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noctisfalls · 1 year

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i hit post limit so i made this acc. ^^

#i wanna cry tho #why post limit a thing #do i keep the same tags??#idk wtf i’m doing god

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contraspem--spero · 4 months

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...So let's sum it up, why don't we.

1. Ukrainian Ministry of Science and Education announced closing roughly 45% of universities in Ukraine because "there are too many universities and not enough students"

2. At the same time, they want there to be less students because they cancel the type of scholarship that covers your entire university fee; instead we'll have scholarship system that "covers up to 60% of study cost" (optimistically: we all know that's not gonna happen, let's be real)

2.1 Government-approved teachers and educators come forward openly stating that higher education should be "a ticket into high society", and are speaking in favor of "american-style" student loan higher education costs.

3. There still will be full tuition scholarships for professions of "necessary jobs for the country", such as teachers, doctors, etc. No definite list of what those jobs are, exactly, as of yet. However, those who receive full tuition will be obligated to work at least 3 years at their government-assigned job place. (So, no work in private clinics, no private schools - at least). This is presented as government "graciously" offering graduates their "first workplace". Afaik, no info how the said workplace is chosen, if it's possible to pick one that you're comfortable with or live close by. Rumors about it being mostly rural/underdeveloped areas with government offering place of residence, but I've only heard it once so I not convinced.

Which is, yk, the USSR-style system. USSR? The totalitarian country responsible for cultural and physical genocide of Ukrainians and countless other nations? The country Ukraine has been publicly decrying for years and trying to destroy all connections to? So I guess we're planning to destroy architecture and monuments from USSR, but at the same time we're returning back to the totalitarian system of communist dream prof education system and it's all fine and dandy?

3.1 If you fail to complete the contract that obligates you to work at least those 3 years, you will be sued and will have to return the money the government allegedly spent on "educating" you, including social and academic scholarships. No precedent has been set in case of lost of ability or death of the contracted graduate yet.

4. At the same time, the Ministry has announced they'll be making enrolling into university "more difficult" starting this year; I think this means less students accepted in general?

5. Multiple universities currently protest being "fused" into One, Bigger University (at least on paper) for alleged efficiency; this included a naval engineering university being fused with a pedagogical university, and a prestigious but smaller pedagogical university being fused with it's much worse performing neighbour and RIVAL.

6. All the while, education reform in Ukraine is staggering. They're announcing High School reform while our 6th, 7th graders still lack proper textbooks with updated material (which will be on the exams), and no data on when or if they will receive them. The program changes so often the teachers can't keep up and sometimes is outright incorrect.

7. The average salary of a newly employed/fresh graduate teacher is around 6k. You know how much groceries cost? Around 1k on the essentials, much more if you have special dietary needs like me (up to 3k). Then there's rent and utilities. Teachers with experience will get up to 10k, plus some bonuses, but it highly varies in region; my teacher once told me she received "just barely enough to live on" despite working for 20k years, so I'm guessing somewhere in 6-7k, too.

I'm tired.

#personal #we don't usually bring out dirt out to be seen by foreigners so I'm not tagging much #but this is CATASTROPHIC #I don't even know if I get to still be a student next semester because any moment my university may be deemed too small and just #cease to exist.#our education system was bad already #then the new minister came in and said #hey let's make this low quality low results education also UNACCESSIBLE AND EXPENSIVE #like America! but even worse #I personally think we need to take him out back and shoot them and pretend none of this has happened #I wanna cry tho

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mysicklove · 7 months

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i hate that dommes are always perceived as super sexy and wear leather and dark colors. like idk maybe I want to wear pink frilly panties and a white miniskirt while I ruin you

#🔪 - mello talks too much #we need more cutesy doms in the media #like ok maybe i want to wear light blue lingerie with pretty white flowers while u cry #maybe i wanna put cat ears on with u #dont get me wrong tho #red/ black lacy lingerie is HOTTT

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crystalflygeo · 3 months

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The right moment ft Zhongli + fem!reader (modern!AU)

cw/tags: Discussions about first time/loss of virginity. Mentions oral/fingering/handjobs. A bit of pain. This is mostly just comfort tbh.

notes: REMEMBER EVERYONE!! It's okay to change your mind, it's okay to take your time and it's okay to say NO when it comes to sex, for any reason at any time, all of that is valid, and if your partner doesn't respect that or otherwise makes you feel bad for it drop them. (Ty @ainescribe and @silentmoths for beta'ing hehe. Also Happy year of the dragon btw!)

