, buthe’s keyed up that day, his hormones high from practice and the knowledge thathe was going to play a practice game against one of his former middle school teammates.
It doesn’t take much to make him want you.  You drop something and bend over to pick itup, and his eyes fall to your ass and it’s over.  Your skirt helpfully decides to give him a flash of your veryadorable kitty paw print underwear.
He strikes before you even know what hits you.  Catching you about the waist, he drags youagainst him and backs up until he’s leaning against the bolted down teacher’sdesk.  He fastens his mouth to yours,one hand cradling your face, while the other moves over your ass and under yourskirt to squeeze.  
“S-Sei-kun!” You protest, but you know it’s fruitless.
When does he ever not get exactly what he wants?  Okay, the Winter Cup, but still.  Too soon?
The hand on your ass pushes your hips up until you arestraddling his thigh and pressing your center against it.  He moves his leg rhythmically, removing yourinhibitions astonishingly fast.  
He wants to hear you come for him, so he makes you ride hisleg towards oblivion.  The whole timehe’s whispering in your ear in between soul-searching kisses.  “Does that feel good, my ____-chan?” “Didyou know you’re panting?  I can think ofother uses for that mouth of yours.” “If we were in my bedroom I would make you ride me properly, I do solove being inside you.”
You get the idea.
He takes your hand and moves it to his cock, forcing yourfingers around him through his pants. He doesn’t moan or groan, but he does grunt, and hum and that’s all youreally need to fall over the edge.
When you’ve calmed down, you are pushed to your knees.  “Wouldn’t you like to return the favor,___-chan?”
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