#I cannot stress how bad it gets

[yesneverno]

Me: omg how come I can never avoid spoilers

Also me: *scrolling through the tag on tumblr*

#danganronpa #danganronpa another #literally anything #dr #tma #the magnus archives #svsss #bingqiu #drthh #sdr2 #drv3 #any tv show too #I cannot stress how bad it gets #I’m avoiding death spoilers (I’ve made bets on who will die in danganronpa.) #there’s a chart #but also if u have a practical talent I assume #you’re dead #bc bc bc #1. lucky student #2. just some rich guy #3. swimmer #4. reader #i know kirigiri is a detective but…. #but also danganronpa another #I knew I KNEW the sniper wasn’t gonna survive #that’d be TOO practical for the universe #imagine surviving a death game to join an apocalypse and ur a SNIPER #OP

[moeblob]

Lil warm up doodle because I'd been playing some Thropes and then watched some dubbed DunMeshi and am a Damien Haas enjoyer so. Enjoy a Shez.

#fe warriors three hopes #shez #i usually watch subbed anime but my brain recently hasn't been able to process subtitles + not english #like my brain cannot filter the difference and then i simply get stressed out because i dont know what was said via reading #and its been... bad tbh #so i swapped over to the english audio but still with subtitles and its been fine ! #i also really enjoy how damien sounds so excited cause when i would watch him stream #and he would go on a story telling adventure it was so enthusiastic and genuine #and i like how he has that same vibe in the show #that said i have never drawn fanart for dunmeshi and dont wanna start now while i have other art obligations #i can dabble with learning how to draw different characters after i do comms if i feel up to it #but fe is such a default for me its really easy to draw as a doodle/warm up #also im incredibly biased to being fond of damien cause he commissioned me for emotes for twitch #which is incredibly flattering and no other va has bought art from me ? so thank you mr haas for the honors #i also am a shez enjoyer and love the vibes of both shez looks

[wizardsix]

i guess i have to say it a million times since people insist on being dense: gale is just as much of a victim as the other companions. this isn't the trauma olympics. everyone has been through shit and deserves healing and redemption.

gale is not the self entitled, manipulative abuser people are painting him as. he's a lot of things, but nothing so heinous. he was groomed by a goddess who has a history of preying on wizards that threaten her power, and as a result, gale's ambition and faith was what drove him to discover the netherese orb. what he did was for mystra - in his mind, it was to prove his love by restoring her missing power - and by extension for the betterment of mortals. his actions were never malicious or selfish, in fact he puts himself so low on the priority list it's pretty much non existent. he was never going to use that power to usurp her, but mystra definitely saw it like that, which is why she didn't hesitate to present suicide as his only solution. he never crossed her personal boundaries in the way people are twisting it, he only wanted to cross the boundaries she put on wizards and their power.

people who insist he's all of these things and more clearly only spoke to him once or lack the reading comprehension to see past how much of an unreliable narrator he is. i can understand first impressions might put some people off, but you can say the same about the other companion introductions. i don't like comparing but since people insist on doing it; gale is one of the easiest companions to get along with just by being a good person, yet his honesty and selflessness makes people think he's secretly evil? while the companions with the capacity to be evil don't even try to hide it? how are people being so backwards about this? it's genuinely baffling and tiring to see people continuously spit out incorrect takes all too confidently.

no one is forcing anyone to like him, but it's unfair to completely mischaracterize him because you refuse to learn critical thinking. i promise using your brain is not as scary as it seems, or you can just. not talk about things you don't understand.

#all of them have issues but that doesn't mean they're irredeemable monsters. unless you push them to but that's on you #people are shocked that astarions ascended ending is so bad. yeah what did you expect from a soul sacrificing ritual for power lol #i cannot stress this enough. i don't care if people don't like gale. i care and am annoyed about the complete lack of media literacy skills #to the point where people are ruining such interesting characters. its a shame people can't appreciate good writing when we finally get it #anyway whatever idk if this makes sense its like 4am and ive looked at this post for too long #i have so much more to say but again its like not worth telling if it falls on deaf ears #gale dekarios #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #six speaks #and no obviously im not saying the others are worse im just saying how do people accept astarion when hes Actually manipulative but not gale #i love star but we cant pretend hes not like that . and we cant pretend that gale is