You were trembling in his arms. Zhongli embraced you, holding your body against his chest, peppering kisses along your neck and shoulders making you shiver on top of the sheets.

This was it, this was the moment.

You two had fumbled around enough, getting used to his touch, his kisses, his love. And a little burning flame had been born from that along with the flutter in your lovestruck heart. Zhongli was perfect: gentle, patient, smart, kind, handsome…

And you love him.

And you want him.

Which is why one day you gathered up courage, you picked a day where you were not at risk (according to your calendar at least?) made sure you had some ‘protection’ stashed away at your bedside table and said…

“Li, I’m ready.”

“Hm?” He turned to you from his spot on the couch and blinked.

You laced your hands nervously. “I… want to have sex with you. I’m ready.” You blurted out, blushing.

His eyes widened slightly in surprise, though he didn’t immediately say anything. “Are you sure, dear? What brought this on so suddenly?” He asked after a few moments.

“Quite sure.” You nodded, a little more confident, armed with your courage, your little preparations, and of course… excitement. “I just… think it’s time. I want to.”

It was… a little difficult not to be on edge as the moment approached.

Your first time. You’d gladly give it to Zhongli.

It’s not like you were completely new to sex, per se. Truth be told Zhongli had already been your ‘first’ on quite a few things. Your sexual experiences had gone from a bit of heavy petting over the clothes during make out sessions to him eating you out until you’re a whimpering mess or you giving him a few rare handjobs. You just had never… gone all the way.

Technically still a virgin.

But that was changing tonight. You were determined.

Zhongli was soft and reverent, an absolute gentleman as he lowered you on the bed, effortlessly sensual as his hands roamed your body like many other times before. Treating you with utmost gentleness, as if you were a bunny ready to sprint away at the first wrong move. He teased your chest and thighs, nipped softly at your skin and you answered with passionate kisses and heated touches, pulling him closer, letting out pleased hums. He made you come on those skilled fingers and tongue and your body melted, relaxing for him.

And now’s the time…

“You are so beautiful… I love you.” He murmurs the words, warm against your collarbone and you sigh, still panting a bit and recovering from your orgasm.

“Love you too, Li…”

You cup his face and pull him up to kiss his lips again, his strong arms leaning on either side of you. Like this, he’s hovering over you, his larger frame caging you radiating warmth and lust.

You feel his cock press against your hip and almost jolt. You don’t know why but suddenly you refuse to stare at it since, very soon, it was going to be inside you. It was a weird rush of worry, nervousness and giddy arousal.

You know for a fact he’s… big. You remember well the feeling of him on your hand, large and thick, and suddenly you begin to doubt whether or not you would be able to get that thing inside of you.

But you are determined.

He puts on a condom and squeezes some lube into his hand, spreading it evenly on his hard erection, your breath hitches.

He parts your legs and you can feel your heart pounding in your chest, wondering if he could sense it too. Your face is flushed, your thoughts and senses are a flurry of emotions.

“Are you ready? Relax…” He caresses your thigh.

You feel the tip of his cock poking at your entrance as he slowly guides himself and suddenly there is this weird uncomfortable pressure as he pushes inside. You gasp.

“Ah-!” You yelp in pain and whimper. It was… so big.

Zhongli groans. “Darling, relax… you’re so tight.” His brow furrows slightly in concentration as your pussy clamps down on him.

You whine and bite your lip, hips jolting. He presses a bit deeper and you feel… weirdly stretched out, like you’re going to tear. It hurts. You try to endure it, it’s supposed to hurt, right? It’ll get better. But it continues to hurt. You don’t like it. You panic. “W-wait- wait wait- stop!” You cry out.

Zhongli immediately pulls out and your legs clamp shut, as if shielding you, that weird sensation is still there, you feel… raw, tender.