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

#what’s even weirder is that half of these precious sunshine baby characters will canonically have some kind of temper too 😭😭 #like sorry I don’t think Adrien is an innocent ray of sunshine he was literally destroying property out of spite 😭😭 #cal.txt #autism stuff #fandom ableism #infantilization #she ra spop #entrapta #spn #supernatural #jack kline #autistic jack kline #adrien agreste #Like of course he isn’t canonically ND but the whole angle of his social awkwardness and unawareness #miraculous ladybug #it’s still a common trait in ND people and it’s probably the most infantilized aspect of us #but come on man #and don’t even get me started on jack. we know how I feel #TLDR jack strangling the gas n sip employee in a rage so blind he had to be shot in the back to snap out of it #like am I alone in this am I detecting a pattern that nobody else is . #siigghhh #we will never be free 😭😭😭😭 #castiel #at some point in the fandom and probably still in a few corners #autistic representation #this goes for when a character is simply coded that way too #like I cannot stress enough how coding and representation work #I also cannot stress enough that ableism does not have to be intentional to be ableism holy BALLS dude #you can do it by accident!!! you can play into tropes that you didn’t realize were bad!!!! ITS NOT A MORAL FAILING ON YOUR PART #it’s just a product of society like everything else.

[wiseatom]

can i just like. say something.

i think this community can be really fun at times! i also think it can be toxic! that said, a lot of — not all, but a lot — the toxicity comes from people actively opening themselves up to harmful situations.

the cool thing about online spaces is that you have so much control in curating them! you can block someone whose opinions or posts you don’t agree with without ever having to interact with them. you can ignore or delete hateful anonymous messages, or even disable the feature entirely. you can privately message someone if you want to talk to them without an audience watching the entire thing.

the point of this isn’t to say that you shouldn’t engage in discourse, that being petty and dramatic isn’t fun, that responding to anon hate with a one-liner isn’t funny and cool. the point is to say that i think it’s kind of silly to complain about drama and negativity and hate when you also invite 300,000+ people to say some nasty shit to you with zero consequences on their end but a whole lot of satisfaction out of the reaction they get from you.

this isn’t directed at any one person in particular, and it’s not an attack. it’s simply a gentle reminder that you literally have the power to make this space a positive one. please stop letting strangers on the internet take that away from you.

#the block button is literally my best friend. i cannot tell you how many people i have blocked. #and i have no beef w them personally i just do not agree w them and don’t want to see it. that’s it! none of us are bad people! #but like y’all i feel bad seeing people get so stressed on here. there are so many FREE features that can help you avoid that #there’s also something to be said abt knowing how to act when you have a large audience but that’s a post for the vault #my point is that your experience here is entirely up to you and you can find pockets of this community you thrive in #you don’t need all 300k in your corner. it’s impossible. i promise #❤️ #not tagging this but ok to rb if you want to and also ok to ignore idc

[napping-sapphic]

wrapping all the gifts i bought rn and realizing i really did buy every single person some variation of blanket the nap core personality is real🙃

#me buying gifts: well what’s something i would want?🤔 #i love getting blankets #best gift frfr #very jealous of all the ones im giving away today i want them #i have one on me rn and i want to nap with it so bad #also yeah my family is wrapping gifts on christmas we’re slackers😔 #we do this most years rip #also merry christmas to you and yours if you’re celebrating!! #im wishing you all well!! #may we all get a nice blanket🙏 #i know my url is a ~thing~ but i really cannot stress how much i do legitimately love sleeping lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

every night i wake up and say "this is the night i respond to my friends' messages" and every morning i say "i swear i'll do it when i wake up"

#repeat repeat repeat until you get stuck on that cycle of guilt and forgetfulness and guilt and stress and guilt and Oops Forgot Again and- #see this is why i'm really bad at making/keeping friends!!! #bc i meet someone and then they text me and then i Never Reply #bc i wait too long dithering on how to answer or i forget to open it and then its Been too Long #biting myself so so hard #mentally. not physically. im not into that. ....probably #hmmm apologies for Venting On Main im just feeling this intensely before i turn in #yet another day of telling myself ill do something important and another day of not doing it #absolutely unprompted #unfortunately i also tend to do this with asks/replies and it kills me inside every time #not as much as accidentally ghosting people i care about but Wowzah #i simply cannot escape this mental block when it comes to anything #i still have to reply to my grandpa's responding father's day text. its been a week. #wailing howling clawing my way into the cold dark earth etc