Your eyes water.

“Dear, are you ok? Did I hurt you?” Zhongli asks, cupping your face, golden eyes searching for your own, assessing your expression.

You avert your gaze, rolling over onto your side. “I’m sorry…” You mumble.

He still tries to face you, worried, so worried, your Zhongli. “Whatever for…?”

You take a moment to gather your thoughts, bite your lip, a few tears fall onto the bed. Gods you feel so ridiculous and childish and stupid and- “I’m sorry… I was so sure, I thought- I… I don’t think I’m ready. I don’t want to… do this anymore- not now. I’m sorry.” You sob.

“There is nothing for you to apologize for. If anything, I am the one who’s sorry for hurting you, please forgive me, this is… not the experience I wanted you to have.” Zhongli sighs, displeased at seeing you like this.

You finally look up at him, puffy eyes peeking over your shoulder. “It’s not your fault, it’s me… I have this whole… idea, all these expectations. I wanted this to be perfect and I ruined it.”

He rubs slow circles at your back, soothing. “My dear, I don’t think intimacy is something that should be ruled by a standard in any capacity, nor should it be measured and compared, just as experiences and feelings aren’t. These things just flow naturally.”

“You’re not… upset?”

His expression turns serious. “Of course not. On the contrary, I am glad you voiced out your feelings and I’ll respect your boundaries.” He leans down and brushes some hair from your face before depositing a kiss on your cheek. “I want you to feel good, your comfort is of utmost importance. There’s no need to feel pressured.”

You sigh deeply, groan into the bedsheets and then sit up again, pouting at him. “Still, we got all… worked up for nothing. I-I mean I can still…” You gesture vaguely at his lap. “If you want?” You squeak.

Zhongli chuckles and tries to pass it off as a cough. Your face heats up. “No need to concern yourself with that, the arousal is ebbing away, it’ll go down on its own.”

“Oh.”

There is silence for a few moments.

“Do you want-”

“Would you like to-”

“Ah, go ahead.” You shake your head. He smiles.

“I was going to propose a bath.”

You hum. “That sounds lovely. And then maybe… some cuddling on the couch while we watch tv?”

“I would like nothing more.”

He kisses your forehead and heads to the bathroom and as you gingerly stand up, look around and think on how things turned out you think it’s fine.

The right moment will come. You already have the right person by your side.

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thefrsers · 1 year

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#BATHENA HONEYMOON CRUISE IS A GO #EVERYONE REJOICED

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preacherboyd · 8 months

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Spartacus: War of the Damned | The Dead and the Dying

#spartacusedit #agron #nasir #nagron #spartacus #spartacus 3x09 #tor gifs #:')#do u ever wanna cry #what really kills me about this scene tho is agrons arm over spartacus' shoulder #and spartacus talking to him as their walking #and then gently putting agron's arm over nasir's shoulder when he walks up to them lIKEEE #spartacus agron brotherhood i just <3333

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fallowfrog · 9 months

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this ken is also a barbie 🩷

#dmc #devil may cry #dmc dante #barbie #the barbie movie #dante sparda #dante #dante dmc #dmc fanart #devil may cry fanart #art #i rlly wanna watch the barbie movie but i have to wait until everyone is free and unfortunately we are adults with conflicting schedules #it will happen tho mark my words... i will watch it. and i will wear pink doing it

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tapeworrmart · 3 months

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COME HOME

#Re did this a bit cuz I HATED it last night. Still wanna draw more simon probs more sketchy things #At ch 7 of cry if fear and I'm so emotional about my boy Simon. That's just a lad!!!#The way he reacts to everything happening around me. The whole forest level??? My god #The fact he breathes fast and gets scared before you even see the enemy fucks me UP like boy calm down please #Relatable tho #Cry of fear #simon henriksson #Cof #Cof simon #Cry of fear simon #fan art #art #sketch #character art #horror #Horror game

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tmcsartstuff · 3 months

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So I noticed something… and I thought that it just might be because of the pacing but nope.

So I timed it just to make sure, and I was right. One minute and thirty seconds (rounded)

This is the time inbetween the end of Husk's talk with Alastor and his next appearance behind the bar looking as ok and husk as ever.