[hexja]

my job is so kind to me ... 🥹

#will ramble in tags ! #basically as i've said 500 times i'm autistic and one of the things that's made hard #is driving. i really want to but i mentally cannot imagine it and it makes me panic. #until i can get there i am Very reliant on taxis and buses. and my schedule tries to work with that #but all week my taxis have been Late. not more than 15 min but obviously it flares up on the report. #and i was very very stressed out about it because i had no control over it and was shaky and nauseous #because i LOVE my job i get to be very me here ! i'm very open and passionate and annoying and people like me :“) #so i spoke to my supervisor about how bad i feel and she spoke to the hr manager and was able to adjust the punch #times so i wouldn't get punished for smth out of my grasp. and i'm very very weepy and grateful. #this same supervisor also has given me space to catch my breath in the back when i get overwhelmed. #and makes lists for me and tells me Everything in instructions and i appreciate it so much #i feel so cared for here and it helps me do my job sm better ! #my previous job could neva. #ok thank u. just feeling :“)) #tbd. #workposting.

[lunarflwrs]

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#tw!! #ed #// #ok so i don't believe i actually have any ED or anything #but i cannot stress enough how much i don't watch my weight and i eat crap and i just seem to get thinner and thinner #i can see my top rib on both sides and i am actually puking at the sight #and i feel like i can't really talk about it to anyone bc they think i'm bragging or i make them feel bad about their own weight or #they just say im lucky #anyway. hhhhhh

[girlscience]

speaking of being slow. i wish i was a faster writer. i can write and i can write well, but it takes me significantly longer than nearly everyone i know. i just cannot get words out as easily as other people seem to and it is so frustrating all the time. i am working on editing my resume right now for applications. this is the third day i have worked on it. all i have needed to do this entire time is change the format to fit grad school rather than a job and add my recent work history. this isn't even two pages long. i have been working on it for 3 and 1/2 hours tonight and it's still not done. ITS NOT EVEN 500 WORDS APPARENTLY. i want to cry

#it doesn't help that the vast majority of my friends are writers or english or lit or poli sci majors #my sister did pr and communications #everyone was always writing papers and presentations and speeches #i VIVIDLY remember my last semester at college sitting down with my sister to do work #cause we were home from covid. and in the several hours we were sitting there she got a seven page paper done #and i didn't even finish one page #i just cannot write the way other people around me seem to be able to #i dont know why it is so much harder for me than other people #i always felt bad when i did group projects because i would be working as hard as i could... and i just wouldn't finish the same amount #as the other people because i just couldn't make the right words that fast #and i am already stressing about it for grad school because everyone talks about how grad school is so paper and presentation focused #people say its easier because you dont have to do worksheets or tests and instead you just have to write #(and im doing a thesis masters so i will have to WRITE) #but... the worksheets and problems and tests are what i am good at #that is what comes naturally to me. noticeably so. #but writing??? i am going to struggle #and i already know it. as always..... why am i doing this again? #why do i think i am going to be good enough for this?? hahaha #god i just need to get this resume done so i can start the painful process of writing my personal statement

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

Poor Yuuta 😆

What's he gonna do when someone tells him Todo punched His Boy™️ through a wall

And really, what's with every person ripping of their shirt or being shirtless while fighting Megumi. Sukuna is the worst offender of course, and their's also Todo, even Mahoraga didn't have a shirt. We're obviously excluding Toji.

Also, being offended at a low bounty is so Sukuna 🤣 That entire post was hilarious, especially the tags.

The other second years decide that they need to shield Yuuta from the knowledge that this ever happened because if he did he’d kill todo and then feel bad about killing him and it’s just be enormously inconvenient to maki specifically who would have to hear about it.

They also decide that this is immediately a mission doomed for failure because Inumaki’s a spineless simp who will absolutely spill the beans to his boy (his boy being Yuuta).

So they tell Todo that if he values his life (doubtful—maki has sincere doubts as to its value and feels even todo must know that) he’ll find a border and get over it because Yuuta will break his fucking spine if he finds out someone beat the shit out of Megumi specifically as a way to goad Yuuta himself. Fuck around, find out. Yuuta’s not letting anyone use megumi against him and he’s willing to make an example to ensure future safety.

Sukuna feels the Zenin were on point with the brat’s valuation (if not too generous) but he’s in here too and he’s a fucking gold standard of targets. What the fuck why is the bounty so low. He’s the king of curses and he’s getting the valuation of an idiot high schooler with a crush. There’s no respect nowadays.

Yuuji has to hear a lot about how the price on his head is not good enough for Sukuna.

#sukuna at three am the night before a mission: i am nightmare incarnate they could BANKRUPT themselves to kill me and it would not be enough #what the fuck is wrong with sorcerers these days. brat you want to fix the in-law problem and you let me out on the Zenin compound. ten #minutes. they’ll see who’s worth a mere /800000 yen/. fucking unprofessional is what it is. #yuuji is somewhat tempted he cannot lie #the Zenin stress his boyfriend out a lot okay #he sees how much they can get to him. and also like. he doesn’t know the details. but he can read between the lines enough to know they’ve #hurt him. how bad WOULD it be to let Sukuna raze a few buildings to the ground #yuuji has a very pretty boyfriend who will let him /hold his hand/ and /kiss him/ and legitimately life could not be better were it not for #the active attempts on his life. those. those are a downer. #very pretty boyfriend. who’s smarter than him. can summon dogs at will. literally the gold standard cannot imagine how lucky he is but there #HAS to be a fly in the ointment and it HAS to be his lunatic family #the thing is yuuji overwhelmingly feels murder is wrong EXCEPT when you trigger him in which case he’ll kill you with his bare hands #re: mahito #and like. he’s getting there with the Zenin. he’s getting there. #the issue is that makis a fucking vault and Yuuta this impossibly beautiful and perfect son of a bitch in Africa who they’ve never met so #they can’t interrogate him. and inumaki is. challenging. to interrogate #pandas the fucking weak link tho and nobara and yuuji have figured out that the Zenin did something seriously fucked not too long ago #they don’t want to invade Megumi’s privacy but he’s Their Boy and they’ll cut bitches over him #yuuji shares a wall with megumi and sometimes it’s really obviously he had a bad nightmare he won’t talk about #but he will tell him when it wasn’t about sukuna ripping out Yuuji’s heart so he won’t feel guilty #and eventually yuuji just sort of pieced it together that it was about the Zenin #not to be dramatic but Yuuji and nobara will kill people for megumi #why does OKKOTSU YUUTA get to know about their boy but not YUUJI who’s LITERALLY DATING HIM #panda: well Yuuta was right in the middle of everything what with how he— *horrified silence* I’ve said too much #todos no help because he also thinks Yuuta is an impossibly beautiful and perfect bastard and it does not help yuujis morale #he’s on yuujis side of course #but if there is anyone who COULD come even close to his brother who is the sparkling pinnacle of existence it would be Okkotsu Yuuta #no one can tell if todos in love with Yuuta #like obviously his heart and soul belong to takada but it gets hella gay sometimes when he talks about Yuuta #he doesn’t know what this assless boy has done to bewitch such beautiful men and it torments him

[nexus-nebulae]

odd thing we've noticed. the less okay we are the smaller our active system gets

#like logically you'd think we'd get more members while stressed but we don't usually #we actually split way more often when we're feeling okay and alive #i think it has something to do with mental bandwidth #like when mental health bad we don't have enough mental energy to put towards the system #so we just. reduce a lot in size. to make the workload easier #like a few months ago we had about 100+ people active at once all rotating out frequently and cofronting a TON #and now we're down to like. three or four active the rest really only able to be active for a few minutes at a time #we're just too exhausted to deal with the chaos of so many people so it kinda. slows down a ton #it's hard to get used to when everything was So Loud before. its kinda scary sometimes #like damn. i cant just call Incredibly Specific Task Guy to deal with this task i really cannot do right now. that kinda sucks #but knowing that this is like. more bc of the fact that we Can't Deal With Much More Than This makes it a little easier #we're a bit like my current computer. shit ass RAM bc its got like 50 malware (illnesses) on it #and once i get a new computer (get a little better and more functional) i can get back to multitasking #side note my god my RAM on this computer is shit running tumblr and minecraft at the same time totally breaks it #like it makes the Entire Computer run at 10 fps it's Great #i'm getting a new one at the end of this month hopefully #and hopefully Actually Nice Thing Accomplished will also help brain a lot #also not having to stress about how annoying to use our computer is should help lmao