(Well, as okay as Husk can look.)

So in fictional time considering the fact that Mimzy is still there that's at max about imma say an hour and a half since Alastor scared him half to death. Even if he’s used to it, that’s still a hella quick bounce back.

just like Angel. Both him and Angel recover insanely quick and it breaks my heart.

I know that after you would have to put up with what they have to for so long over and over you grow numb and recover like a flash. In Angel’s case he literally fakes it till he makes it with Val, and Husk can simply hide his emotions with a grumpy face from Alastor’s outbursts.

Just something I noticed while rewatching the episode. Still hurts..

#hazbin hotel #huskerdust #hazbin hotel husk #hazbin hotel angel dust #am I insane or is it just the timing?#Either way this reallly sucks for the both of them #hazbin hotel spoilers #Rewatched episode #My poor babies #if this is true then UGH #How long do you think the gap was #Then again #This show makes me wanna cry istg #Could be a small detail or just a pacing mistake #Still tho #my brain thinks otherwise

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ghouljams · 10 months

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My brain does weird things. Anyways, I think Love would steal Liebling’s seed (assuming she didn’t throw it out) and plant it for her. That just seems like a very Love thing to do.

This is really dubiously canon... Love had sticky fingers and her luck finally runs out, or does it?

You stare at the sprout pushing its way out of the dirt in your little terracotta pot. You spritz it with water, and watch the leaves curl happily. Like fingers.

"Hey Si?" You call over your shoulder. You've made some... well you hesitate to call them bad, but questionable decisions in your life. Usually your luck carries you through, but you think it may be running out on this particular gamble.

Simon hums from the couch, half listening as he sketches the monarch wing you'd found into your journal. You don't know if this is really worth his attention. You don't really know what it is. You sort of... stole it.

"Is it stealing if it was technically trash?" You ask, without really thinking. Simon's sketching stops, and he turns to look over the back of the couch.

"What did you steal?"

"Weird seed the bestie didn't want." You poke one of the leaves, letting it wrap around your finger. That gets Simon's attention. He's quick to get off the couch and over to you, pulling your finger out of the plant's grip.

"Christ Love, is that what you've been nursing all week?" Simon looks over your hand with concern, you nod until he kisses your palm giving it the all clear.

"What is it?" You poke Simon's cheek to get your hand back. He lets you go to pick up the pot and inspect the new growth.

"No clue," he tells you, "did, uh- shit-"

"Lieb."

"Works well enough," Simon pokes at the plant, watching the leaves move, "Did she tell you want it was?" You shake your head. He pinches a leaf between his fingers, inspecting it. "Doesn't look dangerous."

"Then I'll keep watering it." Simon shakes his head but settled the pot back on the windowsill.

"We'll keep an eye on it."

"We?" Simon flashes you half a smile, you return it in full force, "I love when we do stupid stuff together."

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You don't know how long it's supposed to take flowers to grow, or even how they're supposed to grow, but it feels like this is going really weird.

You stare at the giant flower bud that's blossomed in your little terracotta pot. It sort of reminds you of a cabbage. It feels like a rose when you pet it, the petals under your fingers silky and soft. You don't know quite what to do with it. Simon sets a cup of tea next to your head where you're resting it against the windowsill.

"Looking good Love," You hum at the kiss he presses against the top of your head, "How's the cabbage?"

"She's fine, still overgrown and weird." You sit up, grabbing your mug and letting Simon take over the daily plant inspection.

"Doesn't look deadly yet."

"Yet."

"Yet," he agrees. You both sip your morning cup and stare at your poor decision making skills.

"You haven't put any magic in it to make it big." You confirm for the thousandth time.

"Not a drop, gardener must've dreamt this up." He reminds you, also for the thousandth time.

"Maybe we can enter it in a gardening fair or-"

Simon yanks you away from the bud as the petals quiver and bloom. You're very quickly put behind your very tense partner, forced to look around him at whatever is going on. You've never seen a flower open up that fast, but you think gravity must be doing the lions share of work. The actual rose is huge, far bigger than the bud would've suggested, and heavy enough to finally break the little pot it had been growing in.