[hella1975]

idk how irl celebrities handle fame at a young age like at seventeen i had a couple hundred people regularly interacting with me and putting me on a pedestal and that almost made me crazy. i see new writers getting attention in fandom and i immediately have to put myself in front of them and start barking. get behind me girl

#I FEEL LIKE THIS SHOULD BE TALKED ABOUT MORE LMAO LIKE EVEN THOUGH IT'S A VERY SMALL AMOUNT OF ATTENTION #COMPARED TO LIKE. ACTUAL CELEBRITY #IT'S STILL INSANE LIKE FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS IVE HAD RECURRING INSTANCES OF PEOPLE BEING WEIRD #AND PUSHING BOUNDARIES AND GENERALLY FORGETTING IM AN ACTUAL REAL LIFE PERSON #AND EVEN A LOT OF THOSE WHO AREN'T - ACCIDENTALLY OR INTENTIONALLY - NEGATIVE ABOUT IT #STILL VERY CASUALLY TALK ABOUT ME LIKE IM SOME SUPERIOR FORCE #LIKE IM JUST A GUY ACTUALLY #AND EVEN THOUGH IM ONLY TWENTY I CAN HANDLE IT A LOTTTTTTT BETTER #BUT SOMEONE NEEDS TO DO A STUDY ON THIS SHIT FOR YOUNGER PEOPLE #BC AT SEVENTEEN I REALLY REALLY CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW BAD THAT SHIT WAS FOR ME LMAO #and now i just go crazy overprotective of newer/more unsure writers/artists in fandom #if ur reading this and ive done this to you then my bad <3 #like if we're in the same circle and you get a mean ask/comment/experience then it's truly a matter of time before i descend from the sky #sorry <3 it will happen again <3 #someone ive interacted with maybe one time: i got a mean ask- #me immediately seeing red: do you want me to kill them for you #nothing triggered this post btw it's just something that's on my mind a lot #i feel like a war veteran and im literally a student. ive been in the trenches besties. i have suffered more than jesus i think

[stephlastname]

AAAAAAA

#venting #next week Thursday is my birthday #and I do not want to have my birthday #seasonal depression is getting so bad and I literally cannot handle this extra stress and depression from my birthday #it is like this every year #but every year again it catches me by surprise just how bad I always feel around this time of the year #I just get so suicidal for no reason and think everyone is better off without me #UGH #just UGH #:“)

[badolmen]

So funny how trauma will just kick you in the fucking teeth with the most random triggers.

#ra speaks #personal #watched the most recent quintin reviews vid which like yeah I went in with expectations of the content #and it’s not like I actively avoid stuff that depicts/discusses abuse I’ve been going to therapy long enough to know my most sensitive #triggers and stuff. but…idk something abt when he got to the drake bell section just set me off something fierce. #I’m all nerves and stress and self loathing/misplaced guilt from my own past bullshit #like brain can we please cool it we’ve been over this for years why you freaking the fuck out now? (I mean. logically. I know why #and how trauma works and that I’m just having emotional flashbacks but still. ugh.) #brain please be real niceys to me I have a meeting in an hour we cannot be having a panic attack. #you’re safe you’re good it wasn’t your fault etc etc can we please go back to being an adult more than a decade past all that? please??? #survived my meeting so I’m gonna vent abt this a bit more bc. let’s be real. #I don’t rememember a solid 3 years of my adolescence and it fucks w me sometimes. #I remember things before 4th grade. I remember 4th grade. then bam I’m in 8th going to high school. and like #I know logistically what happened. I know emotionally I hated/was so fucking scared of [redacted] until I finally left that fucking school. #it’s just. frustrating bc if I remembered maybe I’d feel more justified letting myself get upset abt it. but I don’t so suck it up buttercup #it probably wasn’t even that bad if you don’t actually remember it so pull it together. #hell for all you know it had nothing to do with [redacted] and you were just on bad meds/depressed and forgot three solid years of your life #after meeting [redacted] <- I am not convincing myself unfortunately.

[seventh-district]

i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t. #it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father