Simon is faster than you, grabbing the flower as it's weight causes it to tumble off the windowsill. You tense, your breath caught as you wait for him to do anything, move any muscle.

"What? What is it?" You whisper after too long a moment without a breath.

"I don't-" He mumbles, catching the end of his sentence behind his teeth so he can curse, "Shit."

You peak over his shoulder, hoping you won't see your weird plant smashed to bits. Instead you stare down at a baby. The smallest thing you've ever seen cradled gently in Simon's arms, blinking big brown eyes and white lashes up at both of you. Your heart swells.

"Holy shit," you breath, watching it yawn and wiggle in its rose petal wrap. It's perfect little nose scrunches with the motion and you need a second to adjust to how cute that is. "Did we do that?" You press closer against Simon's back, and reach to stroke your fingers over the downy hair on the baby's head, "I mean she's got your eyes, it's gotta be-"

"I don't know," Simon mumbles.

"Well what are we supposed to-"

"I don't know!" He snaps, and you finally look at him. At the absolutely confusion and concern dripping from his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. You've never seen him cry before, well not like this at least.

"Give her to me," You tell him, sitting back and holding your arms out, he looks unsure. "Please Simon," you soften the ask, pulling a tether so he knows you're sure. He's so careful, if a little clumsy. You have to adjust his hold as he's passing the infant to you and it seems like he's watching the way you shift her in your arms for his own reference later. You hold the baby close against your chest, feeling that strange comfortable purr rise in your throat as she blinks her big eyes closed.

"What the fuck do we do?" Simon whisper yells at you.

"Call Soap right the fuck now and text Lieb that I'm gonna fucking kill her," you coo at the dozing baby in your arms. Simon nod and scrambles to find both your phones.

#fae!Ghost #oc: love #this is fluff for them since they didnt get to experience changelings #idk do we wanna give the disaster couple a baby?#i feel like Love would be the mom from mean girls? like 'if youre gonna drink id rather you do it in the house'#the cool mom that everyone thinks is insane #she is kinda insane tho #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #cod ghost #ghost mwii #cod x reader #x reader #Ghost crying because he doesnt know what to do in the most extreme way anyone has ever not known what to do #i do think hed cry over his and Love's kid though #and i think those could potentially be tears of joy at having a baby with Love even if neither of them know how it happened

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no-light-left-on · 6 days

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"Fuck you."

I've been re-reading What Lies Between Sorrow and Longing and since I am unwell about this entire fic I drew a scene from Chapter 4

#dh #dishonored #knifecrow #corvodaud #corvo attano #daud #daud dishonored #this is such a good scene. the Tension #enjoy my shitty attempts at drawing transversals #reminds me #comic #ert #there I put my tags in #experimenting with style with this one it was a lot of fun #kept me a little more sane since Ive been pretty unwell these past few days and not in an insane over the fic way #its such a good fic tho... like so good #I know corvo doesnt take his hand in the story but grabs his wrist but shhh let me live my dreams #should I @ the author? I know they have a tumblr but I dont wanna bother them #either way go read the fic #I was slightly drunk and listening to AtR's cover of Hibana the entire time I was drawing this. great song for the fic too #some of the scenes in this fic made me cry so hard it made me violently ill so theres your heads up

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sophfandoms53 · 2 years

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Huh look at that

In all honesty, I’ve always been impressed by Zeno’s performance as Hunter. Even when I wasn’t particularly invested in Hunter as a character at first (this has changed, obviously lol), Zeno’s performance always stuck with me. And knowing he got the role because of Hunter’s little break down in Eclipse Lake in his audition just makes me appreciate his performance, and that whole scene in particular, so much more. Each episode I left it more and more impressed with just how talented this guy is and I began to notice he is in a bunch of other things I watch and he is just as good in those as he is here.

The talent and range Zeno has makes him stand out so much and letting Hunter slowly break down his walls episode by episode allows for that talent to really be heard. That strong, intimidating, and powerful voice he once started with as the Golden Guard has become this more soft, dorky, and energized voice for Hunter. It shows how much has changed, how much he’s grown, how much Hunter has found himself. Zeno’s performance reflects that incredibly and I think it’s worth noting just how quickly Zeno could bring Hunter’s voice back to the Golden Guard tone once the mask was on in Thanks to Them because it once again highlights that growth Hunter has had as a character since episode one and highlights Zeno’s range in his performance.

I don’t think it’s an unpopular opinion to say Zeno is one of the strongest voices in the entire cast. I’d go even further to say he is the strongest voice in the cast, but that’s me. He just continues to impress me every episode and he’s always leaving with a performance that is gut-wrenchingly heart breaking or adorably heart warming. It’s a good performance either way because the passion is there and it keeps you engaged.

I can go on because I truly adore this man and his performance a ton, but I think I’ve made my point.

So here’s the clip again bc it is incredibly well done and Zeno really does deserve the praise that he gets. Also cuz Sarah’s performance was incredible here as well.

And to make us all emotional again, woo.

#the way I was right tho look at me #gonna go cry again #he was such a highlight of this episode #and I love knowing Zeno connected so much with hunter in this moment #it makes that performance feel even more real #also I’m literally editing a thing about Zeno’s performance #idk when it’ll be done bc I wanna make sure it all flows right #I’ve had fun with it #anyways #I’m telling you #i continue to stay impressed #the owl house #toh #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers

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wikitpowers · 2 months

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here are the cutest waywood arts for u

artist: @cassandrajean

#no i did NOT search for those wdym #(i literally searched for them and saved many and i mean MANY more)#but those are angsty and we dont wanna cry #no regrets tho #waywood is life #michael wayland #robert lightwood #michael x robert #waywood #the mortal instruments #tales from the shadowhunter academy #tmi #tftsa #tsc

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lasagnaprince · 1 year

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episode 28 doodles! for those who don't know, i do these for the live listen in the dndads discord server. i usually just do a simple monotone page and a max of 8 scenes, but for some god forsaken reason today i decided to do 11 and in colour and cell shading will probably do it again at some point ngl

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achillean-knight · 8 days

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I will cry when I see Patroclus and Achilles again in Hades 2

I KNOW YOU'RE THERE SOMEWHERE 😭 I'll never forget seeing Patroclus in the background in the Hades 2 teaser trailer

I miss him, I miss THEM Achilles and Patroclus have been rotting my brain since winter of 2022 when I had covid :') 👍 They have not gone away dude

Followers should know I reblog a patrochilles piece every now and then

They're also on my Toyhouse casually LMAO so I see them often 💪

#i will actually cry tho if i see both of them #especially patroclus #hes deadass my favourite LMAO #OUUGG AND NEW SPRITES PLEASE #PLEASE I WANNA SEE NEW SPRITES #and please oh god no can the conflict not be that Achilles is somehow working for Chronos #I will scream #dont make that the conundrum on why Pat and Achilles are seperated again 💀#hades 2 #hades supergiant #achilles hades #patroclus hades #random thought...

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cannibalovers · 2 months

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hannibal bagged such a good husband cuz WHAT DO U MEEAANN that Will regretted not running away with him and couldn't let him go yet so he built his own fucking boat, sailed to Florence KNOWING, SENSING he would be there, FORGAVE HIM and didn't meet him face to face UNTIL he learned more about Hannibal by literally going to Hannibal's home to understand him more??? all that after Hannibal stabbed him and killed his surrogate daughter after making Will believe she is dead and framed Will for her death????&!#)€(

#we are going to ignore how will literally tried to kill him again tho #for the sake of the post and cuz deep down will trying to find hannibal was genuine #he tries to kill him again for revenge and resentment but that doesn't mean he doesn't love him #he is just really struggling to accept that he is like hannibal cuz that would make him not normal when he tries so hard to be normal #anyway #if i was hannibal i would indeed cry too to my pretend wife about this.#all that cuz will loved hannibal and felt understood by him and didn't wanna lose that and actually regretted his actions.#i better not hear anyone say that hannigram doesn't love each other after this #yall weren't joking when yall said that season 3 is the gayest of the seasons #the most romantic at that #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #hannibal lecter #hannigram #murder husbands #text post #my post

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